#drop your recs for fics that will make me cry like that but have a happy ending

[deanspunchingbag]

rereading twist and shout just to feel something again

[awooghan]

[11:41 pm] ✧.* l.mh

➳ PAIRING: lee know x gn!reader

➳ GENRE: fluff, slice of life, silent/mutual pining, friends to (implied) lovers

➳ WARNINGS: none, just tooth-rotting fluff and simp!lino :]

➳ WORD COUNT: 1k exactly which is a bit long for a timestamp but are we surprised

➳ SUMMARY: you and minho are out with your friends one night. minho notices you won't leave his side.

➳ NOTES: wow i actually completed a fic and it wasn't for christmas LOL hope you enjoy <3 also i know the banner is lee know in a puffy coat but this is supposed to be a summer night timestamp and this was the closest photo i could find 😭 (and as always ty @ujimoo for helping me make a banner)

➳ SONG REC: headliner (seventeen)

network tags: @kflixnet @straykidsland-main @kwritersworld @k-labels

“Ah, Y/N…” Minho says, lightly nudging you. “When are you gonna get off me?”

His voice, flat but gentle, cuts through the air around you, making the crickets chirping nearby sound like a mere pin drop. He doesn’t mean to sound rude, though his tone alone would have raised the eyebrows of strangers passing by. Luckily, there aren’t many people around to spare him weird glances this late at night.

It’s a genuine question, though. Instead of stomping around on the playground down the slope with your friends, you have effectively trapped Minho next to you atop a nearby hill. Your legs are outstretched before you, your shoes innocently tapping against his as you rock your feet side to side. Your arm sits comfortably next to his, and your head rests on his shoulder. He’s all but stuck now, like sap on a maple tree in January, and if you don’t move soon, he’ll be doomed to spend the rest of the night here in the grass.

He feels you shrug next to him.

“Hmm?” Minho hums. His eyes widen just slightly as you scoot closer. Your hand brushes against his, and your fingers lazily drum a pattern into the warm earth below you. He tries to ignore this and pokes you repeatedly in the arm.

“Come onnnn…” he says. “When are you gonna get up?”

Your quiet “I dunno” in response fills his ears.

“What do you meeeaaann, ‘I dunno’?” He makes a show of rolling his eyes, then clicks his tongue. “Why don’t you wanna get up, hmm?”

A scream echoes through the park and makes Minho look up for a moment. Changbin’s short figure flies through the air, his arms flailing. The swing behind him rocks erratically as he falls onto the mulch with a thud. Wooyoung points and cackles loudly from the swing next to him, but quickly lets out a shriek of his own and grips onto the metal chains. Further right, Jungwoo and Chaeryeong’s silhouettes chase each other around on the main playground equipment. Lampposts at the edge of the playground cast a dim yellow glow across the space, like the ones in retro film recordings. Minho can imagine the little “PLAY” icon floating at the top left of the scene, blinking periodically several feet above the dark blue awning.

He feels a light tap against his shoe again.

“Owww!” Minho feigns a cry. He picks up his feet and swipes them away from you in one swift move, the corners of his lips pulling down in an exaggerated pout. “Y/N, that hurt~ how dare you…” 

Looking back at you, you’re mindlessly clicking your feet against each other, and you’re still all cuddled up on his shoulder. His heart thumps a little louder in his chest when you shove your head closer to him.

“Yah, Y/N…”

“Hmm...” Your soft hum comes out more as a statement than a reply.

You flutter your eyes closed, your lashes gently batting against your skin. He heaves out a sigh, and the warm breeze tickles his cheeks with a light blush. It seems to have more mercy on you, though, as it delicately brushes your stray hairs away from your forehead, framing your face perfectly. Almost too perfectly. The crickets blend into the quiet air as he takes in the sight.

“Hey…” Minho tries one more time. He tilts his head slightly as he gazes at you. “Why don’t you get up? Our friends are waiting.”

The breeze picks up for just a moment, making you scrunch up your nose. Minho gestures down the hill. It’s getting more difficult to look away from you. “See?” he continues. “Playground's right over there. ‘S loads more fun than I am.”

Another shriek rings out from the playground area. Chaeryeong lies in an awkward position at the bottom of the slide. The wind picks up again at the same time, whistling against Minho’s ears right as Chaeryeong yells something at Jungwoo. All he can make out is another scream as Jungwoo tumbles down the slide and knocks Chaeryeong onto the gravel.

But a light tap sings louder to Minho than all of it.

Looking back at you, his eyes trace down, stopping where your fingers meet his arm. As light as a hummingbird’s wing beat, your fingers tap across his forearm and leave a path of spreading warmth in their wake. They seem to float in the air as they skip further down. Your touch, so faint and gentle, nearly lulls him to sleep. He lets his eyes fall shut.

It’s like Minho is at the beach for a moment, and your fingers brushing against his skin are the ocean waves calmly swaying over his feet. Then, he feels a sudden blast as a tidal wave crashes over him, its currents pulling him under and leaving him unable to breathe. His eyes snap open and right toward the spot where your hand has come to a gentle rest over the top of his own.

Minho’s eyes meet your soft ones. Your head is still comfortably nestled on his shoulder, and your cheeks seem to glow in the dark when you smile at him. For a moment, perhaps a moment too long, time comes to a still as he takes you in, watching you slowly melt into his side. You look so at peace, and he dare not disturb you, despite his urge to spring up and run down the hill and scream at Changbin. Thankfully, he’s too engrossed in the feeling of your hand on top of his to even try. He thanks his lucky stars once more that you’re also looking down at your hands, so you can’t notice the blood rushing to the tips of his ears.

Slowly, he spreads his fingers and gently threads them with yours. He glances at you, then looks down at his lap, a shy smile finally forming on his lips.

“Ah…” he says softly. “ Our friends can wait a little.”

[rwrbficrecs]

Here's our October recs ❤️ also, look at our new banner !! 🥰 Happy reading !! I’m just too soft for all of it by @bellamysgriffinprincess (book/movie-verse)

@dot524: This is a sweet one shot where Henry is struggling with depression, Alex drops everything to be with him, and they comfort each other. Very well done.

Confidential Memorandum by @sherryvalli (book-verse)

@wilmonsfolklore: this is such a sweet kidfic. Henry is Alex's boss, and Alex keeps getting calls from Henry's daughter when Henry is busy. It's heartwarming and comforting and the dialogue is wonderfully written, especially their love confessions.

@babiemonk: the perfect lighthearted kidfic! The child dynamic is perfect and the humor is spot-on. If you’re looking for a fun, feel good, story with some domestic fluffiness this is it.

@rmd-writes: a sweet, funny fic with excellent banter, and a stellar supporting cast of OCs. It quite literally made my face do this: 🥰 I saved it with the note "read when you need to feel better about the universe).

Aged Like a Fine Wine by @three-drink-amy (book-verse)

@babiemonk: Alex and Henry are older now and cakegate never happened. There’s lots of emotions and angst and growth and it’s really quite beautiful but also tragic at times. It hurt my heart and my feelings before putting them back together again.

In my dreams (In your dreams) by @lizzie-bennetdarcy (book-verse)

@babiemonk: very cute drunken love confessions— absolutely precious friends to lovers

all of our love filling all of our room by @kill8a (book-verse)

@inexplicablymine: this is so incredibly soft and childhood friends to lovers I have reread this more times than I’m willing to admit

Help Me Hold On To You by @affectionatelyrs (book-verse)

@read-and-write-: A one- shot, a very cathartic one about the aftermath of a fight between Alex and Henry. This is one to cry from beginning to end, it's beautifully written and you will be left speechless.

flatline by rizcriz (book-verse)

@wilmonsfolklore: exes to lovers is one of my favourite tropes and this work shows perfectly how naturally and fully Henry and Alex love each other. it's sad and heartbreaking but it has a happy ending that makes the crying all worth it.

What I Need Tonight by @sparklepocalypse (book-verse)

@zwiazdziarka: This fic was written for Kinktober's prompt "selfcest", which for some might be sound a little too weird, but that's exactly why I picked this one as my monthly fave. If you like reading smut, give this a chance. Yes, it's hot but also emotional and it has Oxford-time slutty Henry!

heartbeats under coats by @hypnostheory (book-verse)

@heybuddy-drabbles: one of my favorite works to come out of FirstPrince week. It's really sweet and sexy. There was only one bed at its finest.

All Booked Up by @three-drink-amy (book-verse)

@heybuddy-drabbles: another FirstPrince week gem. This was just so beautiful. Alex and Henry meet during a vacation, spend three perfect days together and then loose contact until June and Nora force Alex to read a book they both love and something about it makes Alex think of Henry. I absolutely fell in love with it.

@rmd-writes: it's no secret that I'm an allmylovesatonce fan and this is one of my ultimate favourites of hers. A very cleverly told love story, with some wonderful June and Nora content as a bonus!

praying our bridges don’t make waves by @anincompletelist (book-verse)

@rhubarb1210: This fic is such a cool take on soulmates. Henry agrees to pretend to be Alex’s soulmate to get June health insurance. Lots of universe building. And I can’t give away more! Inspired by Fractured by @clottedcreamfudge

everything's growing in our garden by matherine (book-verse with a few movie elements)

@indomitable-love: Absolutely loved this hanahaki fic – the pacing and tension are so good, the relevance of all the different flowers is just beautiful

It's Nice to Have a Friend by @mainstreamelectricalparade (book-verse)

@read-and-write-: Childhood Best Friends to lovers AU, where Henry, the prince of england meets another boy during a holiday, they send each other letters and they fall in love, it's soft and it's beautiful, a love that tascends the page and is reflected on all the characters actions.

I feel the beating of your heart, I see the shadows on your face by @anincompletelist (book-verse)

@daisymae-12: This fic has such an interesting premise, and although I’ve never been into the bodyswap trope I’m so glad I gave this one a chance. It was done so incredibly well and was such a fun, wholesome fic.

Henry Fox, All-American Hero by @tintagel-or-cockleshells (book-verse)

@daisymae-12: This is a fic inspired by Meg Cabot’s All American Girl (which I am a huge fan of) and everything about this fic had me screaming in delight. Loved this so much, I’m obsessed.

maybe take me into your room by @smc-27 (book-verse)

@thesleepyskipper: Alex and Henry are both the children of ambassadors to Canada from their respective countries in this lovely AU. Friends-to-lovers perfection, this was so, so good.

a degree of fate by @softlofty (book/movie-verse)

@dot524: In this AU, Alex and Henry meet as university students. This is a sweet get-together fic with depth and heart.

It's Tradition by @f-ing-ruthless-baz (book-verse)

@zwiazdziarka: Alex and Henry's soulmate bond revealed itself publicly and now they have to act like they're in love, even though they hate each other. This fic is such an excellent use of soulmate trope and looks into so many possiblities in a world were soulmate bonds exsist. It's also super funny, a little angsty and Alex is even more oblivious than usually.

I’d be smart to walk away (but you’re quicksand) by @littlemisskittentoes (book/movie-verse)

@dot524: Such a wonderful, heartfelt 5+1 based on canon events when Henry walked away and one where he stayed.

Catalyst of Change by @uglygreenjacket (book-verse)

@myheartalivewrites: an AU that’s pretty close to canon in some ways: Alex (still a well known child of politicians) and Henry (still a prince) meet as students in Edinburgh. This story is sweet and gentle and heart wrenching at points, but also incredibly uplifting in Henry and Alex’s determination to be together no matter the obstacles. And the Scottish setting is gorgeous and really evocative.

Ghosted by @tintagel-or-cockleshells (book-verse)

@suseagull04: Twists and turns abound in this story that borders the line between life and death. I love the depth of the plot and just how deeply and quickly Alex and Henry fall for each other- and the fantasy aspect immediately put this high on my list of faves! Not to mention all the great references to my favorite things throughout the fic. This fic is amazing!

Such a Burden, This Flame on My Chest by @three-drink-amy (book-verse)

@heybuddy-drabbles: a 911 Lone Star!AU very angsty but with a happy ending. Alex going through grief felt really fucking relatable. It's also spicy in contrast with the angst.

But I love him, whether or no. by @leaves-of-laurelin (book-verse)

@dot524: This firefighter AU is one of my favorite RWRB fics ever, and I’m glad I was able to follow it from WIP status to complete this month. Alex as a firefighter is irresistible (Henry thinks so too) and somehow these two feel so true to character even in a completely different context. There are so many fun scenes here - riding a bull, an airport scene, shenanigans at a fire station, sentimental piano playing - but none of them are forced. Truly a wonderful fic that I know I’ll be returning to again and again.

@wilmonsfolklore: seconding this one so so so much!! read it in one sitting and have been thinking about it ever since then. there are so many heartfelt and sweet conversations in it. everyone's so true to their character in such a different situation. can not recommend it enough

[serqphites]

omg omg hi!! i love ur acc and adore ur writing <3 ik u get sm smut recs nd im sorry to be adding to the list but i was wondering if you could maybe write a fic of eating lee out? i just think she would be sooo whiny and pathetic its killing me!!!!

pls don't ever feel bad abt sending in reqs ! if i didn't want to ever write smut again then i assure you i would js say :) also that's so kind of you thank you so much ml <3

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it’s that time again, lee’s hand tugging at your belt as she whines into your mouth, her tongue dancing with your own. but something feels different today, almost as if you don’t really deserve it this time? like yes of course you’ve been to work too, but your job is nothing compared to what your girlfriend has to endure every single day.

her whines only become more desperate as she pulls away from the kiss, no words necessary because she's flashing you those gosh darn lost puppy eyes. leaning in once more, you press a soft kiss to her lips before pulling away and batting your hungry eyes at her (despite lee chasing after your mouth, whining again when you resist).

