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dr4cking · 3 years

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hey ☝️☝️can i maybe req an angst fic T_T where reader and draco r in an arranged marriage but draco is still in love with his ex (that he had to leave) and reader falls in love with draco yk.. but overtime draco falls in love with y/n but never told her or smthng BUT THENN reader maybe bumps into someone else and she slowly falls in love with someone else… then yk thise pureblood galas draco can see reader sneaking glances at her “friend” which shes in love with i hope this make sense??? BYEE (dont make y/n cheat tho.. so YEAH LOL) no pressure u dont need to do this! bave a hreat day!!!

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draco malfoy x reader | angst |

a/n : hii! thank you for requesting i love this idea! <3 note this is the first time and would be the last time i wrote this long 😁🙄

October 8th, 2005

the pair stood in the altar, holding hands together. this was supposed to be the day that all couple had always been wishing.

but in their faces, they held nothing as they told each other the vows.

draco’s eyes roaming around looking for someone that should’ve been here with him. his dearly girlfriend, astoria greengrass.

then he found her, sitting at the front row with her sister beside her, he has to hold the tears that started to build up in his eyes the more he stares at her.

“do you draco lucius malfoy, take this woman y/f/n to be your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, in sickness and in health, in good times and woe, for richer or poorer, keeping yourself solely to her for as long as you both shall live?

the repetition snapped him back to the reality, he stares at his bride blankly before taking the last look at his girlfriend, mouthing ‘i love you’. the girl gives him a reassuring smile.

draco took a deep breath before answering, this is it. the moment that will change his life forever.

“I do.”

“I now pronounce you husband and wife, you may kiss the bride.”

the kiss was only lasted a second, it was just a simple peck on the lips.

it’s official, now they are married to each other. this should’ve been a happy day, but for them, its not.

>>>>>

that was a year ago.

y/n is a woman who’s holding to her words. even though their marriage was arranged, but she still did the rights as a wife, that included loving her husband.

there were no force, she just let it happened, she just let it flow. after all, love cant be forced.

even though draco never dreamed of marrying other girl except his first love, it doesnt mean he would have to hate her, he would blame everything on her. no, at least he still tolerable towards her.

“how is your day, draco?” y/n greets her husband as he just got home from work, she helped him taking off his suit.

“good, like usual” draco gives her a tired smile as he take a seat on the couch to relax his body.

she nodded before making her way to the kitchen, making him a cup of tea.

“do you want me to give you a massages? you look exhausted..” she gave him the tea, he took it gladly and drink it.

“please, that would be so lovely” she chuckles at him before getting behind him, her hands slowly massage his back making him leaned into her touch.

after that y/n take him to their bedroom, making a warm tub for draco and give him his pajamas.

as draco finished in the bathroom, he saw her sitting on the edge of the bed waiting for him to join her.

“thank you y/n, i appreciate it.” he gives her a small kiss on her forehead before joining the bed, his eyes slowly drifted off to a deep sleep.

she admires his face, he looks so peaceful when he’s sleeping, everyone has no doubt to say that he is a handsome man.

her cheeks heated as she remembers the way he kissed her forehead, she touched it with her hand, giggling quietly feeling the butterflies erupted in her stomach.

she let that moment running free in her mind before finally joining his sleep.

“astoria..” y/n wake up when she heard rustlings from beside her, she sits straightly as she saw draco moving uncomfortably in his sleep, she was about to wake him until she heard another sentence left his lips.

“please dont go astoria, i love you..”

her world feels like stop spinning when she heard that from her unconscious husband, if only the world could hear the shattered sounds from her heart.

she held the thought about waking him up. minutes passed, draco finally getting comfortable and relax in his sleep.

deciding to take some air, she let her feet bringing her downstairs.

y/n sat on the couch watching some muggles program in the tv with an ice cream in her hand.

she takes a look at the clock, it was 3 in the morning but she cant back to sleep, not after her heart just got broken.

then she heard footsteps coming downstairs. she looked up and find draco who clearly still look sleepy.

“why are you not sleeping?” he asked as he takes a seat beside her.

“i can’t really sleep” she replied half-lie to her husband. draco just hummed, joining her watching session.

“want some?” she offered raising a spoon full of ice cream, he laughed and nodding at her. she gladly feed him the ice cream.

“hmm.. thats good, what flavor is it?”

“cookies and cream, my favorite” draco nodded at her not really sure how to answer her.

>>>>>

the next day they do the routine, y/n making breakfast and draco was getting ready to work.

“draco, may i ask something?” he dropped his fork as he finished eating, fully listening to his wife.

“go ahead, y/n”

“uhm- i was wondering if you could be home early.. i’m planning to make a special dinner for us to you know, celebrating our first anniversary..” she nervously asked hoping that draco wont rejects her.

draco seems to have a moment thinking about her offer, he took a big sigh and gives her a smile.

“sure.”

“really?” y/n was beyond excited as soon as she heard him agreeing.

“yeah, maybe its time for us to get to know each other” he cant lie if he said his heart isnt breaking when he said that, his mind wondering to astoria, he hadnt seen her for so long.

y/n clapped her hands happily making him laughed softly. he takes a look on his watch and quickly standing up.

“its time for work, see you tonight” he took her hand in his bringing it to his lips and he kissed it softly making her cheeks heated.

>>>>>

the dinner was set. draco keeps his promise and come back home earlier like y/n asked.

“it tastes so good. you’re a great cooker y/n” he hummed happily at the food she made. y/n was smiling ear to ear.

“well thank you for the compliment. i’m glad you enjoyed it, mr. malfoy” they both laughed at her words.

they talked and get to know each other for the night. draco cant help but feels that his heart melted as he understands her better.

now they were in the bathroom, getting ready for bed. when suddenly draco wrapped his hands around her waist startling her.

“y/n.. i have something to tell you” he looked at her in the mirror, her face was flushed due to his sudden action.

“what is it, draco?” she could feel her breath hitched when she answered him.

“my parents, they sent me a letter last week..”

“yeah? what did they say?” she looked back at him through the mirror, she was getting nervous when she saw the expression on his face.

“they- they asked about an heir..” he clears his throat, whispering the last words unsure of her reaction.

y/n froze for a seconds, her mind is flipping around at the thought of finally having her own little family. she closed her eyes letting the butterflies flying around in her stomach before turning around to meet his face.

“i’m ready”

“wait- are you sure y/n? this is a big decision” draco search for hesitation in her eyes but he found nothing.

“i’m sure if you are sure about this too.” she replied hooking her arms around his neck.

draco gives her a warm smile before pulling her for a kiss, for the first time in their marriage. the tension between them was magical when their lips finally met.

he slowly let themselves to the bed. dropping their body on it as the kiss got rougher and the room became hotter.

———

“f-fuck astoria..”

y/n stilled, her breath got caught in her throat as she heard her husband moaning ‘her’ name. draco freezes when he realized at what he just said.

“y/n i-”

“i need to go to the bathroom, draco” she quickly picks up her clothes and runs to the bathroom.

draco cursed himself at what he did, he didnt meant to do it, her face just crossed his mind reminding him of what they used to have before.

he puts on his clothes back, rubbing his face in regret. he just hurt her.

y/n let tears streaming down her face as she stares at herself in the mirror, she looked pathetic. what she wanted is just to be loved by her husband.

“how could i be so stupid?” she whispers to herself taking a deep breath at realization. letting herself crying in the bathroom before deciding to go back.

>>>>>

days passed by, theyre still not talking to each other after that incident, draco has tried reaching off to her but she always shut him down.

“listen y/n, i’m really sorry about what happened.. it just came out like that, please forgive me.. we dont have to do it if we’re both not ready.” he was pleading at her, grabbing her wrist tightly as she walked past him.

y/n sigh and turns around, looking at his face. regret and concern filling his eyes.

“okay fine..” she shrugged her shoulders, she was still heartbroken but she couldn’t ignore her husband any longer.

draco finally let a relief breath and pulling her for a hug. he was scared that he would lost her but she was too kind to leave him just like that.

“thank you y/n.. i promise i’m trying” y/n nodded at him, stroking his back gently before pulling away.

“let me take you somewhere to spend the day together okay, i wanna make it up to you”

they ended up in an ice cream shop after getting breakfast in some cafe, y/n told draco to go first to the store because she needed to check on something.

then she found it, her wallet. she was too hassle holding her cup of coffee on her hand and a wallet on her free hand. she turns around to follow draco but only to bumped into a person making her coffee spilled onto the person in front of her.

“shit! i’m so sorry sir!” she widens her eyes as her coffee staining all over his shirt.

the man finally looked at her, he was about to snap but he hold his voice when he saw her face.

“oh- its okay miss, its my fault too.”

y/n was lost in her mind as she studying his face. his soft deep voice ringing in her ears.

he’s such a sight for sore eyes. for a second she forget the reality. captivated by his green eyes she couldnt help but feels her heart beating faster. until the man snapped his fingers in front of her and laughed.

“right- yeah sorry.. please kind sir let me buy you a new shirt” she slowly back at reality, pulling out her wallet.

“its justin calderone. and dont worry about it you dont have to i’m fine with it, miss-?”

“y/n” she replied, her intonation was still hesitant, feeling bad for him.

“yeah y/n please dont worry about it, its truly fine.” the man shook her hand before pulling up the zipper on his jacket to cover up his staining shirt.

they both still made no move to separated but y/n quickly remembers that draco is still in the store.

“i’m sorry justin i really have to go, it was nice to meet you and once again i’m sorry about your shirt” she gives her an apologetic smile before finally be the one to leave. the man just nodded returning the smile and continuing his walk again.

“what happened y/n, are you okay?” draco asked as y/n finally meet him in the store, he saw the whole accident from the store.

“yeah, i just spilled all of my coffee onto his shirt, but he was so kind and didn’t let me buy him a new one” he was about to confront her about the way she was flushed around him but he decided to let it go.

“here, cookies and cream. your favorite.” he handed y/n her ice cream making a smile plastered back onto her face.

———

the day went so fast, after getting ice cream they take a walk together and stopping at the nearest park. they both sat near the lake.

draco and y/n spend their time together forgetting about the incident from the other night, they talked and laughed for hours.

“no way you did that y/n!” draco laughs when she told him about how she and the weasley twins pranked dolores umbridge when they were still in hogwarts.

“you should’ve seen her face draco, the twins pranked her really bad that she was in a bad mood for the whole day. i was lucky enough to not get in trouble” she joined his laughter, holding her stomach as she remembered the funny moments from her school year.

draco cant help but feel his heart fluttering at her laugh, he finds it really brightens the mood. he was studying her face his mind wondering if he had met her first. he shook his head and chuckles as he saw a single tear coming out from her eyes because she was laughing too hard.

“i love you, draco.” he freezes feeling his heart jumped out of his heart when he heard her saying it to him.

he was looking anywhere but her eyes, trying to find the perfect words to answered her. y/n know it was too good to be true so she just smiling sadly.

“i know. i’m sorry” she understood what he means but doesnt mean it didnt hurts.

“i promise i’m trying. it’ll be soon”

they stay silence until they heard crying sounds coming from behind them. they turns around only to find a little boy running to their direction.

“hey little guy, whats wrong?” y/n said worriedly getting to his level.

“i lost my mom- i was getting a candy there but then mommy was nowhere to be seen” the boy rambling and cry harder, she feels her heart breaking at his cry.

“hey hey dont cry i promise we will find your mom” she tried to calm him she asked draco to look after him while she goes looking for the little boy’s mother.

draco smiles when he saw how she was so caring around children, his smile got bigger when he imagining y/n with their child.

he sat the little boy down on the bench. reassuring him that everything will be okay.

“hugo!” a voice called out making he turns his head.

the boy run to his mother immediately crying and hugging her legs.

“granger?” draco is shocked when he saw one of his -used to be- enemies.

“yes draco, the boy is hermione’s. oh my god i cant believe we meet again” y/n answered him before pulling hermione for a quick hug.

draco just rubbed the back of his neck, finding this situation is really awkward but hermione already got it and laughed it off.

“its okay draco, we were just kids back in the school” he laughed it off to at hermione’s answer.

they catched up for awhile before they going back to their own homes.

later that night, draco and y/n snuggling onto the bed, reading a book together but y/n already went to sleep because she was too tired.

he closed the book and put it back on the nightstand before getting under the covers. he studied her beauty. y/n is a nice girl and he blamed himself as to why his heart doesnt wanna open up to her. he sighed and wrapped her in his arms letting the sleepiness took the best of him.

the morning after y/n woke up with the brightest smile on her face when she realized draco’s hands were around her waist.

maybe, maybe this will be the chance to start over their marriage.

>>>>>

draco is off to work. y/n was getting bored and decided to go outside for some fresh air.

she decided to went back to the ice cream shop for a little break.

she was enjoying her ice cream until a voice interrupted her. she looked up and find the same guy from yesterday.

“hi y/n, we meet again.. i’m sorry to disturb you but can i sit here? all the seats are full” justin asked holding his ice cream on his hand.

“oh hi justin! you’re not disturbed me. of course, please take a seat.”

they opened the conversation and talked about their life, introducing to each other.

“so you’re from durmstrang? how come i’ve never seen you in triwizard champions?” y/n asked still eating her ice cream. the feeling of her heart beat faster was coming back to her.

“oh i’ve never got invited. i’m bad at sport and i’m not so popular” justin chuckles somehow she found his voice making her happy. she shakes her head in disbelief.

she nods at him changing the topic. the more time she spent with him the happier she gets although she was trying so hard to deny it but it just happened.

“oh you’re married” justin said looking at her hand then back up to her eyes.

“yeah i’ve been married for a year” she explained, she swore to herself that she almost sees a hint of disappointment look in his face but he quickly brushed it off.

“you dont look happy tho.. i mean-”

“no no you’re right, i wasn’t at the first time. it was arranged but yeah now i’m used to it. its not like he is a bad husband” y/n cut him off staring at her ring, her eyes widened as she realizes, draco.

“oh my god.. i’m sorry justin i lost track of time! i have to be home right now. it was nice hanging out with you. see you again someday.” she grabbed her stuff hurrying back home after hearing justin gives her permission to go.

she walked faster knowing draco would be home by any time soon. but then she stopped when she spotted a familiar blonde hair in a cafe sitting with- with astoria greengrass.

she stilled in her steps, watching the scene in the cafe, no they didnt do anything but it just hurts to see draco meeting his old lover, and he looks much happier.

he never even looks that happy when he was with her.

y/n quickly made her way to home before getting caught by draco. she feels really stupid right now.

but little did she know whats truly happening in there.

“how is y/n, dray?” astoria asked sipping her apple juice.

“she’s doing really great, i’m happy with her.” draco replied with no doubt.

it was weird that now he met his past but he doesnt feel anything anymore. even before knowing she already married to another man.

