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Stars in full bloom.

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Stars in full bloom.

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Feels like the world can never notice hard work

For context I'm a writer and know how hard it is to really have a break out as a published author, but the very fact that I can't even get my own family to pay attention to my writing is the worst feeling ever. I've been writing for a long time (I'm in my mid-twenties right now) and it feels impossible to get anyone to even care about my writing.

I've tried for years to get creative friends, join writing groups, do critique swaps, and all that nonsense only to either get ghosted or flat out ignored and I'm so sick of it.

My family is just as worthless as not a single one of them wants to encourage me. What is the point of a family if not even they support you? Somehow they expect me to just suddenly become a published author with no help, no marketing, and not even a beta read from them. They won't even tell me something they like about it because that would require them to read it for even a second.

I'm honestly kind of at my end with this. I don't know where to go or what to do. Hell, I'm losing the motivation to write all together because I can't get anyone to even care a little.

And I know the whole "write for yourself" thing, but I've been doing that for more than ten years now and just want even a little bit of support from someone.

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tl;dr is I want to publish my stories either traditionally or as self-publish, but understand how much harder it’ll be without a following of some kind or something else to garner interest in my stories. For now, I want to try authoring a webcomic/manga/comic/etc… of one (or more) of my stories to garner interest and finances to start working on my other projects full time.

I would want an artist who is just as passionate as I am as I cannot afford to pay anyone right now.

This would be an unpaid passion project with the eventually hope of monetization.

So, if any of that interested you, here’s the full project:

I want to work on something that is aimed at a female audience. Something like Obey Me! Meets Love and Deepspace. I already have everything written, plotted, and even have amateur concepts of all the characters. I would need someone who is actually skilled and passionate about drawing to help me in making proper character art as well as possibly making a series out of it.

A brief description of the synopsis is this:

a reverse harem with a competent and realistic main character who struggles with anxiety. Imagine having anxiety and ten attractive people are all interested in dating you, that would be lethal! This is one of my more comedic titles, but I mainly write romance. I also write fantasy, action/adventure, comedy, and YA with more serious tones, but there's almost always an element of romance.

I’ll have more info if anyone decides to DM me (here first though. I do have a Discord, but don’t feel comfortable giving it out). Here is a page I made for it, however, if anyone wants more info without needing to wait on me.

I have 4 main characters and 10 love interests (designed by me w/references) and ~250 short stories (all ranging 1.5k-2k words or more). Anything else like locations and places of interests have also been thought up thoroughly and I really won't need any help in that department. (Also, just wanted to mention that I frequently have POC in my stories and have an MC who's a POC, so I wanted to mention that in case you're not experienced with POC hairstyles, skin colors, or features.)

One thing I want to mention is how ambitious I am about this. I was very disappointed when Obey Me! confirmed it was “no longer making new content” after a lackluster two years and the disaster that was Nightbringer. I thought, “I have ideas that are better than this” and wanted desperately to work on something in the same vein. Because of that, the collection of short stories I wrote eventually got more and more ideas behind it. My ultimate goal with this story is to have it be a video game, one like Obey Me!/OB!NB, but without the aggressive microtransactions, lack of character growth and gameplay, and without crucifixion of the romance and adult themes. I don’t know if I’ll ever have the ability to make it that far, but right now I just wanna start as small as possible and see if I can make a web series out of it.

About me personally, I’m 25 and am struggling to find a job right now. I’m not diagnosed, but am 100% sure I have some form of anxiety and that makes it difficult for me to pursue work that isn’t debilitating to me. My passions are the only thing keeping me going and if I can turn that into a source of income, I’d be more than willing to work to the bone for it.

This wouldn't be the only project I want to work on as I have millions of characters and thousands of ideas I want to work on.

Here's some snippets of my personal favorite pieces I've written

From Quiet Girl (What this post is about)

From The Moon, Rabbit, and Wolf

From Tales That Were Lived

From Kingdom of Bumalia

From The State of Quandary

So, if I end up working with anyone, this would be a long term partnership with the hope that it can turn into something stable for us both ^-^

Thank you for reading all this. I’m extremely anxious to even check back, but I don’t have much to lose and figured why not try 🍂

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HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO WORK FULL TIME AND GO TO SCHOOL FULL TIME AND WRITE GOOD STORIES AND HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE AND WORK ON MYSELF AND BE A GOOD FRIEND AND CONTRIBUTE TO MY COMMUNITY IN THESE CONDITIONS

(The conditions are: living in the United States)

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Lord of the Monsters

Short story/AU of my original story

Word count: 1.3k

Trigger Warning: murder and blood

Not my art. Slightly edited, but made in Picrew. Link in comments.

Nothing meant more to Cassie than trying to accept what she now had to deal with. Carefully, she walked the halls of Holma high. They were deathly quiet. No one dared to speak to the other and instead all eyes watched for the culprit behind the two of the biggest murders of their high school lives.