"not today baby, let me treat you mkay? just lay back beautiful" lee's hesitant at first, frowning before nodding and moving to lay beside you on her back.

all past confusion and cares are forgotten once her pants are off, her touch starved pussy practically crying for you. "so wet already? we haven't even done anything" pouting at her as you mock her, you position yourself between her legs, the heat radiating from her only intensifying your cravings.

"missed you today" she mutters sheepishly, head held up as she peeks down at whatever you're about to do to her.

cut to lee's hands tangled up in your hair, attempting to pull you impossibly close to her throbbing clit as she grinds her hips desperately against your face. lee could swear she's never felt anything like this in her life, you weren't joking when you told her she'd practically made you see god every time she's gone down on you.

"fuckshit- js'like that- mmm you're s'good" you can barely understand her, whimpers like a distant echo behind her slurred words as your tongue takes her to heaven and back.

you've never heard lee sound so... pathetic. i mean yeah she has always been whiny with you, but never before have you heard her be so vocal during sex, that's usually your job. "taste s'good" your words are obviously muffled against her, not wanting to pull away from your poor girl and ruin her building orgasm.

lee's whines and failed sentences turned whimpers eventually fade into cries of pure pleasure, that tight knot building in her abdomen. how can you tell? because her hand slides down to her stomach, pressing down slightly on just the right spot. classic trick, it's almost poetic to watch her do it to herself. even more arousing to know it's all because of you.

"i- i-" god she's trying so hard to get out the words she needs to, tears pricking at her eyes over how desperately she wants to tell you exactly what she needs. poor, pathetic thing.

nodding against her, you bring a hand up to rest atop her own that's currently pushing down onto her stomach, adding more pressure just to further her enjoyment. whines and moans build and build, echoing throughout the room and bouncing off of the walls before one last final cry of your name. lee comes undone for you, cum pooling into your mouth, her hips religiously rocking against your face as she rides out her high.

you can't just leave her like that though, right? that's just not fair, lee always makes sure to clean you up when she's done with you.

making sure you don't miss a drop of cum, your tongue travels around her messy cunt in search of more. lee's being driven insane above you, legs shaking like a leaf as she jolts and jitters with every swipe of your tongue against her plump clit.

deciding you've had enough fun with her, you press one last tender kiss to her pretty pussy before crawling up lay on her heaving chest, breath heavy and uneven. "good?" voice gentle, you trace patterns to her slightly revealed chest, only a few buttons being undone.

"good." poor baby sounds so exhausted, her eyes fluttering closed at the feeling of your hand on her chest. she deserves a good rest after such an agonising day of work, and especially after that.

[1dcommunityficrecs]

Exes To Lovers Rec List!

It is no longer Gonna Be May, it in fact is May, and with it another community-recommended theme list. We have, for your perusal and pleasure, 11 exes-to-lovers fics. We've got short and sweet, we've got long and complicated, we've got angsty working through their problems and we've got comfortably rediscovering the new versions each other years later.

I am so excited to dig into these, and I hope you are too! As always, show your love to these awesome authors by dropping a kudos, leaving a comment, and reblogging the fic posts. I'll be announcing the next category as soon as I decide what it is!

Empty Skies by Green_feelings (134048, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

Harry and Louis fell in love as teenagers. Then Louis left and became a pop star...

Reccer says: Greenfeelings has a golden pen. She knows how to handle pining and emotions... And she always comes up with sublime stories...

And What If I Were You by jacaranda_bloom (109959, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

For Louis, will losing his sight give him the clarity to realise what is right in front of him? For Harry, will losing the love of his life give him the strength to finally open his heart?

Reccer says: This fic had moments of such devastation that I cried, and moments of humor that had me laughing. So much emotion packed into this fic! An all time favorite and a must read!

Bitter Ends Turn Sweet by allwaswell16 (30000, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

It had been four years since Harry first heard the song his ex wrote about him and far longer since they broke up. He forgave Louis long ago, and now his life was focused on his career, his family, and especially his son, Max. But Louis was back in Chicago, after all this time, and he’s not an easy man to ignore.

Reccer says: Every time I hear the song Chicago I think of this fic. They are inextricably linked forever for me. The fic is that memorable.

Pathema Proteleia by persephoneflouwers (53399, Mature, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post Warnings: Graphic Despictions of Violence

A few years ago, Omega Prince Harry left his husband and mate Alpha Louis without any apparent reason. When enemies of the Royalty make an attempt on his life and threaten to hurt Omegas, Louis has to ask the Prince for help.

Reccer says: I love the author's writing, their rather baroque style, the way they set the scene for their story and build their characters.

Halfway Home by Itsmotivatingcara (100000, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) Warnings: Blood, murder, violence, animal death, violence

Harry and Louis were childhood friends.They used to hang out at Louis' grandpa's ranch in South Dakota every summer. As they got older, their friendship turned into something more. But life happened, and they went their separate ways. Fast forward ten years, Louis now runs a wildlife refuge, and Harry comes back since louis’ grand dad included him in his will. ButThere's a mysterious hunter lurking around, making things way more intense than just old flames reigniting.

Reccer says: Not only it is basically enemies to friends to exes to lovers while it has mystery, thriller and crime theme as well. Literally everything a good fic should have

Mine Would Be You by crinkle-eyed-boo (KimmieRocks) (114698, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

Louis returns to New York City 5 years after leaving the love of his life behind.

Reccer says: The flashback scenes showing how their relationship originally dissolved are absolutely gut-wrenching. Beautiful writing, made me cry like twice?? There’s also art in each chapter!

i was yours (i wish you were mine) by staybeautiful (56000, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post Warnings: alcohol/recreational drug use, implied/referenced underage sex

Ten years ago Harry dropped his best friend and high school boyfriend off at the train station and never saw him again. A chance meeting outside a bar has them tumbling head first into a summer of music, milkshakes, and maybe each other.

Reccer says: It’s precious, so well written!!! Heartbreaking, heartwarming, heart-mending. I loved how easily they fall back into love, their past closeness is so potent upon running into each other again. it’s so clear how well they knew each other.

I Still Think About You All the Time by NoLogicOnlyStyles (47000, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson ) – fic post

Eight months after their devastating breakup, a series of unfortunate events force Harry and Louis back into each other's orbit again. But can you be just friends with someone you've never not loved?

I Can Build Your Heart A Home by LiveLaughLoveLarry (10252, Teen, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

Two years after (kinda) breaking up, Harry and Louis are both back in town for Christmas. Niall meddles a little, there's some awkwardness and a lot of Christmas fluff.

Reccer says: I loved the dynamic between Harry and Louis and how the context of their past relationship was explained. Also I love a good Exes to Lovers fic and a good Christmas fic and this was both combined.

Finally, You and I (Collide) by lululawrence (14455, Not Rated, Zayn Malik/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post

Funny how Louis could sum up everything he’d had with Zayn so easily. Ex. Or the five times Louis was accidentally wooed by cookies and the one time he was purposefully wooed by brownies.

Reccer says: It is completely self indulgent as Sus wrote it for me, but it's perfectly angsty and gooey at the same time because of all the cookie recipes

The Falling Series by we_are_the_same (4053, Teen, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)

Louis and Harry divide their belongings after their breakup

Reccer says: It's very angsty but hopeful at the same time

[pemguims]

hrpf fic recs!!!!!

hello hello! i have been meaning to do this for so long but i am finally here with my list! i've tried to keep some of the more 'obvious' choices off here (for example top kudos pieces like king and lionheart) but some will slip through bc. i like them <3

i will mention main trope / trigger warnings on each fic but read tags before u read etc etc etc

also i love ABO and generally prefer long fics so srry if that doesnt align w ur interests! i also will read any and every pairing under the sun, so a lot of these are just random pairings :3 also i haven't tagged th writers tumblr accounts bc that ? felt odd to do for some reason ? but if u would like to be tagged lmk !!!!!! <3

sidgeno:

the biblical sense by sevenfists - word count: 57,896 ✷Sid, I’m so—I’m sorry,” Geno said. “My stupid—I’m ruin everything, I—” “Shut up, Geno,” Sidney said, already intensely weary of listening to Geno’s self-recrimination. “You’ve barely even done anything.” Geno’s voice dropped what sounded like an entire octave. “But I want to.”✷ (ABO, canon setting)

th first hrpf fic i read which got me into hockey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

leave the lights on by coricomile - word count: 17,692 ✷"Okay?" Geno asked groggily. Sid snapped out of it. Cold sweat broke out across the back of his neck. He inched away, tucking his hands under his thighs. He wouldn't have- Geno didn't deserve to be hurt. Sid would never- "Your head?" "Yeah," Sid choked out. Geno leaned forward and soothed a big hand over Sid's hair, his lips twisting at the corners. His eyes were painkiller bright, glazed over enough that they looked like marbles. He left his hand on Sid's head as his eyes slid shut. Sid sat still as Geno dozed and counted his breaths.✷ (TW: OCD, mental health issues. canon setting)

anything that touches by saysthemagpie - word count: 48,578 ✷Sid knew how to smile. He knew how to make the muscles work, how to soften his face into something less rigid. Geno liked him happy. If he wanted Sid easy and pleasant, here at the end, Sid could give him that. Geno asked so little of him.✷ (TW: Sexual assault, prostitution, abuse, trauma. canonish-AU)

probably one of my top 10 favourite fics ever ngl. so so good so beautiful so sad i have such a vivid memory of reading this for the first time at like 11pm hunched in bed trying to cry rlly quietly so i didnt wake my bf KSBDBKJ. one of th most harrowing pieces of literature i think i have ever read <3

blood from the stone by saysthemagpie - word count 80,903 ✷It wasn’t the prospect of pain that frightened him. Zhenya was a hockey player: he was used to pain, even to violence. But this wasn’t like a fight on the ice—tempers boiling over, hot rage spilling out everywhere—cathartic, necessary, even if it got him sent down the tunnel. This was different. There was nothing here to push back against, no way to assert his own will. In a little while Crosby would come to him, and Zhenya would open the door and let him in. Crosby would feed from him, taking what he wanted from Zhenya’s body. And then they would be bound.✷ (Vampires, forced bonding. canonish-AU)

another banger another harrowing tale!!!!!!!! sidney crosby u will suffer!!!!!

morning to wake you by oflights - word count: 54,104 ✷I've been calling this The Sexual Misadventures of Sidney Crosby forever, and that gives you an idea, but just in case: in which Sidney wins a gold medal, has sex (a lot), falls in love (twice), and breaks a bunch of rules.✷(canon setting)

swallow the fire by cascara_soda - word count: 6367 ✷“It’ll be okay. It’s my choice,” Sid said, and it was only sort of a lie. Or, the 1989 Super Series Winner’s Room AU.✷ (canon AU setting)

life is wine by coricomile - word count: 9414 ✷"I see you watch him," Geno says, leaned in so he's talking directly into Jamie's ear. Jamie tenses, but Geno doesn't move away. He drops his arm over Jamie's shoulders and it shouldn't feel like a trap, but it does, even if Geno doesn't do anything other than hold on. "Is hard not look, I know." Sometime after Jamie got distracted by Sidney's ass, Hags had left the booth and subsequently left Jaime alone with Geno, abandoned except for the clutter of empties.✷ (canon setting)

ache by pheobus - word count: 4079 ✷Sid wasn’t an omega, but just once he wanted to be selfish. Maybe Geno would realize that this wasn’t how things were meant to be, or that there was simply no way Sid could be anything other than who he was. His thoughts were all twisted up, stuck in overwhelming cycles of what-if. Sid liked who he was, what he was. He didn’t want to be an omega. But dear God, he wanted Geno to mount him like one.✷ (ABO)

more than anything by getoffmyhead - word count: 17,011 ✷Sid and Zhenya had been together—officially together—for three years when it happened. Three years of normal, committed relationship sex. They hooked up plenty before that, too, without ever veering into anything weird. They didn't have a sex dungeon. They didn't own nipple clamps. There was nothing in their history that could have prepared Zhenya for the thing that came out of his mouth the first time he and Sid slept together in Miami.✷(canon setting)

i think abt this fic all the time

mattdrai:

so is the longing by dog juice - word count: 44,669 ✷After being forced to take suppressants for a year, Matthew's body is a mess. He has an excruciatingly painful heat every two weeks, and there's no medication to help him.To make matters worse, he's been traded to the Edmonton Oilers. Now, not only does he have to deal with his collapsing body, he also has to contend with Draisaitl, who has made it pretty clear he hates Matthew's scent. If the universe could give him a fucking break, that'd be great.✷ (ABO)

mattdrai fic of all time. in my opinion.

sea change by andthreequarts - word count 33,596 ✷“Wait, is that what’s happening here?” Matthew pushes forward, gets close. “Is that why you were being weird?” “Shut up,” Draisaitl growls, backing up. “Oh no,” Matthew laughs. “This is the funniest thing I’ve heard all week. Leon Draisaitl, an alpha’s alpha. Who would have guessed it, you’re into an omega with barely any scent?”✷ (ABO)

misc:

vince dunn / adam larsson (seattle kraken) serenity in those deep waters by angry_geno_is_score - word count: 114,312 ✷In his second season playing for the Seattle Kraken, Vince Dunn becomes sick with drop withdrawal. When it comes out that he's lied on his paperwork and hasn't had a Dom for over a year, he has no choice but to accept being assigned to a Dom on the team or risk giving up hockey.✷ (TW: past abuse. BDSM AU)

love!!! i love bdsm au's so much!!! ive reread this fic multiple times :3

nicklas backstom / alexander ovechkin (washington capitals) you and me, drenched in green by xihale - word count: 17,710 ✷Nicky’s an omega with a heat problem. Ovi volunteers as tribute.✷ (ABO)

jamie drysdale / trevor zegras (anahiem ducks) caught up now by canary -word count: 20,261 ✷“I do want you to bite me,” Trevor corrected. “And I also want you to hit it raw.”✷ (ABO)

morgan barrson/josh morrissey (winnipeg jets) win some and lose some, baby by symphony7inAmajor - word count: 11,223 ✷“Morgan,” Josh says, his voice sharp and firm. There’s a glint in his eyes that Morgan doesn’t recognize. “Sit.” If Morgan thought his face was hot before, that’s nothing compared to the fire that scorches his cheeks now. Sit. Like—Like he’s a—✷ (canon setting)

this author has sm rlly good other fics as well!!

