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thecontumacious · 2 years

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Hello hello, i'm seeing that the request is open and i'm to ask: yandere luxiem finally finding their s/o who somehow successfully escaped them after a long time searching in desperation, slowly returning to the former peaceful life like the one s/o had before the kidnapping shits happened. How would they react? What would they do abt that? You can do it in headcannons like the usual! Sorry if this request is to hard to ask :'') ガンバレ!!

Ps: bonus points if you can make the s/o work in a flower shop👀✨

A Bittersweet Ending

a/n: HII IM BACK FROM MY VACAYYY! big thanks to sky anon, 💀anon and 🥭anon from discord for helping out with the proofreading~ we've got more to come hehe

check out the original yandere au here, the yandere x yandere version here and the full featured art here ^^

warnings: mentions of violence, manipulation, gore and suicide. read at own risk.

disclaimer: if you experience these kinds of things, whether yourself or on other people, please report this to professionals. this is not healthy behavior. i also do not mean to glorify any and all actions mentioned. it is meant for entertainment purposes.

reminder that all my work and others in the fandom are purely fiction and intended to entertain, not to be projected irl.

content utc!

he didn't know how he lost you that day. he had made the correct preparations beforehand. enough backup plans for all possibilities. enough barricades to keep you away from the world. he always had his eye on you. he made sure that all gaps of your chances to escape would be closed tight.

what kind of shadow hovered over his eyes to the point he didn't even realize you had gone?

when he came home after getting some groceries, excited to start cooking with you again, he was beyond mortified when he discovered the house silent and empty.

the most chilling feeling was that he felt alone.

he hated it. so much so the tightening of his chest became almost too much for him to bear. but he had to find you. if he went looking for you now, you probably wouldn't be too far off. then after he got you back, he'll make sure to never make the same mistake again...

but he never did. it's like you had vanished. no footsteps, no footage, no nothing.

how long ago was this again? it had possibly been a couple years now. the loneliest years of his life. he wouldn't know where to put his hands anymore, as he was used to wrapping it around your body. he'd sit there by the dining chair, once again alone when he's so used to hearing your spoon clatter against the plates.

anything. anything but the deafening silence. he didn't care if it was your protests to be let go, your complaints of the chains being too tight, or your reluctance to be close to him. it didn't have to be you saying you loved him back. he just needed to see you again.

as he walked the streets, the gentle scent of flowers dances up into his nostrils and he can't help but be reminded of you. of course, before he kept you to himself, you were working as a florist. it was how he met you after all. how you'd gently arrange the right flowers together to create a masterpiece. it was the many things he loved so much about you.

the one thing he wished to have once more.

"come again!"

his heart stops and he thought he had gone crazy. either he really did, or that was your voice. that was you. it had to!

he looks to where he heard you and like he first met you, there you are, in your own world among the flowers. but there was something different about you.

you... looked happy.

you had always been beautiful to him all these years and that fact will never change. but right now, as he found you, you looked nothing more than angelic. smiling and waving at a leaving customer. when you return inside, you begin to gently nurture the plants in the store like they were your children.

there. that was the gentleness he had been longing to see.

and now he realizes. that he was the reason he hadn't been seeing this version of you in so long. it was because he arrived in your life that your smile had ceased to exist, that your gentle hands had lost its powers and your will to live disappeared the moment he took you with him.

he should be happy that he found you. he should be happy he could take you home with him.

but all he feels is a deep void within himself he can't seem to fill, even as he watched you continue to work happily. when he thinks of snatching you away and bringing you back home, it felt like he wanted to hurt himself for doing so. it felt like you were worlds away from him now.

he loved you. he still does. but, if his love for you is the reason why you can't smile anymore, then what else is there to do than to step away? to let you smile even if he didn't get to see it?

it was a big sacrifice. five years of searching yet it ends like this.

but he was willing to let you go, even if it meant losing himself in the process.

Vox Akuma 👹🌹

you had just finished eating and planned to get a bit of paperwork done so you wouldn’t have a stack to worry about later in the week

but just as you were going to prep your work station, the doorbell rings.

it had just turned to nighttime and you weren’t expecting anyone. and you weren’t waiting for a package to arrive either

so you stand up again and swing the door open.

your heart drops to the floor, your knees weak and bile up your throat.

vox wasn’t doing anything but he made you feel terrified for your life again, just like five years ago

you instantly grab the taser stationed by the doorway and aimed it your guest, staggering back in hopes he wouldn’t do anything

but vox raises his hand up gently, standing still as his eyes droop with guilt.

still unsure though, you remain a few feet away from him.

vox sighs, “i’m not here to hurt you. far from it.”

“you know i can’t trust you right?” you gulp, looking anywhere but his eyes.

“i know. and you have full right to do so. but do know i won’t even come close to touching you,” he promises.

after a few seconds, you don’t feel your body moving on its own like it would’ve if vox controlled you. so you lower your taser, braving yourself to look the demon in the eyes this time

... and no, he still wasn’t controlling you.

he always told you that eye contact worked best. so if that didn’t work, perhaps he really wasn’t going to touch you

“i’m not gonna touch you, dar—um, y/n,” he corrects himself, clearing his throat afterwards. you gulp, but nod for him to continue. “thank you. i came here for a reason. i just... “

vox is silent for a moment and you begin to worry if he was going to start executing his hidden backup plan. but he speaks again, “wanted to see how you were doing.”

“vox, for fuck’s sake, you spied on me for years and you went up to my door just to see how i was doing? do you think i’m fucking stupid?”

he flinches at your strong use of words, but his lips are tight shut. you couldn’t help it. he’d basically kept all ownership of your own body for so long, when you were finally freed from his grasp, you didn’t know what to do with yourself

recovery was hard for you and as much as your psychiatrists and therapists told you that your body was yours again, it was sometimes still hard to believe it. there are days where you’re even too afraid to move.

all because the demon had ground in the rule that you only belonged to him, that your body didn’t even belong to yourself

you were beyond angry and a few curse words weren’t enough to fathom it all

your fists clench, tired from all the nights you've stayed awake worried that vox would find you and now extremely frustrated that five years was the longest you could be without him

"you ruined me, you know that?" your voice is broken apart, unable to speak in a straight tone anymore. "i hope you fucking know that i can't live with myself anymore. because they're dead all because of you. every night i worry that you'll find me again. every day i look back to see if anyone is following me. i can't live anymore because of you! look at me, i don't even know what i've become!"

as you continue to blow off steam at the cause of your mental injury, it still wasn't enough.

tears stream down your cheeks and you almost don't realize you've dropped your taser. well of course, you couldn't even hold yourself together

you hated how weak you felt, especially whenever vox was present

"i hate you so much," you finally hiccup, roughly wiping away the tears from your sockets.

all that is heard next is just your heavy breathing and the rapid beating of your broken heart

"y/n?" vox calls out to you

you sniffle, "what?"

"i'm going to leave."

"then go."

"... i mean leave behind this world."

your breath is then caught in your throat, sobs ceased for just a moment as you looked up at the demon. you studied his eyes if he was just manipulating his words again

but his emotions and words are completely raw, nothing to hide and naked for you to see

"wh-what?"

vox sighs, rubbing the back of his head with his eyes cast away from you. "i was never meant to live on earth. hell is my real home. so, i'm going back there. to leave you alone for good."

again, his words are transparent

"is that so?" you coldly ask him

"yes. please, you can think i haven't been truthful all this time but i am honest about this.”

you cross your arms, "how do i know you won't come back?"

you had to make sure. vox was everything but easy.

the demon's eyes are looking anywhere but you.

you groan out of frustration, bringing the door to your hands to shut it onto vox's face. "just leave me alone you fucking demon!"

but just as you were about to put a barrier between you two, vox halts the door with his hand. with how low you were slamming the door, it breaks his skin and blood comes running down

then by instinct, you flinch and back away from him, afraid that he might get angry because you've hurt him

however, vox only opens the door wide again, casually wiping his wound onto his haori

you gulp, "s-sorry."

he merely smiles at you, "it's alright. could i please have your trust for just a moment, y/n? i swear on my life."

you twitch and shake your head.

vox tries again, "please, y/n."

"no, not after what you did. you might have something planned the moment i trust you. go away before i call the cops."

with all chances of talking to you wiped clean, vox sighs heavily and takes a step back.

then he suddenly falls to his knees, his head planted onto the floor with both hands beside it

"y/n, please. i'm on my knees begging you to trust me for just a second. i wish for nothing more. i'll disappear right after and promise to never come back."

vox was a demon of pride, never one to back down to anyone, even to you. but here he was. on his knees and hands, face on the floor, bleeding

you let out a shaky sigh, then gently tapped his shoulder

"fine. just for a minute," you whisper.

vox raises up slowly, sitting on his legs as tears fall from his cheeks. he smiles, "thank you so much, y/n. i promise."

you nod quietly.

he gently touches your face, and in a soft voice requests, "can i ask for one last kiss before i leave?"

your hands begin to shake and you wonder if you've made a mistake. but vox doesn't do anything to take control of you

so you look up at him

still nothing once more

"just a small one."

vox lets out a soft chuckle before using both his hands to hold your face. "i promise."

then he places his lips on yours, and as per your condition, it lasted for the shortest second.

when you pull away, vox is suddenly gone.

"v-vox?" you call out, looking back and forth for him. you even stood to check your apartment, then in the hallways.

but you don't see him.

which only makes it worse for you

without knowing he's truly gone, you can't rest if he really is still out there

so you wait

and wait

but nothing too.

was it... finally time to accept the fact he was gone now? could you really sleep knowing he's not on earth anymore?

upon remembering the soft smile he had on his face last you saw him, your heart begins to trust him that he kept his promise. after all, it was a smile you've never seen on him.

and you just sort of knew that... perhaps this time would be different

so you take a deep breath and whisper to yourself, "thank you for keeping your promise."

Mysta Rias 🦊🔶

when you return home, you are surprised when you see several deliverymen hauling big boxes to your apartment door

you most certainly did not remember ordering something with a huge amount so you went to check, asking one of the men

you tap on his shoulder, "hi sorry, who are these packages for?"

"oh, this apartment!" he smiles, pointing at your door. you frown.

"who are these from?"

the man leans over to one of the boxes, his eyebrows furrowing. "hmm, doesn't say. no return address."

your heart drops and your surroundings suddenly feel very cold. you shrink. seeing the big world around you made you terrified for you life, but your head spun from the roller coaster of emotions

with shaky hands, you turn the doorknob and gesture to the deliverymen. "i-in here."

at your command, they stack the big boxes in the corridor and so do your worries.

who could these be from? what were in these boxes?

there was not a single person you could think of who would be sane enough to do this.

except for him

you gulp.

when the deliverymen finished placing everything down, you dismiss them and instantly double lock your door, also grabbing the taser by the shelves in case if any guests would make a surprise visit

you pick at the tape, ripping it inch by inch as though you were opening pandora's box. and perhaps you were.

when the tape finally comes off, you hold your breath and await what is inside, taser in hand.

but when nothing explodes or make any sound, you brave yourself to crack open an eye.

"w-wait..." you mumble, reaching inside to feel soft fabric. familiar texture, color and scent.

you pull it out and you realize it's one of your old hoodies.

when you look inside, more of your old clothes were seen.

you turn to the other boxes and unlike before, you rapidly rip the tape off their cardboard boxes and they contained your old belongings

your breath is caught in your throat and although it might seem like you should be glad your old things are returned, it's exactly because of that you're restless

you had clearly remembered leaving all of these behind when mysta took you away

you had come to terms you would never see these things again, even if they held such precious memories to you

to say it was a shock to see them in your arms again was an understatement

other than that

you were absolutely terrified

so, he found you again? there really was no way out of this?

was this the only way to live for you? to keep running for your life and never have the chance to just settle and stop worrying about him?

your eyes start to prick from the tears, your chest tightening with every breath you take

it almost felt like mysta was already watching you right now, perhaps even hiding somewhere in the corridor, just waiting for you to accidentally leave a crack open for him to slip in

so you don't sleep that night.

you made sure all your devices with cameras were turned away, triple locked your front door and latched all your windows closed

all gifts big enough to fit a camera you put in a bag. you even stuffed all your keyholes with tissue.

it was like when you were first home again.

when every sound you heard made you instantly curl up into a ball, when every camera you see made you instantly hide your face and shy away, when all the stuffed animals you saw made you scream with panic

you weren't your old self anymore, as mysta had taken it and shattered it to pieces, then building you back up again according to his image and ideals

seeing you spiral into a dissatisfying mental state, you made an appointment with your therapist to help control yourself

the moment she said she was willing to leave a spot open for you, you grabbed your hoodie, mask and sunglasses.

frankly, quite afraid of the world

you try to zip through the streets, looking away from just about anything that could potentially get you caught by mysta. you didn't care if people were cursing you out for bumping into them hastily

you just had to go.

but then you suddenly hear someone scream

you flinch and curled into a ball in the middle of the street as everyone else turned to the source of the scream

then it became their turn to start yelling and gasping, seemingly out of surprise?

you raise your head to see people clumping together in a specific spot, all looking skyward

you copied their actions and finally understood what had grabbed their attention

someone was on top of a tall building, so dangerously close to the edge and their hands outstretched

and most importantly

it was mysta

he didn't look down towards the people pleading him to get down, instead he smiles up at the blue skies. with his hands spread out, he looked like he was going to fly

you don't know what you're doing but you find yourself pushing through the solid crowd, your heart hammering against your ribcage fervently

"MYSTA!" you yelled, raising your hands to wave at the man atop the building. you call out to him again, "MYSTA!"

then he finally turns to you, that same smile plastered onto his face

all he did though was just wave at you before he ignored you as well

"MYSTA PLEASE GET DOWN!"

you don't know why you asked him that. despite him almost killing you both in the past. perhaps because somewhere in your heart, mysta choosing death was just not it

it didn't sit well

but no matter how hard you tried to get him off the railing, he wouldn't listen to you.

you finally decide to just climb up the building, bursting through security and madly going up the stairs until you reached the top

thankfully, mysta is still standing on the railing but now a lot closer to being pulled down by gravity

you instantly approach him, begging, "mysta get off. come on, stand here with me."

mysta turns to you, and you realize that tears had been shed.

