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#i mean im not sure if this is a vent or if im just yelling into the void
bueris · 4 months
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okay maybe I should seriously reconsider my path in life and sell my soul to marketing or journalism instead
#okay venting in the tags you are very welcome to ignore or not respond to it i just need to yell somewhere#i always thought id be an art therapist because well i care about people and want to help them and love art#but everyday i wake up feeling like a fraud and an imposter so like. should i really be doing all that when im not entirely#certain i cpuld handle it??? like i know i haven't gotten the meaty bit of the education towards that yet but like#university costs a disgusting amount of money here and if i pick the wronf thing im likely doomed forever thanks to awful government#i know things could get better like they did after thatcher but honestly im not putting any bets on it considering how the current labour#party is so like if i fuck up here im basically dead#also can i actually do art uni. like could i cope with that. im deeply unethused with art at the moment and honestly will i evwr be#idk#it was jusr a thing i always did but education around it is fucking soul sucking#also the emotional weight of hearing and solving people's problems as a therapist. i would consider myself quite empathetic for the most#part i feel other people's pain quite strongly and obviously as a therapist id be feeling that quite a bit so could i actually cope with it?#ik therapists have therapists but still#i mean im doing work experience at an occupational therapy place so ill just be extra inquisitive about it all to make sure im going#the way i wanna#I'll be fine by the end of a levels ill probably understand what i want in life#if not then gap year to work it out#should probably look at unis for english language too then#sigh#ucas website i may as well marry you#ill be okay im getting in my head about stuff im actually pretty good at art even if there are things i can improve on (like patience lol)#yeah maybe the voice telling me i suck doesnt know shit and should shut up#yeah#shut it nasty voice you're wrong actually!!! im doing just fine and you're being overly critical#they should make a brain that's your friend and not mush that hides the amalgamation of every bad thing ever in its crevices#crevices shoyild be filled with kindness and love.#sex jokes about that#why the fuck is yahoo mail syncing i dont use you you washed up search engine#bue waffling#vent post
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mx-werebat · 5 months
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I don't think I fully know who I am. Truthfully, I didn't start to learn about myself until I was seventeen. I don't remember much about my childhood, my past. Blame the adhd. It's hard to actually figure out who I am because I'll never be a "functioning" adult, I can't drive I can't get a job, it's just all frustrating y'know? It makes me hate being disabled but I know that's also just a part of who I am.
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chiistarri · 4 months
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what if instead of messaging me in the middle of the night about your stupid fucking girlfriend and your stupid fucking problems with her you actually act like my fucking friend and message me like how you message everyone else in our group
#bye ignore my venting bigger problems what fucking ever#im sick of her ass she only messages us for us to help her with her fucking girlfriend problems like we arent even friends atthis fckn point#and i love her shes so funny whatever but god shes literally the worst because i just want to be friends i dont fucking care ab her goddamn#selfish ass gf thats shes obsessed with. be obsessed tell me about it but cant we be friends ab other stuff too#we used to be her 'favorite friend' cause we shared so many interests and we hung around what fucking ever but fuck that right#get a gf and just use us to help better yalls relationship without even telling her you're sharing her private msgs w us huh yeah sure#what fucking ever im so done with this bitch and i cant even get my contacts out cause i have long nails and im js poking my eye#AND SHE WOULD NEVER BE SORRY if our friendship fell apart she would tell everyone i was jealous of her gf or what ever i literally dont care#she was like an older sister before i dont get why getting a gf would have to change shit like ok good for u but what ab us#what about me its not even fucking fair like is it that hard to keep up w ur friends?? NO its fucking not#taking me so long to write a post bc im still fucking helping her with her stupid dumb selfish idiotic gf omfg#just BREAK UP i literally dont fucking care just leave her if she makes u unhappy its literally online tf is she gonna do to u nothing omfg#why am i the one being punished when shes the one with the stupid dumb gf that hates her and herself i dont fucking care i js want m friend#and i cant tell any of our mutual friends cause she dont do that to them its js me so itd be like im being dramatic#and like shit i guess i am but i dont care atp thats all she ever talks to me ab like ok i get it i helped u but stop jfc#but if i said that we'd never talk again bc what fucking ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cause im just dramatic whatever#if u cant resolve these simple problems of communication on ur own then maybe u shouldnt be in a relationship idk js my thoughts! die#sry the 1 person who knows what xactly i mean is asleep and im so tired of getting late night msgs being like hii can u help me SHUT UP#id love to help if we were actually still fucking friends but we arent so js leave me alone bruh#post#nickpost#will delete in morning my mom keeps telling me to put my phone down bt i need 2 say smfh 2 some1#i hate change i hate slight differences in my normal day to day i hate everything i hate not having smth to rely on i hate change i hate it#sry im alg now im js sick of her ass js leave bruh#nimbhe my moms yelling im tired anyway i need to js isolate myself forever no problems if im on an island alone#living my best life in the shade drinking idk water or whatever and just talking to myself bc who even needs friends right!!!!!!!!#its 11:11 make a wjsh#adding more cz whatever im deleting this ltr anyway#its so clear where i stand with everyone cause its always close but not close enough friendly but not friends and i guess its the same w her#bye im out of tags etc whatever nobody matching my freak ever never comfortable in any friendships
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zoppzoop · 4 months
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GAAHAHHHHH
#venting in the tags#maybe its just past darkness and the Bad Thoughts which i shouldnt listen to are clouding my brain too much#but i feel so fucking weird and inadequate over everything rn#im unable to work on drawings as i usually would have and its kinda plaguing everything which it should like yeah i love drawing but#i cant let just one aspect of me ruin everything. right? the fact that i havent been able to draw as well as i usually can should make me#feel sick to the stomach and unsure about everything i do but it happening and i hate it.#plus i got the ipad id saved up from the comms to buy and its fun and nice and all and maybe i just need more practice with it but i feel#like im not able to draw on it even more? and i spent the whole day trying to get used to it but its just not as good?? and then when i went#back to the no screen wacom i couldnt get a hang of it becuase idek its just not happening#and also the fucking art block wants me dead i swear i want to draw so bad and i have so many ideas but the moment i start anything its just#crumbles down into nothingness and i hate everything i do and gods fuck i want to cry but i can because there are people at home and#usually im a big 'crybaby' when im at home but i dont fucjing wanna be like that anymore like i can handly my shit myself im fine.#i dont need to just fuckinf cry abiut it becuase thats not gonna fox anything but also i feel like crying might just make me feel better#but then id have to hear shit from my family and i know theyre just teasing in a /pos way but i dont wanna fucking deal with that#plus my brother iust talking to him os annoying sometimes like he talks about things so condescendingly and fucking hel dude shut#the fuck up i dont need you telling me that my art is something people can 'just do' and the fact that i was able to get the ipad#'basically for free since i got that money from the little drawings i make' as if they dont fucking mean anything to you like#shut the fucking fuck up dude i worked hard on those and even though i dont like my own shit sometimes i still fucking work hard on those#fuck you you bitch#i think a lot of things are just piling up and i need to sleep#tomorrow will be a new dawn and a fresh start and maybe ill hate myself less#ps. note to anyone reading the tags#im fine i just needed to yell out and express my frustration a bit. some sleep will help surely.