travis konecny/nolan patrick (flyers...i guess!) Someone Else's Solid Ground - Linsky - word count: 21,757 ✷Nolan’s body has never been his friend.✷ (canon setting)

matthew tkachuk / leon draisaitl / connor mcdavid i'll tell you when to stop - dog juice - word count: 39,640 ✷Matthew is too reckless to be responsible for his own heart. Fucking and falling for Leon? Stupid. Fucking and falling for Connor? Idiotic. Doing that one after the other without either Oiler knowing? Yeah. Matthew's fucked.✷ (canon setting)

rewired my brain a little ngl

gen - san jose sharks & washington capitals catch and release by McSpot - word count: 23,805 ✷If a player gets forced onto the opposing team's bench during play, that player officially becomes a member of their team. There's a whole system to catching players, with strategies determining who the prime targets are and the best way to catch them. Nobody expected Mario to be caught.✷ (canon AU setting)

how this fic doesnt have 100000 kudos and 1000000000 spin off fics i have no idea

sidney crosby / claude giroux unless you wanna come along by anonymous - word count: 8677 ✷"We beat you," Sid says, high on the sheer triumph of it. "Yeah, and how much of the game did you spend begging the refs for it?" Claude jeers, quiet and vicious. "Hardly a fucking win, when you've fucking acted like that, whining and bitching and moa—" Sid kisses him, cutting off the stream of venom.✷ (canon setting)

leon draisaitl / Artūrs Šilovs go ahead and try a little crazy on me by lagerlout - word count: 4062 ✷Leon huffs out a laugh before he can help himself. Goddamn, this fucking goalie is cute. He doesn’t know if he’s trying to be cute but he is.✷ (canon setting, winners room)

fic that makes me go YEEAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also now has a sequel which slaps

jonathan drouin / nathan mackinnon (colorado avalanche) but this is how it is by bruinss - word count: 103,314 ✷The universe gives, and the universe takes, and Jo is left at the end of ten years with a lot less than when he’d started them.✷ (BDSM AU, canon setting)

this author has a lot of really very very very good jo / nate fics i recommend every single one of them !!

sidney crosby / jaromir jagr (pittsburgh penguins) summer to your heart by deastar - word count: 200,575 ✷When it seals, Jaromír feels the old, familiar tug of a soulbond for the first time in years. It feels like having a dislocated joint reduced: a relief, and a sense that something missing has been replaced. But terribly painful at the same time. Sidney is curled up into Jaromír’s side, sinking fast toward sleep. Some impulse Jaromír can’t explain makes him ask his new bondmate, “You feel the bond?” “Mm-hmm.” Sidney’s eyes are closed – his eyelashes look very dark and soft. “How does it feel?” “Good,” Sidney exhales, and just before he drops off, Jaromír catches a psychic whisper of It feels like not being lonely. “Oh, kick me in the balls, why don’t you,” Jaromír says under his breath.✷ (soul / psychic bond, canon AU )

hrpf of all time. i think. in my opinion. there is also a sidgeno fic set in the same kind of AU by this author which is very good but this one...........oaugh....

okay thats it bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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sirius black fic recs (2)

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☽ ☾ forever by @v1oletvenus sirius black x reader | post hogwarts but pre-azkaban sirius black x fem reader, unforgiveable curses thrown about, angst and then v fluffy ending, quite a long fic

-after a death eater attack, sirius decides he can't wait any longer to call you his.

☽ ☾ sirius baby blurb by ^ sirius black x fem!reader | pissed off james potter lmao, making out, fluff

-you went away for the weekend, and sirius misses you while you're not at hogwarts.

☽ ☾ i've got you by ^ sirius black x fem! reader | best friend roomate and kinda simp!, modern college/university au, crying, mentions of vomit (not the reader or sirius), mentions of alcohol & drunkeness, comfort & fluff

-your roomate sirius has a realisation when he's taking care of you after a night out.

☽ ☾  smut blurb by @silverdelirium sirius black x reader | smut (fingering, squirting, innocence kink, daddy kink, dacryphillia, mirror kink (?), praise, humiliation, begging, overstimulation)

-sirius fingers you in front of a mirror

☽ ☾ hurt/comfort blurb by @luveline sirius black x reader

-a hurt/comfort with sirius where reader feels like she's a horrible person and always thinks the worst of herself

☽ ☾ rockstar blurb by ^ rockstar!sirius x reader

-he's on tour and reader calls from home and just mentions she's been a bit sick and he drops everything to come home and take care of her and she's just beyond surprised

☽ ☾ truth serum by ^ sirius black x fem!reader | spiked drink, 1.3k

-you can't hide the truth from sirius, and he doesn't want to try

☽ ☾ fainting by ^ sirius black x fem!reader

-"hey, sweet girl," sirius says. a saccharine pet name said rather simply, smoke blown from either corner of his mouth. "you okay?" 

☽ ☾ in love by ^ sirius black x fem!reader | 1k

-him and reader have been together for awhile maybe since they were like 18/19 and them and being still super in love foreva! cliche couple loveliness

☽ ☾ sirius doting on the reader by ^ sirius black x fem!reader | 1k

-sirius is usually so reserved and stoic and they're out with his friends and they're all making fun of him for being so lovey and doting on reader

☽ ☾ hockey!sirius by ^ sirius black x fem!reader | 1k

-hockey!sirius flirting with a reader who is not yet his girlfriend

☽ ☾ prongs' baby sister by @sirisuorionblack sirius black x fem!potter!reader | cursing, 3k

-you were just prongs' sister. atleast that's what sirius said to supress his feelings but one ball and a few conversations with his best friends proved him wrong. 

☽ ☾ our little secret by @pregnant-piggy sirius black x reader | fluff, 3.3k

-‘you're really going for that shirt?’

☽ ☾ rockstar!sirius by @moonbcrry sirius black x reader

-rockstar!sirius would 100% use your voice as an intro/outro to his song. whether it be a voicemail or just some stupid shit he got you saying on camera

☽ ☾ staring by @roxetteblack sirius black x reader | kissing and heart wrenching fluff

-you enjoy admiring your boyfriend.

☽ ☾ unexpected by @redtaylorsversiongirlie sirius black x fem!reader | cheating, smut (oral - both receiving, vaginal sex)

-sirius would never expect that his girlfriend would cheat on him, let alone him having sex with the girlfriend of a man his girl cheated with.

☽ ☾ throat training w sirius black by @cosmal sirius black x gn!reader | smut (male receiving oral, eager reader!, throat training, face fucking), 1.4k

-sirius trains you to deep-throat him. you seem more eager than he does.

☽ ☾ grumpy!sirius x sunshine!reader by @familyvideostevie sirius black x fem!reader | fluff, 1k

-grumpy!sirus and sunshine!reader/ sunshine and sunshine protector

☽ ☾ sirius blurb by ^ sirius black x gn!reader | fluff, 0.8k

-reader taking off sirius' makeup and it's just a soft and giggly moment

☽ ☾ sweet sirius blurb by ^ sirius black x gn!reader | fluff, 1k

-he and reader are at a new years party and reader is slowly becoming more and more overwhelmed but doesn’t want to ruin sirius’ fun so they just quietly slip away. but of course sirius notices.

☽ ☾ apparition accident by @mediocre-daydreams sirius black x reader | mutual pining, sirius is so jealous of jily, a few swears, suggestive moments, remus likes crosswords, soft! sirius, 3.5k

-sirius accidentally apparates into your bed instead of his.

☽ ☾ rip off by ^ sirius black x slytherin!potter!reader | 2.9k

-sirius is so enamored with you, his best friend's sister, that he's too distracted to play properly. when a poor play by sirius renders you severely injured, he and james must handle the aftermath.

☽ ☾ shakespearean by ^ sirius black x gn!reader | friends to lovers, fluff + jealous! emotionally incompetent!sirius, name puns, one swear?, 1.6k

-after taking etiquette classes, sirius confesses his feelings for you in shakespearean.

☽ ☾ push and pull by @cloudspotterclub sirius x fem!reader | fluff, angst, lots of pining, 5.1k

-sirius isn't used to rejection, especially not from you. while he claims his feelings are genuine, you aren't keen on trusting him just yet. as the christmas ball approaches, the two of you struggle to contain your growing emotions, and you can only stay away from each other for so long.

☽ ☾ resurrection by @sof1shticated sirius black x reader | angst !!!, 2k

-this takes place in the future, like 9 years since the battle of hogwarts, sirius is dead, a lot of being sad about death, but also happy moments, all canon deaths happen. mentions of death, who knows there might be inaccuracies as to how the stone is used

☽ ☾ watch over you by @scvrllet the marauders x platonic!fem!reader | angst

-the marauders may have passed but that doesn’t mean they have left you

☽ ☾ dote on me by @yellow-berrys sirius black x fem!reader | mentions of a bad childhood, mentions of smoking, drinking and illicit substances

-you are completely oblivious to the way sirius black dotes on you, and think that the way you're infatuated with him is completely one-sided. but he begs to differ.

☽ ☾ december boy, losing joy by ^ sirius black x fem!reader | allusions to a rough childhood and mention of cigarettes

-rockstar!sirius black proposing to you, and the show that made him realise he would do it. established relationship.

☽ ☾ honey by ^ sirius black x reader

-you and sirius black are pining over each other. the story of it.

☽ ☾ express reunion by @lizard-on-a-window-pane sirius black x fem!reader | nsfw (minors do not interact!), established relationship, soft sirius, fem!reader, sex, fingering, p in v, dirty talk, excessive use of the word fuck, a semblance of a plot, no Peter, sorry peter people, 3.3k

-you and sirius haven’t seen each other all summer, and some things just can’t wait till after such a long train ride.

☽ ☾ now i'm covered in you by @whorediaries-09 sirius black x reader | 18+ content

-soft sirius having a breeding kink

☽ ☾ take another drag by ^ dealer!sirius black x reader | 18+ content, usage of drugs

-'i'll give you your money!' you screams are muffled by a thud as he pushes you against the wall, his hand enclosing around your chin.

☽ ☾ isn't it lovely by @howlyourmelancholy sirius black x reader | sub/dom tones. subspace. aftercare. sirius praising his girl like it's second nature. reader being entirely smitten with him also a bit of a nympho. sirius also being his smug, teasing self.

-in which he gives you aftercare

☽ ☾ cute blurb by @ddejavvu clingy!sirius black x shy!reader

-this is the third time in two minutes that sirius's hand has stroked a feather-light touch over your knee, and you jerk away from the ticklish touch just the same as you had the last two times.

☽ ☾ sirius' son by @soupandsimple dad!sirius black x mom!reader

-your son gazing at you lovingly just like sirius does

☽ ☾ halloween party by @bruisedboys sirius black x shy!fem!reader

-you’re an odd mixture of nervous and bubbly as you and sirius make the rounds at james and lily’s halloween party.

☽ ☾ marauders by @moonstruckme  poly!marauders x fem!reader

-casual dom!marauders

☽ ☾ good morning to you, too by @igncrantbliss  sirius black x reader

-waking sirius up with a handjob, okay okay. (it’s all consensual i promise)

☽ ☾ love and mandrakes by @bookshelf-dust sirius black x gn!reader | swearing, fluff, 5.2k

-the greenhouse windows are frosty this morning, and you can feel the chill seeping in through the thin glass panes. you fight the urge to lift your finger, using the tip to draw a face in the condensation gathering on the one nearest you. 

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Fic Rec List - The Best of 2023

Happy New Year's Eve! Or New Year's Day, depending on where in the world you are right now. What a year it has been - for the sport and the fandom and for this blog right here.

I (Briony) started this blog in June, after a horrific bout of writer's block took away my writing skills. The only thing I love more than writing is reading, and so I decided to funnel my newly gained fandom time into cataloguing all of the wonderful things that I have read over the last few years, in the form of fic rec lists. My wonderful team of fic rec volunteers joined me at the end of October, and we have been collating the lists together ever since.

Thank you so much to everyone who follows, reblogs, likes, and comments on these lists, and an extra special thank you to everyone who shares that love with the writers themselves, in the form of comments, kudos, and bookmarks. You are amazing, and you make the fandom tick. Thank you.

Please find below the team's favourite fics of 2023! This is just like the FIA Gala, except slightly less glamorous and probably can't be used as a plot device in an F1 fanfiction.

These are the fics that really touched us - that stood out, and took our breaths away, and made us cry and laugh and curse. To these authors, and to everyone who has shared their talents with us this year - thank you.

Enjoy. And have a wonderful 2024. ❤️

Esteban/Pierre

nsfw: my thumb's on your teeth by @geluksalig | E | 14.7k @lydia-petze's favourite fic of 2023 Esteban experiences hyperrealistic dreams of a parallel life where he and Pierre have been together since they were teenagers, and neither of them race any more. He gradually becomes more and more disoriented by them as the twin realities begin to blur. This fic is so well done, with twin timelines wound together seamlessly. The grief for a life that never was, that might have been, is palpable. There are clues scattered throughout, however, that there may yet be time to fix things. Pierre's characterisation, as seen through Esteban's eyes, is wonderful - passionate and ferociously protective.

'Pierre presses his lips together, nodding though Esteban knows he is unconvinced, disbelieving. He looks off to the side, and Esteban gets that tense feeling in his gut, like he knows Pierre would claw a hole in his chest to tempt God close with the affliction, just so the rest of them might be sheltered in the shadow that falls just behind. He’s never been sure how to tell him that he doesn’t have to.'

