#i am still updating this blog but i have so much IC feels that i just

[yippee-boi09]

Uwa!? You findz this bloog??? (O_o)

ANYWAYZ haiiii welcome to mai blooogggg!! <3

My name is [REDACTED] but for the time being y'all can call me LittleGuy!

About me

-I'm transmasc, aroace

-He/They/It/Xe pronouns

-I have ADHD, am currently working to get an autism diagnosis and may update this later so plz keep in mind

-Green/Rainbow scene, RAWR X3

-I'm a furry just to let you all know (probably not gonna talk about it much unless asked)

-I don't allow NSFW on this blog nor do I usually talk about serious stuff unless it concerns me or it needs attention brought to it. I ABSOLUTELY allow gore and stuff (drawn, I can stomach real gore just fine but I'm not keen on it being on my blog :d)

-Anyone except the DNI below is welcome!

-I'm also an age regressor (and a pet regressior, kitty cat :3), this isn't my main blog for it... it's right here! (I still allow agere/petre topics on here! <3)

-Also I like ICP (Ice cold penis lol), Creepypasta, Marble Hornets (Slenderverse as a whole), Twisted Wonderland, Omori, and the horror genre as a whole

-This blog is mainly to just be about me and stuff :P about my life depending on when and what I wanna share. I will every now and again make posts about controversy that should have eyes toward it or possibly exposing people for horrible actions. (O_o) (this could be out of defense for others I know, I usually do the last thing if it involves me or friends and/or I feel the need to... I'm not always gonna address controversy happening lol) I also do stimboard requests, that's really it tho :P

That's really all about me... oh! I also write on ao3 occasionally and I may or may not post stories I write here and there lmao just don't expect frequency (I also laze around on spacehey too), I'm friends with @bloodydove08 and @lazloshearse so Go check the out! Never give up and have fun!

[laurentidal]

Ice Core Report ❄️ August 2024

Decided to do a little editorial check in at the end of each month. Most of you probably don't know that, while Lauren is my real first name, that my blog is actually named for a massive ice sheet that once lay over the place where I live (the Laurentide Ice Sheet). Thus, this is a report from my ice core.

#1 Story: Suggestion Box

This one was a huge surprise for me. It took off immediately, and I had not seen that coming. I'd had this image saved in my "had potential" folder for probably three weeks before I decided on how to tell the story. It went through an iteration where this was an ice skating rink, then it was a sandwich shop. I think one draft had a "five dollar footlong" joke in it. But ultimately I liked "arcade" the best.

#2 Story: Enjoy Your Stay

This was based on fun joking conversation I had with @hypno-potion and as the scaffolding we were joking about kept getting more elaborate I was like "No there is definitely something here." I'm glad you all agreed.

#3 Story: Kitty Pet Saga

I saw this picture and immediately knew what the story was going to be. Sometimes I see an image and think "There's something here if I look hard enough" and sometimes I see an image and a fully formed idea just jumps right out of it.

#4 Story: Oh My

This is a story I actually wrote quite some time ago for an old defunct website that never really got any foot traffic. I'm glad I brought it over, because it's one of my personal favorites. The only fauxcest story in the top five this month. That's one of those kinks I think I'm just going to have to accept that you guys aren't as into as I am (and I have the data to validate that claim).

#5 Story: Daughters and Suns

The only true repost from my old blog and the only part of a series in the top five this month. This series is my favorite thing I'm writing right now (though this entry isn't my favorite in the series). There's a lot more coming so I hope you're enjoying as much as I am.

Sunda Systems

We're half way through Season 1 of my Sunda Systems investigative mind control conspiracy story. Our investigator has made several contacts and visited the campus first-hand. She also might be starting to feel some effects from her various encounters, and her keen eye for detail is missing a few clues that are staring her right in the face. But I'm sure the date she's got lined up will give her some much needed relaxation.

Please please please share this story and feel free to get interactive with it! I've put some real effort into it and I've never written such a slow burn before. I'm enjoying the ride, and I've got some GOOD (I think) twists and turns coming. I think this format could be fun to play around with as an audience. Post your theories! I love seeing that folks are engaging with more than just the like button.

Update of Magics & Mesmerism

Some of you are aware that I'm working on an erotic mind control TTRPG called Magics & Mesmerism. I'm still plugging away. As we speak, I'm writing skills for the Innovator character class. As a treat, I'd like to share with you an except from the page on Hypnotic Foci:

General Thoughts

Every story in the top five this month is a FEMALE SUB story. Noted. I tend to favor that in my writing, too, which is interesting because I think Female Over Male stories are hotter, probably because of the subversion of expectations. I'm a slut for subversion of expectations.

I think that's everything. Love you all and I'm very excited for you to see what's coming in September. One of my favorites that I wrote comes out tomorrow, and on the 13th you'll be introduced to your first Force of Nature.

Till then, keep reading, keep messaging, keep asking, and if you're feeling generous, keep donating.

[campcounselorfrank]

„ Jeepers ! What is this place…? “

Hiya! This is a Frank/Spud themed roleplay blog!

Originally known as : @twostudcampcounselorspud

I am restarting!

Languages: Sign language, English, German.

System with over 20 alters!

We may act differently but that’s because not all alters act the same!

We will attempt to all run this more smoothly and correctly, we will also be answering with drawings. Please keep in mind that not every ask will be answered with a drawing!

IC tags: #twostudcamp

OOC tags: #ooctwostudcamp

We ask you to please be patient with all of us, we cannot control most things. Nor can we control how someone acts.

Come interact with us!

For starts, please boost us!

@‘s are appreciated so more people go to our profile, reblogs are MUCH preferred over just likes!

We also LOVE compliments! At least, most of us do. Only a few feel like they’re undeserving or they don’t want to be babyed.

Oh! Talking about babying us! PLEASE DONT!! It sucks to see how people only see Spud as some cute innocent little guy who does no harm and struggles to do everything, to us it just isn’t right. Our Spud is EXTREMELY different! So please! Don’t baby her!

Spud’s pronouns are All/Any!

Preferred the most: She/Her!

System name: The Chaotic Elevator / Chaotic

System pronouns (Together) are They/Them, All/Any!

All of us have different boundaries, some are the same, but we should state the main ones just to be safe! (Main ones as in they either front the most or are the „leader“ of their og group)

Spud - No talking about the past and/or future, no commenting on body at ALL, asks to please not be treated like a child.

Zip - Be patient due to hard time understanding emotions, no sexualization, no bringing up the events that took place in past/future.

Engel - NEVER mention what happened to Claire, do not piss off, can get extremely cranky so again, be patient.

Cashier - No disrespecting personal space, due to owning a shop, you’re asked to not shoplift either.

Oliver - Do NOT mention older sister, extremely shy sometimes, can be overly rude and a bully.

Rocket - NO sexualization, no babying, doesn’t like being treated like a kid unless for a good reason.

Unpleasant - DON’T bring up what happened, don’t mention “cats” or “cat eater” EVER!! Be EXTREMELY CAUTIOUS!!

Piercer - Personal space, if asked to stop then DO IT.

Null/Filename2 - NEVER bring up what happened, extreme amnesiac, hard time understanding, hard time reading due to one eye being destroyed in the past.

Kaski - Just dont bring up anything related to Orin Ayo with these ones,, just don’t.

Blam - Don’t bring up anything related to ONaF,, still, just don’t.

Circubit - Afraid of touch related things, shy, doesn’t communicate much.

The blog will be update from time to time!

For now just boost us so we get back to where we were!

Sometimes there will be typing quirks, it depends on the person!

Only SLIGHT NSFW allowed! Some alters are minors and some aren’t. Please refrain from excessive asks like that if the alter fronting isn’t comfortable or they’re a minor!

