#He's going to traumatize everyone somebody stop him he knows too much

[doodle17]

Raz being a little shit

[chokamo]

| you’re the loss of my life

pairing: logan sargeant x fem! reader

summary : the event that followed after your public breakup announcement with logan sargeant, as you faced through accepting new changes in your life .

a/n : reader is japanese <333

logansargeant and yourusername

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| thank you everyone who had stuck with us since. after much thought we have decided to part ways and move on to our own paths. we will always cherish the memories we share, we hope everyone respect our decisions and give us privacy to heal.

user WHAT

user NO WAYYYY

user ☹️☹️☹️

user did not expect this.

user oh!

user NOOOOOO

user my PARENTS

user was it the long distance? WHATT

user NOT ON MY BINGO CARD

oscarpiastri 🤍

user -> tell us the tea oscar

user oh no way. THEIR anniversary was literally three days ago 😭

user STOP IT WTF

user HUH

user WHAT IS HAPPENING???

user somebody deff cheated, they were fine moments ago

user dropping this before the japanese grand prix oh boy what can go wrong there

yourusername

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yourusername つかれた 。(exhausted/exhausting)

user oh….

user the wound is fresh i guess

user stay strong y/n

user i love the pics in this

user the amount of hate she’s getting is not healthy for someone to burden.

user -> what happened??

user -> alot of anti were happy they broke up saying he deserves way better etc etc ☹️

user -> 😭😭😭 thats so horrible omg

user i hope y/n is okay. the way your mind can easily be swayed when you’re in a vulnerable position is concerning.

user hope you are healing well ❤️‍🩹

oscarpiastri teach me your way to photo dumps 🧐

user -> lmaoo oscarr

user -> not the timeee oscar 😭

lilyzneimer love itttt 😮‍💨

user her aesthetic is on point!!!

user guys, let’s not spam y/n with logan stuff

user -> yeahh let her heal y’all

user -> agree! its bad enough their relationship is public

logansargeant

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logansargeant 📍japan

user stay strong soldier

user ah yes racing in my ex girlfriend country

user the timing is so 😭

user LMAO im sorry but i find this situation funny

oscarpiastri mate..

user OSCAR LOLLL

user -> don’t even oscar 😓😓

user definition of wherever you go i go

user oof, like that song?

user wait is his ex gf japanese? sorry im new to f1

user -> yep, they met years ago and started dating

user -> y/n is a well know model in japan 😊

user they were my fav couple

user the contrast between their post is uncanny

user his pr team is working overtime rn

user its inevitable for them to escape from each other lollll

yourusername

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yourusername がんばって (goodluck/do ur best)

user OH

user Y/N

user awww ☹️

user cute

user parents.

user despite all, they still can be friends and support each other, no?

user -> some can’t do that unfortunately

oscarpiastri can’t wait to hangout

you replied -> me too ☺️

lilyzneimer miss uu

you replied -> 🥹🥹🥹

user love how she still supports him

user WAVE TO EARTH! the taste is immaculate

user lowkey wishing they would get back together

logansargeant

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logansargeant 🇯🇵

user oh! nvm!

user that’s not y/n…

user we see the reason now

user so quick

user damn

user WELP.

user well ill be damn. LOGANNNN

user WOWWW

user am i suprised? not even

user SIGHHHHHHH

user new girl? gf?? or what??

user definitely cheated 👍

user BROOOOOOO

user ugh 😑

user out of all the drivers logan was not someone i expected to do this

yourusername

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yourusername 🙃

user Y/N

user DONT MIND HIM

user heal girl and then u can do the worst 😈

user mom side always

user we love u stay strong <3

user reminds me of what i went through

user -> literally! its traumatizing to be cheated on :(

user you are gorgeous honeyyuuy

user ill gladly be your rebound

user HE DIDNT DESERVE U QUEEN

oscarpiastri 🤍🤍

you replied -> thank u 🤍

user -> love the support from oscar

user aww no ☹️

user you deserve better ❤️‍🩹

lilyzneimer love u 🤍

you replied -> love you too 🫶🏻

user lily and y/n friendship >>>>

user miss this duo

user I NEED A Y/N and LILY REUNION?!?!!!!

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a/n : im not fluent in japanese but i am learning. if my translation are incorrect please feel free to inform me <3

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disclaimer: this is a work of fiction, the events and characters depicted are not based on real life, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.

[incorrect-riordanverse]

finally reading tsats here are my live thoughts (spoilers, obviously):

i’m so excited because some pages are darkly decorated and its so cool. still don’t vibe with the title though (the sun IS a star and its peeving me)

why are we talking about dating darth vader 😟 where are we rn (anakin is a yes, but DARTH VADER???)

maybe i’m too old but the jokes are not funny 😭

“this whole place feels like my soul. empty and dark. dark as the pit of the underworld.” <- i don’t care if he’s joking nico would never say thissss 🙏😭 we’re only 10 pages in but please stop butchering my fav character he’s not himselffff i am cringing so bad

i know i’m being dramatic but if they do nico dirty in this book i’m going to end it all

oh my god i don’t think i’ve thought about the words “significant annoyance” in so long. bringing back good memories for sure.

i can tell which parts were written by riordan and which parts were written by oshiro. i don’t think their voices are blending very well together…

also, maybe it’s because it’s the start of the book and they’re trying to familiarise new readers quickly with the characters but it feels like they’re making nico the caricature of ‘emo and shadow and ebony darkness dementia raven way 🥀⛓️🖤’ and will the caricature of ‘happy and sunshine and blonde and flower gleam and glow ☀️🌈🫧’ and i usually like this dynamic when it’s not blatantly pointed out every other page. i have faith they’ll show more complexity than this later on though. future yan will let me know by the end. (future yan here, im not at the end but the characterisation def does get more complex thank gods)

oh ok so it is bob the titan

since when was nico’s actual name niccolo??? how did i forget this detail??

“you have to listen if not you’ll share my fate.” “ominous much?” <- ok he’s finally himself again guys it’s all good

the one-sided beef nico has with percy will never not be funny

“cookie monster appeared over the mouth of the jar, reached inside and gobbled up nico like the chocolate-chip cookie he was.” <- nevermind i’ve gone back to hating this book again

“what was one straight boy when you spent your whole life longing for the impossible?” <- i’m reminded of that time a few years back where everyone made ‘having an unrequited crush on percy’ nico’s whole fanon personality, so i’m glad they addressed this somewhat. this boy has been through so much and people really thought crushing on percy was the biggest thing to focus on about ‘nico angst.’

