#Am i right fellow transgenders.... Or just me?...

[doostyaudi]

A vivisection of me, done by god for all to see! Say 'Hello, Honey im home!' three voices come from the grandma phone!

Honey I'm Home - GHOST

Alternate version below the cut

[thesleepysystem]

if you dont know, the supreme court just allowed Idaho to ban gender affirming care for trans youth !! please send love to any transgender youth you know, especially anyone in Idaho.

this is absolutely terrifying, as a trans youth myself living in a state absolutely filled with right wing individuals, i am scared for me and my fellow trans youth living in ANY state, but especially red states like mine.

i'll reblog this post with anything i can find on how to help stop this, and you should too. please boost this, this affects all trans people, but especially trans youth, who already lack so many rights just for being youth.

[the-muppet-joker]

I am shaking with rage.

After my many unpleasant encounters with women these past few days (anon hate, mother being a pest) I updated my DNI to include women. I take my DNI very seriously and expect people offline to respect my boundaries as well. Naturally, the females in real life have been making this Incredibly. Fucking. Difficult. Fine, I will simply find more Males and Non Binaries to follow on tumblr and continue blogging in my female-free space to avoid their complaining and their feminism. I begin to scroll through the blogs of people I am following to see if the people they reblog from are not pesky women, so that I may follow those people as well.

When lo and behold, I see an intruiging post on one such blog about vultures (death and all things related to it captivate my twisted mind). I see it was reblogged from someone who, in their description, refers to themselves as a "Mr. Strange." I am delighted to find a male, and even more delighted to find someone with a strange and dark mind similar to my own. I scroll for a bit and. What's this? A screenshot with a youtube channel, the same name as this tumblr user.

The screenshot contains a Woman, but I assume this to be a guest on Mr. Strange's channel, at best. Certainly not a fellow host, and certainly not Mr. Strange himself.

I venture to the Youtube Channel. The female is on every thumbnail. My hands close into fists. Right before I fly into a rage, I remember a crucial piece of information: The Transgenders! This is clearly just a Transgender Male who dresses in a feminine manner. Why else would this person go by Mr. Strange? I smile to myself, relieved. I'm sorry, Mr. Strange for mistaking you for a female.

I was mistaken. After many confusing videos and video titles, I realize that Mr. Strange is not their name. It is a joke. A mockery of us men. I have been unknowinly watching. A woman. For hours. I am so enraged, and I am lucky that my boyfriends (K and J) are here to calm me down or I would go dark mode fucking permanently. Men, be warned: the woman's account is Strange Aeons. If you see a "Mr. Strange," remind yourself: A WOMAN.

[transmultiphobia-discussion]

I'm so pissed off right now

My mutual reblogs a post disrespecting genderfluid people who don't identify as trans. I'm not looking at the post so I might get some things wrong but the wording was approximately this:

"not all genderfluid people are trans" ...are you smoking crack? No one's AGAB is genderfluid. If you don't exclusively identify with your AGAB, you are trans. That's all the word means. By definition, all genderfluid people are trans. Stop being stupid.

Now, I'm not genderfluid, but I'm bigender so I share the multigender community and larger nonbinary/genderqueer community with them. I am also not trans. I'm isogender and I'm cisgender. I reblog with a long takedown of their claim, explaining why some genderfluid people (and why I, a person who doesn't exclusively identify with my AGAB) may not identify with being trans. I went over why personal identity matters more than the definition of transgender, that it's inclusive so people are welcomed into it if they wish to identify that way, but it's not an enforced identity. That they have to respect the identities of genderfluid, multigender, and nonbinary people who are not trans. I thought this person might just be meaning well but needing some opposition, but this bitch responds with (approximate wording again:)

So, just to be clear: You, a self-identified cisgender woman, come onto My (nonbinary and been out for 10 years) post about MY community to call me stupid for saying trans people are trans? Cool. #transphobia #enbyphobia #cis people shut the fuck up challenge

I just. That really showed their transmultiphobia. I am the gender that better suits their argument. The way they contrasted me being a cis woman with them being nonbinary, then calling it "MY community" very implicitly is degendering me, stripping me of my nonbinary/aporagender identity because it's easier to feign a point by saying I'm a cis woman, therefore an outsider who has no right to argue with them, a nonbinary person, on the topic. Also the fact they accepted my identity as a cisgender woman despite the fact their post that I replied to would have categorized me as transgender.

I am not a fucking outsider in the discussion! I don't identify as trans but that's irrelevant because the post wasn't about the trans community. It was about the nonbinary community. It was about the multigender community that I share with genderfluid people. IT WAS ABOUT NON-TRANS GENDERQUEER PEOPLE. MY COMMUNITY. NOT THEIRS. MINE. The post was blatantly disrespecting my identity, even if naming genderfluid people. I had every right to respond! I had every right to be in the discussion! I had every right to defend genderfluid people who might identify in the same way I do! Or the way *I* identify!

