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I think movie buff Duke Thomas should force Jason to watch the LOTR movies and literature nerd Jason Todd should force Duke to read the books.
They should make a movie night out of it and then a weekly book club that's really just Jason periodically hacking comms during Duke's patrol so he can yell at him to finish each chapter like a deranged English teacher that follows you around at work. And then they should get into heated arguments about Tom Bombadil; and Duke should get really invested in overanalyzing all the poetry in the book trilogy; and Jason should rewatch all three movies like seven times at least so he can scribble thoughts into the margins of his paperback copies, write dissertations in his head about the effectiveness of different story changes, and cry at Sam's "But I can carry you!" without having to stop reading.
And then they should repeat all of this with The Hobbit. They're both a little psychotic about it and the rest of the family is tired.
#added the tags and more stuff to a reblog!#genuinely I think tom bombadil would frustrate the fuck out of duke#that boy loves the thrill of discovery and putting all the puzzle pieces together and tom bombadil is unsolvable#and I think jason would resonate a lot more with the movie ending than with the book ending#coming home from a life-changing journey to find that everything has stayed the same#like that would hit different for him than the scouring of the shire#duke thomas#jason todd#signal dc#signal#red hood#batfam#batfamily#jason also tries to get duke to read the silmarillion AND beren and luthien#âbut you said beren and whatever is already in the other one!â#âthat's just one version you need to read all of them for the full experience!â#âNOâ#âYESâ#EDIT: I've decided that duke and jason have a tom bombadil murder board#it's got cutouts of book lines and Tolkien quotes and artwork and written snapshots of Tolkien's history#all connected with color-coded string and littered with sticky notes and scattered scribbles#some parts are highlighted#it takes up two sides of a whiteboard in the batcave and a whole wall in one of jason's safehouses#one of the other batfamily members sees the safehouse version once and wisely does not comment#duke and jason can go on about this shit for hours and as soon as you get one going the other will materialize and cause problems#but anyway#duke and jason the brothers ever
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FINALLY DONE WITH THE ISAT OC! SOLEIL!!!
The creature... So first things first is some info about them pre- disappearance of The Country. They're a loyal follower and avid worshipper of The Country. They love the Universe sooo much that they made a wish to be able to read the stars, and the Universe answered. I like to think that the stars are talkative, some can predict what will happen in the near future, some are just "chatting" to each other about the stuff happening in the world they overlook. It's a somewhat useful ability that Soleil used to use to be able to either predict someone's future (rarely though, the stars hold many different futures and it's hard to figure out which is whose) or use it during funeral rites to have a more reassuring experience to the ones mourning that their loved one arrived safely among the stars.
And then they found out about The Cursing of Chateau Castle-- they kiiiinda got Really obsessed with the book series that they wanted to know more about it but there wasn't any more copies of it in the Country's language so what better way to deal with that but teaching itself how to understand the Vaugardian language, and by doing that they got to learn more about the Vaugardian culture and was really amazed by it (considering that they spent most of their life with the Country's culture instead, learning about a different culture is a great feeling). One thing led to the other and it also led Soleil to travelling to Vaugarde (something that their family wasn't all that happy with but they stay silly).
And so we're back at the present time! Now to talk about some details on its appearance.
Its Craft type is Scissors! The eye on the center of its chest and the eye by its nape are in fact EYES and not just accessories (although they did try to make the eye on its chest appear to be like a mix between a star shape and the Change Symbol).
After spending some time in Vaugarde, they learned about Body Craft in which case they decided to experiment with it in regards to its eyes.
Since being in Vaugarde, there wasn't much use to its star sight and there also isn't a way to "turn it off." So instead, they decided to separate its Normal sight from the Star sight by adding another pair of eyes on its body.
The eyes on its face are blind. They can't see through it anymore but they Can still see the stars (they can't read it anymore however cuz of the Country's disappearance).
If they focus on the stars using those eyes, they'd get a REALLY bad headache and a star sign appears on its eyes. Nothing to be afraid of probably, its head just Really hurts.
The glass covering the eye on its nape is a one way mirror. You won't be able to see the eye but the eye can still see you.
With its vision split, it actually took them awhile to get used to that. It takes a lot of concentration and focus to see both from behind and from the front. When Soleil gets tired from doing that, they either close the eye on its nape (if the place is safe enough) or unfocus it enough to the point that most of its vision becomes blurry with only being able to see blobs of shapes and shadows which helps them be alert enough in case something comes running at them from behind.
All the round objects you see on its body are Bombs. They found out about Bomb Craft in Jouvente and was so fascinated by it that their inventor brain (inventing, crafting, and repairing stuff is a special interest of theirs). They now like making bombs and inventing new ones (only they have the recipe of those).
The bombs they invented only detonates via a Craft spell, it's basically as safe as an ordinary ball to handle unless detonated. Also the scissors at the top of their head has a cover on its tip. It's Very Sharp. They mainly use that (either the tip or the scissor blades itself) to cut the bombs dangling on its body.
Despite the multitude of bombs they carry, they aren't actually much of a fighter (they just like bombs). Most of its Craft spells are basic/beginner level. The one and only Powerful Craft spell they have is a shield/defense spell that they practiced several times. It's capable of negating all damage for 2 turns with a 5 turn cooldown, they wanted to master that spell to make it so that bombs won't hurt them no matter the close proximity.
Its hand signs are "broken." They used to mimic the hand signs that the Universe (I'm mainly referring to my design of the Universe) makes. But after forgetting about everything in regards to it, they can't remember what hand signs they used to make but the familiar feeling was still there.
A huge fan of The Cursing of Chateau Castle, to the point of practically making it part of its identity now that a HUGE chunk of its memory is missing. Its outfit is a modified version of what they think Lady Irene-Janine-Karine wears.
Its personality is a mixture of Lord Josephandre, Pierre-Jacques-Erneste, and Lady Irene-Janine-Karine (aka the Chateau Trio!!! Love those three...).
Its name, "Soleil" is just something they found in a book and decided to use for itself. They don't remember its name anymore.
#ariart#ariaoc#isat oc#isat spoilers#theres some danger in the fact that sol took pierres personality too considering that pierre betrayed the party that one time--#honestly if i think about sol harder i begin to realize that theres A LOT of things wrong about them mentally#what forgetting a country with a belief system you were incredibly loyal to does to someone i think.#also making it so that sol was the npc that translated that one issue of the cursing of chateau castle from vaugardian#into the language of the Country. if you were to enter its home. youll be greeted by a LOT of bookcases and shelves and books#and therell be at least 4 of those dedicated to the cursing of chateau castle. original version and the ones they translated#there will ofc be sections where its about the Country tho. actually i think if siffrin visited its home he'll be able to know more#about the Country. if he became close friends enough to be able to enter the rooms with the books of it. sol couldnt read them#anymore but feels as though those books were important so they moved it elsewhere for safekeeping. making sure to maintain it too#also yea you can now see exactly how im pushing the isat worldbuilding to its limits via body craft#i like to think that if in case body craft operates in a similar manner to alchemy in that by Changing something theres an equal#exchange to be given. if its Changing your appearance to a new one then the equal value to be exchanged is the Old appearance#but if for example theres a missing body part. youd have to find Something else of equal value to replace it then#and by going off of that same principle. if a body part has two functions (like with sol's eyes having a special sight to it)#then by Changing its appearance. the equal value follows the same principle of the: exchange Old for New#except that in sol's case. with the addition of a body part that has two functions. technically speaking they can Separate the#two functions while still following the usual method. it's just that now theres another set of eyes on its body. still a New appearance tho
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the rabbiâs cat (2002)
#the rabbiâs cat#i love this novel đ„Č iâve been looking for a library system that had it since ~2018. my uni library system has the rabbiâs cat 1 And 2#but not the third one from what i found⊠i shall double check regardless#i also saw shubeik lubeik on display?! i have the arabic version of the first part of the series at home#so i was thinking id just continue reading it in english instead since that one on display has all three#Anyway besides the rambling. the rabbiâs cat is so cutie and it was fun to find out that joann sfar and marjane satrapi seem#to be friends by looking at her review on the back of the book
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Btw Inkling is a fantastic word. It sounds fun and it's meaning and use is solid.
I have too many words I'm found of, in English and Italian to have a genuine ranking. But if I did, this would probably be in the top 100.
Ink-one of my favorite sound combos. (And mediums to work in although the medium shares zero etmology with this work. Their only relation being sound and spelling) and the sound Cling. I know it's uncommon to have favorite phonemes/syllable combos, but this one combo is just so fun on the tongue. It brings me joy. Inkling.
#I am OP#Lingusitics#American English#Favorite Words#Inkling#word nerd#Thank you Middle English#Webster Dictionary is my favorite dictionary#Oxford is okay but is great at linking the influence of other languages to common idioms etc#It is unfortunately not the dictionary of my people's language so it's spellings and definitions do not match the use of my people#(But it is nice to reference when I think I notice speakers of U.K. English slipping in Americanisms and want to check if my guess#is correct.) So I do reference both quite often.#Also the Merrian-Webster dictionary App has been steller always. A version of it has been on every phone I've had since I had one that#could download apps. If you're learning English or a word nerd into English highly recommend#They're one of the first who added recordings of either robots or people saying the words.#(Online on English as a Language reference sites on the web.)#I might end up buying another dictionary... the question is should I shoot for Older or Newer than what I have?)#[The newest one I have is 2011-ish. Oldest is 1978-ish.] I might just go the nearest source of Used Books and let the shelves decide#I really miss the awesome used book store nesr my former workplace#They would bug you once to see if you needed help to find the section you'd like to browse then leave you for potentially hours#And always at the counter ready for you to make a purchase (after they put down their book they were reading of course.)#Literally the second best thing to a library. And honestly because they didn't cull the books as often. Slightly more fun to browse.#I should check if they survived covid but switched up locations.#(I moved away from them 12 years ago and since moving back to my hometown I haven't been and honestly given their landlord and construction#projects over the years there isn't a chance in hell if I visit where they used to be they're still there.)#I remember having a large variety of dictionaries in their language section. It'd also be cool to see if they happen to have complete set#of Encyclopedias. Definitely have been in my long term forever home posession plans since learning of them#and with how difficult it is to find properly sourced information on the Web (again now worse than the web of the 1990s before most knew of#search engines. Way more utility then the joy of just consuming them.)#Also Visual Encyclopedias are the bomb and were one of the best consistent jobs of technical-ish illustrators for a time.)
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Guess what came in the mail today? đ
#I couldnât find an english version of the manga so I got the japanese version#Iâm gonna love translating this đ#also I realized there are thirteen books⊠sort of reminds me of the idiot who got me into this series to begin with đ€#but yeah. Iâm very VERY happy đ#my babies are home đ„č#akazukin chacha#mint mumbles
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the world when you're with me

synopsis: you seek out sylus for comfort after realizing you were wrong about him.
tags: comfort, fluff, implied avoidant!reader learns to trust sylus, implied avoidant!reader clings to sylus, sylus takes care of reader from afar, sylus has mephisto and the twins follow reader but wbk pairing: sylus x reader, reader is mostly mc word count: 802
a/n: is this the peak of literature? no. did i need to write it after the day i had? yes. did i need to post it today? no, because iâm trying to stagger my posts more, but here we are. anyway 4k caleb pwp coming tomorrowÂ

For the first few weeks after youâd infiltrated the N109 Zone, youâd avoided Sylus Qin like the plague.Â
After being scared out of your wits by the first version of him you'd metâthe cold, unavailable criminal mastermind whoâd forced you to shoot him within 5 minutes of knowing one otherâyou were unashamedly wary of working with him again.Â
But Sylusâs intel was unrivaled. More and more often, you found yourself visiting the N109 Zone to meet with him, eventually not even bothering to book a place to stay. There was always a guest room at the Onychinus base prepped for your arrival.
As you spent more time with Sylus, heâd noticeably changed his approach to interacting with you. Rather than forcing you to resonate with him, heâd explained to you how his Evol worked, letting you aim his hands at some training dummies to test it out yourself. Instead of unceremoniously shutting you out when he was tired, heâd drag his robe-and-slippers-clad self to sit beside you on the sofa, answering your cautious questions by practically giving away all his secrets.Â
His shift in attitude hadn't stopped there. Sylus had clearly been using that endearingly incorrigible crow to keep tabs on you, but for the strangest reasons.Â
Whenever you had a bad day at work, some building-wide maintenance emergency would magically appear, forcing your team to cease operations for the rest of the day. Heâd text you a couple hours after your early dismissal, saying he was in the city and inviting you on an evening joyride to clear your head. Â
The day after youâd lugged a case of water up the stairs to your apartment, having to pause a couple times to catch your breath, you came home to see your fridge mysteriously stocked with groceries. The only traces left behind were the masked twin figures you spotted scurrying away from your window.Â
When a new phone showed up at your doorstep one dayâyou never even told him youâd shattered your screen, you thoughtâyouâd decided that Sylus wasnât as bad as youâd once assumed. Not anywhere near as bad, in fact. He was thoughtful, generous, and helped you without taking credit or forcing you to ask for it. Youâd never had that before.
Which is why, somehow, you find yourself standing in the doorway of his armory, studying him silently as he polishes an antique-looking gun.
When he notices you, Sylus looks up, raising a delicately arched eyebrow. âSomething wrong, kitten?â he drawls, subtly checking your body for injuries.Â
Mind numb from your absolutely dreadful day, you stay silent while Sylus looks at you expectantly, his hands forgetting their earlier task.Â
But for the next minute, you remain hovering in the doorway. You expect him to get annoyedâyou almost want him to, so you have an excuse to go back to relying only on yourselfâbut all you see on Sylusâs face is patience.
When you start shuffling toward him, that patience mixes with a glimmer of anticipation that he visibly tries to suppress. You need him to be calm right nowâan anchor, he thinks. If he loses his composure, if he startles you with his excitement at your approach, you might bolt at any moment.Â
Sometime during his inner struggle, you reach him. Meekly, you stand before his chair, briefly opening your mouth before closing it.Â
âWhat is it, sweetie?â he asks softly. âTell me, and we can figure it out together. Iâll personally track down whoever seems to have stolen your words from you.â
At his offer, you break, collapsing into his lap. His large, warm hands immediately encircle your waist, and you bury your face into his neck, inhaling his leather and spice cologne.Â
âAw,â he coos in his baritone voice, rocking you slowly in his embrace. When he lifts your head an inch, you resist, letting out a soft whine. Gently, he guides your head back to his chest, his quickening heartbeat thumping in your ears and grounding you in the the moment.Â
After several moments of silence, your deep, shuddering breaths the only interruptions, Sylus murmurs into your ear. âWhen I noticed you never ask for help, I was worried the world may not be treating as well as it should. You must be very tired, hmm?â he asks, rubbing his chin against your hair.Â
Tightening your arms around him, you sit there for a while, his steady breaths seeming to mend a decades-long rift in your heart.
The next time Sylus tries to lift your head, you let him. He pulls your face from his neck so he can look into your eyes, hoping his gaze conveys his sincerity, before pressing a tender kiss to your forehead.Â
âYou donât need the world when youâre with me,â he promises. âIâll treat you better than it ever could.â
#iris writes#love and deepspace#love and deepspace x reader#sylus x reader#love and deepspace sylus#lads#lads x reader#love and deepspace comfort#love and deepspace fluff#lnds#sylus qin#lads fluff#lads comfort#lads sylus#lnds sylus
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đđđđđ đđđđđ | Jackson!Joel x reader

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summary | Joel's got a superpower. Alternatively, Joel swears he can smell when you're ovulating.
author's note | @gracieheartspedro said something about joel being able to smell when you're ovulating as a joke but i am a very serious person. so serious....i swear lmao
content warning | 18+ MDNI, BREEDING KINK!!!, joel can definitely smell it on you, talks of pregnancy/future together, established relationship, established free-use, possessive!joel, he's creepin' into peepaw status (he's 58 but no defined age for reader so let your imagination run wild), mentions of joel possibly being sterile, unprotected piv, creampies for obvious reasons
word count â 2.5k
Joel could smell it on you.
At least, he liked to make you think he could.
He can, though. He swears.
Heâs tapping his bare foot against the hardwood floor as he rocked gently in his recliner, glasses perched on his nose as he flipped through the Space for Dummies book Ellie had gifted him for his birthday a few months ago.
It was dark aside from the table lamp beside him, the glowing, soft orange hue wrapped around him, illuminating the side of his face as he angled the book to catch the light, unaware of your presence until your fingers were plucking the book out of his hand.
Joel offers a small noise of acknowledgement as he looks up in your general direction, welcoming the spread of your legs with his warm, open palm as you rest yourself in his lap.
âI woke up and you werenât there,â you tell him gently, voice thick with sleep.
It was the middle of the night and not entirely out of character to find him up and busying himself with anything to keep his mind off of the fact that he couldnât sleep, for some reason or another.
âMâright here,â he responds with a tender touch, his hand curling against the side of your neck as his thumb runs along the line of your jaw, a smile growing as you push his glasses further up the bridge of his nose where they had slipped down, âyou up tryinâ to drag me back into bed?â
You laugh softly but decidedly shake your head, curling the fabric of his cotton shirt around your finger until it wrinkles, aware of his wandering hand as it glides up your thigh and under the waistband of your underwear hidden beneath the oversized sleep shirt you had worn to bed that night.
âDidnât come down here for nothinâ,â Joel teases, âwhaddya need, baby?â
You two had established your dynamic months agoâyou had worn Joel down quite a bit since his initial arrival, turning a hardened man into a softer, kinder version of himself. You often wondered how similar this version of him was to himself before the outbreak, wondering how long it had been since heâd felt safe enough to let his guard down.
It was simple, really.
As long as the house was emptyâno Ellie and her friends, you were both fair game to take advantage of, no preamble, no questions.
Luckily, Ellie had slipped out earlier that night. The kid liked to think she was good at sneaking out, always slipping back in before breakfastâJoel and you were both aware, but you didnât bother to make a deal out of it.
Joel wasnât her father, as much as he tried to protect her.
You were only a friend, more than just a stranger, but you were in no position to make points or discipline a teenager who was already set in her ways.
Still, Joel often thought about the possibilities of family.
It took him a year before he opened up about Sarah, despite the scattering of pictures throughout his home, another failure in his life that he tried to avoid at all costs.
You couldnât always tell if he meant it, but there were moments where it was all he seemed to think about, driven by a mix of desperation and lust, it was blinding.
And, he was doing it now.
Joel buries his nose into your chest, snuggling into the space as he sniffs and drags his face up and into your neck, your hand pressing against him as you giggle softly, feeling the tickle of his facial hair against your skin.
âYou smell different,â He notes, his voice low, lips parted and pressed against your skin but only barely, pressing a featherlight kiss against your neck.
âHere we go,â you reply fondly, slowly adjusting yourself over his lap more firmly, centered against his slowly hardened cock, watching the fabric tent under your touch as you untie the knot at his waist, âyou got some kinda superpower I donât know about?â
âNah,â he sighs, his lips curling into a smirk, âI just know my woman,â
Your eyebrow raises in amusement as your mouth forms into a quiet âOh.â
âWhy you came down here, ainât it?â Joel assumes, âYou achinâ baby?â
Bingo.
You nod meekly, sighing in relief as his hands curl against your hips, guiding you slowly over the bulge in his pants, enjoying the show as your eyes flutter shut and your hands grip tight against his forearms, feeling the distinct ridge of veins under your fingertips.
âGreedy as hell,â Joel comments with an air of amusement.
The roughness in his voice sends a pulse of pleasure to your core, awakening that distinct primal need inside of you.
âWell, we canât have that,â Joel reprimands, somewhere through the distraction of his guided movements, your shirt has been removed and tossed to the floor, his lips pressing at the center of your chest and right between your breasts, âcan we?â
There was never a distinction of yes or no, because Joel knew what your boundaries were.
If he had sought you in the night, buried himself inside of you to satiate his own urges, you wouldnât complainâthat was how this worked and why you worked so well.
âI ainât lyinâ,â Joel admits, looking up at you from where his mouth was centered at your chest.
âAbout what?â you ask curiously, brain feeling hazy and unfocused.
âYou get a little sweeter,â Joel explains, pulling away to drag his finger along your sternum, âright here.â
You roll your eyes dismissively, threading your fingers through his hair to push him back against the recliner as you roll your hips in time with his own movements, moaning softly.
âAnd you know how much I love sweets,â he breathes, turning his head to drag his tongue along the underside of your breast before heâs moving his hands up to squeeze them.
It doesnât take long before his hand drifts, slipping under the fabric of your underwear to circle your already swollen clit, throbbing with need.
Joel examines you carefully, listening to your breath hitch as he follows a steady rhythm until your hips begin to naturally rocking against his movementâheâs got this all down to a science, knowing exactly when to speed up and pump the breaks and youâre quickly tripping over the precipice of a much-needed orgasm, though he knows it wouldnât satisfy you.
âI need you,â you beg with a pant, head feeling light as you come down.
âCome here then,â Joel commands softly, his tone clear as he pulls you closer, pressing his hardening length against you more prominently, a breathless gasp escapes your lips, âfeel that?â
You nod again, tiredly.
âI need you too,â Joel admits, âall dayâall the timeâŠâ
You both switch into auto-pilot, rising only long enough to drag your underwear down your legs while Joel shoves his sweats down far enough that his cock springs free, leaking pre-cum into the hem of his shirt as you situate yourself back over his lap.
âJust canât get enough of ya,â he tells you, voice thick with desire as he dragged the head of his cock through your folds before guiding you down onto him, inch by tantalizing inch.
Your breath hitches, a gasp escaping your lips when he fills you completely.
You always expected the sensation to wane, but the stretch of him surprised you every time.
âGoddamn, Iâm lucky,â he gumbles, throwing his head back as you slowly begin to roll your hips, his eyes dark and half-lifted with lust as he watches your face contorted in pleasure, âall mine,â
The sound of his voiceâso deeply possessiveâmakes your heart race.
You canât help but rock against him harder, relishing in the friction as your hands settle against the sides of his neck, breathing into his open mouth. Itâs intoxicating to feel him throbbing inside you, cunt squeezing him like a vice when he grazes that sweet, too sensitive spot inside of you.
âYouâyouâve been thinkinâ about it?â you ask curiously, moaning softly as your eyebrows thread together, face scrunched up as Joel reels you in closer, arm winding around your back, pressing your bare chest against him, the reclining chair rocking with your slow, but forceful rhythm.Â
âAbout?â Joel hums, noticing the you should know look in your eye, mouth curling into a subtle smirk as one of your hands slip underneath his shirt and claw at his stomach, forcing a low groan to slip from his throat.
âYou want it that bad?â Joel asks with a fond, sated smile, âRaisinâ a baby with me?â
You nod silently, distinctly aware of his roaming hands and the one that squeezes at your ass, his mouth gravitating towards your tits again, this time swirling his tongue around your hardened nipple before he takes it into his mouth, thinking about how heavy they would feel in his mouth if this time were to take, if he could actually get you pregnantâhe was even sure anymore.
Fifty-eight and likely shooting blanks, the chance seemed slim.
It was just another thing he couldnât give you.
But, you had faith.
No, not in a higher power or some god.
But, him. Joel.
âGod, you make me crazy,â he breathes, the warmth of his breath washing over your skin as you ride him harder, feeling him push into you deeper.Â
Claiming you.
The chair creaked under the weight of your fervent need, the sound only adding to the symphony of gasps and moans slipping from your mouth as your hands press into his chest and his hands, again, find their way to your hips, keeping you rooted in place as he fucks himself into you, eager to fill your cunt.
âWouldnât that be a sight?â Joel begins with a broken grunt, âYouâd be prancinâ âround this place provinâ to everybody that youâre mineââ
âAndâfuckâyouâd love it,â you challenge him, âyou canât even stand when guys breathe in my directâdirection, Joel,â
Joel smirks at your calculation, knowing you were correct, âGotta let âem know,â
âUh huh,â you reply breathily as the sweat on your skin collects under both the heat of the dying fire beside you and the percolating heat of your bodies as Joel leans forward and licks a line up the center of your chest to your throat before biting at your jaw to make you squeal.
He always seemed to have a second wind; a calm before the storm.
