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an unfortunate part of my genderfluidity/multigenderness is its fundamental skittishness. if you've ever put oil in water it's like that. hydrophobic ass gender. you cannot use any definite or indefinite labels in any direction at all. if some poor well-meaning schmuck calls me a girl it'll say im not a girl and inject me with the dysphoria poison. if someone says im not a girl it'll say i am and inject me with the dysphoria poison. if someone says im only kinda sorta a girl it'll say i am a girl fuck you and inject me with the dysphoria poison. etc etc rinse and repeat with every singular gender identity. it's so stupid. i'll be like im a big strong man >:) and my friends'll be like yeah you're a man and i'll be like well......... no........... not really...... you just don't understand............. no one understands............. and no one even sees me accurately it's so depressing................ i should stop going outside forever and ever..................... like god dude i know it's annoying but i can't help it. you are doing your best because you love me but unfortunately my gender is a free little butterfly that disintegrates when you try to pin it down i don't fucking know. inconvenient little faggot shit happening in my brain all the goddamn time. lord have mercy
#like 'oh how do i know how to refer to you when? :)' the answer is if you refer to me i won't like it and if you don't i wont like it either#hope that helps :/#IT'S NOT HELPFUL. I DID NOT CHOOSE THIS. WE ARE BOTH HOSTAGES ON THIS DOWN WITH CIS BUS MY BRAIN IS DRIVING#I AM SO SORRY THIS IS A NO-WIN SITUATION. I KNOW YOU MEAN WELL BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE IT OKAY. SORRY đŹđŹđŹ#don't get me wrong i love being genderfluid i love being multigender but sometimes i gotta ask WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME#i can say whatever i want about my gender but if anyone else says anything about it at all including repeating things i have said about it i#will feel so so bad for no reason. why
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love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking
#yes i want things to be free like ??? that is not a weird desire#'but but it costs money to keep up' ok and? how is that my problem#the government has plenty of murder dollars they could reallocate a few to make internet services universal if they wanted#also these companies were perfectly capable of supporting themselves before the internet got drowned with ads so ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ#edit: muting notifs on this post bc new additions have kind of petered out#so no one feel bad about adding something someone else has saidâ it is not bothering me im just trying to keep my#notifs page cleanish lol#also since i saw some people are being redirected to read my tags: firstly hiiiiii this is a special secret message for you:3#secondly i have learned since making this that the reason they were able to support themselves previously was because#of investors bankrolling everything#and theyre now finally realizing that theyre never going to actually make a profit and arent as willing to invest#however thats just a minor correction and doesnt change my overall point#once again. so many murder dollars#so thats why im just adding it here in the tags rather than making an actual correction#anyways . love yall đ#origibberish#bigger gibbers
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eos pt. 2
#im actually close to finishing the game naow... i got to dialga's fight but got my ass kicked#this game is making me emotional wtf.. i teared up a little when my team reunited with the guild#and when they told them the truth abt grovyle and everyone agreed to help them. thats so. peace and love oh my god#also chatot.. i was wrong abt him he comes thru even if hes annoying. âprized recruitsâ YOURE GOING TO MAKE ME CRY#team skull also. like i cannot defend them being assholes but i still felt bad seeing them beat up#this game is so good at making me feel things towards characters i was actually filled with seething rage everytime i had to watch#team skull scheme against me and not do anything. ALSO the reason why i had such a grudge against chatot to begin with#is bc he THREW ME UNDER THE BUS bc of the apples without letting me EXPLAIN MYSELF#SO IT WAS REALLY FUNNY WHEN HE SAID HES FILLING IN FOR WIGGLYTUFF AS LEADER AND EVERYONE WENT âDEADASS?â#damn i can see why so many ppl make pmd ask blogs. im actually tempted to use my team if i didnt already know#that i would probably get bored and do smth else after a month <- did this multiple times while in pokeask#pokemon mystery dungeon#pmd#explorers of sky#eos#my art#myart#doodles#pmd oc#marmalade#neptune
