#tw binge mention

[snowe-zolynn-rogers]

Sun: How much pizza have you eaten?

Lunar, in a food coma: Too much.

Sun: How much is too much?

Moon: 27 Pizzas.

Sun: Oh my god.

Lunar, weakly: *pouting* I didn’t get to thirtyyyyy.

[laba2dub2]

At this point my biggest motivation to starve myself is the hope that being sick would excuse me from being a productive and functioning human being. I don't want anyone to expect anything from me. I don't want to keep working. And I can't just quit because then I will be a disappointment. I want to be sick enough so that it would be justifiable to quit.

I don't want mom to look at me with a disgust, that I can't do anything right and can't even handle a simple job.

I want her to look at me with worry. Pity. I want pity.

I want to lay in bad and rot. And I want to have a reason to do it. I want it to be acceptable for me to do. Because I'm sick. I can't help it, it's not like I'm a lazy failure, I'm just sick.

But I'm not sick. Not enough. No one sees it. I starve and then binge and gain everything back. So no one knows. So I'm just an idiot who can barely handle her job. I want to kill myself every time I think about future projects and tasks that will be given to me. I can't handle that. I'm scared. I'm incompetent. Everyone will be disappointed in me. But if I will just be sick enough. Just a little thinner. Just a little paler. All I need is to faint one time for people to see something is wrong, for them to see that I can't handle it. I can't handle it. I TRULY CAN'T HANDLE IT.

Please. Please. I want release from the responsibilities of life. I really can't handle it....

.......

if i can't be sick enough..

i will have to end it

[depression-permanent]

Me during a binge

[sleepybug05]

some tips on food fixation and binging urges

hellooo, ive been thinking about compiling some things that have helped me get my mind off of food and overall just writing down some rant -- so here it is!

keep in mind, im not an expert and this is mostly just me babbling. im writing this as a motivation for myself, and it will probably not work for everyone, but if you find any of this stuff helpful -- my pleasure! ★ mindfulness ★

`` first of all -- ive found that that strong-urge-to-binge thing is more of a state, not a feeling. it helps me to treat it as such: a mental state, a spiral, and to come out of that spiral you can:

◌ stop! ◌ breath in, breath out. ground yourself. have that thought of "wait, what am i doing?" in the space between you and the fridge ◌ check in with your body. what position are you in? does something hurt? are you cold? are you tired? overenergized? ◌ check in with your mind. is there any buzz? are you overwhelmed? ◌ if you located the issue (eg. im tired! i want comfort! so food = comfort!) -- great! move on from there to resolving this issue in a more mindful, not-involving-food way (then i should nap, do yoga, just lie on the floor, watch comfort movie) why are we doing that? in my opinon, its very important to train that "what am i doing" moment of conciousness, because through that you can see better why you want to binge. is it a mental thing? how can you cope without food? is it a physical feeling? an effect of restriction? how can you tweak your eating to make it better (imo, fasting does better job at managing binges than plain restriction) you cant just showe thinspo at your face everytime you crave something, after all : ) ★ activities ★ `` make something with your hands! ohh my god! i cant stress it enough, it can help you to not get fixated on thinking about food so much! it can be something easy like drawing, or you can look up something new for yourself `` go on a walk. i know, it can be very tiring to even think about, but t does wonders at distracting you `` yoga. very simple and very effective. or, alternatively `` do nothing at all for a bit. just. lie down, turn off your phone, no sound, no nothing (helps if your binging urge feels overwhelming) ★ other stuff ★

`` if you havent already, try drinking coffee. it really is called an appetite supressant for a reason `` i wasnt the one who told you that, but you can look up some gross stuff involving food.. f*eeding k*ink usually freaks me out on multiple levels for long enough to forget about food `` test yourself and allow yourself to feel bored. put down your phone. watch a really long flm. boredom is a part of our lives, and if you teach yourself to feel it in such small portions without binging youll be so so proud of yourself

tried to keep it all low-energy friendly : ) kind of nervous to post stuff like this -- if somethings not right, please dont come at me hahaha reblogs are very appreciated <33

[descentinto-hell]

[lostmf]

[moistrodent]

Making an un trigger warned episode that shows graphic depictions of SA and drug use is okay because viv lied about the story boarder being an SA survivor. That’s not a coping mechanism that’s just gross to do. Toxic coping mechanisms exist. My cutting, starving, and binge eating were all coping mechanisms. That doesn’t mean they were good for me. Use your fucking brain please, I’m so tired of hearing people say that. It hurts me as someone who has done so many horrible coping mechanisms to hear “it’s a coping mechanism so it’s okay.” Episode four gave me a panic attack.

[delianagirl]

52 days until summer, we can do this!

[snowe-zolynn-rogers]

Killcode is sad about Bloodmoon being missing/dead when in reality Sun shot off the laser barrel because he was startled and thought Blood Moon had just killed someone when in reality they had just eaten some of the blood cupcakes Lunar made for them and the shot misses them by a few inches. Lunar explains that the twins like his food and probably won't kill anyone

Lunar gave him red velvet blood cupcakes and Sunny thinks it’s guts. Blood Moon’s is slightly over-satiated because they ate an entire dozen of red velvet blood cupcakes that Lunar ended up undercooking.

They were very grateful Sun missed because they’re just a bit stuffed and were going to cuddle Lunar after getting something to wipe their face and hands off with. Lunar is very startled and comes to cuddle startled Blood Moon and calm down startled Sun and lead them into the theater to calm down more.

Lunar explains to Sunny that Bloody just came over for a mis-made batch of blood cupcakes while he rubs Bloody’s belly because they ate too quickly and too much (they were supposed to take a few cupcakes back to KC but refused to share their prize with him and ate them all to prevent having to share).

Sunny ends up helping Lunar cuddle them and help them get rid of their bellyache after making sure the twins are okay and they’re not hurt from the barrel. The twins are entirely oblivious and far too sugar-and-blood-sated to realize they almost died.

[laba2dub2]

Please give me recommendations for chew & spit ^w^ ~°•°~

I've done chew and spit once in my life before, and want to start doing it again because it seems like a good alternative for purging, but I don't know what food would be best for it. I mainly crave chocolate but I'm afraid of the chocolate melting in my mouth so that I won't be able to spit it properly. I also tried potato chips before but they got stuck in my teeth so that also scares me. Anyone with experience that can give me some tips?

[depression-permanent]

what I’ve been eating

[immaeatingwood]

The funnies ahhh This pic was too big for tumblr so I just made it a bit smaller

[worstxana]

when the binge was so bad you lose 1.4kg in a day from letting it digest

[totally-bing]

stop gaslighting. im going to stab you

you don't even know what gaslighting is. and since when did you learn how to use a knife? you never got any formal training

[delianagirl]

Am I the only one that like so confused how weight loss works? Like I can lower my calorie intake and lose 3kg in 5 days but do I lose fat, muscle or just water weight? I’m so confused :/

[lostmf]

By Sophie Pearson

@creating.sophie