#but girlie's guys and gays i know i did but the tumblr fucked me over i know they did

[gaybarbiegirl]

Do you have any sexuality headcanons for DCLA characters?

Hi anon! I couldn't reply to you when you sent this because I was busy with uni, but now I figured since I'm probably going on a Violetta s2 rewatch soon this could be a good way to give everyone an updated hc list, since some of them changed quite a bit since the last time I've been really active on this blog

Violetta:

Vilu - ............ straight. I know, I know, 'what about Franletta' and all, but the truth is I've always instinctively seen Vilu as het, it's just the vibe I get from her. When I joined dcla tumblr I saw people shipping Franletta and it seemed like a really fun new way to interact with these characters so I decided to change my hc and give it a go too, and I mean I did have a lot of fun with it but after being away for a while my brain just went back to my first instincts (and I'm having a lot of fun with token het Vilu too)

León - bi icon, pining over his ex gf one day and eye fucking his rival the next, who does it like him

Fran - bi (with a preference for men) queen

Diego - bi (with a preference for men) king

Ludmila - I'm actually not sure? My original hc for her was bi but then as I was watching I think s2 or s3 it changed to lesbian, but the thing is I was thinking about it these days and I can't remember what made me switch (😭), so I don't know if I still agree with my past self's reasoning or not. Right now I'm leaving her as just sapphic because if there's one thing I'm sure of is that this girl kisses girls, and hopefully as I rewatch I can make up my mind

Camila - chaotic lesbian ICON like genuinely hats off to her, all of the other chaotic lesbian girlies wish their antics could come close to the red dot green dot fiasco (myself included)

Naty - THE lesbian ever nobody can compare

Marco - bi boi

Maxi - I think he's pan 

Broduey - he is indeed straight, backing up Vilu in the beloved token het gang

Andrés - he's bi and I think we as a community should talk about it more, between being so happy whe he thought he was getting flowers from Marco that one time and the whole flirting with Cardoso to try to date Emma situation I think it's safe to say he's one of the characters who said bi rights the loudest, put some respect on his name

Federico - I don't know. I don't know I have no clue. Everything related to Federico's sexuality is a whole mystery to me, I have no idea what it is and at this point I'm too afraid to ask

Angie and Jade - bi wives they're kissing as we speak

Gregorio - gay KING

Soy Luna:

Luna - she's a pan babygirl (with very hit or miss taste)

Simón - bi bi bi

Ámbar - THE bisexual icon of the show you guys won so hard with this one

Matteo - I don't wanna say it but sadly we all know the answer............. a loss for bi people everywhere, my heart is with you in these trying times

Nina - painfully straight

Gastón - he's bi but he's SO oblivious about it it actually hurts to watch, this man is full on having gay sex thinking it's just a bro moment someone save him from himself

Jim - the most oblivious lesbian of all times suffering from terminal comphet, all I have to say is get well soon girl please Yam is BEGGING

Yam - a lesbian WARRIOR fighting tooth and nail against the writers to come out, rescue her comphet afflicted gf and kiss her on the lips, I admire her perseverance

Ramiro - he's absolutely gay but tragically he was never told he can have female friends and thinks he has to date his lesbian bestie to hang out

Jazmin - I think lesbian. I flip flop a lot between lesbian and bi for her but right now this is the one I'm leaning towards, and if we just leave canon crushes aside it's also what feels the most right for the character to me. Maybe it’ll switch back to bi later but for now I'm keeping this one

Delfi - I just realised I never actually thought about this one. I mean I do ship Pelfi but I think she can kiss girls too, as a treat

Pedro - honestly I think he might be straight

Nico - yeah he's straight too

Emilia - ok ok this one is a bit of a messy one, and it's mostly because the way I see it s2 and s3 Emilia are pretty much completely different characters. In s2 she's THE goth lesbian icon of this show and I adore her, but in s3 she gets that very annoying and unnecessary crush on Matteo and the way it's done I can't even call it comphet, so that'd make her bi. I don't really acknowledge s3 Emila though since I really hate what the writers did with her character, s2 Emilia is the only one that my brain allows, so she's still THE goth lesbian icon in my heart <3

Juliana - oh she's 100% a lesbian too the energy radiates from every cell of her body and I love her for it, also she definitely had a crush on that singer she listened to as a teenager that she told Yam about

Ana and Mora - lesbian wives who I love with my whole heart

And since I'm not as into Bia as I am into the other two I never really bothered to make sexuality hcs for the characters there, so I'm ending this here. Thank you so much for the ask anon <3

[high-key-satan-low-key-satanic]

Creating The Bible

God : I’m writing my autobiography. Any tips?

Satan : Kill off the main character.

[aliceinwondervan]

Literally just downloaded the app, made my account, and went to make a post. I just can't get out of my head. I am so alone. I haven't had a Tumblr account since porn was allowed. Late last year I realized I'm a transwoman. Being amab in a marriage with one kid and another being considered - this destroyed me. My life instantly shattered. I had been building a future with my wife for over a decade. We've taken a few laps around hell and back. No matter what we were each other's constant.

Disclaimer: subjects like spousal abuse and struggles with mental health and thoughts of suicide are discussed below. There might be other triggers but my hand is cramping since I saved the disclaimer for last and I gotta stop typing.

I panicked. I messaged a friend who immediately accepted me for who I am. The next day my wife "had a feeling" something was up and instead of coming to me about it she snooped thru the thread with my friend and to say she got pissed is the biggest understatement.

To her I had to have known. To her I wasted her time. To her I was leaving to go frolic with all the other trans people. When in reality I grew up in a house with a very homophobic father. I hid my more "girly" tendencies because I was scared he would think I was gay. Which I am, being a lesbian and all, but at the time I was scared he would have thought my dude self was into dudes even tho I'm not. Anyways - my more girly tendencies turned out to be red flags that I was living in an egg.

With that tangent aside and in no particular order here is what I was subjected to for the next 3 months:

* I was arrested twice because she lied to the cops. The first time was a week after my egg cracked. She was trying to snap my phone in half so I put her in a mild headlock to try to stop her. I guess technically I was the first to get physical with her so I was arrested. Learned very quickly my anxiety doesn't do well with me locked in a small box so I called a bail bond guy who ended up being very chill about the whole thing and he got me out. The second time I was arrested led to me living in my car so that'll be at the end.

* She picked fights with me constantly. Same loop: she'd get a wild hair up her ass and find a reason to be pissed at me. Instead of talking she'd come in like I was supposed to be psychic or some shit and know what was going to bother her this time. Bingo, bango, bongo, fight would start - escalate to the point where I was peak pissed - she'd calm down a bit and start to act like I was psycho. Rinse and repeat.

* Her favorite lines during these fights and the reason they'd escalate like they did were aimed at my deepest insecurities. Imagine anything transphobic; she's said it. Imagine any power play a wife could pull; she did it. Her mission was to make my life so miserable I'd leave on my own.

* She outed me. She told a mutual friend of ours her fucked up, delusional, version. Recently I reached out to her brother, who was once my best friend, and he was super supportive in his initial reply but left me on read after. Can't help but feel like he must've talked to his sister.

* My wife isn't into chicks so we filed for divorce. It's been amicable as long as you don't count all the judicial threats she makes during fights.

* The second time I was arrested she started getting physical with me and the most I did was hold her arms and hands back. This led to a vertical line shaped bruise on her arm (that's how hard she was trying to hurt me) and since she called the cops and she was the one with a mark, I was arrested.

Again, vertical line. Apparently I karate chopped her or some shit.

Since I was on bail already for the same thing my bail would've been double the last bail. Couldn't afford it so I spent the next 5 days in jail. Remember the part where I said my anxiety didn't do well locked in a box? I'm on like 4 different meds and the one they ended up giving me was one I kept telling them I was off of.

Not a fun 5 days. I spent the first day in a turtle suit because for the first time in my life I was having intrusive thoughts of suicide. I'd never act on them but it still scared the hell out of me.

When it was ultimately dismissed I got out but couldn't go home because my wife had filed for a temporary restraining order for her and my kid that wouldn't expire for a few days. She was nice enough, in her words, to book me at a hotel.

Turns out I dig the car life tho. I make ends meet with DoorDash and am using this time at Rock Bottom to build a foundation.

Problem is it's very lonely being at Rock Bottom. Forgot to mention: my wife started dating someone a couple weeks after my egg cracked AND she reconnected with her ex that's been stalking her since they dated when she was 14. So she got our mutual friends, a new boyfriend, and her psycho ex. I have, thankfully, that friend I can message. But that's it. I started reconnecting with an old friend but we've hung out once so far so it's still kinda awkward and we're not at the point

When my ex isn't pissy we still get along like always. With time she'll come around but in the meantime I'm forced to live with myself. Ultimately this will probably be good for my but my god the pain is overwhelming.

And that's all I have to say about that.

Until next time,

Alice

[venii-vidii-vicii]

Good morning to these fuckers who live in my head rent free

Woke up feeling like I want to gush about them which I always do on twitter. I think I tortured my twitter enough so I'm sorry, Tumblr. It's your turn.

First of all, look at them. They're dumb fuckin himbos. Ugh my heart 😔

Second, I think a lot of people forget that you play as a cop, representing a force that has left Martinaise to die. Was I ever mad they were assholes to me? No because fuck cops. They deserve it. Yes, including Harry and Kim.

Third... They're just losers, okay? They're all a bunch of stupid losers trying to make a name for themselves. Titus obv is an overachiever not only because it makes him look cool but probably because that's how he measures his self worth

Imposter syndrome, am I right, fellas?

He's gotta be like that to lead them, his words not mine.

And all this fragile ego, huh? Man, toxic masculinity sure is a bitch.

Being gay? Nah bro. Too manly for that, said Glen, as if dominating another dude isn't the ultimate fucking power move. But God had to nerf Glen somehow. I mean, who wants a freaking chaotic gay feral gremlin walking around stealing men? (Me. I do. Glen, please call me)

But you know who's alright with LGBTQs? Also the Hardie Boys. Yes, folks! If the Hardies are the law in Martinaise and Titus Hardie himself said gay is okay then bitch you better believe it!

You guys want a bunch of burly dudes to punch this homophobe for you? Say no more. Call the Hardie Boys today to bully your homophobic bully!

There are 7 colors in a rainbow and you got 7 Hardie Boys. That's all I'm saying 😏😌 🌈

Also when their head isn't in their ass and they're actually sober, they care about their home more than anyone else. They didn't just stand by and let their home die slowly. They did something about it! No cops? No problem. The Hardie boys are for the people and by the people.

And they got the power of TOGETHERNESS! Friendship is magic! You talk shit about one of them? Get rekt by the other 6. I love my therapy support group where we don't actually talk about our problems because we're too macho manly for problems, but everyone is super supportive 💜💜

Has it already been (almost) 2 years of me SIMPING for them? Woah. Where's my Hardie badge? (I mean I have a Hardie boys jacket but a badge would be cool)

Sometimes my cat loves to sleep on it

And I'm hoping one day I can afford to have all their displates but for now I only have a shrine dedicated to Glen and Titus, may their bromance live on

Wait....

What was I talking about?

Oh yeah! The boys.

I love them 💜 they're great and they represent a lot of issues I would have loved to see be talked about more often in media. But THATS WHY IM HERE! Yours truly. Yep. Talking about a bunch of himbos doing their best.

Are they assholes? For sure, man.

Are they misogynistic? Uh... Yeah.

