#12 seems very cute aww

[kaiyaamin]

Hi! I really enjoy your stories! I was wondering if you could write a batfam x batmom reader story about the boys (not including bruce) getting magically age reversed (i.e. dick becomes damian's age, damian becomes Dick's age, and Jason and Tim swap ages) and the 4 of them getting into shenanigans and chaos. And Batmom teasing and coddling them.

This sounds amazing, and sorry it took so long to post but I was writing it and my computer started resetting and it did not save this draft so I had to start over.

WHAT HAPPENED!!!

Bruce decided to take his kids to the Justice League hall, where he was showing them the Machine Hall which was VERY DANGEROUS. During the middle of the tour, there was an emergency alert, deciding to leave his kids in said dangerous room but why not.

"Jason, don't touch that Dad said it's dangerous", said Dick was already tired of Jason's shenanigans, and playing pranks on everyone. "Quit being such a buzzkill, and have fun no adults are around", Jason said in a playful tone. Jason was very unserious sometimes but when he's mad he will kill you. "You know Jason, you don't act very mature for an Adult and BTW there are adults around you and Dick", Tim was the smart one always pointing out his brother's mistakes in a not-so-kind way. Damian just stood there glaring at his brother fighting like little children.

"Oh what, touching a machine is going to get us killed", said Jason. "I hope it kills you first", Damian said. But It was too late for Jason had touched the machine despite Dick's warning.

Suddenly a bright light blinded the boys. AHHHHHH, screamed the boys, The bright light dimmed down and the boys saw each other but of different ages. Dick and Damian's ages were switched so Dick was 12 and Damian was 25. So was Jason and Tim, Jason was 17 and Tim was 23.

The boys were freaking out, trying hard to comprehend the situation. Damian started to immediately blame Jason for this while Dick was trying to calm himself down from having a panic attack. Lastly, Tim wasn't that affected and went looking at the machine Jason touched. "Hey guys look at this" Stated Tim when the boys looked at where Tim was pointing They realized... "Jason you Idiot you touch an age switch Machine", said Dick. "Aww shit, I didn't think this would happen," said Jason. "No fucking duh Jason, if you knew this would not have happened," Damian said while hitting Jason on the back of his head.

Bruce later found out with a panic attack and was scared of how he would tell his wife this happened under his care. But he also grounded Jason for 1 month again.

Timeskip to the manor

hey kids..... was the first thing Batmom had said before seeing her kids not looking like her kids. WHAT HAPPENED? Her Dick looks so young and cute and her Dami looks so tall and mature, Jason looks like a teenager and Tim seemed well older.

Mom we can explain, Dick said and explained the whole situation of what happened because of Jason's stupidity. Well, where was your father when this happened? What Tim had told her was not the answer she wanted. You left the kids alone in a dangerous machine room, Batmom continued scolding Bruce and her kids for this misfortune but internally screaming about how cute her kids looked.

No matter how hard she tried, she absolutely adored Dick and Jason, for it reminded her when they were young. And then she started crying with Tim and Damian feeling sad they had grown up so tall and handsome even though they were still the same by heart externally they looked different.

DICK

Being a 12-year-old was not as bad as he thought or so he thought. His mother became even more protective watching his every move and she refused to let him go whenever they hugged each other. Mom, you have to let me go, NO!, his mother shouted. But...Mom, I can't breathe. Then breathe later.

During this chaos, he found out he had to go to school, don't ask why. The whole day was torture I mean who wants to go to school after already graduating not Dick, to make matters worse he had to hang out with Jon. He was the only kid he knew and he didn't want to socialize with kids younger than him.

Curfew for patroling was a lot different since he was 12, he had to be home at 10:00 and he couldn't go anywhere without an escort because he was too "young" to drive.

And even the Titans made fun of his appearance, I mean their brave and powerful leader was a 12-year-old and a short one. Can you guys just help me! Dick shouted in anger. No, can do, not until we finished laughing at how short you are, kon said laughing at Dick who couldn't even reach the high cabinets.

JASON

Jason, honey what are you doing? you need to get up, his mother said in her usual calm voice. here he was lying in his bed with nothing to do, it was only 7:30 am. Why, I have nothing going on. Didn't I tell you, you're going to school to collect Tim's work so he can complete it at home, Batmom said while opening his blinds. But Mama...No buts get up and get ready for school. Jason was not happy and grumbled the whole time getting ready for school.

Jason was getting ready for patrol putting on his suit and wishing his Mama goodbye. Before she told him the horrible news, He had a curfew. His mother used the excuse that growing boys needed energy and he had school in the morning. Mom, please I don't need a curfew I am fine. No, and that's final Jason, his mother said in a stern voice.

good news He could drive and hang out unlike Dick who needed to be escorted when driving, Man did Jason crack up and tease Dick. HA, you can't drive what a loser, Dick was not happy and vowed he would get Jason back.

With Jason's curfews, he had to sneak out but lucky for him, he had done it so many times. The only problem is his mama was watching him like a hawk, but when everyone was asleep he decided to climb out of his window. Only to be stopped by the infamous Batmom and her sidekick Batman, grounding him for another month. Hey mom, how did you know I was sneaking out and where I would be? hmm, Dick told me. Damn it, Jason said cursing under his breath passing by a laughing Dick when coming upstairs towards his room.

TIM

was Tim happy? Yes, yes he was. Switching ages with Jason seemed bad but it turned out good when he found out he didn't have to go to school, he had the whole day to himself. While Jason had to go to his school and get all his assessments, It was good because it only took him an hour to complete the work Jason gave him.

First thing first, He explained to Stephanie what happened after she accidentally came to the manor expecting to see her boyfriend but instead saw a tall, handsome adult-like Tim. It took some time for her to cope with what happened but after she was furious with Jason. After he came back from school she hit him with her slipper right in the face. OWWWW what Hell Stephanie! why did you hurt me, Jason said in shock. You turned my boyfriend into well this, Stephanie said with her hands still griping the slipper. MOM, why are you standing there, do something! but to Jason's surprise, his mother did nothing and instead told him, he deserved it.

Tim had no curfew which meant rubbing it in his brother's face. HAHA, Damian and Tim both laughed at Dick and Jason going home from patrols while they get to stay. Shut up, both of them grumbled not liking the feeling of being teased. Since Tim was legally an adult, why not have alcohol, after one glass of wine he got drunk. HEy GUyS, LoOK at ME I aM a BAnANa, Then proceeded to start crying when Titanic came on, NOOOOO, HOw COuLd JAcK DIe!!! while the whole Bat-family saw this, well now we know he has no alcohol tolerance said Dick, with Jason and his mother laughing their asses off. Damian looked at his father to say something only for him to be astonished, trying to find the proper words only for nothing to come out. And Alfred gets Tim some tissues and water.

DAMIAN

Damian hated everything and everyone except for his mother of course. He Knew from the beginning this was bad and turns out he was right it was chaos.

Damian didn't do anything different except now he can drive legally, he could drive before but wasn't allowed for you know only being 12. He used this opportunity to get away from his crazy family.

Damian still hang out with Jon when he was out of school and gossiped about Dick and how he was at school, it was hilarious. Though Dick was not happy about it.

Unlike Tim, Damian had a high alcohol tolerance. Dami, you are surprisingly good at drinking and not getting drunk easily, have you drunk before? No, Ummi..... but could not continue, how could he lie to his Ummi so he told the truth. Yes, Ummi I already had my first drink. WAIT, WITH WHO? said Batmom in a shout, ready to throw someone out the window. With Dad, and that was not the answer she was looking for. BRUCEEEEE!!!!, screamed Batmom. Yes honey, Bruce said panting. Did you take Damian to have his first drink? Umm oh no is that the Joker breaking into the bank again. Oh No better stop him bye, and with that, he left like he was Flash already out the door. And to say the least, Batmom was not happy.

Time skip after 3 days

Some random mad scientist Bruce found on the black market reversed the kid's ages. Dick was 25, Jason was 23, Tim was 17 and Damian was 12.

Everything was back to normal, SIKE. Batmom punished everyone in the manor except for Alfred of course for all the things they did when reversed. Bruce was grounded and sleeping on the couch leaving the kids alone in a Dangerous machine room and keeping the fact that Damian had his first drink.

Batmom was so happy but still sad. Of course, she's happy her kids are back to normal but her two eldest had to leave to go back to their house, it was heartbreaking. So to make their mom feel better they did Family Game Night 😉.

[petitelepus]

FOX'S WEDDING, PART 2

KITSUNE!RENGUKO KYOJURO X FEM!READER

Summary: You take the Rengoku brothers to buy clothes, maybe eat a little something and then return back to your new home for the night. Or...?

Warnings: None

A/N: Female Reader, Kitsune Kyojuro, Kitsune Senjuro, Kitsune Rengoku, Monster Musume!AU

PART 1 II PART 2 II PART 3 II PART 4 II PART 5 II PART 6 II PART 7 II PART 8 II PART 9 II PART 10 II PART 11 II PART 12 II PART 13 II PART 14 II PART 15 II PART 16 II PART 17 II PART 18 II PART 19

You could feel it, no see it, how people were staring at the three of you as you walked through the shopping mall. It had taken a moment to get there by foot, but you made it there. You tried to ignore their stares and focus on the Rengoku brothers, or rather your fiance and his lovely and shy little brother. They were so different, yet similar.

"So many humans!" Kyojuro thought out loud as he looked around, "And demihumans also! I'm happy to see everyone living together in peace!"

"As best as we can, yes." You nodded as you looked at the stores, wondering where you should head first. These foxes needed some modern clothes. That's when you noticed a clothing store, meant to men and you smiled as you pointed at the store, "Would you like to visit this place first?"

Kyojuro and Senjuro looked at the store and they both nodded as the older brother smiled, "Yes, let's!"

So the three of you went inside and you started to pick clothes for Kyojuro first, making sure to try and estimate what his size was, but his kimono covered his body well.

"Let's pick different sizes for you to try on in the dressing room." You said as you picked a couple of different sizes of the same shirt. "Which color do you like more Kyojuro?"

"Hm, I like them all, but if possible, may I make a request?" The fox asked and you nodded, "Of course!" What is it?"

He smiled as he leaned forward and whispered to you, "We are wearing rather traditional underwear so might I suggest we pick up something more modern?"

Hearing this, you blushed, barely able to look at Kyojuro as you nodded furiously. How could he smile like that when talking about underwear!?

"Yeah, yes, sure!" You nodded and turned to head toward the underwear section. Both Rengoku brothers were awed when they saw modern men's underwear. "These look very comfortable!"

"They should be…" You muttered shyly, "Pick anything you want."

Sadly, there were no sizes for Senjuro, but you promised him that you would visit a clothing store that had clothing for his size. Meanwhile, you picked shirts and a couple of pants here and there before giving them to Kyojuro and asking him to go into the changing room.

"We wait right here with Senjuro so you can come out and show how the clothes look on you." You said and the older fox nodded happily as he took the clothes and closed the changing room's door behind him. While he was there, you and Senjuro sat on the chairs next to the small room.

The silence between you felt awkward, but when you glanced at the younger fox from the corner of your eyes he didn't seem bothered at all. No, he was looking at everything around him in such awe, it was honestly cute. You smiled, "What kind of clothes do you like Senjuro?"

"M- me?" The young boy stuttered as he looked at you and then blushed, "I- I don't know for sure. All the clothes there look so grown up and cool."

"I'm sorry for taking you here first." You apologized, "When your brother is done we can go and search for something for you to wear."

"Oh, I don't mind waiting." He smiled bashfully, "As long as big brother and you are happy then I'm happy also."

Oh God, he was so adorable, you could almost squeal. You smiled at him, "You're a very kind young man Senjuro, did you know that?"

"So are you, big sis." He said right back at you, "Many would be shocked by hearing about sudden engagement and to a yokai of all creatures, but you have been really nice to me and my brother."

"Aww, you're so sweet!" Okay, you couldn't help yourself, you squealed maybe just a little bit. Senjuro was honestly so kind and cute. You wanted to let him know it, but suddenly he looked up and you followed his gaze and you felt your breath get stuck in your throat.

Kyojuro was wearing dark slacks and a white dress shirt you had picked for him. Honestly? He was so handsome, you felt your brain short circuit, but you recovered quickly.

"Kyojuro!" You smiled as you got up and looked at him, "How do the clothes feel?"

"They are nice, but my tails don't have much room." He replied and you nodded as you walked up to him and looked him all over and around, seeing that the pants weren't exactly made for his tails.

"We have to make some changes so your tails can fit comfortably, but that shouldn't be hard." You noted, "Maybe cut a hole at the tails' base and then put a button above them?"

"Yes, that would be marvelous!" Kyojuro exclaimed, "Do you know how to do that?"

"I aced home economics so it shouldn't be hard." You nodded and then you looked at him in those gorgeous eyes of his, "How do you feel otherwise?"

"Good! How do you like them?" He asked back and you blinked as you looked at him over again and smiled a little shyly, "I think you look really good in them."

"Then I'm happy!"

"Why?" You blinked before smiling, "Do you like how you look?"

"Yes, because my bride dressed me as she sees handsome!" Kyojuro said and you could feel the blood burn your cheeks below the skin as you blushed furiously. How can he be so open about everything he feels?

"Okay, pants are good, try some shirts on just in case, and then we can head to register to pay." You grumbled as you averted your gaze from him and his bright smile.

"As my bride wishes!" He exclaimed happily before going back to changing room to try on the clothes you had picked for him. You took a seat next to Senjuro and glanced at him, only to see him smiling at you. You blushed a little, "W- what is it?"

"Nothing, I'm just happy to see you two get along so well already," Senjuro replied honestly, and your blush just got worse.

It took a moment but soon enough all three of you were ready to head to the next store where you picked clothes for Senjuro. He had been so shy when he first stepped out of the changing room, wearing a black hoodie and shorts, but you and Kyojuro were admiring how handsome he looked in his new clothes.

Just like his older brother's, Senjuro's pants needed to be altered to make him feel comfortable with his tail. Otherwise, you picked some hoodies for him, a couple of dress shirts also, some T-shirts, pants, shorts, and some underwear as well. While you were there, you picked some basic shoes for the two of them, and by the time you were done with clothes shopping, you had 14 bags full of their clothes.

"Oh my God, we bought so much stuff…!" You gasped as you looked at all the clothing bags you had. You silently thanked mister Smith for providing you with a debit card to pay for all the stuff you had bought… But you still needed to buy some food also and it was starting to get dark outside.

"We can carry our things so you don't need to, my Hime!" Kyojuro said as he glanced at his little brother, "Right, Senjuro?"

"Yes, brother." The younger fox nodded with a small smile. You smiled, but you would still need to buy so many things. These two came here without anything personal, not even clothes, you thought they would deserve some nice thing also, besides clothes.

Well, that had to wait because you could feel your stomach grumbling and you were pretty sure that these two Kitsune's stomachs weren't any fuller than yours. What an awful hostess you were, having your new housemates go hungry. You had to come up with something fast.

Suddenly, Senjuro sniffed the air and looked at his older brother, "I smell something brother."

"Me too." Kyojuro nodded and you blinked, sniffing the air. Burgers, you could smell fresh burgers being cooked on fire. That is when you remembered the burger place just a couple of floors down from where you were.

"Are you hungry?" You asked even if you were pretty sure they were. Both brothers nodded and you smiled, "Have you ever had a hamburger before?"

"What's a hamburger?" They both asked as they tilted their heads in curiosity. You had to look away, they were being so cute.

"Come with me and we will get some to eat." You told them and the brothers smiled as they heard food being mentioned. With all the bags you had, you took an elevator down and the scent of food got stronger the closer you got to your destination. By the time you were by the burger place, you could hear the brothers' stomachs growling and see the small trail of drool from the corner of their mouths.

"Do you have any allergies or something I should worry about?" You asked and the brothers shook their heads. You smiled, "Good. Follow me."

You made the brothers sit on the table before you walked up to the register and ordered three double cheeseburger meals with fries and Cola. As you carried the tray filled with food, you could see the fox brothers' ears shoot upwards. You chuckled as you put the tray down on the table and watched the foxes' gorgeous eyes widen.

"Please dig in." You said as you sat opposite them and watched how they eagerly ripped the paper covering the burgers and bit into them. You watched them chew and you reached for your burger when all of sudden-!

"TASTY!" Kyojuro shouted all of a sudden, startling you so badly that you nearly dropped your own burger. You whipped your head to look at him but his attention was purely on the hamburger in his hands. You blinked, confused. What just happened?

"TASTY!" He shouted again before taking another mouthful of the burger. Okay, now you were confused. You turned to look at Senjuro who was happily munching his own burger, as if his big brother hadn't just shouted from the bottom of his lungs.

"TASTY!" There he went, shouting again.

"Is- is it really that good?" You asked and Kyojuro smiled at you happily, "Yes! It's very delicious!"

Really, huh? Well, if he said so. You took a bite of your burger and hummed a little. But no matter what, it was just a normal cheeseburger. Delicious, but nothing extraordinary.

"TASTY!"

Again? You were about to ask again, but Senjuro suddenly caught your attention.

"What is this drink here?" He asked as he looked at the cup filled with Cola. You realized that they had never probably tasted Cola or any sort of soda before.

"It's soda. It's like a sweet bubbly drink." You nodded, "Try some."

Senjuro nodded as he bought the straw to his lips and sipped. You could see the moment when soda hit his tongue, as his pretty golden eyes widened and he pulled back with a smile, "It tickles my tongue! Try some brother!"

Kyojuro nodded as he put his almost-eaten burger down and took a sip of his own Cola.

"You're right, it tingles!" He laughed and you couldn't help but smile, feeling this happiness coming from inside when thinking how much you could show the modern world to these two. Or so you thought when the older Kitsune reached for a fry and ate it.

"TASTY!"

"H- hold on!" You cried out as you looked at him, "Are you going to shout tasty after each bite?"

