#not much of a change tbh but i didn't wanna leave you hanging after so long fjkdlsjf

[bittwitchy]

Speak Now Taylor's Version Sentence Starters except its just the vault songs and better than revenge

change pronouns as necessary, combine lyrics if you want, yada yada, this is purely self indulgent tbh. BTR is here bc of the updated lyrics.

Better Than Revenge

"Now go stand in the corner and think about what you did" "time for a little revenge" "The story starts when it was hot and it was summer" "I had him right there where I wanted him" "She took him faster than you can say "Sabotage"" "I never saw it coming, wouldn't have suspected it" "I underestimated just who I was dealing with" "She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum" "She underestimated just who she was stealing from" "She's not a saint and she's not what you think" "He was a moth to the flame" "She was holding the matches, woah" "she's gonna find stealing other people's toys on the playground won't make you many friends" "There is nothing I do better than revenge" "She looks at life like it's a party and she's on the list" "She looks at me like I'm a trend and she's so over it" "I think her ever-present frown is a little troubling" "She thinks I'm psycho 'cause I like to rhyme her name with things" "sophistication isn't what you wear or who you know" "pushing people down to get you where you wanna go" "they didn't teach you that in prep school so it's up to me" "But no amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity" "I'm just another thing for you to roll your eyes at, honey" "You might have him, but haven't you heard?" "I always get the last word" "Do you still feel like you know what you're doing?" "I don't think you do" "Let's hear the applause" "Come on, show me how much better you are"

Electric Touch (Feat. Fall Out Boy)

"Just breathe, just relax, it'll be ok" "Just the first time ever hanging out with you" "I've got my money on things going badly" "Got a history of stories ending sadly" "Still hoping that the fire won't burn me" "Just one time, just one time" "All I know is this could either break my heart or bring it back to life" "Got a feeling your electric touch could fill this ghost town up with life" "And I want you now, wanna need you forever" "In the heat of your electric touch" "I've been left in the rain lost and pining" "I'm trying hard not to look like I'm trying" "Cause every time I tried hard for love it fell apart" "I've gotten used to no one calling my phone" "I've grown accustomed to sleeping alone" "Still I know that all it takes is to get it right" "Just one time, just one time" "I was thinking just one time maybe the stars align" "And maybe I call you mine" "And you won't need space" "string me along when you decide"

when emma falls in love

"When ___ falls in love, she paces the floor" "Closes the blinds and locks the door" "Jokes about the ways that this could go wrong" "She waits and takes her time 'cause little miss sunshine always thinks it's gonna rain" "I know that boy will never be the same" "'Cause she's the kind of girl that you can't put down" "And all the bad boys would be good boys if they only had a chance to love her" "And to tell you the truth, sometimes I wish I was her" "Hangs in the air like stars in outer space" "she disappears, and we all just laugh after seein' it all these years" "When ___ falls apart, it's when she's alone" "She won't walk away unless she knows she absolutely has to leave" "She won’t lose herself in love the way I did" "'Cause she'll call you out, she'll put you in your place" "met a boy with eyes like a man" "Turns out her heart fits right in the palm of his hand" "Now he'll be her shelter when it rains" "Little does he know, his whole world's about to change" "Yeah between me and you, sometimes I wish I was her"

I can see you

"I’ve been watching you for ages" "Spend my time tryin' not to feel it" "But what would you do if I went to touch you now?" "What would you do if they never found us out?" "What would you do if we never made a sound?" "'Cause I can see you waitin’ down the hall from me" "And I can see you up against the wall with me" "What would you do? Maybe if you only knew" "Then we kept everything professional, 'cause" "Something's changed something I like" "They keep watch for eyes on a stow" "So it's best that we move fast and keep quiet" "You won't believe half the things I see inside my bed" "Wait till you see half the things that haven't happened yet" "I can see you in your suit and your neck-tie" "Passed me a note saying, "Leave me tonight"" "Then you kissed and you know I won’t ever tell" "And I can see you being my addiction" "You can see me as a secret mission" "Right away and I will stop behaving myself"

Castles Crumbling (Feat Hayley Williams)

"Once, I had an empire in a golden age" "I was held up so high, I used to be great" "They used to cheer when they saw my face" "Now, I fear I have fallen from grace" "And I feel like my castle's crumbling down" "And I watch all my bridges burn to the ground" "And you don't want to know me, I will just let you down" "You don't wanna know me now" "Once, I was the great hope for a dynasty" "Crowds would hang on my words and they trusted me" "Their faith was strong, but I pushed it too far" "I held that grudge 'til it tore me apart" "Power went to my head and I couldn't stop" "Ones I loved tried to help, so I ran them off" "And here I sit alone behind walls of regret" "Falling down like promises that I never kept" "My foes and friends watch my reign end" "I don't know how it could've ended this way" "Smoke billows from my ships in the harbor" "People look at me like I'm a monster" "Now they're screaming at the palace front gates" "Used to chant my name" "Now they're screaming that they hate me" "Never wanted you to hate me"

Foolish One

"My cards are on the table, yours are in your hands" "Chances are tonight you've already got plans" "And chances are I will talk myself to sleep again" "You give me just enough attention to keep my hopes too high" "Wishful thoughts forget to mention when something's really not right" "And I will block out these voices of reason in my head" "And the voices say, "You are not the exception"" "You will never learn your lesson, foolish one" "Stop checking your mailbox for confessions of love that ain't never gonna come" "You will take the long way, you will take the long way down" "You know how to keep me waiting," "I know how to act like I'm fine" "Don't know what to call this situation but I know I can't call you mine" "And it's delicate, but I will do my best to seem bulletproof" "'Cause when my head is on your shoulder it starts thinking you'll come around" "And maybe someday when we're older this is something we'll laugh about" "Now I'm sliding down the wall with my head in my hands" "How could I not see the signs?" "Oh, you haven't written me or called" "But goodbye screaming in the silence" "And the voices in my head are telling me why" "'Cause you got her on your arm and me in the wings" "I'll get your longing glances but she'll get your ring" "And you will say you had the best of intentions" "And maybe I will finally learn my lesson" "Ain't never gonna come" "Ooh, you will learn the hard way now" "Sitting 'round waiting for confessions of love, they ain't never gonna come" "you should've been walking out" "The day is gonna come for your confessions of love, when all is said and done" "He just wasn't the one, no, he just wasn't the one"

Timeless

"Down the block there's an antique shop" "something in my head said stop, so I walked in" "On the counter was a cardboard box" "And the sign said, 'Photos twenty five cents each" "Black and white, saw a thirties bride and school lovers laughing on the porch of their first house" "The kinda love that you can only find once in a lifetime" "The kind you don't put down" "And that's when I called you and it's so hard to explain, but in those photos I saw us instead" "somehow I know that you and I would've found each other" "In another life, you still would've turned my head" "On a crowded street in 1944" "you werе headed off to fight in the war" "You still would've been mine" "We would have been timeless" "I would've read your love letter every single night" "prayed to God you'd be coming home all right" "you would've been fine" "We would have been timeless" "'Cause I believe that we were supposed to find this" "So even in a different life, you still would've still been mine" "I had to smile when it caught my eye" "There was one of a teenage couple on the driveway" "Holding hands on the way to a dance and the date on the back said 1958" "Which brought me back to the first day I saw you" "Time stood still like something in this old shop" "I thought about it as I started looking 'round at these precious things that time forgot" "That's when I came upon a book covered in cobwebs" "Story of a romance tore apart by fate" "Hundreds of years ago they fell in love like we did" "And I'd die for you in the same way" "In the fifteen hundreds off in a foreign land" "And I was forced to marry another man" "Time breaks down your mind and body" "Don't you let it touch your soul" "It was like an age old classic" "The story started when you said "hello"" "In a crowded room a few short years ago" "And sometimes there's no proof, you just know" "I'm gonna love you when our hair is turning grey" "We'll have a cardboard box of photos of the life we made" "And you'll say, "Oh my, we really were timeless""

[belphegorbillickin]

Hi again! Since you invited me to chat about TWST whenever, I may as well take the opportunity to pick your brain for more fun conversations. This time I want to hear your thoughts on where you think the main story will progress from what we know of ch7 so far. I’m personally quite curious to see what will be done with the battle and monologue from the tutorial.

(Actually, do you know anywhere where the opening monologue for the tutorial is recorded? It’s a real shame it doesn’t appear to be replayable through the game.)

You can watch it here! This person recorded everything.

TWST spoilers below! Sorry in advance for the incoherent rambling, I'm kinda out of it but didn't wanna leave you hanging too long.

Tbh I stopped reading about halfway(?) while I was waiting for translations because I knew I'd enjoy it more all in one go. Also because I was getting a little disappointed and thought it'd be better to hear stuff secondhand first and then go in with lowered expectations if needed tbh.

I highly doubt they'll go the romantic route as I said before, even with Malleus, but now I'm kind of unsure as to how much of a role Yuu will play.

Like, nobody even acknowledges us half the time apart from Malleus, that'd be a big change, and it seems like so far it's mostly focused on Lilia so that's who I would've said is going to snap him out of it before.

But maybe it'll be something where Lilia, Yuu, and Idia all have to talk some sense into him?

Or maybe Idia will come into play after and have a talk with Malleus about grief? Since Idia is someone who's dealt with way too young and Malleus is gone way too long without experiencing it.

Either way, I personally feel like they're saving the Overblot monster, which is almost definitely Grim, for a "surprise" chapter 8. I know Malleus has been given more focus than the others before their episodes, but I feel like it'd be really unlikely for them to skip out on Malleus' "redemption."

Plus Grim is probably going to overblot immediately after eating Malleus' considering the build up, and that would be a bit too much for one book. Besides, it'd make sense for it to happen when Malleus hasn't had a chance to recover yet, because that future looked rough, and Malleus is so insanely OP it wouldn't make much sense otherwise.

But who knows, maybe the time loop theory is way off base and they'll just tack it on at the end as just another boss battle. I really hope they don't though.

After that though? I have no idea, but I kind of doubt it'll just be NRC slice of life. Especially because that'd mean a lot of fan favorites leaving, but maybe they'll bring in new first years just for the gacha aspect?

I think it'd be really lame to lose the characters we've come to know just to get generic slice of life without them though, because it wouldn't make sense for anyone else to start overblotting.

Some people think maybe we'll start solving RSA's problems instead, which would also give them more gacha money I guess.

