#im still traumatized

[fanfin-glutton]

Had to draw out a visual representation for this moment, it was rushed so it looks hella crazy but I had to get it off my chest in order to heal this heartache (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

My drifters honest reaction:

[ivs023]

I like to think of Bobby's death as a redemption. He saved his family and he was able to say goodbye to the people he loved the most.

He always blamed himself for the deaths of his wife and children. And with his death, in a way, a cycle is fulfilled.

I'm getting philosophical, I'm still dealing with the trauma.

[intersexcat-tboy]

If you're going to date a trauma survivor you need to be capable of actually taking their trauma seriously

[pierrotpig]

Probably one of my favorite & most interesting conversation starters would have to be my history with Sans Undertale.

Every time I talk about it, without fail, it leaves people just shocked and aghast… Being made fun of and referred to jokingly as “Sans” for a few days afterwards is always worth it though.

When i was in elementary school, I didn’t just love Sans the skeleton from ‘Undertale’, no. I genuinely believed within my heart and soul that I was Sans Undertale. I’m not joking or exaggerating either, i’m deadly serious. I was self deluded into believing I was the very skeleton from the game.

I would wear the same hoodie every single day for probably a year or two, and I didn’t take it off for any occasion. I slept in it. I didn’t even roll the sleeves up in 90 degree weather during the summer time, as I believed that it wouldn’t be true to my identity.

I went home and I would put time into memorizing jokes & puns so that I could later retell them at school.

I distinctly remember that I would eat those warm, half separated school ketchup packets during lunch… I hated them. They were so gross and a sensory nightmare but I ate them because I had to prove to everyone around me as well as myself that I am Sans. My friends were so amazed and convinced I loved ketchup so much that they would grab fistfuls of the ketchup packets to then give to me during lunch and I would thank them and put them in my pocket, promising to save them for later.

You know that like.. one instance of the game where Sans plays the trombone for comedic effect? My school started offering band lessons. I started taking them and learned how to play the trombone, just like Sans.

I think the most memorable overall effect of all of this was that I started napping all the time, and stopped engaging in activities I normally would. I was obsessed with getting on my computer every day and pretending to be Sans online. This was no big deal, it made me feel euphoric to be thought of as “lazy”, just like Sans… Eventually, my mother started getting concerned emails written home about me being “lethargic”.

I didn’t realize it at the time, but what had started as me obsessively taking on traits and characteristics of my beloved skeleton, I had developed the very thing that I would still carry with me to this day and struggle with; depression.

I believed I was Sans so badly that I developed actual depression. Just like Sans had!

Now I don’t know if the consumption of salty ketchup and halt of personal hygiene care partially went towards it, but during that time at the end of 5th grade / between my transition into middle school, I was abruptly hospitalized and later diagnosed with chronic kidney disease. I feel like my rapid decline in health was partially due to my unhealthy fixation, but then again, nobody really knows what happened there. Even excluding that, I think that it is safe to say that Sans Undertale ruined me! Thank you

[fretbored34]

All great comedians are depressed & traumatized

[borderlineangeldisorder]

Can't you love me with my clothes on

[my-castles-crumbling]

nah babe it's just that the trauma is traumaing today so i might not respond to your text

[ivs023]

Do you remember days ago when we were imagine a sunset scene? Do you?

🥲

And now our heart is broken.

[r0t-t1ngxeyy]

Tw: Loli/shotacon, proship, Levi x Luke, Dark romance/abuse/kidnapping, NSFW!!! and

the Lollipop joke..

Im not letting anyone in this fandom forget those two obey me fanfics on ao3 from like 2?? Years ago. Please tell me I'm not the only one who remembers them?? It was such a big thing for the fandom, Im so glad I read them before they got deleted because the memory is soo FUNNY HELP ?? I need opinions on these two fics, if anyone actually remembers them:(

Dia x Luci : The Red Means I love you

ABSOLUTELY TRAUMATIZING SHIT BRO WHAT IN THE DARK ROMANCE?? wouldn't even call that romance it was such a hard read. Stumbling across videos of it made on tiktok was probably the worst event that I experienced 👽 ON MY MOTHER THE SCENES WERE SO UNNECESSARY (but the adrenaline rush was pretty good ngl)

I read through that with my heart dropping with each new chapter bro?? I couldn't even read through the entire story. I'm pretty sure it's deleted now cus I've been searching for it to make a whole OM fandom lore post but heyy

To sum it up for the people who were fortunate enough to not read it;

Diavolo kidnaps Lucifer, and keeps him in some cage/almost prison cell area. I think he's chained up to the ceiling, I'm not so sure. It starts off with Dia being nice I think, trying to gain Lucifers trust and eventually have him submit but that shit doesn't work and all of hell releases. Lucifer endures some physical and sexual abuse and attempts to escape. But before he successfully escapes,he bumps into Barbatos who offers to help him

He does not help him. Infact, he locks him back up and informs Diavolo.