"Hm!" He nodded, mouth full.

"Big brother loves good food," Senjuro said and you blinked.

"But doesn't it-?" You were about to ask if it didn't bother other people, but as you looked around, it appeared that they didn't even pay attention to you three. Weird?

"I hope you don't mind, but I put a small spell on us so no one is bothered by brother's yelling." Senjuro said carefully and as confused as you were, you smiled, "That is amazing Senjuro! You're amazing!"

The younger fox blinked as your words settled and he blushed as a cute smile rose to his lips. "T- thank you."

The three of you ate and you soon got used to hearing Kyojuro shout tasty with every bite he took. It didn't take long for all the food to be gone.

"So full." You sighed as you finished your last fry. The fox brothers were all smiles and you noticed that there was a smudge of ketchup on the corner of the Kyojuro's lips.

"You got something here." You said as you pointed at your own face and the older fox blinked as he tried to wipe the red smudge off, but he didn't quite get it.

"Here, just a second," You grabbed a tissue and carefully wiped the ketchup off his face. The man absolutely beamed, "Thank you!"

You're welcome. I take it you enjoyed the meal?" You asked and Kyojuro smiled right back at you, "These were delicious!"

"I'm happy to hear that." You smiled and he nodded, but then he looked at the now empty tray and you couldn't help but to notice that his smile didn't quite reach his pretty eyes, "Shame there isn't anymore."

"Oh, are you still hungry?" You asked and he turned to look at you, "I wouldn't mind another one."

"Then we can order some more if you would like?" You suggested and Kyojuro's earlier happier smile returned, "Can I get 10 more?"

"Wait, what?" You blinked.

What followed next, you could barely believe if you hadn't seen it with your own two eyes. Kyojuro wasn't kidding when he requested 10 more hamburgers. He ate them eagerly, occasionally taking a small sip of his Cola before continuing to eat.

For a fox, he sure ate like a horse.

You glanced at Senjuro who nibbled on some fries, occasionally dipping one in ketchup before eating it. He seemed to sense you looking at him and turned to look at you, "Is everything alright big sis?"

"No, nothing is wrong." You shook your head, but you did take a glance of soon to be an empty tray of burgers, "Your brother has a good appetite."

"Big brother loves good food," Senjuro repeat what he had said earlier. You nodded, choosing to accept this and feeling happy that mister Smith had agreed to pay for everything because even if you would find a job, you doubted you would have been able to pay for all this food.

After finishing eating, the three of you made your way back to your new home. Once you stepped inside, you immediately noticed that your moving boxes weren't in the lobby anymore. The moving men must have carried them to your room as you requested.

You and the fox brothers took off your shoes and you immediately noticed that Senjuro was yawning. Poor boy must have been so tired after the long day of shopping you had done.

"Would you like to head to bed Senjuro?" You asked and the young boy looked at you tiredly, "If that is alright with you then may I?"

"Of course it is!" You smiled as you nodded, "You can sleep this night in your underwear. Many human males do that."

"Should I use my new underwear?"

"Tomorrow, I'll just cut a hole for your tail and wash them." That is when you realized that you hadn't bought simple things such as toothbrushes, but maybe it wouldn't kill you if you skipped one day.

"You should also head to bed Kyojuro." You said as you glanced at the older fox who nodded, "Hm! I will, but what about you?"

"I'll head to bed soon enough. I'll just have to do a couple of things first." You replied, but the Kitsune looked at you thoughtfully.

"Promise me?" He asked and you nodded, "I promise."

"Very well then!" Kyojuro smiled again as he looked at his little brother and then at you, "I wish you both good night!"

"Good night brother," Senjuro nodded with a small smile and you smiled, "Sleep tight."

And just like that, the two of them made their way to their own rooms and you followed behind them, going to your room, but instead of going to sleep, you started opening your moving boxes, trying to find something specific.

"Gotcha!" You smiled as you found your little sewing kit amongst the stuff you had. With that item of yours, you made your way back downstairs, making sure to be extra quiet so you wouldn't disturb the Rengoku brothers. You picked up the clothing bags you had left at the entrance of the house and carried them to the living room.

You made yourself comfortable on the couch and grabbed some of the brothers' boxers and carefully cut a hole in them for their tails. They didn't require a button because they were stretchy, unlike their brand new pants. Those needed a button so they could be closed above the tail's base and therefore stop them from falling down.

Why you were there in the living room at 11pm fixing your new housemates' pants? Were you some kind of a weirdo? Possibly, but after the day you had, you were too energetic to sleep yet. Besides, staying at the manga cafe seriously messed up most of your sleeping schedules. You would return to normal schedule but it would take a moment.

"I thought you said that you were going to do only a couple of things?"

You nearly screamed, startled by the sudden voice behind you. You looked over your shoulder and saw Kyojuro standing there-!

Holy crap, he was muscular! Like, he could pose in the middle of a classroom full of art students and even they would get distracted by his body.

But what was the deal with such skimpy white underwear!? It barely left anything to your imagination, but you were a fine lady, not a perv and you forced your eyes up to look at his eyes and try to forget his underwear.

"W- what are you wearing?"

Nice job you, talk about his underwear right off the bat. Kyojuro blinked but his smile went nowhere, "They are called Fundoshi!"

"Shh…!" You quickly brought a finger to your lips, "Senjuro is sleeping."

"Ah, pardon me!" He replied, much quieter now. "What are you doing?"

"I knew I couldn't sleep so I decided to start tomorrow's work early today." You replied as you turned to look at the pants in your hands instead of Kyojiro on his underwear.

"Did you try?" He asked and you felt a little bad for shaking your head, "I've been sleeping badly for the last month or so. I'll get my usual schedule back in a few days."

"I see." You heard him say, his voice coming closer, "May I spend time with you then?"

"Oh, you don't need to," You shook your head, "I also need to visit a convenience store. Get some ingredients for breakfast."

"At this time?" Kyojuro blinked, "You have stores open at night?"

"Some stores." You nodded as you put the pants down, thinking that if you left now for the store, Kyojuro would let you be and go back to sleep. "I won't be long, I'll return in-!"

"May I come with you?" He suddenly asked.

"Oh, you don't need to-!" You turned around, ready to let him down carefully and make him go back to sleep but the moment you turned to look at him properly he was standing directly behind you.

"I insist. Who knows what kind of people are out there." He said, and you noticed that his smile was a little tight. You frowned, not really wanting to bother him, but you had a feeling that he wouldn't let you go by yourself no matter what you would say.

"Okay, but put on some clothes we bought." You gave up, reaching for one pair of pants you had already fixed and a red hoodie that you grabbed and threw to him over the couch.

"Yes, my Hime!" He nodded enthusiastically as he slipped the pants and hoodie on while you put your sewing kit down and got up to put the shoes on. It was a warm night so you wouldn't need a jacket.

It took no time for Kyojuro to come and join you. As soon as he got his sandals on he absolutely beamed at you, and you hated to admit it, but his smile was extremely contagious!

"Ready to go?"

"Yes, my beloved Hime!"

And you left and wandered into the night.

[tomholland1996simp]

Family isn’t just by blood || Tom Holland

Warning: Most fluff and happy but some angst with swear words and a little shouting. Upset y/n but then is happy.

pairing: DadTom

Summary: Could you make one where the reader and Tom celebrate there child’s birthday party.(Use scarlett again if u want) And Toms family comes over and y/n’s family is meant to as well. However her small side of the family to her mum comes but her dads side doesn’t. She tries to act not sad at all by it until two someone’s appear late to the party. Just make something up.

Today is a very special day, not only is the weather outside beautiful it’s also my daughters birthday, Scarlett. Me and Tom have prepared a small children’s party to celebrate her 4th birthday. Scarlett was born a little before the lock down, which means when covid happened we were all stuck inside without seeing the family.

But now finally we can all come together as a family to celebrate our little holland’s birthday. Of course I’ve met Toms family before, we have been dating now for 6 years and have been engaged for about 8months now. His family really support our relationship and there always so kind and welcoming to there family.

My family on the other hand they can be kind and nice sometimes. Well my mums side of the family are so sweet, my dads side are not as sweet as that seem. Throughout mine and Toms relationship and pregnancy my dads family has been nothing but unsupported and fake. They hadn’t even tried to take time out of there day to see how our daughter was or even me.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my dads side of the family even though I shouldn’t. Even as a child they never really cared for me, during a long period of my life they abandoned me, my mum, my brother and even my dad. It was only when I was 11 they came back after 8 years, making up some stupid excuse. Yeah, it really did affect me in my life as a teenager and still now. Knowing you didn’t have your family to talk to really sucked, especially with all the problems with my parents at that time.

You see, as a kid I always wanted to have this perfect life. I wanted a great boyfriend, a good job and eventually start a family. It was hard for me to get what I have now, and honestly I couldn’t wish for any better with Scarlett and Tom.

My parents used to always argue every day and every night. My siblings used to protect me from them arguments, me being the youngest. Eventually once my older sister and brother moved out they got worse. They started to argue more and more but it started to get physical.

Sometimes I would get hurt not just mentally, physically too. I would stand in front of them at around 12 years old trying to stop it, my mum would try swing for my dad and I would get punched in the face. The next day they always were best friends, cuddled up on the sofa like nothing happened. My mum nor dad thought to apologise to me neither. They were both alcoholics at the end of the day and my dad being a druggie.

Anyways enough sad shit, the end of the day I’m trying to give Scarlett the best life that she can live. I am making sure she can come to me for any problems or whenever she’s sad, I wanna be a good mother to her the one I never really had.

So, as I was saying. Toms family and hopefully mine will come over today to celebrate Scarlett’s birthday. We had everything set up with the help of Harrison, Harry and Tuwaine of course. Part of the party is outside, we had a small gazebo up with a table full of snacks, drinks and party bags for later. Chairs were also set around the place so everyone could have a seat, alcohol was in cold buckets to keep them cool. The temperature was really hot so we decided to let a small pool out for the kids.

“Darling did I tell you that you look so beautiful today?” Tom wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me closer to him. I was wearing a cute white summery dress with my hair wavy, makeup light.

“aww thanks Tommy.” I rub his arms that are around my waist. “Thanks boys, I really appreciate the help” I thank Harrison, Harry and Tuwaine.

“It’s okay y/n. We love you, Tom and Scarlett. We’re always here to help” Harrison smiled at me taking a sip from his beer.

“Mummy?” Scarlett calls making my head snap back to the little girl who was in her swimming costume. “Yes, birthday girl” I smile going over to her, picking her up.

“I think someone’s at the door” She told me, pointing in the direction. Placing her back down on the grass, I walk over to the door opening it. There stood my brother Charlie with his little boy, Liam. And my sister, Kirsty with her two sons lake and Jake.

“Hii, come in. Hello Liam, Lake and Jake” I smile at the two 4 year olds and Jake the 12 year old boy. “Thanks for coming” I hug Kirsty then Charlie.

“Uncle Charlie, auntie Kirsty!” Scarlett shouts running into there arms. 

“I heard it’s someone’s birthday today, so I got a little gift. But you can’t open it until all the guests have gone as mummy’s requests” Charlie told Scarlett. It was true you didn’t want her getting her new toys out and either breaking them or other kids playing with them.

“Charlie, Kirsty. Hi how are you both?-Hey little ones” Tom walked over greeting my siblings and there kids. Obviously there was one more sibling, Kieron, he was sadly sick so he couldn’t come. “You guys want a drink?” Tom offered them.

……………….

“Hi Nikki, you look beautiful as always. Hi Dom” I greet Nikki and Dom as they enter into the garden. Now everyone was basically here, Toms cousins, grandparents, Family friends and others were here. My nan was now here with her husband, Denis.

Also my cousin Ellie and her daughter came. One of my aunties and uncles had arrived too. Sadly this was just my mums side and non was my dads. I mean what did I expect? They of course wouldn’t come. But what hurts the most is that My dad or my mum isn’t here either.

“Where’s Sam and Wayne?” Asked Ellie whilst she sips on her drink.

“Clearly they ain’t coming. I mean it’s been an hour what the fuck is wrong with them” I scoff, checking the time. I was hurt and it showed a lot.

“Hey, don’t let them get to you. It’s alright. It’s there loss. Anyways let’s play a little bit more better music, whilst I talk to Harrison” She winked walking over to the speaker.

“Daddy? Where’s grandad and nanny? Nanny said she was coming to brwing me my new doll” Scarlett cried to Tom, them only being a few metre away from me so I could hear. He stopped his conversation to kneel down to his sobbing daughter. He looked over to me, knowing I heard what she said.

“Princess don’t cry, I’m sure there coming. Maybe there just running late” He cooed the now 4 year old. “How about this. I want you to get water in this water gun and spray uncle Haz, yeah?” He smiled at her making her laugh and nod straight away, running to squirt Harrison with the water gun.

“You okay?” He walked up to me placing his cup on the table.

“Yeah, there probably not gonna come. I mean my dads side of the family most likely ain’t. My mum is a bit surprising I did try to call her.” I wanted to cry, I shouldn’t cry. I needed to keep it all in, I need to stay strong.

“Well even if they don’t come, this is your family here. Family doesn’t have to be by blood, baby. Everyone that is my family is yours and Scarlett’s.” He placed his hands on my waist, kissing my forehead.

I smiled a little just by what he had said, “Yeah, your right. It’s not the first time they’ve let me down anyways” I watch as Harrison now chases Scarlett with the water gun, her screaming when the cold water hits her.

“Mummy! Daddy! Ahhhh” She screamed laughing, running behind mine and Toms legs. “You can’t get me now” She laughed at Harrison.

Harrison smirked pointing the gun at me, “Oh yeah well i’ll get your mummy” He looked down at Scarlett then back at me.

“Don’t you dare Harrison-“ He ignored me squeezing the gun in my face. Scarlett then stepped in front of me, protecting me from this stupid boy in front of me.

“Hey! Don’t you do that to my mummy! You can do it to daddy not mummy-“ She demanded causing Tom to say a ‘What! why me and not mummy’. “Well mummy is wearing makeup, and has a nice dress on.” She reasoned with her dad, but before he could say anything back she ran over to the pool getting inside it with her cousins.

To the corner of my eye, I saw my Nan and denis talking. “I’ll be back” I told Tom before leaving his side to go speak to them.

“Hi Nanny, Denis. Do you know if mum is coming?” I ask them.

“Hello darling, I’m not sure. Her and Wayne had an argument last night and this morning they said they were going out to eat. She was meant to be coming but not so sure now” My nan told me, just as I expected. They must’ve had an argument, made up then went to drink and clearly forgot.

“Thanks Nan” I quickly walk away from both of them, going to speak to Nikki and Dom.

……………………..

“Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, Happy to Scarlett…Happy birthday to you!” We all sang as she blowed out her candles on her beautiful princess cake.

“Daddy!” She whines as Tom pushed the cake a little into her face, pink frosting going onto her nose.

“Happy birthday, bubba” Kissing her on the head, placing her cute princess tiara on there.

“Thanks mummy” She smiled widely placing a kiss on my cheek.

“Now who wants some Cake?” Sam asked taking the cake from Tom, everyone saying whether they wanted any or not. As I looked back at Scarlett, about to ask whether she would like some, she started to look around the garden trying to search for something somebody.

“What you looking for?” I chuckle at her face as her eyes wonder around. All she did was huff, running inside the house.

“what’s up with the little one?” Ellie questioned, I just shook my head having no clue whatsoever.

Walking pass the people and inside the house, I search the rooms for my daughter. She wasn’t in the bathroom, nor her room or the kitchen, so I looked in the last place I thought she could be. Mine and Toms shared bedroom.

And she was there….laying on the bed, face planted into the pillow as soft cries escape her mouth.

“Baby, what’s wrong?”

I worry, sitting by her legs. “Go away” was all that she had said before crying even more. “I-I just wanna help honey, don’t want you crying on your birthday now do we?”

“Did Nanny and Grandad forget?” she mumbled, almost not hearing her.

“What do you mean?” I curiously asked, trying to understand what she meant by what she had said.

“Nan and Grandad, they forgot about my birthday! They never come visit anymore, they don’t care about me” She cried into the pillow more. My heart Instantly broke. I never wanted her to feel it, however them even being her grandparents make her feel like they don’t care.

“Sweetheart, listen sit up look at me” I tell her, waiting till she gets up, which she does, keeping her head hanging low as sniffles just come out. “Nanny and Grandad Love you so so much. They just- listen your too young to understand right now but they do care. Nanny and grandad haven’t been feeling well lately.. They do care about you so much, okay. I used to feel like that all the time with them. They just have many problems going on right now” I lied. I had to lie to my own daughter because of them.

“I’m still upset and angry” she admitted finally looking at me in the eyes.

“And that’s okay. Your allowed to be upset and angry by them. But baby you have everyone else, you have nanny nikki and grandad Dom here.” I explain to her.

“Yeah and you have your cousins, your mummy and daddy here.” Tom walked into the room, hearing the conversation knowing it was breaking your heart too. 

“Thwankss” She smiled hugging me tight.

“How about let’s go outside and have some cake. We can finish the party?” I offer her smiling a ‘yes please’.

………………….

The party had finally died down, I was now sitting on a chair with Scarlett sleeping on me with her head nestled in my neck. She was now in the dress she had gotten into earlier that Nikki brought for her. She was shattered after being in the sun all day and dancing around to the music and playing with her family. She had such a good birthday party.

“Little birthday girl must’ve been tired” Charlie pointed to her sleeping body on me. “Yeah had a good day” I smiled, looking at the floor, my mood showing more since everyone had left.

“You okay?”

“Y-yeah, just tired now that’s all” Faking a smile on my face.

“Listen I know your hurt and upset just don’t take it to heart. There a bunch of idiots y/n” He kissed my forehead. “I’m gonna go now, i’ll see you later” He said, getting his things ready.

