#plus the people that im talking about likely have me blocked so its just gonna bring in people who DO support my claim rather than those who

[seaweedstarshine]

Late to the game as I’ve kinda been kinda non-here for a minute but I scrolled through the Dot and Bubble tag, and thought I wanted to write this post into existence.

There's this part in Doctor Who Unleashed where RTD says this:

“What we can’t tell is how many people will have worked that out before the ending. Because they’ve seen white person after white person after white person, and television these days is very diverse. I wonder, will you be ten minutes into it, will you be fifteen, will you be twenty, before you start to think, everyone in this community is white. And if you don’t think that — why didn’t you? So, that’s gonna be interesting. I hope it’s one of those pieces of television you see, and always remember.”

And I'm like. Yeah. But the reason this works even as well as it does is largely thanks to the work of the previous showrunner with the previous creative team, which was notably the first era to have any writers of color (amongst other firsts in terms of inclusivity in directors, composer, actors). While Chibnall fumbled whenever he tried to write about race himself, he did have the self-awareness to have Black and South Asian writers writing the episodes where race is the focus (and a female writer for the episode where sexism is a focus; my point is, he seemed to know his shortcomings).

I wonder what the current creative team looks like? (not really, but I wasn't 100% sure for all of them)

To quote RTD:

“...before you start to think, everyone in this community is white.”

This is pretty non-self-aware, right? It's pretty “It is said, and I understand this, there was a history of racism with the original Toymaker, the Celestial Toymaker, who had ‘celestial,’ and I did not know this, but ‘celestial’ can mean of Chinese origin, but in a derogatory way,” right? (from The Giggle Unleashed) It's pretty “and I had problems with that, and a lot of us on the production team had problems with that: associating disability with evil,” right? (from Destination Skaro Unleashed)

—none of which are issues that should be overlooked, but think how much exponentially better they might’ve been addressed if he’d consulted with Chinese writers and wheelchair-using writers before going straight to giving the Toymaker weird fake accents and making Davros walk?

How many Black or non-white people do we think saw the Dot and Bubble script before it landed in Ncuti’s hands?

And this just keeps happening.

And like, from some of the shocked responses I've seen from white viewers to the ending of Dot and Bubble, maybe the episode's unsubtlety was needed? From the way RTD talks about it in Unleashed, the episode was written with a white audience in mind, Baby's First Microaggressions (where of course the microaggressions come from people who are pretty self-admittedly white supremacists). Ricky September, a more seemingly normal depiction of someone in the racist bubble of Finetime, seemed like an interesting element, up until the way he died.

The ending worked for me, because I do think the Doctor's reaction is true to how the Doctor would react. I just keep thinking of how much better the core themes could've been handled by someone with actual lived experience on the subject matter.

[b0ylik3r]

i saw some replies on a moots post that got me a bit weirded out but im not abt to start unnecessary drama for them so im gonna say something about it here:

if you are a proshipper, or comshipper, or profic, or pro whatever the fuck, and you see someone who's asking if something is a proship or not, your response should NOT be: "they're fictional and i don't care so YOU shouldn't care either".

the reason this weirded me out is because a. some people do not agree with you and you have no right to force your fanbase opinions on them, and b. some people!! dont enjoy csa in their ships!!! fictional or not!!!!! because!!!!!!! that's fucking!!!!!!!!!! weird!!!!!!!!!!!! me personally i don't enjoy my ships with a side of pedophilia or incest, im not gonna harass you if you do i guess but you should NOT try to tell people that they should just because wahh wahh its fictional it doesn't matter. it matters to some people. dont just tell them "enjoy what you enjoy no matter if it's a pedophile ship or not!! :)" just because you enjoy it.

also this moot has proship dni in their bio and pinned. why are you even there lmao

[zoppzoop]

GAAHAHHHHH

[correctproseka]

An essay on autistic Mafuyu

Coming from a very autistic person.

Mafuyu has a bunch of autism symptoms, but a lot of them can also be explained by other reasons, such as her upbring and trauma, but not all of them, so I'm going to start speaking about the explainable by other things traits and move up to "boy you're tism". (Notw that the trauma explanation can also have a pre-disposition to happen due to tism)

In the biggest "can be explained by her trauma" category, we actually have the biggest reason people headcanon her as autistic. Her Alexithymia. Which is just a fancy word for "can't recognize her own feelings". No i did not have to copy paste that name to not write it wrong. Yes, many autistic people are bad at recognizing their own feelings, me included. But we also have to note that Mafuyu absolutely hid away those feelings for a mask and because they were needs not being met, a "good girl" like her doesnt get sad or angry right? Thats what made her push down those feelings so much she just ended up.. numb. Its extremely common in depression as well as autism which made me personally not realize i was depressed until someone made me put it into words, it was similar to my normal.