“we made a mistake. you have to fix it.” <- call me a red flag but if i was nico i would do anything and everything to not go. i would medicate myself so highly on sleeping pills that i can’t dream (doctor bf can go kick rocks). i would track percy and annabeth down and haul their asses into tartarus instead to do it. and if i had to go i would only go in to kill bob myself for sending me those traumatic ass nightmares. no thx. bro willingly jumped in himself and now wants me to save him. nuh uh.

not cupid being will 😭 its like his aphrodite 😭 i am not well.

they always have a really good and emotionally moving scene and they ruin it with a dumb joke. let it be heavy 👏👏

something’s really fishy and i have a feeling that it might not be bob calling for him

if this whole “grumpy ball of darkness” thing continues i will actually lose it

you can’t tell me the percabeth pep talk was actually needed. i will forgive it because i miss them though

im sensing tension in the gap between nico’s connection to the underworld and his relationship with will and i’m here for ittttt. give me the dramaaa

who is the gorgyra girl and why is she in their business sm?

oh shit a will solace pov??? christmas came early 🙏

nevermind that whole nightmare sequence was so fucked up 😭😭

somebody HELP HIM i never thought we would get will angst (nico angst fs, but will???)

DONT JUMP IN THE STYX PLEASE

SOMEBODY TELL HIM HE’S HELPFUL OMG

nico strangling epiales in his sleep is so fucking cool he’s literally HIM he’s literally THAT GUY

[distort-opia]

Could you maybe explain to me what exactly Jason's problem with Bruce was/is when he came back?

Maybe I'm being stupid but I don't know. Like, I know there's this space between Jason's resurrection and Talia finding him... and Jason returing for a sec to kill Bruce, then changing his mind, and went back to Talia to plan The Ultimatum and travel the world a bit.

I went off the assumption that Jason thought Bruce didn't care enough for him to kill the Joker and then the whole stupid thing with the batarang to the neck after everyone thought Dick died.

But, like, Jason kind of destroyed his relationship with the batfam himself with the whole coming out of nowhere and trying to hurt/traumatize/kill them. I don't mean to hate on Jason specifically, I just don't get him on a fundamental level.

Would really appreciate if somebody could clear that up, I'm kind of desperate. Like I have most of the facts but it seems like a jigzaw puzzle with too many pieces and I can't make sense of it.

To be honest, I don't understand your confusion fully? You pretty much explained it yourself, why Jason was angry at Bruce after he came back. Even Judd Winick, the writer of Under the Red Hood, says it very concisely (in this interview):

When it comes to Jason's relationships with the Batfam, I'll once again let Winick explain his vision (transcription of a podcast episode to be found here):

You say that Jason harmed his relationship with the Batfam himself as if Jason's intention had been to have good relationships with them. At the times he went after Tim or Dick or Damian, I don't think he cared much about that, hah. Most of his choices at the time could be boiled down to "What would piss off Bruce the most, either directly or by proxy?"... and also, "What would get Bruce's attention the most?". Because that's what made it complicated, right. Jason wouldn't have gone to these extremes if he didn't care about Bruce.

As to things not making sense... you're not being stupid, I'm sorry to say that at least to me, it's impossible to reconcile all of Jason's actions within a coherent character. Just because he was written by different people in different continuities with very different goals (though maybe more accurately, by some writers lacking a goal, as in not really knowing what to do with him). This is true for most comic book characters, not just Jason; true consistency is a pipe dream when the history of a character spans decades. Keeping that in mind, my personal approach is forming an idea of the original core traits of a character (which is why I gave examples of what Winick himself said), and then filtering their subsequent portrayals through that. Some comics will be horribly OOC despite them technically being canon and you simply have to go the "I recognize that the Council has made a decision, but given that it's a stupid-ass decision I've elected to ignore it" route. Then there's, of course, your personal preferences; you can choose what is canon to you because you like it, and form your idea of a character around those instances-- though here I'd always warn to never stop being aware that it's your idea of the character. There is no absolute truth, and we're all playing in a sandbox. Other people will choose other instances of canon, or try to reconcile all of them somehow, and your ideas might not jive. That's perfectly fine.

That being said, while I do like Jason a lot, he isn't my full-time blorbo, so I'm sure other Jason scholars could respond to this much better than I did! If anyone wants to add more in-depth answers, please do.

[lunerna21]

……Is anyone else kinda disappointed with how Playful Land ended up being?? Or it is just me??

***Slight Spoilers for Playful Land Ahead***

Don’t get me wrong, it was an enjoyable event and everything and I loved seeing new people bonding that we typically wouldn’t see interact like Leona and Trey.

But besides that, it felt sort of lackluster compared to Glorious Masquerade.

Like Azul, Idia and Malleus and the others demonstrated growth compared to their involvement of the main story. Even in Glorious Masquerade, we witnessed everyone going through something traumatic with how dangerous the Fire Lotuses could be, to the scary thought that anyone could lose their magic forever because of Rollo’s choices.

Like I was on the EDGE of my seat as I’m watching students from NRC fight this with everything and EVERY SINGLE STUDENT progressed and showed how much they’ve grown over time.

AND I LOVED IT! ITS STILL MY FAVORITE EVENT!

…..But I don’t think Playful Land lived up to the potential it could have been…

Don’t get me wrong, Fellow blew Rollo out of the water with how fucked up and dark the concept was for Playful Land.

I had to stop SEVERAL times to compute the fucking fact that this is happening to people, and many others weren’t able to stop Fellow and Gidel in time. Like shit was FUCKED UP

BUT WHY DID THEY STOP TALKING ABOUT THE DUDE BEHIND THE SCENES INVOLVING HUMAN TRAFFICKING!?

LIKE NO IT SHOULDN’T JUST END WITH EVERYONE CELEBRATING AND DANCING AND SINGING

SHOULDNT SOMEBODY REPORT WHOEVER THIS WAS, MAYBE HAVE FELLOW RATTING HIM OUT SO IT STOPS HAPPENING!?

Like why did they show Ace slightly scared with the concept of turning into puppets? If it was me, I’d be shitting bricks thinking my body is slowing turning into a mindless puppet and never returning NRC.

And even Kalim I feel like they didn’t really use the opportunity to grow from how he was in Book 4. Ortho showed some growth, but Fairy Gala Remix demonstrated more of how much Ortho was beginning to grow from an android to a human being, to being himself.

Not only the main three, but Lilia, Jade and the others didn’t really get a spotlight moment where we feel proud from how far they came from their involvement in the main story.

ALSO ME BEING AN ACEYUU PSYCHO I WAS HOPING FOR A MOMENT LIKE IN GLORIOUS MASQUERADE WITH ACE COMING IN TO SAVE US OR SHOWING SOME HINT OF WORRY.

BUT NO. NOPE. WE DIDNT GET ANY OF THAT AND I WANNA FLIP THE FUCK OUT I NEED MORE ACEYUU MOMENTS TOGETHER

One thing I did enjoy was there was more interaction with Fellow, Gidel and MC, even after the reveal of Fellow and Gidel’s intentions.

