I feel like one of the things I don't see talked about enough in omorashi is like. when you're nearing the final stages of desperation just. the way it truly feels like your body is fighting itself?
your stomach muscles are contracting and you're practically shaking with the effort of holding it in because you know you can't go yet
it's a push and pull, back and forth, and truly all you can think about is how long it's going to be before one of them finally breaks (and it will be whatever willpower is keeping the flood in, because there's no way the desperation is easing otherwise)
Idk I feel like it's one of those things that's definitely alluded to a lot but is never really the focus of fics and it's absolutely one of my favourite experiences! and I know there's some omo enjoyers out there that don't like doing it irl so for you guys: just know that there's a special kind of headiness that comes when you reach that point of desperation that absolutely is not exaggerated! I don't often do holds that reach extreme desperation, but on the rare occasions I do them. holy shit. that is all
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see theres this weird relationship i have with the concept of Being A Child. like idk if its the trauma (its probably the trauma) or if ive got some other bullshit going on but like. idk if i get equated to a child in any way my brain sorta freaks out a lil bit trying to decide how we feel cause we either a) feel kinda like. melancholic-but-also-weirdly-comforted about it or b) it stresses us the FUCK. OUT
initially i thought we were just like. an agedreamer or something but that doesnt really seem right now because it doesnt exactly Help, per se, but it kinda also doesnt make me feel like. Bad. its kinda like when you hit your funny bone on something and you get that kinda weird tingly pain that if youre in a weird enough mood feels actually kinda fun
but like its Anything relating to young-childhood/infancy. its dodies and those thick cardboard story books and those other thick cardboard books that had those little cutout pieces you had to fit in to slots on the 'pages' and those nursery rhyme/fairy tail-based books that were all like. colourful and illustrated in that specific way that you kinda just Know (i can explain perfectly what this one book i had when i was way younger and read all the time looked like) and its younger-centric wordsearches and colouring pages and those fabric music boxes-that-arent-boxes and cribs and those old-ass shows like animal mechanicals and special agent oso (that i still remember for reasons unknown. pretty sure animal mechanicals enraptured the SHIT out of my playschool-aged brain) and yk?
and to be quite frank i dont actually really know what to do because sometimes (especially with colouring pages and activity sheets and fabric music not-boxes (though to an admittedly lesser extent) and MAYBE the shows and stuff) its more the positive end of the feeling but i cant even begin to pinpoint anything else
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Yknow what i dont understand? The— what i perceive— unneeded censorship on words like kill or suicide. Like, thats a tiktok thing. Theres no need to walk on eggshells on other sites(there may be exceptions idk im not very present in social media) and especially no need to be acting as such in a place like tumblr. Ive seen so many fics with warnings of suicide being censored as sewerslide which is funny but i personally just dont get it. Killing is killing. Suicide is(unfortunately) suicide. Both are negatively connotative, i just dont see a need to censor them? It just feels stupid lol
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For decades, the blank vision that Iudex Neuvillette wears near his heart has been subject to much discussion in Fontaine. Nobody remembers who it had once belonged to or why the ancient dragon protected it so jealously. It is said that if the Chief Justice would to stare at it for a long while, it would be sure to rain right after. Oh, how beloved that person must've been.
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I think this is one of my favorite lines from the Wraith route because of (imo) how much the meaning changes depending on if you got there via Spectre or Nightmare.
For Spectre, it honestly strikes me as a genuine question. Why are you doing this to her? If you're on the Spectre route, you presumably already know the Narrator can't really be trusted, since you had to reject his reward to get here. What are you hoping to gain from continuing to hurt her?
For Nightmare, it honestly just makes me sad. As the Shifting Mound describes her, "She desires only companionship, but the only thing she knows is how to hurt." This line feels like a plea from someone who genuinely doesn't understand why you keep rejecting her. She wants to be with you, but she just can't understand how to do that in a way which doesn't hurt you.
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PAYDAY
aka a valentine for the lovely @itsnotmystic / @corvids-calling - fanart for stars fic of the same name, which you can read here !!! i really enjoyed this concept and wanted to do some art for it :3 hope you like it because i REALLY loved your work & i hope this shows that !!! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY !!!!
this is also a loose love-letter to the wonderful @arginnit 's crazy background-drawing-ability and style/skill at portraying environments . wadds your stuff is insane and i love it
happy @mcyt-valentines exchange !!!!
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I HATE tiktok and the Internet in general rn for the obsession with "oh this person's smellyyy" "Brother it STINKS over here" "BOO 💧🧼🧽🚿" and stuff like that. I wish I could put into words how demeaning and patronising that whole idea is and people implying anyone they don't like doesn't wash.
For one there's something grating about being insulted in a manner like we're in nursery again. But also WHY is that the go to insult. Why do you associate these things? Especially to those you deem "chronically online". Like I don't want to sound pathetic but it feels so nasty to me.
is it extreme to say this feels tied to ableism? And classism too?
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