An alter who was originally an oc will be appearing too!

PLEASE INTERACT AS REGRETEVATOR NPCS TOO!!

Fronting as this is being written : Engel!

This will be all for now! Bye bye!!

[yeonban]

SO! Long time coming updates but here's how I'll roll from now on to hopefully avoid stressing myself out with big numbers all over again:

On Tumblr. 𓂅 01. I'm going to softblock everyone who hasn't attempted to interact ic with me since 2024 started! Huge numbers stress me out and as much as I adore reading you guys' portrayals, I unfortunately think my mental health will thrive more if I keep my dash solely to the people I actively write with. I'll start sbing people this Monday, so if you want to write with me you have until then to shoot me an ic ask or tag me in a starter or what have you! If you don't and I sb though, you're free to refollow whenever our muses mesh better and you think we'll write together, absolutely no hard feelings involved! Maybe we can't come up with any interesting ideas for our current muses and that's okay, who knows what the future holds! 𓂅 02. On the note of writing. I'm going to go through my inbox & drafts and clean out everything I don't have muse for, and then on January 2025 I might clean my inbox out entirely, which means whatever's still in there 4 months from now will likely be purged to allow me to focus better instead of constantly scrolling through hundreds of asks I can't bring my muses to reply to. Next year is going to be my last year of uni, so I'll try to declutter this blog as much as possible to help me remain active on here even while doing internships & writing my dissertation! 𓂅 03. I might delete some muses off my roster, namely those I rarely or never use, but if our muses are intertwined in any shape or form or if you ever feel like rping with them, I am willing to write them for/with you! The main reason I'll be taking them off the main roster (and maybe make a tiny list of muses I only write for certain people's portrayals so you don't think you're losing your marbles when seeing me rp muses I don't ~officially~ rp) is because I won't write them for everyone who follows me anymore. That said, if I take them off because I've temporarily lost muse for them (<-it happens sometimes), we can still talk about them/plot for them in dms! The dynamics I've built on here mean a ton to the both of us, so I'll ALWAYS be down to talk about them and help you shape your muse's main/verse lore if it includes/involves mine (i.e affiliates)! 𓂅 04. Now on my end of starting interactions, I'll begin sending people stuff more regularly! That includes prompted memes whenever I see any that fit the bill even if it means sending 30 memes in a row (you NEVER have to reply to all, or even any, if you're not feeling them so please don't feel pressured to! I just want to give people options to pick from if they ever feel a lot of inspo for a particular muse/verse/dynamic), unprompted memes if I happen to come up with scenarios that I'd like to explore (again no pressure to reply to them!) and random starters if I think the ideas I have would do better as threads than one-off interactions (these will probs only happen if we've plotted and I know for a fact that you're alright w the ideas I'm presenting, so expect me to manifest into your dms before I write any random starters!). I'll make sure to ask this of every one of you individually, but for those who are alright with it, I'll also start tagging you in things that remind me of our muses' dynamic, and/or (depending on what you're comfy with) have my muse talk about your muse in my interactions w others!

On Discord. 𓂅 01. I'll be deleting the people I haven't talked to in ages and/or who show no interest in talking to me! Talking includes both chatting/rambling and plotting, so if you want to escape The Purge you can shoot me a message with a cat video or a plot idea or whatever else's on your mind at the time! I know there are a few people I haven't replied to yet so dw you guys are NOT getting deleted by any meansdajsdh I promise I'll get to every single dm I owe before uni starts and then make a regular effort to respond in time to everyone! I just don't see a reason to keep hundreds of people on discord when I talk to maybe 20 on a good year. 𓂅 02. This isn't going to just be an one-way effort from your part! I'll make sure to pop into your dms on a constant basis too, from the moment the purge ends!

[etrevil]

hey!! I absolutely love the vibes of your blog! I’m getting into bungo stray dogs (or trying to :’) ) and since you seemingly write fics for it, do you have more recs?? I don’t really know what the main pairings are but I like to use fics as a way to see if I’ll like the fandom and pairs!! Thank you!!

you're making me crack my knuckles because DAMN AM I NOW EXCITED :DDD

terms used: bsd (bungou stray dogs), hp (harry potter), mha (my hero academia), soukoku (chuuya/dazai), shin soukoku (atsushi/akutagawa), chuuda (where chuuya tops), fyozai (dazai/fyodor), fyolai (fyodor/nikolai)

First and foremost is the widely beloved I Was Screaming Your Name Through The Radio by ElectricSplatter, which is just a rollercoaster of emotions that grip you by the throat. Do note that the chapters are hella long, but enjoyable. The relationships are fleshed out beautifully.

Magic and Mystery by Allegory_for_Hatred is also a good start because it's a bsd and hp crossover that's just, amazing. Had me up at 3am until I physically could not read. There's an ongoing sequel too!

wtf, since when are you married? by xxalwayssofia is a short, quick laugh that, for me, had one of the best characterization for soukoku. Sofia's stories in general (check her account!) have got the character's personality traits down with little creative liberties.

Ne Chuuya, won't you marry me? is another one by xxalwayssofia, and I die of laughter because of this on a daily basis.

Now, I may be mean for suggesting this, but this fic is a diamond found within a gold mine that will eventually end you up in jail because some rich dude probably owned it first. In summary, it hurts. Like a gunshot wound (wink wink to the readers). And that is Ruiner by gev_ao3 (rated the E-est of E's)! The long-awaited consequence chapter is already out for this one, so when you binge read it the ending will hopefully be satisfying. Just be aware this is incredibly graphic, psychological, and angst-filled to the brim.

I read If the Far Side Saw You by birbleh a considerable time ago, but it both pinches and caresses my heart all the same. I haven't anything else to say other than give it a chance.

Ice Queen by TheHighQueen is a great ongoing Dazai genderbend fic, that follows canon with interesting diverging road stops.

This Color Ain't It by justcallmedude has Kenji, our lovable super strength-powered farmer, as a main character! Crossover between bsd and mha with a dash of angst thrown here and there.

For a shin soukoku pairing fic, I'd suggest Fair Ankles by spirallings (rated E) and love knows no boundaries by dangodangomilk; fun, interesting stories that aren't that long, the latter's a oneshot and the former's ugh, just around 100k words :>

One of the first bsd fics I've read, which is with a fyozai pairing, is Letters from the Underground by ktaem! The writing style has its own refined edge, with the exploration of a what-if scenario that had me by hook, line, and sinker. This fic is still in my tab group because I always keep rereading it!

Now if we're entering the explicit territory, I will forever recommend my favorite series (pairing is chuuda btw) Ineffable Partners by Ch_ee_rios. The eighth installment is currently updating, and I promise, you will cry- or at least feel a significant gut punch.

Head Full of Lies by AbsoluteNegation, as my friend one said, is where the good shit's at. The premise had me instantly curious and soukoku's dynamic is wonderful, messy, and DAMN I LOVE THIS FIC SO MUCH.

Mors Vincit Omnia by themadtree, an soukoku and fyolai fic that will have you bending over and dying of laughter and pain. The author's other works (akai!) are also very good.

The series all that is left by alaruya is a personal favorite of mine. The writing style is unique, with choppy sentences and tear-jerker lines. Was the first story that ever had me thinking, "god I need to bookmark this," and I did.

Bottom of The Deep Blue Sea by arkastadt is a filthy, guilty pleasure. (can you tell I'm an avid bottomzai reader?)

And that's it... I think? I'm also willing to suggest Leafing Through The Pages, I Found You by YunaYamiMouto, but letting you know it's an ongoing reaction fic of the bsd cast to Dazai's life (with the author's own creative choices and headcanons), so there will be a lot, and I mean a HECK TON of spoilers. Which, to be fair, the other fics do have in sprinkles, but this tackles novel events that maybe you'd wish to read at your own pace :D

also shameless plug I have my own fic, the heat of your orange, and I know there's only one chapter but I'm trying my best to update soon

Happy reading!

