#depressed poem

[cringeylovepoems]

SEPT 24, 2023

“Things will get better.”

I hate that phrase. I hate it. I despise it. If I’m in a bad mood and someone says, “don’t worry, things will get better”

You can bet you’ve made my day worse.

“But, things will get better.”

…. Okay but what does that really mean? Your current situation will get better, or the whole grand scheme of life?

They should add some more words to that statement. Oversimplification is ignorant.

“But, things will get better.”

When? That’s what they told me 9 years ago after I failed to end my life.

If things are supposed to get better, how come they haven’t? Why do I continuously self-loathe and look forward to the day I take my last breath?

Maybe it’s a ‘me’ problem. That’s usually what they say it is. But I see it more as a “them” problem.

Because we fixate on this saying: “Things will get better”

but no one prepares you for what happens when things get worse.

- // conversation with myself //

[hopeswid0w]

what could i say?

"sorry, i just don't feel good

again— i tried to keep these feelings away

but they snuck their way back in

i'm struck with dim dumb malcontent

when i look in the mirror

i cant help but to ask myself,

'what am i doing here?'

my quest for self-expression

is stifled by my pain. i cannot let you

in my home, until this demon's slain

i really hate to bother. i hate

i have to cry. i hate that i can't give myself

a single reason why

why do i feel lonely?

why can i not speak?

why, on me, did heaven choose

this havoc which to wreak?"

these questions breed no answer

while my lips remain sewn shut

i'll flip the lights and lay in bed

and

wait

until

dawn.

[thatgrrlpoet]

Before I Drown

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TW: Mentions of death, and suggested suicide

I am not romanticizing anything! This poem is based off a phrase prompt I saw earlier today. The prompt was 'Before I drown.' If you relate to this poem in anyway, shape, or form please tell someone and know that you are not alone. You can also make anonymous calls to 988, the national suicide prevention line.

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Before I drown

Tell my mom I love her

That she deserved better

She was my tether

Helped me hold onto my little life I had

Before I pass

Tell my dad I love him

That he need more than me

He first brought me to the sea

Helped to swim through the chaos

Before I die

Tell my brother I love him

That I'm sorry I lied

My hands were tied

You helped me as I cried

But the world is wide

And you'll move on

Before I go in a fiery blaze

Tell my sister I love her

That I'm sorry I cried

I promised, I know

But you'll grow

And I'll see you down below

Before anything happens

Tell them they needed more

And I couldn't provide

I really did try

Though I was cast aside

Before I drown

Tell my mother I love her

That she deserved better

She was my tether

Helped me hold onto my little life

[florifer]

will i always be this angry?

[that-one-gay-idiot1227]

My poems aren't very long

Neither is my life

I don't know how long i have

I promised

I promised

I promised

I said i'd be okay 

But what if that was a lie 

What if it only gets worse

As time passes by 

I cry at night

At school 

In the car

There's no where my tears haven't brushed

The snot becomes a mess

A mess i can't clean up 

I want to die

Please just let me go 

Please its too much 

I know you don't really care 

But please just this once 

Pretend

So i can stay 

You don't want to be the one responsible for my loss

Everyone is gone

What's the point 

Far far away 

She looks down upon me and watches

She sighs 

Cheers

Crys

Pleads

All i do is disappoint

What will i do 

When its been years

When still no one cares

When i have more scars than smooth skin

The pills look so good

No one would notice if i took some 

Two 

Five 

Seven 

Ten 

Who cares?

Not you

Not me

Not her. 

Who would notice my empty seat

Who would notice the empty thread

Who would feel a sense of dread?

[missinyouiskillingme]

[hamoodmood]

In another universe I was happy

[fleetingtyme]

Trapped in this world and time

I am here, you are here, they are here, but are WE here

Trapped in a hive mind

I am breathing, I am alive, I am a human

Trapped and muzzled

I am begging, I am hiding, I am screaming

Trapped and suffocating

I am slowly dying inside

Trapped

I am

I am trapped...

[myfakeplasticlove13]

I don’t know man :/ i think I’m just tired of being me

[fickes]

on working even when it's not working

[dearinnerthoughts]

[goddteeth]

i will never leave this house

[psychobulimic]

I was a fucking idiot to think things would get better!!!

[ijustwannafeelokay]

I don’t know but it feels like I’m not made for this life I don’t know

[saduboiss]

I’m okay.

it’s getting bad again

[lakrimasx]

I’m convinced I have a level of patience never seen before because how in the fuck am I still holding my shit together