#especially when they want you to be sad but also cannot stay serious / sad long enough to get through the quick cut funeral scene

[ladyluscinia]

And fuck people are already starting to be insufferable about "sometimes people die in tv shows, god, these whiny children" and like. I love a good character death beat? I enjoyed Black Sails way more than OFMD and my favorite character in the cast of doomed characters was the most blatantly signaled dead man walking of them all?

And when he died I was distraught but also TWICE as motivated to finish the show because Vane's death was thee mic drop moment of his arc?

I can handle people killing my favorite character, lol, but maybe the romcom with hijinks and muppet logic just really sucked at delivering a satisfying death beat because they aren't actually an intense, emotional pirate drama and the episode just kinda sucked all around???

[audaciousacolyte]

Ah yes, I see you are a fellow Oswald enthusiast.

Mind forking over some Ozzy content?

Lucky Little Rabbit

Oswald the lucky Rabbit x reader general headcanons

AN: 《|| Of course! I see so little Oswald fics, and it makes me quite sad. Especially since Ozzie is one of my favorite characters. Anyway, I do hope that this is to your liking, Anon!! ||》

ROMANTIC (|| Fluff ||)

♡|| It took him a long, long, LONG time to accept that he likes you more than a friend. Definitely longer than it took him to get the wastelands operating semi-decently, and even then he STILL denied his feelings

♡|| Emotional constipation might as well be his middle name at this point, because he REFUSED to acknowledge his crush on you after he figured it out. Gus (probably) Definitely needed to snap him out of it with some sort of pep talk, because there is NO WAY he would have confessed otherwise.

☆|| (Now that I think about it, all the fictional men and women I have crushes on are all mega tsunderes/emotionally evasive… I dunno what THAT says about me, but I THINK that I have bad taste in romantic partners)

☆|| (well…except for Amy, Felix and Wendy IG)

♡|| When he DOES confess, it’s either going to be a massive affair that ends up being one of the most romantic dates you’ve ever been on™ or completely on accident and out of context.

♡|| That being said, Dear ol’ Ozzie is an absolute sweetheart when he’s in a relationship. (Think Westley from the princess bride, as an example for what he’s like)

♡|| First date activities may include; Moonlight boat rides, Movie nights, Candlelit dinners, and Rollerskating

♡|| Ask him about his inventions, PLEASE I BEG OF YOU, he LOVES to ramble about them and he gets so, so happy when you want to hear about them

♡|| Pet his ears. Don’t ask why, just do it. He will MELT in your hands. (It’s the fastest way to get him to relax, but be warned: this ALWAYS leads to cuddle time, and he WILL NOT be letting you go anytime soon)

♡◇|| You MIGHT end up also dating Ortensia, but if you just want to date Oswald, Ortensia doesn’t mind sharing with you. As long as Ozzie is happy, then she’s happy.

♡◇|| (If you DO start dating Ortensia, be prepared for a LOT of flirtatious compliments and presents. Any opportunity to charm you is taken IMMEDIATELY, and Oswald WILL join in. you cannot escape.)

♡|| If how he acts with his wife is any indication, Oswald is pretty big on physical affection and PDA. If he’s given the opportunity to hold your hand, he will.

♡|| (He just loves you so much! If he can, then why wouldn’t he hold you? Forget what other people think, He’ll be damned if he goes even one minute without letting you know how much he cares about you!!)

PLATONIC ||Fluff||

◇|| I would assume that if you ended up in the wasteland, then Ozzie’s probably gonna have quite a bit of sympathy for you right off the bat.

◇|| As the first toon to be forgotten, he knows what it’s like to be alone and scared.

◇|| He offers you a place in town and gives you a place to settle down, then introduces you to everybody in hopes of making you feel more welcomed here

◇|| After the Thinner disaster, and the loss of Ortensia, Oswald becomes…reclusive, withdrawn. He’s hardly ever out in town anymore, and you rarely see him any more. Try as you might to visit him, he refuses any visitors and stays locked up in his lab all day.

○|| The two of you end up drifting apart for a while.

◇|| When Mickey comes through with the magic paintbrush, Oswald doesn’t trust him. At all. However, since you happened to accompany Mickey through his journey, he decides to tag along too.

◇○|| Depending on the Route that Mickey goes on, Oswald either ends up losing you as well or Regaining your friendship

○|| (Whatever happens in the Paint route is up to interpretation, but in the thinner route Oswald and Mickey get into a pretty serious brawl over the wasteland after your death)

[shiro-sideblog]

I cannot stop thinking about Bogie Time. It was such a cute story! When I think about it I cannot stop smiling. Thank you for this story as this one will stay in my mind for a very long time I guess. I know it's not the newest story at all, but I'm not a veteran when it comes to this fandom, I'm not even a year in the fandom yet... And not always have time for reading, especially when it comes to the longer ones.

Let's start with the little joke coming from Hiyori. He chose Ibara to go first and told him to put his hand into the box. He had to choose his partner. I love how Eden decided not to tell anything to Ibara to make him show his true feelings and emotions on camera. Because he always looks so serious and all. But when he put his hand into the box he was shocked when he realized it was their Bloody Mary.

It was a really cute scene, poor Ibara tho, but his reaction was everything to me.

I mean it was really nice and a little bit evil from Eden not to tell him anything, but it shows how much they care about him. I mean, Ibara always works despite being exhausted and all, he also doesn't eat properly. I also read a story when Eden members had lunch together and Hiyori with Nagisa decided to give Ibara a little bit from their meals. It was cute as well.

I was also thinking about Ibara & Hajime duo a lot. I mean if I hadn't read this story I wouldn't be able to imagine those two people together at all. BUT while reading this story I couldn't stop giggling at all. Just seeing them together made me very happy. Ibara is someone who keeps his distance from everyone only to not get them involved in his schemes. Because he doesn't want to feel guilty after that. Let's say until this story he was able only to talk to Nagisa properly. Nagisa already knows everything about him and this story shows that Hiyori and Jun didn't know that Ibara hates these variety shows at all because Ibara rarely talks about himself in front of them. But Nagisa, on the other hand, knows everything about him and this story showed as well how much Ibara means to him. I read a lot of Eden stories and sometimes despite always being so kind to Ibara, Nagisa not only here, but in other stories as well, showed a bit of a cruel side to him. He, from time to time, decides to give Ibara a proper lesson, but thanks to him, Ibara will always learn something new. He's still the youngest one, after all, no matter how mature he might look.

Also, this story showed me a new side of Ibara and I'm really grateful for this. I wanted to read a story where I'll get to know Ibara better and this story was what I was searching for. People who are saying only bad things about him should read THIS story!

Also, can we talk a little bit about Hajime? Many people are saying he's so kind and innocent. But I think he knows more than saying and showing. I mean when Ibara was complaining about work Hajime said that Eichi complained about that too. He's very well aware of what Eichi did in the past and all. Hajime knows that Eichi's only trying to act all cute and kind in front of him, but that's what he's a bit sad about. When Eichi's trying to cover his true cruel side of him in front of Hajime he thinks he's left out. Not only Eichi, but others too, just think of him as an innocent child, but Ibara, on the other hand, revealed his true self right away, and then when they got to know each other better he changed his attitude and showed his kind side, the side he's trying to hide in front of everyone. As Nagisa once said Ibara was raised in a Military camp and around him were very strong people so he had no other choice but to become stronger than them, and that's why he is who is now. He still thinks he's on the battlefield.

Also, this scene with Ibara and Jun will have a special place in my heart. I cannot thank you enough to Jun for being Ibara's friend no matter what. Jun became Ibara's best friend. As I said earlier, Ibara's not someone who's able to make friends, and the same goes for Jun as well. At least, they have each other and care about each other.

"...But you have me by your side now. Jun and Hiyori are here, too." "We care about you and understand you more than you think we do."

These parts hit me so hard... Thank you... I cried...

.................

Sorry, sorry for this loooong post, if someone of you decided to read all this of my never-ending talking about Ibara, congrats! I would like to talk more about him, but I already got carried away and almost started talking about other stories and I just wanted to talk about Bogie Time this time. If there is someone who also has some thoughts on Bogie Time or other thoughts on Ibara my inbox is always open!

Why I wrote it? I just can't stay quiet and watch people talking sh*t about him, okay? I think Ibara deserves much more love... It was just a mere attempt to show you that he's not what you're saying about him...

I cannot even describe how much I love him... He means a lot to me! But some of you already may know this because I won't stop talking about it, I think I have to really irritate you by talking about Ibara, haha... XD Sorry sorry! Still a bit afraid of saying my own opinions...

[rumbleonthemill]

Since one of your recent reblogs talked about neighbor x player, do you have any headcanons that you wanna share for the ship?

omg of course!

these boys' been living in my head for 5 years. let's see some

Neighbor sleeps naked. or just in small boxers. and magically, Player exactly knows this.

also, Neighbor isn't bashful at all and often walks around in the house naked, while the other is peeking from the opposite house. Player's a bit ashamed about his own body.

they aren't exactly sure at this point, if they're a thing or not, but there certainly is this "can't live without you" thing going on already, they're just both horrible at admitting their feelings. they're both introverted, Neighbor very much.

the two actually love watching horror together and they laugh at it. more than often, during a chase, one of them just suddenly asks if the other wants to watch a movie and they do it.

Player had the opportunity to examine the lunch desk from very close multiple times

Neighbor is a gardener. He is growing  all kinds of spiky plants, from cactus to roses. too. the roses on my latest render are from his garden. the finest roses. Player was sad,but only because he thought the roses could've stayed on the bush, alive and didn't need to be cut yet.

Player loves small gifts and little attention from his man

on the surface they seem to be fighting all day, but when Neighbor sets a serious tone, Player changes to his caring self.

Neighbor is horrible with modern technology. He cannot handle newer photomachines (Polaroid) and especially not computers. Player makes fun of it, but not for long, because Neighbor actually is sad about this. he can invent anything, but modern stuff?! he's unable to learn to use it.

both of them can lockpick

Neighbor can use both hands equally. he can write, draw and cook with both hands.

both are bad chefs, they often order chinese because they both love it

Neighbor is addicted to his car to the point it makes Player jealous 

Player is also jealous whenever he sees "the doll" and the older man has a great time whenever he notices this

sometimes they just watch the sunset from the Neighbor's balcony, hand in hand. and then they go on with their day as if it didn't happen 

Neighbor is very emotional deep down. he falls first. ((with Smith and Quentin,Smith falls first)) if Player didn't accept the roses, he'd have cried fr. 

they often find eye contact randomly, while peeking at each other with binoculars from their own houses 

Player loves cuddling to the big russian bear

oh and yes, Neighbor has russian ancestors. Player isn't totally american either, plus he loves accents and low toned men

Neighbor never allows his moustache to be touched, because of that, the younger man wants to be the first to touch it, so badly

Neighbor does break in to Player's house if he runs out of milk (usually at night). he pretends as if it was normal.

and the list goes on! you could ask anything and I'd have a hc for it.

[dearweirdme]

Hello Rain!

I discovered your acc a few weeks ago and I got so excited! Your replies are always respective, calm, and you remain supportive for the Tkk community through all the difficult times. Thank you for that!

I noticed Tae's and Jk's special bond almost immediately, I would say as soon as I fell in love with BTS, my baby army days. The only difference for me is that I never believed that they were in a committed relationship with eo. In my opinion they started having mutual non platonic feelings pretty early on and that escalated somewhere in 2016 when they might (?) became intimate at some level- I cannot debunk SMART uniform event no matter how hard I try!

I think whatever happened btw them remained a secret (not well kept). I am sure their bandmates became aware of it at some point but I don't feel there was ever anything "announced" or open. Their feelings were never truly fulfilled (as it would have happened in a committed long lasting relationship) and you can see it in the way they were touching and staring at eo all these years. Like they were testing themselves and exploring with their eyes and fingers one another every time. I am convinced Dispatch has some kind of proof on them and that also played a role on how things unfolded.

I feel like they were "the ones who got away". I don't know, it gives me "Brokeback Mountain" kinda feelings or maybe it's just me making my delulu love story for them. The way I see it, it was something forbidden and intense and stayed that way. An undercover push and pull, sometimes closer sometimes really distant. That's how I can explain the sadness, the weirdness, the things they said in their vlives. They don't give me "boyfriend" vibes, they give me "I have a sickening crush on you that I cannot even admit to myself" vibes. And that's how I can explain also the current situation. I think they do date (other people) and women. And that doesn't take away what they had. I truly believe Taekook is the one and only true ship in BTS, just not in the way most taekookers think.

Having said that, I also believe that Tae (I'm tae biased btw - I adore him) is very well aware of Tkkrs. I have a feeling he has deeply explored the community and all the theories. The guy is a genius and not to be underestimated! I don't think he "feeds us" occasionally to gain something out of it, but I do think he does some things in purpose because he is one of us and enjoys it... Does that make sense?

Let me know your thoughts! Lots of love!

Hi @munlee298 !

I’m glad you are enjoying my blog!

I have actually considered this possibility (real short), but I came to the conclusion that there’s too much pointing to things having become serious between them. I think the way BH started to change the way they used Tkk footage from a lot to almost nothing was because they knew Tae and Jk were actually together. I think it’s clear the other members know from how they react to them and it doesn’t look like it’s something they tiptoe around to me.

I see some sort of settled feeling between Tae and Jk. A trust that’s shown in both their physical and mental connections. When they look at each other there’s not only want, but also understanding and knowledge. They know how to move around each others and how their body’s fit and react too well for it not to be something they’re used to imo. I don’t see that desperate feeling of wanting someone but not having them, I see the ‘I know what you feel like and I wish I could be closer now’ kinda feeling.

I do think they’re both aware of Tkkrs, and I think the feelings they have towards us are probably very conflicting at times. Tkkrs push too far too often, I think Jk especially doesn’t like that. I think in a way the support and just the knowledge that people are accepting and see their bond must be really nice, but it also comes with a lot of difficulties. In general I don’t think they try to out their relationship or something, I think they do want to share at least how close they are and I do think Tae does some things on purpose (wearing that shirt during Bruno Mars for instance).