“well that’s good to hear, i’m happy for you as well.” she replied with a genuine smile.

“i’m happy for you too. i hope theo treats you better and makes you the happiest.”

“thank you draco. he makes me the happiest i’ve ever been.” draco look at his watch and outside before gathering his stuff.

“it’s getting late, tori. i should be home now. send my greetings to theo.” astoria waved him a goodbye before making her way out of the cafe too.

draco doesn’t know why he was so eager to come home. he misses y/n, long day at work and not seeing her. he thinks he was get used to having her around.

“hi y/n. how was your day?” he asked her as he got home, taking off his cloak.

“hi draco. its good how about you?” she gets up from the couch doing her routine, giving him his tea.

“its quite hectic today.”

hectic, he said. y/n laughed sarcastically to herself.

draco get on the couch drinking the tea, his eyebrows furrowed in confusion.

“you’re not staying?” he asked as he sees her making her way to their room.

“no, i’m tired.” he flinched at her tone, he wants to chase her and ask her what’s gotten into her but he just shrugged it off thinking she was really tired.

>>>>>

for the past few days, y/n has been grew distant. it was now only a quick “good morning” and a tired “good night”.

draco was losing his mind, all he wanted is to wrap her in his arms and tell her how much he misses her. but he cant.

y/n was out saying she needs to buy some groceries. draco was waiting at home holding out an invitation on his hand.

———

y/n was getting some groceries with a trolley. she was looking for some sauce but she bumped into someone, again.

she looks up and find the same person she bumped into when they first met.

“justin!” she shouted laughing at their situation.

“y/n, oh my god we really have to stop meeting like this..” justin chuckles picking up the sauce that she dropped to the floor.

“want me to help you shopping?” he offered and y/n gives him a nod with a happy smile, her heart beat faster as they walked next to each other.

then it hits her.

for the first time in her life, she felt alive.

no, no! she shouldn’t have feeling this way. she’s married, but like she said before, love cant be forced.

>>>>>

“y/n! where have you been? i was so worried that something happened to you.” draco quickly approaching her as soon as she entered the house.

“i’m sorry draco. i got so lost in time getting all of these..” she apologized. shit, now she feels guilty for him.

“just dont do that again.” he lead her to the couch after helping her with the groceries.

“here.” he gives her the invitation and placed it on her hand.

“what is it?”

“there’s a gala held by this saturday. and i want you to come with me as my wife.” y/n feels her heart melted at his words but the scene of him and astoria came back to her mind.

“of course, i’ll be there for you.”

>>>>>

draco was waiting for y/n downstairs. its the day, the gala.

y/n is still in their room, finishing off her makeup and hair. after what feels like forever, she finished the last touch. twirling her body in front of the mirror to check her look.

then she walked downstairs, her heels clicking off the stairs making draco looked up to her, he froze in his seat.

tell her draco, tell her she looks breathtaking.

do it, show her that she’s succeded getting inside your heart and have a special place in there.

“you look nice.” he lets out that words instead, cursing himself mentally when he couldnt even compliment her the right way.

“oh, thanks. you dont look bad yourself too” she answered, theres a hint of hurtful in her voice and he blamed himself for it.

they apparated to the gala. seeing all their friends made it to the gala too, catching up with them.

draco gives her a wine, keeping her close to him while he talked to some of their friends.

y/n was feeling bored and her eyes looking around to find her friends but instead, she found him. justin calderone standing next to the drinks.

it was too late for her to look away, he already caught her. their eyes glued into each other for a few seconds before their cheeks heated in embarassment. he smiles at her which make her heart flutters.

but what they didnt realize is that draco beside her was watching the two of them.

watching how y/n gave him a longing look to him. the man she met when they were in the ice cream shop.

he watched how her cheeks heated when he threw her a smile.

he watched how she gets flustered and was shifting uncomfortably.

he wanted to let it go, thinking he was delusional but he saw it with his own eyes.

and when y/n made a reason to go outside to look for some air, he knew he had lost her.

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i’m emotional rn so i posted this lol idc

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One Last Night In Madripoor

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Rating: 18+

Word Count: 4200~

Still Some Catching Up To Do

Synopsis: As a member of the criminal underworld, people walk out of your life all the time. Some are killed, others kill themselves, most get caught and only a couple get out of the life unscathed, disappearing into the world never to be seen again. Very few walk back in. So when your supposedly incarcerated ex-lover, the Winter Soldier, and the Falcon waltzed through your door and made you murder your boss, needless to say, you were surprised and more than a little bit pissed.

Rating: 16+

Word Count: 6800~

Nine Years Starved

Synopsis: It had been a little over nine years since Helmut Zemo lost his family, his country, and his sanity. Nine years since his last kiss. Nine years since he felt like a human man. Finally, he was ready to start over again, but first, he had to pay his penance back where it all began; Novi Grad. That’s when, by the grace of the fates, he met you.

Rating: G

Word Count: 7000~

Daddy Dearest

Synopsis: Not everyone gets lucky enough to go from being a broke college student in New York to being the sugar baby to literal royalty, but not everyone is you. Most people would be worried about messing things up or losing him to someone else, but you knew he would never find another baby just like you. Besides, you knew exactly what to do to keep him wrapped around your little finger. He may have been the daddy, but you pulled the reins.

Rating: 18+

Word Count: 8000~

In Fleeting Touches & Airy Sighs

Part One Part Two Part Three Part Four

Synopsis: As a wanted man, Helmut Zemo spends most of his time jumping from place to place in the hopes of avoiding a trip back to prison. Unfortunately, that means he can’t always be home in your arms. When he is, though, in the rare moments of calm, you’re reminded of just how worth it it’s been to wait, even if that wait was only shortened by the arrival of your enemies.

Rating: 18+

Word Count: 35,700~

Two Bodies In The Rain

Synopsis: It was raining the day you finally had to admit your feelings to Helmut. You hated to tell him the way you did, under the grey skies as your blood pooled below you, but at least you knew, in the end, he had seen the real you, even just once. That was enough.

Rating: T

Word Count: 5600~

Rest

Synopsis: Living life on the lam with your escaped super-villain lover means things rarely slow down enough for a real rest. When the exhaustion starts to take its toll on you, though, he knows exactly what to do to ease the pain. He may not be a good man, but he’s a good husband when it counts.

Rating: T

Word Count: 3200~

American Horror Story

Jimmy Darling

Red Nights In Jupiter

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Word Count: 3000~

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Heartsick

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Word Count: 3700~

In Sickness And In Health

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Word Count: 5500~

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Young Artist!Zemo AU

Chapter One: The Boy With The Easel

Synopsis: About a month into your first semester at Novi Grad’s top university, you finally meet the strange young man that you’ve taken to calling “easel boy” in the back of a bookshop. From a distance, he always seemed cold and aloof. As you get to know him, though, you realize things aren’t always what they seem.

Rating: T

Word Count: 7000~

Till Forever Falls Apart (A Peter Maximoff/Reader Series)

Chapter One: Welcome Home

Synopsis: As if getting thrown through the multiverse, trapped in an attic (albeit a cool one), mind-controlled to manipulate his grieving sister, and subsequently dragged out of Westview “for his own safety” by the FBI wasn’t enough, Peter Maximoff has now been shipped off to New York to live with a glorified baby sitter like some tragic orphan in a comic book until they find a way to get him back home. Things are not always as they seem, though, and this change might just be for the better.

Rating: T

Word Count: 2400~

Chapter Two: The Doctor Is In

Synopsis: Peter’s first few days in his new home are mostly uneventful, so he decides it’s the perfect time to dust off his running goggles and steal some shit. The building with the massive circular stained glass window seems like a great place to start! People with buildings that lavish are usually rich and weak, so what could possibly go wrong?

Rating: T

Word Count: 2800~

Chapter Three: It’s Always Been You

Synopsis: After a month of adapting to his new universe, Peter Maximoff can confidently say that he likes his new life more than his old one. Sure, he misses home sometimes, but he’s been far too busy flirting with his new roommate to spend time crying over the things he’s lost. Everything is smooth sailing until a strange journal in his roommate’s study leaves him with more questions than he knows what to do with. Now he’s on a mission to discover who he’s really living with before she has the chance to turn against him.

Rating: T

Word Count: 8600~

Chapter Four: Before You Go

Synopsis: Peter, after days of contemplation, has realized that part of him loves Y/N no matter what she is or what she’s been through. Unfortunately, he can’t find her anywhere. When she finally returns home with the intention of leaving again, Peter realizes it’s his last chance to tell her how he really feels. Will he succeed, or will he fail to be fast enough once again?

Rating: T

Word Count: 4000~

Chapter Four And A Half: Gimme Swayze

Synopsis: Now that the issue of Y/N leaving is out of the way, and Peter has finally kissed her, he falls into the motions of learning how to love someone for the first time. It’s easier than he thought it would be.

Rating: T

Word Count; 2600~

Cakes For The Evans: A Blogging And Baking Adventure!

Kai Anderson’s Disaster Cake

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sunsetpan0rama · 3 years

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love-hate anon here. So basically she's always been there to steal the spotlight. Biggest comparison. Biggest competition. Kisi se dosti ya dushmani ho aur sabko pta ho toh humesha ek doosre ke saath kehte hai. Aur isme toh comparison hota hi h. But the thing is she's been there for most of everything. Like trust me ppl felt weird when I wasn't straight. Like you like girls???jnsnsns?? Other than her. She went straight to judging me. Like her? We could find u a better one for sure. And like I talk to anyone it's more abt her than me. I'm always overshadowed. Gussa aata h. She's perfect at everything (she shows herself to be) and I'm here an idiot, no sense of anything. And I say this taking A LOT OF INCIDENTS IN ACCOUNT. And I could get better every day but like she's been my comparison forever. Even if I get great she'll be better. Idk. But still when someone tries to take her down I'll be there. My mom thought she was a bad influence. I worked 2 years to fix that image. Things I did, my mom thinks, that she is better. I tried. But it never matters here.

ok firstly, a lot of ur turmoil seems to be because you think that shes better than you. well i would like to say that shes not. no one is "better" than another person and saying that is stupid. u need to understand that shes not better than u. it may seem hard if you may think ur overshadowed by her. and if u cant get rid of those thoughts, then i feel like ur friendship will always be u feeling inferior, and thats just not good. u should NEVER feel inferior to your friends. if i were in ur place, i would distance myself because its very bad for mental health. i for one would not be able to take everyone comparing us all the time. also, have u talked to her about all this? if not, you should.

#please do not be in a friendship where u constantly feel inferior to the otherperson #thats just not healthy #asks

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silvenys · 3 years

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*gaSps* YOU LIARRRRR

I KNOW IM THINKING AHOUT CHANGING MY GOAL BECAUSE I DONT THINK IM GONNA REACH IT FUCKING SCHOOL GETTING IN THE WAY OF MY GOODREADS GOAL THATS INAPPROPRIATE AND RUDE OF THE SCHOOL SYSTEM TO DO TO ME

OH NO ITS OKAY ITS OKAY a new school would be absolutely horrendous I can see why and I’m sure friends are so confusing cause everyone already knows eachother and how lonely that would feel but at least you have all your cool and amazing online friends like me obviously and what about your other friends like the one that you came out to she seemed really nice, but is it cause she doesn’t go to your school? I guess you just have a lot of friends outside of school still? I’m not sure BUT YOURE GOOD RANT AS MUCH AS YOU NEED I DONT MIND IM ALSO DEPRESSED SO WE CAN BE DEPRESSED TOGETHER FOREVER TORTILLAS !!!!

I hate my school thanks for asking. I love my English class because we have been reading and annotating articles and writing summary’s about them and I enjoy that. Also I’m working on being a better writer so that’s good. I HATE US HISTORY AND I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA FAIL IT THEN NOT GRADUATE ON TIME IM SCARED ITS SO OVERWHELMING TOO and my other classes are horrible but that’s because it’s school and

ALSO A LITTLE RANT HERE schools really think they care about mental health and are like “put your mental health before school” NO BITCH IM GONNA FAIL MY CLASSES IF I DO THAT AND THEY REALLY DONT CARE BUT THEY SAY THEY DO

What do you need my brilliant advice about. My step by step advice by Tina ✨✨✨✨✨

i'm sly. 😎

IKR IR BUGS ME BECAUSE SCHOOLS ALWAYS BE LIKE 'oh read more' BUT DO THEY REALIZE IT TAKES TIME AND ENERGY THAT THEY DONT GIVE US

yeah heh new schools suck BUT YES THATS TRUE I HAVE YOU AND ALL MY AMAZINGLY COOL ONLINE FRIENDS oh idek i think it was just a one time thing because we don't talk anymore HAH NO I DONT i have three out of school friends one i'm not super close with and the other two are ignoring me YES THANK YOU DEPRESSED TORTILLA CLUB WHY THERAPY WHEN

TOGETHER FOREVER ITS RIA AND TINA *jazz hands* DEPRESSED!

oh that sucks :( OOH HEY AT LEAST ENGLISH IS GOOD AND YES WRITER TINA. IM SORRY HISTORY SUCKS IM SORRY THAT YOU FEEL OVERWHELMED AND I CANT SAY MUCH BUT IM HERE TAYLORS HERE AND YOUR GOING TO GRADUATE AND YOURE GOING TO PASS BECAUSE DO YOU WANT ACADEMIC VALIDATION OR NOT NINA but seriously don't burn yourself out are you using a good study schedule the ones that have ratiod break times with the amount of time you studied foe

IKR I KNOW THAT THEY SAY THAT THEY CARE AND MAYBE THEY DO BUT U SONT THINK THWY UNDERSTAND OR AEE WILLING TI HELP BECAUSE

so there's this girl who sits across from me on the bus and i'm planning on leaning over to her and ask if she has game pigeon and if she says yes i'm going to ask her to play since 'i forgot' my earbuds and if she says no i'll just say nvm and stare out my window I WANT TO DO IT BUT IS IT TI AWKWARD HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF SOMEONE DID THAT TO YOU LIKE A SHY NEW LONELY KID IDK IDK I DONT WANT TO MAKE HER FEEL OBLIGATED

#tina #asks

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delicioustrashlove · 3 years

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To me : a honest open letter to my self. deep breath and open up and express

What do you know . You went back there again and all though you held on super tight you couldn’t keep him could you? Of course not. You’ve lost your self every-time chasing him and you’ve never been able to catch him.

I thought I wouldn’t survive this one. I thought honestly I was not going to make something of my self . I whole heartedly was ready to give up . What ever happened happened and I could care less it’ll never be as bad as losing you. And I truthfully connived my self that my happiness only lied in your arms.

