#Sad Christmas

[noname-404s-blog]

[viktheviking1]

Merry Cis-mas

Merry Cisn't-mas

[0pandalanda0]

[always-and-evermore]

Merry Christmas, you. I can’t help but think of you today. Wondering where you are, what you’re doing, if you’re having fun. It’s taking all of my strength not to reach out and wish you well. It goes against my nature, my heart. But I’m trying really hard to protect my heart and my worth above all. You don’t value me anymore and that’s a hard thing to reconcile.

And so I will let the day pass without speaking to you, without stoking the tiny flame that still rests inside me, hidden away. I’ll let it pass and you won’t reach out and it will be one more nail in the coffin. It will hurt, but it is necessary.

So I’ll just tell you Merry Christmas here, send it into the ether and hope it finds its way to you, in some small way.

[theladwhoisweird]

This year's Christmas is nowhere to be found. It's not a sad Christmas cause it didn't come at all.

[zootopilove]

[remadoradeservedbetter]

reminder that this is the 24th Christmas without them

[themessmashup]

Merry Christmas everyone 🎄

[xxpsychodreamerx]

christmas or not i still wanna fucking kill myself

[electronicdreamerdreamer]

Christmas went with overstimulation, anxiety and crying 😞

[thelioneatingthesun]

Merry Christmas to you…

[dear-older-brother]

Holidays are for family

I know that much is true

But how do you love a family

That is so unalike to you

How do you give gifts

To so many strangers

When you know how you think

Would put yourself in danger

How do you laugh

At jokes and fun games

When the words that they throw

Bring you nothing but shame

When your ‘family’ sees

You slink off to your room

Suddenly they protest

All your holiday gloom

But you’re not my family

You’re only so by blood

It doesn’t matter the season

I’ll never feel loved

[0pandalanda0]

[always-and-evermore]

The smoke of memories in my eyes

The real misleading kind

It comes in winter white

In holiday disguise

To sabotage my mind

Dismiss the urge to reminisce

To miss your stupid kiss

A shot at happiness

It never did exist

And I don't care if it did

'Cause I won't crack

And there's no turning back

Merry Christmas

Happy goddamn new year

I see you everywhere

I see you everywhere I breathe

You are the devil keep

The hell out of my dreams

You're poisoning my sleep

And I won't cry

There's no turning back

But it makes me sad

And this year it's going to be

Just like you never knew me

Peace and quiet

Happy home

How I love to be alone

Merry Christmas

Happy goddamn new year

[jade-romanova]

i didn't mean it

you saw a clump of mistletoe and turned to me your eyes aglow

i kissed you back but i didn't mean it...

i didn't mean it

[poetry-of-soul]

BARELY CHRISTMAS

It's hard to be happy this year

When I'm here

So far from the ones

I thought would always love me

It's lonely

Losing a home

And the surest future I've known

Being shredded right in front of me

It's hard

To feel holiday cheer when

All Santa brought me is tears and

All I'm unwrapping is fears

I guess that's just what it's like

Without having you near

A very Barely Christmas

And probably a Crappy New Year