#whelp if u wanted to know about me then here u are

[seongclb]

— enhypen reaction to you being upset when they cheat on you in a dream !

bf!enha x gn!reader, fluff & humour, established relationship au, mentions of cheating & nightmares.

req. by anon! pls let me know if u like it :3

n. @woon2u u might be a bit delulu but i’m def delulu 4U

♫ phases by chase atlantic.

𖠗 이희승 | lee heeseung.

would probably be dead asleep when you whack him awake

“y/n, what is going on??” he slurs in his sleep

“YOU TELL ME???”

his eyes shoot wide open and he jumps to sit up, but still remaining groggy while he tries to think of what he’s done

“is this bc i ate ur cookie bc i said i would get you one tomorrow” he whines

you hit him with a pillow and he whelps

“i’ll get you two???” he says, and dodges your next hit

“you cheated on me.” you say and he looks at you with disgust

“oh shush,” he says, pulling you back to bed

he obviously wins against your attempts to push him away and traps you in his warm, snug embrace

he speaks softly with his hands tracing shapes on your arms, “why would i need to cheat when i have everything i’ve ever wanted right here with me?”

judging by the amount of kisses you place on his face, he can tell he’s done a good job at shooing away your concerns for the night.

𖠗 박종성 | park jongseong.

now, you’re the only one he’ll allow to disrupt his sleep

but.. this reason

he would just let out the biggest sigh before consoling you bc even though he’s tired as heck, you’re his love and he can’t afford for you to be bothered by something

“what’s up, love?” he’d ask while stroking your back

“i had a nightmare.”

he would immediately comfort you and question what it’s about, if you’re comfortable with saying

“you cheated on me”

oh gosh he has to fight the urge to roll his eyes

“i would never do such a thing, i love you far too much”

indeed he does since he’s willing to comfort you over his sleep and just in case the thought actually does bother you, he’ll be extra affectionate and loving to you as a reminder that he’s all yours

𖠗 심재윤 | sim jaeyun.

you’d have to literally first pry his clinging body off of yours and then shake him awake

“whattt”

he has the audacity to be grumpy, you think

“sim jaeyun.”

“uh oh” he sits up and rubs his eyes. “whatever it is, i’m sorry and i love you.”

“you think that’s enough for me to forgive you for CHEATING???”

he’s like wth and laughs

“babe, what are you even sayinggg? stop being so silly i’d never do that to you,” just kisses your forehead repeatedly

just forces you back to sleep against his chest and tomorrow if you’re still sad, he’ll make it up to you

but rn, man is too sleepy so he’ll show his reassurance in sleepy kisses and whispers of affection

𖠗 박성훈 | park sunghoon.

probably feels you jolt awake which is what wakes him up

“babe, are you okay?” while getting the glass of water for you just in case

“when were you going to tell me?” you whisper

“tell you what…” man is so confused like you just woke up from bed didn’t you???

“that you’ve been cheating on me.”

he’ll roll his eyes now

“and what evidence of this do you have, my love?” sunghoon would literally look at you with no expression

“i saw it.”

“where?”

you pause, “inmydreams”

“i didn’t quite catch that, y/n”

“in my dreams” you say.

he just sighs and pulls you in his embrace

“aigooo you’re so dramatic sometimes what will i do with you” but when he sees the pout fall even lower in your lips

he just kisses it away

“don’t let these silly dreams put things into your brain, i would never do that to you, i love you the most in the world.” he’ll make fun of you another day

𖠗 김선우 | kim sunoo.

another one who would have to be shook awake

would be so sassy straight away too

“what is so important that you had to wake me up at 2:48 am for ???”

“you cheated on me in my dream,” you pout.

now he pouts

immediately becomes more concerned

i just feel like sunoo would be more understanding that this is more than a silly dream

“awww, my love,” would first try calming you down if you’re too upset but would then just pat your head

“as if theres anyone better than you to cheat with anyway! nobody compares seriously,” he reassures

after you’re calm he probably focuses on making you laugh and comfortably going back to sleep

would hate for you to sleep with something so horrid on your mind

ur his other half why would he ever want to cheat???

𖠗 양정원 | yang jungwon.

your movements would wake him up

initial reaction is to check up on you

“y/n, are you okay?”

“jungwon would you ever cheat on me”

he’d first look at you like you have two heads

but becomes softer when he sees your eyes

“of course not!! you’re the only one i want; you’re just so perfect for me, babe”

he’d say a million things to show why he would never cheat

“the thought of being with someone else disgusts me, honestly.”

oh man and if you giggle

he’ll be like mission accomplished

that’s just his sign that you’re okay now

so all is good and you’re back off to sleep

does keep an eye on you for a few days just in case

𖠗 西村力 | nishimura riki

he’s a young, growing lad who needs his sleep

so when he wakes up to you frantically waking him up

hes a mix of grumpy and concerned

“what’s wrong?” while getting up to look at you

“i had a dream that you cheated on me.”

literally can’t take you seriously but is too tired to react

“a dream? y/n what the heck,” he says.

he’ll frown when he sees you’re serious

cups your cheeks in his hands

“you don’t have to worry about something like that, i love you and even if one day we don’t love each other anymore i would never cheat”

smiles at you with so much love

“now can we go back to sleep, i’m so tired”

he’ll treat you to ice cream tomorrow though :)

[nockfellblues]

Alucard with a partner who is a werewolf <3

Hell yeahhh- ugh the way this prompt reached out and grabbed me by the throat?? I love this concept so muchhh

Just headcanons written with as xreader this time around, hope you don’t mind!

Warnings: none!

First meeting and early interactions are probably a lot of calling you “mutt,” “Dog,” “Whelp,” and “Mongrel.”

Absolutely will try to pick physical fights- Alucard lives for a worthy opponent and finds a good fight to be genuinely fun. Probably the best bonding experience you could have, tbh.

Definitely doesn’t accidentally start to track the moon phases for you. Completely coincidental that he is always available on the night of a full moon and the day after.

Loves your teeth! Alucard will straight up tell you they are cute- Maybe a little hot, too. Especially if you’re mad.

Really leans into playfully teasing about petting- but loves to actually pet your hair and head as a form of affectionate touch.

Also really leans into pet-play when it comes to *ahem* private time lmao Biting? He loves it. Draw blood? Even better. Claws out? Hell yeah, sink them into his back, please.

Definitely loves when you sit on the floor besides his chair and lean your head on his knee- He’ll gently run his fingers through your hair as you talk or just exist quietly together.

Always present when the moon is full and your transformation takes over. Helps you exorcise all of that pent-up energy and blood-lust- and whatever else you might need, of course. Tries his best to keep you out of trouble, but will let you run a little rampant if its entertaining.

Provides much-needed care the day after- a long lazy day of rest, good food and drink, and whatever words of comfort or affirmation you need to hear(albeit a lot less sugar-coated than you might want. He’s here for you loving every aspect of yourself including the ‘monsterous’ ones).

Loves being paired with you on assignments for the Hellsing organization- affectionally calls it “Play time,” and is an absolute menace about stealing kills and generally messing with you- Not in a way that jeopardizes the mission, but just enough to give it a playful edge; Alucard knows when to get serious and when there’s enough of a power imbalance to allow for some extra fun.

Affectionate nicknames include: “Love,” “My sweet,” “Moon-child,” “Beloved,” “My Moon.” Will revert to calling you things like “Whelp,” or “pup,” if you’re having words or you’re being a brat.

Definitely don’t let him hear someone else call you anything derogatory though. He’s quietly protective of you. More often than not he will simply loom in that menacing way he’s so good at until whoever opened their big mouth gets the hint and apologizes. Egregious affronts are usually met with threats and whatever small-time violence he can get away with(Integra might let him get away with more if you’re also on her good side. You probably are. She seems like a dog person lmao). If they’re an enemy, he’s more than willing to string them up and let you toy with them if you want, but they’re definitely going to die afterwards.

