The boys had seized the cave, and in it they'd found a home away from Welton, away from parents, teachers, and friends—a place where they could be people they never dreamed they'd be. The Dead Poets Society was alive and thriving and ready to seize the day.
Jean-Luc Picard
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My father and brother often mocked my poor winemaking skills and that hurt me terribly in my youth. I had to find my own path before I could excel. It is all right if you are still seeking yours. You’ll get there. I have confidence in you.
12:27 PM · Jun 8, 2023
Life goes on. 3 words people say in order to move past something….to make a problem or situation less significant. I’ve been trying to find that play button. The one that everyone else has to continue on with life because for me……for me…. life stops. With every betrayal. With every heartbreak. Time stops …and then I realize that it was just me. I was the only one stuck in that place…. Hurt… whether I caused the pain or not. So if your wondering why I hold on to that grudge so tightly….If your wondering why I can’t forgive….it’s because I relive moments that you’ll only remember. You’ll forget those little details that make me stop mid task. The feeling you gave me…..well that was just mine. It wasn’t a moment we shared so I know you don’t understand. I hope you never understand…..or maybe I do. Maybe I wish you felt it too. So that I wouldn’t have this scar alone and so I would be sharing it with you. Because every time I feel my scar…I’m in such disbelief. I gave life to people…… who put death within me. Oh to be born again….how bittersweet. Crying tears of joy to start again while laying to rest the only girl I’ve ever known as me. As I lay the flowers on top of her grave and kiss her soul goodbye…..she protects me one last time…..and wipes the very last tear from my eye. I found it and I pushed play. 🌹
I write until the words start to make sense. I drink coffee and listen to music and cry until I no longer have tears to cry. I sleep until my bones feel heavy. And when my mother starts to worry, I wake up. I breathe. I drink water for the first time in weeks. And then I write and read and draw and sing and dance to my heart's content.
DO YOU PREFER TAKING RISKS OR HAVING A SAFETY NET?
♡k 09/14/2024-09/17/2024
I preferred having a safety net for a really long time. I think in a lot of cases, you should always have a safety net especially as someone who grew up poor. But sometimes you can't always have a safety net.
For example, since moving out on my own, I’ve been taking the risk of getting over my anxiety and fear of driving. The more I practice driving, the less nervous and scared I am after each lesson. I feel excited getting behind the wheel now and going faster (the legal limit) than what I’ve done before each lesson. I still can’t believe I went faster than 50mph. I can’t believe I even touched 60!! (edit: 09/17/2024, I drove on the freeway for the first time)
A year ago, I wouldn’t even have dreamed of going any faster than 20mph. Learning how to drive has taught me that I am in control of myself and my situation. I have overcome the biggest obstacle of my life and as I continue to practice driving, I feel like I could do anything! I hope in 2 months, I will be so comfortable driving that I can, not only finally take my driver's test, but also go out on my own without fear, worry having to save for rides for the week or even waiting on someone to bring me to places! (ex., ubers/lyfts and friends/family helping me run errands)
I hesitated taking the initiative to practice driving for so long for many reasons that slowly snowballed into avoiding it completely up until this point. One of the main reasons was my fear of getting into a car crash. I believe it rooted from my childhood and teenage years from hearing my immediate and extended family getting into accidents (either it be their fault or the other driver involved). It's also expensive for the permit test(s), driving lessons, getting to and from the driving lessons and/or DMV, taking the driver's test(s) and the potential expenses of having and maintaining a car.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still worried but it's more of a financial worry now. I feel way more confident driving compared to 6 months ago and I believe I will get better as I continue to practice driving but I have to learn to accept the fact that I will owe and possibly be in debt to something or someone to have and maintain certain things in life such as a car and/or being a homeowner. I've always been afraid to be in debt and owe money. I have a "if I can't buy it in full, I can't have it" mindset. I grew up poor.
Driving doesn't really have a safety net option because although I would like to avoid getting into an accident, coming across car problems and owing a large amount of money, it's bound to happen whether I like it or not. I must decide if I want to swim or drown because either way it'll be hard but in the long run of having the ability to drive, it'll help make things easier for myself rather than not having my license at all.
