Because there are some days I need someone to hold me and no one will.
Some days where I feel fragile and need someone to hold me tenderly and say it's alright.
The cold winter harsh against my skin as I search for a refugee inside my skin.
I ask myself in my last coherent thought before I fall asleep: am I this unlikeable?
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Friday, August 4th (11:52pm)
My day has gotten a lot better. I was picked up my dad and I got to see my little sister which was pretty nice, and I'm still at his house. I used to be sad that my parents split, it used to really scare me for some reason. But now, now everything's okay, I'm completely fine with it and it doesn't affect me at all. I mean, it's funny how I used to cry and sob every night when I was at my dads, begging for him to take me back to my moms. Sometimes I would fake sick just so I could stay at my moms house longer. I don't think it was because I was a mommy's girl, I think it was because I was scared of her getting hurt. The guy she was dating wasn't the nicest guy, and now we're living with him again four years later. I'm not so scared now, I'm actually beyond relieved going to my dads house.
Anyways, enough with the negative. I've finished the book Solitaire and it was so cute! Just before the end kinda scared me though because I though Tori would really jump, but the very end made me feel very releived and happy. I won't say though because I don't want to spoil it for anyone. Now, I'm starting the book 'A Court of Silver Flames' so I'm pretty excited to be able to read that! Although, I don't really like Nesta's character. But, I have a feeling I'll find a liking for her while reading this book.
I'm starting school pretty soon. This means I only have two years of high school left, and then I have to go to college. I'm kinda scared, because I still don't have a college picked out. In all honesty, I don't want to go to college. I just want to take a few classes, some for writing and maybe art. I want to be an author, so I think going to a full on college will just be a waste of time and money. I'm not sure how my father will take to that though, but I do know my mom won't mind.
I think this year of highschool will be different though, a much better year. I'm gonna try harder and actually do my homework the moment I get it. I really do not want to fall behind, so I think that if I try harder this year it'll be much better. Anyhow, I will have to work on my math before I get into school only because I just know that i'll be super lost in whatever we're doing. I've never been good at math, and honestly see no point in it. Well, or me at least. It won't be needed for what I'm wanting to do, so I don't know why I need to be learning such complex things. It's frustrating, and it makes me angry and feel idiotic. I failed my freshman year math class and had to retake it last year, so now I'm gonna be taking geometry instead of calc which is annoying.. It's okay though, I'm fine. I can get through it even if people decide to be assholes.
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Justice League & The Observants
The first time The Observants appeared before the Justice League, they were met with resistance. The JL was more than apprehensive when it came to working with the beings.
A new side of their world was exposed to them. Since the day those things showed up at the watchtower, everywhere the JL turned, there was a new spooky thing to learn about.
The strange beings didn't say much. Appearing in the room through a swirling portal, took a look at the heroes and gave them a mission.
A mission. Like suddenly the Justice League works for them. Something that rubbed all the heroes the wrong way.
Yet, they had to take it. They couldn't let a town get absolutely destroyed and leveled just because they disliked the creatures that told them about it.
It kept happening.
Batman pulls out all the stops to learn more about these so called "Observants". Everything he could find.
It takes him down a rabbit hole. Finding out more and more about the world those beings came from. The Zone.
No one could really complain. The visits from the Observants were always short and to the point. A new problem has arise in the time line and they needed to fix it.
That was until the first time it wasn't one of those things stepping out of the portal.
This time it was a kid. Or something that looked like a kid, and this kid looked pissed.
He demands to know everything that the Observants had asked the league to do. Demands to be filled in.
The anger isn't directed at the JL. No, no. It's directed at the Observants. It seems the league aren't the only ones that despise those all-seeing beings.
He's a king. The kid is a King.
Not what anyone had expected, and it seemed the complication only grew more. The king, Phantom, informs them not to trust the Observants.
The Justice League takes it all in surprising strides. Confirms that they have done nothing wrong, and they haven't. It was simply that the Observants cared more of their own opinions than the betterment of the world.
However, it gets a little harder to keep a straight face when they are introduced to the God of Time.
Made even worse when the God, Clockwork, is a child. If they thought Phantom was a kid, this was a baby.
Except in almost a blink of an eye, Clockwork was an old man.
Things just kept getting more complicating and intriguing.
Before the Justice League knows it. They are essentially thrusted into the Zone's own problems. An inner war was brewing, and Phantom wanted to do everything he could to stop it.
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Mother Bird Left the Nest, Again (Two Nests, One Family)
"Father Bird, where is Mother Bird?" Baby Bird asked.
Father Bird shakes his head,
"I don't know, Baby Bird. I'm sorry."
"Big Sister Bird,where is Mother Bird" Baby Bird asked,
Big Sister Bird hesitates,
"Shes left the nest for a few hours." Is all Big Sister Bird can say,
Mother Bird left the Nest, What to do.
All she can do is cry, Baby Bird goes 'Hoo, Hoo."
Father Bird is stressed, He has to collect food,
And take care of the nest. he's trying it's hard.
Big Sister Bird is tired, she never wanted to be Mother Bird.
She know's where Mother Bird is,
Mother Bird is with Mr.Italian Eagle,
Mother Bird comes back, Only for a few hours.
She calls out "Baby Bird, Big Sister Bird! Come here please,"
"Father Bird and I are not happy, so we are splitting."
Two nests, Two Families
Mother Bird leaves again, it is not a surprise,
Baby Bird stops asking, Father Bird is still stressed,
Big Sister Bird has adapted to her new role.
Mother Bird has left the nest,
There's nothing left to do,
All they can do is try, Baby Bird rarely cries,
No more Hoo, Hoo.
Mother Bird is trying, She finds a new nest, Makes a promise,
"Things will be better, it will get easier!"
And things do, Two Families, Two Nest's.
It's different, but they're family, they'll make it through.
Two nests, One Family.
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nightmare viewing the murder time three as little toys but more in like a little spoiled kid kinda way. because it would be funny and if you take into the account that he was like 6 before getting corrupted and do some mental loopholes it would be even funnier. like these are his dolls (killer dust and horror) and this is their barbie dreamhouse (his castle). they all have to stay in one room because nightmare needs to keep his toys in a toy box. the toys only ever come out when he wants to play but oh damn it they keep on breaking out!! silly toys,,, and then he locks them into the room again.
nightmare serves them food with plastic tea cups and plastic plates and there is no food. there is no tea. they have to imagine the food because dolls can't literally eat. there are food containers and stuff in the house but its all just a bunch of empty boxes. horror starts tweaking out after he scavenges the kitchen and finds a cereal box and milk carton that have NOTHING in it (why keep empty boxes?????)
they have to go where he wants them to go. nightmare gets to dress them up in whatever he wants because theyre his dolls they can wear anything he wants. it gets incredibly embarrassing when the trio is forced to wear pink pretty dresses and fight like that. or they have to go around the castle doing stupid fucking roleplays and it gets weird because theyre being forced to reenact a bullying scene and nightmare's giving them the death stare if they don't get it right (is this projection. this must be some form of coping mechanism dust theorizes)
and then you know nightmare's not exactly the best toy owner so he loses a few of his dolls here and there. maybe they get destroyed when he was playing a bit too rough with them! (killer dies in battle for like the 29th time) but its okay because he can just go back on down to the store (something new) and buy. wait no. steal another doll and then put it back in his dreamhouse and BOOM he has a full set again!! so sweet so cute. his dolls don't have consciousness what are you talking about theyre begging to be let go?? that's all just your imagination. what do you mean you're asking about the several slowly dying bodies with removed arms or legs in his dungeon. oh that's just where the broken but not yet destroyed toys go dw theyre fine its humane
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