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skullzy20 · 5 months
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I am not exaggerating when I say I live with one of the worst cishet men I've ever met in my life and its horrible
Pretty big vent incoming in tags, just a warning. Feel free to scroll past /gen
#sorry i. need to vent#he is genuinely one of the most ignorant; stubborn; and absolutely manchild of a man I've ever seen#I'm not fucking lying when I say he gets pissy and shouts and complains about EVERYTHING#and I don't mean just occasional shouting and getting loud#whenever he's upset. its /loud/. very loud#first time in my 5 years of knowing him I had enough and snapped back at him because he was yelling at me-#-bc I supposedly do absolutely nothing around the house and I take horrible care of myself and dont care about anything#at least in regards to the house#and complains about why I'm deciding not to go to college and that he got a job at 15 while he's literally#in his mid 40's#so.#like.#I told him I'm still 18 and I dont want him to boss around my entire fucking life but he brought up the excuse again of-#-him doing all the shit I SHOULD be doing by his words when he was 15#first of all. like. to get things straight; we are not related at all not even in the slightest#he's my mothers bf; I don't know why he gets so pissy at me about MY life of all things#like Jesus Christ shut up challenge impossible#yeah I had a fun (/s) moment earlier where I went to clean my dish and he started to snap at me about how I-#-walk past the dishes every day while they're piled up and I should do them. meanwhile. they're literally not mine. ever#I get it yeah but. whatever. he kept going onn and on and on and got even more upset with me literally not saying or doing anything to-#-provoke him more#Ig he just doesn't know that!! wow!! I do actually care about my life and future!!!!#and that getting a job is not that easy or the same as it was 30+ fucking years ago!! wow!! who would've guessed!!!!#Like genuinely i am literally trying to get a job rn and shit and have been stressing horribly about it for literal YEARS#but yeah ignore that I guess ok sure buddy#god sorry i.. really hate him. a lot#I dont like to hate on people really; esp if im accustomed to them. but him. he. no <3#I will say I hate him w my full chest#vent#negative post
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roses-n-rads · 5 months
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bein feelin weird
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arolesbianism · 1 year
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Man I've gotta be mean more often Im so sick of being polite abt bigotry I should just start killing ppl fr
#rat rambles#Im tired of babysitting ignorant ppl Im tired of trying to be nice abt shit someone needs to give me a gun#Im tired of trying to be presentable towards ppl who are on the fense abt shit Im tired of sanitising myself#I wanna reclaim slurs I wanna be angry I want to be loud I want to just yell at ppl that they Should be uncomfortable they Should be upset#you Shouldnt let ppl live in bliss you Should feel targeted when I call out your bullshit because I Am talking abt you fucking get over it#I have been teaching and guiding and explaining for as long as I remember and Im So Fucking Sick Of It#but someone has to. if I can get even one person to support us in a way that matters I have to.#I mean I dont. but I want to. except I also dont because its miserable and it fucking kills me to do. but I couldnt live with myself if I#didnt so here I fucking am.#I just want to be angry without guilt for once in my fucking life. I deserve to be. Im tired of pretending Im not.#goddddd Im so fucking mad rn Im sorry but also Im not but yknow.#I just wanna be more confident abt myself in like every regard like I hate how long its taken me to feel allowed to call myself mexican#yknow. a thing I am and always have beem#like I am still also white for sure and was raised in a very white enviorment but that doesnt stop me from being mexican#and Im allowed to reclaim slurs and Im allowed to defend myself from bigotry and Im allowed to be fucking angry abt it#Im allowed to exist as I am. I thought I had gotten to that point a long time ago but Ive been realising that I rly havent.#rat rants#rat vents#ok anyways. I should rly go to bed now lol#Ill probably be feeling better tomorrow but dont let that make you think my burning rage is gone lol#whatever gn gamers
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in1-nutshell · 9 months
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Okay, prime buddy meeting rodimus, ships collide, rodimus look at buddy w Shock of how big his ship is and crew, even buddy standing tall and spiky. Like wdym your the leader of the fallen stars….what? Your only (insert young age) and your a prime?!
I don't understand completely what the request is. So I did my interpretation of the request. If this is not what you want, please let me know.
Hope you enjoy!
Bot Buddy from the TFP universe meeting MTMTE Rodimus
SFW, platonic, Cybertronian/ Bot reader
TFP/MTMTE
This was Buddy's fault they were in this situation.
Buddy, being the ever loving technician, was helping Ratchet and Wheeljack with the newest tweaks on the groundbridge.
Wheeljack had just installed some new circuitry to the bridge and needed some help making sure everything went accordingly.
"Everything functional on your end?"--Buddy
"All clear, Wheeljack?"--Ratchet
"All good Sunshine!"--Wheeljack
"Don't call me that!"--Ratchet
A sudden beeping came from Ratchet's end near the console, Wheeljack went to go see what was wrong. Buddy went over to the bridge's opening to see if there was a problem there.
The bridge's lights flickered on and began to violently drag in all loose things around it. Including Buddy. Ratchet was holding on to the console for dear life as Wheeljack dug one of his katanas into the ground and held it with a steel grip.
"BUDDY HOLD ON!"-- Ratchet
"WHAT DO YOU THINK IM DOING?!"--Buddy
"BUDDY HOLD ON TO MY SERVO!"--Wheeljack
"WHEELJACK I'M SLIPPING!"--Buddy
"HANG ON BUDDY! IM ALMOST THERE!"--Wheeljack
"AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!"--Buddy
The portal had sucked Buddy in right as Wheeljack's servo brushes Buddy's servo.
...
Meanwhile on the Lost Light...
Rodimus was back at his desk carving out some designs when a bright light appeared and a sudden weight fell on top of him.
"AH! WHO ARE YOU?!"--Buddy
"WHO ARE YOU?! YOU LANDED ON TOP OF ME!"--Rodimus
"WHY ARE YOU YELLING!?"--Buddy
"I DON'T KNOW! YOU STARTED IT!"--Rodimus
After a couple of minutes of hectic explaining, existential crisis, and a lot of deep venting exercises, Rodimus finally got a complete response.