[nikki-tine]

So it's come to my attention that despite the page I have set up within the desktop version of my blog, I don't have a mobile version of an introduction post here. Oops! This one's newly written, too, in a different format than the other.

So, that being said - Hello!

I am Nikki/Niko (Whichever you prefer!) and I am a 27-year old Genderfluid artist person (My birthday is on January 9th!). I don't think there's too much to be said here, but I can and will say with confidence that this blog has been, especially in the last few or so years built up to be a catch-all for whatever I deem good to reblog or post (All of which typically related to fluff stuff, feel-good vibes or something that I may feel strongly about).

This place is, and always will be a safe space for a) People with disabilities (I am autistic, have ADD and Bipolar as well as Anxiety) and b) LGBTQ+-identifying people (I am, as mentioned before Genderfluid, and I'm Pansexual Panromantic!).

If a reblog or post makes you uncomfortable, then I will happily delete it if asked.

I make it a point to keep these posts SFW especially nowadays - however, I can't quite vouch for possibly the oldest of my posts (as I've been here since the early 2010s along with some ol' dumb teen thoughts involved and it'd take forever to sort absolutely everything out from over a decade ago at this point). I'm pretty sure that I've removed most of the NSFW stuff already from those years ago, but if I missed something then I don't mind deleting it as long as you let me know first (I'm incredibly disorganized and would appreciate a nudge in the right direction).

With these details out of the way - I am an artist that dabbles in various fandoms with no real sense of rhyme or reason outside of either hyperfixated interest or otherwise with the intent to update old ideas and refresh them into new ones. Like most artists on the internet, I ask that you do not repost without credit, trace and/or copy my work. I'm quite literally living paycheck by paycheck with my family right now. You CAN however use my artwork as a reference or as inspiration for your own work - If you do, lemme know! I'd love to see the result!

Here's a vague list of fandoms I dabble in (though my post history doesn't quite show that as I tend to leave most of my stuff to posting on Discord instead):

Pokemon (I've been a part of this one almost my entire life lol)

Sonic the Hedgehog (Another fandom I've been in for a grand majority of my life! I'm more of a casual fan as I haven't made much art recently, but I still absolutely love looking at what others come up with for OCs and stuff.)

Undertale (ESPECIALLY AU-centric)

Digimon (Passionate about this one specifically - I have a project I've been working with under this fandom since 2014 on and off)

Cookie Run (Kingdom primarily with a minor Ovenbreak focus for AU concept ideas)

Dark Cloud/Dark Chronicle (This one's SO obscure, but if you know these games then I give you a virtual baked good of your liking! These two games hold a very special place in my heart.)

Dance Dance Revolution, NotITG, Friday Night Funkin (I'm a rhythm game nerd and love the creativity of the communities surrounding these three - I just haven't been able to piece together anything for it yet visually except for FNF stuff on and off)

A Dance of Fire and Ice (Same as the DDR fandom part, but I've made a couple fanart pieces before so this one I may have an easier time of conceptualizing later)

FNAF (Specifically Security Breach AU work! This one's not as frequent as others but I still have stuff in mind for it. Security Breach is how I finally caved with the FNAF series as a whole after watching how the fandom grew over the years.)

Warriors (Warrior Cats, in our year 2024? Eeyup. I just like the funny spiritual witties!)

Team Fortress 2 (This one's in and out but it's one that I come back to a lot as my boyfriend, regularly interacting and involved in the GMOD animation community reminds me of my own TF2 stuff with his presence alone lol. Love you James! &lt;3)

Persona 3, 4 and 5 (This one's a lil self-explanatory but I have AU ideas surrounding these games that I want to make more art for eventually)

If I have anything else not listed before, I'll add it to the list. C: Please keep in mind that although I dabble in these fandoms, AU versions of existing characters may be changed in terms of sexuality, personality etc to reflect the AU they are from (For example, I have a version of Cream Unicorn Cookie that uses he/they pronouns, and my Redeemed!Pomegranate Cookie from the same AU leans bisexual over lesbian for reasons relating to reflection of character and overall character development. I like to make characters more flexible while self-indulging, so keep this in mind). I note this because my own headcanons about certain characters have set off one or two people in the past unintentionally and they VERY much have pushed things in an effort to keep canon down my throat out of retaliation. Let's just say that this part in particular is a thing that taps a sore spot for me for personal reasons. :/

When it concerns making art of my characters - surprise or not, feel free to make art of them and mention me in post (and/or message me, either way works)! It makes me feel SO loved when I get art from others, and I appreciate every piece dearly. 💜💜💜 (I go so far as to hold onto an archive of art that was done for me - with artist names in-tact within the file name nowadays!)

A few things to consider when it concerns tickling-related matters with me:

I am a Switch! I'm unsure how far Ler or Lee I am just yet, but I do enjoy tickling both ways. Unfortunately, however, I'm the kind of person that practically flies across a room when poked,, (if it comes down to tickling my sona - Niko Spirata - tie or hold 'em down if you want to wreck 'em with tickles lol)

My interest in tickling alone is purely SFW - It feels too weird looking at IRL photos/videos with very rare exception (a lot of the exception is the giggle the lee produces from ticklish contact). As a result, all the stuff I'll be reblogging and posting here is art or animation-related instead!

My favorite tickle trope is the one where a shrunken someone or a small something wiggles under the unwitting lee's clothing to tickle them! (Points at wormonastriing's Squirmles as an example of this trope :3) No, seriously. If I end up with art of any of my characters getting destroyed with tickles in this manner I will ASCEND BEYOND GALAXIES.

My favorite spots with tickling overall are belly, side and rib tickling - on rarer occasions, I enjoy tickling in other places (I prefer foot tickling if the lee has paws instead of normal feet!). This lines up with a particular enjoyment of characters being slightly chubby! I looove a good squeeze of the sides or belly, enough to get the lee blurting out giggles.

I have only a few tags I use now on a regular, but these are:

#nikki-tine (This is my user tag and I put it in with my art posts and other things I post sometimes. You may also see others' posts under this tag, primarily with stuff related to asks or when art's been posted for me in the past &lt;3)

#art, #tickle art, #tickling art (These are self-explanatory!)

#NJEGNJ (Something to that effect, lol. It's not exact but keyboard smash tag is typically wrote similarly or around the same for several posts, all of which ones that got me chuckling or giggling like a dork!)

~

My Commission Status is currently set to OPEN (paypal prioritized for now).

It's really complicated, however, and I don't have any other methods than Paypal and Robux right now so if you have questions about that then feel free to message me and I'll try to clear it up as best I can!

I only have two prices, both fully colored and shaded.

Chibies are $25 USD (+ 5 for an extra character)

My normal art style is $50 USD (+ 10 for an extra character)

I do best leaving the BG transparent, but if I HAVE to work on one then I can do nature-themed backgrounds pretty okay. It’s not a strong-suit of mine, however…

My Art Trade Status is Busted Wide Open™ to Mutuals, but I'm a little picky and choosy with random people.

If I decline an Art Trade, please don't take it personally!

In terms of Roleplay, It's Closed on-blog, BUT I'm Open to Roleplay in Discord servers (Provided there's a Tupperbot there for me to use).

I've been looking to find an RP server that has mutuals/friends and allows Undertale-related stuff (especially of the tickling-related kind!), so if you're a part of one please let me know!

DM Status overall is Open (As long as you are kind to me, I will return kindness back!).

My Asks are ALWAYS OPEN! I really like getting stuff in my inbox (and I unfortunately don't get asks often at all).

