#hyperfixation rants

[livinweirdrandom]

I'm embracing my insomnia and have been watching @DannyPhantomexe on YouTube shorts, and the thing this man has made me realize is...

I FUCKING RANT!

A LOT! TO MY OWN BRAIN!

I'm just constantly ranting to myself about different subjects as I branch into more subjects that get increasingly irrelevant/unnecessary/unimportant/plain unrelated to the main subject while I unconsciously imagine this person in front of me whom I'm ranting to, the person I WANT to be ranting to about this SPECIFIC subject, and the second I branch into a different subject, the person I'm imagining CHANGES to someone else.

Probably something that happened to me because I'm someone who talks a lot naturally, have a lot of thoughts/opinions/comments and etc but don't have anyone to share those things with without fear of judgment/bothering them/boring them/ or wasting their time, putting aside getting them mad and upset for talking about this thing in the first place. That and I used to talk to myself a lot, a habit I picked up from my own mother and something I did to myself when I was isolated for years from the world because of autism and wasn't allowed on the internet or to socialize outside of Teams meetings for school work and family members. (And showing signs of autism but I am not diagnosed).

So THANK YOU, Danny. For that realization. I will now go wake up my newly found best friend whom actually once listened to my rant via video call and actually tried to understand what I was talking about even though she knows NOTHING about the subject, nor was it related to anything and she was even playing a game. I will wake her up with a message to warn her about rants yet to come of different subjects and or opinions and see if she is willing to power through that.

Again, Danny, sincerely, thank you.

@dannyphantomexe

[nightmare-chaser]

Ive seen multiple posts from reddit refuges that go like "im queer and its so welcoming here!" Or "im nonbinary and dont get quized on my gender here!" Or "im autistic and i can be weird here and yall like it!" And its so fuckin cute its like yes hi hello welcome this is the gay ass autistic website we love special interests we love weird genders we love just saying random shit and the just happy surprised tone of those posts is so wholesome to me like yes! hi! you are in fact the target audience! welcome home

[a-page-full]

Once more I need to talk about Welcome to Demon School Iruma-Kun! Specifically about Mephisto.

As such, manga spoilers ahead!

I've been thinking of the Scala exam a lot recently, and about Mephisto's reaction to Iruma. I realized that this is the first time in the manga that we see someone contrast Iruma from Delkira instead of compare him to.

If you think about it, it is often repeated through the series about how similar Iruma is to Delkira. Asmodeus saw him as Delkira during his first evil cycle when sitting on the throne. Repeatedly Sullivan sees Delkira in Iruma. Amduscias saw Delkira in Iruma during the musical festival. We are pretty consistently reminded the similarities between Iruma and the previous Demon King. It's kinda like we start to see Delkira as this amazing, never wrong being.

I think that is why it is so shocking when we get Mephisto's view point on the very beginning of Delkira as Demon King. For the first time, we see someone viewing Delkira in a negative light. We see Delkira be greedy and selfish enough that someone was essentially fired from the position that they had held for centuries. Mephisto was cast off on the whims of Delkira.

I think it is so interesting that it takes hundreds of chapters to get to this point. When I first read it, it felt wrong. Like 'that's not right.' Iruma is compared so often to this person that seeing something negative about them feels off putting. It's a reminder that Delkira was not perfect.

I also think that is why the conversation between Mephisto and Iruma is so beautiful. Mephisto realizes how different Delkira and Iruma are from each other, and because of those differences, Mephisto sees a future king in Iruma. That Iruma cares so much that he would never cast aside anybody. Everybody is important to him no matter who they are. This is the first time we finally get someone looking at Iruma as a future demon king because he is different from Delkira.

No one means ill by comparing Iruma to Delkira. Instead everybody means the highest respect by doing that, but there is something so refreshing about Iruma being seen as a future leader for being Iruma. For being greedy in a different way. Instead of making it all about himself and his desires, his greed stems from wanting everyone to be happy and fulfilled.

I was not expecting this outcome from the Scala exam. Initially I was very wary of Mephisto, but now I've come to love his character. He just wants to feel needed again, and Iruma offers that without even realizing it. Iruma is so clueless to the impact he has on the demons around him.

