#life as I know it

[whispersofthepurplevalley]

There are days when I have no strength to even want to live. But every time I hit the rock bottom, I am just grateful that I had the pleasure to be a human with so many beautiful emotions. Because I existed, I could love, cry, laugh. That I have experienced being human completely, with all of my authenticity, unapologetically, puts me so at ease. I didn't take my life, this beautiful gift, for granted. And I am proud of myself for that.

-Sabina Yesmin

[thethirdman8]

The earth circles the sun as the moon the earth. The sun is one star out of 400 billion other stars in our galaxy. Our galaxy is one out of 2 trillion other galaxies in the known universe. Rajendra Gupta of the University of Ottawa figures the big bang happened some 26 billion years ago. Wtf?

I feel so small just a spec in time and space.

What am I to do?

Forward...

[myfirstisthefourth]

Where would I be without my moots?!!

[skullchicken]

If you have achieved something, please remember to observe a mandatory period of basking in the warm glow of your achievement like a lizard on a stone, lest you teach your brain that effort is futile, actually, because it didn't get to enjoy its happy chemicals, so, naturally, nothing good ever comes of trying. (And no, avoiding punishment is not a reward!)

I recommend, like, 5% of basking time in relation to whatever time you invested into achieving the thing minimum. And if you can't make your own bask, friend-brought is fine (= tell your friends!).

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[trudlejack]

(+part 2)

[do-you-know-this-queer-character]

Do you know this queer character?

Castiel is Queer and Agender or Genderfluid, and uses varying pronouns based on presentation!

[eonars]

Last summer I was on a very expedited acid come up at a music festival and my entirely unaware mother thousands of miles away was at costco and texted me incredulous at how they already had halloween stuff out for sale in the summer but all I saw was a message preview of a giant 10 foot tall skeleton with glowing eyes and "can u believe it??"

[annabelle--cane]

you think people actually have sex? naked and everything? I have to laugh.

[shinseifer]

"average cat owner spends 3 years in prison" factoid actualy just statistical error. average owner spends 0 years in prison. Miette's mother, who kicked her body like the football and went to jail for One Thousand Years is an outlier adn should not have been counted

[whispersofthepurplevalley]

August, 09

Sat by the window, stared at the partially cloudy sky, and searched for words in the air all day to write a poem. A poem that has nothing to do with you.

But, every time this pen, this journal and I sync, it's always a prose or a free verse. It's either about falling in love with this solitude all over again or about the way I made liberation my goal. It's either grey or green.

But look at this, even my proses carry the scent of you now. Imagine being inseparable like this from a heart that never belonged to any form of prison!

Don't be flattered just yet though. I know myself way too well to be overwhelmed by the information. Soon enough, summer will pass and autumn will arrive. These overworked pieces of me will fall and merge with the soil to solidify my theory of nothingness. You too will become a pretty place to rest in this continuing journey. Every exciting beginning has a humble end.

Forevers in my world are always short-lived.

Brutal, isn't it? The way I separate myself from you every chance I get. Disillusioned, I taste ecstasy, I don't dream of being in it forever.

Know me like a breeze, feel me for a while knowing you have to let me go. Can you do that?

-Sabina Yesmin

[buzzrds]

here's my wonderful isopod child, handcrafted in leather

[wanologic]

sorry danny, sam will never think you’re cool

[spyglassrealms]

had a fucking hilarious dream that tumblr replaced the "block" function with the far funnier "glock" function, which did the exact same thing except whenever anyone blocked you a random bullet hole, like a png of a bullet hole, would appear on your blog. discourse blogs were unreadable bc you'd go to the page and the sheer amount of bullet hole pngs stacked over the blogs obscured everything. I woke myself up laughing

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hey now, Let her cook!

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.