[innerpalaces]

THE PRINCESS WEI YANG - 164 PART 1

CHAPTER 164: Ten Thousand Vermin

It was late in the morning, and the Li Residence was still silent. Li Wei Yang slowly walked down to the dungeon. Zhao Yue said in a low voice: "Miss, General Sun has been interrogating them all night, and they refused to explain anything."

After all, General Sun was born for the battlefield, and he had countless fierce soldiers under his command, and his ways of torture were also extraordinary. The fact that these four people could endure his methods for so long should not be underestimated.

Zhao Yue glanced at Li Wei Yang's expression and said: "Miss, I think it's better to just kill them, why bother?"

"There is no clam shell in this world that cannot be pried open, and there is no mouth that can never speak. They are much more useful alive than as corpses." Li Wei Yang replied with a smile, and went down the steps. This is the second time she has come to the Li family's dungeon. The last time when she dealt with the Jiang brothers here, it can be said to have been a great success. But this time, she was not facing a general who became famous at a young age, but a group of murderers. No matter how vicious people like Jiang Hai are, they all want to save face. Once their ideological defenses are broken, they can be completely defeated psychologically. But these secret guards are a group of people with no self-esteem and no bottom line. No matter how you humiliate them, they won't be moved, so it's very difficult.

General Sun, whose real name is Sun Chongyao, was a famous and valiant general. Although he is over fifty years old, he is still strong and imposing due to his long military career, and his movements are majestic. But at this moment, his expression was extremely ugly. When he saw Li Wei Yang arriving at the dungeon, he couldn't help but said: "Princess, this is not the place you should be." Although his tone was serious, there was a hint of concern in his eyes. It was obvious that he felt a young girl like Li Wei Yang would be frightened if she saw the blood stains in the dungeon.

Li Wei Yang glanced at the four people hanging on the wall to one side, smiled slightly, and said: "Is there no progress yet, General Sun?"

After working hard for so long, General Sun caught these people. He originally wanted to torture them and kill them, but Li Wei Yang said that keeping them was still useful, so he patiently stayed with them for so long! He wanted to get some useful information from them. He had interrogated hundreds of spies in the army, but he had never met one who was so stubborn. After struggling all night, he didn't even managed to find out their names, but he had already used all the available punishments. Yet, these people not only didn't speak, they didn't even raise their eyes to look at him, causing him to use all his methods in vain, and he was so angry that he didn't know what to do.

"My men broke three whips. Unfortunately, no one would reveal a word. Name, age, identity, nothing." General Sun said honestly.

Although he was not as emotional as his wife about his daughter's death, he still suppressed huge grief in his heart. Sun Yanjun had been the apple of his eye since she was a child, with an innocent, lively, kind and selfless temperament. Because of this, he was really worried that she would suffer a loss outside, so before she got married, he had given her countless instructions to be cautious. Speak, don't do things you shouldn't do, and especially listen to your husband's instructions to avoid getting into trouble. Who would have thought that something like this would happen just after she got married? If he had known this earlier, he would have refused his daughter's request and married her directly to his lieutenant, keeping her safely under his eye for the rest of his life.

Li Wei Yang looked at General Sun's white streaked hair, feeling slightly sad in her heart, and said: "General Sun, I have my own way to deal with these people, please leave them to me."

General Sun was surprised and said: "Princess, aren't you afraid?"

Li Wei Yang's tone was very light: "I'm afraid, I'm afraid of blood, I'm afraid of screams, I'm even afraid of the dust and rats in the dungeon, but when I think of Yanjun's death, I'm not afraid of anything. So, please leave these people to me and let me do my part for her."

General Sun was stunned for a moment, then said: "Okay, I believe you."

Li Wei Yang smiled and said: "Then please go out and rest first. I have already ordered my servants to prepare the side room. When you have rested, my father said that he would like to treat you to tea."

General Sun nodded. When he arrived at the Li Residence, it was impossible for Li Xiaoran not to know since he made such a big ruckus. The most likely reason was that he felt guilty about Sun Yanjun's death, so he deliberately sold such a favor to himself, and even secretly cooperated with him. Since he was being so polite, he naturally had to pay a visit to the master of the house. Thinking about this, he said: "Then I will leave first. If you need anything, call me at any time."

After he left, the dungeon became quiet again.

Li Wei Yang turned around slowly at this time and carefully looked at the four bloody people hanging on the wall.

General Sun obviously hated them to the extreme. After one night, they were basically covered with whip marks. Li Wei Yang smiled and looked at the man with the scar on his face, and said: "I'm not interested in anything else. I just want to know who insulted Sun Yanjun."

None of the four people responded, and did not even raise their heads to look at Li Wei Yang, as if they didn't care about her existence.

Li Wei Yang sneered, as expected, they are all hard boned.

Standing next to them were the executioners specially left by General Sun. Seeing that they refused to answer Li Wei Yang's questions, they immediately whipped them hard. The four people groaned at the beginning, and finally their voices gradually became lower and silent, but they remained motionless and refused to speak.

Li Wei Yang looked at them calmly and said: "I have many ways to make you speak, but I don't like those cruel methods. I will ask you questions carefully now, and you will answer them properly. Wouldn't it be nice to die peacefully?"

Among the four, it was the scarred man who suddenly took the lead to raise his head. He slowly stared at Zhao Yue next to Li Wei Yang, and smiled silently.

Zhao Yue couldn't help but tremble, and she whispered: "Miss, I know him. His name is Jing Zhe, and he is a first-class secret guard."

"Oh, Jing Zhe. Look, once you are familiar with each other, don't we count as acquaintances?" Li Wei Yang smiled softly.

Jing Zhe sneered and said something in a low voice. Zhao Yue didn't hear it clearly. She frowned and leaned forward to listen again, but she heard Jing Zhe smile and say, "You're just a little bitch, you don't deserve to know my name."

Zhao Yue was furious and said: "Miss, this dog dares to scold you! Let this servant kill him!"

Li Wei Yang spoke unhurriedly. Looking at Jing Zhe's face, she slowly said: "The tongue is meant for talking, you scolding me is not wrong. The reason why I let you live is not because of my heart is soft, but because I want you to know that sometimes, living is more painful than dying. Believe it or not, it will soon be your turn to beg me, beg me to kill you."

Her tone was gentle and her expression was very peaceful. These four people saw it and treated her with great contempt. During their training, in order to test their loyalty and endurance, they had been subjected to all kinds of torture. How could they take Wei Yang's trivial tricks seriously?

Li Wei Yang ordered someone to prepare a chair and serve hot tea, obviously intending to keep watching. Seeing the disdainful looks on the four people's faces, Zhao Yue couldn't help but sneer in her heart. "You underestimate my young lady. You will know later what it means to be miserable."

Li Wei Yang ordered: "Get what I ordered."

Zhao Yue followed Li Wei Yang's instructions and fetched a jar of coarse salt. Then Li Wei Yang looked at the jar of salt in her hand and sighed: "Do you know, Sun Yanjun just got married and was dreaming of spending her life with the man she liked."

Then, she raised her hand and ordered people to rub salt on Jing Zhe's body. Immediately, Jing Zhe let out an earth-shattering scream as salt was sprinkled on his wound. It was even more brutal than the original whip attack. Jing Zhe's face immediately turned pale, his forehead was covered with cold sweat, and he almost fainted from the pain. However, the person next to him had already pierced the acupuncture point in his ear with a steel needle, and he was not allowed to pass out, so he could only bear this kind of torment. It felt as if ten thousand knives were cutting his flesh at the same time.

Li Wei Yang sighed and said in a low tone, "Not only that, she was also pregnant and happily told me that she will be a mother soon."

Jing Zhe was still screaming loudly, and Li Wei Yang laughed softly: "She is not your enemy, she is just an unarmed woman, and she is also pregnant. I really want to know, when you take action, don't you have a moment of pity?"

Jing Zhe spit out a mouthful of blood. Although the pain on his body was unbearable, he still sneered. But the other three people looking at him had frightened expressions on their faces. Because at this time, the executioner followed Li Wei Yang's instructions and actually took another jar, scooped out honey from it and applied it on Jing Zhe's body. The closer to the wound, the more he applied, and the yellow crystals condensed on Jing Zhe's skin. His whole body was mixed with the smell of blood, sweat, and sweetness, which was so unimaginable strange.

Jing Zhe and others had no idea what Li Wei Yang wants to do. Applying salt will naturally make people go crazy with pain. What's the use of honey? Is it to sweeten him to death? Jing Zhe suppressed the severe pain and laughed loudly: "Are you at the end of your game? You'd better run away as far as you can and stop putting on an act in front of me."

Li Wei Yang lowered her head, smiled, and said: "I was sitting too close, and I could smell the sweetness."

They didn't know what she was talking about. At this moment, the executioner came over again, carrying an iron bucket in his hand. Jing Zhe and others didn't take it seriously at first, but when they saw clearly what was in the iron bucket, their expressions changed.

"I heard that ants, reptiles, and mice like the taste of honey the most, and I also added molasses to the honey. The taste must be great." Li Wei Yang said quietly, with a somewhat innocent look on her face. It seemed like she was seriously discussing whether the animals in this tin can really enjoy these flavors.

Before Jing Zhe could react, the executioner had already emptied the iron jar over his head. In an instant, ants, reptiles, and rats were crawling all over his body.

"Ah-ah-ah-" Jing Zhe's scream made everyone stunned. Especially the other three people who had been indifferent to the torture. They looked in horror at the dense ants on Jing Zhe's body, the black reptiles the size of thumb caps, and even three gray mice biting his wounds. Jing Zhe was covered in wounds, the skin and flesh were split open, and the pain of being bitten by insects was worse than being sliced with a knife.

Li Wei Yang's voice was very calm: "They've been starving for a whole night. The insects eat the gallbladder grass that grows in the mountains. Their saliva itself is venom, which will make the wounds all over your body extremely painful and swollen. As for the ants...I guess I don't need to tell you, are they very itchy ?"

In a matter of moments, Jing Zhe's body began to swell and fester, and even his eyelids were covered with ants. The pain from his wounds was doubled and it was unbearable to the bone, making him truly understand what it meant to live worst than dying, and he fought hard. He screamed for his life. At this moment, the ants smelled the scent of honey mixed with blood, and crawled darkly into his eyes, nose, and ears, making his whole body tremble violently.

Jing Zhe let out a shrill scream, as if he had fallen into the deepest pit of hell.

These secret guards now know that Li Wei Yang's punishment are more cruel than any torture they have ever experienced, and this kind of unbearable method will make people completely crazy. Half an hour later, the skin all over Jing Zhe's body had festered, and ants had burrowed into his internal organs. He could no longer say a single word.

Li Wei Yang smiled slightly, looked at the three people next to him, and said: "In another hour, his skin and flesh will be eaten up by ants. Do you also want to give it a try? It's really interesting!" The sweetness in the voice was laced with malice and it made the other three people tremble in their bones. Suddenly, Jing Zhe's screams stopped, as if his tongue and vocal cords had been bitten off by ants...

The person beside him no longer dared to resist, and was the first to speak, saying: "The person who raped Sun Yanjun at that time was Jing Zhe, he was the only one! I didn't do it! I really didn't!"

The other person was also afraid of falling behind: "Yes, it's all Jing Zhe! The one Princess Anguo trusts the most is him!"

Li Wei Yang looked at the other silent person. If she remembered correctly, Princess Anguo called him Hui Nu last time and said, "Oh, is that how it is?"

At this time, Jing Zhe's entire body had been overwhelmed by the terrifying ants and reptiles. There were no screams or breathing sounds, only the sound of animals squeaking and sucking flesh. Only Hui Nu's face flickered, and he finally said: "I...I don't know..."

Li Wei Yang's smile deepened, and she ordered the executioner to bring the remaining ants in the iron bucket closer to Hui Nu: "You know, I never like people who lie. I will be more cruel to those who lie than those who don't speak."

Before the thing came close, Hui Nu screamed and said: "The one who ruptured her heart was Jing Zhe, the one who raped her was the two of them, the one who cut her stomach was Princess Anguo... I, I am responsible for leaving her in that alley——"

Oh, I see. Li Wei Yang turned to look at the other two people: "So, you are both lying? You really disappoint me." She waved her hand and said, "Throw them inside the bull pen until they die." It's was said very casually, but the implication is very bloody and terrifying. Everyone knows that once bulls go beserk, they don't distinguish between male and female, and they will even end up with their stomachs ripped open or trampled by the hooves of the bull. The two people became more and more terrified, struggling with all their might, but Li Wei Yang ordered someone to cut the tendons in their hands and feet, and had them dragged out.

Hui Nu looked at Li Wei Yang in fear. He had never encountered such a terrifying woman. Princess Anguo liked to torture people, but she didn't have such a terrifying method. He really didn't know how she came up with it! It's so strange and cruel!

Li Wei Yang sighed and said: "Are you curious how I came up with such a strange method? It's not unusual. There are many ways to torture people in the places I have stayed, yet I have survived them all. But you couldn't survive it, which shows how incompetent the so-called secret guards are."

Zhao Yue heard this and looked at Li Wei Yang strangely, not knowing what she was talking about. In fact, life in the cold palace is not limited to the punishment of the imperial family. Those perverted and twisted eunuchs can think of all kinds of method. The only difference was that they would show mercy and not cause any deaths, but this way, the torture would be doubled.

"Hui Nu, do you know why I left you alone?" Li Wei Yang asked.

Hui Nu didn't dare to look at the person next to him who had been eaten by ants and was now only a skeleton wrapped in skin. He tried hard to focus his eyes on Li Wei Yang's delicate face, but the effect was too weak. He couldn't speak at all. Li Wei Yang waved her hand, and the people next to her immediately disposed of Jing Zhe's body. She said calmly: "Speak now, and remember to be honest."

After seeing the terrible fate of the three people just now, who would dare to be dishonest? Hui Nu nodded in fear. The executioners on the side had their heads lowered and did not dare to look at Li Wei Yang. However, Zhao Yue was very satisfied. There was countless blood on the hands of these secret guards. They did not just perform tasks, killing has become their habit. In their spare time, they even compare who has killed more people. Many of their victims are innocent, old, weak, women and children. Such people deserve to die.