But toxic masculinity be like that. This is how we were raised to be because our self worth is measured by how many chicks we sleep with and how successful we are and then society normalized this even more by saying it's just "boys being boys"

You think IDLES would be out here with songs like Samaritans if we didn't have a problem with toxic masculinity? (Great song btw. One of my favorite songs for Glen)

Media made being gay seem like it's all about being feminine men who wanna dress in drag and put make up on, of COURSE Glen would be like "I'm not gay cuz I'm not girly. Ew wtf?" instead of media normalizing that gays are, surprise, just regular people.

WE NEED GAY ATHLETE REP, GLEN. YOU'RE SO VALID.

To be honest, sports are pretty gay anyway. Rugby?? Really, Glen? A game where you smash bodies with other burly dudes? And fight over balls? Idk man sounds pretty gay.

TLDR; yeah those guys are far from perfect but I fell in love with them for their imperfections. It's what made me relate to them. They're just trying to live their best life, helping people... But who helps them with their demons? 😔

They need therapy like every other characters in this damn game. I will simp for them till the day I die!

Enough of my ramblings though. Sorry, Tumblr. Had to do it to you. 😌

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #298

“i don’t like what i am becoming  /  wish i could just feel something”

Do you have sensitive skin? Very. Do you wear necklaces or earrings more? Just my tragus piercing, really. I only ever wear a necklace sometimes if I'm taking a "nice" picture. Rings or bracelets? I currently don't wear any bracelets, but I do always have one ring on. How many toilets are in your house? Two. Is your current crush younger than you? By just a couple years. Are you a lighter complexion than your father? Yes; he's very tan, especially his arms from being a mailman. Ranch or barbeque sunflower seeds? I don't like sunflower seeds. Do you know the first five books of the Bible in order? No. Do you have a pet fish? Nah, they're not my thing. Do you believe being gay is a choice or a "disorder"? Neither; I believe it's a genetic mutation. It defies biology and the very motive for life, but I always say that a mutation does not, in any way, equate to "wrong." I am extremely adamantly pro-gay rights and bisexual myself, so I can't shit-talk it. What are some of your favourite sounds? Crunching leaves, rain gently tapping on windows, windchimes, birdsong... mainly nature sounds. There are others, I'm just blanking right now. Are you a warm weather or cold weather person? Cold, 100%. What time do you wake up? What for? This spans over a massive gap, honestly... I can wake up as early as 5 or as late as 9:30. Most often, it's pretty early, and I call that my "trial" of being awake, lol... because I will almost without fail go back to sleep for a couple more hours. Hell, that happens even if I sleep on the later side. Do you ever listen to music to fall asleep to? I used to do that in middle and maybe some of high school, I think; I'd fall asleep with my iPod on and earbuds in. I haven't done that in a very long time, though. Could you spend the rest of your life with someone who had bad taste in music? ... Yes? Their taste in music has nothing to do with them as a person???? Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for? No, and it's best I don't. Have you ever wanted to get drunk and get your mind off everything? Yes, and that's how I found out I'm far from a lightweight. I wasn't going to drink more than I actually wanted to drink just to get wasted. Did you love playing hide and seek as a kid? Yeah. Who is the last child you held? My youngest niece. Have you ever woken up not knowing where you were? Maybe for a few moments after my surgery? I don't really recall. When is the last time you made the wrong choice in anything? Every fucking day when I decide what to do with my time. What is the most interesting thing in the room you are in? My snake, I guess. She's a champagne morph ball python. When washing your hands, do you wet your hands or put soap on first? I put on soap first. When was the hardest you ever cried? What was the circumstance? Probably when Mom literally dragged me home after I tried to walk to Jason's to talk the night of the breakup. I lost my fucking mind. Which gift cards do you have in your wallet? I don't think I have any. Coke or Pepsi? Coke. I hate Pepsi. What is better: cute smile, or amazing eyes? A cute smile. What song are you listening to? "Drilled a Wire Through My Cheek" by Blue October is on currently. Name your best friend(s): Sara. Do you know any mechanical stuff about cars? Nope. Last night you felt? I wasn't suicidal, but still kinda wanted to die lmao. Do you still watch Disney channel? No. How do you like your eggs? I only enjoy them scrambled, and preferably with cheese. What’s your all-time favorite song? "False Flags" by Massive Attack. If you could be any TV character, who would you be and why? Idk, I don't watch TV enough. Maybe Donna from That '70s Show. Very strong and independent, outspoken, and not to mention she has great taste. I find her to be a good female character to look up to. Do you ever come up with really good ideas for stories or movies? Do you do anything with them? Yeah; I'll try to integrate them into RP characters and plots. What sort of things do you post on your Tumblr? Vintage photos, screen caps, girly things? It's a Markiplier cesspit lmao. Sometimes I'll reblog shit I find funny. I've been very inactive on it, though. Have you ever had a dream that you couldn’t shake, even for days after you woke up? Oh yes. When was the last time you felt like a nuisance, or unwanted? Recently, I'm sure. When was the last time your dreams were crushed, or at least hindered? I dunno. How’s school going? I'm not in school. Are you angry at anyone right now? Myself. The last person to say they loved you? Mom. When is the last time you laughed hard? Hard? I'm really not sure. Are there any words on your shirt? No, it's just a blank black tank. Does it take a lot to make you cry? NOPE. Do you tell your parents everything? No. Do you get bored easily? I'm bored to the point of thinking being dead would be more fun at some point almost every day. I have anhedonia badly. I'm honestly starting to think I've over-medicated to a numbing degree so am trying to wean off some things. Have you ever burned someone's picture? No. How long was your last nap? Maybe three hours? I was really, really tired, though. Can you name the last time you felt happy? Probably when Sara and I talk-talked for the first time in a while. When was the last time you played with sidewalk chalk? Oh, I have zero clue. Probably not since I was a kid. Do you have friends obsessed with World of Warcraft? Bro wtf don't @ me. Have you ever punched a hole in the wall? No. Have you ever told someone you hated them? The only time I've seriously said that was to my dad before we reconciled after the divorce. What was the color of the bridesmaid dresses of the last wedding you went to? I actually don't remember... Favorite thing to do on Facebook? See The Memes. Do you wear flip flops, regardless of weather, all the time? I SAID don't @ me. What is in store for your future? I both do and don't want to know. Have you ever seen a live bat? Yeah. I adore bats. Do you chew on straws? No. Do you have any trophies? Yeah. Who’s the last person that creeped you out? Some guy who walked into the store I was at with Mom, continuously looking back and forth. Would you believe an ex if she/he said they love you? Well, that would depend on the person. Have you ever been kissed in the rain? Yeah. Anything exciting happening soon? My half-sister and her kids are visiting tomorrow and staying for a few days. It's a surprise for Mom. Do you keep a diary or journal (offline or online)? You could say these surveys kinda are. I don't have a designated "diary," though. When was the last time you took a painkiller? What was it for and did it work? I had womanly issues a few days back, and yeah, it helped. Have you ever had to go and rescue someone because their car broke down? When was the last time that happened? I mean, I've driven /with/ Mom to do so. I myself don't drive. What’s one sweet/candy you miss from your childhood? Is this item something you can still buy or has it been discontinued? Y'all remember Baby Bottle Pops??? 'Cuz I do, and I love those fuckin things. I still see them sometimes in gas stations. When was the last time you used some kind of moisturiser? A few days back for my hands. They were painfully dry. If you’re under lockdown/stay at home orders at the moment, are you struggling or managing okay? A bitch is s t r u g g l i n g. Has anything positive come out of the pandemic for you? Fuck no. Do you wear a watch? Is it analogue/digital? Does it it have things like a step-counter in it? No. Do you have any gifts from Christmas that you still haven’t opened or used? Not used, yes. Well, then some things are still in their boxes, but they're unwrapped. Do you know how to tie a tie? If so, who taught you? No. Who was your last missed call from? Did you ring that person back? Some number I didn't recognize, so no. When was the last time you had some kind of problem with your internet connection? Is this something that happens often? A few days back. It has occasional instances where it'll go out but come back on shortly. Do you have a favourite celebrity chef? No. Do you prefer pizza or pasta? Pizza. Have you ever volunteered anywhere before? What was the reason behind doing so? Once at PetSmart when they had dogs to adopt out, which was for school volunteer hours. I spent time with them, giving them attention and taking them outside. I also had two other animal-related volunteer days, but each was only a few hours because my fucking weak-ass body couldn't handle them. Have you ever been truly obsessed with something? What was it and how did you come to feel that way? I have an incredibly obsessive personality; I could probably name near on a dozen or so things I've been genuinely obsessed with. I don't know what it means to love in moderation. Some are/were pleasant obsessions, some aren't/weren't. Does it bother you when people turn up at your house without asking or waiting to be invited? Yes. Are you taller or shorter than average height? I'm the average for an American woman. Do you have any family members whose beliefs or ways of life completely embarrass you? YUP YUP YUP YUP. Are you scared of heights? Yes. When was the last time you lost something of great sentimental value? Did you ever end up finding it again? I don't know. Have you ever injured anyone in self-defense? No. What food do you find to be the most filling? Is this something you eat a lot of? In relation to its portion sizes, oatmeal or eggs. I can't have a whole lot of either. I wouldn't say I eat either a lot, but oatmeal is more common. Have you ever heard people talking badly about you behind your back? Did you confront them about it? Yes, and in at least two instances. Do you consider “home” to be the place you were born, or is it somewhere you create for yourself? I consider it to be my childhood home; not the one I was actually born in, but only because I was way too young to remember and we only lived there like, maybe two years into my life. Have you ever experienced having to leave your home due to a fire, or due to the threat of fire? No, thankfully. When was the last time you felt you were in a dangerous situation? When we had a serious tornado warning Christmas Eve. Yes. In winter. Are there any superstitions that you believe in? Which ones and what are your reasons for doing so? No. Are there any series of books/films that you never finished - either because you got bored of waiting or just lost interest? Oh, I'm sure. I Wouldn't say I lost interest in a lot though, I just wasn't interested enough, like for The Hunger Games. Which theme park is your favorite? I haven't been to nearly enough to know. Like, just one. Do you eat healthy? I try to be, at least. Though I've been doing very poorly about it lately because I'm a emotional goddamn eater and am having a very hard time. Do/did your parents fight often? They're divorced for a reason. Do YOU fight with them often? No. Would you say that you're respectful? I hope so. Are you a fan of Green Day? Yeah, I love them. Would you rather have 4 kids at one time or never have a kid? Jesus Christ, never. I don't want any anyway. Do you think 'friends with benefits' relationships really ever work? No. Do you or have you ever known a drug addict? Yes. Do you turn off the water while brushing your teeth or leave it on? I always turn it off. No reason to waste it. Do you have any nieces or nephews? Lots, if you include my half-siblings. Are caterpillars more cute or disgusting? I tend to find them cute. What's your homepage when you bring up the internet? Google. Was the last book you read for fun or was it for some type of assignment? It was for fun. Have you ever dated someone you met online? Yes. Would you go on a date with someone right now if they asked? Depends on who's asking. Do you own any band tees? Oh, I have lots. Off the top of my head, some that I frequently wear are Metallica, Otep, and Korn. Do you know someone who wears a wig? No. Have you ever kissed someone under fireworks? I don't think so. What kind of dressing do you eat on your salad, if any? I strongly prefer the Olive Garden kind, but I also enjoy ranch. What genre of music do you listen to the most? Metal of some sort. Have you ever dated someone who was way overprotective of you? No. Do you personally know any cops? No. How many different colleges have you gone to? Three. How much stress can you handle? Not much at all. How confident are you in achieving your dreams? I ain't got the slightest clue by this point in my life. What is one thing you thought you’d never do but have done or are doing? There's a lot of things, most bad, some good. Do you have to take medication for any mental illness? A lot. Do you like looking at pictures? It depends on what's in them. Specifically pictures from my past, that's usually a big no. Do you believe the dead can have connections with the living? I guess in very vague ways. Which family member do you get along with the most? Well, define "get along with." I by far have the strongest relationship with my mom, but we fight sometimes. As for who I stay on the most stable ground with, that's probably my dad. Would you ever be able to become a vegan? I know I couldn't, but I'd love to. How did you meet your newest friend? Who even IS my newest friend... Have you ever watched the show Teen Mom? What did you think about it? No, and I think it's an awful fucking idea for a television show. Put a spotlight on and money into teen pregnancy, yeah, that's a genius plan. Are you old enough to remember MySpace? Yeah. Do you think you’ll be a good mother/father? I wouldn't be. Do you have trouble deleting your text messages? I don't need to. Is there something that you haven’t told anyone that you actually would like to tell someone? No. Have you ever been called a tease? Yeah. Do people ever make fun of your religion or lack thereof? No. Do you say/do things a lot for shock effect? No? What was the last compliment you gave a guy? I probably told my nephew Ryder he was a good brother. Was one of your grandpas in a war? Maybe? Idk. I never knew either well at all. Have you screamed in a pillow before? Yes. What do you like more, acoustic or electric? Electric. Have you ever ordered something off a commercial on television? No. What's worse, having someone mad or disappointed in you? Disappointed. Do you still consider Pluto a planet? Yes. Didn't they reinstate it as one, anyway? Right now, are you at a high, leveled, or low point? What's lower than "low?"