It took me so long to cry . Once I got back Colorado the reality of my new home, it was such a blur . For a while I pretended you died. To some how help my heart forget you. And thats all I wanted was to forget you. I deleted every picture and every single video .I blocked you on everything I could think of that youd have access to talking to me through . And for what . Just to black out once a week and tell you how much I miss you and that I love you . I drank my self silly . I mean every event every party every outing I had to be there I had to be anywhere but in reality . Because reality meant no you. It meant what once was and will never be again,, reality meant excepting my feelings. And I wanted so badly to be tough and strong. I’ve gotten my heart shattered a million times by you , you’d think I would get easier . It didnt it was worse . I was so fully invested in you that life didnt exist with out you in it . I didnt know what that felt like anymore . I was so wrapped up In you so blind to reality . Loving you meant losing my self . I lost my self 4 times a year for 5 years trying to keep your heart. I broke my own heart letting you back in to my life so many times . I knew better . But the love I had for you was so much stronger . I couldn’t stay away . I also revolved my entire world around you , so when you where gone I felt so literally like the world was ending . I lost my whole life . I realize now thats not healthy . You have to always prioritize your health and well being before anyone . You have to love you before you love anyone. So wed break up id self destruct then Id put all my pieces back together the ones you broke. Id fix my self and I would get back on track I was moving on I was happy then just like that . One phone call at 10pm where you clearly to drunk to remember the conversation id be on a plane. Drop my job my home my family My friends … quite literally everything just to be with you . Just to love you. All I ever did in this world was so unconditionally love you. I thought I could hate you I did for a while . But I dont anymore . You where apart of my journey and it almost killed losing you but it was supposed to happen . It was part of the plan that god has for me. You coming int o my life brought so much love and bond that ill never feel with anyone else . I will never love someone the way I let my self love you. And when the lesson has finally been learned only then I can move forward to the next chapter. And your purpose in my life was love and lots of lessons and lots of growing . You think god doest hear your heart crying you think he gave up on you ya know , but he never did. In the end you’ll see there was such bigger picture. 5 years I spent going back to you and leaving you. Why did I always go back ? Because loved you but I clearly wasn’t seeing what god prepared for me. He wouldn’t believe his lessons or fallow his guidance so he kept bring ing me back to you so I could relearn and remember why I left and well you might be my soulmate your not meant to be in my story forever . Only a couple chapters . And once you’ve served your purpose to my life that god wants me to have experienced and learned I will be able to move forward. I first must let you go . And I finally am starting to. I got so unhealthy and so sad and so stuck and caused so many health problems to my body . So much that was almost to much to prepare. But I made a choice one day . I chose my self , and not you. I chose to love me and not love you anymore. I commented intently to my family and I mean really gave it my all. I learned that no matter what my parents wouldn’t never leave mom behind .and im going to everything in my power to be a good girl to them and build our love and our relationship . And I think that was gods purpose all along. You cant keep whats not for you . And I didnt understand that when we parted ways. I accept that now . And I know as I continue to stay on the right path god has such beauty waiting ahead for me… look how much I loved you and all I did for you imagine how much I will love the right man. I did alot. Every time we break up I have to fix my self . But I know now its all apart of the journey . All those trials with you just made me stronger it made me braver it made me wiser and it made men grateful for the good ones. You breaking my heart was one of the best things to happen to me in the end. Because I never would stopped loving you I never would have left you behind. I would have always been your biggest fan and continued to love you till I ended up hating my self. You have the courage to set me free was the kindest thing you ever did for me. At the time I didnt get it but who I am now and what I ve accomplished for my self and how when you try really hard to be better and I mean really hard things kind of fall in to place. God smiles and says okay you deserve this you’ve learned you’ve grown . I manaaged to accomplish that goal of being close to my family . We are so close and we love trust and respect eachother so much . Our bond is very very strong . I managed to get my self too a doctor , I found out I complete sabotaged my health . And oh ya I have 14 allergies !!!! And some of the effects of those allergies after time has caused a harmful build up to where I was 3 years away form being diabetic , my thyroid completely stopped working . Amplifying my anxiety and my depression . The last month. I was in az i would get sick a lot . Id eat something and get sick . The problem was I was so fuxking drunk all the time I didnt ever thing anything of it. I’ve destroyed my guy and its a blessing that wildly and randomly this doctor asked if she could test me . And we found a lot of issues and also got a lot of answers to a lot of my health issues. Im starting treatment for that . Ill be injecting my self every other day with medicine to help my body repair the damages I have done and it will also help fight allergic reaction and build immunity so this doesnt happen again . I also !!! Am taking my meds again . Different ones but im glad I chose to take this chance on them again . I figured if im going to put my health and happiness first I dotn need to be drinking and If im not drinking a lot fo stuff is going to come to the surface and I don know how well ill be able to handle that reality. I also like I said thought. Was going to kill my self. I was so heartbroken so so so sad. I knew I needed help and I reached out and got. Now im happy and stable and I get out of bed and I have energy and im so present and to active. I work out everyday . I eat healthy and I lost some weight . My highest weigh t was 168 before our florida trip I got down to 147 , when worked for Linx I was 145 then after being with tj again my mental health went hay wire and I lost my self again . Completely lost. And when I got back to co I was 153 pounds …. I would shift from 145 to 147 … then I just stopped worrying about it and started doing something about it. I channeled all my sadness in to exercise . Im sad go work out im bored go work out im happy hey go work out get that good flow !! Your angry you miss him what ever it was I worked out then it became all I could focus on cus I learned to love it so Much . I took on running again I put in the work . Things finally where falling into place . I was getting my self back and this time it was better then ever . Better then ever before . I unlocked this door and its been so beautiful. I one day weighed my self just to see assuming id be 145 I was 137 !!!! Wow !!! A week later I was 135 and today I am 133!!!!! Its so cool and feels so good to not be depressed not feel pretty in my clothes. And iliv Amy self. So much . I hope I start working at hooters soon and continue to have a great life. I finally got approved for unemployment and ally back pay and also and extra 13 weeks after mine runs out. Things are just happening . I wasn’t going to get any hadn’t outs . But I was at the bottom thats for sure and you know who was there ? Not tj not the guy you literally did everything for no not him . My mom and my step dad and my brother . They took me in . And it was hard and uncomfterable , but I just stopped going out stopped drinking as much . And did things for them no matter if they where mad at me or if it was awkward.i committed to being good fo them . And I knew it would take time . But little by little ive managed to accomplish all my goals . When I used to be the queen of quitting. I cant wait to see even more of what god has in store for me. And who I become . My skins cleaning up my body is losing weight I more active im healthy and im very in touch with my desires and my well being . I care and love and respect my self so so much. Its like a huge spiritual awakening. I love being alone . I dont feel like alone deserves me right now to be honest .Its gong to take a lot for me to love again but its okay . Not everyone deserves that form me anyway. I worked so hard to me this . To be who I am right now and I won’t let anyone take that away form me. You cause harm to my heart my well being just by !! If you disappoint me disrespect me or hurt me its done . You lost you dot meet my needs your not benefiting and there’s to many many and women on this planet . Ill never waist my time on the wrong one . Ever again. I respect my self to much to put someone over me! And I stand by that now and forever!!! The new be is bette then ever and its gong to take a hell of a person to change my relationship status . And that cool im honestly not even interested . I dont care to date or hang out or hook up or even have sexual contact with anyone . Im so content with me myself and this beautiful transition im goin through I just want to focus on me and my family and my health. Because this is what its all about. This is what living is. this is life. This is beauty . This is whats important. I feel like im living . And im happy and im only going to get better and better. Thank you god for this life and thank you for giving me the strength to turn the page and start a new chapter on life. I fully trust you and the processs. And that brings me back to “god will never leave you behind” I needed to learn all those things that all may mistakes have taught me . And god has a way of constantly bringing things back Into your life if it has not yet served its purpose or taught you what you needed to learn. I see that now. Positive mind set is very powerful . Loving your self is amazing and living through god is the best thing you can do . I will always you tj and I will always in some way wish there was a me and you forever .but I cant ever betray my self like that again. That door is officially closed. See I thought my life was over when you said our relationship was over. But really it had just begun. Everything happened for a reason exactly how its meant to happen . Losing you meant I could finally find my self. It just lit up the path . God bless <3 no angry im happy and im I accept this and I forgive my self and you . Life is so Beautiful .

Some one very wise once said … -Life is not about how much you hurt its about how much your willing to suffer. ~VP

Im not willing to suffer any longer. Except it feel it and then forgive and move forward.

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anxietysroomsupport · 4 years

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Tonight me and my friend said bye bc it's summer and she wont be able to talk to me anymore since school ended and the only way we were able to contact each other were through emails when school was in session bc her parents are very abusive. Fuck. I know I'm gonna talk to her after summer but that's a really long time. I know she doesnt depend on me to keep her confidence up but I left for 5 days and she started believing the terrible shit they say about her 1/2

2/2 and I jsut cant imagine all that they're gonna do and say to her over two months. I feel so powerless sand I dont mean to make this about me bc it's her who is in such a shitty situation but I cant do anything to stop them from making her feel that way she does. I want to consentually kidnap her and hide her in my room forever. I fuckign hate her parents so much. She believes all of the bullshit they tell her and she cant see how much of an amazing person she is 2/3

3/3 how can a person treat another person so amazing and outstanding like her the way they do? I cant believe its gonna be over 2 months until I get to talk to her again. So many things can happen. Again I dont mean to make this all about me and I'm sorry that that's what I'm doing but I really need to rant. And all the shit they put her through she tries to justify it because they love her. But they dont. They're doing what they're doing for their own selfish reason 3/4

4/4 and I wish I could make her see that. She knows what her parents are doing is wrong but i dont think she has a full grasp on that yknow. If i ever see her parents i swear I'm gonna fuckign deck them both when she's safe. And i dont blame her btw. Her parents are manipulative shits and it isnt her fault that she gives in to what they're saying but it's not right. And all of this bc shes bi. They were abusive before but now it's so much worse 4/5

5/5 and people try and justify abuse by saying homosexuality is wrong as if this isnt happening to an actual fuckign person (I knwo abuse isnt just happening to queers but it is in this situation). Shes liek a literal prisoner there. She has to be with someone at all times of the day and she isnt allowed in her room. The only she allowed to be alone is the bathroom and changing. I honestly dont know how shes gonna survive (sorry I'm writing a lot) 5/6

6/6 she said she wont commit suicide and I trust her but I cant entirely rule it out so if she makes it through these two months without human contact except for her abusive parents and her passive siblings who just dont care then I think she's going to be so broken the next time I get to talk to her. I mean jsut hearing the things they say to her over and over again for months and not having anybody you can talk to who shares the opposite opinion then she's gonna believe it.

7/7 (last one sorry) and it seems like nobody on this piece of shit earth cares at all. Nobody seems to realize that this is happening to fuckign kids?? Who are supposed to be happy and do stupid stuff without fearing for your safety (not that her dating a girl or being bi is stupid but if they spot even the tiniest imperfect they make her seem like shes a worthless misbehaving shit even tho shes the complete opposite). Nobody cares that this is an actual human person and it fucking sucks

Hi Anon,

No apologies necessary, it’s clear you really care about your friend. And you’re absolutely correct, it’s not right what they’re doing to her no matter what her orientation is.

If computers are out, it might be time to go analogue. See if you can write her letters, and send them to her house, or if her parents wouldn’t like that either, send them to a friendly neighbor’s house for her to pick up when she can. If you’ve been to her house before, you might be able to look up the address by recalling the route and finding the house on google maps.

If you get the address, you can have anything sent over there. You might not know if letters or packages ever reached her until school starts back up, so if you end up sending anything, understand that you’re basically sending it into the ether.

Do her parents have a house phone? Even if they monitor her calls, you would at least be able to hear how she’s doing in general. Phone books like the Yellow Pages keep lists of everyone with a landline, unless they select to be private.

Depending on what level of abuse you know for sure has happened, you might be able to call Child Protective Services on her parents (or your country’s equivalent if you’re outside the U.S.). Use this tool with caution: if the situation isn’t bad enough for her to be immediately taken out of the house, then she would have to stay with parents who knew someone had called CPS. CPS investigates every report they get and often send a social worker to the house to verify if any reports are true. If they found evidence of abuse, they could potentially remove her from the home, although that is typically only in very extreme cases.

If none of those routes are possible, all you can be is wait and be ready for when she comes back. You can look up things that help abuse survivors so you’re ready but, ultimately, her health and safety is not your responsibility. You are not responsible if something happens to her. It won’t be your job to help her recover if she does come back in a bad mindset. Only give what you feel comfortable giving of yourself, and remember to take care of yourself, too. Your friend is very lucky to have someone like you looking out for her.

Good luck.

-Miss Fay

#abuse mention #mental abuse #mental health #family #parents #relationships #bisexual #siblings #cursing tw #homophobia #biphobia #child protective services

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marcellaisnotme · 4 years

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to everyone.

to all the amazing people that light up my 2019, let's continue our journey to 2020. 2019 has been pretty amazing to me than last year and i'm rather excited for what's going to come on 2020. its a bit frightening but at the same time i'm ready to face it.

i'm dedicating each of you who got this page a personal message <3

let me start it with my loving Ren ♡ we met not that long ago but long enough for me to call you a special friend. i love hanging out with you, i love ranting everything to you cause you're a really good listener, advisor and most importantly a really great sidekick. okno. you know what to say to make me feel better and i admire that you can think of so much in a short amount of time. the way you handle everything is very responsible and careful, i look up to you alot. let's be more closer and share more stupid shitposts (RED VELVET PLSSS). i love you!!

Jason ♡ we known each other for a very long time but we always been pretty close to each other, but sometimes we don't talk and we argue that one time. and you went missing too but when you came back i was really excited. you were really funny and entertaining. just what i need, just what i wanted. we have a love hate relationship and we never get tired of each other and buuuu-ing each other everytime. okno. you are special to me and i cant find another jason to replace. thanks for being such a great friend. i love you!!

Juan ♡ my favorite movie partner and cuddle buddy <3 the one that would always tell stupid jokes which myself find it really funny even when it's pretty dumb. the one who never get tired of me punching you in the arm. okno. i wanna spend more time watching movies with you cause i personally hate watching movies cause i'm a book person. but when i watch it with you and hear you explaining to me everything made me love movies. pstt. only when i watch it with you <3 HAHAHA let's do more movie dates next time juan, because movies are not watch worthy without you. okno. i love you!!!

bwi ♡ as much as i find you pretty annoying and such a coward but i really know how it takes courage to do something. i know how does it feel when you feel like doing something. but it's find. i dont judge you for it ok? i was just messing around with you cause your reaction is always funny i dont wanna miss it. OKNO. if you havent moved on completely, it's fine. it takes time to heal and takes time to grow. i hope you have a better life and be happy in 2020. i love you!!

