#PURE ANGST I TELL YOU

[lunaetis]

@solaetis asked :

"Now, don't give me that mournful look. It's true that in some ways I've been 'outsmarted', in the end I was able to get the gnosis, is that not so? Meanwhile, the lot of you are rotting here with the self-same dissatisfied look as if your contributions to the cause are infallibale. Well, Arlecchino, let's hear what your lips can concur at this moment. Certainly you've concerns to raise. If your knotted brows could speak for you, it would." - Dottore

unprompted. || always accepting

─「アルレッキーノ」─ the moment she saw his face, the VERY MOMENT the words of the news had left his lips, the knave no longer was processing anything else that followed after. she didn't even know what kind of expression she was making for the other to still be talking as though nothing happened. perhaps, in his mind, in this one's mind, it didn't feel like anything was wrong. sure enough, it didn't. it was an EXCHANGE, wasn't it ? whether it was fair or not, that was the least of his concern. as he said, he was able to get the GNOSIS.

but at what cost ?

without warning, the knave had violently slammed the form of the second harbinger against the wall behind them, hard enough for the SURFACE to almost crack under the impact itself as cross-shaped pupils quivered uncontrollably, if the way her gloved hands clenched against his clothing didn't tell of that already.

" HOW DARE YOU — " seething fury was obvious in her murderous tone, teeth gritting so hard that her jaws were hardened and her eyes FLASHED a blood-dripping color of crimson in surge of her power and his movements were TEMPORARY PARALYZED. she held herself back, however, even though all she could think of was to literally rip his throat out with her hands. arlecchino was shaking in PURE RAGE, gloved digits wrapping themselves around the column of his neck. like a beast baring her fangs in a violent growl.

how dare. how dare. how dare !!

a kind of violence that served as a retaliation for the GRIEF and heartbreak she was experiencing. all of it. all because of him.

" BRING HIM BACK. "

he was mine. mine.

[magicpiano]

I have seen a few DCxMarvel dimension travel fics, and quite a few of them are of them are Peter Parker post-blip. Which gives me a crack fic idea: everyone who got snapped ended up in the DC universe. Yes, all of them.

The current world population is around eight billion, so half of that would be 4 billion... Yeah that would cause so so so many problems. But the DC universe is used to crazy shit.

Obviously there would be a sudden influx of "new" heroes and villains but with absolutely no context it is hard to figure out who is who.

Batman immediately trying to make contingency plans for all these new heroes and villains as well as figure out their civilian identities but this is very difficult because literally no records exist yet.

Magic users from both worlds team up, but I think they were still unable to fix it, the infinity stones were just too powerful. Also I think Dr. Strange and Constantine can't stand each other.

While I am at it, Wonder Woman and Loki would probably hate each other too. DC is more Greek but it has had their own version of Norse mythology, so maybe they are the same and have beef?

They would struggle to feed and house that many new people, but getting them jobs and integrating them into society would be hard too. And good luck proving anything anyone says. "You swear you have a law degree from Harvard? Okay I guess."

Do doubles exist? Yeah a lot of people probably don't have an alternate universe double, but it stands to reason some do. How do you deal with having a new kind-of twin? Or a dead friend or relative coming back, but different? Or even someone you never knew/doesn't exist in this world insisting they are family.

Some au double ideas I have seen people toss around are: Dick Grayson as Richard Parker, Kara Danvers as Carol Danvers, Steve Trevor as Steve Rogers, and Slade Wilson as/being somehow related to Wade Wilson, but I am sure there are other fun ideas out there too.

The snap didn't just affect humans/earth! So other planets are having the same problems.

Then randomly, five years later, just when people were getting used to the change, they all disappear again without warning. This causes as many problems as the original appearance did.

[mime-the]

“You lie too, and you believe yourself.”

Felt like drawing some rendered art of PV and SM, so why not go with something silly!? Heheh, enjoy.

I think I should be allowed to cook more. Unless I burn down the kitchen, then probably not.

[jacketpotatoo]

Hey @thehomelybadger , thank you for breaking my heart

[eliashirsch]

Slow and steady wins the race... Still slugging along this WIP.

This is actually more of an Ice character study rather than focusing on them figuring their relationship out. Let's see how it goes for the second draft. But I love, LOVE, some of the lines I wrote. I think really taking the time to focus more on each sentence rather than dashing through the finish line really helps.

