#cdd stuff

[chemicalcarousel]

It's fucking funny when you start to notice the "tells" of certain alters, such as speech patterns, posture, voice pitch, accent, hand gestures, ect.

Like "wait a minute... why am I fucking man spreading like a fucking clown.... oh.... oh it's him."

[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

when the dissociative identity disorder dissociates your identity

[thefluxsystem]

Shoutout to people with CDDs.

I know it’s hard, but your brain did what it had to in order to get you here. That’s amazing. I’m so glad that you’re here. How incredible of your mind to protect you as hard as it did, even though none of those things should have ever happened to you at all. I hope that all of you are able to find or have found the communities, hobbies, friendships, passions, etc. that make you feel at home. In the meantime, here’s a few gentle reminders:

There is nothing you have faced that you have not overcome.

You’ve made it this far because of who you are and how you work, not in spite of it.

Your trauma doesn’t define you, even if it informs you.

It’s not a race, it’s a journey.

You don’t have to love yourself, but you don’t have to hate yourself either.

You are you, and that’s enough.

You matter.

You’re not alone.

Healing takes time, and it’s time that you have.

The future really is at your fingertips— seize it at your own pace.

[thehybridsystem]

I have a question for you all, and then 2 separate questions! ^w^

how is each others favorite? And if there are any fictive, who are their fav from their source?

Dear Kaz N’ Aspen, who are ur fav animals? And what are u guys fav TV shows!

(If this was offensive in anyway I’m deeply sorry. I’m trying to understand DID/OSDD better, so if I messed up anything please let me know.)

-Angel (🎀📓, 🍋🦷)

don't worry about being offensive I can tell your intentions are kind! although Im not a doctor or anything I can post some resources for DID/OSDD research and you can ask me questions:3

I don't really understand what the first few questions mean I'm sorry 😿 we don't have to many fictives that I'm aware of (apparently we do have a lot tho)

my (kaz here:3) favorite fictive in the system is Rowan, he's a fictive of our oc and isn't really source separated so he helps me write

ill have Aspen reblog this with his answers to your questions (he'll @ you!) but I'll give mine!

my favorite animals are definitely dogs and lions :3

as for tv my favorite is American dad!! my favorite character is Rodger bc his personas are so interesting, I also really like Hailey! my favorite episode is S18 EP1 where you see when Rodger crashed on earth and how his personas work!!!

my favorite piece of (usually unknown) lore is that there's one Rodger persona the family can't see through and most people see him as a regular human being!!! there's also theories that there's personas we the audience can't see through!

[unstablemotions]

I don't know how to explain it. But the feeling of switching from one alter to the other kinda feels like this. I fall into the abyss and another part of my fragmented person has been pushed into my body. Almost like who I am disappears and someone else has taken over my life

[paper-collective]

you know when you start to connect with some trauma and then it just immediately goes back into hiding 🙃. I thought I was ready but I guess not?

[pplatonic]

about a cofront today

[botanical-garden-system]

Whenever I see someone saying they “wish they were a system,” I don’t think: “Oh how DARE they try to mock this shit that debilitates me every day!”

I think, “I wonder what in this world could make them feel like they need to have multiple voices in their head.” I think, “Are they lonely..? Did they even have any friends whilst growing up..? Were they neglected..?”

I understand because I also felt this way as a little kid, elementary school age (5-10). **I** wanted to be less alone as a kid, so I created imaginary characters that began to separate and distinguish themselves from one another. While yes, I had some major events of trauma, my trauma was what I thought as “monotonous” or “insignificant.” I just wanted someone to talk to, someone to confide in. I didn’t feel safe telling an adult what I went through, so it was stored in another alter.

You guys are so quick to jump at someone you have no information on in any way. You don’t know how educated this person is on the complexities of DID, and you don’t know what the person went through at all.

Please stop being so harsh and aggressive towards people figuring themselves out.. you would want that grace too..

[sysciety]

Sometimes you hear a voice that's not yours and you just gotta say "yeah" and move on with your day

[the-io-collective]

do not post your triggers, cues, programs, any of that shit on tumblr dot com. point blank period. do not just hand that info to people who may want to hurt you.

i am not saying this to fearmonger. don't put that shit on a public blog.

[chemicalcarousel]

[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

When someone tells you (pwDID) that you used to be a little girl suffering through horrific abuse, but you are a 35 y/o man who's always been that age:

[thefluxsystem]

You know what the worst part of having a dissociative disorder is, for me personally?

The emotional amnesia.

Your entire life feels like something that you watched on TV, rather than something that you actually lived through.

You know that some of the most horrific things imaginable have happened to you, and you feel nothing about it. Sure, the memories disgust you on principle, but you don’t feel anything.

It makes you question if anything that you remember is real. If that actually happened, shouldn’t it feel significant? Shouldn’t you be sad, angry, hurt, something?

And to top it all off, nobody understands. Not even yourself.

[rottingsys]

"future is plural!!" fuck you being plural ruin mine and so many other systems lives also why do you want more traumatized kids.

[unstablemotions]

dissociation is wild man. i had a talk with some anonymous psych line and got some good feedback from a 70 y/o woman with adhd, but rn it feels like it never happened and was just a weird dream. i have the notes i took from the phone call. like it definitely happened. but to me it seems just as real as my dream last night about absurd shit that would defy physics if it happened

[paper-collective]

you know when you realize the alter you thought was a protector/comfort-seeker is more of a "struggles with very negative feelings" alter. (we haven't identified the cause(es) yet, but I'm working on it).

- mintblue