Hui Nu said: "I don't know why you left me alone, but no matter what you ask me to do, I will do it. I just want you to give me a quick death."

Li Wei Yang smiled and said: "As long as you take this medicine, I will let you know what you should do."

Hui Nu took one look at the red pill that Zhao Yue brought to his lips, raised his neck and swallowed it.

Li Wei Yang's voice was extremely gentle: "If you are so obedient, I will naturally not kill you. There are still many places where you can be used. However, after taking this pill, you must take the antidote every ten days. Otherwise, I'm afraid your pain will be a hundred times worse than that of Jing Zhe."

Hui Nu lowered his head, gritted his teeth and said, "Hui Nu has met his master."

Li Wei Yang disdained the use of such a cruel method to convince the secret guards, but they killed Sun Yanjun and used such brutal means. There was no humanity at all from the beginning to the end. To deal with such people, being soft-hearted will only encourage their arrogance. In the final analysis, these murderous killers are despicable at heart. If you say it nicely and bribe them with money, they will still look down on you. Only if you let them realize that you are more cruel and ruthless than them will they bow to you. Only a strong person can make others fear and admire him. Of course, this method varies from person to person and is not suitable for everyone.

[funkymbtifiction]

Why do I keep on obsessing over the past? Idk if this is an Si grip but somehow I can’t get my mind past an issue. Like it just keeps on circling my head. I can’t stop thinking about how my friend had wronged me. I know I could do stuff like don’t think of her, ignore her, etc. but my mind won’t let me rest. Like cuz she said something which hurt me, and then I ended up doubting myself and bouncing back between being her friend and not being her friend, and now I feel like it’s my fault. Cuz I mean it seems like the rest of my friends don’t really care too much that it hurt me. Some understand the meaning behind the word, but don’t care that they are still friends with her, but like idk I can’t really be friends with someone like that. But idk what to do cuz I’m feeling like it’s my fault and all of my friends are friends with her. I’d say this is an Si grip, but I still use Ne when it comes to connecting ideas, coming up with ideas, etc. but I don’t think I use Te or Fe as a dominant function and there’s no way I’m an introvert. Cuz I’m normally the type to not think of the past, but my mind can’t stop bothering about this issue. It doesn’t help how I see her daily since we share a club and I see her in the mornings. Like I think I’d move one and then I see her and I’m back to square one. I feel like I’ve been more withdrawn lately and more low energy, not interacting as much as I used to, but I still also display Ne behaviors, as least more through my mind and with my speech.

There are several ways to interpret what you wrote.

One is that because you (I assume) have not addressed the issue directly with her ("You hurt my feelings when you said this..."), that you are stuck in limbo and cannot move forward, because you still have to see her all the time, without having healed from your pain. Being hurt emotionally, especially if you are unable to address the problem directly and find closure, takes a long time to "fix." Emotional hangups are also very serious and complex things. Sometimes, we are not just insulted by what someone said to us, but feeling grief that they aren't the person we thought they were, or that they don't fit the ideal we built up in our head. Are you allowing yourself time to grieve for this relationship or do you feel like you should hurry up and move past it for some reason?

If the latter, why are you in such a hurry to stop thinking about her? Because it's painful? Because you are going to have to face some things you didn't want to? Because it might mean you have to go to her directly and talk about it?

I know for me, being a 6w7, I don't want to feel things. I don't want to dwell on sad things. So when I can't move past someone (and I have spent two years trying to detach from someone and stop thinking about them), it's often because I am refusing to deal with and face up to and "own" my part in the problem. I am refusing to stop beating myself up and just allow myself to feel a certain way ("I don't want this friendship anymore" isn't good enough for a 6, who wants solid REASONS and LOGIC for everything). I am also not wanting to sit and deal with the pain of realizing this person isn't who I thought they were, and we aren't going to have the future together that I had in my mind -- in short, I have been idealizing them with 7 and now have to unpick all the delusional thinking that went into me staying friends with them past the relationship's expiration date. Once I realized why I kept thinking about her, it helped me. I started thinking about her less. Moving on more. Instead of getting mad about her popping into my mind, I could think "yeah, old friends come to mind sometimes, but that's normal."

The thing is, you won't be able to move past this until you deal with it. And to deal with it, you have to figure out why you keep thinking about it and refusing to let it go. And then you have to decide what action you need to take, to deal with it. Do you need to stop being afraid of conflict and tell the person to their face that they hurt you? Do you need to talk about what happened with someone you trust? Could the act of talking about it, and getting your feelings "out" help you realize you don't need to hold onto that feeling anymore? If you had the chance to talk to her about it, would you take it? If she asked to be friends again, would you want that? It sounds like the answer is no, so you are choosing to keep thinking about her. No one chooses to do anything that doesn't gratify them on some level, so why are you hanging onto this? Is it because it's enjoyable for you to feel angry or upset? Are you using thinking about it as a way to avoid the risk of opening yourself up to finding new relationships?

What could you DO to make this go away? Quit the club? Move on to a new hobby or interest? Forgive her? And choose to forgive her each time you see her, for as long as it takes, until you feel "nothing" when you see her? That's harder than quitting a club.

What do you want to do? Why do you think this is happening? What are you not facing in this situation? And how can you move past it?

Above all, I would dial back the self-recrimination and blame, and start allowing your feelings to have weight. You are allowed to feel upset. You are allowed to not like her anymore. You are allowed to have hurt feelings. You are allowed to wish your friends weren't friends with her (but they are allowed to make their own choices). You are allowed to grieve for a friendship. You are allowed to not get over it immediately. But if it's genuinely bothering you, do something about it. This isn't just a Si grip, it's an emotional experience, so treat yourself gently, like you would a loved one who was struggling with this. I promise you, one day you will wake up and not care anymore -- not in an apathetic way, but in a healed way. But healing takes time.

[1d1195]

I'm glad your weekend wasn’t horrible! Though please take some time to recharge! While nothing too bad may have happened, it can still be a lot of being around people! Cleaning is oddly relaxing for me too lol. What are you most excited to cook on your list of recipes?

I used to LOVE project runway when i was younger! Tbh I think I just loved any show that involved creating something like baking,cooking, and even home renovation stuff lol But ngl reality tv shows about dating/love stuff  is something that I can’t get into lol But I can see how you are more drawn towards scripted stuff though and I get it!

Kids are crazy! Sometimes it is wild how they cannot simply be kind or even understanding of others. I didn’t personally suffer from bullying but that doesn’t mean literally interacting with kids my age was easy. Anyways I'm sure giving them reminders is helping even if they may not appreciate it at the moment! Though I get that it can be so annoying because you're kind and it comes naturally to you!

That’s so sweet! And you’re so right about nicknames! Though I am never bold enough to give someone a nickname or use one unless they tell me too lol and yeah I dislike the brand for more reasons other than that obviously but my inner child loves holding grudge lol 

I LOVE when people give context or just share details lol im the same way too! Once I get on a topic I feel strongly for and/or once I'm comfortable with someone I YAP AWAY! But lowkey I miss silly little filler chapters in general! They remind me a lot of my early wattpad days when I was 12 HAHA But yes I do agree filler episodes are so underappreciated now! Especially how most shows don’t even go beyond 10 episodes per season now which I find kind of sad! 

Both of my classes meet twice a week, but both are 3 hours long :( And they both are live zoom sessions so that means that there is no recording happening. Which I totally get but 3 hours is alot 😭But you're right it is so much info 😭 Yeah lowkey my therapist said it wasn’t a good idea to do two summer sessions back to back but I need to graduate on time lol Also how is teaching summer classes goin? Are you almost done?

ALSO I CAN’T BELIEVE IT”S BEEN A YEAR SINCE PROTECTION😭

Hope you can get some rest and have a very calm rest of the week! You don’t have to thank me! Seriously talking to you is never a bother and I enjoy it so much! THANK YOU for constantly giving such thoughtful responses to not only me but everyone you interact with💗Wishing you to have the BEST week bestie!! Love you lots!-💜

My dumb son invited his friend over to stay with us for a couple days so now I'm hiding in my room. I have to pretend to be social and shit and it's the worst. I've barely recovered from my fam. I just want to be quiet and alone by myself 😭😭 No but tbh it's fine. I'm just dramatic. Cleaning was REALLY good actually. I've been trying to do some much needed stuff (like washing walls and baseboards. Very adult stuff lol) Maybe I'll do some more organizing and shit while his friend is here so I can hide and whatnot.

I made this ravioli dish that was really good. It was sort of alfredo-y and had spinach and sundried tomatoes. Honestly? I'm most excited to make these roasted veggies lol. Potatoes, carrots, zucchini hehehe

I liked the first few seasons of project runway but the premise got away from me (and the writers I think). I wish I got more into cooking shows. I do have a serious soft spot for Cake Boss tho 😂

I have this one student who said to me "she never gives up on me" and it honestly kind of melted my heart. She's a TOUGH kid. Like I'm lowkey afraid of her 😭😭 I'm glad she likes me because she's kinda cuckoo 🤣🤣 She has these massive angry blowups, not necessarily her fault because of mental health and undiagnosed ADHD but she doesn't always make the best decisions either. For some reason she listens to me. So I keep trying to help her even though she makes me INSANE. But the point of that was she's a mean girl tbh she struggles to stay out of drama (sometimes not her fault, but many times it is) anyway. She's a lot, can't wait for her to graduate.

An inner child grudge is like no other. I love it tbh. I have a grudge. My mom told me at like age 6 we hate Bank of America and I refuse to set foot in there lol so I totally get disliking the brand.

I can't say I'm surprised, we do send each other lengthy messages 😭 it would be a TIME if we met in person hahahahahaha we wouldn't stop talking for ages. It's CRAZY how there are no filler episodes and the seasons are SO short. So so so crazy.

OMG T W E L V E HOURS of zoom a week. That's so so long. I hope they give breaks. Honestly, this is going to sound super weird, but I think it's pretty cool that you didn't listen to your therapist about this. It's fairly low-stake and it's a lot but you have really good intentions of getting your classes done on time so you can be DONE and graduate. One of the things I'm worried about starting therapy is that I'll want to do it perfectly and I'll want my therapist to think I'm the best lol (can you tell I need it?) so I feel like I would be obligated to do EVERYTHING she tells me to (I want a she because I hate men most of the time lol) and I would overwhelm myself with that if that makes sense. So it's refreshing to know you don't have to listen to her; at least in this instant. Hopefully that all makes sense

One more week of summer school. They're going well. I'm worried some kids aren't going to pass. We offer some classes online and I'm concerned they aren't going to finish/pass. Which is so irritating. Because like, why show up for a month if you're not going to pass? I know there's deeper issues and more to it, but still. We make it PRETTY easy to pass...

I KNOW A WHOLE YEAR. IT'S LIKE OUR ANNIVERSARY TOO 😭😭💕

Hope your week gets easier too LOVE YOU

xoxo

[sensationzmedia]

Increasing depression symptoms, causes and treatment

Depression is a mood disorder that causes persistent sadness and loss of interest. Also known as major depressive disorder or clinical depression, it affects feelings, thoughts and behavior and can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems. You may feel worthless.Not just depression, depression is not a weakness, you simply cannot "break" it. Depression may require long-term treatment. But don't be discouraged. Most people with depression feel better with medication, psychotherapy, or both.

What is depression

Depression occurs only once in a lifetime, but people usually have multiple episodes. During these episodes, symptoms he occurs most of the day, almost every day, and may include symptoms such as: , hobbies, or exercise, sleep disturbances, including insomnia or excessive sleep, Fatigue and lack of energy requiring extra effort to perform even small tasks. Decreased appetite and weight loss or increased appetite and weight gain, anxiety, agitation or restlessness, Slowed thinking, speech, or bodily movements, feelings of worthlessness or guilt, fixation on past failures, or self-blame, difficulty in thinking, concentrating, making decisions, and remembering Suicide attempt or suicide. Causes Physical problems such as unexplained back pain or headaches.

In depression, symptoms usually cause noticeable problems with daily activities such as work, school, social activities, or relationships with others as serious as Some people generally feel miserable and unhappy without knowing why.

Symptoms of Depression in Children and Adolescents

Common signs and symptoms of depression in children and adolescents are similar to those in adults, but there may be some differences.

Symptoms of depression in young children include sadness, irritability, obsession, worry, pain, school refusal and weight loss.

Adolescent symptoms include sadness, irritability, negative and worthless feelings, anger, poor grades and school attendance, misunderstandings and extreme irritability, recreational drug and alcohol use, These include overeating and sleeping, self-harm, and loss of interest in everyday life. Activity and avoidance of social interaction.

Symptoms of Depression in Older Adults

Depression is not a normal part of aging and should not be taken lightly. Unfortunately, depression in older people is often undiagnosed and untreated, and they may be reluctant to seek help.

Symptoms of depression are different in older people or less noticeable with medications

Wanting to stay home often rather than socializing or doing new things

Suicidal thoughts and feelings, especially in older men

When to see a doctor

If you are feeling depressed, see your doctor or mental health professional as soon as possible. If you hesitate to seek treatment, talk to a friend, family member, health care professional, religious leader, or someone you trust.

Causes

The exact cause of depression is not known. As with many mental disorders, a variety of factors may be involved, including Biological difference. Depressed people seem to have physical changes in their brains. The significance of these changes is still unknown, but they may ultimately help identify the cause.Brain Chemistry. Neurotransmitters are naturally occurring brain chemicals that may play a role in depression. Recent research suggests that alterations in the function and effects of these neurotransmitters, and their interaction with neural circuits that maintain mood stability, may play an important role in depression and its treatment.Changes in the body's hormonal balance may play a role in causing or triggering depression. Hormonal changes can occur during pregnancy and in the weeks or months after childbirth (postpartum). Yes, it can be caused by thyroid problems, menopause, or many other conditions. Depression is more common in people who also have relatives with the condition. Researchers are trying to find genes that may cause depression

Yogasans for depression

1. Easy Pose (Sukhasana) 2. Downward Facing Dog Pose (Adho Mukha Svanasana) 3. Upward-Facing Dog Pose (Ūrdhva Mukha Svānāsana) 4. Shoulderstand (Salamba Sarvangasana)

1. Easy Pose (Sukhasan)

Here’s how to do easy pose:

1. Sit on the floor or a yoga mat with your legs crossed. 2. Align your torso with your hips, making your spine straight and firm. 3. Lengthen your tailbone. 4. Move your shoulders back and down. 5. Rest your arms on your knees. 6.Close your eyes and take deep, relaxed breaths. 7.Focus your attention on your heart. 8.Remain here for as long as you’d like

2. Downward Facing Dog Pose (Adho Mukha Svanasana)

To do downward-facing dog pose, follow these steps:

Come to all four on your hands and knees with a flat back.