"So essentially you're from another dimension were your war is still going on, only have a small group of Autobots left, and you dropped into this universe via groundbridge malfunction."--Rodimus
"And you're the Captain of this giant Star ship with more than a hundred Bots on it, are on a quest to find some mythical knights, and the name is..."--Buddy
"Oh! Rodimus, Rodimus Prime."--Rodimus
"Wait what happened to Optimus? And what about the Matrix of Leadership?"--Buddy
"Well, Prime is a part of the new Cybertronian government with Starscream as ruler and the Matrix is broken."--Rodimus
"...wait what..."--Buddy
"The matrix was broken by accident."--Rodimus
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN ON ACCIDENT?! AND DID YOU SAY STARSCREAM WAS IN CHARGE OF CYBERTRONIAN!?!?! WHO'S IDEA WAS THAT?!"--Buddy
There was a lot of explaining to do when Rodimus came out of his habsuite with Buddy in tow. Especially with how much of a difference in frame Buddy had to everyone else on the Lost Light.
Buddy made friends with many bots during their stay aboard. They had plenty of stories to tell and to hear stories from this new dimension. The only bumps in the 'road' were when Buddy saw the alternate versions of Ultra Magnus, Ratchet and Megatron.
With Magnus
"It's a good thing those shoulder pads never change in different dimensions, sir."--Buddy
"Thank you?"--Magnus
With Ratchet
"You're telling me that Rodimus flipped over the Captain and fell on his face how many times per week?"--Buddy
"I lost count after 5."--Ratchet
With Megatron
"...do you have any dark energon in you?"--Buddy
"Do I have what?"--Megatron
"Oh you don't! That's good. You're one of the better Megatron's."--Buddy
It took a while later for Brainstorm and Perceptor to fix Buddy's dimension and set coordinates.
It was time for Buddy to say goodbye to their friends and head home.
"Thank you everyone!"--Buddy
"No problem Buddy! And if you're ever in the same dimension, just give us a call!"--Rodimus
"And if you guys are in my dimension, you call me! Bye!"--Buddy
"Bye Buddy!"--Rodimus
Buddy jumped right into their dimension.
Buddy knew it was the right one because of the feeling they had in their tanks.
Also because they landed on top of Wheeljack.
"AAAHHH! WHAT'S ON ME?!"--Wheeljack
"Wheeljack it's me!"--Buddy
"Buddy?! Oh thank the Prime's! Where were you?! We've been trying to scan your signature for days."--Wheeljack
"You have no idea what happened."--Buddy
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forbidd3n-w1re · 2 years
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Letting the walls down - Billy Butcher x Reader
hey-ho! i've had this idea for a while and had to pour it out, enjoy! 
 originally this was supposed to be a butcher x reader but while writing it i put in a tiny bit of hughie x reader, i mean you can see it if you squint lol-
 summary : you and butcher have been somewhat okay friends for a while, and even though he doesn't want to acknowledge it, he cant push everyone away.
 warnings : so much angst (i feed off of it.) nightmares, beating up, billy actually being nice to someone(you lol), billy also attacking hughie, scars, panic attack, flashbacks, heavy alcohol use, passing out, venting, traumatic past, mention of shootings, "cunt"'s (tell me if i forgot something please!)
 if any of these trigger you, please dont read this fanfic!
commission : nope!
 word count : ≈2800 words
 genre : angst, hurt/comfort (someone's gotta do it, right?)
(im so sorry this is so long i went wild with this one)
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Butcher wasn't a talkative type when it comes to his past. In fact, he never let anyone come close enough to him to know him very well. In the team, he was just the leader, the one that organized the plan and the strategy, the one that went head-first into danger.
You? You we're the one that held the team like a magnet.
When Hughie first joined, Butcher looked like he'd screw his head off if he made one wrong step. Every single time Butcher offended him and told him he was a cunt, you'd fight back for him. You knew that Hughie had it in him, he knew how to be defensive, but at that time it was risky to talk back to Butcher due to the fact how much Billy hated him. It happened a lot. It was like you were Butcher's tranquilizer.
Hughie appreciated everytime you stood on his side, even after every glare Billy made to you. Billy knew the death glare would work on Hughie because he looked like he shat his pants, but you? You did not twitch at all. No shiver. Nothing. You couldn't even bother to look back at him.
Sooner or later, Butcher's "cunt"'s and "wimp"'s that were addressed to Hughie weren't that frequent anymore. Sure, Butcher without using the word cunt at least once in a day was nonexistent, but they weren't said to Hughie anymore.
Until one day they had a pretty big fight about the new member, Annie, AKA Starlight. Butcher, the no.1 Supe hater immediately started swearing at Hughie for bringing her to the hideout. After some time, Annie left, and then the shit hit the fan.
"Oi, kid. Who the fuck do you think you are, bringin' over here some random chick? Who is, apparently, a fuckin' Supe?" Butcher started yelling at the guy, pushing him around.
"Listen, I-I know it wasn't a good idea, but please, hear me out--"
Butcher grabbed Hughie by the collar, slamming him against a pillar hardly, and the smaller figure of Hughie's let out a loud grunt.
"Shut yer' fuckin' trap right the fuck now. Do yer' understand in what danger we could be if she had a mic?" Butcher held his collar more tightly now, looking at him like he might just chop off his head at that moment. "No, you don't, Hughie. You know why? 'Cause you're nothing but a trashy, shitty li'l cunt who had managed to grab a single bit of luck to join my little team. If you continue being a little pussy, I swear on my mother that i will-"
Sensing that the fight seriously escalated, and totally not because Hughie had started to breathe more shallowly because of how hardly his chest was pressed against the pillar, you stood off the couch, grabbed a foldable plastic chair and pushed Butcher as far away from Hughie as you could.
Butcher not detecting the sudden attack had a much more violent tone in his voice now. He wanted a fair fight.
"Oi, the fuck do you think you're doin', li'l shit?" Not bothering to deal with Butcher's bickering, you focused on helping Hughie not fall down as he heaped for gasps of air.
"Hey, Hughie, focus. Focus on your breathing, alright?" You got the comment from other members of the team that you and Billy actually had a lot in common, but the calmness of your voice was something Billy could never achieve probably. Hughie looked at you, his look revealing how many apologies he wanted to tell you for making this now your problem, but you only gave him a hopeful nod and a smile. "Go take a seat on the couch. I have an inhalator in one of my jackets if you need it, alright hun?" Hughie only let out a quiet agreement, following your orders.
Butcher, on the other hand, his eye twitched a little when hearing the nickname you gave Hughie. He knew that the nicknames you gave to the team were all in platonic meanings, but he still felt that little twinge in his heart when he knew the silly nicknames weren't for him.
You followed up now to Butcher, staring up at him. He reeked of alcohol, probably from last night, and cigarettes. He tried to hold up a pissed face to you, but you knew he couldn't do it. Everyone has their secrets, Butcher's was his past, and the fact that everytime you looked badass, he loved it.
