#bpd split

[clovelie]

losing a fp feels like you just got your soul ripped out and now you're not even a human being anymore.

[borderline-clusterfxck]

having BPD be like don't split don't split don't split don't split don't split don't split don't split don't split don't spl- *splits*

[malehorror]

splitting again over stupid reasons (perceiving abandonment, hating them and want them to stay away from me for "leaving me" when they just haven't bothered to message me today)

[pigeonwinnin]

Back to square one I guess

[its-blip-on-the-radar]

“It’s always when I think things are going good my mental health comes in to make things... not good.”

Thanks for the patience last week. This comic is a, uh, pretty good explanation as to why I couldn’t upload last week.

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[feralbeeast]

Not sure if anyone really noticed or cared, but I took a mini break from tumblr [and might continue it tbh] due to my brain, body, and universe all deciding to beat the shit out of me at once :b

Anyways, thought I'd pop by, say hi, I'm still alive for now 🖤 love y'all, stay safe and gay

They/Them pronouns

[puppyyboyy]

so much to say but no words to speak

[lovesickdummi]

FUXK YOU I KNOW YOURE LYING TO ME. I KNOW YOURE TALKING TO HIM, I HATE HOW YOU LIE RIGHT TO MY FUCKING FAVE AND TREAT ME LIKE IM INSANE !!! I LET YOU SCREW ME AND YOU REWARD ME BY PULLING THAT SHIT !!! WHAT THE FUCK

[unlovablereject]

I feel like you really let me down today.

All because let's be honest. You would rather be at work than trying to take care of me.

I get it.

I hate me too. At least you can leave.

I don't feel safe, I am scared.

You don't love me...

[fenetfox]

having a split after being reminded of the last time i had another (MAJOR) one. im with my fp and some other ppl rn and i just wan them to show that they GENUINELY CARE and arent only checking on my so i stop bitching about everything, i just want a hug and a bit of love without having to ask for it, but at the same time i feel like if they touch me i will either assault them verbally or hit them so hard i dislocate their shoulder/other thing. and then there's the dialog in my head reminding me of how fucking unreasonable i am being making me want to cry because its all so damn overwhelming and the worst part is the only one to blame for this mess in my head is me- they didnt do anything wrong

TLDR i need love i need violence i wanna cry

to my fp (they have my tumblr) ur probably reading this after the whole thing is over- sorry for the mess (but if ur reading it rn please hug me i need it)

[clovelie]

I JUST WANT ONE PERSON I CAN TRUST TO NOT ABANDON ME AND I CANT EVEN GET THAT?

[opinions-and-illnesses]

See if I care when you completely fuck yourself over because you won't listen to valid criticism and useful advice. You have a fighting chance here and won't do anything about it. Fine, that's your choice. But don't ask me for help again.

[insanecreetur]

I want to take the sharpest knife I have and plunge it into myself. Maybe it's because cutting is my sh of choice and I've been stabbed before so i know how it feels but..

It wouldn't even matter where I do it.

I just want to feel the pain, the rush of blood, the panic of whether I'll be able to close it or not. The numbness of it.

But how can i ever do that again? i can't even bring myself to make scars on my arms anymore from fear of judgement, they just hide on the parts I can cover easily.

[herprecioustreasure]

Im the damaged type but that's no excuse

For all of my hurt that I'm living,

I'm giving to you

[pigeonwinnin]

I didn’t know if any of you had some good advice for how you’ve managed your splits. I’ve unfortunately recently realized how frequently and intense mine are after thinking I had everything under control. If I can’t get a hold of myself my friend is going to leave me and I’m really scared. Right now it’s still extremely difficult to tell what is a split versus what is me having justified anger so I the only thing I can think of is asking for space every time I’m angry but I worry this can also look like I’m avoiding them or just shutting down altogether

Additionally I’m considering getting back on medication. I’ve been on antidepressants in the past but those made my symptoms considerably worse and I was in a lot of mental and physical distress while on them, I didn’t know if other people have had similar experiences and have found better results on mood stabilizers or antipsychotics. I also have a long term issue with ED so weight gain side effects are a huge concern to me which I feel embarrassed to admit.

Any advice or support right now would be welcomed. Thank you all

[its-blip-on-the-radar]

“You left behind this righteous fury in me, you left behind harsh memories I rather forget. There is this anger stored in me towards you, and it burns.”

-Vent piece about a BPD split towards my ex.