Woof, Alucard just makes my brain go to jellyyyy 😩🔥 Hope you enjoyed! Thanks for requesting ;u;✨💕

[ghostssweetgirl]

Injured, Pt. 2

Simon Ghost Riley x Fem Reader

Pairing: Simon Ghost Riley x y/n

CW: semi-public sex, p in v sex, size kink if u squint, breeding kink if u squint, pet names used, fem reader, slight name calling, soft(ish) Ghost

Word Count: 2.1k~

a/n - not my best work. continuation of injured, pt. 1. read that here.

read part 3 here

minors, dni, 18+ only !!

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You were almost fully healed from your gunshot wound, your scar whelping up nicely, and pretty much back to normal. You couldn't help but always think about a few months back, the sex you and Ghost had in the living room of the safe house. You still touch yourself at night thinking of it and wonder if he does, too. He hadn't mentioned anything of it, but he had been a lot nicer to you lately. You tried not to get ahead of yourself, you were both stressed and if anything, the sex was a relief... way of keeping warm? You didn't exactly know, but it was good. It happened once, and you've had moments where he's teased you, got in your face, and flirted with you in the past months, but nothing happened since that one time. 

You do as much exercise and keep up with your shooting practice. It's been a while since you've been on a mission so you must keep your body and mind in check for the next one, and also attempt to distract yourself. If you're in the shooting range, Ghost always finds a way to join you. Same thing if you're in the gym. You wonder if he's started to like being in your presence as much as you like being in his, but you don't want to get in over your head.

Your mind is still rotted with the things that came out of his dirty mouth as he fucked you, how he touched you, how he praised you. It's impossible to ignore the tightness in your stomach, how you couldn't help but rub your thighs together for any sort of friction hoping he'd notice.

And he did.

--

He cornered you in the shooting range. "Can't help yourself, huh?"

You look up at him with your big doe eyes and shake your head, almost ashamed of yourself.

"Hm. Just can't stop thinking of how full you were of my cock, yeah?" he tilted his head.

"N-no, sir. I can't help it," you look away only for him to cup your chin and fix your eyes back on him.

"I know you can't," he smirked underneath his mask. "I see the way your thighs squeeze together, the way you stare at me when you're feeling needy. Are you that greedy, luv? Can't get enough?"

You blush and agree, "Mhm."

"Tell me all about it, then," he put his hands on the wall above your head. "Go on."

"U-um... I touch myself at night thinking about that day... how you pounded into me..."

"Mmm... Do you, now?"

"Mhm... and how you praised me..." you bite your lip, admitting.

He cocks his eyebrow as you pause.

"How... how you're so fucking big, Simon... How easily you threw me around, but also how careful you were, too, when I was hurt..."

"And you're fucking hot. I know it's unprofessional and-"

He shushes you by rubbing his thumb across your lips as your eyes fought between looking at his eyes or where his lips would be behind that mask.

"That right?" he chuckled as he got close to you, settling his knee between your thighs.

You whine and lean up to kiss his mask, he pulls away.

"Get yourself off on my thigh, sweetheart," he put pressure on your clothed cunt. "I ain't touchin' you... yet."

You whine at his teasing and beg him to touch you.

"Please, Simon. Please, please, please."

"Please what?"

"Mmmggh, I want you s'bad. It's been months, Ghost," you complained. "Can't stop thinkin' about it."

"I know, darlin'."

"Simon~..."

You mindlessly start to grind against his huge muscular thigh as you beg him to touch you or kiss you. He groans as he watches your hips gyrate against him, needy for him.

That's it, angel. Come undone for me, luv. Fuck, I can feel how warm you are. I can only imagine how wet that sweet little cunt is, yeah?

Yeah, yeah, yeah~. For you, Simon. All for you. Please do something, touch me, kiss me, pull my hair, somethin'.

Ha, you don't give up, do you? Not yet, doll. You're going to cum from this.

He presses his knee further, moving it in slow circles helping you reach climax sooner. Your eyes close as you reach euphoria and sing his name. God, someone could walk in any minute, and you don't even care. And you hope they hear you.

You pant and moan lazily as you come down from your high, legs locked around his thigh, not letting him go.

"Good girl," he praised, lifting his mask to his nose. You pucker your lips and lean up to kiss him and again, he teases you, pulling away, enjoying your pitiful whines as you don't get what you want.

"You're fun to tease," he admitted while finally giving in to your needs, kissing you deeply, savoring your taste once again, being months since your lips last met. The kiss lasts several minutes, both moaning into each other's mouths as you wrap your arms around his neck keeping him close as he gropes your body, squeezing every bit of meat and holding you in place.

This kiss was different than the other times - more intense, patient, sensational, and immensely passionate. If only you knew how much he craved you, too. You intoxicated his brain, tugged at his heart and he fought it so hard, knowing "love" is impossible in this field of work. You brought him out of his thoughts with that sweet, begging voice of yours. How you purred his name made his heart stutter. How you melded to him, how you trusted him.

"Fuck, Simon, I missed your lips," you take a minute to catch your breath before returning to kiss him.

Unfortunately, you heard a group of men talking, walking either toward or past the range. You roll your eyes at the possibility of having to stop right here.

Simon turned you around, your back pressed against his chest and he covers your mouth with his palm.

"Be a very good girl and stay quiet for me," he nips at your ear as his hands sneak into your pants, finding your throbbing clit.

Your eyes roll into the back of your head, and you press your ass deeper into his hips. Holding your moans in seems nearly impossible right now as you suddenly worry about being caught. You're his subordinate. His teammate. You caught him off guard and left him unable to shake the feelings. He tried to push them down after the first time, but you're irresistible, intoxicating. He needed more. That's why he's here. That's why he's teased you, riled you up for months, making you want more. It's indeed unprofessional, quite inappropriate - both of you knew that of course.

Minutes that feel like hours go by; you close your legs around his hand that doesn't give relent against your sensitive warmth. Your legs start to shake as wetness seeps all over his hand, moaning being muffled by the pressure of his palm against your lips.

"What a fuckin' whore. Getting off on my hand while everyone walks by," Ghost taunted. "What would they think of you if they saw you like this? A fucked out little whore who seduces her Lieutenant. Dirty girl."

That sent you over the edge.

You release all over his hand. The squelching sounds coming from your cunt are downright filthy but simply add fuel to the fire. He pulls his hand out and brings them to his lips, sucking your juices clean off. You look back with your fucked-out daze and see the tip of his fingers glide out of his lips.

"Fuckin' hell. Miss that tasty cunt, sweetheart," he complimented, grabbing your face to kiss you, letting you taste yourself on his tongue.

You consider yourselves lucky as the chatter fades out, hopefully insinuating they left. Anxiety riddles you... did they leave because they knew what was going on? You couldn't find it in yourself to care.

He even took his pistol out and shot it a few times to make it believable that there was, in fact, shooting going on in the range, not... whatever this is. 

"Ghost..." you plead.

"I know, luv," Ghost rasped. "Gotta make this quick, sweetheart, forgive me."

You made quick work of undoing your pants and pulling them down to your knees while he undid his belt and pulled his cock out through his zipper, then you feel the weight of his cock resting between your ass cheeks as he rubs them.

"What a fuckin' sight," he cooed, cherishing the way your ass looked bent over in front of him. He takes out his phone and snaps a quick picture of his cock between your ass cheeks as you get even more flustered hearing the *click* and see the brightness of the flash.

You whine, just wanting to feel him inside of you.

I want you so fucking, bad, sir.

He groaned as he rubbed the tip of his cock between your folds, collecting juice as extra lubricant. Finally easing the tip inside, both of you grunt as he enters slowly inch by inch.

"O-oh~ my fucking god, Simon," you softly moaned.

"I'm not going soft on you this time, baby," he warns, slamming into you.

Your eyes screw shut and you squeal as you bite your hand hard enough to where there's blood to soften the screams you so badly want to let out.

Each thrust was harder, deeper, and faster. His breath fastened as he felt himself getting closer.

"It's like your pussy was made for my cock."

"Yes, yes, all yours, Simon!~"

"Yeah? All mine, sweetheart?"

"Yes, sir - ahhh~ fuck."

His groans drove you crazy as you submitted to him, telling him your pussy belongs to him, giving him a feeling of possessiveness.