"Stay the fuck away from him, or I will pluck out your little so-called "bollocks", one by one, painfully." There was your angry tone, along with a bit of mocking his british dialect. Others were right, you guys did have a lot in common. Billy only smirked at your threat. Billy pushed past you, grabbing his jacket, and stated something that made you chuckle. "Im going out for a drink, try to stay out of the little wimp's underwear while I'm gone."
Hughie and you were alone in the hideout now. Annie left, M.M. was in a visit to his daughter, and Frenchie and Kimiko went on a date.
Approaching the curly haired figure, you heard his small coughing fits. Surely Butcher didn't hurt him that badly, right?
"Hughie? Hun, you alright?" Putting your hand on his shoulder from behind, you jumped over next to him. Hughie brought his head up, only this time he wasn't startled.
"Yeah, I'm alright. Thank you for everything that you've done, really. Especially back there, not everyone has the guts to practically throw Butcher away with a chair." He gave you a small smile.
"No problem. Besides, he shouldn't act like that towards anyone. And Annie was really sweet too-"
Hughie stopped you, quickly apologizing, but immediately continuing.
"No, no, I understand him. I shouldn't have done that, besides he isn't a big fan of Supes, and Annie might've had a mic but I know she wouldn't. We can't be careful enough, if they find us we're practically doomed." Hughie was now on Butcher's side at this point.
"But, you know… He does have a weak spot for you." Hughie gave you a smirk, knowing that if you had water in your mouth you'd probably spit it out after hearing this.
"Pardon?" You looked at him with wide eyes, not believing a single word the curly haired boy just said.
"Back there, when you threatened him. I know that he has this façade of his where he pretends like he's the strongest man alive, but he gave you a smile upon hearing you. I think he even liked the fact that you weren't scared to stand up to him."
You got up from the couch, looking at Hughie with the biggest shock. "What the hell do you mean?"
Hughie just smirked, "You should go check up on him. See how he's doing. I think you're the only one of us that might get closer to him. Don't tell him I sent you there though, please." Nodding in agreement, you grabbed one of your oversized leather jackets and went to the door. Soon, Hughie stopped you.
"Oh, and Y/N? Thank you."
"No problem, hun." And you headed out to find your stupid ass loverboy.
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Heading into the bar, you looked at the clock that was placed next to the cups. The clock showed half past 11, and your view fell onto the slouched, buff figure that was Billy. Walking up to him, you tapped flicked his head lightly as a sign for him to wake up.
"Oiiii, yer lil cuntttt…" He sounded wasted more than he ever was. He used to drink a lot on work, one time he even wanted to dance with M.M., but the 17 glasses of whisky gave you a very bad impression on how he felt right now.
"Hi to you too, cunt ass." You lightly shook him with a small curl of your lips on your face showing.
"The fock do ya want, kid? Can't you see a man tryin' to enjoy himself?" His british accent came out even more unclear when he was intoxicated, which would be funny if he wasn't laying down on the table, alone in the pub. "Go get me another round, be useful for once, N/N." That was a new one, you never heard anyone from the team use a nickname on you.
"Absolutely not. Butcher, c'mon, get up, we're leaving." You tried to give him a hand, but he wouldn't budge.
"Where the hell we goin'?" He groggily asked.
"Im driving you to my home since I don't know your adress.Now Butch, please, cooperate."
Agreeing for once, he put his arm around your shoulders and hung onto you as he struggled to walk.
Walking to your car, you felt like you were walking sideways the whole time, probably because he was much bigger than you. "Lean onto the car, Butch, okay? I have to get my keys, then I'll help you get in the car." You felt the need to give him instructions and steps for everything, because after seeing him passed out on that table circled with whiskey shots, you felt more safe if you did that. Listening to your idea, he leaned on, and you quickly unlocked the car and opened his door. "Alright, hun, let's get you in." Your arm sneaked around his torso, guiding him to sit down into the passenger seat. He smiled lightly at the nickname. Buckling him up, you closed the door lightly and went into your seat, turning on the car and driving away.
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Driving around the city, you realized Butcher was quietly snoring. Probably the most peaceful you've ever seen him.
Parking into your backyard garrage, you got out of your car and went to Billy's side, unbuckling him. "Hey, hun, wake up." You lightly gave him a slap on his right cheek, figuring it was a better idea than pouring a bucket of ice on him. Unfortunately, he was not a light sleeper. Giving up, you put your arms around him once more and somehow getting him out of the car, making him lean onto the vehicle for a moment while you locked it.
Swinging your arm once again, you went into your house and layed him down on the couch. By now, it was way past midnight and you came to the conclusion that he wont be waking up until the morning. You went into your bedroom, taking off your work clothes and dressing up into your pj's. Grabbing your phone for a sec to text Hughie that Butcher is in an okay condition, unfortunately you were stopped by Butcher's grunts from the living room.
Getting up and sighing, you realized how much your eyes were close to closing themselves and going off to sleep, how much your arms felt like you had a fist fight with someone and how much your legs burned, including your back that was almost folded in half by Butcher's weight while you carried him. You were tired, but you needed to keep the team in top shape. After all, you were their magnet, which also meant that you should be there for everyone, even Butcher. Even Butcher, who behaved like a bag of shit towards everyone. Knocking on the door side, you stepped in the living room, the floors creaking.
"Butcher, is everything alright?"
Your eyes headed towards his sleeping figure, but he didn't look like he was enjoying his resting time as he kept shivering and thrashing in several points of the night. You got the blanket at the table next to you, slowly putting it over him. The blanket used to provide you heat, but also comfort and a safe space. Maybe it would also work for him. Hopefully.
You wanted to bet that if Frenchie and M.M. were in the room with you right now, they'd probably take a bunch of pictures to make fun of you both. Thankfully, they weren't here, and you thought that Butcher might sometimes lack of rest. Climbing onto the couch, you lightly rose his head up and sat down, putting his head onto your lap and ruffling his hair. He was taller, so you didn't get a lot of opportunities to ruffle his hair at all. You didn't even know you wanted to do that, but you did either way.
Although he was a heavy sleeper, apparently he realized what you were doing. Still woozy from the alcohol and driving around, he barely recognized the place he was in when he woke up, but what he did see was your face. Along with the blanket that you gave him. Snuggling a bit closer to you, he pulled the blanket up closer to you so that you don't feel left out and he mumbled something.
"Didn't hear you, love… Mind trying to repeat it?" You spoke, removing a bit of his hair from his forehead, feeling that he was sweating a bit.
"Hnnnnhhh….y'know 'm nun' like 'im…" His drowsy voice was back, and even though you loved how calm he sounded, you started to get a bit worried. You didn't know the real reason why he was so uptight with everyone, not letting his guard down.