Some times you have to jump the gun and go for it. You never know what it'll bring you and I hope having the ability to drive will bring me lots of opportunities in life that I would never have dreamed of a year ago (ex., new career opportunities, independence, freedom and new life experiences.)!
(edit: 09/17/2024, I came across this Instagram reel and thought it was relevant)
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Finding your life purpose is a deeply personal and transformative journey. Here are some steps and resources that might help you along the way:
Reflect on What Matters Most: Spend time thinking about your values, passions, and what brings you joy. Consider what activities make you feel fulfilled and energized.
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Where the heck was I? Working and studying hard from home. That doesn't make me a lanewad. Gotta remember that I was also a raver a couple nights a week.
How'd I get away with that while holding a ft engineering position? Idfk. The thing to remember is that we always sobered up at a diner before getting in our card to get home.
Why's it so tough to take a mom and drink a cup of coffee and eat a bagel before driving into traffic.
On with the story, an EMT thought I was one of the people who messed up the event. Of course I put my hands up and said I've never even gone.
At the worst, I never opened up a snack area on the way there. There's actually nothing on my land.
The med tech was amazed and thought I wasted my engineering money on the wrong things. Nope, I got to go to Yosemite, blading, hiking, rodeos, had a home by the ocean, and I got to open a scholarship fund in the family province.
Don't ever forget where you've come from; always try to pay it back.
Discover Your God-Given Purpose: 8 Steps to Uncover What You're Meant to Do
Are you struggling to find your purpose in life? You’re not alone. Many of us wonder how to align our talents, passions, and opportunities with what God has in store for us. In a recent discussion, I explored how to discover your God-given purpose and what steps you can take to uncover what you’re meant to do.
Here’s a quick summary of the video:
1. Understanding Your Natural Talents
God has…
hi there! i wanted to introduce myself as a newbie to Tumblr. I decided to start my own blog because why not? I've been wanting to do something on my own that inspires others & that fills up my time with things that aren't mundane.
I've been on my own self love journey & figured that was a perfect place to start! feel free to join in!
1. It’s uniquely yours. Don’t get hung up on who has already done what you feel led to do. Do it, the way you’ve been given to do it.
2. You cannot hide from it. Your purpose is written into the fabric of your being. No matter how much you try to escape it, it will always haunt you until you fulfill it.
3. Your life is the solution to a problem. When you’ve discovered what problem(s) you were born to solve, you will have to discovered the purpose you were born to fulfill.
You've Created Me To Fly, God, So Why Have You Clipped My Wings?
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In the silence of the cosmos, the question echoes: “You’ve created me to fly, God, so why have you clipped my wings?” It’s a query that resonates deeply within the human spirit, probing the mysteries of existence and the enigma of suffering.
At its core, the question reflects the tension between potential and limitation, between aspiration and reality. We are beings of boundless…
Well, one thing that I have learned is that the knowledge you obtain and how you disperse it depends on you. The only confusing thing on the matter is how. It's frustrating to think that our school system had us focus on the most profitable yet common career fronts but neglected the other skills that can build to the bigger picture.
For instance, my thought in my middle school years was that I wanted to become a guidance counselor and work my way into a teen therapist. Given the brief summary, what I went through made me feel compelled to learn more about my age bracket. I was raised mostly as an only child since my three older siblings were on their own wavelength. We are talking about the 5-year difference between me and the second youngest.
Either way, I turned towards writing, typing, digital art, web design, psychology, sociology, and nutrition/wellness to build specific soft skills. This to me created a web of possibilities as long as I stuck to it headstrong.
This became a bit of an obstacle when I wanted to then take the reign as a Virtual Assistant/Administrator/Human Resource Administrator. This was inspired by my fascination with accuracy and how such mistakes slip through the cracks. The organization is the second best thing to me thanks to the way one may want to organize their data. Which by the way, that's a LOT of formats going on there. Don't even get me started on the information I looked into on just formatting documents/images for Canva templates.
So when it comes down to finding something that appeals to you, tough out the 'boring' parts because that's where the foundation of knowledge may start. The test is if you have the grit to get through it then make it your own.