#but i can't tell if im too lazy or too afraid to even try

[shibalatte]

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[wiredsmile]

i wanna write & work on stuff but my brain won't let me work on anything that isn't comm related rn without making me wanna have a whole melt down bc my parents have YET AGAIN made me feel like im never doing enough or even TRYING at the matter so now im so stressed out i don't feel like i even deserve personal time to just unwind & do what i WANNA do rather than only working on comms & housework/shit to benefit her & my dad

[tempvstas]

Good Things Come To Those Who Wait

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Content Warning(s): some angst, leona being emo lol

Character(s): GN!Reader(no pronouns mentioned), Leona Kingscholar

Authors Notes: Hello all, I am not dead, just busy :] Life update, started uni so I've been busy with that, also, bit off more than I could chew so I burned out HARD. Genuinely lost motivation to write. But I do want to get back into the flow of writing. I'll try and fulfill requests(esp the ones sitting in my inbox, sorry to everyone who sent me requests before im not ignoring you i swear 💀) when I can but theres no guarantee. I wanna write what I can and what I want to and atm its Leona :]]. Please enjoy LMAO

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Leona couldn't remember the last time he had felt the warmth of another.

Moonlight filters through the open balcony of his room, a gentle breeze causing the curtains to sway slightly. He can feel your hands curled around his waist, his tail wrapped around your leg respectively. He stares at you, watching your chest rise and fall slowly, your soft snores seemingly filling up the room.

Silly Herbivore. He muses, brushing a stray strand of hair out of your face, tucking it behind your ear. You're so vulnerable, nestled against his chest. Wholeheartedly clinging onto him as if you were afraid he'd disappear. As he stares at you, he can't help the slight bitterness that wells up in his throat.

Why did you choose him out of everyone? Out of pity? He's never been good enough. The elders and servants back home made that quite obvious enough. He almost laughs out loud at the thought. He would never be good enough, would never be anyone's first choice, and would never put in enough effort because he was just too damn lazy.

A worthless, selfish, arrogant, too prideful for his own good, lazy, a good-for-nothing second prince who will never amount to anything.

Does he even deserve you?

Your slight movements startle him out of his thoughts as he stares down at you, blinking up at him with bleary eyes.

"Leona?" You mumble, rubbing your eyes. "Can't sleep? That's unusual," you tease him, shooting him a sleepy grin. Unwittingly, Leona feels the edges of his lips quirk up, "I was planning on it, until you started squirming around," he huffed. You study his face, a frown marring your features. Leona pokes your brow where it's creased, chuckling slightly, "Don't do that, your face will get stuck like that." You scowl at him, "I'm not a kid," you grumble, "Besides you have that look on your face and I'm worried about you."

Leona stares at you, an eyebrow raised, "Mind elaborating on what 'that look' means." You sit up so that you're face to face with him. "You know, that look! When you get all broody and emo, and all 'oh my sevens im so angsty grr'. That look." Leona wrinkles his nose at your wording, "Very funny Herbivore." You continue to stare at him, concern causes your brow to crease even more.

"Leona, what's wrong? I can tell something's up with you. I know you don't like opening up, and that's fine, but you know I'm here for you, right?" You reach over, taking his hand in yours and giving it a gentle squeeze. Leona's breath hitches in his throat for a second, he finds himself shutting his eyes for a moment. When he opens them again, he finds your gaze trained on his.

Not looking away from him, holding his gaze unwaveringly. Genuine sincerity in your eyes.

"Leona." His ears twitch at the sound of his name being called. Your voice is firm, to get his attention, but soft enough that he doesn't feel the urge to flinch away. He sighs, feeling that you wouldn't let this matter go easily.

"I know you are. If you want the truth, no I'm not fine." Leona grimaces, this feeling of opening himself up was foreign to him. "I'm far from fine. I'm just.....what did I do to deserve you?" His voice breaks a little at the last part, but he continues. "I'm worthless, selfish, arrogant, too prideful for my own good, lazy, a good-for-nothing second prince who will never amount to anything. Compared to Farena or that damned lizard Malleus, I'm nothing. I have nothing. I will never be anything more because I will always be overshadowed by people like them." He takes a second to collect his thoughts before continuing. "I've always had to work hard to earn my keep only for everything to crumble like sand. All my hard work amounting to nothing because someone just so happens to be lucky enough to just be better." His ears flatten against his head out of irritation.

You listen to his words, staying silent. You give him a moment to catch his breath before hesitantly reaching over, pressing a hand to his cheek. Leona flinches, but then leans into your touch after a brief second. "Hey...look at me," you nudge his face so that he's staring at you.

"Look, I will admit you can be selfish, hell sometimes kind of a dick. You irritate me and sometimes I want to strangle you cause you won't let me get to class on time because you won't get off me." You pause, before continuing, "But you are not worthless. And you're not a good-for-nothing second prince. I love you, faults and all. You, Leona Kingscholar, are the best damn thing that has ever happened to me okay? I would go to hell and back for your stinky ass." Leona laughs softly at your nickname for him, leaning more into your hand. "You are worthy. I didn't choose to love you because I felt pity for you, I love you because of who you are. You say that all your hard work crumbles to sand? I've seen you pick yourself back up again. You're passionate about what you're interested in, and even if you won't outwardly say it, I know you care. You're not a saint by any means, far from it. But that's what I love about you. You're flawed and imperfect, and I say that's better than some perfect curated image of who you're supposed to be." You poke his chest to emphasize your point.

"So don't you ever question why I love you okay?" Your thumb brushes over the scar over his left eye, pressing a soft kiss to his eyelid. His eyelashes tickle your face as you do so. "I love you, scars and all. And I'll say it as many times as I need to."

Leona stares at you, a mix of emotions in his gaze. He clears his throat, his tail tugging you closer to him. "Fuck...that was hot," he smirks, leaning in, his nose brushing against yours. "Seriously? I give you this long speech and thats what you have to say?" You roll your eyes playfully, smacking his shoulder lightly. Leona's laughter rumbles in his throat as a hand gently holds onto the back of your neck, pulling you in for a kiss. Despite his rough exterior, his kisses are gentle, his lips molding against yours. His other hand finds its way to your waist, holding you in place as you straddle his hips.

The two of you part for air, small gasps can be heard between you. You wrap your arms around his neck as you settle next to him, head nestled in his neck. Leona adjusts his position into a more comfortable one, his chin resting against the top of your head. The two of you lay in silence, the only audible sound being the occasional breeze that ruffles the curtains. Slowly you find yourself falling into the embrace of sleep.

"Herbivore?" You hear his voice above you. "Mhmm?" you mumble sleepily, feeling your eyes drooping.

"....I love you." You smile, hearing his words, before drifting off.

Ensuring that you're asleep, Leona leans over, kissing your forehead, watching your sleeping face. "....Thank you for being in my life.....and for not giving up on me," he whispers, before settling against you and drifting off himself.

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[agirlwithglam]

Hi!! I hope I'm not disturbing you but I wanted to ask how do I work hard. Because when I was younger I got really good marks without trying and now the subjects are hard and social media is distracting but I can't seem to delete it. This is also why my grades are even low then before and I'm really afraid to disappoint my parents (being the eldest daughter doesn't help). So can you please just give me some pointers on how can I actually study and not just cry because I don't know how to. Have a great day!! <3

literally omg. is this past me asking me a question?? like actually u have no idea how much i relate and understand this. the "gifted child" who always got good grades without needing to study now finds things more difficult. i know many people have said this, but i actually have been through this not too long ago. i hope these tips help <3

how to work hard + actually study (realistic)

forget hard work. at least do the work! (its so funny because i literally had a post about this all ready in my drafts about to get posted, so i'll keep this short and link the post.) stop focussing on doing hard work like studying 24/7. just put in the basic necessities you need to get a better grade. hard work post link

use the disappointment and embarrassment as fuel. (basically find a very strong why) (mini story-ish thing coming up, skip to the blue text for the actual advice) i still remember the day i got such a bad score on my math and science test, i was FURIOUS at myself and i cried about it! telling it to my parents was one of the hardest things i had to do and feeling their disappointment was even worse. but that became my turning point. i was so ashamed of myself and i resented me so much that i basically just told myself "i dont freaking care what you feel *with distaste*. you brought this on yourself you failure" (a bit very harsh, yes i know) but the way i studied that week- i studied more than i every had before! also doing this doesnt really lower my self esteem a whole lot, but if it does with you, please be gentle with yourself. : so what i'm trying to say it; use that feeling of shame and disapointment as a fuel, a motivation. The big “why”.