Once I had said my goodbyes to him, Tom came over to me sitting in the seat next to me. “Want me to carry her to bed?” Tom offered rubbing my leg.

“No it’s okay, Needed to go inside to get black bags anyways” I half-smiled standing up holding Scarlett trying not to wake her up.

Then walking into the house and straight to her bed room, taking off her dress to put her pjs on. Tucking her in, she started to stir awake so I slowly shut the lights off, leaving the room with the door a little bit open.

Now everyone had left, when I walked out of Scarlett’s bedroom Tom was saying goodbye to his brothers and thanking them for coming. He shut the door behind him, looking over at me. He knew I was still upset, he just knew not to ask.

“Right some of the rubbish is in the bin, thanks to your brothers. So there’s only a little more to do, just need to put the left over drinks in the fridge and the food in the bin if it’s been eaten” I instructed him, we both instantly getting to work. It didn’t take that long to clean, we was gonna leave some to do tomorrow as it was getting dark.

“Phew. I’m so happy that’s all-“ I couldn’t finish my sentence as the door bell rang, multiple of times. Running to the door, quickly opening the it so the person doesn’t wake up Scarlett.

There stood the two people I didn’t want to see at all. My mum and dad. Both were of course  wreaking of alcohol and my dad of strong weed. “Nope” I said going to shut the door on their faces, my dad holding it pushing it open. “No. Get out I don’t want you here” I didn’t want to see them because I knew I would break then and there.

“Y/n my darling, it’s Scarlett’s birthday” My mum slurred being too loud, making Tom come inside seeing both my parents.

“Shut up yours going to wake scarlett, the party was hours ago you missed it so leave. You stink of alcohol and-“ I see my dad pull out a packet of weed. “What the fuck! I said I didn’t want that near my daughter, nor my house get that out now!” I whisper yell at him.

“Don’t speak to your dad like that!” My mum snapped at me, making me look at her up and down.

“Please leave, you’ve done enough. You don’t even realise how much you ruined Scarlett’s birthday she’s was so upset you didn’t come, she thought you forgot and that you don’t care about her” I couldn’t care anymore they needed to hear this.

“Y/n stop being pathetic- oh Hi Tom” My mum changed her tone towards Tom, making me roll my eyes as he even knows it’s an act.

“Just get out please, that’s all I’m asking” I plead to them both loosing my patients.

“Y/n I wanna see Scarlett it’s her birthday” She started to walk towards her room but I stepped in front of her, snapping.

“SCARLETT IS ASLEEP. YOU FUCKING SAID THAT ALREADY YOU CAME LATE SO GET THE FUCK OUT! I DON’T WANT TWO ALCOHOLICS IN MY HOUSE WHERE MY DAUGHTER AND FIANCE LIVE, ITS FUCKING EMBARRASSING!” I scream at both of them, tears streaming down my face, regretting saying it as I saw my dads face.

He stepped towards me making me back away, “What did you just say?” He scrunched his fists by his sides.

Tom immediately seeing my feared face steping in the middle of us. “We will visit you another day, we’re very tired after a long day” Tom spoke nicely trying to not start anything. Surprisingly it worked. They both left slamming the door behind them.

“I knew they would do it. Why do they have to be like this! My dads family didn’t even come and see her. They didn’t leave a fucking message” I cried into his arms burying my head inside his chest.

“shhh darling it’s okay” Tom soothed stroking my back.

“Mummy? Why you crying?” I heard that sweet voice behind me, making me turn to her. She rubbed her eyes, most likely waking up from the shouting.

“I’m okay princess, go back to sleep” Fake smiling.

“I heard mummy, it’s okay really. My party was still really good. I know Nanny and Grandad are just having problems” She smiled, she was really smart for a four year old. “Don’t cry mummy please” she said holding her teddy bear, with a tear rolling down her face.

“I wanna see my two favourite girls happy, so what we’re gonna do is…Mummy and I will get ready for bed then Scarlett you wanna sleep in our bed tonight? We can watch any movie you want?” Tom suggested making me smile.

“yessss, thank you daddy” She jumped up and down. We then got ready for bed, brushing our teeth, washing our faces and then getting under the covers. We put on a princess movie, laying comfortably all together as a family.

I wasn’t sad anymore, I was with my family, who I know love me for me and will always be here.

Toms family is mine too.

It’s true what Tom said, family isn’t just by blood.

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For the choose violence ask game: 12, 13, & 21 please :)

Aww thank you for the ask love, you're so sweet.

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them?

I was originally gonna say Wei Beifong but since that answer would basically just boil down to: hey look at this cute gay twink who loves his mom very much why can't you guys love him as much as I love him.

But that would be a little bit underwhelming, so I'll say: Suyin Beifong. I'm not gonna say she's perfect. In fact I love her due to the fact that she's so flawed. I thibk the reason a lot of people dislike her is because they feel like it's either Suyin or Lin. Which isn't the case at all? You can like, nay, you should like them both.

Lmk if I should make a longer post on Suyin cause god it kinda annoys me how much people write her off as some manipulive villain who exists to torment Lin.

13. worst blorboficiation

Kuvira. Hands down. Like, don't get me wrong, she can be your blorbo. I know a lot of Kuvira stans who absolutely don't have this problem but I just notice that Kuvira kinda get woobified a lot?

Kuvira's redemption and fault was clumsily handled in the comics I'll give you that, but she is still a war criminal responsible for the death and injury of many.

Like she's not a delicate, traumatised little girl. She's killed and tortured and manipulated. Granted, it's wishy washy how many of the Empire's crimes she was directly responsible for, but it was her Empire.

At best, she's an irresponsible, easily manipulated fool who has no care for her so called citizens wellbeing, at worst she's an absolute monster, rivaling the Fire Lords in her cruelty.

I like Kuvira as a complex character, don't get me wrong. But her flaws are what make her interesting. If you wanna stan her, stan her as the unhinged dictator she is, or you're not a real Kuvira stan.

[Also what the fuck was it with people defending her actions and ideologies??? Sometimes they used to pop up on my dash and it was frankly scary.]

21. part of canon you think is overhyped

Would it be blasphemy to say Uncle Iroh? Like he's great, he brings so much comfort and I love him dearly, but in the end he's just a traumatised old man who also commited war crimes as well.

This post seems to have a theme.

[hils79]

Hils Watches My School President - Ep 12 (Part 1)

Can't believe we're at the end already. Please don't expect me to be normal about Tiw and Por because I won't be.

I love how they set her up to be the villain of the story but actually she just wants her son to be happy.

And I love that Tinn's parents actually have a really healthy relationship (I mean apart from the time they told Tinn about all the sex they were going to have while he was away studying)

Got to get in one last printer product placement before the end

Tinn is so smooth for someone who is such a nerd (affectionate)

He is 100% correct and should say it

Of course we have to have a dramatic being outed plot to finish things off

My sweet son Por was literally the only member of the band who hadn't figured out Tinn and Gun were together. I love him.

Haha! Phat knew about Tinn and Gun but did not know about Win and Sound. Everyone's worlds getting shook today

Por is really going to be shook when he finds out that Tinn was helping because he likes Gun, and Tiw was helping because he likes Por

I thought Jorn was going to be homophobic but actually he's just mad that music club was getting preferential treatment because Tinn liked Gun. And, you know, he kind of has a point.

Character development

I love that we've now reversed roles and Gun is trying to protect Tinn, even though Tinn very much does not want to be protected

Am I just old or is this a drama thing? So many BL dramas seem to have girls taking photos of boys and posting about how they ship them on social media. It's kind of creepy.

Baby just found out what the name order in a ship means. Everyone getting their minds blown in this episode

I'm pretty sure it's TinnGun, actually

Some punch the shitty homophobic teacher

No, really, someone punch him

FUCK ME! Jorn punched him! Good for you, sweetie!

You had better fire that homophobic teacher, ma'am

YES DESTROY HIM

Oh no I'm crying again

I love that some dramas just squeeze in redemption arcs for characters who don't deserve it. Then you have Jorn who hates unfairness to the point of punching a homophobic teacher. I love him.

Aww look at Sound kissing his boyfriend on stage in front of everyone. Good for them.

God they are so stinking cute

GDI I've hit the image limit and there's still another 30 minutes to go so I guess once final part 2

Part 2

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Collection of asks !

Hi! Don't want to clog up your dashboards so I am answering some asks that have piled up while I was a bit absent <3

(Game update status: both going good and bad. Stuck on this one scene, but I am starting to see the end in the tunnel lol. Have been trying a new approach where I don't edit while writing :0 it's hard but does increase productivity! I just hope the quality isn't too bad after it lol. You can tell me once the update is out haha!)

Bahaha Love that! W deserves all the love <3

😏😏😏 Watson likes all of Sherlock, tho I'm sure they are partial to some... parts hehe

But the reaction is not new!! Tho I know a lot of people miss it (there's a few easily missed things tbh haha, maybe not optimal, but I find it fun to hide little things). There's one reaction with small waist too !

lolol I see it. I have a scene in my notes where MC basically has to teach H to sit on (and touch) grass...

@jumpyhamster Maybe? Not sure yet, sorry!

Ah--was it so obvious i'm not english haha! Yeah, I might as well tell you all too (despite my best efforts of internet anonymity, I talk too much on discord lol) I am Swedish. So if I make some weird English mistake or miss some quintessential British thing the MC or NPCs would know plz let me know! <3

Aww I think I know who this is!!! 💛💛💛 hearts right back!!!!

@4332 <3<3<3 I'm so glad you liked it!! (I don't recommend it to 12 years old tho! might be too adult for that haha)

<3 <3 <3

I am for sandwich solidarity in all forms haha! XD

Hopefully MC will be able to get them a not-chewed on sandwich soon <3

It seems I can't paste more images sorry-- One similar question I got was what the elegant body type looks like:

Currently the body types won't assume a lot much more than the word and possibly synonyms to the word. That's because it's so subjective. So--if I were to make further content about it I probably will have to ask further questions about that setting <3 I do think it would be fun and interesting to do!

Elegant, is again, what you want it to mean. But generally I've heard it to mean semi-long limbs with "ideal" like proportions. And in mass perhaps somewhere between tall-athletic and lean. I personally think of grace kelly I think

Love this game and the new details you added <3 this is definitely a spoilery question but man, i gotta ask... what happened in Lestrade's life that to made him so... unhappy? Careless with his own wellbeing? :(

<3

A previous answer I have given: "Just a spiral of things. Life turning the wrong way, things looking bad on the horizon, failing to take care of themselves so they have poor chances of climbing out or realising they even can." In addition to this. This had not started when MC and L first met. And there was a catalyst event, that set it off, and in a way MC is involved in this.

💖💝💕💯💐

💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

you deserve to go to jail for making me choose between two cute love interests... that aside, your game has helped me a lot while struggling with mental health problems. which sounds a little silly but genuinely it warms my heart when i don't feel well. so thank you for creating something so wonderful. + i know most asks here are RO-related but im also very excited to see how the story goes!

Gosh Anon, you gave me a heart-attack with those first few words haha-- but to the rest, thank you so much <3<3<3 That's very sweet. I'm really glad and honoured to help in anyway I can. There's a lot of plot coming anon! Don't you worry! :D

harrypotternerd934 asked:

I need to say that I'm absolutely amoured by your story. I really enjoy playing as Sherlock and I think you did a really great job at capturing the vibe of the setting.

Much love and further luck with your story 🤗

@harrypotternerd934 <3

Aww, thank you so much! <3<3<3

approxtwelveangrybees asked:

I need you to know that I had so much fun with the Victorian gazing in the first two chapters

@approxtwelveangrybees <3<3<3

Congratulations on the anniversary <3 the update was so good.. all the little reworked scenes... the love kernels... But wait, will there actually be a love triangle route!!!!?

Yeees <3 Lot's of them <3

phaedraismyusername asked:

My favourite line of the update - just a top tier IQ drop right there 😍 lol

The whole thing was so good! An absolute joy to read as always ❤️❤️❤️

@phaedraismyusername <3<3<3 You're a joy!!! <3<3<3 (I love how people are discovering the thigh line haha)

and to "The trio Lestrade/hungry tumblr anon" Thank you for your story <3

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Forest of Secrets reread! Honestly, i really like this one! Specifics will be at the end in the My Thoughts section but overall, 9/10

Too much weird abelistic pity though

Prolouge

Again, stretching the "bracken-colored" defintion here

Shoutout to Graypool for taking them in and keeping quiet for so long, must've been hard

Rip mosskit though

Chapter 1

3 days after the chapter 30 windclan fight

Its the gathering again, still leafbare

Atleast these two arent bickering again

Ah, exposition of the last book, we meet again

Windclan has lost an elder, wonder which one

Wow two expositions in one scene

Theres that very 2009 ... again

Oh, ive learnt it was actually 2003

Chapter 2

Again, very storyteller explanation from Ravenpaw, though it comes off far more intentional this time

Im glad Ravenpaw's doing alright

Deadfoot!!! My guy!! Love him

Chapter 3

Oh fuck sake not Spottedleaf again

This prophecy better make sense bc i do not remember water having anything to damn well do with this book

Chapter 4

Aww, bracken standing up for his mentor. He shouldnt, considering the training neglect, but its the thought that counts

I dont think im physically disabled enough to dictate the use of 'crippled' but :/

Yellowfang!!

Fireheart i dont think you get the right to feel bad about her injury when shes perfectly fine with her new path, can we have less pity please

"For Cinderpaw, crippled" again. Can we not.

See now Fireheart sees where Grey's coming from

Mistyfoot's aware of them, interesting

"Isnt she great" yeah, she is, i agree with you greystripe

Mistyfoot is shockingly calm about this. I can picture her as butch if she was anthro.

Chapter 5

Oh god, more exposition

Brackenpaw is not ginger, why is he described as ginger and not bracken colored!

Oh no they did the same for thornpaw

But that does mean they must be 6 moons by now

"For thunderclan, anyway" lmao

Polite to bring prey when meeting another clan, or elders specifically?

Chapter 6

Oo, badass grandma

Bluestar getting awfully defensive there

I like the 'thistles and thorns' as a swear

Chapter 7

Haha brokentail's being bullied by kits, serves the bastard right

Even darkstripe finds it funny

Ok damn why is fireheart so mad about this

For once i agree with darkstripe, kits werent doing anything wrong

Oof the kittypet explanation is like explaining hes adopted

"A helpless cat like blind brokentail" thats still a kit-murdering dictator, my guy

"Anxious that cloudkit may have hurt the injured cinderpaw" ok jesus fucking christ shes nearly a grown cat a kitten isnt gonna hurt her can we stop the coddling

Chapter 8

They know the term rubbish

Aww, cloud being a little teacher to ash and fern, thats cute. Cloudtail med cat au sounds interesting

Hm, brackenpaw catching a bird that nearly flew away with a jump. Foreshadowing?

Taking ol' tyranny grandpa out for a walk, eh darkstripe?

Chapter 9

I like dappletail, shes so nice

Is tigerclaw already meeting up with bloodclan? Or the remainders of brokenstar's rogues?

Princess my beloved your so enthusiastic

Chapter 10

Completely unnecessary chapter cut, but ok

Goldenflower is expecting, and already decently along, seemingly

Chapter 11

Uh oh, flooded river

I gotta admit, tigerclaw's a good deputy when hes not being evil

Greystripe has river-based trauma

Chapter 12

Crookedstar is not as soft of a leader as i thought he was

I dont like leopardfur or blackclaw

Loving graypool tho

Yeah its breaking the code but technically the code says about not letting kits die and starvation is a cause of death so theres arguments to be made their still within code

Chapter 13

I like this clan mingling, its nice

Stonefur seems like a cool guy, i like him

Oh greystripe

Chapter 14

Oh cloudkit, your tracking skills are impressive but you gotta keep that mouth shut, buddy

Chapter 15

Longtail swaggered towards him

I really like the arc 1 elders, their so fun

I like that we get to see tigerclaw being nice for a minute, even though hes definitely conspiring

Chapter 16

Almost been another moon

Tigerclaw's either really good at acting or he didnt actually expect it to break, maybe he realised fireheart's death would look too suspicious?

Chapter 17

Longtail saves the day

God i love yellowfang and her adopted kits

Wow, even tigerclaw approves of her being the medicine cat

Chapter 18

Time for the gathering, 3 days have passed

Chapter 19

I dont like Nightstar

Good job, Brackenpaw!

Chapter 20

Deadfoot nooo

Yay, morningflower!

Dont drag fireheart into this

Ok, yeah, bluestar kin reveal, but can we focus on Yellowfang saying "adopted clan?" Thats adorable

Chapter 21

Hell yeah, Brackenfur! I love him so much

Oh, poor greystripe, silverstream's death scene hurts to read

And cinderpaw! Poor girl did her best

I like how tigerclaw is just utterly shocked, he didnt see this coming

Chapter 22

Ah, goldenflower had her kits! Welcome, bramble and tawny

Speckletail shut up, wheres mistlekit?

Good to see Goldenflower's had a change of heart

Aww cinderpaw noo

Interesting that tigerclaw respects medicine cats so much

God i love yellowfang so much

Ah, theres the kin reveal

Chapter 23

God, bluestar's explanation is chilling, i can feel her suffering

Oh, great, sandstorm's back to hating them

Chapter 24

Two days since silverstream's death

Ah, willowpelt's expecting. And theres that ol' whitestorm discourse

In cloud's defense, has anyone actually told him the code?

I think Cloudpaw has been adopted by the elders

Chapter 25

Princess!!! And cloudpaw's growing on me, i think i like him

Chapter 26

Always love more cinderpelt and yellowfang content

Half moon ceremony, yay

Cinderpaw gave a joyful wiggle!!!

I love cinderpaw so much, but someone get this girl in therapy

Fireheart can we stop the pity when shes clearly very happy

Ah, heres tigerclaw's big traitor moment

Chapter 27

Brokenstar you coniving mangy bastard

Yeah, go Thornpaw!