I hope my rambling was coherent. Basically, I am really excited for the series to continue and to see how this all progresses. To see Iruma continue to make a name for himself, as himself. This manga is just so beautifully done.

[claudufus]

Y’all. My fyp is manipulating me. Like tell me why the actual FUCK my fyp of tumblr posts about Batman and his family being read out while someone plays minecraft. As someone who has never even showed THE SLIGHTEST amount of interest in the DC or Marvel universes it’s confusing. This is slowly evolving into ships like Batman x superman and Damian x Jon and I’m just sitting here like “WHO THE FUCK IS DAMIAN?” And then I find out that Robin IS MORE THAN ONE PERSON?! Dawg the most I know about robin is from that damn version of jingle bells.

But eventually it all starts to click, I learn some lore and stuff and now, somehow WITHOUT WATCHING/READING ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE DC UNIVERSE, I could name THE ENTIRE “BATFAM” AND THEIR CHARACTER TRAITS AND SHIPS AND FUCKING HEADCANONS.

The worst bit is that all the ships are so shippable because superbat and Damijon are literally just fucking grumpy sunshine and the grumpy sunshine ship is addictive. So now I HAVE A FUCKING PINTREST BOARD DEDICATED TO THE JUSTICE LEAUGE OR SOMETHING. WHAT THE FUCK IS THE JUSTICE LEAUGE?!!

How am I hyperfixating on a ship in a fandom that I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT.

[jameswilsonsupremacy]

my fav tattoo place is doing a flash sale for mental health awareness and so they’re doing $20 tattoos if you get a semi colon, or a pause symbol, or the word love. They had sheets of options but you could also bring your own. I got others too bc duh but here you go house md fandom here is my new fav tattoo

the tattoo artist: “this is a cool font! any specific reason you brought this one?”

me: “okay so it sounds silly”

[yourlocalbreadenthusiast]

ask for infodump about Chernobyl as someone who has never even heard of it

INHALES

Chernobyl is considered to be the worst nuclear disaster in history, rated at a 7 on the International Nuclear Event Scale (INES), the only other disaster ranking at a 7 being in Fukushima back in 2011. The disaster occurred on April 26, 1986. The Chernobyl Nuclear Power plant was located in Ukraine, which was under the control of the Soviet Union at the time. It was only about 16 miles from the Belarus-Ukraine border, which was also under Soviet control. There were two main towns nearby, Chernobyl itself, which was older, had only about 15,000 residents, and was actually farther from the Chernobyl Nuclear Power Plant than Pripyat, which had about 50,000 residents, and was only about 2 miles from the plant. Pripyat was newer, and residents had an average age of about 26. The town itself was filled with young, well educated people starting new lives. A large number of public buildings were located in Pripyat, including a school and a sports complex, which contains the famous Azure Swimming Pool. The plant supplied Pripyat with energy, and the place was considered a sort of "dream city." The plant was an RBMK-1000 type reactor, a generation I nuclear reactor, which are the earliest, and generally most hazardous, nuclear reactors. RBMKs were used to produce Plutonium, a radioactive material primarily used in nuclear weapons. However, they could also be used to produce civilian energy, so a few were constructed to supply parts of the USSR with power. At the time of the incident, there were four reactors in operation, with reactors 5 and 6 under construction. A test was scheduled to be conducted to see if the backup generators could successfully turn on in time to keep the cooling systems running at safe levels. However, the test was delayed until the less experienced night shift was in. They turned off the reactor's shutdown feature and lowered the power to the reactor. Reactors need energy to function, as they have to be cooled. For these reactors, large amounts of water were used to cool them. Without the shutdown function, the reactor was in danger of overheating if it wasn't cooled. Regardless, they ran the test. When the backup generators took too long to turn on, panic set in, and the reactor began to overheat. Then, somehow hit the AZ-5 button, which lowers all control rods into the reactor at once. Control rods are used to absorb excess amounts of shed neutrons from the nuclear reactions. However, they momentarily increase reactions when first introduced into the reactor chambers. The undertrained staff of the night shift were not aware of this. With the increased reactivity, the reactor was now dangerously hot, and the casinging around the fuel rods began to rupture, causing white-hot radioactive fuel to come into direct contact with steam. At 1:23 A.M., April 26, 1986, Chernobyl Nuclear Reactor #4 exploded. The contact between the fuel and the steam caused a steam explosion, blowing the 1000 tonne reactor roof into the air and spewing radioactive debris and particles into the air.