Clearly they didn't have a real response but they didn't want to read my response with an open mind. Didn't want to consider that there are non-trans genderqueer people. So I'm degendered, for the purpose of painting me as an outsider instead of acknowledging that I am a fellow genderqueer person who just doesn't identify as trans

classic example of "multigender people are whatever gender category that is most convenient to the person" folks!

jeez that makes me so angry. make a post about how all people like yourself are trans no matter how they actually describe themselves, and when you say something, suddenly you are, in fact, cis to them. may seem contradictory, but this happens to multigenders all the time. I've been called a predatory male, a confused trans man who won't fully accept is transness, and a cis woman invading trans spaces just by being a bigender lesbian. none of it is consistent nor makes any sense! but since I exist in multiple gendered categories, people refuse to accept them simultaneously and put me in whichever one fits their worldview. is convenient to their argument, by how much they like me and tolerate me.

and it is very telling that they view genderfluid as a gender in of itself, rather than a descriptor for someone's genders- the same way people go "multigender women/men aren't women/men, they're multigender!" The case of not seeing multigender people's identities as legitimate as monogender people's and having to settling for just "multigender," or else you're an invader or a predator to those monogender people. because if they did, it would make total sense why a genderfluid person might call themselves cis- some only switch between genders closely aligned to their assigned gender, for an example. like it's totally up to the person to describe their experiences with their gender identity and if cis more closely describes that than trans, even if they're not perfectly binary, that's fine!

I feel like messing with the cis/trans dichotomy and blurring the lines a bit is necessary is normalizing transhood and dismantling cisnormativity. like they're built off of the phenomenon of assigned gender at birth and forcibly assigned gender roles, "cis" being the default and "trans" considered divergent. if they're no longer assigned to people, is the gender binary is no longer relevant, then what significance would those terms really have anymore? if there is no "cis" or "trans," just people that exist as they please right from the get-go? isn't that what we want? why strictly enforce them onto anyone?

[thecontentsofyourfridge]

skirt problem

okay so I am getting a neat skirt or two soon! pretty cool, right? except I am a (trans) man. I have had SEVERAL people tell me "that's not very transmasc of you." okay?? men can wear dresses and skirts and high-heels and fishnets and makeup and all that and 𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙖 𝙢𝙖𝙣. so what if I'm ftm transgender? wearing a skirt doesn't make me less of a man, and it doesn't make me not transgender. I still feel like a man, "dress like a man" (whatever that means) and I actively identify 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘮𝘢𝘯. wearing a skirt with thigh high socks and fishnets sure as hell doesn't make me less of a manly man. So!! to all of my fellow trans people that like doing things like this, I see you and I love you! Transfemme peeps, wear that cool suit! Transmasc fellas, wear that skirt and those rainbow socks!! If you are comfy in it and enjoy wearing it, then cool!!! it's just clothes, so people can just look away if they don't like it.

[niiwa-angel]

please tell me why you think that transgender people are bad/faking it. With real reasons, please

Normally, I wouldn't answer a bad faith question like this but I feel like it's a question a lot of Radfems get asked so I'm going for it. I'm going to put a cut here, because I am going to post screen shots of TIM rape fantasies and I know that's disturbing. You have been warned

First of all, I divide trans identified people into two categories. 1. People with gender Dysmorphia and 2. People with sex based reasons. For category two, males tend to be identifying into sexualization while females are trying to identify out of it. This also includes females who fetishize homosexual male relationships and think that by identifying asale, they can have that Yaoi romance they masturbate to.

So let's address category 1 first. I do not hold anything against people with gender Dysmorphia and in fact, feel quite a lot of sympathy for them. However, I think the treatments we have for their illness is not helpful. We don't treat anorexics with gastric sleeves or laxatives, we don't treat people with depression by giving them razors, we don't treat people with anxiety by telling them they're completely right about their friends hating them. So why are we treating people with Gender Dysmorphia with hormones and surgeries when they should be receiving therapy?

We also know that in young people, gender Dysmorphia is something they tend to outgrow as they react adulthood. So any treatments they get, such as puberty blockers, cross sex hormones, and surgery, are permanent "fixes" to temporary problems. Again, these people need therapy, not surgical intervention.

Now let's move on to category 2.

Trans identified males in category 2 are usually motivated by a fetish. Where men feel sexual gratification by performing tasks they view as feminine and often consume a lot of "sissy porn". Trans identified males have even talked about this at length and the misogyny really jumps out

This is a very famous "trans woman" who literally just said that the bare essentials to being female is "an open mouth, and expectant asshole, blank, blank eyes" and we're supposed to think it's not a fetish?

Moving on from that, a lot of trans identified males on this site LOVE to post about their sexually violent fantasies against real women. Let's take a look at them, shall we?

Nothing scary about that AT ALL!! Totally normal thoughts to have about your fellow humans. And for people who so desperately want to be seen as "women" the sure do like talking about violence they'd like to inflict on us. This isn't even the extent of it, this is merely a drop in an overflowing bucket of porn addicted depravity that trans identified males indulge in. If you want more, I suggest the R/FTM subreddit. You'll find lots of men discussing how they stole their female family members underwear and masturbated in them. Or how many of them have a fantasy about getting pregnant so they can get an abortion. Or how many of them have a fantasy about breastfeeding a baby. All of their fantasies are rooted in sexual gratification. By their own admission in posts they make on trans subreddits, sexual arousal and gratification are a major part of the "trans woman" experience. Look at how often they talk about "euphoria boners" on that sub when it comes to things like wearing dresses or skirts.

But let's move on from males for a moment, even though I could go on about them all day. While trans identified males are certainly the ones who pose the most physical threat against other people, trans identified females aren't harmless either, especially the ones with a gay male fetish.