Tigerstar giving his evil monologue there, love that for him

Chapter 28

Pin the bastard!

Oh no, bluestar, you good?

And whats this! Riverclan with a steel chair!

Au where tigerclaw just fuckin bleeds out while being pinned

Darkstripe and Longtail stay, smart move, you two

Ok, good, dustpelt's not a complete asshole, then

Chapter 29

Au where brokentail joins thunderclan

Also yikes his death was dark

Im pretty sure thats not how yewberries kill, though

How do you scratch your tounge?

Spottedleaf really said do not be afraid, ok biblically accurate angel cat

"Oh spottedleaf" wheres that "we're really in it now' meme

Chapter 30

Whitestorm being great as always

I like the crowfood being used as an omen

Aww, goldenflower considering them as her own

Ough, poor fireheart (and greystripe)

My thoughts

9/10, definitely much better than the second one. Too much abelistic pity, though, so a point removed. I don't have any complaints for this book aside from that, really. Spottedleaf was mildly less prevelant this time, which is good. Tigerclaw's evil reveal and exit were cool, and silverstream's death hurt me way more than i thought it would. Overall, good.

[bengiyo]

My Only 12% Ep 5 Stray Thoughts

Y'all, I am shaking with emotion and we haven't even started.

Last week I was screaming that it was vital that Eiw finish Love of Siam, and here we are with him sneaking down to watch it. This was also my gay experience in my teens. I watched so many shows and movies at almost muted with captions turned on.

What do we need to do to get this film remastered? Someone call the folks at Criterion Collection. If we can do this for Ghost Dog (one of my favorite films) we can do this for Love of Siam. I need to organize a viewing.

Okay, but I am super nervous about the focus of Eiw's viewing being Tong's mother convincing Mew to end their romance.

Seriously, what do these parts even mean to BL fans who haven't seen the film? It matters so much to me that New is referencing this film.

Oh fuck I keep forgetting that Prem is in this and it surprises me every time. Where's that gif from the office?

I keep seeing a lot of electrical retrofit in Thai dramas that involves using insulated pipes outside of the walls. It's definitely cost efficient, but there's your rehabber commentary for the week.

Hey that was a nice transition from one room to the other.

We have so much footage of Santa sleeping.

Damn, Santa is pretty. I get why Wabi Sabi signed him when he was 17.

I am enjoying Prem as an older brother.

I've been in genre too long. I can't remember Peak's character's name. It is fun to see him play with Earth. Neither really look like teens to me anymore though.

Oreo!!!! I know there's going to be something off about your character, but I'm glad to see you.

Very glad Cake learned keyboarding skills at his school. He does pick up skills, despite never doing his own homework.

I feel bad for these street vendors on busy streets. How much car exhaust have they inhaled? How much has ended up on food people have consumed?

Oh, Sand, you gonna order ice cream when you know you don't have no money?? I was prepared to frown at you, but I am still disappointed. And cab fare??

It's kinda fascinating that no one seems bothered that Eiw and Cake are as close as they are, but are all concerned that Eiw is clearly creating distance.

I know Earth is a good crier, but goddamn I just want his characters to triumph just ONCE.

I'm a big brother and one of the oldest cousins. I wish I'd had a big sister when I was struggling with figuring out who I was. The amount of internalized homophobia coming out of Eiw is making me feel heavy.

"Sis, if it's not wrong, then why [is] everyone in that movie...[un]happy?" Baby boy, that was what we've been asking for 15 years. The answer is that we needed straight girls to feel sad to move the needle. That we also had to be sad is the burden we carry for the young people behind us. You hurt, and it matters. Know that it was not for naught.

I am sobbing. This is a lot.

I hope there are more sisters out there like Hom.

I cannot properly articulate the depths of loneliness I felt in the aftermath of H. Katrina as I came of age as a queer person, nor would I want to on a reaction post like this. However, I hope many of you who are watching along and reading this are only curious and a bit confused. I hope you don't fully grasp how Eiw feels. I hope things were good enough for you that this wound doesn't linger.

Cake saw that something was wrong with Eiw. What will he do next? Of course he waits on Eiw's room to cuddle.

Aww, Cake, I love him asking direct questions.

Growing up is hard. These boys are going to break me.

It's so adorable that Eiw is protective of his big sister.

Oh lord this boy done put a bunch of Hom's pictures on the wall. I am NOT finding this cute.

Sand better not harm Eiw and prove Cake's worries correct.

Cake is on the phone with Rin in Eiw's bed. Frustrating.

Oh don't cliffhanger on a Now Kiss Moment that Cake doesn't even recognize.

Oh good it looks like we might resolve Sand next week.

[boysplanetrecaps]

Boys Planet Recap, Episode 7 part 3 - Rush Hour 

This recap will cover the Rush Hour rehearsal and performance from Ep 7! People have said they were looking forward to my thoughts on this, so I thought I’d go ahead and put this part up by itself rather than paired with another team. Here we go!

Huta introduces the next song and out comes team Rush Hour.

Left to right: Ma Jing Xiang, Hiroto, Takuto, Ricky, and Oh Sungmin

I’ll remind you that our commuters are:

Trainee name (rank)   Star Level test /Challenge 1 /age final star level

Ricky (12) Kick It - G /Back Door - G /18 ⭐⭐

Takuto (15) Instead Of... /Danger - G /15 ⭐

Hiroto (21) Conduct Zero /Very Nice - G /20 ⭐⭐

Ma Jing Xiang (32) Reveal /Very Nice - G /19 🚫

Oh Sung Min (34) Bloom Bloom /Love Me Right - K /21 ⭐⭐⭐

They introduce themselves as “Awesome Hour.” There is clearly a very loud cheer after Ricky introduces himself, but it is also very clearly cut off by the editing. Ma Jing Xiang’s intro is actually cut off a split second before he finishes saying his name, and the conspiracy theorist in me says they cut off his cheer, too. They pan the audience and we see signs for Ricky, Oh Sung Min, Ma Jing Xiang, and Hiroto -- I think I see more signs for MJX than for anyone else, but that’s just what I see.  

Huta asks Sungmin, “Did you have any difficulties leading the team?” 

There’s a long pause. In the judging room on the space station, vocal judge Onestar says “This team was all over the place.” Solji says, “They should work as a team,” and I’m already on edge. 

I’ll remind you that when we first saw this team rehearsing in episode 6, there was already some bullshit going on. Takuto was having a hard time with the choreo, which happens. But Oh Sungmin was insisting that everyone stay together while Takuto practiced the same line over and over, and the editing tried to make it seem like both Ma Jing Xiang and Ricky were both selfish jerks for wanting to work ahead a bit. I’m not convinced, but we heard from Sungmin and Hiroto talking about how they need better teamwork. 

We get a flashback to the song selection day, to something we didn’t see the first time, and find out that as Ricky approached the Rush Hour team, the sign fell down.   

This whole moment is such a multi-layered metaphor for the way this show works. MNET is trying to present this as if Ricky is a bad luck omen, or as if the sign falling off the wall is symbolic of the troubles the team would have. And yet, the truth is that the signs were poorly applied to the wall, because MNET is cheap and shitty and lazy, and the sign falling had nothing whatsoever to do with these trainees. So the metaphor here isn’t that Ricky is a bad luck omen; the metaphor is that the sign is cheap the way that MNET is cheap. The metaphor is that MNET blaming the trainees for their own sign falling down symbolizes the way they for trainees to do emotionally difficult things and then blame them for their emotional response. The metaphor is that MNET blaming a set design failure on a Chinese trainee is symbolic of how they blame  everything on Chinese trainees. The metaphor is that MNET sucks as bad as this set sucks.  

(I put the preceding in its own post because I felt so passionate about it. Anyway.)

I think the bigger news is how happy MJX is to see Ricky.

Aww! We barely know either of these trainees, so I had no idea that they were friendly. He’s so happy! It’s so cute. (Me in the future knows that this will turn out to be important later, too, though when I screen capped this I had no idea.)

So, we cut to a day or two later. The trainees are in a rehearsal room. MJX is practicing the dance while listening to headphones. Ricky has an idea for a new thing they could do with the choreo, and suggests it to Hiroto. I think Hiroto has a hard time understanding him, and Oh Sungmin isn’t there, and Takuto isn’t helpful, so Ricky tries to ask MJX to help him demonstrate his idea. 

MJX basically refuses even to take out his headphones at first, and then when pushed to it, says that they don’t have enough time, and it’s more important to practice the choreography than it is to make changes to it.

Ricky interviews that he didn’t understand MJX’s perspective, because at that point it was D-6 and in Ricky’s view, they DID have time to make changes. MJX then interviews that they didn’t have time, because in his view, they didn’t. Then Oh Sungmin interview that he finds them both inconsiderate.

Sigh. This is like one of those “Am I the asshole?” posts on reddit, and I want to vote, “NAH” -- no assholes here. 

Ricky is a strong dancer and has a lot of cool ideas, and besides, part of what the trainees are demonstrating in this battle is their choreography skills. The upcoming elimination probably isn’t that scary to him --- he knows he has a solid fan base and is likely to make it, so he’s not stressed out. He knows intellectually that MJX and Sungmin aren’t in that position, but it’s probably too much for him to stay constantly focused on. Also, he probably assumes that if their team wins the position battle, the extra votes will help save them too, so he’d better make their performance as cool as possible! He just wants to share what he’s good at with his teammates, like a gift… Why shouldn’t they utilize his skills, if he has them? 

Meanwhile, from MJX’s perspective, changing the choreography all the time is making a difficult situation even worse. He’s not a strong dancer, and I assume he’s terrified of being scolded by the psychopath dance teachers. He also, presumably, doesn’t want to put on a bad performance that gets mocked online. And of course, he doesn’t want to go home, but he’s ranked 32 and things don’t look good for him. He probably resents Ricky a little bit, subconsciously -- Ricky is a good dancer, Ricky is super popular, Ricky speaks Korean better than he does (though MJX speaks it decently), and Ricky is ALWAYS trying to change the choreo. MJX is stressed out and ready to snap, and Ricky is just piling on more stress. Yeah, the level to which he’s angry isn’t great. But it’s understandable, if you get me. He’s scared, and fear often can manifest as anger. 

Meanwhile, what Sungmin sees is bickering and time-wasting while he’s trying to lead. Chinese culture is really different from his, and even their normal interactions probably seem brash and rude to him -- not saying that he’s racist, just saying that it’s hard to NOT view people through the lens of what you’re used to in your own culture. Also, Sungmin is already so stressed out trying to get Takuto on track with the dance, and meanwhile he himself is actually the lowest ranked on the team and probably scared of going home. He’s down to his last nerve, and they’re getting on it. 

Yes, it would be great if they could say to themselves and each other, “Wow, the stress is getting to me. I’m sorry. Let’s try to find a compromise.” I think a leader like formerly blue-haired Park Hanbin or Mr. Sexy Kim Jiwoong could, each in his own way, resolve this -- Hanbin by keeping control from the first minute, and Jiwoong by using his emotional intelligence to get everyone talking honestly about how they’re feeling and encouraging compromise. (Though Jiwoong would haaaaaaaaaaate being in this situation.) 

But Oh Sungmin isn’t quite up to the challenge, and it’s a lot to ask from these stressed out teenagers that they exert that kind of control over their emotional responses. We see Sungmin trying to smooth things over by reminding them of their common goal. But things have already gone too far, and they need a bigger intervention than that. 

That night, Takuto -- who has a little set of plushie letters spelling his name in English, and has his official red and white pjs still on his bed -- is getting pretty upset. 

Remember, he’s 15 -- to him, having the hyungs all fighting probably feels like when your mom and dad fight. They’re also taller than him, and he doesn’t understand their language very well. And meanwhile, the dancing is already really really difficult for him. He’s got to be near collapse.

The next day, MJX is still really prickly and difficult to work with again. He won’t budge an inch, even when Sungmin tries to offer a compromise. There’s a bit in the choreo where Ricky is supposed to playfully push MJX out of the way, and MJX is saying that he “knows” that Ricky will push him really hard later on -- something he can’t know, because it’s in the future. In other words, he’s irrational. It’s not easy to watch.

The formerly blue-hared Park Hanbin, who has been sharing a rehearsal room with them (why can’t each team have its own room???) has noticed, and interviews, “The Rush Hour team can’t communicate with each other. To be honest, I don’t think they’re willing to do it.” 

I think Hanbin is on to something there. I mean, maybe I’m wrong, but I theorize that for MJX, it’s easier to stay angry, because while you’re angry, you have a shield up. As long as he’s blaming Ricky for making things difficult, he’s not thinking as much about how poor his own skills are. Sitting down and having a talk, a real talk, would involve admitting how scared he is and how sad he is and how envious he probably is. It’s not something he really wants to do. Angry is safe. Don’t get me wrong - he’s acting like a complete jerk. It’s just that I can understand why and empathize with him anyway, because I’ve been in his shoes. I think we all have.

Takuto starts to cry out of frustration and probably hopelessness, and Sungmin tries to comfort him (Sungmin speaks a bit of Japanese to him, which is sweet). MJX doesn’t acknowledge what’s going on -- he just wants to keep going. Oh Sungmin tries to have an actual group conversation, but MJX says, “Sungmin-hyung, You don’t have to explain, we just have to practice.” He’s quite close to Sungmin as he says it, and tensions feel high. Hiroto tries to say that if they don’t resolve the situation, it’ll keep happening, but MJX isn’t listening. He’s found an emotional level to be on that feels safe and he’s going to stay there. Finally, Sungmin has to walk away to calm down. I noticed that MJX immediately pulls a piece of paper out of his pocket and begins practicing his rap the second that Sungmin is just a few steps away. You can feel the anxiety vibrating out of MJX, but that doesn’t help Sungmin, who is hiding in a stairwell and trying not to cry.

Time passes, and now it’s day D-1 -- dress rehearsal. What have the the boys been doing for three days? We’re left to assume that they’ve been in this exact same tense state the whole time, and if so, that’s awful. I guess they’ve just been running rehearsals with MJX in this emotional state the whole time.

They perform their dress rehearsal -- we don’t see much of it -- and when they’re done, the judges say, “it’s not fun because you’re not having fun.” Presumably they’d have other feedback, but we don’t hear any of it. The storyline isn’t about whether Hiroto is pronouncing Korean correctly or not, or whether Ricky wrote a fun rap or not, or whether Takuto did the dance well or not, or whether Oh Sungmin looks cute up on stage or not. It’s about how MJX is a jerk, and so the only feedback we hear is the feedback that pertains to that. 

That night, they have a meeting in the dorm room. (We can see that a few of them are wearing their official pajamas.) Oh Sungmin says, “I left my group (T01) to be here, and I feel like my life is in danger -- if I don’t make it here, I can’t be an idol.” I don’t know if that’s true, Sungmin -- you’re signed to WakeOne. But anyway.

Hiroto says, in essence, “Me too, this is my third shot, and I feel like it’s my last chance.” And MNET isn’t doing you any favors, either, Hiroto-kun. Ganbatte kudasai, Hiroto-kun! 

MJX says, “I don’t want this to prevent us from giving a good performance, either. I’ll trust everyone and keep going.”  I still feel tension radiating from him, but I can see he’s trying to take it down a notch. 

Ricky says, “I’m so, so, sorry.”

It’s interesting that we don’t see MJX apologize -- I feel like he would have? He’d have to, right? But MNET doesn’t show it. 

MJX and Ricky give each other an awkward hug, which seems to be initiated more by MJX than by Ricky, and there’s some awkward laughter. MJX interviews that they said what they needed to say to one another -- it's easier for him to forgive the others than I think it is for them to forgive him, I think. Also, I think he and Ricky really are friends, so their arguing, while uncomfortable to everyone else, probably felt "safe" to them -- they knew they'd make up sooner or later.

The meeting probably helped, but I think it was like shoving stuff into drawers and saying you've cleaned. Just like how you have to get all the junk out from under your bed if you're really, really going to clean, I think they needed to have a real knock-down drag out FIGHT, with full on yelling even, if necessary, get it all out, and then talk it out. But I think they were all kind of scared to go there, and sometimes it's easier to just make up than it is to talk it out.

Anyway.

It’s D-day, and they huddle backstage. Sungmin says, “it doesn’t matter what our process was -- we just need to have fun. I love you all.” Ricky says, “I love you all” too, and they do a “hana-dul-set, FIGHTING!”  

So, that brings us to the performance. And before we get there, I’ll just say my final thoughts on all of this squabbling. As I said above, no one here is an irredeemable asshole. This is a group of extremely stressed out young men. They’re put in a situation in which they are competing with each other constantly, and yet are expected to get along with each other perfectly. They’re supposed to put on a team performance, and yet they will be ranked afterward, with the best team member winning extra points. It must be so stressful and draining. I know I couldn't do it!

Did MNET “evil edit” MJX? Well, yes and no. I mean, he did do those things, just as Lee Da Eul really did treat his team like they were his underlings. Those are things that happened. MNET “evil edited” them by… showing that. However, MNET created a situation in which power dynamics would be all out of whack, in which constant competition leaves everyone scared and constant rehearsal leaves everyone physically exhausted, and in which constant berating from psychopath judges leave everyone traumatized. In other words, my earlier statement holds: MNET makes trainees do emotionally difficult things and then blames them for their emotional response. 

So, what’s the solution? Well, for starters, I think it would be good if MNET gave the boys a few more days to rehearse, which would lead to decreased stress AND better performances. That’s win win! I think they need to provide more access to translators -- they could start by installing google translate in those tablets the boys have. I also think that it wouldn’t hurt to have some sort of guidance available from the staff -- counselors, mediators, something like that. Even just a sort of “dorm mother” who is there to look after especially the younger members -- if there was someone watching over the 15 years olds, there would be less pressure on the 18 year olds. And the upper management really has to reconsider what is acceptable and what isn’t acceptable when it comes to the judges’ behavior. I have friends who do theater, and they tell me that being a sociopathic asshole is “normal” from dance teachers, but it shouldn’t be.  