"Cum for me, doll," he coaxed. "I'm already close."

"Fuck, right there... Simon..."

He didn't have to tell you twice, you pushed back as his grip tightened on your hips and he angled himself even deeper, kissing that sweet spot, helping yourself even more.

"Fuck, I missed this tight pussy... good fucking girl."

You respond with a weak whimper, letting your climax consume you.

"Fuckin' hell..." he groaned while he whispers into your ear, admitting a secret. "I touched myself thinkin' of this cunt wrapped around my cock."

Your head tilts back between his neck and shoulder, moaning out without a care as a sticky white substance leaks out of you, coating Simon's cock. As your gummy walls grip tightens snugly, his cock throbs inside of you, tickling your cervix with cum.

"Really?" you blush as you look back at him with hair sticking to your sweaty face.

He chuckles in response, "Get dressed, and keep me in there, will you?"

"Yes, sir," you smirk as you obey, happy to keep him in you, signaling you do belongto him. Your heart races at the thought of him masturbating to you.

Just like that, you now have this to think about for months and touch yourself to. You frown as you think about not being able to have sex with Simon, and wonder when the next time will be - if there's a next time.

"Quit thinkin' so loud," Simon looked at you, meeting your eyes with a concerned look.

"R-right. Sorry," you stutter. "We should probably head back... I hope they didn't hear or see us. We'd be in a world of trouble if-"

"Stop," Simon shushed you. "We were in here shooting, we needed to have a... conversation, yeah?"

You breathlessly chuckle and agree, hoping it's believable. You remember Simon being adamant about no one knowing, and you really don't want your guys' horniness to ruin your jobs, honestly. The thought of a domestic Simon - Ghost fills your head as you calm your body down. Fuck, I'm sore and I'm sticky. 

--

You both get confused looks as you return to the safe house, your cheeks still barely flushed red, Simon's cum still coating the inside of your thighs.

Soap raises his eyebrows; eyes fluttering back and forth between the two of you and goes to speak until Ghost snaps a look at him saying "I fucking dare you to say something."

Soap takes the hint and steps back, face contorting into a smirk understanding what was happening, "Alright."

You playfully scoff and roll your eyes as you grab a meal ready to eat and sit down, feeling more substance ooze out of you, causing you to readjust your position.

You look up to everyone staring at you weirdly and retort, "What?!"

Silence.

"Everything okay, kid?" Price asked.

"Yep... yes, sir, at least I think so," you laugh, face heating up again.

You glance at Simon like "Shut the fuck up - you did this." 

He stands behind everyone and his shoulders dance up and down in a prideful laugh as he stares into your eyes.

--

[steeltraptrainer]

The Doll has not held books before. Not unless it was to clean up the workshop, and when she shelved Gehrman's singular book. She has never read it. Never before has she read. And tonight of all nights, on the night of the Hunter's Moon, the two newest hunters take time out of their busy lives. Sit next to her, and teach her their words.

"Can you read me this?" The younger, Ferro, has his fingers under a passage of text, next to an image of a creature she has never seen before. It looks almost like a dog, but a particularly ferocious one. She leans closer, her own, segmented finger tracing the words.

"Mabosstiff is a friend. It's coat may be Dark, but it likes to play with children." Her words stutter slightly, but they make the young hunter smile regardless.

"Yeah!" His smile grows brighter, something that the slightly older hunter mirrors.

"I have one of them, back home. His fur is really soft, and he is a cuddler. It's... strange, to see way the beast plague twists canines."

"What... is a Mabosstiff?" The question falls from her mouth before she can stop. Or think.

"They're a Pokémon. Those creatures live back home with us, and they are good partners. They're a lot like the animals you have here in Yharnam, just not... quite." She likes the sound of their voices. Ferro's voice has a subtle crackle. It's warm. And Giacomo's voice was rich. It sounded like someone who sings. She wants to hear his music one day. It's the first time she Wants.

---

Gehrman knows that the two newest hunters are peculiar. Not from here. From Yharnam. Or around it. They aren't from this world. He knows it. And yet they wandered in with eyes lining their brains, and with eyes too heavy for their age. It makes his insides twinge. Too young. As young as she was. She, too, was too young. Should have stayed home. In these two, he sees all his mistakes again. His heart is heavy.

He should have stopped long ago. When she woke up the first time, when she wasn't her. When he discarded her. When the Crow left. When the Powder Keg left. 360 dead hunters. 360 Long Nights. He should have stopped it long ago. But here he is, doing it yet again. He still hears the squalling. He has for decades. He doesn't know if it will stop tonight.

It has to stop at some point. And these two children step closer to it. Ever closer, every night of theirs. On and on it will drag, until they are moored just as deeply as he is. They are binding themselves. Time will run out sooner or later. They are closer to it than they think. Some day, they will not wake up anymore. And then, he will once again be forced to do his duty.

---

The children are a mite pesky, Eileen thinks. But, she admits, they are clever. Good fighters. She wants to know how and why the younger one could spark up like a Darkbeast. If she knows these two, they will not rest until they have seen whatever else remains in this cursed town. Maybe she should visit the Powder Keg again. Tell him that there might be two little whelps that scurry through Old Yharnam soon enough. It might be prudent to warn him a little. On the other hand, she would get to see him squirm a little. And that would be fun too.

---

Ferro's shoulder still aches. The blood vial healed it up, left a thin scar on the skin. But it is healed. And yet, he still feels the bite of saw teeth in it. They do not hunt tonight. They cannot. Instead, they sit with the Doll. Sit with her, show her how to read. Tell her about their Pokémon, and how they have friends. It's not a productive night. But it is one they need. A short respite. A respite they take, right until

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[monstersinthecosmos]

so full disclaimer that I know we're missing tons of context and this will make more sense on the actual full episodes LOL but something I observed in some of the conversations that I want to point out;

"You wanted her" doesn't strictly imply (to me) that the baby trap is reversed. Their entire relationship is founded on coercion and (at least in the books) Lestat manipulates him the entire time they're together. For him to say that doesn't necessarily make it true, in fact it really tracks with me as something he'd say to gaslight Louis. Even the voiceover of Louis saying he wanted to save her, I don't think that strictly implies a switch. Also because we still see Lestat is the one who turned her. There's a huge gap in logic between "I want to save her" and "I want her to be damned for eternity just like me" so there''s plenty of room for Lestat to use this as an opportunity to manipulate Louis again. "Whelp, sorry babe, I cannot save her, but we can turn her! :D" which is how it happened in the book, too. Only here it looks like she is brought to the brink of death by a fire and not Louis's desperate hunger.

SO MAYBE THEY SWITCHED IT IDK but I don't think those lines prove it yet. It's very much something Lestat would say as a manipulation.

The other thing I'm seeing is a lot of people making fun of Louis for the "You took my life!" line and saying like, WAT R U TALKIN ABOUT LOUIS! YOU ASKED FOR IT! and again , like. The entire idea in the novel was that he was too fucked up and not in a state of mind to truly consent, that Lestat coerced him, and that once he became a vampire he was in way over his head and didn't realize what he'd been submitting to.

I know RJ said that in this version they get more of a courtship, that Lestat wants to make sure Louis loves him and wants it, so this has some wiggle room. But there's some clues also in how Louis tells the interviewer "I was being hunted" and how he was seduced. He has 100+ years of hindsight at this point and still thinks of himself as Lestat's prey, I find that important! The "You took my life!" accusation can always come back to the way Lestat instigated this situation by preying on him, even if Louis eventually agreed to be turned.

I get that it's a little silly to get in the weeds about teasers haha AND WE ARE SO CLOSE TO JUST WATCHING IT FOR OURSELVES but I found both of these conversations interesting and I saw them popping up a lot after the last trailer & the Claudia teaser.

I'm really curious to see:

If there IS a baby trap switch, what does this change about who Lestat is as a person?

IS IT EVEN A BABY TRAP IF LOUIS IS JUST NAIVELY TRYING TO SAVE SOME GIRL? (tbh if someone tried to baby trap me with a teenager I would leave even faster but that's just me)

Does the fire have anything to do with Louis lmao are we still leaning into that?

