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This is moreover complicated by the fact that the [South African] apartheid state did not acknowledge itself as engaged in a war. The apartheid state in the late 1970s saw itself as engaged in a âtotal onslaughtâ, preferring to refer to its âenemyâ as terrorists rather than declaring an outright war. According to Cock and Nathan, the choice for the apartheid state to define the conflict as unrest or terrorism as opposed to war implied that liberation movement fighters were denied the prisoner of war status granted by the Geneva Protocols to those engaged in war against colonial powers.
â Women combatants and the liberation movements in South Africa (2015) by Siphokazi Magadla
its refreshing to see this so plainly laid out in writing. a terrorist is just someone the state has decided has no rights
#book club#the author is grappling with this through the construction of 'veteran' and how that label is harder to apply to anti-apartheid fighters#due to a lack of distinction between civilian/military and the combined internal + international nature of decolonial resistance#+ the policy problems this creates in post-colonial states with combatant reintegration. anyway interesting text so far
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sometimes when chronically ill/disabled/neurodivergent people say âI canât do this thingâ they really mean âI can technically do this thing I guess, but not without pretty significant repercussionsâ and I really need more fully-abled people to understand the validity of that
#almost forgot about internalized ableism for a second there#rants & reflections#chronic illness community#disability community#disabled community#chronic illness rant#undiagnosed chronic illness#autistic thoughts#audhd problems#adhd things#untreated adhd#pots#potsie#endometriosis#dysautonomia#heds#probably heds#probably eds#hypermobile eds#ehlers danlos syndrome#ehlers danlos#hypermobile spectrum disorder#physical disability#invisible disability#neurological disability#undiagnosed disability#chronic pain#chronic fatigue#adhd autistic#cptsd things
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(tw for extensive discussions of dubiously consensual sexual situations, typical to canon. also spoilers for the decay route update)
honestly, one of the most interesting aspects of andrew's psyche that we get to see in the most recent decay route update to me is his nearly unending hesitancy about having sex with ashley, despite both his overwhelming desire to AND her incredibly blasĂŠ, Yeah Sure Let's Do It attitude in response to the question.
while the end of the burial route provides some key insight into ashley's point of view regarding this topic (e.g. if you go with the less enthusiastic/more teasing answer to andrew's question of "we're not like that, right? right??"), and the shots & such ending provides even more intrigue into her motivations, i think that decay presents two key reasons as to why andrew has continued to hold back for so long: his two core conflicting desires, and an inability to see ashley as her own full person. notably, both of these parts can easily be connected to his mother's childhood abuse and parentification of him as well.
with regards to the first point: andrew has two main overwhelming desires at the heart of his character that motivate most of his actions, which unfortunately for him are completely incompatible. andrew wants:
to be a normal, average person-- someone who can hold a steady, respectable job, fit in at the block party BBQs, and not attract any negative attention from the neighbors.
to fuck his sister.
to some degree, you could even read the distinction between the two main routes themselves (burial and decay) to be motivated by whether or not andrew can diffuse the tension between these two wants-- in burial, he gives up on his need to fit in with the rest of respectable society, presumably pushing him more towards the fucking-his-sister route; in decay, he struggles significantly to let go of this desire for normalcy, and the stress almost always breaks him. notably, in neither of these routes can he fully give up on the second desire-- really, his relationship with julia and the rest of his life up til the point that ep1 begins has been about him trying and failing to do so, so this makes sense.
(sidenote: i would also like to clarify that i think the Most key distinction between these two routes comes down to the decision you actually have to make to get one or the other-- namely, whether or not the siblings are able to trust one another. but anyways)
this focus on the first desire for normalcy is also interesting in that it seems to be one of the core desires that renee holds as well, as we see her so happily boast about during their interactions in ep2. honestly i could probably write a whole post about how much andrew (consciously or, more often, not) mimics his mother's behavior and takes on her standards and ideals, but the key point to pay attention to here is the fact that andrew has subsumed his mother's viewpoint in such a way that he is either not fully aware of or simply hasn't questioned in all that much depth yet.