Daniel/Max, Charles/Pierre

nsfw: hook, line, sinker by @chubbydino | M | 92k (wip) @wanderhobbit's favourite fic of 2023 Pierre wishes he could remember, Max wishes he could forget. What I enjoyed: maybe enjoyed isn’t the right word but his fic is heart wrenchingly beautiful. Following the story lines with the two couples and those story lines connecting is beautiful.

'"I love being married to you,” Max said quietly as he pulled on another curl. Daniel dropped his phone on his chest and tilted his head back to look at him. “Oh yeah?” Max’s whole body buckled at the gentleness in his tone. Daniel always knew when he was getting close to a breakdown, when fear and guilt and shame started building up like storm clouds in his head. He nodded. “Yeah. I love you.” Daniel gave him an upside-down smile. “You wanna tell me what’s going on, Max?”'

Charles/Max

nsfw: All The Lights (Couldn't Put Out The Dark) by @fabbyf1 | E | 7.5k @frickinsweet's favourite fic of 2023 Charles needs someone to help him calm down – when his usual partner is indisposed he asks Max instead. For me this fic was the definition of the "this better not awaken anything in me" meme, not so much for the particular kink but for the dynamics. I was relatively new to F1 rpf when I read this and the characterizations of both Max and Charles became the "canon" that I compared every fic to for a while. The Charles in this fic is very hard on himself, tying himself in to knots with anxiety and when he gathers up the courage to ask Max for help he is immediately in to it and never reacts negatively despite the unusal request. This is tagged as PWP (although if one reads the whole series, which I highly suggest, there is definitely plot) and the smut is very much brain meltingly hot but the reason I choose it as my favourite read of 2023 is for the way the characters and their dynamic is so perfectly described - especially Charles who is the POV and whose internal dialogue is a special treat in this fic.

'There was really only one other person he could turn to in these trying times. That’s how he ended up in Max’s room, asking him for a “favor.” “What kind of favor do you need?” Max asked, smiling so openly at him that it hurt Charles' head slightly. He was so quick to offer up his services when he didn’t even know what Charles was about to ask him'

my thoughts will echo your name by witchee_writer | M | 38.9k @blueballsracing's favourite fic of 2023 When Max retires, he decides his next accomplishment to win is Le Mans. His partners are no other than Charles Leclerc and Sebastian Vettel. I loved the cute little quips each character had and the tension! This made me smile and was an amazing rollercoaster of a fic. So much flirting and it's also a Red Bull Charles fic, which I love ❤️

'Sebastian's eyes zeroed in on Max, and then Charles. His grin widened (dangerous). 'Are you here to save me from two idiots with a decade worth of sexual tension?''

nsfw: you and me, we got big reputations by lady_something | E | 93.4k @maaxverstappen's favourite fic of 2023 After publicly coming out when Max won his 3rd championship, Charles and Max have to navigate the consequences of being together. It affects both the dynamic with their own teams and each other, and lends to issues with races in not-so-LGBT-friendly countries. I loved how realistic this was. The author really dove into the real life f1 consequences of a coming out and didn’t shy away from it. Charles and Max love each other so dearly and deeply but also love this sport just as much, and that makes for a great plot driven story. The other characters in this fic add a lot and it feels very found family. This fic had me thinking about it for days after and I was so sad to finish it as I could stay in the universe forever. One of my top fics in general, let alone for 2023! (also, this is for the rbr!charles fans (iykyk))

“So, if you are really, truly worried that we cannot handle it, then I will retire. You mean more to me than another Championship does. I have already done what I need to, I have paid back the debts I owe to my father and my family, and I have won some for me, too. It’s enough. I have the GT3 team, I have iRacing, I want to compete in the WEC. I do not need F1, not like I need you.” # “You—you—you—” Charles looks completely gobsmacked. “Oh my god. Mon Dieu. Max. Max.” Max barely manages to stop Charles from crushing the eggs as he surges forward, plastering his whole body against Max’s as he grabs his face and kisses him.

Charles/Pierre

A Two-Man Cult by @moonlight0starlighte | T | 23.7k @singsweetmelodies' favourite fic of 2023 Charles has always thought he's a beta, but then he suddenly presents as an omega after a night out with Pierre. The consequences for their friendship are devastating when Charles tries to keep this a secret from Pierre. Of course, Pierre finds out anyway, and the two of them have a massive fight - which ends in Charles going into withdrawal after what he perceived as a rejection from his alpha. This fic redefines "angst with a happy ending" - but it is so worthwhile when they finally do get to the happy ending. I love this fic for a variety of reasons, the fantastic angst-with-a-happy-ending slow-burn friends-to-lovers of it all being a big one of them. But more than that, I remember reading this one chapter-by-chapter as it came out, and being so unbelievably hooked, texting everyone about the next update. The writing style is just so engaging, and the story the author tells is so gripping, intense and wonderful. It will also always hold a special place in my heart, because it's the first proper a/b/o fic I read, and probably the fic that got me hooked on the genre. It truly is a masterpiece in so many ways. &lt;3

"What are you thinking?" Pierre's lids flutter closed and he sinks into the warmth of Charles' hands as he brings it to his cheek, lips pressed against warm skin as he answers, "I just can't believe I get to have this."

nsfw: chassis by @hourcat | E | 50.7k @welightitup's favourite fic of 2023 Charles is a part-time art professor/part-time kindergarten teacher with car issues. Pierre is a mechanic. It’s an amazing AU, one I don’t think that had been done before. But wow, it’s so hot too! Expect tension, teasing, flirting, and hot garage/car sex.

'Charles is special, anyway. It’s not even a question. He’s different from anyone Pierre has met in his ten years here, and Pierre really does like him more than he probably should, for someone he really doesn’t know at all. He teaches kindergarten and is passionate about it. He’s got a decent apartment, although he hasn’t seen much of it outside of the bedroom. He’s got shit taste in cars. But somehow, deeper, Pierre feels like he knows him.'

Carlos/Charles

nsfw: my blood is singing with your voice (the saints can't help me now) by @7msc | E | 13.2k @boxboxbrioche's favourite fic of 2023 Carlos meets Charles in a half-finished church. I have already rec'ed this one before, but I just had to share it again for the 2023 roundup. This story truly moved me. It is ethereal and lyrical and I still remember it so clearly, even though it's been months since I read it for the first time. Simply gorgeous.

'He felt like he was cheating. Was he? Well, a church was any place where he could feel God. And he felt God in Mallorca. In Costa dels Pins. In Son Servera. (In his mom’s loving hands. In Blanca’s kind brown eyes, the same shade as his. In Ana’s conniving smile. In his father’s heavy arm across his shoulders. In his grandma’s thin fingers, hands almost too delicate, wrapped around his.)'

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28th appreciation fic recs: February edition

Hi! Welcome to the February fic rec list! I wanted to put together all the fics I've read and loved over this month for the 28th appreciation, so here they are! Click on the links for full tags and summaries. If you read any of these make sure to show the authors some love by leaving kudos and comments, and sharing any fic posts!

☁️To you I can admit, I'm just too soft for all of it by @starryhaze28

(28k / not rated / non traditional a/b/o)

“Harry?” Louis asks when he hears the frantic crying coming through the speaker. “H, darling what's wrong?” Concerned, Louis puts on his shoes as he keeps hearing the sobs. It’s the middle of the night and the phone call has definitely pulled Louis out of his deep slumber, but Harry is crying, and Louis has to be with him. “It’ll be okay, baby, I'm gonna come over, okay? You just- Haz you have to send me your address, yeah? Can you do that for me?” Louis asks, trying to remain as poised as possible as he presses his phone between his ear and shoulder so he can grab his jacket. “No.” Harry cries out. “It's all wrong, Lou- It’s-” Another sob. “I hate it, Lou, I hate it so, so much, make it stop.” the nesting shop au

Thoughts: the softest dearest thing you'll read, characters I would die for, a true comfort read

☁️While you're figuring it out by @silverstuff50

(4k / E / wholesome bdsm)

Harry is in a rut and his mood is getting lower and lower. Louis helps him with love and kink.

Thoughts: if you love kink, and if you love the softness and emotions that come with established relationships, then this is for you, its the perfect combination!

☁️On that note by @allwaswell16

(6k / E / pen pals, getting together)

Louis’ office job on an omega only floor would be absolutely fine, if not for the alphas he and his friends have to deal with in the building. But although they’ve never met face to face, the friendly notes sent between him and Harry in Purchasing help him get through the day.

Thoughts: this was so cute, and Louis' character esp is so endearing, and the way they get together is so precious !

☁️(drippin' on me) till my feet are wet by @justanothershadeofblue

(3k / E / watersports)

They’ve known each other so long, is the thing. More than a decade, at this point; their entire adult lives. They know each other with a deep and abiding familiarity, know each other's ins and outs, hopes and fears, secrets and kinks. There’s nothing hidden between them, and little that escapes each other’s notice. All of which is to say, Louis knows exactly what Harry’s up to, making this huge pitcher of lemonade and waiting until the lads were out the door to bring it outside and press a cold glass into Louis’ hand. He’d poured the liquid carefully, sunglasses concealing his gaze as he filled it to the top. “Drink up,” Harry had said, and Louis had, tipping the contents down his throat in one long pull, letting a few drops slip free and run down, chilled and sweet, into his short beard. He’d caught Harry’s eye and held out his glass for more. “Good,” Harry had said, voice deep, and filled it again.

Thoughts: so. fucking. hot. And bonus: the tenderness that comes with established relationship. Best of both worlds really, so it's perfection.

☁️We don't fight fair by @hellolovers13

(2k / E / chase, non traditional a/b/o)

“What, you think I'll just roll over for you now?” The smirk on Louis’ face was almost devilish. “Yes,” He breathed against Harry’s lips, cocky and sure, like it was a fact of life. It sent all kinds of shivers through Harry. God, but he wanted to. Wanted Louis to have him right against this wall, let everyone see how he fell apart under him. But not tonight. Harry fixed his posture, standing up straighter and trying to get himself under control. “I don't think so, omega.” Or: Nothing like a little chase to start off Louis' heat.

Thoughts: *muffled screaming*. Genuinely was so hot I was speechless for a good while. If that's not convincing: there's a chase. And it's O/O. I'm begging y'all to go read this.

☁️Man spreading by @red-pandaaa

(2k / E / pwp)

“Manspreading is such a bad habit,” Harry said, mainly because he felt like he was obligated to. “Is that so?” Louis said, in a tone that challenged Harry to disagree. Harry nodded as firmly as he could. “I think you should try to tone down the manspreading a bit.” “Maybe I should spread out my man instead,” Louis mused. OR Harry complains about Louis manspreading, Louis makes a joke, and rimming ensues

Thoughts: short and sexy, i loved it sm, this ones for the uh...rimming enthusiasts!

☁️Trippin', Stumblin' by @itsnotreal

(4k / M / friends to lovers fluff)

Harry was falling for Louis. No, really. He was literally falling for Louis— well, okay, maybe it was because of him. Technicalities. Or the one where Harry is super clumsy but still manages to catch Louis’ attention.

Thoughts: nervous awkward harry is so precious to me, this was so fucking cute and PRECIOUS

☁️You can try to hide by @itsnotreal

(6k / E / cnc, hunter prey kink)

Harry has managed to keep his innermost thoughts at bay when he’s around Louis, but what happens when he shows up unannounced one night when Harry’s at his most vulnerable.

Thoughts: read tags! cnc done WELL, so gripping so thrilling, so hot. The mind reading is SUCH a nice touch ahhhh

☁️Shut your mouth, baby by @larry-hiatus

(3k / E / new years smut)

While fooling around in a closet at a New Year’s Eve party, Louis can’t seem to keep quiet. All he needs to do is hold off until midnight, when Harry will finally uncover his mouth and let him come at full volume.

Thoughts: Em never misses with the smut so this is another banger, bonus: desperate overwhelmed Louis. So. 10/10 in my mind.

And that's it! Yet another short list bc I've been so tired and falling asleep before I could read sigh. Also yes literally almost all are smut but in my defence it's because I didn't get time to read long fics and short ones are usually smut. But then again we love and support smut in this house so you're welcome. Send some love to the authors if you check out any of these!!

[ashoss]

stephanie & bruce fic recs

for @peachie-wren13 :DD

Permutations & Hinterlands - cabezas_de_vaca

steph & bruce

7.5k words, 1 chapter

summary:

She and Bruce are complicated (not bad complicated, not wrong complicated, just complicated, because he isn’t her father and will never be her father and yet he sort of also is) but he cares. It gets lost sometimes, under the demands of Gotham, but it’s there.

And so, she just asks him. “Do you want to go to Colorado with me?”

Or: Bruce, Steph, and a road trip

* heed the tags !! angsty

dont wanna long post this so more under the cut :)

sweet child o’ mine - Nokomis

steph & bruce, steph & alfred

4,4k words, 1 chapter

Summary:

Steph said cheerfully, “Bruce, from now on, consider yourself in possession of one Steph-mom.”

“Absolutely not,” Bruce said.

Steph took a bite of her cake, undeterred.

A Softer Gotham - Hinn_Raven (series)

steph & bruce, time travel

12.2k words, 3 works

summary: One night makes all the difference. Especially a night when Stephanie Brown, in the wrong dimension, interferes in a mugging.

though your eyes will need some time to adjust - popsunner

steph & bruce

4.4k words, 1 chapter

summary:

“I think…” Stephanie takes a deep breath, “I think I’m bad.”

“I don’t.”

“So what, I’m just supposed to believe you?”

“I am Batman.”

Stephanie snorts, “Yeah, you are… but what if I’m still bad?”