"Like who, love?"
"My fatherrrr…" You don't know his past. You shouldn't jump to conclusions. You only knew that he didn't like his father because Hughie told you that once when you went out for a coffee.
You face was forming a very sad look, trying to keep yourself at bay and not let a few tears drop down to his head. You have to stay strong for everyone. For you. For him.
"No… No, Billy, you're not. You will never be like him. You're better, darling, you know that yourself already." Stay strong. Keep yourself at bay.
"Yeh…yeh…y'know, those scars on my back, the ones you saw during the fight in Russia when you treated my wounds…" His voice didn't sound confused by the alcohol anymore, rather just sad, guilty and ashamed.
"Yeah, what about them love?"
"He did that to me. With a belt. Like I was a fuckin' animal. I tried to save him, Y/N, I-I really did." He was sniffling. If you weren't having the table lamp turned on, you'd think he has a pollen allergy.
This is where your façade started breaking down.
"Who, hun? Who did you try to save?"
"Lenny, my brother. He…" Butcher stopped, looking like he's having an internal fight with himself whether he should continue, because he's showing his vunerable side now. "He shot himself. Because of me." Tears started sliding down his cheeks, silent ones that have shown how much he has been through. How much he has been keeping the truth in for himself. How long he kept it from the public, knowing that if he was left alone his whole life he'd probably rot. The tears showed how much he hated himself for his actions, for leaving his younger brother unprotected, for not standing up to his father more often (even though he tried his best), how much he missed Becca, how much he regretted for leaving Ryan with Homelander, how much he hates looking vunerable. You, though? You didn't question any of his actions. You simply brushed away his tears and gave him a peck in his hair.
"I'm so sorry, love. I'm sorry that happened. Some things just make us stronger, but you were a child back then, you didn't deserve any of this. You didn't deserve to be treated like trash from your father. You didn't deserve Homelander suddenly flying fuck knows where with Ryan. Darling,"
You started, wiping another tear and smiling at him softly. He loved seeing your smile, whether it was a feisty one or a caring one, a silly one or a tired one. It made him feel… loved. "I believe in you. You are literally the strongest person I know. Not a monster. Not a killing machine. Not nothing. You are a person, just like the rest of us."
He sat back up from his sleeping position, only to lay his head down onto your shoulder. You've never seen him this affectionate, nobody probably ever has besides Becca. She was a nice woman, you remember Butcher showing pictures of her sometimes, it's a shame she had to die like that.
"Hey, Y/N." He looked at you.
"Yeah?"
"Thanks for being a kind cunt."
"Back with your cuntiness, i see…" you chuckled, and he only closed his eyes again, deciding to fall into the slumber of sleep once again.
"Love ya', Y/N."
You swore you felt heat rise to your cheeks, hell if your blood wasn't all the way into your brain like you were hanging off of something.
"…Love you too, Billy."
His beard tickled the everloving shit of you, but you didn't have the guts to wake him up again. Not while he's getting something he hasn't had for a while, rest. Before joining him in the nap, you swung your arm across his shoulders, pulling him in closer. He seemed to like the action, scooting a bit closer to you.
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AAAA i hope you liked the fic!! i usually dont write a lot, but since the fandom needs more x reader fanfics (esp angst because im so good at it, haha slay), i've came in clutch! B)
 till next time!!
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dorkfacex · 8 months
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Reese Wilkerson x gn! reader
Warnings: abuse, alcohol, language, drugs- yeah u get it Request: nobody asked- :,) Type: Fluff ^^ AN: guys im so sorry if this is cringe- "I hate you!" You screamed at the top of your lungs at your mom who was standing in the drive way. She had been a real bitch your whole life; never took care of you, always on drugs, you get the deal. But tonight, you snapped. You were running away. You didnt know where you would go or if you would even survive but right now you didnt care.
Tears streamed down your face as you turned around and ran down the street. Your mom was yelling at you even from here. 'God, I wish she would just give me some space' You thought to yourself. It was about 11 pm when you stopped in front of your friend, Reeses' house. It was an average, middle-class suburban home, kind of messy but- what can you expect?
You didnt see a light on in the house, but you decided to try your luck anyway. You went around to the side- where Reeses' window was. You knocked on it softly and after a few moments, the curtains covering it were opened and Reese opened the window. He noticed you crying and his face fell a bit. Reese opened the window all the way and leaned against it,.
"Hey Y/N... Whats wrong?..." He asked gently. He was always immature and stoic around most of the people he hung out with. But with you, he seemed friendlier.
You wipe the tears from your eyes with your sleeve and make eye contact with him. "I-Im running away... I cant stay at my house anymore..." Just saying this made you remember some of your childhood experiences, and you almost broke down again.
Reese nodded, you had vented to him before about some things, but you never talked over running away. He backed away from the window. "Come in" You climbed through the window, stumbling a bit. When you got in his room you looked around for a moment. It was the typical "Teenage Boy" room; Band posters, clothes, and some other trash. He looked a little embarrassed, you guessed why. You had never really been in his room before. You guys had always hung out at the gas station or behind the school. You shrug at him reassuringly because the last thing on your mind was how clean his room was. Reese finally spoke again. "So... Your staying here?" He asked as he sat on his bed next to you
"Yeah... Is that alright?" You asked hesitantly. You were so overwhelmed, you didnt really think about what would happen if you couldnt stay here. Reese had been your only friend since 3rd grade, but he was really all you needed.
"Of course" He replied softly and pulled something out of his pocket; a carton of cigarettes. "Want one? I stole them from the gas station." You chuckle softly. "Sure." Reese handed you one, and lit it for you. You took a drag and smiled softly. Most kids you went to school called Reese a douchebag, but under his cold and mean facade, he was one of the sweetest people who you had in your life.
After a moment of you guys smoking together, Reese broke the silence. "Y/N?..."
"Yeah?"
He was quiet a moment and turned to face you. You looked him in the eye also and he spoke again. "Look. I know now probably isnt the time for this. But I really like you... We've been friends forever and im not complaining but I really want more... You're perfect to me, and what you've been through makes me want you even more..."