I'm most comfortable interacting with other adults and SFW blogs (this is more-so for safety than anything else on my end. I don't have the emotional or mental energy to handle potential drama involving context-disconnected words). I don't mind interacting with NSFW blogs here but only if in the context of specific interests of mine and not much else.

I don't really have much in the way of who can't interact with me as long as you are respectful/mindful of chat etiquette and are aware of the kind of impact you may make in messaging people like myself.

I do my best to look at blog descriptions and respect DNI's - If I end up poking at something I shouldn't by accident, as long as it's not met with aggression in DMs, I will happily fix whatever problem you may have related to that. I HATE making others uncomfortable/upset!

If you have questions, feel free to ask! I don't really use other forms of Social Media, but I do use some websites with a social aspect to them casually.

Links:

Flightrising (Funny dragon site)

Chicken Smoothie (This one's a fun lil adopt site from the late 2000s)

GPX Plus (This is literally Pokefarm Q before Pokefarm Q lol)

Gaia Online (Another old site with unfortunate currency inflation, but it's the site that's kept me going with character designing and such over the years! The blog part here is old, but the avatar is updated from time to time. This site is the reason I lean on Monochrome + a color as an aesthetic a lot lol)

Bluesky (mostly inactive - want activity there? nudge me here!)

DeviantArt (It's VERY rare I post here now. Also a warning for those under 18 - there's suggestive and nsfw art in my favorites dotted here and there so look with caution. my gallery itself is SFW however and all the works that would have been nsfw are archived.)

Artfight (Self-explanatory!)

[enruiinas]

PSA: INDEFINITE HIATUS. Long post ahead, so for an upfront tl/dr: blog is currently on an indefinite, possibly permanent hiatus with the exception of affiliate ic interactions.)

Hey, guys! Dropping in with a really overdue update. As you may have noticed, I haven't been doing as much writing here lately, and I think it's officially time I have to come in and admit with being fairly new to the RP scene this past year, I got a bit overzealous and ended up taking on way more than I've been able to keep up with. I feel like I've gotten further and further behind these past few months, and even though I know for a fact most of you do not care how long it takes to reply (I have carefully curated my dash and mutuals circle with this in mind), I cannot seem to get myself past the point of being overwhelmed & feeling bad for taking so long. It's silly, but I think I've stressed about it for so long at this point I cannot get back to the place I want to be with enjoying writing again.

I am not a fan of dropping things. There's nothing that comes into my inbox or drafts I've ever not been excited for and I want to reply to everything. But I think I'm at a point where I'm feeling so bad that there isn't going to be a point of coming back from it. All of that said, I'm extremely sorry to have to do this, but at this time, I've decided to pare things down and go affiliates only for ic interactions for a while. These have been the only things I've been able to work on for a while because they're the most heavily plotted and most ooc-chatted about. Many of you have been incredibly nice and patient ooc and I want to be extremely clear that this is nothing anyone's done and not because of a lack of effort on anyone else's part to plot with/chat with me even when I'm not writing - it is completely a me issue, and I'm so sorry to everyone I've kept waiting for replies both ic and ooc while I've been in this headspace. I'm so grateful to every single one of you for wanting to write and/or chat with me, and I will still be around ooc if you want to stay in contact.

I am hoping that in doing this for a little while, I'll eventually feel like I'm in a better place and not quite as overwhelmed going forward. I still don't like to drop things and will be storing/archiving everything that's still unanswered with the hope of coming back and being able to respond to everything in time, but I think this is going to be a long process and will go ahead and call this an indefinite hiatus on everything outside of affiliate interactions. If you're open to hearing back from me after some time has passed (if I do get back to a good headspace/relationship with writing again), I'm grateful for that as well, but I completely understand if anyone would rather drop mutuals at least for the time being.

[beebeetheclown]

This is going to be such a corny, silly, cringe, and pathetic girl type of thing to say but here is a happy rant for you:

I am crying but I’m pretty sure they are more so happy tears. I sit in my dorm room and I realize that this blog is so special to me. Yeah it’s a blog about a girl obsessing over a 45 year old man but still it’s special to me.

It is so special to me because it is what I look forward to doing everyday. I don’t have any friends in real life and I have some on here that make me so happy. Even people who just reblog my things make me happy.

Not to be all “boo hoo” but every week day I have to spend in college is a horrible day for me. I end up so drained and depressed. I seriously think the biggest thing that’s helping me get through this isn’t even my medication or isn’t my therapist, it is this blog and my ao3. Seriously, my day could be so horrible, I could be at rock bottom, and coming on here, going on ao3, or updating my silly fics helps me so much. I come home from school so fucking miserable but I write and look at this account and then get better again. It is like drinking a vanilla iced coffee.

I feel this is so cliche and corny but bear with me here okayyy?? I just feel like I’ve finally found something I can be good at. This may sound over dramatic but I seriously have no clue where I’d be if I never posted my stories or got an account. Obviously my man Jeremy has helped me out too, but that’s different because he doesn’t know I exist ahaha.

I don’t know, just thank you for supporting me💗

Every time I rant now I’ll give you a picture of Jeremy to thank you. Here’s one of my favorites for you ;)

Also if we aren’t friends and you wanna be besties dm me I can be your bestie���🏼‍♀️🙋🏼‍♀️ Don’t even be embarrassed you can fully just say “let’s be besties” and I’ll say yes. You can literally tell me anything.

[your-coquette-queen]

GUYS IM BACK!

HEY EVERYONE!

I'm sorry for the two year hiatus, I went through a period where I struggled and I really just had to come out the other side finding who I am. However, I am now back and feel so much happier! In case come of you forgot, I'm Ava! I originally had this account and ended up talking mainly about rock bands (notably KISS), Stranger Things, and Star Wars!

However, over the past two years a lot has honestly changed. I still love music, mainly now pop and musical theatre however I do love rock and still love talking about it with people. I love Star Wars still however my main fandom is currently Supernatural. Hopefully I have some Supernatural enjoyers in my audience and we can connect.

I also love 2000's everything and Incorporate into a lot of my style , so just expect to likely to see lots of 2000's core on here

A little UPDATED bit about me:

IT WILL BE LONG JUST NOTE:

Expect lots of music on here! I think I will just have one blog and move throughout fandoms that I enjoy so expect a bit of everything!

I am Christian! Christianity has been a long journey for me but I am so thankful to be in a really positive place with my faith. I left this blog two years ago with a lot of struggles but have come back overcoming those problems! I likely will not post a lot about faith as that is not the main part of the account but it is a big part of my life and something I am proud of. If I have other Christians here, I am always open to talking!

I love makeup!

Favorite tv shows:

Supernatural

ER

Movies:

Ten Inch Hero

Wedding Crashers

Cinderella Story

Legally Blonde

Without a Paddle

Star Wars: Phantom Menace

Star Wars: A New Hope

Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith

Clueless

Hunger Games

Scooby Doo!

Batman: Dark Knight

Twilight

Princess Diaries

She's the Man

Singers/Bands:

Britney Spears

Christina Aguilera

Rihanna

Destiny's Child

Duran Duran

Katy Perry

Beyonce

NSYNC

Nelly Furtado

Timbaland

Frankie Valley and the Fourth Seasons

Simple Minds

Alice Cooper

KISS

Megadeth

Journey

Motley Crue

The Temptations

Dianna Ross

Michael Jackson

Ice Spice

Lay Bankz

Ayesha Erotica

Meghan Thee Stallion

Fergie

Madonna

Nikki Minaj

Jessie J

Marvin Gaye

1 Direction (when I was like 14 but idc their songs still cook😭😭)

Fav Musicals:

Cats

Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat

Starlight Express

Falsettos

25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee

Book of Mormon

& Juliet

Miss Saigon

Rocky Horror

Spamalot

Back to the Future

Guys and Dolls

Suisical

Pippin

Legally Blonde

Ain't Too Proud

Little Shop of Horrors

Guttenberg

Young Frankenstein

Little Women

Music Genres:

Rock(multiple genres within!)