Women with a gay male fetish adhere to the same level of entitlement that men with a lesbian fetish do. They are angry at real homosexuals for not being interested in them. Trans identified females tell on themselves all the time on X and Reddit, they complain about gay men not wanting to date them, they call "cis" gay men a disease, and that they wish AIDS has wiped them all out. I'm running out of pictures for this post but @capricornseason has lots of receipts on her blog. Not that I think you'll go check them out, because this is a bad faith question, but I encourage others to go see her page.

For women trying to identify out of sexualization, you'll often hear some very telling terms. "I don't feel like a woman" or "I was never into xyz". Usually, this means that they were tomboys or that they, like trans identified males, affiliate womanhood with sexual availability and submission. It's not, being a woman is just being an adult human female, how you dress, act, what career you chose, and how you spend your free time has nothing to do with that.

[papakhan]

Lol why would someone even say that. Like... idk im transmasc im personally mortified of the idea of getting pregnant but... its none of my business if another man wants to be pregnant why would there be any judgement there 😭😭😭 plus the post was very funny people need to stop projecting over a sillay little post. Have a good night king the haters dont get it

the thing is I totally understand trans guys being uncomfortable with the concept of (trans) men getting pregnant. In our society its a very gendered concept, it gets fetishised by weirdos online all the time and to a lot of (especially queer) afab people its strongly associated with control and abuse. I totally get it. That was me not so long ago but after a lot of research I became more comfortable with it because I want to have children one day. I shouldn't have to expose this part of myself as a defence against people calling me transphobic when I am literally trans and half the fight for trans people is "my body my choice"

what gets me is that the tumblr fallout community gets in this fucking argument allll the fucking time over whether the fallout universe should be "dark and gritty and ~realistic~" in regards to Everyone being transphobic Or if the wasteland should be some kind of trans haven without the binds of society. I personally lean on the latter and get a lot of comfort out of the idea that the Great Khans specifically are a bastion of trans joy and experience and to them women having dicks and men giving birth is just. normal.

the end goal for trans people should be to de-gender concepts like pregnancy and penis but we're never gonna fucking get anywhere if trans people project their dysphoria onto each other and start self-flagellating themselves whenever someone steps out of line or makes a stupid joke.

And yeah this is an overreaction to someone critising a stupid post of mine but I'm more mad at the wider culture of the fallout community (and tumblr) regarding this topic because like I said shit like this keeps happening. part of my job is about educating people about trans bodies and saying shit like "don't assume who can and can't get pregnant" and trying to help fellow trans people find comfort in a country that's actively trying to get them all murdered. To then log onto tumblr dot com and get called transphobic because I said I love headcanoning Papa as trans and him being able to deflect the Legion's misogyny because of his transness is like a slap to the face. you guys are meant to be the transgender love website what the fuck are you talking about?? Also Saying that I'm enabling transphobia by allowing people who arent trans men to reblog my post is also stupid and for the record most people in my notes right now are either trans people who are genuinely agreeing that Papa is trans or ghost fans who think I'm talking about their band (but are still trans and still agreeing).

sure maybe I should have put a trigger warning on the post or something because it might trigger someone's dyphoria, but just say that. Don't act like I'm the problem and that I'm too stupid to recognise internalised transphobia and calling me "too comfortable with joking about trans bodies" when 1. I wasn't joking About trans bodies and 2. ITS MY FUCKING BODY

My joke was about how Caesar cant handle Papa being trans. it was a joke about how society cant handle trans people who they can't clock. it was also a joke about how Papa comes from a society where transness is so normalised that he wrongfully assumes that its something everyone can do. At no point was I "nasty about trans bodies" like this person claims I was. In fact I think that pretending that I was says more about how they view trans bodies than it does about how I do, That I can mention trans pregnancy and they automatically assume I'm fetishing or being disrespectful.

anyway. that's a lot of shit. thanks for letting me ramble and tucking me into bed so sweetly <3

[biology-is-not-bigotry]

I am a white female and I live in the Southern Europe, more precisely in Portugal.

I'm a lesbian.

I'm mentally ill and I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for most of my life which has affected me in various ways.

The first time I was exposed to radical feminism, it was back in 2016/2017. I was hate-reading radical feminist blogs and I found out I actually agreed to everything, I was just always afraid to say it out loud. Before that, I was a normie LGBTQ+ transgender ally.

I grew up in a Christian family around a small, rural village. My father was an alcoholic and he was abusive to my mom. In the countryside, abusing women is just treated as normal and nobody usually dares to lift a finger to do anything. I saw my grandmothers, aunts, cousins and my own mother being abused. Fortunately, when I was a younger adult, my mother was able to leave the house with the help of a DV organization and she's happy and free now, far away from my father.

While growing up, I saw the really ugly parts of religion. Religion was really indoctrinated in my village and I was forced to be part of it. That made accepting myself a very, very difficult thing to do because it involved a lot of shame and a lot of guilt. Nowadays, I'm an atheist and I'm anti-religion.

I have the same principles as all radical feminists do: I'm actively anti-prostitution or any form of what they call "sex work", I'm anti-porn, anti-kink and anti-BDSM. I'm pro choice and pro-reproductive rights.

I'm actually a pro-separatism woman and I do think female separatism works because I practice it everyday. I have no male friends and I have no desire to have them, I only donate money to women and I try to support woman-only businesses. I also try to stay very far away from media that sexualizes women and I do everything in my day-to-day to center women and only women.