[numetaljackdog]

v.. vomit story...? if u uhhh want to.. elaborate...

well alright, since ya asked :)

so as i've perhaps mentioned, i'm kind of a scrawny whelp of a person, and this was even moreso the case when i was in school. unfortunately for me, physical education class exists and is required in most public schools including mine. in high school, we were required to take two p.e. courses, each worth a half-credit, and the first one had to be a basic fundamental p.e. class, while we had a little more freedom with what we took for the second class.

that's how i ended up in a fitness class centered entirely around walking - i'm not gonna hold up in a game of flag football, but i can handle walking, and it fulfilled the second half of my credit, making it the last time i would ever have to take physical education. sweet deal, right?

except we were doing all of our walking outside, so if the weather was bad we had to find somewhere else to go. sometimes we would go use the fitness equipment for which we had a separate, specialized room (still no idea where the FUCK the school district found the money for that) but sometimes we would instead be merged with one of the other teacher's team sports class. dramatic music sting goes here.

on one of these latter days, we got stuck playing.... well, i don't know, to be honest. it was some kind of handball-type-thing, because the teachers were basically just making shit up. but it involved a LOT of running. back, forth, up, down, everywhere, weaving in between other players. i'm a scared little mouse even to this day, so i was playing as hard as i could to make sure the 6'5" coach didn't sniff out my weakness and tear off my arm with his teeth as an example to the others.

cut to after the game, where they make us get our stuff and wait for the bell to ring. why? because public school is a cruel and unusual form of punishment. so i've got my bag and i'm feeling the effect of the hour and a half of non-stop physical exertion i just did. i start hovering around a giant trash can they keep by the doors. eventually i have to sit down. i feel like if i could get moving, i might be okay, but right now there's nowhere to go. i'm continuing to sweat, and i figure it's bc i'm in a big crowd of other students waiting for the bell. so i get the really and truly brilliant idea to walk all the way to the other side of the gym and sit down against the wall there. no trash can, no exit, but at least there's no people!

once i sit down, i can't move. i'm swaying from side to side, knowing what's going to happen but unable to stop it. the best i can do when i finally hurl is crane my head to the side and get it on the floor instead of myself. it takes several minutes for anyone to notice.

luckily, as soon as the vomit demon was excised from my body, i could get up and move just fine. i located the least hateful of the gym teachers and informed them of the situation, expecting (and feeling like i deserved) to be put in a deep dark pit for the inconvenience. they instead seemed pretty neutral on the whole situation, and proceeded to mopping.

before returning to routine, i was asked if i would be going home due to illness. i stated confidently that i couldn't, because i had a test next period. i then rinsed my mouth out with my water bottle, and went about my day. and that's a good picture of how i was essentially a living caricature of a nerd from a dumb teen movie.

[thornquillthefiendish]

I think I need to do one of these but uhh, hey I’m Thorn, you can also call me Thorny! I’m a bit of a fandom elder in warriors I guess? Not in the sense that I’m old, but that I’ve been within the fandom since I was a wee whelp though comparatively I’d say I’m slightly older than the average fan.

I’m a young adult (saying this for clarities sake, I do not want anyone to be uncomfortable near me), and I try to be as clean as possible on my account, but I’d say rating wise, everything here is pg13 and if it notes of anything outside of that, it’ll be tagged of course to avoid those uncomfortable with said topics stumbling onto them! If I mistag something or forget a tag, please let me know, I’ll try to correct the error immediately! That being said, content on this blog will dip into darker topics, but mainly topics I’ve already seen in media targeted for all ages or younger ages. I will also cuss a fuck ton, nothing explicit of course, but I have a vocabulary that would likely make a sailor blush, so know that I’m trying to be inclusive and safe for younger fans whilst still keeping my own edge.

Some other bits about me, I’m afro-brazilian (live in the states), trans male and gay as all fuck! Hawkfrost (of course) is my favorite warriors character, my favorite arc is TPB, my favorite clan is WindClan and I write on the side of art. My favorite color is pink! Some other media I enjoy is RotTMNT, Gorillaz (2D kinnie-), The Portal Series, Watership down, Horror media, fnaf (guilty pleasure it’s brain numbing), The Hades games, Zelda games, anything based in studying animal, plant and human life, comics, monster hunter, Pokémon, anything mythology, yakuza like a dragon annnnnd honestly the list is far too long to fully count, I like a lot of weird stuff.

I don’t have any currently active blogs outside of this, b u t if you’re interested, you can check out my old au blog, @fireclawisexhausted for an old au idea that I might continue some day but likely not soon.

Some unique tags on this blog and what they mean are;

#thorn’s carvings = art/general art

#thorn’s wc designs = my designs for canon characters

#Embers of Revolution rewrite = rewrite tag

#kitty studies = random non au related character studies about warriors characters

#thorn loses his fucking mind = me being mad at Warrior cats

#EoRR char profiles/notes = information on a character in the rewrite, pages will be updated as the story is written

#EoRR Clan Lore = lore for the rewrite regarding the clans, optional read but recommended to do so AFTER reading in a few chapters, though I know people love lore so it’ll likely have no affect if you read it ahead of time

#EoRR Other Lore = lore outside of the clans

#EoRR updates = updates involving new chapters being uploaded, breaks, polls and feedback, warnings, etc

#EoRR artworks = art related to the au in events, though also applies to alternate designs for a character in the au

#other EoRR info = things that aren’t really lore but connect to EoRR

For some added context, EoRR is my currently planned rewrite of the series (mainly TNP and everything after, but I’ll be revising some of the first series too), focusing on better character development and implementation of better narrative focus, character consistency, improved and revised arcs, better representation of characters that closely parallel irl groups of people based on writing, added lore and cultural dynamics and improved relationships. I’ll be making an AO3 account for “books” in the rewrite and post updates on here whilst also ofc posting other stuff about it onto the blog!

Dni; basic things that I expect to be common sense, ofc no nsfw or explicit content blogs (not personal just uncomfortable with that based on the content I’m posting on here), anyone who claims and consistently surrounds themselves with proship and anti stuff because I do not want to be involved in those conversations.

Not really dni but something to be careful with around me, please avoid talk of homestuck I have some admittedly strange issues regarding it and how it’s connected to some bad experiences I’ve had. Ofc I won’t be mad at anyone who does, even if it’s not inherently a mistake, but it just makes me really uncomfortable.

[s-essha]

continued from here / @coeurabyssal

At least that made two of them who weren’t exactly average ———   even so,  recovering from the fall ( which was already making frail bones ache as though he’d fallen from too high of a height in some game rather than a mere few feet off his height in quick seconds post awful-luck occurrence ) didn’t make the sight of the other drenched and looming with a sense of conviction much easier.   Rather than the usual visage of the ultra-SSR, princely appearance of Malleus Draconia,  crown royalty and soon-to-be king of the Valley of Thorns,  the image of him came more along the lines of some fantasy horror manga antagonist waiting to deal the final blow.

Of course,  they both were drenched,  but if there was any guessing to be done,  Idia had the threat-level of a sopping wet kitten rather than being more than prepared to fire up the finishing move on said sopping wet kitten.   Gold hues reflect well enough in the dark at least,  flame dimmed by the weather’s grace.   Sam’s shop was looking about off the mission by now ——   this is bad,  but like,  really,  really bad.   Frantically, lank form scoots back as far as he can manage in a blind panic —   and with that resounding click of heels,  skin is jumped out of with an additional pitiful whelp.   He’d strayed from the direct pathing,  too,  and was more than aware of now being covered hands and underneath in bits of mud.   That,  too,  made him want to jump out of his skin if not his entire form.

The worst part was that prominent boom from the others’ voice,  too.   Entrancing as it was like thunder,  some consequential, unobstructed warning for what may be soon to come.

“M-M-Malleus-shiii...”   he whimpers,  just as unfortunately pathetic as the rest of his IRL character,  “U-Um,  you should...   Just i-ignore me,  right?   Wouldn’t that be for the better?   Y-You know,  like a worm,  or...”