Theres also her.. exquisite vocabulary, Mafuyu uses lots of fancy terms sometimes, which is very stereotypical white boy autism. But also, she was pushed books down her throat by her mom since she was a child, she was expected to be this "fancy" and "smart-sounding". So she is.

Observant. Mafuyu doesn't talk a lot, she observes. She can recognize things on others sometimes, but mostly about the environment, which can be an autism noticing a bird singing 5 blocks away or a trauma "i need to notice this or i get fucked" reaction.

Mafuyu as mentioned, tends to listen more than speak, I am personally not this kind of autism, but it exists, Mafuyu is quiet, listening and only speaking when she feels her input is needed. This can be simply a mixture of autism and trauma. She doesn't feel the need to speak, so she doesn't, why would she waste her energy like that? Smh.. but also her good girl mask is supposed to be a good listener, not much of a yapper.

Now we are starting to move onto the things she does that are less explained by trauma and more explained by tism. Which is my favorite part to analyze.

Parallel play: Mafuyu seeks comfort with being with niigo and working alongside them, she doesn't even need to be talking, as seen by the kitty event where she kept just listening to them on earphones, she just wants to be near her people and gets calmed down by being with them.

Bluntness. As an autistic person i am extremely blunt in wrong situations, and can easily not recognize its the wrong situation. Per example Mafuyu's "why dont you imagine you're gonna get killed if you dont do it in half an hour" or all the times she points something out to Ena and gets a scream back because it was the wrong time? Mafuyu says what she thinks and when out of the mask she really. Really. Lacks a filter, because she doesn't know when or what she's supposed to speak or not

She.. kind of needs people to say the obvious? Sometimes she doesnt realize whats going on, why she's reacting in a way, so and so. One of the reasons Mizuki had to tell her it's ok to run away. Mafuyu never considered it. It wasn't obvious for her like it would be for a lot of people, she's kind of very oblivious in emotional matters like that, and needs someone (coughs usually Mizuki) to explain something to her

There's probably more but im doing this in like 15 minutes.

Plus, all in all, she makes autistic people like me really relate to her, even if they can be mostly explained by trauma doesnt mean she doesn't show those signs or that they're only because of that, even the mask she uses is a known neurodivergent thing.

[etherealspacejelly]

hello what is your favourite star trek episode/moment/character this is your time to infodump but also you can ramble to me literally whenever i love listening to people rambling <3

OOOHOHHOHOHOHOOHOHOHOOOOOO BOY

LETS FUCKING GO

my favourite episode is the corbomite manouver!!!

basically the star trek crew are exploring a new area of space and they run into this Giant Cube that keeps blocking their path and is emitting harmful radiation. so they destroy it. and then this ship shows up like "you destroyed our warning buoy so clearly you guys mean harm. we're gonna kill you now. you have ten minutes to make preparations for your death"

at one point jim asks spock for advice, and he gives it, and jim is like nah im not gonna do that. and spock says "has it occured to you that there is a certain... inefficiency in questioning me on things you've already made up your mind about?" and jim goes "it gives me emotional security." AND THEN SPOCK LOOKS AT HIM LIKE THIS

CAN YOU TWO STOP FUCKING FLIRTING FOR TWO MINUTES THE SHIP IS IN DANGER

anyway later on they discover that they are outgunned by this ship. and jim once again goes to spock for advice. and spock says "in chess, when one is outmatched, the game is over. checkmate." and jim says "That's it? That's all you've got for me?" and spock hangs his head and goes "i'm so-" then stops. straightens up. and says "i regret that i cannot find any logical alternative."

GIHIEAGBI BGIAJEBGI HE WAS GONNA SAY IM SORRYYYY AND HE LOOKEDD SO SAD THAT HE LET JIM DOWN WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHY DO THEY DO THIS TO MEEEE

anyway this exchange plus a later one with bones about bluffing sparks an idea in jims head. and hes like "no.. not chess.. poker!" and he calls up the alien and hes like "this ship contains a device made of corbomite* that when the ship is attacked, will return a blast of equal force against the attacker. if you kill us we're taking you out too. we grow tired of your games." and then hangs up on him. ITS SO FUCKING ICONIC. AND EVERYONE IS LIKE JIM WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING. BUT THE ALIEN ASKS FOR PROOF OF THE DEVICE. AND JIM IS LIKE "nope. you're not getting any proof. make up your mind." and HANGS UP AGAIN.

*made up substance he is talking out of his ass

anyway the alien falls for it and they manage to escape but then it turns out the whole thing was a test anyway and the alien was actually a puppet being controlled by a real alien who is actually just a little boy in sfx makeup but shhh

also this episode contains this scene and also this

which absolutely Does Not contribute to my enjoyment of this episode At All. mhm. yep. ahem. anyway.

[graysnetwork]

Hii! You could do sad hc of Keegan?