Ultimately, though, a show like this is going to do this. Any real pressure on MNET to improve conditions will probably have to come from the Korean population, not from us Global fans. I console myself in knowing that I’ll support these trainees on their stages to come. 

The performance

If you’re curious as to what they actually say in their raps, I found these lyrics. Lyrics that were in English and didn’t need translation are in green. Note that the first line of Ricky’s rap was already in the original song.

Ricky:

Yo I’ve been walking on the street yo From UN Village to Hangangjin Station, Ladies know my name, Mr. young and rich ya, Pop champagne take a chill, feel my feel, everyone get out of the way

MJX:

People ask me to look at my reflection in the cold mirror from a few years ago, Man in the mirror, now it shines, my natural flow, You gotta get some to the top, child you’re doing well

Sungmin

Now I’m feeling like a funky boy dance like this, Everyone follow me, look carefully, even if I rap. I’ll go to a higher place than others

Takuto: 

Even if I’m not confident, the star protects me, it’s dark to me, there’s no future, I’m still very young, still I’m worried about the challenge, so I’m going to watch Toyonaga Takuto.

(much later in the song)

Hiroto:

I’m a homebody, but on stage, I show and prove, Once you see me, you can’t forget me, We living live in busy planet, Sooner or later we’ll be filling up in our name

My Take

I wish I’d thought to watch the performance on Youtube before I watched all the behind-the-scenes stuff, because I’m sure it colored my view. But really, I think it came out ok. The song and general choreo style are both so high energy that even a remotely decent performance of it will be fun to watch. I don’t think I would have picked up on their backstage tension just by watching this. 

MJX is bubbly and fun on stage, and did a surprisingly decent job at both rapping and dancing compared to what we’ve seen in the past from him. I think he may have actually been the best rapper on the team, which is a wild statement to make, but, yeah, I think so. He looked like he was having fun, too. 

Oh Sungmin’s rap was surprisingly basic for a native speaker, but I actually liked his flow despite that, and despite the fact that he is a vocalist, not a rapper. He was ranked pretty low and probably got pushed out of the song he wanted. He has a lot of charm on stage -- this might be the first time that I’ve really seen what he can do on stage this way, because he was so overshadowed in Love Me Right. 

Speaking of first times, I think this is the first time I really got it why people like Ricky so much. He looked a lot more comfortable on this stage than I’ve seen him in the past, and he owned that center position even when he was on the side of the stage. Also, he’s really a master of looking super serious and then dropping a smile that catches you by surprise. I still think he’s a bit stiff, but it’s hard to do choreography in time with others when you’re taller than them. Also, he makes that microphone disappear into the sub-ether after he uses it. I’ve watched that part like 10 times and I can’t figure out where he puts it! That’s some stage trickery right there. No matter whether he makes it to the top 9 or not, the Yuehua group that will debut out of this show will be stacked! 

Hiroto’s a cutie pie. His rapping wasn’t anything to write home about, but I think his Korean is still pretty shaky and it must be tough. His little dance solo at about 1:53 was a lot of fun and perfectly in line with the feeling of the song -- I wonder if he choreographed it? 

I know Takuto is trying his best, but his dancing is weak it looks almost half-hearted, and throws off the syncing for the group as a whole. You can see some of the adjustments the team made for him -- they gave him a microphone to hold while he rapped, to give him something to do with his hands (it was pretty funny when he held the mic out while he said the last word and it was super obvious the mic wasn’t on). They also gave him a little mini dance solo in which he did the main repeating dance move, just by himself. They also let him do his one big move, that back flip he also did in his star level test, and he landed it much better this time than he did the first time. I really hope he doesn’t pass through this next elimination round, since it is clear to me at least that there are more deserving trainees here, but I’ve come around to liking him. He’s a genuine, hard working, well-intentioned kid, and while he is obviously not ready to debut, who knows, in a few years he might be.

The editing

There’s a lot of focus on how handsome Ricky and MJX are, and how cute Takuto is. Predictably, Sungmin and Hiroto are largely neglected. We see Takuto’s flip several times, but there’s no focus on Hiroto’s dance break, for example.

Afterward, the judges talk about how the team didn’t look like they were having fun on stage, and I really think that their opinion was colored by knowing the back story. They also say that they think Hiroto has had bad luck -- which, yeah, I don’t know if it’s luck exactly that happened to Hiroto. 

The voting 

Ricky takes the win with 745 votes, and we see a real genuine smile from him, not a stage smirk, and it’s very charming. 

Oh Sungmin can’t quite bring himself to smile about it, though -- he worked so hard and is probably not going to see much reward for it. But you’re WakeOne, lovey! You’ll redebut with Kim TaeRae and Park Hanbin and Anthonny and Haruto and it’ll be ok… I hope.   

We find out that Takuto came in last with 569 votes. That’s a decent tally, though, for him. He interviews, in Korean, that he was a little bit sad, but satisfied because he did everything he could. He’s learned an insane amount in a short period of time and really defied my first impression of him. 

In an interview, Oh Sungmin responds to a question that must have been something like, “how did it feel to perform together?” 

He says, “It just felt like were performing together. A lot of things happened, but I’m glad we’re done with it.” After a brief pause he adds, “I think we did well.” 

Yeah, there’s still a lot of resentment there. Really, I feel bad for everyone on this team. This was just sort of a clusterfuck.

And that's it for this recap! I'll pick up later with my thoughts on Limousine and whatever song is after that!

[theowritesfiction]

'The Storm'

Finally back to solid episode once again!

Aang dealing with his guilt of disappearing and leaving the world to be ravaged by war for the next 100 years is so well done. And as much as I sympathize with Aang, I also think it's a guilt that he... kinda should be feeling a bit? Running away was very understandable, but it was still running away from his duty and obligation. The argument that he was just a 12 year old kid doesn't quite work, because... he's still a 12 year old child when he defeats Ozai. But I'm not blaming Aang, I completely understand his reaction.

Okay, this is not a great episode for Zuko. Placing capturing the Avatar and restoring his honor above the safety of the crew is a jerk thing to do. Also, leadership qualities of the future Fire Lord? Well, maybe if Zuko wants to be like the previous three blokes... Maybe not making any progress in capturing the Avatar is getting to Zuko, but yeah, he's pretty awful to the crew here. I would have given Zuko as much as 30 Jerk Points here, but because in the end he does the right thing and stands up for the crew, I will only give him 10 JP.

Also, we have the first instance of Aang running away when confronted with something emotionally heavy he can't or doesn't want to deal with. Again, I don't blame him, because this is a terrible and heavy burden, but this is a pattern for Aang.

Zuko and Aang's stories being told in parallel was a very effective way of setting them up as character foils. Learning more details about the circumstances of Aang's flight from the Air Temple provides the important context that the monks mismanaged his training and deserve a big share of the blame. Katara is very kind when trying to comfort Aang, but when she says that it had to happen this way and the world needs Aang now... well, the world really needed him back then, too. Katara's compassion seems limitless here, because surely she has to realize that if the Avatar hadn't disappeared, the genocide of her own people and the death of her mother might not have occurred.

The Agni Kai - or complete disgrace of a 'duel' is hard to watch. Ozai's first appearance establishes him as a complete and utter monster. For burning Zuko's face he deserves a massive load of Jerk Points, although any number I give him here feels inadequate. This is one of the most despicable acts we see in the entire show. 300 Jerk Points.

First appearance from Azula! <3 <3 <3 Aww, look at her, she's so cute!

Also, I enjoyed the exchange of stares between Aang and Zuko, as Appa emerged from the water next to Zuko's ship. Foils!

A truly amazing episode!

Jerk Points:

Ozai - 300 Bumi - 200 Iroh - 110 Jet - 100 Zhao - 90 Zuko - 70 Aang - 60

Ozai straight into the lead! ;)

[owlyflufff]

5 for haikyuu

12 for bokuto & akaashi (individually and/or together)

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Henlo and thanks for the ask! We got a lot of questions too so this will be fun <33

5. Who is your least favorite character from (anime) and why? (Anime: Haikyuu)

Catch is, I don't have a least favorite.

In fact, I don't have a favorite in Haikyu either because funny enough my favorite character in Haikyu is in fact, literally everyone in Haikyuu xD! I know that this blog is centered on Bokuaka and truly Bokuto and Akaashi mean a lot to me, but I genuinely just-- ADORE everyone because Furudate-sensei created such amazing characters whether they're long standing ones like Nekoma or Fukurodani or those that are generally only seen for a few episodes like Wakutani High school.

It's genuinely so hard to pit one character over another because, they're all just THAT well written, Haikyuu is the first series in which I love the entire cast so a massive applause to Furudate-sensei for it.

However, if I were to choose a least favorite, it's 100% Tendou and Yamagushi's bullies, we don't talk about them TvT.

12. What is your favorite headcanon for (character)? (Character: Bokuto, Akaashi and both)

Akaashi

He has a tendency to write little tidbits or poetry, writings and whatnots as a hobby. Often, he writes on little sticky notes, his notebook, even scrap paper for all he cares. Akaashi just has this genuine love for writing and fiction.

I like to think of this headcanon as my favorite because Akaashi's inner monolgue I swear is so poetic everytime and it's such a big contrast to how he speaks.

He could literally go "Bokuto is a star, burning brighter than anything I've ever seen, I shine because of the light he gave to me." and when he goes up to Bokuto he just goes "Bokuto-san, your serve went outside." xD

I do think Akaashi just has a genuine penchant for literature hence the structure of his inner monologue and sometimes his dialogue throughout the series. Not to mention of course he is quite literally Udai's editor so another case in point <33.

Bokuto

He loves sharing his food + later on learned how to cook.

I don't quite know how to explain this well most especially since I haven't written anything for this fave little headcanon of mine but when I learned that Bokuto had two older sisters, I immediately just taught of all the ways the siblings could bond, and cooking is definitely up there <33

Just three siblings having fun together making food that they later on enjoy together and give to their loved ones (*cough* Bokuto shares his bento with Akaashi *cough*). Bokuto most espeically wanted to learn how to cook by the time he learned Akaashi goes to his apartment twice a month to give him food since he wants to return the favor for Akaashi.

Bokuto and food seems like a silly but wholesome combo you know?

Both

Anything and everything I wrote here in this blog of mine cause they're all just wholesome headcanons for them <33.

My favorite in the very least would be any domestic timeskip Bokuaka headcanons because THEY GIVE OFF SUCH HUSBAND ENERGY IN THE TIMESKIP TvT!!!

22. What anime animal would you like as your pet?

Aww this is a cute question! Funny enough, I don't quite remember a lot of animes I watched with animals xD!

In fact this ask made me wish we had more animes where the main characters have pets cause it's so endearing, most especially since I have a soft spot for dogs. Although here are a few of them I would want as a pet:

Karl from Bungou Stray Dogs - The idea of having a racoon as a pet would be so interesting and not to mention Karl is really cute in the anime, just staying on Poe's shoulder <33

2. Black Hayate from Fullmetal Alchemist - He's just a little guy in the anime and I love those little moments where he appears in the series. Such a loving and loyal companion to Riza so would love him to have him as well for a pet <33!

[caffeinatedopossum]

storytime. a special little story just for you and the people following you.

so recently i learned i probably have borderline. i found this out through my own research when i was like 15, but then i ignored it for several more years because i thought it couldn't be true because "my uncle has that and i don't think our issues are the same" <- (misguided). still can't afford a therapist or a psychiatrist, but I've been keeping a notebook of every time i notice something that may be a clue as to what's up with my brain, have been keeping that record for close to a year, and here we are.

anyway, most of my symptoms aren't very fun to talk about, and I'm not going to get into it, but there's one thing that's kind of a funny story.

so 3 years ago i meet this dude online because he's hosting a silly ARG/online rp where he's always in character as the characters of the story. i start hanging out with "one of the characters" casually, but over time it's clear that this guy is just hanging out with me for the sake of hanging out. we start just, yk, hanging out outside of the server, and we hit it off! we become fast friends, and he introduces me to some of his irl friends.

ffw like 2 years, most of his friends are pretty offline so i don't really get to see them much, but we get along. I'm thinking of moving 12 hours away from home to live in their town one day because these people are basically family at this point. and, uh oh! i have a crush on the arg guy (or so i think). this is bad, because he is in a committed relationship.

ffw again to like 3 months ago, diagnosis pretty solidified, talking to people with bpd for mutual support. one of them introduces me to an idea, that a lot of people with bpd have a "favorite person". we start talking about it and, lo and behold, the description fits my feelings about this guy to a T. something else i hear from people is that, much like was the case with me, it often feels like a crush, but there aren't always romantic feelings involved, and after some soul searching, i realized that's the case with me. for context, I'm also asexual, and part of my personal relationship with that is having a hard time knowing when feelings cross into being romantic vs a really strong friendship.

it was so relieving, not just to feel like i was understood, but because i knew now that because it's not romantic, that i could sit down with him and have a talk about it without feeling like I'm going to put a strain on anything.

i was still very afraid, but a few weeks ago i did it. we sat down, we had a talk, i basically said "you are like more than a friend to me BUT NOT LIKE THAT LET ME EXPLAIN." without getting too into it, he told me that I've been his emotional rock and one of the closest people to him for a long time, and he trusts me with a lot. i told him a bunch of stuff i did/do that i was worried would seem "creepy" but needed to get off my chest (thinking abt him to self soothe, him being one of the 'narrators' in my head, the fact he sent me a card like a year ago and i still read it sometimes, etc) and he called it NOT creepy and in fact VERY CUTE. we were both flustered by this entire conversation and i think both of us walked away from it happy.

i love him sm (platonically)

also he called us moirails to mess with me and i told him I'm going to maul him. he homestucked me. i got homestucked. deplorable.

Aww that's so nice, thanks for sharing!

I'm also asexual/aromatic and it's nice to hear about other people who feel the same way I do.

I've also dealt with A LOT of having to do my own research, confirmation of symptoms, imposter syndrome about it, etc. but hopefully I'll get actual medical professionals to back me up once I'm on health insurance again. (Like with autism and DID for example, which both make sense for me to have and affect my life a lot but I still often feel like I'm wrong or have no right to claim those disorders)

[halliescomut]

Secret Crush on You Ep 12

-I waited over a week to keep watching because I was so mad....but I'm still so mad. But I'm glad Toh has good friends.

-Yes Nuea!!! He's so cute in boyfriend mode. 🥰

-Sky's so cute!!!!! Must be the name. Never known a not sweet character named Sky. I'm so glad he's making sure to check in with Jao with all the BS going on.

-And SPORTS!!!

-God, he stuck Toh under his jersey 😂😂 that's so funny and cute and weird.

-We got full L word confessions!!!!🥰🥰<Nuea & Toh

-*Googling how to fight a fictional TV character* AGAIN!!!! How dare they post shit like that about Jao???? 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 (Also...his cute lil belly button 🥺)

-I appreciate his friends wanting to protect him, but as a fat person...you have to start recognizing the opinions of shitty people don't matter. I don't exactly remember the show it's from but ..."do not value the opinions of those who do not value you."

-Eavesdropping never works out in BLs....*le sigh*😔

-Aww comforting friend pile ❤️❤️❤️❤️

-Poor Sky. He's trying so hard with Jao, but because he thinks Jao is beautiful he doesn't get that Jao might be self-conscious.

-He's jealous of other people seeing Jao's belly. That's so precious!!!!

-Seems the Peach is rotten.....

-Sky please go off!!! Please !!!

-I do like Toh's attitude. "Who cares if I'm the ugly duckling, I still get to be Nuea's lover" 😂😂

-Thep just showing up out of nowhere to remind us how handsome he is.....fair enough

-God the daydream 😂😂😂😂 Nuea in glasses is cute though.

-I'm unreasonably concerned Kong might be trying to Single White Female Toh. I hope I'm wrong.

-Pouty Sky 🥰 Aww Jao called Sky boyfriend 🥰🥰🥰🥰

-I adore the prevalence of pinky promises in BLs. It is cute.

-Hmmmm....do we think 'T' is those bitches or an actual person with a crush on Jao???

-Saucy Nuea makes an appearance again 😳😁

-Nuea just wants some nookie and Toh is being too nice right now. It's hilarious

-I'm slowly getting used to Day/Daisy in the masculine uniform. He looks very handsome. He gorgeous either way, I just wanna see him happy and confident.

-Som....how can a plushie be poisoned??? An excellent question Jao.

-I do get Sky's jealousy, but he also should probably reel it in a little.

-Toh learn to say no my guy!!!! Also, suspicion of Kong is still high.

-Well, hopefully Kwan can help straighten Sky and Nuea out a little.

Sorry not much in the way of gifs this time, I'm on my phone.

Overall score for the ep...6.5/10 Think very medium overall.

Awkwardness rating...9/10 with Kong being so damn weird. It can't not be awkward with essentially two Toh's in a scene together

[fireflyhwufanficwriter]

My thoughts on Dr. Stone’s Chapter 232 (“Final Chapter: Dr.STONE”)

MAJOR SPOILERS FOR THE BIGGEST MYSTERY OF THE SERIES!

MAJOR SPOILERS FOR THE BIGGEST MYSTERY OF THE SERIES!

MAJOR SPOILERS FOR THE BIGGEST MYSTERY OF THE SERIES!

My thoughts after reading Chapter 232:

01. Now that I’ve read both Chapter 232 and Chapter 232.1, there are no more manga chapters for me to read :( But I still get to write about them! :D Starting with... oooh, so many colored pages! :D

02. Senku has Whyman on his belt, aww! :) And, y’know, most of those people deserve to be in the “last” chapter’s chapter art... but Magma?! We don’t get Kohaku, but we get Magma?! Really?? :O That’s so weird! XD Even Kaseki or Kokuyou would have made more sense than Magma!