"even after everything, you'd still want to stop me from falling?" he asked gently

your words are stuck.

you didn't want to give him the impression that you loved him back. you just had human decency.

"mysta, please, get down from there," you plead once more, reaching your hand out to him.

"i'm really sorry for what i did to you, y/n," he says. "so i wanted to send your things back when i finally found you."

"thank you for that, but don't die, please."

but then mysta only turns around, looking down at the far ground once.

"and i just... i can't live knowing you don't love me back."

"my-mysta i don't--"

he shakes his head, "i know. you can't ever feel the same. so, i'm just gonna go. it would be easier for me."

"mysta wait let's talk this out--"

"it was so beautiful loving you, y/n. but i'm not who you're looking for. so this is my way of accepting it."

"mysta--"

"just know i will still love you."

he takes a step forward, eliciting a scream from the people below and your heart to pop out of your chest.

"MYSTA--"

he turns around momentarily, smiling at you for the last time. "bye, y/n."

then he's let the earth pull him down.

you scream, running over to the rail. but by the time you went to grab him, he's already hit the ground.

body shaking, tears in your eyes and your heart confused.

mysta was gone.

he really was...

dead

Luca Kaneshiro 🦮🔆

when you go to grab a watering can to take care of the flowers outside the store, the bell by the door rings indicating a new customer

you place the tool back down and ready yourself by the counter to help out said customer, but you feel your knees start to give out the moment you see them

your fingers start to quiver endlessly and although your surroundings is your new home with regular people coming in to see the plants and flowers, co workers chit chatting happily, in your eyes, you can only see luca drenched in blood

carrying his favorite chainsaw, the other hand usually a limb of theirs.

you instantly back away from the counter and an unnecessary whine escapes you, bringing luca’s attention to you, only making you pale with immense fear

it became such a habit at this point.

he always came home with someone’s bloods on his hands, almost never his own blood. he’d be dressed in thick red from top to bottom

you usually didn’t ask who he had taken care of this time, worried you might actually go insane if you found out he killed another of your friends or a family member

no matter what, even if he had killed his own friends who spared you a glance, he was always smiling

and it’s that smile that was the scariest to you, not the the fact he murdered, the fact he was happy about it and looking at you as though he had just won a gold medal for something

god, and the way he held and caressed your cheeks with his blood-caked fingers

so when luca reaches over to you, you can’t help but shrink away

but you don’t feel the slimy texture of blood, or the strong scent of rust

instead, you still smell the gentle flowers in the shop and the slight scent of sickening cologne that belonged to luca

you crack open your eyes, and it turns out, luca had placed a gift bag by the counter with a very small smile

how uncharacteristic

seeing you still so far away from the counter, luca takes a step back, hiding his hands away from you with a frown

“i-i’m not gonna touch you, honest,” he says, shaking his head. he then beckons over to the gift bag, “i just wanted to give you that.”

oh and his gifts.

you hated wrapped gifts because of him too.

all things wrapped in pretty paper, a bow at the top or in a very elaborate box, you feared to open

it didn’t matter if it was from your parents or your friends

you never fail to panic and have someone else open it, or not touch it at all in fear you’d find a head or someone’s fingers in there

so you shake your head fervently, “n-no thanks, luca. i’m sure you meant well b-but—“

“please, i promise it’s nothing like that!” luca waves his hand in the air, frantically shaking his head too.

but again, you’re reluctant.

he sighs, taking the bag and digging out the contents himself. when he pulls it out, you see that he’s merely pulled out a clear box with a gold necklace

at the end, it’s your initials

“there’s no tracking device on it,” luca tries to smile at you

but you simply swallow, nodding just to humour him.

seeing that you're reluctant to even get within one square with him, the mafia boss can only do so much. so he just puts the box and jewelry by the counter, taking the bag with him

"at least keep it, okay?" he pleads softly

you look at the items as though they were time ticking bombs, but just to get luca out of your sight with how trapped you feel, you nod quickly. "y-yeah i will."

though you planned to throw it away later after work.

"okay then," luca grins, clasping his hands together to flash you a smile. but then you see something in his purple eyes. it caught you off guard and it made you want to scold yourself

for a moment, you thought you saw the real luca kaneshiro. the luca who wouldn't want to hurt you and genuinely loved you. you don't know why you saw him like that, especially with how he's treated you in the past

it didn't matter.

the fact still stands that you will never return to him.

so when you look away from him, luca knew it was time to take his leave

"i'll see you around, y/n," he says, before leaving the shop accompanied by the soft ring of the bell

the sickening scent of his cologne was gone, only the gentle smell of flowers were left. you felt like you could breathe again and after much recollecting, you turn to a looking customer

determined to forget about him

the day passes by in a blink and you're faced with an empty shop, given you had a closing shift today. as you put the broom back into the closet, your stomach can't help but start to drop

because now you had to worry about that necklace.

half of you thinks he was lying, but somehow the other half tells you to just keep it.

as you look down at the gold jewelry, bile builds up in your throat.

before you knew it, you had pocketed it and on your way home. only god knows if luca had actually tampered with it.

finally home, you kick off your shoes and shrug your coat. you grab the remote to ready yourself for a solo movie night when your eyes catch sight of a familiar name on the screen

luca kaneshiro

you squint your eyes and stop by the channel featuring his name, slowly realizing it was a news broadcasting program

"luca kaneshiro, notorious leader of the kaneshiro crime syndicate, has finally been successfully caught by the authorities, on the scene of an extremely dangerous and life threatening heist. on scene police reports that he will receive severe punishment."

you gape at the report

as long as you knew luca, he was not one to be so sloppy and caught by the police like this. what was going through his head?

but then again, he did get caught once and managed to break out easily. so you shake your head and move onto whatever movie was streaming that night

not until you got a call from the police yourself the next day.

"hello?" you speak into the phone after braving yourself to pick up the unknown number

"is this y/n l/n?" a stranger's voice spoke

you raise your eyebrows. "yes? who is this?"

"we're from the police. prisoner luca kaneshiro has requested your presence before his death row scheduled today."

d-death row?

"so-sorry, death row??" you grip onto your phone.

"yes. no court hearing for all the crimes committed under his name. can you come to the detention center soon?” they asked you

you stay silent for a minute but your tongue has already said it, "i can."

your heart pounds against your ribcage confused. were you happy? were you sad?

the man who's been torturing you all those years ago was gonna finally leave you alone, for good too

yet you felt like denying it.

was death really the solution?

you look at the necklace luca gave you then you wear it around your neck, who knows for what reason as you dash out the detention center of where they'll be executing him

they let you in upon knowing your name and instantly brings you to the chamber

there he was

in a simple white outfit from top to bottom, his usual necklace and hairclip gone, blond hair flowing freely and all his tattoos in full view of the sun

he was looking at the ground before he heard multiple footsteps. then his purple eyes meet you

"y/n?" he calls out, disbelief decorating his face. luca grins weakly, "you actually came?"

you open your mouth to answer, but remember that you don't know what to respond with.

luca only chuckles when you zip your mouth closed. "it's okay. all that matters is that you're the last thing i see before i go."

why the fuck did he sound like he wasn't planning on breaking out? he had so many men and underworld connections! wouldn't it be easy to take out just a couple of policemen?

you look from left to right, trying to see if any of his mafia members were disguising

luca laughs again, "do u wanna help me break out, y/n?"

you flinch, shaking your head, "n-no, of course not!"

"it's alright," he shrugs. leaning into you, he whispers, "i've had my fun."

you look at him like he's lost his mind. and perhaps he had.

the authorities pull him away and have him posted on a certain spot, gunners at the ready to execute him and the other men with him

you don't know what to do, say or even react.

you felt like crying, you felt like laughing, you felt like running away to not watch it happen

but among your mixture of panic, luca smiles at you.

widely.

like the one time where he was happy you fed him for the first time

then you hear a loud bang

luca's smile disappears and all your memories with it.

Ike Eveland 🖋💙

when you return to the counter to get some of the flowers taken care of, your coworker who had just returned from their break comes inside to hand you some money

you look at them, eyebrow raised, “um? what’s this for?”

they shrug, “just put it in the cashier. someone wanted to buy some (your favorite flowers in your favorite color) and had me give it to you.”

“huh?” you look at your co worker with the biggest question above your head, hesitantly taking the money which would be enough to buy the mentioned flowers

they don’t answer you as they too probably knew no better either and instantly went to make that arrangement

as you place the money into the cashier, you begin to worry who could’ve bought such a specific bouquet, addressed to you no less and without a given name

then your heart sinks as the one idea stood out to you the most

you weren’t currently seeing anyone and no one was interested as you as far as you could tell

none of your friends were the type to mysteriously ask one of your co workers to make you a bouquet either

“holy fuck,” you mumble to yourself, shutting the cashier close a bit louder to mask the upcoming sob coming up your throat

even after all this time, five years wasn’t going to stop him huh?

your knees start to disappear from within you and you can’t help but have to grip onto the counter tight to make sure you don’t fall and worry your co workers and patrons

but at the thought of your harasser announcing his presence back into your life made you sick and weak

you were doing so well without him, albeit broken minded after all the things he’s planted into your brain

but still

this was so like him to do things…

a bunch of flowers appear before your eyes, all in your favorite types, colors and down to even the most minute details. anyone would’ve thought it was incredibly sweet, but this only confirms your horror of it being from ike

“got yourself an admirer huh? the guy seemed super sweet too,” your co worker wiggles their eyebrows, placing the flowers on the counter for you. “he asked me for rly super specific details too. said that you liked bouquets like that. oh, and he also said to include a letter in the bouquet for you to open.”

your skin pales up.

god what now?

deciding that it was probably not safe to let a murderous and suspicious letter be read out in the open, you take the flowers inside the storage room and dig through the petals for the letter in there

it doesn’t take long for you to find the envelope, neatly sealed and clearly addressed to you in the most familiar handwriting

it was definitely from ike

you swallow, take one breath of courage in as you rip the envelope open and slide out its contents, rather thin for someone like ike

back when he hadn’t taken you away with him, he used to write you pretty lengthy letters and when you were trapped, he wrote you long poems of you

without reading the contents, you flip the letter back and forth. still, you find nothing else and the contents rly were just a couple of lines

was he messing with your mind?

you also notice something odd about the letter

… it wasn’t written in blood.

another lasting trademark of ike.

he always wrote his creations with his own blood, or when he felt extra passionate, yours.

but you can see that it was black, smooth and bold in its every stroke. unlike blood that tends to dry crusty and clumps, thin because of it’s thick nature.

and most importantly, what it says inside:

“i’m sorry for what i’ve done to you in the past. it’s unforgivable so i won’t bother to ask you for forgiveness, even if i’m willing to get on my knees to beg for it. but i know you don’t want to see me anymore, so hopefully this letter will suffice. i’ll leave you alone now. but know that you’ve made my life shine a bit brighter and i will always love you, regardless if you love me in return or not.”

“signed, ike eveland,” you whisper.

you wouldn’t have believed him if only you didn’t notice everything else you pointed out beforehand. the letter, the ink, the length of the letter.

maybe he did want to say goodbye?

then again why couldn’t he have taken his chance? what’s with the change of heart?

ike was a man of many ways to manipulate you, successfully making you depend on him after all.

why would he stop now that he knows where you are?

you tightly grip the letter in your hands and look outside.

your shift was almost over anyway. it was better than walking around unknowing if ike rly was going to leave you alone

so you put the letter back in the bouquet and place it near your things in the locker room.

when the day ends and you have been dismissed from work, you immediately get your things and brought yourself over to where ike lived.

to where your nightmares began

though it had been 5 long years since you’ve stepped foot in it, you running away being the main purpose of it anyway, it still brought bad memories.

of course it did. how could you not?

all you did in that house was quiver like a nervous mouse, unsure of every move you made.

so you knocked on the door.

only to find it open as soon as you touched it.

you were once again worried if this was just a trap ike had set up for you. but once you gently swung the door open, you’re surprised when none of the furniture are there.

the house was completely void of life.

none of ike’s belongings were there, especially not himself.

it looked like no one had lived here

that was until you entered the room where you discovered his gory artwork.

