No More Fucking Butterflies (19/30)
I have decided the next man I meet
who makes me nervous
is getting blocked,
walked away from-
I'll run if I have to.
No conversation,
no glances,
no more whirlwind romances,
I'm not giving chances.
I'm through.
Who the hell decided butterflies in the tummy
was something to romanticize in the first place?
For me, I think it's my body trying to tell me to
get as far as I can from this demonic creature
who will only cause me harm but
I kept thinking it's a good thing if his presence
can make me stumble over words.
Hell no.
Neutrality is the way to go.
The man you're mostly unaware of
until he gives you good reasons to be.
The one who doesn’t prey on the
unbalanced chemical reaction that happens
when you lay eyes on him.
And maybe the love story won't be
the stuff of an indie romance film
but it will be stable and real.
It won't give you more material from which to heal.
It will provide you with bliss more enduring
than the intoxications of fleeting butterflies.
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Untitled #2 (for MTV Black History Month 2001)
Can't do that dance anymore
It doesn't fit my size, never did
I'm too big to do that dance
Always was too pretty
Won't shuck and jive
Not gonna coon
Not I Too many ancestors' tear stains on my face
Too many claps and hallelujahs under my belt
Not for anybody's enjoyment
Not for anybody's money
Green or long
Pound or euro
Not for you
Not I
I don't have time to do that dance
There aren't libraries in my baby's school
Playgrounds filled with glass
Teachers who are waiting for me to show up
And I will . on time
You won't catch me doing that dance
Not in this honey dwelling
I live here
My mother and God designed this for me
Just enough cinnamon (blow a kiss)
Just enough nutmeg (blow a kiss)
Stirred me in a pot
Listened for the timing bell
Ring and I am ready
Bite me when I'm cool
Bite me again when I'm not
Bite me all you want because
I've got more and some more and some more
And I will not do that dance
Not for you
Not for you
Too much to do that dance
And I am way too pretty
Written by Jill Scott
Courtesy of; https://www.afropoets.net/jillscott.html
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"Misjudged Love" ✍🏾
This is based around (or inspired) by "I'll Find A Way" by Blu Cantrell.
Her lyric from this song, "'Cause what hurts today, in time will fade away" has been stuck in my head and won't leave lol, so I decided to use it and make a poem/prose version around it and the song altogether.
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Your "peace" is chilling
On it, malice skates.
My little fire is but an ember, but bright
And she deserves her rage.
For this fury is mine and it will not subside
I will not "heal."
Keep your complacent ice.
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Untitled #18
If I had to do it all over again, I would love you. I would love deeply with all the fibers of my being. I would love you more than all the words ever written about love. My heart would never break because your love is the armor. Your love is my safest place besides the thoughts of my mind. Your love heals and transforms the terrors of my past. Your love transcends the fickle love I once knew. And I would love you. More than the vibration when the oceans meets the sea. And I would love you. More than a child unaware of the inequities of the world, with the ability to love freely. I would you more than the unknown. And I would love you.
-Jocelyn B.
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En Gratitud
I've been meaning to
saunter my way back to this space
but I always hesitate-
Mostly because I have everything
yet nothing I want to say
and I'm often afraid of the words
my brain amalgamates in haste.
But, whoever you are
wherever you are
whatever you aren't-
You are appreciated.
The knowing that on any given day
an unknown person out there
might be reading these poems I write
as an act of radical self-love, self-care,
healing, resistance, resurrection,
both medicine and illness,
but mostly in hopes to understand
and be understood
could be out there understanding
and being understood too
helps me to feel I have done more
than merely exist.
For that feeling,
I am immensely grateful.
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April 5th
Flakes fall in April against snow capped mountain tops
Long coats over thermals to match the wool lined socks
The peace of early day as sunrise paints the backdrop
Just me and Yah, sitting with my coffee pot
Another year down, can't say the devil fight fair
A couple storms here and there
A couple liars everywhere
Drove me to the point to make realize I don't even care
When you turn nothing into something all you gain is hot air
Had to pivot with intentions
Neither is even worth the mention
Found out it wasn't mine by extension
So all the hate turned into pretension
In all ways I'm at my fault
Just what the lesson taught
Should have played it with my head
Instead of 808'n with my heart
Through it all I grant forgiveness
Grace and Mercy for the misfits
Sent up a call for some peace
Then Yah picked up my business
Now as I face the East
I raise my hands towards the light
Even when they do me wrong
I will choose to steer them right
Though tomorrow is not promised
More years to come in better ways
More years to come in brighter waves
I Thank You Yah for My Story
All Glory to the Ancient of Days
-Yahkar
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