But I just feel like it didn’t live up to being a potential contender for Glorious Masquerade.

Even some of the groovy cards weren’t spectacular. I loved Ace, Ortho and Kalim but the others kinda seemed half-assed

AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT WHY THEY ALWAYS FUCK UP THE COLOR OF LEONAS SKIN IN EACH OF HIS GROOVY CARDS!? That and it just looks they didn’t put any effort into his groovy whatsoever.

Can we please give Leona a stunning groovy with perfect lighting and color for once!?

I’m kinda worried of what they’re gonna do with the concept of Halloween next year, but I just hope they don’t make it another traumatic event like the past Halloween event

Let’s just give the NRC students and staff a break because what the fuck they went through I would’ve been traumatized, ESPECIALLY TURNING INTO A FUCKING WOODEN PUPPET

AND I HAVENT EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE VIGNETTES BEING MENTIONED (part of it obviously due to some cards not having a vignette) but when Glorious Masquerade came out EVERYONE WAS IN SHAMBLES

I guess only time will tell, but let me know what you thought of Playland Land too I’m super curious if it’s only me who felt this way

But anyway, enjoy the rest of your day~~!❤️❤️❤️

[sooniessoulmate]

𝙻𝚎𝚐𝚒𝚘𝚗 - 𝚂𝟸 𝙲𝚑.𝟷 - 𝙰𝚝𝚎𝚎𝚣 𝚘𝚝𝟾 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜

♥️𝚜𝟷 𝚖𝚕 ♠️ 𝚜𝟸 𝚖𝚕 ♦️𝚌𝚑.𝟸♣️

𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝟷 : 𝚒𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚊𝚠𝚏𝚞𝚕

The shooting subsided leaving an eerie silence. YN skipped down the upstairs hallway making her way up to the rooftop. 

She stood in the doorway, silently watching Seonghwa and Wooyoung who were still looking down on the lawn. YN took a deep breath, forcing some tears out before running out and exposing herself. 

“I did it,” she cried, “I killed him.”

Seonghwa and Wooyoung quickly turned around to see her standing before them with blood all over her clothing and tears pouring down her cheeks. 

“You didn’t get hurt, did you?” Wooyoung asked running over to encompass her in a soothing embrace. 

Yn pretended to cry into his shoulder, “no I wasn’t hurt, I never killed anyone before, Wooyoung it was awful. I’m gonna see his dying face every time I close my eyes.” 

Wooyoung rubbed her back in a comforting way, “oh baby, you had no choice. He wasn’t gonna stop coming until someone took him out.”

“I’m so sorry I’m not stronger or as tough as you,” yn continued. “I thought I could handle doing this but I guess I was wrong.”

“But you did handle it, you did it better than me,” Wooyoung continued rubbing her back. “I failed when I tried to kill him but you managed to finish the job. It’s ok to be a little upset about it.”

Yn pulled back so she could look into Wooyoung’s eyes, “were you upset when you…when you…when you first did this?”

“I don’t remember,” Wooyoung sighed. “I was only five but I'm sure I was a little upset.”

“You killed someone when you were five?” Yn gasped

Before Wooyoung had time to respond, Mingi ran onto the roof. “Seonghwa,” Mingi said, breathing heavily, “Hongjoong was hit.”

“Where is he?” Seonghwa asked racing towards the door leading inside. 

“Your office,” Mingi said in between deep breaths. 

Seonghwa didn’t say another word, he instantly rushed to his office. Wooyoung started to chase after him, yn grabbed his arm pulling him back towards her. “I want to hear the rest of your story later,” she whispered into Wooyoung’s ear while squeezing his ass with her free hand. 

Wooyoung nodded but said nothing before continuing to chase after his boss. After Wooyoung was out of sight, yn looked at Mingi with a crooked smile. 

“Why are you so bloody?” He asked. 

“Oh Mingi, it was awful,” yn started, forcing tears out once again. “I killed somebody tonight.”

“That’s awful,” Mingi sighed. 

“Have you ever been through this, Mingi?” Yn wondered. 

“Maybe,” Mingi nodded, “killing never gets easier. Hopefully you’ll never have to do it again.”

“I sure hope I don’t,” yn cried, covering her face with her hands, fearing that she’d subconsciously smile. 

Mingi rushed over to yn, wrapping his giant arms around her slender body attempting to lend some comfort. “It’ll be ok, everyone here will do anything they can to get you through this.”

“I appreciate that so much,” yn said, burying her head into Mingis chest. 

“I really mean that too,” Mingi announced. “I know I’d do pretty much anything you want me to and I know the rest of the guys would too.”

Yn took a deep breath before pulling back to look at Mingi. She pretended to force a smile as a tear streamed down her cheek, “I think you might be the sweetest person that I have ever met in my life.”

“I’m not really this sweet,” Mingi huffed looking away. 

“But you are,” yn argued. 

“NO I'M NOT!” Mingi yelled. 

“Ok ok,” yn nodded unsure of what brought the heavy emotion out of him. 

“Isn’t this a sight for sore eyes,” jongho snarled walking onto the rooftop. “Mingi, you’re needed downstairs in the boss’s office.”

“What for?” Mingi asked. 

“Go!” Jongho snarled.

“Fine,” Mingi huffed releasing yn. 

Before Mingi could walk away yn whispered, “I’m not this sweet either.”

Mingi looked back at her a little confused but walked off without saying another word. 

Jongho glared at yn a few moments before speaking, “hmm, it seems you went through quite a traumatic event, didn’t ya?”

Yn nodded as tears continued to stream down her face, “it was truly awful.”

“Which part was worse for you?” Jongho started. “Watching Wang's life drain from his body or coming to the realization that he was telling the truth about you this whole time?”

Yn stopped the tears, looking at jongho, surprised, “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” she denied. 

“So tell me, did you kill him to get revenge for woo or to keep your secrets safe?” Jongho asked. 

Yn cocked her head as a red glint flashed through her eyes, “You know every single person is a fool, insane, a failure, or a bad person to at least ten people and I’m all of the above,” she smiled. 

“What?” Jongho asked. 

An evil smile overtook her face before she screamed out, “oh my god, Wooyoung help me!!”

Yn quickly pulled Jackson’s gun out from where she previously shoved it and shot herself in the thigh then quickly tossed it at jongho’s face. He instinctively caught the weapon, mid air before coming in contact with his face. 

Wooyoung ran onto the roof, rage instantly taking over his body when he observed yn laying on the floor bleeding from her thigh and jongho holding a gun. “What the fuck?!” He snarled. 

“Wooyoung help me,” yn pleaded. “He’s trying to kill me.”

Wooyoung pulled his 9mm out from his pants, aiming it at jongho. 

“Listen man,” Jongho started. “She’s a crazy bitch, she shot herself.”