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i need to study this man in a lab
#hundred line#hundred line last defense academy#eito aotsuki#LDA#my art#my views of this guy went from fave->I HATE THIS GUY SO BAD->??? idk what i feel->I guess hes my fave again??#Anyway i was mostly trying to remember how to draw idk if ill do any more fanart of this game#bro this guy has so many aspects in his design i dont normally draw#glasses + forehead + pale color palette how am i supposed to work with this#is there a lore reason for why everyone is quite literally gray#anyway crumpling this guy up like a wad of paper and chucking it into the wall#for a game i consider a 7.5 and dont feel like im brainrotting over i sure have a lot of thoughts about it both positive and negative
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blind bag pony minty â
#mlp#mlp fim#my little pony#mlp g3#mlp toys#blind bag ponies#mlp fanart#my art â#my pony art â#i've kind of had artblock for the past few days and i keep feeling like nothing looks right#so i wanted to finish a drawing to prove to myself that i could#and I'm sure if i stare at this long enough i can come up with loads of reasons why it looks really bad#but i will try not to 'cause that never helps and just makes it harder to draw#it's probably fine
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i have many thoughts on lee gilyoung and kim dokja but i fear i may explode if i try to articulate them fully
there is something to be said in the way kdj and orv as a whole really tends to sidestep lgy. like kdj cares about lgy of course. and orv obviously wants us to care about lgy or else they would have killed him off for shock value or fridged him way earlier than they did or something. and yet he remains in the main story but still on the sidelines
i think there is something very sad to be said about how kdj very openly tends to love on/lavish attention onto sys and like consciously acknowledge that she is, in many ways, his daughter, yet doesnt really do the same for lgy. there is something very sad to be said about the way kdj tends to refer to sys individually, but only to lgy in the collective "kids." there is something very sad in the way kdj saw himself in lgy the first time he saw him on the subway and saw him both as a boy to be saved and a tool to be used and i dont think their relationship ever really recovered from this.
like he cares about them because he doesnt want to be a shitty father-figure but hes a shitty father-figure because he cares. and while sys is saved from the brunt of this to a degree because shes a character so he can just mimic how yjh treats her in worldlines where she's saved and get by on that, lgy doesnt have that kind of support. lgy is not a fictional wunderkid or pitiable, fragile little girl (however true or false that assessment of sys is). hes a snot nosed foul mouthed violent boy obsessed with bugs and death and kdj, i think, knows he ought to care for him but he doesnt know how and doesnt bother to learn and that, i believe, the not-bothering that is, is what truly incriminates him as a shitbag father. hes afraid so he doesnt try and lgy spends 90% of orv being terrified kdj secretly hates him and the worst part is hes almost right
#kim dokja when i fucking get you when i fucking GET you kim dokja#because it doesnt matter if he loves lgy or not. lgy doesnt feel like he does and the instant you fuck up so bad#your kid starts sobbing because he cant come up with any reasons why you would love him#that is the instant where you lost!!! you lost you fucked up!!!#i need to kill kdj with my bare hands.#orv#omniscient reader#omniscient reader's viewpoint#kdj#kim dokja#lgy#lee gilyoung#sys#shin yoosung#bard writes#do i tag this meta....#what the hell sure.#orv meta
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man you all were not kidding abt the therapyspeak in veilguard.
