#I know I usually avoid talking drama but I actually do want to hear people's thoughts

[nanoa1foryou]

Okay, I can see a problem with Vox Populi and Mikael Gabriel.

This is just a really uncomfortable song. But I'm gonna talk about it. And I want to hear your takes on it.

I wonder if the song would really carry as much weight if the writer didn't have some controversial opinions of their own. Coming from a writer who know that what they think is not generally considered the norm, and in some cases could be harmful, it adds a context to accepting other people's opinions in a proper live and let live kind of way. Coming from someone who's most controversial take is their favourite ice cream flavour, that point wouldn't really be as strong.

Also, since a lot of people brought up the covered tattoo a a reason Mikael is somehow bad, I don't think that's a strong argument. Someone having shown and publicly admitted that they have learned from a mistake or developed their understanding is a good thing. That case puts a lot more context to the message of "attacking people over opinions won't really get anyone anywhere".

On the other hand, hearing someone with all kinds of wild takes ranging from weird bullshit to conspiracy theory territory saying "we're not gonna shut up" and "stop being sheep" is just vittuilu, in the worst way. Like yeah, that's not really enjoyable to listen to. Nor is it good writing. It's just intentionally provocative, which defeats the stated message of the song.

Also, "All opinions are equally wrong" could be taken as a dog whistle for various groups. That's not a great, especially if the song is meant to unite people.

So, this song has some really shitty parts to it and some really insightful parts to it. Do I think the song is shit? No. Do I think the song is great? Also no. It is catchy and has something to say. That message isn't entirely positive, but it could be.

At the end of the day, I believe people have the right to voice their opinions on issues, even if those opinions are considered bad or disagreeable. But you can't just say whatever and expect people to be fine with it. your opinions will affect the people around you and how they treat you, so just saying "Don't hate me, it's just my opinion" has it's limits.

But this is getting off topic now. What I will say is that I hope it doesn't win, because none of this would translate to the general international audience because they would be missing like 90% of the context of the song. Hell, I think the context will be missing for majority of the Finnish audience as well, because all of it contained to xitter and rumours.

[study-diaries]

How to avoid drama in your life. (School/Work/Family)

Hate to say this but i don't really think some people can just live their life without poking into other's business and causing unnecessary turmoil so, here's a guide to avoid all types of unnecessary drama in your life.

A full communication circle.

Communication is the main cause for most fights so, here's the thing. When there is something that needs to be done, inform all necessary people about it in advance. Here's a mistake most do, they just tell one person and ask them to put forward the message to the others but tell them directly. Literally, it is the safest option for you, like no one can blame you that you didn't tell them. No one can hold it against you. So tell them directly. And from time to time get repeated reminders so they remember.

Don't involve yourself in unnecessary talks

This is serious. If you are sitting and your friends are complaining about someone, you just listen to them. Don't add on to the things and hype up them. If you know that person isn't like that, defend them subtly. Involving in gossip is the worst. When someone says something about another person or even you then just reply with "I don't really care, they are/ I am free to do whatever they/I want." Or "I don't have the energy for this." Or "It's really none of my business/concern".

If you demand respect, you need to give respect.

Be nice to everyone, I am serious about this. Even if you're not friendly with the person or you don't like them, just be nice. It won't hurt you or them. Even if they do something to hurt you, just let it go with a "Meh it's fine but i would appreciate it if you won't do it again". This may even work people up a bit, handle yourself with care. Make it seem that their presence doesn't actually threaten you.

Calm composure.

Keep yourself calm and composed whenever you're faced with a difficult situation, do not react immediately, take a breath. I usually just frown but more than that, I won't react to anything. It takes some practice but eventually, this is useful. The reason for you to maintain a calm composure is because if the person who hurt you is looking for a dramatic reaction, don't give them the satisfaction.

Better articulation

Especially if it's important instructions! When someone accuses you of something, don't immediately raise your voice, think for a moment, let them wait and then reply with what had actually happened in your point of view.

Apologize. Even if it isn't your fault.

Sometimes, people are just shitty and they won't understand even if you explain it a hundred or a million times. In those case, just say the magic two letter word -> "I'm sorry" or "I apologise". Your worth doesn't come down just because you apologised, on the other hand, you just became a better person than the other one.

It's simply not your damn business.

When someone directly tells you about their life etc etc. You lend a compassionate ear to them. If it's a story going around the whole place, it's simply not your business. And you can say this directly to the person passing the gossip, if they argue then that means you now actualy are aware of another gossip machine.

Don't EVER share your opinions on important matters with a person higher than you! Especially not in front of other people!

I'm damn serious, you don't know who will have it against you so, be careful around who you're saying things to. Other important matters include opinions about the specific person, politics, nationality, culture etc etc. Be sensitive.

Break the chain

When you hear something bad is going around and it reaches you, keep it to your damn self. Don't go adding the fuel to the fire like the rest!

Do not assume!

Don't assume about a situation or a person. Clarify. Always clarify. You may not know what the other person was going through, you don't know everything. Just don't think something, clarify it. No body is going to get mad at you for clarifying.

Make excuses.

When you hear someone talking bad about someone else. Defend them. Make excuses. I don't mean lie to them, I mean saying things like, "It's alright. You don't know what they were going through." Or "Maybe something happened that you don't know about." Personally, I always use the second one because I feel like, sometimes, people aren't bad guys. Situations make them act like that. Povs differ. So be mindful.

Don't raise your voice. Improve your argument.

If there is an argument. Do the classic Harvey Specter thing. You improve arguments with a neutral tone. Don't sound mocking or cocky, sound like you're just explaining to them. This won't escalate the scenario. (The quote was actually given by Desmond Tutu)

Hope this helps! :)

[ak319]

Unveil

(Gp actress x fem reader)

(Scene# 01)

(your name is Fairoz in the story)

Aman Dagon, the enigmatic, handsome and alluring actress that everyone drooled on. Who wouldn't? Her tall height, black soft, silky hair that one desired to touch, including her co-stars but her cold and mysterious personality intimidated them not to. She was famous for her villain roles especially the ones in which she was in a historical drama playing a distraught, arcane yet passionate lover oh, and how can we forget her iconic mafia lady role. It was her debut role that caused the wave of enchantment among women and men. People also know about her softer side for the heroines as she always acted gentlewomanly around them. This caused her female fans to fall in love with her more. She was always surrounded by paparazzi and everyone wanted to know more about her personal life. Her family owned many different businesses which she also took care of when she was not busy doing movies or dramas.

People were more than shocked when they found out that she was engaged. It all started when a fan made a TikTok about a ring on her finger that seemed different from her usual style and that she began to wear on more than one occasion. The internet went wild and even though her PR team was ecstatic to see that, they were tired of seeing and trying to control baseless and atrocious articles. It was after a month that the team was finally instructed by Aman to confirm that she was engaged. Aman didn't have any socials, which had made her fans more agitated as they had little source material to do research from. People were already jealous at her wife and few were genuinely happy for her. Even her co-stars were shocked as Aman's behavior didn't give the slightest hint about her engagement.

The real truth was that this marriage was hell, to begin with.

(2 months ago)

"Aman ma'am -- what? I mean didn't we already decided the amount to be 5 million? How come you are changing this now?" The director, Usama looked at Aman stunned.

"Mhmm , so you are saying you can't do it? Is that it?" Her deep voice , although calm , still sent chills down Usama's back. Not to forget her father was quite influential in entertainment industry.

"I am - sorry but yes , the contract had been signed prior , you remember right?."

"Do you know I can buy this company of yours and actually don't want your money . I didn't have any interest in doing this movie too but .....I did not do it for money or any of your shit." Yes , this is how she talked when she was annoyed . Her die hard fans would refuse to believe that she can be this egoistic but she was , and she was good at hiding it as well.

"But you do know if I sue you for forging a fake contract and paying me less , you will loose everything ....not to mentions my fans , they will make sure you can't do shit after this. So , all of this can be avoided if you hand me over , oops , haha. I meant , give me the hand of that girl you brought on set one day to me in marriage."

Mr. Usama nearly fainted right there. The girl she just talked about was her niece who was still in college. He couldn't believe his ears. Marriage of Fairoz to a woman like her, this is ...a nightmare.

"Earth to my favorite director" Aman snapped her slender fingers in front of his face, startling him. " I know it's hard to digest. That's why I will give you some time to decide and discuss this with your family and by that I mean ......a date for our engagement pronto.."

"She is my niece and what you are asking for is---I am sorry but --not possible."