03. Gen as a diplomat; everybody getting together to attend Taiju and Yuzuriha’s wedding... :) Their TWO-day wedding... XD

04. Thank you, Kohaku, for telling us about Senku and the science team, and for asking Ruri about Chrome! :D Chrome, whhhyyy??? XD I mean, I’m glad you got there, but... Ruri deserves a more planned proposal than that! :O But it’s so funny that Ruri was just all for it anyway XD

05. Good point about law and order... Although, I think at this point, Hyoga’s the only one with, like, permanent murders on his record? Although since he was acting as Tsukasa’s second-in-command, some of the blame could fall on Tsukasa, especially since he was pro-murder at the time too, even if it was “just” of petrified statues of older people :O

06. I know they’re serious scientists and stuff, but what if this scientist is an actual fangirl who cosplayed as Senku at work? And Senku himself doesn’t care, so everybody just adopted his attitude and they act like the cosplay is totally normal XD

07. Dr. Senku!! :D Oooh! Does he have academic qualifications now? :O Or is this more of “a knighthood (doctorate) received on the battlefield (stone world)” sort of thing? Either way, yay! :D

08. Taiju bursting in and shouting about Yuzuriha... and Senku responding by saying almost exactly what he said back then, too! Nice callback to the very first chapter! :)

09. Senku has shoes now :O Like, leather ones! And a more modern coat... but at least he still has his cape! :D And aww, cute little Whyman is right there on his belt! :)

10. And the baad science project is revealed to be... a TIME MACHINE... shaped like a Medusa... and being made with Whyman’s blessing :O

11. Wait, how would petrifying victims... how would that help? This part confused me...

12. Byakuya and the other astronauts wearing casual clothes and standing in little Senku’s laboratory... because they’re not super grand astronauts now; they’re six more members of humanity along with the other seven billion... :O They’re looking at little Senku (well the ones who have their eyes open), as if they trust him to save even them, too... :’) And then Senku looks so determined in the next panel, as if he’s really going to try to do it... :O :’)

13. Rei!! We even see Rei!! :D :’) I believe in you, Rei! :D

14. What an interesting roadmap! :) Because yes, it’s about a time machine, but also because many of those parts seem so complex that they could merit their own extra chapters. It feels like the story is over, but Inagaki and Boichi aren’t quite ready to let go of it yet, so they left themselves things they could expand on in bonus chapters that can be released on Dr. Stone anniversaries, as well as promotional periods for anime seasons and maybe even movie and game releases and stuff (like us getting Chapter 232.1 because of the Dr. Stone: Ryusui TV special).

15. We see panels with different characters... including a group panel with Kohaku (with Stanley next to her) in it! :) And of course, the very final panel is of Senku himself, telling us to get excited! :D :O

16. And the manga... if I were being a pessimist, I would say it’s officially over :’( But, if I were being an optimist, I would say it’s officially complete :’)

17. I have to say, I love Dr. Stone, but I wasn’t expecting the final chapter to be like this. I know it’s a science manga, and a shounen, and everything, but a lot of things were set up - Taiju and Yuzuriha, Chrome and Ruri, CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT (ahhhh! :D) AND CHAPTER 140 (ten billion percent my favorite chapter! :D) - that we didn’t get full satisfaction from. We don’t see the confessions :( (We didn’t even get a Senku/Kohaku moment in Chapter 232... whyyyyy????? :’( )

18. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY- sorry, I couldn’t resist XD

19. But anyway, if the series was going to end without those emotional moments being shown, I think that with with a few tweaks, Chapter 231 would have been a much better ending :)

20. Think about it - we’re on the moon; Senku conducted secret negotiations; and the result was a sentient, solitary, adventurous, Senku-like Whyman volunteering to go to Earth with Senku and the other heroes. And then we get a deep discussion about life, and Whyman’s “WHY” is finally answered :O

21. If, in the same chapter, you add their coming back to Earth; having a victory party; everybody resolving to revive all seven billion people; and Senku telling us to get excited... that could be the perfect ending right there! :D

22. (As a writer of Dr. Stone fanfiction, this might be the ending I end up going with in my writing, come to think of it :D)

23. Chapter 231 was so full of... mystery and life and heart, that... it would have been a great foundation for the ending. So after that, Chapter 232 almost feels more like an epilogue after the end of the story than the actual end of the story, if that makes sense.

24. Or, to put it another way, Chapter 232 sort of feels like Chapter 231.1? Still totally canonical, of course, but... not as... meaningful’s not the right word, but... Chapter 232 doesn’t quite measure up to the mysterious sense of awe and wonder that Chapter 231 has, in my personal opinion :)

25. Congratulations to Inagaki and Boichi (and Caleb Cook and Steve Dutro) on the successful conclusion of the Dr. Stone manga, and I hope it was everything that Inagaki, as the writer, dreamed it would be! :D And congratulations to us Dr. Stone fans as well - we finally learned the secret of the petrification, and we have hope for the future of Senku, Kohaku, and the other characters we’ve come to care so much about! :)

26. As Byakuya said in the first chapter of Dr. Stone: Reboot, “There’re about 8 billion humans down there, right? That’s 1.3 billion for each of us. And anyone carrying the weight of 1.3 billion people... can’t afford to fail!” :O With so many people to share the weight, and honor, of this all-important mission with with Senku, there’s no way they can fail! :D

27. And as for me, I shall go on to write about Chapter 232.1 (which I’ve already read)! :D

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[feuqueerfire]

To Sir, With Love Live Blogging

It’s 17 eps of 70-75 mins lol I have like 12 days before the end of the year to finish it. hopefully i can do it since i’m on winter break after all

Playlist

Ep 1 (Dec 20)

lol starting with a paragraph to set the scene

interesting to see her play Bua (supposed to be a sympathetic character I think - Song’s mistress) when she was Wanwan’s shit ass mother in PSIHY

Tian is the heir

oh, homophobia right off the gate

D: public suicide not even 30 minutes in

loll i see why people were confused by Tian and Yang, it’s like typical BL childhood before lovers storyline but I’m pretty sure they’re halfbrothers 

omg second wife evil as hell, really through a snake near Tian to hope it kills him

omg this snake and the POV of the snake toward the kids gives me such Indian serial vibes yaas

damn, Song sent Bua to live outside the building when he found out was was sterile, ewwww

me too I hope Tian and Yang can maintain good sibling relationship forever

they really going with the “look at this gay ass child” with Tian pretending to be the female lead in the opera and wanting a hairpin instead of the sword.

aww poor baby getting yelled at by his mom and having to watch the scar and hairpin burn. at least i know he gets a happy ending for sure but fuck

Ep 2 (Dec 20)

found a new playlist that has the show in parts of 5 per ep, so I’ll watch that instead I think

2-1

ooh Tian 12 years later

ooh is that Yang? beating harassers up?

wait Yang is so cool and charming okayyy he suits the wayward second son uninterested in the family business vibe very much

woahhh i love siblings so much!! Hope nothing tears Tian and Yang apart T.T

the gay people not being real men and thus being inferior to real men is thing is fucking me up like Tian’s mother worried that she can’t change who Tian is and so Yang will always be superior to him even though Yang fights and makes their dad upset

pls this lady tryna seduce Tian is so funny

2-2

not the mom basically giving permission for Tian and the girl to have sex cuz she wants her to fuck the gay out of him

“you’re a woman. you should respect yourself and have dignity.” ew Tian

lol Yang’s mother and her servant really just overheard Tian and his mom discussing his gayness rip, they’re not careful enough to enough when discussing it or like that burning in ep 1

oh jk they didn’t properly hear what they were talking about, just saw the mom slap Tian

ooh Yang’s love interest to be? Seems like she’s up to something, they could be a mischievous couple together

bro what’s up with all these girls getting sexually harassed constantly? the girl Yang saved, Mud, now this seller girl?

ooh, getting a glance at Tian’s love interest too

asdklfj Tian’s so delighted and the guy also keep looking back heh

2-3

ahh Yang and his love interest’s dynamic reminds me of like the m/f YA fantasy novel teasing rascal dynamics I read in gr 7, it’s cute

oh fuck the opera is protesting japanese soldiers and thus getting raided by them 

Yang protecting that child, he really is so fantasy romance protagonist 

oh fuck we’re actually getting story for Yang’s love interest too !! she’s from a noble family but her family’s in debt and her father’s disappointed that she’s a woman not a man

damn Yang putting all the blame on himself for sneaking out and lying to make Tian seem better, fuck i love sibling relationship so much

oh fuck i’d seen this clip on tiktok before but I originally though it was Tian’s love interest. knowing it’s the full story of Yang getting beat while Tian tries to stop it is actually even more </33333

2-4

ahh Tian’s mother arranging Pin (Yang’s love interest) to date Tian, I hope exciting fun shenanigans will come out of this

loll Tian amused by Pin getting the maid to leave them alone

Pin so beautiful and mischievous, I love her so much

Tian so amused by Pin’s shenanigans 

2-5

woah brooo Tian really found Yang’s mom in his closet just as he and his mom were about to discuss queerness but I doubt he’d even say anything because he’s just nice

Ep 3 (Dec 20)

3-1

ofc Tian didn’t let his mom know that the second wife/Yang’s mom is here but at least he confronted her and told Yang about it too

so we’re also getting the woman who got her late husband’s business and evil dude Ma back

Mud’s working for this lady, interesting

Tian having the time of his life setting up Yang and Pin everytime Pin tries to spend time with him lol

Tian’s mom’s name = Madam Li

oh dang Yang speaking about duty and following your heart to Pin

3-2

Damn I wanna know what Tian’s love interest is tryna do fr, who’s he following

aw shucks, Tian is already so enamoured but the other mans is going “i don’t think we’re destined to meet each other. injuries always happen when we do.” though it’s clear he also feels something lol

oh, Yang saw Tian and his future love interest have a Moment

omg cut sleeve (the word ‘gay’ comes from that they mentioned)

oh damn this whole time I thought Yang knew but he didn’t realize Tian’s gay till right now when everything’s coming back to him. anyway i trust him to be supportive 

aw, Yang coming to hug Tian

Tian’s love interest is a murderer oooooh

Tian’s love interest works for Mr. Ma noooooo (he’s the one who exposed Zhang’s homosexuality and bf)

at least mans is a contract worker and not loyal to Ma. though he did say “i don’t like commitment” lol

these people funny as hell, of course a worker would overhear your dramatic talks in broad daylight in the middle of the grounds

3-3

Is the man who eavesdropped the same guy who was fighting at the start of ep 2 about someone complaining he didn’t pay them + the guy who kept making advances toward Mud?

lol yeah they do talk to Dong too carelessly and patronizingly considering they want him to keep his mouth shut

3-4

bro I love Yang and Pin so much! This kind of het ship of teasing light enemies-to-lovers I can definitely get behind where they antagonize each other but aren’t extremely shitty toward each other

ayy they’re gonna kill Dong? I was hoping they’d do that

3-5

the editing of this lmfao

brooo Jia, kill Dong ASAP instead of just dragging him through the woods 

Ep 4 (Dec 21)

4-1

Madam Li and Jia did kill Dong but 1) second wife and her maid think Dong was paid off by Li 2) Bua knows 2nd wife thinks 1st wife is doing something to Dong + saw her walking at night last night 3) Song knows his 1st wife Li wasn’t in bed when he woke up. omg

damn, 2nd wife Chan really decided to put everything out there not just Dong but also the fact that Tian has a secret

oii Jia framed Dong and put money on him

didn’t Jia stab him? what’s going on? oh i see lol she put holes in the boat so that it overflows and he drowns. wild that he was conscious but motionless throughout all this oof

Mr Song the dad, Bua, and the workers believe this, Li-Jia-Chan know differently, but I wonder whether Tian and Yang believe it. I think in the beginning they may have though Chan was just spouting stuff to throw off Li’s position but after the mention of Dong knowing Tian’s secret...

4-2

I mean yeah it’s true that Chan and Yang are as disrespected as they are because they’re second. 

okay Tian had doubts but is swayed by Li’s words. Yang is... somewhat unconvinced by his mother but also unconvinced by the notion that this is a natural death

oh my god Hal had mentioned the mushroom body horror and here it is ewwwwww 

4-3

no like the 2nd wife is vengeful and ridiculous but she also has a point when Song yells at her and Yang and about her raising Yang, being like “is Yang only my son? Isn’t he your son too? don’t you think it’s because you don’t love your sons equally?”

omg not the “if he wasn’t my son, i would’ve sent you and yang away long ago” :00 

fuckkk i was hoping Tian would go after Yang when he going after his mom Chan

ew this fucking mushroom growth on face is killing me bc it’s like when in gr 7 or 8 the presentations against drugs showed us pics of how during bad trips, people may think there are bugs and insects crawling underneath their pics and i’ve never recovered

4-4

 kalsfj i love yang and pin so muchhhh the fucking japanese soldier disguise

oakjdfs they’re acc soooooooo cute catching the hat 

ohh Chan is going to Mr. Ma for help. I wonder if Tian’s love interest (sadly, I found out his name is Jiu even though we’re not supposed to know yet) will be hired to help also (or maybe not since his job is assassination?)

loll Chan and Ma both being like “haha ^.^ we both are certain we’re both doing this for the best of the Five Dragons organization that we are both very loyal to”

oof, finally another glimpse of Tian and Jiu. I’m highly entertained by all the other stuff but still know

This show is so dramatic and intense, it really reminds me of Indian Hindi serials with the acting, plot, and editing. The only difference is this has less absurd editing effects and despite somehow picking up Hindi enough to understand shows, I haven’t picked up much Thai via osmosis.

Ep 5 (Dec 21)

5-1

bro i assumed we wouldn’t actually get it exposed that Li killed Dong for sure but I so wish we didn’t have to see this fucking thing with the rats eating Dong’s face bloody

5-2

bro this fucking mushroom body horror is never ending fr, even when Dong’s body is buried underneath

oi, Tian guiding Pin to choose the guy she loves instead of marrying himself yayy

but I’m suddenly afraid the guy she likes isn’t Yang lmfao

oi fuck let it be Yang that she loves pls

aklsdfj they’re sooo cute <333 Yang and Pin <333

5-3

“I haven’t trusted anybody since Zhang. The reason i’m like this now is prlly bc of karma” yeah bruv dumbass Song, who knows how he manages to run the business

“If there’s anything I can do to atone for my mistake, I’ll do it” interesting that you say that Mr. Song father of Tian

Tian and Jiu making the puppet movie aw

this show loves slow-mos and flashbacks and romantic music for every 2 second Tian/Jiu moment lol

oh damn Tian knows Jiu works for Ma

5-4

damn, Li and Jia tryna do some other shit with the poisonous mushroom too

dang, alarm bells. ig this is orchestrated by li and jia so that everybody’s occupied and jia can move the body?

5-5

Jia better at accomplishing missions than all the KP and UN bodyguards (and from what I’ve heard, big dragon ones too). even including the shit that goes wrong everytime lol like evidence of her getting burned

also lol she told everyone that she has to collect some things but when jia came back, she didn’t hold anything

I think Yang is insanely attractive, I’m losing my mind a bit tbh

Ep 6 (Dec 21)

6-1

damn lol just as Li was pointing fingers at Chan for conspiring with Ma, I was like noo don’t let Chan get caught. she’s fun and i want her to get her comeuppance after Li gets hers as well

6-2

oh shit, Yang accidentally letting it out to his mother Chan that he knows Tian’s secret

they’re all fucking eating the mushrooms that Dong’s dead body is sprouting T.T and raving about how good it is T.T

I want Jia and Li to get exposed so bad omg, more than I want for Chan’s downfall as well. I think sometimes I’m here for evil schemers but this time, since that evil schemer is a homophobic motherfucker, I wanna see her punished more than I want her scheming to succeed (even though I did want her to kill Dong lol)

6-3

oh yeah on the ep 5 r/boyslove on-air thread, someone mentioned that it seems like Ma’s gonna hire Jiu to kill Tian ahhh fun exciting times, hope it happens around now bc I can’t take that as a cliffhanger fr

Yang and Bua I’m rooting for y’all to uncover the truth so hard

6-4

i love tian and yang sm and also pin/yang <333

pls tian so bad at scheming and hiding, can’t even hide pin’s palace documents from his mom lmfao

sorry it’s so funny that here are the people that know 1) Tian’s gay - Mom Li, Jia, Brother Yang 2) that Tian has a secret - Chan, her maid, Bua, fucking Mr. Ma, and now the maid Mud who also tells Xiaotong (the woman in the Five Dragons). and yet through all this, the father is clueless/doesn’t pay any mind to Ma yell out about Tian possibly having a secret that makes him unable to succeed

6-5

I’m sitting here dying over Yang and Ping’s interactions once again

ooh, the family’s all going to Conburi which is where Dr. Qi who can maybe tell more about the mushrooms is so I hope Yang and Bua’s investigation goes forward. What does Chan have there though? Oh she just wrote to Mr Ma to tell him about it

lol I knew they’d wait till the end to make it a fucking cliffhanger (would’ve been so much better if the person hadn’t mentioned it on the on-air thread rip it’d be a good surprise) but omgggg Jiu’s assignment is to kill Tian for Ma.