I’m sryy im so late to this request I’ve been on my writers block

Keegan doesn’t like to show that he’s sad

Mostly because he doesn’t wanna seem vulnerable, not becuase he thinks its embarrassing but he just doesn’t need people worrying about him

He will always take longer showers, and if he’s ever cried in the shower he’ll lie saying he got shampoo in his eyes

Ever since you two have been together their was automatic trust from him

He never had a reason to distrust you

But being honest with his emotions was hard for him

(I mean it took months for him to realize he was in love with you, and another one to tell you)

But telling you he wasn’t feeling himself or he was feeling down was even harder

You’d probably notice something off with him, his performance on missions or his voice, or his face

So you’d sit him down to talk

But he didn’t open up immediately, he’d deny anything you said, but eventually he’d break and tell you he’s been feeling off and doesn’t know why

—

“I dunno I’ve just been, sad, and I, I don’t know why, I just started feeling sad and I can’t block my thoughts out, I’ve been thinking of every worse case scenario”

You let him ramble about everything he had on his brain, and you two were there for a good 15-20 minutes

“Keegan none of the guys, or, me will get shot randomly and die, we’re always alert and plus we’ve got great nurses” you had to reassure him of everything

“After what happened to Ajax, I can’t trust that anymore, I’m not sure of anything” he said

“Well I know I’m not gonna die if you always following me around” you said trying to lighten the mood, and it helped a bit when he chuckled

“Thank you” “for what?” “For listening to me” “of course, it’s my duty to make you feel better” “so you would’ve never done this if you weren’t my girlfriend/boyfriend”

—

[insideous-beez]

Twst Book 7 SPOILERS!!!!

I have a theory for how the deep sleep is going to go down.

The dream is collective. The "reset" stuff I've seen makes me think Malleus is going to put them in a collective dream where the school year has restarted. Because it's a dream, they'll believe it's real and have to recollect their real memories or break through the "dream fog" to realize that it's a dream.

Ortho will be the one who realizes this because the real Idia isn't in the dream. Ortho will also be key to breaking them out by communicating with Idia; Ortho, being mostly technomancy, can probably interact with his body or send a message even when he himself is unconscious. I suspect this because there's a theme of the previous OB dorm playing a key role in the following OB plot, plus Malleus has no knowledge of technology. So he wouldn't know to TRY to block Ortho's signal. OB Mal might stop Ortho from connecting outside of the thorn dome barrier, but he won't have the foresight to realize Idia is missing and Ortho can contact him.

Mickey will play a role in helping Yuu realize its a dream. Mickey can only meet Yuu when Mickey is sleeping, so I think Yuu being asleep might help them meet "on the same plane." Im dying to see how cute Ortho and Mickey interacting would be.

Malleus may have the ability to manipulate memory in the dream, so it would be important for the dreamers to not let him realize they're catching on. Otherwise he can just reset the dream.

Malleus will be able to be present in both the dream and reality simultaneously. Defeating OB Malleus likely will require Idia and Ortho breaking out SOME OF the dreamers first, then the OB battle will happen in the waking realm.

The only reason they'll be able to defeat Malleus is because Phantoms consume magic, therefore Malleus will be drained to the point where there's a fighting chance.

Wishful thinking but smh can this man hold me while humming pls

Anyways yeah!!! Those are my simple theories. Note, I have only seen other people talking about the plot, I have yet to find a translation to read, so I'm probably missing some things. I also know that Diasomnia will need to be a big part of how things go down but I don't have any theories on HOW yet. I know Silver is gonna be super important. I know Sebek's brain is gonna break when he has to acknowledge that even Malleus makes mistakes. I know Lilia is gonna feel REALLY BAD because he definitely didn't know Malleus would react like THIS.

Alternatively, if Mal's g-ma is informed that there's currently a giant thorn barrier around the school.... you think we might meet Malefica and see her scold her grandson???? I don't think it will happen but I love the idea.

[ludwigplayingthetrombone]

Hello! Firstly I wanted to say that I'm an old fan since your overwatch days and I've always admired how much depth you're giving all the characters and relationships you touch! I'm talking like, mariana trench DEPTHS. And how confident you seem about just doing the things you enjoy and exploring the themes you want? I really respect that.

I'm having a bit of an art crisis recently and I was wondering If you could offer some advice?

I'm thinking about self-indulgence in art, particularly fanart. I like to dive in deep to expand on characters, I find it as enjoyable as creating my own work. But I fear of people getting angry at me for latching onto these characters, thay they'll say the original work wasn't THAT deep, or that I'm completely wrong or cringe or whatever. And I don't care about being right or anything, I just want to have fun here and tell my little stories? :( The fear is making me keep the work to myself and I don't know what to do. Would it be better to just enjoy it on my own?