[espytalks]

i’m still on hiatus as of writing this, but by the time i post this i won’t be.

ive been watching a lot of netflix lately, and i’m pretty much just going through my “to watch” list, so i thought i’d give some thoughts on some of the show’s ive watched so far. 

this’ll probably get super long.

oh shoot i forgot i had this post as a wip. i went on a phase of watchign shows for a bit when i tried to step away from tumblr for a bit a few months back. this is definitely super long, so heads up if you click read more, you’re gonna scroll for a while.

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i watched this show all the way though at least twice, and many scattered episodes several times over the course of years, up until i stopped watching tv altogether, which was quite a while ago. at some point i realized the last time i watched it, i didn't know i was asexual. it kinda made me realize why i didn't quite get the romancey bits when i was younger.

i don’t want to spoil the show on the off chance you haven't seen it, cause this is one of those i think is best watched unspoiled, but even if ya know it, the show is incredibly fun to watch. 

it has amazing fight scenes, fantastic animation that still holds up (impressive for a kid’s tv show of it’s time, if you ask me,) and incredibly complex and interesting characters that change and grow along with the plot, which raps up nicely by the end of the third season. 

10/10 one of the best shows of all time, even outside of animation. amazing rewatchability, too! 

BNA:

all i knew of this going in was from gifs a friend kept reblogging. 

it’s basically a zootopia-esque story, about a human who has turned into a beastman, which are these human-like creatures that can also turn into animals? it’s kinda weird but ok my suspension of disbelief has worked harder before. it’s also pretty short (12 or 13 episodes i think,) so the story is pretty packed together and moves pretty fast.

i loved the animation. it’s an anime from studio trigger, and i LOOOOOOVE that animation style!! hoooly shit guys it’s SOOOO GOOOOD!!!!!! the colors and general feel of the show visually is just top tier. lots of interesting colors and shapes and expressive poses and expressions! i’d recommend it purely on it’s aesthetic, cause it’s gorgeous.

unfortunately, i think the story kinda sucks. i don’t think it detracts from the show much, but i felt like a couple of the story twists (especially towards the end) kinda came out of nowhere, or where kinda crammed in there as best they could to make it fit. the best twist i think was with shirou, which was set up in episode 1, and i pretty much was expecting that reveal.

tbh, the best episode was the filler one, where michiru plays baseball with some bears. idk man it was just fun. wish there were more episodes like that, where she just got to have fun being a beastman. I did like how the bears stuck around after that episode, though.

8/10 i’d say it coulda been better, but it's till good for what it is. ya can’t have a perfect show, and i’d say it’s still fun. i’d watch it again with someone, cause ey, i liked it. i think i was mainly dissapointed cause i was expecting a lot more, and i watched it right after avatar, which i think IS a perfect show. i’d watch it again, though. it’s good!

She-ra and the princesses of power:

all i knew going in was that someone i watched on youtube thought it was good. i may have seen gifs at some point, but idk. no one i know watches it, or at least they don’t talk about it if they do.

if you liked mlp, you’d like this. it has some very almost corny “friendship is powerful” messages, and it’s obviously girly. it’s still good for all audiences imo, but the sheer girliness of it may be hard to get through at first. it mellows out as it goes on and the story gets a bit darker, but those themes of friendship and love don’t go away. tbh, “power of friendship” is one of my favorite tropes, and this show has a lot of it.

aesthetically, this show id my fucking JAM! PURPLE!!! PURPLE EVERYWHERE!!!!!! HOLY SHIT EVERYTHING IS PASTEL AND PURPLE GUYS I LOVE IT! 10,000/10 man i love purple. The animation wasn’t as good compared to the last two shows i watched, but i mean, i came from anime. that’s not a fair comparison.

i also really liked the story, especially as it went on. Early on, Adora and Catra end up on separate sides of the fight, and it was really interesting seeing the two’s progression in the story. I especially love Catra. i think her progression was interesting, and complex, i loved seeing her manipulate her way to the top. also she’s tsundere, in a way that i actually liked.

i should say i kinda didn’t like Bow at first. The first two-ish seasons, they really played up the girliness with him, but he gets more interesting later on, and ends up really likeable to me. He reminds me of my character Carter, though, in that he’s a male character that is very feminine and ain’t afraid of it. it was kinda jarring at first, but i can respect that.

also, the show has tons of gay characters, and at least one nonbinary one (though they’re a neutral character that initially aligned with the villains. take that how you will.) 

9/10 i think the beginning is a bit too over the top girly, but ya kinda jive with it as the show goes on, and the story gets darker as it goes on, kinda like avatar. if ya liked that, follow it up with this. Also, hnnnn purbleee’

Kipo and the age of the wonderbeasts:

i had no idea what to expect going in. all i knew was what i saw in the promo.

it’s a post-apocalyptic type of setting, where animals are mutated, and most are sentient. humans live underground in secret societies called burrows. kipo is separated from her dad when her home gets destroyed, and meets up with a couple of humans and a mutated bug in order to find her burrow. things escalate from there, there’s more going on, but alla that is spoilers, so i won’t elaborate.

it seems like it’s currently in progress, (i just finished season 2, and i’d bet there’s at least one more season) so i can’t judge it as a whole just yet. it’s interesting, and i like the idea, but tbh i didn’t find it quite as engaging as everything else ive watched so far? I like it, and i’m invested enough to watch the next season whenever it comes out, though. hopefully whatever’s next changes my mind, though. 

i think i mainly just didn’t like the characters much at the beginning? but as i’m thinking about it, they’re starting to grow on me. i like kipo the most, cause she’s a goofy nerd who’s kinda just being nice to everybody, and it’s making her a lot of powerful friends who’ll have her back. i like how kid’s cartoons try and teach ya that being nice is a good thing.

7/10 it’s not bad, and i’d recommend it, but i feel like this story isn’t quite for me. it’s got a lot of potential to end up as something i’d really like by the end, though, so i’m gonna keep my eye on it. 

Glitch techs: 

i’m gonna write a bit before i watch it, but all i know is that its a show a mutual reblogged somethign about once. i think it was the theme song? which, if i remember correctly, was awesome. it looks cool, like a scifi show about kids who save a digital world or smthn.

ah so i never watched this show. will update y’all if i do, but i mean, i got into yougioh gx recently instead so it’ll be a while before i get back to this show. also, kipo got a new season since i started this, and i havent finished it yet but what i saw so far is really good.

[catboyfeli]

even though i don’t identify as a cis girl anymore, i’m still so fucking passionate about atypical cishets? because god, back when i ided as a cis girl, i constantly felt like shit for my attraction to men being abnormal and more similar to gay men’s experiences.

people think being cishet is fitting into cisheteronormativity but? it’s not??? cishets who crossdress, present gnc or androgynous, behave gnc or androgynous, feel a disconnect from their gender due to not fitting into gender roles, relate more to the opposite sex, face misdirected homo/transphobia, take on the opposite gender role in society/relationships, etc. exist.

because like? gender isn’t just “oh i identify as my agab, being a male, so i fit into the male gender role” nor is it “oh i’m a masculine woman but i still fit perfectly into the female gender role despite how different my experiences are from most women”

i’m just so passionate about this and i wish it was a more well known issue. it makes me hate the hate towards straight and cis people in lgbtq spaces even more than i already did. i think maybe that’s also part of why so many young people id as nonbinary now, because being cishet is “wrong” and “easy” even though being queer at all would make you lgbtq, even if you’re not trans or sga/ssa.

i just wanna give gnc cishets all the love in the world because they fuckin deserve it and shouldn’t feel pressures to id as something they’re not to get ACTUAL support. gnc people experience things so differently from gender conforming people, and there’s no support for cishet ones and that saddens the hell out of me

just? imagine being a very feminine cishet man who gets bullied for ‘being gay’ and struggles to find a woman who’s open to dating him when he takes on the feminine role in a relationship? and presents and behaves femininely? maybe gets mistaken as a girl depending on how he presents? doesn’t relate to the typical ‘male’ experience? relates more to womanhood despite identifying as a man? imagine getting no support for this? imagine being treated the same as your oppressors even though they oppress you as well, just in different ways? imagine being shunned out of queer spaces despite being queer just b/c you’re not lgbt, even though lgbt and lgbtq aren’t the same thing?

i use men as an example since gnc women are a LITTLE more accepted than gnc men, but only a little bit.