I dislike pornography because I was exposed to it while navigating the internet by myself when I was very, very young and I became addicted to it. It had a very negative effect on me and my sexuality and to this day, I'm still dealing with the consequences.

As for personal interests, I like reading, I like classic literature and poetry. I also like movies and video games.

If you'd like to know more about my ideologies, please visit this link. And feel free to send me a message anytime, I'm very friendly!

*those are mine and were made by me but my fellow radical feminists can use them if they want.

[aman1taverna]

Imagine if some Christian decided he was a prophet and demanded people refer to him as one. He started seeking legal protection for his identity to be considered a prophet. Anyone in his life who told him they supported him but didn't truly believe him was labelled christphobic. No one treated him as lesser than, but by not agreeing with his beliefs, he felt betrayed by them.

That's what I feel like sometimes, when I am told that if you treat a transgender woman like a peer, refer to her with her preferred pronouns, you must still be a bigot if you don't really believe that she's a woman.

Treating transgender people like weird degenerates is bigotry. Denying transgender people healthcare that is actually vital to their health is bigotry. Simply saying "I respect you, but I don't really view you as a man/woman because I simply don't believe in gender identity" IS NOT bigotry. That's honestly what peaked me. I don't support discriminating against trans people because they're trans, but I don't consider disbelief in their identity to be discrimination. It's not just about respect or decency, it's about policing the way you think and see the world. No equal treatment is enough not to be transphobic if you don't believe what they do.

I realize that I do post about trans people a lot, and this is why. I was told before that any feminism or activism is not enough if you don't believe the right things. What other minority group acts like this? When I date women, I just want us to be respected as fellow human beings and to feel safe in public. I don't care if anybody else loves my girlfriend, or even thinks our relationship is less fulfilling than ours if they treat us like people. When did homosexual rights get lumped in with "you have to truly take this person at their word about whatever they identify with"?

[befemininenow]

Top posts of the year

Hello fellow followers! As the end of the year is slowly approaching, I want to give a thanks to all your support! We may not all share the same interests, but we all share a similar interest of wishing to connect more with our feminine sides. I want to share my last Throwback Thursday by looking back at something more special outside of my own past: my most popular captions by my followers! It will also be my pinned post until New Year’s Day arrives! Here are the top 5 most liked and shared captions (created by me) from this blog:

5th most popular is this one of Sunny Leone in sexy lingerie. This one was created out of impulse and I was caught by surprise that it caught on more than I would have thought. Then again, someone hot like her would provoke you into cracking your egg if she actually said that.

4th place is this art of someone dressing as a woman. This was my very first caption and decided to use this well known drawing used in captions for several years. From what I was able to find later, it was a commission drawn by a known TG transformation artist. However, this person in the drawing is transgender and she (not “he”) is happy to see herself looking back. The euphoria in her face may explain why she hasn’t worn the wig yet. Crossdressing may help some trans individuals with dysphoria and can even serve as a catalyst in transitioning if they feel the need to feminize (or masculinize if trans male) beyond dressing. I may look into recreating this caption in the future as I related more to this pic after discovering the origin.

3rd place is this caption of some girl in cleavage. I’m just going to leave it at that. I wrote as a way to show how “boymoding” can only work until your feminizing results make it difficult to hide. Boymoding, from what I was able to understand, is when transitioning girls under HRT dress as male, but everyone around them notices they’re turning into a girl. In other words, the people around them see them as a crossdresser instead of a guy now. Yet, boymoders deny their feminizing changes. Once it becomes too obvious, like bigger breasts or softer skin, their only option left is to come out as a trans girl.

2nd is this very hot GIF, and it’s easy to see why it’s so hypnotic. The crop top and leggings hugging her own curves, the way she moves, her long, flowing hair, and her overall looks are persuasive enough to either chase her, become her, or both! The clip was originally from a Vine (remember those?) that was difficult to edit, recrop, and make into what you’re seeing right now. I don’t make GIFs anymore, but maybe I’ll make another one like this one day.

And in 1st place is this one of a woman holding a set of pills. Although they’re actually birth control pills, this pic was used in long-gone caption affirming the user to take hormones. Many trans people are placed in a waiting list to be prescribed gender-affirming hormones, and that’s after an extensive time being in therapy sessions. These waitlists take months, or even years, before being cleared out. Oh, and these trans people are all adults! So it’s no surprise as to see why many would love to get their hands on HRT if handed to them instantly. If you’re in that process, please reach resources such as Planned Parenthood, Plume, or other sources available in your country or region that will help you guide your transition into a girl.

-Conclusion

These top posts say something more than wishing to connect with our feminine sides. Based on this list, it seems many wish to also become a girl for other reasons. I can’t judge what you like as I am responsible for creating these captions. But as someone who is learning more about their trans identity, my captions are slowly drifting away from fantasy and diving more into reality. I will slip in something provocative as a way to tease you. But it most likely won’t fall under the “forced fem” topic, but rather as a way to “crack” your egg. There will be more surprises showing up come next year, or up until this blog lasts. Until then, happy night people!

