#guilt complex

[family-oddity]

[allrelativefiction]

loving yourself is as good of a type of absolution as any.

[shatterdome-underscore]

As someone with like bad mental health around (admittedly misplaced) guilt and a pathological need to help people, Vash the Stampede means so much to me. Like yeah dude I totally feel the weight of the universe on my shoulders and know that making people happy and therefore valuing me as a person feels better than like??? Any substance I've taken. But also losing oneself to the need to help no matter what leads to self destruction when I am inevitably flawed is damaging not only to myself but also those who love me. Also ultimately not everyone deserves the amount of grace and patience I am willing to give which just leads to 1. Me being treated shittily for no reason and 2. Them treating even more people shittily for no reason because they think it's fine. Like yeah, help people when you can and where you can, but remember to count yourself when you're trying to reduce harm wherever possible.

[fuckingwhateverdude]

6.10.23

[jumpde]

Jacket buddies

[trekkiehood]

This is not a dis or condemnation on anyone. But whenever I tell someone "oh I wasn't allowed to watch/read that as a kid" and they answer "well I wasn't allowed to either but I did" so nonchalantly. Like how??? How??? How did you just??? Disobey??? Wilfully? And not like??? Feel guilty the rest of your life??? And not confess??? And not get caught??? Like you just... Broke rules and hid things behind your parents back??? You worked around strict rules instead of just accepting them as life??? How???

[exclusivelyhomosexual]

An impending sense of doom? Absolutely, all the time.

But what about *also* an impending sense of guilt?

[poisonedm1nd]

The shame and compulsive internal self-flaggelation that follows social interaction is off-putting.

[macaulaytwins]

[gender-darling]

(⠀🎀⠀) : ❝ Complex flags (Part 3)❞

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[whumpybobbert]

Flash 1x12

Caitlin Snow: "I don't feel so well"

Barry Allen: Caretaker role

Henry Allen: Stabbed, handcuffed to the bed

Hartley Rathaway: Sonic torture (whumpee AND whumper)

Cisco Ramon: Sonic torture (whumper AND whumpee), guilt

[family-oddity]

I shake my head when I'm told I've done nothing wrong by someone who does not know the things that keep me up at night

I need to find a God in someone, strip myself bare, and ask, "Is it forgivable?"

[transmascgoblin]

Today while cleaning out an old drawer of things, I found this pair of hair ties. they are black and stretched out, close to breaking.

these hair ties belonged to a young girl. she had long, brown hair that her grandmother would always tell her was "so gosh darn pretty" and that she would "cast a spell to steal it all away, and we will swap hair". the girl always giggled and brushed the hair away from her face, tucking it behind her ears. always out of the way.

the girl loved her hair. wanted to grow it out, always long long long. she would braid the ends (only the ends) and twist pencils in it during class so that her hair would be curly when she took the pens and pencils out. she would wash it and sleep with it in two twin braids, so that when she woke up the next morning her hair would be beautifully wavy. she always struggled to get the braids right when doing it herself.

one summer, she forgot to brush her hair over and over. it took a whole day for her dad to get all the tangles out. she never forgot to brush her hair again, constantly thinking about how much it hurt to untangle hee thick hair.

this little girl loved her hair. she always wore it down, only putting it up in a bun or in a ponytail when she was at home. she loved to put it in braids and she loved when her mom used her flat iron to curl it into loose springs.

this little girl was always told how she was so smart, so talented, so nice, so *gifted*. this little girl who never missed a mark on a test and always wanted people to be happy. this little girl who disliked wearing dresses as she got older, because she felt out of place.

this girl who started wearing jeans and hoodies instead of leggings and tank tops. this girl who started wearing more androgenous clothing instead of dresses and skirts. this girl who started to hate her hair, in it's twin braids. this girl who stopped carrying around hair ties and cut off her hair, all on her own.

this girl who wanted to be a boy.

me.

Today while cleaning out an old drawer of things, I found her pair of hair ties. they are black and stretched out, close to breaking.

[wisdomfish]

You know, there is nothing in the entire world that can remove your guilt complex like just confessing to God and receiving the cleansing and the forgiveness from Him. A guilt complex is a weird thing. The guilt complex does create a subconscious desire for punishment. That subconscious desire for punishment is manifested in neurotic behavior patterns. The neurotic behavior patterns are designed to bring punishment to you. You start doing weird things. People start saying, "What is wrong with you? Why are you doing that? That is weird, man!" Well, I don’t know why I am doing it, because it is a subconscious thing. I am feeling guilty over something, and I need to be punished. So I am going now into an abnormal behavior that is going to bring disapproval and punishment upon me. And I continue with this neurotic behavior pattern until someone really tells me what a nut I am, how weird, and how I belong ostracized from society or something. And I feel great because they have punished me and I feel the relief of my guilt. But there is nothing in the world like coming to God and letting Him wash you and He takes away completely that guilt complex that has been plaguing you. ~ Chuck Smith

[fuckingwhateverdude]

4.23.23

[weirdwurbahahaaha]

Smart side of my brain: "your not a bad person you just made a mistake"

Idiot side of my brain: "but you made someone feel something negative, how could you do such a thing?"

Smart side: "okay but this is one person out of the many that you manage to give a smile too every single day"

To the people who have low self esteem or a guilt complex.. write something about yourself when you are feeling off and then write against it when you are feeling better or a little bit better. I started trying this and it is helping me quite a bit.