“i-it’s still here,” you stammer, seeing the many pages of literature posted on all four of the room’s sides. even his writing desk is still in there.

but you weren’t entirely scared, seeing that ike really had gone.

you look down at your bouquet and letter.

gone.

he was finally gone.

the man you had been running away from.

yet, you don’t feel completely glad.

somehow, you think he doesn’t deserve this kind of ending.

then again it could be because of your stockholm syndrome, but still.

was that it? was this your freedom?

was it really going to be this easy?

either way, ike promised he wouldn’t bother you anymore.

you sigh then place the bouquet down on the writing desk, before leaving ike’s abandoned home for the last time.

Shu Yamino 🔮✨

after getting your dishes washed, all you planned to do the rest of the night was to just relax and watch movies. the shop would be closed tomorrow anyway.

knock knock

you jump at the sudden sound, almost dropping your beverage of choice as you faced the door where the knocking came from.

you can't help the hairs on your body stand. you had a doorbell, why would they knock? this late at night too?

worried, you place your cup down and go to the door. through the eyehole, you don't see anyone which only brings more chills down your body

who the fuck?

with your past relationship with a certain someone, it became a habit for you to be jumpy and be worried of all the weird happenings. five years may be long, but shu drilled in the worst memories in your life, breaking your mind in the process.

so, out of precaution, you grab a taser you always keep near the door and nervously turn the knob.

the door swings open, you take a step back and aimed the taser at it.

still nothing.

nothing but a lone single sheet of paper on the ground.

you gulp then take a good look outside if anyone was around, watching or waiting. but it seems the culprit who left the paper must've dashed away already

you slide it off the floor and quickly lock the door again.

"what the hell is this?" you whisper, unfolding the paper and seeing a printed note:

park. 8 pm. i promise i won't hurt you. please come, y/n.

tears start to prick at your eyes, the bile in your throat building up as you wished this was all a nightmare. a terrible, terrible nightmare because of your past trauma

you really couldn't escape him, huh?

but... there were some oddities to the letter if it really did come from shu

his plea seemed to reach out to you. and he almost never just calls you by your name. he always adds a pet name. even if he was angry at the time

it was a bad idea.

it was a bad idea now that you're shrugging your coat and shoes on to go to the park.

it was a bad fucking idea to go see your psycho ex, at night, alone.

at least this time, you knew what to do. for the past five years, you've been preparing yourself for the worst.

you learned a few combat moves, simple ones but enough to buy time to escape. you brought pepper spray and a taser. and you always had 911 on speed dial.

somehow you're already at the park, peering through shadows to see the sender of the letter. you wished it wasn't actually shu, but who else if it wasn't him?

your hand is deep into your bag where your pepper spray and taser are packed as you inch slowly around the darkened public area.

then you see that familiar multi-colored hair. the same bright yellows, pinks and purples.

shu's purple eyes meet yours. you feel a nostalgic shiver down your spine.

he smiles. but, it's not like how you saw him five years ago. he looked... exhausted and hurt. or was this just a way to lure you in?

you tightly grab the pepper spray from inside your bag and walk towards him.

"hey," he rasps.

you don't answer him.

shu sighs, "yeah, i know. but i meant what i said in the letter. i'm not here to hurt you."

but his words are quick to dissipate from your mind when you realize he's pulled out a knife. the dark memories start to fill up your mind. the times where he rose one at you, the times he dragged it along your body.

but you took a deep breath and was about to grab your weapon when you also just noticed that the knife wasn't pointed at you.

it was at him.

shu holds the blade in his palms, the handle held outwards to you like he was offering it. you look at the knife, then at him.

"sh-shu? what are you doing?" you inquired, your voice shaky.

he smiles that weak smile of his again and you don't know who to believe anymore. him or yourself. he shakes the knife in his hand, "come on, do it. you know what i'm doing."

your hands quiver, unknowing what to do. you shake your head. "i don't. now stop kidding around and leave me alone!"

"i am," he tells you, holding the blade tighter now that his hands are bleeding. his red blood drips onto the concrete ground and you only wish to run. shu pleads, "please, y/n. i promise i'll leave you alone if you do this for me. please."

so, he's serious

you deadpan shu, "why do you want to do this then? aren't you here to take me away again? how do i know if you won't use that against me the moment i decide to trust you?"

the sorcerer sighs, hanging his head low. for a moment, he doesn't do anything. but then he starts gripping the knife even harder.

the blood rushes faster and you can't help the aching feeling in your chest seeing him do this to himself.

your hand reaches out to him, "shu, stop that."

"why do i want to do this?" he says, looking back up at you with tears in his eyes. "this is only one of the many things i can do to atone for what i did to you. hurt you, steal your life away. i did things you didn't want me to and... when you left and i finally found you, i just couldn't bring myself to bring you home with me."

"how do i know you're not lying?"

shu was manipulative after all.

"if i wanted you home with me, i would've just taken you by surprise when i found you at the flower shop."

this you believed, because shu was a straightforward person. if he saw the opportunity to take you back, he would’ve already taken it. yet here you were, alive and well.

maybe he is telling the truth.

but even then, killing him was not the right thing either. He may have taken away the things you couldn’t take back, but that didn’t mean he deserved to die.

even if he insisted that himself.

“please, y/n,” shu whispers, inching closer to you.

tears start to pool at the edge of your eyes, but it’s not because of fear, but out of the options being laid out to you. you didn’t want to kill him! that’s not what you wanted!

your hands are quick to avoid him but one of his hands are quick to capture them and place them on the knife’s handle, helping you press the sharp blade against his stomach

you pull back, but shu wasn’t letting you go

he pleads one more time, “please, y/n. this is the least i could do to apologize for what i did.”

“you don’t have to do this, shu. please. just leave me alone. that’s enough—“

then you suddenly jerk forward, not of your own will. and by the time you realize what’s going on, shu chokes out blood.

you look down at your hands, still grasped tightly by shu over the knife. the more you try to pull away though, the more he tugs back and he’s driving the blade deeper within his stomach

“shu, stop it! please!” you sob, looking away from his pale face.

“if you’re worried of being suspected as my murderer, don’t worry. i’ll smear the handle with my own. then they’ll suspect it’s just suicide,” he chuckles, more blood gushing out of his abdomen and leaking from his mouth

“that’s not what i’m worried about here! just please stop this,” your tears have fallen onto shu’s hands. “i’ve forgiven you for what you did, okay? please, stop this.”

“you don’t mean that. i know you’re still angry with me. so let me punish myself,” he coughs out more blood then gives out a sigh, and you were worried if he was gonna drop dead after that

“shu, please,” you beg for the umpteenth time. you shake your head desperately but shu only shoves the knife deeper. you could’ve sworn that blade had already pierced all the way through his body

“yo-you’re doing great, see? just a little longer,” he smiles weakly, but his words don’t get absorbed by you. not when you can feel his life slipping away every second

you thrash around before you manage to successfully push shu off of you. he staggers back and hits the ground

“shu!” kneeling down next to him, you look at the knife stuck in his flesh then reach for your phone to call for help. but shu grabs your wrist, bringing your tremoring fingers to his lips

he smiles, presses a single kiss before placing it atop where his heart laid, beating quieter every second

“it’s okay, y/n,” he whispers.

you begin to sob uncontrollably, who knows for what. your kidnapper and harasser was finally going to leave you alone. yet you can’t find yourself to let him slip away like this

maybe deep down, you could still feel how genuine and real his love was for you, as sickening as it was. to be truly honest, you never had someone cherish you as much as shu did.

“let me get help, okay?” you try to smile, tugging your hands away. but to no avail. “shu, please.”

“i don’t need help. you said it yourself, didn’t you?”

“no one can help you. you’re too far gone.”

“goddammit, shu, please.”

“just promise me you’ll keep living as yourself,” shu says, pressing your fingers against his chest. “be happy, keep smiling, keep being gentle. i realize now that kind of love isn’t for me. you’re not safe as long as i’m alive.”

“i’ll be fine, shu, just—“

“did you ever for a moment love me back, y/n?”

you look at the sorcerer, at death’s door yet so calm. maybe... maybe you should respect his strong wish to do this. if this was what you wanted, you suppose you can’t help with it either.

you swallow, holding his hand. “when you were being nice to me. when you didn’t chain me down or ask me to play your games. when you let me... have a bit of freedom.”

shu hums, nodding. “i see. i’m sorry for making you suffer.”

you shake your head as a hiccup escapes him.

“i love you, y/n. i always will,” he lays his head back and looks at the overhanging skies. “promise you’ll be yourself again?”

“yes, i promise,” you say.

“good,” he closes his eyes, and if it weren’t for the blood and knife, it probably only looked like he was just going to fall asleep. shu lets go of your hand and smiles one last time, “i was the sorcerer. but you had always been the one enchanting everyone, especially me.”

and with that, shu yamino presents you with his life, as an offering, as an apology, as an atonement of his sins.

as an apology, as an atonement of his sins.

Masterlist!

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sirensea14 · 18 days

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ALSO just thought about, this, (ignore my spelling mistakes and such, I, type fast and don't have tb3 patience to fix anything lmfao)

Maybe Mayhem is similar to Sarah as to his they got in5o th4 labyrinth? We do know that Sarah was in a way banished to the labyrinth (if in remembering right) and considering chaos the truth might b3 a chance that alternate universes play a role into his Mayhem even got to this planet, so maybe the angels or whatever saw mayhem causing chaos and banished her to ehever they sent Sarah, since (again, if I'm remembering right) that angels have a weird and suspicious connection to the labyrinth, what might also be th3 reasomctaht knight person that attacked mugs and Micheal I'd there, those 3 (plus Night Terror?) Never were born in the labyrinth, and as far as I can tell the labyrinth can't spawn in alternate version of characters to the degree that is mayhem, and not-cup could potentially be a version of cup ig he fully lost his soul to the devil, like a bad end version, idk I'm rambling but I really like this idea, and maybe the machine is what brought them to this universe, which could also be a minor reason the eye wants cup and mug to wait until they have the machine to fight the boss, since if the machine is capable of accessing alternate universes it could do really anything, maybe that cult has seen it first hand and that's why they were so be my on getting Wilson so they could turn it back on? Maybe bendys family has something to do with this cult? Bendy waking up in a field seems planned, maybe bendys parents wanted him to I stay there because that's where the machine is? What if his parents are looking for him? What if his parents are the ones who burned down the house and pit random junk in the front area before the house was arsoned??? I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS AND THEORIES WITH NO EVIDENCE 🔥🔥🔥🔥

Ooh, your take of mayhem's origin as from an alternate universe is interesting. I also had some theory that she was from an alternate universe but i could not explain how lol.

And regarding to the 3 ur talking about, i believe those are the illusions of Lukahd (a lady with hearts around her), Ventis (the one with the sword who violently attacked michael, mugs and boris. Shes also the one who said "dont trust the demons" or smth along the lines in that paradise full of dust zombies) and the Night Terror. And yeah, those werent born in there, they were all some sort of anomalies but satah managed to tame the Night Terror. There are also many other people out there that the Questers saw cuz those people were either from their memories, previous people's memories or from the instrument's own memories that is being projected to them by the labyrinth since it was like a cage whispering your negative thoughts out loud.

Sarah might be similar to mayhem in a way that they are both connected to an ink machine part but im not sure about them being banished in the labyrinth by the angels. Sarah was the one who created the labyrinth and consumed the souls of those in fairmont town which made it an abandoned. And the one who made that seal was Cannikin. Also Mayhem is a cosmic which is equivalent to a powerful being in inky mystery, so i dunno how the angels could interfere with Chaos teaching her how to mess with toons.

And your take on Not-cup was good. He might be the potential bad endung Cuphead but we dont know for now cuz theyre still in recovery T-T or maybe he's just another illusion im the labyrinth, but then that begs the question, how the heck did he get in the tear with mayhem? So yea i dunno about that shit.

And the Ink Machine bringing forth an alternate universe? Uh cant explain that lol. We have only seen a fraction of its power through boris and how the demons want it so badly. And the Eye, not sure about that since theres no much thing revealed about it yet but i think thats sone kind of warning for the cupbros for whatever important action they may take.

And cult, the Cercatori, hmm, they are some shady people put there but i dont know if they want the ink machine cuz the cult was about the Lady of Despair. But that is possible that they may know the ink machine.

And bendy's parents... still left as an inky mystery...

Also if i remember it correctly, the Ink Machine is hiding in the seven sands desert?? That was where Wilson went to before he got chased by the cupbros and eventually crashed a car.

And that arson, there was some unidentified rune that they found in the attic i think? It wasnt angel rune, not micco either, maybe a demon rune??? But still, i aint sure about that, the possible culprit is : a. a henchman of the devil, b. someone from the cult or c. other

Hehe, i like hearing ur thoughts about this :3 Im also prone to conclusions if i dont have enough info at hand but i try to gather some from the wiki, find clues, and maybe reread some significant chapters.