[harveyyaps]

TRANSITIONING MASTER-DOC ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡

hello my fellow transgender and queer comrades alike! this is a re-make of a master-doc i made quite some time ago. it focuses on the super early portions of transitioning socially as a newly found / questioning trans person! i have been trans for all of my life and been outwardly trans for around four years now. i often see ‘transition guides’ that focus on later steps in one’s personal gender identity journey — so my goal is to give as much information on being transgender in the complete beginning. from questioning to fully socially transitioned, i’m your guy!

for introductory purposes!: my name is harvey (he/him/his), and i am a binary trans guy who is pretty cool! overall i’m just trying to fight for my rights in a day-by-day fashion. i’ve done my best to layout this doc in a ‘step-by-step’ fashion because i find that time and time again, linear learning is the most effective; so without further ado, enjoy this personal project of mine!

TABLE OF CONTENTS ˗ˋˏ ♡ ˎˊ˗ CHAPTER 1

1.0 — your egg has broken! (COMPLETED)

1.1 — questions to ask yourself about being under the transgender umbrella. (COMPLETED)

1.2 — how to accept your newly found queerness. (WIP)

1.3 — don’t rush into ANYTHING, experimenting can never hurt someone. (WIP) ---------------------------------

SO, YOUR EGG HAS BROKE!

in popular trans spaces (mainly reddit), the saying of having a 'broken / cracked egg' is extremely common. in general terms, it means that you have accepted your obvious queerness in trans spaces and that you can no longer live in denial! hooray! or really - oh no!

real talk here, this can be and will be a bit scary. for some, this news is just news, and for others this can be mind-blowing and feel like the end of the world! but don't panic, the world will not come crashing just because you allow yourself to feel joy. i find that this stage will definitely take some time to process and actually sit through. before you go on and start to question all you've ever known about how you're perceived in society, take a moment and just accept.

accept the fact that being queer is not a gross or uncommon thing, and that you being trans is not something that you should ever let interfere with your own interpersonal self worth (disregarding dysphoria in this statement.) it personally took me a long time to admit that this was reality, that I am queer and that's not negative.

once you allow yourself to process that your willing to take the time and effort into truly understanding yourself, the process will smooth itself over. pinkie promise.

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A SIDE OF QUESTIONS, PLEASE!

these questions are to be asked to yourself in terms of understanding your newly found identity. it’s important to understand your answers from a viewpoint of being transgender rather than being cis and vise versa.

how long have you questioned or felt different about your gender identity?

what was the first inkling or sign that made you start to question your gender identity?

do you feel distress or discomfort with the gender you were assigned at birth?

what does your ideal gender expression or presentation look like to you?

have you researched or leaned about identities such as non-binary, gender-fluid, etc.? do any of those resonate with you?

what are your biggest fears or concerns about being transgender?

once you’ve answered and pondered these questions, you can better understand yourself and where you stand with your gender identity. if you’ve come to these answers and realized you are cis — then you can stop here! you are not trans! but if your gender identity has proven to be queerful and worth exploring, you can move to the next section.

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QUEER IS NOT A DIRTY WORD!

so — you’re transgender. you are queer. this is a new feeling, a scary one even. but it is able to be navigated through. and this new revaluation does not need to be a negative experience. i am here to guide you through these new feelings!

1. allow yourself time to process! you do not need to rush into anything, sitting with these new revaluations is important and the best first step for acceptance. it can feel world shattering to realize you’ve been in denial or pushing down certain feelings — sometimes even leading to regression; but let yourself just feel. understand. and try and refrain from panicking. remind yourself that being queer is not shameful or something bad.

2. work on actual acceptance! self compassion and self acceptance go along with overall radical acceptance and being queer. internalized transphobia is one of the biggest issues that come with accepting yourself, due to wanting to be yourself leading to pushing down other trans people that don’t fit your personal box. however, internalized transphobia is normal! and is able to be worked through. it comes with the need to prove yourself and be the ‘right kind’ of queer — but in reality, there is no right way to be queer!

last updated: 4 / 7 / 24 :: 10:20 PM

[head-post]

Khelif’s gender discrimination continues, Olympics step into 10th day of competition

Olympic boxer Imane Khelif said the wave of hatred she faced because of misconceptions about her gender was “damaging to human dignity” and called for an end to the bullying of athletes hit hard by the international reaction to her performance.

The Algerian athlete spoke about her tumultuous Olympic experience Sunday night in an interview with SNTV, the sports video partner of The Associated Press. Khelif said in Arabic:

“I send a message to all the people of the world to uphold the Olympic principles and the Olympic Charter, to refrain from bullying all athletes, because this has effects, massive effects. It can destroy people, it can kill people’s thoughts, spirit and mind. It can divide people. And because of that, I ask them to refrain from bullying.”

The victories of Khelif and fellow boxer Lin Yu-ting of Taiwan in the ring in Paris were one of the most high-profile stories of the Paris Games. Both women won their first Olympic medals despite facing online abuse based on unsubstantiated claims about their gender, drawing them into a wider controversy over changing attitudes to gender identity and rules in sport.

Khelif, 25, admitted she has had to go through the ordeal of competing away from home at the most important competition of her sporting career. She said:

“I am in contact with my family two days a week. I hope that they weren’t affected deeply. They are worried about me. God willing, this crisis will culminate in a gold medal, and that would be the best response.”

The fury stems from claims by the International Boxing Association, which has permanently banned her from the Olympics, that Khelif and Lin failed unspecified tests for women’s eligibility at last year’s world championships.