I don't know what to think, but I hope season 2 is when we try to find out who's causing all of these people start overblotting, something that's supposed to be super rare, and possibly put a stop to it.

We might not even get anything after this, but I feel like disney probably wouldn't kill it's cash cow for no reason like solomare did?

[violyane]

Hey! I hope this blog didn't die but are you still gonna update Master Plan? It's only one chapter but it got me really fixiated about the story

Hello anon I'm still here! I'm currently enjoying my holiday break while doing absolutely nothing.

As for Master Plan, I really want to write and continue this story. Really. Like I've been thinking about the story and plot for about six???? years now I believe (damn I've been in this fandom for quite a while), but honestly, I think a few factors overwhelm me in writing it.

I started writing it way too early. Which is funny considering I have had it in my mind since 2016. But tbh I only planned the major events of the story. And they include such different aspects of the characters' personalities and development that they look flat without some in-between events. Even looking at the first chapter makes me realize how flat Kaga and Megami are. They are behaving more like their future selves than who they should be now. This is not the first impression of them I wanted to leave at all. I think I really should just open my fanfic planner, take a deep breath and write the whole story, with all the events that I wanna include, before actually writing the thing.

The place of events and timeline confuses me. Since Akademi was changed from a high school to an academy I really have no idea how the organization of the institution even works. Do all students attend for one year, or do they have to be there longer? Are they finishing with a certificate? Do students just choose what class they want to be in or does the school management test them? What does recruitment look like? And more similar questions like that. As for the timeline, some things just don't make sense. For example, when does the student council election take place? If Megami and the student council girls took the position on the first day of school, was the election taking place while Megami was still in class 1? If yes, then how did Shiromi become part of it, considering she just started attending school in April? (That's actually why I put her in Aoi's class since the fanfic takes place before the canon events and she has to somehow be here).

I need to research more into the canon. I really don't want to make my fanfic a big AU with my own silly headcanons in it. But is it even possible to access all canon information? I was looking through YanDev's Reddit posts in the past, but unfortunately, it's not easy to see all of it. Dev also shares some information privately with friends and on Discord (where I don't really hang out much). Sure I can just use info from the game, but is there really that much of it to write a nice story? Especially since I'm writing about the last rival, the most mysterious one, while we only got the first one in-game. I can make it more into an AU, but will it still be Yandere Simulator? I mean, I could always rewrite it after we get the full game, but I don't know... what if half my story loses a logical narrative because of it...

I'm not confident with my writing. English is not my first language. When it comes to reading literature, I only base my knowledge on other fanworks I've read over the years. My writing is not the most ambitious, I know that. But the problem with writing a long-chapter fanfiction is that you have to interfere with your written work. When I write my one shots I mostly just write them, publish them, and never return to them again, so I don't overthink every word and sentence that I came up with. I'm actually scared to open the first chapter of Master Plan because I'm afraid that when I'll re-read it, I'll just start cringing at my writing and delete it altogether.

There are probably more concerns that I have, but these are the main ones that are stopping me from writing Master Plan. Sometimes I really just wish I could stop overthink it and just pour my heart into it.

But I'll say this. I promise to work it all out. Because I don't want to disappoint the teenage me, who spent numerous nights daydreaming about this story. I will do anything to write it.

[i-willstealyourtoes]

HEYYY first time I've found a Sleeping Dogs fan! I don't mean to bother but if you want to and you've got the time, maybe you could write your opinions of how you think Wei would feel if he found out the person he was in love with happened to be related to Dogeyes im kinda curious! Hope your day is great :)

Wei Shen with crush who's related to Dogeyes

- So Wei probably met you while he was walking through the streets of HK

- He saw you on the phone to someone, angrily muttering to whoever was on the other side

- You had this aura around you that he couldn't ignore, so he waited until you were finished to talk to you (extroverts be like)

- 'Hey, heard some heated arguments happening over here, you alright?'

- You just told him that it was your older cousin being a menace (per usual)

- 'Well, I'm sure you probably scared him off with that many insults.'

- Wei definately is the rizz-master, so he probably convince you to go get some food or something with him

- 'Hey, uh, I know this good ice-cream place nearby if you want to cool off. Literally.'

- After you guys chilled and stuff he would get your number/contact then leave (probably for a mission or something)

- After casually 'hanging out' with you more, he'd eventually ask you out fr

- 'So, you wanna go to (insert cool place) with me? As in, a date..?'

- After y'alls first date he'd defo be at least a little in love with you hehe (kicks feet and giggles)

- Everythings been going well so far

-He's got an awesome partner, he's moving up in the gang, Dogeyes isn't being too annoying(ish)

- It was when he was at the Golden Koi things got bad. Really bad

- Conroy was complaining about Dogeyes to Wei and mentioned his cousin at one point

- 'Everyone hates this PK, even his own family! His cousin outright declared their hatred of him. Isn't that funny?'

- Wei didn't know he had a cousin

- 'Oh, you've never met his cousin? That's weird, they wander all around here...oh here's a photo of them.'

- Wei practically snatched the phone off Conroy ('Hey- what the f-') once he saw it

- There's no way

- Theres no goddamn way that was you

- 'Their name...it's not (Y/n) right?'

- 'Oh, you met them then?'

- Wei needed to get out of there, to think

- He couldn't BELIEVE of all the people for him to love like, it's you

- The next time you guys went on a date, it was clear something was troubling him (though he was pretty good at hiding it)

- 'Who's your cousin?'

-When you told him he couldn't stop his heart from aching a little

- 'Why didn't you say anything?'

- 'I thought it wasn't important. I hate him anyway so...Plus I didn't want to scare you or something.....I'm sorry.'

- 'Oh don't worry, I'm not scared of that guy. If anything, it's the other way.'

- After that discussion, Wei left with a weight taken off his shoulders

- Not only were you not on speaking terms with him, you also hated his guts as much as he did

- He still likes you ofc, nothing will change that

- Though he will probably be more careful about being with you in public

- If Winston or someone like that found out, he would (probably) be dead

- (I actually think they wouldn't care bc you hate Dogeyes anyway but still)

- OH and if Dogeyes found out

- OH LORD

- Mans would be a little scared tbh

- Overall, he still likes you but he's gonna be more secretive about y'all

- If you want more lmk :))

[csrnini]

23.01.14

i lowk intend on using this as kinda like a diary. mostly because i'm sick of using instagram and also bcs idk like no one uses tumblr really so i feel like it'd be more private. anyway yesterday was really funny. got to school and went straight to the rr to smoke and also just to chill. i've noticed that i'm by myself more than anything and i kinda like it that way.. i love being by myself but i mean it obv gets lonely sometimes but anyway i wasn't late to my first for once.. i think it's because i couldn't find who i normally hang with and then i was called to the office and my ass literally sank i was so scared.. but once i went into the office they were just talking to me about changing my schedule bcs i do not wanna do swim anymore.. like i only did it for one person and after her and i had that little falling out i was over it plus 3 girls in that class talk the most shit ab me so yea no im not tryna stay in there so yea now im not in swim anymore :3 i'm kinda upset tho bcs that was my free period but they were starting to take points off bcs people weren't swimming and i didn't wanna fail ANOTHER class..

okay anyway, uhm i honestly don't remember what i did during debate class.. i'm pretty sure i just sat there and looked at meaningless shit on my phone.. aileen and her friend were obviously either faking their high or actually high and they were laying on the carpet next to me. they weren't bothering me but like you don't talk to me normally why would you talk to me now yk? but anywho after that class during lunch i tried staying with londyn and sydney and them during lunch but idk tony was in there and i really just couldn't. it's not that i can't stand him but being around him just makes me feel sad and i don't like it. so i spent majority of lunch in the rr waiting for the lunch period to end. i couldn't find bree and i didn't feel like walking around to find her. so i went to the rr and just sat there for half an hour on my phone or listening to music. im surprised no admin came in and kicked me out. after that was history which i def should've skipped bcs i sat there stoned for 20 mins then passed out. and these white kids were laughing at me like im tired and stoned i honestly couldn't even tell where i was looking it was a great high but also terrifying. Anyway after that was alg 2 and i was not rolling up to that mans class high AGAIN plus the people in the period are so annoying so i totally skipped that class and sat outside. AND OFC tony and his fuckass friends were outside. i didn't really know anyone outside so i js sat there with naveah who was pissed asf cs some girl that she wanted her man and they wanted to fight each other but the guy wouldn't let nae idk smth like that and i was so stoned to the point where i could've even like make reading look normal i was so out of it and i vaguely remember don yelling at me and lelani laughing and i probs should've went outside the patio and sat on the school lawn but idk i didn't feel like moving at all i was comfy where i was at tbh anyway then i got on the bus and talked to this white girl and she told me all her problems and i honestly like rlly liked listening to her and then i got home and my gma was there to take me to her house bcs my mom went out of town. ok but like side rant, i hate whenever she just pawns me off to my gma instead of asking me if i'd want to go to my friends' houses or just stay by myself but every time she leaves i have to go with my gma which like i don't mind but i'd rather be with my friends yk? uhm so i got to her house and basically slept for a few hours and then i got up and made terrible ass pancakes like three times bcs i can't cook for shit much less cook high so yea no it was a disaster.

[devilmaywrite]

if your taking requests... how bout some valen and kai angst over how he was in the cult 😈

I'm so sorry that this has taken me so long jfkdslf. I did actually write something like this a while back. But I think I'm gonna revise the part where Valen actually finds out or whatever so I hope this suffices

“Blood magic to hurt a vampire? Impressive."

The voice is different this time. A woman’s but not the dunmer’s. It’s sweet and silvery and Valen can’t help but to want to hear more.

Valen turns her gaze up at her and the Breton woman is unlike anyone she’d ever seen. She’s absolutely ethereal with her dark waves of hair framing her soft features. She’s almost ghostly in a way with her pale skin and features, she’s obviously ancient despite her soft features saying otherwise. There's an element of elegance in everything she does, even as she just simply strides across the snow towards her companions before helping the man to his feet and having the other woman help him stand, even though he’s vomiting up blood and staining the snow in front of them. Clearly Valen’s spell had more of an effect than she anticipated.

"That’s the leader of the Dark Brotherhood, Valen.” Kaidan whispers, gripping her upper arm.

“The Hero of Kvatch? Helena Motierre?” Valen asks in astonishment.

