#gonna hit that with a

[ryuuka-balaen]

tag train game tag train game (tagged by @mechamagica ty Remi :> )

barbie or oppenheimer [late stage capitalism or mass murder? I'll pass.] // ketchup or mustard [they both have their place but ketchup is more versatile] // crinkled fries or curly fries // robots or dinosaurs // silly hats or silly socks // spring or autumn [Winter. if there isn't 3ft snowbanks how can I be happy??] // harry potter lol. lmao. get that antisemitic transphobic trashfire outta here. or lord of the rings // vacation or staycation // day or night // board games or video games [tough. woulda said video games like a year ago but been trying to make my hobbies more physical lately and g i r l I am obsessed w 40k] // books or movies // money or love [mm. not gonna do that one. how bout happy? can I just be happy please?] // milkshake or iced coffee // waffles or pancakes // chocolate or candy // beach or pool [water from rivers/lakes/oceans gives me hives :( ]// laundry or dishes // take-out or dine-out // fantasy or sci-fi // lays or pringles

I don't like tagging people for things like this so not gonna

[spyglassrealms]

had a fucking hilarious dream that tumblr replaced the "block" function with the far funnier "glock" function, which did the exact same thing except whenever anyone blocked you a random bullet hole, like a png of a bullet hole, would appear on your blog. discourse blogs were unreadable bc you'd go to the page and the sheer amount of bullet hole pngs stacked over the blogs obscured everything. I woke myself up laughing

[adriles]

when we’re done with our overwhelming grief we’ll eat i guess

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

[deancaskiss]

rb to have a super gay 2023

[willowcrowned]

saw someone get engaged in a cemetery today, friday the thirteenth of october. so glad to know that somewhere out there some goth kid’s dreams became a reality

[jodistorian]

[saeiken]

🔆🔆🔆🔆

[chanoeys]

WHOSE LINE IS IT ANYWAY? GREATEST HITS of WESTERNS

[ao3usermelancholyhues]

rb for larger sample size! feel free to elaborate in tags about your process.

[nedlittle]

genuinely i think it's important for adults, especially in the plague times, to play pretend in our day-to-day lives. when i rub my back down with tiger balm so i can sleep without pain, i imagine i am a valiant knight tending to an old injury i received from a dragon. when i go to the store to pick up eggs and milk, i am a lone cowboy riding into town on a mission. when i turn my collar up against the wind i am a femme fatale who's killed 4 husbands and is scoping out a 5th. when i stomp around in the snow i am a doomed polar explorer. if being a little bit silly about my walk to the pharmacy helps me remember that life can be full of joy and whimsy, then so be it.

[maculategiraffe]

okay so while we were moving into the new house we left the door propped open and a fat, peaceable raccoon moseyed in, looked around, climbed the water heater, curled up on the laundry room shelf and fell asleep. what do I do now

[keymintt]

as i stand plainly in the shade, unseen

[bedriddenandcrying]

Dunno how to feel abt this but spidey stelle💪