multiplesillylittleguys

[multiplesillylittleguys]

A lot of what I see in system spaces online is people who have good communication, who know a lot about their alters and all.

But I wanna say that that’s not the only way to be a system! We personally are somewhere in the middle of good and bad communication. We can’t hear each other most of the time, and there’s a lot we don’t know about each other. Some of us haven’t even met yet. We only know specific information about each other because we use Simply Plural.

It’s completely normal to not be able to communicate, to not know anything about your alters, to not know if you have an innerworld and what it looks like, etc! This is just a part of the disorder, for most people!

So you’re all still valid :)

[multiplesillylittleguys]

Our ring arrived!

-June

Picrew of me and my in-sys boyfriend Dami because we got engaged <3

Nothing can convince me he wasn't personally sculpted by the gods. That counts for both the real Damiano and our introject of him.

-June

[multiplesillylittleguys]

Picrew of me and my in-sys boyfriend Dami because we got engaged <3

Nothing can convince me he wasn't personally sculpted by the gods. That counts for both the real Damiano and our introject of him.

-June

[multiplesillylittleguys]

Just found out all alters have a different vocal range!

I was singing Ma Cherie by Palaye Royale (My source band <3) and Jayden was listening to me. I was hitting all the notes with ease, and when I asked her why she looked confused, she told me she couldn't sing this song while fronting because she can't hit the low notes.

So I looked it up, turns out it's a normal thing in DID. This is so cool.

River // Remi

[multiplesillylittleguys]

I'm a transfem alter in a transmasc body, and even though I have a female body now I still feel dysphoric about it, because now it feels like my trans identity has been taken away in a sense? It's so weird I wanted a female body and now I have it I feel like I'm not a "real" trans MtF anymore :[ Like I'm supposed to be MtF and I am but now in this body I'm not? Now I'm just… F. but the Mt part of MtF was also part of my identity if that makes sense Internally I still have a "male" body as well. This is all so confusing. I don't want to lose this part of my identity.

Being a system is weird. I hate it.

River // Remi

[multiplesillylittleguys]

unfriendly reminder.

No, splits are not *only* caused by severe/extreme trauma. After the disorder is formed your brain will split as it feels is needed. Someone's for stress, sometimes to lessen the load of another trauma holder ect. If you are hyperfixating or watching a show and have strong feelings about a character it's possible that new split or fragment will attach to that characters identity. Stop Fakeclaiming and bring assholes to people who split easily, often, or are fictive heavy. You are only causing harm. Stop fucking Fakeclaiming in general. YOU ARE ONLY CAUSING HARM.

-Yugi

[multiplesillylittleguys]

Help no what do I even do I'm frontstuck but apparently there's a really important appointment tomorrow fml

-June

[multiplesillylittleguys]

LOOK AT THIS PICREW I DID OF MYSELF I LOVE ITTT

-Jinx

[multiplesillylittleguys]

On source separation:

I am aware there needs to be some form of source separation. I am not literally my source. But I identify with it immensely. I consider who I see on screen when we are watching Arcane to be me, to an extent.

I do not see what is wrong with this, as it does not prevent me from functioning whatsoever. I think we shouldn't be forced to separate to an extent we aren't comfortable with, as long as it does not affect our functioning.

If you want to completely separate, that's amazing. If that it what is best for you, I am all for it. But being attached to your source and identifying with it, is to an extent okay, in my opinion. As long as it doesn't negatively affect your functioning, it should be okay to be attached to your source.

Viktor

[multiplesillylittleguys]

I will do that very very very gladly.

(long post, lotta yapping)

Okay so I have this very very very good friend and ever since he formed we were super close. He suggested the name for our Undercity layer (yes, it's Zaun!! It kinda looks like Zaun from Arcane except more elegant and there's moon magick and such it's amazing)

Anyway so we visit each other in headspace like every day, we're pretty much glued to each other's side atp. We always sit together and he talks to me about his source, his inventions and experiences and all that. And sometimes we just read things that interest us or go for walks or we visit the planetarium/library together. Now recently the hugs we shared have evolved into actual cuddling and shit and omg I could not be more excited.

Every time one of us feels shitty we always go find each other, or when we're excited or nervous or anything at all. We've grown so so close over the years and I'm literally developing feelings and idek what to do atp-

I'm wondering what to do because I don't wanna ruin what I have with him but I should probably tell him but IDK AAAH

And then there's Dennis and Bucky and they're so cute together omg!! They're sourcemates. Basically Dennis was an OC we made and we introjected him first and then Bucky as well and when they were "reunited" it was so cute- Dennis was actually host for a while before he got any of his memories back and when he became a caretaker he started to get the memories again, and then we introjected Bucky. They're both old asf (107 y/o both) and they always tell our little Julie about their time in the 30s and 40s.

They both used to be real casanovas, and they caught each others eye because of that and became close friends. They would always hang out and there was this diner they started to visit every saturday where they ate pancakes. The waitresses knew them by name even. And Dennis told me that their first kiss was in that diner too. They were sitting in the very back and there was no one there, and then Dennis just put his hand on Bucky's thigh and when he looked at him he kissed him. I wish I could've seen it omfg-

Then they also enlisted together and they were separated and there's a whole trauma story there where I won't get into detail, it's not my place to talk about it either. Anyway it's HYDRA and war stuff.

And then Steve rescued Bucky and then they came back for Dennis. When they were both out and recovering they started to get the memories back that HYDRA wiped, and they fell in love all over again it's too sweet omg-

Hope you enjoyed the yapping sesh because I sure did :3

-Kirill

can someone like. yap to us abt in-sys relationships in detail. im so fixated on them but everytime I try to look for stuff related to them the most I get it "i love my in-sys partner :3" /nm

pls i need.... yapped to... i beg....