#cant believe taash stops themselves from calling emmrich a skullfucker#i shouldve been allowed to encourage that behavior. honestly. consequnces be damned#if you say you saw this coming they both get irritated that you didnât say something ahead of time????#why is your relationship my responsibility. we have bigger things to worry about#datv critical#& honestly why is it so important everyone gets along. that isnât really necessary#and itâs boring frankly#much more interesting to travel with two people who openly hate each other but agree to follow you#bc they care about either the mc or the quest theyâre on#can you imagine how bad da2 wouldve been if you couldve been like#okay deep breaths fenris. tell me what youâre feeling right now#and instead of telling you to kill yourself he was like#âyouâre right hawke. im letting my trauma get in the way of a beautiful friendship with andersâ#âlets agree to just not talk about mages and templarsâ#probably not a great comparison bc tassh & emmrichâs disagreements dont have much to do with the main plot#but then like even more reason for it not to matter either way.#also why are we glossing over the necromancy stuff#why is the solution like âthis is an uncomfortable topic so we just wonât discuss it anymoreâ#they could be having a rly interesting disagreement about the ethics of all this#but they cant because everyone in veilguard has to be Best Friends for some reason#da
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so sick and tired of the âjedi are an evil and abusive cult that steals childrenâ as if half the reason they werenât protecting these children is bc sith were out killing them or TURNING THEM INTO SITH. they werenât even STEALING children to begin with I thought we all knew that was Palpatineâs game not Yodaâs.
#i hate star wars fans i truly do#they wanna pick apart the jedi like of course there are mistakes and wrong doings#bUT THE SITH ARE RIGHT THERE#trying to build the narrative that anakin was abused by the jedi is absolutely crazy when his actions and thoughts were all his own#and GROOMED by palpatine#the only reason people want to pin them as bad people is because yoda could call out anakinâs bad behavior#that and they didnt promote him to master right away because oh im the chosen one i should be#like you need to PROVE you are the chosen one and that you WILL bring balance to the force and NOT DESTROY IT#THATS FHE WHOLE PROPHECY#AND PEOPLE WONDER WHY THEY WERE CAREFUL WITH ANAKIN???#and then the oh well they make you supress feelings#nO#THEY#DONT#they make you surpress attachments so that if it comes DOWN to it you will save the many and not just risk it all to save the ONE#disney has done damage to the star wars community i swear#saw a tik tok comment section where they said the council is like the christian church#lost my MIND#well the jedi fit cult criteria!!#wow! star wars fans find out WHAT A GROUP OF RELIGION IS#LITERALLY ANY GROUP OF RELIGION CAN BE CALLED A CULT NOT EVERY CULT IS BAD#im sorry i cant stand it anymore#star wars#star wars tcw#auxxrat yap#jedi council#jedi#star wars legends
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hehe ghost-turbo haunting felix au
turbo is connected to the last piece of his code in the whole arcade - a trophy he gifted to felix in mid 80s as a symbol of him genuinely caring about their relationships on par with being the best racer. felix also gave him one of his medals and both kept their gifts next to other rewards, but when roadblasters and turbotime were unplugged, the medal was gone with everything else
now, after burning in cola-lava turbo is basically dead, but scraps of his code still were intertwined with the trophy (after all, it was his first winner's cup, but felix never knew about it), giving turbo an opportunity to exist as a shadow incapable of interacting with anything and anyone besides felix, who kept the trophy even after the roadblasters incident
also I went crazy in tags, feel free to check them out
#turbo#turbotastic#fix it felix jr#80s boyfriends#hammertastic#headcanon about them exchanging their trophies isn't mine but i loved it A LOT#and âdarlingâ is turbo making fun of how felix was calling him in 80s#this hc about âdollâ and âdarlingâ pet names also is not mine but i adore it#turbo here is a complete freak who just stays around felix most of the time even when felix has moments with calhoun#and felix is an ass who keeps secrets from everyone bc he doesn't want his dirt to come out#he's ashamed of his previous relationship with turbo and doesn't want anyone to know any details#and calhoun to just know about it#this just gets worse and worse#they also didn't actually break up and were still technically dating when turbo went gamejumping#and he's mad af at felix because he's the reason ppl in the acrade made a boogeyman out of turbo and he couldn't come back#like imagine your bf says to you what you are better than others think of you#and then behind your (presumably dead) back tells everyone that you're just an egocentric maniac#i believe turbo has other reasons why he gamejumped (besides jealousy which took place but wasn't the most important reason)#and felix is an unreliable narrator#so yeah turbo HATES his ass#(but still would-) no im not making it suggestive#anyway i hc that turbo had put A LOT of emotions in this relationship even tho he's bad at this#he tried his best with felix but they were just making each other worse#and turbo while feeling betrayed never really moved on (yes even after 25 years he's PATHETIC)#and felix is just full of regret about everything but he won't admit his mistakes in his relationship with turbo#bc âwell he turned out to be a bad person so that automatically makes me in the right about everythingâ#but felix had made a lot of bad decisions while dating turbo and was just classically ignorant about a ton of things#sorry about this random ass essay in tags i'm done for now#wreck it ralph#wir
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One-Sided
So uhhh
I was thinking of more Dead Serious prompts but my mind went wondering and came up with something else.