Belle ♡ SINCE YOU'RE A GIRL NOW IMMA CALL YOU BELLE. okno you were a guy when we first met and first dated. okno. i can't believe we made it till today even when we dont talk that much these days. i just want you to know even when i'm very very very annoying and stoopid but i am really thankful that you were always there listening to my probs and teas :(( i'm so dramatic. wipes non existent tears. okno. be less busy so that i can kacau you more :(( i love you!!

Kitty Kou ♡ my wife :(( my husband soulmate boyfriend girlfriend my everything :(( screams i miss you so much we're not talking much this days are you THAT busy gimme attention bich :(( okno. i'm glad that you are fine now (i can see and feel it) also i dont want you to be sad no more cause you dont deserve to be :(( i'll karate anyone that tries to mess with you i swear >:( i love you soooo much you're my fav bestie ever you listen to me and play along with me cause thats what soulmates do :(( dont ever leave my side or i'm gonna tie u to me so that you wont escape HAH take that :(( i love you bb♡

Qhal ♡ you stick up to me since day-1 and thats what i love about you. you grew into a better person, you were so much braver and bolder plus happier these days and i've never been so proud of you. i hope your happiness last till next year and the following and forever. every day is a new day. you dont have to close old books and open new ones. you dont have to be someone you're not and importantly, you dont have to do things for anyone else. yourself is your top priority and always remember that you're just as important. seeing you happy makes me happy. we've been friends for god knows how long and you never left my side, ever. you're always a special friend to me. you're always in my heart. i love you!!

Irwin ♡ not gonna deny you're always there for me when i'm in an existential crisis. okno. you're such a fun and funny person to talk with. i always enjoyed talking to you because you could make and awkward situation lively with your randomness. you radiate great and positive energy that anyone around you feel better. you make me feel better when i'm sad. i hope you and jade last looooooooooong enough just like how long we've known each other. i love you!!

Tian ♡ i love talking to you and randomly being stupid with you and jason. i love how we click with each other that much it's like we're siblings. rough things happened but let's all forget about it. i hope for you happiness as you were always sad about a certain someone. it's fine to think about it. it's fine to hold onto it. cause the longer you hold on, the easier it will go away when it gets old. you should really reveal your cute daughter to everyone. cause i miss her and everyone needs to see her <3 she's amazing just like you. i love you!!

Cosmo ♡ as long as we known each other, you were the brightest person and the easiest to get along with. you always know what to do and put your heart in everything you do. i dont like seeing you being sad or depressed anymore because you weren't like that when we first met. always surround yourself with happy stuff >> me. and do things you wanna do that makes you happy. you will always be my cosmo, and i'll always be your wanda♡. i love you!!

Junguan ♡ hi bestie how u doin. okno. i am glad that you're always happy, always problem free. thanks for listening to my problems, thanks for being a great friend. i have a great laugh and a great time with you always. your reaction to my stupidness and sarcasm was always funny i'm not gonna lie. you're always the one that i believe would keep everything i tell you a secret. you're such an awesome person and a great friend. i love you !!

Xie/ Axel ♡ you're a really interesting person to talk to. aside from our past relationship. you're a really strong and a great person. you're someone that doesn't give up on anything you do and i really adore you for that. you make everything seem so funny to me idk why oKNO. but except for our snapstreak, we dont really talk mUCH. did you moveD or are you just busY cause u krik krik im thinking twice about softblocking you. okno. talk to me bitch. i love you!!

marcell/shaq ♡ you change your name to match mine cause you like me eh?? buuu. okno. you were always someone i trusted because you're responsible of doing your job and you're someone nice to talk to i mean not nice nice because you're mean but nice by i can have a conversation with you and talk about random stuff without letting it die because i'm funny and you're lame okno. let other judge your outer and let yourself know your inner. jangan jadi noob for 2020. okno. i love you!!

Eric ♡ my stupid bun. my ride or die. ew. these two years 18/19 has been pretty rough for the both of us and i think it's just a step and a lesson to grow into a better person. you helped me alot through this year and i'm never less thankful for that. the loving things you do for me, the things you would let it slide when it comes to me. your soft spot for me never goes away huh HAH and i'm taking advantage of that. okno i'm kidding. you are a big help for me and for what i went through. you never said no. you always agree on everything and i really appreciate it. when we broke up last year, you still insisted to talk to me. which i find out really annoying. just kidding. i'll let everything slide since you do that to me too. you're a really great person, amazing let me tell you. thanks for being a great friend to me. thanks for helping me out with almost everything. i owe you big time. i love you!!

harry ♡ first of all, thank you for being a great bestie, we would always talk to each other everyday but you got busy these days :(( but yey, its almost a decade since ive known you, kyak. we met when we were in kbb. you were d__, kyak, smpipol 💕 i feel so giddy giddy all of a sudden lololol. and then we started exchanging contacts, you were first harry, on fl. and then we had this, nOOt squad gTG. im nunmul-ing. why is this suddenly a throwback session. and and and then theres trisha gosh i love trisha and you too. i adore you for being such an honest person, when it comes to telling your problems to us, which is something i cant really do. if you have problems, dont hesitate to tell us, though i dont really help much eheh. but sometimes there are things that arent meant to be said. its okay, theres nothing wrong feeling sad, feeling all those negative feelings. we are human too, we have feelings. it is okay to sometimes not be okay, it is okay. but other than that, be happy with those you are surrounded with. youre someone that worth a big hug. i hope you spent your day with those you love 💕 i hope youre having a good day. youre an amazingly talented person. i hope youd achieve your dream soon, i pray for your health, and for you to surrounded by lovely people. you're such a talented person and gosh, your drawings for the fashion week, cries. chef kisses momma!!! you should update me on your life more because i wanna know what you do and support you on everything you do. don't forget me anyways :(( because you're the only realest annoying brutally honest bitch i love :(( i love you!!

thanks for an amazing 2019, lets get closer in 2020. i love you guys. ♡

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Chapter 33- Wasted

Slammin' 'em fast at the bar tops Drinkin' them straight with no regrets Obviously I've got a problem I like the tasteWanna get wasted with you Tell me what's good for me but I don't care Wanna get wasted off you Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I like the taste

Chapter 33 ~ Wasted

Avery

I put the cool glass against my forehead. I was extremely hungover, and being in this position isn’t good for me, but nor did I care. Did I have a problem? Yes, but when you’re feeling the pain that I am feeling, you just need to numb it.

I stared at the newest form of papers that basically called me an unfit mother, and that Olivia wanted to terminate my rights to my son and take him away from me. We’ve been going for months back in forth, and I guess now we actually have court because the papers are here.

I honestly cant believe this bitch. She took Jeremiah, but I refuse for her to take away Aiden. He was the only reason why I got up in the morning.

Okay, did I leave him with Jeremiah once I knew his marriage with Olivia was finished. Yes, because I knew that I had one upped her, once and for all. I broke up her marriage, had his baby but I couldn’t take the pressure of him always choosing them so I left. I swear I was gonna come back. But I guess I didn’t come back fast enough

I sniffled, did I truly want Aiden? I want him, as long as Jeremiah came with him. I didn’t care about his other children, in fact, I hated them. But I wanted Jeremiah. I wanted him to love and hold me again like we used to.

“What are you looking at?” I looked up to see my boyfriend King, naked, standing in the doorway to our kitchen.

I shrugged, “Papers from my ex, claiming I’m unfit and terminating my rights to my son.”

His dick swung between his legs as we walked closer to the counter where I was. I had every intention of getting on my knees and putting it in my mouth but I needed to focus on the issue at hand. No matter how horny I was.

“Well, it’s our way out of taking care of the little bastard. Sign the papers and give him what he wants, I’m sick of this legal shit.”

He made it clear from day 1 that he didn’t want children. I knew that, and I still stayed with him. Which is why I left Aiden with Jeremiah in the first place. Did I love this man? Absolutely not, he wasn’t Jeremiah. But he gave me everything I wanted. Money, Status, Alcohol, Drugs and attention. Things that J could never.

No my boyfriend doesn’t know about the times I went to their house, trying to fuck Jeremiah, and he will never know, because if he did, he’d probably kill me.

“I want to fight it.” I spoke loudly

He looked at me like I was crazy. Hell I was.

“Why in the hell would you do that? You know I would leave, and never look back. We agreed Ave. NO KIDS! I don’t want them bloodsuckers. I hate them.” He spoke in disgust and anger. He was gripping the counter, focusing on his breathing. I knew if I didn’t calm him down, I would end up in the hospital again.

“Big Daddy, If I fight it. Aiden will come here, for a few days and we’ll get them to sign over papers paying child support, and give him back to them. Plus no judge is going to allow Olivia to adopt him, they aren’t married.” I said

I knew my plan was bullet-proof. Fight long enough for them to pay child support for Aiden, take it and spend it on my man. Send Aiden back to them and collect on the payments.

“Baby, they are married.” He spoke showing me the paperwork, and indeed they were.

“WHAT!” I screamed snatching the papers from him, but I took my voice down a few octaves, I didn’t want daddy to be mad at me, or see how upset I really was.

“What the fuck! We need to get Aiden back daddy.” I pleaded.

He pushed my hair out of my face, and tucked it behind my ear, revealing a healing black eye. He rubbed his thumb over the bruise, which caused me to wince and travelled down to my lips, which he loves.

“If I help you, what are you going to do for daddy?” He said in a sexy ass way. It made my pussy wet immediately.

I smiled, and backed away from him, going to the drawer next to him. Pulling out a bag of our favorite white powder, cocaine.

I set up a line for him, which he sniffed up immediately. Ugh that shit was sexy as fuck.

I set up a line for myself and followed after him, while slowly playing with his dick. He moaned softly, but his dick was hard as a rock.

“You know what I want you to do,” He spoke.

“Yes daddy.”

I got on my knees in front of him, and watched him watch me. I carefully set a line of coke on his dick, immediately sniffed it up, and as soon as the high from the first line hit me I put his dick in my mouth.

“Uhh… fuck Ave.” I moaned while I looked him dead in the eyes.

Oh, we are about to get started.

Rack

“Baby. Do you want anything from the store?” I called out to Rose

“No. I’m good,” She called back from the living room.

Leaving the apartment, it was a nice beautiful day. I was pretty excited, I was buying Rose the most beautiful house, her dream home. I couldn’t wait to show it to her.

I know, that we’ve been through a lot and I love that girl. She pulled me out of the game and she set me straight. She was everything that someone could be for me and I for her. I love her with all of my heart.

I also want to talk to her about extending our family. I know she can’t carry a baby full term. It’s bad for her health, and could kill her. But I had an idea, on how to get everything that we want. which is why I’m on my way to Liv’s house to talk to her.

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“Nigga you always at my house, do you ever fuckin leave?” Jeremiah said with annoyance.

I rolled my eyes, no, I still don’t like this nigga. He broke our promise all those years ago, and I don’t care. He still a snake in my eyes.

“I’m here for my sister, and last I checked, this her house nigga.” I spat back as Liv entered the kitchen

“ANDRE! Stop fuckin with Jeremiah and J stop fucking with Rack! Please!” She yelled at the both of us.

“I’ll be in the den.” He said to her kissing her on the forehead, and flipping me off, walking out the room

“Fuck you too bitch.” I said

Liv just rolled her eyes, “What do you want little brother?” She said to me, while preparing dinner for her family

I needed her to understand where I was coming from, and I knew she was the person to help

“I need help. I want kids. and I want kids with Rose.” sadness, was obvious within my own voice and apparent enough for Liv to catch on

“Rack-“

I could tell she was worried about my mindset behind this conversation, but I needed to reassure her that everything was fine.

“I’m fine. I just want help looking for a surrogate, I want to be with Rose forever and I want our family to grow.”

She smiled at me, “Is this Rose’s idea?”

I shook my head, “No, she hasn’t brought up children since the hospital, and back then, you were in a coma, and everything was going wrong for our entire family. I just want this really bad and I want to give her options so that she knows I’m serious about it.”

“Are you gonna be okay if she told you no?” She quizzed

I hadn’t really thought about it, “She’s not gonna say no, she’s gonna be thrilled about it. I promise. We want this Liv.”

She smiled brightly, “Look at my little brother growing up!! Of course I’ll help you. I know some of the best adoption/ surrogacy agencies and lawyers out there. Now if only we can get Lei to think like this.” she said brushing her hair out of her face.

I started to laugh, but immediately stopped when I saw that big ass rock on her finger. She noticed where my attention had gone and she tried to hid it, but it was too late.

“Rack- Cmon dont over react.” She spoke calmly

“Yall engaged!!!” I raised my voice.

She mumbled.

“Olivia, I cant hear you!”

She sighed, “No, we’re married. We got married in secret and last I checked, one of my daddies was dead and the other was in New York.”

“YALL MARRIED!!!!!”

Angel

“So how have you been since we last talked?” My therapist asked,

I shrugged, I don’t want to be here. Mommy and Daddy are just wasting their money if we want to be completely honest.

They thought it would be a good idea, since, they are in therapy that Mason and I should go to it as well. I guess they’re afraid we’ll be messed up like them.

She sighed, “How’s Dominique.”

I rolled my eyes. “You mean Andrea?”

“Why do you insist on calling her Andrea, when your family calls her Dominique? She is your sister”

Kicking my legs, I felt the tears coming when talking bout this topic,

“My baby brother that died, his name was Dominique. I refuse to call her that. Her name is Andrea, and she isn’t my sister.”

I hate talking about my feelings. Like why cant I just not like that baby, and it be the end of it? Everyone wants to make a big deal out of me not liking it. It’s not like i set her on fire or anything, I thought about it though. But Daddy and Mommy would send me where Katie was and I refuse.

“Can we not talk about her. Can we talk about anything else.”

“Sure. How would you feel if your parents got back together?”

I shrugged, “Doesnt matter to me if they do or don’t.”

“If Andrea wasn’t involved?”

“I would be excited. I could live with my parents and my brother. They could have other kids and I would be fine. Like how I was when I was a baby.”

“But Andrea is involved, so how would you feel.”

“I said, I wouldn’t care. Either way. Long as they keep Andrea away from me. I’m fine.”

“Why do you not like your sister?”

I looked out the window, it was raining and I like rain. Especially when it’s hot. It fit my mood. Angry, but sad.

“I dont care for the baby. Not everyone likes babies, so why is it a big deal?”

I wanted to go play in the rain, the pitter patter sound it makes on the window, typically gives me joy. I like how at the end of each rainstorm there’s a rainbow.

Colorful and calm, beautiful and bright, joyous and jolly.

Everything I’m not.

“Maybe it’s-“

I cut off the doctor, noticing the time was almost over. But I still looked out the big glass windows

“I’m like the rain, sad, and gloomy but at the end of the storm, its peace and a rainbow right? At the end of each rainstorm, its a rainbow, saying God’s promise that he wouldn’t ever remake the world, by flooding it. Showing that it gets better. It gets better right?”

