#life hurts

[futuristic-koala]

[timetravelsong]

𝐈𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐈’𝐦 𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐝𝐢𝐟𝐟𝐜𝐮𝐥𝐭. 𝐈’𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐰𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐧𝐞.

excerpts from a book I’ll never write

[myhiddenquerencia]

Look at you, Wiping your own tears With the same hands That long to be held

Ayesha Zahra

[star-struck09]

I fear the sadness will consume me alive one day.

[inkskinned]

you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.

but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.

well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?

his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.

still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.

so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.

and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.

what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.

it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?

it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.

maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.

[rizzanon]

Beyond Batfam February

revamped because i meant to post a fic a day in feb but wasn’t able to follow up with it—so to make up for it i wrote a few more fics

this is me pushing out more platonic fics about the batfamily and trying to get my life back on track (i need more sibling fluff and angst because why not? ��️ and why on feb? because they’re my loves) (will include features of other characters)

likes, shares and reblogs are greatly appreciated if you do enjoy these and would like to see more 🫶

and check out undoing fate if you haven’t already 😘

★ hurt/comfort ✘ angst ♥︎ fluff

01 | Relentless — Dick Grayson ★

Summary: you’re too stubborn to go get treated during the events of gotham’s cataclysm, your brother forces you to

02 | Stitches and Sarcasm — Jason Todd ★

Summary: you’re stitching your brother up whilst trying to reconnect with him

03 | Robin and the Stray — Damian Wayne ft. Alfred ♥︎

Summary: your brother asks (forced) you to help him hide another stray he took in from Alfred and Bruce

04 | Batdad brainrot — Bruce Wayne ♥︎

Summary: your estranged father tries to connect with you in ways you didn’t expect him to

05 | His place — Tim Drake ★

Summary: you remind your brother what his role is in the family

06 | Normalcy — Cassandra Cain ♥︎

Summary: you took your sister out for fun to help her relax

07 | Babysitter — Damian Wayne ft. Jon Kent ♥︎

Summary: your brother forces you to take him and his bestfriend along with you to wherever you’re going

08 | That’s my sibling!! — Tim Drake ft. Young Justice ♥︎

Summary: your brother’s team seems to fancy you quite a bit, he has to do damage control

09 | Not again, Never again — Dick Grayson ✘

Summary: he can’t lose another sibling, no matter the cost

10 | Stakeout with the Outlaws — Jason Todd ♥︎

Summary: you tag along with your brother and meet his friends

11 | Unspoken promises — Cassandra Cain ✘

Summary: your sister promises to always protect you, but even her words can’t convey how much she cares

12 | Not his soldier — Bruce Wayne ✘

Summary: after a mission pushes you too far, you confront your father, reminding him that you were his child, not his soldier

13 | Too much like him — Jason Todd ✘

Summary: your brother accuses you of becoming too much like Bruce, leading to a heated fight that leaves you both question your identities

14 | The sibling he didn’t ask for — Tim Drake ★

Summary: you brother realises that you’re the sibling he didn’t know he needed after everything that’s happened

15 | Liability — Damian Wayne ✘

Summary: your twin brother thinks you’re a liability. he realises far too late that he’s wrong

16 | Stained Hands — Cassandra Cain ★

Summary: how can you think the world of her when her hands are stained?

17 | Fractured Trust — Tim Drake ★

Summary: a mission goes sideways and your brother accuses you of being reckless, but his anger hides his fear of losing you

18 | A father's promise — Bruce Wayne ft. Justice League ♥︎

Summary: your father promised to make it up to you by showing up for your father-daughter date, even if it means cutting short a JL meeting

19 | The things left unsaid — Dick Grayson ✘

Summary: your brother left Gotham. you miss him but won’t admit it out loud

20 | “Not so little” brother — Jason Todd ♥︎

Summary: your little brother may not be so little anymore, but some things never change

21 | Gala shenanigans — Tim Drake and Damian Wayne ft. Bruce Wayne ♥︎

Summary: it’s a typical wayne gala night with not so typical course of events

22 | You’re… Robin? — Stephanie Brown ft. Cassandra Cain and Tim Drake ♥︎

Summary: you meet the new Robin

23 | Father-Daughter time — Bruce Wayne ♥︎

Summary: for once, your father decides to take some time off to spend it with you

24 | Not the favourite? — Dick Grayson ♥︎

Summary: he’s distraught that he’s (somehow) not your favourite

25 | Wayne’s daughter — Duke Thomas ★

Summary: you’re not what he expected you to be

26 | Your beauty never scared me — Cassandra Cain ★

Summary:

27 | So you’re… Nightwing — Damian Wayne (injustice au) ✘

Summary: you meet your brother from another universe

28 | Will we ever learn? — Jason Todd ★

Summary: you two will always make the same mistakes

29 | A book for every situation — Duke Thomas ft. Batfamily ♥︎

Summary: you help him fit in with your family’s antics

30 | Kidnapped by the Supers — Batfamily ft. Superfamily ♥︎

Summary: tba

31 | Call it fate that we met — Tim Drake ★

Summary: tba

32 | Ruined forever — Bruce Wayne ✘

Summary: tba

33 | Replaced? — Dick Grayson ft. Wally West ♥︎

Summary: tba

34 | It’s ok to not be ok — Stephanie Brown ★

Summary: tba

35 | His soft spot — Jason Todd ♥︎

Summary: tba

36 | Family game night — Batfamily ♥︎

Summary: tba

37 | Take a quiet life — Tim Drake ✘

Summary: tba

38 | It’s the thought that counts — Cassandra Cain ft. Batgirls ♥︎

Summary: tba

39 | Like the old times — Dick Grayson ★

Summary: tba

40 | Rough patrol — Tim Drake ★

Summary: tba

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[poppitron360]

Is Polites actually my favourite character in EPIC the musical or do I just desperately need someone to tell me that it’s okay for me to relax?

[kensatou]

you think YOU had a bad day at work?

bonus: sid shrieking "no!!!! NO!!!!!" loud enough to be heard in the stands and on camera