Two plant workers were killed instantly by either the force of the blast or from being hit by debris. Although plant workers realized what had happened rather quickly, superiors were slow to act. Firefighters were called in, but they were not told the dangers of the radiation. Most died within a few months. But that was only the tip of the iceberg. In Pripyat, the Amusement Park that had been scheduled to open the next day was hurriedly opened a day early to distract residents from the fact that the reactor was on fire.

It took 36 hours for Soviet Officials to finally begin to evacuate Pripyat, only after residents had begun to report nausea, dizziness, fatigue, vomiting, and headaches, all symptoms of radiation poisoning. A few weeks earlier, citizens were trained with gas masks in case there ever was an incident. Officials said that they didn’t need them, as they didn’t want to cause a panic.

Residents were also told they would be returning soon, and to leave everything behind. They did not come back. This left Pripyat as an eerie ghost down where everything seemed to have simply been dropped and left. Today, it is still abandoned, and is being slowly reclaimed by nature.

During the cleanup of the incident, “Liquidators” were called in. Some knew the dangers, others didn’t. The fire of the reactor was too hot to be put out by water, so tons and tons or boron, sand, and lead were dumped onto the burning reactor by helicopters that flew over. It didn’t help much, and the reactor finally stopped burning after about 2-3 weeks. A structure dubbed “The sarcophagus” was built over the reactor to contain the radiation, though it was rushed and leaked radiation. A large area of woodlands was contaminated by the radiation, and it turned red and died, earning the nickname “The Red Forest.” Most of these trees were cleared and buried. Highly contaminated houses were knocked down, animals were shot, and crops destroyed. Absolutely everything that was highly contaminated was at least attempted to be destroyed and buried. Still, not everything could be destroyed and buried, there was simply too much. One object, dubbed “The Claw of Death” was, according to conflicting accounts, either used to assist in the overall cleanup or was used specifically in the cleanup of the plant roof. It is radioactive enough to give a lethal dose if sat in for about 11 hours.

Another rather infamous object is “The Elephant’s Foot” which is a mass of sand, concrete, and melted reactor fuel that had melted its way through the floor and down into the basement. Upon discovery, the sheer amount of radiation it gave off was enough to give you a fatal dose within about 90 seconds. Today, that’s increased to about five minutes. The foot was unyielding to sampling tools, so, they shot it with a Kalashnikov Rifle (AK-47) to get a sample.

After a very short period of time, the remaining three reactors were up and running again, as the USSR simply needed power desperately. By December of 1987, all three reactors were up and running again. They were operated for years, until the last reactor was finally shut down for good in 2000. Being so close to the border, and with the wind conditions of the time, mass amount of radioactive particles were blown north to Belarus. The Soviet Union had planes fly over and seed the clouds with chemicals, forcing them to rain on rural land instead of heavily populated areas, but this still had a major effect, as about 1/3 of Belarusian farmland was contaminated. However, the winds began to shift, blowing radiation towards Europe. Sweden was the first to sound the alarm, asking if something had happened after detecting dangerous amounts of airborne radiation and determining it was not from any of their own reactors. The USSR finally admitted there had been a “very small” incident at Chernobyl, and was very reluctant to give the world information. Careful monitoring protocols were put on resources everywhere in Europe, from grain to milk to wood, all were carefully measured for radiation. Years later, after the Sarcophagus was determined to be unsafe, the New Safe Confinement unit was constructed, which is a semicircular dome over the existing Sarcophagus. The New Safe Confinement was finished in 2018. 

DONE!

(For now)

@not-wizard-council-aristocrat @anarcho-neptunism @siley-the-wizard @villainessbian

[averagechickenenjoyer]

HOW DID I JUST REALIZE THAT ALL THE CONTESTANTS ARE JUST REFLECTIONS OF MEPHONES TRAUMA????

