#But if you have ADHD you get it

[thediktatortot]

We all know Eddie has ADHD, but I feel like people don't ever mention the Really Not So Fun symptoms. Like, the kind of symptoms you can't just laugh at because jesus they really fuck with your life.

Like forgetting to eat or drink for literally hours, maybe even entire days because you just can't take your mind off the thing your doing, or focus long enough to make yourself something to eat. It leaves you shaking like a leaf and unfocused and foggy headed and you can't figure out why your so foggy until you remember the last thing you ate was a bowl of cereal the morning before.

Not remembering the last time you showered, even if you think about it really hard. And if you can remember it, usually it was like 4-5 days ago and now you feel disgusting suddenly. Not just because you might not have showered in five days, but because you didn't shower in five days. You haven't brushed your teeth, your hair or washed yourself in five days and you feel disgusting and ashamed because how could you allow yourself to get so dirty?

The shame that sits in your core at every thing you do because it's not normal, it's not right, even on top of all those other not normal things you do, this especially. Because everyone can do it, everyone can study and everyone can write essays and everyone can drink fucking water so why the fuck can't you just drink some damned water!

It's getting so fixated on a task that you suddenly cannot complete because you're either missing essential steps or parts of a task. You can't do anything else though, because that's the task or the thing you've decided you have to do, whether important or not. You check, over and over again to see if maybe you're just not seeing something or not finding something that should be there. Maybe you're just stupid and can't see what's obviously right there, so you ask other people to check or find things for you because you can't trust yourself.

You forget everything, leave things on the ground, in the bathroom, on the porch. You can't trust your hands to remember to not loosing things, so you keep those items in your hand for a half hour only to forget what you were doing with it to begin with.

It's trying to do better at remembering things so you leave yourself notes. On the mirrors in the bathroom, in the kitchen taped to the coffee pot, on the toilet seat, etc etc. But it doesn't matter because even though you see those notes, you're brain doesn't want to do whatever it is that thing is. So you ignore the notes, or you tell yourself that you saw the note so now you'll remember it. You don't remember it, you forget about the note and the task and the fact that you said you would remember it only ten minutes later.

It's going to school and being okay with learning, enjoying yourself in class when it's happening because you have someone teaching you, someone there to keep the thoughts in line, to keep your mind focused. You hate authority because you don't like being told what to do, but in reality it really helps keep you on track. During the summers you are listless, no goals, no one to tell you what your next task is because you have no responsibilities and thus no goalposts to look forward too.

You can say you want to graduate, you can really really want to graduate but none of that matters because you can't get your own mind to want to do the hard things it takes to do the things you want to do. You get called lazy, get called weird and stupid by those around you. Teachers think you don't apply yourself, adults in your life pity you because they don't understand why you can't just do the fucking homework, other kids hate you because you don't fit in socially the way kids are supposed too.

It's the self depreciating, shame and doubt that just sit on you constantly like a coat you can't remove or a tattoo marked on your skin. You'll never be able to change your brain. You'll always be messed up and it feels like there's nothing in the world you can do about it other than just be miserable or die.

[keymintt]

a comic/zine about coyotes

[livixbobbiex]

You know what's fun?

They seem to have made Percy more on the inattentive end of ADHD than hyperactive. Aside from the capture the flag scene, we mostly just see him zoning out, 'daydreaming', the line "I don't think it's the marshmallow's fault I never pay attention".

ADHD barely gets good representation as it is, but I don't think I've ever seen the inattentive type in media like this before. This is going to be huge for a lot of people who don't fall under the hyperactive stereotype umbrella.

I'm just really excited that more people will get the chance to see themselves.

[fandomsandfeminism]

A reminder that food is morally nuetral.

That unless a food is literally poison or an allergy, it is not a bad food.

Your body needs carbs.

Your body needs fats.

Your body needs calories.

Maybe you struggle with moderation or getting the variety of nutrients you need to feel your best, but that does not make the foods you regularly eat bad.

Put the dressing on your salad. Add the cheese to the sandwhich. Grab a cookie to have with lunch. Add an egg to your instant Ramen. Mix M&Ms and teddy grams and roasted peanuts into your cup of yogurt. Put whipped cream on your coffee. Add frozen strawberries or Boba pearls to your iced tea. Sprinkle tajin onto your fruit cup.