It works, his teeth nipping at your skinâincredibly thankful that the adjoining couch was only a short distance and you can both scramble towards it in a hurry, watching as Joel pulls his shirt over his head in one swift and fluid movement, carefully removing his glasses with a gentleness that contracts his heaving chest, placing them on the table before heâs kicking his pants off the rest of the way and shifting between your legs.
Thereâs adoration that floods your features, giggling softly as his hands twist around your thighs to pull you to him before his hands wrap around his slick-covered shaft and heâs pushing inside of you for the second time that night.
âCanât keep lookinâ at me like that,â Joel warns through a soft cough as he settles on his knees, moving his hips at a slow pace as you tilt your head, squeezing one of the hands that rest on your thigh, âweâre gonna have a problem,â
âI think we established I am the problem,â you challenge him.
âYou really want a future with me?â Joel asks candidly despite the lust so evident in his eyes, his face, the way his tongue swipes against his bottom lips as you moan softly and your grip shifts to his wrist, anchoring him to you, âBecause thatâs what Iâm seeinâ with the way youâre lookinâ at me right now,â
âWow, all that from one look?â you tease, earning a quick snap of his hips for your obvious amusement, âFuckâoh, I meanâŠyeâyeah, I do,â
Youâve had this talk countless times, wondering if Joel would ever truly believe it.
That you wanted him. Only him.
Always him.
âYeah?â he goads, leaning forward to curl his hand around the edge of the cushion near your head as the other digs into the back of the couch, immediately fixing the angle to something much more intense, his hips working faster to drive you over the edge.
âYeah,â you answer softly, reaching up to drag your hand against his cheek, his gaze drifting toward your joined bodies, your cunt being greedy in the way it takes him in.
 "Look at thatâŠâ Joel says in a husky, low tone that makes you shiver, âlook at how your body wants thisâknows exactly what it needs from me,"
You could barely speak, feeling yourself drift, offering a barely audible mumble in response.
 "I know, baby. I know,â It was like a comfort, his voice always putting you at ease, âFeels right, huh?"
âDonât,â you gasp as Joel suddenly becomes more frantic with his pace, eyes stuck on your open mouth and arched back, âdonâtâdonât stop,â
âI gotcha,â he promised, âGot you wrapped around me like thisâsqueezinâ meâpullinâ me in. I ainât goinâ nowhere, sweetheart.â
âI want it,â you promise with the same intensity, âwant all of this, with you.
"Youâre gonna get it, baby.â Joel groans, sounding wrecked, âGonna take every drop I give you âcause youâre greedy like that, ainâtcha?â
You nod instantly, twoâthreeâfour sharp thrusts before his hands are curling around your hips and holding you to him, no space between your bodies, âMâgonna stuff you so full you wonât even have to worry,â
Joel meets your gaze with fierce intensity, his dark eyes reflecting a blend of hunger and a possessiveness that bleeds true as he comes deep inside of you, feeling his cock pulse as he spills a load he had been holding back for a few days, hoping it would make a difference.
In an instant he slumps back, but not before dragging you toward him, resting against the arm of the couch as you settle into his lap again, his cock softening inside of you but neither of you threatening to move.
âJoel?â you whisper softly, legs still trembling from the intensity of your climax, your fingers tracing lazy patterns down his chest, his hand rubbing gently along the length of your spine.
âYeah, baby?â He hums, tilting his head to look at you.
âI could go again,â you admit, earning a deep chuckle that shakes his chest and you.
âNever enough, is it?â Joel asks, leaning your head back to look at him before he presses a gentle kiss to your lips, and then another, and another.
âGotta make sure it takes,â you shrug, âbreed me up, baby.â
Joel groans affectionately and throws his head back, suddenly attacked by your own share of kisses as you climb his chest to reach his face.
âGod, youâre killinâ me,â he chuckles.
You raise your eyebrows in question before he cracks a playful smack to your ass.
âGo on,â he encourages, âIâll be up in a few, breed you all damn night if I gotta,â
Until you were satisfied, at least.
Truthfully, Joel just couldnât get enough of you either.
Too damn sweet.
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Japandi | Living Room CC Pack |Early
Suprise, Suprise Simmers! I'm back with brand new CC pack for The Sims 4!
đżâš Discover the serene beauty of Japandi design in this Sims 4 living room setup, featuring 44 unique elements. This space blends Japanese minimalism and Scandinavian functionality with natural materials and a calming color palette. Highlights include a low-profile sofa with green cushions, a woven coffee table, a traditional shoji screen, and elegant wall art. The room exudes tranquility with its harmonious design and thoughtful decor. Perfect for creating a cozy and stylish home in your Sims 4 game! đ±đȘ
With this set you can create your own shelving system, open doors, closed doors, open space with doors, or closed closet, the choice is yours :) I'm continue my Japandi Collection with another room that is Living Room. In future I create more inspired Japnadi rooms so be sure to follow me on Instagram where I upload my progress on current projects.
Set contains:
Sofa
Arm chair
Loveseat
Coffee Table
End Table
Japandi poster
Single Shelf 1x1 ( Short/Medium )
Double Shelf 2x1 ( Short/Medium )
Double Shelf 2 2x1 ( Short/Medium )
Media Cabinet
Long Shelf
Short Shelf
Open Pillar ( Short/Medium/Tall )
Closed Pillar ( Short/Medium/Tall )
Closed Doors ( Short/Medium/Tall )
Open Doors Right ( Short/Medium/Tall )
Open Doors Left ( Short/Medium/ Tall )
Stereo System
CD Player
Mixer
Collection of Books ( 4 diffrent versions )
Book Organizer
Tea Pot
Ink Tray
Ceilling Lamp ( Short/Medium )
Little Weave Frame
THINGS YOU NEED TOÂ KNOW!
All items are Base Game compatibile
All of the textures and meshes are made by me, if you like to use them please mention me
Some of the objects are high poly so be careful
If you see any issues let me KNOW!
NOW AVAILABLE ON EARLY ACCESS!
Public realse June 27th!
You can find objects by typing "Japandi" or "S-im" in search bar in game!
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Wait for Me
Ok so AU where Jason remembers being dead and remembers what he did while he was dead. And now that heâs back? Heâs fucking pissed. He doesnât actually pay attention to anything while heâs with the league. All of his self preservation? Gone. He just wants to die again and be with his Ghost King boyfriend. Thatâs all!
âŠ
Jason huffed as Robin pushed him out of the way of the bus. Goddamn it. He was so close that time. The stupid kid. Ruining his chances.
Jason didnât even really care that he had been replaced. He had expected it. B was never sentimental and Jason was never anything more than a sidekick anyways. He was replaceable. That was already proven. Batman always had a Robin. It didnât really matter who Robin was. It was a title, not a person.
After pretending to be thankful for the save, Jason decided to go back to the league. Raâs was like super evil but he was also a dumbass. It wasnât hard to set him off. Maybe he could get Raâs to kill him if he was lucky. Probably not. Since Talia and Damian were there. Raâs wasnât really much of a man. Nothing more than an idiot who didnât want to die. The complete opposite of Jason.
He knew Talia and Damian were concerned with his behavior. The only reason he was dipped in the pit in the first place was to spite the Batman. Hoping he would be out for blood. He wasnât stupid. But instead of getting a broken boy urging for revenge, what they had gotten was a very annoyed teen with suicidal tendencies. And very strange interests.
Jason went into his room of sorts. It was the area they let him live in. He didnât have much, just a bed and a dresser. The only reason he even lived with them at this point was because they gave him food. He had made it clear when he was brought back that he had no interest in revenge. He just wanted to be dead. It was where he belonged after all. It had upset Talia so much that she had set up a small are for him to live in right where she could always see him. Almost like League of Assassinsâ version of suicide watch. It didnât stop Jason from sneaking out and trying anyways.
He grabbed a book he stole from Raâs a week ago. He left his little sleeping area and went to find the old bastard. He threw the book at him, hitting him in the face. He could hear it as the book broke Raâs nose. Good.
âDo you have a death wish?â he asked.
âYES!â Jason screamed, âIf I donât die soon, Iâll be too old for my boyfriend! If I die and I canât date Danny anymore because Iâm too old, Iâll haunt your death cheating ass until the timeline implodes!â
âYou have some serious issues Todd,â said Damian.
Jason didnât care, he just hoped Danny was still waiting for him like he promised. He had to get home. He HAD to die.
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My Partner Turned Into A Cat And I Don't Know How To Fix It (2)
ă content; established relationship , fluff , humour , slight shenanigans , gn!reader ă
ă characters; alhaitham , arataki itto , baizhu , cyno , dainsleif , diluc , kaedehara kazuha , kaeya , kamisato ayato , kaveh , neuvillette , tartaglia , thoma , venti , wanderer , wriothesley , xiao , zhongli ă
ă premise; " Your partner has been struck with a curse of some sort which has turned him into a cat, you have no idea how to fix it nor how long it might take. Yet you also cannot help but be rather amused by the situation despite the uncertaintyâŠ" ă
ă note; made the genshin version... no reason for this to be like 19 pages đ ă
ă word count; 8.723 | read on ao3 | hsr ver | hsr reader ver | gi reader ver ă
Alhaitham ;
Kaveh gaped at you when you brought a cat into the house, one that⊠looked eerily similar to a certain blockhead. âI can explain,â you say as you set the cat down on the floor, he doesnât enter the house further than you do, instead sitting down by your feet and observing the interaction with⊠interest? AmusementâŠ?Â
 Kaveh didnât need much to be convinced, and immediately he thanked the Archons for giving him a few days of respite. Even just a few days of Alhaitham being unable to comment on what he does or nag him is a blessing.
 For you, itâs a bit of a hassle⊠because he keeps disappearing! Not in an alarming way, because you find him again in the most secluded, quiet spots you would never even think of. Under your laundry, in an empty box that Kaveh hadnât put away after getting a delivery, and even under the desk in the studyâKaveh accidentally kicked him and got a feisty scratch on his ankle. He learned his lesson.Â
 He follows you around andâthough he let you pick him up the first timeâdoesnât let you carry him around, preferring to walk on his own⊠and wander off to explore nooks and crannies he has never been able to see, but he always shows up again before you reach your destination.Â
 He has also claimed your pillow as his own and refuses to let you use it, loafing on top of it exactly when you thought you could get there before him. Which⊠in hindsight is fine, youâre not opposed to using his pillow, it smells like him after all.Â
 You decided to test how much of a cat he really is, whether itâs appearance alone or instinctual as well and bought a cat toy with a whisker on the end as well as a small bell below it. You expected him to perk up and try to whack or catch it as soon as you wriggled it beside him⊠but his grey furred ears just lowered in annoyance and he hopped off the kitchen counter, it seems like having even more sensitive ears in this state makes his dislike for uncomfortable noises more intense.Â
 He forgave you when you spent ten minutes scratching the itchy spot behind his ears after tracking him down. A small, rumbling purr left his chest as you moved your hand to scratch under his chinâhe was, however, more curious about this instinctual reaction and demanded you continue after you drew your hand back.   Despite it being very much an unspoken rule between the two of you that neither of you should be disturbed âneedlesslyâ when reading or working at home, when you borrowed a few books from the Akademiya to try and figure out how to turn your partner back to normal, Alhaitham decided it would be very reasonable for him to lay down over your book⊠which you are very much trying to read.
 But when you ask him what he needs, he just blinks at you three times, very slowly. Youâll likely never be able to crack that brain of his, even in a form that is somehow far more expressive.
Arataki Itto ;
Itâs difficult enough to keep track of himâand keep him out of troubleâon a normal day⊠now? You took your eyes off him for a second, and heâs gone. Shinobu split up with you to cover more ground while the rest of the gang scoured the streets of Inazuma City, at least as much as they could.
 You peek between baskets, crates and stalls, walk through tight alleys and even squint into a few windows⊠nothing!
 You had been very close to giving up and returning back to the meeting point by the bridge⊠until you heard a very distressed, very loud meowing. Following the sound, you come to a tree stretching over the gardens of a teahouse. What looks to be the owner of it stands below the tree with a basket, trying to ask Ittoâstuck up on a wobbling branchâto jump into it.
 Exasperation is one way to describe what you feel as you approach the old lady, you put your hands on your hips and Itto notices you immediately. His meowing turns from frantic and panicked⊠to a sheepish pleading. Every movement he makes causes the branch to sway and wobble, and it looks like it could easily bend and breakâand you donât want to cause any trouble for the teahouse owner. âItto, come on, hop down.â
 He meows and shakes his head, white fur swishing dramatically.Â
 A sigh leaves you as you step closer and hold your arms open. âIâll catch you, trust me,â you encourage him⊠and he finally relents, with wobbling paws, he leaps from the branchâfur shining in the sun as he practically flies in the air towards your open arms⊠and lands on your head. He panics and tries to adjust and not fall off, and you try to pry him away from your face as his belly nearly suffocates youâitâs a scene from a comedic play.
 Shinobu is glad for her mask, because when you return with Itto under your arm you have scratches on your face and forehead, and Itto is whining and meowing sorrowfully.Â
 He spends the entire evening licking your âwoundsâ, dragging his coarse cat tongue over every spot so often that the licking starts to become more painful than the scratches themselves. But you let him, it makes him feel much better than youâand you donât particularly need comfort, but if he doesnât get it, he will whine all night.Â
 So you let him knead your thighs and stomach even as his claws prick through your clothes and you make sure to pet him and stroke his fur when he snuggles against you⊠and then you wake up in the middle of the night, suffocating with his furred belly against your face when the lies on top of you.
Baizhu ;
Youâre very happy that Baizhu is catching a breakâsomething you often try to convince him to doâdespite the strange way of being forced into it⊠however, itâs very difficult to focus on running the pharmacy in his place by yourself while also trying to make sure he doesnât roll off the shelf heâs napping on⊠especially because Changsheng wriggles in her sleep and keeps nudging him closer to the edge.
 You decide itâs easier if you have them sleeping on separate surfaces and reach up to pick up your pliant partner-turned-cat. He effectively falls into your arms and blinks lazily, slightly confused by the sudden transport. âJust moving you so you donât hit your head,â you dodge around Qiqi as she runs past you with an armful of jars and set Baizhu down on the counter, his tail sways lazily and he immediately flops on his side as a beam of sunlight sneaks through the window and directly onto his fur.
 Every time a customer comes byâwith approvalâthey give Baizhu a small pet or scratch before leaving, as if paying tribute to the good doctor. He doesnât seem to mind.
 Unfortunately, youâre not fit to take Baizhuâs place for consultations, and thus they all get delayedâwhich was a hell of a lot of work to contact everyone and change schedulingâuntil Baizhu is back to normal. The usual hours of consultation in the morning are therefore replaced with longer opening hours of the pharmacy and by pulling some strings, an increased stock of rarer products at a discounted price.Â
 Changsheng does not let poor Baizhu catch a break, she wiggles her tail and swipes it in front of his paws, and unable to control the feline instincts harbouring his bodyâBaizhu chases after her tail like a kitten playing with a toy. He whacks at it and tries to capture it, but the white snake is far quicker than even you expected her to be as a sudden game of cat and mouse (snake) takes over your living room.
 The feline form, however, doesnât come with free staminaâand Baizhu is not in good shape. He flops down on the carpet, exhausted from the play even as only seven minutes have passed. You feel a bit bad and scoop him up for some cuddling, which seems to be just the remedy he needed.Â
 Baizhu is very careful around the clinic, he doesnât knock anything overâeven though he REALLY wants to sometimes, and is mindful of not getting fur or saliva on anything that could potentially be consumed by anyone with allergies. Changsheng has taken to wrapping herself around your shoulders instead, and though youâre used to her, itâs a little annoying to get a comment on every little thing you do.Â
 But at the end of the day, Baizhu curls up next to you and you wake with him lying over your chest, belly to the skies and paws in the air, comfortable and content. Though you will always prefer him in his normal state, he is very cute like this.
Cyno ;
You look around the large front hall of the House of Daena, panting slightly as you try to catch your breath⊠that damn Cyno! Making you chase him across the entire city!Â
 You spot some pawprints and squint as you look around⊠heâs not bringing all that dirt into the houseâyou were just going to rinse him a bit, but heâs run off! You finally spot dark and creamy coloured fur⊠perched up high on a massive decorative piece of the wall. He looks down at you with a swaying tail, completely at ease knowing that you wonât be able to catch him all the way up there.
 You almost consider inquiring about one of those massive ladders the library has to reach the high shelves, it might be long enoughâŠ
 But very well, he wins this round.Â
 Once he turned into a cat, you were very excited about petting him, rubbing his ears and stroking his tailâbut heâs not having any of it. Sometimes, you wonder if someone stuck a firework in his ass and lit it up, because the bouts of zoomies he gets is so frequent you wondered if there was something wrongâbut you couldnât catch him to take to a vet either!Â
 After the first few days, Cyno seems to calm down⊠a little. He still prefers to survey the area (your living room) from above (your bookshelf) and watch you go about your day. Itâs quite cute how his perked ears twitch every time you make a noise, as if heâs completely focused on what youâre doing.
 You soon find out after stepping a bit too close to the bookshelf that he might have just been waiting to strike, because he leaps onto your head as soon as youâre in range.Â
 The only reason you know heâs fully conscious in that furred head is because while you were cleaning up after dinner, you spotted him sitting next to a cup of tea that was half-filled. You tense as you watch his paw raise to knock it off. âCyno! Donât,â you try to sound scolding.
 He looks up at you, he lowers his paw⊠then raises it again, making you glare at him. He lowers it again, turns away⊠you turn back to wiping the dishes and look over your shoulders after a few secondsâhis paw is raised again!
 This back and forth continued until he finally knocked it over.
 And then he has the audacity during the next dayâs dinner to sound like he has never been fed in his life while youâre trying to eat in peace. Meowing at you so loudly one would think he was terribly injured, eyes wide and mouth open. You hope your neighbours donât think youâre trying to starve him, or treat him horribly.
Dainsleif ;
Heâs not happy about it, he has things to doâplaces to be and investigations to make. Thankfully youâre familiar with where you were going next⊠but Dainsleif is very limited in what he can do. You decide to give him the task of scouting and sneaking around, something heâs used to doing anyway⊠but he finds that itâs much more effective to do so as a cat. His footsteps are completely silent and his senses are much sharper.
 Though, he had an instinctual need to swat at a glowing orb that you found in a strange vault half-buried in a cave in Fontaine before he could stop himselfâwhich closed the two of you inside the vault. Thankfully he is now small enough that he could slip out between the bars and unlock it from the other side.
 It is quite cute how his ears flattened as you walked out, as if he was sorry. Though he seemed okay after you scratched behind his ears and assured him it was okay, he was here to help you out after all! His tail swayed in satisfaction to your assurance.
 You start to set down camp for the night, having just one pair of hands makes it a bit more of a lengthy process, and Dainsleif can only sit and watch as you put it together. Heâs usually quite distant, even in a relationshipâbut as you straighten from squatting to fit something down, you feel something press against your leg and see him rubbing his furry cheek against you, then walking around your legs, tail trailing behind.
 Heâs usually quite wary and alert, even during the night when you try and convince him to sleepâand itâs no different now. He sits poised and ready⊠for what? Heâs a cat. But you appreciate the effort.Â
 Surprisingly, heâs very active at grooming himself, the two of you usually have to bathe often anyway as you frequent dusty caves and muddy backwaters, but every time you make a stop, he sits down and starts licking his furâat first you wondered if he was frustrated by something or had hurt himself, but as you picked him up to examine for any injuries or strange patches, he just blinked at you, tongue still half-hanging out.
 Dainsleif is rather laid-back when it comes to your relationship, there are times where you want to stay in a larger city for a few days or weeks in between travels, to have a soft bed and four walls around youâwhich Dainsleif doesnât mind, there are places he wants to look into where heâd prefer you are safe elsewhere. He knows where you will be and will stop by to ask if youâre ready to continue days or even sometimes a few weeks later, to which youârecharged and rejuvenatedâjump at the chance to follow him out of the city.
 But now, as a cat, he doesnât leave your side for a minuteânot even when you need to use natureâs bathroom. You went into a small village in Sumeru when passing through and a vendor was particularly pressing about selling you some type of perfume that you had shown brief interest inâDainsleif had enough of you being pestered and whacked his paw at the manâs leg, hissing. He would usually be more subtle about guiding you away, but he doesnât have the presence he usually does as he is now, so he must utilise the aggressiveness given to him in feline form. You take the chance to scoop him up and hurry away before the vendor can get upset, petting between his ears and thanking him for the helpâhe rubs his cheek against yours. Heâs surprisingly more affectionate like this as well.
Diluc ;
Your nose itches⊠you try to hold backâachoo!!
 Diluc jumps, claws scuttling against the ground and he leaps from his resting spot and hops down to the floor. You sniffle and shake your head. âSorry, itâs not your fault,â you stand from his chair and round the table to squat down next to him, reaching a hand out. âDid I startle you?â
 He makes a âhmphâ sound, fur red as freshly bloomed roses. Diluc bumps his snout into your palm and huffs into it, you turn your hand and pet along his back. âAaah⊠youâre so cute~ so soft,â you near coo as you scratch behind his earsâ
 Diluc shakes himself and ducks under your hand to walk past youâhow dare you baby-talk him?! Heâs not an actual cat! The scritches felt too nice, and his ears flicked when you cooed at himâitâs embarrassingâŠ
 He sits down by the door, tail swaying lazily as a small meow leaves him. Let me out.Â
 You pout, how can you not convey how cute he is? You want to rub his cheeks. But fine, you  walk over and open the door for him to slip out of.Â
 Diluc likes the lounge around the fireplace in the estate, thereâs not much work he can do  while you try to figure out how to turn him backâpreferably without alerting his brother or any of the knights⊠or just anyone in general. Unfortunately, he canât hide it from the staff of the Winery as he is a spitting image of himself in cat form, and youâve caught more than three people trying to feed him expensive cheeses.Â
 Itâs only in the recent days that youâve convinced him to settle down and use the time to rest and nap as much as he can, but Diluc was extremely restless at first, you had to trap him inside a room and trick him into lying down with you.
 One day, Jean came by looking for him, and you had to think fast to come up with an excuse while he had just leapt under the sofa to hide. Thankfully, she didnât seem to need him urgently, so she just left a message behind and went back to her day.
 You fell asleep in Dilucâs study, trying to keep up with his paperworkâAdeline offered to help you, sheâs very familiar with his work, and itâs not like itâs been a long time since he wasnât there to do it⊠but you wanted to help, and as the sun sank below the horizon, you laid down on the sofa in his study next to a tall bookcaseâonly closing your eyes was enough to pull you into deep sleep.
 Diluc hops onto the sofa next to you, he carefully walks over your thighs and settles on the armrest where your head is. His fluffy tail sways and strokes your chin and noseânearly waking you as you almost sneeze, you donât have to work so hard for him, he knows you want to help. He wishes he could tell you, and he will, when heâs back to normal. For now, he rests alongside you, head leaning against the top of yours and tail tucked against your neck.
Kaedehara Kazuha ;
Kazuha is a very chill cat, he doesnât get into trouble, he doesnât cough hairballs on the floor and he doesnât knock things over.
 (Instead of coughing hairballs on the floor he swats them off-deck with his paws, Beidou caught him doing it once).
 Thereâs not much trouble to get into on the ocean, and heâs rather good at keeping out of trouble overall on land, sticking by his side is a sureway to a boring day of exploration or lounging aroundâwhich is your perfect type of day.
 You help him into your bag as the Crux âboardsâ by Liyue Harbour (it stops a bit away and tucked by a cliffside to avoid attention) and you make sure he doesnât accidentally fall into the ocean as a few crewmates row to land. Youâre stopping for a few days, so you make sure to use the time to relax and take in landside air and wander around the expansive Harbour.Â
 Kazuha likes to take life at a slower pace, and thus your walk to the Harbour took longer than you expected⊠as you thought Kazuha was doing his normal meditation on a warm, sun-kissed rock along the roadâŠ
 But he was asleep, sitting up and enjoying the sun. It took you thirty minutes to realiseâa sitting cat with its eyes closed and a sleeping cat in a sitting position is the exact same.
 He very much likes to people-watch, but in this cat form, he seems even more engagedâhe can hear sounds more clearly and he seems even more perceptive than usual. Watching a tea maker brew a cup on a teahouse table you had sat by to rest and ordered some snacks. He sniffs at the tea as itâs placed in front of youâheâs perched comfortably on your lap, youâre surprised the teahouse even allows him insideâand seems to appreciate the detail he gets from this new perspective, af if it smells different in this form.