Cassie kept her head down as she approached her classroom—309. Upon getting there, she was quick to open and shut the door. Pushing her back against the door, she hoped no one followed her. She waited listening out in the hallway for any noise. Once she was sure nothing was there, she looked to her bed and found him slouched over. Still his blood covered blade rested in his hands. Slowly, she went over and sat beside him; touching his forearm, he snatched it away the second she touched him. His eyes snapped right to her and this made Cassie flinch violently.

His own eyes widened and he turned his head away from her. “No, I would never hurt you.” Glancing back, he tried to reach for her face. Cassie tried not to move as he let out a breath. His hands fell and his head fell limp. “I’m sorry you have to deal with this… it should have been easier.”

She bit her lip, but eventually said, “it’s okay. It’s not your fault.”

“You don’t have to lie about it.” Lifting his heavy head, he was barely able to look at her.

His eyes were half open and they struggles to get any wider, however he remained looking at her. Cassie saw the blood that stained his face… his hands… his blade… All of that reminded Cassie that he was the reason the city was on edge.

Whoever was strong enough to murder Gavin and Jayvee Reller had to be a ruthless killer. Capable of much more than a simple murder. Cassie felt her chest tighten thinking about the words she heard from others. Her eyes shut tight.

“I’m sorry.”

“W-what? Why?”

“Because you have to deal with so much now that you’re protecting me… it should be me protecting you… not you dealing with this nonsense.”

Cassie’s heart broke hearing that. There wasn’t much of anything she could even do and the more she thought about it the less she knew what she wanted to. Cassie’s face twisted with a certain pain and as soon as Bushimaru saw this, he grabbed her.

Cassie started to cry as she gripped onto him.

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry…” Repeatedly, he apologized unable to do much of anything else.

They remind holding each other until Cassie manged to quiet her crying a bit. She then let out a hard voice to ask him one thing.

“Why did you do it?”

Bushimaru’s grip on her tightened. “I had to.”

“But me and Fang were going to handle it as peacefully as possible…”

“No. You don’t understand.”

Cassie frowned deeply before pushing away from him. “Then make me understand!” Cassie covered her face with one hand and huffed. “I hate this. I hate it so much that you can’t even tell me why you did something like that… why did you kill them?”

Cassie saw Bushimaru through her hands and she almost couldn’t believe what she was seeing. Bushimaru always had a stoic look on his face, but never like this. His half lidded eyes crying tears of red had nothing behind them. Bushimaru always lit up when they spoke, but now not even her presence was enough to wake him up.

However, he spoke. “I did it because I needed to stop them from hurting you.”

“They weren’t-”

“Yes they were…” His voice trailed. “The only person who can truly protect you is me. No one else has your safety in mind… not even you.” He got up.

Cassie's steps staggered, but she was unable to move. Bushimaru got to her and before Cassie could understand what was going on, she felt her body grow heavy. Her eyes especially and then she fell into Bushimaru. She tried to stay awake but nothing she did worked.

“I’m sorry…”

That was the last thing she heard before she drifted off…

Cassie could still sleep peacefully somehow. She hadn’t even felt like something was wrong until she slowly started to awaken. Her struggling eyes opened just enough to jolt her awake when she realized she didn’t know where she was.

This was an actual bedroom, not the classroom she made her home, and one she was completely unfamiliar with. Across from her was a room with a light creeping out of it. She heard running water and wondered who was inside. So she got up and quickly pushed open the door only to see the bare back of Bushimaru.

“You’re awake…” Walking up to her, he reached out and touched her face. Looking down at her, he let out a soft sigh. “Are you okay?”

The deep scars that decorated his back only pained her to see and her mouth turned down in a deep frown. She choked on her sobs and covered her mouth missing the boy she once knew and fearing the monster she knew he could be.

Bushimaru was looking at himself in the mirror. She saw those half lidded eyes glance to her in the mirror. He turned around and that made Cassie's breath hitch.

“Y… yeah.”

“Where are we?” She asked.

A smile came onto his face and he looked to her lips. Cassie too glanced from lips to his eyes, her hand came up to his chest and she weakly pushed against him feeling something was wrong.

It was hard for her, wanting to embrace him, but knowing he was lost now.

His eyes closed and his grip on her got tighter. ���At a house my parents gifted me…”

“But why are we here? Weren’t we just at school?”

“We were, but I know you’re worried. I know you’re worried about me and I had… no I needed to do something to put your mind at ease.” He embraced her and held her tightly against his body. “I shouldn’t have made you so worried in the first place.”

His body loomed over her. Cassie could only look up at him. His hair was covering most his face and she couldn’t see his eyes, scaring her even more. He noticed this and his eyes narrowed before he collapsed on top of Cassie holding her tightly.

