Chicago Gay Pride. 1992. My first pride and I was not out. I borrowed my brothers 1979 Chevy conversion van and my dad’s 12 lb camcorder. It was a life changing experience. Shawn (dark hair) was the first person I told.
Things I was grateful for in July 2024:
Trader Joe’s s’mores clusters, Trader Joe’s Out of This World ice pops, EPIC: The Musical by Jorge Rivera-Herrans and team, The Story of Art Without Men by Katy Hessel, New Surrealism by Robert Zeller, The Odyssey by Homer, a Shake Shack dinner date with Drea, Trader Joe’s oat milk fudgsicles, Sun Bum Cool Down aloe vera and and lotion, I Love You So F***ing Much. by Glass Animals, breakfast tartine from Alta Bakery & Cafe, LUSH Swell shampoo, Power conditioner, and Sun eau de cologne, a family trip to the Monterey Bay Aquarium, my Mokuyobi Threads orange fruit sling, good luck, babe! (covered by senses), a Shake Shack lunch with Drea, a bignè alle fragole (split with Drea), miniature golf at Buccaneer Bay with my family, and a vegan corndog, dipped ice cream bar, and a deep-fried pb&j at the Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk.
$b have been a huge part of my life since 2014. when I found them, I was heavy in addiction. I was 24, on my way to ft.worth to make some very stupid decisions. was listening to three 6 mafia radio & heard a song that sounded like them but wasn't. looked at my phone and saw "$uicideboy$", chuckled & said wtf is this. obsessed ever since. related to them as people (same age) their lyrics & overall lifestyle & music influences. another thing in common is the timing of change to quit relying on drugs & become a better person. got sober (7yrs now) around the same time - unknowingly. (I was in prison at the time) them like 2ish yrs later? but it also makes the newer music even more relatable. makes me & a lot of other people feel heard/less alone, I'm sure. one of my biggest regrets: wish I woulda saw them when they first started out. unfortunately, I was already stuck in a continuous loop of destruction. I was busy just trying to stay alive/out of trouble, honestly. ptsd from prison & anxiety has limited me from going these past couple years, bc "I didnt wanna go alone" but I allowed it to. I'm finally overcoming my fears & doing what makes me happy.
in our 30s now & clean (from some very scary stuff) after overcoming so much shit w drugs- makes me feel like we "grew up" in our mid-20s together, lol. lame as that sounds. I just love music so much & never heard anything so comparable to how I felt/feel. funny how your own thoughts can also be another person's lyrics. thankful for ruby & scrim, they've been helping ppl who struggle with addiction/depression/mental health issues all over the world through their music for a decade & I'm so proud of their evolution & sobriety. 8.14.24 will be LEGENDARY✨️🩶
P.S. it was legendary! when tickets came on sale, I bought 1 pit & 1 seat sec 120 row B cause I was so nervous about going alone. I didn't know what time to show up to be able to be one of the first in line to be at the barricade
2wks before the show, I was asking the universe/God for a sign not to be worried that everything will work out in my favor & I'll be at the barricade. It didn't matter what the sign was, just one for me to know to use the pit ticket. about 30min later I checked my phone the time was 11:04, (114444) my tweets were on post 444 & my battery was on 77%. repeating #s are everything to me regarding signs. then I look & realized I had a notification from Scrim liking my tweet! I had god w me too
BEST SIGN I'VE EVER GOTTEN IN MY LIFE👌 I was 3rd in line for the pit and got to the barricade
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