“Then I forgive you.” _______

Or: Stephanie and Bruce, figuring it out

Tuck Me In - OberonBronze

bruce & his kids (big on jason, but it does have cute scene w the other ones esp steph)

14.1k words, 1 chapter

summary:

Bruce Wayne and his long-standing habit of tucking his kids into bed.

Galas Suck - dottie_dc (dottie_wan_kenobi)

steph & bruce

1.9k words, 1 chapter

summary:

When she doesn’t respond, he looks down to her face, finding her staring in the direction of the doors they came in through. “Something on your mind?”

He’s really asking, why did you come and get me? If it’s just nerves, she would’ve been better off with one of the others. No, it must be something else.

Steph blinks, turning her gaze upwards. Never one to back down, she meets his eyes long enough for him to see she’s not in any distress, at least. “Just thinking.”

“About?”

“I don’t know,” she mumbles. “Everything. Nothing.”

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Written for the Gen Batfam Christmas Stocking 2019, for the prompt "Wayne Gala"

the early robin gets the worm - deargalileo

bruce & his kids

7k words, 1 chapter

summary:

bruce loves all of his children equally. its just when he has to wake them up, that there's an issue.

aka; the five times bruce tries to wake up his kids, and the one time that he doesn't.

DON’T YOU CRY, DRY YOUR EYES. - orpheusaki

steph & bruce

4.8k words, 1 chapter

summary:

After inhaling her food before Bruce's even halfway through his vanilla milkshake, Stephanie seems to have sobered up a little. She's looking less green, and more like she's trying to develop x-ray vision and look into Bruce's soul.

Or maybe she's still drunk, because she very suddenly and very bluntly tells him, "I used to wish you were my dad," drowning her chips into a little pot of ketchup.

Bruce pauses. He slowly drops the chicken nugget he was about to put in his mouth — since now is probably not the time to complain about how the nuggets are a little dry today.

(Bruce Wayne is not Stephanie Brown's father, not at all.)

*tbh anything by orpheusaki is gonna be an amazing read, ive loved all the fics ive read by them <333

Have I Told You About Minnie? - Hinn_Raven

steph & bruce, bruce & his kids

4.6k words, 1 chapter

summary:

After you’ve known Matches Malone long enough, you get used to him telling you about his kids. Not that his kids know about it.

too young to be taken seriously, too old to believe all this hypocrisy - Hinn_Raven

steph & jason & bruce

5.7k words, 1 chapter

summary:

When Crystal Brown goes into rehab, leaving Stephanie in the sole custody of her father, Steph decides to run away from home, and meets Jason Todd, who decides that she is the best little sister ever.

or:

"the dark knight is beaten up by children on the anniversary of his parents death... tragic"

theres not a lot of steph and bruce fics and it makes me sad :((

btw i have a google doc with a shitttttt ton of fics lol. its some recs ive been asked for so hope yall enjoy :)

[winchestersheaven]

Smowkie recs McShep

i've been reading a lot of McShep fics lately and a while back i mentioned that i had plans to make a couple of fic rec posts. they're taking me forever to make, but here's the first one, finally!

@wonkyelk was one of the first authors i found, and i've read and loved SO MANY of their fics! wonderful author that made me fall head over heels for the pining!John and oblivious!Rodney trope! 💖

this is by no means an exhaustive list of the fics i loved from them, it's just a small number of the ones i read and enjoyed. my biggest recommendation with this author is to just go read their fics, it's great stuff and their language is delightful.

so here goes, in no particular order:

19 McShep fics by WonkyElk (under the cut, because this got long)

Of Sealing Wax and String 3562 words | Teen author's tags: First Kiss, Fluff and Angst, POV Rodney McKay summary:

Rodney had never had so much love in his life that he wasn't desperate to catch all the drops that he could.

Smowkie: there are too many things that i love in this to mention them all, so i'll just add my favorite quote from the fic: "[...] a thoughtful look, albeit one squarely aimed at the floor, which was hardly likely to appreciate it." 💖

You’re the Book That I Have Opened 1834 words | Teen author's tags: Pining John Sheppard, Oblivious Rodney McKay, Character Study, Angst with a Happy Ending, Short, Internalized Homophobia summary:

At eighteen, John Sheppard had known a lot of things. He knew how to dance, with exactly the right level of polite formality. He knew how to ride well and the proper care of a horse. He knew everything about the theory and mathematics of flight. He knew that being a fighter pilot was the absolute dream of his life. And he knew - knew - that he wasn't into guys.

Smowkie: lovely thing, chock-full of John feels, and with this quote: "They sat in silence for a while. Silence was something John could do. It never came out awkward or wrong, you could never blurt out unintentional silence, or get your bits of silence all mixed up and taken out of context." brb, crying about John Sheppard.

How to Disappear Completely 7276 words | Teen author's tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Temporary Character Death, Feelings Realization, POV Alternating summary:

"Look, I know you don’t know me and you’re not aware of the fact that, if you knew I was missing - which you don’t, because I never existed and, even if I did, you wouldn’t have met me yet - then you’d be very, very upset about it … but I really need your help. And, actually, so does the universe."

Smowkie: this one is amazing! mild horror warning for the creepiness in the beginning, that was some well written discomfort! also, so much love the fantastic way WonkyElk chose to show Rodney's mood and vulnerability 💖

New Every Day 2047 words | Gen author's tags: Pining John Sheppard, Oblivious Rodney McKay, Angst, Short, POV John Sheppard, Character Study summary:

Sometimes it seemed like he had to relearn emotions, over and over again.

Smowkie: this one! what a lovely thing. all the John feels. i want to add a couple of quotes here too, but they're right at the end so i'm not doing that, sadly. i can quote "Especially Rodney" though, because especially Rodney 💖

Some Misunderstanding 6193 words | Teen author's tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Human Experimentation, First Kiss, POV Alternating summary:

The path to Ascension was not a smooth one.

Smowkie: this one! UNCOMFY. really really good with a very interesting style, but oof, uncomfy! love it!

All You Need is … 1830 words | Teen author's tags: Short, Feelings Realization, First Kiss, Fluff and Angst summary:

The thing about love was, that it wasn't enough. It might fill you up and set you alight and hug you close and tear your heart out and pet you gently and hang like a slow-dragging weight around your neck: but, for all of its bullying and grandstanding, it skipped right over all the practical things and let you scramble around to fix those up - or not - as best you might; but definitely with none of its assistance.

Smowkie: this made me all mushy inside, it was great 💖

Flowers and Other Ambiguities 1289 words | Gen author's tags: Pre-Slash, Character Study, POV John Sheppard, Short, Pining John Sheppard, Oblivious Rodney McKay summary:

The field was blossoming in such rich dark blues and purples, with an underlying green, that John was irresistibly put in mind of the ocean, his feet lightly stepping over the water, mindful of the lurking creatures of the deep.

Smowkie: this one holds a special place in my heart. it was one of the first McShep fics i read and it's what really sold me on the pining!John and oblivious!Rodney trope. it's such a wonderful fic, and the pining, man the pining 💖

But Soft … 1645 words | Teen author's tags: Fluff, Alternate Universe - College/University, Theatre, Short summary:

"I'm just suggesting, John, that, perhaps your speeches about Juliet, should not be notably less impassioned than your banter with Mercutio."

Smowkie: i’m generally not interested in AUs for McShep, but i had enjoyed so much from WonkyElk that i read this anyway, and BOY am i glad i did, because i adored this!

Not Early, But Not Too Late 810 words | Teen author's tags: Short, Realisations, Getting Together, First Kiss summary: 

Rodney finally learns the language.

Smowkie: this is just lovely 💖

A Matter of Mugs 2959 words | Teen author's tags: Post-Canon, Break Up, Light Angst, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Getting Together, Oblivious Rodney McKay summary:

Rodney's emotional levels were generally at critical, but, right now, they were straining the banks and spoiling for a flood of world-drowning proportions. This wasn't because of a crisis, nor even anything so petty and ordinary as a mid-life crisis - not that Rodney was old enough for that, slap bang in the very prime of life as he was and intended to remain - but more of a build up of small things and not-so small things, stacking up awkwardly on top of each other and wobbling under the pressure and the terrible engineering choices.

Smowkie: this is a wonderful read, and i love how John comes first for Rodney long before he realizes his feelings for him. also Rodney and Jeannie bonding 💖 (to clarify the break-up tag: i've chosen not to add relationship tags in this post since all fics are McShep, but this fic has both the John/Rodney and the Jennifer/Rodney relationship tags, and the break-up tag is for Jennifer/Rodney)

One Stroke of The Moon 1378 words | Gen author's tags: Short, Episode: s05e06 The Shrine, Light Angst, Team as Family summary:

When the Avarro moon hangs lowest in the sky, ripe and full - so bright and summoning that your head becomes full of it and nothing else exists - then it is, that some climb to the very top of the trees, stretch out their hands and their hopes and touch her on the belly, with a reverent stroke. Those that touch the moon in this way are never the same afterwards. Nor would they want to be.

Smowkie: this is such a lovely thing. the team’s loyalty and love to Rodney is just 💖

A Staff, A Spear 2179 words | Teen author's tags: Character Study, Angst, Pining John Sheppard, Oblivious Rodney McKay, Short, POV John Sheppard summary:

For a time, he had no memory, no self; no pain. Until the sunshine cooled in his blood and the wine left him with a sigh, like a ghost, and his whole personality fell back inside him, with a thump. It was so heavy, being himself again, he could almost have cried.

Smowkie: the fic that made me make this post. this one really hits you smack in the face with John feels. it's heartbreaking and painful in the best of ways. 💖

Setting Parameters 4545 words | Teen author's tags: Hurt/Comfort, Action/Adventure, Virtual Reality, POV Alternating summary:

It absolutely wasn’t a holodeck.

Smowkie: i love a good holodeck disaster story, but this is so much more than just that, and i adore it. the McShep relationship especially, but also Teyla (and Ford too) 💖 much love! and my favorite quote: They rested against each other when they were done, in a way which, to the laymen’s mind, might very easily be confused with snuggling. guys, come on... xD 💖

A Pair of Shadows 2090 words | Teen author's tags: POV Outsider, Rodney and John are Stuck Together, Fluff summary: 

John and Rodney become joined at the hip. This is not metaphorical.

Smowkie: glorious outsider POV fic 💖

Opposite to Blue 1459 words | Teen author's tags: Short, Character Study, References to Depression, Angst with a Happy Ending, POV John Sheppard summary:

The first time that John had met Rodney McKay he had been brightly, regrettably, orange.

Smowkie: more John feels 💖 Rodney is such a sweetheart in this, and he pretty much killed me with the quote "the wiggly thing your voice did when you called me" 💖

A Sufficiency of Freedom 1342 words | Teen author's tags: Character Study, Short, Light Angst, Pining John Sheppard, Oblivious Rodney McKay, POV John Sheppard summary:

From time to time, people had asked John why he loved to fly.

Smowkie: this has such great imagery, a beautiful insight in John's mind 💖

An Anchor in the Mist 1620 words | Teen author's tags: Short, Hurt/Comfort, Injury Recovery, First Kiss, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, POV John Sheppard summary:

Sometimes, when he was back on Earth, John would look around at the colours, the brightness, the busyness - the sheer number of people, the surrealism of it all - and wonder if it was actually real.

Smowkie: THIS ONE! i adore this one. it's John feels again, and it's hurt/comforty and angsty and sweet and loving and painful and happy and just beautiful. i want to live in this one 💖

To silent ash 1529 words | Teen author's tags: Angst and Feels, Post-Canon, Sad summary:

Dear Jeannie…

Smowkie: ah, pain. it's beautiful and so very sad. read the author's note before the fic and decide if you want the spoilers or not, but either way it's worth it imo, i loved it

Accepting a Complement 1433 words | Gen author's tags: Short, Feelings, working out a relationship summary:

He wasn't sure exactly when he and Sheppard had become 'those two' or 'you two' or 'that pair' to so many people. But, now that the phrase had jumped up and bit him, so to speak, he was very aware that he had heard it too many times to count.

Smowkie: this fic made me feel in love with McShep. i mean, i guess i am in love with McShep, that's sorta how i ship, i see something and fall in love. but this fic, yeah, it brought it out so much that i was just a mess reading it, the whole thing; giddy, grinning, the stomach thing that feels a lot like anxiety but isn't. yeah, i love this one, it made me so happy 💖

[autisticlancemcclain]

fic rec friday 45

hello and welcome to fic rec friday! where, on friday, i rec five of my favourite fics.

