#mdd feels

[cvsgirl]

am i the only person with bpd who feels like they have too little empathy instead of too much or what

[that0nebird]

I feel like people rarely talk about how Yoosung WAS being gaslit about Rika’s death when he knew something was wrong and everyone consistently said he was paranoid when he WASN’T. He was never allowed the chance to properly grieve and air out his (correct) issues with V and the shit surrounding Rika’s “death” until MC joins the RFA.

[virsancte]

you wouldn’t think having a good time would be so goddamn hard

[autisticthings]

YOU DESERVE SO MUCH MORE

You deserve so much more than what you have right now.

You deserve to be respected.

You deserve to be yourself without anyone telling you that you're broken or stupid or unlovable.

You deserve to be loved and respected and appreciated.

You deserve to be treated like an actual human being.

You deserve more than what you have right now.

I know, I get it.

I've been told that basic decency and respect don't apply to me because I'm different.

I've been told that nobody will ever respect me or love me because I'm different.

I've been told that I should just kill myself because I'm different.

I have been told that I'm less than human because how could a real human be so different.

Well guess what, I am different.

I am human, I am decent, I respect others, I cry, I laugh, I have feelings, I breathe, I move, I think.

And I'm also disabled and autistic and trans and bi and Mexican and Native American and and clinically depressed and oh my God. the list goes on and I am sooooo sorry I am not "normal" (sarcasm)

I deserve more than all this bullshit and you do too.

It sucks, I know, it sucks and sucks and sucks.

Why do people have to be awful?

Ignore them and love them and forgive them. It's hard. It's hard for us all. You are not alone.

You are not alone, because we all go forward together.

You have faced all this adversity, yet forgiveness is your weakness?

Stay strong friend. Keep your head high if you can. You are not better than these people, we are all human.

But you are deserving of better.

Surround yourself with people who see that, who respect you, who aren't terrible.

You deserve better.

[dead-core]

do you ever feel like you were never supposed to be alive and the most humane thing to do is put you down like a bad dog?

[briarmae]

So, I have autism. One aspect of autism and/ or adhd is RSD, or Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. It's used to describe a type of emotional disregulation.

I accidentally made a relatively popular post (for me). (It currently has 2,900 notes. My next most popular post has 100.) 2,900 notes, and of them, only about 12 people who responded were negative and/ or confused. I was CONSUMED with feelings of anger, anxiety, rejection, and sadness about those 12 people. 12 out of 2900.

RSD is ridiculous.

But my psychiatrist added a new antidepressant, and suddenly those feelings are blunted, and I can let go of things that cause me anxiety. But I can still experience joy, etc. It's like... my emotions are less overwhelming, but I can still feel them? I hope I'm describing it well enough.

Is this how *normal people feel?

(*Normal, of course, is relative. In this case, it refers to people who are neurotypical and/ or do not suffer from mental illness.)

[cvsgirl]

being around people is so difficult when you know they’re going to leave

[tristanamerie]

“But as much as I hate to admit it, I’m tapped out on handling my own shit. All of a sudden, it dawned on me that I am monumentally tired of having it all together.” —Elsie Silver

[skinnypaleangryperson]

Some people are living the lesser version of their dreams but they're still living their dreams, some people are as good as dead. I'm the last one.

[musingsofasubaudhd]

BPD, ADHD, Autism, RSD, MDD, Anxiety, and someone who claims to love me but puts no effort into the relationship, see above. I'm just so fucking tired of it all.

[mihrsuri]

I keep trying to write an update and then being embarrassed about it and feeling like I’m trauma dumping on people by updating and I just..I know it’s on me to manage my crap, I know. I am trying (not very well but I’m trying) and it’s just…I don’t know. I don’t even know.

[rainbowbeanstyles]

by floatyspacecat

[tttoluca]

ah yes. john borderline. the inventor of borderline personality disorder. and bill majordepressive. the founder of major depressive disorder. oh yes and of course, ronald generalanxietous. the innovative mind behind general anxiety disorder. fuck you

[cvsgirl]

i just wish people loved me the way i want to be loved

[cleosmasterpiece]

When will I feel good enough for this world

[danidoesntdie]

"I'm Sorry You Feel That Way."