Lift your hips up by pushing against the ground with your toes.

Straighten your legs and arms.

Push against the ground with your hands to all your hips to rise up.

Your body should come to an inverted v-shape.

If you feel tightness in your legs, it’s OK to bend your knees.

After taking a few breaths here, gently release the pose.

3. To do upward facing dog pose:

Lie flat on your stomach on your yoga mat.

Keep the balls of your feet facing upward, with your toes pointing down.

Place your palms facing down on the mat near your shoulder blades.

Push into your palms to elevate your upper body, smoothly curving the spine.

Lift your chest and head while keeping your shoulders back.

Lengthen your body from head to toe.

Take a few deep breaths here before gently releasing the posture.

4. Shoulderstand (Salamba Sarvangasana)

1. Bend your knees, raising your legs towards your chest. 2. Press your hands into the floor to raise your bent legs over your head. 3. Move your hands onto your back to support yourself as you move your hips  farther towards your head, straighten your legs as you do so. 4. Keep pressing your palms into your back; feel your body long and straight. 5. Take several relaxing breaths here before gently releasing the pose.

[apompkwrites]

reader impact || first meeting: archon edition

series masterlist characters: venti, zhongli genre: fluff summary: a game has been released entitled genshin impact, consisting of otherworldly abilities relying on the basic elements of nature. the game follows the story of an interdimensional traveling twin in search of their other half. along this journey, they meet different characters that live in this world. including you. notes: i still don't know if this will be a series but last post would've been too long if i had all four in one

venti's playthrough -

hoo boy, venti's streams would be VERY chaotic.

this boy has nothing to tie him down except for his own mortality, but will that stop him? no.

lots of late night or early morning streams because his sleep schedule is practically nonexistent.

he does a lot of singing or storytelling streams, which is why the time is perfect.

he'll sing lullabies and read bedtime stories at night. in the morning, he'll sing soft songs to wake up his viewers and talk about the rare dreams he'd have once he passes out.

he'll also have drinking streams where he just drinks as much as he can. he's a drunkard, what can i say?

anyway, gaming is something he isn't opposed to, but mainly ones with music or just pure crackhead energy.

when his viewers suggest genshin impact, he'd be somewhat hesitant?

he needs games that are chaotic and filled with energy to keep his attention.

his mods and viewers, however, are able to convince him because of a certain drunken character.

as soon as he sees the non-spoiled description of your character, he's off to download.

he actually enjoys a lot of the adventure aspects of the game, even if he's known as a lazy streamer.

anyway, his viewers definitely should have warned him about your appearance.

they never told him you were such a cute character!

"don't be afraid. it's alright now, i'm back."

"HASGDGSJFK"

he shrieked when you started talking.

"HOW ARE THEY SO CUTE?!?!"

he gets sad when his character sets off dvalin...

you disappear and your dragon friend flies off... now venti's just sad he might've made you upset.

he's pouting the whole way through mondstadt, thinking of ways to make it up to you.

he doesn't care if you're a video game character, he loves you nonetheless.

and once dvalin shows up in mondstadt, he's genuinely excited. he knows your bound to appear again because your friend is here.

when you help venti fly behind dvalin, his chat is teasing him because of the grin on his face.

he's so soft for you, man...

he will spend hours just ranting about you when he's going through the domains with the standard characters.

when he finds the other statues in mondstadt, he likes to climb up it to admire your archon design.

even though he's known you for a few minutes, he will automatically recognize your face in the game.

he knows it's annoying but he can't help but ask his chat if he'll get to see you again soon. he really doesn't want to spend hours without hearing you and seeing you in game.

he likes to yell at paimon whenever she makes fun of you

he shrieks again when he sees you running past the fountain.

he almost cries when he sees you playing your lyre for the first time.

you're perfect in his eyes and all he wants is to spend every minute of this game with you.

although, he did have to take a break the first time he saw your archon form illustrated.

you just... look like an angel and his body can't handle that.

he loves listening to your tales. like the battle pass story that occurs every time it renews, he never skips it. soon, he'll memorize it and recite it with you once it appears.

"oh! i remember you two. you both scared dvalin away!"

"I'M SORRY"

please forgive him. he knows you won't because the game doesn't require it, but he decides to always call stormterror dvalin to make up for it.

"ah, right! i haven't introduced myself... i'm (name) the bard!"

please this boy is so smitten for a video game character.

when you're revealed to be the archon, he's not too surprised? i mean, he already recognized you from the statue.

he is so excited to steal the lyre for you.

it takes him a bit, though, just because he has a bad attention span and ends up revealing his location.

he's even more excited to learn you're a regular at diluc's tavern.

he would do anything to drink with you.

he'll reluctantly end the game there just because it's time for his bedtime songs/stories.

"i'll be back tomorrow, (name), my love! i promise!"

zhongli's playthrough -

zhongli's a really good streamer even when he doesn't try to be.

he is basically the king of just chatting streams.

daily tea times and storytime streams are a go!

his voice is what lures them in and his charm is what traps them there.

he's still poor, though...

he relies on the donations from his viewers but he always expresses his gratitude.

man's respectful, what can i say?

anyway, he does play games every now and then. he doesn't tend to enjoy fighting games though.

although, he's rather good at them... for some reason.

his gaming streams tend to be a lot longer because he picks games with an overarching story.

i'm talking long games like night in the woods, detroit: become human, really any long game with deep meanings and stories.

his viewers will pay for him to just sit there and read to them.

anyway, someone donates to him and recommends he play genshin impact because of the long story and hidden lore.

he definitely enjoyed the beginning of the story, but got even more attached once he reached liyue.

he seems very intrigued when he begins the quest by watching liyue's archon fall dead on the ground.

he would definitely go on a long rant about gods and goddesses that have fallen.

when he meets childe, he does take a liking to him.

now, this man is known for being stoic and serious, so it comes as a surprise when he almost loses his composure when you appear.

keyword being almost.

he manages to stay composed but his chat knows for a fact he's freaking out over you.

your fancy suit/dress reminds him of the anthropological tales of gods/goddesses and kings/queens.

let this man drink tea with you please--

"it is an honor to meet you. i have heard tell of you from mondstadt."

"... they have quite the pleasant voice."

his chat is going wild at this point.

they get to listen to two heavenly voices talk to each other at the same time?! it's a dream come true!

another man that will let your long lines of dialogue play, listening intently to the stories you tell his character.

he actually really likes the image of his character talking to you.

he's so short compared to you--

he also really likes your animation when you're standing still.

not your idle animations, even though those are really nice as well. i'm talking about the movement of your clothes when your character is standing there. it's just so... soothing to him.

the gradient of your hair color to your elemental gnosis is also a nice detail to him. he likes how there are subtle ways archons look compared to normal citizens in teyvat.

when he finds out you are also a person who struggles with money... oh boy, this man cannot relate more.

you both can be broke together.

he will look to his chat for help every time a bargaining option occurs.

similar to venti, he'd be able to tell you were an archon automatically, mainly because of the way you carry yourself and your design.

when you give away your gnosis, he was really interested in the fact that you were so dedicated to your title of the archon of contracts that you would just willingly give your gnosis away.

when he meets the adepti, his chat jokingly says that the yaksha is yours and his adopted child.

"... i would not be opposed to that idea."

all of the artists and writers in his chat are dying at this point.

he'd look up all of the lore, especially ones involving you, and use them for his storytime streams.

[bored-storyteller]

Hello! I remember you said you could write for Sally Face even though it's not on your list (if I dreamed of it, excuse me 🙏), since you still look like you're in the fandom... How about the #4 of the prompt list with Sally Face? If you do not write for him I apologize 😭

Hello dear Anon! Yes, Sally Face maybe is the video game I'm most fond of, I can write for him, I just don't always feel like making the requests that come to me about this game. But don't worry! Asking is always fine! Thanks for the request!

P.s. This is more fluff than angst I think, I apologize, is that there is already a lot of angst for him

73- Sally Face, Sal Fisher x Reader

From the prompt list

4- “Do you know what it’s like?”

Gizmo's purr lazily fills the silence in the room, the big cat is taking his ration of free pampering perched in your boyfriend's lap.

His fingers glide absently on the white and tawny fur of the half-asleep feline, while behind his mask you catch nothing but an absent gaze directed at the void between his knees.

By now that beautiful sky-colored eye of his communicates with you without the need for words, and you see how much it seems dull and lost, so much so that it appears almost glass like the one on the right.

Sal is always so sweet and so strong. He has so much weight on his shoulders, yet you always see him accepting everyone else's too. He never complains, he doesn't fidget, and he doesn't scream, not even when he gets angry, and if he does he apologizes as if he's at fault.

You love him, you really love him. You feel it in your guts, especially now, that he is like this.

You don't really know what's troubling him, yet you see how sad he is. His shoulders are bent slightly forward, and his blue hair slips free, covering even more of his usual mask.

Even though you know you are free with him, you are terribly afraid of hurting him. You're afraid of saying something too much, something he doesn't deserve.

As you leave the book you were reading by your side, you try to remember when Sal began to wither.

You noticed it after the last outing you did with the others, but you have no idea if those thoughts that seem to be spinning in his head were already floating around before, and you curse yourself for being so inattentive towards him.

"Give me space Gizmo" you mutter with a playful pout, picking up the lazy cat to move it a little further "I want the cuddles too."

Sal just cooes as his hands remain motionless, letting you nestle your head in his lap.

Once you are comfortable in your new nest, his fingers gently touch your forehead, while you are busy trying to come to terms with the big cat who insists on trying to stay on his master's lap too, at the cost to sit on your face.

“Come on Gizmo. Let me be a little jealous every now and then. " You snort, pushing the royal furry butt away from your nose.

"Are you jealous?" Sal's question is surmounted by the meow of the fake tiger who decides to snuggle in the hollow between your shoulder and your neck.

Your eyes roll up into his gaze and for a moment you don't know how to read that question. You feel him terribly serious, and in a way, you don't know where he is going.

"Yes ... I'm jealous of you ... that is ... is it normal I think?" You know that sincerity is always the best choice with him, but you still bite your tongue, wondering if you are giving the wrong idea.

His caresses have stopped while he silently looks at you, and you don't know what he's thinking, you don't know if you've unknowingly touched a nerve or if you just added a new thought to him.

"Why?" His question comes out as a surrendered sigh "You have no reason ... I say ... it is you who can make others love you, not me."

His words take your breath away for a moment.

"What are you saying…?" You murmur, as you raise a hand to touch his turquoise locks "you know how to make yourself loved even by those who don't even know how to love ..." you whisper softly, yet you don't seem to convince him.

His sigh becomes more impressive in the rumble of his mask, and you look at him patiently, while his hands undo the hooks that block it to his face.

Few people know what lies behind that prosthesis, and it hardly ever happens that he leaves himself so spontaneously in the sight of others. It's because it's you, you know, and it flatters you, yet something so immediate still surprises you.

You believe that his face is something magical, because no matter how grotesque it is, how almost you could say that there is no face, but you love it, you loved it from the first moment you saw it. Maybe because you were already in love with him.

"You were beautiful that night." His words still confuse you, and you force yourself to accept the idea of having entered a minefield. So you were right, was it your last outing that upset him?

"Sal ..." you get up, and now even Gizmo has realized he has to leave space for you, moving to the next pillow.

He doesn't look at you, his eyes are closed, but he continues to keep himself completely exposed to you.

"I really mean it. You are always beautiful to me, but that night ... that night you felt beautiful too, didn't you? You were, you really were, and ... "his shoulders give way a little further forward, as if he were about to collapse under an invisible weight. "And if you hadn't been with me, someone would have come to you. Maybe he would have offered you a drink and then ... "

Your lips part for a few seconds, looking for something to say, but you really don't know what ground you're walking on.

"I'm not really beautiful Sal, I'm just-"

"A normal person. What else do you want?" His abrupt interruption silences you.

In a moment his eye is on you again, alarmed: “Sorry. I'm so sorry. Forgive me, I didn't mean to be bad. "He whispers softly.

Sal Fisher, always so attentive to others even in his moments of despair.

"Only that ... you ... do you know what it’s like? To be like that…"

His voice just trembles, and you forget to breathe. You would like to remove all doubts and insecurities from him, but you cannot do it.

"No ... no Sal, I don't know ..."

"That's okay ..." he murmurs, trying to console the guilt of your tone "I don't know what it is like to be you either, but ... it can't be so pleasant to kiss bare teeth ... right? It must not be pleasant to feel this dead flesh against your skin, and it must not be pleasant to wake up in the middle of the night from a nightmare and find this monster a few inches from your face ... I just think ... I just think you should know that you can certainly find someone else ... someone else other than me. "

You have always admired him, also for all the strength he has to live with that weight - one of many - that he carries with him. Perhaps subconsciously he has always found a way to make his flaws simply characteristics, his style. With or without his ponytails, Sal was always recognizable and, in a sense, charismatic.

But you know that even if he is so strong, so resilient, the weight does not disappear.

"Sally Face ..." you murmur softly, as you move your legs to be able to sit astride his lap.

"You know ... I've always looked for many things from life." Your fingers casually play with his tufts of hair "And I swear to you I never thought I'd find what's really essential to me right here."

Your palms rest gently on his rib cage as his slowly brush your hips.