[autumn-foxfire]

Asdfghjkl we must’ve watched the ep at the same time, there weren’t new posts until just now but yEAHH :D I WAS BOUTTA CRY MY HEART WAS SHAKING THEY REALLY MADE IT SO SAD AND THEN THE ENDING KICKED IN 😢 c’MON right after that, AND THE ANIMATION WAS PHENOMENAL LIKE WHOOOO I liked the zoom-up they did into Hawks’s eye when Dabi yelled his name, oh the shock! And that they aided the viewers with that was going on when he was being a speedy boy, all the better to retain info for characterizations!

(2) I was holding my breath hoping they balanced the “Hawks might have to kill but he doesn’t want to” right. Good points: They kept “I don’t want to fight you!” Twice’s “that’s just convenient for you!” Helps that, it’s a different line vs his petty “sounds like a you problem” but sinks in better because WE know as the No.2 a fight isn’t inconvenient, we see him winning easy, he just doesn’t WANT to fight. Love how the scene lingers on so many important lines tbh. (3) The camera is literally WATCHING Dabi blurt out “You didn’t notice me! You were distracted by emotions! You MADE A MISTAKE HERO!” Wayyyy more than a simple “looks like sentiment tripped you up after all!” from behind him. He’s going through a full facial range of expressions here. The audience will remember, bless. And I like they altered Fatgum’s “yo Hawks is a spy” scene to take place after the Machia reveal vs out in a random field with Tokoyami going ?? My mentor, what??? out of the blue (4) Once again having NPCs go “how’d we get so much info?!” HERE instead of Fatgum asking + going unanswered in Tsukauchi’s office in a small barely noticeable panel will STICK, it’s impactful! Pity we lost Toko wanting to see Hawks again, but it’s fine. Maybe next time? Or it was there and I forgot oop. Hnnn, don’t like the “kill” vibe, but tbh I expected it :/ I mean. Okay. “Someone has to die” could be read as that. You know how Dabi wasn’t planning on Twice dying, but used the opportunity? (5) Looking past his carelessness for a moment here. Maybe the anime is trying to parallel that by saying, “Hawks was planning on killing Twice, but he took advantage of an opportunity with Dabi’s interruption knocking out Twice for him” which uh, changed quickly. “I said don’t move!” (You did not buddy.) did they keep that I forgot 😭 also the collection of Twice’s echoing “die, hero” was CHILLING, my last complaint is “I didn’t belong there.” With them transitioning that line into- (6) Hawks’ shadow face, it would’ve been SO GOOD if they made it a contrast by switching from his sad smile to that face but y’know they cut it. Instead it’s a switch from old Twice to current Hawks. And that line + that smile would be So Good, had they used the word “cage” instead of “there” because the motif appears in his backstory. Nevermind, one more thing. Rip, Hawks looking cool af descending with his sword. Hello uh, demon Hawks hidden in the fire. (7) Looking at ani react vids and ooh, you mean after Dabi said “heroes are always ready to save a life” he’s all “ironic isn’t it?” errr, was that there 😶 sounds more like he’s throwing shade on Hawks than “yeah I trusted you would save him” Hawks is SO FAST I can’t tell if we can see him hold onto the burning feather lol, slow down for my mortal eyes boi. Slight positive note? Guided flashbacks and added snippets to give a clear vision to the audience is good. Some people didn’t notice- (8) That he was destroying the cameras. Also nice they flashback connected “I want to help you, you’re a good person” to “those who help their friends aren’t that bad” is it Hawks that isn’t all that bad? Is it Twice who is nice? Read both ways! But hmm. Anyone notice the distinct lack of THE RECORDER?!?! #HoriReallyDitchedTheRecorderPlotForNagantAndToldTheAnimeToFollowConspiracyTheory. Whelp. No one can call me “in denial” if everyone is going to be this sus about it. Review concluded, thank u!

I've already shared my review of the episode on another ask so I'm not going to repeat it, I'm just going to sit here like :o at all the details you managed to pick out in the episode XD

I noticed the lack of recorder as well and I'm disappointed it's not going to have a role in the manga, it could have been utilised so well to have the league turn against one another due to Dabi's actions but I guess with AFO playing puppeteer with almost all of them it's no longer needed.

[flower-guro]

Get to know me~

I was tagged by @simsparadise3​

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

Last: 1. Drink: Water :/ 2. Phone call: My dad? i think?? 3. Text message: My best friends uwu 4. Song you listened to: Business Man - Mother Mother 5. Time you cried: Its been a while... maybe a couple weeks??

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: I’ve... never dated orz 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Also ... never happened 8. Been cheated on: Pls refer to #6 9. Lost someone special: Yeah, some family members and pets i rlly loved 10. Been depressed: 24/7 my dude 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I’ve never intentionally drank alcohol

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14. Peach, light pink, maroon

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: Some really important ones~ 16. Fallen out of love: ....Yes. 17. Laughed until you cried: Yeah i have ;u; 18. Found out someone was talking about you: Not in a bad way 19. Met someone who changed you: Yeah 20. Found out who your friends are: Yes, and i love them 21. Kissed someone on your  Facebook list: Who uses facebook?? (also nvr kissed)

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I only friend ppl on facebook that ive met and know 23. Do you have any pets: You bet! I have my kitten Nelly, an Old (TM) cat named Spike, and a big golden retriever pupper named Odin 24. Do you want to change your name: Hmmm... kinda?? I don’t mind my name but I like Ken better 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: Went to a nice restaurant.. i think that’s it?? 26. What time did you wake up: 10:30 ish 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Playing tf2 28. Name something you can’t wait for: The anime convention that’s coming up ohoho 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: *looks to the right* there she is 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: Wish I could’ve done better my first year of college 31. Listening right now: The news is on right now? 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I went to high school with a Tom, he was a goof 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: The fact that some ppl dont like Osomatsu-san lmaO 34. Most visited website: Youtube....

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: A b u n ch on my shoulders and neck 36. Mark/s: Stretch marks, scars 37. Childhood dream: I wanted to be a marine biologist 38. Hair color: Brown~ 39. Long or short hair: Short! Shorter than chin length 40. Do you have a crush on someone: mmmmm not right now (for once) 41. What do you like about yourself: My personality?  42. Piercings: Just my ears, tho I want a nape piercing... 43. Blood type: B+... *insert depression joke* 44. Nickname: Ken, Nekka, Kenni 45. Relationship status: Single as heck 46. Zodiac: Gemini 47. Pronouns: They/them 48. Favorite TV Show: Does Osomatsu-san count or 49. Tattoos: Nope :/ 50. Right or left hand: Right 51. Surgery: None, somehow 52. Hair dyed in different color: It was orange/ginger but i just dyed it back to its natural color 53. Sport: I used to play softball, even got a scholarship for it hahaha,,,  55. Vacation: Pls kick my ass to Washington or anywhere cooler than this tbh 56. Pair of trainers: Wtf is this foreign lingo (but yes i have some gym shoes)

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: An omelette 58. Drinking: Wish i was drinking coffee.... 59. I’m about to: Go to the river with a friend? 61. Waiting for: The sweet release of death 62. Want: $$ for the convention coming up 63. Get married: I’d like to 64. Career: I’d like to design prosthetics

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs and cuddles pls 66. Lips or eyes: I rlly love eyes 67. Shorter or taller: Each has its charm~ 68. Older or younger: I tend to get along better with people younger than me?? 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: ???? idk my guy, i guess tummies r cute 71. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive?? 72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship def 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: More hesitant i guess??

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: N o pe 75. Drank hard liquor: Nah  76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I dont own either lmao 77. Turned someone down: Y eah,,, 78. Sex on the first date: No thanks  79. Broken someone’s heart: *Soft cough* yeah 80. Had your heart broken: yep yep yep 81. Been arrested: No thank u 82. Cried when someone died: Yeah,,,, 83. Fallen for a friend: Ugh dont remind me

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: Usually no 85. Miracles: Mmmm no 86. Love at first sight: Maybe, but not for me 87. Santa Claus: I was one of the last ones to think so in my 5th grade class lmao 88. Kiss on the first date: Sure?? No?? idk my guy

OTHER: 90. Current best friend(s) name: (not in any specific order) Trica, Leah, Maisie, Sire 91. Eye color: Brownnn 92. Favorite movie: Oooo I think its still Colorful (anime movie)

Time to tag some friends~ @hibiyamorelikehebiya @shadylamb @tapiocachica @ghostjab9 @pasteddreams and anyone else who wants to!