“It’s been a while since I’ve heard that title, but yes. Most people don’t refer to me as that anymore. It’s also been a while since I’ve seen you, Kaidan." Her voice is velvet but his tone is mocking as Helena stares at the red-eyed swordsman.

"You two know each other?” Valen asks, looking quickly between the two of them.

“Well the four of us do, but yes, the Brotherhood and the Blooded Dawn have long since been friends, my dear Dragonborn. Since the Oblivion Crisis ended, I’ve made sure of it.”

The Blooded Dawn? This is the first time Valen was hearing of any of this. She quickly turns her questioning gaze to Kaidan, desperate for answers. But it doesn’t seem she would get any from him. He’s nearly catatonic next to her. His jaw is clenched, his demeanor clearly tense as he keeps his gaze to the snow covered ground in front of them.

“Kai? Surely she has you mistaken for someone else?” Valen says, a nervous laugh escaping her lips. “You can’t be part of that atrocious cult."

"He’s not,” Helena answers for him, clearly delighting in the conflict. “At least not anymore. He was for quite a while. It seems your beloved is not who you think, Dragonborn. He was quite the model member."

"Oh, and Kaidan? Rosalind sends her regards."

That seems to snap Kaidan out of his daze as he quickly looks up at the ancient woman in front of them, his expression full of confusion and disgust.

"Rosalind…?"

“You’re shaking like a leaf, Kaidan. Surely you didn’t think you got rid of her that easily.”

Helena says nothing more but shoots a wink at Valen before she and her companions dissolve into black mist, disappearing before their very eyes, though not before Felria sends them a wave goodbye. Valen turns to look at Kaidan, anger quickly bubbling in her abdomen.

"Care to tell me what that was about?” Valen asks through her teeth.

Kaidan can’t seem to find words as he looks at her desperately. This only fueled Valen’s anger further. She tears away her arm that was still in his grasp and steps away from him.

“You lied to me, Kaidan! This isn’t just some petty shit you can keep from me. You were a Daedric puppet and just never fucking cared to tell me! I can tell you everything but you can’t be fucking bothered to tell me you that had Dagon’s hand up your ass? Are you kidding me!? I trusted you but I can clearly see that was a mistake."

The silence between them is deafening at they simply stare at each other. Valen’s anger was rare, even rarer when it was directed towards him. So to see her expression filled with rage, towards him, nonetheless is crushing. Kaidan’s still holding his hand out from gripping her arm and his eyes momentarily brimmed with tears that he quickly blinks away before finally dropping his hand.

"Nothing to say? Really?” Valen asks with a bitter laugh.

Kaidan shakes his head before responding. “I am not that man anymore, Vay. You have to believe me. I need you to understand that before I tell you anything else. I know you’re angry and I’m sorry for keeping this from you.”

Kaidan can’t seem to keep his voice steady and the desperate look in his eyes makes Valen’s heart drop slightly. She wants to stay mad at him, she knows she should. But she knows herself well enough to know that she just can’t.

Valen blows a deep sigh, wiping a hand over her face. “Who’s Rosalind?”

The question floats around in Kaidan’s mind for a moment while he asks himself how exactly he wants to answer that question. He thought he knew who she was, at least for a short time and maybe he still does know who she is, at least the person she is at her core. Though he figures just saying that she’s a psychotic bitch wouldn’t make the cut right now.

“You know how you asked me if I’d ever been in love and I said a lass had been… trouble? Well, that was Rosalind. I met her while I was in that cult. She was the clan’s priestess, very talented in conjuration magic."

"So what happened between you two? Or I guess with the whole group in general."

“I met them when I killed their leader, believe it or not. He had a pretty good bounty on his head, and I wanted it. I expected the others to retaliate but they actually commended me, twisted, eh? But that’s how it all started. I was alone in the world and killing people for money and they gave me a place to belong. At the beginning, I think I was actually happy. And then the farm happened…”

“The farm?”

“It was a small estate outside Leyawiin, we were raiding it for supplies but everyone got out of control. The things that were done to that family… I wish I could forget it, but perhaps I don’t deserve to. Night after night I couldn’t get their screams out of my mind till the only thing I could think to do was, well, destroy the cult itself.”

Valen almost asks what happened to the family but quickly decides that she doesn’t want to know. Specifically, the things that Kaidan is truly capable of...

“That’s how you got away?”

“Aye, sort of. It didn’t exactly go as planned. I didn’t want Rosalind to die with the rest of them and I thought she’d be on my side - stupidest assumption I ever made. I wanted to know if her magic could make me stronger, she said it could… well, she turned her magic against me instead. When someone you think you love tries to burn you alive in the fires of Oblivion and summons Dremora to tear the flesh from your bones, it tends to change how you see them. The hideout was destroyed in the fight; I don’t know if anyone survived.”

“And this is all how you knew those assassins?”

“Aye, though I saw Helena and Lucien the most. Felria, who I assume was the Dunmer, never stuck around long. Helena kept ties for centuries, insisting that it would benefit both groups. It probably does though I never saw how.”

Valen sighs again. “They value the same things at their core, they just worship different deities. It makes sense. Helps keep both of them afloat.”

“I guess…” Kaidan trails off.

The silence hangs heavy in the air, quickly becoming uncomfortable but neither of them bother to move away from each other despite barely being able to look at the other. Thankfully, Valen is the first to speak.

“I shouldn’t have blown up at you like that… I know who you are now and that matters more than what you did in the past.”

“You were justified,” Kaidan is quick to brush off her apology. “I shouldn’t have kept something like that from you. I just didn’t want you to think any differently of me…”

Valen frowns at that. “I don’t think any different of you, contrary to anything I said. It’s rare that I get that upset and I snapped, I guess. I think you’re a good man, Kai, I always have.”

Kaidan simply closes his eyes, sighing in relief as he steps closer to her to pull her into his arms. “Thank you, Vay.”

Valen simply smiles at him, reaching up to cup his face and planting a soft kiss on the new scar on his cheekbone from their recent battle. She leans back with a more serious expression on her face which makes Kaidan frown in concern.

“What is it?” He asks, his voice barely above a whisper.

“Do you think Rosalind will come after you now?”

Kaidan’s frown deepens into a scowl as he seems to ponder the question, absentmindedly running his hands up and down Valen’s sides.

“It’s possible, especially now. But that’s something I’ll have to face if it comes to it.”

“You won’t be alone in that. You know that right?”

“I will be, if it means keeping you out of Dagon’s reach. I don’t want you getting hurt, not because of me.”

Valen’s expression drops once again as she narrows her eyes as him. “We’re a team, remember? We do things together?”

Kaidan simply chuckles at that. “I should know better than to fight you on these things by now.”

“Damn right you should.”

[undiscovered-horizon]

Dating Matt Murdock

People always say “marry your best friend” and that’s exactly what your relationship is like

He’s whipped and it’s obvious to anyone with working eyesight and/or hearing

“Yeah, she has me wrapped around her finger and I’m completely content with that”

That dreamy face he has around you 24/7 is so sweet it makes people want to vomit tbh

Matt laughs at all of your jokes, no matter how terrible

You know each other so well, you can finish your sentences, which backfires during arguments because you know EXACTLY what the other person is thinking, even if they state otherwise

But arguments aren't common, mostly chill exchanges, HOWEVER that doesn't mean things didn't get serious once or twice

All because you're genuinely worried for his well-being and Matt seems pretty laid back about possibly suffering a gruesome death

Back hugs. So many back hugs.

Small kisses whenever you're passing by each other

You often just hang out, doing your own things and enjoying each other's presence

He likes to be the small spoon and I will die on this hill

You read your books out loud to him and sometimes give goofy voices to different characters

Whenever one of you is invited somewhere, people are bewildered the other didn't tag along

Random dancing/swaying in the kitchen

You and Foggy exchange dirt on Matt

When you want to trash talk someone, he's there

Brings you coffee/tea to bed

You insist on putting ointment on his scars so they heal better and although at first Matt was pretty indifferent, he quickly grew to like it

I mean, you're taking care of him !!! His heart HAS to melt, it's the law

And the fact that you're happily putting your hands all over him

He refuses to ask for help in serious matters and it's quite upsetting because you have made it clear a thousand times that you'll gladly help him and that there's only so much a human can carry

But he's a little hard-headed when he sets his mind on something and believes he should deal with the hard things himself

Matt is the king of brooding and whenever he’s bothered by something, it's basically written in red sharpie on his forehead

He's gonna be okay, just let him lay with his head on your stomach/lap for a while

Raising cats together because Matt is 200% a cat guy you can't change my mind

Inside jokes that have a too long and complex history to ever be explained to someone

Matt's the type to jokingly stick his tongue out at you when you tease him

But be prepared for a witty rebuttal

The two of you love to listen to podcasts with scary stories

Compliments you a lot and is very smug about his smooth flirting

He can only imagine what you look like but that has never stopped him from claiming you're the prettiest person ever

Nothing can convince him otherwise

Matt is your number 1 fan

You do crosswords together

He smiles when he's kissing you, can't help it

Showering together

Matt will go to Heaven simply for putting up with your silly antics

You: Hey, wanna know a secret?

Matt: Sure

You: I like you

Matt, after being in a relationship with you for years: Color me surprised

You always have his back

"That's a stupidass idea, Matt... I'm right behind you."

He needs a little reassurance from time to time and you're more than willing to give it to him

You play with his hair when he lays on you

Sometimes, when he's gone all night, you sleep in his clothes, trying to at least pretend he's there with you

And when he comes back and catches you curled up in bed, wearing his shirt, it's so cute he might cry

Mornings are hard because neither of you wants to leave the bed

Giggly pillow talks

Sharing a tub of ice cream in the middle of the night and having intimate conversations

Cuddling!!! Once you give in, you're doomed. There's no escape. This is your life now.

Honestly, Matt wants to feel like he's bringing a positive change to the world, like his life matters, like he matters

You: You know, this world can't be hopeless. It sure does feel like it sometimes but it's not doomed. It can't be. Matt: Why? You: Because it has you.

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@restingbitchsblog

[yubiina]

Jake duskwood relationship headcanons I think are superior.

Hello folks and fellow Jake simps I am here to deliver these headcanons for u today. I might not post much for a bit bc exam week is here so feast on this while u can before I come back.😃

Anyways here's what I think being in a relationship with jake would be like and things s/o would experience with him deal with.

First of all, would take quite a bit of time (and convincing) for him to fully get into a relationship with you.

