So I've been thinking lately about how Mithrun is Kabru's dark mirror (more on that another time- it needs its own post), and I thought it interesting that one of their parallels is that they were both cared for by Milsiril, but in opposite directions. She took Kabru in as her foster after he was orphaned and tried to convince him not to become an adventurer. On the flip side, she helped rehabilitate Mithrun specifically so that he could rejoin the Canaries.
And I kept wondering: why?
For Kabru, obviously she loves him a whole lot- despite any other shortcomings in their relationship, I do believe that.
So I get why she tries to convince him not to go dungeoning, and, failing that, at least prepares him as thoroughly as she can.
But why help Mithrun? She used to hate Mithrun, but after realizing what a secretly twisted person he was, she actually thought of him more positively (oh, Milsiril). So it wasn't as if she held the kind of grudge that might motivate her to make his already-depleted life even more miserable by sending him back to the dungeons. And it wasn't that she felt bad for him either, since she didn't visit Mithrun for the first ~20 years of his recovery.
The Adventurer's Bible says that Utaya was the impetus for Mithrun returning to the Canaries, but Milsiril is the one who made the trip to see him and tell him about it.
Why would Milsiril work so hard to get her old coworker back into fighting fit? Why encourage him to return to such a dangerous lifestyle, when she was the one who chose not to mercy-kill him?
That last panel is such a crazy thing to hint at and then never elaborate on. Without it we could have just thought that Milsiril wanted the Canaries' work to continue without her, even if it seemed out of character. I think some people even assume she's just a natural caretaker as a foster mom and handwave it to include nursing Mithrun too. What could Milsiril's suspicious motives be? What does she gain from Mithrun joining the Canaries that isn't an altruistic desire to see dungeons safely sealed? Feeling a sense of responsibility for the work she left behind isn't an ulterior motive.
My theory is: Milsiril, knowing that Mithrun was empty save for the burning desire to face the demon again, wound him up like a clockwork doll and pointed him back at the dungeons.
Hoping that he'd eliminate the biggest threat to Kabru's life, before it was too late for him.
Milsiril the puppetmaster.
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"Oh no, someone's attracted to the aesthetics of my -punk movement but doesn't know the praxis and history behind it like I do--"
OK. Tell them. Make it a teaching moment. Everyone who's in your movement learned the background from somewhere at some point, maybe this is that point for that person. Give them a jumping off point that they can dive into later.
"Oh but I shouldn't be responsible for teaching baby -punks about the history and the how-tos and--"
OK. Then don't tell them. You don't have to be responsible for teaching people with a budding interest in your group the ins and outs and how-tos. That's fair and valid! It can be a lot of work. Someone else will handle it
"But I'm annoyed that they would try to claim to be part of/be interested in my community without knowing all the details that I know after being in it for months/years/decades, they're dumb, they're posers, they're--"
OK. Then don't engage with them, if it's that bad. Maybe someone else will come around and tell them the history, maybe they'll pick it up on their own, maybe they'll just enjoy the fashion elements for awhile.
"But they shouldn't claim to be part of the -punk community if they don't know the--"
I feel like we have a few options here. People can either talk to them, share the history, share the values, share the praxis. Or they can just chase off anyone who even thinks about dipping a toe in their community, and then wonder why it's dying off later down the line.
I dunno, maybe I'm too naive and patient or whatever. But if people are entering your -punk spaces without knowing The Rundown of what you feel they need to know, maybe being nice about it and informing people instead of immediately assuming stupidity and malicious intent could help you make a new friend. Even the loudest voices in a space had to learn from somewhere, and not everyone has the luxury of being in the space as the History was Happening--whether it's an age thing or a not being aware of the space thing. Or maybe I just don't see what the big deal is behind people hating people who like the aesthetic of something and don't know the behind the scenes history about it yet.
Because I believe in the word 'yet.' No one comes into this world knowing everything about everything, and we're all constantly learning new things. I'm not gonna degrade someone and call them a poser for not knowing what I know. Because if it were me, interested in a scene but getting chased out and called a poser? I wouldn't hit the books and study up, I'd go 'that fuckin sucks, those people sucked' and then avoid anyone and anything having to do with it.
So chase people off and call them posers if you want. But if your community starts dwindling, don't be fucking shocked.
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Annoys the fuck out of me when people in positions of authority at my work from home job are like “we should all get together in person, it’s so beneficial.” To you. And you can go in whenever you want. But why do I have to travel for 12 hours when I don’t find it beneficial (in fact I find it actively damaging)? Extroverts always win. Morning people always win. In person workers always win. Fucking sick of it
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As a trauma survivor. And someone who continues to undergo trauma daily in many forms. I understand this more than I'd like to admit.
I've become very quiet. I've become even more introverted than I ever was before. More focused on healing. Diving deeper into my spirituality. Going to therapy. Doing shadow work. Because healing is so important.
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Love Lettered
In matters of love, the pen proves mightier than the sword. Or:
Ever since Lucerys turned six and ten years of age, Aemond has been sending him anonymous letters for the better part of two years. He finally gets one back.
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Love Lettered: short comic alluding to Aemond’s socially awkward attempts at courting Prince Lucerys when he comes of age because he wants to be proper and non-lecherous about it, unlike his brother and father. He sends an assortment of small gifts with his ‘anonymous’ letters—notably: dried flowers, exotic and fragmented soaps, candies he knows Lucerys favored in childhood, large pearls heavy enough to heft in the palm, and an ornate black and gold dagger decorated with pearls as an acknowledgment of Lucerys’ “achievements” and indicating that he no longer resents him for it. The letters’ contents vary from awkwardly earnest love poems, curt comments, to expressing the desire to touch, see, and have him. Aemond is proficient in many things, but clearly not this. Luke deduces pretty quickly that it is his uncle, seeing as every letter starts with “My Lord Strong”, but he finds it endearing and the gifts to be sufficient.
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Drew a little comic of Gohan and Piccolo inspired by Gohan getting a telescope for his birthday during the Cell Saga filler! (Astronomers, please don't come after me if I got any science wrong 😭🙏Ex. I know Gohan basically implies the planet is emitting light but it could also mean the suns that were probably “born” with it when it was wished there!)
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It sucks so much when you work so hard for something and give it all you got and you do everything you can, but it still doesn't work out and you still fail.
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