Ep 7 (Dec 22)

7-1

oh finally the father inquiring about what Tian’s secret actually is

I’m so excited, Jiu doesn’t yet know who Mr Song’s eldest son is but will be led to him by Chan 

damn, father really going straight for a heart-to-heart with Tian and asking about the secret

damn, I wonder if Tian would’ve told his father if Li hadn’t interrupted

7-2

Chan really evil as hell, she really planning on killing Tian. not to mention she’d tried it before when he was like 10 and Tian had gotten bitten by the snake by tryna save Yang

damn all the drama about Chan pretending she’s planning on getting ordained and asking for forgiveness just to get Tian to the correct place for Jiu to kill him el oh el

lmfao Jiu succeeding in killing cops silently and easily but Tian managing to throw dust in his eyes and run away and also not scream while running. it’s okay i’ll take it

Jiu finally realizing it’s Tian he’s tryna kill

ahh not this fucking kissing to shut Tian up from calling his mother klas;dfj;klasfj what’s going on

Tian still covering for Chan, man you’re kind to the point to stupidity perhaps considering you know she sent you to die

lmfao dumbass father thinking the attack was related to Tian’s secret instead of it being that he’s about to succeed him in position

bro ya fuck Chan got Yang involved as well, so now Tian knows Yang also lead him there and Li is also asking if Yang did it. fucking annoying, hopefully Tian’s too concerned with the kiss to think about Yang possibly betraying him 

oh fuck on the one hand Chan tryna get Tian’s secret from Yang and on the other side Li telling Tian to not be overconfident and that brother can also kill each other agh

7-3

naurrr okay so someone on the r/boyslove on-air ep 5 or 6 was like lol maybe they’ll make Bua actually evil and pulling strings as a plot twist so now Tian telling Bua that it was actually Chan and Yang who took him to the place is ahh

well at least Tian’s saying he doesn’t doubt Yang hm

 Song came to pay respect to Zhang - can you fucking be okay with your son being gay then

nevermind, Song really went listing like 10 good things and was like “but he shouldn’t have been homosexual” kys dickhead. even saying he’d make the same decision if he could turn back time. no fr die asap motherfucker. at least li was like “hmmm would you change your mind” to feel it out but yeah if she wants Tian to succeed his father, he won’t be able to do it while openly gay

7-4

ooh, Song also suspects Li killed Dong but is unsure of her motive

damn, the fatal water really dissolved Dong’s bones and clothes lol (though there’s a tooth left)

7-5

Tian really in Jiu’s house while Jiu’s desperate for his sister’s worsening condition. Tian dumbass being like “what are you gonna do? are you gonna let her be like this?” like brooo other than asking you for the medicine, the only other way to get the medicine is by killing you on dumbass Tian

omggg Jiu even taking his knife and taking Tian through a shortcut in the forest where nobody would save him only to not only not kill him but also save him from someone else tryna shoot at him 

woahh now Mr Ma knows that Jiu knows Tian and Jiu said he can’t kill him bc he was kind to his siblings before sooo what’s Ma gonna get him to do now (infiltrate Tian’s life/family? pass information?)

being tasked to kill your love interest is also such a YA fantasy/historical romance novel trope I read in gr 7 - 8 ahh hardly get it in BLs (is there any other except Long Time No See?) but it’s so great

I need the interactions between Tian and Jiu to ramp up now pls we’re getting like 5-10 mins of them an episode but increase it to 20 pls lol

Ep 8 (Dec 22)

8-1

I was eating while watching this part so like so much happened omg

Song knows that Yang and Bua suspect something’s up with the mushroom behind their house but Yang refuses to say anything because 1) he says something, it really is Li and Jia but the reason they did it is to protect Tian and if they’re caught, Tian’s secret will come out but 2) if he doesn’t say anything and Li and Jia get off scot-free, then they’re guilty and unpunished

lmfao Song and his right hand man coming up with outlandish theories about Tian’s secret, like he’s got a whole wife and kids but that wife is already married so Tian stole someone’s wife and is therefore a secret. they’re gonna keep tabs on Tian and Yang now though

Pin telling Yang that maybe he should let the other person choose whether to say something or no.

So Yang is explaining about the mushrooms maybe growing from Dong’s corpse and Chan came across them and is eavesdropping

8-2

oof Tian being like wtf am i supposed to dooooooo

lmfao Tian almost saying “the secret that I am...” but Yang stopping him, rip Chan’s chance to overhear. if it didn’t stop Chan from knowing, I would’ve been like hmmm Yang, why do you hate to hear your brother call himself gay

damn, Tian really confronted his mother like that

bruh Li really went “Tian, if you tell the truth, get ready to attend my funeral”

woahh Yang even shed a tear he’s so afraid of Tian revealing his secret

Li and Jia going “now we have to find out who knows about this mushroom” girl Song, Bua, Yang, Chan all know about it lmfao

Song is funny as hell “Then Tian’s secret probably has nothing to do with women.” indeeeeed lmfao

oh damn Jiu really was like k you two men harass Mud and I’ll save her and I’ll use it to get into the Song family. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised he’s scummy considering he’s an assassin after all

Jiu applying for a job now, he could’ve asked Tian even without orchestrating that lmfao

8-3

Jiu really just lying through his teeth 

Oh yeah Tian, ofc you’ll personally teach him to read and write

ooh k Ma told Jiu to find out Tian’s secret

oh yeah I’ve seen clips of Tian seeing Jiu and Mud in bed together, I though that was in ep 10 for some reason but ig it’s now

Mud is sooo funny with her seduction lmfao and then when Tian sees them and Jiu runs out after him, she’s like “agh! what’s wrong with the men in this house?!” like lmfao the two men you’ve got your eyes on are gay rip should’ve gone for Yang before Pin came around

oof, this is tian angry? why would he be angry? thing and Jiu’s conclusion being he likes Mud. anyway at least both were like no i don’t like mud rip girl. 

did Bue fucking poison the tea or smth what’s up with Li’s pointed pouring of the tea 

woahhh Tian and Jiu spending time together, Jiu learning to write

accidental cheek sniff thing

lmfao not Mr Song insinuating that Jiu’s face gets everyone, including his son, to help him bc of his beauty even though he doesn’t know Tian’s gay

Jiu learning about Pin, Tian’s fiancee

8-4

omg Jiu didn’t leave the kids with his relative but rather with Mr. Ma goddamn also I’ve been wondering if the medicine is some kinda drug rip

omg she’s addicted to opium. i did see someone mention maybe the sickness is actually withdrawals 

they prlly got rid of the beetle orchid after Tian found it right?

naurr I wanna know what Chan’s maid saw

8-5

I can’t fucking tell if they’ll reveal if now or show us Jia being fucking clever again or smth and anticipating it and thus burying a different box for some reason but then again Jia’s holding a knife so hmmm

k I usually watch 2 eps in the afternoon and watch the 3rd ep later at night but I need know right now so I’ll start ep 9 and stop when I feel like the anticipation is a little less ig

Ep 9 (Dec 22)

9-1

Tian’s here as well so he for sure knows that Jia had the beetle orchids even if the box doesn’t have it

oh did Tian take the orchids or smth?

ah he did

lmfao Jiu comforting him by saying the workers all respect Tian and love him and accidentally insinuating Jiu loves him too and having to cover it up by saying the kids Jiu’s siblings love him (even though Jiu def has non-platonic feelings for Tian lmfao)

oh I was wonderin when Li or Yang would see Jiu and Tian together and how each would deduce and react to the situation

Linguistics: Has Tian always used “lu” pronoun with his mom? idk what it means, is it more or less polite than pom?

Tian yelling “You killed someone to hide I’m a homosexual!” in their room

9-2

lmao Xiaotong’s gayder going insane though she's unable to tell

Tian and Jiu are so cute while studying

okay now Yang walked in on them being sorta cute

9-3

Yang and Pin so cute

Aw, Jiu seeing Tian put the hairpin on Pin and being :( about it but good sir you don’t know about his thing for hairpins lol

lmfao Jiu leaving after hearing Tian compliment Pin

aklsdf oh yeah I was wondering when people will realize Yang and Pin are seeing each other

Li going crazy that Yang’s tryna “Steal his brother’s fiancee” lmfao and Jia annoys me with the “Yang is really bad!” like stfu

Li is soooo fucking shitty “it might be good if he and Mud sleep together, Tian might like it” kys

omg they’re literally making an aphrodisiac so that Tian is basically assaulted into sleeping with a woman and producing a child? fuck you for real

Aw, Tian sad that Jiu seems upset with him

woah Yang going to ask something to Jiu or investigate (since he and Tian seem very close) and found something in Jiu’s room...

9-4

bro was Jiu fr gonna stab Yang... yikes

ooh, Jiu’s brother knows Tian’s in danger

naurrrr I thought the letter was from Ma and Jiu was maybe lying that it really just was Tian’s name x100 T.T Jiu practicing fuck but going to burn the letters bc it’ll be bad if people find them

oh shit Mr. Song is the one finding the fucking letter with Tian’s name?! tbh his reaction’s meh, Jiu should’ve just let Yang see it maybe but who knows

aww Jiu having to give himself a peptalk “Don’t forget who you are. What are you here for?”

9-5

damn, the cicadas fr woke everybody up. won’t they wonder where Jia and Li are since everybody else is awake?

I love Tian and Jiu’s very few scenes lol

Fave Scene: the writing Tian’s name a million times on multiple pieces of paper really got me bruv. Jiu’s restrained, he’s working for the enemy, and yet he’s precisely and intently writing Tian’s name so many times fuck

Ep 10 (Dec 22)

10-1

Jiu being very observant of Li as they burn the cicadas... also him being the only one even among the workers who bow when Song comes in

lksdjflkajdfl;kasdf k;lasf Jiu’s younger brother warning Jiu that Ma sent an evil bastard to Tian’s house to harm him... telling Jiu to warm Tian... fuck he’s basically calling Jiu evil and bastard and wicked, which isn’t untrue

aww Jiu having some hand-to-hand combat with Jia and then going straight to Tian’s room all worried

Jiu now has a bit of a guess that it’s Jia

10-2

oiii Pin and Yang 

okay the thing about Yang is that he’s okay with Tian being gay but is he okay with Tian pursuing a man/getting with Jiu or supporting him through whatever happens if he comes out? I hope so

damn, Song seeing Tian and Jiu together, wondering about Jiu, then having a nightmare of Zhang killing himself and then transforming into Tian goddamn

omg the editing of this nightmare is soooo Indian serial vibes

so does Song now know that Tian’s gay as fuck or he’s like pls pls pls pls no my dead son can’t be a homosexual

so does Song now know that they’re tryna sell Pin’s lands to get out of this marriage

damn Li and Song and Yang fr all separately suspect Jiu. Jiu my guyyyy

10-3

miss girl channnnn stop meddling right now, i want them to cancel the engagement asap pls

why the fuck does Yangalso keep butting in to take blame for Tian, let the man handle it on his own just once because he’s also making the decisions

everybody all pereshani bc of this canceled engagement and Jiu going oh? :)

lmfaoooo a maid is like “oh? you’re this happy that the wedding’s canceled?” and Jiu goes “huh?” while the maid’s like “why’re you shocked, I’m talking to Mud” klsdfj;kalsdfj

lmfao ridiculous, Tian being like i never wanted the position, can you take it from me? and Yang being like “I’ve already taken your mischievous fiancee, you want me to take the association head position from you as well?”

finally Tian can say the words in front of Yang without being interrupted 

awww brotherly support, Yang’s words of support <3333 

pls not the “I love you jie” instead of Phi and Tian immediately hitting him 

I LOVE SIBLINGS SO MUCH

10-4

they’re seriously planning on using some sort of aphrodisiac to get Tian and Pin to sleep together fucking fuck wtf

 damn Jia fr locked Yang, Chan, and Nuan in a barn or whatever

10-5

maybe Jiu’ll come to save Yang etc or maybe save Tian and Pin after the aphrodisiac 

i love the word for cicada “chakachan”

girl am i really gonna hafta wait till tmrw (12+ hours) to figure this out... should I watch 5 eps today....

Ep 11 (Dec 22/23)

I’ll try to stop halfway through maybe after the intense parts are over

11-1

yaaas okay i was hoping smth would go wrong with the aphrodisiac and although Tian took it, Pin didn’t so maybe Tian can just sleep it off

yaaas Pin, escape Jia

aw shit Jia hit Pin to fainting

oh fuck i hate this so much. Tian’s on fucked up sex drugs and caressing Pin who’s sleeping and vulnerable and they’re both trapped in that room fucking fuck 

okay Pin woke up pls just knock Tian out or smth

lmfao Yang leaving his mother to go help Pin

omg Pin literally has blood on her head and collar

fuck I hate this so bad, Pin just knock him out

damn Yang letting Jiu take care of Tian so that he can take care of Pin even though Yang doesn’t trust Jiu

aw shit Tian’s attention has now gone to Jiu 

I’m scared that something is gonna happen between Tian and Jiu or that somebody’s gonna see them in a compromising position

11-2

ahh Tian confessing to Jiu that he likes him

omg are they gonna kiss what if someone fucking walks in fuck

bro?! did they have sex???? what if someone had walked in bruv also Tian’s still drugged, no?

Song annoying as fuck “I’ll never let my son be a homosexual” kys fr

Bua batting for Tian’s hypothetical homosexuality, thanks 

damn, Xiaotong figured out Jiu is Ma’s assassin

oh fuck someone can still walk in on Tian and Jiu fucking fuck

oh fucking shit fucking fuck oh no oh no Tian and Jiu are in bed shirtless together ummmmmm 

no okay i believe nothing too bad happens bc i feel like i’d have seen gifs of it or smth bc i just went looking for gifs up to early November aslkfj aghhh i can’t watch this anymore but i can’t not watch. i hope one or both of them somehow gets out of the room before the whole fucking family arrives

lak;jsf;kladjsk;lsadfjk;lsafj k;l THE MOTHER ACTUALLY DOES SEE JIU AND TIAN and promptly closes the door

okay at least nobody but Jiu sees them

11-3

is nobody worried about Chan and Nuan or whatever lol

lol Li’s pointed questioning might tip Yang off about what she saw

oh i see Chan and her maid have arrived

Li’s plan was so shittily thought out this time, it’s like when someone who was originally rational spirals 

lmfao dying at all the dramatics and people finding out Jiu is Ma’s assassin and everything only to cut to Jiu and Tian walking quietly in the forest

fuck I hate that this happened while Tian was under aphrosidiacs so much

Linguistics: I can’t remember if Jiu used to say “Khun Tian” before this or not... probably, right? Cuz him saying just Tian after they slept  together seems like it’s less formal. They also don’t say -krab anymore even though they do say pom. They still use khun as second pronoun tho

awwwww “all this time, I thought it was just me with these feelings”

awww hug T.T 

pls Tian and Jiu being lovey dovey at this random cabin in the woods while everybody’s fighting and screaming over Jiu hurting Tian or Ma getting to him is so funny. also i wanna know how jiu’s wanna escape Ma’s clutches cuz i fucking hope he’s not gonna sell out Tian. does Jiu even know that the secret he wants is that Tian’s gay?

11-4

lmfao they’re still there in the cabin even though it’s night? When do Jiu and Tian plan on going home 

oh at least Tian’s thinking of home even though he’s unwilling to go back

oh Jiu finally gets that this is Tian’s secret lol

no like it really is so silly, murder and suicide and toppling power over the fact that someone’s gay bffr 

ooh what does Pin know? does she suspect Tian and Jiu?

Ma and his guy all being driven crazy by the siblings being loud and their antics lmfao

lmfao i love Pin. her just being behind Yang spying on Ma’s house when he told her to go home

everybody storming the Ma palace

yaas Yang saving Jiu’s siblings, please succeed

11-5

damn bitch how are we already on part 5, i just rewrote 11-4 and then saw last part was already 11-4 tf

i love the little guy, he keeps kicking people in the nuts. oh nooo he fell rip

damn guns drawn on both sides sorry this is killing me that people are throwing shit and willing to kill over finding out Tian’s location while he and Jiu are in their little lovenest

okay whew at least this is a good spot to end it without a cliffhanger

Fave Scene: the confession ig idk the Jiu Tian scenes were great this ep

Ep 12 (Dec 23)

I finished watching ep 11 at like 2am so I thought about it and Jiu/Tian while falling asleep, thought about them more when I woke up at 7, then thought about them some more when I actually woke up. I had to cut vegetables and stuff but now I can finally watch ep 12 lesgoooo

12-1

HANDFEEDING! food as love language my loveeee. also two grown men eating that for lunch? esp tian who’s used to a feast? lol

they’re so funny, really just planning on actually running away and moving to a place nobody knows them lmfao it’s bad buddy ep 11 vibes

aw shucks Jiu, are you still considering betraying Tian?

oof Li fr being like we gotta kill Jiu and them doing the beetle mushroom stuff again. I’m so tired of Li and Jia’s annoying bs but I get it kinda since Jiu knows Tian’s secret + is working for Ma

damn Jiu got seen by Song’s right-hand man Bao and their people

12-2

Tian’s right that he should go home

dumbass Bao why would you not wait until the letter is completely burned 

omg Li admitting to their crime to Doctor Qi and even begging to let it go

then when he refused, she fucking threw the beetle orchid at him lmfao girl wtf. he’s carrying the antidote right

12-3

omggg this fight with the hat and scarf of blowing the beetle powder to each other killing me wtf

damn, Jia in hysterics over Li killing (well hopefully not succeeding) Qi

damn Jia “if a good man was normal like others, I wouldn’t have to kill anybody” kys 

so many tears this ep, now Li crying at Budda 

12-4

omg Jiu brought Tian to his parents graves

awooo Jiu wanting to hold Tian’s hand but Tian’s hesitancy whenever people can see them

doesn’t Jiu wonder what happened to his siblings since clearly Ma would wonder why tf Jiu isn’t coming to se him even though Tian is missing

omg Yang and Pin finding Jiu and Tian

is the fact that Jiu’s Ma’s subordinate gonna come out now

lmfao Yang’s “Jiu really captured Tian, that’s why he has to send this letter asking for help” meanwhile Pin’s like acc I think they just have an unexpected relationship if you know what I mean

okay maybe this is where the brother are at odds with each other bc Yang fully believes that Jiu’s tricking Tian and that’s it

12-5

Jiu, let this man return to his home. Tian, make the decision to return to your home.

i can’t tell if Jiu is completely genuine or has a plan up his sleeve to deceive Tian agh like I know he loves him but still