...maybe i’m too empathetic. idk. maybe i’ll make a blog for it. idk. i just know how i felt when i identified as a cis girl, and how i still feel now due to my lingering connection with being female, and it’s so isolating and makes you fucking hate yourself. i mean, i was/am bi, but my attraction to men was just so atypical, meanwhile my attraction to women wasn’t, and it felt like i could never talk about it or else i was ‘actually straight uwu’ and no one would understand anyway. no one understands nOW what it’s like to be attracted exclusively to feminine, gnc, queer, etc. men and how different it is from being attracted to the average man, how different it is as a female to be attracted exclusively to those types of men (types who are usually gay and therefore not into you), esp when hetero attraction is shit on by the lgbtq community lol, even if that attraction doesn’t conform to the standard (which would be queer by definition, but y’know)

i just hate tumblr and lgbtq culture’s way of acting like hetero attraction and experiences are all the same and all fit into the cisheteronormative mold, cause lemme tell you, i would’ve fucking killed to have gotten some hetero content i could ACTUALLY relate to and enjoy, esp without people saying it’s “””lesser””” than gay content lol. oh and let’s not forget how i could never talk about this without people saying “shut up straightie you have tons of content” like :))) genuinely fuck you.

even now, i can’t help but wonder if i’m really nonbinary or just subconsciously started identifying as such to feel more valid in my experiences. is my dysphoria gender related or do i just feel a disconnect from my gender due to the things i listed above???

a m/f relationship doesn’t inherently conform to cisheteronormativity!! a m/f relationship can be queer and you genuinely cannot change my mind on that!! i want content of a very feminine gnc man dating a very mascuilne gnc girl!! like a ‘twink’ dating a ‘butch’ for example!! that’s all i want god dammit!!!!!! maybe they even get mistaken as a gay couple sometimes who knows!!! and if you don’t like me using the word queer then pretend i used atypical instead!! the point is that atypical cishets deserve!! pride and support!!! and REPRESENTATION!!

i dunno. if anyone actually read all this and wants to help out with a blog for some gnc support/positivity then let me know. it’d be geared towards cisgender people who experience atypical heterosexual attraction, but be for anyone gnc in the end. i’m just... very passionate about this. it’s one of the things i’m most passionate about due to my own experiences, and i don’t really feel comfortable in the lgbtq community due to all of this shit. i don’t like my experiences, feelings, and struggles being erased. i don’t like m/f relationships being seen as inherently cisheteronormative. i don’t like cishets being shit on. i don’t like there being no representation for queer/atypical m/f couples. i don’t like there being no support for these people when!! they deserve it!! and belong at pride just as much as anyone else!!!!

when i say straight people deserve pride, i’m not referring to your typical straight person. i’m referring to the different ones, the ones that don’t conform to binary gender norms, the ones that face misdirected homo/transphobia, the ones that are queer, the ones that give a big “fuck you” to cisheteronormativity. and no, this does not mean that i think a guy liking pink would be queer; that’s not what i’m saying at all. liking things that are girly is different from being gnc. liking baking and clothes designing is very different from being a man who navigates society and relationships differently due to not conforming to the ‘male’ gender role.

not conforming to gender roles and being nonbinary are different but similar and valid things. i just... yeah. i could go on for hours, but i won’t. i just hope maybe someone out there understands what i’m trying to say. i want to make a difference and end the idea that cishets all conform to cisheteronormativity and don’t belong at pride. because yeah, ofc your typical cishet doesn’t need pride, but atypical ones? they’re more than deserving of it. they deserve to be proud in a society that shits on them for not adhering to their strict standards of how a person is ‘supposed’ to be. maybe i can turn ‘atypical cishet’ into a term, idk. i just want atypical cishets and those who experience atypical hetero attraction to have a community. maybe i could make a blog like that, too?

god i spent over an hour typing this up you can tell i’m passionate about it esp considering no one’s gonna read it (and if they do, will just get mad probably lol)

[the-unholy-trinitea]

Queen of Beasts, Right Hand Prey/A Mean Girls Broadway Fanfic

Freshman year.

Everybody’s still awkward. Adjusting to starting puberty. Except for Regina George. Her best friend Janis Sarkisian stood in front of her mirror. “Gina? Am I fat?” She asked... Regina shook her head no and responded, “you’re not fat. You’re just King sized, J.”

They hugged.

“Heyyy girlies!”

Ugh. It’s my mom...

“Oh hi mrs. George you look less high today.” Janis quipped.

“Mommy. Can I please go shopping tomorrow?”

“Shopping?” Janis said, “We just went shopping for our outfits today!”

“Jan. I mean. Feminine shops. I need FEMININE PRODUCTS.”

Janis nodded.

Phew! “Sure Honey! I’ll go call Gretchen’s mother.”

Fuck.

“Jan. I’m sorry. Gretchen’s just a friend from theater camp. And since you went to art camp-“

“It’s okay Gina! I’ll see you Monday!”

Janis called her mom abruptly. She was clearly frustrated with Regina.

The Next day...

Gretchen: OMG! Gina!

Regina: It’s just Regina! Gina’s a baby name. K, Gretchen?

Gretchen: Mmkay.

Regina: Mmkay? We’re almost adults, Gretchen! You say yes when someone is speaking to you!

Gretchen: yes Regina

Regina: that’s better

*sees Janis*

OMFG! GRETCHEN! Look up from your phone!

Gretchen: Who’s that?

Janis walks up to Regina...

“Hey Regina! How are you! My mom and I are just getting me an afterschoool job.”

“That’s great. Jan. Look. This is Gretchen. Gretchen-Janis. Janis-Gretchen. Yes? Ok bye!”

“Gina?”

“Yes babe?”

“Jingle bell,”

“Jingle bell,”

Janis said the together part as Regina walked off laughing with Gretchen. “Jingle bell rock...”

First day of high school

Janis got on the bus and to her surprise Regina wasn’t on it. Dressed in a crop top and jeans she’d sewn from hand dyed purple denim, she looked for a place to sit. “Heyyy girlie! Over hear! Sweetie!” A plus sized boy sat next to her. “Damien. Theatre star. Singer extraordinaire. And you are?”

“Janis. Janis Sarkisian. Artist.”

They shook hands.

“Hey. Damien? Do you by chance know Regina George?”

Damien gawked at her.

“THE REGINA ANGELICA GEORGE? I went to theatre camp with her and she got the lead in our production of Frozen! The unauthorized musical. You know RAGS to riches George? Lucky!”

“Yeah... I’m her best friend.”

“Oh crap. You’re the best friend?!” Damien.

“What do you——-Mean”

The bus pulled to a stop and they got off at school and we’re separated immediately when a black Jeep pulled up between them.

Decked out in louboutin heels, were Regina George, Gretchen, and some othe blonde girl. They looked like barbies. They looked like...

“Hey Regina you Plastic fake bitch!” Janis yelled.

“Oh hi Jeanette!” The other blonde said.

“How are you Janis?” Gretchen squealed!

“Quiet Gretchen. No one was talking to you.”

“Mmkay.”

“Gretch. I swear to god.”

Gretchen looked like she was about to cry but she straightened up and said with a smile, “Yes Regina.”

Regina turned sharply to Janis.

“Oh hey Janis... How’ve you been.” ReGINA said.

“Good considering you haven’t talked to me for a week.”

“But janis. I had to prep for my theatre audition and Gretchen here was with me at my house coaching me ALL WEEKEND!”

“Actually didn’t we see Hamilton or...” the other blonde said.

“Isn’t that right, Gretchen. Please excuse Karen she’s off her meds.” Regina said.

“I take perkasets! Mali perkasets!” Karen shouted. Janis was sure that was a vine that had been created this summer.

“Well I’ll see you at your birthday par...”

“Janis,” Regina said, “I’ll see you at lunch sweetie.

•

2 months later at lunch. Regina had theatre rehearsals everyday at lunch and so did Damien. Regina never showed up at lunch with Janis. She was too busy snickering and putting notes on her locker that read, “gay support groups are down the hall” and “pedos use the guys room.”

But Regina was happy despite Janis’ angst about her.

So when Janis saw her perform Cell Block Tango during Halloween Fling rehearsal she was caught off guard when Janis kept whistling and shouting “Yes Gina! Get it!” And then even louder when she had her solo for the concert portion singing “Mad World.”

And that gay kid playing Billy Flynn flounced right over to her after and hugged her, “Regina George! You are slay! I gotta go talk to Janis “Van Goth” Sarkisian over there!” And then he hugged Janis and she hugged him and showed her the portrait she made for the Fall Art show...

Regina decided it was time to say something...

Regina: That was so weird. Janis was acting like she was crushing on me. And I’m having a pool party.

Gretchen: Just invite her she’s your best friend.

Karen: yay friends. It’s the right thing to do. R-E-E-S-P-E-K-T?

Regina: Karen! I can’t have a lesbo at my party with girls in bikinis! That’s like inviting a pedo...

Gretchen: true

Karen: I dated a pedo... he extorted me...

Gretchen: OMG Karen. Tell the police. Report him.

Karen: but I can barely read a book!

Regina: NO ONE CARES! OMG! Janis is coming. Put your phone down.

“Hey Gina!”

“It’s Regina, what do you want Janis?”

“I just wanted to say that you were stunning out there!”

Regina dropped her lipstick and realized that Janis was in the girls dressing room and Regina was stripped down to her black lace bra and boy shorts.

“Janis why are you in the girls dressing room?” Karen asked.

“Karen! You can’t just ask WHY she’s in the girl’s restroom. But why exactly are you Jan?”

Regina asked.

“I just wanted to give you your birthday present before this weekend.” Janis said nudging a bag toward her.

“Regina looked in they back and it was the lace dress and pink notebook Regina had put in her amazon wishlist. And a lacy pink bra...

“Sorry. I can’t take this.” She said.

“But I’m your best friend did I do something?”

“It’s just... WHY ARE SO OBSESSED WITH ME!” ReGINA yelled. Janis froze, “We always shopped for bras for each other because it was our tradition and I...”

“YOU ARE A DYKE. A DANGER TO EVERY GIRL HERE. I CANT HAVE A LESBIAN AT MY PARTY. ITS NOT COOL. And unsafe.”

Janis felt cold.

And then hot.

“I may be a dyke but at least I know the difference between a star and the sun. Clearly one is bigger and takes up too much space! Well I’m a dyke. An alien dyke from Venus! Tell the government, bitch. You have my number on speed dial.”

Janis stormed out unaware hat people were video taping her.

•

That night Damien showed up at her window and helped her create a new Tumblr, Twitter, and Instagram to get away from #spacedyke.

•

Regina wrote about Janis that night in the soon to be burn book.

[herdustisverypretty]

“Kuroko no Basket is not gay” - and why that statement is bullshit

I know I said I was leaving for today but this is something that has bothered me for a long time and I would like to say this. 

I take issue with the title statement, and I’m going to explain why. This is going to be a very long post so grab a snack and get comfy. 

Okay. To begin with, I’m going to talk about Kagami. He, along with Kuroko (but that’s another story), are the only male characters on the Seirin team who show no interest in Momoi. There are plenty of things that make this odd. One is the fact that Hyuuga has said he doesn’t like girly girls, yet even he salivates over Momoi. So Momoi is hot stuff. Yet Kagami shows zero attraction to her. He says to Kuroko that she’s cute, but that doesn’t mean he’s interested in her. Kuroko agrees she’s cute, but we know he isn’t interested in her at all. You can be aesthetically attracted to someone but not romantically or sexually. Secondly, his interactions with Alex. Kagami seems thoroughly disturbed by Alex when she does things such as try to kiss him or when she walks around naked. First of all this is odd for a teenage boy. It’s not that Alex isn’t attractive. The Seirin members also go gaga over her similar to Momoi. And I don’t believe it’s that she’s a mentor/parent/older sister figure, because of Himuro’s interactions with her. Himuro is not bothered by her behaviour at all, he just seems amused. When she tries to kiss him, he stops her and says people don’t do that casually here. This implies he’d be fine for her to kiss him if they were back in America. You could explain this as ‘maybe Kagami is just a prude’, and yeah, maybe he is. That’s one option. However there’s more. In Kurofes, his answer to ‘what is your type (as in romantic partner)’ is very odd. I have spoken to other people who speak Japanese and they also agree his answer is very strange. So, Kagami responds that he is attracted to “an elegant gir- person”. He starts saying the word girl, and then stops and changes to a gender neutral term. This is odd. The change from female to neutral seems significant. Why did he feel the need to stop saying a female term and change to a neutral term? Plenty of other characters in Kurofes say gender neutral person instead of girl (male characters) or boy (female characters) but that’s a normal response and they most likely are still straight. However that Kagami felt the need to specifically change his answer is very strange. My personal theory is that he just doesn’t think about his sexuality. He doesn’t seem the type to think about that kind of thing. All he cares about is basketball, not who he’s going to date. My theory is that he started saying girl because most people default that everyone is straight (shitty but true), and since Kagami doesn’t think about this he just automatically began to say girl. However, he changed his mind. So I think in that moment he realised “wait I do like guys” and thus changed his answer. You could take his answer two ways. That he’s bisexual, and wanted to use a neutral term to say he likes both girls and guys. Or you could take it that he is gay. Reo for example uses a gender neutral term in his answer, but we know he’s canonically gay. I would believe either, that Kagami is gay or bi, but personally I think it’s entirely possible that he’s gay judging by his interaction with female characters. 