Pieces by zenstrike

Five times Keith found comfort with Lance, and one time he tried to return the favour.

look i know i talked about zenstrike last week and im here to do it again. i know what the secret relationship trope is, i know there are so many great fics but like. zenstrike reaches something in my chest and fucking twists it. i read something of theirs for the first time like two years ago and i remember being actually fucking struck dumb on my bed and clutching my phone because the way my stomach churned and my heart pounded and i well and truly FELT every fucking emotion!! when keith nervously pressed his palm to the junction of lance's neck and his breath sharpened mine did too!! when the swirling dread of fear and nerves turned in lances belly it turned in mine too!! idk what it is about zenstrike but they have touched me in a way no other author ever has in my whole life and i cant always read everything they write in one sitting, sometimes im consuming it all in a frenzy and sometimes one fic takes me days. anyway keith loving lance with every goddamn molecule but being physically unable to say it but determined to show it will always make me insane sorry for the goddamn essay

2. when you're here loving me by orphan_account [EXPLICIT]

“’Look at me, I’m Keith,” Lance muttered, “’I run directly at Galra sentries and don’t even think about the big, glowy thingies in their hands. What are those called again?’” He tightened the gauze, gently despite his trying to act angry, “’Right! Guns! Can’t possibly hurt me, right?’” Keith scowled, “I know what a gun is.” ✦ they come back from a mission, gross and in love.

this one is kinda porny lol but its pretty goddamn funny. of COURSE these two are the massive losers who play rock paper scissors after they bone 💀💀

3. The Samurai and the Sharp-Shooter by orphan_account

It's tough going on missions when you have to pretend you're dating your rival. Tougher still when you're actually not even rivals but lovers forced to hide that fact for the sake of the team's greater mission. Not canon, but still in space and everyone's there. Fluffy with zero angst.

this fic makes me CRY with laughter bc why are they fake dating to hide that they're real dating on a god damned assassination mission 😭😭 they're actually so goddamn stupid

4. Headshot by @angelwithaknife

“Guys,” Lance grunted, lying down behind a couples of rocks and aiming at some soldiers again, “I appreciate that you appreciate me but please stop waving at me after I save you, I’m sick of running around trying to find new spots, I specifically chose a long-range weapon so I could lie down all the time.”

this is so CUTE the team loves lance so bad. and as they should!! bc hes so smart and amazing and cool and wonderful and talented honestly i just love him so bad

5. What's Something You've Never Told Me? by @fondaboo

The lady drops a slice of lemon into it and slides it back towards him. “You’ve got pretty good taste kid,” she says. Her cordial smile turns wicked and teasing, as she jerks her chin to the dance floor. “And it's not just limited to drinks, I'd say.” Keith follows her dark gaze, before he can help himself, biting down on a groan when he sees where she’s looking. Lance. Jesus, he can’t even go to a bar without someone calling out his—blatant and painfully obvious—crush on Lance. “Friend of yours?” She croons. He drags a hand down his face, maybe he needs something stronger than whiskey. Ketamine maybe. “Best friend actually,” he squints through his fingers, glaring darkly, “not that it’s anyone’s business.” Or the author overuses em-dashes while trying to make Keith talk about his damn feelings! OR ace Lance has to deal with a smitten Keith and just wants to watch disney

ACE LANCE ACE LANCE ACE LANCE ACE LANCE ACE LANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!! god i love him. also fondaboo literally never misses

that’s it for today!! i’ll see y’all back next friday for the next fic rec post!!!

[the-golden-comet]

✨Happy Fanfiction Friday!✨

Hellooooo~! This week has been very busy with leadership meetings, and I have six more in June (end of fiscal year. Lots of reports. Lots of retreats) so I haven’t been as active with the motivational days. I’ve also been writing my own story 🧞‍♂️, so it may take a while for me to respond if you tag me (please still do! I love to hear from you all. lt may just take me a little bit to respond 💖). Just know that you are lovely and I appreciate all your beautiful art ✨

However, this post will serve as my weekly contribution, as it has already reached so many artists and writers. I am so thankful it did, because y’all need to hear it. You lovely people need to hear these things. No more tearing yourselves down; it’s time to lift artists and writers up like the beautiful souls you are 💖

Speaking of supporting writers, it’s time for my fanfic recs. I’ve read a lot of your stories so far, so here are just a few of the myriad of lovely works I have had the pleasure of reading recently:

I Am Your Lover (I Am Your Jailor) by @justabigoldnerd (18+)

OKAY, you maybe saw me gush about this yesterday but it’s true— @justabigoldnerd masterfully crafts a fantasy narrative between Illya and Solo from The Man From U.N.C.L.E. His handling of heavier topics mixed with a lighter prose makes this just a gorgeous piece of literature. It’s got gay knights, a gay prince, and sex. Yes, I’m biased.

Also interwoven in between are some of the TENDEREST and FLUFFIEST moments that will make your heart melt. The villain in this story will make you viscerally upset—just as a heads up. @justabigoldnerd accomplishes all of these complex emotions so incredibly well, and I HIGHLY recommend you read it for yourself.

Five Years Is a Long Time to Not Call Your Mother by @poorreputation

Okay so this is Part 2 of their fic Dimples, which legit made me ugly cry with how good it is. So when this showed up in my inbox, I SCREAMED with joy. This is the sequel to this wonderful story on the fic’s birthday, and I cannot WAIT to see how it goes (though I will wait, because art this good takes time to make ✨)

Doom Metal Love Story by @fortunatetragedy

Okay I may be breaking my rules here with an original work, but FUCK the rules because THIS 🤌✨ beautiful story captures the raw and rigid emotions of Royston and Cole (what I’ve read so far), a beautiful train scene that I could paint in my mind thanks to @fortunatetragedy’s amazing prose work. Any story that can get me to paint a picture in my head like that is deserving a shoutout.

Speaking of fucking the rules:

LunuL by @autism-purgatory

This one. Right now. Drop what you’re doing and read it. Beautiful futuristic sci-fi with mad science thrown in and mixed masterfully, cyborg and cybernetic enhancements, and a beautiful bond between Leo and Ren, this is a must read. He works so hard on worldbuilding and it SHOWS, and his details are STILL beautifully crafted. Seriously, go read it.

That is all for now, but again—SO MANY STORIES. This doesn’t include the beautiful originals I’ve read here on Tumblr (Before Deluca by @dyrewrites has captured my heart with the insanely romantic storytelling style). Now, because of all of your wonderful and inspiring tales, I’m off to write my own ✨

[thissortofsorcery]

💞A different type of rec list ask game, to rep your own fics and other authors you enjoy.💞 Spell out your user name with fic recs. If the letter correlates to one of your fics you rec it (no duplicates use a different fic for repeat letters.) If you get to a letter you don’t have a fic title for you rec one you‘ve liked from someone else. 💖Send this to someone who might need a little love on their own fics or just like spreading the love.💖

Oh, my username is LONG, this is gonna be HARD (haha get it). Keeping it Harringrove to keep it simple (for myself. I have over 3k bookmarks on ao3)

The Green Hawkins Tigers Sweatshirt, by me. 1k, Steve comforts Billy after a run in with Neil.

Hook Possum, by @platypanthewriter. 16k, Steve's a camp counselor and there's a guy Possum Mascot he's very friendly with. This fic had me laughing and giggling from start to finish. It's ART.

I Had to See You, by me. Almost 2k, Billy and Steve broke up three weeks ago, and Steve shows up on Billy's doorstep. One of the fics I'm proudest of.

sad-eyed lady of the lowlands, by @whenyouwishuponastar7. 94k, Steve is a professional babysitter, and is hired to look after Max after she and her older brother move to Hawkins. This was the first fic I read from her and I FELL IN LOVE. Absolute masterpiece. Every time she posts new fics I run to read them so fast.

Shout At The Devil, by @writerwhowritesao3. It's actually a series (155k) that has me by the balls, but the first fic(68k) can be read on its own just fine. It's a retelling of season 2 and it's delicious. It also gives Susan a personality. I would tag just the first fic, but I don't have a J in my username and I HAD to.

Of Cats and Men, by @ihni. 39k, Billy hits a cat with his car, and has to take care of three little kittens. Steve helps. This fics is EVERYTHING to me. Billy and cats get me every time, right in the heart. You will need to hug your pet when you read this, though.

Run for the Shadows, by @shieldofiron. 36k, this fic is DELICIOUS. Friends with benefits to lovers, OBLIVIOUS STEVE. So oblivious. Pure of heart, dumb of ass. I had such a great time reading this fic.

Towel Talks, by @weird-an. 10k, after s3, Steve finds Billy in the community pool sauna. I love this one because An does caring Steve SO WELL. I was like this 🥺 the whole time I was reading it. It's so so good.

On Loving Billy, by lilpeas. I don't know their tumblr. 16k, this is THE break-up and make-up fic. It hurts SO GOOD, their emotions are so beautifully written out. It wrung everything out of me. Love.

for what you have tamed, by skoosiepants. Don't know their tumblr either. 10k. Billy is a cat and a dragon, and he keeps saving Steve's life. I LOVE magical realism, and this fic builds the world incredibly well. It's such a good read.

Sideways, by @robthegoodfellow. 46k. THIS FIC. It spins season 2 on its head so fucking well, oh my god. Rob is such a good writer, I've read this fic more than once and it gets to me every time. Their Billy is incredible.

Only The Freaks Come Out at Night, by shippingmyarmada (idk their tumblr). 67k. GREAT post s2 fic. You know I cry from happiness when I find a post s2 fic. This one is really, really well done.

Rotten Apples, by @weird-an. 14k. It's. a. WITCHER. AU. Do I need to say anything else???????? I love this so much. So much. You have no idea.

Camaro, by @lovebillyhargrove. I'm cheating a little on this one bc I don't know the name of the fic and I wanted to include it, and it's about the Camaro coming alive after season 3 and going on a killing spree to avenge Billy. It gets EVEN BETTER from there. Ana wrote this so well, whenever a chapter dropped on tumblr I lost my shit.

every night fucks every day up, by anonymous. 8k. It's a modern AU, and you know I love my modern AUs. Steve and Billy interact through snapchat. I have a soft spot for snapchat because i first heard about this app reading a Sterek fic in january 2014. This has nothing to do with the fic.

Read to Me?, by lemonlovely (idk tumblr). 12k. Someone leaves books with marked passages at Family Video for Steve. It's SO CUTE. SO CUTE. I love it.

Yeah, It's Me, by @callieb. 29k. Another fic that's between s2 and s3, and this one is SOOOOO GOOD in that their relationship starts as a FWB that's kind of unhealthy and I just about died reading this. Happy ending though. Trust me, it's worth it.

And that's done! It took me over 2 hours to put this together lmao so go give these fics and these writers some love! They deserve it.

[lucyfrostblade]

For that ask game, 6 and it can be any fandom (but if you've got a doctor who or dimension 20 fic rec for that...)

ask game !!

disclaimer: i am a crier. i cry at the drop of a hat. it does not take much to make me cry.

i have actually only been reading d20 fic for like a month and so i don't have the most recs but:

One Last Rescue by AnnieWithAnIE ( @purrassicjet ):

"Take care of Baxter for me. He’s going to need it, I think." Sandra Lynn should have known she was in danger the moment she learned the name of the nameless goddess. She should have known the moment she walked into the temple, the moment she watched the Legend Lore spell play out. Oh well. At least she can save the kids one last time.

this absolutely destroyed me, i was crying the target parking lot after reading this. it's about the fact that baxter showed up on his own in FHJY 18, and the circumstances that might've led to that

no grave can hold your body down by pigflight ( @sharkodactyl )

What if you couldn't say no to being resurrected by the shatter-stars?

okay so this one is a little fucked up. it's a post-murder of lucy fic that focuses on kipperlilly. i personally interpret it as kipperlilly not knowing what's real or not, and it's a fun read but it's definitely a bit uh horror-adjacent.

listening too long to lucifer by deepsea_dumpster_diving

Because that was what they were – fighters. The brawn, the grunts. The ones who do the stabbing while the key players cast the spells and deal the finishing blows. Fabian just needed to remember his place, that all his fancy dancing and squeaking Badidas shoes were the glitter on the rubbish heap. Kipperlilly was a mastermind, an expert in secrecy and skullduggery, far more effective than he could ever be. Still. His sword explodes out of the other side of Ivy’s chest and Kipperlilly does not—does not—flinch. The final battle in the name of rage in the Aguefort gym, from Kipperlilly Copperkettle's point of view.

kipperlilly's POV of episode 19. i love it. i love her. i love how the rage builds and the way it seems so clearly to be a cover for grief. she's so determined her, so sure of herself. i love her so much

in spite of the way that it is by massivdisaster ( @highfiveheroes ):

In Basrar’s right now, Kipperlilly can taste blood and smell the dirt and hear rats chittering despite how bright and clean the diner is. Her hands are sticky. They’re clean, of course, but they feel sticky now, because frost genasi blood was meant to stay inside her body, and— She didn’t come back. She didn’t come back. Why didn’t she come back? - or: Kipperlilly is alone.

genuinely obsessed with the idea of kipperlilly after lucy's death, in the immediate aftermath, where it's still so raw and the rage is starting to leech in. i read them every time a new one shows up in the tags but this is one of my favs. benji's take on kipperlilly is one of my favorites.

and i have no clue if you've read tlt but tlt fic recs because sobbing than laughing is the locked tomb reading experience so honorable tlt mentions:

Fuck You (Marry Me) by Space_Daemon

Bid My Blood to Run by winterkill

till death do us part by localswordlesbian

Where her heart used to be by winter_hiems

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A Stack of Rainchecks (e. munson x reader)

SYNOPSIS: You and Eddie Munson were in love until he realizes that you both live in opposite worlds and no matter how he tried to change everything, nothing was ever going to happen.  REQUESTED: no WARNINGS: angst, canon and non-canon events (still related to canon events), not proofread, alcohol consumption, Eddie Munson and his livelihood, mentions to poverty, ANGST ANGST ANGST like there is no fluff in this fic just angst ok!!!!!!!! (note: the timeline here is Season 1 Stranger Things and Eddie, you, and Steve are all in your senior year); really frustrating miscommunication, pov jumps but it’s really worth it PAIRINGS: Eddie Munson x Reader WORD COUNT: 6k+ beta reader: @eddiesprincess86 🤍 helpful links: navigation | master lists | rules and guidelines | tag list | fic recs

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This isn’t the first time Eddie has called raincheck, again. In fact, this was the second one this week. This was supposed to be the day he made up for you and you were patient. So, so, so patient that maybe…just one more, he’ll finally get to his senses and not blow you off at the last minute. You sighed, kicking the innocent rock on the front porch, frowning at it to somehow make Eddie appear because Jesus Christ, you tried to understand but it was so, so, so, so hard.

He promised to pick you up and drop you off last night over the phone. He told you that he was going to come by at 10:00 in the morning and it was already 11:43.

“God, I’m so stupid,” you muttered, looking up. You refused to cry over something so miniscule but you were feeling neglected by your own boyfriend. Would it really hurt him to pick you up when he said he would? It wasn’t like you were expecting to be on a grand date with him. You were way past that. It would’ve been nice if he just showed up, did his business, while you were sitting on his passenger’s seat. It would’ve been nice to just talk without his friends. Not that he even tried to get close with your friends. He always told you that they were ‘stuck up’ and had no time for trailer trash like him. You understood but it’s not like his friends accepted you either. Gareth, Jeff, and Todd still directed snide remarks your way.