Pop

80's/90's county

K-Pop

Musical Theatre

Opera/Classical

New Wave

Alternative

Actors/Celebrities I love:

Paris Hilton: SHE'S MY QUEEN/ ONE OF MY BIGGEST INSPIRATIONS

Jared Padalecki

Jensen Ackles

Matthew Lillard

Misha Collins

Christian Bale

Ryan Reynolds

Channing Tatum

Hayden Christensen

Ryan Gosling

Pamela Anderson

Heather Locklear

Chad Michael Murray

Mark Wahlberg

Reese Witherspoon

Josh Hutcherson

Elizabeth Taylor

Taylor Lautner

Tom Cruise

Tom Selleck

I will likely update this as I start interacting on here again but I am so happy to be back!

Excited to talk to some of you guys again🤍

[ros3ybabe]

Daily Check-in: October 12th, 2023 🎀

Today has been a lazy yet somewhat decent day? There's not much to complain about. Besides the fact that I didn't do a single homework assignment, I'm exhausted, so that's alright. I did do a decent amount of Japanese studying today though I didn't open up my Genki Textbook like I had wanted to but oh well, there's always tomorrow!

🩷 What I Ate Today -

Brunch - Spaghetti with ground Turkey and meat sauce

Dinner - Taco bowl with ground beef, black beans, shredded cheese, shredded lettuce, sour cream, a small dollop of avocado, and red salsa with 1.5 low carb tortillas

Snack - bunny tracks ice cream, 16oz bottle of Dr pepper

Extra - 4? cups of coffee (or 5, I can't remember)

I was not very productive today in terms of academic progress, but I still feel like I did what I could given my energy levels. (and caffiene intake). Did not eat the healthiest, but I listened to my body, and honestly, not every day will be perfect, and that's okay!

🩷 Personal Achievements, Oct 12th -

cooked ground beef (leftovers woooo!!)

washed dirty laundry

put away all clean clothes

did my therapy phone call

video called my boyfriend

morning + night skincare

completed 2 duolingo lessons

completed 1 busuu lesson

completed 3 kanji lessons

typed up one draft for upcoming blog post

I had heard about an app called Kanji that teaches you kanji based on JLPT Levels, and I actually really like it, so I bought access to all levels for 11$ USD!! feel like that's a fair price for over 2000 kanji, and I'm excited to start expanding my Japanese knowledge. Also, I am trying out the LingQ app. It's pretty interesting and seems useful for reading practice! I don't know why I got such a kick to study japanese but I am not complaining!!

No Academic Achievements for Today

🩷 Personal ToDo, Oct 13th -

Review previous 3 kanji lessons

Complete 1 duolingo lesson

Complete 1 busuu lesson

Continue Genki I Lesson one (?)

morning + night skincare

morning + night journal

morning workout (at home)

make bed

read 1 chapter of atomic habits or other self help book

🩷 Academic ToDo, Oct 13th -

Culinary Chapter 10 Quiz

Consumer Debt Inventory Assignment

Chapter 9 Notes Psyc

Chapter 9 Quiz Psyc

Attend Psyc Lab

Attend Anatomy Lab

Using Credit Personal Finance assignment

module notes fitness health and sport

module quiz fitness health and sport

work on component 2 for psyc paper

Giving myself a lot of school work to complete tomorrow but that's okay because I have the day off from work so I know I'll be able to get a lot of it done, if not all of it! I'm hoping I sleep decently tonight so I can wake up ready to rule the world tomorrow. My goal is to wake up early, workout, shower, do some makeup and get ready, and be on campus early to get back into the school mindset because I know I've been slacking these last two days. I work a double shift on Saturday, so tomorrow is really the ideal time to finish everything as much as possible.

🩷 Song of the Day: Fearless, Jp Version - Le Sserafim

This has been my anthem lately. It's catchy, and I kind of prefer this to the original version in Korean, but that's a bit biased on my end as I am studying Japanese at the moment.

🩷 Tomorrow Morning Workout - Pilates

Even if I only finish the first video, I will be proud of myself. It's the effort that counts, and it's definitely gonna be a start! I will be posting an updated current workout schedule with routines soon!!

That's all for now! I will update tomorrow night!

Til next time, lovelies 🩷

[elliscousland]

thank you to everyone who has been patient with me the last few days! i know there hasn't been a whole lot of ic activity & a few back-to-back ooc posts. which it is my blog & i know i can post about anything & everything i feel like, but i still appreciate the people who are waiting on ic & ooc replies & understanding that i have a lot going on in my life right now. most of it is positive! i feel so, so, so fortunate for the way this year has gone it has been so full of old & new friends, family & good memories. but that's left a little less room for online activities.

not that i treasure any of the bonds i've made online any less, it's just difficult to find the right balance between online & offline relationship maintenance. i usually focus on one or the other but i am trying to change that because my online bonds are so important to me as well. which is where i think i am especially thankful for the people who have been patient with me? i know i am often hard to get ahold of / talk to in general just because of fluctuating energy levels i just appreciate the people who stick around so so much.

tomorrow i'm hoping to set some time aside to check in with friends & pursue creative outlets, though i can't promise anything! i will probably continue being pretty low activity until august second bcs my brothers will be here until them & every moment i can steal with them is so, so, so important for reasons i don't want to get into on the dash. i am so thankful to have the opportunity to connect with them this year like i have & i just feel so lucky for every bond i've been able to make & grow with others .

anyways, i am rambling. i just wanted to make a little bit of an update because i haven't done much ic stuff lately, which is definitely ok, but i have enough friends & relationships forged via tumblr i want to do a little ' things are good, they're just busy ' post since i've shifted from being chronically online to almost always outside in the span of a few days.

[tearfallpixie]

Make Mama Happy - Chapter 2

Lots of updates in this chapter. I hope you like it 🖤🖤🖤

Tags: @nerdraging4point0 @thesazzb @synthetic-wasp-570 @circle-with-me @beaker1636 @itsjustemily @witchyweeb34 @agravemisstake @cookiesupplier @cncohshit @faceless-mirror @nonamessblog @yournecessaryevil @black-damask1999

@lyschko666 @vinyardmauro @skulliecadaver-blog @some-daniela @latenightmusiclover

“I talked to Rick.” I scowled at the mention of the guitarist’s name and looked up to glare at my friend. After the party Heather had sought out Richard, and the truth unraveled quickly. He confessed to lying to Vinny about me creating a web of lies so that the drummer didn't get involved with me. The revelation had triggered a storm of emotions and after a lot of screaming and fighting, Heather had shown up on my doorstep at 2 am sobbing about how sorry she was and It became evident she hadn't realized the depth of his dislike for me. 

Despite the betrayal, I couldn't bring myself to blame Heather for the actions of her dumbass boyfriend. I let her in, and together we sought solace on the couch, drowning our sorrows in a shared bucket of ice cream.

“Oh?” I asked, feigning nonchalance.

“He feels bad about what he did.” Heather mumbled meekly, her voice tinged with desperation. I scoffed and stood from the table to slam my plate into the sink. 

“He called me a fucking whore.” I snarled, the anger bubbling to the surface, earning a guilty and scared look from Heather. “I would never do that to you.” 

“I know! But he sounded sincere.” She pleaded, trying to get me to understand.

“He can fuck right off. I will no longer come to anything with you that he is attending.” I declared, cutting through her attempts to justify his behavior. She went to protest, but I turned my back on her, my resolve unwavering. “I have to get to the winery. I’ll see you later.” 