"Not possible? Mhm. it has been forever since I have heard that word. Or you can say I am not used to hearing it ." She paused to let out a sarcastic chuckle. " Let me give you even a better one, I hate when people say it to me." Making the man gulp with her slow steps cornering him, she continued "I don't get what is impossible about a marriage? Isn't that the best thing you can get in your whole life? Me as your niece's wife. Pft. Never knew you to be so ungrateful."

Usama pondered over her words . Maybe she is right. What if she is a bit arrogant , that is a pitfall of being in the industry. 90 percent of people Usama had worked with are like her. If only focusing on the pros momentarily , the proffer doesn't sound terrible. Especially in the long term. Fairoz , if this goes well , may live a fruitful life. Just like her parents wanted and if Aman is proposing herself that must mean that she likes his niece.

Heaving a breath in , the words "I'll have a talk with my family . Sure." flowed from his lips which made the taller woman smirk.

"I am looking forward to a cordial response." Usama very well knew that she definitely won't take anything other than a cordial answer anyways.

Little did Aman know that the girl she was probing after would change her life in ways she hadn't had the slightest inkling about.

Unveil part 2

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Comte’s Drama CD: Track One, Prologue

Since I got the Comte drama CD and there’s nobody around to stop me from inflicting that on everyone else, it’s time.

The premise of the entire recording is that MC and Comte spend a day together, so it’s basically Comte non-stop simping for nearly an hour. As you can imagine, I had an excellent time and I hope you will too.

I will say I did enjoy a few of the tracks more than others, only because he’s the most dramatic man alive and I love him. His head is empty and he’s the only one for me!!! More seriously though, there are also a lot of sweet moments that really speak to how vulnerable and real he is with her--and I’m always really drawn to that duality in him. Yes we all mask the true nature of who we are to a degree, but I think there is something to be said for the effort he makes to be honest with her; especially considering how deeply rooted that instinct to conceal is for him.

Without further ado, I will go through each track with little snippets of actual dialogue in the CD. Please note again, I am by no means a professional or a perfect translator; I’m just too obsessed to be stopped. 

The rest is under the cut to avoid spoilers, also because it’s long meta/squealing fest:

So the first track is called “Prologue” and as you can imagine it is exactly as it sounds. There really isn’t a whole lot to this one, as he basically recaps all the things we learn in his main story route. I do want to comment mostly on the beginning and the end of it though, since it’s exceedingly cute and makes me want to kiss him.

His spoken lines at the beginning are as follows:

So this is where you were. Were you looking at the moon from the balcony?

…Indeed, it’s true. It’s hard not to be captivated by such a beautiful crescent moon.

Usually it would be time to go to bed, but it’s such a lovely moonlit night. Let’s stay up a little late tonight.

We could have a glass of wine, or play a game? What would you prefer?

...huh? You want me to tell you a story?

Like. There are so many moving parts here, I don’t even know where to begin. The fact that he’s always seeking her presence (this can easily be corroborated by dozens of event stories). The way that he’s also drawn to the moon, the little silence there speaks to his thoughtfulness and musings of his own that are unknown to us. What does it evoke for him? Is he, too, reminded of the night they first met (hoping MC is thinking of the same)? Can you tell the thought alone is killing me?

The fact that he wants to spend that time with her, lingering beside her and unwilling to part. The way he always gives her a choice, always wants to know what she wants too. The audible surprise when he’s like ????? Storytime? And mind you I don’t think it’s because he thinks it’s immature, rather that he wasn’t expecting it. In a life surrounded by people--both purebloods and humans alike--that are entertained by so little, it’s heart-warming to be with someone who looks for something deeper, something closer to the soul. That, in a way, she’s asking for the gifts of his mind and voice, two things entirely unique to him.

I weep.

He goes on to say:

(his laughter SOBS) That’s a very sweet request…not at all, of course I don’t mind. 

I am neither a playwright, nor a novelist. I don’t know if I can tell a good story.

I hope I can fulfill my princess’ expectations.

…Hm, what should I talk about?

Well then…what about a man who lives forever?

So many things going on here, and no I will not remove my commentary because it’s essential to recreating the experience for the poor souls who will never hear the majesty of his seiyuu’s acting. Truly Horie-san exists to bring Comte to life and I hope he knows I owe him a blood debt.

ANYWHO so like. The way he’s delighted to indulge her (screaming and crying and throwing up why is he so cute??????). But not only that, the self-conscious bent of how he says “I don’t know if I can tell a good story.” I feel like it’s easy to forget that Comte is very much the type of person who prefers to blend into the background; he doesn’t seem to like or be in the habit of drawing a great deal of attention. He likes MC’s attention but I think that’s not really comparable, he’s very specific about who he shares himself with/seeks attention from.

Also I will say. I’ve never really been the type to like the term of endearment “princess” (he literally says hime in the CD) but. Because it is Comte and his adorable face that I want to squish between my hands, I will allow it. He’s a silly goose and he’s more than enough, I love him sm.

Following that he goes into his life up to that point, and because a lot of it is a bit repetitive I might leave bits and pieces out. I do want to highlight a few lines--mostly because they give insight into his character construction that might not have been as obvious in the main story.

A long time ago, so far away that even memories can grow dim…a man was born into a certain aristocratic family.

The family had a great secret. They weren’t human--they were pureblood vampires.

A person who was born with the promise of eternal life.

A person who had the capacity to pursue every pleasure in this world forever.

…But there are always two sides to everything.

…The endless life was, in other words, a prison made of time.

To have met and parted countless times with his loved ones,

The man’s chest ached with loneliness, overwrought by the emptiness.

He had no choice but to watch the world pass him by in endless hours.

I think there is. Something so haunted and fascinating in the words “But there are always two sides to everything.” Even more so because in his literal main story, he openly says “The brighter the light, the deeper the shadows”; always returning to this idea that all things in life are dual in nature. For all that you see one quality, the opposite exists as well. Interesting too because I feel like it explains a lot of his deep-seated anxieties about waiting for the other shoe to drop. Where love exists, loss exists as well. Where joy exists, so does pain. Where fulfillment is possible, so is emptiness. I think it makes a lot of sense that, when you live in an endless expanse of time, perhaps the scariest aspect of it is the constant fluctuation and change. Life is fun when things are going well, but what happens when the painful parts stretch so long? How do you cope?

Just things that keep me up at night yk.

I also think it’s fascinating the way he speaks about his immortality. In Leonardo, we see him address it as something that is monstrous and unnatural. He feels it is an abomination, something to be rectified or removed, almost. Comte doesn’t seem to share that view entirely. He says “He had no choice but to watch the world pass him by.” The removal of agency here is something that I want to highlight. Leonardo sees immortality and his identity as something that has to be reviled; there is a self-retaliatory nature to it in my view. Since he can’t fight against it, he fights against himself. Comte’s words speak more to dissociative terror; to force disconnection from your own body/mind because the pain of your entrapment or the threat to your life is so great. And tbh it’s brilliantly tied back to his lifestyle.

Comte uses the repercussions of his trauma two-fold. To seek out parties and novelties on one level expertly cloaks him in the mien of someone who is a devil-may-care product of overwhelmingly sustained privilege. But on another, I think it’s reasonable to argue that he seeks these things out with two other motives in mind; protection and grounding. He openly tells MC that his greater motive in attending parties is to seek out information to understand who to support on the world stage. This tells us that he does operate on a political level, if only to ensure the safety of his family--but I suspect it is also his way of moving the tides of fate around him in more benevolent directions. Furthermore, keeping himself engaged in something ensures that he is not left alone with his thoughts for too long and keeps him rooted in the present moment, something he also admits to struggling with. (And is a core feature of more extreme dissociation, the endless struggle to live in the present moment.)

I suppose I’m just incredibly interested in the way Leonardo regards himself with such self-hatred and revulsion, where Comte just seems so…removed. Not that Comte is empty of self-contempt, only that it does not feel quite as charged as Leonardo’s. I guess for me it more evokes the image of a child locking himself in a secret hideaway. Where Leonardo lashes out, Comte is the opposite; he retreats/hides. The only time he chooses to fight is when he’s protecting someone else (screams and cries, pls don’t get me started on his righteous fury I could go on for years, every time I remember Jeanne’s rt I’m 👌🏼 close to sobbing).