Your blog really is goals when it comes to that, so I'll respect your opinion a lot. Thank you for your time!

holy moly thank you so much for your sincerity first of all!! Second, this is making me misty eyed ngl!! I have alot to say about this so i shall put it under a read more bc im gonna ramble

If someone cares about you fixating on your fave characters, then they're usually the fucking weirdos in this situation if they dont just block you and move on. I LOVE making shit up about my faves like i have a modern au hc that kakashi and gai are ddr competition rivals and i gave yeehan 7 dogs just for funsies!! we were in the trenches in early overwatch making up our own lore bc there was none and it was so fun

I've always been like that now that i look back bc when i first started uploading my shitty ms paint fanart on deviant art in like 2006(naruto funnily enough we've come full circle) i was still drawing cringey shit /I/ wanted to see. I don't agree with almost all of it today, but i remember the fun i had while making it, and that's really the trick. Drawing what you personally want to see then people can come and go audience wise. If they like it, they like it, if they dont? oh well! There's people who still follow me from when i was 14 and i follow them even tho we're in completely different spaces now.

The fanart part i vibe with personally bc im really bad at coming up with totally original work and premises. i much prefer having pre-established rules and worlds to work with (plus the characters i love getting massacred in the writing i HAVE to save them)

Just existing online will garner you mean comments or asks, and my best advice is its not worth it to take the bait even if its absolutely absurd and wrong, i just block and go now, and im much happier :) this all being, of course, as long as what you're doing isnt harmful, bc even with good intentions, you'll mess up/blunder eventually. If the heat gets too much for you, no one will judge you for withdrawing your art from social media. thats a perfectly safe thing to do to keep it for yourself.

As an adult, shits not that serious im 28 drawing naruto fanart bc it makes me happy after a long day of work, so have fun!! art's supposed to be fun don't let the fear win i love sharing my art with strangers on the internet!! Hope this made any sense at all and I wish you the best, my friend!!! If you ever wanna dm me, feel free

[expensive-rainbows]

cw: SA, intrusive thoughts

ok so i know ive told yall some of this but idk how much ive told yall. so bassically three years ago there was this man who would hold the door for my bus since we always got there late so we would get locked out. keep in mind i know i shouldnt feel obligated to share what i was wearing but i cant help but feel that might be part of the reason why he targeted me. my favorite shirt was a sheer blue shirt that you could see my bra through if you looked close enough. this was during winter and i took my coat off on the bus since i didnt want to deal with it at school. he would ask me if i was a Eskimo (im mexican) and i would tell him no and keep walking. he had jolly ranchers and would give everyone some, but he gave me more than everyone else. he would give me double sometimes triple what everyone else got. i found it creepy so i never ate them, i just put them in my backpack and threw them out at the end of the year. everyday, when he held the door for me, and i watched how he treated everyone else and it was only me, he would take up more and more of the doorway everyday. like the first day he would take up a little, the next he would take up a little more, until he got to the point where he wasnt touching me (since im pretty sure its illegal) but that i knew he could if he wanted to. at the same time he would wait outside my fifth hour while we all waited in a line since my teacher went to the bathroom before class. he started by standing in the center of the hallway, and didnt leave until i made eye contact with him. everyday he got closer, until again he didnt touch me, but he was less than a foot away, and he had me cornered. i knew he could do whatever he wanted and no one would see. this lasted about two weeks and ended on december 16, 2023. I remember because it was a thursday and i was so happy the next day when he disappeared. idk if it was just this or something else that ive blocked out, but im terrified of men. like just in general. its been three years and i cant look my band teacher in the eye. ive had him for three years. i couldnt hug my dad for the first three months. my dad is one of the nicest people ive ever met. i know he would never knowingly take advantage of someone. i cant talk to my english teacher alone, i need my friend to go with me to ask to go to the bathroom. but dont worry this is a happy story. so sorry but im gonna give yall even more context. so my school take all the music kids of my grade to a like smaller amusement park, which isnt near us, its a good drive to get there. its kind of a big deal. plus we have one in our town, but its a lot smaller than the one we went to. so anyway the trip was today, and the band group took a picture together. i was in the back row, and idk if the guys in front of me knew i was there or how close i was to them but i was pretty close. like i could see the creases on the back of one of their necks. i could smell him. (he had some sort of cologne on, not axe body spray but close) but i didnt freak out or anything. like i noticed, but i didnt go home and have a panic attack or anything, i wasnt convinced that he was gonna r@pe me, nothing. i was fine. do you have any idea how long its been since i could say that. since i could say that i was fine and mean it. i didnt have a panic attack, didnt hurt myself (i did break my streak a little big ago, but thats because since were at the end of the school year im very sleep deprived and i have exams and i started working plus taekwondo so im busy and tired. and when im tired i take everything personally) its been three years since i could say i was fine and truly mean it. i still get a little weird around guys/men, but its getting better. now its only physical proximity, i can look them in the face! i know this probably sounds sad but im honestly happy. also quick question.