 He tries to taste it and your food, but you have to block his snout with your hand, youâre not sure if the food you were having would give him a stomach ache or not.Â
On a walk on the outskirts of the city, you look back and see Kazuha carrying a stick in his mouth�
 Heâs not a dog, so youâre not entirely sure why heâs doing it, maybe cats do that too? The dogs that hang around the bridge leading to the southeast outside of Liyue Harbour try to approach him with the stick, thinking he was playing, but he hops into a tree to keep it to himself. Youâre not entirely sure whatâs happening, but he seems to be having fun.
 Kazuha wanders off oftentimes, just in his normal, usual body⊠so youâre not sure why youâre surprised when you suddenly find him missing from your sideâperhaps itâs because heâs a cat and youâre unsure if he can defend himself as well in that form, but you hurry to look for him.
 You practically run in circles until you find him pressing his paw to a brown, crusty leaf⊠again and again, as if listening to the crunch of it in a rhythm. You sigh and scoop him up into your arms. âDonât wander off like this,â you scold and poke his nose. Kazuha sneezes from the poke, but blinks up at you and nods his little furry head.
Kaeya ;
Unbothered, in his element. Kaeya sleeps in your windowsill and bathes in the sunlight all day while you scratch your head over how this couldâve happened. You try to leave for work and he practically screeches at the door, likely pleading you not to leaveâhe does that normally as well, except without the loud meowing.Â
 Kaeya finds appreciation in the flexibility and grace that comes with this new body, he easily leaps up on shelves and dives under the sofa, he chases flakes of dust and seems to be having quite a good timeâperhaps itâs because he has no responsibilities in this form, he canât go to work like this and has no control over it. And the loss of control is strangely freeing.Â
 You scoop him up into your arms and his tail swishes happily, he grabs his claws into your shirt and purrs as you rub his ears, happy and content with the additional affection. He loves all affection he gets from you no matter what form it takes, and being a cat has given him the opportunity to be pampered in ways he never could experience as a human.Â
 He does need his free time as well and he uses it well while youâre out of the houseâthough you were very optimistic to think that closing the windows would keep him contained, Kaeya easily flips the handles and slips out of your home. He enjoys the attention he gets from any passersby, but is careful not to be too affectionate and get picked up by someone who thinks heâs a stray.Â
 His usual guarded front lowers in this form, he feels like he could slip out of any situationâand he doesnât have to be careful with his words or actions. No one expects a cat to have alternative intentions.Â
 He jumps up in surprise as he hears footsteps rapidly approachingâhe had fallen asleep on a ledge and the sun was already down. Kaeya blinks as you pick him up, breath heaving. âThere you are, Iâve looked everywhere for you! I thought something happened when I couldnât find you around the plaza,â you sigh a breath of relief and practically crush him to your chest. Kaeya wriggles a little but gives up and nuzzles into you, pushing his forehead into your cheek.Â
 After a number of days, Kaeya gets bored, as fun as lounging around and being pampered it⊠he misses real food, and dragging you away from your work to have lunchâand holding you properly, he can only lay on top of you like this, which doesnât exactly feel like holding.
 And Kaeya being restless⊠he gets whiny.Â
 He would usually be more subtle, but now that he feels the rush of freedom his feline form gives him, he uses it to protest by loafing on your clothes after you fold them to put away, laying over your lap when you need to get upâeven though heâs not really a cat⊠kind of, you still get the same feeling of not wanting to move him off no matter how much space heâs taking.
 But thatâs okay, because he just has to slow blink at you and nuzzle into your hand and you forgive him, how could you not?
Kamisato Ayato ;
Ayato is an unreasonably pretty cat. His fur is soft and silky, he has this⊠smug kitty-smile at all times, and it makes you want to pinch his ears. He sits on your lap and peeks onto the low table inside his study as you go through paperwork. Just because heâs become a cat doesnât mean his workload just miraculously lessens.Â
 Thankfully, after a few days of trying to juggle his workâhow does he do it?!âeven with him by your side, albeit in a form that canât properly communicate⊠Ayaka decides to lend a hand, she takes it upon herself to attend meetings and represent the clan and Commission in Ayatoâs stead. Thankfully no one has questioned where he is yet.
 Or why there is a suspiciously similar cat trotting around the estate in his place.Â
 You fish into a bush in the courtyard gardens, hand feeling aroundâuntil you find fur and yoink it up. Ayato blinks at you, tail swishing as he has a piece of grilled fish in his mouth that he stole from the kitchens. âYou know⊠you can have all the fish you wantâyou donât have to steal it,â you say as you lift him into your arms.
 His ears flick as you talk, but he eats the fish happily regardless. You shake your head in mild exasperation. Looks like heâs using the opportunity to engage in⊠more mischief than usual. Perhaps a different kind.Â
 Ayato likes to use his newfound stealth and agility to his advantage⊠to torment you.
 You put away some laundry and turned to a shelf to fetch somethingâonly to come face to face with Ayatoâs cat-face, making you jump as he meows happilyâas if happy to see you! He knows heâs just trying to startle you!
 He winds around your feet when you walk around the estate and purrs happily when you squint at him.
 Ayato knows the limits, he stops before you can lock him inside a room for the remainder of the day. His fur is so soft as you pet him and a rumbling purr leaves him, he knows itâs sillyâheâs not really a cat, at least, hopefully not for long. But you keep petting and stroking him while he does.Â
 He takes good care of himself on normal days, and as a cat, itâs no differentâhe grooms himself meticulously, though finds it rather embarrassing if youâre looking, so he tries to do it out of sight⊠it's very instinctual, but he also likes to feel clean and groomed.Â
 You once passed the great hall and saw Thoma wriggling a toy with a bundle of feathers on it while Ayato chased it⊠it was pretty cute to watch, but you hurried along before either of them could notice you.Â
 He hogs the futon, you donât want to push him to the side and get pushed to the edge of the mattress yourself. Ayato doesnât even realise heâs doing it.Â
Kaveh ;
Distressed, not having fun, he wants to go home.
 A series of meows in varying states of distress and confusion follow behind you as you walk, you stop and turn around, peering down at the strange cat thatâs been following you around since you left the Akademiya. You were about to ask what he wants⊠but as you squint at the cat⊠doesnât it look familiar?
 Kaveh doesnât stop when you do, he raises on his hind legs by your feet and sinks his claws into your pants, a shrill, distressed meow leaves him.
 You reach down and pick him up, holding under his front legs as you inspect him⊠hm, golden fur with tints of a darker, sandy brown⊠those big red eyes.
 â... Kaveh?â you must be crazy, thereâs no way your partner is a cat, and followed you around without you realising, but you know those eyes very well. Itâs him.
 Alhaitham just stares at you like you grew three additional heads, he looks at Kaveh in your arms and then back at you. â... it looks like him, but thatâs not proof enoughâhave you asked him to write his name?â
 You look at Kaveh and he tilts his small head to look up at you. Write his nameâŠ? He doesnât exactly have thumbs⊠but Alhaitham has a good point. What if itâs just a very persistent cat?Â
 Then again⊠where would Kaveh be? Heâs usually home by this time.
 Alhaitham fetches a pen and some parchment and you put Kaveh down on the table. He tries to use his paws at first but just spills ink all over the placeâbut as he grabs the pen with his mouth and clumsily scribbles his signature, Alhaitham just hums while you scoop Kaveh up again, holding him up. âIt is you! What happened to you, Kaveh?â
 Of course, he canât give a proper answer, he wriggles his paws around and meows in a long dialogueâbut itâs entirely incomprehensible.Â
 While you and Alhaitham try to figure out how to get him back, Kaveh tries to adjust to his⊠predicament. He doesnât do it with any grace, though⊠his leaps and jumps across furniture are miscalculated and he falls to the ground or hits his head more often than you can count.
 But your worried petting and rubbing the aching area makes him purr and nuzzle into your arms.
 He does hate the heightened senses, he jumps at the smallest noise and scuttles across the room if anything startles himâand he gets startled very easily like this.
Neuvillette ;
You call his name, looking around his office⊠you scratch your head, he canât have gone far, you just left to fetch some tea for a few minutes. Itâs not like he can open the door or window and slip outâwhy would he anyway?
 You hear a very⊠pathetic meow, from next to youâbut thereâs nothing there, just a sofa. You hear it againâunder the sofaâŠ?
 Ducking down, you see that Neuvillette is stuck, he seems to have been trying to squeeze himself under the sofa, and rounding the furniture, you see his hind legs and tail flat on the floor⊠itâs a bit amusing. âThere, I got you,â you say soothingly as you lift the sofa up a little so he can back out. Neuvillette stands up and shakes his body.
 You squat down and smile. âHowâd you get stuck under there?â you hold out your hand and he presses his head into your palm, nuzzling against your skin for comfort as you turn your hand to scratch and pet him.
 Heâs not very good at resisting the instincts and temptations that come with this formâyouâre unsure why he seems to struggle so much, but you try to help him as much as you can, and not laugh.
 You saw him chase a shadow, there is an ornament on the raised blinds that hang above the large window in his office. It's attached to the strings that lower and raise them and it sways slightlyâcasting a shadow across the floor.
 Another time he was grooming his fur and struggling, he has a thick, long coat and had to lean far back to reach the end of his fur as his tongue dragged along the hairs⊠causing him to roll backwards off the arm of the couch and into the pile of pillows.
 Innocent, small things that make you smile, but youâre careful that he doesnât see it.
 He loafs over a stack of court documents as you organise his deskâmight as well use the opportunity to clean up while he wonât be making a mess. He doesnât seem satisfied with his place on the desk and stands⊠and spots a box on the ground, itâs stacked halfway with old documents to be taken to storage⊠but it also looks like the perfect spot to rest. He hops down from the desk and circles a few times on the papers to get comfortable. He wriggles a little before sitting down.
 It takes him a minute to realise that he was kneading into the paper when he hears the sound of it tearing under his claws in an instinctual need to make the bottom of the box comfortable.Â
 Safe to say, he was mortified to have destroyed the top four documents, but thankfully they werenât shredded and you managed to salvage them with some memory of what had occurred as well as piecing them together.
Tartaglia ;
You look towards the window above the kitchen counter, cold air brushes into the house as Childe enters through itâwith a mouse in his mouth.
 You leap up and push the book in your hand against his face and push him straight back outside. âNo! Absolutely not! Leave it outside, not in the house!!â You close the window behind him and sigh in relief, brushing stray snow into the sink. When you look up again, Heâs sitting there, big eyes and ears flat against his head⊠but no mouse.
 Sighing, you open the window a smidge so that he can step inside, where he shakes himself and tosses flakes of melting snow all over.Â
 Childe sits down, tail swayingâas if waiting for something.
 You set your haps on your hips. âWhat?â
 âMrrowâŠâ he wriggles his head, he wants a pat.Â
 ⊠fine, just because he took the mouse outside because you âaskedâ, you raise your hand to stroke his head and he tilts it to lick your palmâbut you pull back. âNo, you just had a wild animal in your mouth, wash your mouth!â
 What is this?? He feels like a criminal, all he did was bring you a prize⊠to be fair, he realised how silly it was to bring you a dead animal when you leapt up to push him back out, but it felt completely natural up until that point!
 He whines and meows for forgiveness for the rest of the night, and you do eventually âforgiveâ him and let Chile lounge around on your lap while you pet him and continue reading.
 He picks fights with swaying curtains, chases your broom when youâre cleaning and even whacked your cup of coffee off the dinner tableâspilling it everywhere. Heâs a nightmare in this form, because no matter the scolding, he just stares at you with excited, large eyes and a swaying tail.
 Nothing you say gets through his head. In one ear and out the other.Â
 He does not give up either, if he wants affection, he will get it one way or the other, even if he has to whine and meow endlessly, follow you aroundâfake a limp! You shake him a bit after he worried you and you almost went out in the middle of the evening through the snow to take him to a vet when he just wanted scritches.Â
 In all fairness⊠this is just typical behaviour, but now he has the kitten eyes to break your self control and composure within seconds.Â
Thoma ;
He tries to do his job even in cat form, using his tail to sweep, he even takes his duster into his mouth and tries to sweep on surfaces heâd usually need ladders to reach, and now he can just leap to them.
 But he also has a problemâŠ
 He has an instinctual need to create a mess, knock things over or sit on thingsâwhen he catches himself in an act of pushing Ayakaâs discarded tea off a table, he nearly leaps away to stop himself.Â
 Thankfully, everyone around him doesn't mindâand itâs a bit relieving to see that Thoma retains a sense of himself. He finds time where he would usually go into town to instead napâand the Kamisato estate has perfect napping spots. He lies sprawled across the engawa surrounding the eastern part of the estate near the back gardens, and lets the warm beams of the sun warm his bellyâonly to shoot up in surprise when he hears footsteps, embarrassed to be caught lounging around.Â
 Ayato sometimes plucks him away to keep on his lap for hours while he sorts through paperwork, petting and scratching behind his ears while his other hand signs documents. Thoma gets a bit restless just loafing on his lordâs lap and meows in relief when you come along to fetch him.Â
 Ayaka leapt at the opportunity to sew a few accessories for him, guised under the excuse of âpractise for smaller bodiesâ and Thoma ends up with half a wardrobe by the end of the week.Â
 But he prefers to be around you, you donât trap him on your lap (even though Ayato gives very good scritches) or make him model for three hours (even though Ayaka gave him snacks). As you work around the estate, he gets tiredâcurse this cat body and itâs perpetual need for napping!âand you tuck him gently into your eri*. Thoma lays nestled against your chest warmly, his body light and still as you continue your work.Â
 The gardens of the Kamisato estate is a disaster zone, and after the first few days, thoma knows to avoid it.Â
 He had strolled past, early in his transformationâand been startled by his own reflection in the pond he passed by, the fish swimming away in a hurry as he ran across the gardens in surprise. A second time, he had spent twelve minutes chasing a butterfly while Ayato watched with a signature smile⊠he will likely not let him forget it.Â
 Thankfully, heâs not needed much in the gardens, and he sits perched atop a high shelf in the kitchens, his tail sways as he leans forward⊠very much ready to leap and steal some foodâbefore you pluck him up and raise an eyebrow.
 His ears flatten in realisation, but you rub his cheeks and tuck him back into your clothesâgrabbing some leftover pears from the dessert the kitchens were making, letting him munch on it while you get back to work.Â
Venti ;
You didnât think Venti could become even more of an airhead on a typical day as he does when he becomes a cat. He gets distracted by the smallest things and wanders offâleading to a wild goose chase where you have to ask around for a small darkly coloured cat with blue highlights on its ears and tailâa very distinct cat!âand being pointed in every direction possible.
 Only to discover him napping in a crate full of apples in an alley you walked past at least six times just in the last fifteen minutes.Â
 He is also very vocal, Venti says anything that comes to his mind⊠which is unfortunately nothing but meowing nonsense to your ears, but you nod along as if you understand, having a halfway conversation with the lively cat.Â
 Somehow, he very much likes to play and nap like heâs being paid to do it at the same time. In one moment, heâs swatting at your clothes and trying to get to play with your fingersâwhich he accidentally bites and scratches in his excitement, quickly rectifying it with some licks and nuzzlesâand the next, heâs passed out cold in a box or on a shelf for five hours.
 He doesnât seem embarrassed by these new catlike instincts, such as the need to groom himselfâhe even starts grooming you halfway through his coat, youâre sure your skin is very much clean by the time he finally turns back to himself.Â
 Unlike normal cats, who move and settle down elsewhere when the person under them gets up⊠Venti is not happy about being disturbed nor that youâre trying to get up, he whines and kneads on your clothes to try and get you to stay a little bit longer, giving you the best big kitten eyes he can muster.
 And damn him, it works. He knows what heâs doing.Â
 You had been looking for him one morning, thinking he just wandered off again and youâd find him napping in some corner of the city⊠when Diluc approaches you with a sheepish looking Venti-cat, holding him by the scruff of his neck. âThis yours?â
 Diluc doesnât even seem surprised that the bard is a cat. At least he isnât an allergy risk when heâs human-like and trying to get into his wares.Â
Wanderer ;
He is very aware of himself, he knows he looks stupid (cute) and that everything he does will be looked at through the lens of a typical cat and not someone stuck in its body.
 And thus, he does all he can to be as eerie and unnatural a cat as he can be.
 He doesnât make a single sound, no meowing, no purring, nothing. He doesnât walk like a catâthankfully he doesnât walk on two legsânor does he exhibit any of their typical behaviours.
 At least, that was the plan.Â
 Every single time Wanderer catches himself doing anything that could be considered âcat-likeâ, such as grooming himself, chasing a loose string, or gods forbid⊠kneadingâhe will immediately stop and compose himself again.
 As opposed to some others, he absolutely hates the loss of control that follows becoming a cat.Â
 He canât write properly, he canât communicateâand if he tries, no one but you and perhaps Nahida takes him seriouslyâheâs always sleepy and aware at strange times⊠he hates it!Â
 And once when he was just trying to have some grapes for snacksâyou suddenly leapt towards him to stop him, taking the bowl off the table with a relieved huff when you noticed he hadnât swallowed any of it⊠after you pried the grape out of his mouth. At his hissing, you explained that cats canât have grapes.Â
 He gave you the cold fur-shoulder for at least two days.Â
 You brought him out one time to get some fresh airâsince heâs fully aware of himself, he shouldnât run off and get lost, or into a dangerous situation like an indoor cat might. But when you gave some other cats around the streets of Sumeru attention, he quickly meowed in protest and whacked the other cats away.Â
 Itâs a bit cute⊠he doesnât normally act so forthcoming, and as he bumps his head into your knee afterwards, you rub his cheeks and pinch his ears despite further protest. How cute!
Wriothesley ;
At first, you werenât even sure if Wriothesley was just a âcatâ. Heâs huge*.Â
 You put a bowl in front of him, filled with foods that are okay for cats to eat but also not⊠gross, as Wriothesley is very much aware in that cat-head of his. âCâmon, thereâs nothing wrong with this, I even tasted itâitâs a bit bland âcause we canât put any seasoning, but itâs food.â
 He leans down, and for a second you think that heâs going to eat itâbut as his whiskers brush against the sides of the bowl, he lifts his head abruptly and swats at the bowl, clattering it to the groundâhe didnât mean to hit it at all, but also not this hard.Â
 You scratch your head, you just canât figure out why he wonât eatâyouâve tried everything!
 It took you several hours of back and forth questions and meowing to realise that it was the shape of the bowl that was the problem and not the food itself.
 On another day, you reach down to pet his soft, thick furâonly to get a static shock, it zaps your fingers and both of you jump back. You always have to be careful with petting him, as thereâs always a risk of getting zapped at any time. Worst part is, itâs not even every time! It catches you off guard!
 He likes to climb and jump on the pipes that web around the fortress, getting into places heâs never even considered beforeâand sometimes you look around for him for hours before giving up⊠only to suddenly be leapt on from above by a nine kilogram heavy cat half your size, knocking you over.
 Siegwinne noticed that he had been brooding lately, he had been stuck as a cat for five days now and it was beginning to frustrate him. So she decided to soak a small blanket in tea mixed with catnipâafter it was dry and she rubbed some more on it, she laid it out in his officeâŠ
 You watched him for a good long while as he rubbed against it, meowed and rolled on the blanket. It was unbearably adorable, but you eventually pulled him away after a whileâworrying it might be too much.
 Heâs so large that itâs almost like sleeping with a person, just a very furry one. He lies halfway over you and as you wake in the morningâhe refuses to get up. You give in and relax in bed for a while⊠until he starts kneading your cheeks, leaving small scratches with his big paws and claws. You donât stop himâit doesnât hurt, he looks so focused, like heâs trying to squeeze something out of your cheeks.Â
Xiao ;
He meows and wriggles in your arms, but you try your best to hold him until you reach the top of the innâhe swats at you and you finally let him go when you enter his usual reserved room. Despite being paws up when you let go of him, Xiao lands perfectly and immediately hops up to the highest vantage point in the room he could reach.Â
 You donât get him down by yourself, he only comes down willingly after a few hours when heâs calmed down and adjusted a bit to this form. Youâre not entirely sure what happened, you had just been exploring a cave that was strangely entwined with a temple of sorts, when a bright light appeared behind you, and Xiaoâwho had been accompanying youâwas suddenly a cat. A very small cat.Â
 He loafs on the windowsill in the night, his tail wrapped around his paws as he peers towards the skyâat the slightest noise, his ears flicker towards it and he squints at the roads below that pass and surround the large inn.Â
 He is unbothered. Firm. Stoic.
 ⊠after getting wet under a pouring rain that persisted all day, he pretends not to be bothered by his wet fur and the uncomfortable existence he leads under this blanket of wet furâŠ
 But he can only pretend for so long. You turn away and pretend to busy yourself to allow him some privacy to reluctantly lick along his fur and smooth it down, trying to clean or groom it in a way that makes it less sloppy.Â
 He hates it, this weird satisfaction that comes with this very primal instinct, and yet, he does still feel the satisfaction.
 Xiao is difficult to read on an average day, heâs very used to controlling his emotions and maintaining a front thatâs difficult to get past.
 But as a cat⊠heâs an open book, he approaches you with a curled tail, he slow blinks at you when you drag your fingers through his fur as he loafs on the windowsill.Â
 But he does. Not. Meow.Â
 Except for that time you hauled his ass back to the inn⊠and when Zhongli makes a sudden appearance, he hops from his perched position and snakes around the former Archonâs legs, purring and meowing as heâs being petted and spoken to. He doesnât notice his own behaviourâŠ
 Not until the following night after Zhongli leaves, and Xiao is mortified that he behaved like an affection-depraved cat in front of Morax.
 Thankfully you sliding a comb through his fur and untangling some knots from the day distracts and calms him down in the evening.
Zhongli ;
At first, you werenât even sure if Zhongli was actually aware he was a cat, he follows you around, sits on a bench and licks his paw to clean it while you shop for groceries⊠he chases anything shiny that you come across and swats at it with his paws, leaps at it and tries to capture itâusually rocks or mora people drop. Maybe he likes the mineral, maybe itâs the shine. You canât really know.
 You try to give him some nice food, cut down nicely so he wonât accidentally choke on it⊠but he wonât eat it, not unless you plate it properlyâŠ? At least, when you rearranged it better and separated the meats from the greens, he seemed to like it more. Maybe he thought you were treating him a bit too much like a pet rather than a partner thatâs unfortunately become a cat for a (hopefully) limited time.
 After a long day of⊠not doing much, Zhongli realised he had left scratches on the sides of some furniture and he tries to hide or cover them up for the time being, dragging a blanket over the arm of a divan in the living room⊠hopefully you wonât discover them and he can fix it after heâs back to normal before you notice.
 You do notice that he very much prefers specific textures, he doesnât like walking on the hardwood floor of your home and instead prefers to lie down or sit on blankets or the silken sheets in your shared bedroom.Â
 Despite the strange predicament, Zhongli is very calm, heâs both patient and has a good senseâif this was a dangerous curse or spell that was difficult to reverse, he would likely sense it. Instead, he considers using this time to show and receive affection in a way you havenât been able to before.Â
 He often sits by your legs or thighs, he winds around them and rubs his furry cheeks along your clothes and pretty much anywhere he can reach. Your legs when heâs winding around them, your hand when you reach out to pet him, your cheek when he stands on your chest when youâre trying to read in bed before sleeping.Â
 He purrs and cuddles with you, laying in your arms or over your lapâhe even hid in your bag once when you went out for the day, and you discovered it too late to take him back home (you did wonder why your bag felt heavier than usual) and thus, he has the pleasure of accompanying you to your workâsomething he doesnât often get the excuse or time to do.Â
 Thankfully, Hu Tao didnât question it when you came to her and said that Zhongli couldnât come to work for a few days (hopefully just a few days). If anything, she sighed in relief and said something about him finally using his paid time off and sick days. Then thanks you for taking him out of commission???Â
 You pour over some scrolls and papers to try and figure out how to turn Zhongli back, and he hops onto the desk in the study, nuzzling against your arm before sitting down, tail swaying as he joins you in searching for ways to bring him back to you in a more familiar form. Despite how cute he is like this.Â
* eri is the collar-flap on the front of a kimono/yukata that crosses over the chest, he's tucked into it and lying on his back. if you know about the nioh cat clock scene, yeah.