“It’s not like you’d understand. You have everything handed down to you on a silver platter.” They’d say and it might be true but Eddie never defended you—always laughed it off with them. You raised your concern once and he just shrugged it off.

“It’s just a joke,” he would defend. “You couldn’t really blame them,”

You nodded meekly. You loved Eddie—really did. You loved how he was such a breath of fresh air. He was so unlike the community you grew up in. He wasn’t boat shoes, lakehouse, warm cardigans, and perfectly gelled hair. He was dirty white sneakers, his bedroom, leather jackets, and messy curly hair.

“Sometimes, I think you only like me because I’m different,” he’d tease. It was somehow true but you loved him because he was Eddie. He made you laugh with his theatrics. He’d make your heart swell when he gives you gifts that came from the last of his allowance; treat you with the best that he could with the little money that he had to spare. You never asked him to but it was Eddie. He liked taking care of you until he suddenly didn’t.

You tried racking your brain for the reason why he suddenly changed but it never came to you.

-

It wasn’t the first time Eddie blew you off this week. This was the second time. But what could he do? He could never give you what you deserved—he could never give you what your friends could give you. He was just trailer trash in the eyes of your friends and your family. God, your family.

The way they looked at him three months ago—like, he didn’t even matter. Why would he? It’s not like he could blame them either. You were a good girl from a rich neighborhood. Why would they let their only daughter be associated with the Munsons? His last name alone gave enough reason for people to run off the hills.

He tried to shrug off the remarks that people said about the two of you. He tried so, so, so hard but he couldn’t. At the end of the day, he was only a nineteen year old living in his uncle’s trailer. At the end of the day, his biggest dream is to make it out of this town or even get his own trailer. It wasn’t fair to you.

“Who would even dream of dating Eddie Munson? Was surprised she was all over him. Do you think she really likes him? Or is he only using her to get something?” he heard once. It was the reason why Eddie worked twice as hard. So he could give you something that you deserved—dates to fancy restaurants, extravagant gifts that cost more than the much needed repair of their trailer. He never minded—he loved seeing your eyes twinkle when you received that silver necklace with an ‘E’ that you saw in the mall once. He didn’t want to pull away but then again, how could he ever provide all these things for you? You were both numb and naive.

“My van sticks out like a sore thumb in your neighborhood,” he says, taking a jab at himself. Was he asking for self-pity? He didn’t know but it did hurt to hear you chuckle.

-

You went back to your house, tears streaming down your face. Your promise went down the drain. You cried and cried in your bedroom. God, when did Eddie stop loving you? Did you do anything to him? Were you expecting too much when you expected him to pick you up at the right time? When you wanted him to defend you to his friends? When you wanted your friends to at least know him?

Were you asking for too much?

Monday comes and you were looking forward to see Eddie. You wanted to ask if things were fine between the two of you. You wanted to see him again. You wanted him to walk you to your next class. You saw his van parked, it was only a matter of time before he greets you at the main door, a scowl on his face until he sees you.

But he wasn’t there.

Your heart sank at the absence of your boyfriend, trying to regain your composure when Steve saw you falter.  

“You’re okay?” he asked.

“Yeah,” you nod, swallowing thickly. “Let’s go to class?”

Eddie watches as Harrington walks you to your class. That was his job. He was supposed to hold your hand while you complained about the amount of work you had to exert to get an A+, Eddie laughing cause he only wanted a decent grade. But you seemed fine talking to Harrington, laughing at something he said.

He didn’t like how he spent the afternoon without you last weekend. All afternoon long, he was sitting on his bed, smoking or playing the guitar. It felt so heavy for him to utter a lie and say that he was busy doing something when he was not. He freed the day for you, wanting to see you smile and all of that. He wondered what you were wearing, if you were wearing the necklace he gave you. Of course you would because that was you. Still, he couldn’t shake the gnawing feeling of going to the grocery store last night, his Uncle using the last food stamps to buy their food for the week. Another reminder of why he could never give you the grand things you were used to. God, he didn’t want that for you. He didn’t want to deprive you of anything. It wasn’t like he was ashamed of using food stamps, he’s been using it since his parents abandoned him. He was just ashamed that it was all he could ever give you.

Was Eddie asking for too much when he prayed for a week without having to be poor? Without feeling like he could never be enough? Like was not loveable? Was he asking for too much when he asked for a better life?

What did he do in his previous lifetime to be punished this way?

-

You never saw Eddie on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. It was Thursday now and he has yet to show himself to you. You’ve been spending more time with your friends, mostly Steve. He didn’t like how Carol and Tommy treated Nancy. Nancy didn’t like him anymore and Eddie hasn’t spoken to you all week. You tried walking to his lunch table but stopped when you didn’t see him. It was like Eddie suddenly vanished.

“Are you sure you’re okay? You’ve been so out of it lately,” Steve asks, concern lacing his voice. You were both sitting in his car, Eddie was nowhere to be seen but his van was still parked on the school lot.

“No,” you muttered. “But what can I do about it anyway? Eddie has been avoiding me like the plague,” you chuckled humorlessly. “It’s like he doesn’t even exist and he doesn’t seem to care at all,”

“Hey, it’s okay,” Steve replied. “he’s probably going through something and needs space,”

“From me?” you whispered, your eyes glossy. “He tells me everything and suddenly he hasn’t…he doesn’t…he’s not speaking to me at all. I haven’t seen my boyfriend since Friday and it’s Friday tomorrow,”

“Hey, don’t cry,” Steve sighs. He didn’t know how to deal with this. “Come here,” he says, extending his arms towards you and you come closer to him, appreciating his comfort.

Eddie Munson didn’t like how Steve Harrington had his arms around you. He slammed the door of his van loudly before revving it, running out of the school parking lot, running away from you.

-

“Do you think I should break up with him?” you asked once you’ve calmed down, the thought of being separated making the back of your throat hurt.

“I can’t answer that,” Steve replied. “It would look bad on me,”

“Why? We’ve been friends since we were in diapers, Steve. You tell me everything,” you told him. “And…and I feel silly opening up to the others you know? They never really liked Eddie,”

“I never really liked Eddie,” Steve confesses. “But only you could answer your question. It’s not my place to tell you to break up with him. Why don’t you think it over? Maybe you’re just too sad to even think about the consequences of breaking up with him,”

“Yeah,” you nodded. “Thanks, Steve,” you smiled before he dropped you off. You take turns driving since you lived on his street. Steve watches as you walk towards your door, dejected and shoulders slouched. As his friend, he wanted you to break up with Eddie. Your boyfriend has been treating you like shit all week—hell, it wasn’t even a week. You told him that this has been going on for months. But who was he to get in the way? He’s been doing the same dumb shit to win Nancy back, going as far as denying that she obviously held feelings for the Byers kid.

-

It was Hellfire night and Gareth looked at the lack of your presence in the drama room. The chair that usually sat on was tucked away in the corner and decided to finally ask.

“Why is she not around anymore? Did you two break up or something?” Gareth asks Eddie who only looked at him pointedly. “Thank God. She was quite insufferable, you know? I mean, does she really have to go around showing off how good her life is? I’m glad you broke up. You weren’t like yourself when you were together,”

“What?” Eddie asked, his ears ringing at Gareth’s jabs.

“What Gareth was saying was that she just had an air of being better than all of us,” Jeff tried to explain.

“Guys, can we go back to our game?” Todd adds, wanting to intervene. He saw how Eddie’s face reddened at Gareth and Jeff’s admissions.

“Can you go fuck yourself and mind your business?” Eddie replies, venom dripping in his voice.

“What? I just asked because she’s been so cozy with Harrington this whole week and you were nowhere to be seen,” Gareth explained, his hands raising in surrender.

“Fuck this,” Eddie mutters, standing up. He tossed his things on the table before storming off, nevermind the fact that Jeff asked what the fuck was the matter.

What happened? Eddie knows what happened and he hated how he dreams about it every night—how he thinks about it all the time.

It was three months ago. You’ve been dating Eddie for a month, after weeks of trying to charm you. It was hard work but Eddie liked to work hard for you. You decided to finally let your parents meet Eddie and while Eddie was adamant about it, he still let you.

“Mom, Dad, this is my boyfriend Eddie,” you told your parents as soon as they opened the door. Eddie felt so uncomfortable under your father’s gaze and your mother’s uncomfortable smile. When you told them that you had a boyfriend, they wanted to meet him. They just never expected to see someone who had a janky van, uncut hair, and ripped jeans.

“I’m Eddie Munson,” Eddie says, extending his hand towards your father. He saw how your parents visibly winced at the mention of his last name. A fucking curse. You didn’t see how your father looked at his extended hand, as if he was so, so dirty but you did see how your father took Eddie’s hand and gripped it harshly.

“Let’s c-come in!” your mother’s voice rang, a stumble in her step. God, Eddie felt like trash. He looked around your house, it was the first time he’s ever been in it. His breath caught in his throat at the pictures of you hanging on the stairway. He looked outside and you had a pool, several rooms for recreation on the first floor before settling in your dining area, and a chandelier hanging in the middle of the ceiling.

“I hope you’re hungry, Eddie,” you told him. “Mom makes the best lasagna and she made one just for the two of us. Right, mom?” you asked and your mother nodded. Eddie was hungry. He saw what they had in the fridge last night: mush and more mush. He couldn’t afford to get take-out. He’s been saving his money for the record player that you were eyeing last week.

There was an awkward tension hanging in the air and you seemed so oblivious to it. You were just looking at Eddie like he hung the stars in the sky.

“So, Eddie, what are your plans after high school?” your father asked.

“I’m not yet s-sure, sir. I’ll probably have to work before attending college,” he stuttered. Can they even afford college?

“I’m sure there are state colleges willing to offer you a scholarship,” your father remarked. “Y/N here is going to New York or California. Did you know that?”

“Yes, sir,” he replied.

“He helped me fill my application forms and write my essays,” you told your dad. “Eddie’s a really good writer,”

Eddie smiled at your innocence. You couldn’t even hear your dad’s words.

“Where do you live, Eddie?” your father asked. He must’ve known Eddie lived in Hawkin’s Trailer Park. Before Eddie could reply, your mother intervened.

“If a scholarship was handed to you, what would you take?”

“Literature, ma’am. Or…or…music,” Eddie replied. “But if I’m being more practical, I’d like to take up business management,” he tried to add upon your father’s disapproval.

“A good head on your shoulders,” your mother half-lied.

Dinner was tense but you decided to dip your legs in the pool with Eddie.

“Eddie, can you please be a dear and get us a drink?” you asked. “I’ve been helping my mom cook and my back hurts,” you pout.

Eddie nodded, kissing your nose before excusing himself. He was about to go to your kitchen and ask for a drink when he heard your father speak.

“What was she thinking? Bringing him here?”

“Hey, I’m sure she means well. They look like they really like each other,” your mother tried to console.

“Yeah, but how is he going to feed my daughter? I can’t let her go running off with a boy with no dreams,” your father reasoned. “Literature? Music? Is that even going to be enough?“

“You could give him a job at your firm if that’s your concern,” your mother reasoned. “She did say he’s a good writer. She’s a big girl now. I’m sure she could handle herself,”

“Yeah but what are his plans when she leaves Hawkins? I don’t think he could afford college. I mean, have you even seen his van? It sticks like a sore thumb in our neighborhood,”

“You have to give Eddie a chance. He looks like he’s been through a lot and he looks like he’s trying,” he heard your mother speak.

“I just can’t believe it. I mean, she could be dating the Harrington kid and I would have been fine,” your father replied.

“It’s okay,” your mother said. “We could probably do something to help him out,”

Eddie felt sick. He knew that it was his fault for eavesdropping but every word was a knife to his gut. He felt them twist until it hurt. Holding back his tears, he quietly walked back to you.

Eddie liked how the blue light reflected on your face. You were so beautiful and for a moment, he felt so serene. He loves the way your hair frames your face. He loved the way your eyes sparkled. He loves the way your hands look for his when you are in a crowd; loves the way your knee touches his when you sit beside each other. God, he was finally happy. He finally had you, the girl of his dreams. You were so kind, so genuine—so different from the people who treated him like trash. He was just foolish to believe that the people who raised you were the same.

“Sorry, I couldn’t get you your drink, sweetheart,” he says. “I couldn’t see your mom and I feel guilty just taking something from the fridge,”

“That’s okay, Eds,” you told him, leaning your head on his shoulder. “I know that I’ve never told you this. I mean, we only started dating and all of that for like, a few weeks? But I love you. You don’t have to say it back, of course. I just felt like you should know,”

“I love you too,” he replies, kissing your forehead. You’ve read in books that when people say I love you for the first time, there was supposed to be some grand speech, a long kiss, and everything else. There should be something so difficult that only love could fix it. But while you were sitting down at the edge of the pool, your legs dangling in the water, Eddie’s arm around you, and the world finally at peace, you decided that this is enough.

Eddie just didn’t know it.

-

Perhaps it was your fault for always asking for more from Eddie.

It was Friday night and it’s been weeks since you last saw your boyfriend. Steve and Nancy were kind of back together and you were third wheeling. It was another party that another kid you didn’t know held, boasting that his parents were out of town and that he had money to blow. High school students come flocking to free booze and you find yourself in the party, miserable.

You were sitting on the couch, a red cup in your hand. You were waiting for Nancy and Steve to come back from the restroom. Someone—you didn’t know who exactly—spilled a drink on Nancy’s clothes and Steve wanted to help her clean it up. You perked up at the sight of Eddie, ready to come to him when you saw him exit through the back door with a girl.