I also still don’t know how to reconcile the fact that his room is deadass filled with hourglasses (bruh), yet he says “…The endless life was, in other words, a prison made of time.” Like. Something something is his room considered the prison made of time ????? Because if that’s the case my god I’m throwing them all out. Then again it could be his attempt at controlling that which he fears, which I can respect considering I too delude myself into thinking I can control shit I can’t to face the impossibilities of the universe…

After that, Comte starts to explain the agreement he and Vlad made. Honestly it really is a summary for the most part, but there is a section I find worth discussing:

They wanted to create a person who would not die, and would continue to shine with their unique talents.

Without realizing how arrogant it was, they tried to find meaning in this life lived forever.

But…it didn’t go well.

Until there was a sizable rift between the old friends--and they parted ways.

They both loved humans, and worried about their future…they should have felt the same way.

…regardless, all that was left was a door that could cross time and space freely.

What I find interesting about all this is how Comte processes the conflict that transpired between them. Granted there is always the possibility that he’s not addressing everything he’s feeling (the man is REPRESSED) but there’s something that stands out to me when he says “they should have felt the same way.” I feel like when people have a fight with someone they tend to be pretty preoccupied that the other side was wrong; Vlad certainly is desperate to prove he was in the “right.” Comte doesn’t seem interested in that at all. He seems more confused, as if he simply doesn’t understand who Vlad is anymore. Like he doesn’t recognize the person who once cherished human life as much as he did (which I do have some contention with; I’m really not sure Vlad ever did love humanity the way Comte did. Perhaps Comte had believed it was so because he so deeply wished to have friend to comfort and understand him in his pain). I don’t think it’s that Vlad isn’t capable of caring about humans, more that--following the massacre of his clan at the very least--he has too great an interest in retaliation to be able to interact with them without power abuse happening.

I do say this fully understanding that Vlad probably saw some fked up shit, I’m just saying objectively the man sees humanity in an adversarial lens, an oppositional force. Comte tends to be more neutral/positive; he’s more interested in working to a common goal and identifies more closely with them psychologically speaking.

I also find it interesting he says their goal was “arrogant.” Recently I’ve been thinking about the complexities of arrogance. I think it can be easy to oversimplify it as shallow motives that are only focused on self-aggrandizement, but I think it can develop in even more complex situations--often with the best of intentions. I think Comte is trying to say that, while they wanted to preserve lives that were inspiring and uplifting to others, there is folly in the idea that only a few people can manage that. 

People and life in general are multi-faceted things; so many influences and variables act upon them. It is more sustainable to be a single unit of immovable, radical mindfulness and extend that outwards. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with people working together to achieve that goal, only that the responsibility for changing the world can’t fall on a handful of shoulders. It requires everyone to care and think more critically about their behavior, with the help of the people around them (ideally). There is arrogance in the belief that they had control over the fate of the world--an arrogance Vlad will not relinquish, one that continues to get him into trouble and lost him his oldest friend.

Aight and because that’s enough of my brainworms, this track ends with:

And the door brought another important encounter…that’s you. :> 

Now, you know what I mean, don’t you? That’s right…that’s the story until you and I met each other in our destiny. 

But that was only the beginning…now, we move forward together.

Our very sweet, and happy love story.

I just…………like I know I say it over and over again, but the way he just fills me to bursting with uwus. Another important encounter, a life-changing one for him…that a new story is being written, one that they get to write together. That “we move forward together” in a “very sweet, and happy love story.” It’s nearly like a fairy tale but somehow it doesn’t feel contrived or hokey when he says it, it just fills me with warmth. I think I just love that, for all his initial hesitations, he really doesn’t waver when he’s decided on something he wants. And if MC is willing to bet on him, he’s ready to up the ante.

All right well that about sums up track 1, next one to come is track 2! Enjoy these musings until then~

[littlemoonastrology]

All About: GEMINI ♊︎ - The Zodiac Signs

This post will cover all the basic information needed to understand Gemini, the third Zodiac Sign!

Take a look at my other posts to see information on: Aries and Taurus!

I bet you can't guess what Zodiac Sign is coming next... Maybe you can. If you still don't know it's Cancer, so keep a look out!

If you feel like this post has helped you feel free to Follow, Reblog or Repost (as long as I'm credited! I'm relatively new to Tumblr so I'm still learning about how all this works)!

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Gemini ♊︎

Date (Only applies to Sun Signs): May 21 - June 20

Symbol: ♊︎ - The Twins

Associated House: Third

Associated Degrees: 3°, 15°, 27°

Associated Energy: Masculine

Planetary Ruler(s): ☿ Mercury (Modern and Traditional)

Element: Air

Modality: Mutable

Keywords: Charismatic, Intelligent, Curious, Independent, Communicative, Multipassionate

Playful, fun, communicative and charismatic are all words that can be used to describe those with Gemini placements! This sign may be an intellectual and enjoys exploring different hobbies, interests, opinions for their own enjoyment (although there may be one or two things they have a natural affinity for), they're the multipassionates! This sign is insanely curious and always ready to learn more, although they may not do well in a structured environment and prefer to do things in their own way - going with the flow. A Gemini friend will appreciate those with a sharp mind and don't take things too seriously, will hear out their opinion and have interesting debates! If you have similar hobbies with a Gemini friend then the bond will only strengthen further as they are not the person to bond over small talk. These placements need mental stimulation and look for that in most if not all aspects of their life.

To some extent, a Gemini placement may have a knack for "smooth talking" and may beat around the bush in order to get a response or avoid aggression. Whilst Gemini does love speaking about different hobbies, controversial topics and the such they still deeply care about people's opinions of them whether they show it or not and do their best to stay out of drama (however this may not stop them from gossiping every now and then). A Gemini placement usually never has any kind of bad intent and if needed, they will care for their friends and can be pretty wise. (Some natives of this placement however may not care about other's opinions at all and are very stable in themselves, not really caring about getting in drama - they might actually find it fun).

When insecure, feeling stuck or stagnant a Gemini placement may become completely fixed on a goal or end up overindulging in something in unhealthy ways - maybe they have a tendency to become controlling or fall into some kind of addiction as a way of escapism. They may unintentionally start to depend on other people and can come across as clingy - maybe to some extent depending on people for their own self-worth which may hint towards codependency issues. In some cases, a Gemini may resort to manipulation and deception in order to get what they want.

A Gemini placement is at their peak when they are enjoying life, exploring their hobbies, talking to people but also when they are able to go by some kind of structure in order for them to stay committed... This sign's biggest lesson is to not stay in a stagnant energy, but also on the other side not become someone destructive (whether that's towards themselves or other aspects of their life).

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Notes/Keywords/Phrases

Zodiac Sign

Each of the Zodiac Signs are a constellation. The Zodiac Sign shows how a Planet/Asteroid/Fixed Point/House is being represented and expressed. Once a Planet/Asteroid/Fixed Point/House falls into a Zodiac Sign, it adopts the energy of it.

For example: if Mercury falls into the constellation Sagittarius, Mercury adopts Sagittarian traits. If the 6th House falls into the constellation Aquarius, the 6th House adopts Aquarian traits.

Associated House

The Houses in Astrology are dependent on the time and location of birth in a Natal Chart and there are 12 different ones. Each of these 12 Houses are then assigned to a Zodiac Sign and 1 or 2 Planetary Rulers. The Houses in Astrology show you what area of life the energy of the Zodiac and Planets/Asteroids/Fixed Points is appointed to and helps provide depth into the chart.

For example: Capricorn's Associated House is the 10th House.

Associated Degrees

When a Planet/Asteroid/Fixed Point/House falls into a Zodiac Sign constellation, it will be appointed a Degree. This Degree shows how far along the Planet/Asteroid/Fixed Point/House is in a Zodiac Sign. Each Degree is also associated with a Zodiac Sign, meaning when this Degree comes up it can nuance the way the Zodiac Sign of a Planet/Asteroid/Fixed Point/House is being represented.

For example: Mars is 6° in the Zodiac Cancer, 6° represents Virgo - therefore the Cancer Mars also takes on Virgo traits. The 2nd House is 23° in the Zodiac Scorpio, 23° represents Aquarius - therefore the 2nd House in Scorpio takes on Aquarian traits.

Planetary Ruler(s)

This phrase refers to the Planet(s) that rule a Zodiac Sign. When a Planet falls into the Zodiac Sign it has rulership over, the energy of both the Planet and the Zodiac Sign is amplified.

For example: Pisces' Planetary Ruler is Neptune.