Food must fuel your soul as well as your body. It is doesn't need to be a battleground. It can be a joy.

[sesamestreep]

I really feel like one of the best details in “A Scandal in Bohemia” that I never see people fixate on enough is that the story starts with Watson stopping in to see Holmes at Baker Street on a complete whim, because he happens to see that he’s home (and Watson is now married and living elsewhere). Like he doesn’t send word first, he’s not invited, he just shows up and surprises Holmes. Which is not that weird but then Holmes is like “oh good, I’ve got a case anyway, you might as well hang out!” which just makes it funnier when the King shows up and is like “I’d really rather speak to you alone, actually” and Watson tries to leave and Holmes is just like “anything you can say to me, you can say to my best friend John Watson, and if you ask him to leave, I would consider it a grave insult, you would be my enemy and I will not help you ever!!” And the king is like “…ok” and just moves on.

like, that is crazy behavior. Holmes is talking about how there’s probably lots of money in this case, and then almost turns away the client for…not knowing who the fuck Watson is?? He’s not even supposed to be there?? He just came to say hi?? “It is both or none”… girl, GET UP.

[drac0line1nn1t]

Logan: You wanna fuckin treat me like a cat? Fine.

Wade: Peanut please don't do this- you don't have to do this-

*Logan pushes Wade's lucky red mug off the counter*

*Wade falls to his knees dramatically weeping over his favourite mug*

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy.

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[pallanophblargh]

I have a disproportionately loud mess of a head for no discernible reason* so it’s kind of a miracle that I spent the last month and some change willing myself to wield watercolor again. Witness the struggle! A long overdue color sketch for a (super patient) client.

Just watercolor with a boop of gouache.

*they are a mush of small but immense problems??? Executive dysfunction being maximized by meds the main culprit…

[emolionsrawr]

*at a grant nash BBQ*

buck: *staring off into space*

eddie: he's about to say something really funny or absolutely horrifying

tommy: what?

hen: just wait

buck: did you know these two orcas trained other orcas to kill sharks by taking out their liver and testicles?

eddie: yep horrifying

tommy: wait, really?

buck: yup, off the coast of africa there's these two orcas called port and starboard and they hunt sharks to eat their liver and testicles, they tag team them, one goes for their fins while the other takes out the liver, so far they've taken down five great whites, they even killed khaleesi, who was being tracked and traced for research purposes

tommy: oh my god really?

hen: *looks at tommy and smiles*

eddie: *whispers to hen* he's perfect for him

hen: *whispers back* i know!

buck: yeah! port and starboard have even started teaching other orcas to do the same! so far port and starboards record of how many sharks killed in a day is seventeen!

tommy: oh my god, that's insane baby, what else have port and starboard done?

buck: well they also hunt copper sharks and some fish, they even chased the great whites away from africa for seven weeks! but this isn't even the first time orcas have done something like this, in the early 1900's there was this orca called old tom who would help whalers hunt baleen whales, he even tugged the boats into the right position to get the whales, this happened in the port of eden new south whales in australia, you can actually go and see old tom's skeleton in eden killer whale meuseum, and on his teeth you can see marks from where he would pull the roaps! and old tom even has missing teeth because the whalers had this thing called "law of tounge" where they would strap the dead whales down so old tom and his pod could eat the lips and tongues, on the night where he lost his teeth logan, one of the davidson whaler friends tried to bring the whale in instead of pinning it down for old tom to eat, and old tom was pissed and tried to stop him, and he lost teeth, old tom died from starvation, when old tom died they thought he was 35, but the davidson family swore old tom helped three generations of their family with whaling, old tom was actually in his 90's when he died, they called old toms pod the killers of eden which-

tommy: would make an amazing true crime shark podcast name

buck:

eddie:

tommy:

hen:

buck: *tears up* you get me

[s0fter-sin]

soap's whole deal being sniper and demolitions gets me going bc on the surface they sound so different but when you get into it, you realise it's bc soap's smart

sniping is all math; calculating distances and wind interference and bullet drop. something i think people overlook is he was listed as a sniper first so it can be implied that he's better at it than demolitions. he does more sniping in both campaigns than demolitions work; in capture or kill, ghost specifically calls on him to take down the aq snipers