We’re going to move onto another topic. The topic is that Fujimaki knows jack shit. 

Example one. Murasakibara. Murasakibara is autistic. There is no doubt. There is no argument. He is. He is autistic. However, I don’t think Fujimaki intended for him to be autistic. And by that I mean, Fujimaki does not know what autism is. He doesn’t know it is a thing that exists. There are a few reasons to support this. First, the way other characters talk about Murasakibara. Kuroko for example. Kuroko’s a smart kid. He likely would be aware that Murasakibara is autistic. However, when Kuroko describes Murasakibara and his personality, he makes no mention of this condition. Murasakibara is essentially described by characters as to be ‘just weird’. Things such as autism and mental illnesses are not understood well in Asian countries. I honestly do not have much knowledge of the way such things are treated in Japan, but in South Korea these things are barely acknowledged. Martina from EatYourKimchi has spoken about her experiences as a teacher in S.Korea. She mentioned that she had students she was convinced were autistic, and when she brought this up to the other teachers they responded “No they’re just a troublemaker. There’s nothing wrong with them.” I assume this view is the same in Japan (especially going by Fujimaki’s opinion of LGBT culture - which we’ll get to later). So, Fujimaki likely doesn’t even know autism exists, he just thinks it’s a weird personality some kids have, and gave it to Murasakibara for variety, without realising his character actually has a medical condition. 

Example two. Reo. I love Reo. He is beautiful and lovely and I love him. But he is THE SHITTIEST AND LAZIEST attempt at a gay character I have ever seen. Fujimaki has NO IDEA about anything LGBT. There have been discussions on this already, for example here. I highly recommend you read this post, but I’ll also go into this as well. So in Japan, for many people who are not in the gay community, being gay, transgender, or even just a crossdresser are considered the same thing. If you’re gay you’re trans. If you’re a male who wears dresses, you’re gay and trans. And so on. That’s the opinion. It’s fucking stupid. But that’s how it is.  Now let’s look back at Reo. First of all, Hayama refers to him with a female honorific, ‘nee’ meaning older sister. This does not necessarily mean Reo identifies as female. In Asian countries, many males who exhibit motherly qualities are often referred to with female terms. For example, my fav kpop group of VIXX. The leader, Hakyeon, is very motherly to the younger members, and the younger members sometimes refer to him as their mother. Does that mean he’s gay or identifies as female? Of course not. The same is with Reo. He’s motherly to the other members of Rakuzan, but that doesn’t necessarily mean he’s transgender. He certainly could be, but he also could not be. The combination of multiple things, the female honorific, the fact that Reo has been depicted with the other female characters in art and omake panels, and that Hyuuga uses a transphobic slur with him, all suggests that Fujimaki shares that stereotypical opinion of if you’re gay you’re also trans, and so on. I’m not saying Reo is or is not trans, I don’t know and I will never know, because Fujimaki doesn’t fucking know either. 

More on sexuality and why Fujimaki knows nothing about LGBT. Alex. Her answer as to what is her type in Kurofes is that she likes assertive men. However we know Alex is bisexual. She is attracted to females as well. She states this plainly. You could say she only platonically kisses girls and while I recognise platonic kisses are a thing (I’m aroace so ofc I do) I don’t think it applies here, and I will tell you why. To most of us modern kids on tumblr, sexuality and gender are all very normal things that we know a lot about. But to most what I’m going to call ‘normal’ people not on tumblr, they are not educated in such topics. A straight man is just not going to kiss another man. Maybe if he’s an actor playing a gay character, but I don’t think many straight guys are going to be pashing other guys just for fun. If they were into that, they’d be bi. Same with straight girls. I know plenty of straight girls who just would not kiss another girl. It’s not homophobic, it’s just their preference, similar to a lesbian or a gay male not wanting to kiss someone of the opposite gender. It’s just preference. And that’s fine. Fujimaki does has the stereotypical opinion of westerners which is “we’re all gay, we all make out with everyone, and we love taking our clothes off”. And yeah. That’s what Alex is. I love her, but she’s the stereotypical Japanese idea of what an American is. Which is highly inaccurate. However, this does not change the fact that she is bisexual. Again, Fujimaki may not have intended that, but as the same with Murasakibara, it’s true whether he knows it or not. 

So. We have established that Fujimaki knows nothing about his own characters. By all this information, it’s entirely possible other characters could have different gender identities or sexualities. Fujimaki would probably say ‘no, they’re all straight’, but tbh, I’m not going to listen to anything he says judging on the way he wrote Murasakibara, Reo, and Alex. I’m just not. 

My point here after all that is: if you know the characters better than the author does, do whatever the fuck you want with them. Say they’re gay, say they’re trans. Whatever. Do what you want with them. Fujimaki has no fucking clue what he’s doing with them, so feel free to take his characters and do what you want. If you want to say Takao is gay, go for it, he’s certainly homo with Midorima. If you want to say Kuroko is aromantic, go for it. I get that vibe too. 

Basically, do what you want with them, and let others do the same. These are fictional characters. They’re meant to be enjoyed. If you feel the need to snap at people and police them for identifying with a character and saying they are *insert identity here* then you’re an asshole and you need to reevaluate your life choices. 

Good day. 

btw, Kuroko no Basket is gay af

[mothdogs]

i was talking to a friend about lesbian poets today. just briefly i mentioned the ones i’ve read--adrienne rich, marilyn hacker, audre lorde, sappho--and, inspired by a tumblr post, i then checked out a book by mary oliver. oliver was 70 when she lived through the death of a woman who had been her partner for more than 30 years. thinking about that, the timespans of these women’s lives, made me think a little bit about my personal history and my sexuality. i was going to make this a comic - and i still might, some day - but for now i just want to put it down in prose. thanks in advance for reading, if you do  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

one of the surefire ways that i know i have a crush on someone is that i daydream about seeing them while out and about. i realized this in college when i’d fantasize about running into my cute coworker while out buying groceries or at the bookstore, but i’ve done it for a long time. it’s always been one of those funny lurking thoughts--will i see X today, even in a place i normally wouldn’t? will i get a glimpse of X at random before they see me? will they come over and strike up a conversation? 

after this understanding--along with many smaller pieces that have taken years to fall into place in my brain--reflecting back on my youth changes the landscape of my memories. when i was seven years old and in the third grade, my teacher, mrs. maugins, also went to my family’s church. i remember loving mrs. maugins’ class, and whenever i was at church i’d fidget nervously in the hallways and the chapel, wondering if i would run into her, wondering what she was wearing or if she’d say hello to me. at that age i was too young to understand what this meant, and as i grew further into adolescence i was too sheltered by my overbearing mother to know much about crushes or sexuality at all. i knew that jesus thought sexual thoughts were dirty and sinful. homosexuality was never discussed by either of my parents when i was a child, ever.

when i was thirteen, a butch girl named ashley joined my karate class. she was the first lesbian i remember meeting. i didn’t have a crush on her, i don’t think, but i was awed by her boldness. she was probably sixteen or so at the time, but she wore her dark hair in a buzz-cut and had one ear pierced and proclaimed that she was a lesbian without appearing to be concerned with how anyone whispered about it. i was fascinated by her. my karate school was held in a church, and all the teenage girls in the class used to have sleepovers and bible study nights with one of our female mentors. i remember our mentor driving me, ashley, and two other friends to the mall one day. our mentor tried to teach us about what the bible apparently says against homosexuality, but ashley rebutted her arguments and held firm. silently, from the back seat, i cheered her on.

timelines after that get a bit hazy. when i was about fifteen, a new russian transfer student moved into my math class. she was a year older than me and also claimed to be gay, and said she had a girlfriend who went to a different school. she wore her hair in a bob and had a beautiful button nose--i remember this because i used to give her sideways glances whenever i could. i think her name was anna. she transferred after that year--it was something to do with a mix-up in credits from her previous school, and i never saw her again. around the same time, i took an interest in a girl two years older than me who rode the same bus. she was a fantastic artist, and one day she saw my sketchbook and asked to look at it. i remember being surprised and awed that she would even speak to me, and i remember mentally remarking at how long her eyelashes were.

when i was sixteen, i took a gym class where the only people i knew were two bitchy gossip-spreading girls, one of whom was the little sister of my best friend. this girl was truly a vile person--racist, petty, mean-spirited, and more--but i felt like i couldn’t say anything to her that would upset my friendship with my best friend. one day when we were running laps and we passed the gym teacher, a bulldyke lesbian named coach b, my “friend” started making jokes about how coach b kept a dildo in her desk drawer, how her “partner” was rumored to be uglier than she was, and how she probably stared at our classmates in the locker room. this last especially was patently false--coach b didn’t go into the locker room unless it was to scold us to get started with class--but what did i do? i didn’t defend her, this lesbian woman who was being scorned and mocked, this woman for whom i felt an inexplicable kinship and pity. no, i joined in making jokes about her. the memory of it shames me to this day. 

(i even tried to look up her email address to send her a letter of apology a few years ago, but can find no trace of her on my high school’s website. i hope that wherever she ended up is more open and accepting than my town is.)

throughout all of this time, in high school and into my first two years of college, i dated several boys. after breaking up with my first long-term (2+ years) boyfriend, i struggled to understand why i didn’t enjoy having sex with him. sure, it felt good--or at least the foreplay did--but i didn’t feel that deepness, the emotional connection that he claimed we had. ditto for the guy i dated a year later; i struggled to make him happy in the bedroom, told myself that if he was enjoying himself then i would just enjoy that and it would be enough for me--but of course it wasn’t enough, and we parted ways after a bit more than a year.

i don’t remember when i first thought the words “i am a lesbian.” i know it was after i started dating my first girlfriend. i was 20 at the time, and pursued her with a hunger and a passion that surprised even me. despite her hesitancy to date me due to age differences, we soon fell in together, and even though our relationship turned tempestuous and unhappy pretty quickly, i found in her arms the satisfaction and the depth of emotion that i’d never known with any boy before. things started to click into place--my secret adolescent obsession with “gay” media, which was forbidden by my parents and my religion; my hatred of girly clothing and my desire to dress in suits and binders; and all of the seemingly small instances that i’ve just laid out. somehow, unknowingly, i’d been forming my identity as a lesbian woman all along. 

and now i’m looking ahead at what the future holds. my goal is to find a full-time job that can support me moving out of my parent’s house within the next two years; once i get my master’s degree i’ll have a lot more freedom to acquire a well-paying career. i’ll be able to start pursuing romantic relationships then. i’ll be able to start working towards my dreams--of being an archivist, a beekeeper, a wife who can provide for my future wife. i’m going to fucking get there. 

i think the point of writing all of this was to articulate: i was a lesbian my whole life, even when i didn’t know it yet, and that’s a beautiful thing to think about. 