[green-x-reaper]

|| Gonna put this under read more cuz no one likes to read drama on the dash:

|| I honestly don't believe that huntress mun ever sent those asks or was faking them because a similar thing happened to fortheloveofscifi. Like the person pretending to be them would send anon hate to multiple blogs then tag the blog they're pretending to be?

I mean, if you're gonna send anon hate, you'd want to stay anonymous in order to avoid the consequences, ya know? Like why would you want to get caught? From what I know too is that both their blogs are main blogs so if they are just going to send the messages like its from them then why bother using anon? Just for clarification, this message occurred before huntress' harassment. August 16th-17th to be exact to give everyone a better time frame.

Plus a similar thing happened to me when my harraser would make multiple blogs and reblog the post 20-30 different times and send like 20 messages saying the same thing. I know how annoying that is which is the same pattern they're doing for some people.

I guess another thing too is that people don't like them for the subjects they write about. Perfectly fine. Don't have to interact with them. Everyone is entitled to having their comfort zone of which subjects they are comfortable with. Personally, I'm not fond of the dark subjects like that myself as I would like to avoid the topic of SA so I avoid any posts marked as such. Just unfollow or block and that's it. Like done, done.

I've only met them for a week, I think? They came to my IMs, they confided in me that this is how they cope on their past traumas. If this is how they cope then I'm not going to tell them how they should cope since I'm not a licensed therapist. Not my blog, can't tell them what to do or what to write about. I do believe that they should have put those subjects under readmore as not everyone feels that way about writing/reading content talking about SA on the dash or maybe have a better tagging system. But like I said though, can't tell them what to do.

This is just my two cents on the recent drama(s).

[spiderlegeyelashes]

i might have a date ish thing on saturday(?',) i mean i know i have it but im hmmm. i know the guy likes me duh im amazing and hes putting in the effort and the son of a bitch didnt let me pay for my ticket and hes bringing drinks bla bla its a very datey situation but we are stil at the ziomuś kolego bro chłopie stage. hinestly i sont even know if i can be romantically interested in anyone but certainly not this fast but the plan is i will het to know him and become friends and then we will see. im open to having feelings for him hes cute hes got nice eyes and looong very long ginger hair (the kind that shines in the sunlight) and cute glasses, he's also a tumblr boy apparently and he could be right around the corner on here because we see the same memes, and generally we get along, so hes kinda the perfect candidate, this plus the fact that he clearly thinks im awesome rightfullt so and is putting in the edfort to keep talking to me (which is. well i am NOT a texter i text this guy back like once a day in big blocks and j just ouuugggh sorry bro i do like you i just cant stand texting or whatever i mean i can but i ammmm bad at it and it is exhausting to me sorry babe but he keeps initiating so yayi dont have to <3 god i am not a texter BUT THERES NO OTHER WAY TO GET TO KNOW PEOPLE NOWADAYS like umless ur seeing each other very often theres no otherr waaaayyy), oh yea i forgot to mention hes into things like dnd and lotr and dungeon meshi and the witcher he also likes x men and collects vinyls but he is never ever condescending when he talks about them hes just excited and friendly which is cute and also his opinions that ive heard on them are pretty based oh and hes got some interesting fashion tendencies if that makes sense i cant find put a finger on it also hes a fellow regular of the goth komis at grójecka i think idk the one in praga ANYWAY ya hes a pretty damn good candidate mostly im worried its gonna get awkwarf because hes not the confident type but maybe thats for the best and j can carry. i dont know. he also finds my facial hair cool so

[thesilentlands]

Chapter 7+: Volts Upgrade

-dont worry, if he does anything bad to you let me know.

Volt could only reply with a simple "OK" before his message systems where blocked by the block chip. The chip also blocked his ability to move so hes completly imobile now only able to see and speak.

Volt then was placed on a harness and he waited for something.

-Hello? - he spoke out in a scared and confused static voice, then Frank came in to the room, wearing a diffrent shirt and a diffrent robotic arm.

-hello volt - Frank said in a calm voice, slowly aproching a table where verious mechanic tools where located

-why are you doing, this? To me? -

-listen buddy since you guys moved hire i wanne do a good thing by cheaking you out-

-but but you cant, youll wont like what youll find-

-bealive me, i find many bad things inside bots that where traveling for a long while-

-but um UM-

-you dont have to worry about anything Volt- he said, walking twards Volt with a mear chair

Frank then removed Volts forgead plate and pulled out his "brain", this was a pretty tipical thing to do, but Volt was nerwous.