With his work he def doesn't wanna risk it in the beginning and put you in danger.

He loves u too much to have you just pulled away from him by his enemies and constantly deals with that fear.

I feel like even once he gets in a relationship with you the anxiety that sth might happen to u is constantly with him in the back of his head :(

Is very shy at first. I'm assuming he doesn't have a lot of ppl he talks to so having his s/o be around him is def a change in his everyday life.

Has a wallpaper of u in his laptop.

Don't even.

It reminds him why he's working hard everytime he opens it, it makes him want to protect u more and keep going.

Def doesn't like going out unless it's with you.

Things like star gazing, those public night time picnics that couples go to and watch a movie on a big screen omg

You're the last ones leaving, always.

Just so u can have more time to yourselves.

Everybody leaves after the movie is finished and u guys just stay there with a blanket around u in silence stop it rn🥺

He'd ask u if u were cold or uncomfortable a lot of the times.

Just wants u to be happy and cozy.

Would be the cheesy mf to stare at you when you're stargazing

U turn to him and he's there like 😐.

The love is there I swear he's not emotionless.

He expresses it telepathically

Likes to big spoon u when you're both abt to go to sleep but somehow always ends up being the small spoon by the time it's morning.

U will have to drag him to bed multiple times cuz we all know he gets no sleep.

Uses 3 in 1 shampoo I'm sorry

But it's true

Thinks drinking 10 monster energy drinks is normal.

Please give him nutrition.

Still weirdly formal with his s/o when he talks.

Bc he isn't used to being really informal and talk casually since he didn't have anybody to do so with so it became a little quirk.

Istg you could be laying on the couch with his face buried in your chest, arms around your waist and he'd be like

"I thank you for this embrace MC"

Will deny he ever wants attention from you to his dying breath.

But will always find a way to get u to pay attention to him without knowing that he's asking for it

You always know but u pretend not to.

can be VERY protective

Rightfully so

Not to say that he gets easily jealous but he's also worried and suspicious of the ppl u hang out with unless it's ppl he knows himself (like the gc)

Likes to gently tap or play with ur fingers after you've had an argument to try and get close to u and see what mood you're in.

Whatever anger u got is gone cuz that shit is cute asf.

Abt to get in some nsfw minors dni!! And if you're uncomfortable with that stuff here's ur warning.

U know what I said abt being shy earlier??

All the innocent little things he does for u??🥺 When he cuddles u and protects u??🥺🥺.

Throw that shit out the window cuz it's gone.

Well almost.

He's so shy at first but the 2-3rd time he is completely different.

This man is a FREAK. a FREAK I tell u.

Don't know much abt his skills tbh

What do u expect me to say??

" he would fuck that shit up he'd do so hard🤪" girl sits and works on a computer everyday and probably eats cold takeout for breakfast 😐

I will say, he's good with his fingers👀

All that typing pays off cuz u gonna be reaching all types of heaven when he uses his typing skills on u if u kno what I mean.

He wants to do aftercare but is so confused 🧍

Please help him.

Would try to make u feel as comfortable as u can with him if u have any insecurities abt ur body.

Abt where he would do it?? He's a private man so only behind closed doors.

Loves ur voice.

WILL cockwarm with u while he's working.

He's typing away and you're sitting on his lap whining here and there.

And he such a fucking tease he would just be like "aw bby ik just a bit more, yeah?" and baby u/ sweet talk u.

which DOES NOT help the situation you're in.

Has random spontaneous bursts where you're talking and he just decides to kiss u

Not like a small kiss, or a gentle one

I'm talking abt him just diving in

Tounge and everything

Enough nsfw for now.

U guys do talk abt ur future most of the time.

U always come with stuff wether it's a joke like " we're getting married having 7 children and a golden retriever in a rich neighborhood" or not

He always answers that his future is with u.

He doesn't care abt anything like that

he finds security in knowing that he'll be with u.

He does put security shit on ur phone and other electronics ( with ur permission ofc)

Also will not allow ANYONE to know he's in a relationship (unelss it's a few ppl he trusts)

Get used to Lilly and Hannah going from 'ur friends' to ur sisters cuz you're gonna hang out a lot.

He can't risk his enemies knowing he has a weak spot he knows you'd be gone In an instant.

That's all I have for now. I hope u all liked it!

[yourlocalmaraudersbabe]

Hiya! May I request a sirius x reader imagine where the marauders are all hanging out by the black lake. James or remus (probably James tbh) pranks the reader by throwing them in the black lake. What he didn't know is that they are scared of deep dark waters and almost drown and sirius saves them? Fluffy fluffy ending please?

I hope you have a good day!~

💜

“You’re right, nobody can be as lovely as me”

Summary: James thinks it’s funny to throw you in the water and Sirius is there to pull you out

A/N: omg look who decided to post :=)

Warnings: drowning/not be able to swim and there's like one swear word

Word Count: 1401

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“Please enjoy your dinner and relax this evening!”

You sat with your friends, directly next to Sirius while Dumbledore’s voice boomed through the Great Hall, food appearing down the table in front of you.

There were only a couple days left of your sixth year at Hogwarts, the summer holiday so close you could reach out and grab it.

“So what are we doing after dinner?” James asked.

You grabbed a spoonful of mashed potatoes, starting to make a plate of food for yourself. “How about we hang out by the lake?”

James quickly swapped his plate for yours, leaving you to give him a lovely middle finger.

“Prongs,” Sirius chastised as you laughed. You laid a head on his shoulder, telling him it was harmless.

Your boyfriend pushed his own plate over in front of you, urging you to sit up and eat.

James shrugged his shoulders, promptly digging into the wonderful food in front of him.

“Y/n,” Lily started. “I really like that idea. We can all go—”

“But y/n never swims,” Peter cut her off, nearly whining.

“Yeah, it’s not fun without you,” James added. “Why can’t you just go in for even a little bit?”

You glared at the two of them. “Absolutely not.”

Sirius grabbed your hand under the table, squeezing it before placing a kiss to the top of your head. “You better not have just gotten crumbs in my hair,” you whispered, shoving his shoulder.

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You stepped outside, hand in hand with Sirius as the warm glow of the sun setting lay a blanket on the world around you. Your friends had already made their way out here, the only reason you two are arriving now is because of the boy next to you.

“C’mon, I need to go back to my dorm. I wanna bring a towel in case I decide to go in.”

“Well do you want to swim or not?” you asked.

“I haven’t decided yet,” he laughed.

“You are the most indecisive person I know, Sirius,” you took his hand, following him up to Gryffindor tower.

“Am not.”

“You are,” you laughed. “Well I’m deciding to lay out, maybe read a book. I’ve also decided that I’m stealing a blanket.”

“Hey, stop rubbing your decision making skills in.”

“Oh, and I’ve decided I’m stealing a jumper.”

He gave a dramatic frown.

You gave a quick kiss on the side of his cheek as he stepped through the portrait hole.

“Well can I at least pick which jumper you steal?”

“Hmm, I don’t know if you’d be able to decide which one.”

You spotted your friends and they waved, casting you smiles from the lake.

Sirius dropped your hand, skipping a couple steps to be in front of you, walking backwards.

“I have a question for you, y/n.”

“Ask away,” you sighed, a smile curling at the corners of your mouth.

“Be honest. Would you still give me a hug if I were to have just gotten out of the water? A kiss perhaps?”

You burst out laughing. “No. No way. Not when I’m perfectly dry.”

“Well maybe we’ll have to test out that theory.”

You deadpanned. “You’re hilarious.”

“I am, aren’t I?”

You spread out your blanket, lying down and soaking in what the sun had to offer before setting completely.

Sirius made his way to the water before the light had disappeared entirely. You closed your eyes, enjoying some much needed rest.

You didn’t know how long you’d been asleep for, and it didn’t really matter now. All you knew that you were hovering over the lake. You had to be dreaming.

You couldn’t tell how high up you were, you were barely able to make out the silhouettes of your friends.

“Ha-ha, very funny!” you called out. “You can put me down now.”

James’s voice echoed up to you. “What? You don’t want to come in for a little swim with us?”

You looked down and saw his little grasp on his wand as he controlled how far you were from falling.

“James, please put me down on the grass.”

You could hear it in his voice. You could hear how he expected this to just be a harmless little prank of his.

“But it will be much funnier if you plop into the water. Just a small plink.”

He didn’t even give you time to respond before you were plummeting into the lake. Your friends were further away than they seemed to be. James had thrown his head back in laughter, ignoring you. Ignoring how fear took over your body, making it nearly unbearable to relax and just float. It was hard to breathe, you could barely even cough as you struggled to stay above water.

“James? What the fuck?” Sirius was at your side in a matter of moments, his arms wrapped around you as you clung onto him for dear life. You had gotten yourself into a coughing fit, as soon as you were steady afloat. You didn’t know if the tears streaming down your face were from embarrassment or genuine fear.

“I feel pathetic,” you finally whispered to Sirius as he swam to the grass.

“Everyone has something that gets to them like this. James didn’t know,” he whispered back while he lifted you out of the water, pulling himself up after. “Are you alright? Can you breathe okay? Do you need to see Madam Pomfrey?”

You sat up, wiping at the tears from in your eyes, your hands moving to fumble with the grass blades in front of you. “I think I’m alright.”

Sirius called for a towel with a near perfect wordless spell. He caught it before it flew right into the back of your head, wrapping it around your body snuggly. He ran his fingers over your face, wiping away the droplets of water, pushing your hair back out of the way. “I’m really sorry about all this, y/n,” he said. “I wish I would’ve seen what was happening.”

The overwhelming feeling had pooled tears in your eyes. You slouched down, leaning into his side. “No, it’s alright. It’s not your fault,” you choked out a laugh, wiping under your eyes.

He took your hand, curling his fingers around yours, rubbing gently against the top. “Want me to go get James? Rough him up a bit?”

A smile crept upon your face. “No, it’s alright.”

A genuine laugh bubbled up in your throat. He hugged you tight, speaking quietly. “How about we go back up to my dorm? Get settled in some warm clothes?”

“I like that idea,” you said. “But only if you carry me.”

And that’s exactly what Sirius did. He carried you all the way up to his dorm, letting you change into dry clothes and slip under the covers first.

He didn’t take long himself, turning the bathroom light off as he made his way over to you. He pulled back the blanket atop of you for a brief moment before laying down and pulling you up against his chest with one swift movement of his arm. You turned your head upwards, opening your mouth to talk, yet failing to produce any words. Your voice cracked, tears appearing once more.