“You expect me to believe that?” Wooyoung growled cocking his weapon. 

“That’s the gun wang pulled on me downstairs,” yn cried. 

Wooyoung aimed his gun at jongho’s left knee cap and pulled the trigger causing him to fall to the ground. 

“Jesus Christ Wooyoung,” jongho screamed. 

Wooyoung didn’t hesitate, he pulled the trigger two more times until the gun jammed. 

“What the fuck is going on?” San growled running over to jongho who was slowly losing consciousness. “Stay with me.”

Wooyoung ignored San, walked over to jongho aiming his gun at his head, “I hope you’re ready to meet your maker,” he snarled. 

San stood up, blocking jongho from Wooyoung. “Yo man, you need to fucking stop now!”

“He shot yn, he needs to fucking die,” Wooyoung yelled. “Now get out of the way!”

San grabbed the gun in Wooyoung’s hand, “you should tend to yn,” he said trying to distract Wooyoung, “I think she needs you. I’ll deal with jongho.”

Wooyoung hesitated, glanced back at yn laying on the ground with blood soaking her pants, causing him to run over to her. 

Once Wooyoung became engulfed in tending to yn, San picked jongho up and carried him off the roof, bridal style. He ran down into Seonghwa’s office. “We need to get jongho to the hospital,” San announced.

♥️𝚜𝟷 𝚖𝚕♠️𝚜𝟸 𝚖𝚕 ♦️𝚗𝚎𝚡𝚝♣️

♥️♠️𝚃𝚊𝚐𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 - 𝙾𝙿𝙴𝙽♦️♣️

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[444m777]

29 things I love about Michael: Day 14

This one might be a little weird to say but I was 11 years old when I found out Michael struggled with severe acne. Eleven being the age where it exploded and it became severe and I struggled with being teased and having all kinds of adults/family giving their unsolicited advice on what to do. It was a time where my mom told me she cried whenever she thought back to when I like 7 before my acne took over my face. My grandmother cried with tears running down her face. I went to visit her in Sint Martin as a surprise and she saw me and saw my face and wept! She said in tears how am I supposed to find a man with my face looking the way it did. YIKES! I was a child… very fucked up but yeah… it made me dislike mirrors/seeing my reflection BUT it was when Michael revealed he too had severe acne and the very wrong and unwarranted things people said to him made me feel like he was talking TO me.

Two things were going through my mind. Actually three things. First I was watching Living with Michael Jackson and I watched it secretly because my mom banned me from watching or speaking about Michael because she felt I was too obsessed blah blah… so I had to be on the look out (luckily the car they had at the time made a loud pitch so I could hear them coming). I kept running back and forth to the tv screen and the porch to make sure they weren’t outside. Second, THE Michael Jackson had acne!? But he’s perfect!? Is this some kind of joke? But I believed him immediately. My kid brain was just shocked! Not that he had acne but the fact that he got treated so badly for something he couldn’t help. Like, when he recounted someone asking for him and then they saw him and went “ewwww, what happened?”. I was almost in tears. Tears of sadness because I could relate to the hurt he felt because I was living it. I basically was like even Michael went through such a traumatic experience. I’m older now so idk how the public reaction to acne is nowadays. It’s certainly not blown out of proportion the way it was in my days and I’m sure also in his days. People can be terribly mean spirited and growing up with severe acne it was like I was given a death sentence. I was no longer a person. I was just a walking talking cluster of pustules.

“You were so cute when you were younger”. Uhm… I’m 11 I’m still young and still very much cute! But I never had the heart to say how I felt. I just kept it all in but boy did I cry myself to sleep because of it. But that night is what lead me to the third thing… I felt seen. And not just by someone who also had acne but I felt seen by THE Michael Jackson. There was a switch that night especially after that whole moment. I could say with honesty that that part of the documentary (even though Martin B. was a rat and an opportunist) it changed something in my brain. I no longer felt sorry for myself. Like I didn’t feel cursed. I was the only one in my family that had severe acne. My big sister had her acne moment and it hit her like a brick but it hit me like a WRECKING BALL! So it just made everyone focus on the fact that I looked “unclean”. Ugh the information regarding acne and the things people would say… my god! I know with the increase in interest for skincare, it’s changed but the damage had already been done. But Michael was a little salve of hope that maybe this is something I can “get over” and that it’s also not the end of the world. He didn’t stop. He didn’t crumble. It was tough and hurtful, but he knew he was more than just his skin condition. He got through it. And I held on to that for years. I still think about it often.

The power of media/media representation is so interesting and important that it has become a buzzword and is still gravely overlooked. To be a Black kid with acne being told you won’t find a man (at an age where you shouldn’t be worrying or thinking about being an eligible partner to somebody), being told that you were once beautiful and that that time has passed because you clearly aren’t beautiful anymore, receiving all kinds of “medical” advice that amounted to nothing, to watch your own mother be frustrated that you did everything in your power NOT to let it bother you because in her eyes it meant you did not care for your skin and situation… I just didn’t want to make it a big deal. I was a child but I understood very quickly that it was puberty/hormones. But my mom and everyone else turned it into a curse. My life was over at the age of 11. And Michael came in like “yeah it sucks but you’re going to be okay baby girl”. That was all I needed. He didn’t say it like that but that’s how I took it. I was forever changed. I stopped worrying so much about what everyone was saying. It hurt but the sting didn’t linger. I remember telling my mom about finding out Michael had severe acne too and she dismissed it🙃 My relationship with her now is MUCH better by the way. But back then… YIKES! 🥴

Anyways, I love that Michael gave me strength in such a terribly edited and purposely damning documentary. The pictures I’ve looked up years later of him with acne made me feel like I wasn’t alone. It’s so easy to feel isolated. To feel like you’re the ONLY ONE going through something shitty. I sometimes see those same pictures edited with a blur. And I get it, he would’ve scrubbed the world of those pictures if he could but I really like them. It shows and reminds me that we’re all human. I don’t see his scars/acne. I saw a lovely kid full of life. That is what I wanted people to see in me and not constantly point out my acne. I could go on and on but you get the point. We’re all going through some version of the same things but we’re more than our physical bodies and their conditions. Michael made me feel less ugly and more like myself at that age. So, thank you Michael for literally making me feel like I’m not gross at the age of 11 and that I wasn’t the only one who had acne the way I had it.

It’s Michael’s birthday month and so I’m sharing every day something I love about him. Feel free to join in or use the tag #29thingsMJ I’d love to read what you love about him

[vyrid]

The way Tom Riddle Jr. was conceived never sat right with me. It has so many plot holes, things that don't add up, and it sounds pretty aggressive towards people who are born under the influence of rape.