Ma spotting Jiu, then also Bao gives news that they know Jiu and Tian’s location

Hope that the woman Tian’s boutta approach is indeed Bua and not like Li or smth lmfao

girl this is so klajdf Ma is at Jiu’s house just as Song’s about to arrive, which will make them think they’re conspiring together and Tian’s boutta spill his guts to some woman whose face he hasn’t seen 

ofc it was Li, dumbedy dumb Tian

This ep was kinda meh cuz I think I had higher hopes of Things Happening but maybe next ep

Ep 13 (Dec 23)

Read this comment on an r/boyslove post and ahh this ep is angsty as fuck it seems like after Tian finds out about Jiu’s affiliation with MA

13-1

Li saying “nobody in the world will love someone like you” to Tian ummm kys

oh fuck Tian’s gonna get to Jiu while Ma’s in the house... Tian’s father also heading to that house... fuck fuck fuck

I can’t fucking watch this I’m about to have a heart attack

okay okay okay I know they have a happy ending

Tian really came at the very moment Jiu told him Ma the secret and not a second before when he was begging for Ma to not kill him ofc ofc ofc fuck fuck fuck

poor Tian sobbing in the forest T.T and finding his father

13-2

no Jia and Li so silly for just making Yang and Bua smell something and faint

aw rip Jiu worried and searching for Tian 

what’s up with Jiu not worrying about his siblings bruv, Ma saying he’ll use them to threatening Jiu if he doesn’t cooperate but he’s half forgotten about them

oof I was hoping Tian’d tell his dad to not kill Jiu but he was tryna tell him he’s gay but ofc Li won’t let him

oh fuck Bao and people tryna kill Jiu and fucking Ma of all people helping him escape cuz he’s gotta bear witness to Tian’s homosexuality. insane bruv

oof Jiu fully convinced that Tian’s been “captured” by his family

Jia finds out that Yang knows about Tian’s secret goddamn

13-3

why the fuck do Li and Jia just go straight to murder even for Yang tf like mans has known for so long and hasn’t spilled bffr bc you’re the ones who are more likely to let people know (eg. Dong overhearing) than Yang telling anybody (even Pin knew it before and Yang only confirmed it)

damn Li realizing they’re too far in 

oh, Jiu’s tryna sneak into the Song household to find Tian

i’m losing my fucking mind T.T 

girl now Jiu and Yang are fighting like stopppp I wanna see a heartwrenching convo between Jiu and Tian

oh fuck Tian accusing Jiu of doing everything for money while Jiu’s so desperate but Tian has reason to distrust him

13-4

Jiu’s desperation really made him be sloppy and literally alerted everybody ever to his presence

 Song shot Jiu?!?!

damn Li and Jia fr tryna kill Jiu rn fr 

i bet they’re gonna spin up something to make themselves get out of the situation though

oh Jiu found by Pin

13-5

Li and Jia are really fucking planning on killing Chan and Yan, this is so stupid you have shit for brains

gj Tian for somehow managing to come in at the right moment

I need Li and Jia to die so bad

lol yeah imagine they fucking killed Yang and Chan, whole time Ma knows the secret 

Ep 14 (Dec 23)

14-1

Hope Jiu finds his sister in Pin’s house

oh yes, good

Tian and Jiu both having the “fuck everything’s fucked up cause of me” streak

naurrr Jiu get the antidote of the mushroom thing somehow pls I refuse to believe 

Pin talking to Yang like people will oppose our love too the way they oppose Tian/Jiu’s love. doesn’t mean it should be given up on. so true, pin <3

14-2

lol Li being like “she’s someone in our house. at least we can control her” about Mud marrying Jiu lmfao you don’t know bout her and Xiaotong

lmfao Xiaotong also guessing that Tian’s gay. so funny there’s this big secret and people can just guess it with some thought as multiple people (yang, pin, xiaotong. + even his father guessed this) have done

why does Tian have such a happy smile throughout everything about getting married... is he getting better at pretending or does he have some other plan?

Jiu writing Tian a letter of explanation ahh but from the look on Tian’s face... he looks resolute with the wedding and like he won’t fucking meet Jiu rip

14-3

no fr it’s true that Tian has duty and it’s not just him and Jiu in this world but both their families, so they can’t just run away. it’s so </33333 but I understand

while i was reblogging gifs, I saw someone say they were very glad Jiu wasn’t actually dead, so I’m so aghhhh knowing that Jiu “dies” or we think he does. I wonder if it happens now as he’s tryna rescue his brother Fu

naurrr Jiu sending Fu to run by himself bc the mushroom is getting worse and worse in his body awww poor kid and poor Jiu fuck

14-4

damn, what’d Tian say to the police?? is it about his mom or did his mom come up with a different plan to tell the police or did his mom tell him to tell them about her? And he won’t even tell Yang

lol Fu running into Tian and Yang

aw shucks Fu thinks and is telling everybody that Jiu died :<

well damn Ma really gonna bring the Japanese soldiers to the meeting tmrw

14-5

lmfao Ma accidentally shooting his right hand mand multiple times instead of Jia is killing me lmfao

omg finger slicing rip Ma’s fingers and also eye

damn Tian don’t kill yourself, what’re you doing with the beetle mushroom powder? oh are you gonna kill someone else?

3 more episodes, should stop for today and watch the other eps tmrw oof

Ep 15 (Dec 24)

15-1

lol Tian tryna trick Nuan somehow, what’s his plan ooh

at least Song noticed that Jia and Li were clearly missing and had bruises and such

lmfao I’m dead Tian really buried it so that Nuan would find it but she went to Chan too quickly to notice where he buried it 

they don’t translate what’s written in the letter Tian hid for Chan and Nuan to find

ooh it was Jiu’s letter to Tian that he hid. Tian coming out while making it seem like it wasn’t his plan to make sure it gets out

15-2

all this drama and hahutash over Tian coming out lmfao so true, that’s exactly how my family would react to me

oh Tian really taking responsibility for killing Dong fuck

and Li still can’t stand up for her son? stand fucking up and explain what you did and how they should accept Tian, useless murderer homophobe. No like it really is clear that she wasn’t doing jackshit for Tian because then she wouldn’t let him admit to killing Dong 

damn Song really moving back as Tian reaches for his hand 

Song kys <3

Tian really is going strong with the “I killed Dong” even to Yang but aw Yang, knowing that Tian buried it on purpose

“Youd let me take up the position, confess to father, then commit suicide, right?” “As a mother, I’m willing to do naything for you.” k lmfao i sure believe you

fuck Tian really did and himself over to the police

15-3

okay I thought Tian got the beetle orchid like 2 mins ago after Li and Jia came back from maiming Ma bc of how it was shot but are we gonna get a twist that he did it much longer ago

yknow they’ve been talking about how Zhang cursed Song to know his suffering but lmfao Song having a gay son he hates doesn’t let Song know Zhang’s suffering. instead it’s Tian who knows the suffering

well at least Song doesn’t believe Tian killed Dong, that’d be major stupidity on his part

lmfao Li dumb as hell, Ma beating up Tian for her crimes. Ma kys, Li kys

holy shit, the way Ma is dragging Tian by the hair is so fucked

where the fuck are the subs, I’m gonna kill something

lmfao all the subs for 2 mins in one paragraph thanks for that

oof Chan getting beat the fuck up and apologizing. she’s shit but it’s just not as satisfying as it’d be if Li was brutally killed or Song getting beat 

15-4

is Chan boutta get killed, that’s the vibes with her asking for forgiveness and Yang being like “i know you did everything for me”

lol I said that but then slow-mos started and yeah, that’s to show Chan’s not dying rn

Song saying everything happened because of him cuz he didn’t love them enough etc and like yeah bro. you’re a dumb fuck who didn’t treat anybody but Li and Tian fairly and even that hinged on Tian hiding his secret. kys 

anyway, Ma reminds me so much of the perpetrators in my recurring kidnapping and killing nightmares when i was younger

lmfao nobody shooting as the family all go under the red cloth

oof Nuan

15-5

damn not this Li and Chan and everybody in the same team bc they’re tryna escape and live rn

lmfao why is Jia being like “this is the antitode” like they could just kill you and get it anyway tf 

Jiu <33333

Tian and Jiu moments right in front of Tian’s shitty parents’ salads

Ep 16 (Dec 24)

16-1

so Jia doesn’t actually have the antidote, right? 

yaas as expected, Doctor Qi is alive because of the antidote and he helped Jiu as well

i don’t like seeing Bua beg Li to let Tian live the life he wants if they all survive

good. die, jia, die

16-2

yeah fr lol all this to be the head of the five dragons association but it doesn’t even exist anymore

16-3

omg okay Li helping an injured Fu. I want a convo between Jiu and Li soooooo bad you don’t even know

awww Fu and Mei talking about them and Jiu and Tian being happy and Li flashbacking to when Tian just wanted to be happy but she told him he can’t be if he’s like this

I just find it so hard to care about Li’s sorrow like yeah, she’s realizing that she might be part of the reason Tian was so unhappy but like shoulda realized it earlier

i love yang and pin so bad “if anything happens to me...” “I’ll find a new boyfriend for sure. So you can’t die. Come back to me.”

so funny that we have maiming and killing but Jiu/Tian get like 2 pressed lip kisses + an allusion to sex while Yang and Pin get a hug 

sad Jiu is so T.T 

Li and Jiu very tenuous goodwill toward each other with the herbal tea

Mud seeing Jiu check up on Tian and Song. Song hearing Tian and Jiu talk oof

16-4

even Song is understanding a bit but I have so much more hate in my heart than Tian does lmfao

16-5

there’s no way Yang would die imo like I refuse to think of it as even a possiblity

damn fr one ep left only

i didn’t mention it in the eps but when previous jiu/tian were in the woods or this ep when the family were in the woods, their lack of/muted makeup suits them so much. makes them more vulnerable.

Ep 17 (Dec 24)

last episode ?! but i don’t want it to end... maybe i’ll reblog gifs from before nov 28

17-1

girls against everybody woahhh

damn Ma acc shot at Song

oh damn Song acc died?? oh jk he lives

17-2

they could still trick Ma by instead of antidote having something that knocks the person out idk

oh true they did do that but also Ma made her eat it first so she hadta be smart about what she was putting in there

Madam Li got shot at

damn Li fr took the beetle orchid too. does she have the actual antidote or anything

bro kill Ma and his lackey before rushing to Li omg

damn Li fr sacrificing herself

do the bullets not run out 

aw poor Tian :< crying out for his mother

17-3

aw shucks did they really not bring any pure real antidote

damn Li’s dying wish really being for Song to accept Tian

Li saying something to everybody, say something to jiu omg

okay she told Jiu to please take care of Tian

oof Li dying wasn’t as satisfying as it would’ve been several eps ago, now it’s just :<

damn it really is just new day

“Now mother and Jia would’ve met already” oh yeah I saw a Li/Jia tiktok and was like okay interesting though

lol Chan still with her attitude, despite being teary and crying to Li’s photo very endearing to me

oiiiii Yang and Pin engagement?! 

17-4

girl people more likely to gossip that the Phi that Pin broke up with is gay. like it makes sense bruv

tbh the “let the adults talk, go outside” stuff is funny to me everytime like you’re discussing these kids’ marriage 

I love Pin!! yeah she’ll do what her father says but also do what she wants!! if he won’t let them get married, she won’t but she’ll still pack up and live with Yang ahhhhhh

sorry this is killing me Yang hugging Tian in excitement and Tian going girl? hug your fiancee

omggg Tian really gonna live a quiet life with Jiu?! I really thought they wouldn’t let him abandon his position/duty but wooaahhh esp cuz that man didn’t want to be the head

nawt Jiu getting slapped for saying “if you don’t want to eat food, how bout sweets?” cuz the children are there. whole time he means actual sweets and not an innuendo

omg this fucking flower candy

aw domesticity but Tian’s dream of equality prevails

lol Jiu saying something gooey and Tian going “Your speaking skill is better. Where’d you learn it, huh?” 

17-5

oof the family coming to see Jiu and Tian

I had to take a 1-hour break bc I have a few mins left and don’t want it to end

oii Song giving Jiu the first serving of the fish and Tian unable to contain his smile at it so true

damn, even Chan asked Tian to go back to the business to help

aw rainbow :<

damn it’s fr just done tf it’s such a calm, happy ending for the intensity of the last 16.5 eps

Overall

Definitely enjoyable and also different from other BLs I’ve watched because this was a lakorn that had a huge component of Tian being gay but the actual romance took up very little screen time. 

Very dramatic, gives me Indian serial vibes. The acting was great (Yang’s actor’s tendency to have O.O eyes for every intense or semi-intense scene not included) and the characters were fully realized. Even when the decision making got a little wonky, it was still true to the characters. Also liked the intense scenes in the last ep or so with the shootouts and such. The focus on women, even though they were mostly fucked in the head, was also a welcome change in the midst of all my BL consumption.

Yang and Tian’s brotherhood was everything!!! I love siblings and sibling bonds so much T.T They really were there for each other in every aspect despite having so many reasons to have become rivals.

Yang/Pin were also adorable. Gave me YA fantasy romance het couple vibes with their penchant for mischief :> Also I’ve heard them call Pin as Khun Ying but I thought I just couldn’t fully hear the p or smth but no, her name’s Ying! They’re Ying Yang! 

Tian and Jiu were not the biggest part of the story, didn’t really even have much interactions before ep 7 but they were sooo romantic. The running away to the woods was a bit wonky for me bc why did Jiu seem to forget about his siblings lol but so many parts were just soooo peak romance. The cradling of hands through the floorboard? The way Jiu was taught to write by Tian and it leading to sad letters? The fact that Jiu was an assassin sent to kill Tian but he couldn’t? oof

Overall, good and enjoyable and if you binge it in 5 days like I did, overstimulating. 

kys counter: 9. mostly for Song and Li but I think Jia and Ma got one each as well. I’m usually not one to want characters to just die in order to remove them as conflict but this time... murders and intense homophobia were already there, so might as well die if you’re a piece of shit yknow

Rating: 7/10

Tiktoks:

To Sir With Love

Ep 8 or 9 Tian seeing Jiu and Mud in bed + Jiu saying Tian likes Mud

beautiful actors and actresses as all the characters. Li and Chan’s actresses especially oh my goshhh 

wait pause Li and Jia? (bg: Until I Found You)

In-char interview: this was kinda cute, hope more shows have in-character interviews; might watch the Big Dragon one after this. it was also killing me bc it felt like modern JiuTian AU with Film’s blond hair lol

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Digimon Adventure V-Tamer 01 - Disc-2

Aww, no more full-color chapters this time around :'( it was fun while it lasted. I wonder why this manga never came out in America? I know Digimon didn't make it as big as Pokemon, but I would think it's big enough, no? Maybe they thought the alternate-world Taichi would be too confusing for kids which...fair.

Ch. 11

-This chapter was pretty creepy. The premise (a village going crazy and everyone killing each other) was already low key creepy pasta worthy, but the way the artist draws Zeromaru in crazy/brainwashed mode was pretty unsettling. Not to oversell it, in the end it's a pretty standard "teammates used against each other" plot.

-Something about an evil Patamon is pretty funny. He's too cute to be evil!

-I don't like Demon's design (didn't like his anime design either). The only part that's kinda cool is the "missing data" on his arm and mid-section.

-Seems kinda messed up that the digivice can make a digimon full instantly. Depriving your friend of the joys of eating :'(

Ch. 12

-Another Digimon World-like reference where Taichi talks about force feeding Zeromaru and not cleaning up his poop. Ah...so glad I never have to play that game again lol.

-Is Taichi wearing loose socks? Very 2000s of him. I miss that fad...

Ch. 13

-Digivice abilities so far: scan enemy digimon, transmit data to partner (commands, food, abilities). Seems pretty OP. I hope they don't over rely on it.

-There's a lot of Engrish in this manga ("deep saver," "wake up combination"). I wonder if the random "cool" English in manga motivates kids to learn at all...

Ch. 14

-This chapter was basically all gags and no tags. Just as useless as the Starmon episode in the anime!

-New digivice ability: it can scan books and then upload that info to your partner's brain. Again...kinda OP. Of course, they nerfed it by making Taichi's doodles cause trouble, so I guess it's fine.

Ch. 15

-Edgy rival guy appears! He kinda looks like a discount Killua. He doesn't appear to be brainwashed like Ken? Who knows though...

-TWO digivices!?

No but really, what's the point in having two? That's stupid.

-Another OP power added to Taichi's digivice: It can unlock any electronic lock

-So Etemonkey was wholesome all along!? :'( poor guy. Rival dude said his lifespan is like 120 hours!? Geez I didn't know we were going by game logic THAT much.

-Wow, Jogress evolution! I'm glad I'm reading this after Digimon Adventure 02 or else I might be confused by some of the stuff they're throwing at me with zero explanation.

-Rival guy's name is...Neo Saiba. How am I supposed to take that seriously? Makes me think of Kaiba from Yu-Gi-Oh!

Ch. 16

-Well that got dark pretty quick. Neo sacrifices a Metal Greymon for the sake of collecting data. The fact that the Metal Greymon's only reason for existing was to prove himself to Neo was really sad. RIP.

-So I realize that "Neo Saiba" isn't a first name but a first and last name lol, Idk why I thought otherwise. I guess I'm just so used to hearing digimon with two names at this point.

-Another digivice ability. Apparently you can use it to straight up kill a digimon? (Or "delete," as they worded it). I wonder if it's a real kill or if MetalGreymon gets to turn back into a digi-egg...

Ch. 17

-This chapter got a little violent with Zero bleeding from the nose and mouth and then ripping off Skull Satamon's arms. I bet if you were an 8 year old reading this that would be really intense!

-Apparently anger can give digimon a power boost. I wonder if other emotions have any effect?

-The official release actually ends here for volume 2 which seems weird, but it's because there's a huge chunk of omake materials at the end including C'mon Digimon! I've been reading the scanlations, but I think I'll have to buy the real deal to get that sweet bonus content.