Sirius rolled you over, brushing the hair out of your face and wiping away the tears as they spilled over, muttering soft notes of reassurance. “You’re okay now, y/n.”

“It was really scary,” you whispered, the lump in your throat aching as you spoke.

“I know, darling. But look where you are,” he smiled, kissing your forehead sweetly. “Let’s focus on the present: you’re in bed with me, you’re in comfortable clothing, and you have a blanket to keep you warm and safe.” He tucked the material closer up under your neck.

“I’m right here. Nothing like that is going to happen again,” he trailed off. “I’m here to hold you, darling.”

“Thank you.”

He kissed your nose and wiped away the last of the tears. You turned over once again, tucking yourself in his arms.

It was quiet for a mere moment.

“Hey, you’re sure you don’t want to get back at James? I could make a wonderful polyjuice potion over the summer. James would make for a lovely black dog I know of.”

You contemplated. “I don’t think James could pull off being that lovely.”

“You’re right, nobody can be as lovely as me.”

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[sunball]

Hi💫💓. I have a confession to make. Nothing too serious tbh. This is going to be lengthy. I created a Tumblr acc a while ago but, I was never active on it. I preferred to guest browse, you know. I would lurk around in the tags and read stuff. But, I never actually interacted with the posts. Ever. One day, I was doing the same thing and, I came across your blog. I LOVED reading your posts. You came across as an authentic and outspoken person to me. Your blog's aesthetic stood out to me. I could see that it was an expression of yourself. I could see the effort you put into it. I kept coming back to your blog and ended up finding some other wonderful blogs through it. After a while, I ended up traveling. I didn't have data or WiFi access at the time so, I couldn't read any of your posts. When I returned, I couldn't find your blog for some reason. I low-key freaked out. I am not sure how to explain this to you but, I have ALWAYS struggled with communication. It made me SO anxious to the point that I couldn't even imagine being on social media. People say that interacting with others on the Internet is much easier than face-to-face communication but, to me, it's all the same. At the end of the day, I am always wondering "Was I rude?", " Did I even make any sense?", "What are they going to think of me?". It is such an irrational fear but, I can't help it. After coming across your blog, I decided to check my natal chart, and lo and behold, I have Saturn in the 3rd. After finding out that you had the same placement, it gave me some kind of hope? That may be, someday, I would be able to express my thoughts just like you do. I really respect the efforts you put into your blog. I admire you for that. I really do. Okay, let's go back to the story. I eventually ended up finding your blog. I made up my mind to finally tell you that I loved your blog. I think I send you an ask. I think. But I decided to redo it cause' I felt like the first one didn't do justice. So here I am. I don't know if you will ever actually read this. Even now, while writing this, I am freaking out! I know I am anonymous but, my anxiety doesn't give an f. I want you to know that you are doing great. There are lots of people out there who appreciate what you do, and I am one of them. I hope you rise amongst all perils and achieve all your dreams. Thank you for being yourself. 💛💛💛

Hold up, I was supposed to make a confession, right? Okay so, I used to hang around with a cockroach as a kid. Let's call it bestie. Feels weird to say it, but bestie was actually well behaved? I used to sing songs for it and stuff. Our friendship lasted for a grand total of two days. Bestie was a great roach. Best of all?? It didn't fly. Yap, that's it. I don't know if you will read this but thanks for listening.

omg anon🥺🥺 I’m speechless aahhh aakdhjdg this means SO much to me. you made my day. you made me smile and tear up wow. thank you so much for taking your time to write this. im feelin super special rn hehehe just reading your words makes me feel appreciated 😭 I’m guessing you found my blog when my URL was ilyneptune? I was shadowbanned so that’s why you couldn’t find my blog, SORRY ABOUT THATTTT! I’m glad we found eachother again though :D

I totally get what you mean about the communication part, as a child I was really quiet and did not talk to my family or my friends much. at school I was the most awkward person and was labelled as stupid because whenever I got picked on to answer questions, I would just stutter and answer something stupid 😭 just speaking makes me feel like choking even if it’s just a simple hi. I also used to not like talking online too, I would leave messages unread and ignore them for weeks and I absolutely hated calls (I still do). I also take hours to write a paragraph. saturn in 3rd house things I suppose 😔 but actually, this year my communication got so much better. I stepped out of my comfort zone and made this blog. not so sure what made me do it but I’m glad I did it anyway. now I’m arguing with people in comment sections and I’m not afraid of being wrong anymore. I guess I just accepted that I’m not perfect and that I’m bound to make mistakes and that everyone is here for the same reason - to learn. would me saying something wrong make me a fool? or would the person laughing at me for being wrong and not asking questions be the fool instead? I actually have 2 quotes on my wall, “speak your mind even if your voice shakes” and “he who asks a question is a fool for a minute, he who does not ask is a fool for life”. those quotes are very important to me and pretty much changed my life :B my dad also helped me ig, he’s kinda cold lol but he told me that people actually don’t give a fuck about your mistakes, they don’t notice the things you notice like your crooked teeth, the way you eat, how you stuttered 3 times or how you messed up your presentation. why? people have their own insecurities and their own life to think about, they’re probably thinking of the exact same thing like “omg did they notice that I accidentally spat when I talked?”. so yeah that helped me too.

I believe that you can overcome these fears! I mean, you’re already doing it by writing this to me :D (which brought me to tears lol). If an awkward bean who barely spoke at school (aka me) can do it, so can you! I believe in you anon ((: it’s okay to be anon I understand! I appreciate you writing this to me (for the 2nd time KAHDH I’m sorry I didn’t get your last ask 😭). but anywaysss I’ll still be here for the day you express your thoughts (and imma listen hehe) I’m a sucker for thaaatttt, hearing people’s thoughts and opinions. I think it’s super fascinating how people think differently and how people can come up with different ideas. makes me just wanna take a look inside their mind KAHDJDH.

okay wth a cockroach HAHSGDGD AND WHY IS THAT WEIRDLY CUTE??? why am I aww-ing at a cockroach I don’t get it AHAHAAH AND YOU SANG TO IT?? WELL BEHAVED??? I’m chuckling here 😭😭 that’s so wholesome. so cuteeee😔 bestie will forever be missed <33

thank YOU anon. I hope you are doing well! I hope to see you againnn 🥺

[cattles-bians]

damie vibecca exes au pt 9

post directory

obsetress: ready ok ot4 hc incoming

em: ot4! ot4! ot4

obsetress: after dani breaks up with her viola cuts all her hair off n it's the first impulsive thing she's ever allowed herself to do in her whole life (which should also tell you exactly how fucked up she was by it) n so then we have

obsetress: short curly hair viola

em: what is wrong with you

em: oh i love a dramatic haircut as a motif

obsetress: by the time she and rebecca start hooking up it's grown into a long bob and she keeps that for a while tbh because like

obsetress: viola has impulses all the time but she either: suppresses them, or thinks about them and then does them to the point where they can no longer be considered impulsive

obsetress: vs um

obsetress: dani has impulses all the time and used to suppress them but then fully leaned into

obsetress: charging headfirst into whatever the fuck (vp speech ref sheds a tear)

em: OTP: dont you wanna go apeshitt

obsetress: and thinking about how people change u and rub off on u for the better even after they leave

obsetress: viola: wants to go apeshitt

obsetress: viola: thinks about going apeshitt, thinks about all the ways it would benefit her, thinks about how she would enjoy it even if it did not in any way benefit her

obsetress: viola: yes ok don't you wanna go apeshitt

em: no but i am i am thinking abt like. dani and viola as both sort of? dragged into being housewives and homemakers because Women n viola didn’t really have the power to change her situation (even if she got isabel out of it!) and dani actually managed to call it off

obsetress: YEAH

obsetress: grits teeth

obsetress: once again crying over very intentional very deliberate danvi parallels that no one else wants to talk about and i think even in this au right

obsetress: viola is socialized in such a specific space that this can very much still be true

obsetress: and i think like part of what draws her to dani is exactly that––that dani had the freedom to do that much sooner––but also she resents dani for exactly that too

obsetress: even when they're together, and that's the possession piece too

obsetress: i think a part of her thinks if she can't do it for herself she can have it for herself and that's close enough

obsetress: like she v much covets dani

em: ah the unique way that lesbians fuck each other up bc of living in a homophobic and misogynistic society

em:i mean who doesn’t covet danis ass

obsetress: literally and metaphorically

obsetress: and part of dani definitely knows that but part of dani (at least until she doesn't) likes it

obsetress: (also this is kinda what i was getting at w my insane lil pwp alfjadslf but i think it tracks here too)

obsetress: because she's like "well this is what it's supposed to be but it didn't work with eddie because i don't like men but now i'm with a woman and this is how it's supposed to be"

obsetress: "and i like being wanted it's nice to be wanted by someone i want for once"

obsetress: but yeah thinking a lot about the danvi dynamic once again

obsetress: viola short curly hair to viola long bob

obsetress: YEAH I JSUT

obsetress: WENT TO HER INSTA TO FIND

obsetress: AND THEN GOT

obsetress: SO DISTRACTD

[em note: edited out a 30 minute tangent going through pictures from kates instagram]

obsetress: so anyway the whole point of this. long bob viola

obsetress: rebecca loves long bob viola she rly loves um. sitting on her lap and running her fingers back through her hair

obsetress: when she and dani see each other again for the first time dani's all "oh. you cut your... hair" and vi's like "i did" and dani's like "it, um. looks... it looks... good?"

em: i think it’s nice when viola does something for herself :)

obsetress: it's nice :)

obsetress: i'm happy for her :)

obsetress: wish she didn't have to look so much hotter though :)

obsetress: don't make that face, babe, it's fine :)

obsetress: you know i love you :)

em: WAIT

em: dani had a fucking moment. she’s like

obsetress: oh dani likes her girls w curly hair huh

em: counting on her fingers. how many ppl has she dated w

em: YEAH

obsetress: YEAHDLKFJSLDFDFJSLDFj

em: CURLY BROWN HAIR

obsetress: OH MGOD EDDIE TOO

obsetress: NOT JUST GIRLS

obsetress: aw baby has a type

em: so actually it is DANI who ends up w the strongest routine

em: just short bob hair viola sitting next to jamie and dani has a fuckjng. out of body experience. perceives herself a little too hard

obsetress: she's just. staring

obsetress: mouth def hanging open

obsetress: then someone's like "dani? dani?" and she's blinking like five times in a row and sitting up straight

obsetress: but she does def have that moment at brunch

em: jamie doesn’t twig it

em: violas like. violas got a keen eye for anyone ‘copying’ her style. raises one devastating eyebrow

obsetress: dani and vi devastating eyebrow partners n crime

obsetress: later that night, in bed: jamie?