I heard a slight whimper from her but couldn't bring myself to turn around. Once the retreating footsteps faded and the door closed, I glanced over my shoulder. Left alone in the large, empty house, I let out a shaky, angry breath. Richard Olson was the biggest asshole in the world, and forgiveness was a distant notion at that moment.

I reached for my black pencil skirt and crisp white blouse, the professional attire I typically chose for my role as the winery's event coordinator. While my usual day was spent in the office, occasionally I found myself pouring wine and interacting with guests. Collecting my composure, I took one last glance in the mirror, reaffirming my strength before heading out to the winery.

“Nichole! We have a special guest coming today so we want you to take care of them. We’re short staffed today so we need you as backup.” The front of house manager, Rachel, called as I walked through the door.

“Of course. Who is it?” I asked, dropping my coat on the rack and trying to remember any events I had scheduled today.

“The reservation is under the name Kyle Mauro.” Rachel informed me. I froze and turned to her, the familiarity of the last name striking a chord within me. Mauro was Vinny's last name, and the possibility of it being a mere coincidence seemed remote. Justin, the bassist for the band, also shared the same last name, albeit with a different spelling. It left me praying for the odds of this being some random person to be the likely situation.

"Yeah, that's fine. I'll take care of them," I promised, my tone steady despite the uncertainty that accompanied the name Kyle Mauro. I couldn't shake the suspicion that this encounter might complicate my day, but I reminded myself to take a deep breath and put on a smile. I still had to be professional despite who this turned about to be. 

"Thank you so so much. They'll be in the private suite," Rachel expressed her gratitude, and I nodded in acknowledgment. Stepping into my office, I immersed myself in the tedious but necessary task of paperwork, a temporary respite before the winery opened its doors to the patrons.

As I focused on the files and documents spread across my desk, a few employees entered my office with queries about time off or concerns related to their pay. I addressed each issue as best I could, ensuring that everything was in order before the busy day started.

Before I knew it, the clock struck 11 am, and the winery's doors swung open to welcome the first wave of visitors. Rising from my desk, I straightened my skirt, ready to transition from the paperwork to the dining room.

As I entered the bustling dining area, I noticed the early arrivals, most of them tourists enjoying the wine-tasting tours that some companies offered allowing them to visit several wineries in one day. With a quick glance at the table map, I saw that the area that needed coverage was the upstairs section where the private suite awaited Kyle later in the day. I walked up to the top floor and admired the above view of the dining room as I ascended the stairs.

“Good morning!” I cheered, giving my brightest smile to the 4 girls sitting at the only currently occupied table. “What are you four beautiful ladies in for?” I teased.

“We’re here for Barbra’s bachelorette party. She’s getting married in a week so we took a girls vacation.” One of them gestured to the girl next to her.

“Well I will make sure you gals have a wonderful time. Are we here for a tasting?” 

"Yes, please! We heard raving reviews about this place, so we had to check it out. We also want to try a charcuterie board," the guests enthused, their excitement palpable. I jotted down their order, and went to the office on this level to send it down to the kitchen, beforeI grabbing the first wine for them to taste. 

I engaged in friendly conversation, offering insights into the flavors and nuances of each selection. As I navigated through their wine tasting, a few more tables trickled in, some of them just coming in to grab a single glass of wine. The first level buzzed with the pleasant hum of satisfied customers while the upstairs stayed peaceful.

By around 2 in the afternoon, the top level had emptied, leaving me with some slow moments to finish up some paperwork. Seated in the little office, I immersed myself in my task, the rhythmic sounds of the winery serving as a background hum.

I heard a vibration on the table next to me, indicating a new text message so I picked up my phone. I glanced at the screen, curious about who was contacting me.

R: Kyle Mauro is here. Can you come escort them up?

N: Be right down

Tucking my paperwork back into its folder, I set it to the side before descending the stairs. Midway down, my attention was drawn to the front desk, where a familiar curly mop from the party caught my eye. Beside him stood an equally familiar drummer, his scowl evident as if he'd prefer to be anywhere else.

"Kyle Mauro?" I questioned as I approached them, trying to keep my voice steady so as to not show my annoyance at the unwelcome guest. Vinny's eyes snapped to mine, and his scowl deepened, a clear sign of discomfort and tension in the air. Kyle glanced over and elbowed his brother in the side before turning back to me with a beaming smile.

"Yep! You're Nichole from the party, aren't you?" Kyle said, his demeanor distinctly warmer than Vinny's. Despite the tension radiating from the drummer, Kyle's amiable nature seemed unaffected.

"Yeah! What brings you two in today?" I inquired, picking up two menus and motioning for them to follow as I led the way back up the steps.

"I'm getting married and wanted to come taste some wines from here for the special day," Kyle beamed with excitement, his joy infectious.

"Congratulations! Who's the special lady?" I said, deliberately ignoring the glares sent my way by Vinny, who seemed less than thrilled to be in my presence.

"Man, actually," Kyle revealed. I raised my eyebrows in surprise, but my warm smile remained unaltered.

"Well then, congratulations. That is exciting. Let's find you the perfect wine," I offered, leading them to the private suite. As a gesture of goodwill, I put in an order for a charcuterie board on the house, ensuring their wine-tasting experience was accompanied by a delightful selection of complementary flavors.

"We didn't order this," Vinny snapped when I brought the charcuterie board to the table.

"I know. It's on the house. I wanted to do something nice for you guys," I replied calmly, maintaining a composed demeanor as I saw a fleeting expression of guilt cross Vinny's face. Internally, I couldn't help but smirk at the subtle shift.

"The first wine is a sweet Moscato, a vibrant blend with aromas of tropical fruit and honey. It's a little sweet with a hint of acidity, perfect for sipping while imagining a beautiful beach vacation. I'll leave you to enjoy that for a bit and then come back with the next one," I explained, taking a step into the adjacent office to put away the wine bottle.

The thin wall between the two rooms served as an unintentional amplifier for sound, making it so that no conversations were truly private. As I organized the wine selection, I couldn't help but overhear their discussion outside.

"I appreciate you coming along, Vin. I know you don't want to be here, but I wouldn't want anyone else's opinion but my best man and brother," Kyle spoke with genuine gratitude. “You know, you should really think about settling down. Mama is going to start setting you up if you don't bring someone home soon," Kyle suggested.

"I know. I don't trust just anyone. Most people just want to get in my pants to get close to Rick. I love the man, but his good looks piss me off sometimes," Vinny confessed. He seemed a lot more relaxed when I wasn't around and it honestly intrigued me at how gentle he sounded. I didn't realize that he felt that way about Richard though so it kind of explained why he got so defensive at the party.

"Speaking of him, are you ever going to apologize to that pretty lady in there? I mean, he made it pretty obvious that he lied," Kyle asked. 

"Why do I have to apologize? It was his lie. Plus, I still don't like her. She seems stuck up," Vinny retorted, I could practically hear his scowl deepening as he stood firm in his reluctance to extend an apology. I couldn't help but scowl in return, pondering various ways to put the obstinate drummer in his place.

"I don't think that's fair to her. Plus, Mama would love her," Kyle reasoned, with a light hearted hint to his voice. "You should do it to make Mama happy."

"Not her," Vinny insisted, his resistance unwavering.

"Well then you have to bring a girl to next week's dinner, or I'll tell Mom you agreed to going on blind dates. Maybe she'll set you up with Betty Lou," Kyle teased, provoking a disgusted noise from Vinny. I couldn't help but snicker as I overheard their banter while pulling the next bottle of wine from the fridge.

"Ugh, I'll find someone. Just shut up," Vinny conceded, his tone indicating a desire to put an end to the discussion. Seizing the opportunity, I approached the table with the next bottle, noting that they had finished their glasses.