Modern / Traditional

These words are associated with two kinds of Astrology: Modern Astrology and Traditional Astrology. Traditional Astrology refers to Astrology that was practiced before the 19th century, whilst Modern Astrology refers to Astrology that is practiced now. Some people choose to practice Traditional Astrology, some people choose to practice Modern Astrology, whilst some others might practice both types or combine them together.

Element

Each Zodiac Sign/Planet/House/Degree is associated with an Element and this covers certain traits which are unique to the Zodiac Sign/Planet/House/Degree they correspond to.

These Elements are: Fire, Air, Water and Earth.

Modality

Much like an Element, each Zodiac Sign/Planet/House/Degree is associated with a Modality. The Modality describes what the focus of a placement is and how the energy is expressed.

There are 3 different Modalities: Cardinal, Mutable and Fixed.

[wildpeachfarm]

I’m coming here to say this with no hard feelings and as someone who has had an active inbox at times. With peace and love, I do see where some of the criticism you receive comes from. At the end of the day, social media isn’t real and none of it really matters. But I do get where people are coming from sometimes. The “unspoken DTblr rule” for ask boxes is just that people only really post about discourse a ton when it’s actively happening. So yeah, when the gituation was going on it made sense that people in your inbox wanted to talk about that! It was happening in real time and anons who lurk like having a place to vent about things going on. But with running an inbox people usually. Don’t post everything they get. Because it’s best to not in order to effectively steer the conversation, if that makes sense? And eventually, with doing that, ask blogs will typically redirect the conversation in whatever way they can and just not post about discourse as much when it’s not currently ongoing, even if they’re still getting occasional asks about it. And the thing about running an inbox is anons will flock to talking about whatever you post. So if you keep posting asks about discourse nonstop, it creates this endless miserable cycle where it’s all anons want to talk about. And it does get annoying. And honestly, saying this as someone who has gone through it, it eventually is hard on you whether you realize it or not. There have definitely been times where I reflected back on when I was allowing discourse in my inbox all the time and been like Damn, I was actually really miserable doing that. It just becomes pointless and exhausting to rehash the same conversations about discourse every single day. Especially when nothing new related to the discourse being discussed has happened, like anything related to Hannah or Caiti or Connor or anybody else. So I guess that’s just really my “tip” for running an inbox that I’m hoping you don’t take offense to and that I’m trying to send in the least confrontational way possible. Engaging in the same discourse endlessly just becomes redundant and tiring for everybody involved, whether you have a tag people can mute or not. The “unspoken rules” of DTblr are just. Actively trying to not enable negativity or post things that might cause drama when you run an active inbox. So when someone comes in who isn’t familiar with running an inbox and does those things, it disturbs how things are and people get upset. I hope you can internalize this even just a little bit and maybe see why people react how they do when it’s coming in a way that isn’t meant to attack you. Much love xx

ok first off I'm pretty sure I know who sent this and I do appreciate it! I will say though that I don't really understand how I am singlehandedly "displacing the dtblr delicate balance" by posting asks with a mutable discourse tag and not even really tagging them besides that? I feel like that is an easily avoidable thing. I understand that people don't wanna hear about it all the time and i DO keep a ton of asks unanswered and just simply stop responding to certain topics when I am done with them.

Not sure where people get the idea that I post everything because I definitely don't haha

But if that was an issue and people want to stop hearing about it, I'd rather they just come into my inbox politely and tell me that (like you are doing) rather than vague about me or send me horrible anons or something because it definitely seems like attacking.

I will be careful about not bringing up old stuff as much since it clearly is bothering people a lot though

[autumn-foxfire]

The Spider Mansion Case! Probably one of the more sadder cases around due to why it happened T-T

Heiji, do you like Kazuha? Why are you angry she wants to spend time with you?

Shinichi is so going to be used to sitting on people's laps when he's got his original body back. He's going to climb into a car and try and sit on people's laps and won't even realise it's wrong. Kaito would enjoy it though XD Also being held around the waist by people.

I know they're whispering and people won't actually hear them but due to the fact that they keep the volume at the same level as normal speaking, it's quite funny to imagine everyone hearing the head of the house say that they might be the ones who murdered the brother.

Having no social skills is a detective thing, it seems XD

"The kid is jealous," Or maybe, Kazuha, you are in a new place and there have been mutliple deaths that you've been sent to investigate so giving her a phone would actually be a smart idea. Gosho, do you not know how humans work? I'm genuinely asking? Shinichi doesn't have to get jealous over everything. I'd say have you not heard a thing about trust but we know Shinichi doesn't trust Ran <.<

Let's have the teenager use the axe to open the door!

Hey, better assistant than a hindrance Shinichi!

A murderer is loose in the mansion! What better thing to do than look for something you've lost! Ran and Kazuha aren't stupid, Gosho, so why are you making them stupid. Oh, because Shinichi bought it her <.< Of course.

PLEASE DO TAKE HER AWAY FROM SHINICHI, KAZUHA. SHE REALLY NEEDS TO BE AND GIVEN A NICE RELATIONSHIP WITH A PERSON WHO ACTUALLY TRUSTS HER. PREFERABLY WITH A WOMEN BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW THAT'S WHAT SHE ACTUALLY LIKES.

Also stupid shit like this wouldn't happen <.<

A murder is loose and we don't know who it is! Lets just leave my friend alone in the rain! Nothing bad can happen!

Shinichi has such sharp hearing, it's so weird they also want him to be tone deaf too. They are so inconsistent with this. He knows music until he doesn't! He's tone deaf but he's also got the sharpest hearing out of he cast! Just say he can't sing Gosho (A gag we know was born because Conan is voiced by a singer).

Also, Ran, why didn't you INFORM ANYONE, instead of crying in the goddamn garage. I usually avoid insulting Ran but she was so stupid it genuinely pisses me off. She did get into this horrible situation but it wasn't just your fault Ran, Kazuha was just as fucking stupid and I am angry about it. Let's dumb down the girls so the boys can be affected by there terrible decisions for drama! The misogyny is so goddamn blatant it makes me furious.

Boys, this is called sexual assault. I don't care if it's for evidence, you don't just try and strip a person like that. It's not funny either Gosho (sorry I'm already in a mood due to the previous writing in this case).

To amuse myself, I love it when they cut to Conan talking in Kogoro's voice and this grizzled voice comes out of a seven year old. Yes, he's been smoking since he was born. His father taught him in Hawaii.

"Unusually upset," no, Shinichi, people can be close to their nieces and nephews and will burst into tears at funerals. That's kind of normal.

Well, that mother has egg on her face, doesn't she.

Shinichi not wanting Heiji to tell Robert the truth due to the man's own fragile sense of mind... Knowing that it could lead to a situation that would end in his death, but Heiji being too mad at his lack of care towards others making him say it... While they are similar, they are different too.

[shingekinomyfeelings]

On a related note, and I really can't stress this enough -

If I or my posts have an overall tendency to make you uncomfortable or unhappy, it's okay to unfollow me! You should!

You absolutely do not need to keep me as a mutual purely to spare my feelings or avoid drama. Ever.

Even if it does hurt my feelings for a bit, it's honestly far preferable to me than the thought of believing that people are interested in what I have to say but secretly don't like or want it.

Truthfully, the social media desire to keep people on your "friend list" when you don't actually want to hear from or interact with them is the kind of insincerity I really can't stand. You don't have to 'keep up appearances' or whatever. If you feel like you have to soft block me but keep me as a mutual, I urge you to actually just unfollow. Yes, even if we're long-time mutuals. Free yourself, seriously.

I assure you that even if I feel a bit hurt, I'm never going to contact you to ask WHY you unfollowed me. At the most I'll probably be sad for a bit, probably unfollow you as well, and then resume tumblring as usual. It's okay.

I feel like I just want people to be happy ultimately, and if I make you unhappy, you can talk to me about it if you think it's worth it, or you can walk away, you know?

Moreover, for my own personal happiness, I would rather be lonely/alone than be in the company of anyone who doesn't want my company. That will never, ever change.

[veritasss5]

About my tarot readings♡

I am 100% honest with my readings, I never sugar coat anything for the sake of “love and light” type of reading. I want my readings to be different from the usual tarot readers that are overly positive and have no useful advice for you to change. This blog is made for me to learn to step out of my comfort zone and try to read as many topics as I can so I can earn more experience.

This blog is made for helping me to learn to have firm boundaries with people.

My blog works like this:

You get free reading from me and give me the feedback requested, and I learn how to properly settle boundaries and shape my style of reading.

This is a fair exchange.

ꕥ What is my style of reading?