You were silent for a moment. Every night since you met Reese, you had dreamed of him saying those words to you. And the day finally came. You couldnt help but smile, which caused him to grin at you and look away, blushing. "I love you, Reese." You finally reply, a red tint slowly appearing on your cheeks. He looked away for a moment, and then back at you. Without saying a word, he leaned in and kissed you softly. You wouldnt think he would be a good kisser- but holy shit; he totally was. He pulled away after a few seconds and gazed into your E/C eyes with a dumb grin on his face. "I think I love you too, Y/N." A/N: alright wrote this thing in about 40 mins- its really bad im sorry lmao- thanks for reading tho- <3
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Idk what specific au this is besides just a human one but skinny little dream with a big pop out pregnant belly he cant hide by month two... lets go w office au like last anon said bc the implications of everyone calling dream a slutty breeding bitch is sooo hot to me. Hes showing so soon bc hob put such a big baby in him and hes always sore and whiny and cries at the drop of a hat even at work now.. hob gets massive kudos for knocking him up and this would be perfect w omega dream i just realized bc "bitchy little omega learned his place". Hob finally taught the omega who thought he cluld boss everyone around some humilty.. hes gonna be out of work barefoot in their apartment soon enough and the alphas who hate him are sooo excited for both not having to be around him and also the bitch being "humbled". The problem? Hob is a LOT more territorial and protective now and hardly will agree to play along even when he knows dream gets off to it.. when someone gets a bit too close to a THREAT to dream instead of just venting? Its a good thing dream has a whole staff of lawyers on retainer and theres laws allowing an alpha to protect their mated omega!! Hob doesnt leave dreams side after that. Ever. And any time he even gets a wiff of dreams arousal hes dropping everything and holding dreams hips down to eat his pretty cunt out until hes come so many times he cant even speak<3 hob knows dream will be going back to the office. Hes gonna be the one at home and dream is going to work from home as much as possible now as well.
Also! Im getting distracted by the belly again and how dream was always all sharp angles and slim cut suits and now hes.. soft. Omega like. His wardrobe changes completely and hob thinks its the sweetest most adorable thing in the whole world when he gets all cozy in comfortable clothes and starts nesting like 100x as intensely. His tits are filling with milk and everyone can smell it on him, how fertile and bred he is.
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EEE yeah!!! YEAH!!
I love Dream being horny about all the alphas in the office saying mean stuff about him. It turns him on so much to see them leer at him and mutter under their breaths about how he's just a dumb, bred omega bitch now. Hob really wants to smack them all for talking about Dream like that, but Dream is like nooooo 🥺🥺 let them do it, it makes me so wet.
Dream starts showing up to work in maternity dresses and cute cardigans and Hob is constantly clawing at the walls with overwhelming horniness. He catches a glance at Dream’s belly and immediately starts getting hard every single time. He can't believe how massive Dream gets, and it happens so quickly!! His back hurts and his feet are swollen but he's determined to enjoy being pregnant. He grits his teeth through all the discomfort and only yells at Hob a little bit! He does have a bit of a breakdown later in the pregnancy when he finds out the baby is in the 99th percentile for size... damn Hob and his super sperm!
Hob is so looking forward to being a stay at home daddy for their little one - he imagines that he'll probably be bringing the baby into the office for visits a lot, when Dream can't work at home. They're so domestic now <33 Dream wants cuddles and Hob can't stop rubbing against him to make sure he smells claimed. 10/10, an absolute unbearable couple, everyone else in the office is totally sick of them.
A few weeks before he's due, Dream is meant to be on leave but he ends up popping into the office (he's a workaholic). Everyone is astounded by his massive belly (which is currently stretching one of Hob’s old t-shirts to the absolute limit). Considering how tiny and flat he's always been, it's a shock to see the boss so round, with his generous tits bouncing in time with each cautious step he takes. Every alpha in the office has a crisis over how innately sexy Dream is now. He's still a bitch, but now he's also a very sexy omega!!! Oh the dichotomy!!!
He goes home and gets his pussy eaten by his alpha, and totally gets off on knowing that Hob is going to knock him up again ASAP. If Dream gets his way he'll spend the next 10 years pregnant as fuck.
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I always wonder how Beetlejuice would react to someone who looks very sweet and soft but is actually really hardcore. Like death metal, rage room, loves extremely gorey and disturbing media, constantly wanting someone to pick a fight with them so they could pummel them kinda hardcore.
It would be funny if they scared Beetlejuice a bit more than beetlejuice would scare them haha
Here's some drabbles just to get this idea out of my head lol I'm no writer so aa yeah DJSBJZ idk if I captured his Beetlejuice-ness enough ee
No pronouns used but a little (and I mean very little) nsft bc it's beetlejuice lol
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"Hey babes! Ya miss-?" He'd ask as he suddenly appears in their room, loud gutteral screaming stopping him in his tracks for a split second before he basks in it. His breather is glued to the TV as he sways over to their side on the couch. Bloody cries and begs fill the silence between them.
Beetlejuice looks between the TV and his sweet breather, dressed in hello kitty pajamas with a stuffed animal under their arm. Kitten socks on their feet and a bunny hair band holding their hair from the puppy print face mask they have on. Such a stark contrast from the bloody murder playing on the TV. He chuckled to himself as he sat back and continued watching with them, laughing occasionally.
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"I'm going out, Beej. Please behave." You absentmindedly say as you grabbed your keys, heading for the door.
"Where'ya goin? Can I come?" Beetlejuice would say hopefully as he shot up from his place on the couch. You were wearing sweats with one leg covered in cutesy anime Chibis and some logo for the anime you were currently obsessed with and a tank top that read 'BE KIND' In bright letters with stars and smily faces surrounding it (If you have long hair it'll be tied up) you weren't dressed up fancy so he didn't have a clue where you'd be going. It was your day off and he couldn't recall any plans that didn't include suffocating you with his 'love'.
"I'm going to a rage room, helps me decompress." You said with a chuckle, wanting to see how he'd react since you knew he didn't think you had a violent bone in your body. You'd shoo out any bugs that got inside, choosing to let the spiders you'd see around your place be as they helped with other bugs, you weren't overly confrontational either and he'd only ever see you cry when you were really mad. He looked at you from across the room confused but intrigued.
"Rage room? Is that some breather code for orgy?" Beetlejuice sat up on his knees from his previous sitting position, looking dopey and cocky as per usual.
"If you wanted one babes all you had to do was-"
"No! That's not what that means!" You cut him off with a laugh, you always appreciated the demons enthusiasm and humor.
"Its a room where you break stuff! Hence 'rage' room." You explained as you put on your shoes. If he wasn't already interested in joining you, he sure as sugar was now. He'd never seen you take your anger out on anyone or anything for that matter. You tended to cry it out, take a moment and sometimes you'd yell a bit while venting to him but usually he was the one who broke things so he was definitely going to tag along for the ride.
"you can come, but I don't go easy on the stuff in there. Also if appreciate it if you didn't distract me. It's the only time I can take my pent up rage out and have zero consequences." You laugh as you pick up your bright bag with some first aid, water bottles and your wallet and things for your phone Incase you were there for longer than you planned.
Cut to you demolishing every piece of furniture in the room, the safety suit hiding the rage and fire behind your eyes as you yelled out and screamed all the things you'd wish you could say to the people that come in and out of your life. Beetlejuice watching in fascination and a little bit of 'im going to screw their brains out when we get home'
He loved this side of his sweet and cuddly breather.