"You might find someone different from me too, Sally Face, but I don't want you to, please." You just smile "Also because ... after a nightmare you are the first thing I look for, and when I find you ..." leaning forward you are greeted by the loving arms of your boyfriend, while you take refuge in his chest, snuggling up to his heart "I do this, and I stay listening to you until I fall asleep again. When you sleep peacefully you never notice, but you always welcome me. "

Curled up there on his chest like now, you have no idea what's in Sal's eyes. All you see are a few blue locks of him falling over your cheeks, while he lets you relax under his chin.

His silence leaves you on alert, and even if you don't move, you look for any clues that might tell you something about his emotions.

A slight tremor in his chest and a restrained sob from him make your heart tremble, but his slowly calming beat just makes you snuggle closer to his body.

"I-" he starts off lightly, but then stops immediately, and when he resumes, you're sure he's changed the subject, but it doesn't matter anymore. "Am I such a heavy sleeper?" He asks, with a shivering chuckle amid the slight gasps of silent tears.

You laugh lightly as you lift yourself up to look at him. In your hands, his cheeks are rough and wet, but even as tears flow from his eyes, he doesn't look agitated or hurt.

"Well, you recover the sleep that all your nightmares take away from you."

Your fingers slide gently under his eyelids to collect his tears. You don't ask him why he cries; you know that in his chest he has a reservoir where he keeps all his emotions and, every now and then, they pretend to come out.

"Wake me up next time you have a nightmare, you're always there when I have mine."

You smile softly as you rest your forehead against him. You wouldn't change him for the world.

"For once, let me take care of you Sal."

His sigh hits your nose as he snuggles a little more against you. Calmly it seems that he can channel his emotions into a single torrent.

"Take care of me?" He murmurs against your lips “How about picking up the phone and ordering a pizza for the two of us? It would make me very, very happy. "

Your cheerful laugh fills the room, while your lips touch what remains of his: "And the ice cream?"

"And the ice cream." He confirms as he accepts your sweet kiss.

There seems to be a long night of pampering with Sal and Gizmo ahead of you, what more could you ask for?

You gently kiss his cheek one last time, before getting up in search of the device to order your dinner.

"Hey ..." before you're too far away, your hand is lovingly held by Sal's "I don't want anyone else next to me."

Your eyes dive into him for a moment, and what you find is nothing but a clear and sincere sky that takes your breath away every time it lands on you.

"Me neither. I wouldn't want anyone else even for a single day of my existence. "

[thefanficmonster]

Rumors

Corpse Husband x Bimbo!Reader (Female)

Warnings: Mentions of Slut Shaming, Swearing

Genre: Fluff, Tiniest bit of Angst, RPF (Real Person Fic)

Summary: When some rumors start floating around, every content creator does their best to either ignore them or defuse the situation. However, sometimes, the fans attempt to do the defusing themselves which only leads to a worse disaster. That’s the case for Corpse whose fans were quick to jump to his protection of some ‘false’ rumors.

Requested by Anon. Hi dear! Thank you so much for your request, it was a joy to write. I’m sorry for how long it has taken me to complete and post the fic but here it finally is and I hope you enjoy reading it at least half as much as I enjoyed writing it! Love, Vy ❤

Corpse cracks his knuckles, then his shoulders, then his collarbone, then the his neck. He clenches his jaw as he breathes steadily and rhythmically, trying to control an overwhelming wave of anger that he has never felt before. This is a situation he’s never had to deal with nor did he ever think he’d have to deal with and address on a fucking livestream on top of all, but here he is now, doing his best to count to ten and not go on a Twitter responding spree, calling people out on their bullshit. He wanted to do so, he still wants to, but he was stopped in his intentions and brought to a calm mindset where he was swayed into dealing with this the civil way and not by roasting the fuck out of any and every foul-mouthed person he’s seen on his Twitter timeline.

He can’t really guarantee and civility during the stream either, he’s aware his tolerance is as thin as a stretched out, old rubber band and is a slight tug away from snapping and allowing him to unleash hell on these people because of who he’s been seeing red these past few days. 

Let’s not risk a misunderstanding here - Corpse absolutely loves and adores his fans, but seeing this behavior from them is quite upsetting and disappointing. When he uses the terms like ‘assholes’, ‘jerks’ and ‘rude motherfuckers’ he isn’t referring to them. He knows they are good people, but are using the completely wrong tactic of defending him, not to mention he doesn’t even need defending. Even if he did, he’s more than capable of doing it on his own and not getting other people involved.

“Hello everyone, hope you’re doing well.“ He finally settles on saying, officially kicking off the stream. If there’s any indicator of the serious nature of this stream, it’s probably the lack of lo-fi and the lack of even attempted playfulness and cheeriness in his voice. That’s how you know shit isn’t to be messed around about. “I just realized I didn’t specify what I’ll be doing in the Tweet, but I’ll tell you now, so those who aren’t interested in the subject or want to steer clear of the drama can leave. However, I wouldn’t advise clicking off considering this will be an overall, how do I say this, rant, of sorts? It’s meant to knock some sense in the people who have been spreading hate for a specific person on all social media platforms she’s active on.“

The majority of the viewers are already familiar with the subject, some even guilty of spreading the hate Corpse mentioned, but there are a few that are completely clueless - the ones actually not interested in online drama, not just saying they ‘hate drama’. With those people in mind, Corpse takes to addressing the issue from its very beginning.

“So, for a month now, me and this streamer, who’s also a TikTok star, by the name of Y/N have been interacting a lot on social media. She’s an incredibly sweet girl that a lot of people have prejudice towards. She’s very misjudged and misunderstood because people see he solely as her content, if that makes sense. They only know she’s that streamer who wears revealing clothes on her streams and posts risqué pictures on her Instagram. Like, no.“ Corpse cannot even fully believe he has to address this and that slut-shaming people is still a thing in the twenty-first century. He closes his eyes for a moment, fist tightening and his knuckles turning white, “I don’t understand how so many people can be so shallow and just plain jerks towards her in general, but then again - this is especially for my fans, the members of my fandom - I don’t understand the need you guys feel to put Y/N down to defend me from some ridiculous rumors as if it’s the first time I’ve had to deal with people talking shit for attention or to get someone canceled.“ He sighs, reminding himself to slow his roll as to not confuse any viewers who still don’t know the full story, “Anyway, back to the timeline of events. So, considering we’ve never interacted before, all the replying to comments, retweeting, liking posts and whatever sparked some dating rumors. Isn’t that just fucking hilarious - you see two people interacting on social media and the first thing that comes to mind is that they’re in a romantic relationship. Where did the friendship go? Does no one value or consider friendships to be a valid type of human relation anymore?“ He runs a hand through his hair, making another pause to clear his mind and prevent his frustration from overflowing. He promised he wouldn’t lose his cool and would remain calm and collected, but the more he talks about it the tighter he clenches his fist and the faster his heartrate is. His neck and ears are red from the tension he feels all over, almost like he’s physically restraining a raging wild animal and not just his own thoughts and emotions.

There’s layers to his anger, the lower ones - aka the ones he’s yet to get to - will be a nightmarish test of his self-control, he already knows it. Judging by how much of a toll this rant has already taken on him, his patience and control growing thinner and thinner, he’s not sure how he’ll power through the last layers without his voice raising awfully high in volume and his fists searching for some object to punch. To an ignorant eye, his reaction would seem exaggerated and overboard, but little does that ignorant eye know...

“When some of my fans saw those rumors, they reacted very badly. It was quite disappointing to see. Guys, I appreciate you standing up for me even though you shouldn’t do that - I can defend myself, not that this was a matter I needed defending from to begin with. But just the way some of you went about it was horrifically wrong and quite upsetting, to me but especially to Y/N herself.“ He can feel it, the aggravation growing, bubbling up in his chest, “What I saw disgusted me, I’m not gonna sugarcoat it. The things some of you were saying...I couldn’t believe you are in fact the same people who are my fans, my lovely fans who I’ve always thought so highly of. Never did I think you could be able of slut-shaming so vulgarly and grossly, I couldn’t believe what I was reading.“

He has every right to be upset - the things being said about Y/N were truly awful and a lot of things being said were meant to defend Corpse and defuse the rumors, doing so while stomping all over Y/N and her content. Rightfully so, many of her fans were outraged and quick to jump to her defense but were unfortunately outnumbered, leading Corpse to believe not many of her fans are actually real or as dedicated as his which only fueled his fury further.

Anyway, let’s take a look at Y/N’s point of view. Being a content creator for as long as she has, refusing to change her style no matter how many people disagreed and insulted her about it, she’s grown quite used to people spitting insults at her on every social media possible. It’s sad how throughout the majority of her content creating career she’s only had haters, creeps and fake fans watching her videos and streams. Rare are those in her fandom who’d actually stick up for her and defend her in ‘scandals’ such as this one. However, no amount of experience with dealing with hate could have prepared her for this outpour of some of the meanest shit she’s ever heard and been called in her life.

Y/N likes the content she makes, she’s comfortable in her skin and loves her body. She loves showing it off too and nor she nor anyone who wants that deserves to be shamed for who they are and what they do, especially when they aren’t hurting anyone and their content is still appropriate. People have always bashed her for all elements of who she is: her appearance, her clothing style, her streams, her gaming skills, her voice on occasion. She can count the instances when she’s received positive feedback on the fingers of her hands which would depress anyone else but not her. She’s always created content for her own amusement and entertainment so people’s opinions never really bothered her. Until now, until this very drama that has hit a specific nerve, an insecurity of hers she’s never talked about. The comments such as:

(Vy Speaking: Comments containing slut-shaming ahead, go to ### if you want to skip)

“Corpse would never date a slut like her“

“Corpse dating this thot? Please internet stop being ridiculous“

“Corpse ain’t a pimp, y’all need to chill“

“Even if they datin they gon break up soon - whore stays a whore“

###

bothered her far more than she’d like to admit. She has no one to open up about it either, she knows what she’ll get in response if she does - she’ll be told it’s her fault. Her fault because of the way she dresses, the way she talks and acts, because she chose this career to begin with. All her fault. The only person she can turn to she refuses to because she doesn’t want to be a bother - not after so many people confirmed her worries that she’s not good enough for him already anyway, the least she can do is avoid bothering him the best she can.

And that is exactly why this has upset Corpse so much.

“Here’s a little message specifically meant for those who claimed I’d never date someone like Y/N or specifically Y/N. You better listen carefully: Don’t you ever, and I mean EVER slut-shame my girlfriend or any other person ever. I cannot believe I have to explicitly remind you that your behavior isn’t ok. You should fucking know that your behavior isn’t right and that you’re a massive piece of shit for saying those awful things about others you judge solely on appearance and clothing. Does it surprise you that I am, in fact, dating Y/N? If you say yes for the reason you think she’s not good enough for me or that I deserve better, please get the fuck out of my fandom. No one disrespects my girl and gets away with it. That’s final!“

Though still under the influence of a flurry of negative emotions, overhearing Corpse literally telling people to exclude themselves from his fandom for being mean to her, Y/N’s taking a step towards emotional recovery knowing her boyfriend will always have her back. He’ll always be there to prove people wrong, defend her and stand by her. He’ll be there to catch her when the hate knocks her off her feet.

But most importantly: he’ll never ask her to change. Not her style, not her clothes, not her personality, nothing. He fell for her the way she is and for who she is, and he will never allow anyone to try to change her either. For someone who’s never had much support all her life, a single speck of support overpowers all the hate within the blink of an eye. Corpse will always be her knight in shining armor, the knight who defeated all the hateful demons by just entering her life. And though she’s still struggling with the ‘Am I good enough for someone so wonderful?’ and ‘He deserves better, doesn’t he?’ questions, with his hand holding hers, she’ll never let those doubts and insecurities overpower her.

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[doctorofmagic]

My thoughts on What If... Doctor Strange Lost His Heart Instead of His Hands?

The very title of the episode sends a shiver down my spine. And this is where we’re going to start.

~ long post under the cut ~

A year ago, I wrote this post as an attemp to dive into one of the most important traits in Doctor Strange’s personality: love. Stephen is a being made of love, made to love, no matter which interpretation you have when you watch Infinity War. If you don’t read comic books, you’ll understand the moment you meet Donna. You’ll begin to understand how her death reshaped his entire subjectivity out of fear of failing, being powerless and unable to control everything around him (especially death), thus the arrogant and yet a disaster of a man we all know.

Where do I even start? Stephen loved her sister deeply and felt responsible for her death. And then, slowly, he also lost his parents and his brother. He fell in love with Clea but he also pushed her away. He loved Zelma platonically and lied to her, which was enough for them to break their bond. He felt attracted to Kanna but screwed things up, even though they remain friends. He was forced to kill the Ancient One, the only father figure he had ever since his father died. And lastly, the only person who would never leave his side... also left. Yes, even Wong. Stephen has SO much love to give but he’s also afraid because he’s cursed. He truly believes his love in poison. And would you look at that? What If really delivered a story where this is actually true.

What If Doctor Strange Lost His Heart Instead of His Hands?

The level of understanding when it comes to the character is... inconceivable. What could possibly reshape Stephen into following a dark path but love? The very premise of the whole episode. This is so much more than a love letter. This is literally too much, in all senses.

Fine, let’s begin.

What if the best of intentions has very strange consequences?

No. You used the word “strange” for the pun but this is not the word. Nah-ah. I’d go with ATROCIOUS, for starters. Things are gonna escalate so quickly, my friends.

Seriously, tho? Christine is SO SO SO SO beautiful, they’re so cute together. I have this feeling that MCU!Stephen was quite toxic because of his arrogance and this is why they didn’t work out. But WhatIf!Stephen???????? He’s always praising her, teasing her in a healthy way, respecting her and listening to her. HE TRULY LOVES HER, I’M GONNA CRY ALL OVER AGAIN, PLEASE, NOT THE CRÈME BRÛLÉE, PLEASE

I’m going to leave this shot here because we need to go back to it later. Hold that thought.

And bonus points to “Yeah, well, I would call that quite remarkable.” / “Well, I would say the same about you.”

GODS. THE PAIN. STOP THE PAIN.