-are you gonna kill me?- he asked

-why of course not, your not ready for salvage yet, hehe..-

-...-

-i think i know why your worried-

-whats that?-

-your from a bunker, arent you?-

-?!- Volt was shoked at what he heard -How you know???-

-well i know that your kind of model orginated from bunkers, plus your main chip is inscribe with bunker numerals-

-huh, so you knew from start?-

-yup, but i was kinda suprised when i first saw you walking on two legs-

-weard habit of mine-

-alright im gonna upgrade your system now, and maybe do some modification to improve you, your gonna black out-

-fine, alright, just do it-

As Volt said Frank did, Volt now couldnt see, hear or feel anything, he was completly surounded by darkness. Frank took some time wail reparing Volt, his systems where old and really out dated, he took 4 hours repeplacing, updating and modifing Volt. When frank was finished he removed the block chip and waited untill Volt woke up

Volt waited untill all his limbs where usable then he woke up, he looked around and saw Frank working at his desk, he then barked in a much better voice, he was suprised by this. Then Frank looked back at him and let him off his harness.

-soo, how do you feel?- Frank asked

-it feels odd, i can see everything better and my voice is better, im better-

-yeah bud, ive replaced your voice box with a new one, updated your system, and ive also removed your upper mouth plate where your lens was-

-wheres the plate now-

-dont worry, ive put it in on the top of the shelf, you know its risky-

-right, what else have you done to me?-

-alright, go to that mirror over there- he points at a mirror

Volt walks over to the mirror and looks at him self, he notised that at the bolts that hold his jaw there where a sturdey pieace of wire sticking out.

-did you broke me??-

-no no, just open your mouth and youll see-

Volt slowly opened his jaw and the wire was starting to split into many more and then a holo projection with a faint yellow color appered.

-wo!-

-yeah i had a spare part that did this, when you scream youll then flash band someone your faceing, so be carefull-

-ok! Anything else?-

-ive instaled some small solar panels on your back-

-nice, anything else-

-thats all volt, you can leave now if you what-

-Frank?-

-yeah?-

-would you like to know something, i can anwer it-

-uhh, let me think... To who did you give the lens? If there was a lens in the first plac--

-to mike, he found me in my weakest and helped me, so i repayed him-

-alright then, thanks for shareing that-

-you wont tell anyone?-

-i wont, i promise-

-alright, ill be leaving now-

-later bud, see you in the morning-

Then Volt left, he was suprised and kinda happy that people dont judge him nor mike, he then went up stairs, quietly to not disturb the other, he walked up to the door and he could her Micheal and Vanessa talk.

He chose to not disturb them, he returned down stairs and layed on the couth he then entered his sleeping mode and sleep the night away, happy that he didnt need to hide his orgins

[twyla19]

This is a long one (keep reading just cause its a lot)

This school semester has been absolutely shit. I am FINALLY getting to finish the last two finals, and then i will be done.

I started off dealing with losing a friend (to be homest i should talk with them) and then i had a friend stay with me, which he got locked out of my spare room, which turned into me finding out i wasnt allowed in there (i live in a 2 bed but paying for one cajse of my disability, so its stupid i dont have access) then that next week my car battery died, so i spent the day worrying about everything BUT class material.

A friend started leaving me on read and ghosting me. Then my friend left cause he needed to be back, and i could only host someone for 2 weeks. I started to try and catch up with schoolwork but am constantly anxious about everything all at once. Kept overthinking and worried cause of deadlines and midterms.

Then, after midterms, i dealt with two friends just leaving / blocking me. For no reason. Which i have dealt with like all of my fucking life and im sick of it. If you dont want to be friend just fucking tell me, which one did and mad respect. However, the other one literally stayed with me for two weeks.

So i was very depressed and just again stressed about school work. I lost motivation for everything but am still doing my best. Then, before i knew it, it was fall break. I was able to catch up on late assignments, i got in contact with a case manager, and now it's finals week. I am teeering on a C, which can pass or fail me with the essay i turned in today. I struggled to find my topic for this essay. And this same fucking class the professor is my advisor for my second major OH IM A DOUBLE MAJOR BTW so i had a 19 credit semester PLUS ALL THIS OTHER BS. Its like every week *something else* has to go wrong. Im just hoping and praying that i passed this class cause it's been a shitty semester, and i dont want to cry more.

I suffer in silence cause i hate taking from others positive moods, but damn do i want to finally be done. I have two more finals i have procrastinated and are due tomorrow night. So i have all day to get them done.

Im just tired. In all aspects. And it sucks. Once i get to my parents' house, i am gonna curl up into a ball in my room and just stay there for a while. Im so thankful for the people who have been in my life and have supported me (with or without knowing about this) and still love me through it.

I have not been more happy to say i love my friends so much, so much platonic love. It's so overlooked, but it means the world to me. I am so grateful. 💜

[golbrocklovely]

not the same anon but i wanna add to the alcohol thing. go out,have fun, do you but stas has posted herself out drinking and celebrating getting drunk,being hungover, and curing that hangover with more drinking. i dunno what’s happened to kat, it was probably already in her but she does a lot of this often now almost as if this were the go to choice of beverage. they both have posted themselves pregaming to go out and get drunk and one of them just posted a tiktok where both are holding 2 drinks each. Im honestly glad someone else pointed this out and noticed it too because most of the fandom seems to praise them and treat it like the anon said all cutesy and silly when its not.