* wriothesley is supposed to be a maine coon type of cat, just huge and heavy. but not wild cat huge.
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A Puddle in Running Shoes A.H.
summary: your boyfriend finds out you have a praise kink and is having way too much fun with that information
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pairings: aaron hotchner x fem!reader
warnings: some suggestive content, hotch being a menace, reader having a praise kink, end suggests something may happen but nothing explicit in this one folks im getting my libido under control swear, also count how many times r refers to hotch's face as stupid im crying
wc: 1.9k
You hated running. No, correction, loathed it. Detested it. Despised it with every fiber of your being. If there was a stronger word, one that captured the burning, irrational rage you felt whenever someone suggested going for a jog, Spencer might have known it, but you couldn't bring yourself to care enough to ask. Simply put, running was not your thing.
But when Aaron, your boyfriend and somehow the most persistent man alive, asked you to join you on a run, you couldn't exactly say no. He didn't beg, Aaron Hotchner did not beg, but his version of asking, that soft it'd mean a lot to me paired with an encouraging smile, was close enough to begging in your book. Besides, you figured there'd be some sort of reward when you got back home. Aaron was good at those.
So here you were, contributing absolutely nothing to your marathon-obsessed, fitness-loving FBI boyfriend's training. Sweat coated every inch of your body, your legs felt like lead, and your lungs burned with every ragged breath you managed to suck in. The sun blazed overhead, making you feel more like a roasting chicken than a willing participant in this so-called fun activity.
Aaron, on the other hand, looked like he'd stepped out of a fitness ad, shirt clinging to him in ways that felt outright scandalous. Even the sweat on his face somehow made him look even more attractive.
He was at least ten paces ahead of you and every few steps, he'd glance over his shoulder, probably checking to make sure you hadn't spontaneously combusted or snuck off to find an air-conditioned cafe. Honestly, both were real possibilities.
Aaron's pace slowed until he was running beside you, throwing you a smile so unfairly handsome it made your legs feel weaker than they already did.
"How are you feeling?" The question felt retorical, anyone, profiler or not, was sure to be able to read you like an open book right now. "Still alive, or do I need to start figuring out the best way to carry you home without breaking any traffic laws?"
"I think I'm alive," you managed between gasps, wiping sweat from your brow. "But if carrying me is on the table, I'm not above playing dead to make that happen."
"Not necessary, I'd carry you anyway, if only to reward you for keeping up this long. You're doing great."
You foot caught a crack in the pavement, nearly hurling yourself into it, but Aaron's hand was there quicker keeping you upright as you tried to ignore the terrifying way your body had reacted to his compliment.
"Okay you can't just say stuff like that while I'm trying to run," you blurted out, avoiding his gaze. "You're trying to kill me, I swear."
You planted your hands on your hips, still trying to catch your breath, secretly relieved to have a break, even if it almost involved a face-first meeting with the sidewalk.
"Stuff like what?" He tugged at your ponytail and you swatted his hand.
"Nothing," you said way too quickly, shaking your head like you could physically toss what you said aside. "Forget I said anything. Let's just... keep running."
You quickly realized your mistake as soon as you started jogging again. You would never willingly suggest to keep running. Unfortunately, Aaron was actively aware of this, moving to come up beside you. You didn't need to look at him to know he had the stupidest smirk on his face.
He didn't say anything at first, to your immediate relief, just kept jogging beside you. The silence stretched on, his calm breathing only seeming to make your wheezing sound worse.
"You're breathing too shallow," he said after a moment, his tone completely casual like he wasn't even winded. "Try to take deeper breaths, match them to your strides. It'll make it easier."
You glanced towards him out of the corner of your eye before attempting his suggestion. You had no intention of letting him know that it worked. His ego was far too substantial for that.
"See? You're a natural," he said, shooting you a sidelong glance. "Atta girl."
Your brain flatlined and you almost tripped over your feet again, every rational thought replaced by static. What was wrong with you? You vaguely remembered reading somewhere that people with unresolved daddy issues were prone to developing praise kinks. Was that what this was? Whatever the reason, hearing Aaron talk like that shouldn't make you feel all gooey inside, but here you were, a puddle in running shoes.
"You okay?"
"Yeah, yup, fine!"
You stared at the ground so intensely, it was a miracle you didn't bore a hole into the pavement. Your voice had betrayed you, far too shaky and way too rushed, and you knew Aaron was probably filing away every bit of your reaction.
"Hey," he said softly, his hand brushing against the back of your neck as he spoke. "Stop staring at the ground. You'll run better if you keep your head up, it'll open your chest so you can breathe easier."
His hand lingered for a second too long than what your body could handle, leaving you completely flustered and fighting every urge to do exactly the opposite of what he said.
"There you go," he murmured, a small, approving smile tugging at his lips. "That's good, honey. Just like that."
His voice, his god forsaken voice, was like lightning to your system, and not in a good way. Or maybe it was a good way, which was the problem. It was bad enough to hearing it out here, on the jogging trail, but your brain decided to replay it in an entirely different inappropriate context: one that involved you, him, and a bed.
Your face burned, and you couldn't tell if it was from the exertion, or the very real possibility that your body was too receptive to those words. And now, not only were you fighting for every breath, but you were trying to figure out if the dampness between your legs was entirely from sweat. Surely it was sweat. Right? Gods, you hoped it was sweat.
You stopped so suddenly that Aaron jogged a few steps ahead before he realized you were not longer beside him.
"Okay, I'm calling it. I'm done. Can we please go home now?"
He jogged back to you, an easy smile on his face, and placed his hands on your shoulders as he reached you.
"Alright, we can be done," he teased, thumbs brushing lightly over your collarbones. "You survived, and you did great. I'm proud of you."
He leaned down then, pressing a soft, lingering kiss to your lips that made the ache in your body a little easier to ignore.
When he pulled away, you barely managed to keep standing.
Aaron let out a low laugh, his hands squeezing your shoulders. "Alright. What's going on? What's wrong with you?"
"I don't know what you're talking about," you said over your shoulder, practically power walking towards the car.
Aaron's laugh deepened and you ignored the funny feeling curling in your chest.
"Sweetheart," he said, gently tugging your elbow to slow you down. "Come on, talk to me."
"There's nothing to talk about, I'm fine!" You avoided his eyes as you tugged your elbow free. "I'm just tired, and, uh, need a shower."
AÂ cold shower, your brain screamed, but you shoved the thought down.
"I know, I know you're tired," he said, lips curving into a smile, "but that's because you actually pushed yourself. I'm proud of you for sticking with it."
You were pretty convinced you were you were about to go up in flames. Your obituary would read death by too many unnecessary compliments. When your heart inevitably gave out, Aaron would have to explain to Rossi and the others how his dumb smile and sweet words had resulted in second degree manslaughter.
But then you saw it, the smirk. The one that said he absolutely knew what he was doing.
"Oh my gosh, you know!" You groaned and threw your hands in the air. "You know, and you're enjoying this!"
Spinning away from him, you stormed to the car, and slammed the door like it might shield you from his stupidly smug face.
You barely had time to exhale before the passenger door swung open, revealing Aaron, casually leaning against the car.
"You know," he said lightly, his tone far too casual for your liking, "slamming car doors isn't a great habit. You could hurt yourself."
"And you know," you snapped back, pointing at him, "torturing your girlfriend isn't a great habit either!"
He leaned in slowly, his fingers brushing against your shoulder as he grabbed your seatbelt. As he clicked it into place, his face lingered close to yours.
"I wasn't trying to torture you, baby. Just wanted to give you the chance to admit it, that you liked it."
Before you could muster a reply, Aaron's hand slid up to cradle your face, his thumb moving along your cheek. He leaned in, capturing your lips in a kiss that was so deep, leaving you no choice but to sink into it, even as the faint remnants of your annoyance tried to surface.
By the time he pulled back, you felt like you were under his spell. Then, without another word, he shut your door and headed to the driver's side.
"That's not fair," you muttered, crossing your arms and pouting as you stared out the window.
Aaron's hand found the back of your neck as he backed out of the parking spot, rubbing gently into smooth circles.
"I don't mean to be unfair," he said with a small smile. "I just needed to hear it, because sometimes people don't even realize what they need until they say it out loud. And I wanted to make sure I didn't misread anything, though I'm rarely wrong, as you know."
"Trust me, you remind me every chance you get." Your tone was dry, but you were well aware that the twitch in your lip was giving you away.
"Alright, smartass," he said, chuckling as his fingers pressed a little firmer into your neck. "Now tell me, how does it make you feel when I say those things to you?"
You groaned, burying your face in your hands. "I don't know, okay? I just... like it! Do I have to explain it?"
"You don't have to explain it if you don't want to," he said, "but I'd like to know what it is you like so much."
Aaron's hand moved from your neck to your hand, his fingers sliding between each of yours while his eyes stayed glued to the road, a thing that only came from months of familiar motions.
You let out a long breath. "I don't know. I just like hearing it. It makes me feel good. Special, I guess."
"You are special, sweetheart." His eyes flicked to you before returning to the road. "You're my best girl."
Your stomach flipped violently. You shifted again, trying to disguise the way your thighs pressed together tightly as your face burned hotter than ever. The debate earlier in your head was officially over, absolutely not just sweat, you thought miserably.
Aaron let out a soft chuckle, fingers brushing over your knuckles. "Something I said?"
You swatted his shoulder, your glare losing all its bite thanks to the flush all over your body. "You're enjoying this way too much."
"I can't help it," he murmured, voice dipping just enough to get you on edge. "But don't worry, I'll take care of my best girl once we're home."
You slumped in your seat, muttering something unintelligible that made Aaron chuckle again. And even though you wouldn't admit it, you found yourself smiling, already dreading and anticipating whatever he had planned when you got home.
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DPXDC prompt: Greatest Treasure
In Gotham, there was a new rogue named Box Ghost who had been stealing random things. But, as his name suggests, the random things he stole all were boxes or box shaped. He stole from stores and pharmacies as long as they had a box shape. They were all random, and it didn't matter what inside of the boxes.
To name a few, he stole food that was packed in boxes, packaged furniture, toys, clothes, shipment, diapers, blankets, fishing gear, books, bags, jewelries, etc.
Then, there came the rumors. Despite all the boxes, he had a box that he loved the most. "The Greatest Treasure".
It became a man hunt soon after as many speculated it may be expensive things inside, maybe gold bars since that's box shaped.
As people (not only rogues bc normal people also need money, duh), they started frantically searching for "The Greatest Treasure".
It was too chaotic and the bats knew that they had to act quickly. Time was against them and it was running quickly as practically EVERY gothamites were searching for it.
Idk who manages to find it, maybe a rogue, maybe one of the bats, but they managed to trick Box Ghost from being away from the box he was guarding.
He was guarding it so desperately that it made them wonder what exactly was in the box that made him go bat shit.
Inside the box were two children, one older and the other an infant, sleeping peacefully next to each other, covered in blankets and toys.
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Box Ghost had to flee Amity Park alone. In his arms were 2 vulnerable children. One is his own daughter and the other is a de-aged Phantom. His wife stayed behind to give him more time.
The GIW had been capturing anyone that was 'infected' with ectoplasm. As Amity Park was full of it, a lot of people were, of course, exposed to it.
Maddie and Jack, after discovering that their son was kidnapped by the GIW otw home from school, they pretended they were on the GIW's side.
As soon as they located their son and had a chance, they broke out and freed everyone who was captured thereâwell, anyone who was still existing.
Box Ghost, Lunch Lady, and Box Lunch were some of the few there and were surprised when they were handed an infant version of Phantom.
There was absolutely no time for any explanation for that, so as the Fentons helped fend off the enemies, Box Ghost and Lunch Lady were both carrying a child in their arms.
They had to get separated from the Fentons as they sacrificed themselves for the sake of their now-infant son.
But, they were ambushed once more by the white agents. Lunch Lady, carrying their daughter, shoved her at him and told him to run.
Box Ghost tried to refuse, but she yelled at him so fiercely. Full of love and tears, but she would do anything for their family.
She turned into a large meat monster to be a better target and to keep eyes away from her fleeing husband, roaring at anyone and fighting against them as best as she could as a distraction.
Box Ghost fled. He had two children to protect now. His daughter was clinging to him tightly while shutting her eyes. Phantom still sleeping, dressed in rags and covered in stitches.
He didn't know where his friends were, but he had no time to think about that. He had two children to care for, so he needed to prioritise a place to run to.
The only place he knew with enough ambient ectoplasm was Gotham. It may take him some time to get there, but he needs to get to safety.
When he stole in Gotham, he may have kept stealing anything that was box-shaped, but many things are in box-shaped containers now, and he couldn't let anyone know what he was stealing. So, what he stole may have been random, but some were needed, and some were distractions. He couldn't let anyone go after his 'Greatest Treasure'.
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đ« The Natal Vertex in the Houses: Where Fate Finds You
The Vertex isnât loud. It doesnât arrive with sirens or spotlights. It arrives like a shift in the wind, like a glance that lingers, like a door you didnât know you were meant to walk through. In the birth chart, the Vertex is a portal. To people. To lessons. To moments that reroute your life. Itâs where the universe takes the wheel, even if you thought you knew where you were going.
Each house placement reveals where fate waits for you, softly, silently, but without fail.
Vertex in the 1st House
Fate arrives through moments that force you to meet yourself. Youâll be nudged, no, thrown, into situations that strip away the versions of you that were never truly yours. Youâre here to become someone you havenât yet met. Someone stronger, bolder, realer. The universe will place you in front of mirrors, disguised as challenges, lovers, strangers, until you finally say: âThis is who I am. And Iâm not hiding anymore.â
Vertex in the 2nd House
You will think you know your worth. And then life will test it. Over and over. You are destined to redefine what has value, not just in the world, but in yourself. Through losses, gains, and the aching in-between, youâll learn that your value isnât in what you offer, but in what you are. Fate will show up in the form of what you think you need, only to teach you what you truly deserve.
Vertex in the 3rd House
Your turning points come not through chaos, but through conversations, questions, and words that stay with you. Someone says something you werenât ready to hear. You stumble upon a book, a phrase, a memory, and suddenly everything shifts. Fated moments come disguised as everyday ones. A message missed the first time. A voice that cracks something open in you. Youâre here to rewrite the story you were told, and learn how to speak your own into existence.
Vertex in the 4th House
Fate doesnât knock on your front door. It knocks on the door inside your chest. This placement ties your destiny to the roots you never chose and the healing you must choose. Family, ancestry, home, these will feel like mazes at first. But fate will push you into rooms that demand forgiveness, softness, reclamation. Youâre here to come home to yourself, even if you had to leave everything familiar to do so.
Vertex in the 5th House
Youâre not here to live safely. Youâre here to feel everything deeply, to love without apology, to create without asking for permission. Fate will place you in front of people or passions that awaken the version of you that dances in the flames. Children, art, romance, risk. They may break your heart open, but only so youâll finally use it fully. This is the house of remembering joy, and daring to keep it.
Vertex in the 6th House
You donât find your destiny in grand moments. You find it in the mundane. In the habits that heal you, the routines that ground you, the tasks that secretly build you. Fate asks you to serve, not to shrink, but to rise with purpose. Your turning points may come through work, health, sacrifice, or service, but they will always come with meaning. Youâre here to learn that healing is holy, and purpose is found in the details.
Vertex in the 7th House
You were never meant to walk this path alone. Fate arrives wearing the face of another. Not just lovers, teachers, soul mirrors, adversaries. People who crack you open, rearrange you, and leave fingerprints on your becoming. This is the house of union, but not comfort. It is through connection that you unearth your edges, and choose to soften them. Youâre here to meet the one who reveals you to yourself.
Vertex in the 8th House
Fate doesnât arrive quietly here. It arrives in loss, rebirth, seduction, secrets, surrender. Youâre not here to live on the surface. Youâre here to dive, to the depths of intimacy, trauma, transformation. Fated events will force you to shed skin after skin, learning what power really means. It is in your most unraveling moments that you will become someone unshakable.
Vertex in the 9th House
Destiny takes the long way with you. Across oceans, languages, ideologies. You will be changed by what you donât yet understand. Fate whispers through the unfamiliar, the beliefs that unsettle you, the truths that demand expansion. Youâre here to chase meaning. And life will place you in foreign places, literal or spiritual, until you realize: home was never a location. It was freedom.
Vertex in the 10th House
This is the house of becoming. Fate will not let you hide. Public identity, career, legacy, these are not just ambitions, they are soul contracts. You are meant to leave a mark, but first life will strip away everything you thought success meant. Then, it will give you something real to rise with. Youâre here to take up space, not for the applause, but because you finally believe you belong.
Vertex in the 11th House
Fate shows up in friendships, visions, revolutions. You are here to connect, to tribe, to truth, to the future. You may feel like an outsider until you find your soul circle, the ones who recognize the fire in your chest and say âme too.â Your path involves something bigger than just you. Movements. Causes. Ideas that will outlive you. You're here to belong, not just anywhere, but somewhere that sets you free.
Vertex in the 12th House
Destiny is not loud here, itâs intuitive, invisible, soaked in dĂ©jĂ vu. You are guided by something you canât quite name. Fated experiences will feel spiritual, strange, deeply karmic. Loss, solitude, dreams, and secrets will shape your path. But this is also the house of transcendence. Youâre here to release what isnât yours, forgive what never apologized, and surrender to something higher. Fate doesnât just find you, it flows through you.
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For Science
(A Closer To Home Blurb)
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Female Reader
Word Count: 3.1k
Synopsis: Science demands answers. And when your boyfriend happens to be a genetically enhanced super soldier, well⊠some questions are simply too intriguing to ignore.
The challenge is set, the air between you electric. Bucky might have super-soldier stamina, but you? You have determination. And thereâs only one way to find out who taps out first.
For science, of course. Trigger Warnings: Mild Sexual Themes; Explicit Innuendo; Light Dom/Sub Dynamics; Flirty Banter with a Competitive Edge; References to Trauma (Brief mention of Buckyâs past); BUCKY BARNES BEING A MENACE !!!!
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Authorâs Note: This is set within the Closer To Home world, but it can be read as a standalone. I wrote it as one of the first things and it's a little spoiler of what's to come for them relationship-wise (*cough cough* labels *cough cough*) but I couldn't resist sharing it. Hope you like it! B x
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Curiosity was a funny little thing.
It had a way of sneaking in, settling in the corners of your mind like a cat making itself comfortable on an unoccupied chair. It stretched, yawned, extended its claws, and before you knew it, it dug them in, impossible to ignore. It whispered, nudged, demanded attention, poking at the thoughts you tried to bury beneath layers of logic and restraint.
Thatâs why dating Bucky Barnes was a problem.
Because he wasnât just a person. He was a living, breathing, walking contradiction, a story begging to be unraveled. And you? You were a journalist to your core, a person who thrived on understanding the depths of things, the untold truths hiding beneath the surface. You werenât just curiousâyou were driven. And Bucky, with his quiet demeanor and storm-filled past, was the ultimate enigma.
You had promised yourself you wouldnât pry. You respected him, respected the journey he was on. You had read the files, you knew the history, at least the version that had been documented. And yet, there were questions, so many questions, buzzing in your mind like a radio stuck between frequencies.
And tonight, sitting in your apartment with Bucky stretched out on the couch, those questions felt louder than ever.
The domesticity of it all was what really got to you. The contrast between the myth, the legend, the ghost of a soldier who rewrote history, and the man now lying on your couch in grey sweatpants and a fitted black t-shirt, sock-clad feet resting on the armrest. He looked⊠soft. At ease, even. The glow of the television cast a faint blue hue over his face, his vibranium arm catching the light in fleeting glints as he absentmindedly tapped his fingers against his stomach.
And it made you wonder.
Not about the mission reports or the classified files, but the little things. The gaps in his story that paperwork couldnât fill. The nuances, the memories, the pieces of him that werenât written down but were just as real.
You turned a page in your book without really reading it, your fingers skimming the edge absently. Your eyes flickered up, drawn to him like a magnet, lingering just a beat too long.
Bucky must have sensed your distraction because, without looking away from the screen, he spoke. âI can feel you staring.â
There was a hint of amusement in his voice, the corners of his mouth twitching upward. It was subtle, but you caught it.
You bit your lip, shifting in your seat, debating whether or not to ask what was on your mind. Guilt gnawed at you, but curiosity was louder.
âCan I ask you something?â
He finally glanced at you, smirking. âYou just did.â
You rolled your eyes, but your lips betrayed you with a small smile. The teasing was newâsubtle, cautious, but there. A part of him he seemed to be rediscovering, piece by piece, the more time he spent with you.
âSmartass.â
His grin widened slightly. âWhatâs on your mind, sweetheart?â
You hesitated. Just for a second. Then, with a quiet exhale, you shut your book and set it aside, leaning forward. Elbows on your knees, fingers twisting together as you searched for the right words.
âItâs about the serum.â
The change in him was instant. His easy smirk faltered, replaced by something more guarded. His shoulders tensed almost imperceptibly, his eyes flickering with something unreadable.
He exhaled sharply through his nose, shaking his head as he leaned back. âWhat, exactly?â
âI donât want to pry,â you said quickly. âYou donât have to answer if you donât want to. I was just⊠wondering.â
He studied you for a moment, as if weighing something in his mind. This. This was what got you about him. That even after everythingâafter decades of being used, after having his agency ripped awayâhe still gave people a chance. Gave you the benefit of the doubt. He could have shut you down, told you to never bring it up again, and you wouldnât have blamed him. But he was listening.
Instead of answering right away, you pushed yourself out of your chair and made your way over to the couch. He watched as you settled in beside him, forcing him to shift and sit up, his arm draping across the back of the cushions as he turned to face you head-on.
âAlright,â you started, exhaling slowly.
Bucky cocked an eyebrow. His gaze flicked over you, assessing, like he could see the tension in your shoulders, the way you were working up the nerve to push forward. âThis should be good.â
You reached out without thinking, your hands resting on both his thighs, giving a gentle squeeze. A grounding touchâfor you or for him, you werenât sure.
âAlright,â you repeated, tilting your head slightly. âIs there a difference between your serum and Steveâs? Physically, I mean.â
Buckyâs gaze flicked down briefly, noting the way your hands fidgeted against his thighs. His brow twitchedâjust a littleâbut he didnât call you on it. Instead, his lips quirked at the corner, dry amusement flickering in his expression.
âDidnât know you were so interested in science,â he mused.
You exhaled sharply, rolling your eyes. âIâm interested in you,â you corrected before you could think better of it.
The words landed heavier than you expected, sinking into the space between you. Bucky breathed in. His throat bobbed as he swallowed, and you didnât miss the way his fingers twitched against his knee. A faint flush crept over his cheeks, subtle but unmistakable.
He cleared his throat, rubbing a hand over his jaw, buying himself a moment. âThere are some differences,â he admitted finally, his voice quieter now, more thoughtful. âSteveâs serum was perfectedâthe version Erskine meant to create. Mine⊠wasnât.â His jaw tightened, his gaze unfocused like he was looking at something far away. âHydra tried to replicate it, but they never quite got it right. It still made me stronger, faster, butâŠâ He trailed off, lips pressing into a thin line.
You nodded slowly, watching the way his fingers flexed againâmuscle memory of something darker.
âHow does it feel?â you asked, your voice softer now. âFor you, whatâs it like? Is it something you can actively feel, or is it just⊠there?â
Bucky was quiet for a long moment, as if weighing whether to answer at all. His jaw flexed, and his eyes dropped to his metal hand, turning it over as if seeing it for the first time. His fingers curled experimentally before straightening again, the quiet whir of machinery barely audible - a physical manifestation of the power that ran through his veins.
âItâs always there,â he finally said, voice lower now, a little rough. âLike an engine running in the background. You donât have to think about it, but you know itâs there. The strength, the speed⊠itâs not something I have to call on. It just is. My body reacts before I do.â
There was something about the way he said it, something that made heat creep up your neck. You swallowed, your curiosity veering sharply away from scientific and into far more dangerous territory.
âIs it just strength and speed?â you asked, tilting your head, your voice a little lighter, a little breathless, a little too casual. âOr are there other⊠enhancements?â
Buckyâs brow lifted slightly at your tone, and you quickly cleared your throat, eyes stubbornly locked on the center of his chest. It didnât help.