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You were listening to your usual music when beetlejuice decided now would be the perfect time to yank your headphones from your head and see what kind of cutesy music you were listening to as you went about your day. Safe to say his hears almost bled with the volume of the music, looking at you as if you were an imposter.
"Who are you?? Where's my precious breather??" He'd cry out as he took whatever you were working on from you and held it protectively.
"Beej, stop playing around I want to finish that!" You'd laugh out, only making him back away from you further.
"No! You're not allowed to touch (Y/N's) things!" He'd hiss as he playfully ran around your shared space. He only let up when you managed to bribe him with a few kisses.
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I'm not a writer so djsbjxhs sorry if this is bad LOLOL I read lots of fan fics tho (⁠◠⁠‿⁠・⁠)⁠—⁠☆ this was pretty fun to do instead of working out tho haha
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newkatzkafe2023 · 1 year
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Genderbend Villainous Disney Princesses x Yandere reader
Chapter 8 I remember you
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So Alot has happened in your life in a short amount of time. First you were so sure that you were going to get murdered and die alone but no, you met a bunch of Hot, Clingy, Unusual boys.
First you meet a Rich Sultan who seem to be the jealous affectionate type (Jasmir)
An ice boy who is a big fragile baby (Elson)
A Huge Bratty Mer-boy who loves getting Punished (Adrian)
And Now a Mentally unstable Recluse Man who thinks you two are Married (Rasputin)
Yeah you are going to have endless stories for the children and grandchildren your going to have in the future. Any who you were sitting with the guys Elson leaned on your shoulder, Rasputin was laying on your lap, and Adrian had his face Smushed into your thigh. Finally Jasmir was standing infront of you and he was Fuming infront of all of you.
(Jasmir) NOT ONLY ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME, BUT YOU TALKED TO STRANGERS. I TOLD YOU NOT TO TALK TO STRANGERS AND WORST OF ALL YOU LET THEM IN THE HOUSE!!!!!!!!
You were just Staring at him venting, Elson had swetdropped from what he said, Adrian rolled his eyes, and Rasputin wasn't paying Jasmir any mind as he was giving you goo goo eyes.
(Jasmir) I told you Specifically not to talk to strangers yet you did the exact opposite. Now those set STRANGERS our rubbing up all over my Sultana!
(Elson) Hey man don't yell at 🧊 mommy she is my savior I would be dead without her
(Adrian) And she injured me so she was making it up to me
(Rasputin) Yeah After you tried to Attack her in the river!
(Elson) (to Rasputin) Says the guy who attacked her in her home!
(Rasputin) I only Attacked you two, I wanted to bring my wifey to my tower to protect her from the evil world!
(Adrian) (Starcastically) How Suggestive
(Jasmir) IM SORRY YOU TWO DID WHAT!?
(Y/N) HEY!!!
The four mean boys froze. They had Never heard you raise your voice even when you were angry so this shock them a bit. Even Parasol (fem Pascal) was slightly Intimidated
(Y/N) Now listen here Jasmir I'm not cheating on you. In fact I love all of you why do you think I keep all of you here. I only let you out because you are a Sultan and you have a kingdom to run and that would be irresponsible of me to stop you from doing that.
Everybody Stop and Stared at you it was like glass broke somewhere in the room.
(All the Guys) YOU CAN TALK?! LIKE TALK NOMALLY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!😱😱😱😱😱
You were weirded out by the sudden question
(Y/N) of course I can talk I was talking to you guys this whole time 🤨 Did you guys forget?
(Elson) it's not that, it's just you talk like a
(Adrian) like a deleyed Messenger
(Rasputin) I'm shocked you can talk in the first place you never said anything to me!
(Y/N) Boys it's been just me living in my home for 21 years. I had Absolutely nobody to talk too. so There was absolutely no reason to speak at all if it's just been me.
The Mean boys looked at each other before looking back at you
(Jasmir) that is deeply upsetting to here
(Rasputin) poor Isolated wifey
(Elson) I Sort of know how that feels I spent many years in isolation Mainly because of the fear of my powers.
(Jasmir) Well my darling Sultana I'm so glad you love and trust us enough to be open with us
You Smiled they still don't know anything do they? GOOD.
(Y/N) Well who wants dinner I made fried vegetables rice
(Boys) That would be nice love ❤️
Later that Night everyone went to bed, Elson slept in his bed cuddling a stuffed animal with a Pacifier in his mouth, Adrian slept in the indoor pool also with a Pacifier, Rasputin shared a room with Parasol and Finally Jasmir slept in the guest bedroom he was very tired from his trip from Arabah so he wanted lots of rest.
You of course was still awake sharpening your knives in your room. You smiled to yourself the boys are adorable, foolish but adorable. You thought you were going to have to find them, but no
they were coming to you just like you wanted
Jasmir loved you sense day 1
Elson really thinks he's your baby
Adrian the little brat loves you too
And Rasputin wasn't hard to deal with at all you played into his fantasy marriage just so you can keep him Exactly where you want him.
All these boys are yours and your never gonna let them go.
As You went to sleep you soon found yourself in a grass Field at night
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You were not afraid as this Place was familiar to you. You continued to walk in the fields as you were looking for something or looking for someone, You continued to do so until you heard a deep voice sing
(???) I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream🎶🎶🎵 i know you, that look in your eyes is so familiar a gleam🎵🎶🎵🎶
Ah there he is, you quickly moved to the direction of the voice. You see a some nights ago you been have secret rendezvous with a tall blonde black armored man. You still have yet to learn his name but he is a gentleman, he always spoke in a soft deep smooth voice. It always comforted you and you two begin to fall for each other.
(Y/N) Hello.....Again.......My.....dragon..............knight
(???) (Smoothly) My darling princess how I miss you so
(Y/N) i.....missed...you.....as.....well.....how's....my ....big.....soft....dream.....man?
(???) I am well but I'm on a Search right now
(Y/N) what.....were.......you.......looking........for?
The taller man smiled down at you taking in your warm hugs and kisses
(???) My beautiful queen I am looking......for.........You
You two then kissed and that kiss turned into a make out kiss, before putting his hand on your large hips.
(Y/N) Do........you.......remember........how.....we ........met
(???) I kinda do
You see it started when Elson moved in, you were caring for him when he was horribly injured. You took a nap one day and for some reason it was night In your dream and you heard
A/N (watch the first part try to tune out the birds)
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Now this was a deep voice that echoed threw your head. You were wondering if this sound was heard from the outside but it was closer then you thought. You continued to walk and as you got closer you saw a figure in the distance. He was tall, taller then you, he had a pitch black suit and a long dark cape and finally long blonde hair. He look big and Intimidating but for some reason it did not Deter you from approaching him. After all it was a dream a pretty long dream but a dream, anyway you slowly approached this man and suddenly the background turned green and when he turned around, he saw the most beautiful doll-like woman he's ever seen and you on the matter saw another Hot stray man just waiting to be snatched up. You two walk close to each other and he touch your sides while you touch his chest you as you Quietly observed each other before cuddling close to one another.