In the 6th book, Dumbledore says that Merope used the love potion on Tom Riddle Sr. so that they would be together, and she got pregnant along the way. She stopped the usage of Amortentia when she found out she was with child in hopes that Tom Riddle Jr's birth would make Sr. love her. Instead of loving her, Sr was horrified and ran away from her, leaving her pregnant and broke. He was traumatized from being raped and therefore didn't want anything to have to do with his son.

I don't like Dumbledore's theory. I hate it, actually. Because it doesn't make any sense. We can see from the memories Harry and him go through that Merope was practically a squib and had only a drop of magic in her. She could barely wave around her wand, for God's sake! How the hell would a woman as weak as her make Amortentia not once but multiple times? You need to be decent at magic to even attempt to make the love potion. Her drugging Tom Riddle Sr. suggests that she was a powerful witch, but she clearly isn't, as shown in Gaunt House.

Even if she didn't make the potion herself, there is no way that she bought it either considering she was dirt poor and Amortentia, being the strongest love potion and all, was probably very expensive.

It would have made more sense for Tom Riddle Sr. to dump Merope when he found out she was a witch. Merope would have thought that since she was with a child, Sr. would have mercy and try to look at the situation with a cool head. But he left her, and probably never went looking for Tom Jr. because he would be "freaky" like Merope, too.

It would make a lot of sense for Tom to hate muggle's with such a passion, too, because his own father made his life hell because he hated him for having magic. It makes the whole situation seem like more muggles ruined my life, so I'll ruin theirs instead of I'm a hopeless bully simply hungry for power. It would make the impact of what Voldemort became so much stronger, instead of the usual pure-evil for no reason cliche.

And Tom Riddle killing Sr. would have hit so much different, knowing that Tom knew that Sr. hated him because he was a wizard, just like everyone else in his life (Mrs. Cole, the kids at the orphanage.) Tom wouldn't care for Merope enough to commit murder, no matter how much of a psychopath that he was. But somebody insulting him for who he was? Now that would have done it.

People say that her using the potion was necessary because of Voldemort not being able to love, but I have a lot of things to say about this and none of it is friendly. Claiming that since he was a product of loveless intercourse, he in turn didn't have what it was needed to love another is blasphemy. Children born from rape can't love? What? Yes, it is true that kids born of rape are more likely to be anxious and have anxiety and be more detached than other kids, but they are humans, too. They can and have the right to love, too.

If she wanted to make Voldemort loveless so badly, she could have given him a personality disorder or simply made him aromantic. Depersonalization disorder, borderline personality disorder, or emotional detachment all make it really hard to form healthy relationships with other people. Sarah, an actress with depersonalization disorder, said on BBC news that, "I was unable to love." Something along those lines could have been easily fitted into the story instead of attacking kids born from rape.

If that didn't fit into anything J.K.R could do, she could have just used the excuse of him being a psychopath and not caring for love, or having the time to think about it, because he believed himself superior to anyone else, even in the love department.

She could have done so much with Tom Riddle, instead of making him exactly like all the other baseless villains, and she wasted the opportunity. Anyway, she says that Dumbledore thought that was a theory anyway, so I'm going to continue believing what I said above as canon because nowhere in the book actually confirmed that Dumbledore was right and I don't trust Rowling outside of the series.

Very disappointed, Joanne. 👎

[marshmallowprotection]

just had a random thought, imagining MC having a really weak immune system like saeran and saeyoung getting really overprotective when it comes to anyone being sick. like we've all seen him taking care of them when they get sick but before that... anyone who doesn't live in the house isn't allowed in if they even have a cold. imagining someone sneezing while visiting and saeyoung brandishing an industial sized can of disinfectant. the slightest cough from saeran or MC sends him into Mother Hen Mode (saeran and MC have to try to get him to calm down. like saeyoung, honey, my dude, a cough isn't going to kill us. we're okay. take a deep breath)

Heaven forbid these two get caught up in fears about someone’s illness. It just won't stop once it gets started. This is one of those things that's going to keep going and keep going.

Saeran has a weak immune system. It’s getting better the more he works outside in the sun and gets taken care of by his doctor... but there’s only so much you can do to help your immune system. He’s naturally at a disposition compared to other people because of his stunted growth as a child.

So, even he’s got to be careful when the seasons change. He has to watch his limits all those days when the flu is going around. He does worry about getting others sick or getting sick himself when things go around the house.

But, he’s more than prepared these days. He’s got everything you could need to take care of someone on a bad day. There's a cabinet stocked full of anything that you could think of that someone might need when they're sick. There's a system for this. Even if everyone in the house gets sick, there's a list of things to do and check out for the person who can handle getting around the easiest.

If not them, then one of your friends who has time to drop by and lend a helping hand.

The pantry also has a few things that could take care of somebody in need when needed. It might seem like he's prepared for the end of the world, but it's better to be safe than sorry in the event somebody gets hurt and there's no way to get them where they need to be. He is all hands on deck. He needs to be. These things help him cope with his paranoia and as long as he has control over that, he's able to do what he needs to do.

Saeyoung is in better condition because he was able to get his shots and start on a regimen with the agency a la Vanderwood. But, he has times just like his brother even if he’s mindful. He’s far more paranoid about someone in a feverish state than Saeran. He used to spend his childhood holding back tears as long as possible to seem strong and tough in front of his brother.

There are things he did that he won't even tell people about. A lot of it was traumatizing but he won't even acknowledge that it was. He had to save change from his mother’s errands to get medication for his brother when it was possible, for example.

It was always hit or miss, too. He would have to try to learn how to read on his own to be able to make sure that he was getting the right medicine. There were times when he didn't. It wasn't like he could ask anybody to help him out since it would be very confusing why a child would be asking that.

It wasn’t always possible to be safe.

So, yeah, you're right. There are a lot of things to think about when it comes to somebody being sick in this household around the twins. They know how to handle it but at the same time, it always feels like a reminder of the past that they cannot run away from. Being sick... the chance of having a fever that might kill you... how can they not think of those days whenever your skin is flush and your body weak from utter exhaustion?

Saeyoung is worst about trying to be a mother hen to his brother and MC. It's a force of habit. Doesn't matter if you're his MC, or Saeran's. He will be concerned about your well-being no matter what because you're his family, one way or the other. It might not come with weight on the chest like it does for the twins... but you can feel the tension in the room, even if you're feverish.

An unspoken fear of: "I hope they don't die," & "I won't let them die."

When Saeran is sick, Saeyoung knows what to do... but if he gets sick and Saeran has to take care of him? Yikes. That's an area of trauma that nobody should unpack. The guilt Saeyoung feels for not being the one to take care of everyone is strong... even if he's the one who needs help. But, Saeyoung needs to learn that Saeran can help him and so can anyone else. Saeran isn't helpless!

And, it's okay if Saeyoung needs help.