As soon as I asked that, the question left in the air, because thankfully, our session was completely over.

Lizzie

Having a baby is exhausting. I love Zoey, I do. but chile. She is a handful. I mean he father helps but its been little by little. Especially since he got married to Eva.

I dont have a problem with his wife, but it seems that she may have a problem with me. At first, Zoey and I were invited to the wedding. Then my invite was rescinded and Zoey could go, but they knew she wasn’t going without me, so she didn’t get to be apart of her father’s wedding. I mean that weekend she ended up getting really sick and they couldn’t go on their honeymoon so maybe it serves her right.

I tried to have multiple talks with her but she ended up just telling me that everything was fine. I don’t know, and I don’t have the energy to care. Long as she treats my daughter with respect, I could care less if she treated me any kind of way.

Many people have asked me if I have feelings for Zoey’s father, and the answer is no. We had a one night stand that turned into our daughter. Not feelings. I don’t want to date, because I don’t want the horrible experience that I had with Vincent ever again.

Yes, I do know that no one will ever do what he did. But it was traumatizing. I’m happy with Zoey and with the life I’m trying to build for her.

“Can you get out of your thoughts please Liz?” Kam called out to me

We were having our weekly family dinner. This time, it so happened to be at my townhouse. Everyones kids were playing in the backyard. Zoey and Dominique were playing together in the playpen right by the kitchen. Girls in the kitchen and boys outside on the grill. Our traditions.

“Sorry. Lot of thinking.” I spoke.

“How are you though Lizzie?” Lei’Lani spoke up

I cleared my throat, “I’m okay, the doctor says that I need to keep with my medicine and exercising. Thank you all for helping me out with Zo”

“No problem, That’s what family is for” Rosie smiled.

I was diagnosed with Postpartum depression after have Zoey. I would randomly cry, I wouldn’t eat for weeks, somedays I couldn’t even hold my own daughter. That’s when Giselle and Liv recognized the signs as they had been through it as well, and we went to the doctor.

“I just want to be the best mom that I can be for my daughter, and I honestly feel like I’m loosing it all.”

Gi came up and hugged me. “Listen, you know I got you no matter what. You are that best mom that you can be for your daughter.”

I smiled at the encouraging words that my sister gave to me.

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After the cookout, everyone left except Olivia and Giselle. Their kids and Dom and J went home to settle them and put them to bed while Liv and Gi stayed to help put down Zo and clean up my house.

“So, does Jaxon and Eva help around with Zoey?” Liv asked

“Not really, it’s all me. Basically.” I sighed

“Do you have an agreement with a mediator about the living conditions of Zoey as she grows older? Liv asked again

I sighed, “No, do you think I need one?”

“We aren’t trying to pressure you into anything Liz, but its obvious that you need help and Jax is her father and Eva is her step mother, they need to help no matter what.” Gi spoke concerned

I mean she was right, we all did need to sit down and go over everything for Zoey’s life because I cant continue to ask and not get a response. I want to get back to normal, and they need to pitch in.

“How are y’all? We’ve all been really busy these last few months.”

They both ended up shrugging,

“It’s been a journey since I got shot by Katie, I still have migraines, but I love being with Jeremiah and the kids, the court case is coming up and i have no idea which way it’s going to go. I want it to go our way, but if it doesn’t, Aiden is still my son.” Liv smiled

“You know I’m praying for you, I hope it goes our way, and that bitch can get out of our life forever.” i spoke.

“Amen, but speaking of bitches, how’s Katie?” Liv snickered.

“Annoying as hell, everything Dom wants for Nique, Katie just declines, and wont allow but then as soon as we involve her mother, she acts like its the greatest idea ever. I wish this bitch would be out of our lives forever.” Gi spoke with disdain.

“Would you adopt Dominique, Gi?” Liv asked.

“I mean, technically, Katie has no rights being that she’s in jail. The papers for her adoption are already drawn up for me. I just have to sign them.”

“So what’s holding you up?” I asked

“I want to make sure Dominic and I are square and good. I don’t want to adopt her and then we end up getting divorced and now we have to split three kids. I just want to make sure our foundation is solid you know?”

“I think you’re pretty good on solid ground, you haven’t left since moving back in.” I said

“I know, but we aren’t perfect, and we have a lot to talk about. But-“

Liv cut her off, irritated,

“Youre wasting precious time and you are making excuses. Do you or do you not still love Dom.”

“I do.” She said confidently

“Are you falling back in love with him?” I asked

She blushed, “I am.”

“So what’s the hold up?” I asked with Liv agreeing

“I’m waiting for the ball to drop. I’m waiting for something bad to happen.” She spoke

Both Liv and I looked confused because they’re good, so whats the matter.

“Look, daddy kept us apart, then vincent, then katie. I just I don’t think I could take it if he was taken from me again. I just i’m taking it slow because I want to be with him for the rest of my life, but I don’t want anything bad to happen.” She rambled on.

“You can’t wait anymore Gi, we all know life is too short, You have to go for your happiness, you aren’t the broken-hearted girl anymore. You’re a grown ass woman with 3 kids and a man who loves her unconditionally.” Liv encouraged her.

“I know. But-“

“But nothing. You love Dom and he loves you. Stop being a pussy.” I laughed.

“Fine I wont but I need you to also stop being a pussy and stand up to Jaxon. You didn’t create Zo-zo by yourself.Okay?” She reassured me.

I nodded, I love my cousin and my sister. Without them, I wouldn’t be the woman I am today, they’re literally my best friends and I know I’m the same for them. Listening to all that we’ve been through and how messed up we used to be, we’ve overcame so much. We’ve definitely grown into the women that my momma raised and she would be so proud of us.

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nightmaretyrantvantas · 5 years

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Gracie lucio writing wips if any of you were curious(to perhaps be posted soon)

Normal universe writings

She looked into Damian’s eyes uncertainly, briefly convince he was trying to prank her. There was no way he was deciding now, in a locked cell in a mission gone so wrong, tied together and both hazy from injuries, was the best time to talk about their feelings.

Even though his eyes were a little glazed over from either the pain of the head injury and stab wound or the small delirium of his slight blood loss, they were stubbornly determined and fierce as he leaned his face closer to hers. She caught a wisp of his shampoo from how close they were and ‘oh sweet moon goddess he’s fucking serious’ now was NOT the time for her to get all flustered this was a serious situation and she needed Damian to be more focused and maybe a tad more lucid.

~~~

“ Hey Dick?” The thirteen year old’s companion gave her his attention from his position beside her as her reading cushion, the two of them having curled up after a long patrol in the rain on a self made nest of blankets and pillows beside the lit fireplace. The bright blue eyed boy smiled and rested his chin on top of her head from where it was nestled against his shoulder.

“ Yeah Gracie?” She took a small breath and glanced up at him while setting aside her book. She had been reading and re-reading the same sentence over and over again for the past half hour, deep in thought and decided to banish any negative ones right away. She reached out and found his hand, gripping it tight seeking a comfort he gave by twisting his body so she rested against his chest.

“ You’re always going to be my best friend right?” He smiled at the question and and chuckled softly.

“ Of course silly. Best friends forever. We promised after all.” She was quiet for a moment and looked ahead of her.

“ So...we’ll always be together right? You...you wont leave me like everyone else right...?” The only sound for a few moments was the sound of the rain pattering on the window and the snap and crackle of the fire. Dick’s other arm wrapping around her in a hug as he squeezed her hand.

“ I’m not leaving you. We’ll stay together...no matter what.”

~~~

I heard the safe house door open and I looked up tiredly from the couch, huddled up in the smoke scented leather jacket that was much too big for me to look at the tall man I considered my friend.

“ J-jason...” He gave a sigh and put out his cigarette in a nearby ash tray and sat beside me, ruffling my hair.

“ Dont worry kid, my buddy Roy is out there now diverting anyone who possibly followed us. From now on, until we hear the signal from Dickie, you are officially dead and off the grid.” I nodded and leaned into his hand almost desperate for affectionate physical contact. I was cold, tired, and shaken from the thought a silver bullet had almost pierced my heart a second time if it hadnt been for Jason and Roy. He didnt say anything about the way I pushed into his hand like he didnt mention the way I moved closer and curled into his side for comfort, trembling inside the warm confines of his jacket. All he did was ask what kind of take out I’d want for dinner so he could text Roy to pick some up on his way back, as he was starved but too lazy to go out himself at the moment. I shrugged meekly and stayed quiet, soon falling asleep in his scent and already missing my bed back in the tower...

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“ aaaaachoo!” The ten year old lycran whimpered in pain as she shivered under her quilts and blankets, sniffling through her stuffed up nose pathetically. She felt like she was DYING even as the small relief of a cold rag was laid on her burning forehead. She looked up blearily expecting to see the tall grandfatherly figure of Alfred above her checking on her and gave a slow blink when she saw Bruce’s even taller, bold, blurry shape beside her bed. She felt his big worn hand against her cheek and leaned against its coolness gratefully, cheek scratching against his callouses soothingly. There was another hand that patted her messy, tangled mop of hair and smoothed it down a little. He was talking to her but she was so tired she barely caught any words.

“ Bruce? Will she be ok...?” Dick’s voice floated into her ears and she opened her eyes, not even realizing she had shut them in the first place. Her eyes drooped and landed on on her concerned partner who now accompanied the large adoptive father figure, peering around his frame to look at her with wide worried blue eyes. She tried to tell him she was fine but the moment she opened her mouth a surge of fiery pain shot through her throat and made her hack and cough violently, leaning her now throbbing head further into her pillows with a miserable groan after.

“ Im not sure yet Chum...we cant have a normal doctor check her out so im trying to find someone trustworthy to examine her. For now, we should let her rest. If you’d like you can help Alfred bring her things while I go out looking for a doctor.”

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"Here."

She looked up at Damian a bit startled then down at the box he held in front of her. She blinked once, then twice as she examined the white box and the various holes in the side and the neat pale green bow keeping it tied shut before looking back up at the boy wonder.

"Um...this is sweet of you Damian but...my birthday is a few months away..." He grunted and stepped into her room, noting how it was a little disheveled and unorganized with case works and evidence and clues, just like the rooms clearly drained owner. As Damian looked at the shorter girl he held back from saying anything her extra messy hair or the dark smudges under her eyes from all nighters. He did sigh at her hesitance though.

"Im well aware. I just...i...just open it already." She rolled her eyes a little but obeyed his command nonetheless, undoing the ribbon and pulling the lid off.

She didnt know what she expected to be in there. The past two all nighters mustve been screwing with her to have not recognized the scent coming from the box. She dropped the lid to the ground and put a hand to her mouth in surprise.

"I...i found him wandering outside a shelter in Gotham...when i brought him back in they said he was an abandoned emotional support animal that had slipped out the door. I thought of you so i...filled out the papers and got him his shots and everything. I figured after all the hassle months ago and the extra work loads youve been taking on to help out Grayson and Father...perhaps a supportive companion would be beneficial to your mental health..." She looked up at him as he almost over explained his gift and she looked back into the box, slowly reaching in and lifting the year old black and brown Maine coon kitten from the box and into her arms. The movement awoken him and the kitten meowed at Gracie and sniffed her before purring contently and getting cozy again. The sound of the purring and the feeling of the cat's warmth and breathing body and soft fur made her heart warm and her stress ease away like the tide. She knew he didnt just find this beauty by chance, he likely searched shelters and adoption centers for him. She looked up at Damian and happily moved forward and kissed his cheek with a smile.

"Thank you Damian i love him! Youre too kind" he shrugged but smiled at the two as she cooed softly and cradled the fluffy beast kissing his little head. He knew the cat was something she needed to keep from falling into that dark place, a co.fort and a responisiblity that would keep her from restarting that cycle.

He cleared his throat a little and reseized her attention.

"What will you name him?" She hummed a little and got a playful little grin that made him narrow his eyes.

"I think...I'll name him Robin."

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Young justice au story wips(The main ship for her in the young justice universe is Dick X Gracie)

“ You cant just--Are you even listening to me?” Gracie dragged herself into a sitting position and leaned close to the half-kryptonian with a bitter but playful grin.

“ Nope. Not a word Connor. Im afraid I was much too busy staring deeply into your handsome eyes like in the scene of a romance novel. So I missed every single word.” He stared back at her but snorted out a laugh at her joke, rolling his eyes with a smile of his own. The smile made her relax, feel more at ease with the situation. She couldnt help it, and she lifted her camera up and aimed.

“ Connor look over here with that smile!” He turned his head still smiling, one eyebrow quirked curiously as she hit the button and the camera flashed with a beep and a blink. She lifted her head from the viewfinder with a much more joyful grin, looking rather pleased with herself.

“ Now THAT one is getting printed professionally, or else no one will believe its real.” They both shared a small laugh and she set the camera aside to lean against him, shoulder to arm while she fiddled with the photo settings. They settled into a comforting silence for a few long moments

“ She isnt that bad....or bad at all really. Under different circumstances we would be good friends by now...” She finally spoke up, not taking her eyes off her camera.

“ But?”

She gave a sigh and leaned her head against him in exasperation before looking up to him.

“ Its not her. Its...It’s all the conflicting and difficult feelings that arise when I see her and Robin together...getting so...close and dare I say flirty. Sometimes seeing it makes me downright sick to my stomach and I just need to leave the room.” There was a long silence and she opened her mouth to apologize for bringing up feelings. But she never got the chance.

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“ Dont...you win...you win ok? I surrender.”

The words were resentful, but defeated as Gracie aka Alpha Wolf dropped her staff and utility belt to the ground and raised her hands in surrender. She stared at the tall armed man that stood a few feet before her, the monster that has haunted her every step and shadow since the death of her parents. She stared into his apathetic eyes with her head no longer held up proud, but hung almost submissively with hateful eyes. She ignored the any reasoning against her decision, ignored the sounds of her pained teammates coming back to their senses and realizing what was going on.

“ Alpha dont!”

“ A-alpha d-dont do it!”

She grit her teeth and ignored their voices, ignored Superboy’s warning shout as he started to get up with difficulty. She kept all her focus on the monster in front of her, determined to protect her team, her friends, her pack. Just like she should as an Alpha.

She never wanted this man to hurt anyone precious to her ever again. Not if she could help it.

“P...please...you win. I give up. Kill me, capture me, do whatever. Just...please, let the others go free....its me you want not them...just let hi--them go...” The pleas burned her mouth like acid, as if she had swallowed silver and Wolfs bane.But she gave them, staring into his eyes and keeping her hands up in the air. She wouldnt let him take anyone else away from her again. Not this time.

Not with Robin dangling in his steel grip with a gun to his temple.

