#using this as diary

[livingisboring]

[nonsense000]

Dear dairy, maybe this german romantic thing is not completely over 👀

I hope whatever is happening between now and June is just what I need (In all aspects of my life).

[angelforever]

literally me dancing around my room with music on full volume every second of every day ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡

[greenhairedfreakglobal]

if nicocado avocado can do it, so can i

[unknownn-girl]

tumblr is like if twitter and pinterest had an insane mentally ill psychotic baby

[girlbossagenda]

if you're reading this I just want to let you know you look like a daydream

[lanalove2012]

[dykestache]

new heart bong 🫀

[smol-goodgirl]

let's play a game!

i cockwarm you and you call me a good girl and pat my head! ᯓ ᡣ𐭩

[puppyeared]

horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago

[obsob]

once more around the sun!! :3

[h3llis4teenageg1rl]

that diary the only best friend, really

[pinksoftlace]

Me and him

[hedgehog-moss]

I was talking with a friend the other day about how I was fascinated with American school life when I was a teen because it seemed so different from how things are in my country (I knew about US high schools thanks to Hollywood, an accurate and trustworthy source) and we talked about which aspects of US schools felt foreign or strange to us and one thing I brought up was, how American teens only seemed to have like 15min for lunch (I had 1h30 here in France), as evidenced by the cafeteria scenes (no one seemed to eat a proper four-course meal? I definitely never saw a separate cheese course), and I was like, I envied a lot of stuff about US schools but not this

... and I went looking in my old diaries to see if I ever wrote about this, and you know what? I was wrong. I did envy their school lunches which, like almost everything about US schools, felt intriguing and different and cool. The reason middle school-me thought American school lunches were superior to French ones is because, since American teens in TV shows only seemed to get like 4 chicken nuggets and a milk carton for lunch, their lunch tray was very light and they could hold it with one hand under it, the other hand in their pocket or holding their bag strap on their shoulder all casual-like. Sometimes there was no tray, even!

I envied these American teenagers for their lunchtime nonchalance. I would have liked to handle lunch in this cool-cat way but my French lunch tray being loaded with 4 different heavy and breakable plates, I had to hold it carefully with both hands. In my view this was unfair as the hindrance of governmental nutrition guidelines made French students look like uptight nerds, unable to strut around the cafeteria with one hand in our pocket like we didn’t care. Same for the absence of lockers in our schools, we had to carry all our books on our back all day like studious turtles whilst the beautiful 25 year old American teens on my television casually leant against their lockers chatting with friends then strolled around school with just a couple of books tucked under their arm like they were in Dead Poets Society. Thank god there was an ocean between us, imagine a French kid entering a US school cafeteria carrying 3 binders and 5 textbooks in their big rucksack and holding their tray with two hands like a complete loser

Note that these comparisons are quite worthless since I don't know what US school life / food is like in the real world (I imagine it varies a lot!)—I just find it funny to re-read old diaries and discover what was important to kid-me. Discussing these little cultural differences gleaned from US TV series, adult!me is like "yeah I remember being intrigued & envious about a lot of things! Not their school lunches though, they didn't look balanced and nutritious"—meanwhile middle school-me, focused on what mattered, was like, imagine what we could be... imagine being able to hold your lunch tray with 1 hand instead of 2 thus accessing a realm of coolness unfathomable to us in our backward country

[unknownn-girl]

[soulmvtes]

just a reminder that it's okay to change and fail and make mistakes and be imperfect and feel grief and not know what you're doing with your life <3 life will pass + you will succeed even if it looks different to what you imagined