we can also see this with the aforementioned parentifiication, which has really interesting consequences on how much andrew does (not) see ashley as her own autonomous person. pretty much every single childhood flashback we get in 3a shows the same terrible cycle:
andrew is told by renee that ashley is His responsibility -> ashley causes problems on purpose -> andrew takes the fall for her
frankly, we don't even really need that first step for andrew to fully internalize the idea that ashley's actions are His to take responsibility for. the horrible consequences of this are also quite obvious: not only is this pressure to take responsibility for someone else's actions an incredibly unfair burden to put on anyone, much less a kid, but it also continually pushes andrew to see ashley as something less than human, or as little more than an extension of himself rather than her own person.
the main conflict in decay really comes down to this conflicting desire between the two of them, where what both andrew and ashley want above all else is Complete and Utter control over the other-- andrew wanting control because he has again been groomed to see ashley as his full responsibility, and ashley wanting control to assuage her own insecurities and fears about being isolated and hated forever. the more sympathetic throughline underlying a lot of this is that what both of them seem to want is safety, to protect both themselves and each other from any and all situations outside of their control-- though, unfortunately, a lot of times those exact external situations are simply the other acting on this mirrored desire for control lol.
anyways, going back to the sex thing-- since andrew doesn't see ashley as her own person, since he sees her as incapable of taking responsibility for her own actions and therefore as someone who cannot make decisions for herself, due in large part to him automatically transferring this burden to himself, andrew also sees ashley's consent as essentially meaningless.
the more sympathetic reading here is that andrew does genuinely want ashley to be at least kinda into it as more than a manipulation tactic/transactional thing-- but i think it's also equally likely that andrew simply doesn't want to have to once again shoulder the full burden of Committing Incest on his own, and he doesn't trust ashley to ever be even capable of taking the fall for her own actions. the fact that andrew still ultimately sees ashley as Leyley and NEVER as Ashley Proper (as he himself recognizes at one point) really just reinforces this to me. he says it himself-- he practically raised this woman. and in this case, even above all others, ashley's actions are quite literally also his own. it all goes back to that initial mistrust, and he carries that resentment with him even after they get around to actually doing it. mutually dubious consent, truly in-fucking-deed.
#tcoaal#astronaut rambles#the coffin of andy and leyley#coffincest#gravecest#writing this in a rush at 1/2 am cuz i have an early class tomorrow and need to go to bed aklsdjflasjk hope this is coherent#wanna write more about the shots and such ending too and esp ashley's behavior there#namely that whole line about how 'you had Good Sex one time when she was wasted'#'but she had a meltdown the next day and you've been chasing that high ever since'#cuz uh. HMM.#really her side to this is equally interesting to me#and especially what it says about how she's internalized her own view of gender roles#but aaa later later i really need to fucking sleep ;w;#GOD but i still canât believe they literally fucking said#andrew: âi donât wanna fuck you cuz iâd feel like iâm forcing you into it even if iâm not ://â#ashley: âOK iâll just be the one to force you into it instead đâ#incredible solution girl. problem solving queen
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@solangeloweek â reverse tropes (6/25)
(the sun burns out) (but) (the star will always be waiting)
Pushed out a small comic in a few hours to contribute!
Not sure if it fits the theme but the comic is basically a reverse on the 3 day in the infirmary trope. (unique to them ofc!)
Read right to left!!!
#solangelo fanart#solangelo#will my beloved#william andrew solace#will solace#nico di angelo#pjo#pjo hoo toa#pjo hoo toa tsats#tsats#pjo fanart#percy jackson and the olympians#solangelo week#heavily inspired by Veil (the manga)#lowkey think i can do a better Nico portrait but thats a problem for future me to solve#intern interview tmr pls pray for me :')
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hello all! after a long time and several trials and tribulations i've decided on making the high-res png of this piece free. you can get it here. grateful for any tips though <3
#i do not have the soul of a person who wants to deal with international shipping and customer support i have come to realize#have fun!#own art#whale fall#will add the ping list soon#if theres any problems feel free to message me on here
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It's crazy what he gets away with (and who the ones letting him get away with it are)
Bruce: What Nightwing did might have been... unconventional, but it worked.
Tim: Exactly. I mean, sure, the plan might have involved hacking into Gothamâs power grid, a few strategic distractions, and, uh, some minor illegal surveillance-
Barbara: MINOR? DISTRUBANCES??
Tim: Okay, fine! The plan also had a teensy bit of hacking into the stock market, manipulating a few politicians, and borrowing a couple confidential documents, but nobody was harmed!
Bruce: ...In the strictest sense.
Tim: Yes! See, it's a win-win solution!