[thatwildnya]

commission for @bestwishes2u ! thank u for the cash money~

What do you think the dorm leaders plus Jamil and Lillia would do if they learned that the M/C couldn't read? They've been isekai'd so it makes sense for there to be some language barriers. Not sure if I should ask for platonic or romantic... I guess that part can be a surprise~

for the sake of the headcanons i will be making the language of twisted wonderland japanese and mc can speak it because magical iseki plot magic says so

also u can take this a platonic or romantic go wild have fun

Riddle

how have you managed to make it this far

whelp now that he knows it’s study time

have fun you’re not leaving the dorm anytime soon

he knows many tips for memorization so there’s a plus

goes full teacher on you

you either thrive under his teaching style or die

there is no in between

Leona

honestly impressed

you’ve made it pretty far despite this setback

won’t help you if you aren’t dating

and even then it’ll take a lot of convincing

surprisingly good at teaching

his explanations are simple but easy to understand

you’ll be reading in no time yeet

Azul

how.

that’s his first question

then moves on to making a deal

take his fancy cane and whap him on the noggin if ur dating

don’t got no time for dis just teach me twink

don’t actually call him that he will cry

he will have you reading simple chapter books in a week if you’re determined enough

gib ‘im a kiss ‘e deserves it

Kalim

the most impressed by your achievements

if it were him he’d probably be dead within a week

buys children's work books for you

also surprisingly good at tutoring you

he starts out with simple essentials and goes from there

knows a thing or two about languages cuz y’know daddy big merchantman

Jamil

is kinda ashamed he was defeated by someone who can’t read

won’t help unless you’re his lover

he already has to tutor kailm he has enough shit to worry about

wouldn’t mind giving some tips tho

tutors you while keeping kalim occupied with a laserlight

don’t ask questions just focus little one let the jingle boy chase the red dot

Vil

there are two ways this can go

1: impressive i will have rook teach you he is bilingual

2: oh hell naw no lover of mine will be left unable to read the products of the back of a shampoo bottle buckle up buttercup it’s time to bring out the whip books

like riddle you either thrive or die hopefully it's the former

gives positive reinforcement through unhealthy snackys

it’s a privilege you must earn peasant

Idia

*let's put exaggerated gasp*

how will you be able to read manga

this is a crisis time to crack down

does quick research and gives you a brand new laptop for learning purposes

puts on anime without audio with subtitles 

want to know what’s happening? learn to read normie

if you get frustrated he tries to cheer you up with candy please stop crying he doesn’t know how to properly socialize

Malleus

impressive hooman

he pats your head and offers to teach you

this quickly ends with lilia teaching you he is actually really bad at this

what do you mean you don’t understand it’s simple

gets pouty seeing you spend so much time with his vice

that should be him not the old bat

learns how to tutor better just because of this

Lilia

probably knew beforehand and was the one to bring it up

do not worry young one daddy is here to help

depending on your learning style decides how well he can tutor you

he may be old but he’s not perfect

buys you workbooks like kalim

also does flashcards

keeps trying to reward you with his cooking until you threaten to go to someone else

no wait come back he’ll stop don’t leave peepaw alone

~special bonus round~

Grim

has had to read everything for you and was annoyed by this thank god you're finally getting someone to teach you he has had enough of dis shiz now give him tuna he deserves it

[azlrse]

Idk if u are doing request rn... but can I request Glamrock Freddy X reader fluff? like SO MUCH FLUFF. i am a sucker for him😭 any prns are fine!!! i was thinking abt a scenario where reader stopped seeing Freddy for awhile cause of mental health and his reaction to seeing reader again. but if not thats ok!!!!!!!

Comfort (Glamrock Freddy x GN Animatronic!Reader)

CW: reader is having mental breakdowns, degrading, vent fic, implied atychiphobia, and angst to fluff.

A/N: I'm so sorry if this didn't relate to the first ask. It was a horrible day today and decided to vent out through this fic. I hope it's okay! :')))

‿︵‿︵ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ・❉・ ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ‿︵‿︵

Tired, that's all you felt after your negative thoughts were scattered through your head. Day after day, you kept your smile wide enough to show that you are okay, not only to your peers and to the children but also to your boyfriend.

Freddy had a gut feeling that something is wrong with you, telling you that he's there for you when you want someone to talk to. Being the stubborn animatronic you were, you just kept on talking to him that you were okay. Telling him that you just felt tired after so many hours of keeping the kids safe and entertained throughout the day.

Due to your stubbornness, you kept on degrading yourself. It's painful to say the least, suffering in this pathetic hole you just created for yourself. Your boyfriend and your friends were way talented from you, how they were so much popular in the Pizzaplex.

You pushed further and further to be the best animatronic in the building, even when your circuits were fried and needed some replacements. One of your friends, Glamrock Chica, was really worried for you when she saw your condition. "(y/n), you gotta rest for a while! You know that me and the others are so worried about you."

"I'm fine Chica, now leave me be. I still had a job to do." You replied nonchalantly as you walked passed her. Your breakdowns began to worsen as you cried and cried as you fall asleep in your recharge station. Every single night, you always stared into your mirror as you deeply reflected all the horrible things you just did for the day.

'Why didn't you make that kid stopped crying?'

'You did wayyy better when you first debuted here? Now where's your popularity?'

'You are such a pathetic whelp. Even Roxanne Wolf did way better than you.'

'You are pathetic, a failure."

'failure, failure, failure!!!"

It reached to the point where you tend to avoid Freddy and the others. Whenever he tries to approach you, you tend to walk towards the opposite way. One time, Monty wants to check up on you to see if you're alright but your doors were always locked every night when the building was closed.

Inside of your mind, you desperately want to scream for help, wanting to escape the deep void you just built for yourself. You never felt so weak and helpless as you lay down the air-conditioned floor and cried. 'Stop it, make it stop!! I want this pain to stop!!' You thought to yourself as you passed out from exhaustion, not knowing that you've forgotten to lock the door.

"Hey (y/n)! We brought something for you– (y/n)!!!" Roxy screamed as she and Chica ran towards you. "Chica! Tell Freddy and Monty to come here!! They're in really bad shape!!" Chica didn't hesitate to ran towards their rooms, telling them that you need urgent help.

-------

Hours after you slept, you woke to a familiar feeling on your hand. His thumb was rubbing on your hand as Freddy watched over you while you slept. "F-freddy?" Freddy looked at you, noticing many emotions as you stared in his eyes; sadness, disappointment and fear. Fear...that's the only thing he felt towards you. "I know something is wrong with you, starlight and I am not leaving till I heard the whole story."

You stayed silent for a while, hesitant to tell Freddy the reason why you passed out, why you tend to avoid him and his friends despite wanting help, why were you so hard on yourself. "Please, (y/n) dear. I must know." That's where you reached your limit.

You began to cry again..

Sobbing and wailing as you hugged him tightly, afraid that he might disappear. "It hurts, it hurts so bad, Freddy." Freddy hugged you back as a way to comfort you. "I only see myself as a failure, a pathetic animatronic that didn't deserve popularity or a place in this Pizzaplex. I don't deserve you, I don't deserve anything here." You continuously vented and ranted towards him, how you were so jealous towards their sky high popularity and you need to prove to the others that you are also worthy of that popularity.

"Starlight, what was the reason why I dated you in the first place?"

"Because of my popularity in my first time here in the Pizzaplex? Or is it my talents and my perfected abilities to make the kids happy?"

"No, you got it all wrong. The reason why I dated you is because I loved you. Not because of the popularity nor your abilities. I just love the way you are. I know that there were some things that you wouldn't tell me but please starlight," you only stared at his eyes. "please do tell me if something is wrong, I don't want my lover to suffer alone. We can work this out, okay?" You only nod and proceeded to cuddle towards his body close.