ALTER EGOOOSSSS. this helps SOOOO MUCH its so underrated. embody the energy of your fav people who are the academic inspiration you wanna be! example: rory gilmore, paris geller, elle woods, blair waldorf, etc etc! not only is this so helpful but it also makes it so much more fun and easier!!

parent yourself. i used to tell myself to do stuff like "go study now!" or "get up lazy-butt" but in my mind. but what if you tried to say those stuff out loud to yourself? it just creates a whole new level of real. So start telling yourself to do stuff out loud.

honestly just start. stop letting yourself think about how "uncomfortable" and how "annoying" it will be. All you need to know is that you need to get it done. Right? Ok. So now what’s the next smallest step you can take to getting to do the unwanted task? It may be taking out your material, opening your book, etc.

( !! tough love, but very important rant coming up)

You privileged brat. Your parents gave up EVERYTHING so you could have the education that you are having. They worked so so hard for YOU. So YOU can have the life you want. And all for what? Just for you to throw it all away and say “oh im lazy”. HELL NAH.

And also, do you realise how fortunate you are to be even living in such a time/ era where you have access to basically EVERYTHING? You’re stuck on something? You could easily search it up!! And whats more is that you can further learn. You can search up and find out more about the thing that you’re studying, become the smartest person in your class, get so ahead in life. I hope you realise that if you do use all the resources and materials and help that’s been given to you, just imagine how far you could go! Further than Albert Einstine, Elon Musk, etc. you may be like “what! No that’s gonna be too hard!” But did they have the tools that you have right at your hand? No! They made it all the way with just simple stuff and having to work super hard. But you live in a time where you can do TWICE as much without working as hard!!

And one more thing, QUIT WHINING. “Oh school is so hard!” “Oh school is so boring!” Like whattt???? You are so FORTUNATE and LUCKY to be even getting access to such education! MILLIONS of kids out there would kill to be able to learn what you are so easily dismissing right now. So TAKE ADVANTAGE OF WHAT YOU HAVE. Put your ALL, your very BEST into studying and getting good grades because THAT is whats gonna take you so SO far in life.

Thank you very much, *mic drop*. (i still ly pookie)

dealing with social media:

put the screen time widget on your phone home screen. i did this, and i became so embarrassed by the amount of screen time i had in one day (*cough* 12 hours *cough*) that i made certain to stop using it as much.

screen time limits. this may or may not help you, bc i know that when i knew the screen time password, it didn't do a lot of help but when someone else did (like parents or someone you trust), then it definitely worked. this is probably only best if you're a child around under 14 ish bc thats around the age when most parents put screen time limits + after that age you're gonna be a lot more independent.

more *extremely* helpful resourses:

tips to decrease your phone screen time by @imbusystudying

how to reduce your screen time in the digital age? (an article)

studying tips from a straight-A student by @universalitgirlsblog2

how to study like paris geller by @4theitgirls

more blogs i recomend:

@elonomhblog @mindfulstudyquest @study-diaries @thatbitchery

xoxo, vanilla

[cherrykamado]

Cherry!! You gotta tell us about a selfship of yours too! <3

NFDSKJNGKASNG IM SORRY I GOT TO THIS SO LATE MDSAKG but YEAH I WILL if u insist >:) (im literally the one to jump at any chance to ramble about my selfships LMFAO i jus think theyre neat >:)

TANJICHERRY — he's the one babying me. i usually got a hard time waking up, spend too much time on bed trying to get my brain turn on sloooowly. he's the one to wake me up with low whispers, cooing at me and peppering soft kisses. tanjiro's the one to get up before me, get ready and do breakfast for both (he even brings it to bed sobs) which makes me feel terrible because he could've slept a bit more if it hadn't been for my lazy ass mfdaksjgn. i'd drive us though, it's the least i could do LMFAO. he'd be the one to have me gather energy to face the day, holding my hand while i drive, or just placing it on my thigh. before we part he reaches for my hand n' always kisses my knuckles :(

SHIGACHERRY — we baby each other. tomura's the sleepyhead here (we both are, but he's more than i am). we both sleep through our alarms because we're the 5 more minutes fundamentalists, until the last of five alarms goes off and we just know we gotta get up (f). tomura is usually clingy with me, tightening his grip around me because i'm surprisingly a personal heater to him (i say this cuz im usually the one who freezes to death LMFAO), snuggling into my neck and just groaning what if we don't go — ngl, if i thought about it for more than a minute, i'd say yes but, yk... responsibilities.

those days in which we're not sooo late or we see that we can go late to class, i'd drive us somewhere to pick up some breakfast (oh, and an energy drink for him because dude can't start his day without one, but who am i to question him. i just do my good girlfie job n' pamper him hehe).

we get out of the car, always hand by hand (all five fingaz yesyes. even if in this universe we got quirks, i'd still let him bc i'm not afraid hehe >:) ) he drops me off to my class, and he's like pick you up later (he always picks me up after class) but i'm pulling him into a kiss, whispering i love you against his lips, before we let go of each other's hands and part to our classrooms :'))

[thoughtgal]

Things I'm too scared to tell you:

I'm sorry. I can never... My mind just keeps deleting what i want to say and so i can never get out what im thinking. But i suppose that's where problem number 1 begins.

I can't speak sometimes. I suppose it's what selective mutism is like, though i can't say for sure, but it stems from lots of childhood trauma. There could be things i want to say, but there's a disconnect from my brain to my voice, and that sometimes goes further and prevents me from typing. My brain will go completely blank, forcing a shutdown. I become dissociative. Other times there are fleeting thoughts that simply will not escape. And other times, I'm overcome with fear that if i open up about my emotions and what i feel and why i feel it, I'll open the dam and hurt you. I hold so much hurt.

The most damning is that... I've given up on myself. It's so ingrained into my being that I'm unworthy of life. That I'm unworthy of my blessings. That I'm never going to have what i want and wish for. That I'm not a person. That i don't deserve you. That I'm unwanted and unneeded, so i never reach out and try to put in work for my relationships. That the world will just keep on moving and happening without my input, so I'm only to let things happen and simply go along with it.

And yet i feel so much for others. I feel too much. It hurts 1000 times over when you mention how i hurt you, because you deserve so much better. You deserve someone who will actively put effort into your happiness, unlike me who just sits around... waiting for when you need me.

I love you. I really do. But I'm not a good person. I'm not a proper person, capable of giving you the attention and support you deserve. I can't even support myself. I have lived a life of the burden, and I'm scared I'm just going to burden you. I've lived life never being saved, not wanting to be saved. Dying, but not dead.

... I'm just sullying my romantic feelings for you with my overwhelming depression.

I don't know what to tackle first. Which is why it's so hard opening up to you, being a proper girlfriend for you. I want to hold you and cherish you. I want that normal life with you; waking up by your side, sharing meals together, playing games and watching TV, walking your dogs, going on trips, learning your past and meeting your family. I want to share intimate moments, and soft moments. Sad ones and happy ones. Holidays. Moments of peace. I want a life with you.

But I'm not normal. I'm no where near in the proper headspace. It hurts. When you said you wouldn't give up on me, i shattered. In that moment, i was torn because I did everything in my power to make my own family give up on me... and now you... I don't want to disappoint you but i can't change.

That's the worst kind of person. Someone who refuses to change. But i gave up on myself a long time ago, and now I'm too lazy to be anything better.

I'm scared I'll lose you. If i tell you this. Because I'm someone that if you'd told me to never speak to you again, i never would. I wouldn't dare try to change it. I'm unworthy of you.

I don't know what i expect to get out of this. If i stay, I'm afraid of hurting you with just more of this. Of my problems. Of my depression...

But the idea of leaving hurts so much more because you're the best thing that ever happened to me. You brought me a happiness I'd been looking for all these years.

But both of these options will just hurt you in the long run, and I'm scared of finding out which one will be the worse choice for you. Because if anyone deserves happiness in love and life, it's you, who's still trying. Who still has so much going for himself. I'm sorry. I'm scared.

