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ohheyitsem · 1 year

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I am so intensely physically ill after watching genloss. I loved it, don't get me wrong, but the absolute dread it instilled in me is something else I swear. I wasn't terribly bothered until Niki died. Despite knowing it wasn't real, something about how abrupt and senless her death was incredibly disturbing to me. Then, the ending when Ranboo died so quickly with absolutely no theatrics. I literally have no words. I am unwell.

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iridescentis · 4 months

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i cannot sing dance nor act but i think playing ricky potts would fix me

#no because i must become him #singing sabm is incredibly gender affirming #why yes i AM a swinging space age bachelor man #its also very funny being an ace person singing a song about fucking catgirls in space #any theatre place please let me in #i am deeply anxious and disturbed but i will try #hey if ricky's singing sounds like a strangled cat is that not on brand??#i think it is #ride the cyclone #rtc #ricky potts

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moeblob · 4 months

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Look, I just think it's VERY funny and on brand that I thought of an entire premise of colorful characters for half the cast and immediately drew the only one void of color.

#my characters #i will not bore you all too much in the main post but now its story time in the tags so yeefuckinghaw #noll is a fae and is distinctly the only one that just lacks colors #at first he was like well surely i can wear colorful stuff to make up for my dark hair and eyes !#and then he overhears some of the fae talking about how hes a blemish to the fae and hes like well fuck #guess its time to go all in baby! and decks himself out in all black and jagged clothing #and he tries to play it off as hes an idiot and a lot of the fae actually believe its not ALL an act #like they can tell he thinks about stuff but he normally does it staring into space so they dont care to ask #cause surely it isnt important enough to brood about hes just thinking about stuff #and he really REALLY has a lot of confidence issues and worries that more fae are disturbed by his darkness than let on #but then the other fae that like to hang out with him are like #YOOOOOO THATS OUR LIL VOID! THATS OUR LIL GUY! our lil black spot look at him hes so edgy and cute!#and treat him like a pet cat at times giving him head pats even if he bats their hands away #and the plot premise is that some of the fae are bored and decide they should go play with some humans! give THEM enrichment too!#and noll gets roped into it and The Game is basically go find a human partner and convince them to be an ally #then the fae give the humans cool lil toys (weapons) and are like GO FORTH MY CHAMPION!#so noll keeps like ... not picking anyone to participate because its not just A Game to him #if he can prove victorious in A Game with outside factors such as humans then he can prove hes not #an absolute disappointment to the fae like he has a lot riding on this in his mind #and his friends are just like buddy you cant even play if you dont pick a human you gotta #anyway here is noll and then i have ideas for two other fae and also a veeeery vague idea for two of the humans though not as sure yet #rae if you read all this you should know the cobalt is a fae thanks bye #i am so stressed posting ocs every single time and i am incredibly depressed and anxious #so good lord please let me not just delete all the tags in an hour bc im ashamed

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gil-notskajla · 7 days

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every time i watch that final shape zavala cutscene with safiyah statue im speechless over how good it is. Lighting (Danny o'hailey i owe you my life)?? Expressions and animation?? It has movie worthy cinematic value to me i would DEVOUR a series like this cutscene.

#And caydes in all final shape in-game model cutscenes have incredible animations too #Goes without saying exo smile damaged me forever in ways that cannot heal but we keep going /pos #Zavala #Final shape #Im bringing up zavala cutscene in particular bc it was perfect to me in every aspect even tho im not a zavala enjoyer normally. Here i am.#Ikora was so gorgeous too and targe conveyed all emotions with his tiny shell #Wahhh #I didnt like the ultra high realism cutscenes cuz faces of some characters were UNUSUALLY stiff #They were so unexpressive it was uncomfortable to me (except crow in hunt cutscene. he was babygirl there)#Witness showing zavala all that and for entire cutscene he's like '-' no anger no fear no disturbance. Nothing.#Muscle barely moved when targe died like dont piss me offf #And final battle cutscene had zavala barely emoting too grrrrrr like hyper realism cutscenes hated zavala fr #nimbo and drifter had something going on. So they could give zavala more expressiveness they just hate him #destiny 2 #Giltweet

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justanotherbarrelrat · 10 months

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can’t believe i gotta go to thanksgiving dinner and pretend to be normal. how can i do that when jerejean. when all for the game

#my thoughts consist of aftg and aftg only #but i am NOT explaining to anyone about that #‘yeah so neil is the runaway son of a crime lord and he’s also trying to avoid the yakuza’#‘its an incredibly disturbing series filled with violence and a fake sport’#‘AND THERES GONNA BE ANOTHER BOOK’#all for the game #aftg #the foxes #neil josten #exy: the one sport id actually be interested in watching #the sunshine court #jeremy knox #jean moreau #jerejean #i just love how they get no page interaction but its been collectively decided They Are Together

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somany-fandoms-solittle-time · 1 year

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Ruggie: *eating clean through a bone while having lunch*

Midwestern! Yuu: "Well, Shit. Yous gotta pair'uv Chompers on ya dontcha? Now, yous better be careful with that thang or'y'll snap somebody's fanger clean off!"

