#i wanna diiiieeeee

[imamonstr]

the only thing that’s keeping me alive

however, it looks like i’ll never reach such body☠︎︎

[nie-chceistniec]

[foaming-sea]

When I'm trying to study, my body is like why are you torturing uss?!?!! We need sleep!!! We need rest!!! We need to lie down!! Can't you feel the ache climbing up your spine!!

And then when I get in bed my brain is like why are you not studying?!!!! Exams!!!! Maths!!! Chemistry !!!! Physics!!!! Question banks!!! Homework!!! Concept booksss!!! Your infinite TBR!!! The burden of your ancestors!!!!!

Like fuck you, what do you both want from me?!

[chronicallyuniconic]

If I were dead, that would really show them

How much pain constantly runs through my body

How heavy the fatigue sits inside my bones

How often I'm silent about the above

How i physically might look fine, but inside I'm crying, screaming, trapped underwater

How frequent I'm at the mercy of medical professionals that couldnt care about pain or fatigue

How i cannot push through pain and fatigue, it is always there and it will not stop

How scrambled my brain is from dealing with this, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week

How pain free I would be, if I weren't here

How I'd never experience this weight of fatigue, if I weren't here

How happy id feel if I weren't here

How free I'd finally be, free from me

[randilookssoblue]

Does anyone actually know how to cry for help? Is anyone actually capable of making themselves heard when they feel like they're dying?

I feel like if I looked as sick as I am, people would be more willing to help. Like if they're worried physically, then for once they'll belive me when I say I'm struggling mentally. I just want someone to trust that I really can't do it anymore when I say that I can't.

I need help. I want help. I feel like I'm screaming into the void and I have a whole audience of people around me just watching. I feel like if I die it won't be a surprise, like a gladiator in the ring, they'll only be sad because they have nothing to gawk at anymore.

[insanegirlbloging]

i fucked my way up to the top

[endlessmidnights]

The water’s running red,

I’m dizzy in the head,

Now I think I’m dead,

There’s nothing more to be said.

[waitaminuteashh]

need prentiss to walk over me in those heeled boots she wears. please and thank you

[the-world-of-anna]

Baby I know you used it to unlove me...

Please,send me the link, I'm needing it for you...

[endless-nightshift]

Step 1: be transmasc (and also probably disabled)

Step 2: get job doing manual labor

Step 4: be on your period despite being 2 years on T

Step 5: work 8h shifts

Step 6: take multiple painkillers throughout the day to survive your shift (NSADs, Acetaminophen ect. ect. Non-opioids cause your afraid of opioids and also it's not that bad)

Step 7: go home and take of your binder

Step 8: be overwhelmed by what you think is pain inausea and a tummy ache or maybe cramps?

Step 9: lay down and don't move for 6hrs

Repeat.

[agonyfiend]

Knowing that some day I'll just km/s no matter what happens, good or bad, ironically gives me the confidence to do the things I never would've had the courage to do before

[deadth-angel]

Chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć chcę umrzeć. Czy jest ktoś chętny na zabicie mnie????

[alondrashultz]

SPOILERS THE BAD BATCH

Bro i can't really believe that Tech is gone...

I know it's impossible for him to be alive, but I still have hope, maybe Hemlock saved him somehow, I'm starting to come up with stupid theories because of the mourning.

Pongan "sin ti" de los panchos banda, se nos fué 😭

[amialiveorjustfalling08]

decided to go long boarding instead of cvtting cause yk need to practice healthy coping skills. i bailed on it and i want to do it again. on purpose tho cause the surprise and the rush of adrenaline adds to the pain.

[forgottenfeesh]

I want to practice drawing stuff

But whenever I try to I keep getting annoyed at how bad it is and getting rid of it.

And the only way to get better is practicing.

So now I’m in a infinite loop of being bad at art.

[la-lil-alien]

I feel like I fucked shit up beyond repair.