[lunamsubmersi]

sometimes i think of all the people who have hurt me and i write to them. this is one of those posts. i could say to ignore it but i'm not your boss and i dont really care.

to ledah:

i'm sorry i told you i'd stay when i already knew i wanted to leave but you have to understand: you were right. you can't be saved. not because you're worthless or too far gone but because you refused to save yourself. you didn't want help. you wanted someone to burn with you. i wasn't going to be that person. you broke down so much of the work my therapist guided me through. i told you that i felt the only way to keep you happy was to isolate myself from everyone else and that wasn't a joke. you genuinely made me afraid to speak to anyone else because of your fits. all those talks of me being better off without you were sickening because you knew damn well you used to get rid of most forms of contact after talking about dying when they were still with us. and you knew it scared me. but you were right about that too. you were right about a lot of things. i am better off without you. and i did like ace more. because ace never makes me afraid of living outside of them. ace never freaks out at me for talking to other people a little too enthusiastically. ace never tells me im the only thing keeping them alive. no one does that actually. it was only you. so yeah. i am better off. and i hope to every god out there you never manage to drag someone that fucking low again. i hope there's never another charlotte or another me that has to suffer what you did to us.

to marcy:

you never hurt me but i feel like you deserve to know your brother isn't an honest person. i know you love him and i know there's little chance you'll believe me here but you need to know the truth. ledah always painted you as a villain. charlotte didn't do anything to bad mouth you ever. even when he ranted to us about how you were selfish and mean and lazy, charlotte didn't speak out against you. they would apologize for him having to deal with it. you have no idea how many times i heard ledah talk about how he cant wait for you to move out or how angry he would get when you didn't want to do something anymore. he made you a monster to us and then had us play nice with you. but i did like you. you were kind and funny and genuinely very sweet. even when you decided to cut ties with me, you were gentle about it. and i never blamed you. i just hope one day you see how he really is because i would hate to see you hurt.

to hajime and the two nagis:

you three were exhausting and tiring and mean. i cared for you all sincerely. i still do. but you weren't good friends. it was always obvious you three only valued each other and not me or ruby. all the constant talking ill of other people and aggressively strong opinions that you seemed to use to villify those who disagreed with you were tiring to sit through. i left for my own peace of mind. i know one of the nagis, the one closest to you haji, thought it was jealousy that fueled me at one point. and it wasnt. i didnt care if they didn't like me. i cared that they had the audacity to lie to me and then use my characters in a plotline without my consent on the matter. i cared about the broken trust and all the lying they did. i sincerely hope you three have changed in the time since then and learned to treat others better.

and to diana:

i know you'll never see this but you genuinely were like a twin sister to me. i adored you. i dont think you ever felt the same way though, despite that title being one you first started. sometimes i still think about that time in middle school at lunch when everything i was dealing with in silence got too much and i tried to hurt myself. and when you all finally talked me into stopping and i sat down to try and push it all back down, you told one of our other friends i was doing it for attention. you said that knowing you were speaking normally and in earshot of me. i dont know what you thought that would do. but it did make me regret listening to all of you. i havent seen you in years now. and funnily enough, out of all the memories we have together? that's the one i always remember first. that's the clearest. i hope you don't speak to or about your brother like that. i hope you learned to be better. i hope you think of that day and regret that sentence for years.

[dokueshi]

𝐉𝐮𝐣𝐮𝐭𝐬𝐮 𝐊𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐧 - 𝐲𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐬(𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐞?)

(headcanons)

𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬: Miwa Kasumi & Yuji Itadori bc im lazy af

𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: AY YO I'M BACK, sorry that i dissapear for so long, but school killing me😩 and i still don't have friends😐 anyway, I want to write again, so if someone wants to request something, you're welcome. also TY FOR 70 FOLLOWERS THAT'S SO NICE.

& let me know if I should write other characters.

𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠:

𝐌𝐢𝐰𝐚 𝐊𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐢

♡︎ harmless type(無害型) & disappearance type(消失型)

♥︎ imo Miwa is literally the most harmless yandere you will meet in JJK, why? Because I don't think she would be able to kill another human. Compared to the rest of the characters, Miwa is more "normal", although she is obsessively in love with you, she would never hurt you, why would she? She loves you after all.

♥︎ She won't kill anyone, but that doesn't mean she doesn't think about it. I mean, she's just an ordinary teenager who exaggerates things, and when she sees someone trying to talk to you on some other, more private topic, her mind literally goes crazy with jealousy. She knows she has no right to keep you in a cage and forbid you from talking to others, but danm, she's really scared that you will love someone else, and that is very likely.

♥︎ She won't tell you about her feelings openly, she'll be too afraid of rejection, but she'll give you little signs that she may have feelings for you. She'll share her breakfast with you, if you have forgotten yours. If you are cold, she will shyly offer you her scarf. If you are unsure about something or you have doubts about yourself, she will quickly give you dozens of reasons why you are wonderful and she'll tell you how much she appreciates you as her friend. But it'll not be intrusive or beyond the norm.

♥︎ She doesn't like to hurt others, but she'll do it if someone dares to hit you or threaten you.

"𝑫𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 (𝒀/𝒏), 𝑰'𝒍𝒍 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒄𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖!"

♥︎ She won't do anything against your will, she can't bring herself to "punish" you in any way. She's not sure if you already know about her little crush on you, but she hopes you don't because you treat her as a friend, which would mean you reject her affection. (if you know what i mean)

♥︎ She will confess to you one day, she'll invite you to your favorite place and do things that you like or that she thinks you'll like.

♡︎ 𝐈𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤:

♥︎ SHE WILL BE SO HAPPY, she rather expected you to reject her because she's pretty average, but she's happy anyway! When you tell her that, she'll snuggle in your arms, savoring your scent. Despite all the stress and fear, she has succeeded, finally having a person she loves by her side.

She won't change in a relationship, she'll still be sweet, shy and obsessively in love Miwa.

♡︎ 𝐈𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐣𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫:

♥︎ Well, she expected this, so it's not a surprise to her, but still....it's so painful. She won't be mad at you, she'll slightly apologize and thank you for agreeing to go out with her anyway. And it will be the last time you see her, she won't commit suicide, but she'll cut off contact with you because she doesn't want you to blame yourself for her.

She will miss you terribly, but she's not going to bother you.

"𝐀𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲, 𝐈'𝐦 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲 𝐭𝐨𝐨."

𝐘𝐮𝐣𝐢 𝐈𝐭𝐚𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐢

♡︎ wrong idea type(勘違い型) & dependence type(依存型)

♥︎ He can't live without you, end of sentence. Everything about you makes him crazy, your looks, voice, dreams, opinions, smell, he loves it all.

♥︎ I think you would only be friends in the beginning, like childhood friends or high school friends (with Yuji who has a little crush on you) , and Yuji would start crazy for you after he lost his grandpa. He was just so fuckin afraid he would lose you too.

♥︎ He may find the slightest sign of love in everything you do, even if you do it just out of kindness.

♥︎ He likes to have something that reminds him of you, it can be a smell (for example your favorite food or flower), something you like (for example: if you like cats, she'll buy a cat keychain), or something that reminds him of your hobby.

♥︎ He will also buy you some small gifts, literally when he walks past the store and sees something you might like, he will buy it. He can cook something you like too, he's not a great cook but he'll learn the recipe of your favorite food.

♥︎ After he ate Sukuna's finger, he had to figure out a way for you to go to Tokyo with him, he didn't want to part with you. He probably told your parents (assuming you were his age) that he needed to move and suggested that you could go to a better high school with him. If they weren't sure, he would add that he has a family there with whom he'll be in constant contact. (Which is lie i guess)

♥︎ If it turns out that you can see curses too, he would hide it for as long as possible, the world of Jujutsu is really dangerous and your health is his priority.

♥︎ He is so much in love with you that Sukuna makes fun of him and sometimes threatens him to tell you what dark and sometimes perverted thoughts with you are on his mind.

(a/n: you won't convince me that Yuji is innocent, the poster in his room says a lot)

♥︎ Sometimes he'll say things like:

"𝒘𝒐𝒘 𝒀/𝒏! 𝑾𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒖𝒕𝒇𝒊𝒕𝒔! 𝑨𝒍𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒑𝒍𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒉𝒂!"

"𝒀𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘? 𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒖𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒐𝒈𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒔 𝒊𝒕 𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒊𝒃𝒍𝒆..."

"𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒆𝒅 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒃𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒇𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖? 𝑾𝒉𝒚 𝒂𝒎 𝑰 𝒂𝒔𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈? 𝑰 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘, 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒘𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈!"

man I'm really bad at this.

♥︎ If you tell him you don't love him, he'll probably think you are teasing or joking with him. Even if you do it multiple times.

♥︎ When you still reject him after he confessed to you, he'll panic a bit, you must be unsure of the relationship, right? Or maybe you just don't think it's gonna be good enough?? No, that's definitely not it, right?

♥︎ Well, Yuji doesn't get over the thought that you really may not love him. However, if you keep repeating this or even ignore him, he'll panic again, you can't leave him, he can't live without you, you are like air to him!

♥︎ So he'll most likely be reluctant to lock you in the house you share, you'll be a bit like a married couple! If your parents want to contact you, Yuji will impersonate you.

"𝑯𝒆𝒚, 𝑰 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒚𝒐𝒖'𝒓𝒆 𝒂 𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒃𝒊𝒕 𝒔𝒉𝒚, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝑰'𝒎 𝒈𝒐𝒏𝒏𝒂 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒃𝒆 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒃𝒐𝒚𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅! 𝑺𝒐 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒑 𝒄𝒓𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈, 𝒐𝒌𝒂𝒚?"

[podiumnorris]

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hi! here is my prompt list. you can either use these to request your story, or you can submit your own storyline. remember to add your requested driver and the corresponding letter and number of the prompt.

e.g.: hello, could i request lando norris with prompts s14 and f6?

i mainly write for the following drivers:

lando norris | george russell | max verstappen | sebastian vettel | daniel ricciardo | charles leclerc | pierre gasly | carlos sainz jr.

disclaimer: for sebastian vettel, i only write fluff and angst.

fluff prompts (F)

"i feel so sick, please give me cuddles"

"is that my hoodie?" "no, not anymore."

"darling, you're staring. again."

"kill the damn spider!" "listen, i think now is the right time to tell you i am absolutely terrified."

"can i kiss you?"

"i hate you." "no, you don't."

"mate, that's my sister!"

"your presence is disturbing me. please shut up." "come here and make me."

"hang on, are you blushing?"

"hey honey, im streaming. want to come and say hello?"

"i am so punching you in the face if you don't stop." "id rather have you kissing me."

"did you just ask me out?"

"is that a baby bump or have you been eating a snack child?" "shut the fuck up, he doesn't know yet!"

"is this what you call flirting?" "you fell for it the first time, though."

"what do you want to do today?" "i just want to enjoy my lazy morning with you."

"i am sorry for waking you like a child, but i believe i just had a nightmare."

"do you want to come with me to the next race? i am sure the paddock will love you."

"please play guitar for me."

"did we really just kiss on my porch in the pouring rain?" "yeah, we are so cliche."

"did you just say you like me?"

"you really love her, don't you?"

"stay with me tonight."

"truth is, you make me a better person. and i'm sure everyone loves you for that."

"honey, i think i'm pregnant."

"did you just call this a date?"

"good god! you're in love with her!"

"you are the worst with children." "i wouldn't be if they were ours."

"are you even listening?" "sorry sweetheart, you were distracting me."

"should i start paying rent for how much i am in your head?"

"see you soon, i can't wait to kiss you again."

"don't worry, i kiss way better than i talk" "is that an invitation?"

"why are you such an ass?" "because i fucking love you!"

"can't you see im busy?" "i can, but you look too cute to ignore."

"did you just throw that at me?"

"as much as i love listening to your native language, you know i can't understand shit."

"i believe ive just gotten my period." "is there anything i can do for you?"

angst prompts (A)

"i am afraid of having the power to hold someone's heart and being trusted not to drop it."

"i'm not going to beg you to stay." "but what if i want you to so desperately?"

"please don't say you love me."

"i can't imagine a world with you gone."

"it's hard to believe but everything will be okay. i promise." "no, that is not a promise you can make."

"i guess we just weren't meant to be. not in this life."

"honestly? i am so fucking tired of being your secret."

"please, give me one more chance." "no. you have run out."

"i really never meant for me to hurt you." "but you did."

"i truly don't care, i'm done. get out."

"listen, i know i messed up, but i am unable to continue without you."

"i thought you loved me." "i did."

"what do we call this? what is this going on between us?"

"the choice is simple. either love me and pick me, or let me go. im not doing this anymore."

"then tell me, why the hell did you leave?"

"don't you see i'm fucking trying not to fall apart?"

"i can't. i don't want to get hurt again."

"i can't lose you." "but i am already gone."

"i'm not leaving, end of story." "yes, yes you are."

"don’t you dare fucking walk away from me! i am talking to you!" "and i'm done listening to you."

"you tricked me into loving you and left when you realised you couldn't handle the commitment."

"can i ask, what the hell have i ever done that you hate me this much?"

"it will be okay." "no, it will never be okay. was there ever a moment where i was enough for you?"

"please stop. you're scaring me."

"what is your fucking problem?" "the problem is that i think i'm in love with you, and i am absolutely terrified!"

"why do you always do this?" "it's easier to shut everyone out. nothing personal. just say i'm the problem and go."

"get those three words out of your dirty mouth. they are way too meaningful to be spoken out when you don't mean it."

"what the hell happened to us?"

"look me in the eyes and say that again."

"was there ever a moment your heart properly loved me?" "there was. until i broke it in the process."

smut prompts (S)

"i know it's the wrong thing to do, but i kinda want to."

"if he knew what i thought about you it would break his heart."

"show me what you think, darling."

"i truly wish i would able to control myself myself when i'm around you." "don't."

"is this distracting?" "well what do you expect?"

"i am so bored." "i might have an idea."

"no, we are definitely not having sex right now!" "yes, we are."

"darling, you need to tell me what you want."

"do you need some help with that?"

"fucking hell, shut your mouth." "make me."

"you are mine." "wait, are you fucking jealous?"

"do you like what you see, sweetheart?"

"didn't i tell you to stay still?"

"please just shut up and fuck me now."

"mind if i join you?"

"honey, do not give me that look. you know what it does to me."

"be a good girl and spread those legs."

"please, don't stop." "oh honey, i don't intend to."

"we are not sleeping tonight. be prepared."

"listen, it's not my fault you keep turning me on. you just have that effect."

"i want you to ride my thigh."

"i want to see you come undone. can you do that for me?"

"call me that one more time and you'll see the consequences."

"if you take another step, i cannot be held responsible for my actions that might follow."

"honey, i really don't care how good it feels. you better not cum until you're allowed to."

"just shut up and take your clothes off."

"did you give me a fucking hickey?"

"i kinda hate you, you know?" "ive been told. and that makes this even better."

"you want a quickie?" "what, now?"

"i thought you'd properly hate fuck me against the wall."

"ooh! so you have a breeding kink!" "do not fucking speak about this."

"wait, you seriously want him to join us?"

"you're seriously considering going back to your friends like that? you look like a mess, darling."

"tell me, have you just been touching yourself to the thought of me?"

"your pretty sounds are like music to my ears and i could listen to them all day."

"no wait! my parents are home."

"i want you to ride my thigh."

"alright, what do i get if i win?"

"i can’t believe we’re doing this. again." "i guess we're both each other's worst addiction."

"honey, please let me take your stress away."

[beomglocks]

black butterflies and deja vu

summary: you come around, i come undone

pairing: guardian demon!hyuka x reader

warnings & other: angst & fluff, kind of requested but not really, not exactly enemies to lovers but something along those lines, maybe hyuka secret feelings, reader hates kai kind of, in the air relationship, platonic to sort of not but no one says anything, allusions to kai having possessive behavior, slight mention of a breakup & depression, not proofread bc im lazy

w/c: 767

i can't do this anymore. you stare at yourself in the mirror with a blank face. what are you even doing right now? you could simply just forget about him, forget about the years of happiness you had with your now ex boyfriend beomgyu. it would just be as simple as putting on a smile and pretending like it still didn't hurt.

you continue to stare blankly at yourself, slowly making your features bleed into each other until you see a faint cloud of black smoke behind you. you don't move or flinch but your eyes flit in its direction.  for a split second, you think you created the image with your mind but you realize soon that the cloud of smoke is very real.

you see his dark hair before you see him entirely and sigh. "what are you doing here?" you ask monotonously. you hoped there would be some spite in your tone but it didn't come out, unfortunately.

the boy finishes forming the rest of his body and stands directly behind you. any other day, you would be terrified of him just appearing behind you and towering over your shorter frame but today you didn't care.