[beebosbitchh]

1-65 ;)

holy heck ! thank you sophiw i lov u 🍒

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

i dont understand this question?? like sometimes i doubt my own existence and other times i doubt that i exist to certain ppl? ya?

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

2,, normal amount? like good for sleep but pitch black is scaryy but not to the point i need the escape ?? if that makes sense??

3. The person you would never want to meet?

guy fieri, i dont think i need to know if hes actually real ? like is he real and from this dimension or from flavortown (which he has a very scarily detailed description of)?? thats not something i need to know

4. What is your favorite word?

hmm, probably ‘fam’ obviously

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

a willow tree !!!!!!!!!! i just talked to my mom about this :-0

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

ngl but i dont look in the mirror anymore unless its lip syncing along to a song sung by a guy/someone w a deeper voice bc i feel like it suits me better! gotta love coping w dysphoria!

7. What shirt are you wearing?

baseball tee, gay

8. What do you label yourself as?

nb, lesbian, fool

9. Bright room or dark room?

dark room

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

slepe

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

10-11 when i was in 5th grade. i still only had two friends but i was way more extroverted and everything was so carefree and i was very invested in adventure time and art. i think that was the most of a childhood i got? i honestly did not do much as a kid and i wish i had..

12. Who told you they loved you last?

sophiw ! tumblr user almightyportraits ! the loml !

13. Your worst enemy?

x

14. What is your current desktop picture?

one from apple called ‘abstract shapes’ its very orange but also blue which is my fave color pairing atm so its perfect

15. Do you like someone?

tumblr user vahilla

16. The last song you listened to?

megan played ‘marceline’ by willow in her car ! a song i suggested to her a few months ago and it makes me very happy that she likes it especially bc we bonded over adventure time in 6th grade :-)

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

mmyy seelfff ??

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

mmmyseyyffelllff ??

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do? 

eh whats the point

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

n o ne ? 

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

what is the opposite of nb,, i feel like if i was opposite of how i present id be a girl, which is a verryyy weird thought for me, pass

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

no :-/

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

uh first of all blood, like, ill pass out,, second of all,, literally everything worries me

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

jimmy johns #16, turkey, bacon, lettuce, tomato, NO MAYO

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

im a very practical person so the least boring answer i can come up w is more art supplies

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

denmark

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

fukcing , acetoNe

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

i think a FIRST rule would have to be pretty IMPORTANT so probably smt like how ~WE THE PEOPLE~ are all EQUAL would be a pretty good start and pretty UNDENIABLE and STRAIGHT FORWARD especially if it was the FIRST thing in this,, hmm lets call it the CONSTITUTION, in the completely hypothetical society

29. What is your favorite expletive?

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuk cufck ufc kfuck 

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

sunglasses??!!! that shit gotta be bright huh>?? gotta protect my retinas 

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

i wanna say my first relationship made me a better person but that shit was rreeeaaallyyyy fucking awful and 4 months (+recovery months) that i will never get back and i think ? maybe ?? i wouldve been ok without it ? idk just a thought

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world! 

spain ?!?!? why not + i sorta know the language? thatd b cool

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

zoey my dog :-( i miss her a lot, this month it will have been two years oh my god i miss her so much

34. What was your last dream about?

the last one i remember was a nightmare about someone tryna murder me i was very scared

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

i think so , when i was two i got really really sick and couldve died ?

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

ahh yes ! we gave hhimm,, fruit snack nipples, please forgive me fathr

38. What is the color of your socks? 

grey w blue n orange stripes ( again i lov blue n orange together, my shirt is teal and i have an orange hat on wow)

39. What type of music do you like?

all! i had to train this new guy at work and im sooo awkward but once why started talking about music it was easy for me to talk bc it was smt we both really like !!! i felt like i could actually communicate w feeling a disconnect it was nice ! we talked mostly about rap which was cool and unexpected but i could do it ? i really love music and i love being able to know enough to talk about it ,, isk 

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

sunrises, ive been pushing myself to wake up unreasonably early to have more time to myself and i get to watch the sunrise most days which is nice

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

chocolate 

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

whom?

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

college? god i dont even know… smt w art.. by an illustrator or art teacher or freelance artist or graphic designer ,, i really dont know

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

one thing ?!!?!? i wish i was neurotypical

46. Are you reliable?

yes? i try hard to be? i hope so ?

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

u still a lil bitch ?

48. Do you hold grudges? 

nope i try not to, ive had too many toxic petty people in my life that i dont need to be one myself.. now this is grudges w/o reason, but if ive given people several ‘second chances’ and theyre still (thumbs down) then ill avoid them but w/i reason?

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

DOG HORSES BIG DOGs

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

mm probably smt w my lab partner from last year. she always sends me weird quotes from a fanfiction shes reading and its weird but i really appreciate that she still talks to me or talks to me at all tbh

51. Are you a good liar?

nooo ?? i try not to lie? mb not tell the full truth but idk , i feel like id feel too guilty

52. How long could you go without talking?

uhh literally days like i already fucking do.. i m taking this as verbally but i dont get texts so like, it would not be hard

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

before i went to short hair i used to alllwaayyys wear a tight ponytail every single day bc i wasnt girly enough to do anything w it and it was really really gross like thank god i cut it all off

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

heck yeah

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

*clears throat*

h-

hewwo?

56. What do you like on your toast?

butter and jam

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

x

58. What would be you dream car?

razor scooter

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

sometimes im just too physically or emotionally exhausted to stand so ill just,, lay down? ive fallen asleep in the shower before ha

60. Do you believe in aliens?

yup

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

whenever it comes up but i dont ,, seek it out

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

Q

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

dragons tf

64. What do you think about babies?

evil, ugly, dont see the appeal. open ur eyes ppl !!!! bbs are n Ot cute !!

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

x

[c-rankin93]

Uncle Archie Knows Best

A/N: so me being the anti-social person i am, decided to troll Tumblr. When i came across THIS lovely post about MMFD prompts, and i haven't done a prompt for many moons.. soo.. i wrote this in about an hour, because of my 'shes no you' multi chapter creation. so hope you like it even if its just thrown together and i though id just add the tag list to my other Fic.

Runs and Hides now... Because i dont even know where this came from!

Archibald at your service...

Now let me tell you a story, a fickle little shrine to two people I love dearly. A story so pleasantly surprising you'll be wondering 'what happens next?' You've seen Rae's point of view, and maybe even Finn's, but have you viewed it from the outside looking in?

I can read Finn better then a poem written by Shakespeare himself, and Rae let's just say hostility and regret can never be covered by a sarcastic joke. Her facial expression tell a story of their own, I just so happen to be a fantastic Explorer. Summer of '96, currently 3 days, 7 hours and 19 minutes ago was the last time I had seen or heard from either Rae or Finn. Which was incredibly odd because I ALWAYS get the one moody phone call from Rae everyday, telling me to get my arse moving and to meet her at the pub. Oblivious to the time she's calling, which would be tethering on lunchtime. And I, being the early riser I am would already be wide awake and on my 3rd cup of peppermint tea. Finn on the other hand would just levitate around, half the time fading into the background by the jukebox until it was time to see Olivia. Olivia, Finn's new prized possession. The 24 year old business women that seemingly found a newly fresh 17 year old attractive enough to date. And if Finn's docile smiles have any indications, he really didn't know what she saw either. That stupid boy jumped head first into a pile of his own shit, when he got involve with Olivia. I know why he did it though, Rae hurt him that night she broke up with him. He wasn't stupid, he had heard the rumours about Liam and Rae. The kiss. The fight. He wasn't even keen to go on the date in the first place, but he walked outta the pizza place with a new girlfriend. Coincidence? Yeah, your probably right. So what happens when Uncle Archie knocks some sense into a dim witted Finn Nelson? Nothing. You know why? Because they hadn't contacted me in 3 days! No 'thank yous' or 'Fuck yous', just a whole lot of silence. My mind maybe a little fuzzy, my alcohol ingestion that night was more then I'm willing to disclose. But I do remember what I said to Finn outside the pub after Rae made a dramatic, but also quite hilarious exit... (Fades off into a memory. Woooohooo *spooky fingers*) "Finn, a word. Outside?" My eyes gravite towards the gang; who are still wondering 'what just happened?' Before they land on the boy in question. He too looked a little put out, but agreed to talk. Finn kissed Olivia's cheek quickly, then trailed after me into the bellow freezing temperatures of a summers night in Stamford. We huddled close together around the side of the pub, away from prying ears. He kept looking around, trying to see what direction Rae sprinted off to and when he saw her fading figure he frowned. "What the bloody hell were you thinking Finn!" I pointed an accusing finger at him and shoved it into his chest multiple times. "Wot?" He replied, defending himself from my unslaught. "What do you think your doing bring Olivia to the pub? Especially when you know Rae will be there!" This boy was smarter then he looked. He knew exactly what he had done tonight, he brang Olivia to show everyone he had moved on. He just had no idea that was the topic I chose to broach with him tonight, we'll until now. "I didn't do anythin' wrong Arch. Liv wanted to meet you all tonight, especially 'Cause she knew Rae was there. She wanted to get to know everyone." I swear gay men are the only smart creatures on this planet. "You twat! She was sizing up the completion! 'Oh Rae how lovely to meet you, Finn talks soo much about you'" I spoke with a girly accent. It wasn't my finest work, but at least I got my point across.   "And what's with all this cheesy nickname shit. Bug? Really Finn! When you guys chose pet names, were you laying in bed cuddling too?" "Hold up Arch! Remember Rae left me! Not the other way around. She has to use to me datin' other girls-" "Woman" I interrupted. "Girls-women whateva! I had to deal with it, so does she." I shook my head at the stupid boy I decided to call my best friend. "Do you not listen to the stories that get spread around school" I asked honestly. After socialising in the same circle as Macca and Simmy for a few weeks, I had grown a custom to the foul things they talked about involving the other students. And to my regret, Rae had been a topic well and truly covered. "What are you talking about? You know I can't stand college" Finn stressed running a hand through his hair. I caught him look in the direction Rae headed, but unfortunately her figure had disappeared by now. "After your little disabled toilets stun, you two became quite famous. I'm surprised you didn't hear about your little escapade floating in the wind." "You know nothin' happened. We talked, and I kissed her. And it shouldn't matter what happened in there anyway! It's nobody else's business." Sighing, I thought of a different way to broach the subject. "Finn its a place full of teens, gossip is their only form of communication. We are a nasty breed of people, that will twist and turn the truth until it's a plausible story. It doesn't matter what really happened. All they know is you and Rae locked yourselves in the toilet, alone, together. They have an imagination. Everyone thinks you two had fucked." Finn scoffed acting like it was the stupidest thing he has ever heard. Then it clicked. The clogs in this brain meshed together in harmony, he finally got what I was trying to say. "What are they saying about Rae?" "Do you want the truth? Or would you like me to sugar coat it?" I asked honestly. It didn't matter how and what I said, I know Finn was going to be mad once he finds out. "Truth." "They are saying along the lines of... Rae is a fat minging bird that you felt sorry for so you decided to give her a sympathy fuck..." "And she's heard this?" I nodded. "What about you and the rest of the gang? Have you heard this?" I regretfully nodded again. "Why hasn't anyone told me this shit! Why haven't you done anything about it Archie!" I bowed my head in shame. Here I am berating Finn about what he's doing to Rae when I too was only hurting her as well. "I honestly thought you knew and shrugged off the silly rumour like you normally do, I mean when you heard about Rae and Liam you laughed. And I know I should of done something Finn. I'm just trying to fit in at the moment, and I fucked up! We all fucked up" I sighed. "So she believe what people where saying about her then? That's why she broke up with me? Not because she didn't want to be with me but because she doesn't think she's worthy of me." "I don't know Finn" I shrugged. "She had a mental break down not that long ago. Anything could be going through her mind right now." Finn patted his jacket pocket, checking for his wallet and what not before looking back at me with a sad smile attached to his face. "I have to go talk to her before she gets to the pigeon race." I snorted. "Really Finn?" "Look just tell the others I had to run off, I-ugh-I had toooo..." "Go to a pigeon race?" I laughed. "Yeah whatever. Just tell Olivia I'll call her tomorrow" he shouted the last part as he darted across the road. He ran down the road leading to Rae's house. I hoped I had done the right thing. "CALL ME!" I shouted, but Finn had already faded into the black. "Well what to do now?" I mumbled to myself staring at the pub doors. I didn't particular want to venture back into that domain, especially without Finn in tow. Eh. I think chop will be quite alright with the ladies tonight. I started walking towards my car. I think it was time for a peppermint tea. (And.. CUT!) But he never called me.. He never picked up the phone, his dad being away on a work trip didn't help. Even Linda didn't spill the beans, she just said she was out. So you see my glorious friends, here is my little story about how Uncle Archie either saved the day or got himself into a load of shit. Time will tell to establish the ending of this story. All I know for one, is it won't be ending with someone jumping on a train to Bristol. I'll shut that shit down quick smart. So until then I will bid you farwell- *Ringing* "Holy fuck" I mumbled wiping the drool sliding down my chin. The ringing continued to blare through the room as I picked my head up from the desk I fell asleep at. I rubbed my forehead and groaned before reaching over my lamp to grab the phone. "Ello?" I croaked, sleep still evident in my voice. "Archie?" I bolted up right as soon as I heard Finn's voice, which caused me to fall backwards off the chair. I laid there a few seconds before dragging the receiver to my ear and taking the base with it causing it to land on my leg. Fuck. "Yeah?" "Did you just- never mind. What's going on?" "What's going on? WHAT'S GOING ON? Three fucking days Finn! No contact from you, nothing" I sat up straight. "What happened?" "Uh well I broke up with Olivia" Finn said warily. I snorted. "Don't give a toss about that! What happened with Rae did you find her?" "Yeah I found her." "And?" I stressed. I'd start going grey soon if Finn kept talking in riddles. "Here I am stressing. Having waky ass dreams about me narrating a story about you two and all your giving me is a short answer. I need information Finn Nelson!" "Are you alright Arch? You seem a bit strange this evening" Finn had the audacity to laugh. "Finn!" "Ohkay. Ohkay. We talk, no details. And we sorted stuff out. Starting fresh. We're going to try again." I smiled. Whatever Finn said actually worked. Honestly I thought the twat would fumble over his words, but he actually did it. I was like a proud father. "Ohkay that's good" I played it cool but inside I was jumping up and down like a school girl. "Are you Bellends coming to the pub anytime soon to socialise? Or are you two not quite ready to come out of your bubble?" "Nah we'll see ya tonight. Catch." "See you then." The line went dead and I sagged back onto the ground. Oh it was glorious being Uncle Archie. Being wise beyond my years, with a dramatic  group of friends that helped expand my growing ego. I could sell my story and become a millionaire one day.