What if Danny is dating Respawn!
So this is like a one-sided Dead Serious idea with Danny already dating Respawn (idk their pairing name sorry)
So, now hear me out, what if Danny or rather Phantom joins the Titans or maybe as a young adult joins the JL.
And what if he does his best to avoid being around Robin unless it's for actual missions. Now Robin, Damian, didn't mind this at first in fact he approved of it cause you know it's Damian. But like a cat being ignored he gets curious as to why and starts trying to seek Danny out to find out.
But again Danny is doing his best to avoid the other hero.
Damian eventually gets a crush on Danny after watching Danny go eldritch/ghost king mode and is trying to figure out a way to woo the half ghost.
HOWEVER Danny is in a relationship already, a good one too, with Damian's kinda clone/half brother Respawn. He hasn't told any of them because he knows the bad blood between him and the others. And add the fact Respawn still does mercenary work and Danny doesn't mind but knows those in the Titans or JL do, he doesn't tell any of the heroes whose he's dating.
Danny is keeping his distance cause he knows his boyfriend gets jealous and clingy whenever he comes back from meetings that Robin is in.
#danny phantom#dp x dc#blue rambles#danny fenton#crossover#danny phantom dc#writing ideas#random idea#dpxdc#Danny is respecting his BF wishes cause he knows how he feels about Damian#Danny is still friendly though but distant#he knows how jealous Respawn can get about Damian/Robin#he knows this bad blood between the two has to be figured out on their own time too#thankfully Jazz is helping Respawn process his emotions and trauma so hopefully soon#i like to think Dani is the reason why Danny and Respawn meet btw#she was exploring and either finds him with Deathstroke as theyre training and she wants in on the fun#and becomes friends with Respawn before eventually takes him to meet her template#he at first was thinking he was going to HATE Danny cause you know kinda clones solidarity#but is baffled with how Danny actually treats Dani with love and respect#or she finds him still in the League and gets him the heck out after finding out hows hes been treated and takes him to Danny#again he thinks hes gonna hate Danny but instead falls for him instead#Respawn gets clingy when Danny returns from League/Titans meetings#he doesn't want to lose one of things he got to claim as his OWN#Danny low-key is flattered though and his ghost side loves it cause you know obsessions are a ghost thing
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I am a real sucker for jade being the first to fall
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I made this with no real direction on where this was going if you couldnât tell lmaooâ it was just supposed to be the first drawing but I kept going
Back on with resting bitch face trey clover as well
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#treyjade#jade leech#trey clover#jade getting distracted from his own thoughts at just a glance from his upper classman#Iâm sorry but Jade is definitely the first one to fall#like SO early on but bc heâs Jadeâ he thinks itâs just obsession#donât get me wrongâ obsession is a part of it#but not the main reason#obvi- the main reason is that he likes trey#why do I also think that Jade falls hardest as well?#not that trey isnât down badâ NOT BY A LONG SHOT#but I feel like Jade just loves to the EXTREME#which honestly good for him#ands trey is so down for it#they definitely made a (joking/non joking) pact that if#one of them died before the other#that the other would eat the other#LMAOO#treyjade yapping in the tags#Iâm a tapper when it comes to these two#yapper*#wtf is a tapper#I still donât know how to colour properly#treyjade my sweety but freaky yaoi#I basically have a 160 playlist for treyjade because Iâm obsessed#twst#twisted wonderland#twst fanart
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Game-night in the batfamily has got to be crazy. You're putting a bunch of geniuses against each other and that's asking for chaos to happen.