So in this reality, Stephen didn’t caused the car accident because he was checking his phone while driving. Also it was not the reckless attempt to pass the truck. Well, maybe it was the consequence of this act? The fact is, the car behind them loses control, which makes them crash. Does it matter? We’ll learn later that no, it doesn’t.

And yep... Christine dies. Have you noticed the shattered heart? Ah, the pain only gets better and better.

Again, Stephen blames himself. More than anything, this is so important because Stephen is all about guilt. We still need to meet Donna so we can add yet another layer of guilt. But the feeling exists. This is what corrupts Stephen’s heart and soul in all his iterations. This is what makes him the character I love so much. I love this SO. MUCH. In addition, his stubbornness to accept his condition. Man won’t take a no. This, this is Doctor Strange in character. Stop complaining about NWH Stephen, it’s pathetic.

Okay, “grief-stricken”, Stephen found the Mystic Arts and became a sorcerer. That’s when he learned about the Time Stone, the Eye of Agamotto and Dormammu. Nothing changes, he saves the universe. But time does not heal his deepest wound.

I love Wong so much. Every time Wong does something, the world is healed. Really. We’re going back to him as well but for now I’ll just leave this shot.

BUT STEPHEN, DOING SOMETHING RECKLESS? HE’D NEVAH

Aaaaaaaannnnnnd then he did.

He goes back in time. It’s been two years since he lost Christine. I think he reacted pretty nicely, despite the circumstances. Now let’s go back to that shot I said I was saving for later.

Stephen is so light-hearted here. Also, during the first time he lost Christine, he had no idea what “The Price is Right” was. He knows now, which means he probably tried to learn more about the show because of her, because of grief. HAHAHA MORE PAIN

AND THEN HE

AND THEN SHE DIES AGAIN

AND THEN HE KEEPS GOING BACK IN TIME

AND SHE KEEPS DYING

AND THE MUSIC

AND HIS VOICE

AND HE TRIES TO CHANGE FATE BUT IT CAN’T BE AVERTED

HE EVEN TRIES TO STAY AWAY FROM HER LIFE BUT SHE DIES ALL THE SAME, WHY

AND EVERY TIME THEY CRASH, HE FEELS THE PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL PAIN AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN, WHY

I’M-- *ugly sobbing noises*

Apparently, not.

And this scene when he simply... closes his eyes before she dies again...?

This is where this episode had me in endless tears. It got me the four times I watched it. I’m dead serious.

Okay, so, next the Ancient One appears to Stephen, explaining that Christine’s death is an Absolute Point in time. It cannot be changed. Stephen needs the accident to become the Sorcerer Supreme and defeat Dormammu.

And this is where Stephen starts his journey into darkness. “Nothing is impossible, you taught me that. I only require more power.” Disobeying the Ancient One, Stephen then travels in time, seeking the Library of Cagliostro. Now, if you’re not aware of that, Cagliostro was a sorcerer who studied time in comics, and later became Sise-Neg (there’s a recent post on this because of the new Defenders run). It’s funny to think that Sise-Neg also destroyed the world when he became a god, however he grew past his pettiness and remade reality. Stephen did not possess such power, as we’re about to see.

PS: “Stop torturing yourself, Stephen.” Naur but he should use this line like a mantra. Especially comics!Stephen.

Not gonna lie, tho. This place reminds me of the Temple of the Vishanti from T&T (of course I was going to insert T&T somewhere, it’s me).

And of course they’d go for a pun with his name haha. I don’t know how to feel about this, tho. I feel like the episode is too heavy and dark for comedy. But it is what it is.

Okay but why some books are in cages??????????? And wow, it seems Cagliostro also gathered knowledge about several fields of magic.

And then Stephen learns that, in order to break an Absolute Point, he needs to absorb more power. This is when I went “oh-oh, here we go”.

And for real, is this Shuma-Gorath? Why are they keeping his name a secret? Is this the same creature from the first episode with Captain Carter, right? RIGHT? It has to be Shuma-Gorath.

Of course he tries to be polite and ends up all hurt haha. O’Bengh warns him about love but he will not listen. “Love can break more than your heart. It can shatter your mind.”/ “Is she worth the pain?”. Please, this is Stephen. He eats pain for breakfast.

Also, also, let’s take a break. We’re finally going to get monsterf0cker tentacle-lover Stephen Strange. It will cost us everything but here we goooooooooooo (yes, I went frame by frame for your more obscure fanservice needs)

Gods, I love this sequence so much it hurts. Okay, here we go.

Shmebulock???????????

AND HE STOLE THE CAPE??????????? AND DREW THE LINE ON BUGS??????

The grasp this man is holding on me right now...

Some of you will understand. I’m with you.

And here are the grostesque ones. These are hard to take SS but I had to.

Animation, sound effects, OST? CHEF’S KISS TO ALL

And lastly... the tentacles. Yeah, if you’re new... this is a thing.

Fanservice. Fanservice everywhere. (low-key the reason I also waited to write this review, I wanted to enjoy this part so badly but I was too sad for that lmao)

Okay so. O’Bengh is suddenly OLD and DYING, until we realize that Stephen spent CENTURIES absorbing mystic beings. CENTURIES. WTF STEPHEN. He had nothing in mind but the goal to save Christine. And people wonder why he went insane???? I’m sorry, O’Bengh, but I can’t take you serious when you still call Stephen Sorcerer Armani. Oh, and also because you watched him absorb beings for centuries in silence lmao. But I guess I have to because you said that Stephen is split in two since the Ancient One cast a spell on him, splitting the timelines and making them exist in the same reality before he could travel back in time. I know, it’s complex. Anything for the plot.

And now good!Stephen has an evil!twin who wants to absorb him back in order to become whole and break the Absolute Point. Cool.

I said I wanted to talk more about Wong because I think people are not talking about him enough. Wong is so important in this episode. He’s the one who’s trying to heal Stephen after Christine. He’s Stephen’s anchor.

Also, THEY FINALLY USED A SPELL WITH THE NAME OF THE VISHANTI. HOORAAAAY

So, for the sake of our understanding, I’m addressing the characters as evil and good!Stephen. Let’s go. Evil!Stephen summons good!Stephen and gods, he still holds such a strong grasp on me... unbelievable. THE DEEPER VOICE BENEDICT USES???? PLEASE, DIDN’T WE HAVE ENOUGH?

Imagine his strength to hold so many beings inside him, fighting to control him. BRO, THIS IS TOO TOO MUCH

Fine, I’ll not post SS about the fight because I’d be here all night long but I WILL say this: NOT CLOAKIE!!!!! NAAAAAAAAAAUR

Also if you ask me if I recognize any of the spells? Maaaaybe the Flames of Faltine, the not-so-crimson Bands of Cyttorak and a little trick Magik does with her portals. That’s how far I go.

I’ll not comment on the “seducing yourself to stay in the trap”. I will not. I’ll just say that the first person Stephen thought of when “Christine” was talking about the crème brûlée was Wong. That’s it.

And finally evil!Stephen absorbs good!Stephen and releases... UNLIMITED POWER (I love when the stone goes red as if it was bleeding aaaaaaa)

I can fix him...

This scene here? Poetic cinema. (I love his wings so much)

And when Stephen says her name and the other monsters’ voices echo “Christine”, AAAAAACKKKK

AND OF COURSE CHRISTINE WOULD FREAK OUT, BRO. LOOK AT WHAT YOU’VE BECOME BECAUSE OF YOUR TWISTED LOVE. I’M NOT DOING FINE.

Oh, but it’s too late anyways because Stephen broke reality haha. This scene is interesting because Stephen is the only one who sensed and/or talked to the Watcher until now. I read an interview that the Watcher kinda showed up but it’s also about Stephen’s keen senses. Bit of both, let’s say. Still, man, 616-Watcher is not that cold. 616-Watcher would watch this and say “how about I intervene anyway?”. WhatIf!Watcher is brutal.

The way Christine looks at Stephen one last time also KILLS ME, DESTROYS ME, BREAK ME INTO A MILLION PIECES.

And this is where my soul left my body.

This is how they end the episode. This is how you leave me speechless and with teary eyes. This is how you give me a whole existential crisis.

This... this was brutal to watch. Really.

What can I say after this? I’m used to reading painful things when it comes to Stephen. Aaron’s and Cates’ runs are heartbreaking on so many levels. Hickman’s New Avengers is not easier. Coincidentally, What If? Magik Became Sorcerer Supreme and The End. And now Death of Doctor Strange. And yet, after everything I’ve been through, I’d never expect to watch something so brilliant, so tragic, so heartbreaking and unexpected in the MCU. Never. This is top tier content and this is my favorite character with SO MANY LAYERS and SO MUCH UNDERSTANDING. I can’t put into words how meaningful this whole episode is to me, or how deep it touched my heart and soul.

I’ve been struggling to find the proper words since then, I still can’t. All I can add is, I cried for the 4th time now. This is too, too much, even for Stephen stans. Even for the ones who are used to pain, regardless of which media you’re into: comic books, live actions or animated movies. This is literally more than I can take and yet I’m so, so grateful. The voice acting, gods, how did Benedict manage to create a better Stephen than the one he’s literally playing in real life???????????? HOW

This episode really took the max potential Stephen had to offer as a character, added tons and tons of layers based on his grief, depression, arrogance and need to control everything and created a tragic masterpiece. In 7 years of being a Doctor Strange fan, I've never read or watch something that could go this deep into the character. The closest I can think of is Mr. Misery and the metaphor of Stephen's depression. This is a whole new level of respect and understanding. This is more than a love letter. This is peak maestry. It’s perfect, it’s heartbreaking, it’s... gods, I can’t.

Sorry for dragging you until this far. Before I wrap up this review, I just wanted to remind you all that Stephen will appear again, he will smile again, he will be surrounded by people again. So this is not the end. It was painful but be brave. We still have a few more steps to take.

[wenellyb]

My journey in the MCU fandom on Tumblr: Sharing my thoughts on the Falcon and the Winter Soldier, racism in the MCU fandom and the best and the worse of the fandom

I wasn’t going to write this much but here I am… I don’t even know where I’m going with this but since The Falcon and the Winter Soldier just recently came out, I wanted to share some thoughts.

I joined Tumble because of a show I loved but most of you don’t know it “ Hit the Floor”

I stayed on Tumblr for two reasons only, Anthony Mackie and Sebastian Stan.

Before the Captain America:Civil War premiere, a friend sent me the link to the Sebastian and Anthony ET interview, and I was hooked. In just one interview. I discovered Anthony Mackie. The guy was hilarious!!! I just couldn’t get enough and I knew I had to know more about him. How could he improvise so many funny lines on the spot? He was just amazing.

I had pretty much watched all the avengers movie but that was it. I was not involved in the fandom. So I knew Sam Wilson’s face, but I couldn’t even remember his name if my life depended on it. That’s how much the MCU treated him as a side character.

I was like how the f*ck don’t I know this guy?

His talent reminded me of Eddie Murphy, Jim Carrey or Robin Williams, like yes they can make some emotional or serious movies, but when they want to make you laugh, you will laugh. Whether you want it or not.  I kept wondering how this guy wasn’t more famous.

And the banter with Sebastian Stan? Wow, you could tell their friendship was strong, the way Sebastian lighted up when Anthony was talking, and keep bouncing off his jokes. It was art. the way Sebastian said “ I love you” at the end of the interview. Pure gold.

I then started to watch some of the interviews and boy was that a mistake!!! I literally couldn’t get enough. So I watched all and I say all their interviews, it was the best. We got some gems:

“Why aren’t you looking at me as much”

“Which way is the beach Seabass”

*Them saying nonsense in Spanish and then Sebastian Saying Papi Chulo*

 ¨And so many more, ....

I watched other solo Anthony interviews and he was still HILARIOUS, but you could also tell he felt a little bit more at ease with Sebastian around. I won’t pretend I know him or his personality, but Sebastian seems like a little bit more of an introvert and looks like he doesn’t enjoy the interview experience unless Anthony id around him. Just my thoughts

I watched the interviews before I went to see the movie, I even cosplayed as the Winter Soldier to the movie premiere and I was IN!!! When I saw Captain America Civil War, I became a SamBucky shipper, these two were hilarious and I really so the potential for a great realtionship I love enemy to lovers stories.

I also shipped Stucky because, to me, the trope of the movie was Superhero gives up everything to protect his long term friend” Hollywood movies have some codes and if Bucky were a female character, there is no doubt in my mind that the movie would have been marketed as romance.

Stucky really was an easy ship! But then the MCU fandom of Tumblr fandom messed up everything for me. You see I really liked the CACW and I I liked Stucky, I liked Sambucky, and I loved the introduction of t’Challa’s character, but one of things that affected me the most in the movie was that it was the first blockbuster I watched with 3 black main characters, Rhodey, Sam and T’Challa. That, and the fact that they were planning to realease a Black Panther movie in two years, I was super excited, and that’s the main reason I got involved in the MCU fandom so much, when before, I was just a casual watcher.

If this seem weird to you, then you have no idea how we were only getting crumbs before. For me it was soo huge, I even told all my friends, and they were laughing at me. But usually blockbusters, especially superhero movies get one black character and that’s it, usually the best friend or something and never the leads. So, for me it really was a big deal. How sad is that by the way…

I became more involved in the fandom and, at first, I wasn’t focusing on anything special, Sambucky, Stucky, Stackie, the Black Panther, and even Zemo, whose character I really liked.

But soon I noticed that the CACW tags were always flooded, and I mean flooded with the same two white characters: Steve and Bucky. I told myself, ok that’s fine Steve is the lead after all, but it would be good to see the other characters too.

And then I noticed another interesting trend: Evanstan…. Wait what?

Chris Evans, and Sebastian Stan… did I miss something? Listen, obviously I’m sure they must be friends or something, but you’re going to tell me you watch all MCU the actors and you’re going to focus on Steve and Sebastian? I’m sorry what?

Sebastian and Anthony are right there… Or Chris and Anthony, they even have a secret handshake, only the 2 of them do… what more do you want?

Tell me one iconic Evanstan moment… go ahead tell me… See??? There isn’t.