◦•◦❥•◦ I may not be the longest tarot reader that you encounter but I hope I can bring as much information as I can without getting too much in depth. The reason why I am not doing long readings is because they are extremely time and energy consuming, and my physical body can’t take it if I have to give free long tarot readings for everyone.

◦•◦❥•◦ Short, straightforward and hopefully useful advices that can let you realise what you need to work and reflect. No “Universe” or “higher energies wants to let you know..” type of reading. Not my cup of tea. I want to talk to you with 100% honesty without spreading false hope and full of positivity bullshit. If I have to call you out in the reading I will.

ꕥ How do I read tarot?

◦•◦❥•◦ I prefer reading your actual situation and give you advice about how to improve your life right now. As you know I don’t do future readings for the reason that I don’t want to sell you something that is easily changeable in just the second that you decide to fully commit yourself and change the outcome of the reading.

◦•◦❥•◦ I channel the energy of the card. Sometimes in just one card I have a lot to say and sometimes I can say only a few words and have nothing to channel for you. I read based on the art and feelings that the card is currently giving me. I don’t go by the traditional meanings of the cards. In short: I read using my intuition.

ꕥ What is my take on love readings?

◦•◦❥•◦ I have nothing against them, but it is not my preferred type of questions that I want to read. In the past I read for other people these questions but I learned that it is very useless to ask if someone loves you if you don’t love yourself. I saw so many people put their partner on the pedestal instead of treating themselves the way they should be, which is loving themselves. I want to teach people that I read that they should be the one to put themselves on the pedestal, not their crush, love partner, friend with benefits, etc.

◦•◦❥•◦ About future spouse: let me be harsh here but if you are toxic and negative how do you expect your future spouse to love you? Even if you manage to meet them, how about the meaningless drama that you are about to create with them? Future spouse shouldn’t be your main concern here. You will be unhappy and unsatisfied with them as well if you don’t feel fulfilled and happy with yourself.

◦•◦❥•◦ Sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t. Please read the rules if I do or not. I am not a main love tarot reader. Also if you ask them, be ready to be called out and receive an answer that you don’t want to hear. I am not sugar coating the reading for you.

ꕥ What is my take on future readings?

◦•◦❥•◦ They may give you an hypothetical outcome but they are not set in the stone. Shouldn’t be your main concern as well if you know what you are supposed to do. I understand you feel lost about your future, I think the most real advice that I can give you is working on your self concept and belief system. Real life progress comes from you and not waiting for external circumstances to change.

◦•◦❥•◦ I can do them but I avoid to do them because they can be like something addictive. Outcomes can be easily changed because they are based on your current mental state. I already experimented about how easily it can be changed based on changing my current actions and thoughts. If you are easily impressionable, I don’t recommend them.

If you have any other questions about tarot or clarification about how I read, your question are all welcome in my ask box♥️

[fvirytips]

What to do when people are gossiping

(how to make them stop, what to say, xtra!)

ahh gossiping. how I loved it. Notice how I said loved? yeah, gossiping is terrible! it spreads lies, makes people feel bad, and also makes you feel bad afterwards. It has literally 0 good effects.

Proverbs 11:13- Gossip betrays confidence, but a trustworthy person keeps a secret.

excuses!

Of course, it's a sin to lie. So we can't just make up a lie to get away. Instead, we can be telling the truth, and avoid this horrid sin!

There are 3 ways:

Change the subject

Q) "Did you hear about ____'s Mom?"

A) "No, please tell me later! and do you want to get lunch"

Q) "Isn't ____ so annoying?"

A) "Eh, I don't really talk to them, but shouldn't we go to our next class?"

Q) "Look at ____"s hair!"

A) "Wow.. oh, and do you wanna walk around a bit?"

See! So simple! Just say a word such as "Oh" or "Wow" or anyhting else that doesn't agree or disagree. Then change the subject to something you usually talk about.

"Confront"

In quotations marks because your not actually confronting them, more like showing them that their on the wrong.

Q) "Woah.. isn't ____ so ugly?"

A) "Well, we are just teens so you know, we're still developing and stuff.."

Q) "Did you hear that ____ is ____?"

A) "No.. and I thought you didn't like them, why are we talking about them.."

Q) "Ugh! I hate ____"

A) "Yeah she can sometimes be rude, but I don't think she means it, maybe we should just tell her?"

This one's risky, and you'll probably have to adjust it depending on your friends personality, but if they keep on gossiping. especially negatively, then it's best not to be friends

Ignore/Divert

Q)"Omg did you see ____?"

A) "Let's get lunch, the queue is short!"

Q) "Did you hear about ____?"

A) "No, I don't get into drama and stuff.."

Q) "Urgh.. I hate ____!"

A) "Isn't the sky so pretty today?"

These are my techniques to stop being a gossip! But how do we stop our friends from doing it?

Tell them it's wrong, and that imagine if they were in their shoes. You don't have to perform a Maryin Luther King Jr (love that guy) type of speech! Just drop it into conversation:

"Hey, you know how we always talk about ____, well, it's old news now, plus we should be planning for the summer!"

Or you just don't engage in it! If the gossip is really bad, get out of there!! Don't get tempted by its pretty face. It's all lies. Lies and deceit!

TL:DR- DONT GOSSIPP! Just ignore, confront, or change the subject! Remember that we aren't living for this stinky world 🤢 we are living for God, our Spirit, our Svaiour and Heaven!

Amen!

[thisweekinfandomhistory]

thanks for all your work on the pod, it's so lovely to hear you all talk about fandom history, as fans.

a convo with someone non-fannish last night (about the history of otw) made me realize how hard it can be for non-fans to move beyond their preconceived ideas of fandom so as to even entertain the possibility that we can learn something from a fannish bit of history... that some things that fan communities have worked for or meaningfully struggled with are also broad cultural and societal issues (like control over content on an internet of privately owned servers), and just like most other instances of struggle, there's something to be learned. it's not aaaall just idk horny top bottom sock puppet bnf drama. im not trying to put fandom on an unwarranted pedestal for it's masterful handling of any social or cultural anything. i just appreciate where y'all are coming from and the convo you're trying to have

umm this is mainly fanmail/rant, but uh an asky bit: it'd be cool if y'all eventually featured perspectives from other geographies or lived exp - do you think that's in the cards?

Thank you for writing! Yes, we totally think that fandom history is real history -- it's material history, it's pop culture history, it's women's history, it's queer history, it's folk history, and it's a history of the internet. It's important commentary on evolving ideas of social justice, sexuality and sexual mores, and whether there were enough beds!

Fandom isn't perfect, nor is it a perfect sample set for a study on any of those things, but it IS an important and thriving subculture that deserves to be taken seriously. We're nerds, but we're not nothing! :P

And even the instances of crazy wank are important for what they have to say about other areas of life, and that's usually WHY the wank gets/got so crazy -- it's not actually about a Hamilton cannibal mermaid fic, it's about the idea of who has the right to tell which stories at that moment in the mid-2010s and the limitations of online anonymity. You know? (But of course, it was also about a Hamilton cannibal mermaid fic.)

As for your question: the current answer is that we'd love to start to incorporate that, but we haven't decided how yet. We don't want it to accidentally turn into a situation of like, "Hey, person of color, do a bunch of triggering research and then come educate the white folks about Racefail '09," because that's not right or fair. It's using people of color (for example) as a way to avoid having to face uncomfortable truths about fannish culture and history, and that's the opposite of what we want to be doing. People of marginalizations we don't share don't exist to educate us about their own innate humanity, yk?

At the same time, we understand that we're not necessarily the right people to make commentary on some events, or that our perspectives are necessarily limited on those events. So we would love to start working with guests or primary source interviews, even, at some point! But we haven't decided the best way to do that.

If you have any ideas, let us know! Thank you again for writing, we get so excited whenever we have an Ask! :D

[shdwtouch]

🔥

Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion. || accepting !

okay. this is one of those things that, surface level, I am okay with. but the more I think about it ? the more ???? I get lmao and that thing is DNIs

like. fandoms, age range, etc ? that all makes sense to me. I feel like those are fair boundaries we experience in our every day life. but then its like. DNI if you follow / interact with xyz. and I'm just ???? (AS A NOTE: set and communicate your boundaries, please ! this is incredibly valid and not what I'm frustrated with. make no mistake, your boundaries SHOULD be respected, no matter what. I just have a lot of mixed feelings about DNIs that involve specific individuals.)