jamie: wot?

dani: do i have a type?

obsetress: jamie immediately wants to jump to no because how could she have anything in common w––

obsetress: oh. oh

em: jamie’s lil wispy premature greys set her apart

em: ‘jamie HATES it when she has things in common w viola’ is my favourite bit sjddkhd

obsetress: jamie "not sure how viola has no greys n she's how much older than me again" taylor

em: dani realises she actually has. no idea how old viola is

em: barely even knows a birthday

em: maybe viola even has like. a decoy birthday

em: queen of being mysterious for the drama of it all

obsetress: "she's just too stubborn to grey is all" "i'm stubborn!" "mm" "wossat supposed to mean" "you're..." "i'm what" "you like to... pretend? you're stubborn" "pretend i'm–– i am!" "jamie, i asked you to repark the car because i didn't want to get out of bed and it's street cleaning day and you immediately jumped up to do it even though you can barely parallel park"

em: WHIPPED

obsetress: jamie's quiet for a long time then, softly: "can parallel park just fine"

obsetress: "mm"

obsetress: whipped as hell

obsetress: this led me to everyone making dani or viola parallel park all the time when they go anywhere

obsetress: hc dani is a Very Good driver. idk why but it tickles me

em: i think um. dani is v independent and wants to be able to do things herself

em: and i think she probably got her license before eddie, but as soon as eddie got his....

obsetress: and dani's better than him n got a better score than him, and yet

em: and yet!

em: they swap out being deso driver if they’re gonna be drinking. or jsut call a taxi lmao

em: i’m so endeared by Extremely Good Driver Dani

em: dani does a reverse park without thinking

obsetress: viola loves her martinis n dani is drunk off of half a glass of sangria

obsetress: same!!!!!!!

obsetress: also just like. imagining

obsetress: dani checking all her mirrors

em: no

em: HANNAH

obsetress: and adjusting everything so fastidious

obsetress: OH GOD

obsetress: i didn't––

em: i jumped

em: phew it’s actually cute

obsetress: yeah! dw i'm not sick

em: well

obsetress: she just goes through her whole lil checklist and is so meticulous and precise

em: jamies like ‘we’re the same height’ and danis like ‘well.’

obsetress: oh god the four of them driving to the seaside for a vacation together (lots of content to mine here, will have to put a pin in most of it because i am getting sleepy) but they end up taking the truck much to vi’s chagrin just because it can hold the most

obsetress: (like viola doesn’t have a range rover but listen it needs to be dani n jamie’s car for this to work)

obsetress: and vi and rebecca are sitting in the back and then rebecca’s frowning and blinking and digging a headband out of the seat between them and viola immediately just. knows

obsetress: she’s like “dani?” “mm?” “you and jamie... have cleaned your car recently, right?” (jamie’s chiming in: “i’m right here, vi, you can address me too,” viola pointedly ignores her) “um... maybe a couple months ago? why?” “well,” and vi pokes her disdainfully with the headband, “can you at least tell me you’ve had it cleaned between whenever this got stuck between the seats and rebecca and me sitting here now?”

obsetress: dani just GRINS sheepishly

obsetress: “i could tell you that, but...” “but?” dani mumbles “it would be a lie”

obsetress: anyway dunno why vi’s that upset about having to sit in the backseat where dani n jamie hooked up, like, last week when it’s not like she and rebecca haven’t been inside the two of them respectively but it’s absolutely the kind of contrarian shit she’d choose to be pressed about and it makes me laugh so

[kikoqueenofrats]

I'm on a role today

only cuz I've already got like, 12 of these chapter written in advance- tbh I'm trying to get all of these out before I get the 13th one done hehe-

ONWARDS! To the rope swing chapter!! @toastraccoon

Dark...

It was dark....

Cel groaned as his consciousness slowly came back to him and tried stretching his aching limbs out.

Only to find that they were tightly tied together.

Cels eyes were slowly beginning to open when the memories of recent events suddenly hit him in the brain.

"Mari!" He gasped, eyes shooting open and beginning to frantically look around, looking for his friend...

His friend....

The friend he had ignored in favour of finding out where his...stupid game was.

"Hey look who's finally awake" a dark voice chuckled, causing Cel to tense up. As his vision finally cleared he managed to spot the stick the dark voice had come from.

They were a dark, stormy, blue coloured stick and the look they were currently giving Cel made him feel unsafe.

The storm blue stick smirked at Cels' fearful expression "Hey boss!" They called behind them, Cel followed their gaze and spotted the dark purple stick from before.

"One of the prisoners woke up, want me to put em back to sleep?" Cel flinched as sparks of electricity crackled across the storm blue sticks hand.

"Nah, he's not gonna cause much trouble, besides I wanna talk to him" the dark purple stick patted their friends shoulder before making their way over to Cel.

"YEAH BOLT! he wants to talk to the prisoner!" A light yellow stick suddenly made themselves known as they got up in Bolt's face. Bolt huffed at the yellow sticks childishness and turned away from them, beginning to walk over to dark purples side.

"Hey!"

Cels eyes snapped towards the dark purple stick now looming over him.

"Ignore her, she's just trying to start up a fight" the purple stick sighed as she began poking Bolts face.

Bolt seemed to be staying strong however and made no move to attack her.

Though it looked like their patience was beginning to run out.

"Now" dark purple clapped their hands together, once again catching Cels attention "back to business...remember when I told you that I knew where your game was?"

Cel nodded almost buzzing in anticipation, though a familiar twinge in his stomach calmed him down a bit.

"I know where it is...because I used to live there" dark purple seemed to scowl at the memory of it, but their expression quickly changed to a muted smirk.

"I can tell you the games name if you want" Bolt and light yellow momentarily paused in their one-sided bickering and stared at dark purple in shock.

"You'll have to do something for us first though" at that the other two sticks went back to their playful fight.

"What do you want?" Cel asked, looking at the stick standing over him suspiciously. As much as he wanted to get back to his home safe and sound; He didn’t want to risk losing too much in order to get there.

For now however he was forced to trust the dark purple stick standing in front of him; maybe they would let something slip.

Dark purples grin grew at that "You know, after bringing in as many sticks as I have to this stickfight-" They pointed towards what looked like an open tab and Cels mind suddenly short-circuited.

Wait...where are we?

Cel began looking around as much as a bound stick could, but before he could figure out if they had moved computers or not dark purples voice caught his attention again.

"...become suspicious, most of the websites around here recognize me and my group as bad news, we need a new face to help us lure in sticks in order for us to meet our quota, because if we don't we'll end up in the ring instead" dark purple looked away and Cel couldn't help but feel sorry for the group.

Cel had heard of stickfight rings from Mari and he honestly did not want to get anywhere near a place like that.

Even if it meant getting back to his home afterwards.

Dark purple knelt down in front of Cel before speaking "so what's it going to be, buddy? Join us? Or end up in the ring with your friend?"

The sound of someone struggling reached Cels ears and he turned, spotting Mari trying to wriggle out of the cuffs clamped around their arms Cel had to stop himself from reaching over to try and calm his friend down.

Cel had a plan...and that plan meant keeping himself as far away emotionally from Mari as possible.

No matter how much it hurt.

"Okay, I'll join you," Cel said, trying to keep as much regret out of his eyes as he could;

Mari stopped struggling at that and looked up at Cel in shock.

Dark purple smirked "well that was easy" they chuckled before reaching into a trouser pocket and pulling out a key. "I thought you'd fight more, does that guy really mean that little to you" Dark purple looked at Cel curiously, still holding the key in their hands.

Cel swallowed down the guilty feeling, putting on his most uncaring look before saying.

"I was only using them to get back home...I don't need them anymore..."

A sob.

Then another.

Cel almost broke at that sound.

He wasn't expecting that...he wasn't expecting Mari to start crying...

Dark purple studied Cels face for a few moments before sighing and throwing the key at him.

They looked disappointed...

Cel didn't have enough time to think when a loud bang echoed through the space. Dark purple turned around to see Light yellow and Bolt fighting with each other.

Looks like both of them had some sort of power...

This was going to be harder than Cel thought it would be.

As soon as Dark purple ran over to separate the two Cel quickly went to work, unlocking the cuffs around his hands before going to untie the ropes tightly wrapped around his legs.

Cel looked up to check if Dark purple was still trying to deal with the fight, they were, before scooting over to Mari.

They looked a mess and it wasn't just because they were desperately trying not to cry. Burn marks stretched across their back, revealing a small patch of red Cel recognized as damaged code.

Cel cringed inwardly before remembering what he had to do, gently grabbing Maris arm he went to work on the lock.

Mari flinched slightly at the touch, looking up in surprise. That surprise only deepened when they saw the person currently setting them free.

They smiled in relief as Cel pulled the now unlocked cuffs off of Maris hands and began working the rope around their legs.

"HEY!"

They both jumped, looking over to see the group of stickfigures had noticed their escape attempt.

Mari quickly tried jumping to their feet, flinching inwardly as their back flared up but quickly ignoring it in favor of grabbing Cels hand and running.

They were quickly followed by the group, who were also yelling at Dark purple for trusting Cel enough to untie him as they pursued.

Mari suddenly stopped, Cel crashing into their back as a result. Mari let out an involuntary gasp of pain at that. Though they quickly regained their composer.

"No time for pain" they thought "their catching up!"

Looking around for a way to get across the floor of code deletion Mari quickly spotted a file hanging just above it.

Smirking they quickly threw their rope at it, after securing it they turned around.

Cel was currently standing in front of Mari, readying himself for the fight that he thought was coming.

Luckily for Cel, Mari had other ideas; They grabbed Cel around his waist pulling him into their chest before stepping back and running forward.

Only just making it into the air before Dark purple could grab them.

Cel screamed, wrapping his arms around Maris neck and keeping his legs as far away from the red floor as much as possible as they swung across the pit.

As Mari was about to let go of the file Cel looked up at Them and a warm feeling suddenly made its way across his cheeks.

This confused Cel for a few moments before realization smacked him right in the face.