Basically, getting sick around Saeyoung and Saeran can come with a mess of problems and unpacked trauma.

[sunderedazem]

do you taste my pain in this bloodstained place - chapter 12

Authors: @dream-of-tanalorr and @spyscrapper

Rating: Mature Fandom: Star Wars Jedi: Survivor Relationship: Bode/Cal (Spyscrapper) Sideship: Merrin/Mosey (Nighthunter, M&Ms) Major Tags: Graphic Depictions of Violence - Dead Dove: Do Not Eat (Some) Minor Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Torture, Angst, Slow Burn, Betrayal, Whump, Somebody Lives/Not Everyone Dies, Emotional Manipulation, Kidnapping, Dark Cal Kestis, Harm to Children, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Unreliable Narrator, thinking the other is dead, Mutual Pining, Codependency, Unhealthy Relationships, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Depression, Eventual Happy Ending, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Attempt

Chapter Summary:

"You look like shit, scrapper."

Chapter Start:

Cal haunts the halls of Sobrik General Hospital’s ICU like a ghost. It’s hard to tell how long he’s been here - long enough that Balmorra’s ridiculously-long rotation cycle is fading into dusk, long enough the hospital staff have gone through a shift change, long enough that the sedative Merrin foisted on him earlier has worn off, long enough he’s taken another stim (a nurse had watched him do it, and had wordlessly gone and brought him a sharps container to dispose of the injector in). He’d been… somewhat cleared to leave by a doctor and one of his combat medics - or rather, they’d suggested he consent to a cycle in a bacta tank, and when he refused, they’d treated his injuries (some shrapnel cuts, a burn from the AT-AT’s overload, a point-blank blaster burn in his shoulder, another fairly nasty burn on his chest from Bode’s overheated armor) with bacta patches and bandages and some stitches over the worst of the gashes. He’d been offered painkillers; he’d refused those too. After that, there’d been nothing they could do to stop him from leaving to skulk through hallways coated white and bustling with medical professionals and choked with equipment. He wants - he needs to see Bode. He can’t stop replaying that moment over and over again in his mind’s eye, the way Bode could’ve let him die and been rid of the man he professes to hate so much, and had instead thrown himself between Cal and a wound he knows even he wouldn’t be able to shake off. The way Bode had looked at him, when Cal had rolled him onto his side, dark eyes soft and warm and the smallest curve to his lips as he’d stared at Cal’s face like- like he was memorizing it. It makes him want to scream, because he doesn’t- he doesn’t understand, he can’t. The last thing Bode had said to him before departing for his infiltration had been a snide play on the almost-relationship they’d had when Bode was lying and playing Cal like a hallikset, the last real interaction the way Bode had slapped at him with all the force of his hatred when Cal had accidentally let his aura slip from behind the shields he’s so terrible at maintaining. How could Bode go from that to- sacrificing his life for Cal in the span of hours?

(Again, mind the tags! There's a lot of them, and not all of them are above)

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[ivettel]

up haunted by the narrative*

*nintendo/game freak actually ending arven’s story Like That. like maybe it’s part of a phenomenon we’ve seen in recent years in the industry, where older and beloved franchises have dev teams that have similarly matured and grown, and we get games like god of war that actively deal with parenthood and mortality beyond just going berserk on bots, but holy shit. to not only acknowledge that death and childhood abandonment exist and are painful and traumatic—in a franchise where death is this handwavey thing and the most explicit it’s come is probably the marowak plot point in gen 1–but to also message that love beyond the grave doesn’t fix anything, that it’s okay to be angry and confused and bitter about having to say goodbye. and in the same stroke, also validate the good in goodbye, where there can be room for change and growth past that???

it feels like a personal love letter to a past self, like somebody lost their parent and didn’t know how to cope, whether to forgive, or to move on as quickly as possible, and they allowed themselves some healing through this character. arven’s plight in general just resonates so deeply with what i think everyone struggles with at some point in their lives—growing up. trying to become your own person while dealing with the pain of losing the things that matter most to you. he is just so devastatingly human. in a sense, arven is defined by loss: that of innocence, of childhood, of parents, which culminates in a heartbreaking expression of resignation that he’ll lose mabosstiff as well. like all he wants to do is save his dog, the one and only constant presence in his life, because he cannot deal with the fear that he will lose it too. but through saving mabosstiff and being arven’s friend, and through the closure he gets from seeing his parents move on to the next world, we’re able to help release him from this cycle. and isn’t that just what we need sometimes? permission to let go?? whether intentional or not, this game feels like permission to move on from the hurt, to just live life to the fullest and be, if not the very best that no one ever was, at least better.

i started crying once turo said “look how much you’ve grown” and didn’t stop. it’s been weeks since beating this game and i continue to be floored by like. the maturity displayed in it, or the trust it has that the audience is mature enough to handle it. the way it doesn’t shy away from ugly feelings and how it validates them without enabling them. the way it appreciates that relationships can be difficult and sometimes unfixable, even with the people you’re supposed to share unconditional love with. the way it explicitly tells the player that they can be themselves and pursue happiness despite it all. hands down favourite pokemon game to date

[spidersiren]

BACKSTORY LOADING [ . . . ] CHASE TOLLIVER.

chase tolliver is earth 9945's doc ock, essentially. it wasn't a lab accident, but rather another case of radioactivity, simply not from a spider. chase and lorelai grew up in the same circle, in a way. while porter was her best friend, chase was the bright eyed lacrosse player that matched her level of popularity. it was a little bit expected they'd get together, and so they did. she did like him, but she also liked how obsessive he was. how hungry. for a girl with abandonment issues, she almost didn't mind the overbearing behavior. it wasn't healthy, obviously, but neither was she.

it wasn't a good relationship. nothing about it was warm, or sweet, or happy. it was the first place she learned that you could hate somebody and not leave them. she was used to the walk away from her mom, but chase ? chase hated her but would not let her go. he just wouldn't. she distanced herself from porter, lost close contact with just about everyone she once loved. chase and lor got bit by their respective creatures on the same night. some kind of --------- anomaly in the waters. it was never meant to happen, and it was supposed to be porter and lor out that night, but she took chase instead.

maybe porter would still be alive if they got bit. maybe they would've been better at all this than she is.

chase goes dark. he goes dark. he lacks control of his abilities at first, and for a long time, everyone thinks he died underwater. a freak accident while swimming with his girl. lor, shaken and knowing the truth, tells no one that chase grew tentacles and disappeared. her own abilities start kicking in after that, and lor has a few months to work on herself, learn her own abilities, before chase emerges.

he's different after that. even worse. he is cruel and cold and power hungry, and he lies to her face that nothing happened to him, that she swallowed too much seawater and was confused.

the deaths begin, and they don't stop.

chase keeps lor tied so tightly to him that she stops going home, she stops seeing porter, she stops everything. lor forgets what it is to be her own, and this is a huge factor of her fear of intimacy. relationships. love.

i'll delve into it in another post but chase kills porter. he tries to get lor to work alongside him, but she refuses. their fight nearly kills her, too, but it's chase who retreats into the sea. while protecting her earth, lor is always on the lookout for him, but he hasn't shown his face in years.

lorelai is deeply traumatized by the lack of positive relationships in her life. her abandonment from her mom, her mostly absent father, the death of her best friend and arguably the only person who ever loved her gently, and then chase. she can't handle kindness, doesn't know anymore what it feels like to be loved in a way that isn't transactional. lorelai has poor boundaries and such a deep need to be cared about. she seeks it out with pleasure and adrenaline seeking behaviors and doesn't think she's actually capable of being cared about romantically so she avoids it. she'll be mean until she's ruined everything for herself.