âLike what?â His voice had dropped just a fraction, enough to send a shiver down your spine.
You forced yourself to keep your composure, though you could feel your pulse picking up. âReflexes? Body temperature? Sleep? Endurance? Whatâs the heaviest thing you can lift?â
Bucky exhaled through his nose, shaking his head with something caught between amusement and curiosity. âGod, you really thought about this, havenât you?â
âYou have no idea,â you admitted, then immediately winced, your nervous laugh bubbling up before you could stop it.
Bucky didnât miss a beat. His lips curled into something dangerously close to a smirk as he leaned in, just enough to make your breath hitch. âThat so?â
Your brain screamed at you to backpedal, but your mouth had other plans. âMmhmm.â You crossed your arms, attempting a look of nonchalance, which was entirely ruined by the warmth spreading over your skin. âI mean, itâs not every day you meet someone with literal super-soldier genetics. Itâs, uh⊠fascinating.â
âFascinating, huh?â Buckyâs voice was smoother now, teasing, his gaze sweeping over you in a way that made your stomach flip.
âDonât get cocky.â
âToo late,â Bucky murmured.
You ignored him, reaching out to press a hand over the smirk he directed at you. âDo you get tired the same way normal people do?â
Bucky tilted his head, considering, flesh hand wrapping around your wrist. âNot really,â he admitted. âI can go for a long time before I feel it.â
Your brows lifted. âHow long?â
He shrugged. âDepends. I can run for hours. Fight for hours. I donât really hit a wall.â
âThatâs⊠something,â you muttered, mind already running in a direction you probably shouldnât be entertaining.
Bucky chuckled, low and knowing. âHave I impressed you yet?â
âStop that.â You pinched his thigh, watching as his muscle barely reacted. You chewed your lip, thinking. âSo, like. What about sweat?â
He huffed. âI sweat. You know I sweat,â he said, giving you a pointed look.
Oh, you knew. You knew very well.
Images flashed through your mind, beads of sweat sliding down his neck, dampening the strands of hair curling at his temples as he hovered above you. The way his shirt stuck to his chest after a run, or worseâwhen he wasnât wearing a shirt at all. You had to take a steadying breath before continuing.
âBut not as much as normal?â
âNo. My body regulates temperature better.â
You hummed. âSo you donât overheat.â
âNot easily.â
âAnd you donât cramp up.â
âNope.â
âAnd you donât get sore?â
âNope.â
âAnd you donât get drunk?â
Bucky grinned now, a slow, teasing thing. âYouâre really working through this, huh?â
âIâm invested,â you shot back, lifting your chin.
Bucky snorted. âNo, I donât really get sore. Muscles repair too fast.â
Your eyes narrowed slightly. âSo⊠if you work out, do you even get gains?â
Bucky blinked. âWhat?â
âYou know, like, gains.â You gestured vaguely at his chest. âYouâre already built, but does lifting even do anything for you?â
For a second, Bucky just stared at you. Then, to your absolute horror, he burst out laughingâa full, genuine laugh that made his shoulders shake.
âAnswer the question, James!â you demanded, fighting a grin of your own.
Still grinning, Bucky wiped a hand down his face. âYes, I can build muscle. I just donât need to.â
You groaned dramatically and reached up, sliding your hands over his chest and up to his shoulders, fingers squeezing lightly, practically groping him. Oh, who were you kidding, you were groping him. âSo youâre just built like that, huh?â
âPretty much.â His voice had dipped lower, his gaze flickering to where your hands rested against him.
You exhaled, shaking your head, eyes dragging over his body. âI hate you.â
Bucky smirked. âYou love me.â
âUnfortunately.â
He chuckled, the warmth between you lingering. His smirk softened into something lazier, more playful. âSo, whatâs the real question you wanna ask, doll?â
The way he said itâlow and deliberateâmade your brain short-circuit for a second. You fought to keep your voice even, despite the sudden warmth pooling in your stomach.
It took you a moment to gather the courage. âWhat about⊠endurance?â
Bucky frowned slightly, confused. âDidnât we already cover that?â
You shifted, resting your chin on your hand, your eyes twinkling. âNot exactly.â
His brow furrowed as he searched your face. âThen what do you mean?â
You tilted your head, studying him, eyes flickering down. You could practically see the second realization hitâthe flicker of intrigue in his eyes, the way his smirk melted, turning into something sharper.
He knew. And he was going to make you say it.Â
Bastard.
Fine. If he wanted to play this game, you werenât backing down.
âHow long could you keep it up? Keep going?â you asked, voice slow and deliberate. âIn bed?â
The words landed between you, thick with unspoken tension. Bucky didnât move, didnât breathe for a second. Then, his tongue flicked out to wet his bottom lip, and his fingers flexed slightly around your wrist.
You were definitely blushing now, heat rising to your cheeks like a slow burn, but you refused to look away. âI mean, you said you have insane stamina. How insane? Like, do you even get tired? Is it a position thing? Can you hold out, or can youââ your voice dipped lower, deliberately, teasing ââcum multiple times? How long does it take for you to recover between rounds?â
Bucky exhaled, dark lashes lowering as he regarded you with something wicked and unreadable. When he finally spoke, his voice had dropped an octave, silk and smoke.
âJesus Christ⊠Are you really asking me that right now?â
You crossed your arms, feigning innocence. âIâm just being scientific.â
Bucky huffed a laugh, shaking his head. âRight. Science my ass.â
âWell?â You raised a brow, daring him.
He ran his tongue along the inside of his cheek, exhaling sharply before leaning in just slightlyâenough that his breath ghosted over your lips. Your breath hitched.
âLike I said,â he murmured, voice curling around the words in a way that made your stomach flip, âI donât get tired like normal people do. I recover faster. And yeah, I can go multiple times.â
Your pulse stuttered.
His smirk deepened, clearly enjoying the way you squirmed, how your thighs pressed together involuntarily. âAs for how long I can lastâŠâ He tilted his head, watching your reaction, dragging out the moment just to make you suffer. âLemme put it this wayâyouâd tap out before I would.â
Your stomach flipped violently.
Oh, he was enjoying this far too much.
âIââ Your throat was dry. You cleared it quickly, but your voice still came out weaker than you intended. âThatâs bold of you to assume. And not specific enough.â
Bucky let out a short, disbelieving laugh, running a hand through his hair as he studied you. âYouâre relentless, you know that?â
âCall it obstinate.â You grinned, emboldened by the slight exasperation in his tone. âCome on, soldier. Tell me.â
âNo.â He shook his head, though his grin never wavered.
âGive me a number, Bucky.â
âWhy?â
âBecause I want to know! Câmon, just ballpark it.â
âWhy?â he asked again, this time leaning even closer, the question murmured right against the shell of your ear.
You swallowed hard, the warmth of his breath sending another wave of heat rushing through you. âBecause youâre my boyfriend. I have the right to know what Iâm working with.â
Bucky exhaled dramatically, as if you were truly exhausting him, though the amused glint in his eyes betrayed him. Then, like it was the simplest answer in the world, he shrugged. âHours.â
Your heart slammed against your ribs.
He said it so casually, so easily, like it was a simple fact. Like it wasnât going to rattle around in your head for the rest of eternity.
Your lips parted, but all that came out was an unintelligible noise, somewhere between a breath and a strangled sound of disbelief.
You recovered quickly, though. âOne hour?â
Bucky gave you a look.Â
âIs that low or high?â
His jaw clenched.Â
âOh my God, is it low? It is, isnât it?â Your hand came up to cover your lips. âDoes that include foreplay or penetration alone?â
Bucky made a strangled noise and dropped back against the couch. âDoll. I havenât⊠tested it out.â he admitted. âBut a bit more than that, Iâd think. More than two, for sure. Penatration alone.â
You blinked. Oh. Oh.
Cocky bastard.
Your lips parted, a retort already forming, but before you could utter a single word, he was stretching his arms behind his head, casual as ever. As if he hadnât just sent your entire nervous system into overdrive.
âYâknow,â he mused, his grin lazy, âI do take requests for demonstrations.â
Your jaw dropped. âJames Buchanan Barnes.â
He just grinned wider. âYou did say you were invested.â
You inhaled sharply, forcing yourself to stay composed, but he saw right through you. You saw the moment he caught itâthe slight tremor in your fingers, the way your breath hitched again, the way you had to fight to keep your expression neutral.
Bucky let a smile spread lazily over his lips, looking the perfect picture of temptation as he laid there, an Adonis in the middle of your cozy living room, sending another ripple of heat down your spine straight between your legs.
âTell you what,â he murmured, voice smooth as silk. âWe could test that theory⊠if youâre really that curious.â
Your fingers curled into the fabric of his sweatpants, fisting it. âAnd if I am?â
His brow arched, slow and knowing.
You didnât let yourself hesitate. Instead, you crawled over, grabbed him by the shirt, fingers curling into the fabric as you yanked him to his feet with you, backing toward the bedroom. Your smirk was slow, teasing, the kind that promised trouble.
âCome on,â you purred, walking backward, eyes locked on his. Your voice was thick with challenge. âLetâs see if youâre all talk.â
âRight now?â
âWhat, you need a warm-up?â
Buckyâs eyes darkened, his gaze dropping to your lips, then lower. He followed without resistance, though the muscle in his jaw flexed. âYouâre gonna regret this,â he warned, but there was no real heat in itâjust hunger.
âI wonât,â you murmured, tilting your head, the corner of your mouth quirking up. âBut the neighbors might.â
That was all the provocation he needed. Before you could react, he lunged, strong arms hooking around your thighs as he hauled you up and over his shoulder. You let out a startled yelp, squirming, but he only tightened his grip, one hand gripping the back of your thigh while the other landed a sharp slap to your ass.
The crack of it echoed, followed by your sharp gasp. Heat flared in your core, the sting shooting straight between your legs.
âI should tease you more,â you admitted breathlessly, fingers fisting the back of his shirt as he carried you toward the bedroom like you weighed nothing at all.
Bucky chuckled, dark and knowing, his hand smoothing over the place heâd just smacked before squeezing. âOh, sweetheart,â he mused, voice dripping with promise. âYou have no idea what you just started.â
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Hello! Could you do a Barty Crouch Jr. x Fem! Potter! Reader.
Where they are both in Ravenclaw and get close and end up dating in secret because of the Slytherins and the marauders. But then something happens and they break up but Barty shows up at the readers house years later to warn her about Harry, James, and Lily. They rekindle (smut if you write it. Or leads to that?)
And I was thinking about two different endings.
Ending 1: The reader later finds out sheâs pregnant and has to raise their child on her own until the triwizard tournament where their child meets their father?
Ending 2: The reader goes to godric hollow that night to try to help them but ends up dying and Barty finds her and holds her?
Or if you like both you can do two different Barty x reader!
Love your fics by the way and I am Hooked to the series!!
Making Mistakes



Barty Crouch Junior x Potter!RavenClaw!Reader
Summary: (See above) After a horrible break up in 7th year, Barty and you haven't spoken a word to eachother. Then, he comes barrelling back into your life begging for forgiveness, will you trust him?
Wc: 16.8k
CW: Angst Heavy. Hurt/Comfort, Barty and the reader are messssy. Sexual themes and scenes. Mom!Reader, AFAB!Reader, Dad!Barty, Non canon complacent, The first part of the fanfiction is focused on the reader- second is focused on Ophelia(your daughter).
The Potter Manor, once warm and full of life, now felt cold and empty. The high ceilings and ornate decorations that had once felt grand now only magnified the silence. The vibrant reds and golds of your family crest seemed muted, much like the life that had once filled these halls.
Your brother, James, was hiding somewhere even you couldn't name- hardly able to visit outside of special occasions. Your parents had been gone for over a year. The house was far too big, far too quiet, and far too lonely. It wasnât just the emptiness of the space itself- it was the absence of the people who had made it a home. Youâd told yourself that time would help, but the grief lingered, stubborn and heavy, refusing to fade.
Even now, curled up on the couch in the living room- the one you used to complain was too cramped- you felt the space around you stretch endlessly. With a blanket over your knees, the fireplace crackling softly, and a book resting on your lap, it should have felt cozy. Instead, it felt hollow. You ran your fingers absentmindedly over the cover of your book, your other hand drifting to the necklace around your neck, the small charm resting just above your heart- a lone magpie.Â
It matched your patronus. Well, it matched what your patronus had become. Once, it had been a darling doe- calm and serene, a reflection of your regal- that's what Sirius had said. Now, it was the magpie: small, fierce, and energetic. It suited you, or at least the version of you that remained. Youâd felt yourself change, slowly but surely, in the years you knew a love so dangerous it tore off parts of you that you no longer remmebered.
Your fingers traced the delicate charm as your thoughts wandered to the person who had given it to you. Barty. The weight of his name still felt the same, a complicated tangle of emotions that hadnât untwisted no matter how much time passed.Â
You could still see his face the night youâd told him you couldnât do it anymore. The way his sharp features had frozen, the defiance and anger creeping in as soon as the words left your mouth. Youâd said you couldnât keep hiding, couldnât keep pretending that what you had didnât matter. Youâd told him you were tired of the stolen glances, the whispered promises, and the constant fear of being caught.Â
But you knew now that what had hurt him most wasnât the ultimatum- it was the fear. Fear of admitting to the world what you meant to each other. Fear of what he might lose if he dared to love you openly. Fear that his world and yours were too different, too far apart to ever coexist.Â
Now, as you sat there in the flickering firelight, your thumb brushed over the charm, the memories tugging at your chest. The book on your lap remained unopened as you stared into the flames, the ache in your heart as familiar as the necklace around your neck.
~~~
The flickering candlelight painted Bartyâs sharp features in gold and shadow as he lay beside you, his bare chest rising and falling steadily. The heat of your bodies still lingered in the cool air of the room, your skin damp against the soft sheets tangled around your legs. His fingers toyed with the charm resting against your collarbone, his touch so gentle it made your heart ache.
âCrow, can we talk?â You whispered, your voice soft but firm, breaking the fragile silence that had fallen between you.
Bartyâs hand froze, his fingers brushing against the charm one last time before he let it fall against your chest. His jaw tightened, his green eyes refusing to meet yours as he shifted slightly, feigning casualness. âWhatâs there to talk about, birdie?â He murmured, his voice smooth but unconvincing. Unsatisfied your little exercise didn't make you truly forget what you intended to talk about. âWeâre here. Together. Isnât that enough?â
You sat up slightly, leaning on your elbow as you looked at him. âNo,â You said softly, the word carrying more weight than youâd intended. âItâs not.â
He finally glanced at you, his expression guarded. âYouâre overthinking again,â He said lightly, reaching out to brush a strand of hair from your face. âCanât we just- canât we just enjoy this?â
âEnjoy what?â You challenged, your voice trembling slightly. âHiding? Pretending? Barty, we canât keep doing this.â
He groaned softly, falling back onto the pillow and running a hand through his disheveled hair. âWhy do you have to ruin the moment?â He muttered, though his voice lacked its usual sharpness. âWeâre happy, arenât we? Isnât that what matters?â
âAre we happy?â You shot back, sitting up fully now, the blanket slipping from your shoulders. âBecause I donât feel happy, Barty. I feel like Iâm suffocating.â
He sat up abruptly, his eyes narrowing as he fixed you with a desperate gaze. âDonât say that,â He snapped, his voice rising slightly. âYou donât mean that.â
âI do,â You said firmly, though your voice broke slightly. âI love you, Barty, but I canât keep pretending this is enough. I need more. I need us- the real us.â
âThis is the real us,â He argued, his voice frantic now. He reached for you, his hand gripping your arm as if holding onto you could stop you from slipping away. âThis is how we work, birdie. This is how we survive. You think the world would let us be together? You think theyâd let us have this?â
âI donât care what the world thinks,â You snapped, your own desperation rising to meet his. âI care about us. But this- this isnât sustainable. Weâre tearing each other apart, Barty.â
âOf course you donât care,â He spat suddenly, his grip tightening as his green eyes blazed. âYou wouldnât. Youâre a Potter. You come from your perfect Potter family with your perfect, golden life. You wouldnât understand what itâs like to have a family like mine- to be a Crouch.â
His words cut deep, the bitterness in his tone like a slap. But you didnât flinch. Instead, you stared at him, your voice steady as you said, âDonât you dare.â
He blinked, startled by the fierceness in your tone. âWhat?â
âDonât you dare use my family as an excuse to run from what you deserve,â You said, leaning closer. âJust because my parents loved me, just because James and I grew up with something good, doesnât mean you donât deserve that too.â
He scoffed, the sound bitter and sharp. âI donât deserve that. Not with who I am. Not with my name.â
âYes, you do,â You said fiercely, your hand finding his cheek, forcing him to look at you. âYou deserve love, Barty. Real love. Not this shadow of it weâre living in. But you have to believe that, or none of this will ever work.â
He stared at you, trying to read your expression, his jaw so tight you swore you could hear ticking. His grip on you was bruising, but you ached for it. You ached for his want, his desperate need, because without it- you felt like you were falling apart.
You leaned into him, your once hot skin chilling against the air of the room. On instinct, his hands slipped away from your arm and he wrapped them around your waist. Your hands found his chest and you moved all that bit closer. âWouldn't that be a dream, Barty?â You whispered, voice strained and tears threatening to spill from your eyes. âIf- if our kids,â You choked out and his eyes widened at your admittance of something solid. That was your dream. To be so true, so real, that starting a family was the obvious next step. âOur kids talk about us how I talk about my parents? That our son- our daughter- our little wix. They knew what a love like ours could do.â
Your words hit Barty like a physical blow, and for a moment, he looked utterly stunned. His hands on your waist tightened instinctively, pulling you closer as though the sheer force of your desperation could tether him to the dream you had just dared to voice.Â
âOur kids,â He echoed, his voice hoarse and filled with something you couldnât quite place- something between longing and disbelief. His wide eyes searched yours, as if trying to find the certainty he couldnât feel within himself. âYou really think⊠that we could have that?â
âI know we could,â You said, your voice trembling but resolute. âBut only if you let us. Only if you stop running from it.â
He shook his head, his hands trembling where they gripped you. âYou donât get it, birdie,â He said, his voice breaking. âIâm not⊠Iâm not good like you. Like your parents. I donât know how to be that kind of person.â
âYou think my parents were perfect?â You asked, your voice rising in frustration, shaking. âThey werenât saints, Barty. They argued, they made mistakes- but they never stopped trying. They never stopped fighting for what they believed in, for each other. And you can do that too.â
He let out a bitter laugh, the sound almost choking on its way out. âYou donât know what youâre asking. My family isnât like yours, okay? My father only believes in appearances, in power. Heâd never accept this- heâd never accept us. And if he found outâŠâ He trailed off, his expression darkening as a shudder ran through him.
âI donât care about your father,â You said fiercely, your hands cupping his face. âI care about you. And youâre not him, Barty. Youâre not your father.â
His eyes closed at your words, as though they hurt to hear. âI donât know how to believe that,â He admitted, his voice barely a whisper. âIâve spent my whole life trying to be what he wants, and even thatâs not enough. I donât know how to be anything else.â
âYou donât have to be,â You said, your thumb brushing softly against his cheek. âYou just have to be you. And you have to let yourself believe you deserve more than what heâs made you think you do.â
He opened his eyes then, and for a moment, you saw the cracks in his carefully built walls- the vulnerability he worked so hard to hide. âAnd what if I canât?â He whispered. âWhat if I ruin us?â
âThen we fight through it,â You said, your voice firm even as tears threatened to spill. âWe keep trying, just like my parents did. Just like I know we can. You donât have to be perfect, Barty. You just have to let yourself love me.â
His breath slowed, his hands sliding up your back as he pulled you into a desperate embrace. His head dipped into the crook of your neck, and you felt the wetness of his tears against your skin. âI do love you,â He said, his voice raw. âI love you so much it hurts. It scares the hell out of me, birdie.â
âI know,â You murmured, your hands threading through his hair. âI know, Barty. But love isnât supposed to be easy. Itâs supposed to be worth it.â
For a moment, you thought he might let himself believe you. His arms around you felt solid, grounding, as though he was holding on to you for dear life. But then, just as quickly, he pulled back, his eyes filled with an anguish that made your chest ache.
âI donât know if I can give you what you deserve,â he finally muttered, his voice trembling. âAnd I canât bear the thought of failing you.â
âYouâre not failing me,â You said, reaching for him, but he was already pulling away, retreating back behind the walls he had built to protect himself.
âI am,â He said, his voice cracking as he shook his head. Pushing you back and getting to his feet. âI already am.â
You watched, your heart shattering as he put on his clothes, back to you. Your eyes trailed the path your nails made against his back, your silent claim on him that he always begged you for. âBarty, Barty, please.â You sobbed out and you saw how stiff he grew. âBarty, my love.â
âI hear you, Birdie.â He whispered and buttoned up his shirt. Walking back to the bed, but staying out of reach from you. âAlways such a beautiful song.â He whispered before he leaned in and stole a kiss. âI'm sorry.â
âBarty-â You strained and he kissed you again. Over and over until he managed to push you back against the bed.
âI love you Birdie.â
âBarty-â
âBut I'm.. I'm not who you need.â
Your heart broke with every word that fell from his lips, each one chipping away at the fragile hope you'd tried to build between you.Â
âDonât do this,â You whispered, your voice trembling as tears spilled freely down your cheeks. âDonât say that, Barty. Donât leave me like this.â
He closed his eyes as if shutting out the sight of you would make this easier, though you both knew it wouldnât. âI have to,â He murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âIf I stay, Iâll ruin you. I canât do that, Birdie. I canât be the reason you lose everything.â
âYou are everything,â You choked out, grabbing his wrist in desperation as he made to pull away. âCanât you see that? Youâre what I choose, Barty. Youâre what I want.â
His breath stopped at your words, and for a fleeting moment, you saw the war raging within him. His body was tense, his jaw clenched so tightly it looked like it might shatter. But then he shook his head, his eyes meeting yours with a tortured finality.
âYou deserve more,â His voice breaking as he leaned in to press one last kiss to your forehead. It lingered, soft and agonizingly final. âYou deserve a love that doesnât hurt like this.â
âI donât care about perfect,â Your hands clutching at his shirt as though you could physically anchor him to you. âI care about you.â
He pried your hands off of him gently but firmly, his touch reverent even as it was devastating. âAnd I love you,â He said, his voice barely above a whisper. âBut love isnât always enough.â
You shook your head vehemently, trying to reach for him again, but he stepped back, his retreat like a knife slicing through the air between you. âBarty, please,â You begged, your voice breaking entirely now. âPlease donât do this.â
His gaze lingered on you for a moment longer, his own tears threatening to spill, but then he turned away, his movements slow and deliberate, as if each step was a battle.Â
He paused at the door, his hand on the frame, his back still to you. âYouâll always be my song, Birdie,â He said quietly, the nickname a bittersweet ache on his tongue.
And then he was gone, leaving you alone in the room that still smelled of him, your heart breaking in the silence he left behind. The only sound was your sobs, muffled by the pillow you clutched to your chest, the magpie charm pressing cold against your skin- a painful reminder of what youâd just lost.
~~~
You gave a low shaken sigh. Trying to still your shattering heart and gather your voice before it all became too much again.Â
You looked up at the mantle above the fireplace, unable to stop the smile that curled on your lips. The photos, of your parents on their wedding day, of Jamesâs first birthday, then yours. Then a photo of Lily and Jamesâs wedding, of Harryâs first birthday- just three months ago.Â
You stared at the photographs for a long moment, your fingers tightening around the magpie charm at your neck. The smiles in the photos were so vivid, so full of joy, that it felt almost cruel. Your parents, James, Lily, even baby Harry- they were all looping so present in the frozen moments captured by the camera. Yet here you were, alone in the vast emptiness of the manor, the weight of their absence pressing down on you.