"you're my favorite human," he smiles softly. you see him look down at the top of your head then directly at you through the mirror. his eyes were pitch black and there was no glimmer or shine in this pupils. it made you shiver and he could tell.

"im busy," you spit. he chuckles, patting your shoulders with both hands, "busy sulking?"

"why couldn't i have a guardian angel? why did i have to have a guardian demon? my life would be way better and so much more bearable," you mumble with your head down. you won't admit it out loud but you're afraid of what you'll see when you look up.

hueningkai never liked when you talked down on him. he wasn't mean at all actually, he was fairly nice; to you at least. if you didn't know any better you'd mistake him for an angel but the dark clothes and despair he carried told you otherwise.

you slowly bring your head up when the silence gets too much and hueningkai is staring at you with an unreadable expression but he smiles. "that hurts a little," he holds a hand where his heart would be if he had one.

"who hurt you?" he asks. it doesn't sound like a question on his end but he seems genuinely interested. "beomgyu," you answer without thinking. he knows who that is.

"it's...it's not a big deal though," you look at him through the mirror but he seems to be lost in thought. he hums to himself. "im sorry," he squeezes your shoulders in reassurance and momentarily hesitates with his next actions.

you don't notice the hesitation when he leans down, keeping his chin on your shoulder and arms hanging loosely around your body, caging you in and your back close to his chest.

"this is what humans do when they're sad right?" he asks. a back hug is a little bit intimate but- "thank you," you whisper quietly.

he hums again. he lingers on you for longer than you expect for someone who can't feel emotions. "im a demon so it's in my nature to like to see you suffer..." he trails off. "i like seeing you suffer but only over petty things like losing your phone because i hid it or something, not a breakup," he frowns.

"what are you talking about kai," you sigh, mindlessly playing with his fingers. you can't get the thoughts out of your mind that this moment feels very weird and oddly deep seated but the cold that he's radiating from his body is working at numbing your emotions.

"i guess...i like being the only one who can make you suffer," he says. you drop your hands and stare at him through the mirror. "it feels like i was made to make you suffer but protect you from others who try to make you sad...it feels like you really are mine," he mumbles.

before you have the chance to try to question him on what the hell he's talking about, he stands up straight. "i need to pay someone a visit." you furrow your eyebrows at that. "kai..." you warn. you shouldn't have said anything.

"don't worry i won't do anything permanent." he winks before he leaves in the same cloud of black.

once again you're left alone but with new lingering thoughts in your mind. what am i going to do with this demon.

[ratsoh-writes]

You ask for more and im awake sOo:

If Willow is yours.. I can have Honey? Please-

Star: 9.5/10 love how strong he is and he is a police! But that energy.. not good for me and we probably gonna die if we try to cook something-

Red: 8.9/10 hm, this Red is good but something bother me and I can't tell it in a good way.. maybe he is the anxious energy? JSJAJS were anxious pals but his relationship with Oak is cute tho-

Edge: 8.5/10 I love Underfell Papyrus but Edge.. he is a gentleman and all of that cheesy stuff but I don't even think he would date me- im like his brother but more calm. He's a gentleman so I give him that

Cash: 7.6/10 i don't trust him- im afraid of him, and again, maybe the fact that im not seeing me with him kinda affect it?- Love the voices he made btw, funny guy but too many pranks scare the hell out of me, were not gonna last lol

Mal: 8.9/10 nice guy, make jewelry and can do makeup! But his attitude when you're not his s/o kinda.. sh*t tho but kinda relatable, and love how he's almost the only one that could handle his brother JAKZJS

Wine: 9.5/10 love him but knowing that he already know EVERYTHING make me kinda hate him, love how polite he is tho, elegant, yup, I simp for him

Coffee: 9/10 we both love drawings and stuff but something about him and that being so sneaky.. well, he is the brother of Wine so kinda normal(?) He's the picture of a shy and weak guy but he can really beat your *ss

This is fun lol

As long as you take good care of him, he’s yours

Pfft, it’s so funny to me how so many people don’t like how shady I made coffee. Like y’all, he’s a fell from a corrupt political kill or be killed universe. And coffee isn’t a pacifist. He’s just lazy lol

[aliasimagines]

The Cat's out of The Bag//Jason Todd

a/n: i suck at titles 🤷🏻‍♀️. Anyway hope you like it 💕

word count: 1130 (? At least i belive so, i checked it when I finished writing it at 3am but im just too lazy to do it agian)

requested by @im-hqlover

Jason and reader were trying to hide their relationship from other people at school, but somehow someone finds out and soon the whole school know about their relationship. (Maybe kinda angst and fluff too, because I love this combination.)

It was one of the first things you talked about as a couple. One of the first 'rules' that were set in the relationship. Neither of you made a big deal out of it, Jason completely understood and was very much okay with keeping it a secret.

It's not that you were embarrassed about dating Jason. But he was very popular. A lot of people from school had crushes on him. And you were kinda okay with that, because you knew that he trusted you, that he chose you, he wanted to be with you not anyone else. But maybe some people at school couldn't handle Jason being in a relationship so calmly?

Just thinking about it made you stress. So you didn't tell anyone. Okay maybe a few closer friends knew about it but noone you guys didn't trust. And it was cool, everything was going fine.

So when you walked into school one day, only to hear people whisper behind your back and to get stared at by everyone you had no idea what could have happened.

Until some girls walked up to you while you were still packing your books in your bag from your locker.

"You're Y/N, right?" you heard from behind you. You turned around to see Becky and her two side pieces friends. You noded confused. These three were like the Heathers of Gotham High.

"Yes..?"

"Is it true?" Becky asks now louder, her words drawing more attention from the passing by students. You had no idea what she was talking about. You had no idea why she would wanna talk to you of all people.

"What is?"

"You and Todd." added Chelsea, the girl on Becky's left. "I personally don't think so."

You gasped. What? How did they know?

"Todd? As in Jason? I don't even know him.." you tried, still caught off guard. The third girl, Sarah lifted her phone and held it out for you to see. On her phone the school tumblr was opened and there was a picture of you and Jason walked out of a bookstore hand in hand. The picture was blurry as you were only lit by street lamps and the store's sign. The picture was taken last night.

You cursed mentally. Someone from school must have seen you and upload this pic to the schools social media. You felt sick. All those whispers made sense now. You slammed your locker closed and left without a word. You ran to the one place were you knew noone would disturb you. The art classroom. You practically tore the door open and fell on the floor. Fortunately noone was in. You felt your thoughts getting louder and louder. It was getting so overwhelming you wanted to scream but you just went to hug your legs close to your chest. You could have sworn that the empty and half covered canvases were mocking you while thei finished pieces just rolled their nonexistent eyes.

You closed your eyes and tried to focus on your breathing. You wish it wasn't a wednesday. Jason didn't have a first period on wednesdays. If he was here this whole thing would be so much easier. You could call him, sure. But between patrolling all night and studying for his finals in all his free time Jason needed all the sleep he could get. And he should wake up soon as it is almost 8am.

Somewhat calmer you took out your phone to maybe listen to some music that'll help you figure out how to get to class. I mean you knew you had to walk to your classroom in a few minutes but there was nothing else that you wanted to do less than that. But yes. Eventually you have to get up and go out. You bit your lips summoning all the courage as you heard the bell ringing.

You opened the door, peaking out if there was anyone on the corridors. When you saw none you hurried through the school with your head hanging low. You tried so hard not to make any noise, to sit on your chair without making a sound, to make yourself invisible. You tried so hard to focus on the teacher but every two minutes you heard someone whisper your name quickly followed by Jason's... You wished for a lifesaving bell instead you heard your phone buzzing slightly. Carefully you looked at the screen.

Jason wrote.

Quickly making up an excuse for the teacher about how you felt sick, which wasn't suspicious at all, you were out on the corridor once again.

Jason: 'I'm in the library. Can you get out of class?'

You: 'Already out, be there in a sec'

Entering the library you knew where to search him as the two of you met up there once or twice. You weren't wrong, behind a big shelf full of classic literature stood Jason leaning against the wall, clearly frustrated. As he saw you he pushed himself away from to wall and opened his arms. Without hesitation you hugged him. He buried his face in the crook of your neck.