[atyd1960]

Marauders era characters and ships as SOUR songs with little to no explanation cause I’m not at all concerningly obsessed w Olivia!!

Brutal as Peter

- I already said on multiple occasions that I think Peter would be Olivia’s n.1 fan

- I’m so insecure I think, that I’ll die before I drink

- I don’t stick up for myself, I’m anxious and nothing can help

- All I did was try my best, this the kinda thanks I get?

Traitor as Crystalflower/Azkaban Wolfstar

- continuing with the Peter is an OR fan narrative thanks to @rmoony01 hehe

- Brown guilty eyes and little white lies

- Loved you at your worst, but that didn’t matter

- Ain’t it funny, all the twisted games, all the questions you used to avoid?

- God I wish that you had thought this through before I went and fell in love with you.

Driver’s License as post break-up Jegulus (Regulus’ PoV)

- You’re probably with that blonde (redhead) girl who always made me doubt, she’s so much older than me, she’s everything I’m insecure about

- You said forever, now I drive alone past your street

- Today I drove through the suburbs, and pictured I was driving home to you

- Can’t drive past the places we used to go to, cause I still fucking love you, babe!

- I kinda wanna quote every single line but I’ll stop here:(

1 Step Forward, 3 Steps Back as 5th year ATYD Wolfstar (specific I know)

- You got me fucked up in the head boy, never doubted myself so much

- Am I pretty am I fun boy? I hate that I give you power over that kinda stuff

- I’d leave you but the rollercoaster’s all I ever had

Good 4 u as Post breakup Marylily (Mary’s PoV)

[They broke up even tho they were in love bc Mary had a lot of internalised homophobia&religious trauma that Lily didn’t really know how to handle]

- Well good for you I guess you moved on really easily, you found a new girl (guy) and it only took a couple weeks

- Now you can be a better man (girl) for your brand new girl (man)

- G4U, you look happy and healthy- not me! If you ever cared to ask

- Remember when you swore to God I was the only person who ever got you? Well screw that! And screw you!

Enough For You as Grant

- I don’t usually talk about Grant but like… my boy just wanted Remus to love him the way he always loved Remus and meanwhile Remus was 2 busy being traumatized by his ex and it makes me so sad

- I wore makeup when we dated cause I thought you’d like me more if I looked like the other prom queens I know that you loved before

- Tried so hard to be everything that you liked, just for you to say you’re not the compliment type

- I knew how you took your coffee and your favorite songs by heart

- I read all of your self help books so you’d think that I was smart

- But don’t tell me you’re sorry, boy, feel sorry for yourself, cause someday I’ll be everything to somebody else

[gonna go cry now xoxoxo]

Jealousy, Jealousy as Marlene

- I kinda wanna throw my phone across the room, cause all I see are girls too good to be true

- I know their beauty’s not my lack, but it feels like that weight is on my back, and I can’t let it go

- I’m so sick of myself

- I see everyone getting all the things I want and I’m happy for them but then again I’m not

- Got a pretty face, a pretty boyfriend too, I wanna be you so bad

Favorite Crime as post prank Wolfstar

- Doe eyed as you buried me, one heart broke, four hands bloody

- The things I did just so I could call you mine, the things you did… well I hope I was your favorite crime

- I crossed my heart as you crossed the line

- everything we broke and all the trouble that we made, but I say that I hate you with a smile on my face

Hope ur ok as all the Marauders!

- Nothing’s forever, nothing’s as good as it seems

- When the clouds won’t iron out and the monsters creep into your house and every door is hard to close… well, I hope you know how proud I am you were created with the courage to unlearn all of their hatred, but, god, I hope that you’re happier today- cause I love you, and I hope that you’re ok.

[shadowbrightshine]

You know, my brother and I both are into horror things and blood and stuff, but he never got into creepypasta. My mom is worried about him and his chithulu thing, or how he learns about irl shock content so often. He doesn't watch it, he's disgusted by it, but he has a bad habit of sharing it with us.

I'm arguably into worse stuff, but I'm able to keep it out of conversations outside discussing my writing, and I stop when my mom says it's too much.

She's worried about him, and has asked me to not share anymore of my horror things with him. I haven't in awhile, he's finding it himself. But I kinda agree, he's been absorbing it and then saying this stuff to everyone. Audiences matter. And my brother isn't an edgy shock sort of teenage boy. He's honestly growing up to be a rather outstanding upstanding man. I'm really proud of him. He's had plenty of problems, but none of them are misogyny, racism, or ableism.

So it sort of gives the wrong idea when he's telling someone he barely met the interacisies of saw traps with the excitement of talking about our pet cat. See we also are very into separate sectors. He's much more into horror movies, whereas I'm more into the reading, artwork, and short film types.

Which isn't bad, but it also means that he's able to show us clips. My family doesn't watch horror movies, and I wasn't allowed to play bloody games growing up. That along with being, I think legitimately slightly traumatized by Cupcakes put me off gore. Or excessive gore especially. When I write it, I try ro give it a purpose and I tone it down.

I can't handle seeing guts onscreen if it's too realistic.

My brother plays such games all the time, and he's much better at shooters than me. So we've drifted apart alot in what we consume. None of this is bad.

It just means I can't warn him to not say some of the stuff. Same with some of the more offensive humor he likes. He doesn't repeat it. But there was an incident with a tomska video where it ended in a Jewish violence joke. I expressed to him and so did my mom my distaste at it, especially with the war going on. He hadn't even heard that part correctly, and he apologized, but my mom told him no more tomska for awhile.

I've specifically requested he not talk about Brandon Roger's comedy around the rest of the family. See, I like it too, it's funny sometimes. But it's very inappropriate around my 10 year old sister who heard "actually it's 5:30. SOMEBODY KILL ME!" and then repeated that for months until we found something else to occupy her. It's taken weeks for him to finally stop bringing it up around the parents and our sister.