I remember last year people blaming snc as a bad influence on the girls for drinking and look now. It wasnt snc it was them. the boys are working and theyre fine. these two are using this as a crutch. also how can you not feel emotionally,mentally, and even physically exhausted going out every night and doing this.sam legit quoted stas last year saying she rather drink than eat.

i'm gonna combine these two asks together since they are about the same thing. hope you don't mind.

this is kinda long so... i'm sorry about that.

so the last time i talked about this type of stuff/the last time i got asks about stas and kat drinking was back in 2021/22 and any time i made the same argument i'm gonna make now, i got chewed out bc ppl misinterpreted what i said and felt like i was minimizing alcoholism. as someone that has had family members on both sides have addiction issues with alcohol (along with other things), i'm not one to be blase about alcoholism. this is also not me shrugging off the real issue that stas and kat could have addiction problems.

however…. we don't know them. we only see what they post. and it's not impossible that they make it seem like they're drinking a lot when in actuality they might only be having one or two drinks. does that make what they're doing any better? no. i'm not making that argument. what i'm trying to say is that we shouldn't jump to conclusions when we don't know the full story. plus, you can't diagnosis someone via a couple stories and snapchat or two. that's just reality.

does that mean that them joking about being alcoholics is cool? no it's not. it's really dumb at the very least, and extremely dark at the most. my hope and my personal belief is that they are just partying a bunch and made some tasteless jokes. i remember when i was in college, basically the same age (if not younger) as them, and ppl around me would joke about being alcoholics. i didn't find it funny, but they did. and i'm gonna assume that it's the same thing with them. that it's not them casually telling their fanbase that they have addictions issues, but more "omg isn't it so funny how we drink every night when we party??"

i don't think this behavior is great, especially since a lot of snc's younger fans have drifted into being these two girls' fans. it's not cute to aspire to be drunkards in your early 20s. you wanna go out and have your fun, so be it. but be realistic about what your limit is. also, you don't have to hit your limit every night. you don't have to drink every night either.

but again, as i stated before, i don't think they actually have addiction issues. if they did, that's for them and ppl close to them who know them to discuss and figure out. not for us to speculate over a couple stories and snapchats. i don't pay attention to them enough to really know one way or the other, but regardless i think it's best to not assume something's wrong. if it is really that much of an issue to anyone reading this, maybe reach out to them somehow and tell them you're concerned. or if it's too triggering, which is totally understandable, just block them and move on.

i truly wish them the best, and i hope their fans know that excessive drinking is not good for you.

[aleeyenn]

hi um . that other person encouraged me to also gush abt ur designs but i also find a lot of myself in ur pin design .... as an also plus sized woman of color i find so much of myself in your design . i love baking and i love indulging in feminine things in the sense of like "yes i am a woman . yes i love to scream to very hard and fast paced songs . yes i have bigender swag ." even tho i do like feel myself as pretty masc aligning (it fluctuates a lot) i love ur design and see so much of myself in it . as well as that other person ive always felt i cant sorta be into alt stuff but recently ive sorta dabbled in it (i got the fingerless gloves ive always wanted so bad like a month ago !!!! and it was so exciting :-))) and just seeing ur pin design made me realize i can do whatever i want and i dont have to conform to my parents or my friends or my school's or anyone's expectations for my presentation of gender identity and femininity . i can wear nice frilly dresses with puffs and ribbons and have those fake vampire teeth and skeleton fingerless gloves and black clunky boots with a bright pastel pink bow in my hair if i so please . so um thank you a lot i love ur pin design and um bye bye have a nice day !!!!!!! also also rq i have to say erm if you have like literally any more gijinkas / humanizations ever pleaaseeee post them .love your art a lot ive been following you for a bit and uh apologies for bizexual ranting im just a little crazy /lh ok bye have a nice day i hope very good things come to you