I keep rewriting my thoughts cuz I know this is going to be... a controversial topic. and I think the issue arises when it becomes a "me or them" situation. its an ultimatum, you can either interact with me OR them, not both. and I'm just... I guess I don't understand the thought process for people ? like ? I'm not that person, and most likely I only know / follow them in passing, so... why am I a problem ? why am I the point of contention in your dislike of another individual, you know ?

I have folks blocked. I even blacklist their URLs. but, in general I don't think I would judge someone based on their association with another person. I mean, depending on what that other person did. (lets use tr*mp as an example. I would v much judge someone who supports him.) like. there are plenty of people on this site that I do not like. but unless someone is blatantly on me, talking about those people, interacting with them in a way that makes me feel unsafe... I'm not going to avoid them just cuz they are associating with people I don't like ? just blindly being like me or them doesn't make sense to me at all. you are actually assuming the character of people based on who they choose to interact with !

and its also like. there are receipts. usually, if someone is in a DNI its cuz they've had a callout written on them. at that point, you take what you are given / know and make the best judgement you can. but in the case of "DNI if you interact with random joe blog #45" and then you don't say why its like... ? what is the problem here ?

also like. please. do not say you are willing to discuss / disclose why someone is in your DNI unless you are actually of a mental state to do so. the amount of times I've gone to folks like hey I noticed you added this person to your DNI and that folks can ask you about it ? and asked genuine questions, only to have them be upset talking about it or even upset with me for asking questions like... please. take care of yourself. you don't need to explain yourself to anyone, but similarly you need to be prepared for people to be like ???? in that case. if you offer explanations then I will ask until I am satisfied, and maybe that isn't a good way to approach it... but you also just can't expect people to take you at your word, even with receipts. there are two sides to every story, and in my experience... most personal DNIs, I'm sorry, but they're all based on petty drama, misunderstandings, etc.

I'm losing steam so I feel like I'm not making very clear points, I apologize. at the end of the day, I'm just ??? at DNIs. I will respect yours, but I will also be like ??????? and want explanations if you're willing to supply. I hope that what I've written isn't complete nonsense lmao but like I said. tl;dr I'm just ???? at DNIs

ALSO I JUST WANT TO ADD: I am so, so, so open to hearing folks thoughts (as long as they are politely presented uwu), especially those who employ DNIs including specific people ! like, why do you employ them ? what is your thought process ? I am genuinely curious to what your experience is ! and I think it would help me sort out the mixed feelings I have, cuz (again, two sides to every story) I only have my perspective, which doesn't have the need to use DNIs. like, I imagine for some folks it really is a matter of escaping abusers, stalkers, etc and seeing those names can be triggering. so yeah, I'm open to hearing your perspective !

and again, reiterating. set and communicate your boundaries, and put your foot down when they are crossed. that is not what I am criticizing, and I do my utmost to respect the DNIs of those I follow <3 even if your boundaries don't make sense to me they are still valid and deserve to be respected !! that is not up for debate.

[atalossofwords]

YOU TASTE THE SILVER - IvanTill WIP (Part 10)

Here is the last POV of this chapter! Ends in a little bit of a cliffhanger, and I'm still unsure if I should add some more to it when I post on AO3... I had to rewrite this POV so many times, I ended up using some stuff people have sent asks about in the past! I hope everyone will like it.

I know I want to write an "extra" Mizi POV about what happens in the end, so if you guys here on tumblr want some more development so the chapter doesn't end in a cliffhanger, let me know and I'dd add to it when I post on AO3!

ON AO3 - part one - part two - part three - part four - part five&six - part seven - part eight - part nine

Ivan's life is going so well he's halfway worried about when the other shoe is about to drop.

He's wrapped up the recording for his latest movie, and already has something else lined up that only starts filming in about two months; the drama in question doesn't require any physical conditioning besides his usual routine, so all he's doing is reading the script, texting the director and studying for the role.

Outside the occasional interview and modeling gigs, he's practically on vacation.

Which means he has more than enough time to think, which he does try to avoid at the best of times. Ivan's brain likes to come up with a frankly absurd amount of shit for him to mull over and have nightmares about; he much prefers working until he can't anymore, thank you very much.

He gets a reprise from his brain telling him that he should definitely stick his hand on the blender while he makes a smoothie by Till's texts, which brightens his day. Till and him have been texting more, which delights him beyond words; at first Ivan though things would slow down after Till talked about the concert, but somehow they started texting more. Till seemed to enjoy telling Ivan things, they got along.

Till also now knew who he was, which was a thrill all on itself, but also filled Ivan with anxiety. He wanted to hear what Till though of his acting, in detail, but he didn't want to sound desperate. Also, last time Ivan asked for detailed critique, Till asked if Ivan had a crush on Ivan-the-actor, which was ironic on so many levels Ivan shut up about it for two days straight.

Ivan even went and asked Mizi to teach him how to do aegyo, which she was delighted to do. Sua laughed on his face and fake-vomited about seven times over the course of the evening, only slightly mollified because Ivan had bought a bottle of brandy as a bribe.

(They spent the evening like that; drinking hot chocolate with brandy, laughing and doing silly faces and poses at each other. No cameras, no managers, just the three of them laying on the couch, piled together as they played videos of other celebrities and ranked how cringe their aegyo was.

He watched as Sua and Mizi made doe-eyes at each other, holding hands and kissing cheeks, free to act as they'd like outside the spotlight. They loved each other, and it made Ivan so happy, and also filled him with so much longing his chest hurt.)

He goes back to his apartment, alone, and he knows, he knows it's not normal that his first instinct is to put one of Till's VODs on. He knows it's actually a little bit pathetic, but... who he's going to talk to? His sister? The only other person he's mildly close to is Luka, who works on the same agency as him.

He thinks he might need a therapist, but he knows the scandal that will come if it ever gets out that a famous actor needs therapy, nevermind what his father will say.

Ivan sighs, putting on some other documentary and thinks on what to do. He's still a little buzzed, so reading his script is a no-go. He checks his phone, and his last message is to Till, wishing him good luck since Till said he'd be cooking for his brother and his boyfriend today.

He opens his naver app and ends up on his shopping cart for one of his newest sprees; it's full of soft pillows, throw blankets and even a weighted one. Ivan's has been spending so much time on his house he's decided to go on a spree and buy a mountain of soft things for his living room.

(Because Till likes soft things.)

Ivan frowns. He's had too much time alone this past week, and with his brain free of work to focus on, he's had to actually... think about everything he's doing. About his last movies, about his habits, about what he's eating, about his relationship to Sua, about his dad, about his empty house, about his clothes, about his lack of hobbies...

And about what he's doing with Till.

He had... no problem just sending money to an artist he supported, and had 0 worries about sending him the gifts. The anonymity of the internet gave him some... distance, he supposes. He can put Till on this sort of pedestal, and watch his streams in peace and also jerk off without worrying, because Till doesn't know him.

But now he has all these pictures of Till doing everything from setting up his new keyboard (that Ivan bought) to sleepily giving the camera a thumbs up as he gets ready to buy breakfast (that Ivan paid for).

Now Till is a person, and they talk, and... Ivan doesn't know how to feel about it.

(He's lying, he knows how to feel about it; guilty.

He remembers his father, so so much bigger than Ivan, yelling about how he paid for Ivan's food, his housing, his school, his clothes. How Ivan owned everything he had to him, and so he should just shut up, go to the studio, and use his pretty face to make the man some money back.

He remembers Sua's mom barging into the house to scream some more with their Father, about how dare he put so little money on her card, does he want the media to know about his affair?. Ivan knew to run to the kitchen and squirrel away any packaged food he could, because for the foreseeable future he wouldn't be getting any decent meals, his allocated "food money" going to covering up his whole existence from the media.)

He's pulled away from his thoughs by a text from Sua.

WITCH [ 11:55pm ] Ivan-ah, can you talk

Ivan frowns. He left their house... – he has to check the watch, four hours ago, shit, he needs dinner – ... four hours ago, which means she almost certainly doesn't have anything important to tell him.

You [ 11:55pm ] what is it

WITCH [ 11:56pm ] Is that how you speak with your noona?? Be more respectful. Anyway, Mizi just thought about it after you left, so she asked me to ask you. Do you think it would be a good idea, if she contacted Till for a collab? She's really been humming that one song, and wanted to see if he'd want to be with her on a cover.

Ivan's breaths catches.

Mizi making an official cover of 'Till The World Ends would possibly drive Till insane. He already likes her so much, coming into the studio to actually work with her, outside the lights of the cameras? He'd be head-over-heels.