Cassie struggled against him feeling something uncomfortable in his arms. She tried to pull away from him, but his grip on her was too much and she ended up stumbling over her feet instead.

He carefully held Cassie preventing her from falling, eventually she fell into his arms. He took them to the bed she was just sleeping on and dropped her down before climbing ontop of her.

“I’m sorry… but… I shouldn’t have made you deal with all this. I love you too much to have me be the bringer of your stress.”

“Y-you what?”

“Cassie, when you said we should get married if we’re both still single. I know you just said that to protect me… because you thought you would cause me trouble if we were together or that I deserved someone better; but, you know that’s not true. We both love each other and there’s nothing that will stop me from making sure you know that… nothing to keep us apart… not even the murder of those wretched twins.”

“B-bushi, you don’t have to do this. Everything will be okay!”

“No it won’t!” He sucked his teeth and calmed down. “You’ll always be worried that someone will want to kill me. You’ll never be able to be happy because you’ll be worried and that shouldn’t be how you live. I know that’s exactly what you were worried about in the first place and it came true…” He pulled back and looked down at her. “If you stay here with me, you won’t have to be worried because only I know you’re here… no one else will ever know you’re here. That’s how it will stay.”

Bushimaru’s face only got closer to hers and being paralyzed under him made it easy for their lips to meet, sealing Cassie’s fate with him...

[the-missann]

It's been a long time, so here's an updated Writeblr intro :p

I'm an anxious aspiring author who has no real prospects outside of being a published author.

I've daydreamed more than I've lived and written more than I've spoken.

It's nice to meet you.

Here's a little bit of what I've written:

🍊 Idea list 🍊

Romance

Divine Intervention: The Demonic Repentance (63k)

Same Breeds (40k) a gay romance

normalities (36k)

The Makings of a Love Story (46k) wip

Kingdom of Bumalia (29k) wip

The Moon, Rabbit, and Wolf (25k) wip

Before the Love Story (15k) wip

The Promiscuous Journey of a Virgin (10k) wip

Divine Intervention: Siren's call (6k) wip

Dark moon (~3k) wip

Fantasy/Action/Adventure

The Tales That Were Lived (100k) wip

All the Screams (61k)

One of Malevolence (13k) wip

Manifested Malevolence (6k) wip

Comedy

A Fourth Dimension Reality: The Strange Beginnings (22k)

A Fourth Dimension Reality: The Crimson Soul (19k)

A Fourth Dimension Reality: The Interpose of Idiocy (30k)

A Fourth Dimension Reality: Untitled 4th book (23k) wip

Young Adult

The State of Quandary (62k)

Unnamed sequel to ^ (32k) wip

Before the Reignfall (~50k)

Orange Perfect (21k)

Misc.

Secrets of a Teenage Man (22k) rewriting

Thank you for reading 🍂

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I did a thing

I just figured to try this :p It wasn't going to hurt and I'm not doing much these days anyways. No pressure, but maybe you'll see something you like there.

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Didn't your parents teach you to knock before entering?

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Hello! I hope your weekend has gone well. I'm planning to start a community that's for fiction readers and authors (aspiring and published). The books have a general target audience of 13-25. It’ll be like a bookstore that’s run by the authors. I want it to give readers the chance to engage with authors, learning about great stories that they might not have discovered otherwise, and for authors to build their brand without all the stress of expensive marketing. I plan for this to be a really fun and interactive experience for book lovers on both sides. Would you like to be part of it when the community launches?

I'm always a little nervous when it comes to things like this because it's often overwhelming for me, but I am trying to be more active in things like this, so I wouldn't mind joining. This does sound very interesting.

I'm curious about the group and will be awaiting for more info on this community!

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Imagination Series #2

- The State of Quandary/Untitled Sequel/Before the Reignfall -

Comparable titles: HunterxHunter meets The Hunger Games

The idea: Oppression is felt in every generation, and this one was born with it. You either conquer or be conquered. One boy with the pseudonym Fang wants to challenge that. Your choices don't have to be influenced by the world your were born in and he's determined to get others to see the same.

How much I've written: 60k words for the first novel. 23k words for the Unfinished Sequel. 60k for the Prequel.

Best media form: TV show (preferably an anime you'll see why)

What it will not become: A cheap ass movie attempting to condense all the best parts.

Characters/things I've made for it: A shit ton.

Originally, I was too scared to attempt drawing what I was seeing in my head, so I made Picrews of all the major characters who go to the school Holma High. Their school uniform is a green uniform top with plaid purple pants usually the girls hate the pants

Fang

Cassie

I haven't found a Picrew I like for her :P

Bushimaru Senra

(is way too anime for me to pass up seeing him in a beautiful anime style swoon)

Mei

Danai Jones

Amirani

Cecilia Costa

Emeryk Sky

Gavin Reller

Jayvee Reller

they're twins :D

Katsuhito Senra

(Bushimaru's older brother, who only appears in the prequel)

Then when I got more comfortable, I ended up drawing them a lot.