Epel, listening in from another table: YES! YES!! I UNDERSTAND!!! IM NOT THE ONLY ONE ANYMORE

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wavetapper · 4 months

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also god I can't believe in9 is ending ON WEDNESDAY... glad it's ending on the writers' terms but still rip the only TV show able to rewire my brain hard enough that I'm able to actively keep up with it

#id recommend checking it out if you want to see an incredibly bleak dark comedy/horror anthology #its two guys who write and star in it (alongside new actors every episode) and its literally just. them making whatever fucking #nightmare scenario short film they want for 30 minutes.#not all the episodes are hits but they dont miss often and even the bad ones have at least something interesting #sorry i dont post about this show super often its very much one of my middle aged man interests but jesus christ #i am unwell about it to a frankly disturbing degree. what the fuck are they going to do for this final episode #considering they faked a broadcast hijacking AND a game show 'replacement' (complete with a ladt minute #schedule change on like. the actual tv schedules. like on your tv.)#what are they cooking etc

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pietroleopoldo · 3 months

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I need to take a couple of measurements more but if this bitch fits in my room soo many of my problems will magically disappear it's not even funny

#i could even have breakfast in my room whenever my family is home so they don't disturb while i am reading #incredible

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lovsome · 11 months

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i need to vent about SH (tw !!!!!) for a sec in the tags bc i am feeling very overwhelmed sorry

#i have my last session with my therapist on wednesday before my surgery so i wont see her in at least two weeks after that and i have been #meaning to bring up sh because it has been on my mind constantly and it makes me want to smash my head against the wall repeatedly :~)#and its not just the urges #i had an incredibly disturbing dream last week……. disturbing stuff tw !!!!#in the dream i just remember looking down at my legs and i had huge enormous c*ts and wounds all over my legs…… like HUGE #and i knew i had made them myself and i remember them so vividly they were horrific and i just looked at them and started crying in such a #desperate raw way that my ears were buzzing and i felt like my head was gonna explode #so yeah i might be having a problem :))))#also i am paranoid because i know when i will go in for the surgery i will be knocked out and my whole body will be in their hands and #they will put some stuff on my fingers and they will 100% see my sc*rs and i want to scream #but other than these little things im fine 😀

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alluralater · 1 year

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rugby player is officially blocked. i wasn't even this icked out when someone purposefully gave me two STIs. what the actual fuck. that text... jesus. i don't even- what the actual fuck??

#got on my laptop to make up for time i lost today dealing with this bullshit about her creepy friend to see that she had set me another text #at some point tonight after my do not disturb turned on (so sometime after 11 idk i didnt check the timestamp)#and her text was SO gross to read. like what the fuck??? i'm not even posting it but just know that i am very VERY disgusted and i'm glad w #never kissed or did anything physical because this sort of shit very well could have been the case with her too.#bro how can you literally be so eager to think that way when multiple people have said this about your friend?? how can you be SO #deluded and dismissive without genuinely being like that yourself??#i'm shook. i'm so shook.#do ya'll know what the thing is here?? it's that i actually DID fuck around and try to find out with someone and it went HORRIBLY.#nuh uh consider me returning to the comfort of keeping extreme distance from anyone who has creepy friends. and anyone #in the goddamn military. the audacity is INCREDIBLE.#honestly glad this is over where im concerned tbh. i'm TIRED. i'm over ittttttt. this counts as my reckless activity #for the next 3 months (i rarely ever make reckless decisions like maybe a few times a year)#my best friend and i are going out on friday and drinking to the fact that we're done w military lesbians. first and LAST for me #if you read all these tags send me an ask with a random lyric from a tame impala song so i can appreciate you

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doomcunt · 1 year

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friendly reminder that if you’re into incest or support people fetishizing incest block and unfollow me

#lost a dear friend for incredibly stupid reasons. honestly shocking that i have to say this tbh #i am a victim of incest and will never find it sexy in any circumstances #only disturbing #secunit.txt

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arrowpunk · 1 year

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If I had a nickel for every time someone was weirdly possessive over my OCs and continued to use them even after we lost contact and got upset with me when I politely asked them to please stop. I would have 3 nickels. Which isn't a lot. But it's annoying as hell that it's happened even once.