He feels a little sick, over the possibility that Mizi will spend time with Till, that they will get along and have fun together. Then he feels sick over that though, because what the hell?? Ivan is not Till's keeper. Till doesn't owe anything to Ivan, not his time or friendship or any kind of relationship.

Ivan will not be like his father. He likes spending money on Till, and making Till happy. Till doesn't need to pay Ivan back in any way. He just wants to make Till happy.

He keeps repeating that in his head as he answers.

You [ 01:02am ] I think its a great idea. Here, Till has an official email for sponsors and stuff, Mizi should get her manager to send the details over.

He sends the email, closes his phone, and goes to the gym. He feels bad over it all, and worse because he feels bad. He knows his brain won't shut up for the foreseeable future, so he might as well tire himself enough he can get some sleep.

Over the next few days, Mizi updates him on the ongoings of the cover under the impression that he'll want to know anything that has Till's name on it. He does not tell her to stop.

(He does, however, step back on his frequent messaging and donating. He feels bad about it, but he doesn't want to distract Till, or accidentally hint at something, so he's re-using some old pictures he took on a job last year to show Till that he's currently on Japan for a job.)

Till, surprisingly, doesn't comment on anything, even if he's clearly exited about something. Even normal chatters are picking up on it.

> fiieldofroses: till, you look so happy today! did anything happen? > TillStepOnMe: oooh please god let it be a photoshoot > woonie: @Till's Merch Overlord insider info?? > Till's Merch Overlord: no comment

Ivan just so happens to know there is new merch coming; it just isn't being made by Till's usual artist, but by Mizi's team. As far as he knows, theres a keychain and a t-shirt with the cover's art on it.

On-screen, Till shakes his head.

"There is something new coming out soon, but I'm still working on it, so I don't have any sneak-peeks for you guys, sorry."

> KIRBY ☑ : that's fine oppa, take your time! > LUKAmysavior: crossing my fingers for a new single > bulletcase: ok y'all what are the guesses > hyunhyun-ssi: maybe a new tattoo?? > TillStepOnMe: IF IT'S A NEW TATTOO I WILL SIMPLY KMS

Ivan shakes his head, amused. It'll definitely be a surprise, but probably nothing they can guess at. It really is such a step-up opportunity for Till.

> NAVI (TILL'S ATM) DONATED $50: I hope Hyung has a good time with whatever it is!

There, that's not suspicious or leading, and still shows Till and his usual chatters that Ivan is being his normal, simp self.

(Ivan ignores the heat that rises on his stomach at Till's smile when he reads the donation, a smile that's entirely too fond, and personal, and for Ivan. He has to bite his lip to contain himself, god he loves him so much.)

"I'm having a good time, definitely. I think you guys will really like it!"

The following weeks are... weird. Ivan keeps getting updates from Mizi, spends far too much time with his own thoughts since he's trying to dial back his Till-texting habits, and binges maybe all documentaries about deep-sea animals he's been able to find. Seriously. He broaden up to deep-sea ecosystems, which he's not so sure how he feels about yet.

Luckily, his agent notices how unsettled he is and books him a new commercial for a clothing brand – where he can train his aegyo! He can't wait for it to hit the TVs to see what Till has to say – so he's slowly getting back to a stable mental state.

(Meaning, he's working enough that his brain stopped calling him a disgusting stalker and an excuse of a person for being sad because Till will meet Mizi.)

That is, until Mizi messages him one morning saying she's heading to the studio for their first recording, and does he know what Till likes to drink?

Of course he does, Till likes a Caramel Frappucino, whole milk, added chai, white chocolate mocha sauce and chocolate malt powder. He also likes the choc chips cookies.

Mizi thanks him, sends a selfie with Till's order as well as her own (iced peach green tea with strawberry puree) and a kissy face.

He gets no message from Till.

He goes about his day, does a photoshoot, and doesn't get any new notifications until Till sends him a message.

MY UNIVERSE 💖 [ 07:44pm ] Can I call you? We need to talk.

part 11

[andtheghost]

02/08/24 - The Tick and Hurricane Feels

I knew a woman once. She was SUPER ANNOYING at first, then turned into a manipulative bitch if she didn’t get her way. Let’s call her The Tick.

The thing is that The Tick just wanted people to like her. And no one did, for obvious reasons. She tried to find the thing you had in common, and would act like it was so so so important to her to get people’s attention. And when she realized it wasn’t going to make you her BFF, she turned into a mega bitch.

She liked to start shit for no reason, cause drama where there was none, and as one of our co-workers said “she’s good at getting under your skin. It’s a gift.” This was of course before he found out first hand how good she was at her GIFT.

This guy was like some kind of hippie zen master. He smoked blunts on every break and was like “if they fire me, they fire me, everything will work itself out.” And one day he comes out of the building nearly taking the door off its hinges, yelling that he’s THIS CLOSE!!!!! to quitting. Because of The Tick.

I have a rule when it comes to people: I treat everyone the same. I try, anyway. Sometimes I meet people I’m just not comfortable with, and I tend to get abnormally awkward with them. Sometimes there’s no obvious reason they make me uncomfortable. And sometimes I meet people who I am comfortable with almost immediately. These people are exceptionally rare. Most of the time, I meet someone, and I’m just inherently neutral to their existence.

But even if I don’t like you, I try to be civil, and as long as you’re willing to get along with me, we’re going to get along.

So I usually got along with The Tick. Even after she started shit with me, I could move on and get along because that’s what I do. Honestly, I tried my best to avoid her, but when I couldn’t, I was civil. Mostly.

There was a very specific incident. There were three of us working together, and we were having a conversation about something. I don’t even remember exactly what the conversation was about, except that it definitely had to do with the Scary Scary Virus, which will remain unnamed. I disagreed with whatever she was saying, and the disagreement turned into an argument, because of course it did. Eventually she calls me a psycho and decides that she’s going to stop talking to me, and turns a full 90 degrees to make it very clear that she is ONLY talking to the other person. Like a child. Which was fine. I’m actually okay with working in silence. A lot of the time I even prefer it.

Anyway, it goes like this for a few minutes. And then she starts talking about how SOME PEOPLE are just psychos. Keep in mind this is not a quiet work place. There is a radio playing, machines running, people walking by regularly, fork lifts, we’re all wearing earplugs. It’s not hard to have a private conversation with someone while someone else is standing a few feet away, let alone at the other end of a line. It just so happens the person she was talking to was right next to her and I was at the end of the line unloading the machine. It would actually be harder to get me to hear what you’re saying at the loading end of the line than to have a private conversation with the other loader. And yet she’s down there practically screaming despite the fact that she was just DONE talking to me.

Like I said, like a child.

It didn’t even bother me at first. I knew what she was doing. I wasn’t going to let it get to me, because that means she wins. But after a while it did start to bother me. And then the irritation started to build. I don’t remember what she was even talking about anymore when she finally set me off. I just know I heard the word psycho for the twentieth time in the last ten minutes.

There’s a really good chance she had completely stopped talking about me and was just shouting the word psycho because she knew I was going to make the connection to the one time she called me a psycho, so when I finally snapped, which I did, she could say it was completely unprompted and obviously I’m dangerous and unstable and whatever else.

And it worked beautifully. I KNEW what she was doing, and it STILL WORKED.

I slammed the box I was holding down and stormed up to her end of the line, yelled “do you want to see psycho? Go ahead and keep talking, see what happens.” If the fact that she actually looked scared and took a few steps back gave me the sick sort of happies, well, okay. It was probably a good thing for my pride that I scared her. If she had decided to do anything about it, that outburst would have been incredibly embarrassing when I immediately backed down.

The thing is that I’m a logical person. I own that part of me. I nurture and praise and show off that part of me. It’s my favorite part of me, the one I find the most value in.

But I’m also an emotional person. And I HATE IT. Emotions don’t make sense and they’re messy and disruptive and I talk about how people act like robots, and how unhealthy and dishonest it is but I want to be a robot myself.

But also I really don’t want to be a robot at all. I just want to know how to handle the emotions. It’s like they just explode and rip through me and sometimes there is actual physical pain and people talk about how “it hurts” but it’s not supposed to ACTUALLY hurt, right? It’s too much and the only way I know to deal with it is shove it back down, but I can’t seem to do that anymore.