#inky mystery #bendy and boris in the inky mystery #babitim #theory

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I think tumblr ate my ask or it just didn't sent but what are your favorite Bastille songs / what are some songs you recommend?

i did NOT get this ask im very sorry anon.

it's genuinely hard for me to narrow down cause bastille is pretty up there in terms of favorite artists. i love all their shit, but a special mention goes out to their second studio album wild world since it's the one that made me a Fan

uh so here's a primer i guess i spent too much time on this lmao.

if you wanna listen to their big hits:

flaws - their first single in the uk. if you ever listened to ship playlists on 8tracks in like 2013-2015 then you've probably heard this song or a variant on it at some point.

pompeii - this is the song that really put them on the map and you definitely know it. it dominated the charts all over the place.

happier - the marshmello song that you've definitely heard before too. i think bastille wrote this for justin bieber or some shit but then decided they liked it too much to give it to him? lmao. anyway if you're not digging the version you hear on the radio all the time i recommend trying the stripped down version

good grief - their big hit off their second album. big in the uk, didn't really make as many waves elsewhere, but it's a really solid song anyway. one of those "upbeat tunes that's actually really fucking sad" ones

things we lost in the fire - another one off their first album. if you live in a wildfire area this might not be one to turn to. or maybe you'll find it cathartic idk i certainly do!!

quarter past midnight - a song about escapism, as was fitting when it was released in 2018 and equally fitting now. running away for a night of fucking around with friends, craving any kind of brief departure from the chaos of the modern world

skulls - this one was not a hit or a single and is technically a bonus track but i'm including it because once again if you ever clicked on a ship playlist on 8tracks in like 2013-2015 you've heard this one. and you know what that was justified this one is also good

if you wanna feel existentially depressed:

their whole discography. i mean i kid but i also don't. that's just kind of how bastille does it. BUT IN ALL SERIOUSNESS ones that hit me in particular would beeee

two evils - kind of a grim, haunting one introspecting about morality of the self.

oblivion - musing about the afterlife, love, and how time changes all of us.

those nights - contemplating what it is we seek when we plunge into reckless escapism, and the inherent loneliness of it; how even when surrounded by people there's still the pressure of the world outside, continuously coming to pieces

the draw - this one was written about the pull of pursuing a career in music vs. staying home with family and friends. in a broader sense, it can apply to a lot of things. i always felt it resonated with feelings of paranoia and displacement

winter of our youth - discusses childhood, nostalgia, and regret. if it feels like everything's slipping away, is it easier to relive the past, especially if the past is tinted rose?

sleepsong - loneliness, desperation, and the cyclical, abyss-like nature of all it encapsulates

if you want discussion of serious topics:

final hour - a bonus track off their second album that also became a bonus track off their third album? anyway this song talks about climate change and gun control. happy stuff

doom days - this one talks about, uh, everything! doomscrolling, political divides, escalating national tensions, climate change again, etc.

the currents - a song centered on political rhetoric and the power that figureheads have over the masses, the way they can orchestrate hate. basically it's not so subtly aimed at donald trump lmao, dan's literally sung it as much in a few live settings

WHAT YOU GONNA DO??? - social media addiction and the way capitalism and corporate interests have annexed our online experiences, fighting desperately for our attention as they seek to monetize every available aspect of our lives

four walls (the ballad of perry smith) - well this one is about uh. perry smith. who was charged with the death penalty for killing 4 people in the late 50's. but it's less directly about him and more a discussion of the morality of the death penalty and capital punishment

snakes - burgeoning anxieties and the impulse to turn to easy outs, like ignorance or alcoholism, to escape the world's global problems

if you want some pop culture sprinkled on top:

icarus - greek mythology. i like this one because it addresses something that i feel isn't addressed enough in discussions of this myth, which is that icarus is a very young lad. less about the pride of the fall, and more about the inherent tragedy of that.

laura palmer - the whole song is a david lynch shoutout. i've never seen twin peaks myself but the song still slaps.

daniel in the den - christian mythology. discusses the biblical tale of daniel in the lion's den and links that up to themes of betrayal and family.

poet - this one's a double feature, referencing both william shakespeare's sonnet 18 and edmund spencer's sonnet 75. also one of my favorites.

send them off! - this is another one of my favorites of theirs. it's also been described by dan as "othello meets the exorcist" and it very much delivers there

if you want something uplifting:

joy - while bastille (understandably) has a bit of reputation as a band that makes sad music about sad things, they've definitely got some happier songs in their catalogue. pun intended cha ching. this one's one of their more straightforwardly happy tunes

survivin' - this was a song they wrote while they were touring and then felt weird about releasing once the panini hit because it felt a bit on the nose. they ended up releasing it anyway and i am so glad they did cause it's a mood

act of kindness - the "happy" part here is debatable but i'm gonna include it anyway. it’s when someone does something nice for you and that impulse Changes you way down deep you know???

warmth - one of those "the world's going to shit but at least we have each other" kinds of tunes

the anchor - one of those "the world's going to shit but you're the one fucking thing that's still keeping me here" kinds of tunes

give me the future - their latest single as of this writing and one of the more optimistic tracks in their catalogue imo! it's yearning, but it's also with a genuine hope for the future.

and LASTLY. because im going to take every chance i can to plug this band. im going to throw some collabs and covers at you because there's one thing this band does SUPER well and it's collabs and covers.

of the night - this is the big one. it mashes up rhythm of the night by corona and rhythm is a dancer by SNAP! and it's so good they still do this one live and it goes off every time.

no angels - a mashup of "no scrubs" by TLC and "angels" by the xx, poured into a strangely mournful tune with clips from the hitchcock movie psycho. doesn't sound like it should work but it does. kinda really does.

torn apart - with GRADES and lizzo no less!!! it's got two parts but they're both excellent listen to them both

weapon - collab with angel haze, dan priddy, and F*U*G*Z and one of my absolute favorites

remains - remix of their song "skulls" but featuring rag'n'bone man and skunk anansie that adds an entire new dimension to the song, really fucking excellent

old town road mashup - lil nas x's old town road meets lizzo's good as hell meets radiohead's talk show host meets talking heads' road to nowhere meets the osmond's crazy horse. "what the fuck that shouldn't work" i KNOW and yet here it is!! BLATANTLY BANGING!!!

we can't stop - one of the few times dan smith subtly changes the lyrics of the song he's covering (most of the time he opts to keep the original pronouns and the like, which is very nice to see). anyway this one mixes miley cyrus's we can't stop with eminem's lose yourself and billy ray cyrus's achy breaky heart. and also the lion king's i just can't wait to be king is there. yes i know it sounds batshit especially because the whole thing is surprisingly melodic and heartfelt and you know what it works.

anyone but me x nightmares - mashing up joy crookes' anyone but me with easy life's nightmares and absolutely one of my favorites.

bad guy mashup - how many songs can they include with the word "bad" in the title? we've got bad guy (billie eilish), bad decisions (bastille), bad romance (lady gaga), and bad blood (taylor swift). bastille even has a song called bad blood and they didnt use it. they used taylor swift's version. also the distinctive guitar riff from dick dale's misirlou is there.

somebody mashup - how many songs can they include with the word "some" in the title? someone like you (adele), somebody told me (the killers), somebody to love (queen), use somebody (kings of leon), and someone you loved (lewis capaldi). seriously these guys take mashups to a new level.

final song - this is a cover of MØ's final song. it also adds in craig david's 7 days and, impossibly enough, europe's final countdown. how does it work. how.

ALL RIGHT. THATS ALL IVE GOT IN ME. HOPE THIS HELPED ANON AND IM SORRY IF THIS IS TOO MUCH

#askin hours #anon #bastille #ill put this in the bastille tag why not #this is predominantly a fall out boy blog but if any bastille bloggers are out there....all like 20 of you....#i see the work u do in this fandom and i love u for it

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wonderland-in-bloom · 4 years

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riddle, azul, vil, and malleus w/ the reader turned baby

@itzalexblogsquad asked: Hey, If you can, can I request of Mabye headcannons or scenarios of Mabye Mallues, Riddle, Azul and mabye Vil taking care of a baby reader that turned into a baby on accident? It’s okey if you don’t want to 😙

how could i possibly turn down such a cute request? off topic but based off of lilia’s card translations, MALLEUS CAME FROM AN EGG? LIKE EGG? AND HE BREATHES FIRE?! NANI

okay on to the headcanons under the cut!

riddle rosehearts

HE WOULD STRAIGHT UP P A N I C

riddle doesn’t really have experience babysitting or spending a majority of his time around kids, LET ALONE BABIES, so this was going to be a struggle for him

he couldn’t even process all the information and pace back and forth around the room, leaving you (an innocent and confused little baby) to just stare at him

he would awkwardly pick you up in his arms and hold you tight (because he was so paranoid that you’d fall or he’d mess up in a way)

he ran directly to trey and begged him to help

basically riddle was begging and pleading in tears

“so i’m now basically babysitting two babies.” trey commented

trey would do all of the ‘taking-care-of-the-baby-and-doing-grown-up-stuff’ while riddle would watch from afar

he slightly hesitated when trey said it was okay for him to play with you

at first he only poked your cheek with his index finger, but once he saw you wrap your tiny hand around his finger and the warmth along with it, his personality had a 180 degree turn

“w..widdle!” you cooed and riddle felt like he was going to have a heart attack

he would dance around the room with you in his arms, sing you lullabies, feed you really sweet tarts (which trey had to snatch out of his arms), and force cater to take as many pictures of you as possible

in conclusion, he was cold and distant at first. hesitant even. but now he couldn’t even stay as long as five seconds away from you

riddle would throw celebrations and tea parties almost every single day for you and his excuses would be for the most dumb of reasons

let’s just say you were a spoiled baby if you were ever around riddle and the other heartslabyul boys

azul ashengrotto

azul would get straight into working on an antidote to fix this little accident so he left jade and floyd to deal with you

honestly he said that hesitantly to the both of them and he secretly wanted to spend time with you. jade and floyd was able to see through his tsundere-like personality and secretly left the door to the potion room slightly ajar, causing you to crawl inside.

well it was a horrible idea which the two of them didn’t even consider because you started knocking down vials of potions

azul let out a high pitched scream and picked you up to ensure you were safe

he thought that it was going to be a calm, quick, easy session of making the antidote, bUT OH BOY HE WAS WRONG

you couldn’t stop moving from one place to the other, biting everything you saw, and basically just being in danger all the time

azul felt like dramatically crying "why is my job so difficult?”

when he thought you finally stopped moving around and crawling around he went back to working but that’s when he felt something heavy clinging on his leg

you wrapped your small arms around his leg and didn’t want to let go

“(y/n)...(y/n), dear, please let go.” this caused you to wail and allowed azul to sigh to himself

he brought it upon himself to just pick you up and placed you on the back of his neck, where your two arms were around his neck to prevent you from falling

“now, now. stop crying okay? that’s better right? now let me work turning you back to normal okay?”

finally it was peaceful and quiet and he was surprisingly able to get the antidote done in no longer than 10 minutes

just when he was about to hand it over to you, you grabbed on his sleeves and started to tear up “a-azuw”

azul felt a tug on his heartstrings. although he admitted that you were annoying and such a disturbance, he actually found those times to be well...somewhat fun. he didn’t want you to turn back into your original age just yet.

“alright, alright. as long as we have the antidote, it’ll be fine.” he placed the antidote in his pocket and carried you.

of course he’d be super possessive and be the only one who’s allowed to carry you and he won’t even let jade and floyd play with you. what a tsundere.

vil schoenheit

“ROOK! LOCK ALL MY COSMETICS IN OUR EMERGENCY SAFE! DON’T FORGET THE BRUSHES AS WELL!”

yeah literally the first thing he thinks of when he sees you as a baby is how much destruction you can have upon his own precious babies (his cosmetics lol)

vil does not do well with kids, ESPECIALLY BABIES AND TODDLERS. so he’d just leave rook and epel to take care of you

so you were currently on the floor of his bedroom, playing around with rook and epel and vil just sat in a chair far away from you just admiring his own nails

epel was getting a little frustrated. you were such an angel and you didn’t even wreck anything, and so he wanted to teach vil a lesson. “hey, rook, come here.” he whispered his plan into his ear and rook evilly agreed.

out of nowhere vil felt a weight on his lap and looked down to see you, eyes wide and sparkling staring directly back at his own.

“WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?! ROOK! EPEL! COME BACK THIS INSTANT!” he shouted at them as they left the room in laughter.

so there he was. alone in his room with a baby on his lap.

he hesitantly and stiffly picked you up to stare at you “what am i supposed to do with you?”

“viw? viw!” you smiled which caused something in vil to change just slightly

“babies are disgusting but you make an exception.” he smiled, cuddling you close to him

little did he know...you were chewing on his precious, beautiful, flawless blonde locks

“....(Y/N)! WHAT IS THE MEANING OF THIS?!” he pouted and stared into your eyes. he went all weak when he saw your big, sparkling eyes, and honestly he just melted.