I'm just starting the third act, so hoping I can finish soon :)

[lyss-butterscotch]

Okay to everyone in the rw sunstone tag making 'bug' being a petname from suns to pebbles i hope you know youre facking killing me.

Do you have any idea the implications of that is if you kept the facking bug maze convo??? Imagine being pebbles and having this special someone you care so much about give you this lil affectionate petname thats only for YOU! Probably like one of the few happy things in your life as an undying suffering god.

Only for that special name to be used as a throwaway line. You are burnt out you are tired you are in pain and you seek help from the person you care about right? And suns being the dense dumbass they are just went 'oh yeah burn out, stress, existential dread its all stupid and pointless, but eh nothing you can do about it' like NO THAT DOES NOT HELP IN THE FIRST PLACE

And yeah im aware of how suns sounds like theyre downplaying pebbles stress hard. Theyre like 'yeah this is something all of us went through, dont be so hung up about it, thats stupid'. That would hurt!! You wouldn't expect that from someone you care about and youre just... nodding along because THEY said it, so it must be right in a sense right? Their opinion weigh something to you right so you DO consider it.

Then the facker had to slap in the bug maze thing. Thats like insult to injury. Why are you tying the lil happy special meaning of a name to something so facking dreadful. If suns calls pebbles 'bug' again now all he can think about is HIM. BEING THE BUG ON THE MAZE. THE STUPID BUG ON THE MAZE. And idk man that'll fack me up a lil bit.

[hella1975]

you ever have a fic get you in such a chokehold you start pacing your room and talking to yourself

[walkingstackofbooks]

Okay I was not expecting to write E-rated fanfic tonight but apparently I can bash 4k of Sloan gaslighting and manipulating Julian in under 4 hours and I'm slightly worried at how easy that was 😅😅

In other news, if anyone's into Sloanshir, there's a new fic on the block :P

[goforth-ladymidnight]

For my "A Second Chance" Tamcien readers, including but not limited to @praetorqueenreyna @thrumbolt and @taymartiart, I want you to know that I am still working on the next chapter! I had hoped to have Tamlin's POV done by tonight, but it's still going strong at 4.5k words (the last chapter was 5.6k). So, just in case I miss my self-imposed deadline, just know that it won't be long now, but I am a perfectionist, and it will be worth the wait (I hope). Also, our boy is absolutely suffering right now, and I can't just leave him like that...

Hopefully my next update will include the next chapter. Stay tuned!

[creationsofimaginationsblr]

Angst

There is no grief like the loss of what could have been. There is no rage that can rival that of someone who has lost everything

[coffee-at-daybreak]

dozy | marcurio x reader

Someone nudges your shoulder. "Hey."

You jolt awake, and lift your head. After a few blinks, the blurriness in your eyes fades, and the familiar sight of the Arcaneum comes into focus. You look from the towering bookshelves, to the empty tables, then to the source of the voice in front of you.

Marcurio is frowning down at you, but there's a twinkle in his eyes. "Did you really fall asleep reading again?" He asks.

You merely blink at him once more, then look down. Sure enough, there are several books sprawled across the table you'd been slumped over on. Looks like you were in the middle of the 3rd volume of The Real Barenziah when you’d nodded off.

"Um..." Your voice is still tinged with grogginess. "N-No. I was... imagining the story."

Marcurio snickers. "And you snore while doing that?"

Your eyes widen. "... I was snoring?"

He doesn't answer, instead he pulls out the chair across from you and plops down in it. He begins to skim through the books on your table. "Let me get a good look at these. They must be terribly boring to knock you out like that."

You glance up at him. He doesn’t look tired like you. His eyes are warm and alert, and aside from a few stray strands, his hair is still neatly gathered at the base of his neck.

You ponder telling him the truth. The books aren't at fault - the previous sleepless nights are. Days upon days of tossing and turning were finally getting to you and you came down to the Arcaneum to lose yourself in some stories in hopes it would relax you a little. Perhaps it did , enough to finally get you to doze off, at least.

You swallow down the words and look around once more at the empty, quiet library. "What.. time is it?" It was a little after mid-day when you came down here earlier.

"Late. Very late." Marcurio sets down the last book and pulls them into a neat pile. "I overheard Urag complaining to Phinis about you and thought I should come check on you before he summons those atronachs he's always threatening us with."

