#i miss when i knew how to make friends

[lacependragon]

One of the worst parts of not having friendship decay is sometimes you have a dream about someone you don't talk to anymore, and you wake up missing them so desperately and achingly, like you last spoke yesterday, and it just never goes away. It's been a month of these dreams and a month of this pain that just slips in whenever I'm not actively guarding myself against it.

I can't just go talk to them brain. I ruined that relationship. I said all the wrong things. I lashed out and was cruel. I was rude. I fucked everything up out of pain and jealously and fear and I never bothered to explain myself. I was wrong. And I'll never get to fix that because I ran. And I have to live with that every single time I have one of these dreams.

You can't fucking just go send them a friend request you're being a fucking asshole and an idiot.

We'll see if it ever stops.

[hadesoftheladies]

hate going for christian weddings sometimes because i always see the prettiest women with the ugliest men, the sermon is always some shit about wives being slaves (but not like bad slavery, mutual slavery except the husband is a benevolent master which makes it okay) and making babies for their husband, the music is always lame, the mc is always weird and obnoxious, and older women keep fucking asking me when it's gonna be my turn and never take no for an answer.

[ratinthevoid]

how to ask sb out for coffee but just in case make it clear you're not interested in dating but they seem great and you would like to be friends?

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

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How to explain that going to church makes me hurt and angry, but not going to church makes me sad and depressed.

[psalmsofpsychosis]

lmao

[stardustedknuckles]

The problem with becoming friends with people while all of you are going through some awful trauma is that if you're not careful you won't know how to keep being friends without it. Growth is a good thing, but that can be easy to forget when every step forward you take makes you worry those people won't be in your life anymore and you subconsciously feel like you have to manufacture some kind of ongoing crisis so you guys have something to talk about. Friendships formed in the face of hardship are strong and fierce things, and the relationship fading as your lives improve doesn't mean it wasn't real. It just served its purpose. You all made it out alive, and that was why you found each other in the first place. This is a hard and shitty lesson to learn.

[salsflore]

[vaugarde]

alsooooo btwwwww ive been thinking of timeline stuff for my kirbyverse and i think like, for the most part all the main series games are in chronological order except for kirby super star (ultra), which chronologically happens first. super star is basically kirby’s origin story and how he became the hero of dreamland and popstar 

(i also like it bc super star ultra was kumazaki’s first real kirby game as director and thats the start of his modern kirby content so its like a new beginning for that era as well as being the start of kirby’s journey)

[tytrack]

not to make this a public diary but every time i hang out with crush and he reveals another observation about me i feel insane. today he mentioned that i’m very perceptive and good at reading others, and also very empathetic, both things he’s mentioned before, even when we had only been friends for a month. today he was struggling to figure out how to tell me this, but that he thinks i’m fun and funny, and the way he said it seemed like he was surprised by it. but it’s interesting because people get to know me in the opposite direction: fun/funny -> perceptive -> empathetic. idk i just think it’s funny that

[siriuslynephilim]

bestie is coming home on 1st im having thoughts

[asexualjedi]

My friend posted about how he regrets every day not going to the burial of our friend who died by suicide and. It. I also didn’t go and. Made me feel like if I was wrong to do so. Idk I just. I was falling apart and didn’t want to fall apart in front of his family as they were going through so much and I did not know his family well at all and I wonder if that truly was the best move or if I was just centering myself. Idk.

[pilotstreets]

genuinely wish i could write like i did when i was 13 and just had fun making stories and characters that were like, objectively awful but undeniably creative and fun to write, instead of now finding it impossible to enjoy writing because nothing i make can live up to the standards i set and i feel so untalented at the craft :/

[rainbowsunshinegeesus]

i just went to some church thing and i found someone who said they remember me from high school 😦 which means they probably remember me walking round the school looking like this

[szczek]

i have just accidentally found that i in fact did not delete my previous insta account but only archived posts and privated it…. idk yet how i feel about this

fun fact i left that account because i had 1200 followers which 90% came from picrew and didnt interact with my posts at all and it annoyed me very much so i moved

i’m still kinda sad tho that i actually deleted my first insta acc but let’s not get into that but this one i deleted cause i lost interest in pjo and most of my (700) following was made up of pjo stans which also bothered me

can you see how annoying i am

[subconsciousmysteries]

I don't believe anyone is actually mistyped providing they are using the enneagram and cognitive functions the correct way, which is to observe Movements in their psyche.

If you're identifying with a type because you fit a static image that people have put forth for that enneatype, but you never actually observe any of that type's movements in yourself, then yeah, you can call yourself "mistyped".

[anti-gravity-insanity]

I wouldn’t expect to be offered food if visiting someone’s house???