"I am so sorry, y/n." he whispered. "I came as soon as I saw the headlines."

You pulled away so you could look at him.

"The whats?"

"Headline.. Oh shit, you didn't see? It's all over the internet. Gotham Gazette has already written a damn article about it. Bruce is making calls at the moment but..."

"Oh my god..." you panicked. Not only the school but whole Gotham knew about yout relationship now. Great, and now you wanted to cry. Jason noticed and cupped your face.

"Please baby, I am so sorry. If I could I would erase that damn picture but... Ah no... I know it's overwhelming, it's okay, if you feel like crying I've got you okay?"

You noded and hugged him again.

"It's just... I know it's stupid but-" you took a deep breath" I'm just kind of afraid..? People been whispering since I'm here and school only started half an hour ago"

You looked at Jason and it made you hurt, you knew he felt guilty even though he had no reason to do so. Shaking, you took his hand.

"Jay it's not your fault, you can't do anything about it now." you said. He bit his bottom lip.

"I know.. I just hate seeing you so hurt."

"It's so much better now that I've got you here."

"It's gonna okay. We are in this crap together, alright? There might be some people who want to have a say in about our relationship, and yes some people might look at you with jealousy because they think they ever stood a change. But they don't because I love you . No one else. "

[lia-the-potato05]

Revenge

Reader (Ler) x Jungkook (Lee)

Description: Jungkook loves scaring the crap out of you and you just had enough of it. After an interesting information you heard from Jimin you decided to take revenge

Author: Eyyy I'm back...with another fic. I feel like this is a mess because I didnt even bother to proofread this (Im hella lazy sorry mate). Uhm anyways let's get on with the fic

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"Boo!" You turned back and screamed, falling to the ground scared as hell after you saw a scary clown infront of you.

"Haha got you!" The clown then removed his mask revealing your best friend Jungkook "Oh my gosh have you seen your face? That was Hilarious" He started laughing his ass off

"Ugh!" You grunted as you stood up fixing yourself "Jungkook!" You screamed at him

Jungkook ignored you and continued laughing as he turned around, walking away from you.

"That f*cking prick" You said through gritted teeth.

Jungkook just recently knew how easily scared you get. And because he is known as the Evil Maknae he has been scaring you every now and then. He was a fond of your reaction when you get scared. You were extremely annoyed of his doings and worst of all he manages to get away from it aswell

•••

Up until now you were still upset with what Jungkook has been doing to you. Your arms were crossed and frustration was written all over your face. "Y/N are you ok?" You turned your head to owner of the Voice which was Jimin's.

"I'm good" You said. Knowing it was a lie Jimin sat himself next to you

"C'mon Y/N I'm your friend, I know you better than that. Now tell me what's wrong"

You sighed "It's nothing, really...Just so f*cking annoyed with that muscle bunny!" you slammed your fist against the table in front of you startling Jimin

"Chill" Jimin said

"How can I?! Ugh! He does it all the damn time! and gets away with it aswell" You pouted with your arms crossed

"Since we're friends I might have something that can surely help you" You tilted your head in confusion. Jimin then gestured you to come closer for him to whisper something into you ear.

After hearing what Jimin has said a smirk formed on your face as began mentally planning your revenge on Jungkook

Oh Jeon Jungkook you are so gonna get what's coming for you

•••

It was a Saturday morning. Jimin has given you an extra key to Jungkook's apartment. You entered his place and found him asleep like you expected him to be. You were lucky he was the type of person who wakes up late aswell. Perfect for you to continue your plan

You cleared out his bed making sure only Jungkook was on top if it. You then positioned him into an X position (which was hard by the way because he had an odd sleeping position and he was hella heavy). You then took out the straps tying his wrists and ankles to the bed post making sure he wouldn't be able to move once he woke up.

Once that was done. You took out items from your bag such as Feathers, Baby Oil and an electric toothbrush. After everything was all set all you have to do now is to wait for the muscle bunny to wake up. I mean you can start right now if you wanted too but where's the fun in that? You wanted to see his reaction first.

•••

After what felt like years (it was only an hour actually) Jungkook finally woke up. The boy tried pulling his arms down only to find them stuck above his head "What the f*ck?" He tugged on both his arms and ankles only to find out that he was strapped

Jungkook turned to his side to see you sleeping on his study table. "Y/N!"

His yelling suddenly woke you "Huh what?" You said, you wiped the drool off your mouth, letting out a yawn then stretched a little. "Oh your finally awake" You looked at Jungkook with a smile

"What the hell is this Y/N?!" Jungkook asked glaring at you

"Why that's my revenge dear friend" You stood up walking towards him

"You know if you wanted to f*ck me you could have just asked" You looked at the smirking bunny in disbelief after hearing his snarky remark.

"Eww no, What I had in mind for you is something different" You smirk back at him "Just you wait"

Without further a do you then sat on stomach. "You sure you don't plan on f*cking me?"

"You pervert!" You slapped him, not too hard though and he just laughed at your reaction "Oh laugh all you want, I'm gonna make sure of it"

You took out the baby oil and started rubbing it against his exposed stomach (He was shirtless). "Nice revenge there" You rolled your eyes at him, you ignored what he said and continued on

Once you finished you took out a feather. Jungkook looked at you now aware what this little revenge you planned is all about. But he is Jungkook the Golden Maknae he does not show fear well...that failed today

"What's wrong Kook? Afraid of a feather?" You smirked at him. It didn't start but I know this will be so much fun

"What? No! It's just a feather what's there to be afraid of?" The maknae said with confidence laced in his voice but oh how nervous he felt inside. I am so gonna regret this later on

You raised your eyebrows at him expecting that kind of attitude "Ok, then you won't mind me doing this then" You then slowly dragged the feather around his toned stomach drawing random patterns

Jungkook started biting his lip trying to hide his laughter. But it was so damn hard, it felt too ticklish.

"What's with the face Jungkook? You seem rather ticklish" You smirked

"I am not ticklish!" He yelled

"Oh I see" You then stood up

Jungkook thought it was over but boy was he wrong. He suddenly felt you rubbing oil over his foot. "I wonder what will happen if I do this?" You said wiggling your fingers on his bare sole.

"S-stop that!" Jungkook said a small giggle escaping his mouth. His eyes widened after realising it

"What's that? Is that a giggle I heard?"

"Nope, you heard nothing! You're just crazy!" He spat out making you gasp

"Well that wasn't nice, we can't let that slip now can we" You started using your nails scratching his bare two feet fastly.

Jungkook balled up his hands into fist, eyes tightly shut trying his best to bare it "C'mon Kook laugh for me" You teased

And just like that he realized he couldn't take it any longer so he decided to let it out "Oohohohohokaaayyy I'm tihihihihihicckliiisshhh nohohohoww pleheheheheaaseee stopppp!" He laughed loudly wiggling around the bed like a mad man. He tried tugging on his ankles to escape your wiggling fingers but sadly it stayed in place

"I know you are sweetie, look at how well you are reacting. But this is just the beginning" You finally stopped tickling his feet as you then went to get the electric toothbrush, two electric toothbrushes

"Now Y/N let's not have any of that please! I'm sorry! I won't mess with you again" Jungkook pleaded

"Hm let me think for a second" You said looking up, tapping your chin as if your thinking "Nahhh I'm having so much fun I don't think I wanna stop" You then turned on the two electric toothbrush with an evil smile as you went to his feet again using the electric toothbrush on them.

"NOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO" He let out a cackly laugh as he began wiggling once again wanting to escape.

Already having enough with his feet you then positioned yourself back to sitting on his stomach and roaming the electric brushes around his upper body, from his sides to his tummy then to his ribs. At this point Jungkook's face was red as a tomato and warm tears were streaming down his cheeks.

Because you are so kind you turned the two electric toothbrushes off and set them at the side. Allowing Jungkook to have a quick break.

You watch Jungkook catch his breath heavily panting "My my Jungkook you are the most ticklish person I have ever met, Even Jimin can't beat your level of ticklishness (it's not a real word but eh😂)"

"I've never been tickled this much before" He said

"Yeah? I bet you enjoyed it"

"Did not!" Jungkook lied. He unexpectedly enjoyed it. He didn't know why but he just did. Of course there is no way his gonna admit that.