Idk. I'm just thinking about it. I wish he had friends to really talk about this with other than me. I'm tired, and I'm fatigued of all the shooting and head ripping. I'm more of a body horror and psych horror woman.

I love him, I hope he grows out of the needing to tell everyone everything stage like I did.

[lawrencegarte]

okay so my proposals for wish not sucking ass (under a read more cuz who really cares anymore HJGSKJHGASHJ just me!)

number one like i love a villain who's evil for no reason but with his backstory they really needed to lean really hard into magnifico actually just being traumatized and misguided??? they brought that up and then DROPPED it like a hot potato. like his motivations were so messy and confused i literally did not know what the fuck his deal was at any point during the film. it would have honestly been so much more impactful for me if he wasn't evil at all before using the stupid evil plot device.

i can't envision the movie WITHOUT the stupid evil plot device so in my mind i'm like. what if that was the thing that destroyed his family's kingdom. like imagine that. he turns to this thing that hurt him because he's like "yeah i can control this" but he can't oh nooo.... and then it's like ohh that's what happened before probably huh... trying to protect everyone by keeping their most important dreams from them is not the right move actually?? aw...

also magnifico just getting trapped in a cursed crystal forever was kind of wack. again it is a problem of just... really really messy characterization and plot building. like REALLY?? "evil magic, not even once" THAT'S your message???? you're going full 90's anti-drug psa short film messaging???? at no point did i feel like magnifico deserved just desserts. i felt too confused by him to buy into him being unrepentantly evil forever and ever. what was up with that.

like bro the moment when asha and magnifico bond over losing people so important to them, over them fruitlessly dreaming and hoping and wishing for them to be okay, felt SO important. that was set up for a solid movie about how just because it hurts, it can cause you so much grief and heartbreak, you can't just let go of your dreams. that dreaming and striving is important even if you fall, even if hope doesn't always come through you still need to hang onto it.

and that didn't happen at all and magnifico kind of stopped having trauma and overprotective parent disease and just was like a dictator for no reason. huh????????

anyway yeah start with an actually good magnifico, one who is genuinely just trying to stop his people from feeling the pain and loss he felt when he lost his family, and have him using the book not be out of like... pettiness?? but rather a genuine fear of threat for his people. he shouldn't hate his people!! he should love his people so thoroughly that it's heartbreaking when evil magic takes over and twists him into something malicious. and asha should feel this too!!! asha should take a moment to understand how the grief of losing somebody so important can so easily take hold of us. she should sympathize with magnifico even while feeling like this is wrong. and at the end maybe the two of them invite the wishes to bring back what was lost into their hearts. to accept even the saddest and most painful parts of themselves because that's what being human is.

also kill off valentino because he was really fucking annoying.

anyway there were bare bones of a film there but the end product wasn't even really a movie. 2/10. 100th anniversary baby!!!!

[godgrownstar]

chronic, stress & mind for miwa, chaos, rey, meyrin (you don't have to do all if you don't want to!!)

I did them all.

chronic: does my muse have any chronic health conditions / illnesses? how do these affect them from day-to-day? 

Miwa is fortunate enough to not have any lasting consequences from Ashoka accelerating her growth. Due to her connection with various Mir, she's at least in part protected from the Assimilation phenomenon as well.

Chaos is very similar, having only escaped the complications of a puppet controlled by a Mir due to Malespero's fondness for him.

Rey, on the other hand is not so fortunate. Being a clone, he suffers from near-constant and severe pain. While the medicine given to him by the Chairman does help prevent it, if he forgets, or should he experience extreme stress....

Because of this, he needs to keep his medicine on hand whenever possible, being a soldier and a mobile suit pilot makes this difficult, though, and he is sometimes caught in situations where he does now have access to it.

Because Rey's condition is caused by him being a clone, something which is considered taboo in the Earth Sphere, unless the Chairman (or somebody else who knows about his condition) is able to find some sort of "cure," he will likely die young.

Meyrin does not have any specific health conditions, but her physical health is often affected by her mental health, leading her to occasionally neglect her health at best, or cause herself direct harm at worse.

stress: does my muse handle stress well? what is a surefire sign for others to tell that they’ve become stressed? how does stress affect them mentally / physically? 

Miwa handles extreme stress about how you would expect somebody like her to. She ignores it until it becomes unbearable, and then she hides in her room or cries until she feels like she can go back to playing the hero.

If Miwa is curled up in her room with her stuffed bear - something only her family has seen - then she's reached the point where she's no longer able to be strong for everyone else.

Because Miwa is much younger than she actually looks and acts - a result of Ashoka's interference - she seems to 'regress' to her actual age when in these situations.

Chaos doesn't often show stress if he even experiences it. It's likely that Malespero's influence suppresses those feelings.

While in battle, any stress felt usually takes the form of a powerful anger... or more accurately, only fuels the already existing anger there.

Rey can usually handle stress well, but depending on the trigger for it...

While normally he hides his feelings better than most others, when truly overwhelmed it can trigger a complete breakdown on both the mental and physical level.

At best, this can render him unconscious for a few hours, at worst, it could eventually lead him to an early grave.

Meyrin is good at putting up a strong front, however she's fairly easily overwhelmed. When she finally stops trying to act like she's okay, then things have gotten to be too much even for her.

Normally, though, you can usually gauge her stress level from how much she looks around (as if watching out for someone or something) and how restless she seems.

Because Meyrin's mental health is fairly unstable, large amounts of stress can trigger serious episodes.

mind: does my muse have any mental conditions that affect their lives? what are they? how do they handle them? what coping methods do they use most? 

Miwa suffers from post traumatic stress disorder, after the events of Exodus, like most other Fafner pilots. Though she's good at hiding this, and it mainly manifests in an almost suicidal level of self sacrifice. Because she does not see the latter as a problem, she doesn't try to "cope" with it, instead smiling and acting like it was normal.

Chaos most notably lacks a proper sense of self, at the moment. Though he suffers from post traumatic stress disorder carried over from his previous "self" and the actions taken before he was fully under Malespero's control.

Like Mitsuhiro before him, he also has borderline personality disorder, however this seems to have been "suppressed" along with his previous personality. For the most part.

Rey suffers from a combination of post traumatic stress disorder, borderline personality disorder, and severe distrust of and suspicion of others, especially his peers.

While his PTSD is usually managed by suppressing his feelings, his unhealthy attachment to the Chairman, feelings of inadequacy, and distrust of others, are at least in part encouraged in order to further the Destiny Plan. Due to this, he doesn't necessarily view them as something to be handled or resolved.

Meyrin also, like the other three suffers from PTSD, though mostly unrelated to her activities in the war. She also is deeply paranoid and struggles with trusting her government, and the technology she works with.

While she can usually calm down from an episode related to her childhood trauma with a shower, or some time to ground herself (after years of coping, and support), the latter is... more tricky than that.