The photo of Harryâs first birthday caught your eye. His tiny hand reaching for the cake, Jamesâs laughing face as Lily leaned in to kiss Harryâs cheek. You could almost hear the sound of their laughter echoing in the back of your mind, a memory you clung to desperately.Â
Your lips quirked into a faint smile, though it didnât reach your eyes. âJames would tell me to get up and stop being so dramatic,â You muttered to yourself, shaking your head. âHeâd probably say something ridiculous like, âYouâre a Potter, we donât mope, we plot.ââ
The thought of your brotherâs mischievous grin brought a pang of longing. You missed him fiercely- his energy, his unrelenting optimism, and even the way he teased you mercilessly. James had always been your anchor, the one person who could pull you out of your darkest moments. But now he was miles away, hiding with Lily and Harry, fighting a war you couldnât see but could feel in every corner of your being.
Your gaze drifted back to the fire, the flames dancing and crackling softly. The silence in the room felt deafening again, the weight of your solitude settling back over you. You tried to distract yourself by opening the book on your lap, but the words blurred together, meaningless against the storm of thoughts raging in your mind.
You closed the book with a frustrated sigh, setting it aside as you leaned back against the couch. Your fingers traced the magpie charm absently, your thoughts inevitably returning to him.
Barty.
His name echoed in your mind, and with it came a flood of memories- his rare, boyish smiles that he reserved just for you, the way his green eyes softened when he thought you werenât looking, the way he held you like you were the only thing tethering him to the world.Â
You closed your eyes, letting out a shaky breath as the memory of his voice played in your mind:
A tear slipped down your cheek before you could stop it, and you quickly wiped it away. Crying wouldnât bring him back. Crying wouldnât change the way heâd walked out of your life, no matter how much it hurt.Â
But Merlin, did it hurt.Â
The knock at the door startled you from your thoughts, the sound sharp and sudden against the heavy silence of the manor. You froze for a moment, your heart leaping to your throat as dread washed over you. The wards. You reminded yourself of the countless layers of protection James and Lily had insisted upon. No one with ill intent could step foot near the manor. Still, it took you a moment to move.
Your fingers tightened around your cardigan as you approached the door, peering cautiously through the window. Relief and confusion mingled as you saw Remus standing there, holding a bundle of flowers and looking chilled down to the bone.
You couldnât help the way your lips curved into a smile, the first genuine one in what felt like weeks. Remus always had that effect on you, with his quiet strength and steady presence. You opened the door without hesitation, the chill of the winter evening brushing against your skin as you pulled him inside.
âRemus!â You laughed, wrapping your arms around him tightly before he could say a word. The flowers in his hands crinkled against your shoulder, and he let out a low, startled chuckle.
âHello to you too,â He murmured, his arms coming around you after a brief hesitation. His embrace was warm and grounding, and for a moment, you let yourself rest in the safety of his hold. He cradled you like you were something fragile, something he was afraid might break if he squeezed too tightly.
When you finally pulled back, his sharp eyes roamed your face, scanning for any cracks in the mask you hadnât realized youâd been wearing. âYou didnât have to bring me flowers,â You hummed softly, trying to inject some lightness into your tone as you gestured to the bouquet.
Remus gave a sheepish smile, shrugging slightly. âI thought it might brighten your evening,â he admitted. âBut if Iâd known the hug was part of the deal, I mightâve come sooner.â
You let out a laugh and furrowed your brow further, unable to help how the cheeky comment brightened up your night that little bit more. âI see Sirius has gotten into you. Come in, let's go to the kitchen.âÂ
The kitchen glowed softly, the warm light reflecting off the polished wooden counters and copper fixtures. The steady hum of the kettle was a comforting backdrop to the quiet conversation you and Remus shared. You busied yourself preparing tea, your back to him as he leaned against the table, his long limbs relaxed but his eyes watchful.
âYouâve redecorated,â He remarked, gesturing to the new curtains hanging over the window. âIâm not sure the maroon suits the Potters, though. Sirius would call it RavenClaw overkill.â
You smirked over your shoulder, a hint of genuine amusement breaking through the lingering heaviness in your chest. âSirius would call anything not leather or black an abomination,â you retorted, setting two mismatched mugs on the counter.
Remus chuckled, a low, pleasant sound that filled the room. âTouchĂ©. Though I do think the blue adds some warmth. This place could use it.â He glanced around, his expression softening. âIt feels different without⊠everyone.â
You paused for a moment, letting his words hang in the air. The truth of them settled deep in your chest, an ache that had grown all too familiar. âItâs been a bit lonely,â you admitted, your voice quieter now. âIâm not used to all this space- just me.â
He nodded, his gaze heavy with understanding. âI think theyâd hate to see you like this. Especially James. Heâd insist on dragging you to some ridiculous Quidditch match to cheer you up.â
You smiled faintly at the thought, a flicker of warmth chasing away the cold for just a moment. âHe would,â You agreed. âHeâd bribe me with chocolate frogs and promise not to embarrass me in front of the team, only to shout louder than anyone else in the stands. Calling us the seeker twins.â
Remusâs lips quirked into a small smile, but there was a flicker of something else in his expression- something that felt out of place. Nostalgia, yes, but also something deeper, something almost... reverent. His fingers drumming against his cup as he sat down at the table.
âYouâve always been good at making people laugh,â He said softly, his tone different now. His gaze lingered on you in a way that made your fingers hesitate as you poured the tea.
âYou give me too much credit,â You hummed lightly, though his words sent a faint blush creeping up your neck. âJames is the funny one. Iâm just the stubborn one.â
He tilted his head, his smile turning crooked- letting his fingers graze your wrist and fixing your cuff as you poured him his tea. âIt's a Potter trait. But I think itâs more than that.â
You turned to face him fully. âWhat are you getting at, Remus?â You narrowed your eyes, your tone teasing but your curiosity piqued.
He took the mug, his fingers brushing yours briefly, and for a moment, he didnât reply. He just studied you, his hazel eyes unusually intense. âYouâve always had this way of making people feel seen,â He said finally, his voice softer now. âLike they matter. Even when they donât think they do.â
His words caught you off guard, and for a moment, you didnât know how to respond. âThatâs⊠kind of you to say,â You managed, looking down at your tea as you tried to gather your thoughts. âI donât think Iâve ever been particularly good at- â
âYou're selling yourself short, Birdie.â He chuckled. The nickname slipped from his lips so naturally, so casually, that it took you a moment to process. When it hit, your breath caught in your throat, and the air between you seemed to still.
You set your mug down slowly, your mind racing even as you fought to keep your expression calm. You turned back to the sink, gripping the edge tightly to ground yourself. â...What did you just call me?â
Remus stiffened, and you felt his gaze burn into your back. âWhat do you mean?â He mumbled, his voice suddenly cautious.
You turned around, your heart pounding- only one person called you by that name. âWhy are you here?â You crossed your arms, your voice steady despite the storm building in your chest. âAnd donât tell me itâs for tea.â
His expression faltered for just a second- just long enough for you to see through the carefully constructed façade. âIâm here because I wanted to see you,â His tone was measured. âTo make sure you were all right.â
âNo,â You scoffed, shaking your head as the pieces clicked together. âNo, you know I'm not a fool.â
He opened his mouth to respond, but you didnât let him. âWhy are you here, Barty?âÂ
His eyes widened, and for a moment, the mask slipped entirely. The careful demeanor, the warm smiles, the familiar quirks- it all fell away, replaced by a raw, vulnerable intensity that made your breath stop.
âYou always were too clever for your own good,â He muttered, leaning back in his chair with a resigned sigh. âGuess thereâs no point pretending now.â
Your chest tightened as the truth settled in. You gave a disbelieving scoff before you ran your fingers through your hair. Pacing slightly before you paused, a scary truth settling over you. âHow did you do it?â
Barty rolled his neck and leaned further into his seat to face you again. His expression neutral- the natural arrogant energy coming from him felt horribly wrong coming from Remusâs stolen face. âWhat exactly, birdie?â
âDon't play coy.â You snapped. âHow did you get as piece of Remus for the potion you used to lie your way past my wards and into my home, Crouch?â
â... I hate when you call me Crouch.â Barty's response was almost petulant, his lips twisting into a pout as he sat back in the chair, fingers tapping rhythmically against the porcelain mug he had barely touched. He tilted his head to the side, his green eyes narrowing slightly as he studied you, the faintest ghost of a smirk pulling at the corners of his mouth.
âYou always know how to wound me,â He continued softly, his tone a mockery of vulnerability. âBut then again, you've always been too good at that, haven't you?â
Your stomach churned at the way he looked at you, like you were something to be admired and consumed all at once. It was too much, too familiar, and yet so far removed from the boy you once knew. You crossed your arms tightly over your chest, grounding yourself against the onslaught of emotions threatening to overwhelm you.
âAnswer the question, Barty,â You said sharply, your voice cutting through the heavy silence of the room. âHow did you do it?â
He sighed dramatically, as though the act of explaining himself was some grand inconvenience. âRemus has always been predictable,â He snarked lazily, his gaze never leaving yours. âHe's a creature of habit, like clockwork. It wasnât exactly difficult to collect what I needed.â
Your blood ran cold at the casual way he spoke about violating the trust of someone you cared for. âYou stalked him. You used him,â Your voice trembling with anger. âYou used him to get to me.â
He smiled then, a slow, deliberate curl of his lips that sent a shiver down your spine. âI did it for you, Birdie,â he said, his voice dropping to a low, honeyed murmur. âFor us. You donât understand how much Iâve missed you, how much Iâve needed you. Every single day without you has been... agony.â
âAgony?â You repeated incredulously, your voice rising as your anger boiled over. âYou donât get to talk to me about agony, Barty. You left. You made that choice, and now you want to waltz back in here, pretending like nothingâs changed?â
âBecause nothing has!â He shot back, rising from the chair so suddenly that it scraped against the floor with a harsh screech. He moved toward you, and despite yourself, you took a step back. âYou think I stopped loving you? You think I ever stopped thinking about you? Every second, every breath, itâs always been you.â
âStop,â You said firmly, holding up a hand to keep him at a distance. âYou donât get to do this. You donât get to waltz in here, steal someoneâs face, and act like youâre some lovesick hero.â
âBut I am lovesick,â He said, his voice trembling as he closed the space between you. âIâm sick, Birdie. Sick. Youâre the only thing that makes me feel alive, the only thing thatâs ever made sense. Donât you see? Iâm here because I love you.â
âLove?â You scoffed, shaking your head in disbelief. âYou donât even know what love is, Barty. Love doesnât manipulate. It doesnât lie. It doesnât use people. Get out.â
His expression switched to one of complete shock. As if he didn't expect to actually be sent away. You turned on your heels and walked down the hall, ignoring the stunned boy for a moment before he began to follow after you, taking a heavy breath. âBaby, birdie, don't walk away. Princess.â
Merlin, you hated to hear that coming from Remusâs mouth. It made your skin crawl.
His voice followed you like a shadow, echoing in the high ceilings of the manor. âBirdie, please,â He pleaded, a mixture of whining and anger that grated against your already frayed nerves. You didnât turn around, your footsteps quick and determined as you ascended the stairs. âDonât walk away from me!â
You didnât answer. You couldnât. Every part of you screamed to keep moving, to put as much distance as possible between you and the man who was once everything to you. Your grip tightened on the banister as you climbed, trying to block out the sound of his voice.
âStop ignoring me!â He shouted, his tone sharp with frustration. He was right behind you now, his steps uneven and frantic. âDo you think this is easy for me? Do you think I want to be like this?â
At that, you stopped abruptly, your heart pounding in your chest as you turned to face him. âDo I think this is easy for you?â You snapped, your voice trembling with barely contained fury. âYouâve made it abundantly clear, Barty, that youâll do whatever you want- no matter who it hurts.â
He flinched at your words, the rawness of them cutting through his desperation. But instead of backing down, he stepped closer, his expression a twisted mixture of anguish and determination. His face flickered again, the remnants of the Polyjuice Potion struggling to hold as patches of his sandy hair and pale skin replaced Remusâs softer features.
âIâm not trying to hurt you,â He said, his voice breaking. âIâm trying to fix this. To fix us.â
âThere is no us,â you spat, your hands shaking as you stepped back. âThere hasnât been for a long time. And that was your choice, Barty.â
âNo,â he said firmly, his green eyes blazing with an intensity that sent a chill down your spine. âYou donât get to put this all on me. You think I wanted to leave? You think I wanted to-â His voice cracked, and he clenched his fists, his body trembling with barely restrained emotion. âI didnât have a choice, Birdie. You donât understand-â
âYouâre right,â You interrupted, your voice rising. âI donât understand. I donât understand how someone who claimed to love me could leave me to pick up the pieces of a life we built together. I donât understand how you can come back now, pretending like you didnât shatter me.â
He took another step forward, his hands outstretched as though reaching for something he couldnât quite grasp. âBecause I had to,â he whispered, his voice hoarse. âDonât you see? I had to protect you. From my father, from the world we were in. I-â
âStop,â you said sharply, holding up a hand to cut him off. âDonât stand there and pretend you were some kind of martyr. You werenât protecting me, Barty. You were protecting yourself.â
His jaw tightened, and for a moment, he looked like he might argue. But then his shoulders slumped, and the fight seemed to drain out of him. âMaybe I was,â he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. âBut it doesnât change the fact that I love you. That Iâve always loved you.â
âLove?â You echoed bitterly, shaking your head. âYou call this love? Breaking into my home, stealing someone elseâs face, manipulating me into letting you in? Thatâs not love, Barty. Thatâs obsession.â
At that, something in him seemed to snap. His entire body tensed, and he closed the space between you in two long strides. âFine,â he hissed, his voice low and trembling with barely contained anger. âCall it what you want. Call me a monster, call me obsessed- but donât you dare tell me I donât love you.â
Before you could respond, his knees buckled, and he sank to the stair landing at your feet, his hands clutching at your covered thighs as though it were a lifeline. His chin pressed against your skirt, looking up at you with those eyes a young girl you knew once spent hours of her time lost in. Those brilliant and calculated eyes. Here he was; Bartemius Crouch Junior, with an ego to rival the gods and the mind and skill to back it up- on his knees. Looking up at you like an obedient dog. âHow can I not love you?â He whispered. âBirdie. My beautiful song bird. How?â
Your chest heaved as you looked down at him, his once-imposing figure now crumpled before you, hands gripping your skirt like you were the only tether keeping him from falling apart completely. His words, dripping with desperation, clawed at your resolve.Â
âBarty,â You whispered, your voice trembling, a mixture of anger and grief thick in your throat. âYou need to leave.â
His eyes shot up at your words, his green eyes wide with disbelief. He stared at you as if youâd just struck him, his lips parting slightly, searching for something to say. âNo,â he said softly, his voice unsteady but growing firmer. You watched as the full potion effect dropped away. âI canât leave. Not like this. Not when I know you still love me.â
You flinched, his words cutting deeper with his true voice, but you didnât waver. âThis isnât about love,â you said firmly, though your voice cracked. âThis is about you not knowing when to let go.â
He rose slowly, his movements deliberate, careful, like a predator trying not to spook its prey. He hovered over you now, his height casting a shadow that made the grand staircase feel suddenly small. His hand reached out, trembling as it moved toward your cheek, and you instinctively stepped back, pressing yourself against the banister.
âDonât,â You warned, your voice sharp.
His hand froze mid-air, his fingers curling slightly before he dropped it to his side. He exhaled shakily, his breath warm as it ghosted over your skin. âBirdie, please,â He murmured, his voice barely audible, his lips forming words you couldnât make out. His shoulders hunched as if the weight of his own need was too much to bear. âPlease donât send me away.â
You shook your head, tears threatening to spill over as you fought to keep your composure. âYou donât get to do this,â You hissed. âYou donât get to break into my home, throw yourself at my feet, and demand I fix you. Youâre not my responsibility, Barty. Not anymore.â
His hands twitched at his sides, his jaw clenching as he fought some inner battle you couldnât see. Then, in a single motion, his hands reached for you again, his movements quick but not violent, desperate but not forceful. Panic surged through you, and before you could think, your hand flew up, striking his cheek with a sharp slap.
The sound echoed in the hollow silence of the staircase.Â
He staggered back slightly, his hand flying to his cheek, but instead of anger, a strange expression crossed his face. His lips curved into a slow, almost delirious smile, his chest rising and falling as if heâd just surfaced from drowning.Â
âThat,â He murmured, his voice rasping with something unhinged, âfelt real.â
Your stomach churned, the unease twisting tighter as he stood straighter, his demeanor shifting. His hand dropped from his cheek, and he let out a low, almost relieved laugh, shaking his head. âThatâs the Birdie I know,â he said softly, his tone dangerously gentle. âThe one who knew what our passion meant- I miss her. Can I talk to her?â
Your chest heaved with the weight of his words, the deranged calmness in his voice sending your heart into overdrive. His smug, unhinged smile made the bile rise in your throat as your fingers curled into fists at your sides.Â
âYou miss her?â You snapped, your voice sharp and trembling. âThe Birdie you claim to miss is the one you destroyed, Barty! Sheâs the one you left behind when you decided to join them!â
The smile faltered slightly, and for a fleeting moment, you saw something like regret flicker across his face. But it wasnât enough. It could never be enough to erase what he had done.Â
âYou made your choice,â you continued, stepping toward him now, your fury overriding the trembling in your hands. âYou chose to follow him. You chose to become a monster, to fight against everything I stand for, everything my family stands for. You donât get to waltz back into my life and pretend none of it happened.â
âI did it for you,â His voice rising, his green eyes blazing as he stepped closer. âEvery single thing Iâve done was for you, Birdie! To protect you, to keep you safe, to make sure youâd never have to know what itâs like to be weak. You think I wanted to join them? You think I wanted to-â
âDonât you dare,â You cut him off, your voice trembling with rage. âDonât you dare try to make this about me. You didnât join them for me, Barty. You joined them because youâre too much of a coward to stand up to your father. You wanted power. You wanted to prove to him that you were more then him. But you didnât care who you hurt along the way, did you?â
He flinched as though youâd struck him again, his jaw tightening as his hands clenched into fists at his sides. âYou donât know what youâre talking about,â He hissed through gritted teeth, his voice low and dangerous. âYou donât know what itâs like to live with the weight of that name. To have no choice but to-â
âYou had a choice!â You screamed, the words tearing from your throat as tears stung your eyes. âYou always had a choice, Barty! And you chose them. You chose power. You chose to stand against me, against my family. Against James!â
He froze at that, his eyes wide and his breath hitching as though youâd struck a nerve. But you didnât stop. You couldnât stop now, not with everything bubbling to the surface.Â
âYou think I havenât thought about you every single day?â You demanded, your voice breaking as tears began to spill freely down your cheeks. âYou think I havenât wondered if there was something I could have done, something I could have said to stop you? To save you?â
âDonât,â He whispered, his voice trembling now, the bravado in his tone beginning to crack. âDonât say that.â
âYou donât get to tell me what to say,â You spat, your voice trembling with a mixture of anger and heartbreak. âYou donât get to tell me anything anymore. You lost that right the moment you turned your back on me.â
He stared at you, his chest rising and falling unevenly as the weight of your words pressed down on him. And then, suddenly, he moved.Â
Before you could react, he closed the distance between you in a single stride, his hands gripping your face with a desperation that took your breath away. His lips crashed into yours with a force that stole the air from your lungs, the kiss searing and frantic, as though it was the only way he could express everything he couldnât say.Â
For a moment, you froze, your mind racing as the heat of his mouth overwhelmed your senses. You wanted to shove him away, to scream at him, to remind him of all the reasons this was wrong. But then something in you broke.Â
Your hands flew to his chest, not to push him away, but to pull him closer. The kiss deepened, raw and terrifying, a collision of anger, grief, and longing that neither of you could control. His hands slipped from your face to your waist, his grip bruising as he pulled you against him as if he could fuse you together.
The kiss deepened, and soon words no longer mattered. There were no more accusations, no more pleas, just the raw, unfiltered intensity of everything youâd both been holding back for far too long. It wasnât tender or sweet- it was desperate, filled with the kind of longing and pain that made it impossible to think about anything else. His hands mapped out every inch of you as though he was trying to memorize you, to hold onto something real in a world that had been slipping away from him for years.Â
And you let him. You let yourself forget, if only for a moment, what heâd done, what heâd become, and the mess heâd left in his wake. You let yourself feel, because Merlin knew you couldnât stand the ache of silence anymore. Â
It wasnât long before the tension gave way to something more, something equally terrifying and exhilarating. Clothes were discarded hastily, his lips tracing paths of fire along your skin, and for the first time in what felt like forever, the silence of the manor wasnât suffocating. It was electric.
You didnât speak a word to each other the entire time. The only sounds being your soft gasps and his inaudible murmurs- ones that sounded more like pleas than anything else. You couldnât give him more then that. Words would have only reminded you of the impossibility of it all, of everything youâd both lost. Words would have shattered the fragile bubble youâd created, where nothing else mattered but the two of you. Â
When it was over, you lay side by side in the fading moonlight, your bodies tangled in the sheets as the world slowly came back into focus. His breathing was uneven, his hand still resting on your waist as though he couldnât quite bring himself to let go. But you didnât look at him. You couldnât. You stared at the ceiling instead, your mind a chaotic storm of emotions you werenât ready to unpack.
~~~
The morning light filtered in through the heavy curtains, painting the room in soft hues of gold and grey. You stirred slightly, the ache in your body a reminder of the night before, but you kept your eyes closed, willing the world- and him- away. Â
You heard him moving about, the rustle of fabric as he dressed. For a brief, fleeting moment, you thought he might leave quietly, that he might spare you the agony of facing him after everything that had happened. But then he spoke, his voice low and hesitant, as though testing the waters. Â
âIâll come back later.â Â
You scoffed softly, rolling over to face the wall, your back to him. You didnât say a word. You couldnât trust yourself to speak without breaking, without letting the storm inside you spill out. Â
âBirdieâŠâ His voice was softer now, almost pleading, but you didnât move. You kept your breathing even, your expression neutral, even as your heart clenched painfully in your chest. Â
The air felt heavier as the silence stretched, broken only by the soft creak of the floorboards as Barty lingered by the door. His shadow loomed across the threshold, hesitant, like a ghost caught between staying and vanishing.Â
âBirdie.â He whispered, his voice raw and strained, as though dragging each word out of his chest cost him a piece of himself. âOne last thing.â
You didnât respond, your body curled away from him, but he knew you were awake. He always did.
âYou have to tell James.â He sighed, the words tumbling out in a quiet rush. âAbout his Secret Keeper.â
Your breath stopped, but you didnât move. Every muscle in your body tensed as his words settled over you like frost, cold and unforgiving.
âBarty, what are you talking about?â You finally whispered, your voice hoarse as you turned just enough to glance over your shoulder. He looked so different in the pale morning light, the shadows on his face accentuating the cracks in his armor, the boy you once loved bleeding through the man he had become.
âJust promise me,â He cut you off, his tone suddenly sharper. âYou'll.. warn him not to trust them.â
You stared at him, searching his face for answers, but all you found was that same haunted intensity youâd seen last night. He wasnât lying- at least, not about this. But that didnât make it any easier to believe.Â
â... okay.â You muttered. âI will.â
Barty stared at you like he wanted to say a million different things at once. Instead, he turned, the door closing behind him. You hugged your knees to your chest and willed away as much of reality as possible. Begging for any sense of normalcy to return; even the painful loneliness.
But nothing truly worked.
~~~
As the days went on, the weight of Barty's absence hung over the time that followed like a storm cloud. He hadnât come back, and you werenât sure if you were relieved or heartbroken. The last words heâd said lingered with you, haunting your every quiet moment: Tell James. Warn him.
Youâd followed through on his warning, albeit reluctantly. It had been difficult to convince James without revealing the entire truth, but the grim look in his eyes had told you he believed you, or at least enough to act.Â
Nothing happened at first, but Peter was monitored. It didn't take long for everything to come to light; Peter was working against you. It all worked out. James was ready for him that night, the night he came for Harry, surprising the monster before he could act. Peter tried to run after the news came out, but a furious Sirius tracked him down for a confrontation. One with an explosive end for their former friend, nothing left of the boy but a finger.
It did take a few hours of wrestling with the Aurors, but after being proper witnesses and all of your evidence of treason- Sirius was released. Walking out of the holding cell with a smile that could blunt the sun. Lily and James were safe. Baby Harry, too. Relief and disbelief were all anyone seemed capable of, but you couldnât bring yourself to celebrate. Not fully. Because in the same breath that the Dark Lord fell, Barty was taken to Azkaban.