"You know there's this one spot I haven't tried yet" You smirked, you decided to use your fingers this time. To tease him you started wiggling your fingers  above his face then slowly you bring it down to a specific area

Jungkook realised where your fingers were going. He looked at you in horror "No Y/N! Don't you dare!"

"Oh I do"

"Y/N no no no no no n-AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH" You were now tickling Jungkook's armpits. And so far you received the best reaction out of the other areas you tickled

Jungkook was harshly tugging on the straps and head shaking side to side "IT TIHIHIHIHICKLES SOHOHOHOHO MUHUHUHUHUCCHHH" Jungkook screamed through laughter

You giggled "I can see that"

It's been 20 since you were torturing his armpits, poking them, scratching them, using the tickle tools on them."I cahahahahan't tahahahake it aanymohohohore"

"Almost done!" You blew raspberry on his left armpit

"Stohohohohop" Then u blew again on his right armpit "Pleheheheheaaseee"

"Last but not least" You said then did a final blow to his tummy. Jungkook's laughed has now turned silent.

After that was over you then untied hus wrists and ankles.

Jungkook was extremely exhausted. His hair was messy, he was sweating, his tummy was hurting from laughing, his cheeks were hurting from smiling a lot. but nonetheless he still he enjoyed.

"Hey Look Listen..." He looked at you scratching his nape "I'm sorry for scaring you the past few days, I have totally learned my lesson and I wont do it again"

"Don't worry I already forgive you" You smiled at him

"I-I don't like like admitting this but you're right...I did enjoyed it" You looked at him surprised.

"Really now?" You grinned at him with your eyebrows raised "Guess I have to do it more often then"

Maybe you should

[vantaert]

Crystal snow

The universe has never been fair enough . if it is the beautiful moon wouldn't shine in the darkness . Thus I wouldn't be surprised if it plays his dirty tricks on me like a magician hides well his secrets to keep playing with people's minds in the palm of his hand .

Sometimes I feel as I'm dying deep inside . As I'm alive but I'm a dead body inside . A feeling I can't ever reach to decipher ,keeps possessing me as I'm someone's else daydream yet I'm his biggest nightmare . It's crazy how the time flies in the blink of eye . But the memorial box in the back of my head still locked as it's been spelled by the black magic . Therefore a faint voice is trying his best to ring a bell. That this box is full of golden priceless memories should never be forgotten . But rather should be buried with me when the ground hugs my lifeless body .

It's insane but why I feel I'm already lifeless ! . Hand over my heart praying desperately that my heart doesn't miss any pieces like a forgotten puzzle couldn't be collected because the most important piece is missing . GOD only knows where it could be .

Unfortunately my insects tell another theory . They sing a lyrics how my puzzle won't match because I gave up on the liveliness piece to complete another puzzle. Surprisingly my heartbeats dance willingly along the rhythm as they're familiar with the lyrics while my brain finds them strange .

I wince a bit once ,twice ,when my heart skips a beat . Its clear as sea a memory hugged it or else I wouldn't feel the sudden warmth engulfing me head to toe .

It is merely impossible for me to pull the sides of my lonely lips into a smile . How can I while I'm deserted from memories as I'm spring without blossoms, winter without rain and heaven without Angeles .

I stop staring fondly at the pouring rain outside . How incredibly the pitter patter reminds me of tears . Both of them are ways to tear apart the untold pain . That chest is no longer able to hold . Since it's already started working on breaking my bones . Trust me I can hear the damage like an earthquake is happening against my ribcage. All I can do is letting out a big heavy sigh ignoring how close I'm to lose my mind the same way I lost my memories.

I open the door and the Cold breeze slapping my pale face alongside the rain sound embracing the soul that I pity the most . Should I walk slowly under the lazy rain like a bride struggling with her high heels kicking away wedding jitters . Or should I run as I'm in marathon against the unfairness that the universe is spitting on me as I'm kinda of angel his wings has been ripped . First option works better for a person like me who craves  drama .

I'm surrounded by strangers . Their grips holding tightly the umbrellas fearing the harmless rain . Suddenly It's snowing. The snowflakes is wandering everywhere like butterflies . I heard first snow sprinkles a wish . I'm not supposed to believe in fairy tales but who can deny the fact that these fairy tales are the doors into fantasies . I don't have to say my wish out loud because all of my insides scream it .

Miraculously among the strangers a figure is painfully familiar. I'm meeting those mischievous hazel eyes for the first time yet instantly I'm drawn into the gleam is sparking beneath his beautiful long eyelashes . What's wrong with my heart ! why is hammering wildly inside my chest as it's admiring his first love ! The way he's looking at me as I'm the center of his universe has triggered a memory.

And I can feel the pain throbs and pulses in my skull . I fear what's coming next but I bet it's the last episode of the drama "chasing lost memories" .

The spell is broken and memories are hitting me like thunder. I feel as I'm thrown in the deep ocean. My body is too vulnerable to fight the strong waves of emotions are scolding me . The box cracked open playing scenarios I spent dead nights to remember. How dare the universe snatch away my euphoria !

Tears are falling dramatically on my iced cheeks like waterfalls. My soul is being dressed by sentiments like the skyline wearing a rainbow after a rainy day .

It's him . He's the last piece of the puzzle . My heartbeats is drumming in my ears a proof that I guessed right .

He's getting closer and I swear he's like a crystalsnow walking under the snowfall on the song of my heartbeats. It's hard to notice tears since are being mixed with the raindrops . But he reads me like an open book though my pages were quite blank but not anymore. The spirit of LOVE filled the void without missing a gap .

His long fingers are brushing my cheeks softly as I'm kinda of a treasured piece is afraid of breaking. I close my eyes leaning in his familiar addictive touch like a drug flies into my veins. We don't have to say too much or not at all since our eyes are busy falling into deep conversation ends up recalling the lost feelings were flowing through the galaxies back to moon looking for home .

I still captivated how ethereal his priceless features are like every little small detail has been perfectly sculpted. The man appeal screams majesty. 

I'm about to engrave the last detail of his majestic features somewhere deep inside my heart that is churning every atom dancing in excitement urging to move . I feel his delicate heart shaped lips embracing mine. A new birth of me . I can feel my wings spreading wildly ready to fly sky high . Adrenaline is flushing through my body as he kisses me passionately, like he's thirsty and I'm the last droplet of water on the earth . Every inch of all of me is busy admiring all of him . Im melting under his kisses like jellies. Call me crazy but i swear to God who gifted me this pearl that I can decipher a smile glints his hungry lips . And suddenly my heart turns into a garden of roses and the petals course throughout my druggie veins .

After what seemed to be called a bless from heaven my lips tingles a little bit ,the sensation of his holly lips pressed against mine stay for few minutes. But no doubt I feel immortal when he kisses me . Even the stars won't beat how does it feel to be kissed by Kim Taehyung . Yes he's the guy that was hidden beneath the untold memories. Desperately looking for a miracle to get my memory back .

At 4 o'clock my tear came under the snowfall wearing a fascinating gorgeous smile couldn't be compared how Venus shines nor how the moon lights up the infinitely sky .

I intertwine our fingers together. The sight of how our hands fit together is enough to make me turn into a delectable shade of pink and I feel my heart leaps inside my spring chest .

We're going home . Kim Taehyung was the missing piece I was looking for and I found him .

I'm calling the universe °•°watch me love him cherish him every single day with every single breathe I take°•° .

[killerqueenjoy]

99 Question Tag

okay okay I know i got tagged to do this like a month ago on my main blog by @santonicababy iM SORRY LIN ILY BUT THIS WAS SO DAMN LONG

1) DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED

I sleep in the room where everybodies closets are and they all gotta be closed goddamn do you know how spooky it is to even have one open during the night

2) DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTELS

my parents do, but alas I don't use them in case they have silicones or sulphates in them because I got a whole lotta curls to protect

3)DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR SHEETS TUCKED IN OR OUT?

if this refers to the sheet protecting the mattress, then my answer is in because how the fuck would you be able to sleep with that moving around???