Barbara: *furious* You two are insane. Youâre treating morally ambiguous like itâs a fun new hobby. He practically engineered an escape from a high-security prison by tricking the entire staff into thinking it was game night. In addition, he orchestrated a city-wide blackout just to steal classified documents, and youâre calling it genius?
Bruce: Very resourceful.
Tim: I mean... itâs not his fault they didnât know how to play Dungeons & Dragons. Also, I want to see who else could pull off a high-profile heist while simultaneously launching a PR campaign for a new tech startup!
Bruce: *to Tim* Wayne Enterprise's tech gadgets cleared the shelves, we need to speed up production.
Tim: Already on it.
Barbara: Youâre defending this? Thatâs not genius, thatâs a psychotic breakdown wrapped in a cape! It's madness layered up in a three-piece suit!
Bruce and Tim: Itâs Dick.
Barbara: I swear, if it was anyone else, youâd be throwing them in a cell for years.
Bruce and Tim: Itâs Nightwing. He has plausible deniability.
Barbara: Plausible? I think he has a whole separate universe of deniability!
#Thinking about the time when Bruce Tim and the whole world gaslighted themselves into believing murder was okay because Dick did it#yeah that's right I'm talking about The Joker and Blockbuster#they let him get away with murder!#Bruce and Tim are Dick's biggest enablers#the nightwing fan club is a secret cult and Bruce Tim and the Titans are the fighting for leadership positions#Wayne and Drake - Dick's Grayson's unpaid lawyers#Damian is an intern at the Dick Grayson defense squad informal law firm#he's following in his father and brother's steps#Nightwing is both the problem and the solution#lmao the tags are so long but i cant stop#Barbara and jason have headaches and drinks over what Tim and Bruce let Dick get away with#bruce would defend a heist if Dick did it#waittaminute it's liek that guy from White Collar - Neal Caffrey#wait wasn't neal caffrey around 17 or 18 when he started commiting heists. aND DICK BROKE AWAY FROM BRUCE AT THAT TIME#AND NEAL CAFFREY GOT CAUGHT WHILE CHASING A RED HEAD AND DICK LOVES RED HEADS AND THEY WERE BOTH IN NEW YORK CITY#AND THE SAME AGE AND THEY HAVE BLUE EYES AND BLACK HAIR AND THEYRE CHARMING#THIS IS WHY NEAL NEVER GOT CAUGHT BC BRUCE LITERALLY TURNED A BLIND EYE BC IT WAS DICK#IVE CONNECTED THE DOTS#dick grayson#nightwing#tim drake#red robin#bruce wayne#batman#barbara gordon#oracle#batgirl#incorrect batfamily quotes#incorrect quotes
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You know how people say they're their favorite character's defense attorney? Well I'm the state prosecutor trying to convict Gwen Bouchard. Of what? No one is sure. I'm up there making long winded statements to the jury about everything she's done. I'm calling up witnesses, I'm cross examining, I'm interviewing experts, trying to get to the bottom of what exactly her deal is. Despite no one knowing what the charges are I'm arguing to the judge for her to be sentenced to 1000 years in my mind prison where I will be poking and prodding and conducting experiments on her. The judge is close to holding me in contempt of court. I should probably be disbarred from being a blorbo attorney.