Baseball always strikes out because nothing MePhone did satisfied Cobbs or made Cobbs proud.

Taco is the kind of person MePhone thinks Cobbs wants him to be, just as manipulative, selfish, and downright douchey. Or maybe it’s his way of coping with Cobbs nature.

Lightbulb represents his childlike innocence he had prior to his discovery of MePhone3GS and the truth.

Suitcase represents his underlying anxiety and depression.

Knife is his repressed anger and resentment towards Cobbs. Paintbrush also serves as a representation of this.

Fan represents his obsessive love over his creations/loved ones/contestants.

Test Tube represents his creativity and intelligence that was shunned and ignored by Cobbs.

I could go more in depth but like holy shit this is brilliant writing

God I can’t wait for II18 (if it happens)

[oatmealdoodles]

My messy thoughts on the new episode

(spoilers for Ghostf**kers)

tldr I LOVED this one the animation saw POPING OFF the writing was great, it was well paced, everything. I just wanted to ramble so here i am talking to no one:

Ok right off the bat i had to pause this like 7 times in the first five minutes because the beginning of this is just packed with insane jokes, glass to see they havent forgotten about being a comedy show

It’s so sad to see Blitzo in this state, especially that it’s been over a month. Like look at this guy he is GOING THROUGH IT.

also this was uncalled for how can you do me like this?

ok like my one problem i don’t like this little Scooby-doo reference with old people. I just skipped it and lost nothing, i don’t know why this is here.

the fight between Blitzo and Millie in the vents was also really well done im so glad Millie is putting up boundaries on dealing with everybody elses Bullshit.

I also don’t hear anyone talking about this but Vivinie Williams (Millie’s VA) did so well in this. Like all the voice acting in this show is peak but I’ve only really heard praise for Brendon and Bryce. Their argument here specifically, the fury in her voice was so well done, bravo.

JESUS CHRIST THEY DID NOT NEED TO GO THIS HARD this scene has been stuck in my head for the past two days, Brandon killed it in he recording booth, the animation is also just so VICERAL. Also the way the fire starts from his hands because he blames himself for it, like Viv went too far with this one. That was not ok.

Bitzo’s panic attack was also done so well. Little detail but i love that when Blitzo screams “Don’t touch me!”, Millie respects this and doesnt, instead comforting him with words. They only touch when he’s calm and ready. Love that.

Bro i was NOT expecting a flashback on how Millie met Blitz, also Millies design slays so hard

the way I gasped.

I also didn’t realize how much I needed an episode focusing on these twos friendship until now. Like FINALLY a Millie episode that doesn’t suck!

Little thing i realized but notice how Blitzo doesn’t make a sex joke at this. Blitzo. Not making a provocative joke. Really just goes to show how UNCOMFORTABLE and SCARED he is. I physically recoil every time I see this it’s gross

Those flashback scenes were also just so brutal. Like chaining his horns so he’s FORCED to watch is so psychotic I can’t.

its kinda sad that Blitzo’s whole motivation for doing this is to distract himself from his feelings, when that’s what he’s literally forced to confront by Ronaldo.

Love a possession story. I can really appreciate how Millie does not believe Ronaldo for a second, she knows that Blitzo would never think that of her and she trusts him enough to be confident in it. Nice subversion, you go girl.

This was so needlessly brutal and funny, they really went all out with this one

Yeah I think that’s all I wanted to day, just again i loved this one and it was definantly worth the multiple-month wait. Though my Hyperfixation has mostly died im hopeful that it will resurrect soon. We’ll have to wait and see.