"Why now!?!"

Cel thought as he desperately tried to hide how flustered he was in Maris shoulder. Before he could fully process the new emotion Mari landed safely onto the other side.

Looking back one more time to see the other group quickly working on deactivating the code deletion floor Mari quickly made their way towards the WiFi icon.

Still holding onto Cel, Mari Pulled it open and jumped inside, not bothering to look back as they knew the group wouldn't get to them in time.

As they phased into the new computer Mari finally let out the breath they had currently been holding back. Collapsing onto the ground Mari buried their face into Cels shoulder.

They stayed like that for a while, slowly processing the emotions they were currently feeling.

"You...you gave up your game for me..." Mari whispered, head still buried in Cels shoulder.

"Yeah..." Cel whispered back, head also buried in Maris shoulder.

"You're my...my friend...I...I wasn't about to leave you in a place like that"

Mari smiled at that, they used to worry that Cel only hung around them because they were helping him find his game.

Now though they knew Cel actually cared about them.

Now they finally had their first real friend.

[cupidoargiades]

childhood promises (pt 1)

hyunwoo had been your best friend since kindergarten. even at an age that young, you were the epitome of best friends forever. you guys were like a two-for-one deal; you get one, you get the other for free. there was no way you'd be leaving his side, and vice versa. the friendship lasted all the way through high school, until a big move along with growing up broke the bond. you try and contact him again, but will the budded flowers bloom again after all those years?

you and hyunwoo had made a promise when you were just kids. when you get older, and when you have enough money, get married on the big playground in your area. it had a big field where the ceremony would take place, and the party would be in the playground's tower, with the buffet located in the sandbox (worst idea ever, who wants sand in their food?). you even kept the drawing of the marriage somewhere safe, where nobody but you would be able to find it.

however, the friendship began to shift meaning as you two got older. you seemed to drift apart when he pursued his music career, and he only focussed on that. only seeing him a few times a month, you noticed he didn't really put any effort into the friendship anymore. "there's no way you'd be leaving his side" became purely hypothetical.

your parents were never the richest couple on the block, so when your dad got offered a new job on the other side of the country, he couldn't help but refuse. he was promised almost double of the salary he got back then, which was just enough to sustain a family. it didn't take long for your family to move. even though hyunwoo and you already started to disconnect, it seemed like the friendship came to an abrupt end.

the busy lives of you and your family went on, and hyunwoo debuted under starship entertainment. his group: monsta x. his stage name was shownu; an abbreviation for son hyunwoo. to see him become so succesful, while you were busy with opening up your own business, felt a little downgrading. as if he was saying 'ha, look at how far i've made it without you'.

of course, paying for the whole building while your café was only on the ground floor got too expensive, so you decided to move above the café. though it was smaller than your apartment, it was big enough for you and it made travelling for work so much easier.

your future seemed to light up a little, while monsta x's livin' it up started playing on your spotify.

livin' it up.

that's it.

let's break out of this repetitive life.

let's make life a shangri-la, a paradise on earth.

to fulfill your dreams and promises however, seemed further away than it looked like. especially the most important childhood promise. you had to contact hyunwoo again.

you tried to contact him on all platforms you could. instagram, twitter, fancafe, weibo, heck even their business email.

all seemed to have failed: two weeks later, there still was no reply. until a you got a next from an unknown number.

unknown:

Sorry if this is the wrong person, but I hope you didn't change your phone number. My manager has shown me the messages you sent, and I really want to hang out sometime. Contact me on this number if this is indeed y/n. Love, SHW

love, shw

love, son hyunwoo.

even though it was just a text, you felt the tension in those last words. as if they screamed 'i don't know whether you still like me or not, and i don't know whether i still like you or not either, so i don't know what to send, but kind regards seems to official, but love, ... seems so-' you know the drill.

you:

hey! :) yeah it's still me lol getting a new phone number is such a hassle so i just kept the same

thanks so much for texting me btw

unknown:

Sorry for not msg'ing you back earlier, I was really busy working on new music

It's a busy life these days

you:

sounds promising...

lmk if youre free, i kinda want to hang out to catch up on eachother

im running a cafe atm so if you wanna hang there, we can

unknown:

Tbh, I'd love that, but the manager wants me and the boys to stay inside

It's really cold out

I'll send the adress of the company, meet me there Saturday at 12:30

Or later if you don't want to eat with me and the boys

you:

nah 12:30 is fine

see you saturday :)

unknown:

Gotcha

See you then!

Oh

And don't forget to bundle up if you don't want to catch a cold

you:

will do, woo, dw

ill bring some snacks too

unknown:

Ooooo

Bonus points

Fr now though, see you Saturday

you:

yes yes

sleep well tonight

unknown:

You too

Sweet dreams :)

[punkscowardschampions]

Janis & Jimmy

Janis: do you want me to do it all or Janis: [is Irish work, thus easy for her and like ??? for him] Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: [is literally just doodling like the angsty art hoe he is] Janis: [does it 'cos you know when teachers pair you up for stupid worksheets and you're like what is the point we can do this alone tbh, also does pronounciation guide for him 'cos trying to keep busy but also cares] Jimmy: tah Janis: nbd Janis: we're meant to have a convo now so Janis: least pretend yeah Jimmy: no point, he can recognise my accent miles off Jimmy: I'd actually have to do it Janis: oh, true Janis: just wait and see if he's arsed then, I guess Jimmy: 👌 Janis: what did you do last week Jimmy: fuck knows in this class Jimmy: ain't followed a sec since I got here Janis: it's stupid they make you take it Janis: never going to use it, we won't even Jimmy: they'll look stupid when I drag down the average Jimmy: un🍀 Janis: sister's friend bigfoots in this class so we had no hope anyway Jimmy: 🤞 I won't have to sit through too many more of 'em Janis: yeah? Jimmy: always the #dream Janis: oh Janis: 'course Jimmy: [goes back to doodling] Janis: [leaves it a while, tapping her pen on the table 'til the teacher tells her to stop 'cos always a thing] Jimmy: [is chewing on his pen cos always a thing like you gonna get ink in your mouth boy] Janis: did I miss anything, like Jimmy: like? Janis: there's always some melodrama in this place Jimmy: there's your answer then Janis: 👌 Janis: cool Jimmy: 👍 Janis: I ha Janis: sorry, ddin't mean to hit send Janis: [you know when you deleting and you accidentally do, such a thing] Jimmy: like you said, nbd Janis: yeah well Jimmy: ? Janis: don't you even care a bit what I was going to say now Jimmy: nah Janis: okay Jimmy: unless you wanna liven up this class with the fake break up we never had Jimmy: probably bit late though Jimmy: 💔💔 Janis: stop Jimmy: [stops by just ignoring her & defacing the worksheet with 🎨] Janis: [snatches it and rips it up, says 'it was real for me' out loud before being sent out by the teach, everyone like 'oooh!' and #living] Jimmy: too real for you Jimmy: I got that Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻🎻 Janis: [in seclusion after shotuing at the chill teacher like soz sir] Janis: fuck you Jimmy: fuck me 'cause you're a massive dickhead, alright Jimmy: always is Janis: no fuck you for saying it isn't real Jimmy: I didn't Jimmy: but could've Jimmy: should've Janis: no you shouldn't Janis: don't lie Jimmy: don't fuck off for ages then come back & tell me what I should do Janis: lying ain't gonna make you feel better about it Jimmy: nowt will Jimmy: so who cares Janis: me Jimmy: tweet it, babe Jimmy: or better yet send some more snaps & forget about it Janis: go on Jimmy: I ain't the one trying to go anywhere Jimmy: nowhere to go Janis: I mean keep going Janis: giving you the option, you said Jimmy: I know what you meant, I ain't that thick, remember, just northern Janis: do it then Jimmy: stop telling what to do Jimmy: who the fuck are you Janis: exactly Jimmy: exactly Jimmy: leave it out Janis: it'll make you feel better Jimmy: nowt will Jimmy: already said that Jimmy: I know you're probably chatting to loads of lads right now but try & keep up Janis: you haven't even got started yet, come on, what else Jimmy: piss off, Janis Janis: again, yeah? maybe Jimmy: 👍 Janis: is that the best you can do? don't be a pussy Jimmy: 🙄 Jimmy: my dad's got better insults than you Jimmy: don't bother Janis: I ain't, this is about you Jimmy: no it ain't Jimmy: it's nowt to do with me Jimmy: if it were we wouldn't be chatting Janis: you need to say it Jimmy: you need to Jimmy: so go on Jimmy: if you're so desperate Janis: nah, it has to be you Jimmy: 💔 gutted Janis: Fucking do it, I did my part Jimmy: deal's off Jimmy: don't have to do nowt for you Janis: that's all I needed you to say Janis: needed to know Jimmy: it's top that you got what you need Jimmy: 💕 Janis: don't worry, everyone will know it was my fault Janis: not like they ever wanted anything less Jimmy: yeah 'cause I really give a fuck Jimmy: what everyone knows or thinks Janis: yeah you don't give a fuck about anything, that's your thing Janis: say you never did and it's back to how it was Jimmy: I gave a fuck about you Jimmy: & enough of a fuck about my brother & sister not to chase after you Jimmy: but go on Janis: who am I gonna tell? Jimmy: I don't care Jimmy: I'm telling you 'cause you've forgotten who I am in a week Janis: No I haven't Jimmy: then you're just trying to hurt me, alright Jimmy: go on with that too Janis: that's the opposite of what I'm trying to do, I'm trying to make this easier Janis: the more you hate me the better it'll be Jimmy: that's your thing, yeah Jimmy: tah so much Janis: didn't say i was fucking good at it Jimmy: good job Jimmy: I can't fake that I agree Janis: why are you faking anything Janis: love me or hate me, we're past that shit Jimmy: habit I suppose Janis: well stop Jimmy: make me Jimmy: you don't get to do this Janis: what don't I get to do Jimmy: how I handle shit is up to me Janis: you ain't Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻 Jimmy: I'll run away next week Jimmy: hang on, I can't Jimmy: 💔💔 Janis: I didn't Janis: I told you Jimmy: fuck you Jimmy: I don't wanna hear it Janis: tough Jimmy: what are you gonna do? shout at me like you did sir? Jimmy: 🙄 Janis: maybe Jimmy: go on then Jimmy: never get enough of that Jimmy: you & my dad can do a rota Janis: yeah I'm your Dad Janis: you wish Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: dream come true that Janis: you're welcome Jimmy: yeah Janis: what do I do now Jimmy: what are you asking me for? Janis: you've had your heart broken before yeah Janis: i don't know anyone else who has Jimmy: & I told you nowt helps Janis: I ain't asking for it to stop but what do I do Jimmy: do what you like Jimmy: it don't matter Janis: good one Jimmy: you told me not to lie Jimmy: there it is Janis: i know but it doesn't stop it being bullshit Jimmy: everything's bollocks Jimmy: nowt's gonna change nowt Janis: not true Jimmy: shout at another teacher Jimmy: me Jimmy: fuck off again Jimmy: it don't matter Jimmy: you're still gonna feel how you do Janis: if you could stay gone, i think it'd work Janis: but you never can Jimmy: I'm counting down the days Jimmy: I'll let you know Janis: you're not gone, you can't Janis: i can't either Janis: one per family i dunno Jimmy: not yet, like I said 🤞 Jimmy: soon Jimmy: & I'll let you know how it works out Janis: nah Janis: I don't mean from here, from me Janis: and you won't Jimmy: we'll see Jimmy: or I will & you won't see me, like Jimmy: sorta the point Janis: is that easier Jimmy: nowt's easy Jimmy: how many times Janis: that's not true Janis: it was easy Janis: before Jimmy: for what like a week? Jimmy: don't count Janis: not then Janis: before you Jimmy: soz Jimmy: I didn't ask to show up either Janis: no you're not Jimmy: I just said so Jimmy: very sorry to be in this shithole actually Janis: poor you Jimmy: tah Jimmy: don't worry I'll 🎨 about it Janis: worry, about you, why would I do that? Janis: all fake this, so you say Janis: thank god Jimmy: 👍 Janis: I just wanted Janis: who cares, right Jimmy: right Janis: 👍 Jimmy: 👌 Janis: I wish I hated you Jimmy: likewise Jimmy: but wishing is bollocks anyway Jimmy: never once got nowt I tried for Jimmy: 💔🎻💔 Janis: I can easily make that happen for you Jimmy: you can't Jimmy: & like I said, you don't get to Janis: yes I can Jimmy: no Janis: yes Jimmy: shut up Janis: make me Jimmy: you're in seclusion Jimmy: so unlikely Janis: like you'd do anything if you were here Jimmy: like you'd make that challenge if I were Janis: yes I would Janis: I've been telling you, do something Jimmy: just Jimmy: let me feel how I fucking do, alright Janis: not stopping you Jimmy: but stop Jimmy: this Janis: why, you really wanna be in there with all them Janis: get kicked out Jimmy: they ain't gonna put me with you if I do Janis: excuses Jimmy: no but why would I bother? Janis: like it's difficult Jimmy: like it matters Janis: whatever Jimmy: I don't care about any of this Jimmy: don't you get that Janis: prove it then Jimmy: & do what Jimmy: bust you out & then Jimmy: ? Janis: show me how little you care Jimmy: alright fine Janis: cool Jimmy: [literally can't reply cos leaving class to bust into seclusion & kiss her really angrily & passionately & just like ILY & miss you so SOMEONE FILM THIS ON YOUR PHONE SO EVERYONE KNOWS]