[alyjojo]

The Person On Your Mind in September 🫏 2023 - Capricorn

Whole of their energy towards Capricorn: Death

You already know this is over with, so do they. This person cheated on you, or with you, they see you as Queen of Wands or potentially “the lover”. Either they stopped talking to you to work things out with a Queen of Cups, or they may have been cheating and left altogether. It’s possible this is switched too, someone chested and then left, I just can’t tell who came first. Queen of Wands is usually the lover of any sign in a 3rd party reading like this.

Feelings: Queen of Wands

Cut and dry, either you are the lover and they’ve left this connection behind, because they didn’t want to make it official and leave the other person - or you two have split up 10 Pentacles because they were fking around behind your back. Could be work too, if they cheated with/on you at work. If this lover is not you, Page of Cups is very new, flirty energy, and The Devil is obsession, lust. I don’t think it went very far with a Page, but they have messages on their side so you’ve found something.

Intentions: Page of Swords

They want to tell you the truth about the how’s and whys everything became what it was, why they felt like they had to leave, or they want an explanation from you if this is all switched. In their head, they want to make things right, even if it’s admitting they’re wrong. Or that’s you.

Actions: 7 Swords

In action, they’re avoiding you like the plague, they can’t think of the right thing to say, and apologizing “isn’t right” because they’re not actually sorry. They weren’t happy, they were flirty or someone else was, and they wanted to give that connection a try. The Tower is something they’re aware they’ve caused you, they don’t want to answer for it, and don’t want to fake it for the sake of telling you what you want to hear. Or that’s all switched. Even the messages have you both moving on. Do they feel bad? No, but maybe it’s “how” something was done, could’ve been better in their mind. Or yours.

Messages:

Their side:

- Adrenaline Junkie

- Sneaky Messages

- Going in different directions

Your side:

- Shy 🙈

- Moving out, Moving on

- Leave them on READ

Possible signs:

Capricorn, Gemini, Aquarius, Scorpio, Pisces & Virgo

If you’re dealing with:

Strength, 7 Swords, 7 Wands show you keeping your composure around other people who are probably very defensive with you, friends, family, whoever. Everyone will have an opinion and you’re giving this the time it needs to become yesterday’s news, but you’re also avoiding people because you don’t want to hear it either. You’re not concerned with what other people think about what you’re doing.

Aries - wants to fk, all of the time, they’re obsessed with you 💯 Could have serious issues with drugs or alcohol, be careful.

Taurus - abandoned you in the past, or you did

Gemini - making peace because they need money, they have hidden motives & secrets

Cancer - being nice to each other while also proving which person doesn’t care more, but you’re both doing it so…good luck with that

Leo - rushing in too soon due to a lack of proper leadership or doesn’t know how to lead, maybe tried and failed at something, could be work related

Virgo - a player, but could be a good time for like…a week

Libra - feels like all of the pieces of this situation fit perfectly into place, for you or them either way

Scorpio - reuniting after a long time apart (or feels like it), they are SO happy 😁

Sagittarius - leaving this behind and verbally cutting off heads on their way out, could think you’re a vengeful bully or that’s switched

Capricorn - wants the drama to end but doesn’t want the whole relationship to end

Aquarius - loves you, is proving it, and wants another chance or a new cycle for the both of you

Pisces - getting all fired up and burnt out just as quickly due to indecision, or ignoring them? Could be missing a message or not responding, whether it’s on purpose or not, idk. Could be this person.

[venus-vampire]

ℙ𝔸ℂ: 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚑𝚒𝚍𝚍𝚎𝚗 𝚐𝚒𝚏𝚝𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚕𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜?

Tarot collaboration with @daarlingdatura

ℙ𝕚𝕝𝕖 𝟙 // ℙ𝕚𝕝𝕖 𝟚 // ℙ𝕚𝕝𝕖 𝟛 // ℙ𝕚𝕝𝕖 𝟜

⋅•⋅⋅•⋅∙∘☽ Pile 1 ☾∘∙•⋅⋅⋅•⋅

This pile could have some friend group drama or friend drama going on. This situation will bring you some clarity and enlightenment thought- as well as some inner peace. Like you could learn to really love yourself through this situation so even though it sucks it's like a blessing in disguise because you get to realize how amazing you are.

You’ve got a reward coming through for making such intense and powerfully transformative emotional breakthroughs, you guys are naturally very balanced and stand strong in your judgments. You know when to call shots or take action, and you know how to differentiate between right and wrong in the grander scheme of things. You don’t get so swept up in momentary emotions. You take your time in executing decision making or in going through with your decided plans & patiently wait or what you want, even if it’s painfully slow.

You understand cause and effect very well, and you generally know what’s coming for you next. You usually know what the outcome of your choices are as well, 

YESS they know like the unconscious process of karma and actions. You know how to get what you want through hard work, and you are also someone who can energetically do road openings! This group could also be really adept in astral traveling !

⋅•⋅⋅•⋅∙∘☽ Pile 2 ☾∘∙•⋅⋅⋅•⋅

This pile knows the cycles of people, and even life itself. They know that some things must come to an end for others to begin. This pile is in touch with their actual hidden gifts and blessings.

Your blessings are your innate understanding of the universe, energy, and magick. A lot of you also have incredibly powerful bloodlines as well I'm feeling!

I feel like y’all are blessed with strong ancestry, solid friendships, the ability to transition? Datura heard transition, transition of states of mind.

One of your gifts is balancing, I feel like y’all have this ability to swap energies and situations. You can switch your experiences, sometimes for fun.

Y’all protect your boundaries and are careful who they give time and attention to. But y’alls hidden gift is your empathetic and emotional nature. I feel like this group is full of healers and natural spiritualists. Nature is literally on the top of datura’s deck!!

There's probably also a lot of people with mutable in their big 3, venus, mutable dominant people in this pile.

⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ Pile 3 ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆

This is more of a hidden message you need to hear! Mixed in with some blessings and gifts.

You guys are serving extreme bad bitch energy. You are very much unapologetically you and you know what the fuck you’re talking about. Though you can tend to be very pessimistic, you could have really bad experiences with friendships and personal connections. Because of your experiences with others you can have a tendency to be superficial and a bit dull, because of this fear of connection. You don’t want it to backfire so you prefer to just be distant and not let people truly into your life. Alex said he was listening to the album Pink Friday by Nicki Minaj and that it made him think this pile is like her, and will defend their originality, identity, and selves at all costs. In the past you could’ve been naive, letting just anyone waltz into ur life, so now there’s almost a judgy nature to you. Where you need people to be as cool as you, when it’s unfortunately generally not the case. There is deep trauma a lot of you are avoiding with a smile plastered onto your face. I imagined a doll waving to a crowd, it’s like in the public eye you pretend to be the highest version of yourself but alone you can feel horrible and insecure at times. Not always though. Just sometimes. When you heal this vulnerability & connection trauma it’ll get better with times babes. This group can also tend to be seduced into befriending people with shitty intentions because they gaslight their intuition and really want to see the potential of a person they find to be cool. Like honestly this pile can be so superficial about connection sometimes. I feel like you could deal with a lot of conflicting thoughts and even paranoia surrounding friendships and connection. Spirit is saying to quit being so fucking paranoid and live your life. Not everything is that serious and you are seriously divinely protected. Like this group is very spiritually attuned and is well endowed spiritually. Quit being a pessimist and you will get to where you’re going with much less bullshit. Remember the world is a reflection of your mind. Also start following through on ur ideas, get your work ethic together, quit second guessing your ideas and walking away from ur projects just bc they don’t immediately blow up. 

⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ Pile 4 ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆

I feel like y’all going through something not very fun right now, and your hidden blessings are kind of this ability you have to sink down and break yourself down and let everything bad melt away so you can be reborn. I feel like y’all are also a very vigilant pile, a little too vigilant.

I believe this pile’s hidden gifts and blessings are their ability to connect with others in equal and fair relationships. I feel like people will go out of their way to help you. People may look up to you and seek your advice or presence. Cherish those around you, pile 4.

I feel like y’all also have good temper control but know when to be assertive and let your spicy emotions out.

Pile 4 can quickly come back from failures and spend time within themselves to spring back up like nothing happened. Y’all  learn a lot from pain as well, so endings, failures, deaths, etc are a blessing in disguise for this group usually. “What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger” is true for y’all.

I would say that y’all are generally positive people, but when the pain comes up y’all can get caught in it. Like you put forth your best, but get knocked down, not realizing the point is kind of allowing you to learn.

Datura heard work on being more positive or coping with failures. Try not exploding and self destructing every time something goes wrong. Good luck pile 4 <3