“...fine then, i’ll scold you when you’re back to normal.”

rook and epel peeped from the door and saw vil asleep on the chair with you cuddled up against his arms

“how cute...” “cute for blackmail?” “heheh, you read my mind.”

malleus draconia

he’d probably be okay with dealing with you since he did take care of silver when he was younger

he would scoop you up in his arms and bring you for a stroll along the forest

malleus would sing you a lullaby as he gently rocked you in his arms while strolling through the sunlight filled woods

his voice would be so calming, so soothing, and honestly it’s perfect for any baby

you two would stop in a meadow filled with flowers and that’s where he would start making small little flower crowns for you

he would also most likely use his magic to manipulate the flowers and trees around him, making some sort of cradle from branches and flowers for you to be placed in

honestly his heart is just soft for human babies

this is probably what almost all babies want tbh and you can’t stop smiling and giggling every second you spent with malleus

“maw! maw!” “(y/n)...it’s malleus.” “mawwe!” “oh well. you’re cute so i won’t blame you.”

you two spent the whole day in the forest and as sunset approached he took you to the edge of a cliff by the ocean and watched the sunset with you

he considered flying with you in his arms and bringing you to see different sights but well...he could leave that for another time

“i love you, (y/n). both in this baby form and your original form.” he landed a kiss on your small nose

so honestly, malleus is just the dream, ideal boi when taking care of you turned into a baby

and now let a♕-chan transport herself to twisted wonderland and turn into a baby to be spoiled by malleus

♡

im so soft for malleus omg ;-; p.s. expect a little 1000 followers celebration sometime later. maybe. i’m still confused lolol

love, a♕

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m00n-arin · 3 years

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Skin marks of the obey me! Characters (like freckles, moles, scars etc.)

Yeah, this is cause i have skin marks but i never thought of them as imperfections, without them i wouldnt be me, one very specific mark on my left hand is the only reason i know my left form my right. Some skin marks, like moles and birthmarks are beautiful but make people feel insecure, even when they shouldnt. And i feel, the best part of meeting someone is seeing those little “imperfections” that make them unique.

Lucifer

I dont have to say this again, he has scars on his back and neck.

He used to be self conscious because of the origins but he has grown to like them.

Thats lowkey cause he heard that someone felt scars tell incredible stories.

Still rather not show them, thats why he never takes his shirt of.

Also stress related acne on his chest and back, which he keeps touching!!, LUCIFER STOP.

Mammon

He has some very small scars on his hands, because he does a lot of things and tends to be careless

He also has moles on his scalp, hands (on his left hand he has one near his middle finger nail, other in the base of his ring finger and on his right hand he has one on his wrist) and on the back of his left ear.

They are tiny and not noticable and he doesn’t care about them.

He also has one (1) scar on his leg that has been there since forever and there is no one that knows where it comes from.

Leviathan

Freckles.

Not normal sun freckles either but oddly colored freckles. Like fish freckles.

Hated them, but has learned to accept them.

On good days, but he does feel down cause of the sometimes.

Do kiss each freckles until he learns to love them, yes.

He also has various swimming related rashes at times. He complains about them ALL the time and he actually tries to take precautions against them.

Oh, and acne scars, obvs.

Satan

Cafe au lait spots on his arms (yes, i am only saying this cause i have them, leave me alone)

He also has a very big birth mark on his back which he used to hate cause it reminded him of his dad Lucifer.

Now he owns it, and no one even thinks of making fun of him, cause it looks amazing.

Also, he has a very long scar across his back, nearly following his spine, this is due to his demon form tail. Unlike lucifer, he never had a problem with this scar, he sees them as a sign of his true nature, which he no longer denies. He’s grown so much, i love ‘im.

Asmo

He actually does not have any freckles or moles or even scars.

He takes upmost care of his skin and even then his skin is smooth.

He has a tiny heart near his right eye, its pink and no one knows what it is. But it’s cute, and it fits his ✨ aesthetic ✨

He does have dimples.

He loves them, they got him so many compliments when he was little. And still do,haha

Beelzebub

Bug bites, so many bug bites.

Also a lot of scars, because he does a lot of physical work. All of them shallow too, he doesnt even notice when he has new ones.

And strech marks, his back is very broad beacuse of his muscles.

He a strong man, yall, he got strech marks,

On the human world, he got a tans quite fast. A week and he has a farmer’s tan.

Belphegor

Three moles near his left eyes. (Which i always forget to draw oops)

Eye bags, like deep eye bags.

Little bastard has a real smooth skin due to the amount of time he sleeps.

He is awfully pale and you can see the blue of his veins through it.

And he has those cow marks on his back and chest, tho sometimes the are lighter than other times.

Gets freckles easily when under the sun. He “hates” them 🙄 he actually likes them but doesn’t want to admit it.

Diavolo

Like Beel, he has strech marks on his back.

i don’t remember why, or who but someone planted this idea and i just, i just know that he used to have a tail and now he has a scar in its place.

Two moles on his neck, tried to make a vampire joke but they to far apart.

Also, other moles on his forearms, try connecting them like little dots, it’s cute AND fun.

Barbatos

I cant think of him having any marks, freckles or moles, really.

He takes care of his skin and he is really careful about not hurting himself.

He does have blisters on his fingers sometimes, but thats about it.

Solomon

Being immortal doesnt mean he’s invulnerable, so he has a lot of scars throught his body.

They are covered by tattos so you have to focus to see them.

More moles on his torso and arms that you can count.

Used to have a birth mark but it faded and never came back.

Simeon

Sun kissed freckles all over his face, arms, shoulders, anywhere where the sun hits.

They say each freckle is a kiss of an angel, so let’s just say he is very loved.

Man has impossibly smooth skin, he has no acne whatsoever.

Has some tiny moles on the back of his shoulders, 5 to be exact.

Luke

Again, sun kissed freckles.

Other than that, he has a smooth and clear skin without much moles and whatnot.

He does have one on the base of his skull but it’s covered by his hair.

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marsandsaturn · 3 years

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going on a picnic date with levi

this is dedicated to all my levi stans and to @erencore because i’d told her i would write this for her, also do not follow her. look at her pinned post. be respectful of peoples rules 💋 | i had originally wrote this for valentines day but i hate deadlines and i only had a day to write it so i didn’t write it. deadlines feel like i am writing an essay rather than just writing for fun, so that’s why I randomly write and post when i want because then i won’t feel pressured. also its not proof read so i’ll do it tomorrow afternoon after my classes are over :)

| fluff ; levi softness ; suggestive nsfw ; gn!reader ( as always ) GOING ON A PICNIC DATE WITH LEVI

levi isn’t a people person. he despoa lot of people. he kinda dislike hange, and erwin and the other brats but this is one person he doesn’t hate. at least not anymore.

you.

he used to hate you like the rest but you touched his heart and now he absolutely is in love with you. but he’ll never said it out loud. okay maybe one day but for now he keeps it to himself.

call him a simp or whatever, he’s definitely whipped for you. he’ll do anything for you because you are so important to him. you see in this life anyone could die. especially with all the titans. so levi likes to make the most out of your relationship. he goes out of his comfort zone with you because he lives to have as many memories with you as he can.

so it just happened to be a day off for everyone. bow most would think that levi would try to catch up on paperwork on the day off. and most wre right, he would. but for once in his life, he’s caught up.

so he decides to take out on your out on a date because he hasn’t been able to in a while. the day is wonderful the weather is just right. so he made a plan.

he would get a blanket that he made, a basket he bought after saving up for it. he would bring some books to read to you. of course he would bring some sandwiches and some lemonade that sasha had taught him how to make. (in his opinion it was a really good drink, but him being him. he would never tell her) and he would also bring some tea.

so at around 9 im the morning he woke up, which surprisingly is late for him considering he wakes up at 5 am. he peppered you face with kisses and nuzzled his face into the crook of your neck to smell your scent. he loved how you smell, as it would make him all fuzzy and calm him down. he would never admit it but you had him wrapped around your finger.

“good morning ‘vi”

he just softly smiles with a tired look on his face before kissing you slowly.

“good morning angel”

levi is so much softer with you. now that doesn’t mean he won’t call you a dumbass and brat from time to time but he loves you call you the sweetest pet names.

“by noon be ready”

“for what?”

“im taking you out on that thing you always wanted”

“sitting on the top of a carriage while it moves?”

“yes- no-? why the hell would you want that?”

“i don’t know seems fun”

“no im taking you out on the thing that couples do”

“oh a date”

you sure were a weird one but he would trade you for anything in the world. you may have a loose screw in that head of you but your slightly chaotic personality and his cold personality balanced each other out.

“well then sir shortness where alas are you talking me?”

“you are the same fucking height as me shut your mouth”

“ah no! i am 162 cm you are 160 cm” (the average height of am american woman is 5′4 which is 162 cm)

“two fucking centimeters. thats the only difference. fuck off and get ready dumbass or i am not taking you out”

you knowing that this is a rare time where everyone will have a free day, so you rush to the bathroom that’s connected to your shared quarters, quickly getting ready before waiting on levi to also get ready.

he told you to wear something loose and breathable. so you wore you a loose cotton shirt, that was white, and some a thin cotton pants, which were light blue. on top of that you also had a sun hat that had your last name stitched into it. curtesy of levi ackerman himself. the two of you sneak out of the castle, trying not to get caught by hange. it wasn’t like hange didn’t know about the two of you, because everyone did. but it was the fact that hange would try and and follow you two with the other members of squad levi. and levi wanted this day two be the two of you. “ooh i haven’t seen you in casual clothes since last night, and i took those off” he looks at you and rolls his eyes, slightly blushing. yes he may dominate from time to time but he prefers to be submissive

“shut up before we walk back”

“i love you too”

he blushes. the both of you didn’t often say i love you so it was a special moment shared between you too that you both cherished. especially when he was taking you on a date, which was something that was also rare.

now after about a 20 minute walk the two of you finally made it to field that were filled with chrysanthemums. they were a mixed of red, orange and yellow (chrysanthemums) and a few other colors.

he set the blanket and basket down, taking out everything and setting them in a certain spot. he looks at you and softly smiled, which warmed your heart. he rarely smiles but whenever he does its the cutest smile ever(fanart of levi smiling; 1 ; 2 ; 3)

“i heard the brat armin talking about flowers so i asked him, and i truthfully did because i know you dislike it whenever i am rude, if i could used the book. luckily the little shit didn’t ask questions”

“of course you can’t compliment or talking nice about someone without throwing a insult into the sentence, but go head and finish”

“well i read about flowers and want each one symbolize so thats why i brought to this field”

he brought out the book and showed you the images of the chrysanthemums. in the book it said that chrysanthemums bring good luck.

“and well, shit you know i am not good with fucking words and telling my feelings. i guess what i am trying to fucking say is that i want you and possibly me to have good luck”

your eyes were tearing up. you weren’t on to cry but whenever levi did something sweet it always made you tear up a bit.

“and i know you slightly dislike full in romance but i got you a bouquet of flowers and they each having a meaning”

it was true. in the basket was a bouquet of flowers. red roses, tulips, carnations, and peonies.

the two of you sat down and began eating and drinking while he showed you what each of the flowers meant(article i used)

he began to explain why he chose those specific flowers. red roses can symbolize romance and passion. and thats how he feels around you. he loves you a lot and for once feels passionate for you.

tulips can symbolize perfection and royalty. he sees you as someone perfect. even though he knows that everyone isn’t perfect he just can’t help but have that feeling towards you. you are also his princess and likes you put you on the pedestal of royalty.

carnations can symbolize fascination and distinction. obviously at first when he met you he didn’t see as anything special. you were just as equal as the other brats. but with time he grew fascinated with how you handled yourself and how strong and independent you were. you didn’t take shit from anyone and lnew when to act. he liked that about you.

peonies can symbolize beauty and elegance. god whenever he did start to have a liking towards you he saw your beauty and elegance. the color of your skin, the smile you shared whenever you had a hapoy burt of energy. the texture of you hair, the sound of your voice, your personality. he was in love and although he wouldn’t admit it for some time deep down he knee that he had fallen hard but he was scared.

scared that he would lose you do he didn’t act onto to feelings until a few years ago and he was glad you did.

“and well, i decided that you deserved a date, thats what hange said it was called. because you make me a happy man, y/n”

you smile at his and caress his cheek. god did you love this man.

“wait you also made this drink? lemonade is it? why? you like tea more”

“even i can get tired of tea”

“what? even the levi ackerman can get tired of tea”

“y/n”

“i mean seriously. you? getting tired of tea? this is a discovery! we have to call hange to experiment on you! for science!”

“fuck off, no way am i letting you and for eyes experiment on me”

“levi its for science!”

“fuck science”

“hange would scream bloody murdrr if they heard you say that”

“you know what lets go back home, i want you to say it to their face”

“y/n i brought a book. i know how much you love me reading to you”

“okay maybe we can do that later”

so he did. he read to you and you cuddled up to him in his lap. as he read he would rub your hair and kiss your forehead. he also would feed you some fruit as well, and at times you would throw fruit at him to see if he would catch it in his mouth. which would earn you a glare and then a soft smile while shaking his head, looking away from you.

the two of you had spent the entire afternoon there. you wouldn’t trade it for the world. that date was one of the happiest moments of your life. towards the end the teo of you decided that you wanted to marry each other. but you didn’t tell each other, you only kept it you yourselfs.

all in all the date went wonderfull. he took you back to your shared quarters let you sleep, while he worked for a few minutes. he then joined you in and sleep another good night.

in the morning hange had heard about the you and captain going on the date and demanded details. which earned her a glare as well as a annoyed levi.