Which was the beginning to a beautiful dark breaking and entering/Romance.
Back in the present
(???) you were such an unusual creature.
(Y/N) As...were.....you.....my......king
(Both) I never seen anything like you, My beautiful disaster ❤️❤️❤️
Then everything began to disappear around you two, and you quickly Clinged on to him.
(Y/N) I don't want to wake up, I want you to be with me forever
(???) Do not fret my dear, I swear that when you wake right up that I will be right here for you, and I promise that we won't ever let each other GO.
(Y/N) ( Wearily) ok i trust you my love 💓
You two kissed one last time before you woke up. You slowly open your eyes, blinking slowly as the sun shined on them. You flinched a bit until you felt something around your waist you slowly looks down at the arm. It was to light to be Jasmir, not pale enough to be Elson, it was definitely not Adrian for obvious reasons and finally it's not Rasputin either. this arm has Muscles and he had noodle arms not to say that their was anything wrong with that😶
Ok you may not know this person but you know how to shank someone before grabbing the knife you sharpen under pillow before going in for the kill but the other person grabbed your arm.
(???) Quiet Impressionable Good morning dear
Then it hit you it was your dream man. He was real after all I'm mean you knew you were crazy but not that type of Crazy.
(???) Ah you remember now I told you I will be right here when you wake up
you dropped the knife🔪 and pounce on him as he laughed lightly as you smothers him in kisses. You secretly look at the bedroom walk to see a picture of you asleep in the same grass fields with a bloody knife in your palms.
You knew what this meant as you cuddled with your dream man for the rest of the morning 🌄
(Y/N) who are you anyway
(Auren) I'm Auren and your dream come true ❤️
Done Done Done!!!! Talk about it came to me in a dream. Anyways leave comments below!
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seasonalmoss · 9 months
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Sarah Heathcliff
making this impulsive post just to say how much I fucking love Sarah from The Mandela Catalogue.
I LOVE HER, she’s just so fucking badass and caring and just djdhdjdhsjhdhddHDKDHDJDH I LOVE HER SO MUCH AAAAAGHH RAAAAAAAAHHH
anyways I genuinely love the writing of her, she’s so serious and work focused yet she’s still very caring and concerned for those around her. And for some reason I barley see much people characterizing her caring nature, and it’s not like it’s subtle, it’s right in your face! I mean- at least to me she doesn’t even seem to really consider Adam a friend? Like- they don’t seem to be friends is what I’m saying, I do have evidence to support this but this is a ramble post so Im not doing that. But at the very least they aren’t to close yet Sarah still actively worries and cares for him! “How about you make a memorial video for the only person that ever cared about.” My ass! Sarah is very confrontational about things and can get heated so she can come across as being uncaring! But we can see that she DOES care about Adam and worry about him when she sent a voicemail to him. She said to “please don’t make me have to worry about you, please.” The fact that she even would worry shows that she cares! and the fact she even sent that voicemail shows she already was worrying about him!
and then we see her with Evelin who she at this point doesn’t even know that well! Yet she still chose to comfort her and try to console her! She was basically just letting Evelin vent to her!
of course there’s also how she is with her brother Mark who she seems to fiercely love and care about despite her being only 3 when he died and just in general a lot of other things but I don’t really want this to get too long.
im sure people already knew all of this, I mean- it’s right there, but it’s interesting how not much people show it.
idk I genuinely love Sarah so much and she has genuinely helped me whenever I got anxious. I’d just think of her and I’d feel better.
also Sarah would 100% adopt random children on the side of the road. She’d probably snatch up a bunch of orphaned babies and be the best fucking mother to them. She probably has grabbed a little lost child out of Thatchers arms and just took off running, yelling “fuck you!” To him /hj.
anyways I love Sarah so fucking much, I love her and Evelin and Adam and Thatcher and just AGDJDBDJRHFUUD I LOVE ALL OF THEM!
There’s a lot more Sarah related things I wanted to say like a headcanon/ theory-ish thing I have on why she cares so much about Mark and why she’s so burnt out and in general like that.
or her similarities to Thatchers I’ve noticed that make the fact that Sarah hates him more heart breaking.
also please forgive me for any mistakes, this was very impulsive.
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My memory’s is shit, but I remember exactly one instance of each of my parents hitting me that was arguably not actually a punishment for anything, but also I feel like I might be being dramatic about it and would appreciate a second opinion. My dad once ran up the stairs to hit me because he didn’t believe I’d left my brother alone for a minute to look for the air freshener. I was old enough that he’d mostly stopped hitting me about stuff so I assumed he was coming up to help me look right up until he slapped me. It felt really out of nowhere and I zoned out because I got really upset, but he told my also startled sibling that “I forgot who the adult was” or something. Not super sure what was going through his head there. There are actually two occasions with my mom. One being when my mom hit me over the head a couple times, because “I told her to shut up”. And I got really annoyed and hung up on this, because, what happened was she and my sister were yelling about something, and being loud enough that I couldn’t hear whatever I was listening to in my headphones, so I asked all of them in a completely even tone “Could y’all please be quiet?” I don’t know how I possibly could have phrased that better! And it’s occurring to me, she might have just been being unreasonable. Then there’s the time she tripped on a toy while she was walking away from me after asking me to do the dishes and immediately doubled back to hit me and yell at me for not immediately moving to do them or something, which at the time felt like she was misdirecting embarrassment, but I felt stupid once I called her out on that, and also am not that good at reading moods, but that wasn’t a normal extreme to jump to.
(Sorry for venting at u. U can ignore this if it’s too much)
but also I feel like I might be being dramatic about it and would appreciate a second opinion.
well there's no super-logical reason for hitting a kid in the first place like. punishment doesn't need to be hitting sooo. i already agree with you, in that regardless of the circumstances you are not "being dramatic" about feeling like you were unjustly beaten.
And it’s occurring to me, she might have just been being unreasonable.
I MEAN. YEAH I'D SAY SO.
Then there’s the time she tripped on a toy while she was walking away from me after asking me to do the dishes and immediately doubled back to hit me and yell at me for not immediately moving to do them or something
im no KING of memory either but i swear to god someone else told me this exact story. what is it about making small mistakes in front of their kids that makes some parents just fucking lose it <- knows what it is
anyway yea those weren't real punishments cuz you didn't do anything wrong those were power trips. not that they should've hit you to punish you in the first place but like. yknow.
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