Khelif declined to answer a question about whether she had undergone tests other than doping tests, saying she did not want to talk about it.

She expressed gratitude to the International Olympic Committee and its president Thomas Bach for standing firmly by her side while the banned former Olympic boxing governing body fuelled the furore surrounding her participation in Paris.

Khelif began her Olympic start last Thursday with a win over Italy’s Angela Carini, who stopped the bout after just 46 seconds. Carini later said she regretted her decision and wanted to apologise to Khelif.

The unusual ending raised a stir around Khelif, prompting comments from former US President Donald Trump, “Harry Potter” writer J.K. Rowling and others falsely claiming Khelif is male or transgender.

The IOC has repeatedly said she and Lin are eligible to compete in the Olympics and has condemned the murky testing standards and opaque governance of the IBA, which was completely excluded from the Olympics last year in an unprecedented punishment for the governing body.

Khelif has clearly felt the brunt of the worldwide attention and her victory over Hamori on Saturday appeared to be cathartic. After the referee raised Khelif’s hand, scoring the win, she walked to the centre of the ring, waved to the fans, knelt down and slammed her palm on the canvas, and her smile was replaced by tears. Khelif said in the interview:

“I couldn’t control my nerves. Because after the media frenzy and after the victory, there was a mix of joy and at the same time, I was greatly affected, because honestly, it wasn’t an easy thing to go through at all. It was something that harms human dignity.”

She competed in IBA events for several years without any problems until she was unexpectedly suspended from last year’s world championships. The organisation, which has been in conflict with the IOC for years, refused to provide any information about the tests.

Algeria’s national boxing federation is still a member of the IBA.

Some say that the rights of each athlete are most important. Others insist that there is a more important collective right – the right of female athletes to play women’s sport exclusively and to be free from discrimination.

In recent years, most notably at the World Aquatics Championships, recommendations have emerged among a number of international sports federations stating that athletes with developmental disabilities who are going through male puberty should be barred from participating in high-level women’s competition. In boxing, this issue is made even more acute by a complex political dispute between the IOC and the IBA.

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[josiebelladonna]

a little collection, all one right after the other, picked up last week, not sure why i didn’t post it then 🤷🏻‍♀️

i also saw a tweet saying that it shouldn’t even be called “art”, which… yeah, i agree. it’s scraping art and treating it as if it’s gum on the bottom of a desk and throwing it into a blender at a whim when it should’ve been put to good use and made a natural evolution of digital art—i keep saying it but it’s the biggest missed opportunity in the history of missed opportunities. ai had the potential to build upon digital art and to be worked with, but that’s not what’s happening, though. moreover, way too many people are doubling down and supporting it, often knowing the nefarious nature of it, which makes them complicit in the abuse of hard-working artists and their life’s work. i’ve also been seeing accusations of ableism against human artists—these comments are often oblivious to the fact that disabled artists have existed for centuries (look no further than frida kahlo)—even accusations of racism and sexism.

excuse me, but taking the art from a black artist or a female artist or a transgender artist or a guy who paints with his feet and using it without their consent in your k00l ai app is a million times more discriminatory than anything any artist has ever done (bonus if you know about all this but keep contributing to it—if anything, that’s worse).

even if you aren’t active in the art world, all this alone should piss you off.

i’m also seeing more things about slurs thrown at artists (”paintpig”, “drawslave”, and “drawcel” being only three examples), and i’d say “you’re gonna have to do a lot better than that” à la cosmo kramer, but i don’t think that’d suffice, tbh—as i said before, they almost feel like compliments, like yes! i am a drawslave! i am a slave to drawing and my craft! 😂

and yes, ai replacing humans has already long begun: go read about disney, and also book publishers like tor books. replacing human artists and their digital art with soulless robotic ai with watermarks included has already whupped up and let a bunch of diligent people go on their own for the sake of $$$$ and mass appeal. it’s very quickly approaching the point where, unless you have a very distinct, visceral style that’s heavy on textures and just looks different like mine, digital art made by a human being and a digital piece by a machine will have no distinction between each other, and traditional art will be the only truly human art left. mind, every human alive is capable of making art no matter what the excuse is—there’s no excuse. if you’re human, you’re an artist. you can create something. it’s part of who you are, as unique as your fingerprint and your dna. “but i’m not an artist!” BULLSHIT. B U L L S H I T. you are as capable of making art as i am. if you can pick up a pencil with any part of your body, you can train yourself—go read about the guy who draws with his feet, he’s amazing. “i won’t be as good as you, though.” yeah, and? that doesn’t mean you can’t be good in your own way. i tried making tutorials or how to draw like me before and i wound deleting them because no one was willing to try it out, and i soon learned that it’s because my art is unique to me, as well as cop outs like “not an artist”.

the rise of ai art tells me that people are way too lazy and entitled for their own good now. our ape bodies are too reliant upon technology, and technology is advancing faster than any of us can keep up. it’s not only the biggest wasted opportunity ever, but it’s a sign of not caring about your fellow human and what they can make with their bodies and brains, especially with their hands. we have spent millennia using our hands to build the very advancements that brought us to this point in history… and we’re willing to throw it away, and what for?