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washymylifeaway · 3 years

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Haikyuu SakuAtsu fanfic recs: series edition ;)

ALRIGHT LOVES, BUCKLE UP! IM FORCING MYSELF TO FIND MOTIVATION LOL

As I was making that cursed SakuAtsu fanfic rec post (it really is cursed, but it’ll get done eventually cause I do love the SakuAtsu too much, when tho? only god know LOL), I decided that if I’m gonna finish it, imma have to break it up. SO that’s why this is our lovely series edition post LOL. Originally, it WAS writers, tags, series, then single fics BUT I decided to scrap tags and even then I was like it’s too long..... And so, this post materialized LOL (mayhaps writers next? who knows anymore cause I certainly don’t LOL). These are ONLY some of the series that I absolutely adore, and I say some because 1) the tag is literally like 4k fics long and I was on like page 20 something and I have SO many tabs open rn for SakuAtsu, so chances are I missed one or five LOL :’((((( and 2) my ao3 account hasn’t been made yet (should’ve done this a looooooong time ago) and so I don’t have them all saved anywhere :( (these just sound like excuses LMFAO) So these are just the ones I saw and was like OOP I LOVE and then added LOL (and so they’re in no particular order hehe). I also didn’t *** any of them cause they’re all so freakin good and even if you randomly chose one, you will not be disappointed.

As per usual, pls check WARNINGS, TAGS, and SUMMARIES for series and each individual fic before reading and make sure you’re taking care of yourselves (since mental health is key!) Stay healthy loves <3

I would also be more careful cause there are a lot more TW in these fics than other ships!

Terminal Curiosity by favspacetwink, moonlumie (E) // CHECK WARINGS, TAGS, and SUMMARIES!!! this is one of the BEST series I’ve read for this ship and even though I tend not to read WIP, IT’S WORTH IT! Please read ALL the tags before going into any of the fics in this series because there’s some real spicy stuff that may not be your cup of tea!

your highs and lows by astroeulogy (T,M,E) // this fic made me go on a roller coaster of feels from start to (tentative) finish :))) It’s great and I love it AHHHHH The progression in their relationship is just so ajfkjsf, and I just adore how Atsumu just broke(?) during that first fic and the number of double takes he did, v relatable LOL.

Different Kinds of Dysfunctional by DeathBelle (T,E) // I LOVE the entrance to this fic and how it flowed so well. I think Atsumu is characterized really well throughout this series (I could totally see Atsumu bringing the same thing up over and over again LOL), and his development was done beautifully (You just want to make me say it.,,, Kinda, yeah.). I really freakin love this series so please go ahead and read it don’t be shy hehehe.

we call everything on the ice, "love" by awkwardedgeworth (T) // I LOVE this fic omg,,, it’s in series, but it’s only two fics LOL... Anyway, Notte Stellata is one of my favorite SakuAtsu fics and I have reread it way TOO many times and the fanpage fic IS SO AMAZING (AND FUNNY ASF PLS). I really love ice skating AU’s too so this really made this ‘series’ all the more better <333333

know you better & related stories by theglitterati (T,M,E) // this is definitely one of the best relationship development series I’ve read, I love it so much! It really touches all the bases, and the progression is just SO good. It really is the fic version of the get along shirt, extended edition LOL.

flutterbird (a collection of sakuatsu one-shots) by wordstruck (T,M,E) // this series is such an easy pick up because it’s a bunch of one-shots (esp. if you’re not into smut cause there is some), BUT all of them are def worth a read. Personally, the third one, the sakusa kiyoomi listography, is my favorite (cause imma sucker for Sakusa), but that’s just personal preference hehe :)

Atsumu + Sakusa + The National = ? by isaksara (syailendra) (T,M) // this is another stand alone fic series but with AUs :D I don’t even know like most (ie. all) of the references (LMFAO), but I still read all of them LOL. Again, a personal favorite (without any references LOL) is the second one, famous angels (never come through england), it’s really funny and good and I just love it okay?

Better For Us Both by abrandnewheart (M) // (this was CP from my angst fic rec post LOL tho it is slightly edited cause istg my writing style changes every post LOL) THE MUG FIC. There is a sequel and when I saw it, it took me another week to read it cause I was like,,, am I ready to have my heart break again? No LOL. But the sequel is actually not as angst (but there’s still angst), so if you want to be like semi-broken or whatever, just read the sequel LOL (also it’s Sakusa POV HEHE). It’s so sad and it made me physically hurt every time someone even mentioned mugs afterwards (LOL why am I so dramatic but it’s the truth :///). Go ahead and hurt with me. You should read it even if you don’t like angst because you know what they say, no pain no gain :’)

parallax error: angle of inclination by min_mintobe (T) // okay so technically this ‘isn’t a series’, but it is two fic that are related, and what is that if not A SERIES :DDDDD Anyway, I really love this fic enough that I would find loopholes in my own dang post to recommend it LOL. I really love the service ace bet between Sakusa and Atsumu (I do think it is a superior headcannon (it’s hc right?)) but I also love what’s left unsaid by both in each other’s POVs hehe. If you want to go straight to Sakusa’s POV (cause their different POVs of the same fic), here it is parallax error: line of sight. You can read either first, but I recommend you read both eventually :)

to make any other mistake by honeymilktea (rosevtea) (T) // I, myself, am a very big fan of college Haikyuu (tho idk if it seems like that LOL), and this fic is very much up my alley hehe. I really like the idea that they are both TA’s and that Atsumu would totally bribe Sakusa into fake dating him as well as Sakusa wearing his brightest outfits to spite Atsumu.

How Do You Know? by awkwardedgeworth (T) // these fics are both so funny omg. The google search histories, the trial and error, and just everything in these two fics gives me so much dopamine LOL. There’s one POV for both end of the ship, though their tragedies are slightly different.

the human disaster chronicles by firtree (G,T) // is this another Atsumu gay panic fic? Yes, yes it is and I have absolutely no shame in recommending it hehe. I realllllllly like this fic and Atsumu having a break down cause Sakusa didn’t follow his routine? It is the move. Anyway, pls read this series cause like the title suggests, it really is a disaster (but at least there’s love right? LOL).

I Love You (Though it's Inadvisable) by Anubis_2701 (T) // okay the series itself is a wip (as in only one fic for now LOL), but the fic is so good, I couldn’t leave it off :))))) First, I do love a good soulmate AU and although I’m not a big fan on the body switching AUs, THIS one was SO good!!! It gets really cheesy and fluff at the end, but the beginning of this fic was just so immaculate, that we’re gonna ignore how much the ending made me want to stick my head into a hole (cause it was so FLUFF OMG).

The Germaphobe and the Asshole by metaandpotatoes (T,E) // so this series is also actually a WIP, but it’s okay I only read the first and the last one anyway cause they’re basically stand alone’s LOL. This series focuses a lot on Sakusa’s mysophobia, so if you’re not a fan of the hc, you should prolly pass hehe. TBH, my favorite is the third one, Avoidance Behavior, but that’s mainly cause I really like SunaOsa and I love the brother bond in it!

you are the cause of my euphoria by SugarHighs (T) // ajsfljksadhjkdfk is my first thoughts while reading this series cause ATSUMU WOULD. He would start posting thirst trap pics (which really reminded me of Wonho) in order to prove he was the most good looking member of MSBY. Tho, we do love the clowning of one Sakusa Kiyoomi, as done in the third fic (PLEASE NUMBER 17 AND Cheezel). Even if you can’t get yourself to read the other fics, read the third one, 5 Ways To Tell If The Person You're Dating Is The One, for the free serotonin boost plsplspls.

'basis' - noun. the underlying foundation for an idea or process. by auvelli (T) // like I said, college AU is a great AU, love it. This one, I do love indeed. We do stan having microwaves and mini fridges hehe. I support the ramen endeavors but oatmeal is gross, I said what I said. Anyway, I love the tags in the second fic, so even if you don’t end up reading it, read the tags,,,, they’re funny okay?

and i press you to the pages of my heart by volchitsae (T) // I LOVE THIS ONE, teehee again the college AU makes another appearance LOL. I REALLY love this writer, and this one is so funny but cute at the same time. It’s another two POV fic, but you’ll want to read this one in order hehe. Again, the ending is so FLUFF, that my head wanted to take a visit to the underground BUT ITS OKAY.

affection and acid reflux by volchitsae (T) // so the first fic is ~angst~ but IT GETS BETTER OKAY, happy endings. HAPPY ENDINGS. Anyway, there’s some really cute Sakusa in this one (esp. when he talks to the boy at the village LOVE HIM) and a healthy amount of angst as well. I really like this fic and guess what it is? Say it with me, COLLEGE AU LOL.

how big the hourglass, how deep the sand by volchitsae (E) // did I just recommend the same writer three times in a row? Yup and I think that says something LOL (tbh I like some of their stand alone fics more tho LMFAO but that doesn’t mean these series are bad nononono not at ALL (this sounded sarcastic but that was not the intention LOL)). This one is ~magical~ (v literally) and has some kinky stuff (holy water ftw) in it, so tread carefully :) I would make sure to read the tags before each one because it gets kinda steamy LOL.

^^ if I had to choose between these three, I liked and i press you to the pages of my heart the most just cause the plot was my type LOL. But they’re all good hehe.

a study on you(th) and reverie by sieges (G,T) // this series is such a sad series :( The first two are the only SakuAtsu but the third one is an angst Osamu one so there’s that LOL (and ofc the fourth one is KuniYama (is that their ship name idk)) But the first one is a moving on fic (which I liked) and the second is like basically a fake break up (which I liked more LOL) and both have some nice shares of angst and fluff so choose your battles wisely (or just read both LOL).

Burden of Blame by DeathBelle (E) // CHECK WARINGS, TAGS, and SUMMARIES!!! ah yes, the mafia fic LOL. I REALLY LOVE THIS FIC. I felt so bad for Atsumu the entire fic and yes it is, ATSUMU BEST BOY time. Did I really just recommend this series AGAIN for the THIRD TIME in THREE SEPARATE POSTS? Apparently LMFAO I didn’t even know TBH LOL. I just really like this one,,,,,, okay? But pls Atsumu just here for the ride man cause he BEST BOY. Anyway, if you want to see my other comments of this fic that I forgot I did links here :D (links and here are two separate links to two separate posts LOL).

OKAY so that’s most of the series that I saw and was like gotta put this here LOL. And do you see how long this is (I know I’m missing so many series I like istg when I find them later imma cry or just make another post LOL).... Can you imagine how long my actual fic fic one is LOL (i’m not kidding tho it’s so long I might just do fics with their actual summaries instead of adding my invalid, piss poor reviews :/). Ugh the more I think about it, the more I lose motivation to finish LMFAO, so imma go be no thoughts head empty, but I hope you enjoyed reading these series! I love SakuAtsu SO much, so there’s lots more to come (is that good or bad idek). I know I was kinda lazy on the warnings (my bad), so I hope you all were attentive and made sure to check before reading! Also if there are any errors, send me a message/ask! PLS, they’re v embarrassing LOL. (Also tell me if I forget to cap my I’s bc I do that sometimes and I can’t tell cause of the font LMFAO.) The way my posts get slightly more chaotic every time I post LOL.

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junnibook · 3 years

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Stockholm Syndrome

Oh sangwoo multi write.

A/n: for the love of gods read the warnings. Minors do not enter. This is just the first ine I hope it gets better over time and while I fix it up.

Also I’m back.

Part 1/?

Warnings: kidnap, noncon , dubcon, drugging, abuse (mostly to bum), sangwoo, bullying, Stockholm syndrome, murder, killing stalking, NSFW NSFW NSFW, knife play, rope play.

There is this guy, to everyone else he’s hot and cool, but to you he’s big and scary.

Your first encounter happened when you started college, originally you planned on asking someone for help but your nerves told you otherwise. He was there, watching you, you were like a snow bunny, in a forest of wolves. You came in looking so innocent.

How could he not want to be near you.

You had a white dress that showed absolutely no curves, it hung off your body as if you didn’t have one at all.

He adored you, from afar, he didn’t want to ruin the look of confusion on your face just yet, but he knew if he didn’t go up to you than someone else would and he didn’t want that. He made sure to place his best smile on just for you, you should be lucky no one has gotten this pasific smile before.

“Hey, lost there huh” he made sure to be careful and lean over your small body just a little. He didn’t want to scare his little bunny just yet. He thought you would look up at him, blush than look away. He was wrong, the minute you looked up at him, your stomach dropped, he looked like a normal guy to everyone else but to you he looked like a monster ready to attack you at any given second.

You didn’t blush, far from that. You were scared and although he liked the look of absolute fear on your face, the look wouldn’t help his reputation here, so he backed away.

“Didn’t mean to scare you, im sangwoo. Did you need help finding your way” you thought that maybe you shouldn’t judge people. So you returned his smile, even if your lip quivered and your palms get sweaty.

“ it’s okay, im f/n, l/n” your voice is like angels singing to him, your first mistake was one, telling him your name rather than two, showing him your schedule because not only did he get your classes but he also got your address.

Anyways , he told you where to go glad that you actually have a class with him. He’d let you find out on your own.

He watched you, even if his friends saw him. He couldn’t help but picture you in his basement, nice and pretty for him, the look of fear he craves from you, your mouth gagged showing off how pretty your lips are, he even wants to see your face stained with tears, beg for him he’ll love it if you be geg for him to let you go. With such a sweet voice you have, he loves to listen to you cry out for hours.

Fuck-

He needs to calm down before he gets TO excited. You just didn’t know what he wanted to do with and your littel innocent fucking body. You haven’t been with anyone on campus or off HE MADE SURE. just wait until he has you.

He promised to take good care of you.