Freddy kissed your head as the both of you lay down the soft sofa. "I-I'm sorry for making you and the others worry so much but thank you..." He only smiled and cradles you close towards his body. "It's okay, sweetheart. We all have our limits sometimes. Now rest up and I'll be here watching over you."

It's been days since your breakdowns and you spend a lot of time working towards yourself, battling your fears and building up your strength. The management also announced that you will be in absence in a couple of weeks. Your friends and boyfriend, on the other hand, wrote a couple of letters to keep you company and to inspire you to embrace your strength and weakness.

You went towards the rehearsal room to wait for your peers, excited as they didn't know that you came out of your room after the ordeal.

Long story short, Freddy came rushing towards you while giving you lots of kisses after the show and your friends also gave you a tight hug as they told you on how proud they were towards your battle. Your fear of failure may haunt you for the rest of your life but with your boyfriend and his friends, you might need a bit of their help to surpass this battle.

‿︵‿︵ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ・❉・ ʚ˚̣̣̣͙ɞ‿︵‿︵

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Reblogs and likes are appreciated! 💕

[yourbleedingh3art]

Today at jets pizza i walked in with a nicotine migraine half-high as hell and saw somebody trans w two eyebrow piercings working and they froze in their tracks when they saw me and said Sorry I love your hair i was like I love ur eyebrow piercingss and then they kept staring which was too much for my high brain so i got kinda uncomfortable but they apologized again and i ws like it's ok (in my head:Punk recognize punk. gender bender recognize gender bender.) THEN THEY LITERALLY TOOK OFF THE NECKLACE THEY WERE WEARING. SAID THIS IS THE SKIN OF MY SNAkE????/ AND GAVE THE NECKLACE TO MEMEMEEM!!!!!! I ACtually wass lke holy shit i will treasure this actually seriosuly. like u chose the right one cuz i will fucking think thi s is so cool for so long and i was w my family and the second we left the jets they started making transphobic comments (I was like Whelp guess we arent gonna be having the Im Not cis conversation any time soon) Anyway bruh i think their name was Lex / Lux and im wearing the necklace rn it's quite cool it's like embroidery thread but woven w beads w this resin circle at the end where a pendant would be and the snakeskin is in the resin circle (One thing about me is i actually love snake skin and have been talking about it so much. and The other night i literally said I FELT LIKE I WAS MOLTING. ) Skin like a snake.

Yeah that experience was beyond cool not gonna lie i have this fantasy that they immediately recognized i was non binary and thats why they reached out so intimately so quickly Like we literally hugged (I hate hugging strangers esp strangers from jets pizza no offense but who knows what grease Is on that shirt.) But they asked are u a hugger i said fuck it sure Bc like u r cool as fuck like u r cool as fuck. What goes around comes around.I visited KK in the hospital today and gave her this selenite wand ive owned for years, meditated with countless times tripping lsd, used to wave over my friends in louisville/lexington to "cleanse" them and used before countless tarot card readings to prepare, i really cherished this selenite bc selenite is a beautiful crystal to me, but bc of her state of mind idk how much she really cared about the selenite i really really relly hope it didnt seem like i just gave her a fucking rock that shes literally gonna throw away or something bc i didnt even plan fully to give up the selenite i just wanted to bring it with me to the hospital but when i saw her there i was like i just want to show her some love and selenite is the best crydtal id want to have w me in this situation and ive cherished this specific selenite its genuinely been cherished so Here take it Soak up its love and she lowkeyyyy just Put a finger to her lips and shushed me and i was like *Nod* Ok well bye! I thought maybe i made a mistake or something but when this person at jets Also gave me a gift that they themselves had owned/used personally for awhile i was like ITS A CYCLE. WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND.

This is actually the second time a random stranger ive interacted with has given me a necklace based gift the first one was a crystal wrapped in pink twine that my first piercer ever gave to me at the end of my septum piercing. Idk why im so blessed and lucky to have these things happen to me but i truly believe it's bc certain people in this world can see/sense your souls and values sometimes just by reading ur energy/having an intuition about you bc of how you present yourself and how you speak to people. And i just feel like wow that interaction was profound actually

[akumaalert]

So how do you deal with writing stuff that is not gonna even be relevant until like several chapters down the line and just having to sit on it? Cause me? Not so well. I’m always like why can’t I write faster? I want my instant gratification dammit! 😩

Friend! It is T O R T U R E

For me, I try to focus on the challenge that it provides me. Because I'll have a general idea of what I want to write from chapter-to-chapter...the big high points. But sometimes the nitty gritty? Drives me insane. And I become obsessed with the fact that if I am bored by it, everyone will be bored by it. Which isn't the right way to think of things since I know the why behind it happening. Like there has been at least one detail that I wrote and went "Whelp. Everybody is gonna pick this up immediately, but here we go. Adding it in because it's that time."

No one has mentioned it. And it's a something that somebody would mention if they had noticed. To me? Tedious. Not cool. Bored me to tears. But now that I can look back and know how people will react once they see the first time that seed was planted? It's going to be wonderful. That helps me put things in perspective...that something that I write just out of the blue might be more meaningful to someone than something I curated for weeks on end to be perfect in my mind. Writing is all about what the readers take in and make of it...so it's always going to be different and there's something magical about that.

If I'm truly struggling with a current chapter, I'll force myself to sit down and write - line by line in the most mechanical way possible - what I want to occur to get to that next stage. From there come ideas.

Most of the time, the ideas will be out of order. Like SO out of order. I might have one sentence sitting at the bottom of a document the whole time that I'm writing that chapter only to plug it in at the end.

It's also totally okay to just write what you need to write and not be in love with every chapter. I'm certainly not a fan of everything I've done in HML. There are some chapters that grew on me...that now I really enjoy despite hating initially. There are others that I loved writing that now seem to pale in comparison to something further down the line.

All else fails? Read what you love that you wrote and bask in it! I do this constantly with some future scenes. I love them. I'd post them right now if they had a shred of context. But instead I read them to myself and enjoy them in the meantime while I'm building up to them.

[meichenxi]

💕 get to know your mutuals!! when you get this, it means someone wants to know more about you, so list 5 things about yourself you want your followers to know. they can be as simple as your age or as complex as your deepest fear, as long as it’s something you’re comfortable with sharing. when you’re done, send this to 10 people you want to get to know better!! 🥺🌼💕

Oh thank you!!

1) I am tiny. Really, really short. Think shorter and then think again. Once I shrink with age my girlfriend gleefully informs me I will be legally able to be classified as a dwarf. BUT I also have a very big legs and huge shoulders which means I wear oversized everything, because nothing that fits my waist or height actually fits me. Ever. So I embrace the oversized look with big boots and big jumpers.

2) I am a huge fantasy fan, specifically Tolkien, but my current favourite genre of books aside from a lot of wuxia that I have been reading is the new weird. Those monsters knitting across the sky are really...wow. I'm interested in how manipulating sentence structure can be used to create a sense of unease and wrongness: so putting an adverb in a place where it wouldn't otherwise be, ordering adjectives unnaturally, pairing two words together that really don't work but that you don't notice until you go back and check, unsure...there's a lot of space between 'grammatically incorrect' and 'natural' and I love books that deliberately manipulate that space. Similarly the use of physical landscape etc that is just...wrong.

3) I'm an introvert with very extroverted hobbies: I love to be looked at, and I love to dance! My dream is to learn circus or burlesque. I am constantly bobbing around and at parties will be the first person to get up completely sober and dance with abandon on a table. I'm an adrenaline junkie. I love high spaces and stupid risks and I am very childish and impulsive at times. I love cliff-climbing and balancing on thin railings and hanging off things. I love being the centre of attention and am a very good public speaker and performer, but hate actual contact with people, and have the social grace of a walrus: let me bow and wink and immediately go home please. And then after that I will stare at the wall with drained social battery for like two days.