Because of this and because of how badly some Stuckies were treating Sam and Anthony. I became less and less of a stucky shipper . I mainly focused on SamBucky, Stackie and the Black Panther,

And then the Sebastian Stan stans saw how popular Stackie, Sambucky, were becoming and I started to see some problematic stuff in our fandom too.

I don’t want to generalize, but when you go into the Stackie tag, and you see cropped pictures of Sebastian without Anthony, it’s easy to assume that a Sebastian fan did that. And we know damn well you cropped out Anthony because we watched all Stackie interviews and know exactly which interview your picture was taken from. We know that Anthony was sitting right next to Seb.

You post a picture of Sebastian laughing but you crop out the person who was making him laugh??

“but it has nothing to do with race” How do you know that?

“Sebastian had more screen time” More screen time than Anthony in CATWS or CACW? I don’t think so.

“I have been a fan of Sebastian for longer”, that’s fine but don’t go out cropping Anthony, just post gifs of Seb in his usual, sad, and Anthony-less interviews, not the ones where he’s smiling because his best friend is next to him.

Some of you really are the worst. And just so you know, your fave Sebastian is Anthony’s biggest fan, if he saw pictures where you cropped out Anthony, he would block you on the spot.

When I realized that Anthony Mackie would be the next Captain America I was screaming, no actually, I was crying, Sam Wilson will be Captain America, and Anthony would finally get the recognition he deserves.

You would think that the MCU fandom would focus on Captain America or at least one the two leads, instead of just Sebastian? Right? Right? WRONG.

Anthony is handsome, he’s funny, he’s a great actor, he went to freaking Julliard, he’s at the top, I don’t see what else the man can do??? He should already be a superstar, but no, you will side-line him even to he is the lead of the show.

Even when they are the actual leads, you guys would do anything to bring up the White characters even if it means ignoring the Black characters.

I remember I was having a conversation about Black Panther with my friends and I asked one of my white friends who was his favorite character in BP was and he told me Martin Freeman (don’t even remember his name in the movie) Martin Freaking Freeman, there are half a dozen of great characters and your fave is the only white man??? Ok, ok, that’s great.

Don’t give out automatic reply like “It has nothing to do with race, if you haven’t thought about it first”, because there’s a high probability that it is indeed about race. Stop saying it isn’t, sit down and ask yourself, “Am I biased?” “Why am I reblogging only stuff related to the white characters”.

One of these days you guys are going to make me hate Sebastian with the sh*t you are pulling.

I looove the Stackie friendship and the Sambucky dynamic but after seeing the way some of you treat Anthony and Sam’s character, it make me want to focus on Sam’s character and forget about the rest.

 I remember they were some posts about how Anthony was problematic, and I just lost it. Apparently, there was an old article that resurfaced were Anthony was making a joke about women making sandwiches or something.

If you were offended by the sandwich joke, that is totally ok, and I can understand that.

But if you were offended by the sandwich joke, and saying Anthony is problematic BUT you still stan Chris Evans, Jeremy Renner, ScarJo or even Sebastian Stan, just know that there is a high probability you’re racist.

They have all said or done problematic stuff, and people only seem to remember stuff related to Anthony, which was probably just a joke by the way.

Chris Evans and Jeremy called Black widow a wh*re, ScarJo took roles that she maybe shouldn’t have and I didn’t forget Sebastian shady Instagram post, when Kaepernick was kneeling. There are so many more things to be said about Jeremy Renner but google is your friend.

Anthony also got hate for hating on Tom Holland? Like what? Do you guys even hear yourselves? Don’t you have any friends you like to tease? If you hate someone, do you go around talking about him every chance you get? It was obviously friendly banter but some people wanted to turn it into something it was not. Sigh.

I really cannot with this fandom

 The stackie fandom was small at the beginning and the Sambucky fandom even smaller, but we were there and it was amazing. Sebastian and Anthony received the same amount of love from the fandom and I wish we could go back to those days.

Stop pretending the fandom isn’t racist. Stop saying “it isn’t about race” when you haven’t even thought about.

Saying “it has nothing to do with race” only shows that you haven’t thought about anything but don’t want to be called a racist.

There is racism in this fandom and it will always be there, but if you guys want to do anything about it, you have to acknowledge it first.

You can’t be pulling off stuff like “I don’t see colors”, “ it has nothing to do with race”. Stop, sit down, think about it and then we can have a conversation.

If you’ve made it till the end, I apologize for the typos and grammar mistakes, I wasn’t planning on writing this much.

[missvifdor]

(The continuation of this post where during a spell class a portal opened and the boys' female doubles as well as MC's appeared in the class) (I think I could make it an independent "story" for the adventures of my MC /OC /YUU)

My MC /OC /YUU and his double crossing the gaze in the class: * Double bi panic *

*Now we will have to find a solution to bring these young ladies and this gentleman back to their reality, but in the meantime here is the look of our twisted guys if they were girls*

Dorm leaders:

Riddle: Looks both serious and cute, with a round cheeky face and big eyes with long thick lashes as well as a pretty pixie haircut. Obviously she stays small but is always bigger than my MC OC YUU, her voice both soft and sharp, a very interesting contrast.

Leona: Made more of a woman than a young girl, still has magnificent hair, bewitching eyes and has a very toned and nicely muscular body. His voice is deep with that tone both seductive and bored. She knows perfectly well that she is beautiful, that she has charm and adores the handset with her immense intelligence. It's an absolutely formidable combo. She is the same height as her male double.

Azul: Gives that mafia-like aura (Or Sugar Mummy), with her hair styled in an impeccable bun and her tailor that is both professional and flatters her gorgeous figure perfectly. Her smile is both sweet and dangerous. But we all know that deep down she is a sweet girl who needs reassurance and who needs to realize how smart, hardworking, and beautiful she is (and we know any of us don't would stop proving it to her). She must be two or three centimeters shorter than her male double.

Kalim: She's still a sun ball and a full cinnamon roll! So positive and supportive! Tie up her long silver hair with a cute headband and always do her makeup in warm tones (where instead Jamil helps her with her makeup like that). Always wears tons of gold bracelets on her wrists and ankles, is very tactile, and has no problem cuddling the people she loves and appreciates! Is the kind of friend who makes sure you eat well and that you don't miss anything. (I can see her thinking that she and Jamil have more of a sister relationship than a master and servant relationship). Is exactly the same size as her male double.

Vil: Let's be honest here, Vil would be the most gorgeous woman who hasn't set foot at Night Raven College for decades after The Beautiful Queen! You almost feel like she's straight out of a fashion magazine but no, it's just that our Reine des Poisons takes so much care of her and works so hard to come to such potential! Her magnificent hair would reach her shoulders, her voice would be as beautiful as honey on a slice of bread and her makeup and manicure would be as perfect as it gets! Maybe she would be a little taller than her male double (even without heels). (I don't know why but apart from her care and makeup, I also see her very well making her own jewelry as well as her perfume).

Idia: Haired with two long, fiery quilts, she would be more the type to have an e-girl style but with very loose clothes that would not show her forms (the poor one does not realize that she has the potential to become a model for lingerie). Her voice would be both sweet and high-pitched, and she could also be smaller than her male double. (And Husbando, so many Husbando!). Doesn't trust her smile because of her sharp teeth but that is her charm and she is so fucking cute! Maybe she would be more organized and manic than her double even if her room would still be in a very big mess (at least she didn't leave her underwear lying around in plain sight, she would die of shame if anyone saw the cute and childish little designs on it).

Malleus: This woman ... Would be exactly the same size as her male double! And she would be so beautiful and elegant! With long black hair that she would let hang down her back, as well as her incredible figure! (Also gives those Magical Sugar Mummy vibes). His voice, by all the gods ... The most sensual and that playful note we've ever heard. Her voice is also so deep and sweet (let's not even talk about her laugh or I'll die of happiness). Still gives that awesome and intimidating impression on people but is so sweet when you get to know her (Always make that adorable pout when she's sad or upset, you feel like hugging her tight and telling her that even though she is scary in the early days, she's the sweetest person we've ever met!).

The Vice-leader:

Trey: Don't lie to each other, give these married vibes over and over again. But beware, also hides his game very well because in private ... 🥵. Her beautiful hair tied in a ponytail and her voice in playful tones. Would be the type to wear stockings with his uniform and is the same size as his male double. Smells like cake and vanilla, it's both so nice and it also makes you so hungry!

Ruggie: Is quite skinny because as we know Ruggie often endures difficult months. Short and messy hair, has a cheerful voice and an infectious laugh (Quite fond of pretty things in the background, but since she doesn't have much money, she can't really afford it. If she could, she would certainly treat herself to some pretty hair accessories). Perhaps an unacknowledged Tsundere side. Since she cannot feed herself properly for someone her age, she is most certainly smaller than the average for a Beast Woman. Would probably like to have a cuter look, unfortunately she can't afford it as she doesn't want to look "weak".

Jade: Holy shit, this woman is so dangerous and sweetly sadistic, if you ever pique her interest and she likes you on top of that, I'm sorry for you. Her body is certainly muscular and graceful (She also has quite incredible strength). Has long, wavy hair that she wears half-loose and is exactly the same height as her male double. Her voice and at the same time so soft and cold, you don't know if you should feel comfortable or on the contrary, run as far as possible. Obviously loves going for long hikes, (Her legs are so muscular, if she catches you with that, you won't be able to go anywhere). His tone is so teasing, you can't resist him for long.

Jamil: Very tall, even a few inches taller than her male double. Just like Trey, she smells so good, like cinnamon. Has a fairly athletic build, and remained a very, very good dancer. Very skillful, maybe makes her own wrist and ankle bracelets, also wears a lot of jewelry (not as expensive as Kalim's, but still very pretty and it shows her really well, especially the snake designs ), also wears a lot of ear piercings. His hair is very long, silky, and worn the same way as the male Jamil (maybe with extra pearls in his hair). Her voice is deep (sensual) and with a note of irony and sarcasm. Her make up apply lightly but always in such beautiful warm tones (she also highlights her cheekbones), especially with eyeliner to highlight her intense gaze.

Rook: His hair is worn in the same way as the male Rook, also wears a multitude of hats as well as pretty earrings. Likes to tease those around her, smiling and bright. Has a French accent, of course. But remains someone dangerous in the end. Is the same height as her double, is athletic, skillful and has excellent eyesight (Normal for a hunter). See beauty in everything and everyone! Don't you think you're handsome? Rook will give you ten points for why she thinks you are beautiful and why you should stop thinking that way because otherwise she will stalk you until you accept this truth. Her voice is happy and confident, deep and warm. May like to wear accessories like long socks with natural or animal designs. Specialized in throwing knives.

Ortho: So cute! The little sister you will want to protect at the risk of your life! So smart and friendly, curious too. Wears a cute fiery pixie hairstyle and has a cheerful, thin voice. Is so small and skinny.

Lilia: Oh boy ... see Draculaura from Monster Hight? She has the same look. So much into jokes, loves to surprise people to scare them. Her voice contrasts completely with her appearance since it is deep and velvety. Same size as her male double. Even though she looks so young, she still acts like a child mom. (Obviously, is always so bad in the kitchen, she brings out stuff, sometimes you are afraid that it will come to life to devour you). Despite her jokes, she is still very good advice and listens.

The rest of our boys:

Cater: If fashionable, is certainly a great influencer. Cater pays so much attention to everything, especially the little details and accessories that she wear. Makeup always on top and colorful, could become a model if she wanted. Is smaller than her male double. Joyful and higher pitched voice, her hair is a bundle of silky curls always worn in a cute way (Like Ariana Grande). (Has a multitude of fans and contenders) carefree and likes to give cute or silly nicknames to people she loves and appreciates. Would be the type to flirt with his friends for fun. Probably has a passion for nail art and would be so proud to show off her designs on her Magicam account! Would act with the first years like a big sister although she is not always good advice. She is so teasing.

Ace: Short, messy hair! Pretty tomboy style, enjoys teasing others too much for his own good, always smiling like shit and communicative. Is a sporty person, and quite arrogant, maybe also a little Tsundere side. Is a hopeless hideaway romantic. Even though she likes to do her makeup, she doesn't like taking fifteen years to do it and does the minimum required. Of course has a more feminine side when she's out of school, but honestly, feminine clothes are never practical for big movements. Act confidently but not too deep down. Her voice is happy and dynamic. Is one or two centimeters smaller than her male double. Likes to wear necklaces and chokers. Rather skinny but not as much as Ruggie.

Deuce: So sweet and so want to do her best to make her mom proud of her. Wearing long hair tied in a low ponytail, her voice is high-pitched and strong. Is quite tall (even taller than her male double). Read romance books on the sly but can't help herself when someone finds out. Probably already dyed his hair blonde during his delinquent period and dyed it before entering Night Raven College. Likes to wear barrettes in her hair, also does her best with her makeup but was not used to it before (it was mainly Ace who taught her everything she knows). Secretly loves wearing skirts and dresses, she hasn't been able to experience it before because she didn't think it would look pretty on her (But she's actually pretty). Certainly be shy and insecure when she finds new people, afraid of doing things badly. Blushes so easily that it is funny. When his delinquent side resurfaces, his voice becomes more serious, threatening, his posture leaves no room for shyness! She might want to change for the better, but that doesn't mean she's going to let others do if they want to bully her!

Jack: Do you see Jasper in the Steven Universe? You now have Jack as a woman. She is muscular and strong! The part she's most proud of is her muscular back! His silvery hair his savage and remained indomitable (But that gives him a crazy charm). Don't take shit from people and still is a Tsundere. But her wagging tail always betrayed her about her emotions, as well as her ears. Same size as her male double. Secretly loves cute things and certainly has an army of adorable stuffed animals in her room in Savanaclaw. Wears a biker style, and because she lives in a cold region with her family, she doesn't get cold easily, so her muscular arms are uncovered all the time (for your viewing pleasure 😏). Her voice is serious, so serious! But if you're friends, you definitely hear that thoughtful little note in her voice. If his male version is the Best Boy, his female version is the Best Girl! She takes care of those she loves and is always ready to help!