bitch. my hands have used pencils, pens, paintbrushes, turpentine, metals, heavy machinery, wood, axes, hatchets, knives, ceramic clay, acids, bases, chemicals that can leave blisters on the inside of your lungs, literal fire, rocks and minerals, a fucking Geiger counter, soldering irons, welding torches, heavy tools like table saws and sledgehammers, bicycle chains, one of those old rotary telephones, typewriters, fucking floppy disks!!, all kinds of fabric, a drum kit, a piano, guitars, microphones, xylophones, baseball bats, hockey sticks, basketballs, volleyballs, and some of the most delicious food i have ever eaten… i got to touch pitchblende (uranium ore) with these hands. i got to touch lead soldering and broken glass. these hands have gotten to touch silver ore and 24-karat gold. i even got to touch things from the softest cat fur to the skin of a snake and the exoskeleton of a scorpion. these hands have shaken the hands of teachers, famous people, and people no longer with us. these hands have fired guns and shot arrows. these hands have helped me climb up hills and small mountains. these hands have been cut, scratched, burned by both fire and dry ice, stepped on, slapped, but also lovingly held and massaged. these hands have written millions of words of literature and poetry. these hands have written words in english, french, spanish, german, italian, danish, latin, japanese, russian, and most recently portuguese. these hands have fixed houses, planted gardens, even built a car from the ground up. these are working hands, and they always come back to art.

i have toiled in obscurity since 2006, and to a further extent, 1999. i refuse to ever work with art shops anymore because they continue to rip me off and take my money, and they’re making me vulnerable to scraping. i have had my art insulted, mocked, patronized, laughed at, called dumb or stupid, rejected from art competitions, lost out to trashy artworks that look like they were done in about five minutes in total darkness, soiled on, burnt (yes, for real), thrown in the garbage, and yes, even stolen, not once but twice—the second time around, the thief is still giving me shit two and a half years after i called her out on her bluff. yes, me. the person she took from. she is continuously giving me shit and being a bully—and, get this, two and a half years later, you can see how miserable she is from a mile away.  so, let me ask you, ai people and those who (un)willingly support it: is that what you want? to become increasingly miserable as tech advances and you sit your own hands to the point you become so idle that your brains scramble themselves and you don’t even know how to function anymore? plus, you’re going to look at me dead in the face and tell me that i deserve to be shat on and everything my hands have done is all in vain all because i refuse to ever use any ai app for as long as i live because i know what the hell is going on?

have your fucking precious ai. play the victim and be complicit. if you don’t care, then i don’t care. but know what you’re doing. know that it all comes with a steep price and a dark side more foreboding than you can ever fathom. karma is a bitch, and a bigger one than i ever will be.

and this is not even touching on ai infiltrating fan writing or actual published literature, or music for that matter, but—i’m not even touching those ones.

[mosraev]

I failed to be a daughter and I'll fail to be a son, I Am Here (2022, Mosræv)

Happy Transgender Awareness Week! I filmed this at the beginning of the week yet took a while to edit it so I am pleasantly surprised I still managed to get it out before the end of the week. This song was one of the first I managed to write fully about my experience as a transmasc nonbinary individual. I hope you like it

Recorded 23/11/13 - Pret-T - Lyrics under the line

Stay creative, my fellow foxes 🦊💚

Lyrics:

I find the monsters under my bed

much more friendly than the voices in my head.

They're telling me that I am wrong:

Everything from my body to my voice.

But I keep holding on.

I try to stay afloat.

I am here.

I am here.

I am here.

I am, I am.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a ghost,

avoiding mirrors to protect my fragile host.

'Cause all reflections will reveal

is just how empty I feel inside.

I'm a liar, imposter, the list goes on.

I failed to be a daughter and I'll fail to be a son.

I am here.

I am here.

I am here.

I am,

I am scared of the part that I got to play.

I'm a terrible actor and far from okay.

I need help but I'm afraid to ask for it.

Instead I throw everything into this song,

hoping one day I can sing along to:

"I am here, queer and proud".

I am here.

See me, I'm here.

I am here.

I am, I am,

I am here.

Right here.

I am here.

I am.

I'm still here.

[shepfax]

so after a bit more research, I've become more comfortable considering myself part of the intersex community. it brings me such joy that there are so many terms for me--transgender, transsexual, transmasculine, FtM, genderqueer, non-binary, androgyne, and now intersex.

it felt odd at first, chiefly because of all these misconceptions I harbored about the nature of intersex conditions and the finer details of the sex spectrum. I never doubted the fact that sex, like gender, is not an immutable binary, but I didn't understand the extent to which my own body resided between those imaginary lines. for example, as far as I know, I didn't have genital ambiguity at birth, and I've always been under the impression that that ambiguity or atypical presentation at birth is the definition of being intersex, so obviously someone like me couldn't be intersex. thankfully I know better now, that there are tons of ways intersex traits can manifest, many of which only begin to present at puberty such as mine. at this point I don't know if I have any chromosomal differences, but I do know my body is measurably different than the norm beyond just my hormones. the late onset of this awareness also means I need to be extra forceful in my activism for bodily autonomy, seeing as intersex genital mutilation is not only practiced, but encouraged, in far too many places. the intersex community has made strides for everyone in the realm of medical and social bodily autonomy only to be cast aside as a rounding error or tokenized as a gotcha against bioessentialism.