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morphineabusee · 5 years

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so for the past couple of weeks id say ive been going on a downwards spiral. works been pretty shit at the minute and everyones feeling it not just me but i feel like when you have constant i guess mental health problems and problems with your thoughts shit like that just hits you a thousand times harder. Since the whole mia thing at work me and shaun dont really talk anymore and shaun has been soemone at my work that has always been therefore me since the day i started at that place and hes defended me so many times and now its like we dont even know eachother on shift i find it quite arwkward as we barely talk only really when we have too we dont have a laugh like we used to like every time i was on shift with shaun i love it cos i knew it was going to be fun relaxed hes not strict so you could basically do whatever you wanted in hindsight you know as long as you was doing your job and i would always be happy on shift with him and hed make me laugh so much id cry with laughter and its like all of that has gone megan bascially hates me now since its all kicked off and she was really trying to help me with my customer service and to be better and all that and she thinks that i betrayed her in this whole situation and she only ever talks to me when she has too and most the time tries to tell me off because shes just being a bitch with me and when megan doesnt like someone like me its super fucking obvious and it just makes me feel uncomfortable to come to work and i dread working with her ive worked for burger king for 2 years now and ive really had enough im a super fucking hard worker like super hard worker and ive worked weeks without days off just to help out at work and help everrything flow while running myself into the ground because i wanted to help out a few weeks or few months ago or whenever now really i get asked to do extra hours or stay behind its the first time in literally forever ive started saying no because im just getting massivlly taken advantage of of the fact that oh yeah dont worry chloe will stay but why the fuck should i stay and exhaust myself countless times exhuast myself kill myself off for a company for people who couldnt give a shit about me like ive done so so so much to help other people out and i get fuck all in return i really just want to quit if im being honest but i cant cos obviously everyone needs a job and im wanting to become a makeup artist so i need to keep putting money into my kit and what not so i cant just quit and i feel like if i do ill just get into a massive depression where i just wont eat i wont be able to get up and shower or brush my teeth or look after myself because ill just be so depressed and i dont want to do that to myself but there just seems like there is no plan for me in life and ive done some pretty fucked up things in my life before ive met james things he and nobody knows and i think is this what i get in return for doing bad things in life being unhappy being depressed wanting to kill myself wanting to just lay in bed and watch my life waste a way no even wanting a life like do i really deserve it and people say oh just get another job so i search and i search for another job and i apply for multipule jobs and its like working for the company i work for must get me fucking blacklisted from every job site ever like im unemployable and it just fucks me off because i feel like i do deserve to do what makes me happy and what i love in life and thats makeup and that is my dream my dream is to become a really really good fucking makeup artist one of the best and lifes just telling me no girl you cant do that youll never do that and you dont derserve to do that well maybe life is right but im sick of having ups and downs in life i cant costantly deal with it throughout my whole life imon the verge of becoming extremely suicidal and thats okay because life has nothing to offer me anyway anymore so im done

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fishoutofwaterlikeabird · 5 years

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When The Popular Kids Don’t Talk To You (Anymore)

Coming back from adventures far away after significant time has passed feels a lot like school and trying to fit in with the popular kids.

Popular kids can be kind of mean but so can the non-popular kids.

Sometimes we have to do some kind of journey to make ourselves better (or at least try to get better). We as humans often go on journeys to find ourselves or inner peace or just to find some adventure or see something new or discover something spiritual related. Sometimes that’s down the road to the supermarket or the local watering hole or some kind of park, other times that can take us into different cities, towns, villages, timezones or even countries and continents.

But it can also take us back home to where we belonged all along and maybe never should have left.

We do things every day and sometimes they are popular and sometimes they surely aren’t. Life is popular we all live it, but how we live it matters more than what is popular.

My idea of doing a life that matters sure isn’t popular. I don’t care about money or status. I don’t care about being popular or famous. I don’t care about what the world wants or tells me i should do, act or be. I don’t care about new flash things or having heaps of cool things. I don’t care about new fashions or if what i wear or do fits in with the crowd. I also don’t care to fit inside a box to please someone or be who or what i am not. I can’t be anyone else, i wasn’t designed (or created) to be. I was designed/created to be me and all I can do is be me to the best of my ability as is the same for you in being yourself to the best of your ability. There is only one of each of us. We can’t be what we are not and we shouldn’t try (or care) to be either. And to be honest its hard (physically exhausting) to be me and i am barely able to do it, i cant imagine trying to be someone else or someone i am not or someone else wanting to be me.

When i think of a life that matters i think of very few things. Things like having people around me that i care about and that care about me and not just on the surface but down to the roots.

I think of having people in my life that make me feel worth it and special, people that make me feel like i can do anything to be the best me that i can be. People that also make me feel like continuing on and going forward and taking big steps in life. I think of having people around that build me up and encourage me and people that i can build up and encourage as well. I think of living in a place or a community that makes me feel like i can thrive and be myself doing things that make me feel like i matter and what i am doing matters.

I also think of these lyrics by Musician NF: “If you want love, you going to have to go through the pain, If you want love, you going to have to learn how to change, If you want trust, you going to have to give some away, If you want love, if you want love”

Being famous or popular isn’t all its cracked up to be anyway. Just ask them. Or if you cant do that, simply look at the many of famous humans that we watch and have made popular who have died from their own choices.

Im a bit of a sports person. One of the sports I like to watch (and play) is basketball.

The big name more talented guys (the more popular ones) often get paid large amounts. One thing that has been going around fairly recently in sports is mental health issues. One of the big named players DeMar DeRozan (plays on a team out of the state of Texas called the San Antonio Spurs) opened up about his struggles with mental health. He said people say to him, “What are you depressed about? You can buy anything you want.” His simple response was, “I wish everyone in the world was rich so they could realize that money isn’t everything.”

Truth is we all struggle with different things. Popular or not. You never know when you meet someone what is going on for them in their life or inside of themselves. We all have bad days and feel good and good days and feel bad or visa versa. Things we grow up in and around shape us. Things that happen to us shape us as well. But having good human people around you and doing things that make you happy and make you feel like you matter can change and reshape you.

One of the only things I fear is doing popular things and hurting those I care about (that and applying for a job..yikes) or forgetting the things that truly matter (like the people that I care about). I don’t care about much (or many pointless things) as you’ve read already but what i do care about i hold deeply (especially in regards to human people and those that have made an impact on my life, helped me succeed and grow and have cared for me especially when I was low and didn’t feel like myself). Things (possessions) break and become outdated, get stolen or lost, but people (even though the may break, grow, get lost, change or move away) are aways valuable (and never become outdated). I trust and care with very little limits or boundaries. And popular or not, hurt or not i would stand up against even the Hulk to defend someone I care about and fight for them no matter what.

I hated hanging out/around the popular kids. I never fit in but I also never felt like I fit in with the non popular kids either. I was picked on by popular and the not popular and rejected by both as well. When I was growing up and living in California I used to help at at a youth group and as well dabble in doing games (as a game director)

and lifeguarding (saver of lives at the pool and river) at a summer camp.

My favorite kids to hang out with were the ones that felt just like I felt, the outsiders (the lost and confused ones). Groups (or clicks) of people always form in functions where there are large handfuls of amounts of human people around. People question why would you not want to come to such things where you can swim all day and play games in the sun for a week straight? Well, feeling like an outsider can make anyone feel uncomfortable and awkward at even the best of events. I know all to well what that’s like. Sure I’ve been blessed to travel around to different places around the world, but mostly I’ve done it alone and with questions of fitting in. Which is really never that fun. I also don’t know many days or places where I have felt like I belong. I often feel like an outcast or outsider (or maybe even not from this planet), even amongst people I think are my friends and where I feel like I thrive as an extrovert around large groups of people.

I once had a friend that would often say, “the struggle is real.” She was a pretty decent adult and had great people around her but life wasn’t easy. I don’t think anyone has it easy and i think more often than not most have it harder than the next. We each have things (popular or not) that we are going though. I tried to find something to fill that struggle and it only made the struggle harder/worse. Flying on Jet Planes, jumping off of platforms to splash in water, traveling the countryside and swimming everyday was great, but it doesn’t fix everything or anything for that matter. The problem with struggling with yourself in your own skin and the pain and hurts that come with that is no matter where you go you take them with you. You can run but you can never get away from yourself. Momentary happiness only lasts for a moment and no moment lasts forever.

Finding long lasting happiness is hard, I think it is the same as trying to find gold at the end of a rainbow…nearly impossible (especially depending on your definition of gold). Being popular is probably also hard. But I think being anything is hard. Life is better when we do it surrounded by people that make things better (especially when there is laughter and smiles involved). Theres a quote that says, “Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind. Always.” and a variation of that same quote that says, “be nice to everyone you meet for you never know the battle they are facing inside.”

I don’t hate popular kids and i don’t hate non popular kids either (to be fair i don’t really know what the difference is). But neither of them could talk to me and I wouldn’t die over it. I don’t hate change or when things change and people move away and or on. I hate missing out i guess is more so how i feel recently. I hate that i couldn’t fix or find a fix to what was going on inside me (and still haven’t). I hate that those who helped me felt like they couldn’t do enough when they did more than they will ever know or understand. I hate that coming back feels like the first time i showed up.

Adventures can be great but not when they cost you things that (you had that) were greater.

Don’t be popular, be unpopular. Help out someone who is struggling (hug them).

Share your lunch with the nerdy kid (bring a smile to their face).

Give a ride to the weird kid cause they missed the bus or were forgotten (show them they aren’t forgotten).

Life is too short to let things come between those that matter and those we find special even if things have changed. Not everything popular is worth worrying (or caring) about. Sometimes it is actually more popular to care about and do what’s unpopular anyway.

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ddonggeun · 6 years

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Hey! So I’m suspecting if I got adhd/add but is there any symptom idk. It’s really exp here to get it diagnosed

sorry it took me a while to get back to you because honestly i dont know whats a good alternative for you can be so i guess i can share my own experience?

first of all i think googling symptoms and types of adhd and reading peoples account on how adhd/add manifest is a good start? my doctor and the reddit /r/adhd REALLY help me to accept myself (which is the first step i think) but the way i get diagnosis (i am adhd with predominately inattentiveness - but at the same time i have depressions and dyslexia which is like a killer combo 10/10 would never rec) is that i came across with an article a couple months about how girls with adhd are more likely to be (mis)diagnosed with depression and it basically fucks up multiple generations because they cant get the help they need and i was like wait whats describe in it sounds kind of like me but at the same time i have always been very lethargic and rather well behaved in class growing up i am nothing like what you would typically associate with adhd (you know the hyper-activeness) so during my next visit to the doctor (im getting treatment for my depression) i mention to the article to her and she said wait you know what describe how you feel in a classroom setting growing up and is there anything you do that teachers complain about repeatedly and tell me how studying and doing homework is like to you and so i did (i can go further into details of my life since a lot contributes to why i only get diagnosis when im 21… let me know if you would like to know i guess?)

my doctor (who just so happens to be an adhd specialist and is quite active in the research area i didnt know before then we stan forever i love her really she is so encouraging and so good at her job) took some notes as i was talking and after im done she said you know what i think you might be onto something but i cant be sure yet (since i have depression and dyslexia which both overlaps quite a lot with adhd/add) why dont i first explain to you what adhd is and i’ll give you the set of official diagnosis questions you dont have to do it just take a look at it first do some research organize your thought talk to your parents about it and if you think getting a test on it is something you want we can set up another appointment and we can go from there - which is really really nice because adhd has always been a taboo at least with my upbringing it makes you a loser socially academically and you know just in general its not something you will want to have….

in hind sight there are SO MANY SIGNS even in early childhood how come no one notice i dont know prolly because i grew up in the 00s if you are different you need to kys lmao rip:

trouble paying attention in school or work,

the appearance of not listening - although im an audio learner funny enough

avoidance of activities that require sustained focus,

being easily distracted

restlessness

fidgeting and cant sit properly - i shake my legs or click my pen so much especially when im thinking or anxious lmao, i got into trouble a lot when i was younger because i only sit in my seat facnig the teacher 5 mins max at at ime then i move around or i move the chair around i think better when i cross my legs but i went to a uniform school and i always make my skirt too short so you know

interrupting - if i dont say what comes to mind when it comes to mind, the thought is gone forever

frequent talking and talking way too fast - i get the exact same comment every single report day class from when i was 4 till i graduated high school im not even kidding “she has excellent comprehension skill and reading speed. it would be great if parents can help her out a bit in maths or chemistry. she has a lot of potential if she applies herself, she seems distracted although when we ask her questions she can answer. very helpful and bubbly and yet she talks too much in class. she is not disruptive and her seatmate never complains but she just doesnt stop talking. we have been pairing her up with quiet students in class in the hopes that she will talk less in class but she just turn the quiet student talkative”

trying to do multiple things at once - i cant do one thing at a time, even when im say writing a paper i need to be listening to music or talking to someone if not switching between tabs or word files

mood swings

hyperfocus - oh boy oh boy oh boy

impulsiveness - i dont know if i get better as i age or is it getting worse i just know how to clean up my mess lmaooooo

poor time management - although i would say ever since i start listening to stuff 24/7 it really helps build a sense of the passage of time or whatever? its like now i know ok by the time i get to the third song in the shower i need to be washing out my conditioner; or say i need to go somewhere in 40 mins which is really abstract to me i set timers and put on a show thats 35ish mins even tho im not watching it just so im aware of time is actually happening if it makes sense

fail to follow through - i start things and once i have it figure out in my head i struggle to put it down in words or explain it to others i work well with other adhd peps tho

doesnt follow instruction and only do stuff their way

burnout - this is the worst especially if you are a perfectionist or a control freak and guess who is both

trouble coping with stress -

i luck out because im canadian and my doctor (in my schools clinic) just so happens to be a specialist who is very passionate about helping undergrads and grad school students to achieve as much as they can - so doctor and diagnosis for me is free. i do have to pay for my medications out of my pocket for a bit since im on vyvanse (to treat both my adhd and depression-lead anxiety its complicated but it makes sense when my doctor explained it to me lol) and this drug isnt covered by Pharmacare (CAD $130ish for 3 weeks worth of 30mg, im mostly on 30mg but on days when i dont have work on stuff or go to school i take 20mg just so my anxiety dont cause me to explode lmao) and very expensive but recently my doctor and i have agreed that vyvanse really work for me and it is something that i should be on daily for the foreseeable future we applied for special authorization which means i only gotta pay the tax… of course medicating isnt a must but it is what works for me and we figure out a way to make it affordable so i cant be more happy about that

at the same time i work with my psychiatrist to you know configure the whole adhd thing cause you know 21 years of repressing and forcing your feet into a shoes that not even your size frick you up thats something people dont tell you 🤷🏻‍♀️

what my doctor said to me then stuck with me - she told me adhd or add really is no monster or flaw in fact it is a very valuable set of traits we inherit from our ancestor - we hate it now because modern society render these skills useless well you see adhd isnt all about the hyperactiveness you see in the media people with adhd are extra sensitive to their surrounding and prefer hands on experiences (today we call them distracted) they are always aware of the change around them and is capable to attend to a couple things at a time and act fast because their brains are always making sense of things even when they arent consciously doing it. in todays society we dont want these kind of people why? because they ask questions they are curious people who notice trivial stuff that dont contribute to productivity they cant sit still which makes them not the ideal factor workers or pupils BUT! you have to remember that industrialization started like a century ish ago before that our ancestors live in predominately tribal society - adhd people then are the perfect caretakers and protectors, why? because they are always noticing things they adapt and react fast… so yeah it kinda suck for us growing up in a system thats designed to be everything we are and it is something that need to be changed but for those of us who “made it out alive” especially people who only get diagnosed in adulthood more often than not they look back and realize they have developed so many incredible ways to cope to make things work - are they always the perfect way? are they always health? no definitely no but at the same time it shows you how incredible these people are they make things work yes things are really hard sometimes but you got to give yourself a pet in the shoulder for not giving up… with the help of science and research we now know a little more about how adhd affect people we now have medication and programs developed to help people with adhd - they arent to dumb you down or numb you but instead it helps you to focus better so you can actually hear your entire thought and not just phrases or sentence fragments