~a month later~

He didn’t like your new friends, in fact he hated them. They Are so touchy and they make you go out at night to drink. Making you wear a skimpy little dress, then leaving you alone by yourself, letting some guy get his fill of you.

Your hopeless, if he wasn’t there who knows what some guy would’ve done to you, they could’ve kidnapped you before he got the chance too and he refuses that. He would have taken you while you were drunk and barely standing in his grip. But your friend picked you up.

A guy.

Who was that guy? Did you have something going on with him? He seemed worried about you. But why would he need to worry if sangwoo was there to help you. You don’t think he’s a bad guy do you. He just wants to make sure you're safe, the world is too dangerous for you. That’s why he has to keep you from the world.

He’s tried everything to get you over his home willingly, but you're a stubborn little pain in the ass aren’t you. Lucky for you he had a little issue at home the same day he planned to take you home with him.

He was pissed, even broke ankles and killed the girl he already had in his basement. He wanted you to get to know her, maybe the two of you could bond. But no, some stalker had to come and ruin everything, you can wait for him can’t you.

He just needs a little time to think about how he’s going to get you to him. It’s harder since you're being a little bit of a bitch, did your new friends make you think that you're better than everyone, make you feel like you are so above everyone that you can’t talk to anyone. He doesn’t like that, you're starting to piss him off, he didn’t want to have to force his way in but now he has no choice.

He followed you today, all he wants to know is who the hell is that guy you're walking with. Your smiling at him, who the fuck did you think you were. You really did it, you brought the real him out way too early.

He waited for you to go to a bathroom before he walked over to the guy, “you must really like the risk huh” sangwoo slid over to him by the bar, taking note of how many empty shot glasses you had in complaining about what the guy you were with had. “What do you mean.?” the guy asked, a simple lie is all he needed to do, wasn’t his first time. “I walk by her highschool everyday, i didn’t know she had such a boyfriend, ya know fifteen and dating a what 25, 26? '' the guy had a look on his face that held so much guilt.

It didn’t take long for the guy to leave, blocking all numbers of whatnots.

You came out the bathroom wobbling back to the crowds, you're so hopeless, barely standing on your own. You poor little thing, don’t worry he’s here to make sure nothing happens to you.

He walked up to you, catching you as you tripped, “ mm im sorry haha” you couldn’t see the face of the person who helped you, the lights were turned off but the smell of this person was so familiar, you couldn’t put your finger on it. Your head pounding and your heart racing, everything around you made you feel happy, even if it was fuzzy. You felt free, so no you didn’t question the man who walked you out the club.

This was freedom, free to do what you pleased, you liked it.

The cool air from outside made your body feel good but in a bad way, your stomach felt tight. “ C'mon let's get you home” you froze, finally looking up, seeing a head of dyed blonde hair than familiar eyes, the eyes of you wished to never see again this close. “Sangwoo?” you questioned, maybe it was the alcohol that made you see him, you wanted to believe that he wasn’t there, but he was, his stupid smirk made it real just like how his hands placing themselves on your lower back.

Your throat burned and you gagged lightly before releasing everything in your stomach on him and his shoes. “Fucking gross” you leaned back trying to get away from him, but he wasn’t going to let you leave, he’s already holding back from hurting you so openly, you couldn’t fight back your body would let you. You tried to reach out but your body failed you terribly.

He of course loved your struggles , everything about it made him happy. To have you so close to him being so close to having you in his basement, if he wasn’t covered in your puke he would’ve been even more happy.

Bringing you home wasn’t an issue, you didn’t even know your name right. When he got there he took his stained clothes off and dragged your body down to the basement. “ hey, bum. I brought you a little friend” he dropped you on the floor to look at yoonbum, who scanned over you in shock, you sat next to him in class.

He gasped, does that mean that sangwoo was going to get rid of yoonbum. No but he didn’t need to know that.

Sangwoo didn’t waste any time before taking off your clothes seeing you in your matching set. “ hm i could never tell what her body was like when she wore her clothes all lose” he was impressed running his hands on your sides before taking your bra off and chaining you to the pole with bum. He stood up watching you before disappearing stairs.

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You woke up to groaning, your head pounding and your throat dry. Your body hurt from laying on a hard surface, did you sleep outside? This is what it felt like, you're cold and damped. You tried to move but you couldn't because your ankle felt heavier than normal. It took you awhile but you finally realized that you're on the floor, naked- well you had panties.

Your breathing picked up as you tried to look around. It’s too dark to actually see anything. You felt around screaming when you felt a body part move next to your hand. You started panting when you hear heavy footsteps above your head. You trembled hearing the door open, whincing as the light from upstairs hit your eyes.

“ hm your awake” you felt your breathing pick up seeing the man walk down the stairs. “sangwoo?”

#anime #im sorry it sucks #anime ask #x reader #ask #likecommentshare #naruto shippuden #haikyuu!!#mha #naruto #killing stalking #sangwoo #oh sangwoo

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alexiaugustin · 3 years

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good morning mutuals and everyone else on tumblr who is cool and made my year! this is gonna be my mutuals appreciation post 2020 because if anything good happened this year then it's getting to know all of you guys so there's that. i love you all so so sooo much and always love to see y'all and your gif sets / memes / crack posts /rants / edits and so on and so forth on my dash. you made this year beautiful and i just wanna thank u for that!💘💘 (also im sorry if the picture above activates anyone's fight response i just thought that it would fit if i went back to where it all started)

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@sundaymorninghangover julian you are one of my oldest friends on here and i've loved you ever since i found your blog and figured out that u were a part of the having taste club (skames fandom) too!! you're so chill!!! i love your brain!! i love your posts!!! and most importantly i love you. please keep on blessing my dash with your cool posts because they are definitely appreciated and loved in this house. also i miss your frog icon (please don't hit me in case it wasn't a frog) it just spoke volumes about your vibes but i love ur new one too!! still associate the purple heart with you so here it is 💜💜

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perhapsthanatos · 3 years

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03:13 am with renjun ♡

nct's renjun x gn!reader (inspired by his recent photoshoot)

alternate title: death is an early bird

genre: angst. fluff. non idol au. angel of death!au.

word count: 670~

playlist: how to fight by eartheater, so humble the afternoon by julia holter & for those who patiently endure by lauren auder.

warnings: violence & death. lowercase intended. not proofread.

a/n: i know i just published that johnny fic this morning, but i have zero self control & wanted to get this out there even if its literally 2 am :D originally, this fic was supposed to be a witch!au but i didnt know where to go with it so i headed another direction AHAHAH this fic was inspired by a video of someone rewriting the last season of game of thrones & redoing the long night episode wayyy better this time (YES IM STILL MAD & YES IM STILL SALTY THAT THE SHOW WAS RUINED) but i dont remember which one though bc ive watched too many, but if i do come across it again, i will add the link! also happy bday renjun bb <3

the night is cold, but it has only begun. you try your very best to focus on the battle ahead of you, attempting to aim your arrows at the opponent’s men from the top of the dark castle. you only have one goal, and one job. you have bent the knee to the queen and now you fight for her and for your home. but that is all quite a challenge when your only guide is the the first quarter moonlight and the occasional hot bursts of flames, as well as the sounds of screams ripping through from below. you take the tip of the arrow to the flame of the torch that you've kept by your side. taking a sharp breath, you strategically shoot it through the fog and watch as it directly pierces the heart of a soldier who then bursts into flames in one fell swoop. you and your running mind only get more numb by the second. yes, you are alive, but you are devoid. you’ve seen far too much innocence get destroyed in a matter of seconds, fragile souls getting wounded or even end up dying in pain. but death does not have much care or time to dwell on that.

there is no time to think about that now, though. this has begun to be a survival for the fittest now. you know the night will remain to be a long one, for only the victors will bring the dawn and will reign successfully. but will you even be able to get through this long enough to see the daylight?

the chaos ensues, the fighting spilling from all over now, violence being the only option.

but death may not even be that bad, right? after all, you would admit that he’s kind of cute even. because from a distance, you see the color violet flying your way.

wait. no, no, no, no. it can’t be.

your jaw clenches. your time can’t possibly be up yet? isn’t it too early? but you aren’t even finished?

when the name of death spills through someone’s lips, one may picture him to be a demon or a monster of sorts, but that was far from the truth. rumor has it (and much contrary to the common belief) that he is not but a mere boy who has the most gentle touch making death feel like a small state of slumber. books depict him to be mostly seen in blood red hues with razor yellow teeth ready to consume you. but you remember your previous mentor saying before he passed that he ran into him many times in his travels and that he was wearing a calming dark violet color and was not at all a child of satan’s.

you see him getting closer. you would dare say that he is indeed handsome however the panic settles in. your shallow breaths fail you as a deep and intense fear roots and implants itself down on the bottom of your lungs, leeching and draining you of yourself. now you really wonder if you are truly dead and if this is your real fate. you pray that he made some sort of mistake, arriving too soon.

the angel, the demon, the messenger, the god, the personification, whoever he may be — he finally lands beside you, your shaking hands dropping your bow, suddenly noticing the arrow on your chest.

“you got shot,” he speaks, sounding otherworldly and motioning to the arrow sticking out of your stomach. his loose violet blouse and light brown wavy hair flows with the wind.

you feel more blood rushing out your body. your legs start to give out, but he catches you in his arms. it didn’t feel cold, instead it was warm and gentle.

“you have the best story yet, you know that?” he coos at you, admiring your features.

“do i? really?” you rasp out, eyes getting heavier.

“mhm. you’ll go down in history, my love,” he assures, ready to take flight to the sky with you in his arms. “now, come on,” he whispers tenderly, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. “let’s get you home.”

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gaylonelydyke · 3 years

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if it’s not too late, 12 for episodes and ships, and 17!

its never too late! thankyou for the ask 🥰 oo damn this is gonna be a hefty one, just to prepare you this is gonna be long 😅😅😅

spoiler alert for my friends who are finishing up season 2 rn, be careful if you look at my top five episodes, pay attention the the episode numbers, i will put [ ] in bold at the beginning and end of spoilers!

12. Top 5 ships

5. faith x myself because have you seen faith? shes such a babe! spare consensual kiss maam?

4. willow x oz, i dont know if this is an unpopular or not but i feel like if the 90s had been more accepting of term then willow wouldve been bisexual, but like even now tv shows will rarely let characters say that word :( but anyway i love them! theyre both quirky and kinda awkward but its such a sweet relationship and you really see how they go from awkward crushes to an actual deep relationship, oz is one of my favourite characters too what a dude!

3. giles x jenny, mlmxwlw solidarity in this bisexual couple! there is no an ounce of straight between them and i love it, i love their dynamic, i love that giles *respects women* (im staring daggers at xander rn), also the original girlboss x malewife couple askdjaksjhd

2. drusilla x spike, these two!!!!!! once again a bisexual couple with zero straight between them, the vibes are off the charts. sexy vampires, goth x punk love, i just love them man, and their relationship is so interesting to delve into. like theyre vampires, theyre soulless and yet they have a capacity for love, they care deeply for eachother, theyre so tender towards eachother in season 2 in the way they take turns to care for one another, also drusilla picking spike up with one hand made me gay and thats on that

1. willow x tara!!!!! lesbians man lesbians! they have a beautiful relationship, until a certain point wink wink, they feel like a perfect match, willows become more outgoing due to buffy and xander snd having a proper group of friends, so its cool to see her as the more outgoing independant one in the relationship, and tara is such a honey 🥺 the biggest sweetheart in the world what a babe!!!! also like how groundbreaking was their relationship? as a queer couple, they had p much the dame amount of screentime as a aueer relationship today! and willow says the word lesbian so many times and is always making gay jokes which is something shows today are too scared to do, its honestly refreshing which is weird for a show in the 90/00s

12. Top 5 episodes

this is so hard because its such a damn good show so i had to rlly be picky about this but here we go

5. 6x22 ‘grave’- i watched buffy for the first time last year at work coz i worked with one other person just packing shit, and THIS was the episode that made us cry infront of eachother. the scene with willow and xander at the end is one of my all time favourite scenes and like legit we were watching and we starting going like ha.. this is so sad Q_Q and we looked at eachother and we were both crying akdjdjsjdhs its SO GOOD, like this is a friendship ive been so invested in and [seeing xander be able to pull her back from that dark place was so heart wrenching and amazing god its so good]

4. 3x12 ‘helpless’ - im finishing up s2 in my rewatch rn so i havent rewatched this one to double check but i remember loving it man. buffys father daughter relationship with giles is my favourite of the whole show they make my heart ache, so i love that this is an episode that really shows you how dedicated giles is to her, [its the breaking point where he finally disregards the fact that hes a watcher and acts as her father once and for all, its a turning point for their relationship where he is finally embracing the fact that shes like a daughter to him and i just love to see it Q_Q get you a dad who will leave his lifes calling for you]

3. 4x22 ‘restless’ - season 4 is interesting coz it has really good episodes and them some gd awful ones 😂😂 but this one just blew me away, i love a good character study episode and this is THE SHIT! its so weird and creepy but in the most perfect way, its not on the nose its so subtle, it feels like an uncanny valley version of buffy almost, i like that they finished the season first and then took this episode to do something out of the box and different i feel like it lets them fully explore this idea without the pressure of needing plot included. [also the cheese man is iconic. dont however like xander being all nasty with willow and tara but whats new there man]