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

i love knights sooooo fucking much . sorry back on tumblr bc while agonizing over having to read vita nuova i forgot i’d also get the luxury of reading occitan poetry / reading about knights in general who <3 as u may know are my most beloveds forever… and i was so deeply reminded of why i adore them just now because knights irl were literally just contractually obligated servants of the king and church as part of the feodal system but they have been romanticized forever and ever. since the medieval ages, and even now!!!! we fantasize over this falsified / romanticized idea of noble, righteous knights, or knights as forbidden lovers of the queen (<- like in medieval poetry) and ohhhh it’s just so fucking good . they were pawns !!!!! crusaders!!!!!! but in fiction they’re so radiant and charming. lovers and killers and protagonists . i love it i think it’s the tastiest thing ever and the reason i can’t ever stfu about knighthood as a concept is because the fiction it has birthed is so upsettlingly good and fun to dig into — knighthood as a curse that masquerades as a badge of honour, knighthood as an unattainable ideal, knighthood as good men being ruined and soiled and broken under the boots of the system….. as good men doing everything everything they can to please the king and god and the people and failing themselves in the process. god i love knights

[alaska-yippie]

Darry is really one of the most misunderstood characters in the whole book. He had so many pressures put on him when he was barely 20, and I feel like a lot of people forget how young that is. A lot of 20yr olds I just getting into collage, still living with their parents and Darry had to become a parent the day his parents died. he took on the responsibility of not just helping raise two teenagers, but being their full time guardian and that’s a lot of stress. Yes of course they all have flaws, no one is without, but he’s labeled to quickly as mean boring or uncaring. He cares so much and the way he shows it is why he gets to be considered mean. He wants ponyboy to be able to get somewhere In life, to get the opportunity him and soda never really had. But he wants it so bad that he pushes to hard, in return stressing pony out. He doesn’t show the affection required for a relationship because he’s so focused on having him get raised up right. I think it’s so unfair that he gets the label uncaring especially because he cares so much, it says he got no sleep over the week ponyboy was gone, constantly looking for him and worrying. Justice for Darrel Curtis.

This is just something I was thinking about and decided to write down, sorry if it’s bad it’s midnight and I was just pondering fr

[hypertranced]

ppl who think season 2 of arcane was nuanced are really funny to me actually

[slavhew]

Consider drawing.. a Dirk with longer hair. A mullet, mayhaps. Maybe with Dave. The Mullet Brothers.

finally scraped into my askbox this stream- ive never drawn mullets before so i hope this is close enough ahah :'D

[spacexlover34]

New hyperfixation wonder what that could be

Anyway I read the entirety of the strange case of Dr jekyll and Mr hyde in two days(slow I know I don't have much time) and am now rereading it and I'm going to watch the movies because I want to see how accurate they are

And I'm also now reading the glass scientists because it came up a lot when I looked for Jekyll and Hyde on this app.

I'm having a great time doing a tism

[listlesswhistle]

AAAAA im thinking about Ingo in Legends Arceus again. They really fucking did that. Im so insane about it, like-

Okay. So. You have this preestablished thing in Pokémon called Fallers. Basically its people who fell into the pokemon world from an entirely different universe. Sometimes theyre alternate versions of known characters. The one thing they all have in common is that they remember nothing from before they fell.

With me so far? Good.

Now we move onto Legends Arceus. Here we are, some hundred or so years in the distant past, exploring the wonderful land of Hisui when, hold on, is that Ingo? The train man? You're in the wrong time period, my guy! And what's that? His memory's gone? Damn that sucks, alt-Ingo got a real shitty deal when he Fell. Trains haven't even been invented yet smh.

Anyway, case closed. Just another Faller making the best of what they have. Cool, but nothing new, lets move on right?

Except. Maybe not.

You see, this "Hisui" region has a little bit more going on with it. Its actually the ancient version of the modern day Sinnoh region, and theres all kinds of fun little details tying the two together: location names, area themes, little nods to Sinnoh myths and pokedex entries, the whole nine yards. Huge gen 4 nostalgia trip. Theres even a bunch of characters that are just blatantly ancestors of important DPPt characters. And you betcha the pokemon match as well!

Yeah, thats cool, but what does this have to do with Ingo again? Weelll, turns out, two of those gen 4 pokemon makin a comeback just so happen to be the gods of time and space. And things have gone a bit fucky with them.