[skyrim-said-that]

What's Lavinia's living situation / Where does she live / Who's cause does she support more (Imperials / Stormcloaks) / What was her childhood like / What were her motivations to join the guild and brotherhood / Does she find the history of the dark brotherhood interesting (Lucien's death, Mathieu Bellamont, HoK eventually disappearing because of sheo bullshit) / How does she feel about Lucien and Cicero?

Oh shit that s a lot of stuff but thank you for the interest!! i love talking about her tbh

living situation~ Her home is the sanctuary. Whether this be before or after death incarnate, its the sanctuary. Although should she ever be in riften, Brynjolf doesn't let anyone have her bed, just in case. 

fun fact~When they first got to the new sanctuary and it was still,,, a mess her, nazir, and Babette all shared a bed they managed to fix while they were there. But the first night (Babettes sleeping schedule was fucked for months} they tried to sleep in separate rooms, they all ended up in the same bed anyway, not able to be alone.

Civil war~ Lavinia stays out of the civil war thing for a long time, but her preference is for the imperials because she can’t fucking stand ulfric.

Childhood~ SO I THOUGhT I ANSWERED THIS SOMEWHERE BUT I GUESS NOT. Lavinia is an orphan, sorta. this ties into the next question but Lavinia's birth parents were passing through  Skyrim when her mother was pregnant. Both were travellers, wanting to see all they could see but when her mother learned she was pregnant they stuck around Skyrim until she gave birth. She had Lavinia and then they dumped her in the riften orphanage and left to continue being adventurers. She grew up there being treated awfully, and eventually ran when she was around 8. She ran as far as she could from Skyrim, and tried to live on her own

. But she was a small child who knew nothing of the horrors that lurk in those mountains and forests at night. Her soon to be adoptive parents found her freezing and starving hiding under a hollow log and crying. The Altmer man took her home to his wife, a beautiful redgaurd woman and they nursed her back to health.  In the days they had known her they had been nothing but kind to her, asking her all kinds of questions about what she liked and what she didn't, getting to know her. 

They asked her what her name was the day after they brought her home. She told them she didn't have one, mentioning how she had been told she didn't need one because she was never going to have a family.

 They looked at each other, the woman almost in tears as she whispered something to her husband. They whispered for a minute before they looked back to the bone-thin little girl before them. They told her how they hadn't been able to have a child of their own and how they had always wanted a child together. She didn't understand until the tall man crouched down to sit on his knees in front of the girl and take her hands, asking if she would like to join their family and be their daughter. 

She was stunned, before nodding her head quickly, sobbing as he pulled her into a tight hug, her new mother hugging the two of them, weeping as she embraced her new daughter. They named her lavinia and she grew with them, in a healthy family. 

(send an ask if you wanna know what happened to them bc this bitch is too long}

Reason for joining the brotherhood~ Revenge mostly. She gets recruited the same way as in the game basically. She came to riften as a teenager and had planned on killing the woman then and there but she got sidetracked and talked out of it when Brynjolf took her in.

But then at 20 she was on guild job in windhelm and discovered Aventus Arentino. She had broken into the house to steal a couple things and found him performing the sacrament. She honestly had no idea what was going on but the kid managed to talk himself into a deal that she was about to deny when he mentioned the target. She immediately took the kid by the hands and asked what the woman was doing to them, having not been back to the orphanage despite living in riften. When she heard nothing had changed she was so fucking angry.

But then she looked around her and realized a pissed off woman was not what he needed. You know how the rest of that quest goes and for the most part not much is different but instead of leaving the boy alone, she took him in, bringing him back to riften but instead of the orphanage, she arrived in the cistern with a boy holding her hand.

She made eye contact with brynjolf and the man has never looked so tired in his entire life.

But after minimal convincing (”Brynjolf look at him!! i had to drag that kid off his mother's dead body and halfway across Skyrim and you're gonna kick him out to be homeless!!”} he said the boy could stay. By the end of the week, they were inseparable. 

History of the brotherhood~ (i uhhhhhhhh didnt  play oblivion oof this is gonna be short} I think that she learns most of the history from the ghost of lucien, she found his retelling interesting but shes not really emotionally invested in it.

thoughts on lucien~ Honestly he freaks her the FUCK out. She summons him for battles and hangs out with him for a while until he disappears again and she just fucking lets out this huge breath of relief. One time she walked through him by accident and she threw up.

Cicero~ sSo she did kill him, im saying that now. She actually found him just as annoying as everyone else did when he first came to the sanctuary but she had done a lot of research on the brotherhood and already held a deep respect for him and the night mother. Despite that, she killed him, not because Astrid said so, but because he hurt Arnbjorn and Veezara. She loves her family and anyone who hurts them deserves death.

this is messy and long but here u go!

[celiaelise]

Okay so, updates!!!!

I had to wait a while, but my psychiatrist did eventually show up to our video call like twenty minutes late! She sent in my scripts, yay!!! 🥳🙌💕

She was kinda annoying, though. First she was like, "oh it's already been four months! Don't be a stranger, make sure you keep your appointment next time, okay?" Which like, granted, I didn't try super hard to reschedule, but YOU were the one who cancelled the last appointment, and your receptionist only left two messages like, "hey we gotta reschedule lol", not even a, "I'm holding this new spot for you, lmk if you wanna change it." But I'm sure she didn't even realize that when we were talking today.

And then she was like, "I want to try and get you off one of these meds next time." (she didn't suggest the one I'm currently missing, but two others) And, like, I kinda get it? I don't love that I'm on a bunch of meds, like, I do get messed up about it sometimes, ("wAaA ~wHaT aM I iF i NeEd ThEsE PiLlS tO bE a PeRsOn~?" whatever 🙄) and I definitely understand that there can be negative side effects, especially with long-term use. (Which is definitely what I'm doing.) But I'd rather take stuff I know will help me function than experiment with the possibility of not functioning?

Like, I'm not in such a great place rn that I'm looking to find new problems to solve, you know? Plus, we've never actually discussed what the side effects are, and how they may or may not be affecting me. I guess I should've asked, but I didn't think of it, and tbh I just don't like talking to her that much!

There was also the classic,

doctor: have you been exercising?

me: not really I don't have energy

doctor: okay well you should exercise to help with your energy. I want you to exercise more.

me: ...okay.

And, of course, her trademark...

me: yeah so I'm thinking of getting a different job...

doctor: *visibly writing* she is... looking for ...new job...

me: yeah, uh, because I've gotten really burnt out,

doctor: *still writing, has not looked up from paper* ... because overwork...has led to... burnout. Right?

me: um, yeah.

Like, that's not an exaggeration that's literally how it goes down.

I know I need to find a new doctor! I'm going to try and focus on that after I get a new job, hopefully? I'm so anxious about changing jobs though, I hate change!!! 😭😭😭 Whenever it's calm at work, I'm like, "see it's not so bad!" even though I know I need to leave cause I'm burnt out!!!

I'm gonna miss the babies a lot though. 😢 Like, both I will miss the specific babies currently in my class, and I will just miss hanging out with and taking care of kids in general. Cause I really do love them and they make me happy, even when the job sucks! But I'm so burnt out now I don't think there's anything else for me to do. I need a break from childcare altogether. I might go back one day, but I need to recover.