Floyd: Is exactly the same size as his male double. Wear her hair short cut in a boyish style (she doesn't have the time or the energy to dwell on her hair). Her voice has high notes, especially when she finds something or someone cute! Very expressive, has no filter. Like her sister, she is muscular and graceful. Her dress style could be similar to those of men in the 40's (she much prefers masculine clothes because it is more comfortable and she doesn't have to worry about her chest with large shirts. does not have to wear a bra!). Love accessories like earrings or piercings. Has immense strength and doesn't always control it. Dislikes makeup, she doesn't want to bother with it (but finds it charming on others, that's just her personal opinion). If its male version is not to be upset, it also works with its female version! Especially when it is at this time of the month, run away poor fools!

Epel: The same problem as with its male version! Except that instead of being manly, she wants us to find her sexy and not cute! All her life in her hometown has not to stop telling her that she was cute! Really ? Was she nothing else ?! She wants people she finds attractive to find her sexy, not cute! Just because she is petite, because she has big, innocent eyes and a round, youthful face, doesn't mean it's her definition of beauty or femininity! Much like her appearance, her voice is cute, slender. Her hair is long, wavy and held up with a red ribbon in an elegant manner. Compare to her male version, Vil lets her speak with her accent because it is one of her charm assets. Her face is decorated with delicate freckles. Is quite skinny with a tiny bit of shape but not a lot (let's say she has a lot more than Riddle). Epel is a little smaller than the male Epel, but not much.

Silver: She is the equivalent of Disney Princess Aurora. Except that, unlike, even if she falls asleep anywhere, she doesn't need a knight to protect her, she is her own knight! Remain a formidable swordsman! In spite of everything, remains someone calm and taciturn, very easygoing. She is very fond of animals and as they naturally flock to her, she is very happy about this fact. Wear her hair up to the shoulders and tie it in a ponytail for practice. She has a fairly toned body, but not too much. Her voice is soft and measured. She is much smaller than her male double.

Sebek: Acts hard but is so soft in the end. Looks pissed off all the time but that's just her natural expression. Wears her hair like her male version, and is the same size. Her voice carries so far, it's very impressive the first time you hear her! It is a bit sharp, but not in an unpleasant way. Carries so much esteem and respect towards Malleus, she would also like so much to be like her but she would never dare to compare herself to her! Blushes so hard and so quickly if you press the right buttons, it's so funny to see her get annoyed! Her figure is quite toned and sporty.

And finally, My MC /OC /YUU: Just like his female version, he wears round glasses, is always 150cm tall and has long wavy hair. Has fairly broad shoulders and is slightly muscular without really being so. Does everything possible to make girls feel comfortable and safe in his presence! He knows how exhausting the life and daily life of women is because of societal pressures and the male gaze. He knows that because of assholes, women are afraid of men and are afraid to even be in the same room as them, so he will do his best to ensure that she never feels that way around him! And if someone has the audacity to make one of them feel these feelings, oh boy ... that person won't last long! He was raised by his mother alone, and she taught him respect, consent and righteous values. He is an ally, so rest assured 😊😉. His voice is soft and serious (Also watching him get angry and argued in French is quite impressive! The sound of Rs in his mouth sounds even more aggressive).

[aellynera]

Word of  Mouth (Santiago Garcia x Reader)

WORD OF MOUTH

(This has been sitting in my WIPs for-ev-errrrr and I finally got in the mood to finish it, since I haven’t written Santi in a while and I missed him. It’s nothing too involved, just a slice-of-life kind of deal, but I do like the way it turned out. Comments, likes, and reblogs always appreciated!)

I think this one came out as GN!Reader (I’ve read over it a few times but if I’m wrong please let me know.)

Word Count: 2340

Summary: It’s not that Santiago is mad about it, exactly; it’s more that he doesn’t like the way it happened.

Warnings: Some cursing. Some angst. Some fluff. Argument. Two people being stubborn. As always possible lack of proofreading.

Santiago comes off duty and returns to your on-base housing, and he stays quiet for far too long. Usually he greets you with a kiss, or at least a hello, but this time he doesn’t do anything. He doesn’t say a word as he goes into the bedroom, peels off his fatigues, and changes into a plain black t-shirt and plain khaki cargo pants.

He doesn’t say a single word.

“Um, hello to you too,” you call out, getting up to follow him. “How was your day?”

He just shrugs and shakes his head slightly. You get the same response when you ask him if anything interesting happened today, how training went, or if he’s hungry.

You haven’t seen him for most of the day, different assignments and different meetings keeping you apart while on duty, but you just know. From his silence and the way he’s acting, you just know. You’ve been trying to find the right way to bring it up, the right time to mention it, and clearly, that time is going to be now whether you like it or not.

He’s found out.

Even when different assignments keep you apart, you do work on the same base and everyone knows you’re together, even if you never officially said anything. It’s really no one’s business but it’s not really a secret, and you live together, so people just assume. And anything work-related was never unknown for long. Word has gotten back to Santiago, and from the looks of it, it has also gotten to him.

The fact that you can’t actually read his expression is what concerns you the most.

You sit down on the side of the bed and sigh again. “Frankie told you.”

Someone who had been in that early morning meeting with you, a particular someone Santiago identified as a best friend, certainty couldn’t keep it to himself. You make a mental note to have a very, very strict conversation with one Francisco “Catfish” Morales the next time you see him.

Santiago considers calling Frankie, so he can repeat exactly what he told Santiago this afternoon, after you’d already gone back home for the day. Instead he finally decides to answer you, his voice flat and dangerous.

“Are you out of your mind?”

“It’s my job,” you reply evenly.

“It’s your job if you get assigned to it,” he runs a hand over the back of his neck. “It’s not your job if you volunteer for it. That’s a choice.”

You furrow your brow at him. “Semantics.”

“Selection,” he responds, voice clipped.

You rest your head on your fingertips, four on your forehead and thumb on your cheekbone. “I’m the best person for this mission. and.. it’s not like it’s never come up before. We’ve had this conversation, Santi, we’ve talked about this exact scenario, and you even said that no one was more…”

Santiago raises an eyebrow. “Hypothetical and actual are not the same thing.”

“So, hypothetically, I’m not actually qualified to do this?”

“Actually, you should let someone else be the flag-waver this time.”

“The flag-waver?”

“What, now this hypothetically has nothing to do with being a goddamn hero?”

Your head snaps up and your eyes narrow at him. He glares in return.

“Actually,” you start, but Santiago’s short, humorless laugh cuts you off.

This time, your words drag through the tension like dull razors through styrofoam. “Actually,” you repeat, “this has zero to do with being a fucking hero and everything to do with the fact that no one else could get this done the right way and it is my goddamn duty to do what I signed up for.”

“There is no right way that this isn’t going to be an absolute shitshow.” The venom in his voice is like ice in your veins.

“Thank you for having so much faith in me and my abilities, Santiago.”

Silence falls on the room for a few long minutes as you both fight to check your emotions. You understand he’s angry - and maybe scared, although he’ll never admit it - and he knows you’re absolutely right on all accounts - although he is not ready to admit it.

You break the silence, voice tuned down and level. “Look, I wanted to tell you myself, but I didn’t see you all day. I didn’t want you to find out like this. Frankie shouldn’t have gotten involved. But I am going on this mission. I...I don’t want you to be mad about it.”

He looks at you for a moment, and this time you can read his expression, but it almost makes it worse. It’s a combination of worry, sadness, understanding, and yes, traces of anger. It’s not a look that suits him. 

You shift in your spot on the edge of the mattress.

“I’m not mad. I’m disappointed,” he says softly, then turns and walks from the room.

Oh. Shit.

***

The rest of the evening passes in a thick, uncomfortable silence. It’s been hours since your confrontation in the bedroom, and the fullness of night has fallen without a single other word being spoken between you.

You spend the night in bed alone, and Santiago makes himself mostly uncomfortable on the couch.

Morning breaks and you pull yourself from the confines of the comforter. Not that you had been sleeping very well anyway. It was warm under the covers, temperature wise, but it somehow felt so cold, and you haven't slept well. Your mind refused to calm down.

You shower and dress, going through your morning routine almost on autopilot. As you wash your face and glance into the mirror, one side of your mouth pulls up into a sad smirk as you recall Santiago’s last words from the night before.

Not mad, disappointed.

Your parents used to say that, when you’d done something against the rules, potentially stupid, and possibly morally questionable. It always seemed to hurt more than actually having them be mad at you, and you wince as you realize adulthood has done nothing to change that feeling.

You and Santiago have your fair share of arguments. Usually they’re not serious, even kind of playful. You both like to talk and you both like to be right, so a little verbal battle isn’t uncommon. But you’re still running the previous night’s...it wasn’t a conversation, but was it really a fight? Was it even an argument? No category really seems to fit, and this one just feels different.

You go downstairs and expect to find Santi on the couch, it’s still early, but as soon as you hit the bottom of the steps, the smell of freshly brewed coffee assaults your nose. 

He hands you a mug full of the dark brown liquid as you enter the kitchen. You take it with a nod of thanks and he nods back. But he still doesn’t say a word.

It’s a good sign though. At least, you hope it is, anyway.

You sip from your mug as he turns back to the stove, pushing some stuff around in a frying pan. It smells like bacon and potatoes and your stomach grumbles in protest, and you’re not sure but you think you can see the corners of Santi’s mouth turn up just a little.

Also a good sign. Maybe.

You sit down at your usual spot at the table and play with the handle on the mug. You offer him a singular glance and then stare back into your drink. Clearly he’s not going to be the one to talk first. You sigh.

This is not the first time he’s done this. Santiago is a good man, the best you know, and he’s honorable and decent and so fucking kind, but if there’s one thing you’ve learned since living with him, it’s he’s damn stubborn and can be a petulant brat when he wants to. And in typical macho hero Santiago Garcia style, he will not be the first one to cave after an argument, especially when he thinks he’s right.

You’ll give him shit for it later, when all the animosity has worn off, but for now, you’re going to have to cut the tension. You’ve never been good with silence and it’s only been one night and now this brief bit of morning and it’s starting to get to you.

And okay, maybe you’re not always the best at communicating with him, either. So you’ll be the first to break, this time.

You sigh again. “Santi…”

He turns his head slightly, away from his work at the stove, and glances at you. An eyebrow goes up.

“Are we going to talk about this? For real?” you ask.

He shrugs and turns back to the contents of the pan.

A frustrated growl erupts from your chest as you push your chair back and take the three steps over to the stove. You grab the handle and push the pan off the heat, snapping the burner off as you do, and then whirl and stare at Santi. He narrows his eyes and takes a step back, crossing his arms and leaning against the counter by the sink.

“Please say something to me,” you bite out. God, he’s so frustrating sometimes. “I’m sorry I didn’t talk to you about it first, but you cannot be upset with me for doing my goddamn job. For doing what I signed up to do. Just...fucking talk to me. Please.”

This time it’s Santi who sighs, and he runs a hand through his hair and massages a spot on the back of his neck. “I told you, I’m not mad.”

“Okay,” you nod, “but you really also can’t be disappointed.”

“I’m not.”

“You can’t just be...wait, what?”

“I said,” he says, uncrossing his arms slowly and reaching for one of your hands, “I’m not.”

You just blink at him and bite your bottom lip.

“I just...I don’t like the thought of you being out there without me.” Your mouth opens to retort but he holds up a hand to stop you, and you close it again and he continues. “I know you can do this, I know you’re totally capable and you can handle yourself, you could probably kick my ass on any given day in sparring, but...I just…” his voice trails off and he turns to stare out the kitchen window.

You squeeze his hand firmly and pull his attention back to you. He looks so handsome, his hair still tousled slightly from sleep and his t-shirt wrinkled from being on the couch all night, but he also really does look troubled and it makes your heart drop. “What is it, Santi?”

“There’s always a danger with any mission,” he says softly. “And it just kills me that I can’t protect you. I just want to protect you and have you come back safe.”

Then he’s pulling you into his arms and burying his face in your neck, and you feel wet spots on your collarbone and it makes tears prick at your eyes too. Santi shakes slightly in your arms and you whisper soft, soothing words into his hair.

He’ll never admit it, but you know. He’s scared.

Because he’s not wrong. This mission has the potential to go sideways and tits-up at the same time, and then flip over backwards for good measure. And you have to admit, although you’re not going to admit it to him because that would likely make it so much worse, that you’d give anything to have him on this mission with you. But you can’t. You can just do your job and do it well, prepare for the worst and hope for the best. 

A common mantra in your line of work. One that you always stick to.

But you have so much more to lose this time, and Santi does too, and your breakfast is forgotten as you take him by the hand and drag him back up to your bedroom. You lead him to the bed and lie down on your side, pull him down with you, and curl up into his side. He just wraps his arms around you and holds on like you’re a lifeline.

“I’m sorry,” you whisper.

He shakes his head. “No, I’m sorry.”

“I’m going to come back to you,” you trace your fingers over his dog tags.

“I know,” he kisses under your ear.

You hope you’re telling the truth. He hopes you’re telling the truth. You both hold each other like it might be the last time, even though it won’t because you’re not leaving for several days, but you’re both acutely aware that you have no way of actually knowing when it might really be the last time.

So you just hold each other silently for a while, until a thought occurs to you and you huff out a gentle laugh.

“What?” Santi asks you, peering at you with heavy lids and stupidly long lashes.

You lean up to kiss him on the nose. “Wanna help me run some strategy?” 

His answer is cut off by the very insistent complaint from your stomach. He quirks an eyebrow. “Wanna have a breakfast meeting?”

You giggle. “Probably a good idea.”

Santi plants a kiss on your lips and then gets up, holding out a hand to pull you off the bed and you stand, stretching your arms over your head. He goes to the doorway and says, “I’ll go finish making the food. Meet you at the table in 20, Lieutenant.”

“Sure thing, Captain,” you smile at him.

He moves to leave, and then calls out, “Oh, and Lieutenant?”

“Yes, Santiago?” you roll your eyes, another giggle escaping your lips.

He sticks his head back in the door, just for a moment, just long enough to take all of you in with a look of adoration, and mouths the words “I love you.” Then he turns and goes downstairs.

And you know you can handle - no, you will handle - anything that might happen, and your heart soars.

~end~

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