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I only had to gaze upon one of your stars to fall in love with your universe.

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Perhaps the red flags only become visible after the end. But what if there was no end? What if you look back on the would-be red flags as simply milestones that show how much your partner has matured and grown?

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Growing older is a privilege not everyone will experience

6:01 PM 8/2/25

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Some days the urge to reach out to you is stronger than others. That urge turns to an ache when I remember how you cut that line so very long ago.

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Just know that you are not the only one going through this all-too-human and inevitable pain. The grief, the loss, the unbearable weight of it all. Just know that you do not have to carry it all on your own.

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Every moment we have spent together will live in me forever. These moments are ours, and mine alone, living in between each heartbeat and behind every smile until the end.

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January smelt of sorrow- it usually does. For what, I do not know, but every year I hope to figure it out and make sure to avoid it in twelve months. Oh well, better luck next year.

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The stars that fill my skies are all from your universe.

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How can you chase a dream that does not want to be caught?

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Am I over it? Not really. Will I survive? Probably.

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The Earth can only contain so much before it bursts open from its volcanoes and geysers, as can a star when it goes supernova. What chance do you have of holding it all in?

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You cannot miss what never existed, right?

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I have been waiting for the December rain to cleanse me once again of the pain and grime I have gathered over the year.

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You feel strange again- you don't know why, and suddenly you're reliving your youth and realizing that there must be something inherently wrong with you that people don't like and you don't know what it is.

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They say you remember all the little details when you are in love. Every word, every smile, every adventure and every argument. I still remember it all, and you can barely remember my name.

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Isn't it strange how we forget most of our dreams yet there are some dreams that we carry for the rest of our lives?

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In this life there are people who like and dislike you. It has taken me too long to let the latter go, and to understand that there is little you can do to change that. All you can do is let them go, and move on, and live with that fact because not everyone is going to like you. Understand that it is their loss and that tripping over yourself for others will never bring you happiness nor your true self.