Hopefully you can tell who's who

Recently I've even drawn them after the events of the story, about a year later.

This story also has one of my favorite romances I've written.

Cassie and Bushimaru

Casshi? Massie? Blue Orange Shipping 😎

I've imagined a lot of stuff for them and even designed their outfits for a major point in the story on Everskies.

And unfortunately, I have to add a section for the inevitable capitalism:

Audio dramas, mini series, and shorts make the most sense to me.

I've written a lot of little short things about their future or the in-between of main events in the story, AUs, and one-offs that it would be so commercial of me to want them all animated in shorter parts somewhere.

In general though, it'd be to offset how serious the series is with lighthearted shenanigans of the characters.

But, this is all in my head and will stay here as I have no money, time, or ability to even consider something like this, but it was fun dreaming with you and thank you for reading 🍂

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I'm gonna call this series

Because movies, stories, books, shows, Anime, video games, etc... Have just had such a lack of imagination, that it's actually embarrassing.

When I was a kid, media wasn't as shit as it is now. I could watch a movie and actually like it. Even if I didn't like it, I could appreciate what it was trying to do.

Now, movies are are live action recreations of existing pieces. Shows are spin-offs that no one asked for. Stories are commercialized garbage. And the lack of creativity is alarming.

I want to be apart of the few creators out there who are still trying to make good art pieces (Like Omori, I recently saw the entire game and wow. I have actual sadness for Sunny and Basil, my babies T-T). Not quick cash grabs or rehashing a better story, because they can't come up with a new story that's just as good.

So, with that, let's get into my first idea.

- Secrets of a Teenage man -

Comparable titles: Like Spy Kids meets Blue Exorcist.

The idea: (This one has been reworked a bit so you tell me, which one you like better.

Original:

Paranoid father and police chief, Leios Ann, tasks the safety of his teenage daughter, Cassie Ann, to undercover officer Shugi O'hara. He is her shadow. The catch? He's a sixteen year old boy. Eventually, he falls in love with his objective and finds himself in the difficult position of revealing it all to Cassie or maintaining his position as a sworn officer.

Revised:

Paranoid father and police chief, Leios Ann, tasks the safety of his teenage daughter, Cassie Ann, to undercover officer Shugi O'hara. He is her shadow. After blowing his cover, Cassie asks him for his help in investigating some strange happenings she's noticed. Together, they try to uphold the facade for her father while getting to the truth of what's really been endangering Cassie.

Best media form: Film or TV show (unsure if it would be better as a live action or animation)

I feel like a film would be better as the story isn't very long and it would be a nice coming of age teenage Disney channel type of movie.

What it will not become: A video game.

A video game wouldn't be fun. It would be like watered down Hitman or baby mode Uncharted and would suck ass.

Characters/things I've made for it:

Aside from the story itself, I have designed Shugi, Cassie, Leios, and even the main antagonist. When I was younger, I was very big on Rinmaru Games doll makers and made several scenes with them.

Shugi's design was inspired by Kise from Kuroko no Basket. I wanted a middle part, for some reason and ended up with this:

I was weirdly fixated on him being Irish when I was younger, but like Shugi is OBVIOUSLY the most Irish name I could come up with. So, I'm just gonna say one of his parents are Japanese and the other is Irish 🗿

And unfortunately, I have to add a section for the inevitable capitalism:

I think a spin-off would be fun. Realistically, I have a feeling my antagonist would be fun to make something for. Something about the events of the story, but from his perspective since he's not revealed as the antagonist until the very last chapters (a twist, but not really). Since he's a spoiled rich boy who's parents don't even care that he exists, he'd obviously be very entertaining to watch.

But, this is all in my head and will stay here as I have no money, time, or ability to even consider something like this, but it was fun dreaming with you and thank you for reading 🍂

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It's obviously not embarrassing to admit this, but the biggest reason I can't write, is because of a lack of income.

I feel like I'm just living in delusion by not working towards employment. However, when I do job search is always amounts to nothing.

This endless loop where I want to write so I can make stories and characters that people can lose themselves in, but the reality of having to work to keep myself alive is the biggest factor in my writer's block.

I wish I could just say what I want to do and have even a small group of people believe in it where I can work full time on making a product that people will love.

So... while I spend more and more days hating myself and struggling to get out of bed, I'll just do that.

I'll at least give myself the delusion that I can work on the things I want to.

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I can't be the only one who thought of Stardew from this

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A bit late to the party but here's my pixel art resprite of NES Peach and Zelda👑. I tried to draw them as small as i could ^^!!

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I could actually write just a book of my silly descriptions before writing. This is actually a great way to be sure you keep your idea until you can start writing :D

“I’m finally going to write! I have a great idea!”