You hadnât dared to ask about the details. Not from James, not from Sirius, not from anyone. Knowing felt like it would only make it worse. But the knowledge of him locked away, cold and alone in a place that stripped people of everything, clawed at your chest in the silence of the manor.
You had lost him all over again, and this time, you knew there was no coming back.Â
The days that followed felt like a blur of motion and noise, a sharp contrast to the oppressive stillness that had once consumed you. You refused to let Barty- or the ghost of him that lingered in your mind- define you any longer. He was gone, and you couldnât afford to let his absence drag you down any further. Not when there was work to be done.
You didnât go to his hearing. You couldnât. The idea of sitting in that courtroom, of listening to them talk about him as though he was nothing more than a monster, was too much. It wasnât that you disagreed. Heâd made his choices, and the world would see him for what heâd become. But for you, he was still the boy who had once traced your blemishes like constellations and whispered that you were the only light in his life.Â
Even now, looking back, you had always known what that young boy was capable of. The signs were there; and the raking guilt of knowing that you were possibly the only thing keeping him from becoming what he seemed so keen on being, taxed your self worth.
So, you pretended that night didnât happen. That he didnât exist. The magpie charm around your neck was tucked away in a drawer, along with the pieces of your heart that still ached for him. You buried it all deep, focusing on what you could control, on what you could fix.
Joining the Order to help clean up the aftermath of the war felt like a natural next step. It was what your parents would have done, what James would have done if he wasnât busy. Saying he wanted to be a proper father to Harry and a good man to Lily. Lily still stayed close, there wasn't many healers with her talent. But James stepped down. It was what you needed to do. The world hadnât stopped turning, and there were still Death Eaters to hunt, still innocent people to protect, still so much damage to undo.
The first few missions were grueling, physically and emotionally. You worked long hours, tracking down the last of Voldemortâs loyalists and dismantling the remnants of their operations. It was dangerous, messy work, but you thrived in it. The chaos kept you moving, kept you from lingering too long on the memories that threatened to pull you under.
You found solace in the chaos of the Order. Sirius, always protective, tried to keep a close eye on you, though he seemed to understand your need for space. Remus was steadier, offering quiet support when you needed it most, though you often pushed him away. And James- when he wasnât with Lily and Harry- was your anchor, his unrelenting optimism a reminder of the person you used to be.
But there were moments, late at night, when the world went quiet, and you couldnât escape the weight of it all. When you lay awake in bed, staring at the ceiling, and his voice echoed in your mind. When you caught a glimpse of something out of the corner of your eye that reminded you of him, and your heart clenched painfully before you forced yourself to look away.
And then there were the whispers. The Order didnât really talk about Barty, he was just another cog in the operation, but you heard the murmurs. About his trial, about Azkaban, about how someone so young and clever could have fallen so far. You kept your head down, pretending not to hear, but the words cut deep.
The recklessness came on slowly at first, creeping into your choices like an insidious shadow. You pushed yourself harder on missions, volunteering for the riskiest tasks, throwing yourself into danger with a desperation that bordered on self-destructive. It was easier to focus on the fight, on the rush of adrenaline and the sharp edge of survival, than to confront the gaping void Barty had left behind.
Sirius and Remus noticed, of course. They werenât blind to the way you flinched at certain names, or how you worked yourself to exhaustion. Sirius tried to laugh it off at first, making quips about how you were channeling your inner Gryffindor âunder all that Ravenclawâ. But Remus, ever perceptive, wasnât fooled. His hazel eyes lingered on you with quiet concern, though he said nothing outright. Not until the mission that changed everything.
It was supposed to be a straightforward raid: infiltrate a suspected Death Eater hideout, gather intel, and get out. But things rarely went as planned. The ambush was swift and brutal, spells ricocheting off walls and sending debris flying. You and Remus were in the thick of it, your wand moving instinctively as you deflected curses and fired back.
Then it happened. A flash of green light, too close, too fast. It was aimed directly at Remus, who had his back turned while shielding a fallen comrade. Without thinking, you moved. You felt the spell hit you like a freight train, knocking the air from your lungs as a searing pain ripped through your side.Â
You barely registered Remusâs horrified shout as you crumpled to the ground, your vision blurring. The sounds of the battle faded into a dull roar as your consciousness slipped away, the last thing you saw being his anguished face hovering over you.
~~~
Remus paced the length of the ornate carpet, his fingers raking through his hair repeatedly as though he could scrub away the memory of what had happened. Sirius sat slumped on the sofa, uncharacteristically silent, his dark eyes fixed on the fireplace. The flickering flames did nothing to ease the tension in the room. Â
Remusâs chest tightened with guilt, each second that passed driving the weight deeper. He could still see it- the flash of green light, the way you had thrown yourself in front of him without hesitation. The moment felt frozen in time, looping endlessly in his mind. Â
âMoony, sit down,â Sirius huffed finally, his voice low and hoarse. It was an order, but not a harsh one. Â
âI canât,â Remus replied, his voice taut as a wire. âShe- she couldâve-â Â
âBut she didnât,â Sirius interrupted, his tone firm. âSheâs alive, and Lily is better then any healer we have.â Â
Remus halted mid-step, his jaw clenched tightly. âShe shouldnât have had to save me,â he said, his voice cracking. âShe- sheâs half alive, Sirius. If anything happens to her-â Â
Siriusâs gaze darkened, and he stood, crossing the room in a few long strides. He placed a hand on Remusâs shoulder, squeezing it tightly. âYou listen to me,â His eyes were sharp but his voice was steady. âSheâs as stubborn as James, maybe more so. Thereâs no way sheâd have stood by and done nothing, and you know it. Blaming yourself wonât change anything.â Â
Remus opened his mouth to respond, but the sound of the front door opening cut him off. Both men turned toward the entrance just as James entered, his face pale and tense. Harry toddled in after him, clutching his fatherâs pant leg with wide, curious eyes. Â
âWhere is she?â James asked immediately, his voice sharp with worry. Â
âSheâs upstairs,â Sirius said quickly. âLilsâ with her. She hasn't come back down yet.â Â
The tension in the room was suffocating, the silence broken only by the faint crackle of the fire and the occasional creak of floorboards as Remus paced. Sirius watched James carefully, noting how his hands trembled ever so slightly as he held Harry close. It was subtle, but for someone as unshakable as James Potter, it was telling.
âI need to go to her,â James said abruptly, his voice sharp and breaking the heavy stillness. He passed Harry to Sirius, who took the toddler without protest, his dark eyes wary. âSheâs my sister. She shouldnât be alone.â
âYou canât,â Sirius said firmly, standing up to meet Jamesâs gaze. âLily said we need to give her space. Sheâs working.â
âI donât care what Lily said!â James snapped, his voice louder now, desperation seeping into his tone. âThatâs my little sister lying upstairs, Sirius. If something happens- if she-â He cut himself off, swallowing hard as he fought to steady his breathing. âI canât just sit here.â
âYou think I want to?â Sirius shot back, his voice rising to match Jamesâs. âYou think Remus wants to? Merlin, Prongs, weâre all going mad down here, but Lily knows what sheâs doing. Sheâll call us if- when- thereâs news.â
James ran a hand through his hair, his frustration palpable. He knew if anyone could understand even a fraction of what he was feeling it was Sirius- you had endeared yourself to him in a way not many people could. And those people were in this house. âShe doesnât get to keep me from her,â He muttered, his tone dangerously low now. âNot her. Not anyone.â
âJames, listen to me,â Sirius snapped, stepping closer, his hand gripping Jamesâs shoulder tightly. âYou storming in there isnât going to help her. Itâs not going to help anyone.â
Before James could respond, the sound of light footsteps descending the stairs cut through the room like a knife. All three men turned toward the staircase as Lily appeared, her face pale and her expression unreadable. The sight of her made James freeze, his words dying in his throat. Siriusâs grip on Harry tightened, and Remus stopped pacing entirely.
Lilyâs hands were clasped tightly in front of her, and her eyes darted between the men before finally settling on James. âCan I speak with you alone?â She asked softly, her voice calm but heavy with something that made Jamesâs stomach churn.
âWhat is it?â He demanded, taking a step toward her. âLily, just tell me-â
âPlease, James,â She interrupted, her voice breaking just slightly as she glanced toward Harry, who was still nestled in Siriusâs arms. âCome with me.â
James hesitated, his body rigid with tension, but the look in Lilyâs eyes left no room for argument. He turned back to Sirius and Remus, his jaw clenched tightly. âIâll be back,â He said, though his voice wavered.
James followed Lily just a few steps into the hallway before she stopped, her back to him as she hesitated. Lilyâs words were hushed and inaudible, even to Remusâs keen ears- or maybe, he just wasn't willing to know just yet.
Jamesâs expression shifted from tension to something unreadable, his brows drawing together as he processed Lilyâs quiet words. The weight of whatever she had said seemed to hit him all at once, and his jaw went slack, his eyes widening in stunned disbelief.
Sirius and Remus exchanged a quick glance, their concern growing as they watched James stagger back a half step, his hand running through his already disheveled hair. His lips moved as though forming a question, but no sound escaped. Whatever Lily had told him, it had shaken him to his core.
Sirius shifted Harry on his hip, his protective instincts flaring. âWhat the hell did she just say to him?â He muttered under his breath to Remus, his dark eyes narrowing.
âI donât know,â Remus replied quietly, his voice tight with unease. James finally looked at Lily, his wide eyes searching hers for confirmation.Â
James didn't hesitate after Lily's nod. He took the stairs two at a time, his worry and confusion pressing heavily on his shoulders. His hand gripped the banister tightly as he moved, the wood creaking faintly under his weight. Sirius and Remus exchanged uneasy glances from their spot by the fireplace, the tension thick enough to choke on. Â
Lily lingered at the base of the stairs for a moment, watching James's retreating form before turning back to the room. She mustered a soft, reassuring smile, though it didnât quite reach her eyes. Â
âSheâs fine,â she said quietly, addressing Sirius and Remus. Â
Sirius raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced. âFine? You call that fine?â He gestured toward the staircase with a sharp nod, where James had disappeared moments before. âProngs looked like he was about to keel over.â Â
âShe is,â Lily insisted gently but firmly. âBut James.. they just need to talk.â Â
Remus frowned, his sharp hazel eyes darting between Lily and the stairs. âIf sheâs fine, why is he in such a rush? What arenât you telling us, Lily?â Â
Lily hesitated, her smile faltering slightly as she tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. âItâs not my place to say,â she said finally, her voice soft but resolute. âYouâll have to ask her yourselves when sheâs ready.â Â
Sirius let out a low growl of frustration, running a hand through his hair. âGreat. Love a good mystery. Just what we need after all this.â Â
Remus, however, wasnât so easily placated. His gaze lingered on Lily, his instincts screaming that there was more to the story than she was letting on. But he didnât press her. Not yet. Â
Instead, he leaned back against the arm of the couch, his arms crossed tightly over his chest. âWhatever it is, itâs obviously got James in a state,â he muttered under his breath. Â
Lily offered him a small, almost apologetic smile before excusing herself, taking Harry from Sirius, as she headed toward the kitchen, leaving Sirius and Remus to stew in their unease. Â
~~~
James reached the door to your room, his breath coming in shallow bursts as he paused to gather himself. He wasnât sure what he was expecting to find on the other side. The worry twisting in his chest was relentless, and the weight of Lilyâs cryptic words only added to his unease. Â
He knocked softly, his knuckles brushing the wood. âItâs me,â He called quietly, his voice trembling slightly. âCan I come in?â Â
There was a moment of silence, and then your voice- weak but steady- drifted through the door. âItâs open.â Â
James pushed the door open and stepped inside, his eyes immediately searching for you. You were propped up against a pile of pillows on the bed, your complexion pale but no longer deathly. A soft blanket was draped over your lap, and a steaming mug rested on the nightstand beside you. Â
Relief flooded through him at the sight of you awake, but it was quickly tempered by the shadow of exhaustion that lingered in your eyes. Â
âHey,â he said softly, his voice breaking the quiet. Â
You managed a faint smile, though it didnât quite reach your eyes. âHey, Jamie.â Â
He crossed the room in a few strides, pulling the chair closer to your bedside and sinking into it. His hands fidgeted in his lap as he searched for the right words, his gaze flickering between your face and the mug on the nightstand. Â
âYou scared the hell out of me,â He sighed finally, his voice barely above a whisper. Â
You looked down, your fingers picking at the edge of the blanket. âI know. Iâm sorry.â Â
James shook his head, leaning forward to rest his elbows on his knees. âDonât apologize,â He said firmly. âJust⊠talk to me. Please. Whatâs going on? Lily said youâre fine, but-â Â
âLilyâs right,â You cut in gently, meeting his gaze. You were able to see all the true overbearing nature of James Potter. When you were younger his protective nature used to irritate you- he was always on, all the time, brash and loud- a proper lion. Now? You wanted nothing more than to curl up against him and cry. But that's the last thing you could allow yourself to be- weak. âIâm fine, James. Or at least, I will be.â Â
He studied you for a long moment, his hazel eyes filled with a mixture of concern and doubt. âLily said.. you needed to tell me something.â
James tilted his head slightly, his brows furrowing as he studied your expression. There was something guarded in your eyes, something that made the air between you feel heavier. His concern deepened when you let out a soft, shaky breath and slowly ran your hand over your abdomen.
The motion was small, almost absentminded, but it struck James like a thunderclap. His eyes widened, his lips parting as the realization sank in. For a moment, he was utterly still, his mind racing to catch up with what youâd just silently told him.
âNo,â he breathed, the word barely audible as he leaned back in his chair, his face pale with shock. âNo.â
You didnât say anything, didnât move, didnât breathe. You simply held his gaze, your fingers resting lightly on your abdomen.
James swallowed hard, his voice trembling as he asked, âBambi, when?â
The nickname, soft and familiar, broke something inside you. But you held firm, your eyes flickering away from his as you shook your head. âIt doesnât matter,â You whispered, your voice barely above a murmur.
Jamesâs leg began to bounce, his eyes flickering from you to the door a few times before he shot up from his seat and began to pace. âWhen did you find out?â He demanded sharply, his voice tight with tension. Â
âTonight,â You admitted quietly, your fingers curling around the blanket on your lap. Â
James stopped mid-step, spinning on his heel to face you. âTonight?â He repeated, his voice rising slightly. âAnd you didnât think to tell me immediately? Merlinâs sake!â Â
You flinched as his voice raised, but you held your ground, meeting his gaze with a calmness you didnât entirely feel. âI was a little busy almost dying, James,â You hissed, your voice firmer now. Â
He opened his mouth to argue but then snapped it shut, his jaw tightening as he resumed pacing. âFine. Fine,â He muttered, more to himself than to you. âBut youâre leaving the Order.â Â
You let out a sharp, humorless laugh, shaking your head. âAs if theyâd want me back after that stunt,â You shot back. âIâm not exactly in peak condition for fieldwork, am I?â Â
James ignored your sarcasm, his hands balling into fists as he continued his relentless pacing. âGood. You shouldnât be anywhere near this madness,â He said firmly, his tone brooking no argument. âNot now.â Â
Your heart clenched at his words, the overbearing protectiveness youâd come to associate with him hitting harder than ever. But before you could respond, he stopped abruptly, his hazel eyes narrowing as a new thought seemed to strike him. Â
âWho is it?â He demanded, his voice sharp and almost accusatory. âWho?â Â
You swallowed hard, the weight of his question settling over you like a lead blanket. âIt doesnât matter,â You pushed, though your voice wavered slightly. Â
Jamesâs expression darkened, his jaw tightening as he began to pace once more. âDoesnât matter?â He echoed incredulously, his voice rising. âIt absolutely matters, Bambi. You canât just- Merlin, you canât drop something like this and expect me not to-â He cut himself off with a growl, shaking his head as he muttered under his breath. Â
James's pacing came to an abrupt halt, his hazel eyes narrowing as the pieces began to fall into place. He turned to you, his expression shifting from confusion to a dawning realization that made your stomach drop. Â
âThe wards,â he said slowly, his voice low and dangerous. âThe ones Lily and I put up for you- someone wouldâve had to get past them. Someone who knew how to.â Â
You froze, your heart pounding in your chest as his gaze locked onto yours, sharp and unrelenting. Â
âWho was it, Bambi?â he demanded again, his tone deadly serious now. âWho the hell got past the wards?â Â
Your throat tightened, and for a moment, you couldnât find your voice. You looked away, your fingers gripping the blanket tightly as if it could shield you from the weight of his question. Â
âAnswer me!â Jamesâs voice cracked, a mixture of desperation and anger bleeding into his tone. Â
You took a shaky breath, your gaze fixed on the wall as you whispered, âYou donât want to know, James.â Â
âThatâs not your choice to make,â he shot back, his voice trembling. âTell me.â Â
You finally met his gaze, your eyes brimming with tears as you whispered the name that had haunted you for weeks, for months: âBarty.â Â
The silence that followed was deafening, the weight of your admission hanging heavy in the air. James stared at you, his face a mixture of shock, anger, and something deeper- betrayal. Â
âBarty Crouch?â He asked slowly, his voice barely above a whisper. Â
You nodded, your throat too tight to speak. Â
âBarty Crouch Junior?â James pushed and you gave a weak scoff.
âJames- yes Junior.â You huffed, your anger boiling over.
James stared at you, his chest rising and falling with the effort of keeping his temper in check. His jaw clenched so tightly you thought it might shatter, but his eyes- those familiar, warm hazel eyes- betrayed the storm inside him. He was angry, yes, but the anger wasnât directed at you. It wasnât even directed at Barty. It was directed at himself.
For a moment, the room was silent, the only sound the faint beating of rain against the windows. You could see it, the way his hands trembled slightly as he tried to decide what to say. Finally, he spoke, his voice low but sharp enough to cut through the silence.
âHow long?â He asked, his tone controlled but strained. âHow long were you seeing him?â
You swallowed hard, gripping the blanket in your lap. âJames-â
âHow. Long.â His voice cracked, louder this time, the control slipping for just a moment. He was trying, you knew he was trying, but the weight of everything was too much for even him to hold back.
You took a shaky breath, forcing yourself to meet his gaze. âIt started fifth year.â you admitted quietly. âIt ended seventh. And he.. he showed up here. He told me about Peter.â
Jamesâs face twisted, and he turned away, his hands dragging through his already-messy hair. He let out a low, frustrated sound that was somewhere between a sigh and a growl. âFifth year?â he muttered to himself. âMerlin, Bambi, how did I not see it? How did I-â He cut himself off, pacing again.
You bit your lip, tears stinging your eyes. âJames, please-â
âI..â He started but stopped- as if your tears alone tore apart at his flimsy heart. Closing his eyes and taking a steady breath. âSo he made it past the wards. He came and told you about Peter and what? You-â
âJames please just drop it. He's in Azkaban for life! It doesn't matter.â
James froze mid-step, his fists clenching tightly at his sides as his back remained turned to you. His shoulders heaved with the weight of unspoken words, his frustration palpable in the charged silence that filled the room.
"It doesn't matter?" He finally repeated, his voice low and filled with a quiet, simmering rage. "It doesn't matter?"
You flinched at his tone, gripping the blanket tighter as you tried to steady your breathing. "He's gone, James," you said softly, your voice trembling. "There's nothing left to fight over. There's no point in dragging this out."
James spun around to face you, his hazel eyes blazing with a mixture of anger, hurt, and disbelief. "No point?" He hissed, taking a step closer. "You think Iâm angry because of him? Merlin, Bambi, I couldnât give a damn about Barty Crouch. Iâm angry because you didnât tell me. Youâve been carrying this- this secret- alone, and now youâre trying to push me away again."
"I'm not pushing you away," You shot back, your voice rising slightly. "I'm trying to protect you! You have Lily, Harry- your family. You don't need to be dragged into this mess, James. Itâs mine to deal with."
His expression softened for a fraction of a second, but the anger quickly returned. "Youâre my family," he said fiercely, his voice breaking slightly. "You always have been. And if you think for one second that Iâm going to stand here and let you face this alone, then you donât know me at all."
You stared at him, the raw emotion in his voice cutting through your defenses like a blade. Your chest ached, torn between the desire to let him in and the fear of burdening him further. "James, I-" you began, but your voice faltered as tears welled in your eyes.
He closed the distance between you, dropping into the chair beside your bed. His hand found yours, warm and steady despite the tremor in his grip. "Listen to me," he said softly, his tone losing its edge as his thumb brushed over your knuckles. "I donât care how messy this is. I donât care how much it hurts. I just care about you."
The dam inside you broke, and a sob escaped your lips as you clung to his hand like a lifeline. "I donât know how to fix this," you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper. "I donât know how to move forward."
James squeezed your hand tightly, his gaze unwavering. "You donât have to figure it out alone," he said firmly. "Weâll take it one step at a time, together. You hear me, Bambi? Youâre not alone in this."
The weight on your chest eased ever so slightly as his words sank in, the overwhelming love and determination in his voice a balm to your fractured soul. You nodded, unable to speak as the tears streamed down your face, and James pulled you into a tight embrace.
For the first time in what felt like an eternity, you allowed yourself to lean on him, to let the walls youâd built around yourself crumble. And as James held you, murmuring reassurances that you would face whatever came next together, you felt the smallest flicker of hope begin to bloom in your chest.
After you recovered, you faced the daunting task of telling Sirius and Remus. Their reactions were nothing like youâd expected. After weeks of being stuffed up in that dingy room.
Sirius, ever the one to surprise you, turned softer than youâd ever seen him. It reminded you of the day Lily announced she was pregnant with Harry. He was standing in the kitchen when you told him, fiddling with a mug of tea. The moment the words left your lips, his eyes widened, and he nearly dropped the mug onto the countertop.Â
For a moment, you thought he might pass out, but then his face broke into a beaming smile that almost seemed out of place for the weight of what youâd just told him. âYouâre joking,â he said, his voice barely above a whisper. When you shook your head, tears welling in your eyes, he stepped forward, his hands gripping your shoulders firmly. âMerlin, youâre not joking.â
âIâm sorry,â You began, your voice cracking as the apology spilled from your lips. âI didnât mean for this to happen, I-â
âStop,â Sirius interrupted, his tone so warm it took you aback. He let go of your shoulders and instead pulled you into the tightest hug youâd ever received. âDonât you dare apologize,â he murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âYouâll be a good mum, do you hear me? A bloody brilliant one.â
Tears slipped down your cheeks as you clung to him, his words washing over you like a balm. âBut Sirius,â you tried again, your voice muffled against his shoulder. âThe father-â
âI donât care,â he said firmly, pulling back to look at you. His gray eyes were intense, but not with judgment- only love and determination. âI donât care who he is, or what heâs done. This baby is going to have the best mum in the world. And theyâre going to have me too, whether they like it or not.â
You let out a shaky laugh, his unwavering support lifting some of the weight off your chest. He grinned at you then, that mischievous, boyish grin you thought youâd lost after the war. âMerlin, James is going to lose his mind when he meets them,â He said, his voice laced with humor. âBut Iâm going to be the favorite uncle, just you wait.â
But then there was Remus.
You found Remus later in the sitting room, a book in his lap, though he wasnât reading it. His eyes were distant, his fingers absently tracing the edges of the pages. He looked up when you entered, and the small smile he gave you faltered slightly when he caught sight of your expression.
âRemus,â you started hesitantly, sitting down on the sofa across from him. You fidgeted with your hands, unsure of how to begin. âThereâs⊠something I need to tell you.â
He didnât say anything, but the corner of his mouth quirked upward ever so slightly. His gaze flickered to your stomach for a moment, then back to your face. His expression was calm, almost amused, but there was a glint of something in his hazel eyes- something knowing.
âI-â you faltered, feeling suddenly uneasy under his gaze. âItâs⊠itâs important.â
He hummed softly, setting the book down on the armrest. âGo on, then,â He said, his tone light but laced with curiosity. He leaned forward slightly, resting his elbows on his knees as he studied you.
You took a deep breath, the words caught in your throat. âRemus, I-â You stopped when he lifted a finger to his nose and tapped it lightly, the gesture so quick and casual it took a moment to register.