#i rambled but i hope my personal experience give u a slight idea of how adhd/add manifest in others? but like i said medicating is not the #only way i think talking to people with similar experiences is helpful too even tho they might not be able to offer you professional medical #advices not feeling alone or that you are a weirdo is so important people talk a lot of about how poor self image among adhd ppls are common #and i think the social pressure is def one of the things that make it worse #i dont know where you are but if you are still in school #i guess talking to a trusted teacher or like social worker would be a good start they might be able to point you to more local and accessibl #resources.... and i mean you can always talk to me im very new to the whole actively combating adhd and not just cope with it but you know #sometimes you just need someone to hear you rant about stuff and im always here... i might not be able to reply fast since im in my last #semester 😳 and school is killing me lmao but ill try to response as soon as i see it :)))#ask #anon

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oh-my-otome · 6 years

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I absolutely adore your thoughts on the psychological health within the SLBP characters! If you don’t mind, could you scale MidC, DtL, and IkeSen (pick whichever game you want!), too? If it’s not too much to ask ☺️

Hello, Precious! Let’s do all three!

Again, purely for fun! And, like the last time, there will be SPOILERS!

0=unstable, 50=borderline, 100=normal

MidCin, you’re up!

Louis (65):

Tsunderes, kuuderes and yanderes, by design, are not normal to begin with, because their logic only makes sense to themselves.

Louis being both a kuudere and a yandere are what take his score down.

Frequently thinking it to himself, and sometimes saying it out loud, Louis has obsessive thoughts about wanting to keep his love interest to himself, and fantasizes about keeping her somewhere where only he can see.

He also thinks that acting like a frigid ass, like the nobles, will somehow save her from the nobles.

Even though Louis falls deeply in love with the princess, he will also lie to her face without a hint of hesitation, undermine her hard work, and jeopardize the stability of the monarchy.

He also entertains a suicidal fantasy, and attempts to see it through.

Sid (80):

Even though he lies for a living, Sid praises honesty when it comes to his inner circle.

He has no qualms teasing Louis left and right, because he’s made it known to Louis that he wants to save him from himself.

Finding himself trapped in a loveless engagement, Sid makes sure that his fiancée knows ahead of time that he doesn’t love her and never will. He gives her the chance to break it off, even making sure that she understands that he will take other lovers, and is only with her to get information about her father.

Because Sid always has to be “on,” in order to take advantage of any kind of situation, so that he gets the information he needs to do his job, Sid sometimes has a problem with reigning it in and just being himself– and not his trickster alter ego.

This causes communication problems between him and princess, but Sid always knows how to smooth it over.

In every case where parents are involved, in MidCin, Sid has the most positive and supporting relationship with his.

He is close to his adopted father, who always has his back, and builds a positive relationship with his estranged parents.

Giles (70):

Anything– and I do mean A N Y T H I N G ! –that the princess does, whether positive or negative reflects on Giles. And I mean that the princess’ reactions reflect on Giles as a person and on his capacity as a Chamberlain who knows what he’s doing.

We all give him crap for it, but one small mishap from princess could realistically cost Giles his entire life’s work, since the first thing out of anyone’s mouth would be to question why she wasn’t taught and trained better– which isn’t Leo’s job, but Giles’.

And “well, I told her not to!” isn’t a valid answer. It’s Giles’ job to ensure.

Understandably, we can see why he has a vested interest in breathing down Princess’ neck, all the time. It’s also why he’s always so stressed out, and persnickety.

To add to that, his family life is complicated, leaving him depressed and estranged.

Giles is also sickly, and prone to bouts of fever, so his plate is quite full.

He works himself to the bone, and cant even get a decent amount of rest due to both lack of time, and a weak body.

Fortunately, Giles’ strong character keeps him running, even we he wants nothing more than to crawl into bed and cuddle up with his cat.

Always able to be depended on, one would never know from looking at him that he’s hiding so much turmoil inside.

Alyn (75):

His biggest “quirk” is that he hates tomatoes. who can blame him

He’s pretty damn normal, aside from his random and intense one-sided feud with his twin brother, Leo.

Alyn knows that his brother needs help, but doesn’t really do much to facilitate that, beyond throwing a few words of encouragement at his brother’s girlfriend.

His attitude toward Leo’s anguish is basically the embodiment of the phrase: “like pouring water on a drowning man.”

However, when he’s needed, Alyn will be there in a pinch, ready to make good on his promise to protect.

Although physically strong, he can be a bit of a pushover under the right conditions.

Leo (50):

You would think for someone who has women climbing into trebuchets in order to launch themselves at him, that Leo would be a little smoother than he is.

What brings his score down so low is that Leo’s backstory isn’t just a backstory– it’s right there with him in the present.

He (and Alyn) experience a trauma so deep that it continues into adulthood.

As such, Leo entertains the dangerous idea of pre-meditated murder in the hope of avenging his family, not realizing that he’s also contributing to its destruction.

Byron (65):

It’s supposed to be looked at as a way to get to know him, but not being aware of one’s own feelings– positive, negative, or neutral –and questioning whether it is “okay” to feel them, or express them, is neither normal nor cute.

Byron is also given to whims, either not giving a damn at all what the nobles say, or purposefully putting them in their place with ostentatious displays of affection.

Byron is very sweet to his romantic interest, but is also coldly indifferent to others who are close to him.

He understands that he wields incredible power, but he’s not above making his own brother (Nico), another king (Alyn), and a close friend (Louis) essentially beg on their hands and knees before he’ll lift a finger to help them.

He can also be unnervingly detached, such as when he’s attacked in broad daylight and just shrugs it off while his best friend throws himself bodily in the way to block a sword.

Byron may not like his father, but the apple didn’t exactly fall far from the tree, either.

They may not be exactly alike, as one wouldn’t expect them to be– they’re two different people –but he is definitely Gerald Wagner’s son, by blood and to some extent, personality.

Nico (65):

When the only thing that stops you from murdering a man in the middle of the woods is that your brother and his friend arrived just in time to prevent it, because they didn’t have much trouble following the trail of other people’s blood that you’ve been leaving, have a seat because you’re not normal.

Nico started out his young life as the bastard son of a king, who was forced by circumstances outside of his control to survive on the streets.

Even when he was taken in by his brother, Nico was forced to live in two different worlds: in the light as someone that everyone in the castle can see and here, and know that he’s there, but also in the shadows, as his relationship to the royal family was still kept secret.

In that sense, the sins of the father were carried on by one of his sons, Byron, who wanted to rescue his brother, but also treated him to some extent like the nobles who had chased Nico and his mother from the castle.

Nico says himself that no one really takes him seriously about anything, and that his opinions don’t matter.

Albert is very comfortable with making Nico his whipping boy right in front of Byron.

Byron, for his part, barely ever defends his brother.

All of this can’t be easy for Nico, who confesses to the first person he crushes on.

Not only that, he goes way out of his way, almost killing himself, to protect the person who truly loves him, and risks displacing a monarchy to ensure that he can maintain his relationship.

Albert (75):

Albert’s flippant nature stems from the fact that no one’s checked his ass, before Princess.

If not for her, he would continue on forever, bowing and scraping before his king, without realizing that there can be loyalty beyond fealty, and devotion that transcends admiration and patriotism.

Through love, Albert comes to understand trust and forgiveness, and how to handle one’s emotions.

Albert likes to plan for every situation, but as a tsundere, he is also reactionary.

Robert (65):

Robert’s idea of dealing with the past is never talking about it, ever, which is neither helpful nor healthy.

He also likes to literally run away from his problems, and is just fine with up and leaving at a moment’s notice, with no regard for how that might potentially unnerve, frighten, or traumatize another person– in his case, a group of four specific individuals, all still technically children, who were close to him: Byron, Albert, Nico, and Princess.

While mature in every other regard, Robert is prone to lashing out verbally when people try to talk about his past, even in private.

He also uses stone walling and pretending the incident didn’t happen, as defense mechanisms.

He will also actively ignore any past connections until doing otherwise suits his purposes, leaving the people he used to know in the awkward position of having to guess at whether they’re supposed to try to reach out to him, or go along with acting like strangers.

Now for DtL!

Todo (30):

Todo, first name Heisuke, is the identical twin of Kyo.

Separated at birth, Todo grew up as the wealthy little lord (bocchama) of a crime-ridden family.

At some point, that house fell, and Todo would frequently dream that was in a futuristic place.

In one dream, he discovered that he had a twin, Kyo.

In his dreams, Todo would visit his brother regularly, and that’s when he realized that it wasn’t a dream at all!

Todo possesses the ability to travel across time, backwards and forwards, without restriction– and what he was seeing in his “dreams” was actually real.

Oh, and he’s also a pathokinetic empath who can control the emotions and physical well-being of others, most notably, Kyo.

Apparently, the knowledge that one has powers such as these will mess a person right up, and Todo proceeds to lose his damn mind.

Because time means nothing to him, death and life also mean nothing to him, since all he would have to do is press fast forward or rewind or whatever he does, and “fix” everything.

It would also mean, if he chose to, he could go forward in time and know everything.

Living in an era where superstitions are still deeply rooted in the culture, Todo oscillates between understanding that Kyo is a completely separate person from himself, and thinking that Kyo is literally a part of him that was split off.

Kyo (70):

Pretty normal until he takes his NOTICE ME, SENPAI! act straight into outright threatening others to stay away from the woman he’s crushing on.

He is skeptical and hard-working.

Handsy, clingy and uncomfortably honest when drunk, Kyo is otherwise a good-natured person who enjoys helping others.

Yamazaki (85):

Yamazaki is as popular with the ladies as any other ikemen, but he is also insecure and occasionally distrusting of other’s intentions, particularly around women in the RLD, whom he suspects want to use him (he’s half-right).

He also lets Okita get away with far too much, but he also possesses the power to lay Okita out like a picnic blanket, if he wanted to, so maybe it’s a good thing that Yamazaki chooses to let so many of Okita’s shenanigans slide.

An unrepentant hand fetishist, Yamazaki may look and act innocent, but he’s a beast in the bedroom.

Saito (80):

Saito is secretive and mysterious, but also kind and helpful.

He always keeps his promises, and trains his MC in self-defense so that she has an added layer of protection in an unfamiliar place, beyond ‘I know a bunch of samurai, so don’t mess with me.’

However, he can also be distant and secretive in a negative way, such as getting himself a fiancée when he’s still in love with his MC.

Haru/Kirisato (45):

That moment when the year is 1864 and The Silence of the Lambs novel won’t be published until 124 years later, and you’re talking about someone else’s skin belonging to you– while being completely, creepily serious –is how you know you’re not normal and never will be.

That and the fact that he’s very firmly in yandere territory.

Haru lives a double life as a spy, hitman, and courtesan, who seems to be keeping it all together, until he meets his love interest.

Keiki (60):

Not only does Keiki start out depressed, his own MC makes sure that he can barely climb his way back out, by actively traumatizing him when he needed her the most.

Keiki still carries the pain of watching a friend die in front of him, and as such, dislikes anything that reminds him that beauty– like life –is fleeting.

He is also surprisingly trusting, once he lets his guard down, and very fragile once his trust has been broken.

Kondo (90):

His biggest flaw is that he has no sense of direction, and that he loves animals, but they don’t love him, AND THAT HE DOESN’T HAVE A ROUTE!

Sakamoto (85):

Stubborn and brusque, Sakamoto has a preternatural intuition that has saved him and The Exclusionists more than once.

Too bad it didn’t help in that alley!

Sakamoto is typically chased down and pestered by women, and to that end tries to make himself inconspicuous as much as possible, which is easy to do when you have flaming red hair.

He is thick-headed, but also sensitive, playful but considerate.

Okubo (85):

A graduate of the Byron Wagner School for Robots, Okubo doesn’t know what love is, but wants you to show him.

But look out, because he is chock full of naughty kinks, such as being a very frisky and bold drunk, playing footsie, an unashamed ear kissing and biting fetish, and dominating during sex.

Okubo is very observant when he’s not reading at the speed of light, and his anger is prone to his whims– sometimes he briefly says what is bothering him, and other times he is quite angsty and demanding.

Although he often vague, he is a sincere person.

He is also forgetful, and has no qualms about mooching off of others.

Katsura (90):

Energetic and suave, calculating and capable, Katsura is surprisingly sensitive.

Unable to leave others alone when they need him, he even goes so far as to politely ignore the fact that his former friend’s wife has been coming on to him for years, all because he doesn’t know how to say ‘no,’ without hurting her feelings.

Comfortably open about his hair fetish.

Okita (55):

Okita manages to be both gullible and naïve, which are not mutually exclusive.

His score is low because he is a yandere. He doesn’t find it odd in the slightest that the first thing to pop into in his mind is orchestrating another man’s death, rather than explaining the situation.

Because of his illness, Okita is understandably depressed and anxious, causing him to react to situations in ways that a healthy person wouldn’t.

He is also intensely loyal, and finds that a life spent living without the people he’s close to, is no life at all.

Hijikata (75):

Hijikata likes to take on more than he can chew, but at the same time, doing exactly that frustrates him. He’s super stressed, but finds it difficult to say no.

Like his real-life counterpart, Hijikata believes that someone must go down with the ship, and he has sworn undying loyalty to the Shinsengumi and the shogun, alike.