What the fuck

The most notable things I believe Dia did was clip lucifer's wings?? And pulled out his teeth (i think Barbatos actually did that I'm not so sure). But I can't really explain how gruesome and detailed the writing was. What's worse is that it also included how the brothers were reacting to Lucifer just disappearing. Very interesting fic, story wise it was fine and well written. It's just the plot in general was what the actual fuck??

LEVI X LUKE : i forgor the title and I'm very relieved that I did

VERY UNCOMFORTABLE READ BTW!! i hated summing this up so much

An absolute wreck, these fanfics were so well written I can't even hate the authors for what they did (the Dia x Luci one didn't deserve any hate imo, but this one?? Holy fucking shit??) This fic was so out of pocket, it ruined the way I saw Levi for a good while.

P.s!! Not the same author!!

WHAT I RECALL!!! aka summary?? Kinda...

So I think Simeon called Levi to look after Luke? Which is really fucking weird because Luke is an angel, sure he's depicted as a kid but if Micheal chose him to follow Simeon down to the Devildom for the exchange program then I'm pretty damn sure he can at least take care of himself without adult Supervision, but whatever. Nice plot, I hate it

Levi was totally against the babysitting thing and actually disliked having to look after Luke

Until

At some point, Luke wants to take a bath and Levi's like suree okay.

THEN ACCOMPANIES HIM TO GIVE HIM THE SAID BATH??? Obviously that's where this all downplays from what could've potentially been a found family fic to some proship shotacon fic. Levi gives him the bath and Luke gets

turned on... (I hate typing this out so much)

So, Levi gives him head. I fucking hate this with burning passion :(((

His mouth 'pops' when he stops which reminds him of a Lollipop!! And I quote this from memory:

Kinda like a Lollipop. Heh.. Loli.

I hate this fanfic so much, I don't claim it in this fandom,its a fic not a fanfic👽👽👽

And yeah, the rest of the story went on with Levi doing that bullshit!!! I don't think I read through the entire thing because curious kills the cat. I just saw some tiktok post about it and decided hey!! Im gonna look for it and read it.

I would've been fine without reading this fic, ever, i would've turned out the same as I am today LMAOO

[thestalkingentity]

This is very different than my usual stuff but it’s something that I felt the need to draw. I’ll be back to your usual programming of Oz rambling Tomorrow! Please PLEASE tread with caution since this is about childhood trauma.

No one was there to hold her hand

This world is a mess up place for a kid to have to go through alone.

[dontthinkineedyou]

The saddest moment of my life wasn’t the day you left this earth, but the day that I realized that you were never coming back-

And it was that day I realized that never coming back meant you had taken the love you once had for me with you for good-

and that meant.. I was entirely alone..

And the safest day of my life was the day I realized I was stuck in a world that I had poured so much love and life into.. and yet the only person who loved me the way I loved everyone, no longer existed and that meant there was no love left for me here

-D.R. (And before that realization came I use to love Fridays, I mean who doesn’t? It’s weird how much love grief has somehow managed to take away from me like it didn’t just stop with you)

[borderlineangeldisorder]

Well I haven't heard from him in over two hours so he's obviously dead on the floor home alone with only the cat crying over his corpse

[leviblogs27]

To my seizures you made me cry, you made me bleed, you've broken bones and tried to kill me, you broke me in every way possible but you also taught me to be patient, you taught me to be kind, you taught me to survive.

[incorrectsibunaquotes]

We don’t talk enough about how love potions are canon in the Anubisverse

[red-babyalesblog]

Dying happy.

[battling-my-demons]

Who else is shocked that others are shocked when you talk about the trauma that you've been through. Like, it's not normal? Then you start to realize that it's not actually normal. Then you're even more shocked 😨😳😭.