4) HAVE YOU STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE

NO SORRY IM BORING

5)DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST IT NOTES

heck yeah, but for random shit

6) DO YOU EVER CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM

nee my parents are fancy fuckers who use the coupons on their phone (our local supermarket has a damn app skskksksk)

7) WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES

a bear because its one giant son of a bitch and not millions of tiny motherfuckers and also I've never been stung by a bee and intend to keep it that way because majority of my family seem to be allergic

8) DO YOU HAVE FRECKLES

nope! I have a couple beauty spots on my hands and face but thats kinda it

9) DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES

not really but if I've been told to smile then its 200% dead inside

10) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE

i find many things annoying

11)DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK

only when i go up and down stairs, but i also try to make sure i step with each foot equally (if that makes sense) and i step on only certain colour tiles when im bored

12) HAVE YOU EVER PEED IN THE WOODS

the real question is have i ever been in the woods? both answers are no

13) HAVE YOU EVER POOPED IN THE WOODS

refer to question 12

14)ummmm idk what this question is meant to be curse you Lin

15)DO YOU CHEW YOUR PENS AND PENCILS

nope, the idea weirds me out

16) HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK

none, this week and in general

17) WHAT SIZE IS YOUR BED

one person and a long yet smol doggo size

18) WHAT IS YOUR SONG OF THE WEEK

Eddie from the Rocky Horror Picture Show has been stuck in my head for the whole week so yeah i guess that

19)IS IT OKAY FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK

HeLL YEAH DUDE HAVE YOU SEEN RAMI MALEK IN PINK

SKSKSKSKS END MY LIFE

but yeah, anyone can wear anything they want to wear (although a suit made out of meat might not be wise)

20) DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS

dudeeeee scooby doo and tom and jerry are my jam I watch them on the regular (among other things)

21)WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVOURITE MOVIE

uhhm idkkkkk I tend to repress bad movies sksksk

22)WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME

idk shove it in the closet ig at least it will be hidden behind my sexuality

23)WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER

I usually only drink before or after but ig water??? cooldrink if I'm in a restaurant

24)WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN

depends on the nug

25)WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD

How dare you assume i only have one favourite

tbh it depends cos i love pizza and pasta and stuff but then i cannot live with my granny's curries ksksmks

26) WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND STILL LOVE

borhap, sing street, rhps, the natm movies, the harry potter movies, any mcu movies

27)LAST PERSON YOU KISSED/KISSED YOU

ahhahahahahahha bold of you to assume anyone wants to do that

28) WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT

nope but I was a catrobat which is basically my preschools acrobatics team that was actually really terrible

29)WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE

nahh m8

30) WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE ON PAPER

this week for a transactional task at school (It was in Afrikaans and I got a C skskskks)

31)CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL IN A CAR

omg no

32)EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET

not old enough to drive!

33)EVER RAN OUT OF GAS

my parents never have for as long as i can remember

34)WHATS YOUR FAVOURITE KINDA SANDWHICH

cheese because I am actually John Deacon

35)BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST

MUFFINS!!!!

36)WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME

school nights its 11pm otherwise i dont have one lol

37)ARE YOU LAZY

YES BUT MY LAZINESS MAKES ME ANXIOUS OOF

38)WHEN YOU WERE A KID WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN

we dont celebrate that here but i rly want to it seems fun!

39)WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ASTROLOGICAL SIGN

Ram, which is really cool because im an Aries, so I'm sheep squared

40)HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK

English, Afrikaans (at a basic highschool level), I could speak very vERY basic isiZulu when I was younger but I'm not sure about now, I know a bit of French and Telugu, and I'm gonna start learning Hindi soon!!

41) DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS

nee

42) WHICH ARE BETTER, LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS

i didn't play much with legos and i have no idea what the second one is rip

43)ARE YOU STUBBORN

to an extent

44)WHO IS BETTER, LENO OR LETTERMAN

I kept reading Leno as Lenin ffs

45)EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS

I watch them occasionally with my granny, but I don't keep up with them very well (Kasamh Se is my shit tho)

46)ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS

no, im afraid of falling in general tho

47) DO YOU SING IN THE CAR

My dad and I bop frequently to Never Gonna Give You Up in the car, and also classic bollywood songs (we have even learnt the choreography for some)

48)DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER

i perform

49) DO YOU DANCE IN THE CAR

well theres not exactly much space

50)EVER USED A GUN

nope

51)LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER

not sure

52)DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY

most are but thats why i like them

53) IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL

we don't celebrate because we're not Christian (we still eat a lot and exchange presents tho), but it can get stressful if we have to visit extended family, mostly because my extended family loves to insult everything about me so thats great!

54)EVER EAT A PIEROGI

not i good sir

55) FAVOURITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE

never had one, it doesnt appeal to me

56) OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID

a vet

57)DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS

i am a ghost

58)EVER HAD A DEJA-VU FEELING

not that i remember

59)DO YOU TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY

yes, I take a multi vitamin, a vitamin D pill because I'm vitamin D deficient, and im not sure if this is a vitamin or not but i take evening primrose oil so that im not outwardly a bitch due to pms

60)DO YOU WEAR SLIPPERS

i wear slipper socks, because my doggo got jealous of my doggie slippers and murdered them in cold blood

61)DO YOU WEAR A BATH ROBE

i have one and rarely use it because i forget it exists

62)WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED

a random shirt and pants, though ive been known to kick pants off (ive been doing that since birth), occasionally i manage to get the matching pj set

63)WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CONCERT

ive unfortunately never been to a concert before

64)WALMART TARGET OR KMART

ive never seen any of these stores in my country

65)NIKE OR ADIDAS

i own neither

66) CHEETOS OR FRITOS

neither

67)PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS

Peanuts because thats my doggos name!

68) EVER HEARD OF THE GROUP TRES BIEN

no sorry

69)EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS

i went to a bhangra class for about a year, and we performed for our parents at the end of that year (i was in one of the few groups that didnt have to dance in lehengas thank goodness)

70)IS THERE A PROFESSION YOU PICTURE

YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE DOING

probably something creative, but I don't mind as long as they're happy with what they're doing and its not harming others!

71)CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE

yep

72)EVER WON A SPELLING BEE

never entered one, having to spell out loud makes me anxious

73)HAVE YOU EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY

i think so

74)OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS

nope

75)OWN A RECORD PLAYER

i wish

76)DO YOU REGULARLY BURN INCENSE

my granny burns incense while I'm at school because my mom and i both get really sick when its just been lit and the smell is strong. Going to the temple is a damn nightmare because of it

77)EVER BEEN IN LOVE

no, too busy fangirling

78)WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT

oof a long list

Queen, Twenty One Pilots, Waterparks, Frank Iero and the Future Violents (ffs fronk stop changin the name), Panic! at the Disco...to name a few

79)WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU SAW

refer to question 63

80)HOT TEA OR COLD TEA

both

81)TEA OR COFFEE

coffee

82)SUGAR COOKIES OR SNICKERDOODLES

sugar cookies

83)CAN YOU SWIM WELL

i wouldn't drown, but im no professional either

84)CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH WITHOUT HOLDING YOUR NOSE

im doing it right now

85)ARE YOU PATIENT

eh

86)DJ OR BAND AT A WEDDING

I've only ever been to Hindi,Tamil and Telugu weddings and lemme tell you 90% of the time bands flop at those weddings because they can't sing the classics without failing miserably, so DJs are generally better. However, in that case, if a band can perform those songs, then I'd prefer a band ig

87)EVER WON A CONTEST

yep, a couple of reading contests

88)HAVE YOU EVER HAD PLASTIC SURGERY

nope, not planning on it

89)WHICH ARE BETTER, BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES

dont like olives rip

90)CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET

i can knit!

in fact, my friends and i are so cool that we're in our schools knitting club (which besides myself, @grandfunnyemopainter and @imjustabruh , only has 2 other members)

91)BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE

lounge or study/library

92)DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED

i guess, its not on my goal list tho

93)IF MARRIED, HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MARRIED

no

94)WHO WAS YOUR HIGHSCHOOL CRUSH

currently in highschool, and in love with the borhap cast, sebastian stan, stephanie beatriz and band members (theres more but yeah)

95)DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY

nope, i have only two ways to deal, be a total pushover or a total bitch

96)DO YOU HAVE KIDS

nope

97)DO YOU WANT KIDS

kind of undecided, but i do want more pets

98)WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOUR

Dark Blue

99)DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW

my dog, shes been ignoring me for about four hours now because I stayed at school for an extra hour (for knitting club!)

@softspaceboibrian @roger-taylor-owns-my-wigg @im-inlovewithmycar do it cowards