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Studying with a tired heart and a hopeful mind

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White chocolate espresso cookie ☕

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“Who cares if I’m pretty if I fail my finals?”

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my friend and I are going to the library after school to research stuff for my youtube video! The research has been taking us a while but we have finally gotten past our biggest block :)

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I have been thinking about this a lot today because I (very white) am currently making an oc that is black and a military leader in a setting that is 1800s but fantasy. You'll never guess how much of a struggle it is to create the pinterest board. I've been avoiding photos with hands and people in them because they are always white. ESPECIALLY in the dark academia photos.

as someone who is both in academia and has an "academia aesthetic" blog, i do think it's worth discussing how restrictive and hostile academia is for many people, truly beyond the aesthetic.

academia is presented as this space where intellect and progressive thought is welcome and encouraged, which it certainly is, but only in the "correct" manner, by the "correct people," etc.

at the end of the day, there's still a professor insulting me for daring to correct him on his antisemitic terminology in class. there is still a classroom where me and my friend are the only two non-christians present in a discussion about whether or not christianization was violent.

there are so many people who face these situations and worse. (i'm privileged as an able-bodied white jewish woman in the academic sphere!)

there is an entire world of academia beyond the aesthetic and it's hostile. there are so many institutional and social barriers preventing people from accessing academia. and there are so many instances of cloistered departments that are at least 15 years behind in progress and thought.

I don't know. that's just my short ramble with no conclusion.

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THANK YOU FOR SAYING WHAT I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO

“what radicalized you” bro EMPATHY

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my favorite ❤️

You know it’s bad when you’re out here searching “toxic study motivation” on Pinterest, hoping some dramatic quote will scare you into being productive.

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LOCK IN AND FIGURE YOURSELF OUT

It's so worth it <3

I feel like everyone is talking about all the best ways to improve yourself and make your vision boards, but it is all so fucking overwhelming. You aren't going to get anything done, and that's okay because it's normal to get overwhelmed with how much information there is.

To make things a little easier for you all I've made a little step-by-step guide that is soo easy! All you need for this is somewhere to write stuff down, pinterest, whatever planner you use and some free time.

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PART 1: WHO DO YOU EVEN WANT TO BE?

This is the most important question you need to ask yourself. Who are you trying become? Why are you even doing all this? It's okay if you don't know at first, that's where a lot of self-reflection has to happen. Take your time and really think about all the attributes this person has. Here is a little questionnaire that can get you started!

What kinds of clothes does this person wear?

What is their self-care routine?

What are this person's boundaries?

What kind of food do they eat and what is their relationship with food?

What is their financial situation?

What do they think about themselves?

What do other people think about them?

What are their friendships like?

What are their habits?

Feel free to add your own! If you can't think of any more I definitely recommend pinterest for this one!

Once you know who you want to be, it's time to create some goals. Choose 4 of the attributes you came up with and turn them into SMART goals! SMART goals are an incredible way to think about your goals in a way that actually prepares you to achieve them.

S- Specific: be as absolutely specific about your goal as you can be. Broadness only hurts you in the long run.

M- Measurable: How are you measuring this goal?

A- Acheivable: goals aren't supposed to be easy, but they are supposed to be something you can get to eventually.

R- Relevent: why are you working towards this goal?

T- Time: what is your timeframe for hitting this goal?

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PART 2: PLANNING

Now that you know the habits of the person you want to become, it's time to integrate those habits into your life. This is the time to create a morning and night routine for yourself or plan what day is your no-work day. Here is an example to help you out!

I wake up at 5:45AM every weekday.

As soon as I am up, I go shower and then make myself breakfast

I'm usually done with these things around 6:45AM.

Then I have an hour and 15 minutes to stretch, prepare for my day, drink a lot of water, pray, read, what ever I want really.

Once the clock hits 8, I start slowly getting ready, putting care and intention into everything I do so that I can leave feeling amazing at 8:50.

See how my timeframe for my morning routine is super loose and flexible? Nothing is fixed or on a tight schedule. I'm giving my body enough time to fully wake up and myself to get ready stress free. I think that's something that people struggle with a lot when it comes to routines. You have to give yourself some wiggle room and adapt to your needs.

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PART 3: ACTION

Now it's time to act! Do your morning routines, follow your study schedule! Do it! Something I find that helps me is printing out a bunch of motivation quotes from interest and putting them around my room.

I hope you found this helpful! Write any tips you might have in the comments!

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𝔰𝔦𝔠 𝔦𝔱𝔲𝔯 𝔞𝔡 𝔞𝔰𝔱𝔯𝔞 ☆

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{Words by Anaïs Nin, from The Diary Of Anais Nin, Vol. 4 (1944-1947) / Cynthia Cruz from diagnosis,The glimmering room}

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An absolutely incredible feeling ❤️

when you start having an academic comeback and it’s like oh. oh. oh. the sun actually does still shine

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Even when you're tired, remember why you started.

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ᴛʜᴇ ʜɪꜱᴛᴏʀɪᴀɴ

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Remember: This is a privilage.

Guys give me your coffee recipes for youtube video purposes ☕☕☕☕☕