You frowned, your heart skipping a beat as realization slowly dawned on you. âRemus,â you said again, your voice sharper this time. âYou already know.â
His smirk grew slightly, the mischievous tilt of his lips catching you completely off guard. âI might,â he said nonchalantly, leaning back against the couch with an air of smugness. âThough itâs much more fun watching you squirm.â
You stared at him, your mouth opening and closing as you tried to process his words. âHow?â You finally managed, your voice a mix of shock and disbelief. âHow do you know?â
He shrugged, crossing one ankle over his knee. âIt wasnât hard to figure out,â he said casually, though there was a teasing lilt to his tone. âThe scent changed a few days ago.â
âThe scent?â You repeated, utterly baffled.
His smirk deepened, and he tapped his nose again, his hazel eyes sparkling with amusement. âEnhanced senses, remember? The subtle shifts, the hormones- itâs all there. Just like Lily. Didnât think Iâd notice?â
You stared at him, utterly dumbfounded. âYou could smell that I was-?â
âPregnant?â He finished for you, his tone softening slightly. Hearing Remus be the first to break- to finally say the word properly- it brought a smile to your face. âYes.â
You buried your face in your hands, groaning softly as the embarrassment washed over you. âMerlin, Remus, you couldâve said something!â
âAnd miss this moment?â He teased, leaning forward again. âNot a chance.â
You peeked at him through your fingers, narrowing your eyes. âYouâre insufferable.â
âOnly because I care,â he quipped, his smirk turning into a warm smile. He reached out, his hand resting gently on yours. âI knew youâd tell me when you were ready.â
His words melted some of the tension in your chest, and you let out a shaky laugh. âWell, Iâm telling you now,â you said softly. âIâm⊠Iâm having a baby.â
His smile grew, the teasing glint in his eyes giving way to something softer, something warmer. âI know,â he said simply, his voice steady and reassuring. âAnd youâre going to be amazing.â
Tears pricked at your eyes as his words settled over you, their sincerity hitting you squarely in the chest. âThank you, Remus,â you whispered.
~~~
Even after everything, it was as smooth as it could possibly be. James, Lily, and Harry all finally packed up from their safe house and moved back into the Potter Manor.Â
Sirius and Remus finally stopped torturing everyone and confessed to their little run around of affections.Â
The years passed like a dream, each one carrying its own triumphs and heartaches. The war faded into history, though its scars remained etched into the lives of those who survived it. Life moved on, not always neatly, but with a resilience that surprised you.
Sirius and Remus opened a small library nestled on the corner of Diagon Alley and a quiet cobblestone street. It was cozy, with tall shelves of books that seemed to reach the ceiling, a perpetually warm fireplace, and a small reading nook tucked into the back. The name on the window read Padfoot and Moonyâs Rare Reads, though it quickly became known simply as âThe Den.â
Remus spent his days writing accurate, unbiased Defense Against the Dark Arts books, ones that became staples in Hogwarts classrooms. His name grew to rival even Gilderoy Lockhartâs (though, unlike Lockhart, Remus didnât need embellishments to sell books). Sirius, of course, claimed full credit for every ounce of their success, though he spent more time charming patrons and hosting wildly popular storytelling nights than actually working.
Your daughter, Ophelia, was the light of your life. She had her fathers eyes- but carried a quiet intensity in her gaze that reminded you of a young girl you once knew. Sirius adored her, and James, ever the doting uncle, took it upon himself to teach her everything he could about Quidditch, much to Lilyâs dismay. Harry, now only 6, had taken on a brotherly role, often sneaking her chocolates or helping her catch frogs in the garden when no one was looking.
But it was Remus who seemed to understand Ophelia in ways even you sometimes struggled to. He noticed the way she retreated into her own thoughts, the questions she asked that were far too insightful for her age. He never pushed her, always waiting patiently for her to come to him with her thoughts, her worries, or her triumphs. It was Remus who first noticed how much she loved books, spending hours reading to her in that steady, soothing voice of his.
One quiet afternoon, while Ophelia played on the rug with a stack of enchanted building blocks, you stood at the counter of the library, watching Remus as he worked on editing a draft of his latest book. The sunlight streamed through the windows, catching the streaks of silver in his hair, and you couldnât help but smile.
âIâve been meaning to ask you something,â You said softly, your voice breaking the comfortable silence.
Remus looked up from his notes, his hazel eyes warm and curious. âWhatâs on your mind?â
You stepped closer, your hands resting lightly on the counter. âI wanted to ask if youâd consider being Opheliaâs godfather.â
His expression froze for a moment, his pen hovering above the page. Then, slowly, a smile broke across his face, wide and genuine in a way that made your chest ache with affection. âAre you serious?â He asked, his voice barely above a whisper.
âDead serious,â You teased lightly, though your voice trembled with emotion. âShe adores you, Remus. And so do I. Thereâs no one else Iâd trust more.â
He set his pen down and rose from his chair, crossing the short distance between you in a few strides. He hesitated for only a moment before pulling you into a tight, warm hug. âIt would be an honor,â He murmured, his voice thick with emotion. âThank you.â
~~~
It was late summer, and the warm golden light streaming through the windows of the Potter Manor made the room feel alive, even as you worked through the seemingly endless task of packing Opheliaâs trunk for another school year at Hogwarts. She sat nearby, perched on the edge of the armchair with her dark hair falling in loose waves over her shoulders, her head bent over her meticulously written list.Â
She was elegant without trying, a quiet sort of grace that seemed inherent in her very being. Even now, as she frowned slightly at the parchment in her hands, the faintest furrow of her brow betrayed her focus; her fingers fiddling with the magpie necklace you gifted her on her eleventh birthday. You couldnât help the soft smile that tugged at your lips as you watched her. She was so much her own person- intelligent, curious, and brimming with quiet determination- but in her moments of focus, you could see glimpses of her father in her too. It made your chest ache with a love so fierce it almost hurt.
âMum,â She said finally, her voice gentle but tinged with that signature note of exasperation. She didnât look up from her list as she spoke. âI told you- I need new potion vials. The ones from last year cracked.â
You folded one of her robes carefully and placed it into the trunk, glancing over at her with a soft chuckle. âAnd I told you, my love,â You hummed, your voice calm and warm, âthat youâll get them when we go to Diagon Alley. Harry and the Weasleys are meeting us there, remember?â
She let out a dramatic sigh, finally lifting her head to meet your gaze. Her sharp, inquisitive eyes- so much like his and yet so uniquely her own- sparkled with that combination of pride and determination that seemed to define her. âI donât see why I canât just go by myself,â She challenged, crossing her arms over her chest in that effortlessly regal way of hers. âIâm not a baby, you know.â
You raised an eyebrow at her, the corners of your mouth lifting into a knowing smile. âYouâre thirteen,â You countered gently, pausing in your task to give her your full attention. âAnd while I have no doubt that you could navigate the alley on your own, Iâd prefer to keep you in one piece. Humor your mother, will you?â
Ophelia rolled her eyes dramatically, but the faint smile that tugged at her lips betrayed her. âFine,â she relented, her tone light but tinged with mock indignation. âBut only because you insist.â
You laughed softly, reaching over to brush a stray strand of hair from her face. âThank you, darling,â you murmured, your voice soft with affection. âI donât know what Iâd do without you to keep me on my toes.â
She tilted her head slightly, her expression softening as she studied you. âProbably live a very peaceful, boring life,â She sighed in faux aspiration, her words playful but her tone warm. âNo dramatic letters about professors or requests for obscure potion ingredients.â
âDonât forget the long rants about Magic Theory,â You added with a smirk, resuming your task as you carefully folded another one of her robes. âIâd be lost without those.â
Ophelia gave a delicate shrug, her lips curving into a smile that was pure mischief. âWell, someone has to keep you informed,â She said lightly, glancing back down at her list. âYouâd be dreadfully out of touch without me.â
âPerish the thought,â You mused, your tone laced with mock horror. But as you reached for another item to pack, you couldnât help the warmth that bloomed in your chest.Â
Despite her pride and sharp wit- or perhaps because of it- Ophelia had a heart so full of love and passion that it left you in awe. She was your miracle, your everything, and the reason you had fought so hard to build a life worth living after everything youâd endured. And though she sometimes tested your patience, you wouldnât trade a single moment with her for the world.
As you worked together in companionable silence, the house around you buzzed faintly with the promise of the day ahead. Soon, the Floo Network would carry her off to join Harry and the Weasleys, and you would meet James and Lily later at the Leaky Cauldron. But for now, in this moment, it was just the two of you, and the quiet love you shared was enough to fill the room with light.
âOphelia,â You called softly, breaking the silence as you tucked the last item into her trunk. She looked up at you, her expression curious. âYou know I love you, donât you?â
Her sharp features softened instantly, and she set her list aside, crossing the small space between you to wrap her arms around your waist. âOf course I do, Mum,â She murmured, her voice quiet but sure. âAnd I love you too.â
You held her close, your heart swelling with a love so fierce it threatened to overwhelm you. No matter how many years passed or how independent she became, she would always be your little girl. And in that moment, as the sunlight streamed through the windows and the world felt soft and safe, you were reminded once again of just how lucky you were to have her.
~~~
The cobbled streets of Diagon Alley buzzed with life, the chatter of families mingling with the clink of cauldrons and the rustle of shopping bags. Children darted between storefronts, their excitement infectious, while parents called after them, juggling lists and parcels. But Ophelia paid the lively scene no mind. She moved with purpose, her steps elegant yet determined, weaving through the crowd with a quiet confidence that belied her thirteen years.Â
âHonestly, Harry, itâs just a bookstore,â sheâd said earlier, rolling her eyes at her cousinâs protests. âIâll be fine.â Her tone, a perfect blend of exasperation and poise, had left little room for argument. Sheâd dismissed him with a wave of her hand, her pride unwilling to entertain the notion that she needed an escort for something so trivial.
Now, her prize- a hefty tome on advanced magical theory- was clutched tightly under her arm, its worn leather cover radiating the promise of knowledge. She moved briskly, her dark hair swaying as she navigated the bustling street, her mind already racing ahead to the countless possibilities the book would unlock. The noise of the crowd seemed to fade as she glanced down at the book, her lips curving into a satisfied smile.Â
It wasnât just the content that thrilled her- though the promise of unraveling complex magical concepts certainly did- it was the independence of it all. Sheâd insisted on going alone, had chosen the book herself, and now, with it safely in hand, she felt a sense of accomplishment she wouldnât admit to anyone.Â
With her head held high and a quiet pride radiating from her, Ophelia turned her steps back toward the group, determined to reunite with Harry and the others before anyone could begin another lecture on responsibility. For now, though, the world felt bright, the possibilities endless, and she relished the brief moment of freedom.
That was when she heard it.
The cheerful hum of Diagon Alley faded into the background as a sharp, panicked cry reached Ophelia's ears. She froze mid-step, her heart skipping a beat as her gaze snapped toward a shadowy alley just ahead. The sound came again, muffled but unmistakably distressed. Her fingers instinctively tightened around the book she carried, and she shifted her weight forward, craning her neck to see.
In the dimness of the alley, two figures stood locked in a tense struggle. The taller one had the smaller pinned against the brick wall, his grip tight around the otherâs collar. âYou've got nerve, Pettigrew.â The smaller figureâs pale hair fell in messy strands across his face as he squirmed against the hold, his voice trembling.Â
âPlease,â the blonde figure gasped, desperation lacing every syllable. âIâm sorry! I wonât look for you again. H-he wonât hear of your escape- not from me!â
Opheliaâs breath hitched. Her heart hammered against her ribs as she took in the scene. The smaller figureâs voice cracked with panic, his pale blue eyes wide and darting frantically. The taller figure, shrouded in shadows, stood silent and imposing, his wand raised. A faint, menacing glow illuminated the tip, the threat unmistakable.
She didnât think. She didnât pause. Her wand was in her hand in an instant, and she stepped into the mouth of the alley, her voice cutting through the tense air like a blade.
âOi! Let him go!â She shouted, her tone sharp and commanding.Â
Both figures froze, their heads snapping toward her. The taller manâs wand lowered slightly, his body going rigid with hesitation. The smaller figure twisted his neck, his gaze locking onto hers, and for a fleeting moment, Ophelia saw a flash of something in his pale eyes- hope? Relief?
It didnât last.Â
The blonde manâs lips parted, and before she could speak again, his body jerked unnaturally. The sound of cracking bones and tearing sinew filled the air, a grotesque symphony of transformation. Opheliaâs stomach churned as she watched the manâs form contort, shrinking and twisting. Within seconds, he was gone, replaced by a scruffy, dirt-streaked rat.
âWhat the- ?â The words barely escaped her lips before the rat lunged forward, its sharp teeth sinking into the taller manâs hand.Â
The man let out a hiss of pain, his grip faltering just enough to allow the rat to squirm free. In a blur of motion, it darted down the alley, disappearing into the shadows with a faint, scuttling sound.Â
Ophelia stood rooted to the spot, her wand trembling slightly in her grasp. Her wide eyes flicked from the spot where the rat had vanished to the man now turning toward her, his movements deliberate, his frustration radiating like heat.Â
As he stepped into the dim light filtering from the street, his features came into view. Sharp, angular lines carved a face that was both striking and unsettling. His dark hair fell messily across his brow, and his green eyes burned with a mixture of irritation and something else- something far more dangerous.
Ophelia squared her shoulders, her heart thundering in her chest but her chin lifting in defiance. She clutched her wand tightly, the poised elegance of her posture belying the unease bubbling beneath the surface. Every lesson her mother had taught her about composure echoed in her mind, steeling her nerves.
âWho do you think you are?â she demanded, her voice cold and cutting. âPicking on someone smaller than you in an alley? How pathetic.â
The manâs lips quirked into something that might have been a smirk, though it didnât reach his eyes. He took a step closer, his tall frame casting an intimidating shadow. âAnd who,â he said, his voice low and measured, âdo you think you are to interrupt something that doesnât concern you?â
âIâm the girl whoâs about to hex you into next week,â she shot back without missing a beat, her wand steady as she pointed it at his chest. âBack off, or youâll find out just how much trouble a thirteen-year-old can cause.â
The man hesitated, his head tilting slightly as he studied her. His gaze dropped from her face to her neck, and his sharp eyes narrowed, honing in on the small magpie charm resting just above her collarbone. The faint light caught the delicate metal, and for a moment, his composure faltered.
âThat,â he murmured, his voice strained, âisnât yours.â
Opheliaâs brows furrowed, her hand instinctively rising to the charm. Her fingers brushed over the familiar metal as her mind raced. âWhatâs it to you?â she retorted, her tone sharp, her grip on her wand unwavering. âIt was a gift.â
The manâs jaw tightened, and for a fleeting moment, something flickered across his face- recognition, anger, and a hint of something she couldnât quite place. âWho gave it to you?â he demanded, his voice rougher now, almost desperate.
Her lips pressed into a thin line, and she straightened her spine, her wand tip glowing faintly as she met his intensity head-on. âThatâs none of your business,â she said firmly.Â
He took another step forward, his green eyes blazing with an intensity that made her breath hitch. âIâll ask you again,â he growled, his voice a dangerous whisper. âWho gave you that charm?â
Ophelia didnât flinch. Instead, she tilted her chin higher, defiance sparking in her gaze. âMy mom,â she said clearly, her voice carrying an unmistakable note of pride. Her lips curved into a faint, deliberate smile as she added, âYou should know her. Iâm a Potter, after all.â
The man froze. His entire body stiffened, his green eyes widening ever so slightly before narrowing again. Something shifted in his expression, a mixture of shock, pain, and anger that he quickly tried to mask. He stared at her as though he were seeing a ghost.
Ophelia arched an eyebrow, her confidence swelling as she saw the cracks in his composure. âOh,â she said lightly, her tone dripping with mock disappointment, âdonât tell me youâve forgotten about us. That would be awfully sad- we are war heros.â
The manâs lips pressed into a thin line, his hands twitching at his sides. He took a small step back, his expression unreadable as he muttered, âA Potter.â
âThatâs right,â she said evenly, her wand still raised. âAnd unless youâd like to explain what youâre doing lurking in alleys, I suggest you leave.â
He didnât respond. Instead, he turned sharply on his heel and disappeared into the shadows without another word, leaving Ophelia standing in the mouth of the alley, her chest heaving as she tried to steady her breath.
She glanced down at the charm again, her fingers brushing over its surface. Who was that man? she wondered, a faint chill creeping down her spine. And why did the sight of this charm seem to haunt him so?
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The Leaky Cauldron buzzed with its usual chatter, the comforting scent of roasted meat and freshly baked bread drifting through the warm air. You sat at a large table with James, Lily, Sirius, and Remus, laughing at one of Siriusâs over-the-top tales from Hogwarts. The lightness in the room felt like a rare and precious gift, a momentary escape from the shadow of battles fought and sacrifices endured.
The door swung open with a sharp creak, a gust of cool air sweeping in as Harry entered with Ron, Ginny, and Ophelia. Their cheeks were flushed from the bustling streets outside, their movements slightly hurried. Your gaze instinctively fell on Ophelia.Â
Something was wrong.
She lingered behind the others, her usual confident stride replaced with hesitant steps. Her arms were crossed tightly over her chest, as though trying to shield herself from the world. Her sharp features looked drawn, pale, and etched with unease.Â
âOi, there they are!â Sirius called out, raising a hand in greeting. âTook you long enough. Did you stop for ice cream?â
Ron mumbled something about Fred and George dragging them into Weasleysâ Wizard Wheezes, but his words barely registered. Your focus stayed fixed on Ophelia as she slipped into the seat beside you. She didnât look up, her fingers fidgeting with the edge of her cloak, her head bowed like she was trying to disappear.
âOphelia, love,â you said gently, leaning closer to her. âEverything alright?â
Her shoulders tensed, and for a moment, she said nothing. She just sat there, her hand brushing against the magpie charm around her neck. It was a small, almost subconscious motion, but it spoke volumes.
âYeah,â she murmured after a pause, though the tremor in her voice betrayed her. âIâm fine.â
You frowned, your worry deepening. She was many things- brilliant, fiery, and determined- but never this quiet. You reached into your bag, pulling out a few Galleons, and slid them toward Harry, Ron, and Ginny. âWhy donât you three grab some ice cream for real this time? My treat.â
The three exchanged uncertain glances, but Ron was the first to shrug and stand. Harry hesitated, his concerned gaze darting toward his cousin, but eventually, he and Ginny followed Ron out of the pub.
The second they were gone, you turned back to Ophelia. âYou donât look fine,â you pressed softly. âWhat happened?â
Across the table, James and Lily shared a look, their worry mirrored in their expressions. Sirius, his usual joviality replaced with quiet intensity, leaned back in his chair, studying Ophelia closely. Even Remus put down his cup of tea, his sharp gaze focused on her.
Opheliaâs fingers twisted together in her lap, her head ducked low. âItâs nothing,â she muttered, her voice barely audible.
âOphelia,â you said again, your tone a little firmer this time. âYou can tell me. Whatever it is, Iâm here.â
For a moment, she stayed quiet, the tension in her shoulders radiating like a pulse. Then, in a gesture so small it almost went unnoticed, she leaned into you. Her head rested against your arm, her nose pressing into the fabric of your sleeve.Â
You froze for half a second before wrapping an arm around her, pulling her close. She didnât cry- Ophelia never cried- but the way she clung to you spoke louder than words. âMom.â She muffled against your side. As if recharging her spent bravado and bravery in your arms. âDo we know a Pettigrew?â
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INTERVIEW WITH Y/N L/N | VOGUE

In conversation with Y/n L/n about being a mother and a racing driver, and her whatâs in store for her.
Known for her fierce driving and even fiercer spirit, has seamlessly transitioned into a life thatâs as complex as it is rewarding. A name that echoes through the halls of motorsport history, her story is one of reinventionâa journey from high-speed thrills to quiet, profound moments of motherhood, and, possibly, a return to the racing world in an entirely new role.
The 2000s were Y/nâs golden years at Williams. Her raw talent shone even when the teamâs fortunes dipped, and she quickly became a fan favorite. Known for her courage, sharp wit, and stunning moves on the track, she formed friendships with some of the sport's brightest starsâMark Webber, Sebastian Vettel, and Jenson Button. Their bond, a cocktail of camaraderie and unspoken attraction, became as legendary as her driving.
But the glamorous world of F1, with its dazzling lights and high expectations, took a toll. In 2004, Williams made the decision to drop her from their rosterâa move that would alter the course of her life forever. Y/n, at the time, found solace in the chaos. Late nights, parties, and the company of friends became her refuge.
"I wasnât ready to let go of F1, but at that point, I wasnât sure where I was headed." Y/n said as we chat in her London home. Itâs a beautiful house with stained glass windows and the perfect amount of sunlight shining in. Her daughter is also present though she much prefers to continue with her reading as she cuddles up to her mother.
But in the unpredictable world of racing, the story of Y/n was far from over. A fresh start beckoned when McLaren offered her a seat, a move that many saw as her redemption arc. She embraced the opportunity, her focus sharper than ever. The partying ceased. The cigarettes were put out. It wasnât just a return to the sportâit was a return to herself.
Her career, marked by precision and passion, came to an official close in 2014, but Y/nâs influence has never waned. Retirement, though, didnât equate to slowing down. Today, Y/n is a motherâsomething thatâs become a cornerstone of her identity.
âIâve always been independent, but being a mom has redefined what it means to be strong," she says, her eyes softening. "Itâs a different kind of challenge, but one Iâm grateful for every single day.â
Her daughter, now nine, was born a year after her retirement. She had announced the birth on her social media with a simple caption: âwelcome to the world, my beautiful girlâ
âAs a mom, Iâve learned the art of balancing," Y/n reflects. "There are days when Iâm just a momâno racing, no interviews, no drama. And then there are days when Iâm reminded of who I was before all of this. It's about finding peace with both versions of myself.â
At this point, her daughter stops reading her book and places several kisses on her motherâs cheek. It was a beautiful moment between mom and daughter.
âThe future is full of possibilities. Iâm focused on whatâs next, but I'm not in any rush. Weâll see what happens. Right now, Iâm the happiest Iâve ever been.â
Motherhood may have softened some edges, but it has only sharpened her focus. If thereâs one thing Y/n has taught us, itâs that the greatest drivers are those who can keep pushing, even when theyâre driving toward the unknown.
INTERVIEW WITH Y/N | THE PADDOCK SESSIONS PODCAST
âWelcome everyone to the paddock sessions podcast. Iâm your host Dan and todays guest is a very special one. She is my favorite driver and Iâm going to try not to freak out right now. Y/n L/n welcome to the paddock sessions!â Dan the host said into his microphone.
Y/n smiled and thanked Dan for the introduction. âFavorite driver? Dan, Iâm flattered. Iâll pay you later.â She joked.
âYouâre actually the reason my girlfriend watches formula 1. She watched your past races and was devastated when I told her you retired in 2014. I think she was thinking of breaking up with me because I told her,â Dan admitted. Y/n chuckled at his words. âBut can we see a potential comeback for you? I know Iâm not the only one that would love to see that!â
âWell I canât really stay away from formula 1. I try to watch the races with my daughter, but sheâs not interested in racing at all so I always end up watching them alone.â Y/n explained as she adjusted the microphone.
âDaughter of a racing driver isnât interested in racing? Thatâs wild. But at least she knows that her mom is a legend in the sport, yeah?â Dan asked.
âSheâs reminded every time we go out and Iâm stopped because someone wants an autograph or a picture,â Y/n laughs. âBut she knows the basics, she knows what all the number means, sheâs a smart girl.â
âAmazing. Um, on the topic of your daughter, and you can stop me if you want, youâve always been an open book in many ways, yet when it comes to your daughterâs father, youâve kept things private. How hard has it been to keep things like that private? I imagine it must be frustrating.â
Y/n nodded and cleared her throat. âIâve always believed in protecting my daughterâs privacy, and for me, that extends to the people closest to us. Iâll say this: my daughter is incredibly lucky to have the most amazing father. Heâs the kind of dad who would do anything to keep her safe and happy. I know sheâs growing up in a secure and loving environment because of him. Heâs protective, but in the best way possible.â
âHave you seen the tweets regarding it?â Dan asked curiously.
âOh yeah, itâs all over my feed. Iâve actually read some pretty crazy shit about the father of my daughter.â Y/n said.
âAny favorites?â
âThereâs a thread that was posted recently on why Lewis is the father of my daughter. I love Lewis, but I can confirm he is not. Heâs actually the godfather.â
âWell, you heard it hear first folks!â

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