You wince. "That would have been bad." When he chuckles, you look up at him and your eyes lock onto his. The nearby candlelight makes his brown eyes seem almost golden. "If it's as late as you say, why were you up?"

You can see him struggling to hide his smile as he holds your gaze defensively. "Studying, actually. Colette lent me some interesting Restoration tomes. Thought I'd read up on them before I start practicing tomorrow."

You don't hide your smile like he does. It warms your heart to hear that Marcurio is fitting in well here. He was your companion long before you stumbled across the College, and with all the things that have happened since you arrived, a part of you is surprised he hasn't left your service already. But his love for magic - and a little love for you, you hope - keeps him around, thankfully.

"Restoration, hm?" You fold your arms onto the table and rest your chin on them, looking up at him. "What spells, exactly?”

He opens his mouth, but then shuts it quickly and scowls at you. If there wasn’t a slight hint of amusement in those narrowed eyes, he would look almost menacing. "When I said late, I meant late. I'm not going to talk magic with you when you should be sleeping."

"I was sleeping."

"In your own bed, you idiot."

You stifle a snort. Your eyes drift close and you let out a dramatic sigh. "My bed is too far."

"It's... It's just up the stairs..."

"Exactly. Stairs. Ugh." You slouch further down onto the table. "I'm rather comfortable here."

Marcurio scoffs. "You won't be so comfortable when Urag's atronachs do come for you." You hear the scrape of his chair moving as he stands, then his voice is drifting to your side. "Come on, get up."

You merely grunt in disagreement. Your eyes are still closed. You can already feel the sleepiness coming back to you, making your brain fuzzy.

Marcurio gives your shoulder another nudge. "Hey, seriously. Am I going to have to carry you?"

"Yes." You say without any hesitation.

"Wha - no. I was joking."

"I am not."

Even though your eyes are closed, you can practically picture his brow furrowing. That adorable pout he does when he disapproves of something you ask - which is a lot of the time, actually.

"And here I thought my days as your pack mule were over!" He huffs.

You smile. He sounds further away than he actually is - the drowsiness continues to creep its way in.

"You're seriously going to stay here and let those atronachs get you?" Marcurio asks.

"Mhm."

He sighs. A long, heavy, exasperated sigh. "You are insufferable at times, Dragonborn."

Then, you feel his hand at your back. He grabs the material of your robes and gently pulls you back until you're no longer slouching forward. You open your heavy eyes and prepare to groan out another complaint to him.

His other hand moves down, until it's sliding beneath your knees."Come on, then," he mutters, with surprising tenderness to it.

The brief shock only lasts a second before you lift your legs so his arm can properly hook under them. With a grunt of effort, he hoists you up and off the chair. He pulls you close against his chest as he starts to walk across the library. The jostling movement prompts you to sling your arms around his neck for better support.

Warmth is the first thing you notice. Not just the warmth coming off of him as he holds you, but the warm, buzzing feeling that blossoms deep within your chest. You smile to yourself, eyes still closed.

Marcurio carries you out of the library and heads for the stairs. He's mumbling something breathlessly during the ascent - it sounds like "don't make this a habit".

Eventually, the stairs end, and he's pushing the large wooden doors open with his shoulder. He carries you into the Arch-Mage's quarters - your quarters, you remind yourself. You crack open your eyes just enough to watch the surroundings of the room move past as he carries you to the back, where your bed resides.

"Okay," he pants as he reaches the bed. He lowers you down, and the mattress sinks beneath you as you're set down upon it. "Here we are. Wooh - you're almost as heavy as dragon bones."

He says it lightly, an attempt at a joke. But you hardly hear it. You're too caught up realizing how cold it suddenly feels again now that he's let you go. You feel your heart constricting within your chest.

"Alright. I'm going to go and get some sleep. I highly suggest you do the same," he says as he starts to step away from your bed.

Your hand flies out and catches on the sleeve of his robe. "Wait."

Marcurio stops, turning back around. His eyes dart from your hand to your face. His puzzled expression meets your wide-eyed, nervous one.

You want to tell him the truth, that you can't sleep in this bed or this room because even though it's been days, Savos Aren's presence still lingers, and with it, the responsibilities of your new title. You can't get comfortable enough to sleep with all these unfamiliar items and tasks hovering around, knowing they belonged to the previous Arch Mage only days prior. You can't seem to settle in - not yet, not now.