You frowned, deciding to follow them. They were near the woods when you heard it.

“Fifteen dollars? You’re expensive,” the girl says and Eddie chuckles, shrugging his shoulders.

“What can I say? I give the best one in town,”

“You sure you can’t give me a discount?” she tried flirting but Eddie only chuckled.

“Tell you what, sweetheart,” You gasp at the nickname. “Next time you buy from me you get a loyalty discount,”

“Okay,” the girl says. “That better be the best weed in Indiana, Munson,”

“Wouldn’t dream of tricking a pretty girl like you,” he says, making the girl giggle. Another deal for the night. Who knew dealing would be so easy? The girl runs off before another person sees her with Eddie Munson. Eddie was humming, looking through his metal lunchbox. Two more bags and he’s ready to go.

“Really, Eddie? You’re dealing drugs now?” he suddenly hears your voice and he jumps, not expecting you to be here.

“Don’t surprise me like that next time,” he chuckles and you frown.

“There shouldn’t be no next time, Eddie,” you chastised. “How much is left there? I’ll buy it and throw it in the river. Just don’t deal again,”

“God,” he says. One thing about parties is that the students forget who he is. He’s allowed to have fun, drink alcohol, and sell drugs. He couldn’t control what came out of his mouth, he was drunk. He can blame it on the alcohol for tonight. “Not everyone can afford shit like you do,”

Your mouth falls, taken aback.

“Wh-what?” you stuttered. “Look, Eddie, I think you’re drunk. So, why won’t I get Steve to drive us home?”

“Steve, Steve, Steve,” he mocks. “It’s all Steve! I’m looking for you and I see you with him. In school, in his car! He even has pictures on your wall!”

“What’s your problem with him? I told you we’re friends,” you said. “Let’s just go home,” you said, taking his arm. He shrugged it off aggressively.

“No, no just…leave me alone!” Eddie groans. “God, can you like, give me space? To think?”

“Is that why you’ve been avoiding me?” you ask, your hands forming a fist. Frustrated and sad, you didn’t know why your sweet, sweet Eddie was acting this way. Gone was the warmth, the love, and everything else. He looked at you as if he wasn’t even happy that you were there. If this happened months ago, he would chastise you for flirting with him because he had a lovely girlfriend with the same name as you and she was probably looking for him. He used to be a fun drunk, a clingy one too. He’d pout if you didn’t give him enough attention, tug on your sleeves or the hem of the shirt that you were wearing. Where did it all go wrong?

“Just let it go,” he says. “Yeah? Let me do my thing to fucking—provide and not be shitty because you’re such a princess and then maybe we’ll talk tomorrow,”

“Come on, Eddie. Let’s just go home,” you beg. “Please,” you whisper. “I don’t want us to fight. Let’s just go home and forget about everything tomorrow,”

“What home? You’ve never even been to the trailer,” he says. “Don’t wanna get grime under your nails. Don’t wanna get trailer germs on your skin and everything, right?” he spat. “There’s no tomorrow. Let’s talk about it now. No need to prolong this shit,”

He’s never invited you over. He has never asked to hang there. You’ve never even met his Uncle Wayne no matter how much you wanted to. Nothing at all. He would always tell you to just hang at your house or Skull Rock. Everywhere but their trailer. You respected it but he couldn’t say shit like this.

“What shit?” you asked Eddie, a waver in your voice. “Prolong what?”

“Take a hint and just go home,” he says, rolling his eyes.

“Fine,” you say, tears on your face yet again. “If you really don’t want to come home, Eddie, then don’t! God!” You huffed and walked away, trying to contain the sob that was fighting to come out of your throat.

“Fine, go home with Harrington! With his big, big house and his big, big car!” he shouts, making you shut your eyes in frustration. Right, he could blame it on the alcohol.

You walk back inside the house, looking for Steve and Nancy. There was tension in the air but you couldn’t care less. Fuck everyone in this party. Fuck Eddie. You couldn’t find Nancy anywhere but you found a distressed Steve sulking by the kitchen.

“Steve,” you gasp, tugging on his arm. “Let’s go home, please,”

“Okay,” he nods, deciding to forget about Nancy for tonight. He’s had enough of her calling everything bullshit. Steve grabs your arm and leads you back to the car. He opens the door for you and you get in, before watching him jog to the other side.

“Why did you want to go?” he asked.

“Can we–can we not just, I don’t know. He’s dealing drugs,” you confessed.

“Who?”

“Eddie,” you replied. “Called me a princess. Told me that I’ve never even been inside their trailer because I didn’t want grime under my princess nail beds. He said that he’s been dealing to provide and that not everyone can afford shit like I do…that there was no need to prolong this shit. Whatever that means,” you chuckled. “Enough about me, though. Where’s Nancy?” you asked, sniffing. Everything was so fucked up.

“Told me that everything’s bullshit. She acted like we aren’t in love and that everything that we shared was bullshit,” Steve says. “I changed for her…you know? And, and, she says it’s all bullshit. Is it all bullshit?

“It’s like what the fuck? Everything that I’ve been trying to do was bullshit. She said I was bullshit, pretending that everything was okay. It’s not! It’s not! She doesn't love me,” he laughed humorlessly. “Doesn’t fucking love me,”

“What happened to us, huh?” you asked. “I just want to scream, you know? Eddie doesn’t give a shit about me anymore,” you realized, your voice cracking. “What did I do wrong? I don’t know what I did wrong. I tried to be a good girlfriend; tried to understand that he needed the space but it’s been weeks and the first thing he does is insult me and flirt with someone else,”

“Come on, let’s go to the lake and scream all about it, yeah? Let’s scream all about it,”

-

You woke up the next day with a burning throat and puffy eyes. You screamed all of your frustrations by the lake last night with Steve. You closed your eyes, trying not to cry again. Eddie has been making you so miserable and you knew that it wasn’t fair anymore. You were hurting with how things worked out. How did months of innocent love between two highschoolers turn out like this? He casted you aside without even telling you anything. You felt so clueless.

-

Eddie woke up in his van. He was sure he vomited somewhere but he couldn’t give a shit right now, not when he knew that he made you upset. He thought of coming up to you and apologizing but is it really genuine if he blames it on alcohol? He knew that you were hurting and he hated to be the cause of all of that but what would he say? That your parents thought he was trash? Your friends looked at him suspiciously? That he was trying to be better? That he didn’t want to be the reason why you were held back in Hawkins when you so clearly wanted to get out of it? That he hated himself too much to even think about going all in with you? That he had to secretly deal drugs just so he could provide for himself? That he wanted to earn more money so he could finally move to an apartment and not live in that god damn park anymore? Eddie knew that he never deserved you and maybe it was time to finally get things out of the way instead of dancing around like this.

-

There was a knock on his trailer around the afternoon and looks out the window to see you and your shiny car. Your car looked like a sore thumb in the trailer park. He knew that you knew he saw you. Closing his eyes, Eddie opened the door, a weak smile on his face.

“You’re finally here,” Eddie says, trying to get a reaction out of you. You only nodded your head, visibly upset at him. Eddie watched as your lips pursed, trying to suppress all of the emotion that you’ve been bottling.

“We need to talk, Eddie,” you told him. “Just…is your uncle home?”

“No,” he replied, straightening up. “He just left,”

You nodded, coming inside without his consent. You breathed in deeply. This was it. This was what Eddie wanted, right? He should’ve been more careful with his wishes because this was it and Eddie dreaded it.

“I’m sorry,” he starts but he knew that it was too late to save anything at all. Still, would it hurt to at least try? He loves you, he really did. “I’m sorry, please. I just—I just…”

“Just what?” you asked.

“I heard your parents talk about me when I was supposed to get you that drink,” he said, trying to look for anything to focus on until he reaches your neck, devoid of any indication of the gift he got for you. “Said that I couldn’t afford college, that I couldn’t provide for you. He’s right, you know? Your dad? My biggest dream is to just move out of this trailer. Doesn’t matter if it’s another trailer, an apartment, or somewhere out of Hawkins. Where would that take you? You have big plans. New York or California and I don’t want to be the reason why you were stuck here,”

“You should’ve talked to me about it,” you said. “You shouldn’t have casted me aside. I was so lonely for weeks, Eddie. I don’t even know what to do. You’ve been blowing me off until you decided that you didn’t give a fuck about me anymore,”

“Is that why you’ve been spending your time with Harrington? I saw you leave with him kast night. He’s always waiting for me to fuck up so he could scoop you up and make you feel all better,” he spits.

“He’s my friend, Eddie! How many times do I have to tell you this? We’ve been friends way before you even came into the picture. He and Nancy broke up last night if you were so fucking concerned about him,” you replied, the same venom in your tone. “I don’t get anything at all. It’s not your job to worry about me and Steve when you didn’t even care enought to soare me a glance. You should’ve told me instead of shutting me off. That’s all I wanted. I was waiting for you to call and you didn’t. You never…called. Is it too much to ask for my boyfriend to actually want to spend time with me?”

“And is it really too much to ask to be accepted by your friends and family?” he asks. “We live in different worlds and I could never give you everything when that’s all you’ve ever known,”

“I never wanted anything from you, Eddie. I just wanted you to actually give a shit about me. We would’ve made it work,” you said.

“Look, I was drunk tonight, okay?” he tries to save.

“Don’t blame it on the fucking alcohol. You were sober and you know it! I was so excited to finally see you and the first thing you do is flirt with someone else and deal drugs? You didn’t have to do that,” you cried, shaking your head in frustration.

“But nobody’s willing to employ the freak of Hawkins! I didn’t want you to ask your dad to employ me when he already thinks of me as a charity case. Nobody wants anything to do with me and I really needed the money. You don’t understand shit because you’re you,”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” you ask, a tremble in your voice. Gone was the anger and the frustration. You were just sad.

“Don’t pretend that you don’t see it,” he replied. “I’m Eddie Munson. I’m trailer trash, I’m poor, I’m stupid, I’m me and you’re you. Two loving parents, living in a good house. That chandelier your have in your dining room probably costs more than this whole fucking trailer. The shoes that you’re wearing could probably feed me and my uncle for a month and you really expect everything to work out?” Eddie knew that he was being vicious.

“I thought you were sorry,” you whimpered.

“I thought so too,” he replied coldly.

“It’s not my fault for being me, Eddie. It’s not my fault that you’re not like me,” you tried and Eddie only chuckled.

“Not like what? Tell me. Enlighten me. Poor, right? That’s what you wanted. Come on. Say it. Say that it’s not your fault that I’m so fucking poor and that I live in this shithole while you’d probably end up with someone with a lakehouse or some rich people shit like that. Come on, tell me! Tell me that I’m poor!”

“Stop it, Eddie!” you screamed. “Stop! This…this between us…it’s your fault why we could never work out. It’s your fault why I’m walking away. I’m fucking walking away. I don’t want to stick around when everything feels so, so wrong and it has! For weeks! But I tried to understand you…tried to understand why you hate me. I tried to understand why you were suddenly so cold but I couldn’t. I never understood and I still don’t understand,” you sobbed, tears springing from your eyes. You really didn’t want to cry about him. What happened to the two of you? You were so in love. “You loved me until you decided that you didn’t give a shit about me anymore,”

He loves you. He really loves you but you didn’t have a future with him. He has to let you go. He hated himself that moment, hated what he;s about to say next. Hated everything but the angel crying in his trailer.

“Where’s the necklace? Seems like you don’t use it anymore. Mind if you give it back? Really gotta pawn it so I can buy more stash from Rick,” he asks, trying to contain himself. If you weren’t already sad, the face you made when he asked that sunk his heart even deeper.

“Here,” you nodded, fishing it out from your pocket. He didn’t know if you were finally accepting everything but he smiled sadly.

“I really didn’t want us to end this way, Eds,” you sighed with a heavy heart. He reaches out to wipe your tears but you shake your head. You knew that if he asked you to stay, you would. If he reaches out for you, you’d probably give into him but nothing’s fair. Eddie knew that everything was far beyond what was repairable and he had to let you go.

“I’m really…” he chokes. “sorry,”

“I know. I’m sorry too,” you said, wiping your face with your sweater. He nods and takes his chance. Just one final moment before you walk away from his life forever. You cried as he embraced you, one final moment of love before you turned into strangers again. He lets go of you too soon and kisses your cheek.

“I’m really sorry,”

“I have to go,”

Eddie nods, trying to contain himself. This was what he wanted right? What he worked so hard for in those weeks? He watches your car speed out of the driveway and finally lets go. Was it too much to ask to finally be happy and content? Was he too greedy for even wanting you in his life? He would never know.

-

The school year ends and you haven’t spoken to him since you left his trailer. There were shy glances, tight-lipped smiles, and nods that you shared. Eddie was known as the school dealer now. You graduated high school with Steve and he doesn’t. He failed all of his subjects when you broke up. What was the point anyway? It wasn’t like he was going to college.

College.

Just months ago, you were both dreaming of running away to New York or California. You, studying; him, playing at a local bar and working as a tattoo artist. He learned through the grapevine that you were going to California because it was farther from Indiana. He knew why. Everyone knew why and he was happy that you were finally getting what you wanted.

Over the summer, he’s seen moving trucks drive away from your house. He saw Jason Carver drive the car that you rode in when you went to the trailer. How was it that you were a stranger now? You were his just yesterday, laughing, kissing. He missed you. He will miss you and he knows that. He’ll look for your face in Hawkins but he knows that you’re probably not going to come back any time soon. The only person that he actually wished to stay was thousands of miles away but he couldn’t let go. He couldn’t help but think if you’d still be together, living in the apartment he saved up for, if he wasn’t such an asshole. He knows that soon, when you meet each other again, there'll be a welcoming smile, remembering all the good things.

But that will come after a long time of healing. For now, he settles with beguiling himself by writing songs about you that he’ll never sing; his great lost love.

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