*dramatized exit*

@lily-pop-2 @eveerez @i-dream-of-emus @hey1tskat1e @arathewallflower @mmfdfanfic @luly310 @l88cym @tinakegg @milllott @milymargot @lurkernolonger

[evilelitest2]

100 Days of Trump Day 59: Fight Club...kinda

Welcome back to 100 Days of Trump where I try to explain WTF happened in 2016 through 100 works and today we are going to talk about a failed movie.  I have to be honest with you folks, I had a lot of fucking trouble deciding whether I should include this one or not, because one one hand it is talking about the exact same Alt Right/Gamergate/MRA bullshit that was so pivital to getting Trump elected, and on the other hand it is a movie that utterly fails at delivering its ostensible point.  Since I’m assuming fucking everybody has seen this movie, you are all familiar with all of those people who unironically love this movie and want to be like Tyler Durden and people are like “omg those people totally miss the point of the movie” and yes they do.

That is entirely the fault of the movie, because despite what the movies intention is, the reality is that the movie makes the thing it is criticizing seem more appealing than than it means too, beacuse David Fincher has a major problem with restraints and loves overindlugence, and when you are criticizing overindulging while indulging in it, you get to weird sentences and also a failed movie.  Fight Club does not succeed at what Fight Club is attempting to make, and ultimately comes out equally in favor of its subject as against it, because failed film-making choices.  Because the movie only really works as the director intended (and I am assuming he did intend to mean this movie as a critic of toxic masculinity because that is what he said) if you go into the movie knowing exactly what the director intended, and that is really a failed movie.  Again this is a movie that is like “bah consumer culture’ and filled with Pepsi ads.  But I am recommending it anyways because if you do come into the film knowing its intentions, then it is extremely enlightening to the entire bullshit culture of Toxic Masculinity, though it ironically falls into the same traps it critiques.  

     Ok so if you have been on the internet for any degree of time you have encountered the whole manosphere and if you aren’t emotionally maladjusted, you see these pepole running around talking about manleness and man things and BEING A MAN and if you pay the slightest bit of attention you notice how like...contradictory it all is?  And I don’t mean in a politician “I say one thing but do another” sense of contradictory, I mean in a “Wait, really?” poser desperately trying to hang out with the cool kids contradiction.  For example, go unto Reddit, 4chan, 8chan and the various pro Trump sites and you will see all this stuff about how Trump is a real man who understands the masculine virtues unlike those girly sensitive easily offended liberals who care about feelings and are all wimps.  And if you are a fucking idiot, your response should be “Wait, isn’t Trump like the most easily offended obviously insecure man in the world who throws a giant hissy fit over the slightest provocation, never severed in the military (while mocking those who do) and is constantly showing his emotions at all times.  How the fuck is that masculine?  

    Or if you pay attention to Gamergate who are like “OMG , women/betas are so weak and overreact to everything”  And then you have a video game with a female protagonist and they go absolutely apeshit and whine like nobody has ever whined before?  Or you have people like Sargon of Akkad who are like “ZOMG free speech” and then they call for universities to have classes they don’t like purged without a shred of irony.  

Or the Golden One who says that the leftist Betas do nothing but whine about shit and then when somebody makes a video like this he tries to sue him for defamation.  LIke have you noticed (and will notice in the responses to this post) that the so called alpha masculine folks are also the biggest fucking badies in the world?  From Roosh V’s pathetic whining about feminists being mean to him for saying women don’t have brains, so Thunderf00t buying into long debunked pseudo science, to Davis Arueni saying how people try to pull down millionaires to then immediately critique millions who he doesn’t like (he has accomplished nothing himself of course), to the talk of “Neomasculinity going back to ancient Greece” which ignores the fact that their was a lot of sodomy going on back then, to the fact that the fucking Red Pill is from a movie made by two transwomen about systemic inequality.   The entire culture of masculinity is a giant contradictory of terms.  And I keep posting this, but its true, the people who stand for the working class are always getting behind rich assholes who just say a few phrases?

 Or how the religious right is always getting behind rich pricks who only care obtaining money and never seem to actually do anything christian.  

Or if any of you have had the misfortune of meeting Wall Street folks, they are all into macho culture, extreme sports and act like they are some sort of alpha males when they are all these fucking accountants who spend all day calling people trying to trick them out of their money.  Or the fact that you have libertarians like Adam Baldwin coming out to support Putin because he is a real man.  And that is really what I want to talk about with Fight Club, the fact that for all of its macho aspirations, they really don’t live up to any of the standards they set except for rhetoric, its a fucking cargo cult.  In a way, Fight Club feels like a commentary on 300, a big dumb hyper macho ultra violent stupid fucking movie that is also like....really gay.  And have you noticed that Fight Club is one of the most gay movies like...ever.  even if we ignore the way Tyler dresses, the entire relationship of the movie is about shirtless men holding each other and the core relationship in the film is between two men who not only love holding their hands, but are....ok they are basically dating, I mean this is hardly subtext.   They literally go “We should do this again some time” while smoking I mean come on.   Its really impossible to find any of these defenders of masculinity who don’t come off as a mix of pathetic and psychotic. 

And then you have the fact that the whole macho idea is being an individual and standing up conformist culture that makes you into a homogenized drone of the system....and then they start doing EXACTLY THAT.  They literally give up their names and start taking little pamphlets with basically nondisclosure agreements.  The whole point of the movie is how Fight Club is a fucking cult based on contradictions, like the fact that you aren’t suppose to speak of it, but you are expected to spread it.  Or the fact that the group comes into existence with men who have testicular cancer, or the fact that the only time actual happiness is found is when one stops buying into this macho bullshit.  I mean look at this video here contrasting self proclaimed masculine god among men “The Golden One” (no really he actually fucking said that) and a man whose goal in life seems to be as silly and unmasculine as possible.  

Beyond the fact that this video is hilarious and Hbomberguy is one of the best people for just undermining the entire macho subculture of the Alt Right, here is the thing...notice how Hbomberugy comes off as more traditionally masculine than the Golden One?  Like he just seems more confident and fucking relaxed.  But beyond that, notice how much this guy spends talking about feelings and emotions and all types of things traditionally described as girly.  Or here is a great example, the Golden One is all into fantasy as where he draws his traditional values, but the Granddaddy of fantasy, LOTRS, not only features LOTs of scenes of men crying, it also is centered upon you know...these guys

    Two extremely non-masculine men who not only cry frequently, but have this very close sensitive relationship where they talk about their feelings (and that is even before you get into the gay thing).  But you have these Alt Right folks taking the token most shallow levels stuff from the source material of both masculine mainstream culture and alternative culture and trying to internalize meaning out of them....they are fucking posers is what I’m getting at, oh dear its looped back around again 

   And the core of entire response is...people feeling lonely.  This isn’t just the film, go unto these fucking boards and you see people talking about white Genocide and the Red Pill in one sentence, and then crying openly about how they feel so lonely, unfulfilled and suicidal, I mean, I’m on tumblr, and I see people posting about depression, anxiety, not wanting to get up in the morning, not being able to go outside, not being able to work, living constantly on the edge as people who feel put upon by the world and let me tell you, there is nobody I’ve encountered on tumblr as utterly hopeless as the people I see on 4chan.  I”m not saying 4chan folks have worse problems, in fact I can assure you, they really really don’t, but they feel like they do, its a whole giant mess of feelings going on at all those sites.  Our protagonist has spent his whole life going “if I buy enough useless commercial junk, I stop being so lonely”.  And then “Hey if you due enough violence then guess what you belong”.  But this is the great bit (and by the way this is the bit the movie does not do enough to explore).  The system they are fighting against, the corporate neoliberal clintonian milktoast capitalist system that dehumanizes them?  They are right about how awful it is, but what they aren’t right about is who is responsible.  They blame women.  But who runs the credit card companies and corporate materialism and the Wall Street Banks...guess what?  They aren’t being run by feminists or muslims or black people or any other group who are supposedly being whiny for not wanting to get persecuted.  They are run by people like this 

or this

or this

Yeah, real leftist infiltration there fellows

   Also, going back to my theme of “The Right co-opts the left” that I have been talking about so much, notice how these MRAs, White Nationalists, Klansmen etc all kinda use SJW rhetoric?  Like the they use similar memes, rhetorical style, and even the whole identity politics support group style.  I mean if you spend too much time in the Alt Right interwebs, you find yourself seeing discussions privilege and triggering caused by black people and women, and these people really believe that despite congress being utterly white and male, they are the ones who are persecuted.  And its a cargo cult, its all about trappings and surface level appearance, not actual context, the Alt Right has the trappings of the progressive movement.  And the reason for this is that the progressives and the Alt Right actually hate the same target, project Mayhem’s attack on the credit card companies well...a lot of touchy feely, died hair, gender fluid, mixed race, Muslim, lesbian, pagan, liberal environmentalist who cries easily and talks about fan shipping on tumblr, they aren’t exactly weeping tears for the Credit Card Industry, they want it to die a slow death.