this matters to me doubly so because at this point in my life I've medically transitioned away from my sex assigned at birth and, due to my queer path to self-determination, chose to legally change my sex marker to X, not M. I am not male or female in body, but rather a cocktail of the two, so it seemed right to have my legal status reflect that. (and yes I still use the term FtM for myself just because honestly, for all intents and purposes, it suits me. it describes the medical practices I undertook to transition and attaches me to a rich, historic community of my fellow FtMs, trans men, tboys, etc. feels comfy, feels like a vintage sweater.) even before I knew I was working with a specifically intersex condition, I joked a lot that my condition gave me a head-start on masculinization. my changes on T happened pretty damn fast and were far more akin to those of cis dyadic men in my family than those of many dyadic trans men in my life. because of this difference in baseline, I really can't wait to connect with other intersex trans and nonbinary people. if one with intersex traits such as myself undergoes medical transition, there's a baseline of hormonal and sexual nonconformity to our bodies that automatically produces a "transition timeline" which differs from those of a dyadic trans person's timeline at just about every step of the way.

about 8 years ago, at my first meeting with an endocrinologist to do baseline blood work before prescribing testosterone, in starting a physical exam he gave me a once-over and said "have you been tested for PCOS?" because apparently it was obvious to everyone but me that I had hyperandrogenism. blood work confirmed it, and I smiled as I started my transition with naturally elevated testosterone for an AFAB individual. my "starting point" looked like some people's 2 months or 6 months or 2 years on testosterone.

it's just that I've been living without that sense of community through not just my whole life but my whole transition. I love and thrive within the trans community, but that difference in baseline always added a gap in understanding, particularly surrounding what shape one should exist in as they are pre- or post-transition and the nature of "passing". so it feels odd to step into it now even though it's always been part of me... basically I'm still feeling weird. nervous weird, but also buzzing-with-excitement weird at the chance to finally find community with people both like and unlike myself.

tl;dr hello intersex community. sorry I'm late, no one told me I was invited I just thought I was a freak. I really like LGBTQ+ nonfiction so if any of you have book recommendations about intersex community history or issues I would be so very happy to hear them

[batboyblog]

LOUISVILLE — She wanted to hear Henry’s voice again. So she went to her son’s room on an overcast February day and started digging through the boxes he left behind, looking for something he’d written to give her guidance.

Henry Berg-Brousseau always knew what to say.

Eight years had passed since he’d told Kentucky lawmakers how it felt, at 16, to be the only transgender student at his high school. Eight weeks had passed since he’d killed himself, at 24, at his Northern Virginia apartment.

It was Henry who’d inspired his mother, Karen Berg, to run for Kentucky’s state Senate, helping her win a seat in an overwhelmingly Republican legislature now contemplating a pile of anti-trans bills.

All morning long, the doctor turned Democratic lawmaker had been pacing around her Louisville house, trying to figure out what she could say to stop them.

“Don’t shake. Don’t cry. Don’t let your voice waver,” Karen, 61, muttered to herself as she did the laundry. “Short and sweet is better.”

Henry, who’d worked as a press secretary for a major LGBTQ advocacy group, often reminded her to speak in sound bites, to repeat phrases so listeners could absorb the message.

But would the people with power in Frankfort pay attention?

It was an election year in Kentucky, and amid America’s widening cultural rifts, Republicans were pouncing on gender identity issues. Already, almost a dozen new anti-trans laws had been proposed in Kentucky: censoring books on gender, barring doctors from providing hormone therapy to trans teens, banning them from certain restrooms and locker rooms.

Five days earlier, a senator running for lieutenant governor had stood a few feet from Karen and introduced legislation to allow teachers to use students’ birth names and pronouns against their wishes. He was greeted with thunderous applause from colleagues.

Karen, one of just six Democrats in the Senate, couldn’t believe it.

Now she headed down to the basement and sat among the 30 boxes that had arrived from Henry’s apartment in Arlington.

“I keep searching for his smell, but I can’t find it,” she said, rooting through his old shirts.

She found herself returning to his childhood bedroom.

“God, I could use his advice right now,” she said quietly, as she leafed through his high school yearbooks.

It was in ninth grade — when Henry came out as transgender to his classmates — that the cruelty and isolation peaked. Parents Karen had known for more than a decade called to say they didn’t want Henry talking to their kids anymore. Bullies hacked his Tumblr blog and repeatedly sent him messages telling him to kill himself. The first of several suicide attempts followed soon after.

From one crate, she pulled a thick stack of binders from Henry’s time at George Washington University in D.C.

“These must’ve been from his classes when he came home during covid,” she said. As she flipped through them, the neatly penciled handwriting on one college-ruled page jumped out at her.

“Oh my God,” she whispered as she made out the first words on the page.

“What am I living for?” it read. “Why? What is keeping me?”

Underneath, her son had written out in tidy columns across two pages the apparent pros and cons of killing himself.

“I can’t,” Karen said, struggling to breathe. “I didn’t expect this. I’m not ready.”

She laid the pages down.

She thought about the hour-long drive to Frankfort the next morning and the eight-week legislative session still ahead. She thought about the fellow state senators she planned to plead with in private. And about the floor speech she was still composing to persuade them to back away from more anti-transgender laws — for her sake, for the sake of her son, for the sake of others like him.

“If they’re going to pass these bills,” she said, “I want them to see me and my dead child and know that they are killing other Henrys out there.”

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every single line of this is heart breaking.