-thing

[multiplesillylittleguys]

You know what?

I fucking love my alters, and being open about this online.

The introjects, the "cringe" ones, everyone that would get me fakeclaimed, are all still here. They help me, and that's all that matters.

My brain decided to create what it thought would benefit me, and no one can change that. Neither can I, no matter how much I might want to sometimes.

I fucking love letting everyone sign off on every post, with dividers and all to fit their style. I don't give a shit how "fake" it makes us look.

I have to deal with this shitty way of living, might as well make it bearable by using those templates and dividers and making it all look good. It gives me something to focus on other than the bad things.

Don't ever feel bad for having certain alters or coping with your disorder a certain way. Just do what benefits you <3 /p

Let systems live.

[multiplesillylittleguys]

-> Be me

-> Come out of dormancy, front occasionally

-> Open Simply Plural, go to my profile

-> "Interact with extreme caution due to severe psychotic symptoms" added

I didn't know I was this bad??

Yngve / Dead

[multiplesillylittleguys]

NO BECAUSE IT'S LITERALLY SCOTT

The left guy bro the text fits completely and the appearance too?? IT'S LITERALLY HIM WTF

(And the right guy kinda looks like Abel (who is dormant atm) too wtf did someone take a picture inside of our fucking head???)

-Kirill

[multiplesillylittleguys]

(Can't believe I have to add this, but exomemories exist. No, I have not physically been in ww2, obviously, but alters can have their own memories and triggers. I have not physically experienced war, and I hope I never have to. These memories are involuntary and if I could choose not to have them, I would.)

CPTSD.

I can cope usually but I heard a poem that makes me feel like I'm going insane. It's ringing in my head, getting louder and louder with each word. It reminds me of the war. It reminds me of HYDRA. I feel myself becoming less and less "me". I can feel myself slipping back to who I was then, feeling what I felt and it's terrifying.

-James.

(The poem is Boots by Rudyard Kipling. If you have any triggers related to war, avoid this. Please.)

My husband Dennis and I enlisted together, and the first time we got captured was also together. I got found by Steve, he wasn't found until over 80 years later. When I got captured again, a while after the first time, I finally saw him again. I wanted to tell him Steve was coming to get us. But he didn't recognize me because of what they did to him, and would soon do to me. And it hurt. It's not his fault, of course not. But having your boyfriend at the time not recognize you because HYDRA was frying his brain over and over again hurts.

Every time we as much as blinked in a way that made it look like we remembered something, anything, back in that damn chair. Sometimes I don't even feel like I knew what it was doing, I just knew that it hurt.

I tell him that it's not his fault. Logically, I know it's neither of our fault. But how do you believe that when you didn't even see your targets as human? Hell, I didn't even see myself as human. Because I wasn't. I was a machine, an asset, a tool.

Memories keep flashing through my mind. I'm afraid I'm turning back into what HYDRA made me. I don't want to hurt my husband.

[multiplesillylittleguys]

How do I know if I'm faking DID send post

literally please help

[multiplesillylittleguys]

Me rn because we've been group fronting to work on our Simply Plural profiles

[multiplesillylittleguys]

I'm fairly sure this post was made about our post, so I'm reblogging this with a response.

(TL;DR: I never said I wished harm on anyone, I was just making light of the intense struggles those of us with OSDDID face, and at the same time expressing my frustration with endos for claiming to experience something that has ruined my life.)

I want to clarify a few things about the post I made, in which I described some of the challenges that come with living with DID. My post was about highlighting the intense struggles that those of us with DID and OSDD experience daily—things like disorientation, memory loss, and severe emotional distress. These are very real, very painful experiences that stem from trauma. DID is not simply “people in our heads.” It’s a disorder rooted in severe, often prolonged trauma that deeply affects every aspect of our lives.

When I expressed frustration with endogenic plurality, it was not to wish harm on anyone. Rather, I was trying to show the serious reality of living with a dissociative disorder. There’s a big difference between wanting someone to suffer and wanting people to understand that DID is not a “fun” or “quirky” experience, nor is it something that exists just to create community. Living with DID or OSDD often involves cycles of distress and confusion that most "endogenics" do not experience in the same way.

Multiple of the comments I received in response to my original post unfortunately took my words and intent out of context. I never wished harm on anyone, nor would I. My post was aimed at sharing what it’s actually like to live with DID, in a community where our lived experiences can sometimes be dismissed, misrepresented, or trivialized. When endogenic plurals compare their experiences to those of trauma-based systems, it can feel deeply invalidating and even harmful, because it fails to acknowledge the gravity of what it means to have DID.

At the end of the day, my hope is not for anyone to suffer; my hope is for understanding and respect for the reality of living with DID. We deserve to have our pain and experiences taken seriously and to be able to talk about these things without being accused of wishing harm on others.

With that out of the way, I've said what I needed to say and I'll leave it at that. Anyone who reads this can make their own decision if they want to block me or support me, but obviously, refrain from harassment towards both me and the author of this post.

-Kirill

Some random ass post: i am a OSDIDD system snd i think all endos should suffer snd [in depth descriptions of fucked up shit] because being a system is suffering and they should feel that

me: yea no thats weird and also cringy asf. you don't see red when you get angry and random people shouldn't suffer cuz u have trauma. don't be weird.

some rando: yea no ur BULLYING op for their TRAUMA disorder you should feel ashamed. all "endos" ever do is harm

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oh im sorry i didnt know calling out someone wishing harm on others was bullying but ur so right ur trauma gives people the right to do whatever they want cuz theyre just an uwu baby /s

like dude bffr