#And when they play team up games they have to make a toss-up because they cannot decide on the teams#Nobody wants to play with Bruce except for Cass#Or Tim and Dick also if they feel bad enough#Jason wants to play with nobody#Damian thinks he could do best alone#but he would choose Grayson if he needs to#He can't tho because they make it random#Duke has no personal issues with anybody so he's a safe option for a team-up#Jason Tim and Damian however...#Steph enjoys those nights the most#Along with Dick#Except they enjoy it for very different reasons#Steph and Cass always want to be a team#That's why they need a toss-up#(Nobody likes the toss-up but Alfred started it for fairness in the game)#Tim has the worst luck so he's gotta be really smart with his moves#Or cheat without being noticed#Both work depending on who he's playing with/against#You would expect Jason to be the cheater but he's weirdly fair...#(He's a petty loser tho)#(Specially when Bruce wins)#Dick is just trying to avoid conflicts between siblings while also being the biggest asshole of a big brother whenever he can#Give Alfred a break#And somebody get Bruce out of there he's too old to play (Jason probably)#dick grayson#bruce wayne#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#batfamily
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man, you know, nobody asked me, but I have such conflicting opinions on some of the fat falin art, where on one hand: it's always nice to see A Fat Body in fanart anywhere + it's being done in positive ways, for funsies and on the other hand, there is something so familiar about how you are automatically The Fat One if you are a woman simply standing next to a more petite woman, bc I've had a 0% hitrate in seeing people change Marcille's body type and keep Falin's, or change both of them. it's just Falin
#it gives me a negative feeling that I seldom/never get from seeing fat art which is rare#like she's not fat out of thin air For Fun And No Other Reason and she's not fat bc of context#(out of thin air being like just picking a character you like and changing their design just cuz. Kabru maybe.)#(and Because Of Context being the way ppl draw fat Usagi from sailor moon. which i have been meaning to do btw)#but rather she's fat just bc to be Not the thinnest woman in the room is to be fat. like it happens specifically by scale#because marcille is so much physically smaller and petite and falin is bigger in the ways that a Human Woman is bigger#than an elf woman#and it's funny bc it's something i see all the time already#people also really don't seem to have an interest in making marcille butch in fanart in a way#that is sort of sad for me bc it's like ah well she's the thin small one so of course she gets to be feminine#if you're physically bigger then of course you get to be masc of course of course of course...#i also love good butch art esp fat butch stuff but this is about the phenomenon where if you're with#a thinner shorter woman then that means you're the butch now which is a place I have been to#and I did not like it there#I think part of why That sticks it to me is bc marcille has such a Butch Girlfriend personality and falin acts so demure LMAO#but she's slightly bigger so the writing is on the wall#sergle.txt#Godspeed to you if you choose to read these thoughts in bad faith bc I can't give you more clarifying statements if I try#like I said. conflicting feelings#i don't know if anyone else has similar thoughts it May Just Be Me#I don't think ppl think about this stuff when they make their fan redesigns but it gives me a certain feeling
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Every time Cale uses an ancient power and then gets confused when people react in worry I laugh and want to shake him because Cale, CALE YOU NEVER EXPLAIN WHY YOU'RE VOMITING BLOOD.
And here's the thing, vomitting blood, regardles of colour is a sign of serious internal problems, and you know what signs and symptoms you should definitely watch out for afterwards?
Dizziness, especially after standing.
Rapid, shallow breathing.
Or other signs of shock.
So everyone around him makes the very valid assumption the Cale using an ancient power = severe internal bleeding and then Cale goes and usually displays some symptoms of shock (I.E shaky limbs, dizziness, weakness in limbs) and just never explains that he's actually fine. Instead, he tries to get up and keep moving unless he's already fainted.