and demolitions is math with a hit of chemistry; knowing what mixes with what, knowing how much to use, recognising environmental factors and adjusting accordingly. it's not just about the boom; so much work goes into contained/ planned explosions. especially when having enough power for a breacher charge and not bringing down the whole building is the difference between mission success and failure

the chemical bombs he makes in alone can't just be any old cleaners, they have to have the correct reaction to each other; he just knew off the top of his head what would mix with what to create what reaction. he would also potentially have to recognise them by sight/smell bc they would’ve been written in spanish

soap would also have to know architecture; recognising structural integrity and weak points so he knows exactly where to plant a charge to bring it down and how it'll come down

he has an incredible soldier's mind people just forget that bc he's sociable which itself is a skill

we know he tends to buck against orders he doesn't agree with like when he pushes back against ghost in capture or kill and shepherd when he tells them to release hassan

he gets closer to people and sees if he can trust them and that's when he follows them without question. really think about how he talks to alejandro and rudy; he asks about their home and alejandro's family and rudy's relationship with him. those aren't questions you ask a stranger after a few hours of knowing them. that's not even touching on his relationship with ghost

he also deliberately brings people of higher ranks down to his level; talking informally with ghost and giving him a shoulder punch, addressing alejandro (a colonel!!) by his first name and rudy by his nickname despite literally just meeting them. he personalises all of them and it’s in direct opposition to the reason most characters do that; it’s not due to insubordination or lack of respect, the more he respects and trusts someone, the more casual he is with them

he digs into people; he wants to know what makes them tick and that determines if he can one, trust them and two, follow their orders. once he decides that, he's the ultimate soldier; he bleeds loyalty which makes him vicious when that loyalty is taken for granted

he isn't naive or bubbly or insecure; he's an incredibly smart and aware soldier. he's aggressive and bloodthirsty and loyal and intuitive and i love him so much

[dootznbootz]

Me, trying to unlearn shame and stop being a perfectionist:

[thedisablednaturalist]

Sometimes terms mean certain things and belong to certain groups of people and are not meant to apply to people outside that group. And that is on purpose and valid. You can make your own terms to describe your own experiences, you don't get to take terms from other people, especially people more vulnerable/less privileged than you. If multiple people tell you that the term is not for you, respect that.

When terms get used for many different situations they get diluted and trivialized. Remember "trigger"? It was a specific medical term and is now used to mean "something that pissed or upset someone". Brain fog is now turning into abled people just being a little sleepy or out of it, not literally a clinical term for brains not functioning correctly due to various illnesses. I tell someone I have brain fog and they say lol me too XD no you fucking don't. "Spirit animal" was taken from indigenous peoples so white people could make funny haha relatable t-shirts. Two spirit almost got taken by queer white people as well (although I think most people have backed off on that hopefully).

Not everything needs to apply to as many people as possible. You don't need to and can't relate to everyone. We can still support each other while respecting differences.

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[greensaplinggrace]

one of the things that bothers me most about late seasons btvs is the lack of continuity in relationships. like main events seem to carry over for the core crew, and the general emotion is there, but sometimes it feels like there should be stronger foundations where there is just sand, and it's incredibly disorienting. this seems to especially happen with spike, where he will have consistently positive and impactful interactions with the main characters in ways that should by all means be changing their impressions of him, and then in the next episode it's like none of that ever happened. that's enemy #1 soulless evil unthinking spike again, even though one scene ago you were playing pool with him and clearly realizing he experienced emotions and would die for you. like ??? where's the emotional follow-through.

[thatneoncrisis]

harrows a sped kid but gideon is a girl who should by all accounts at LEAST have a 504 plan but all adults dismiss her as merely combative and disruptive, at Best theyll throw in a "not utilizing her potential to the fullest." multiple teachers have vaguely alluded to her having ODD rather than think for a second about why she might be acting like that

[sergle]

Another day of “do I have adhd, or autism, or both, or do I just spend too much time on the websites that categorize all thoughts and behaviors as symptoms of some type of neurodivergence” 

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bros before Ho(oh my god is that Hanguang-Jun?)

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