Like...this guy

   They are doing more to reject the system than Tyler Durden ever did, because the instinctive response to have of those things is contempt or revulsion, while mainstream society doesn’t really lack so called Alpha Males fighting with other men to take down society with violence.   Also I really want to reiterate that the whole Alpha/Beta wolf model is how the behave in captivity, which as Hbomberguy said, kinda sums up the entire Alt Right movement in a nutshell.   As always, they lash out at centrists and call it leftists 

Gee, does that remind you of anything?  These people are losers who want to believe in the Right Wing ideological principles, but don’t know what to do when it doesn’t bear out in reality, so rather than admit that they believed in a lie, they hope if they can double down, they can somehow make it real again.  Because if they admit that the entire premise itself was at fault, that is a lot scarier than what ever giant conspiracy theory they dream up, better to pretend to believe that Jews run the world than admit that you’ve put faith in a lie. 

Because these aren’t macho people fighting against the feminine, those people exist and they are also really awful, but the absolute worse comes from the people who feel like they don’t quite fit.  And that is what is going on in project mayhem, these desperate sad people are getting screwed over by those who run society, but rather than addressing you know...the actual problem, they just kind of incoherently lash out at people who suffer more then them, and surprise surprise, nothing actually gets done.  The movie kinda fails this, I honestly could make a whole series of post on both why Fight Club is brilliant and why it completely fails at what it sets out to do.  BUt it does get at how self defeating this all is, and how people who love the masculine virtues don’t even seem to understand them, never exhibit any but the trappings of them, and always seem to behave not as leftists do, but as they accuse leftists of doing.  So I suppose it is only fitting that the ultimate crybaby macho man wound up becoming president by appealing to exactly these people I suppose.  People are surprised that Trump is contradictory and are confused why people would support him, except...that’s the point, the whole point is that he is contradictory, that the people who cry out for individualism seem desperate to submerge their will to that of a strong man.

If you want a nice concise  summery of what I am talking about, check out this video by Folding Ideas, its very dry and kind of pretentious, but his actual point is really useful and informative.  

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Attracted in Threat

Summary:

Dan is a pastel who is running from a bad person and meets Phil Lester, the only person who can keep him safe for the night.

🎀 "I'm not going to take that," Dan hisses in utter disgust at his so called 'friends'. His friends were making some bad decisions, and it disturbed him. They shouldn't be taking drugs. Dan wasn't into that, his whole life he was taught to do the opposite. "I think I'm going to leave," Dan tells them, hoping they'd snap and beg for him to not leave and that they'll stop. He sighs and walks out of their house, looking back and expecting to see them, but no luck.

🎀 He kept walking, his eyes glued on the path ahead. He just wanted to forget about that, but he glances behind him to see a man. Almost as if he wasn't there, he just sat there and stared into nothing. "Can I help you?" Dan asks in a confused tone, hugging himself. He may be a bit short, but he won't be afraid to pepper spray.

🎀 "Nah, just staring at the road. Don't worry kiddo," the man hisses in a unfriendly tone. Dan doesn't like that, he doesn't like the feeling he's receiving. He notices the man is holding something. He feels something inside him burst as he begins to run full speed. He slides underneath a hole in a fence, running past the small dogs barking at him. He frantically knocks on the door, praying to god that they will answer. He notices the man get closer.

☠️ "What the fuck?" Phil hissed, he sits up from his bed, a tired look. He doesn't bother to put on a shirt and grumpily heads to the front door. He throws the door open and a small boy collapses into his arms, crying frantically. "He's going to hurt me, please! Let me inside!" the boy cries. Phil raises an eyebrow before he notices a figure in the distance run away full speed.

☠️ "Come in," Phil finally says, allowing himself to take pity for once. "Let go of me as well," he says and the boy right away pulls away and blushed. Phil moved away and allows the boy to walk in, his whole body still shaking.

☠️ "What in gods name is going on? Who the fuck are you?" Phil crosses his arms and the boy shivers. "Please don't hurt me. I just came back from a party and that man was there and he had a weapon so I ran and he followed and I entered this yard and all," Dan whispers out.

☠️ "No offense, but your friends are jerks if they didn't go home with you. Or at least walk with you. I mean, it's London and at 12 a clock it's not a good place to be in, specially for you. I know you are probably tough, but people don't care about that. They care about you and looks," Phil tells him.

🎀 "I get it, I'm a complete idiot. Please let me stay here for the night. I'm scared to walk home," Dan murmurs, he knows he just met this guy. He also knows this guy is hella intimidating. Due to all the tattoos scattering his arms and chest and back. He also notices piercings and the dyed blue fringe. But he seemed to have a nice outlook. As if he was someone completely different on the inside. Well, he hoped.

☠️ "I'll let you stay on a couple of conditions. One, your name. Two, your age. Three, do you have a phone to call someone and let them know?" Phil says and crosses his arms. He glances over the pastel boy. He expected someone shy and girly, but instead he gets a fighter almost. Someone not afraid to speak their word. He won't stereotype, and he knows this pastel boy is simply just a boy like anyone else.

🎀 "My name is Dan, I'm 18 years old. I do have a phone but I don't get signal out here. Unless you have wifi. But it's not like anyone worries anyway. Is that okay now?" He asks, unsure if he can stay now. He just wanted to sleep.

☠️ "I don't really have a place to stay. The couch is hard and my bed is well - my bed?" Phil chuckled and ruffles his own hair with a yawn. "We can share? It's not like we are gay or anything," Dan murmurs. Phil raises an eyebrow at Dan. Is he assuming already his sexuality? I mean, even Phil wasn't considering his sexuality or caring.

☠️ "I'm actually pansexual, so don't assume," Phil answers, which shuts Dan up for a moment. "Oh, I'm bisexual so it's okay," he murmurs back. Phil laughs for a moment, "Didn't need to hear that it's okay. I know it's okay," Phil replied.

🎀 "So can we share, pleeeeeeease?" Dan accidentally whines out, earning a raised eyebrow from Phil. "If you start whining then no. My names Phil, by the way," Phil tells him.

🎀 "Phil, can we please just sleep? I'm really tired. I'm also going to cling onto you stranger. Because I'm really scared right now, and it's not getting better," Dan blushed. Did he just admit he's going to cuddle this guy? I mean, he just met him and all. But Dan really wanted those inviting muscled arms around his small body. Why was he imagining that? He just met the guy. "You're a cuddler? Oh, fantastic," Phil says sarcastically and grabs Dan's arm, leading him to the room. Dan flops beside him once Phil is on his side of the bed. He jumps at the slight window tap and lightning.

☠️ "Phil, can you check the window?" Dan whispers quietly. Phil groans before sitting up and peeking into the window blinds. His breath hitched as he sees the man far away, just staring at them. "I need to call the cops," Phil scrambles around for his phone. "Shit, I left it downstairs and the windows are in clear view to him. He'd see me and leave, the point would be usele-," Phil feels something grab onto his waist and cuddle into him in fear, almost suffocating him by how tight Dan was holding him.

🎀 "Phil," Dan begins to cry, "I don't want to die. I don't w - want to leave. Police aren't going to help much," he murmurs into Phil's chest. Phil's breath hitches, why did he pity this boy? He'd be peacefully asleep - alone... he'd be alone right now. Like he always is. Dan cries more, too afraid to speak. Phil takes a deep breath before he has enough gut to wrap his arms around the boy.

☠️ "I know you're scared. Try and sleep, it'll be okay, I promise," Phil swears. He doesn't know why he cares about this boy. Dan takes a deep breath and let's Phil lay back down. Phil feels Dan nuzzle into his neck, which makes shivers appear on him. He didn't know Dan  was that 'soft' guy that everyone loves. He didn't mind it, he just wanted peace. Soon, he feels Dan slowly breath in a pattern which shows he's asleep. Phil finally allows himself to drift to sleep, praying nothing happens.

🎀 Dan's eyes slowly flutter, his eyes lock with the sleeping punk that saved his tail last night. He bites his lip before pulling away from Phil and peeking out the window. The person was gone, and now kids ran around and people walked. He gasped the air he held in from fear and smiled. He looks back at Phil, and nudges him. "Mmph," Phil groans back, still fighting to get up. "Philllllll, wake up," Dan whines and nudges him again. Phil ignored him this time and Dan grunted in frustration. He finally straddles the punk and shakes him, "Philllllllllll, the cliche stalker is gone," he whimpers.

🎀 "Amazing, maybe it's because McDonalds is having a special and he couldn't resist," Phil grunted back finally. Dan giggled at that, he actually liked Phil's humor. He liked Phil in general, letting all of this happen shows how nice Phil really is. "Philllllllllllllllll," Dan whines when he falls back asleep. Dan groans before crossing his arms. "How does your mom wake you up for school? Oh, how old are you by the way?" He asks. Phil finally wakes up, his eyes still low.

☠️ "I'm 22," Phil tells him and attempts to fall back asleep but Dan shakes him again. "You're like that boyfriend that I didn't ask for," Phil huffs in annoyance. Dan laughs at that, "I forgot to tell you that I'm a whiny person," he smirks.

☠️ "So it seems," Phil grunted back. "Philllll," Dan whines again earning a groan in frustration. "What?" He finally answers. "I don't want to leave yet," he murmurs.

🎀 "Okay, good for you," Phil remarks tiredly. "Can I stay a bit?" He asks and Phil grunts back a lazy 'whatever'. Dan completely ignores that he's just straddling the man, but once he realizes he takes advantage of it and cuddles back into Phil. "Philllll, I like your cuddles," he finally admits. "You're a life saver."

☠️ "Mmph, so you've said," Phil answers grumpily. His eyes still shut, simply allowing the pastel boy to cuddle him. Like he actually minds, let's be honest here. "You better  wake up soon, because I'm totally taking you somewhere as a thank you," Dan tells him. Phil grunts, "Might take me awhile." Which makes Dan smile at more time with cuddling the punk that he met yet is amazing at keeping people safe.

🎀 "Admit it, you like cuddles now," Dan says into Phil's neck. Phil grunts and yawns, "From you, there is an exception. Hence why I'm letting you cuddle me right now." Dan smirks at this. Only for him huh? "Only for me? Really now?" Dan remarks.

☠️ "Well, you're the only person actually cuddling me."

The end.

a/n

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