4) I went through a period of three-four years of mental health problems. I'm doing a lot better now, and am naturally very optimistic when not under The Big Sad, and want to say that there is another side to this. I still have a disaster life, but it's more of a WHELP ANOTHER MISSED APPOINTMENT AAHSFJHAKFHJA HILARIOUS OH GOD than not wanting to leave bed. Things will change. I never thought it would get better, I genuinely thought it would be like this forever, but it has. And especially for people struggling with things that don't get talked about much in mental health circles like dissociation or derealisation, you're not a freak, and things will likely change.

5) I don't talk about this enough, but the love of my life - what got me through my teenage years - was German. I love the German language so much. I'm no longer actively learning it and my active abilities have decreased, but I just want some love for this language in the langblr community ok...

So here is some examples of just two beautiful texts I love in German:

- Kassandra by Christa Wolf:

Wann der Krieg beginnt, das kann man wissen, aber wann beginnt der Vorkrieg. Falls es da Regeln gäbe, müsste man sie weitersagen. In Ton, in Stein eingraben, überliefern. Was stünde da. Da Stünde. unter andern Sätzen: Lasst euch nicht von den Eignen täuschen.

Das alte Lied: Nicht die Untat, ihre Ankündigung macht die Menschen blass, auch wütend, ich kenn es von mir selbst. Und dass wir lieber den bestrafen, der die Tat benennt, als den, der sie begeht: Da sind wir, wie in allem übrigen, alle gleich. Der Unterschied liegt darin, ob mans weiss

- Elisabeth the musical:

Die Schatten werden länger, und doch bleiben alle blind und stumm. Zum Klang der Rattenfänger tanzt man wild ums goldene Kalb herum. Die Schatten werden länger, es ist fünf vor zwölf - Die Zeit ist beinahe um.

Was ließ ihr die Vergötzung? Was ließ ihr noch der Neid? Was blieb von ihrem Leben als Bodensatz der Zeit? Kitsch!

(everybody should watch Elisabeth, it's amazing...!!!)

- Also, not originally German, but I love every translation of Tolkien's work in German?? it's so so good, it works so well, and the word order choices work so well in German, much better than any non-V2 languages.

Und dort wo knisternd, im Gehölz erwacht, ein Brandt von Winden, angefacht zum Himmel rot, die Flamme loht, der Wald befackelt hell die Nacht.

Feanor's speech!!

'Warum, o Volk der Noldor', rief er, 'warum sollten wir weiter den neidischen Valar dienen, die uns auch in ihrem eignen Reich vor ihrem Feinde nicht zu schützen vermögen? Und zwar ist er jetzt ihr Feind, doch sind nicht sie und er von einem Geschlecht? Rache ruft mich fort von hier, doch wäre es selbst anders, ich wollte nicht länger in einem Lande wohnen mit der Sippe dessen, der meinen Vater erschlagen und meinen Schatz geraubt. Doch bin ich nicht der einzig Mutige in diesem mutigen Volk. Und habt nicht ihr alle euren König verloren? Und was alles habt ihr nicht außerdem verloren, hier eingepfercht in einem engen Lande zwischen den Bergen und dem Meer? Hier war einmal das Licht, das die Valar Mittelerde nicht gönnten, doch nun macht das Dunkel alles gleich. Sollen wir hier auf ewig untätig trauern, ein Volk von Schatten und Nebelgängern, das vergebliche Tränen ins undankbare Meer schüttet?' Oh my god every single sentence in this makes me just INSANE. Basically everyone should also learn German. Even thinking about it now makes me shiver and want to continue....ahhhhhhhhhhh. ARGHHHHHH.

[toriliashine]

Hold on, I’m conflicted

side 1: Kokichi wanted to Mercy kill them all to not be stuck between a hellish world and a murder school.

 a) If that was so, why didn’t he just let Miu kill him? He knew about the plan, and could’ve just let the plan run smoothly. The rest of them could be executed innocently without tasting the hell of the outside and Miu could’ve felt true despair on finding out all her plans of murder and escape were for naught when she saw it.

Result - Miu lives, and feels despair yadda yadda; everyone else is execute blah

ai) But, what if Kokichi found out about the outside world after he found out Mu wanted to kill him? It was a short time span between her making it and him possibly doing the tunnel thing but like. What if he was like, hey, one of my classmates that i thought was an ally is trying to kill me. that sucks, whelp, at least let me look where this card key leads, maybe it’ll get my spirits up in some way before i decide how to take care of her????

K:....

K: well then.

Then, after that, the pieces for the plan couldve started falling in place? He couldve then showed Gonta what was going on, making him feel the same despair and how the only right way to escape this hell word was to die. 

Gonta agreed.

Result! - this would have made Gonta the sole survivor if the plan worked. Would have depressingly thought it was the gentlemanly thing to do for the rest of his friends to find peace in death while he held the pain of surviving in that hell alone. (also alsjklsn Kokichi said yeah i wanna DIE but Gonta is the sweetest person here and the most worthy to live through all this shit HE’S gonna be the blackened and i’ll use my lies and trickery to make sure he LEAVES THIS DAMN SCHOOL)

b) In the trial, after both Kokichi and Gonts knew about the outside world. Kokichi could’ve just let him continue ‘pretending’ to not know what was going on. It would’ve hurt to have the only person you confided such delicate information ‘lie’ and throw all of you and your plans under the bus like that but it wouldv’e got shit DONE. He couldv’e continued lying pinnning the crime on anyone else, even himself as long as it meant the plan worked.

Result! - Gonta lives! He’d probably only be told why after the incorrect vote though. Monokuma would laugh as he brought Alter Ego Gonta out to say what the plan was. Alter Ego Gonta and Kokichi would’ve had a bittersweet feeling knowing their plan... succeeded... The rest of them would be executed. And Gonta would have to rely on the knowledge this computer version of him had to say abt the outside, he mightve not had enough time to prepare himself due to him forgetting though :(. -> Monokuma might push him out and shut off the school. He might fully succumb to despair :(

-> this relies on Monokuma actually bringing out Alter Ego though, he might just force him out crying and sobbing, feeling nothing but despair as his friends get executed while goNTA DOESN’T KNOW WHAT’S GOING ON. WHY - HOW AM I THE KILLER. WHY KOKICHI LIE. MY FRIENDS SHOULD NOT DIE. WHY -

side b- Kokichi didn’t want to mercy kill them all, and still wanted to survive after 

Oohh this is a VERY sinister side when u think about it. I don’t like it and want to see it as a last minute plan B that he chose during the trial but i have to be KIND of objective :(.

This was all triggered once he found out Miu was planning to kill him though.

a) He found out Miu was going to kill him, showed Gonta the despair of the outside world which made him agree to kill her.

Easiest path to go down when attempting to understand chapter 4′s trial. 

The chapter (according to a random comic i found 5 minutes before rechecking the trial nyeheheheeh im so reliable) The trial relied on Kaito supporting Shuichi to choose the truth. By making a point to prod them both in the trial, he could succeed in making the trial interesting and still let them find the culprit. 

bi) He did it plainly to survive

A truly evil route! Would suggest he truly cared not for Gonta, Miu nor the rest of his classmates, yet this is refuted by how he acted in the Chapter’s end and the next. If he didn’t care about the mastermind’s doing, a lot of what have happened next - simply would not have. it’s a really popular choice of events for people who just dont like kokichi though akskal His previous lies could’ve just been accepted as truth and he couldve gone the rest of the game ignored and hated just because. But this ouldve gone against a lot of things.

bii) He did it for a final ultimate goal - to find and expose the mastermind. 

He couldnt diiee!! He had come so close! to get all that ( to be revealed) evidence on the mastermind, secrets of the school and after. He couldn’t just die, he needed to save the rest of them and - look the other 2 he couldn’t save in the eye and lie. Must have been painful. In this route, i want to believe he truly did care for them all,, his tears were real. but the final endpoint was so close! he couldn’t leave now! But by doing this, and watch a friend kill another for his own chosen greater good would have cemeneted, in his heart, that he truly was a villain. And led to him fully accepting, living in and dying in that role after the trial and in the next chapter. Aka: damn, boy was straight suicidal after det :///

Will i think more on this later??? No idea but im tired and hungy rn - bye