OF COURSE THEY'RE FREAKING OUT CALE! They think you need serious medical attention and you keep refusing to see a healer or a doctor! (Yes we know you don't want them figuring out how many powers you have and that they can't do anything anyways, but your friends don't!)
Since we don't see what the others are doing every time Cale falls into a coma as a response, I imagine that they're all frantic, trying to figure out what went wrong, how injured he is and how to get him the proper medical care. And then Cale wakes up and is just confused as to why they made it such a big deal.
Like Cale, please, for at least the first few times, they probably thought you were DYING.
#trash of the counts family#i love the misunderstandings though#they make me laugh every time and i love the drama#but at the same time i feel bad for his friends and the kids#theyre so worried!!!#tcf cale#cale henituse#ancient powers#tcf#this is why alberu is always calling him a crazy bastard#stop worrying your kids cale!#choi han#this is why i never complain about wveryone always reacting in shock when cale vomits blood#they have very good reason to worry!!#sure eventually they get used to it and they know he'll be somewhat okay#and then he goes and gets himself put into a week long coma
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Yeonjun about the strain he felt while preparing for his debut solo project â "GGUM" MAKING FILM
#yeonjun#choi yeonjun#tomorrow x together#txt#ggum: making film#gifs#creations#userzaynab#useryeonbins#skyehi#rosieblr#megtag#hibiebear#heyiri#ultkpopnetwork#kpopccc#kpopco#this are like the rawest emotions we've seen from him... I feel... it's really sad to watch him like this#i mean I know they're under lots of pressure and stress#It's only natural when you work with so many people who you could potentially disappoint#and I know it was his choice to make this solo project happen now but i feel like the company could manage his schedule better#because why he films till 3 am and then right next day has a flight to another country for a concert...#and now we know from soobin they're super busy again#I'm worried his body will just say 'enough' one day and something bad will happen :(#and you have him work so hard and stress and then all this losers online whose biggest achievement is getting 100 likes on a post#writing the worst things about him for no reason... its not that hard to be kind and you dont need to have an opinion about everything :D#at the end of the day that celebrity you hate so much is still pretty and successful#and you're just a friendless jobless empty-headed rotten fool with likes on a post that mean nothing once you close the ap#I'm just glad all this is still fun for him and that he has such a great support system: his members family staff who care about him and us#all we can really do is support them and send them lots of love fr ;; you've done well my jjunie ily âĽ
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A different kind of nightmare.
#ffxiv#sketch#zenos yae galvus#adventurer zenos#estinien wyrmblood#thancred waters#its literally just his arm and hair but him being there is still important#behold the concept that zenos has suppressed too much for so long#that if his occasional non-final days nightmares are bad enough (or very rare instances when he's awake)#that his body recognizes it as physical pain because he responds to that more than his own emotions (marginally- anyways)#really âjust damn why does this hurtâ -> is so sad his heart is going âhey asshole listen to meâ#meanwhile poor thancred and estinien getting tossed just for using the scion's communal pillow#estinien was already awake but he wasnt expecting to get lobbed#thancred gets to faceplant because he was asleep on his bicep#this entire things spawned from me doing some writing and theorizing#that zenos unfortunately actually has a really good memory#but he spent so much of his life probably repressing a shit-ton that anything he doesn't deem immediately important#just kinda gets caught in the crossfire#so him being with the scions and working through it#he does start to remember- but its horribly jumbled at the beginning#he has vague memories of his âmotherâ saying some horrible things (it wasn't her but his conscious fills it in to be her)#because I get the horrible feeling he was probably blamed for her death#and (despite even me affectionally referring to him as murder husband) I write that the reason he dislikes killing unnecessarily#is probably lingering resentment over both his own existence and that âhe killedâ someone#who he later comes to realize loved him#(because I do like writing that carosa did love him for the brief time they had together ;-; and I will continue to do so)#there's also some aether fuckery going on with him but it only adds to the intensity- not just being the sole cause
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