#on friendship heartbreaks

[srijswings]

Texts to my Therapist

[03/10, 11:39 pm] K: All of them are friends with the school friends at least a FEW

[03/10, 11:39 pm] K: And I'm not

[03/10, 11:40 pm] K: Most of all after doing something which felt like climbing Everest things with R didn't work out

[03/10, 11:40 pm] K: It just makes me feel like a failure

[03/10, 11:40 pm] K: Failure at everything

[03/10, 11:40 pm] K: Really

[03/10, 11:40 pm] K: I just really want to end everything

[03/10, 11:40 pm] K: Idk how

[03/10, 11:40 pm] K: All this pain all this love

[03/10, 11:40 pm] K: Where do I pour them

[03/10, 11:41 pm] K: Till when can I carry them

[03/10, 11:41 pm] K: Shouldn't I have some good time, good people good things happening to me

[03/10, 11:42 pm] K: I have no good friends. I can't keep relationships, didn't get into a good college can't figure out what to do with myself. Iam not getting better. I am just getting worse

[03/10, 11:42 pm] K: I am rude to people

[03/10, 11:42 pm] K: I get angry so often so much

[03/10, 11:42 pm] K: I destroy things

[03/10, 11:42 pm] K: I destroy relationships

[03/10, 11:43 pm] K: And if I was to think that okay R didn't want me do you think it makes me feel better

[03/10, 11:43 pm] K: She was my FUCKING BEST FRIEND. MY SOUL MATE. I ACTUALLY LOVED HER. ONLY HER

[03/10, 11:44 pm] K: Why do I have to pay such huge price for the mistakes for the ignorance of my teenage

[03/10, 11:44 pm] K: I too want to be friends with my old friends

[03/10, 11:44 pm] K: I too want to love someone

[03/10, 11:44 pm] K: Why don't people come into my life or don't choose me

[03/10, 11:44 pm] K: My self love isn't enough at the moment

[03/10, 11:45 pm] K: It makes me feel pathetic

[03/10, 11:46 pm] K: You'd say like anyone else I should wait. Bc obviously nobody can make things better for me. You can't bring someone into my life. I wonder is it just me????

[03/10, 11:46 pm] K: I see all the people around me having good changes

[03/10, 11:46 pm] K: I am the only one having changes that are just bad

[03/10, 11:46 pm] K: How can I find balance here??? The middle ground???

[thefirstlivingart]

all this love i have refuses to die inside of me

pinterest / vonko magno on flickr / troye sivan, one of your girls / virginia woolf, a letter to vanessa bell, august 1908 / @hannahlockillustration on tumblr / sara luisa kirk, begin here / fyodor dostoevsky, a letter to anna gregorevna dostoevsky, may 1880 / archbudzar on instagram / jeanette winterson, lighthousekeeping (transcript under the cut) / caitlyn siehl / @wormbus-art on tumblr / jonathan safran foer, extremely loud and incredibly close / lidia yuknavitch, the chronology of water: a memoir / sleepy.corvid on instagram / @froody on tumblr / @borderlinejackiee on tumblr / always together 2, frrrankkky_art on instagram / andsome4747 on tiktok / arthur miller, the crucible / cheryl strayed, tiny beautiful things: advice on love and life from dear sugar

[thoughtsofapessimistttt]

I don’t give up on anyone easily. I’ll be there hoping for the best until my brain eventually convinces my heart that letting go is better for us in the long run. So don’t ever doubt my loyalty or my love

[drunk-werewolf]

[emilybraydenblogs]

I confuse people. i have a happy personality and a sad soul. i'm bold but shy. i love deeply but sometimes i feel heartless. i'm healing and hurting at the same time. i'm dedicated to growth, but i self sabotage

[missinyouiskillingme]

I never gave up on you even when you gave up on me.

— r.r.

[haleyincarnate]

[cowboylikesubai]

goddamnit i miss her (the love of my life when i was young)

aka

sometimes losing a friend is the saddest thing ever

@/bloomingtrans on tumblr / trista mateer / anne sexton / unknown / unknown / the laughing man by st vincent / norwegian wood haruki murakami / unknown / ribs by lorde / us against you by fredrik backman / seven by taylor swift

[seasofjupiterx]

For once i want to be a person that isn't so easily replaced. I wanna be someone's favorite person, someone's priority like they're my priority. I wanna be the person that someone is scared of losing..

[chaoscroissant]

I WILL NEVER GET OVER THE LOSS OF YOU

[undercotton-andcalicoes]

leaving long term friendships behind is so strange. like. i know your favorite flower and how you like your soda and the exact shape of your face and your coffee order. they’re all etched into the folds of my brain. but we haven’t spoken since june. and i don’t even know what your hair looks like now.

[alparslan0]

I'm just hurting

[kimiko24]

[ Lost without you, left to grieve ]

[thoughtsofapessimistttt]

Don’t make the mistake of being so understanding that you overlook the fact that you’re being disrespected. You’re worth more than that.

Don’t ever let anyone take your kindness for granted my love 🩶

[uh-oh-im-falling-in-love]

"sometimes I wonder if things would have turned out differently if I had done just one thing or said those few words or been a little less like this and a little more like that, sometimes I wonder , sometimes I overthink"

[calware]

my perfect vision. everyone go home and think about other kinds of relationships