#don't get it twisted i love her#but in a way where i need to launch an international investigation to figure out what her fucking problem is#tmagp#gwen bouchard
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calling it right now that season 3 starts like this
#so confused about people saying the season finale feels like the end because to me it didn't at all#there's like 5-10 issues immediately set up for another season#they're in a happy place at this point because they've both realized their love is bigger than anything else#and makes it worth working on their problems together#the problems are still very much there#both of them have deep self esteem/self loathing issues that haven't been resolved in the week since ed woke up#ed doesn't know about stede's trauma#they haven't talked through anything#and they'll be shit at starting/running an inn lmao it's not gonna go well#and those are just some of the internal issues#then there's prince ricky and all the authorities that would very much like to get their hands on both blackbeard and stede bonnet#because stede just full-on kept using his government name after faking his death. nice one#the crew are not âgoneâ they're more like off to college for a bit but will probably run into trouble immediately#again because while they escaped to the ship they didn't eliminate the threat (the british empire)#it's not a forever goodbye#ok this got super long already anyway i have a whole fic marinading in my brain until i've finished these 4 wips i'm in the middle of âď¸#hope we get a renewal soon because i want to see the rest of their story!!#ofmd s2 spoilers#ofmd s2#ofmd#our flag means death
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it's not even half the percentage
#if i wasnt so held back- id have more than what i do rn and more unhinged at that#but hHHRGHH i have to be-- limited somehow (screaming internally bc its like being locked in a cage like LEMME OOOOOUT)#i am normal about things ( i am not )#me and my hoarding problem against the world#messyr#doodle#artists on tumblr#neurodiverse stuff#neurodivergent
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qimir/the stranger: before i train you in the ways of the Dark Side, you have to sign your internship contract. for insurance purposes
osha: it says you're not liable in the event of injury, death, dismemberment, or *squints* true love
qimir:
osha: it also says workplace relationships are not just allowed but Strongly Encouraged
qimir:
osha: finally it notes that while 401(k) matching is not offered, you CAN match my freak
qimir: osha: qimir: osha: qimir: it also says there's free bagels on tuesdays
#osha: i want to talk to HR about this#qimir: no problem *puts on swim cap with âHuman Resourcesâ scrawled across it in sharpie*#qimir: please step into my office#osha: you're pointing to the bathing pool#qimir: that is exactly the sort of astute observation i look for in an intern. you're gonna go far here kid#the acolyte#oshamir#qimir x osha
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dean's issue is commitment not sexuality. that's not to say that those things don't intersect bc they 100% do, BUT we are talking about dean, king of denying himself what he wants, winchester. this man knows he's attracted to other men and doesn't have much of a problem with that in itself. his issue is the fact that that attraction is fun to act on but can never lead anywhere. guys can fool around together but they can't settle down together type mentality. and that's not an issue for him bc he can't settle down with anyone anyway. he's a hunter and hunters don't do that so no need to think about it too hard. he knows he's into guys and he knows he'll never have one for more than one night and that's the end of it.
#and in terms of not having a problem and the commitment overlap there's obvi internalized issues there etc etc#but they don't prevent him from acting on it u know bc it's never going to go anywhere it doesn't matter#he just has fun and never speaks of it again and never has to think about it beyond that#so much more to say on this but i need to be packing#someone remind me at some point to come back to this... i am putting a pin in it don't let me forget !#k.text
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cissie + the people who feel some kinda way about her being arrowette + the fear of being pressured to fit a part youve outgrown
#drawing cissie in her actual arrowette costume causes me so much painâŚ. but the themes and such and the like. you get it#cissie king jones#anita fite#cassie sandsmark#young justice#young just us#yj98#arrowette#emperess#wonder girl#eye strain#<- i am not certain but just to be safe!!#fun fact this is about cissie worrying that people feel too strongly about her being arrowette but it is also about internalized homphobiađ#i love to give fictional characters my problems it is so FUN#soop art
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#girl blog#lana del rey#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#girl hysteria#girl interrupted syndrome#girl problems#girl rotting#girl thoughts#coquette#whisper girl#cinnamon girl#girlhood#girl interrupted#gossip girl#gaslight gatekeep girlblog#girl blog aesthetic#girl blogger#girlblog#girlblogger#girlblogging#hell is a teenage girl#im just a girl#just girly things#international women's day#womens day
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since Fiedra was last seen in Stilben it is not out of the question that she is the founder of the organized crime syndicates and thieves' guilds of Tal'Dorei that eventually became the Clasp which makes the fact that Crokas founded the Cobalt Soul very funny.
#also: crokas represents union of kord and ioun ie beauyasha. happy international women's day (for beauyasha not crokas)#(also for fiedra and HER spiritual heir re crossbow/gremlin energy/mom problems/cursed items: veth brenatto)#cr spoilers#cr tag
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hollywood could never top the casual but meaningful representation that horror fiction podcasts have
#EVERYONE IS GAY#AND ITS CANON TOO#they take the time to address the issues and the internal dialogue#of queer experience#but at the same time#it just is#it's casual#it understands how to present queer people as People#with problems that are both unique and non unique to their identity#and!!!!#there's so much intersectionality#muslim queer people#disabled queer people#you name it they have it#it just means so much to me#the magnus archives#the silt verses
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People pleaser but in the way that I shut up and canât say what I need to in fear of rejection.
#the only gift I ever got from my dad#I actually wanna scream every time this happens#internal warfare is what I like to call it#actually bpd#bpd#bpd culture is#bpd feels#bpd safe#bpd vent#bpd problems#bpd thoughts#cluster b
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