"How did we like that wine, boys?" I asked sweetly, maintaining a professional demeanor and not giving any hint that I had overheard their earlier discussion.

"It's good, but neither of us are really sweet wine people," Kyle replied, offering a warm smile. I nodded in understanding.

"Then you might like this next one; it's a semi-sweet but not too overbearing," I suggested, smoothly transitioning to the next part of the wine-tasting experience. We continued working through the selections, finding three wines that Kyle and Vinny deemed suitable for their upcoming celebration. Surprisingly, Vinny remained civil throughout the process, although I couldn't help but notice the occasional lingering glance.

"Thank you for everything," Kyle murmured appreciatively as I brought over the wine selection he had purchased. Vinny's brother pulled me into a hug before making his way back down the stairs, leaving Vinny behind. The drummer cast one last glance my way, his expression inscrutable, before following his brother.

As the private suite door closed behind them, I took a deep breath, momentarily relieved that the wine-tasting session had concluded smoothly despite the underlying tensions. The winery's atmosphere returned to its usual buzz of activity, and I resumed my duties, hoping to forget about the red haired drummer.

[fizzycereal]

INTRO POST

(Please read this)

Hi :D welcome to this dumpster fire of a blog :D

Info about me :D

Names to call me:

Fizzy (sure)

Fizzerz (why not it silly)

Dumbass (lol okay just be joking)

Fuzzy (okey :])

BIZY (dis is ur fault irl fwiend 😡/j)

Cereal (uhh okey?)

Atlas (uhhhh okey? Sure? I mean I'm not Atlas but i wouldnt do anything if you do)

Leo + plus any name that goes with Leo (from hoo) - (uh I'm fine with it just preferred if you knew me, context, I do act like Leo and relate to him a bit too much and cosplayed him once at a school dance)

Percy + plus any name that goes with him (from pjo) - (same thing with Leo/leo names, for context I act like Percy at least according to my irl friends)

Ponyboy/pony+any name that goes with him (from the outsiders) -(same with the previous other two names)

My legal name (no)

Pronouns: ANY PRONOUNS >:DD(I do personally prefer they but go wild ig :]) + AROACE 🧡💛🤍🩵💙 (romance and sex repulsed >:DDDDD)

Birthday: July 30th 😎

Timezone: CST

I'm actually Hispanic/Latino! (My parents are both from Mexico 🇲🇽, sadly I can't speak Spanish anymore but I can only understand it)

I get stressed out pretty easily (I am a big over thinking and I can get overwhelmed easily) + I'm a gigantic procrastinator :') + I am a bit paranoid (I can get very stressed/I start to panic when I think someone is mad or I made someone sad at me)

I have a bit of a stutter + I'm pretty sure I have a bit of a lisp too

Idfk how to talk to people :')

Cabin three guys 😎😎😎😎💙💙💙💙💧💦💦💧 (at according to the official quiz lol)

Romance+physical touch kinda makes me uncomfy

❗I'M A MINOR❗❗

I personally use guys, dude, man, ect. as a gender neutral term if you aren't fine with that please tell me

I really like to play DND (I have only played like twice but if you guys want to show me your characters please do)

Please use more masculine phrases on me (I just prefer them)

This blog will have swearing so beware 😰

I do think I may have ADHD( intensive or mixed) or autism :P

(User boxes :3)

Fandoms I'm in

Be more chill

Heathers (again, not really that active on it)

Moral Orel (I FUCKING LOVE THIS SHOW AND IT DESERVES MORE)

Grojband (NEEDED SEASON 2 🤬🤬🤬🤬)

Hatchitfiled (still on nightmare time 2 :3)

DnD (not sure if you'd call it a fandom

Eddsworld (used to be very into it still am)

Metal family :P

Riordanverse(UPDATE: Magnus chase)

The outsiders (comfort book lol)

Hazbin hotel/helluva boss

Scott Pilgrim (I have read the comics now, you can't best me mortals/j)

AND WAY MORE (to much to list 😔)

I only have Tumblr and a wattpad (it's @/FizzyCereal it's dead)

Sorry if I make any spelling or grammar mistakes, english isn't my first language :']

@homobrainjuice made dis ▼ :3

DNI LIST:

The basic criteria of a DNI list (transphobic/homophobic, racists, pedophiles/MAPS, Zoos, anyone who supports them)

Nsfw I'm a fucking minor (If your account is all NSFW or it's just straight up porn please don't follow me)

People hating on people for just "cringe" (you are in thin ice if you do this)

PEOPLE HARASSING PEOPLE (please kindly eff off)

Kids who go to my school (this isn't including my friends)

People who support problematic ship (it makes me feel uncomfortable)

People sexualizing my characters (it makes me uncomfortable, do please kindly fuck off)

Please respect this or I won't hesitate to block you.

❗PLEASE ASK QUESTIONS FOR @ask-salt ❗

(This will be updated)

Also sorry if i am annjoying to you guys :')

The outsiders 😱

[poupeesdecirque]

Travel Blog - Connichi 2024 - Part 4

Convention Saturday & Traveling home or: BEAGLE and 4 hours of sleep

Here is the last Entry for the Connichi 2024 which covers the last (super rainy) Convention day and a few words about my way back home

Just as already teased last entry... I got 4 hours of sleep. We went to bed at 11 and some idiot decided to ring the doorbell at 2:30, I failed to fall asleep afterwards.

Good thing Red was planned for the day and I decided to embrance the poor circus kid look. But I was tired and exhausted. After the two mental challenging situations on Saturday having not enough sleep was not helping much with feeling well. On top the melanchony of the last convention day...

But we still went out early to bring a part of my stuff to my car and took a few photos after I got myself some caffeine with a Matcha Latte.

We went with a "poor Red trains alone" theme at a corner we found along the way.

Then we headed to the convention park and ...

BEAGLE.

This very good boy was playing there with his master and Alu asked him if we could take photos and we did. I am a bit miffed at myself that I look awful in the majority of photos (damn you no sleep and my inability to smile on photos) but this was a very needed positive happening. I hope I can find some useful shots among the photos.

As Alu had some things he wanted to buy we decided to take a slow walk through the vendors and artist alley for one last time.

Sadly I got hit by an intense energy low and felt so awful it was partially even painful I had to sit down in a corner to regather. It was almost lunchtime again but wow... can my body just demand food like someone who is normal?

On our way outside we met @the-bat-cat-art again and got offered a game of cards but I really needed to get some food into my stomach or I felt like I was about to collapse soon. I hope we can play cards on another convention.

So this was lunch (and yes I actually had my lunchbox on all days I just wasn't able to fit in photos). Under all the coco flakes there was porridge to be found.

The weather was incredible awful and the park was basically empty, it felt like the overall con stopped on saturday, like everyone was gone, nobody updated their social media with how they were dressed for the day and the overall mood was super ... depressing somehow q_q

We decided to use the rain for some photos as we did some cool water photos last year... and rain is just water too, alright?

As the con somehow had died we went into the city a bit later to get ourselfes some cinnamon rolls.

And we did some window shopping and a few photos within the city again.

Returning to the con the weather finally cleared up and the park was full of people again, as if the con took a break and everyone was back all of sudden.

I decided to get myself this pin as this was my overall achievement.

To my surprise I even found some more DGM Cosplayers, I wonder if we were even more but it was hard to find someone at all that day.

We left around 6 in the evening and I was beat, we decided to order take out. And no we didn't manage to eat all .. we took it home / as lunchbox for the next day.

Monday - Traveling home

Monday I traveled back home, we left the apartment early and took a last stroll through the park. I brought Alu to the train station and we parted... we will see each other again in December the earliest again T_T

My way back home was ... long. Ofc I got into traffic but I had promised myself some ice cream. As I arrived at the ice cream place they were not selling any. I maybe had more sleep that night but damn that was enough to send me crying (finally?). I didn't even want to be home I just didn't want to be forced to sit into a car driving anymore.

