#bpdstuff

[shit-im-bpd-too-now]

lmfao

[marz-png]

im stuck in this life i ruined as a child.

[raincamp]

me reading ppls vents where they very obviously show traits of BPD but think its just a normal symptom of depression 🧐

[glitter-kittie]

I’m so miserable. I feel so lonely and so stupid. I hate every inch of my body and my face, and I hate that I’ll never be good enough by any standards. I’m not smart and I’m not pretty, I don’t have any actual talent and I can never do anything right. No one understands me and no one is there to listen to me. I’ve reached out for help but no one ever gets what I’m trying to say. I’m completely isolated and my own self hatred is draining every last bit of energy I have.

[becorbin]

[gbcjulian]

[maybe-its-sertraline]

[abandonedsandwhich]

What is this validation that you speak of?... I don’t know her?... where do you find her?

[sihacide]

no one cares about me

no one has ever cared about me

no one will ever care about me

[to-dance-beneath-the-diamond-sky]

I forgot how much I loved the sting of fresh cuts.

[letters-to-lgbt-kids]

@bpdstuff said: “hello tumblr dad, i just wanted to tell you that i started reading your book “Wunschkind“, i'm current on page 163 and wanted to let you know that i really like your book! i love your writing and the story is super interesting, i always read it on my way to work and on my way home from work :D this is the first book in years i'm able to read and i really enjoy it so i just wanted to tell that! have a great rest of the day!” My dear lgbt+ kid,

Thankyou so much for your message, it means so much to me that you enjoy my book - especially as it’s the first book you read in years! That’s a big compliment, thankyou.

I’m really excited and happy about that <3

With all my love,

Your Tumblr Dad

[shit-im-bpd-too-now]

🫶

[slicedblackolives]

tagged by my beloved @scripps

1. why did you choose your url?

bauliya means hysterical/crazy woman in garhwali which is my ancestral language that i cannot speak rip

2. any side-blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.

i have a sideblog thats my full name for hoarding purposes which i am not going to mention, @gatha which was supposed to be my writeblr but is in limbo and @queenkenna which is my choices sideblog even though i don't really care much for the game anymore!

3. how long have you been on Tumblr?

i've had this blog since December 2018, but I joined in late 2017 (my first blog got purged). I've been following my favourite fanwriters' blogs since 2013 tho, by bookmarking them on chrome

4. do you have a queue tag?

i used to, #queuedforherpleasure but then i stopped caring

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

mormor and yuri!!! on ice!

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

does a photo of ian mckellan at pride need an explanation (wanted a bi pride magneto but found something better)

7. why did you choose your header?

IT'S PRIDE (2014) TIME BABY!

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

this one with 290k notes :(

9. how many mutuals do you have?

i don't know but i love talking cherik with you! is there a mutuals list tho?

10. how many followers do you have?

hmmm no this is influencer behavior don' like that

11. how many people do you follow?

1646! after i purged every account that was inactive for more than a year. and followed a TONNNEEE of cherik blogs over the last few weeks

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

they're all either shitposts or my official theses depending on the time of day

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

way too often but i'm taking finals during a humanitarian crisis I Am Stressed

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

oh my gooood. yes. greatest hits (not hyperlinked because lazy):

- captain america was wrong in civil war (i lost this one the second disney bought the x-men rip and fuck you mickey mouse)

- yes all american soldiers are bad even the racial and sexual minorities (i won, obvs)

- hall of fame villain's fight

- so many pro-ao3 posts that clogged my notes w puritans (i won)

- that let pride have kink thing with @/bpdstuff

i need to pick fewer battles

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

scroll scroll scroll

16. do you like tag games?

yes i like being reminded people know i exist

17. do you like ask games?

nope. my followers aren't an interactive lot

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

none of you. i block tumblr famous people <3

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

at this point i have a crush on everyone that isn't a total fascist quarantine's hard

20. tags?

@hammyletto @ta1k-less @evergardenwall @kinaaremp3@by-nina @whiffingbooks @dragoncreek319 @akasanata @kirkisms

[incorrectclc]

Seungyeon: Tips to prevent mood swings--avoid caffeine, alcohol and sugary foods.

Elkie: That’s my diet though.

[gbcjulian]

it hurts so bad but yet i feel numb

[shit-im-bpd-too-now]

I had to learn in therapy what’s appropriate to share 🫶