2. 1x12 ‘The Prophecy Girl’ - for my first watch of buffy i wasnt that into the first season, like i enjoyed it but i didnt think it was anything super special? but this episode changed EVERYTHING for me. up until now buffy had been fun, witty, charming, but not anything new atleast for me, maybe in the 90s it was but right now its your average teen supernatural show. but this episode!!!! the emotion! buffy facing her death, her speech about how shes just 16 and shes scared and she doesnt want to die, that is what i wanna see!! its heartbreaking and it made me cry, and then it gives us the wonderful moment of giles trying to take her place and buffy realising that she has to be the one to do it, man its so good! basically anything with buffy and giles being a duo is gonna make it an automatic yes from me and this is indeed the case for this episode, i just love that the show remembers that shes a child! shes not brave all the time, shes not strong all the time, shes just doing her best and sometimes its overwhelming, 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 i bow to this episode

1. 2x17 ‘passion’ - i know i just sang praises about prophecy girl but THIS EPISODE IS THE SHIT, the best episode full stop. i wont accept any argument. angel is probably my favourite big bad, its so funny to see plain bread, mopey brooding angel become this charismatic, funny, poetic, blood thirsty angelus, hes everything i want in a villain and in this episode he delivers! rip jenny tho love her. i think the tension built around angel is so good, because of his drawings and notes left around, every scene youre worrying like is he here now? are they safe or what? its so tense! and also it is me and im a slag for buffy x giles father daughter moments and this episode fucking delivers! giles discovering jennys dead body is probably one of the best scenes on the show, the dramatic irony is heAVY, we know jenny is dead, we know that these flowers arent from her, but giles is so so happy, and i want to see him happy but you just know somehing horrific is about to happen and damn does it. its a masterpiece! i love jenny and giles so much it is so sad, but also the fact that it gave us that scene makes me almmmoost ok with it? i also love the moment where giles breaks down in buffys arms, hes been there for her and now shes returning the favour and hes accepting it i just 😭😭😭 also on a different note, angels narration of this episode is amazing! it gives us great insight to who he is as “evil angel” and like even though hes awful i was also kind of rooting for him coz hes just such a great villain

sorry this is so long lmao, last question!

17. Which characer do you wish had less of a focus on them in the show?

i dont wanna get yelled at butttttt i dont like the amount of focus on dawn. i think it makes sense for the her first season considering the story arc but that season really does double down its focus onto dawn and buffy and it barely leaves room for anyone else to have a storyline, it keeps the episodes super depressing too its like a constant level of just sadness the whole time because we’re so stuck in THEIR arc, theres no room to balance it out and have a breather, some people might like that its more serious but i really really didnt like, i love episodes like prophecy girl where it is campy and brings the more emotional notes in when the time comes, but dawns whole arc is just constantly depressing the whole time i just hate it, and also just shes not a character i felt i could connect to because of how suddenly shes introduced, so its weird to have her SO focused on in the first half of that season coz we dont know her yet so i feel like the emotional moments dont land the way that they should? basically they shouldve eased us into dawn or introduced her differently and maybe i would like her enough to want the focus on her but i really just dont

adksjakjshd apologies for the essay this is, thanks for the ask!

#btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #why did i write a paragraph for everything im so sorry #i wish i knew how to add a read more link but i dont on mobile #my post #dawn fans please dont murder me #i dont hate her i just dont like her yanno #i am scared people are gonna hate me for not liking her but we all have our tastes

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straighttohellbuddy · 3 years

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World building is the best tbh. I’m forever world building and now I have several worlds to play in and my neurodivergent brain cannot stay still enough to focus on one lmao. SLOWBURN ROMANCES ARE MY LITERAL JAM LIKE PLS!!! I LOVE THEM!! Also!!!! Concepts!!!! Pls share!!!! I love learning about the worlds of my fave fics and I can hands down say right now that this fic will literally shoot to the top of my list of favourites which means you’ll occupy the top three spots. Sorry to hear that ur feeling rough, so am sending u the biggest hug. I’m not okay but I’m taking care of myself today so that I will be 🧡-🐈‍⬛

alsjfsldkjf i have too many worlds TBH, literally one of the best parts of my 2020 was writing for the classic rock fandom and writing one of my good friend’s ocs alongside mine, like there’s so many different worlds that our two characters have now, i’m like 26k deep into a high school au that i need to get back to at some point, and then i wrote a oneshot abt the high school au but they’re adults, and then there’s also the original timeline, and then there’s the present day in the original timeline where they have kids and i probably care too much about people who aren’t real...... hahaha

OKAY OKAY OKAY HERE WE GO I’LL GIVE KIND OF AN OVERVIEW OF THE ALBUMS AND A FEW SONGS BUT IF U WANT ME TO GO IN DEPTH ON ANY OTHER SONG JUST ASK!!!

yes i have a playlist for each, if you wanna hear how i interpret the vibes of the songs. if you interpret them differently, thats awesome!! i’d love to hear y’all’s opinions on them!!

testing one two - the first ep they release, the song titles are mostly themed (fast forward, press play, pause, rewind), but are mostly things y/n has been working on for a while but never got around to finishing, things they are rather proud of. i see you shiver with... is the first song they wrote specifically for the album, and it’s the last song on the EP because it’s a Rocky Horror reference; i see you shiver with...

a n t i c i p a t i o n - first full album!! the vibe is Hopeful But Hesitant it has all the songs from the ep, plus some new ones!! collabs with youtube musicians troye and dodie, and y/n’s label sets up a collab that turns into a genuine friendship. the breakout dance hit is what else is there to say ft. Troye Sivan, which is about not knowing what to make content about when it feels like you’ve already told the world everything. it featured the prechorus and hook

You, know, ev-ery-thing about me / gave it all for free / my life in HD / So, let’s dance, let me see your hips sway / we’re gonna be okay / what else is there to say?

So say that you love me, say that you love me, say that you love me / let’s die hand in hand. / I’ll tell you I love you, tell you I love you, tell you I love you / supply and demand.

personally, i also conceptually enjoy srs bsns which is a really upbeat song about how they don’t care if people don’t take them seriously because they know in their heart that what they’re doing is good

hyperfocus - 2nd EP, a pretty substantial departure from their usual style, but also happens to quietly be Corpse’s favourite, and is actually y/n’s most polarising, because it has both the Grammy award winning HEARTBURN and the o brother where art thou which was written partially as a joke to capture a fond moment of them and 5SOS dicking around together in a hotel. written while on tour wit 5SOS, im writing the reader as having ADHD (because I have ADHD and i can do what i want), and the backstory is that they’d changed the medication/dosage they were taking, and as it’s their first full tour, they were under a lot of stress and were in a weird place mentally and emotionally, and hyperfocus is the result of that. i’m going through some stuff has HUGE agoraphobic vibes.

HEARTBURN has the same vibes as Florence + The Machines’ Howl. It’s about being a demon without saying that or directly implying that unless you know demons real well. This is when the pressure for them to confirm their identity got real bad, and it was their way of working through those emotions.

tear in existence in the shape of a person / when i’m seeing clearly i can’t see myself / world can’t swallow what it can’t get it’s teeth into / got everything i wanted but i ain’t got my health

Got heart-burn--- / I’ll tear me apart / I’ll tear you apart / I’ll tear me apart.

SCREAM gets rereleased as a remixed single featuring Fall Out Boy the following year. It won the MTV music award for best collaboration in 2018.

In the time between hyperfocus and working on it, Y/N releases several singles, including a cover of Tell Him by The Exciters to be featured in To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before. They also take time to sort out their health, do a little bit more YT stuff, and travel internationally to do festivals.

working on it - is kind of a middle ground between their original stuff, and hyperfocus, like pop-punk meets horror-pop meets whatever you’d classify halsey as. the first three songs were mostly written before the fic starts, so before they’re getting back to YT, but the last three, nightmare scenario, designed to hurt (touch me), and not scared were all written after they’d started hanging out with sykkuno and corpse.

in-universe, imposter syndrome was originally something else, along the same lines of tired that they’re hiding that they’re a demon, but after meeting corpse nd sykkuno and having people who know, and lowkey being influenced by corpse’s music, the song changes directions, and YO OKAY YO::

I literally am so fucking flattered, my darling friend @bingusmode wrote lyrics for imposter syndrome and I’ve been yELLING about them ever since i’ve read them!! (also bunnie is fantastic and lovely in general 10/10)

if you thought you saw me

i’d think about it twice

cuz while i know i’m naughty

everybody thinks i’m nice

cutest giggles get me

places that i long to be

but it’s not long before

everybody hates me

when you figure out i’m fucked up

you’ll probably think that can’t be right

but babe my image runs to save me

cuz i’m ugly day and night

nothing good about me

not the angel that i seem

cuz i’m a piece of shit

and i’ll ruin your fuckin dreams

i’m an impostor babe

you better run for your life

cuz there’s a bloodlust runnin through me

and you’re dripping off my knife

there’s no one here to save you

cuz you ate up all my lies

so beg me while you can

and draft up all your goodbyes

if any of y’all are inspired by anything i put out, feel free to take it and run!! you have my blessing!! i am so overwhelmingly flattered by people who like my stuff enough to create because of it, directly or indirectly! lyrics, art, songs, anything!! legit! I love you!!

okay so designed to hurt (touch me) has big House of Memories by Panic! At The Disco vibes, and YES it’s about Corpse. YES it sends mixed messages. YES it has greek myth imagery and YES that imagery is confusing. not sure if any of these sets of lyrics actually go after each other but also idk??

will my fall from grace be graceful / as each move i see you make? / propped up on pedestals side by side / beneath our feet they shake / i’m the only one to hear you ask / “What have they done to me?” / My boy, your wax throne is sun-drenched / you’ll fall in the name of your legacy.

eyes like yours watched rome burn / while hands like mine lit the pyre / we both heard me say we’d go down in flames / now you’re turning me into a liar / since you smile like that, like you can’t feel the sting / and we both know i can’t feel the fire

been telling myself i’m designed to hurt / but, baby, aren’t we a sight? /

check your reflection, your angles, apollo / you’re icarus in the right light /

we’re on the edge, i’m not scared to fall / we’ll take refuge in the night /

been telling yourself you’re designed to hurt / but, baby, doesn’t this feel right?

also, albumtouralbumtour is a reference to Bohemian Rhapsody.

OKAY AND FINALLY

n o s t a l g i a - the album the reader’s working on during the fic.

literally as i was writing this, bunnie sent through some FIRE lyrics for how the light gets in, (@bingusmode) i am going to be thinking about these on REPEAT for the next MONTH BRUV

little bit of darkness, treat me like a toy

i got my hopes up and got them destroyed

bitter taste of regret sitting heavy on my tongue

can’t believe i let you convince me that you were the one

sitting here in silence, fabric running thin

petals burning in my lungs and stealing oxygen

embers from a cigarette falling to the floor

god i can’t take anymore

so i stumble to the window and pull the shades

and the moon pours in like you threw a grenade

i can’t understand why

i keep trying

cuz i never seem to win

but having any hope is how the light gets in

from there, moment before impact ft. Billie Eilish is a club anthem along the lines of bad guy or COPYCAT, bass heavy with a drop that’s out of this world.

powdered pain, i’m in your veins / i’m the sting, the drip, the thing / you’re craving, but you hate to see me misbehaving / i heard my breakdown got you high / it’s true, but baby i can’t lie / i never got that rush, that burn / that makes you feel alive, i had to learn / to pick the slippery slope down which i fell / plan my pitstops on the way to hell / to pick my padding before i spiral / so if i break it’ll be in style

watch my misdirect, now freeze, / notice you can’t see the forest for the trees / you’re so desperate for my demise / but baby, i’ll make you watch me rise.

this is the moment before impact

controlled chaos, crash land / take a breath, trust the plan / i know you hope i’m not okay / you get off on my audio misery

controlled chaos, crash land / take a breath, trust the plan / i need you to know i want it this way / my breakdown won me a grammy

and this is the moment before impact

ur my favourite - interlude ft. sykkuno is probably one of my favourites, it’s just really soft, just a snippet of a conversation between the reader and sykkuno, maybe one of them told a joke and they both just sound real happy and sweet. its nice. it’s a nice moment.

means something is also for sykkuno!! it’s about how good-strange it is to be open and honest with friends, and how they usually aren’t but they’re glad they can be open and honest with him!!

meanwhile, i don’t think about u - interlude ft. CORPSE is a phonecall between corpse & the reader right after they announce they’re going to feature on acting like that, where corpse asks if they do this sort of thing to spite him, to which the reader responds ‘do i consider you when i’m making decisions about my career? no, corpse, actually i don’t think about you at all’ which then directly contrasts the song that ends the album, which is (how it feels to be) beautiful fireworks, which is essentially ‘i know how hard it is to exist like this, to be the centre of attention, to give off light and bring people joy, even when you’re in pain. i’m here for you. i love you.’

okay, i swear im done now, i’ll get back to writing the fic! (also i cannot BELIVE i managed to figure out how to embed those playlists but im so happy) edit: it didn’t actually work when i posted the ask, so anyways im sorry but y’all are abt to be spammed with playlists because i care too much abt this fic

#Anonymous #how the light gets in #corpse husband x reader #black cat anon

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