But once again, the words catch in your throat. All you can muster out is a hushed, "Will you stay?"

You watch as Marcurio's brow knits from confusion to concern. His face softens, his eyes washing over with understanding as he looks back at you. He nods, a small but sincere gesture.

Relief floods in. You hadn't even noticed your heart had picked up speed until just now when it finally started to slow back down.

You scoot back as Marcurio settles down onto the other side of the bed. He's in more of a sitting position than a laying down one, with his back propped up against the headboard. He doesn't get under the covers, and neither do you. You don't want the warmth of them, anyway, but of him.

You scoot back forward until you're leaning into him. Almost immediately, his arms come around you, and just like before, they envelope you in his warmth. You cling to him, head resting on his chest, and close your eyes. You hear his heartbeat beneath your ear, steady and calming.

It only takes a few moments for the exhaustion to seep back into your body. But now, instead of feeling the haunting presence of the previous Arch Mage, you feel a cozy heat, and instead of the eerie silence, you hear rhythmic heart thrums and breathing. For the first night in days, you feel content - content enough to drift off.

Marcurio's hand sweeps gently up and down your back, and his grumble is close along your ear. "Of course I'll stay. But you have to carry me back down in the morning."

You're much too tired to laugh, but you do crack one last smile before you finally slip into sleep.

[benefactordreams]

“Do you think we'd be lovers in every universe?”

“But of course, McCoy my love.”

but that was simply a lie coated in sugar to hide his motives from McCoy. Of course he didn't think so, and he'd hate if they were.

[shapeshifterraccoon]

one of my favourite shipping dynamics gotta be that icarus and the sun, typa shit of pining for someone so out of your league that you destroy yourself in the process. they're so beautiful and so perfect that just looking at them pains you and makes you wanna cry but you just can't bring yourself to look away...

bonus points if the thing that's keeping you from being together is not just your own feelings and insecurities but an outside force as well

[eclipsewxtch]

me, sitting here, writing, minding my business: yknow what i need to do? add fluff

everyone around me, sick, tired: NO

me, already thinking of the perfect love-story theme song for their romantic moment: it’s necessary for their health. for MY health

the universe, trying not to strangle me: for my health, i beg of u to stop.

me, already posting my 30k chapter of sweetness and love: too late <3

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Jumping on the bandwagon to show you much love and appreciation!!

I absolutelyyyyyyyyyy adore your artwork and the beautiful creations you make!! You are so flipping fantastic that every time I see you on my dashboard I get a smile on my face !

The doodles and drawings you’ve done for killer nights made me so happy I couldn’t stop smiling and I continue to look back at them cuz they being me such joy!

I enjoy seeing your original characters and just your art in general is so fantastic! You’ve grown so much as an artist and I feel so honored and privileged to have known ya since you were writing anon on Zu’s blog!

Remember not to push yourself too hard, take breaks, and know that we absolutely love ya <3

ZQFAGETFFFFFFY JANNN YOU ABSOLUTE MENACEE OMG<3333

why is it always you guys sending me the sweetest little surprises in my ask box ever like?? you DO know i'm mortal and your kind words might just kill me right??? RIGHT!! you're ALL such awesome fantastic people i dunno what to even DO about them sometimes-

like this!! jann you're such an amazing artist AND writer yourself and you should know how much this means to me!! i never ever expected this amont of support coming from anyone when i started out really- much less coming from people so talented like you!! still can't fully wrap my head about it honestly hhh-

what started out as harmless fun trying to improve my english by writing small oneshots grew to having a blog of my own where everyone is just!! so SWEET i genuinely feel like a broken record repeating the same things like "sweet awesome kind amazing" but can you BLAME ME??? YOU'RE ALL SO FANTASTIC!!

i enjoy seeing the repercussions of my stubborn self sticking to people's posts and throwing love at them so much too so it's always such a pleasure to see familiar (and new!!!) names on my blog!! i hope you'll get even mORE support for your awesome works (ESP KILLER NIGHTS you know i like r&r but that fic was just. such a good beginning to their story istg :'Dc <3333)

[staliaz]

Since when do you ship stalia?

I ship them ever since I watched the show back in 2017.