#so mentally ill

[kindheartedgummybears]

"Hey, how's your mental health been lately?"

Er- Uh- Well-

[notagaslightingcat]

putting a dish in the dish rack and it clink-clanks in the wrong way:

[my-love-tells-me-im-a-mess]

2/9/24 - our nonexistent dynamic

i see X approximately ten minutes a day. he’s friends with one of my teachers (that i have multiple periods with), so he stops by often, but i don’t have any classes with him until next semester. we only exchange a few sentences a day, but i get the feeling that he also wants to talk longer. he asks me lots of questions, and we engage in this incredibly romcom-esque banter. he glances at me periodically before looking away, and I don’t know what it means.

it’s fairly common at my school for teachers and students to have a friendly relationship, and many teachers / students become very close after graduation. i’m nowhere close to graduating, but i think he may actually be considering a friendship. additionally, it’s common (at my school, at least) for teachers / students to become close friends after graduation and then branch off into a romantic relationship. regardless of what he thinks, i want him now (in a respectful, sane way)

[daisies-on-a-cup]

hannibal being genuinely so remorseful about taking away abigail but only bc of will's grief and the loss of that additional bond between them... all the while knowing abigail was alive and secretly ecstatic about having that card to play but at the same time knowing he wouldn't use that card to manipulate will again but rather save him and add to his happiness....

ONLY TO REALIZE WILL BETRAYED HIM AND HE THUSLY HAS TO BREAK THAT PROMISE TO HIMSELF BC HE IS SO HEARTBROKEN AND (metaphorically) C-SECTION WILL TO RID THEM BOTH OF THAT WHOLESOME POSSIBILITY OF A FAMILY

[nicxdiangelvo]

i’ll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror.

[wawataka]

i think i am going to explode i finished whats so far done of a breach of trust theres nothing left for me

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[warriorblood1]

im playing disco elysium for the first time and it might be too early to call it but i think ive come across the funniest goddamn exchange in the game

[hoshizoralone]

reflection

[abracadaze]

i feel so bad for nikola tesla like imagine spending years beefing with a guy who has conned the public into believing he's some sort of supergenius when in reality it's his overworked employees developing all of his world-changing inventions and you end up dying broke and starving and alone and then 100 years later another guy cons the public into believing he's some sort of supergenius when in reality it's his overworked employees developing all of his world-changing inventions and he's doing it all IN YOUR NAME. he must be rolling in his grave like a fucking rotisserie chicken

[hinamie]

9 / 266

[honeypleasejustkillme]

who else mourning the person they could've been if they were treated kindly as a child

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

i don’t want to live like this. i only exist at this point. all i do is distract my mind so i don’t kill myself

[kaptainandy]

herbert west playing yugioh if you even care 🙄

[nicxdiangelvo]

gonna pretend i have a blog followed by fans who are interested in my daily life please enjoy

[biscuithoney]

The sillies!

They know Zane, they know...

Based on an interaction between me and my friends.