YOU G UYYSS ARE GONNA MAKE ME CRY😢😢😢😢😢HAPPY TEARS OF COURSE BUTGAAHH HH H I NEVER KNEW MY ART WOULD HAVE SUCH AN IMPACT ON PEOPLE EVEN THO ITS WHAT IVE WANTED FOREVER😢😢😢 im so so so so grateful SO GRATEFUL YOU DONT GRT IT I REALLY TRULY MEAN IT pleasepleaseplease to you anon and the other anon and anyone else who needs to hear it BEEE YOURSELFFFF!!! don’t worry about what any community, family, friends, peers, ANYONE wants you to be because what’s the fun in that? not being able to express yourself the way you want to is so boring and doesn’t allow you to be what you want and not being what you want is neither gratifying or truthful! you don’t have to be true to anyone else besides yourself be TRUE to yourself and let yourself be the person you are!!! i’m sure you wouldn’t wanna hold anyone back so don’t let anyone hold YOU back!!! im gonna embarrass myself here but it’s for the sake of this talk But in elementary—early middle school i was a FREAAAKING wolf kid i wore ears and tails and everything but what stopped me???weird glances or rude comments? Nope! NOTHING!!! because being the person i was at the time felt amazing! and looking back at it sure it’s a bit humiliating but i still love that part of myself because i was so free in being me!!! and i look up to me being that person to this day and i won’t stop being myself! i won’t mask or dress a certain way that people want me to or hide parts of myself that make myself me because that’s who i am!!! and i heavily encourage ALL OF YOU to follow my footsteps and be the person you are!!! trust me if everyone in the world behaved and looked and did whatever the same the world would be sooo boring so be the spark of someone’s day and BE YOURSELF!!! who knows maybe you’ll be the person that breaks someone out of their shell to become what they wanna be too! do what makes you happy and follow your heart, don’t let anyone EVER block you from achieving that, never hold yourself against any standard or forum and do what you need to do to be your best self… so to you anon and everyone who needs it Go get some fishnets go get some cute bows go get lacy dresses go get cool looking belts go get ANYTHING THAT CALLS YOUR NAME! find yourself!!! even if it’s a pair of wolf ears and a tail, go for it! i believe in you!!!💗

[soulfullionbunny]

My twitter was unblocked

so apparently my ex unblock my twitter… idk when but probably around after april bcs that last i tried seeing her account. i was considering deleting my twitter so had to have a last look lmaoo. made me to reconsider but then I saw shes currently talking with other people haha. menyesal stalk i was at peaceee haish. well whatever float your boat babe. if someone random can replace me then im never THAT guy to you. honestly this is a great life lesson. mmng lagi galak la aku delete (maybe not hahah). adoiii kalau nak unblock left la some good tweet for me. ckp la "ooo i missed my ex :((" or "wish he ws here with me :(((" or "i have talked with sooo many guys but only he and i have that connection </3" or something like that lmao. actualy why dia nak unblock now of all the times. theres nothing much to see in my twitter now. my 2 autistic braincells already getting used to not yap and share my random thoughts dah. klau ada pun its probably sekentut dua instead of ketulan tahi. should i post something to make her happy? idk whats the play now... maybe i will act mcm biasa kot. she blocked me since september last year, so i dont think she is even considering seeing my tweets lmao (but what if shes trying to see my tweets now after all this time? jengjengjenggg).

also... this is a both way access bcs now i can see her tweets... BUT even if aku stalk dia ni mesti buat aku sakit hati. mcm just now i saw her latest tweet implying new guy hahaha. plus her retweet semua bitter about man and relationship. pretty sure that was caused by me. i already know she dont fw me like that lagi but damn girl. yeahh imma keep my distance. gotta protect the pieces of my peace. that's all I have after all this time. im a grown adult, Im smart enough to not go where it hurt (victimized yourself again i see lol dsr x sedar diri). hati aku yearn for a sliver of info about her but akal aku sihat. akal aku akan lindungi hati ini. her twitter is The Alnwick Garden, so much to learn and see, but hati... with the expectation you have the garden is bound to get you hurt… all of those no contact is to prepare you for this ok… her door is opened but you are not invited :) kau x faham but the head knows. ignorance is a bliss orng ckp kan. if you saw her tweet pasal jantan (or tino idk) lagi, xkan nak nangis lagi hahaha. the only reason i made it this far is bcs 0 info on her. gosh reminded me bila dia unblock tiktok dia hahahah the way i explore her acc is soo creepyyy. i even noticed the guy yg try talking to her hahaha. god this gonna be another rant sbb psycho sangat hahah

damn...maybe uninstalling twitter was the best idea after all hahaha... not like i cant live w/o it pun. twitter was great to let out some steam but its too toxic to stay. there are always a war there, shit is not good for my mental health. aku ni dah la recovering pendekar papan kunci.

ANYWAY... SHE got Laufey concert ticket…. what. the. frick. frack? she dont even like Laufey (or do idk she went mainstream past year). dah kenapa dia beli ticket tu??? I was upset crying menonggeng ass up face down bcs I missed it and she got it?? kena refund idk why but she still possessed it once. wow. kalau kena refund sbb x nak sumpah tu messed up. she KNEW I like laufey, the least she can do is ask if I want the ticket. i would even pay her extra for it (fuck scalper, but if shes my scalper i would fuck her in a different way heh). my god cable x leh pakai, thought of me sket ah (boldly assume im still in her mind lel). my friend say aku boleh tanya kat group FB but high chance kena scam so I cant risk that. bengong laa aku nakk. i was planning to have my first concert with Laufey :'((. she was my fav wayyyyy before dia went mainstream plss im shitting and crying rn. fun fact shes the same age as me, kinda weird supporting an artist who is not older than me hahahah.