#ramblings of an arrow #I shouldn't have to divulge my trauma for ppl to respect my boundaries as a creator #why does this keep happening to meeeeee #this is why I only ship OCs with my wife now #it's weird and gross and disturbing and upsetting that u still wanna have our OCs in a romantic/sexual relationship!#like dude literally why #if you don't like me why would u wanna keep parts of me in your life?#i am an incredibly small creator this is in no way equivalent or even close to fanfiction #simply..... 2 ppl being like this in the span of 2 days........ is not fun #block me i don't care just stop using my creations #i don't care if you aren't gonna publish anything with them #I still don't want you touching them #it's literally sooooooo easy to just make your own characters to fill the gap!#you don't need to steal mine!#it would be valid for me to ask EVEN IF I DIDN'T HAVE MASSIVE TRAUMA SURROUNDING IT FROM THE FIRST PERSON YEARS AGO #Like?? if I?? no longer hang out with someone I used to rp/talk OCs with? I make sure to take out anything that's theirs #from literally everything I have #it seems like it should be common courtesy to me???#it's? rude? not to?#why would I hang on to a ship playlist or a pinterest board or writing? that is using ppl's shit that isn't mine #and I have no right to continue to use

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sourkitsch · 2 years

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Wait did I ever tell you guys that until I was like 13 I legitimately believed my father could read my mind.

#ok now that you know stop thinking about how disturbing those implications are #haha noooooo don’t consider the severe psychological torture that shaped me into the incredibly maladjusted person I am today

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depresseddepot · 7 months

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it's always so funny to me when I can read something other people describe as "horrifying" or "nauseating" without blinking but then I find a book that I've never heard mentioned before that absolutely fucks me up

#the troop by nick cutter: what the fuck #very few books disturb me so much that i am genuinely fearful of sitting down and reading them again #i finished this book in two sittings bc the first one freaked me out so much that i have to gather my courage to read it again #and spent the whole time thinking both ''what the fuck'' and ''i should finish this so i don't have to read it again''#great book! however if given the opportunity i would like to never think of it again as long as i live <3 #went into it completely blind too so it just kept getting worse like that mr incredible meme #awful. awful awful awful. what the FUCK was that !#frankly i do not recommend it lmao. well written but unless you have nerves of fucking steel this book might kill you #without spoiling anything: if you have any (ANY) body horror triggers or germaphobia do not touch this book w a 10 foot pole #i think i have germaphobia (or something like it at least) and christ. god help me #frankly im surprised i only got scared by this book and not like physically ill tbh #anyway! i will do my very best to never think about this book again. what the fuck <3

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terramassakin · 10 months

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#ok putting this all in the tags but i just need to get this out of my head right now in a tangible way #but i just feel so fucking trapped by my own body right now and have had three breakdowns already becauze of it #for the last month or so i have essentially been cut off from the outside world and even the beings i love with right now #all thanks to my godsdamned immune system and lungs #because since i moved in my allergies have become hyper-active and aggravated my asthma to the point i still struggle to just talk #or even breathe without sounding like a human squeak toy or bagpipe #because of that i havent been able to talk with friends online in vc even though id love to #i cant go outside because that sets off my allergies and im afraid theres gonna be another allergen that actually drives me to use my epi #AND im incredibly limited in my home now as i am very allergic to all three pets whose hair is EVERYWHERE #and worst of all #the one pet i am the most allergic to is our cat Mochi who i absolutely love and she loves me more than anyone else #and she is getting so so so skinny and old and wont be around much longer #but i cant give her all the love and affection she deserves for being my precious Motorboat #because my allergies will very quickly decide that breathing is no longer an option if i breathe in too much hair #and her cat hair will become a landmine of allergies thatll be kicked up whenever that area is disturbed #and my hands are already getting so dried out from all the hand washing #and i am just so upset by this #and essentially grieving the fact i wont be able to give her as much love and affection as i want to before she passes #and i may need to move my computer setup into my bedroom as its the one place that can be kept pet free #and i just... gods i hate this so much... ;-;#like im scared to even try and push these allergies because if they get aggrivated then they make life hell #everything itches and it becomes so hard to just breathe normally (let alone even be able to talk to my family) for like a week afterwards #and i just.... i just want to pet and give my Mochi affection while shes still here #but shes getting so so bony and is having a harder time moving around to even fet up into her cat tree ;-;#idk how much longer she has left vut i know that it'll be a long time before my allergy shots can make my allergy to her manageable #and i just... i dont know what to do and i hate it ;-;

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loveydovey-leviathan · 11 months

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#the coffin of andy and leyley #im going to be RANTING and there will be negative thoughts #> i just want to ramble but i dont want to write it in my journal cuz i dont want to reread it #i need to get my thought OOOUUTT #anyway #i have no idea why im so upset about andrew and ashley sleeping together #we all knew it was gonna happen #im not surprised im disgusted #but its like- obviously they were going to :/#i just kinda wish they died and suffered a lot before they could get to that part #*sssiiiighhh*#its a good game #very disturbing and makes me incredibly uncomfortable #...#seriously tho why am i so distraught over this ofc they were going to have sex ugh #okay i have to calm down and just push this out of my mind :////#its whatever ITS WHATEVER #< affirmations #ill probably forget this when i finish watching manly play the game #at least i get to hear his thoughts

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