Here is my little convention haul. Not much this time, I didn't find anything DGM related this time. There was a Timcampy plush at the bring & buy but we usually don't check that as you have to stand in a queue for 30 minutes at least. So that's fine.

I am really exhausted after the last few days and I don't know how to handle the saturday.

But the next trip is around the corner, a very low key relaxing trip to the sea will be next week (just a weekend) before I return to the next convention in the begin of October.

[notknickers]

aww thank you. I'm still learning to draw scars. I defo need to make time for more studies. (we both gotta buckle down)

oh man. fanart, if done well and a lot can get me to do almost anything. seeing fanart of Ghost back in November 2022 is what got me into this fandom in the first place.

I'm a bit picky with headcanons but yh. im fully aware a lot of them are just watered down to be vessals for our kinks and affection. At the end of the day. they'er our silly made up blurbos U///U but yh theirs defo gaps in these guys's personalities that we can fill in (which is what we're doing now lol from the short bios we're given)

fanart (nsfw) and audio of these blurbos together. I'm waiting on my lounge chair right now to be presented to me.

hey man. Rivals to lovers makes sense. I'm stumped with who would make the first move though. becasue like you said, both of them aren't the most affectionate of people and don't trust too quickly; at least on the battlefield. like they could respect each other on the battlefield and stuff. but to get them vunerable to love hmmmmm. might need to bend like a pretzal for either of them to act on their feelings even in the most subtle ways… unless we have one of them a lil more unhinged in this department. claps hands* What if Konig is the more unhinged one and Ghost just doesn't know how to handle his feelings or Konig, like, does anyone really wanna make the over 6 foot tall batterying ram upset. Anything can happen in delulu land

my fanart is literally made up shit if you were dating Ghost ooc XD

love that the whole fandom are in on the joke of eldritch/ocotpuss/cathulu Konig since the chibi drawings of him look like a cute octopuss and the bio updating and saying His hood hides something more hideous. I'll check out your fic….(hehe heat cycles)

btw. sorry for the late reply. fell asleep after work (¯﹃¯) also I'm bad with writing hehe

hey, don't worry. life outside the machine takes precedence! plus, sleep is gooood, rest to your brain while increasing your chances of dreaming of your blorbos! it's a win-win, but thanks for replying.

now i must absolutely write that eldritch!könig/civilian!ghost fic! i have so many ideas that i left xeno!könig and his tentacles aside for a while, but after i've dealt with the five different colonel!könig/recruit!dommy mummy!reader and colonel!könig/tmale!base medic, perhaps i'll have some time to figure it out!

oh! don't even say it! today i was all excited about a fanart idea i had while at work, then i was confronted with the reality of actually drawing it... what an ice cold shower!!!

i'll get back to it as soon as i get over the trauma! but good luck with your studies, you're already ahead!

pretty pixel vessels!!! i am also very nitpicky. in fact, i've noticed, the more concrete an idea i develop of könig, the less open i am to changing interpretation (even though i still like reading others'!)

the only thing i am glad about entering the fandom when i did is that i initially conceinved this blog as a magnus archives fanblog. if it started as a könig simp blog, i would probably have called myself something like... königsheftyballs or something and i'm so grateful that didn't happen. im' much happier as a jaredhopworthsknickers!

and yes, smutty ghost fanart was my gateway drug.

(i don't know if i remembered linking you the fic in question that sold me over the ghostsoap ship, but it was this one.)

for the audio, it's easy. here's the link and happy listening! (very nsfw, very explicit). it's one hundred percent out of my headcanons: no, könig the forty-plus-year-old colonel is not simon 'ghost' riley who got his mask at a hot topic or halloween costume shop's little bitch.

time to pull ranks on that one!

(still, enjoyable listening and great voice acting, though!)

true, but them being affiliated with opposing factions opens up interesting scenarios: could either be captured by the other? could that mean the the captured is assigned to the capturer for intel extraction or other expedient? could it be that each finds out that the other is way less sadistic and more compassionate and simply human and matter-of-fact than they initially thought, which changes the mutual way they see each other, while still being wary, because of their curcumstantial enmity?

commonalities? they are both masked, they both have something to hide, something that hurts to this day, the need to create someone who can endure interfacing themselves with the world and its demands while their tender cores still reel and recover, but that they can put aside, when they're alone, to catch breath and regain their whole selves or, the opposite, feel incapable to abandon even when no one is around, as they have become too fragmented.

just throwing ideas around, but there is so much to dig up.

their similarities might draw them to one another: could they have finally found someone who gets it? could they afford to be a little vulnerable, to show a little bit of their soft bellies and hope not to be stabbed from side to side?

but, being enemies who work for different factions with different goals surely would stand in the way: if trusting and opening up is harrowing and dreadful, doing so with an enemy operator can be outright fatal... so much at stake, but what if this were the only chance they have at genuine human connection? a friendship? comfort in wach other's bodies? darethey hope for more? are they delusional? is the imprisonment getting to them?

re: your ooc fanart: and that's brilliant all the same! my latest fanart was nothing but an excuse to put könig in a skimpy little outfit and parade him around! if you like ooc ghost dating your insert, do more of it!!!!!!

i always laugh when someone comes along, thinking themselves smart by pointing out that "well, akshually ghost and könig would never date in canon", because you're in the wrong place, luv. go play the game, write/draw your canon-compliant stuff or only interact with fic and fanartists who are as attached to canon as you, but stop yucking in everyone's yum. it's called fandom, not candom.

i will go on a perilous mission to find all the ghost/könig artists i can and report back, sir! yes, sir!

(by which i mean, i will write you in the inbox or leave the links in the dms, so you'll find them when you have time. no hurry!)

n_n

[the-blackest-spider]

This is me right now.

I'm in a state of limbo, sort of. I'm trying to figure out how to live life without having someone who needs 24/7 care as a part of it and not really having anything I need to have an escape from reality wise. It's an odd sort of struggle... I want to write, I still very much have muse and such, I think about the ooc and ic relationships I've cultivated here, more importantly those behind the characters who have been there when I've needed it the most even if they had no idea at the time.

I feel like I'm learning how to live each day all over again, and this is coming from someone who had one hell of a personal brush with death. I'm trying to finally take care of myself and learning how to do that...

Does that mean I'm never coming back here?

Truthfully I don't know...

I wish I did either way, but right now I'm figuring things out, and I don't know how long that is going to take. I wish I did, but it's one of those things that just you can't predict.

Also I have this really strong desire to have most everything fresh and new, as well as smaller and more simplified. I have no plans to remake Nat's blog, if I return to tumblr, it will be here, but I'm wanting something I can take wherever to do that with, so I need to figure that out, and get things (finances) back in order so I can (most importantly I need a new damn mattress, which kind of effects my being here too in a way).

I guess I'm realizing I need time... how much? I don't know and I really can't predict it or even ballpark it. In light of that, I completely 100% don't blame anyone for moving on, don't feel like you have to wait for me, if you do great, but I understand if you can't. I need to brush off Discord and whatnot, tho lately these days I seem to gravitate towards Facebook, which if we've talked a lot, you're more than welcome to ask for even if it's just to use their messenger deal. I'm also always ok Skype, though lately it's been questionable with reliability, but yeah...

I'm just stuck in figuring shit out limbo and wading through A LOT.

I hope everyone is doing good, and I'll make updates when I can, when I know fully what I'm doing besides the necessary basics of adult life aka sleeping, work and all that, with some exercise tossed in, since I am trying to take better care of the whole package here mental and physical, and I hope y'all are taking care of yourselves too as best you can.