There are these things called "space-time distortions" going around, popping up all over the place, sitting there lookin like big, spooky soap bubbles, and spitting out objects and pokemon from all over the timeline. We're talking dinosaurs and data viruses. Because of these things, Porygons technically existed before the computers that birthed them. And while its never explicitly stated that they're how Ingo got there, how else do you suppose the New Yorker ended up in feudal Japan?

"Alright, that makes sense, but didn't you say he lost his memory? Isn't that kinda a whole thing with fallers?"

Oh yeah, right, thanks for catching that! I guess this was a bust after all. Time travel's not exactly new to the pokemon universe, and it doesn't usually cause memory loss, barring extenuating circumstances. (Ingo didn't turn into a pokemon, so I think we're safe on that front) This isn't even the first time Dialga's gone mad, actually! He must really be a Faller then. I mean, what are the odds that Ingo just tripped into a random space-time distortion, only to run into something entirely unrelated that just so happens to be well known for erasing memories, perfectly replicating the symptoms of a Faller?

Buckle up, this is where things get interesting.

So, when Ingo faceplanted in Hisui, he got picked up by this group called the Pearl Clan. They're this native tribe that worships Palkia, but like, under the wrong name, and they think Dialga's a false version of their god worshipped by these other natives, and they're actually kind of both right, except not, because they thought the were actually worshipping the creator god, Arceus, and it's this WHOLE thing. That's not important. What matters is that they picked up Ingo. Just. Remember that. Pearl grabbed Ingo.

Now, aside from the two big gods and their good ol' poppa Arceus, there's actually another trio of minor gods who took care of smaller business. Relatively. They like to rest at the bottom of three lakes spread around the region, and each one represents a certain gift they were said to have given to the world: Uxie, God of Knowledge; Mesprit, God of Emotion; Azelf, God of Willpower. When Arcues made them, the went out, did their thing, gave their gift, then went straight to bed in their lakes, where they stayed for... pretty much ever. Yeah, these guys are actually pretty chill. Apparently theyre tied for highest base friendship out of all pokemon?

Getting back to the Pearl clan, their camp in the Alabaster Icelands is actually pretty close to Lake Acuity! Way closer than any other settlements are to the lakes, at least.

I know what you're thinking: "What does ANY of this have to do with Ingo's memories??" Well, there's one more thing we need to cover about the lake trio. Y'see, there's this little myth about them, hidden away on a shelf in the back of modern day Canalave library. As calm and relaxed as they usually are, its easy to forget that they're still gods. Powerful gods. Direct decendants of Arcues themself, embodiments of the very gifts which they gave unto the world. The myth goes that, should someone be foolish enough to raise their hand against the lake gaurdians, they would quickly find that those gifts can be taken away.

Harm Azelf, and find yourself as still as stone, drained of even the willpower needed to move. Touch Mesprit, and find yourself in a pointless world, drained of all emotions, joyless and empty.

…Look into Uxie's eyes, and find yourself lost and confused, fallen into a world unknown, without even the knowledge to find your way back to a home you can't remember.

...Yeah

Hisui is plaqued by Distortion, ripping creatures out of their proper Time and Space. Uxie makes their home at the bottom of Lake Acuity, just outside where the Pearl Clan makes camp. The Pearls found Ingo alone, no memory of his past, no evidence of how he came to them.

So you see now. How I might be a little obsessed.

Oh, are you still wondering if he's actually a Faller or not? Well…

I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA!

This was the first game he appeared in since Black and White 2, and he hasn't been mentioned since! His story is never expanded on!!!

He's probably? not??? Unless he fell out of an ultra wormwhole and into a distortion?? And the ultra beasts couldn't find him??? They literally NEVER hint at a possible cause for his arrival in game, I think. We're just. Left. With this.

What the fuck.

[master-jarrus]

Lloyd should be alternative and really weird

Not because he's an oni/dragon/human hybrid

But because he's the son of Lord Garmadon King of the Underworld who had a skeleton army

Because he went to Darkly's School for Bad Boys since he was like a toddler

Because he was raised by people who have no issue breaking the law to get the job done

He should be punk

He should have a bone collection/jewelry

He should have really really niche hobbies like collecting roadkill and tanning the fur and cleaning the bones in a rot box and then reconstructing it