Because of his workload, and the fact that he is a light sleeper, Hijikata spends his days running on fumes, barely able to get any shut-eye, until he finds his MC.

Although his devotion to Kondo and Keiki is unshakable, Hijikata folds like a cheap suit when Kyo slides up to him and tells him to break up with his MC.

Doesn’t give a damn about anyone knowing that he likes women’s accessories, and wants to dress Yamazaki in women’s clothes.

Yuki (90):

Gender-fluid, bi-sexual Yuki is almost always bubbly and positive.

However, he is not above threatening others when he sees the need, as he doesn’t take kindly at all to having to watch the woman he likes be with a man whom he feels doesn’t deserve her.

His kimono shop is a legitimate business, but also a front where one can buy guns, swords and yes– smoke bombs!

He sometimes pretends to be drunk to get information, or further the romance of his love interest and her chosen partner.

He is stronger than Hijikata and Sakamoto. Combined.

Yuki also has sword skills that make Saito weep.

Takasugi (55):

Retroactively forced into the kuudere box, Takasugi is now a kuu/tsun mix of volatile angst and depression, often using silence as a weapon just as much as his angry retorts.

Takasugi knows that his illness is getting the best of him, and uses others where he cannot succeed on his own.

Stubborn and prideful, Takasugi just wants to be loved, but doesn’t know how to be straightforward about it.

Your turn, IkeSen!

Nobunaga (75):

Nobunaga has inexhaustible trust and faith in his inner circle, and rather than treat them like lesser lords, he treats them like family.

Even as an adult, he still experiences the trauma of a failed assassination attempt, and cannot sleep comfortable until he meets his MC.

He is stubborn about his feelings, denying them and excusing them away, until they become so blatant that he can’t help but act on them.

Ieyasu (55):

Hard-headed and resistant, Ieyasu has a hard time letting others care for him. Quick to try to prove himself, Ieyasu is prove to bouts of seeking vengeance even when the situation is in control.

Obsessed with affirmations of love, Ieyasu is several different dere-types, most notably a yandere.

He takes it personally when people have talent, but squander it.

Hideyoshi (60):

Loyal to the death, Hideyoshi is devoted to Nobunaga with every fiber of his being.

When Nobunaga is believed dead, Hideyoshi proceeds nose dive into a pit of despair so deep that he can barely feel anything.

Mitsuhide (75):

Genuinely believing that there is nothing worth loving about him, Mitsuhide is a sadodere who enjoys teasing others– the closest thing to love that he thinks he’s allowed to have.

Because Mitsuhide keeps his feelings and secrets close to his chest, he is often mistaken as a villain, which exactly what he wants.

Mitsunari (80):

Obtuse and clueless, Mitsunari lovable and pure.

His score is lowered because he actively refuses, at his age, to learn to take care of himself, and has a co-dependent relationship with the other warlords, who merely joke or chastise him about it, rather than taking him aside and demanding that he get himself together, since he is in no capacity a child.

Kennyo (55):

Self-loathing, and chock full of martyr complex, Kennyo goes from murdering madman to regretful, forlorn monk at the speed of light.

His determination to see Nobunaga fall blinds him to the fact that he has other options such as forgiveness.

Shingen (90):

Laid back and chivalrous, Shingen is mature, and dependable to those in his inner circle.

He keeps his illness a secret, which is a personal choice.

Kenshin (50):

A yandere bent on keeping those close to him, Kenshin honestly believes that he cannot die.

The first thing out of Kenshin’s mouth is that he won’t be cowed by a hostage, but the next time you turn around, he’s wrapping himself all kinds of ways around his MC’s (hostage) finger, the better to acquiesce to her every request.

As such, Kenshin experiences the cognitive dissonance of presenting himself one way, but behaving another.

Even knowing that that is how others see him, he is quick to defend himself when made fun of, as he doesn’t like his good intentions joked about.

Battle hungry and single-minded, Kenshin is often in the grip of ennui so strong that only extreme circumstances can pull him out.

Yukimura (70):

The only thing that brings Yukimura’s score down so low is his penchant for joking even when his MC has said she’s had enough, and the act that he’s extremely reactionary under the right circumstances, such as having sex on an unprotected battlefield and leaving his love interest there, deep asleep, with no shelter or anyone/thing to keep her safe.

Masamune (75):

Quixotic and capricious, Masamune is always raring to battle. He is preoccupied with appearing cool at any cost, but is also considerate and thoughtful.

His stubbornness is what cost him a higher score, as he contributes to his MC almost killing a man to prove herself, before he realizes that prattling about his own resolve has an effect on others’.

Sasuke (80):

Sasuke is incredibly smart, but he’s also a bit of a masochist, on top of being a huge fanboy.

He also subscribes to taking forever to notice/confess his feelings, but he is extremely loyal, and down-to-earth.

#q&a #midnight cinderella #destined to love #ikemen sengoku

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11 questions...

I was tagged by @pureren @zaevran @glaspaladin @z-ayauitl and @kcgane ty so much !!! ♥

RULES: 1. Always post the rules 2. Answer the questions given by the person who tagged you 3. Write 11 questions of your own 4. Tag 11 people

my questions…

1. what’s the worst piece of clothing you own?

2. what’s the coolest piece of uh fashion that is so cool you can’t even wear to go out? lol

3.- what book have you read that you feel it has been the worst?

4.- What’s the healthiest meal you actually like?

5.- do you love keith kogane? (or vld keith lmfao what u prefer to use)

6.- something paranormal ever happened to you? if yea, what?

7.- do you get jealous easily? with who? (friends, popular ppl, talented ppl, the s/m)

8.- what’s the cutest thing you own?

9.- what are your favorite crisps?

10.- do you have a favourite drink?

11.- can you tell im hungry? what hobby you wish you liked or wish you did?

i tag: @kukinta @kittyr0se @heirith @liesfromsatansbuttcheeks @sheith-love-always @acequeenm @blessedkeith @lukaspatel @ke1th @ace-pidge @keith8 but only if you want to!

TESSA’SS AND!! TAMI’S QUESTIONS1!!!

1. Do you connect with people easily?

mmm, I don’t becos im a very quiet person and can be w u w/o talking at all and I get overwhelmed by convos I don’t care about also it’s kinda hard to win my trust and also interest lol. I’m nice tho, i mite not be enjoying myself but i’ll forev b nice w u.

2. Did something good happen to you this week?

uH yeah, i’m doing things to improve my health, i did my uni exam, im frEE, i finally don’t have to go to rEliGIoUs classes aNYMORE and UH,,, i got a diet to win weight and its cool i get to eat ESQUITE LMFAO. i will see my bffs in friday and i have browney mix there i should bake but im lazy

3. What’s the personality trait that annoys you most in other people?

When people pretend to like something just 2 b friends w someone or ME, do you know we can be total dif and maybe still b friends if u cOOL. Ass kissers, hypocrisy, LIES LOL. I don’t like fake ppl at all.

4. If you could participate in any existing tv reality show, which one would you choose?

The ones where they change ur style and buy clothes for u 2 love urself and do ur hair and make up and buy u xpensive undies. I loved that crap when i was in secondary school lmao

5. What’s something you’re insecure about?

That I can’t be in one place without wanting tofuckin run, the fact that i can’t eat w ppl at all, that i have to go to the fucken gYM

6. What’s your favourite way to hang out with friends?

:’)) well,,, i go to my bff’s house or they come. If im fine then walk around my neighborhood cus it’s nice ahaha anxiety am i rite. oKAY, even if i get anxiety i like ice skating, or roller skating, i have a lot of fun. My friend want us to go to this pixies concert and im like :(( boo i love u

7. What’s your favourite fic trope?

lol idk,,,,, pining? mutual pining? no pining and they getting to know therngs im melttin sTOP idk…… it depends on whAT shIP. I just know i’ll read any fake dating of my otp. idk idk duuuude i legit don kno. It’s not a trope but i love crunchy feelings, showefjsid fksjnj its hard to talk about this im sOrry

8. What’s the most embarrassing thing you’ve liked in the past?

hahahahahaha my crush

9. What do you consider to be the best period of your life?

When I was 14. I went to parties more than i go to them now lol, i drank and smokkd w who where my best friends back theN i know it’s whack. we used to go to roller skate? all the damn time and did sleepovers and everything was funny, we practically lived together and my friend that was 16 drove us to places lmao,, everything was so good. but like, dont imagine me too wild i only smokd like 5 cigs in my life and hookah and we even broke one.

10. What do you consider to be the worst period of your life?

mpghgg, when i turned 15,,, in the middle of it everythin went to shit to the actual date. But im trying to change that

11. How did you meet your best friend?

I met her,,,, 11 years ago. Look, I usually have best friends in pack. I have 3 bffs at the moment, one of them sat next to me in 2nd year of primary school. IDK how i got to actually know my absolute bff tho but we did a lot of weird shit. we also met in the same classroom and she was my bff back then. The third one was also a frind but not so much during those years. Later i changed of classrooms and shit and bonded more when I was 14 w 6 friends and those r i did crazy shit w but we got separated and stopped talkin and they invited me to the club a week before my uni exam but i was high on meds and sick af. and never replied also going to meet em again at the club makes me nervous af tbH…. I have had a lot of super close friends in my life wTf. In my new school i have also 7 friends that r super close.And we’re also a pack of bffs. I actually had a hard time to use the word bestfriend lol, not bc of me havin a lot or anythin, i was just emo i guess

BEX’S QUESTIONS YOo

1. What’s the strangest nickname you’ve ever been given?

:))))))))))))))))))))))))) gabhole, gabaloney, TETI THAT SOUNDS LIKE TITTY. now ft Aztec secret

2. Do you like to gossip?

UMMMMMM,, i dont like to listen to another ppl judging someone, I hate it and i normally tell them to stop. it depends i guess

3. Are you afraid of the dark? um,,, no but i dont like it lol

4.Have you ever been stung by a bee?

no, but i steppeddd on one. I also was pickin a tree and till this day i dont knoW wTF it was but i had something big in my middle finger and it fucken hurt like a bitch and i had A BALL on it UGHHHHH I HATE BUGS

Bigfoot or mothman? fucking none

Do you trust anyone with your life? i mean, idk

Do you have any habits you wish you could break? yEAH, to stop tweeting my mental breakdowns is one lmao.

Would you go ghost/alien hunting?

both tbh, who wants to break into abandoned houses w me, i live in front of one,,, i mean not so infront but in the row of houses infront of me lmao english whO? dude rosetta stoned by tool is my aesthetic, alien stuff. bex listen to it pls

Best pickup line? (you’ve heard or used on you/you’ve used)

u r the best chair *proceeds to sit on em* keith to shiro probably

Mint or fruit gum?

I dont like gum much cos it makes me hungry or thirsty. I also drink too much soda to fuck w mint stuff :(( say that to the mints i bought lol :( i only eat halls or gum bc im nerves w ppl so they stopped bein a thing i enjoy for me lol. i do that since im like,,, uh,,, idK 15. it fuckd my stomach

What do you want to be remembered for?

I mean if I have to pick and b unrealistic, for art maybe,,, or for the thing i end up working with, like architecture or somethin. Art, def art cus i like art so much

ZURI’S QUESTIONS!!!

1.-if you had to chose one thing to eat for the rest of your life what would it be?

I MEAN THIS QUESTION IS THE DEVIL I GET TIRED OF EVERYTHING TO THE POINT I DONT WNAN EAT ANYTHING I WILL JUST IGNORE IT SSAYS ONE AND SAY MEXICAN FOOD

2.- what are you most afraid of? Mental illnes and being ill and living

3.- do you have a favorite place to visit?

I mean,,,, i love walking in the center? centre? of my city bc is like going to another place. Is also fucking Cuba in there. Everyone says that, my dad asked a cuban marine he met if it was true and he said it was ‘’ the fackin same’’ So its like,,, travelling in time and places. also the beach and the port.

4.- what type of weather you enjoy the most?

I need the sun, otherwise i get sad… i like cloudy w sun. I just like to go out in the afternoon tho lol so like,,, sun pls so the sky can turn pinkish

5.- do you have a rare ability like dislocating your thumb or moving your eyes really fast?

i move my tongue real real fast and also can do the cherry knot thing and uh i can like, be aberrantly stupid too. hey but dont fuk w me and bother me 4 bein stupid, i will fist fite u and i mite b stupid but i will also mite think u r stupid if i don like u so fuk off. Dam,,, i get like, bothered so easy LOL like, think u r better than me and i’ll fist fite u LMFAO WHY THO I SUK, but like, if not bothered, i think of everyone as my equal… wow this was not the question

6.- do you think it would be easier to create one universal lenguage or an accurate translator? nO… dont delete culture like that,,, an accurate translator mite come in handy u kno but like, some languages have words that don’t exist in others so like :-/

7.- is there something that soothes you no matter what? um no i wish

8.- favorite piece of clothing? boots and thights

9.- is there a song stuck in your head right now? YEAH dig down by muse i love it, every1 says it sUCLks but i can’t stop listenin to it

10.- why is your favorite animal your favorite animal? i don play favs but i love the honey badger bc of this pleas fuckin watch it and THIS

11.- morning person or late riser? Oh,, i cant wake up to save my life so late riser

SUNNY’S QUESTIONS!!!

1. do you have any plushies? a LOT but im like,,, they r in my wardrobe and i luv em but like,,, they’re all gifts,,, did u kno one of my past bffs bought me a dino for christmas?

2. have you ever walked out the cinema before?

Yeah, i love drive’s aesthetic and Ryan gosling a lot but is SO boring so idk if my friends and I got kicked out or we prefered to get out to talk haha.

3. if you could have a mascot what would it be and why?

A CHINCHILLA, they’re a irl pokemon and they r so cUTE

4. what would your theme song be? kool thing, sonic youth maybe or is she weird by pixies. All Over the world by pixies too lol

5. do you have any phrases or sayings you find yourself coming back to often? not really, im so bad at remembering sayings and quotes

6what’s the nearest object to your right? a book called azul by ruben dario

7. would you rather live in the big city or out in the middle of nature?

Big city forever. I love high? buildings a lot. I dont do that well in the rural life lmao

8. are you working on any creative projects right now (fic/art/music/photography/ect) Nope at all and das sad cus i should b doing art lmao

9. what’s your favourite movie score? idk what is score… but the soundtrack of trainspotting is one of my favs… oh but score… aghgsdhaj any tarantino movie tbh or wes anderson movie… or before I disappear or demolition oR southpaw or the girl w the dragon tattoo

10. i say vol you say….? uuhhhhh,,,,, vol….tron??? (ICONIC, I MELT, I LVOE HIM)

#if any of u actually read this all omg i am love u #tag meme #this was uh long #i changed it so u don have to read all mineeee lol #if u have sideblogs where u'd rather post this then do it :)#i typed brownie as browney rIP

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