#and i do that enough as it is

[weregreatatcrime]

You know one of the worst things about my health rn is that when I check back in to stuff I've done in the past, whether it's art or writing or role-playing, I just. "Wow! This is awesome. I don't remember half of this." Or when I had things going on and paused partway through..... I don't remember hardly ANY of the plans I had for fics. And while I've tried, I just. Genuinely Do Not Have the brainpower to be creative anymore. Literally just getting through the day without letting my malfunctioning flesh prison collapse to the ground takes up so much energy that the very concept of CREATING has just been impossible. And it fucking sucks because not only do I know other people miss my work, but *I* miss my work too. I miss being able to think about things without having to worry I'll be braindead the rest of the day. I miss having fun writing and making things, collaboration with others, and just having a blast writing self-indulgence nonsense.

Doesn't help that I keep getting people on ao3 asking me if I'm updating soon or, in one memorable case, some dude who thought it was appropriate to ask if "the covid got me". Like I've never much cared to force myself to update schedules but now I can't do anything at all about it and idk what to tell ppl. "Hey sorry I haven't updated in ages, the last year has been nothing but neurological bs screwing my body and mind around until I was literally incapable of working because collapses and an absolutely inability to focus. I zone out midsentence sometimes or forget LANGUAGE and things that I've known since toddlerhood. Memory blanks and just straight up memory loss have impacted my everyday life.... and lets not even BRING UP the hand tremors and muscle spasms that make it hard to use my own damned hands. Sorry about all that! IDK when the next updates will be because I'm at risk of dropping from a stroke at the ripe old age of 22" Like. I can't even talk to friends online as much as I want to because *having conversations* requires energy and focus and I cannot guarantee either

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

that article going around abt firefox's new ad program is annoying bc it's phrased as though "mozilla has finally TURNED on its people and is SELLING YOU OUT for cold hard cash!!" when. that's not what's happening. it is specifically being implemented to discourage tracking behavior, and literally all the data they are giving to advertisers is aggregate and anonymized, which is like, the opposite of what that post wants you to worry about, lol

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[ameba-from-space]

[mangozic]

my dead goth son and his friendly neighborhood personified concept of insanity

[donnieisaprettyboy]

can we stop pretending like it’s so super easy for trans men to pass. “oh just put on a baggy shirt and cut your hair-“ it literally doesn’t work like that and I refuse to believe you actually think it’s that easy

[antennatoheaven]

[whatkindofnameisella]

can you believe that we have fanfiction. that we have websites dedicated to fanfiction. that there is a place that you can go and read tens, hundreds, thousands and thousands of pieces of writing that strangers have made. people who are not "writers". people who come home at the end of the day and have feelings and say, i am going to put that into words. i am going to share those words. short, long, sweet, sad, horny, funny, wonderful words. we are all just human and we all love to make and remake and share that with others. can you believe that.

[sanguinarysanguinity]

Expanding a thought from a conversation this morning:

In general, I think "Is X out-of-character?" is not a terribly useful question for a writer. It shuts down possibility, and interesting directions you could take a character.

A better question, I believe, is "What would it take for Character to do X?" What extremity would she find herself in, where X starts to look like a good idea? What loyalties or fears leave him with X as his only option? THAT'S where a potentially interesting story lies.

In practice, I find that you can often justify much more from a character than you initially dreamed you could: some of my best stories come from "What might drive Character to do [thing he would never do]?" As long as you make it clear to the reader what the hell pushed your character to this point, you've got the seed of a compelling story on your hands.

[spitblaze]

I don't see people gas up gnc and butch transfems nearly enough, can we get a fuckin round of applause for gnc and butch transfems

[emptyportrait]

i'm actually so fucking sick of zionists using phrases such as "Was it worth it, Hamas?" cause literally what the fuck are y'all yapping about??? Israel has been indiscriminately bombing gaza in front of our eyes since last October, Israel has murdered more than 30 thousands Palestinians within 5 months, Israel is forcefully starving gaza, Israel is the one committing war crimes everyday, Israel is continuing genocide and ethnic cleansing. Israel. is. illegally. occupying. Palestine.

we all know who are the perpetrators here. and zionists can't gaslight people into "hamas started it" bullshit anymore. everyone is actually sick of Israel's dumb colonialism propaganda where they just repeat same old tactics “how dare you palestinians resist us, after we have your stolen land, freedom, human rights and subjugated your people under fascist colonial regime.”

Israel carry out atrocities in broad daylight and then go ahead blame Palestinian resistance for the said act of savagery they've performed, "O their audacity!" indeed!

[problemnyatic]

While we're on the subject of swinging our fists at God

The ACLU is gonna take action against Mastercard for their anti-porn schtick! Y'know, one of the major reasons the internet turned to shit in the last ten years? It's literally like 95% of the way there, we just need a few more signatures and the petition Gets There. You have to be USAmerican to sign, but there's enough of us here to fill in the last few signatures needed several times over, so go on over and throw your name on there!!

[willowcrowned]

incredible how much housework you can get done if you take a chance and believe in yourself and also have fifteen other much more pressing responsibilities

[pinkpunkdotpng]

artist rendition of what my mom just walked in on

[girlboyburger]

alright tumblr, here's your homegrown cowgirl C:{

what do you think of her?

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

zany to me how these um actually nihilists like to pretend that "um actually love/friendship/cooperation/kindness isn't real bc we evolved that way to benefit ourselves as a species..." um YES? that's also where tool use comes from? that's where cooking comes from? am i supposed to think social bonds & tool use & cooking aren't "real" because they evolved over time instead of appearing fully formed from the ether?

sorry u can't enjoy things. im a superior being twirling a fork in my bowl of delicious noodles whilst staring in adoration at the world